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Shenee' Woodson Testimony: God had Purpose for my Trials and Tribulations · Chyange of Life Testimonies Scars and Wounds

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Music.
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From Senator Saints, this podcast is the truth, you is or you ain't.
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Let's break down the facts, it's Minister Change, Minister Change.
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Greetings, greetings, greetings, wonderful people of God.
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It's your boy, Minister Change, the minister that meet people where they at
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and love on them like our Lord Jesus Christ does. I'd like to welcome my guest,
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Shanae Woodson, to the Change of Life Testimonies from Senator Saints.
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What's going on, sister? Tell me how you're feeling today.
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I'm feeling great. I will admit
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I was a little tired, but now that I am here, I am good and energized.
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So it's only going to take me but so long. Amen, amen.
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Good thing, good thing. It's always a blessing to be in the land of living,
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and God has allowed us to see another day.
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Hey, we're going to start this interview off what you're
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telling the people where are you from where was you born and
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raised well i was actually born and raised on
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the playgrounds born and raised
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in baltimore most people know baltimore but i was born in baltimore maryland
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and i currently reside in woodbridge virginia it hasn't been that long maybe
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a year a little over a year um that's my but yeah most of my life 43 years old
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yeah i've I've been in Baltimore for.
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Okay. Okay. Okay. Baltimore, Baltimore. Okay. Okay. Blessings, blessings, blessings.
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Sister Shanae Woodson, would you happen to have a favorite Bible scripture that
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you'd like to go to in a time of need?
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I know you probably got plenty, but just pull one out of there that you say,
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wait, hey, I'm feeling frustrated. I'm going to go to this one right here.
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Well, I always, always, Isaiah 54, I believe it's 17, no weapon formed against me shall prosper.
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Prosper that one right there regardless of what i'm
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going through i have to remember that even though the weapon
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may form it's not going to prosper so i always have
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to keep that scripture in the back of my mind so that's one of my favorite scriptures
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man amen amen amen that's that's that's a good one that's a good one sister
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hey sister i got another question for you you know last night i i felt a little
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lonely i thought about my mama you know with her passing and and i shed a few
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tears so sister i'd like to ask you when was the last time you cried.
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Last night, last night, nice little, little cry.
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It's moments where I, you know, I, I feel alone. I feel down and it's incident
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happened. That really made me think.
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And as I was thinking about so much stuff and it's, it just poured out.
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So I'm not mad about it and I'm not glad about it.
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I'm just glad, you know, just more that it had to happen, you know,
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to me crying and tears, anything involving that is just moment of just cleansing.
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So I think I needed that. Yes.
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Yes. Yes. And we're going to tell people, anybody listening,
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watching this interview, it's OK to cry. Men or women, crying cleanses the soul.
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And sometimes those tears can help you get stronger to move on and endure through
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the next thing that God has for you.
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A sister, if somebody if you had to describe your character to a total stranger,
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how would you describe yourself? still?
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A rollercoaster. Okay.
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I am all, I can be up, I can be down and I'm not, yeah, I would say just be,
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just be mindful. I'm a rollercoaster.
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That would be more my character. I don't have no specific thing.
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I'm pretty versatile and adaptable.
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So I would say, you know, more like it's a rollercoaster experience dealing with me.
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Okay. They have to be aware and I'm joking. enough. No, no, no,
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no, no. Look, look, look, look.
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You said, look, you said, you said I'm a wonderful person, but you got to handle
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me with care. You got to handle me with care now.
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You got a home. You got to understand. You got to, you can't just be picking
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me up on me. You know, I might crack on you. I understand.
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I understand, sister. Most definitely. Most definitely. Most definitely, sister.
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That is as transparent as I can get.
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That was good. Sister Shanae Woodson, if God was to return to this earth right
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now during this podcast, Do you think you'll be going to heaven or hell?
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I know I will be going to heaven. You know, some people, they base it on,
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you know, things that they're doing.
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But, you know, I know that God's grace is sufficient.
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I don't take advantage of it, though. Yeah. But I do know I will go to heaven
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because, you know, I accept him as my Lord and Savior. And I know I cannot live this life without him.
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Even when I do have a moment, you know, we all fall. We all get tempted.
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But, you know, my whole thing is, as long as you know that you know that you
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know where your help comes from, And you know that you believe in him as he
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stated, that is the way to be saved. But yeah, I know I will.
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Amen. Amen. You got that confidence. Hey, that's good, sister. That's good.
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Hey, sister, what is one of the best childhood memories that you can remember
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that you were just so happy?
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Whether it was a Christmas, it could be plenty. Whenever it was a Christmas
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day when you got that little bike you wanted or you got that little favorite toy you wanted.
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But what is one moment that you said, look, I'm just happy as a child? memory? Yes.
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Usually, I know everything about my childhood. There's so many I can think of.
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I will say one time, and I'm not being super spiritual, but it was a time where
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I was the youth leader at the church one time, and I remember praying.
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They had me pray for somebody, and when we were done, she actually came to me
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and said she really felt the Spirit. So I felt good, you know?
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I prayed for somebody, and they felt the Spirit.
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So that's something that stands out. And as far as my family is concerned,
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just all the memories of us, my parents were very heavy into the community.
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They still are. And a lot of times, you know, Christmas holidays.
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You know, church events and stuff, we would have a lot of events in our basement.
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So the house would be packed, like, with people.
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My father and mother would cook and everybody. So those stuff like that, I still remember.
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And, you know, still trying to hopefully my family getting back to those type
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of things. But, yeah, I love those moments when we could open our home and just
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have, you know, everybody come over and just have a good time. Yeah. Amen.
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Amen. Ain't nothing like that. That's a good time.
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Those are those those memories that will stick with you forever and ever in life.
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Man, that's good. That's good. Hey, sister, this is the testimony moment.
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This is when you share with the with the people, whether it was a sexual,
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a mental, a physical, a life event that that that just broke you down.
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And you had, and you overcome it, or you might be still dealing with it,
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but I want you to give the people some hope right now.
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And just, just share your testimony. I know there could be many.
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But this is for you. This is your testimony moment.
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So this is where you decide to give the people a testimony and how you overcame it.
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And just let the will of the Lord be with you. And as you share your experience.
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How long do we have? I'm just curious. I can keep my eye on the clock.
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Well, you just, just, just go ahead, sister. Don't we'll let the Lord flow.
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Just, just, just start with one. It's so much. And I was actually talking to
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somebody not too long ago and in another interview.
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And one thing I was telling them was, you know, God had to bring me back to
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a remembrance when I was sitting at the piano with my pastor's wife at the time.
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14 years old, very young.
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And one thing she told me is you're going to go through literally everything
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that a woman goes through, because it's going to be a moment in your life where
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all those things that you're going to go through is going to help somebody else.
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You know, that young, I didn't know what she was talking about,
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but can I tell you, I have literally been through everything you're talking
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about from being divorced, Not once, but twice.
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I had issues with, you know, sexual sins, homeless, you know,
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just a party and promiscuity and just so much.
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And I just know that, you know, it's just, you know, just the grace of God that
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I'm able to be bold enough to share that because it was one point,
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you know, I wasn't able to or felt a little bit.
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I would say it wasn't not good enough, but ashamed more to say that,
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because if you heard me earlier, my parents, they were ministers,
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you know, and growing up in a Christian home, there were a lot of things we wasn't allowed to do.
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So that moment when my mother said, OK, you need to get out,
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something happened and she told me I had to leave.
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And in that moment i just wild out because i
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i truly feel and i told someone else this that you
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know when god said be neither you know hot or cold you don't want to be lukewarm
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because i was obedient and i said okay you said don't be hot or cold i'm about
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to live i'm about to live i got him off the old bay okay and i would just spit
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me out my mouth okay Exactly.
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I end up just, you know, just doing a lot of things I didn't think I was going
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to do. And, you know, I end up getting raped at one point, had some other issues that went on.
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Even stuff that was in my childhood started taking more fruition in my adulthood
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that I thought I had, you know, let go.
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And, you know, just didn't want to deal with being molested, et cetera.
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Found myself married at a young age, ended up committing adultery,
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you know. And then the next thing I know, yeah, I'm human.
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We stayed together for a while. I thought we were going to work out.
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But things transpired. We just said one day he couldn't take it anymore.
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And that was it. The next thing I know, I said, okay, let's see what happens again.
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I ended up having my daughter. And that's when some things really began to really take a toll on me.
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Not saying it's her, but just dealing with her dad, who I was not married to.
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And, you know, even the experience of having her, I had her at 28 weeks,
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which was, it's very early.
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She was only two pounds. And during that time when I had her,
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that was like really heavy into partying and just having a good old time.
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So I honestly think having my daughter slowed me down because I actually was
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scared when they told me I was pregnant because I didn't know I was pregnant.
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And I said, oh, my goodness, all this time I've been drinking,
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I've been having a good old time. I hope I'm not wrong about that.
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You're like, I didn't even know.
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I didn't know. So when they told me everything was fine, it was a sigh of relief.
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And I said, okay, well, let me get myself together. I'm about to be a mother.
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So that slowed me down a little bit.
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You know, and I kind of, you know, I slowed down. I just put it like that.
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And I'm very thankful for her birth, even though when I had her,
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she had a lot of issues because she was preemie.
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She almost died. I almost died. Thank God he used the doctor that we had at
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the time to, you know, help us, you know, oh my God, we called it one too many times, both of us.
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I mean, she was in the hospital for a while, but she's 13 years old now and have mercy on me.
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But yes, very smart. Yes.
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Skip the grade. Yeah, she's, she's a very, very, I'm so proud of her,
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but very unique child. child.
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So I'm very thankful for that. But, you know, there's another part to this because
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there was, I still had issues, you know, dealing with, you know,
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when it comes to relationships because of issues with my dad,
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you know, who passed away back in 2013.
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But thankfully I was able to have that conversation with him,
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my biological father before he passed away. And we had a nice conversation.
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You know, he, he said he, you know, he asked for forgiveness and I did.
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And he, he, For the first few, I would say, two years of my daughter's life,
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he was a very good grandfather.
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I think he felt that was a moment for him to kind of redeem himself for not
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being in my life. I was raised by my stepfather and my mother. Okay.
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But in that moment when, and I'm going to bring this up because he was,
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you know, being with him and on that side, most of them are Jehovah's Witness.
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So when he passed away, you know, they don't really believe in certain things
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that we do. So, but it's all respect. I love my family.
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Yeah, most definitely. after the service was over, they actually ended the service
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and said, now we'll have his daughter say something.
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And I felt like, you know, I have to say something, even though,
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you know, we haven't been.
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Yeah. The bond wasn't 100% there, but yes. Yeah.
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I got up and I said something, do you know, when I got done so many people,
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I don't care what their background was, came to me and say, wow, you really minister.
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You really minister. And I didn't even realize it because I would just was pouring
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my heart out. And one thing I've talked about was the power of forgiveness.
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That was the main thing I talked about. So, you know, I really,
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I was honest. I said, don't remember everything, but I remember just saying,
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you know, you know, nobody's perfect, you know, and before he left,
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I'm glad I had a chance for us, you know, to have a conversation.
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I forgave him and, you know, and I feel at peace and I'm sure he was at peace
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too, to know that his daughter forgave him and people were crying and everything. things.
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So even in that situation, I was like, God, you really used me because I could
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have been scared and said, oh, nevermind, you know, because they don't believe,
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they're similar, but different.
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But, you know, that showed me some boldness during that time.
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So since then, you know, anytime I speak, I'm very mindful who's in the room.
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However, I think it really showed me that regardless, all of us,
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no matter who we are or our background, we all go through some of the some of the things.
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Forgiveness is forgiveness, no matter who you are.
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It just is. And that really taught me that.
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So later on, things, of course, during that time, I was already married to my second husband.
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And honestly, and he don't mind I say this, we don't even really talk anymore anyway.
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But I just think that marriage, it was a lot going on behind the scenes.
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And I just felt that, you know, we just business, business wise, I think we're okay.
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But as far as the marriage is concerned, but it was a lot of things that I still
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did not, you know, heal from, from my daughter's father or my first year.
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So it came into that. And I think the same was with him, but I can't speak for
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him. I'm only speaking for myself.
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Yes. So when that marriage ended, you know, it really took a toll on me because,
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you know, at that time, you know, I had my, I had my own magazine, his favorite magazine.
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By then I had already interviewed some celebrities, you know,
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Yeah. Yeah. Joyce Meyer, Michael B. Jordan.
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If you look at it, if you Google it, I look.
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Yeah, I look. Yeah, I look at it. I really done a lot. So, you know,
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the next thing I know, I go to the doctors.
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I'm having I always had migraines all the time, but I just thought,
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oh, I'm distressed. Me let lie down.
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So I finally went to the eye doctor because I needed my eyes checked and my
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vision was getting more blurry than usual. It's come to find out I had,
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they sent me to the neurologist, come to find out I have a rare brain disorder.
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I'm not claiming it, but they diagnosed me with a rare brain disorder called
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idiopathic intracranial hypertension.
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And when I found that, I was like, oh my goodness, what is this?
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Like, you know, I was about to say, don't ask me to spell it.
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I'm like, why does everything, and I got not angry, but I was questioning like,
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God, why everything I go through, it has to be like so over the top.
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I can't just have a normal, you know, life.
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Every experience has to be like two times more than what, you know,
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it's supposed to be. When I got pregnant, I went through so much.
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My marriages, I went through so much. Like everything I encountered that people,
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you know, want to embrace, something happened.
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So here in the midst of me having this, you know, this magazine and stuff,
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now I'm being diagnosed with H, which is the acronym for it.
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Then out the blue, I go to my other doctor, kind of find out I have polycystic ovarian cancer.
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Ovarian syndrome. Oh, I rebuked that cancer.
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Syndrome, which is PCUS, which is a lot more common now. More people know about that.
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Okay. But I was like, here it is. You know, now I have this brain disorder and
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I have this going on. Like, yeah.
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And then trying to work. I'm a, you know, I had, I'm an entrepreneur,
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but also, you know, work for Uncle Sam is what I'm a professional.
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Yes, we do. Look, we still have to.
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We still have to. Some of us still have to. Some of us still want to.
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I love my, I actually love being a professional development trainer. I love it.
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So being, doing that. So next thing I know, I'm taking off more and it's really
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affecting just everything.
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So I had to end up giving up my magazine and the ministry and taking off days
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at work because sometimes I would not even feel like getting off the bed change at all.
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Couldn't move. There were moments where, you know, I would get up and the room
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would just be spinning and I would just have to sit there or I couldn't see
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for like 15, 20 seconds at a time.
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Because what IH does is it can cause blindness if you're not careful,
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because it's fluid that's on your optic nerve and it's pressure.
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So while it's on your optic nerve, it's part of your eyes, you know,
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if there's too much fluid, it can cause, you know, eventually over time, you to become blind.
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That's why most of the time you don't see me wearing glasses. Okay.
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Just to make sure I can see, but I'm laughing about it, but you know, it is serious.
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And I'm joining some support groups and everything and finding out some other
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things that can go wrong.
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Like now, I'll be honest with you. I'm going to tell you right now,
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like my neck is kind of even hurting right now, but I'm not thinking about it.
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And my arm is a little numb. So that can happen too.
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So it's a lot plus, you know, with PCOS and then, you know, over time,
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you know, And I felt, okay, I'm going to be an advocate for it.
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And I'm going to go wholeheartedly and really push it and help people to know
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what exactly it is. Join other people who have these ailments.
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And my life literally last year, like I said, was so much going on in my personal
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life, relationship that I don't even want to talk about.
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And then, you know, just a move that I made is just so much.
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And then one day I sat there and I felt myself going to the hospital and then
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being admitted to a mental institution just so much.
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And they literally took me six hours away from my daughter, which I was heated about that.
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But even in that, and I want to tell people, I don't care what you go through,
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regardless, your light is going to shine. I don't care where you are.
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It may seem like a tragic moment it may be in an area where you're like how
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did I get here but in some kind of way God is going to allow you to minister
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to somebody or just you know just let your light shine be a little different
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and let people know something about you,
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is different like even back then I was thinking about you know when I would
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be out you know you're not supposed to be out here you know go home you know.
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I never smoked but I remember one time I wanted to try And the person's like,
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girl, please, that's not even you.
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And I was like, what? I want to try it. And they're like, that's not you.
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But in that moment, even in the mental hospital, because first when I went there,
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of course, I think about all the stuff you see on TV when it comes to,
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you know. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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And the TV don't do no justice. Yes, at all. But when I got there,
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I mean, the people were pleasant.
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You know, they stripped me of everything, couldn't do anything.
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But I remember this and I always bring this up whenever I talk to people.
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I remember we were sitting in group therapy and one of the questions was, who inspired you?
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Now, during that time, I was, you know, a little medicated. So I wasn't really
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honestly, I really wasn't paying attention.
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I was kind of like not spaced out, but I was just like, OK, well, this is going to be over.
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And one of the gentlemen who was very young, a lot younger than myself,
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he said she inspires me, the person next to me.
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And so the therapist said um she said.
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How do you feel about that shanae she said how do you feel
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about that he's saying that you inspire him i said me
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he's talking about me like i said i wasn't really paying attention he's talking about
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me he said yes and it really hit
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me like oh my gosh here it is we're in a mental facility wow and i'm just being
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myself you know over time over a few days i'm like i'm just gonna you know make
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the most of it and just be myself and i ended up you know really connecting
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to a lot of the people and talking to them.
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And I didn't even realize how much impact just being in a place like that,
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you know, God was able to use me and I'm just being Sinead, you know,
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I didn't do nothing different, nothing over the top.
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I wasn't home. I'm not supposed to be here. Hear me where I'm Christian.
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I didn't do all that. I was just like, just showing the love of God in that moment.
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And one thing he, when we left out, I was like, Like, oh, wow, you chose me.
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And he said, I just love you. You just have a light about you.
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Now, mind you, the significant part of this is this young man actually was there
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because he has issues with.
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A lot of demonic things. So of course they were saying he was,
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you know, schizophrenic and everything, but I knew it was.
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And he also stated that, you know, he's the son of Satan and he was telling me all these things.
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I just let him talk, you know, and in that moment, but I think because like,
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you know, not judging or not condemning him or say anything and just,
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again, just showing that love of God, I will come and good morning.
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How's everybody doing? good.
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You'll see you was meeting him where he was at. See, God, God puts you for,
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put you there for a reason.
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You was meeting him exactly where he, where he's at. Like our Lord Jesus Christ does.
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And it really taught me something. So, you know, and it wasn't just him.
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Like when I, and then when I got discharged, like four of them came to me, one was crying.
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The other one gave me a hug. He said, I'm really going to miss you.
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The nurses were saying, don't you come back here. You don't belong here.
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But it was one nurse in particular.
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She said, I've really been watching you the past, you know, few days,
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I think she was on a night shift nurses and she knows she didn't button every
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day, but she said the times I was here, she's like, that girl's special.
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She said, you don't, she said you were here for a reason, but don't come back.
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I said, you don't have to worry. I'm not coming back. She said,
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she said, what do you do for a living?
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I said, well, I'm a professional development trainer, but in the past,
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you know, I have worked in, you know, as a nurse in tech,
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um, I've worked in the hospitals and I was just, you know, we
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had a a nice conversation she said yeah there's something about you she said how
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you just was dealing with everybody she said i've never seen you she said and
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you being a patient on top of that she's some of the nurses aren't able to do
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some of the things that you was able to do like have somebody like one person
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i end up calming her down somebody else they had a hard time getting her that
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i went in braided her hair for her little two little french braid man,
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So, again, I just tell anybody, I don't care where you are, your light can still
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shine. Your light can still shine.
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And we know that whenever there's darkness, as soon as light comes in, it's gone.
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So that was a huge lesson for me because, like I said, I felt bad at first.
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Like, oh, my gosh, I'm Sinead.
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I'm not supposed to be here. I'm not this magazine.
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I'm it. I should not be here, but again, depression is real.
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I was diagnosed as a manic depressant. Again, something else I'm not going to claim.
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They also stated of me being bipolar and all those things.
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I take it as if they say, oh, God's going to heal you.
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I also take it as if, and I shared this before, not with you,
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but on another occasion.
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And I said, you know, I think about the the man who was blind and,
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you know, Jesus said he was born for such a time as this.
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Amen. He was born for such a time as this to give God glory.
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And I think about that, that gives me, you know, not saying,
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oh, no, God, don't him because I'm going to give you glory and all this.
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But no, it's more like, you know, just being more accepting of where I am now.
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Now still hoping still praying and knowing that
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god's my healer but at the same time not using it as a crutch
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but boy it's like no i'm using this to give that god glory to
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let you know i have all these things going on and yes i have my moments when
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i don't i don't feel like it i might go off those things like that but i go
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right back because in all this i still know who's my help i still who know who's
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my creator i still know you know in the back of mind who's still taking care of me and, you know,
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and sharing this to other people, like, you know, regardless of what you're going through.
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There's still there's still God. We cannot do this life at all without Christ.
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We just can't. I don't even try.
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I agree. We can't. And one thing that, you know, people always think because,
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you know, they're saved.
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Oh, now that I'm saved, nothing will happen. No, it's just that you're saved from not going to hell.
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And sometimes it gets worse for Christians. Yeah, it can get worse.
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Yeah. There are Christians getting killed. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah,
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because sometimes demons sometimes demons ambush us hard, harder because because
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he's trying to take our soul because he know that we are believers.
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You know what I mean? Yes, most definitely.
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So we need Christ. And I think that's the whole thing. I think more people need
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to understand, like, you know, you're going to fall.
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You're going to make mistakes because, you know, he knew that he already knew that he knows us.
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And, you know, that's why he said, you know, like I said earlier,
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his grace is sufficient. He's given us grace. He's given us mercy.
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For a reason, because I know they're going to be a little hard headed at times.
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But in the meantime, I know you need me.
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You're still going to need me. So don't think you can do this life without him.
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So that's one big thing I have learned through everything I've gone through.
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You know, not to be ashamed to think, OK, because when I came out the womb automatically,
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you know, I was in a Christian home and blah, blah. You know,
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there was things I should not have done.
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And at 43 years old, you know, I'm finally understanding it's OK.
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It's OK to share that I'm not perfect.
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Because I still serve a perfect God. And in my imperfection, he makes me perfect.
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So that's just me in a nutshell. Like I said, I'm still going through some things.
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God is still working on me. But in the process of it all, I can honestly say
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that I'm not nowhere near where I used to be. There are moments I still have.
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There's sometimes I still have flashbacks about stuff and I might react.
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At, but all in all, I really have to give him glory because again, he has been with me.
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24 7 even in my lowest point
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being homeless and you know just doing things i
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know i should not have been doing it's like the weird thing
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is like i knew it like i know that i shouldn't be doing this but you know oh
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wow yeah we're human and the flesh sometimes when god giving us that free will
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it's it's free will is good but man that's free will theme ball right there
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man it could be be something else.
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But like I tell people, the thing about life is God already has a blueprint for our purpose.
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And during our life that we are traveling down this highway and down this road,
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there's going to be periods in our life that we're going to pull over to a rest area.
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Now, the rest area, when we get in the rest area, it's not for us to get comfortable.
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It's for us to understand that while we are there and gather our thoughts.
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So when we get back on that highway and traveling down the purpose that the
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Lord has for us, that we'll be stronger. I don't any everything that happened
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in life was already in our blueprint.
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God already had that in our blueprint. This day for me and you to have this
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interview was already in the blueprint.
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Man, you had no idea that we was going to be doing this change of life testimony.
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Sinead, what the who? We had no idea.
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But see, God already had this plan in our blueprint. So to me,
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the ups and downs in life is just to make you stronger.
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I smoke weed. I used to drink. drink.
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There's a lot of stuff I've done. I'm not proud of it, but I'm most definitely
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proud of that I accept the Lord Jesus Christ and that I was able to survive
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and come out of it. That's the thing.
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Whatever you do in life, don't beat yourself up. Just say, hey,
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God put me at a rest area stop, and that was good. Maybe I need to pull over to the rest area.
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Maybe I was getting tired. Maybe I need to gas up. Maybe I need to fill the
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car. Maybe the highway could have been a tragic.
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Maybe that highway I was on, it was going to run me to a bridge,
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and I couldn't even see it, and my life would have been gone.
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So I see everything. Yeah, I love it. And I, you know, even,
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you know, back in, you know, the Bible, the people that we read about,
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you know, all of them, except for Jesus, they had issues and they were still used.
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And, you know, we still go by some of the examples and, you know,
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they had moments where they fell, even if it was something small,
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they just, they were not perfect, but they were still chosen.
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Chosen still chosen to be leaders i mean and
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have huge triumphs that we talk about even now to this
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day so it's just something to
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really just thank god for like you know we all could be in hell right now but
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he was like nah nah nah yeah yeah yeah and and if anybody tell us that they
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was perfect and they ain't never lived and um i'm telling you right now you're
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lying you're already Yeah.
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And the truth ain't in you. As my grandma just said, you're lying and the truth ain't in you.
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Yeah, most definitely. You're saying it right now. You're lying. Yes, yes, yes.
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Sister Sinead Woodson, now, you know, and as you have been through some trials
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and tribulations and you understand who God is, what is the best thing about
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being a believer in our Lord Jesus Christ when you are going through your trials and tribulations?
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To know, to feel, just feel in the presence.
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Like you don't get, you won't get that when you don't know him.
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I mean, you might, you know, but it's different.
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You know, you can, you know, turn on some worship and just have a moment.
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You can open your Bible and, and, you know, know that the answer is going to be in there.
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God can use somebody to speak through it. You know, sometimes I get a phone
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call out the blue. Sinead just checking on you.
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Thank you for checking on me because this is what happened, you know? Yeah.
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And even in those moments, it's like, God just, you know, he's used,
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he's used every means to let you know, he's still there.
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Even when you feel like you're alone, there are moments where I'm like,
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oh my gosh, God is nowhere near.
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He can't hear me. And something simple will happen.
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I'm here. I'm here. I'm right here.
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Even sometimes like my daughter will come out, out the blue and you know,
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at a certain age, they don't want to be yeah.
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And sometimes I'll be sitting on the couch. She'll come out the blue,
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out her room and just hug me. I'm like, okay, God. All right.
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Or she'll say, mommy, I just love you. And then she'll walk away. I'm like, okay.
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It's like just little simple things. And that's what I'm really just loving
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now about just everything, my whole experience and just who God really is and all this.
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Regardless, he's going to show himself in just the little things even that that
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we're not even thinking about. That's how much he loves us.
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We always look up these grand gestures.
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I want to know God loves me. I need to see the sunshine. And it's not even that.
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Sometimes it's the subtle things and you just sit back like,
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ooh, I feel your presence. It's so sweet.
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It's so refreshing.
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That's what I love about him. Yeah, as they say, God is good all the time.
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Even when we think he ain't good, God is good all the time. Sister Shanae Woodson,
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I want you to finish this sentence for me. God has always.
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Had my back. Had your back. And that's good.
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I know there's plenty of times, but give me one time it could have been a situation
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where you could have lost your life or anything where you knew you like,
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wait a minute, that I know that was God.
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I know God been there, but this right here, I got to say from that, I know it was God.
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Just give me one little quick. Yeah. It's weird you just said that because it
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made all of a sudden I thought about something when I was always in the car
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accident and I was driving myself, new driver.
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I would say new, barely new. I'd never drove. We had a really bad storm one time in Baltimore.
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My car literally hydroplaned and saw myself hit in the building.
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It literally slid. I had a little teeny Honda. It was a Honda Civic back then. Honda, whatever.
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Honda. Little Honda. And the car slid.
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I was on my way to work, young, about 20, in my 20s, I think.
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And the car slid and almost hit this brick building because the water caught it.
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So it was pushing the car. Yeah, hydroplane kind of.
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The car literally turned around and hit the passenger side.
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And I sat there and I said... Wow, that was the truth of a God.
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Tears just fell down my face because like I said, before I closed my eyes, I said, okay, I'm God.
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Before I knew that I was going to hit that building, it that brick
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built wow because i didn't you know i was trying to do
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the steering wheel and everything he's like whatever i
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can do yeah i was because i was an experienced driver anyway
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so i was still kind of figuring out i was like okay i'm turning
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there's nothing happening but literally the car literally slipped wow i mean
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it was total but i was safe i'm still alive i'm 43 because i'm 43 years old
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probably wouldn't have made it but i'm very that's one incident that always
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sticks out in my mind. I'm like, what was that?
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You know, what was that? I know that is a God. Yeah. Yeah.
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I see. And that's the thing. Like I tell people that that was those intercessory
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prayers that were still protecting you.
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That was God because them angels, that was nothing but God and angels that was protecting you.
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And like I tell people, when you got a praying mama, a praying grandma,
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or you got a praying auntie or praying family members, a praying uncle,
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or praying grandfather.
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Them intercessory prayers, they do intercede when evil is coming towards you
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sometimes in life, most definitely.
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Sister Shanae Woodson, what do you think about accountability?
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You know, as we go through life, you know, some things happen,
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we want to point fingers or we might not want to point fingers,
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but how important you think accountability, accountability?
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I think it's very important, but I also think,
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I'm not shocked when some people feel that they don't have to be accountable.
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It's almost hurtful to know that because you do have that feel that,
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you know, I only have to answer to God.
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Yes, we do. Okay. Only God can judge me. I can do what I want.
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But we have to be accountable for our actions, how we treat other people,
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our response, you know, and even just being accountable for ourselves because
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everybody's actions and how they respond isn't.
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Always what we feel should happen.
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So accountability is very huge for any, and I'm even talking about relationship.
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I don't care if it's mother, father, sister, brother, significant other,
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whatever it may be, even in that area, any relationship, there has to be some
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type of accountability.
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Somebody has to say, hey, I'm taking account for what I've done,
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whether a person feels some type of way, because I've had people say,
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I can't help how you feel, but did you do
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something for me to feel that way did you do
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something but did you do something for me to react
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in a certain way yeah it's it's still on
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me on how i react but you know there needs to be some accountability because
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some people when they do things you know it's almost like i know the reaction
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i guess so why are you doing it so you know it's almost like you need to hold
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yourself accountable because now exactly yeah if this person's reacting this
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way and you already knew reaction, then why would you do it personally?
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So accountability is, is, is big.
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Um, and like I said, it's just sad that I think we live in a time where,
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you know, a lot of people, you know, feel that, you know, because you're human,
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I'm human. I don't have to be accountable. No, you do. Yeah.
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Yes. We have, you know, we, we know that, you know, we answered to God,
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but you know, we, no relationship can survive without accountability.
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Amen. Amen. That's good, That's good, sister. That's good. Sister Sinead,
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what's a, what's a powerful, a powerful word of encouragement you can give to
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anybody right now that's dealing with mental or physical or stress or financial?
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What's a word of encouragement you can give them to let them know that this too shall come to pass?
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One you have to know who you are in
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christ okay no matter what
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happens you still have to know who you are christ like
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i said earlier if you have a fall if you have issues in your finances know who
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you are in christ because once you know who you are in christ that relationship
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yeah you'll know he's a healer you'll know he's a provider you'll know he's
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shelter and everything else that he is he says i am so when he feels in that
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spot where it says i am you know once you know who you are and him and,
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you know, you'll feel like, you know what, I'm having issues with my finances, but he's a provider.
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You know, I'm having issues right now. You know, I'm homeless,
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but he's my shelter. He's my peace.
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So that's one thing, you know, it's so much stuff I could share.
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But that's one thing, you know,
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we, we just have to be more confident in knowing who we are in Christ.
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And a lot of times that's hard because, you know, due to our upbringing or sometimes
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when people say to us, it may affect how we feel inside, but,
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you know, he always says greater greater is he.
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Yes. Greater is greater. You know, we have to remember that.
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So even when people speak over you, that's negative or saying things that have
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you thinking, well, maybe I'm not all that me. And I dealt with that.
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Still kind of deal with that sometimes, you know, and I might look in the mirror
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and say, ah, Sinead, look at you.
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And then I, then I have to say, no, you are beautiful and fearfully wonderful to me.
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You know? Oh, yes I am. And it's not just the outward.
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So again, I just say, you know, anybody out there, just know who you are in
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Christ. And if you don't know, it's in the Bible.
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He flat out tells you, he said, you're an air and joint air,
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you're above and not beneath.
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And just be mindful of who is speaking to you, who is speaking words over you and don't accept it.
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I used to, I still do sometimes, I still work in progress, but we just have
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to be mindful of the things that we accept about ourselves.
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Because if we hear it, hear it and people say
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oh words don't hurt yes they do yeah they do words can
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hurt because if you didn't you know we wouldn't be
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it wouldn't say you know to be mindful what you say exactly i
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agree i agree you know even that words don't hurt sticks and songs may break
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my bones but names names will hurt you too yes they will just know who you are
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in christ and don't let nobody to you know steer you any other way because if
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that happens then you know then the mental issues,
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you know, will come even more, even if they come, you know, you can get out of it.
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And one thing I want to say too, in regards to that, because I've been through
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it, find out what works for you.
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We have so many people now that are being, you know, that are coaches,
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you know, doing so many things right now and giving this tip to this and,
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you know, five steps to that.
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Find out what worked for you.
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Okay. Everything is for everybody. There were moments where I would try something
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that somebody else did and I would still feel some type of way or I would still
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be in the same path or I would still go backwards like that.
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What they didn't did that. That wasn't my cup of tea.
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I didn't like it. It didn't work. It didn't work wrong, but find the,
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find what works for you. And if you don't know, ask God, he'll show you.
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He'll show you when you're sincere and come to him and say, Lord,
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I want to, I want to, you know, this issue is what I'm having,
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or I'm dealing with this.
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Okay. Let's see what's going to work for you. I talked to Sinead.
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I talked to change and you know what they said. It was okay.
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You know, what's going to work for me? What, what do you, What do you have me to do?
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And those two things are there, I think, especially when it comes to your mental
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health, your emotional health, spiritual.
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You know, find out what God has for you to do when it comes to those areas.
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Amen. Amen, sister. That's good. That's good. Now, sister, this is where we're
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going to talk about your gifts. Tell the people about you. I know you've got a podcast.
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Tell a little bit of people about you, about how they can get to your show and
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your email, your contact info. If somebody wanted to contact me,
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you know, just give them, give them some good stuff.
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So they want to contact you. I make everything easy.
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Everything is under Sinead shares. My website is www. What is it?
40:33
Www.sinead shares all social media right now. I'm just doing Facebook and Instagram.
40:38
I have a tick tock, but I had a publicist. I was working a bit.
40:41
It was actually a shares, but everything is Sinead shares.
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On all platforms. My email address is shanatesharesllc at gmail.com.
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Okay. Well, I mean, that's simple. Look, you made it real, real simple.
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If they can't find you, then you ain't looking.
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Hey sister, this has been a real pleasurable interview.
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I know this interview is going to reach some people. I know some people that was hurting.
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And when they listened to your testimony, I feel from this interview,
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I could feel it down in my heart.
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That's going to really help some people survive and help some people move forward.
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You know what I mean? Like you said, everything don't work, but there's bits
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and pieces that you could take out of everybody's life and you can channel them
41:19
towards making you better.
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So sister, I just want to tell you, I appreciate you. I'm going to pray us out
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or do you want to pray us out? You can go ahead. I want to hear the minister.
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You sure? You sure? Yes, sir. Okay. Okay. Well, I want you to bow your head as I pray us out of here.
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Father God, once again, we thank you for allowing us to be in the land of the living God.
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We know that everything in our life ain't going the way that we want it to be.
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But God, we know that in the end, you are the author of our story,
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God. We know that you know our purpose, God.
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You knew all the trials and tribulations we were going to be facing in our mother's womb, God.
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But now we are here on this earth, Jesus. We accept you as our Lord and Jesus,
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our Savior, our everything, God.
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We just hope that you keep just giving us the strength to move forward on the
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days that we don't want to get get out of bed.
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The days that we want to give up, God, we just pray that you just keep on having
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your heavenly arms around us and picking us up through all our trials and tribulations.
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We trust you and your mighty, mighty name, Lord Jesus Christ. Amen, amen, amen.
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All right, Sister Will, it's been an interview. Blessings, and I look forward to coming on your show.
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Of course, of course. You know what to do. Just book it, book it.
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All righty. Blessings.
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Music.