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What If God Answers Your Prayer? | EP173 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl Jessica S. Smith, and you already
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  Speaker 1: know that you've.
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  Speaker 2: Entered the safe space for influencers to decompress, have fun,
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  Speaker 2: and just ask.
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  Speaker 1: If you already know what it is, then you know
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  Speaker 1: it's about to get real. So be sure to show
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  Speaker 1: your girls some love and like, comment, and subscribe.
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  Speaker 3: I know we could be another way. It's a new
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  Speaker 3: week at Just Ask the Podcast, the safe space where
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  Speaker 3: transparency meets transformation. I'm your girl, Jessica S. Smith, and
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  Speaker 3: I do nothing without my girl, Desiree. Hey.
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  Speaker 1: Desiree. Hey. Desiree, Desiree, Desiree, Desiree, Desiree. The technology. Because
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  Speaker 1: you have the second screen up. That ain't what it is. Yes,
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  Speaker 1: it is. I've been learning. Have you? Yeah, so click
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  Speaker 1: on it and then press the... Hold on. Oh, my gosh. Y'all,
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  Speaker 1: I can't see. Go. Hey, y'all. And listen, this is
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  Speaker 1: just what it is, okay? Okay, do I need to
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  Speaker 1: do your theme song again?
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  Speaker 3: You don't have to do it again, but hey, I'm
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  Speaker 3: excited to be here. So guess what, Jessica?
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  Speaker 1: So Jessica said, I'm learning. You don't know why she's learning? Because...
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  Speaker 1: You want to tell them? I'll just tell them. Okay.
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  Speaker 1: Jessica is the studio manager of BGTV, so.
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  Speaker 1: So she's trying to get me to give her, okay? Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: because I'm a manager.
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  Speaker 3: Oh, okay. All right, all right, all right.
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  Speaker 1: Because, you know, Desiree did not want to allow me
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  Speaker 1: to learn. That's not true. Desiree, please stop lying to
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  Speaker 1: these people. Don't tell the people.
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  Speaker 3: Don't be storytelling to the people. I'm not telling no
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  Speaker 3: story to the people. I'm telling you. Anytime I try
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  Speaker 3: to say, okay, Desiree, what a light set. How do
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  Speaker 3: I turn the lights on? The lights aren't just up there, ma'am.
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  Speaker 3: The lights aren't just up in the sky. We have
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  Speaker 3: floor lights. We have standing lights.
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  Speaker 1: We have up lights. We have down lights.
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  Speaker 3: She has come in here and turned stuff on before
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  Speaker 3: I even got here.
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  Speaker 1: Not everything I've missed of.
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  Speaker 3: Okay. See, this is why I'm glad this episode is
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  Speaker 3: talking about Just Ask, okay?
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  Speaker 1: We're talking about just asking, all right?
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  Speaker 3: Jessica, everybody asks Desiree, what is Just Ask?
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  Speaker 1: What is Just Ask about?
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  Speaker 3: When people ask you what Just Ask is about, like
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  Speaker 3: where did it come from, what do you tell them? Well,
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  Speaker 3: first I say it's kind of a play on words,
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  Speaker 3: but your name is Jessica. So Just Ask literally is...
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  Speaker 3: Just being free to ask. Just ask. Like, I think
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  Speaker 3: a lot of times, a lot of the things that
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  Speaker 3: we need... Because it's for me. Like, in this season,
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  Speaker 3: I know everything is going to come from my voice. So,
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  Speaker 3: you know, everything is coming from my voice. So, it's
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  Speaker 3: literally giving yourself permission to just ask for the things.
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  Speaker 3: The desires, the needs, all of it. But her name
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  Speaker 3: is Jessica, so we put her first.
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  Speaker 1: My name is Jessica. And just ask. But I was also.
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  Speaker 3: I was also in a season of asking, right? When
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  Speaker 3: the Lord gave me this assignment, I didn't know what
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  Speaker 3: this was, right?
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  Speaker 1: It's like, manna, what is this?
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  Speaker 3: Yes.
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  Speaker 1: This is this, right? We ain't never seen this before.
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  Speaker 3: Listen, I was already doing the work, but didn't like
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  Speaker 3: really understand. It didn't necessarily have like a name or
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  Speaker 3: a title or a structure to it. So when people
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  Speaker 3: see me so passionate about it, it's because I got
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  Speaker 3: it out the mud. Ay.
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  Speaker 1: Young. Ay. I got it out the mud.
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  Speaker 3: Mm-hmm. But I'm so passionate about it because I literally
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  Speaker 3: took something.
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  Speaker 1: I haven't changed my name. I thought I was going
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  Speaker 1: to have to change my name at one point.
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  Speaker 3: And it was like, no, because you are just asking.
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  Speaker 3: Like you said, it's a play on words. But I'm
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  Speaker 3: going to bring this scripture up. And this is the
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  Speaker 3: scripture that I was leaning on a lot. So Matthew 7.
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  Speaker 3: And y'all know I love a good Christian standard Bible
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  Speaker 3: in this season for me.
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  Speaker 1: And she might go to the ghetto. I went to
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  Speaker 1: the easy read.
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  Speaker 2: Okay.
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  Speaker 3: So I'm going to read the Christian Standard Bible, and
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  Speaker 3: then Desiree is going to read hers, just so we
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  Speaker 3: can have our full interpretation. And I'm actually going to
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  Speaker 3: read Matthew 7, the 7th verse through the 12th verse,
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  Speaker 3: because I have all of it highlighted. It says, Ask,
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  Speaker 3: and it will be given to you. Seek, and you
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  Speaker 3: will find. Knock, and the door will be opened to you.
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  Speaker 3: For everyone who asks receives. And the one who seeks finds,
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  Speaker 3: and the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
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  Speaker 3: Who among you, if his son asks him for bread,
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  Speaker 3: he will give him a stone? Or if he asks
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  Speaker 3: for a fish, will give him a snake? If you then,
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  Speaker 3: who are evil, know how to give good gifts to
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  Speaker 3: your children, how much more will the Father in heaven
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  Speaker 3: give good things to those who ask him? Therefore, whatever
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  Speaker 3: you do, whatever you want others to do for you,
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  Speaker 3: do also the same for them. For this is the
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  Speaker 3: law of the prophets. Yeah, this is the law of
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  Speaker 3: the prophets. All right, before I get into it, Desiree,
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  Speaker 3: give us the easy read.
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  Speaker 1: The easy read.
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  Speaker 3: Um so this is matthew 7 um 7 through 12
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  Speaker 3: okay and i like the easy read sometimes well i
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  Speaker 3: go between like i like the csv uh i like
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  Speaker 3: the nlt sometimes the passion depending on um the books
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  Speaker 3: um and then the easy read for me just like
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  Speaker 3: just break it all the way down you know what
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  Speaker 3: i'm saying um it says continue to ask And God
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  Speaker 3: will give to you. Continue to search and you will find.
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  Speaker 3: Continue to knock and the door will be open to you. Yes,
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  Speaker 3: whoever continues to ask will receive. Whoever continues to look
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  Speaker 3: will find. And whoever continues to knock will have the
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  Speaker 3: door open for them. Do any of you have a son?
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  Speaker 3: If he asks for bread, would you give him a rock?
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  Speaker 3: Or if he asks for a fish, would you give
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  Speaker 3: him a snake?
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  Speaker 1: Of course not. You people....
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  Speaker 3: You people are so bad, but you still know how
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  Speaker 3: to give good things to your children. So surely your
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  Speaker 3: heavenly father will give good things to those who ask him.
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  Speaker 3: Do for others what you would want them to do
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  Speaker 3: for you. This is the meaning of the law of
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  Speaker 3: Moses and the teaching of the prophets.
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  Speaker 1: So if anything, what I want y'all to get is.
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  Speaker 3: So when I started this, I started just as based upon...
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  Speaker 3: Where I was in that season, not knowing that I
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  Speaker 3: would have multiple seasons of Jessica asking me. You know
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  Speaker 3: what I'm saying? Just ask is a command. I just
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  Speaker 3: want you to know, people always ask me, and because
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  Speaker 3: I understand ministry and marketplace, sometimes I'm like, okay, who
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  Speaker 3: am I talking to right now?
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  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying?
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  Speaker 3: Do I give a marketplace answer or do I give
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  Speaker 3: a ministry-led answer? Because I understand I have a blend
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  Speaker 3: of both. And so my marketplace answer is like, So
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  Speaker 3: I is what I say in the beginning. This is
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  Speaker 3: where transparency meets transformation. And when people transform, they get
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  Speaker 3: to live.
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  Speaker 1: Their best lives.
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  Speaker 3: This is targeted or the people that are attracted to
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  Speaker 3: this platform are women that are in the ages between
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  Speaker 3: basically now is 30 to 45 that have been stuck
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  Speaker 3: in a place where I know there is more.
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  Speaker 1: I just don't know how to find it. Yeah. ask
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  Speaker 1: and it shall.
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  Speaker 3: Be given seek and you shall find knock and the
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  Speaker 3: door shall be open when i do my part then
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  Speaker 3: god gets to give give the response right and so
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  Speaker 3: that's my that's my you know.
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  Speaker 1: What you call it uh not midwife lord jesus I
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  Speaker 1: just said the word. Marketplace.
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  Speaker 3: Marketplace.
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  Speaker 1: Marketplace response, right?
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  Speaker 3: But my ministry response is, this is my obedience project.
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  Speaker 3: Because I do understand that the Lord can tell me, hey, tomorrow, Jessica,
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  Speaker 3: I don't want you to come. Desiree and I have
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  Speaker 3: already talked, because y'all know Desiree got a man, like
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  Speaker 3: a real man, like this her husband.
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  Speaker 1: We just waiting on a date. Desiree O'Neal got a man.
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  Speaker 1: Jessica ain't got a man.
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  Speaker 3: So we trying to figure this out. Like, okay, you
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  Speaker 3: go to your purpose partner. You know what I'm saying?
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  Speaker 3: Which we are purpose partners, but he trumps me once he.
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  Speaker 1: Becomes your husband.
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  Speaker 3: Cadero, you trump me when you become the husband, dog.
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  Speaker 1: I know, I know.
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  Speaker 3: But I know that's going to look different. We don't
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  Speaker 3: know what the different looks like. So I think just like, hey, Lord,
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  Speaker 3: this is my obedience to you. I don't know what
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  Speaker 3: this looks like. I haven't been able to figure this out.
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  Speaker 3: And I never knew, watch this, I never knew that
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  Speaker 3: it was going to lead to more. I never knew
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  Speaker 3: that it would lead to more. So I'm taking y'all
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  Speaker 3: down a journey because I'm going to get y'all somewhere.
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  Speaker 3: But Desiree had to just ask me.
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  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying?
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  Speaker 3: Like, you don't get through life without asking. And people
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  Speaker 3: was like, I didn't know that I would be teaching
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  Speaker 3: people the value of asking.
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  Speaker 1: All right.
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  Speaker 3: What do you think that keeps us away from the ask?
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  Speaker 3: I think sometimes it's the fear of rejection, the no,
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  Speaker 3: or sometimes the weight of the yes.
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  Speaker 1: Okay.
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  Speaker 3: Okay. Now, that last one is something that needs to
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  Speaker 3: be talked about more. Because the way of the yes,
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  Speaker 3: the fear of what's on the other side of the yes,
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  Speaker 3: especially when you've already given a yes.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, my.
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  Speaker 3: Listen that's all right i was telling um Coach D,
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  Speaker 3: the other week when I was talking to her, like,
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  Speaker 3: you know, for me, like, when I talk about my
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  Speaker 3: hospital experience, and I talk about the yes that I
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  Speaker 3: gave was real. Like, because I ain't, like, you in
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  Speaker 3: this moment, and not that it was the moment that
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  Speaker 3: made me say yes, it was the realization of where
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  Speaker 3: I was.
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  Speaker 1: And the hospital experience is when you literally almost died.
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  Speaker 3: Yes.
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  Speaker 1: And because of the fibroids.
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  Speaker 3: Yes.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, just in case people don't. Okay, yes, ma'am. Yeah. Yeah, so.
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  Speaker 3: 2021, went in and had fibroids removed, ended up having
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  Speaker 3: some complications where I had extreme internal bleeding and, like,
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  Speaker 3: left the earth, right? So I just remember giving God
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  Speaker 3: a yes, right? Not really knowing what yes meant until
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  Speaker 3: I started journeying along.
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  Speaker 1: With the yeses, right? So what it did, though, was, like, each.
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  Speaker 1: Instruction, we have an opportunity to obey or not obey, right?
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  Speaker 3: So because I gave a yes, I felt like I
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  Speaker 3: was obligated to obey, right? But I don't know what
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  Speaker 3: on the other side looks like. So I'll say yes
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  Speaker 3: kind of hesitantly.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, question mark.
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  Speaker 3: Yes. Yes.
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  Speaker 1: Not yes period, but yes question mark. And we journey
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  Speaker 1: a little bit.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: Right?
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  Speaker 1: So we get to a new place. There's a new instruction.
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  Speaker 2: Right?
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  Speaker 3: So the new instruction comes with, I don't know what's
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  Speaker 3: going on. So you can say yes and ask. Or
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  Speaker 3: we can say no because we don't really understand what's
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  Speaker 3: on the other side because of the fear of the yes.
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  Speaker 1: You just said something. I'm sorry. That just shook me.
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  Speaker 1: You said we can say yes and ask.
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  Speaker 3: Yes. Yes. Do you know, so for me, I think
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  Speaker 3: it's the dynamic of growing up in church and being
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  Speaker 3: told you don't question God, right? I think that's also,
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  Speaker 3: from a hyper-religious standpoint, and when I say hyper-religious, I'm
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  Speaker 3: speaking on Christianity, right? Us as believers, when we don't
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  Speaker 3: do relationship with God, we don't know that we can
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  Speaker 3: ask God questions.
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  Speaker 1: He told us to ask. Ask. And this was Jesus talking.
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  Speaker 1: And he told us to seek, too. Seeking is asking.
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  Speaker 3: That's like I'm searching. I'm asking questions. You ask questions,
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  Speaker 3: but you don't question God. But what is that? So
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  Speaker 3: that mutes me as a believer. After I'm reading this,
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  Speaker 3: this is conflicting me because I believe that now it's
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  Speaker 3: like I'm asking for something, but I can't ask for
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  Speaker 3: the wrong thing because the Lord won't give it to me.
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  Speaker 1: Sometimes, I believe if it's the wrong thing, that means
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  Speaker 1: I have to seek out the right thing. Because what
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  Speaker 1: if it's not big enough? What if the ask is
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  Speaker 1: not big enough? You get what I'm saying? Also, there are.
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  Speaker 3: Seasons where the Lord say, you don't think I will
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  Speaker 3: take care of every need. You don't think that I
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  Speaker 3: am a dress the lily, feed the.
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  Speaker 1: Birds type of guy.
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  Speaker 3: And the problem is, is that depending on the season,
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  Speaker 3: your ask has to match the season. Your ask has
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  Speaker 3: to match because your ask cannot go beyond.
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  Speaker 1: Your measure of faith. Ooh, this is getting good to me.
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  Speaker 3: This is getting good to me.
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  Speaker 1: Your ask cannot go beyond the measure of faith.
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  Speaker 3: When I started this year, Desiree, when I was talking
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  Speaker 3: to God, this wasn't even necessarily an ask.
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  Speaker 1: This was just a desire.
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  Speaker 3: But the desire of your heart is really formed into
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  Speaker 3: an ask, right? So I'm sitting there talking to the Lord.
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  Speaker 3: I'm like, okay, babe, um, I really would like to
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  Speaker 3: be a speaker. I want to lean into this speaker.
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  Speaker 3: I'm actively trying to get help in this, right? I'm
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  Speaker 3: looking into investing in programs, right? I am learning what
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  Speaker 3: I need to do. But then I tell, I'm sitting
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  Speaker 3: here talking to Holy Spirit out loud and saying, I
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  Speaker 3: would like to be prepared for places like TED Talk.
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  Speaker 3: I didn't know it was a question mark on that.
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  Speaker 3: I just said, this is what I would like. This
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  Speaker 3: is what I would like. Not knowing the next day,
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  Speaker 3: the absolute next day, I would be getting a phone
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  Speaker 3: call from somebody named Lisa to ask me, would you be.
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  Speaker 1: Interested in being a TEDx speaker?
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  Speaker 3: So now I have a responsibility to put myself in
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  Speaker 3: a position to go with the ask.
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  Speaker 1: Ooh, I feel my health.
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  Speaker 3: Come on. Now I have a responsibility to go with
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  Speaker 3: the ask because why am I asking God or presenting
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  Speaker 3: myself with wishful thinking when God presents me.
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  Speaker 1: The opportunity to act on the ask?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: So what if... The last ask you.
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  Speaker 3: Requested, the last thing you requested, God, is still there
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  Speaker 3: and you didn't do anything with it.
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  Speaker 1: And for the next ask to be revealed, you have
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  Speaker 1: to deal with that one.
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  Speaker 3: Mm-hmm. So you're seeking, you're seeking and you're finding and
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  Speaker 3: you're knocking and you, but you hadn't responded to the
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  Speaker 3: other door that was open.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, I don't know. I don't, I think this is
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  Speaker 1: a little, it's a little rebukish.
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  Speaker 3: It's a little rebukish because you out here asking a God,
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  Speaker 3: the God, the Lord of your life for something.
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  Speaker 1: He presents it to you. And because you scared of.
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  Speaker 3: It now, you don't act on it. Or you, or you, you, you,
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  Speaker 3: you got too much low self esteem. Let me tell
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  Speaker 3: you about some esteem.
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  Speaker 1: Okay? Talk about it, Jessica. I just asked this lady. Y'all,
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  Speaker 1: that's listening. I look cute today. She don't look cute.
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  Speaker 1: I look cute today. This was not what I was
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  Speaker 1: about to wear, okay?
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  Speaker 3: But I was doing my makeup on TikTok, and this
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  Speaker 3: was my makeup dress, and I just threw something on.
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  Speaker 3: But anywho, I asked the woman a guy, does it
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  Speaker 3: look like I have a lazy eye?
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  Speaker 1: This right eye.
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  Speaker 3: Was looking a little lazy. You know how sometimes your eyelash...
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  Speaker 3: Can look like it's giving God glory. I thought my
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  Speaker 3: eyelash was going to the upper room or landing somewhere.
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  Speaker 1: I thought it was, it felt the Holy Ghost. And
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  Speaker 1: I asked. She did. I asked her what was going on.
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  Speaker 2: Here, right?
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  Speaker 1: Because my esteem is always tested.
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  Speaker 3: Mm-hmm.
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  Speaker 1: Especially when I'm coming up to show up for you guys.
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  Speaker 3: My esteem, y'all, if I keep it a buck, this week,
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  Speaker 3: this week, the past several weeks, and I'm going to
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  Speaker 3: give it to y'all in a minute. The past several
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  Speaker 3: weeks have been very interesting. I'm going to give you,
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  Speaker 3: it hasn't been horrible. It's been the most interesting part
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  Speaker 3: of this year. It has been the most interesting part
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  Speaker 3: of the year. Y'all see a lot of highs. But
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  Speaker 3: I'm going to give you a low, okay? I'm going
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  Speaker 3: to give you a low, right?
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  Speaker 1: When you ask God, hey, is it my time yet?
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  Speaker 1: Is it time to shift? Is it time?
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  Speaker 3: You're curious about something because watch this. The Lord has
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  Speaker 3: planted something in you to where it makes you curious
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  Speaker 3: enough to what he's doing with you. I'm going to
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  Speaker 3: say that again in probably a better form. The Lord
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  Speaker 3: has planted something in you to make you curious enough
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  Speaker 3: to what he's doing through you. Right.
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  Speaker 1: And so I think that not ask asking get makes
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  Speaker 1: you dormant. It keeps you dormant.
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  Speaker 3: So you wonder how people are able to move is
• 17:25
  Speaker 3: not because they better than you.
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  Speaker 1: I am not better than you.
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  Speaker 3: I'm not. Desiree, I love her, but she is not
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  Speaker 3: better than you. She asks, and watch this, she acts
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  Speaker 3: on the ask. That means A-C-T-S on the A-S-K-S.
• 17:43
  Speaker 1: Ooh, that's good.
• 17:45
  Speaker 3: You have to A-C-T-S on the A-S-K-S or you get Z-E-O-R-O.
• 17:50
  Speaker 1: Zero.
• 17:52
  Speaker 2: Zero.
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  Speaker 1: What's the point of asking? Yeah.
• 18:04
  Speaker 3: I think, you know, listen to you explain it like that.
• 18:08
  Speaker 3: It reminds me of what I told the Lord after
• 18:11
  Speaker 3: I met Cordero.
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  Speaker 1: Okay.
• 18:15
  Speaker 3: Because what you're saying is we may express a thing,
• 18:21
  Speaker 3: a desire, or we may ask, you know, ask for
• 18:24
  Speaker 3: a thing.
• 18:25
  Speaker 2: And.
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: most of the times we're not prepared when they show up.
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: Come on now.
• 18:32
  Speaker 3: But the reason why the process is important, because the
• 18:37
  Speaker 3: Lord is really trying to prepare us, trying to make
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  Speaker 3: sure we have the capacity, make sure we have the
• 18:42
  Speaker 3: wisdom and the knowledge to be able to step into
• 18:44
  Speaker 3: the place that he had already prepared for us.
• 18:47
  Speaker 1: But we get so impatient with waiting.
• 18:49
  Speaker 3: We get so impatient with seeing everybody else, you know,
• 18:52
  Speaker 3: with these things that we're asking and desiring for. But
• 18:54
  Speaker 3: sometimes we just don't realize like the weight of the thing. Literally,
• 18:57
  Speaker 3: if he give it to you right now, we'll crush you.
• 19:00
  Speaker 1: Come on. It will literally crush you. Come on.
• 19:03
  Speaker 3: So when you've journeyed the process, when you've endured the
• 19:07
  Speaker 3: suffering well, like you can ten toes flat down, whatever
• 19:12
  Speaker 3: they say, stand in the next season knowing that you've
• 19:16
  Speaker 3: been called to that place. But sometimes we don't manage.
• 19:21
  Speaker 3: We don't steward the process well.
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: We do not. We do not.
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  Speaker 3: And I think I'm learning that about myself to take what.
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: Take what the Lord embedded in me seriously.
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  Speaker 2: Yes.
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: What I mean by that is, I don't like talking
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: about this, but it is what it is. So I
• 19:42
  Speaker 1: have a prophetic anointing, right? Yes. And I'm proud of you.
• 19:48
  Speaker 1: That's good, Jessica. Okay.
• 19:49
  Speaker 3: That was better.
• 19:50
  Speaker 1: One. Step number one. Admitting.
• 19:51
  Speaker 3: Yes.
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: What is that? That's good. That's admitting it.
• 19:57
  Speaker 3: And I don't say that because I am ashamed of it.
• 20:02
  Speaker 3: I say that because this world... has so many questions
• 20:09
  Speaker 3: that I don't have answers to about the prophetic.
• 20:13
  Speaker 1: I'm still learning, right? As Brionca has said, she.
• 20:18
  Speaker 3: Has said to the Safe Space, shout out to the
• 20:19
  Speaker 3: Safe Space community, we meet every Monday, $ 19 a month.
• 20:23
  Speaker 3: We literally, you know, they're my dogs. They're my dogs.
• 20:28
  Speaker 3: They family. So she was telling the Safe Space community
• 20:35
  Speaker 3: about my gift. And she was saying that because the
• 20:39
  Speaker 3: prophetic comes up in different ways.
• 20:42
  Speaker 2: Right.
• 20:43
  Speaker 3: I will be in the middle of a conversation with
• 20:46
  Speaker 3: you and I will tell you something prophetically. And if
• 20:50
  Speaker 3: you don't catch it, you don't you won't eventually get like, no,
• 20:55
  Speaker 3: Jessica said this to me.
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: So nine times out of 10.
• 20:59
  Speaker 3: I don't remember what I just said. And then I
• 21:04
  Speaker 3: try my best not to do a bubble up because people...
• 21:06
  Speaker 3: And when I say bubble up, let me use....
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: Language, regular language.
• 21:11
  Speaker 3: I get this feeling in my gut or this excitement.
• 21:15
  Speaker 3: Have you ever experienced something like that makes you excited
• 21:18
  Speaker 3: that your heart starts racing or whatever, like you kind
• 21:21
  Speaker 3: of get hot?
• 21:21
  Speaker 1: Maybe you have different temperatures that you're experiencing with your body.
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: I experienced that.
• 21:26
  Speaker 3: So I'm getting excited in the conversation because, and then
• 21:29
  Speaker 3: it's not because of me, it's because that's how the
• 21:32
  Speaker 3: Holy Spirit responds to me normally, right? Sometimes I can
• 21:36
  Speaker 3: be calm in a conversation. But then I do like my,
• 21:39
  Speaker 3: something's shifting with my body. So if you're on the
• 21:41
  Speaker 3: phone with me, you might not see it. But if
• 21:44
  Speaker 3: I tell you something and then it happens, I'm going
• 21:48
  Speaker 3: to tell you if it's wisdom. But nine times out
• 21:51
  Speaker 3: of ten, I'm going to be like, I don't know
• 21:52
  Speaker 3: why I'm saying this.
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: Or if I ask you a question, I asked a
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: friend recently, well, not too long ago, have you ever
• 21:59
  Speaker 1: considered going back to school?
• 22:03
  Speaker 3: And they were like, no, no, I don't want to
• 22:04
  Speaker 3: go to school, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I was like, well,
• 22:08
  Speaker 3: I told them, I can see you doing X, Y,
• 22:11
  Speaker 3: and Z. I can see you teaching. Now, when I
• 22:15
  Speaker 3: said in the moment, I can see you, I knew
• 22:18
  Speaker 3: what I meant.
• 22:19
  Speaker 1: But at that moment, I didn't explain, oh, this is
• 22:22
  Speaker 1: my prophetic gift. This is my prophetic color.
• 22:25
  Speaker 3: I didn't explain that. And now, a few months later, they're...
• 22:32
  Speaker 3: In school.
• 22:33
  Speaker 1: They're in school.
• 22:35
  Speaker 3: Not the type of school I necessarily saw, but the
• 22:38
  Speaker 3: Lord gave me that, right? And so when I have
• 22:43
  Speaker 3: to watch myself in my speech because of the prophetic
• 22:48
  Speaker 3: anointing that I have. Now, how does that correlate to asking?
• 22:55
  Speaker 3: I feel like I went too deep. What was I
• 22:58
  Speaker 3: saying before this? I just had a brain fart. I
• 23:02
  Speaker 3: had a point to that.
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: But let's go. We're going to bring it back. Her
• 23:05
  Speaker 1: brain farted too. I went down. I was just like, ooh,
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: this is good. Yeah, no, this is good. So when I.
• 23:12
  Speaker 3: We have the mind of Christ. We do have the
• 23:15
  Speaker 3: mind of Christ. I'm trying to figure out what... Because
• 23:17
  Speaker 3: I had a good point.
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: Dog it.
• 23:20
  Speaker 3: You're talking about the prophetic gift and how sometimes you
• 23:23
  Speaker 3: don't have all the answers.
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: Then you started kind of describing how it goes.
• 23:27
  Speaker 3: I described it, but I probably described it too long
• 23:30
  Speaker 3: because I had a point that I was trying to make.
• 23:32
  Speaker 1: So let's revert back to asking. Because a lot of us.
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: I know.
• 23:39
  Speaker 3: Okay, here's a point. I don't think this was the point.
• 23:42
  Speaker 3: If you're prophetic... If you're prophetic and you.
• 23:50
  Speaker 3: And you're asking things, for me, I get scared of
• 23:55
  Speaker 3: opening my mouth sometimes.
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: I'll be like, oh, this is going to happen.
• 23:57
  Speaker 3: I'm going to have to be responsible for it. I'm
• 24:03
  Speaker 3: going to open my mouth, and I'm going to have
• 24:04
  Speaker 3: to be responsible for it. It's going back to what
• 24:06
  Speaker 3: you said about the yes. The book, A Journey of Yes.
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: Brenda Palmer.
• 24:17
  Speaker 3: Brenda Palmer, we read that in the safe space when
• 24:19
  Speaker 3: it wasn't necessarily the safe space. Y'all, when I tell you,
• 24:23
  Speaker 3: let's talk about an ask, okay? I did not want
• 24:27
  Speaker 3: a community. We did a challenge reading the book with
• 24:33
  Speaker 3: Journey of Yes.
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: Shout out to Brenda Palmer. She has a new podcast. Well,
• 24:37
  Speaker 1: it's not new.
• 24:38
  Speaker 3: She just kind of updated to the Journey of Yes, right?
• 24:42
  Speaker 3: she updates it to that, but we was reading this
• 24:46
  Speaker 3: book and literally she, she gave me every reason to
• 24:52
  Speaker 3: say no in the book. She gave us a reason
• 24:56
  Speaker 3: to say no in the book. Now, mind you, this
• 24:58
  Speaker 3: was just supposed to be a reading challenge. This was
• 25:01
  Speaker 3: not supposed to be a community. This was not supposed
• 25:06
  Speaker 3: to be a community.
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: And so in this, Several of.
• 25:12
  Speaker 3: Them, when we were winding down, they was like, so
• 25:16
  Speaker 3: what's our next thing?
• 25:19
  Speaker 1: We're not going to stop this. I was like, yeah, this.
• 25:21
  Speaker 3: Is only supposed to be a six-week challenge. They was like, nah,
• 25:26
  Speaker 3: I ain't feeling stopping. So sometimes the ask of others
• 25:32
  Speaker 3: will position you to where God wants you to be.
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: This is so good.
• 25:36
  Speaker 3: It was the ask of the Israelites that created the
• 25:40
  Speaker 3: answer of Moses. And so when we think about asking,
• 25:49
  Speaker 3: there's no asking without the solution already being accessible to us.
• 25:54
  Speaker 3: And I think that when we don't ask, we don't
• 25:58
  Speaker 3: tell God we want it enough. Like a literal, open
• 26:04
  Speaker 3: your mouth, tell me what you want. And it's not,
• 26:08
  Speaker 3: watch this, it's not can I have. Like I told
• 26:12
  Speaker 3: you earlier with the TEDx thing, it's, hey, I would like,
• 26:18
  Speaker 3: I want. You get what I'm saying?
• 26:20
  Speaker 1: I think this, right?
• 26:22
  Speaker 3: I literally, I can't tell you how many times I've thought, Lord,
• 26:27
  Speaker 3: I need to go.
• 26:28
  Speaker 1: I would love to get some flowers. Royal. Shout out
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: to the Miller Child podcast.
• 26:34
  Speaker 3: I literally, the day before I went and recorded with her,
• 26:38
  Speaker 3: I literally was like, man, Lord, I have not had
• 26:39
  Speaker 3: flowers in a long time. There was a man in
• 26:42
  Speaker 3: my life that introduced me to getting flowers. And I
• 26:47
  Speaker 3: just love, I didn't know I loved that that much.
• 26:50
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying?
• 26:50
  Speaker 3: I think it was just a token of I'm thinking
• 26:53
  Speaker 3: about you type of thing. I felt like the beauty
• 26:56
  Speaker 3: of the flowers represented how he saw me or whatever.
• 26:59
  Speaker 3: And I was just like, man, I haven't had flowers
• 27:01
  Speaker 3: in so long.
• 27:02
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying? I walk in that doggone
• 27:05
  Speaker 1: door and Royal had flowers for me. And she just,
• 27:09
  Speaker 1: she thought light of it. She thought a lot of it.
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: She was like, yeah, I got something for you. And
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: I saw them flowers and I broke down. I saw
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: her crying. I was like, I know you lying. I
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: just kept saying, I know you lying. I know you lying. Right?
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: But it was the desire of my heart. And watch this.
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: I brought it to God. And some people would think
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: that's so small to ask.
• 27:31
  Speaker 3: I think the reason why he had to put it
• 27:35
  Speaker 3: in the Bible is because it's a part of relationships.
• 27:41
  Speaker 3: If you think about how some denominations kind of make,
• 27:47
  Speaker 3: they tell you not to ask God, right? So literally
• 27:50
  Speaker 3: that's almost putting a wall in between you and your
• 27:55
  Speaker 3: Lord and Savior, like you and the person that made you,
• 27:57
  Speaker 3: you and the creator, right?
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: So now there's no closeness.
• 28:01
  Speaker 3: So I'm only sometimes comfortable with asking people things sometimes
• 28:06
  Speaker 3: that I trust, right? Or sometimes, you know, it may
• 28:12
  Speaker 3: be somebody that you don't know, but it's something that
• 28:14
  Speaker 3: you know that they have the authority to do.
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying?
• 28:17
  Speaker 3: So when we begin to seek the Lord about situations,
• 28:22
  Speaker 3: about people, about things, it brings us closer into intimate
• 28:27
  Speaker 3: relationship with him. So now it's not just a, hey,
• 28:30
  Speaker 3: I'm asking this thing. Now it's also a, you actually
• 28:33
  Speaker 3: got to sit and wait for the answer. You also
• 28:36
  Speaker 3: got to sit and wait for the answer. And I
• 28:39
  Speaker 3: think that's the season that I'm in and kind of
• 28:43
  Speaker 3: been in. And I've actually really been enjoying because I've
• 28:47
  Speaker 3: been one to not ask.
• 28:49
  Speaker 1: I've been one to not share my heart.
• 28:51
  Speaker 3: I've been one to not share my thoughts and feelings
• 28:55
  Speaker 3: with people because of that fear of rejection. Or I'm
• 28:59
  Speaker 3: also working through this narrative of, and nobody ever told
• 29:02
  Speaker 3: me this, right, of not being a burden to people.
• 29:06
  Speaker 3: And I think that's just how I, you know, just
• 29:08
  Speaker 3: being raised with a single parent.
• 29:10
  Speaker 1: My mom never made me. never show that.
• 29:13
  Speaker 3: It's just watching her, uh, strive so hard to just,
• 29:16
  Speaker 3: you know, put a meal on the table.
• 29:17
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying? It's like, so like, I
• 29:19
  Speaker 1: don't want to disrupt with my asking. Yes. That is so,
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: that is so key.
• 29:24
  Speaker 3: So in this season, when I say my, my, my,
• 29:26
  Speaker 3: my nexus tied to my voice, that's literally what I meant.
• 29:29
  Speaker 3: Like I'm literally having to sit with the Lord, share
• 29:31
  Speaker 3: my heart with him, ask him questions. Like, Lord, I don't,
• 29:34
  Speaker 3: I mean, like being a daughter, like we talk about it,
• 29:37
  Speaker 3: that's my father and I'm a, daughter of the king.
• 29:39
  Speaker 3: Like if I felt like I may not have been
• 29:41
  Speaker 3: the best daughter to my natural parents. Well, I don't
• 29:43
  Speaker 3: know how to be a daughter. You have to show
• 29:44
  Speaker 3: me how do I be a good daughter? I think
• 29:47
  Speaker 3: you bring up an amazing, an amazing point. Because the
• 29:53
  Speaker 3: prodigal son just came up. And that man asked.
• 29:57
  Speaker 1: For his money.
• 29:57
  Speaker 3: He did.
• 29:58
  Speaker 1: He asked for his money and his father still... Even though... Yep.
• 30:03
  Speaker 1: Come on, Shondo.
• 30:05
  Speaker 3: Even though he knew that he wasn't ready for it,
• 30:09
  Speaker 3: he knew.
• 30:11
  Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure.
• 30:11
  Speaker 3: I'm sure.
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: Because that was his father.
• 30:13
  Speaker 3: I'm sure.
• 30:13
  Speaker 1: He knew how immature he was.
• 30:14
  Speaker 3: Oh, I'm sure.
• 30:14
  Speaker 1: But to give... Because he asked for it. Mm-hmm.
• 30:19
  Speaker 3: In advance of when he wanted it. That's also something
• 30:21
  Speaker 3: that we need to be okay with. God, I'm asking
• 30:24
  Speaker 3: for this, but please don't give it to.
• 30:25
  Speaker 1: Me if I'm ready. Lord, let me put you on stipulation.
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: If I ain't ready for it. I know I said
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: I want it, but if I ain't ready, shout out,
• 30:32
  Speaker 1: don't give it to me. Don't give it to me.
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: Don't give it to me. I know you know better, okay?
• 30:37
  Speaker 3: I know I might be a little eager, but the
• 30:39
  Speaker 3: Father still gave him. And I also think that for me,
• 30:44
  Speaker 3: if you're a perfectionist, right, you might struggle with asking
• 30:48
  Speaker 3: because you don't want to, quote unquote, ask for the
• 30:50
  Speaker 3: right thing at the wrong time.
• 30:53
  Speaker 1: You don't want to ask.
• 30:54
  Speaker 3: It's not that what you're asking for is bad, but
• 30:56
  Speaker 3: you're like, is it time for that yet? Yeah.
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying?
• 30:59
  Speaker 3: Because in my perfectionist mindset, I'm telling like, okay, if
• 31:03
  Speaker 3: God really wanted it for me, then he'll just go
• 31:06
  Speaker 3: ahead and get it for me.
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: No ma'am, no ma'am, no ma'am. No ma'am, no ma'am.
• 31:11
  Speaker 3: Hence why the next thing I think is important. So
• 31:15
  Speaker 3: Desiree brought up the fact that I am the new
• 31:17
  Speaker 3: BGTV studio manager.
• 31:19
  Speaker 1: She's the manager. Yeah.
• 31:21
  Speaker 3: Let's talk about walking on the water, okay? This is,
• 31:25
  Speaker 3: what I tell you, this is a God thing. And
• 31:27
  Speaker 3: I think one day Brad will come on here and
• 31:30
  Speaker 3: we'll have to talk about what that looked like because
• 31:33
  Speaker 3: that process was like.
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: Only God, only God, right? Only God can do it.
• 31:38
  Speaker 3: But a little taste of that is, okay, Jessica, how
• 31:41
  Speaker 3: are you the new BGTV studios manager? Well, most of
• 31:45
  Speaker 3: you guys, well, some people just didn't know. Everybody thought
• 31:47
  Speaker 3: that I was a full-time podcaster.
• 31:48
  Speaker 2: I wish.
• 31:49
  Speaker 3: Y'all, let me tell y'all, let me be real, real
• 31:52
  Speaker 3: with y'all. I desire to be, well, my desire is
• 31:59
  Speaker 3: to get paid, you know, as a content creator and
• 32:03
  Speaker 3: a podcast host, coach, all of the above, right?
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: And that's going to happen.
• 32:09
  Speaker 3: It's going to happen probably very soon.
• 32:13
  Speaker 1: Because in my asking, when.
• 32:17
  Speaker 3: You have a relationship with God and you have gotten
• 32:22
  Speaker 3: adjusted to just saying, hey, God, if this is this,
• 32:25
  Speaker 3: then show me, right? Then your heart is prepared for
• 32:29
  Speaker 3: his answer, right? And so, August 13th, I was fired.
• 32:36
  Speaker 1: From my job. You know, I like that. Because, you know,
• 32:45
  Speaker 1: we sometimes were like, I was released from my duties.
• 32:50
  Speaker 3: No.
• 32:50
  Speaker 1: And I said, Lord, how am I going to say
• 32:52
  Speaker 1: this today?
• 32:53
  Speaker 3: Right?
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: I was fired.
• 32:56
  Speaker 3: Fired from a job that I did. I would have
• 32:59
  Speaker 3: made it to 10 years in November, right?
• 33:01
  Speaker 1: I was talking... I'm about to get so real with y'all.
• 33:05
  Speaker 1: So the process... You know, when you... I've had a
• 33:08
  Speaker 1: job for....
• 33:12
  Speaker 3: Over 10 years. Like, my dad didn't let me work
• 33:14
  Speaker 3: from home. I mean, my dad didn't let me work
• 33:17
  Speaker 3: when I was living with him. But when I left,
• 33:20
  Speaker 3: I've had a job. So I worked while I was
• 33:23
  Speaker 3: in school. I had two jobs while I was in school. Um...
• 33:27
  Speaker 3: When I got out of school, I had a little gap,
• 33:30
  Speaker 3: but I had two jobs at a time when I
• 33:32
  Speaker 3: got out of school. And then once I started working
• 33:34
  Speaker 3: for the company that just let me go, that was
• 33:37
  Speaker 3: the only time I only had one job. And I
• 33:40
  Speaker 3: progressed on the sales side. Well, two years ago, we
• 33:46
  Speaker 3: talk about transition. Two years ago, the Lord told me, hey,
• 33:50
  Speaker 3: put in your notice. I put in my notice. And
• 33:54
  Speaker 3: the ram in the bush came. The ram in the
• 33:56
  Speaker 3: bush was for my transition, not for me to settle.
• 34:01
  Speaker 3: I need y'all to hear this. My ram in the
• 34:04
  Speaker 3: bush was not for my settlement. It was for me
• 34:07
  Speaker 3: to transition well. The ram was not a stamp.
• 34:14
  Speaker 1: Of approval to stay where I was.
• 34:16
  Speaker 3: It was just, hey, I'm going to glide you into
• 34:20
  Speaker 3: where I want you to be. right and so now
• 34:25
  Speaker 3: hindsight now hindsight i'm like okay bet um so when
• 34:32
  Speaker 3: when august 13th came for months i have been you
• 34:35
  Speaker 3: know having some trouble whatever at the job i ain't
• 34:37
  Speaker 3: gonna get too deep to it um because i'm not mad.
• 34:41
  Speaker 1: At nobody i'm not mad at all i'm not mad.
• 34:44
  Speaker 3: Um I was having some trouble at the job, and then,
• 34:49
  Speaker 3: you know, me and management weren't really seeing eye to eye.
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: I felt it coming.
• 34:53
  Speaker 3: I literally felt something about to shift, okay? So as
• 34:58
  Speaker 3: I'm doing this, I'm like, okay, cool. That week, literally
• 35:03
  Speaker 3: the night before, I had talked to two people. One
• 35:06
  Speaker 3: of those people was Brad. One of those people was Brad,
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  Speaker 3: and Brad talked to me about walking on water. This
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  Speaker 3: is not the first conversation we had about BGTV, but
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  Speaker 3: he talked to me about walking on water. Y'all get
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  Speaker 3: that conversation when Brad come to talk. The next few hours,
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  Speaker 3: I'm talking to a friend who had just gone through
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  Speaker 3: a similar situation that I didn't know that they.
• 35:31
  Speaker 1: I thought they.
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  Speaker 3: Just quit the job. But they ended up giving me
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  Speaker 3: more information. Almost verbatim, the same doggone thing. So he said,
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  Speaker 3: I know you're experiencing anxiety.
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  Speaker 1: I remember all of this. I remember feeling all of this, right?
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  Speaker 1: So mind you, I go to sleep.
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  Speaker 3: I finally figure out how to go to sleep because
• 35:59
  Speaker 3: I was anxious, y'all.
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  Speaker 1: Like, I was really anxious. I woke up the next morning.
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  Speaker 1: I said, Lord, I.
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  Speaker 3: Said, if this is it, I need you to make
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  Speaker 3: it plain and I need you to make it quick.
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  Speaker 3: Had a meeting with two leaders at 8 o'clock. The
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  Speaker 3: next meeting I had at 10.30.
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  Speaker 1: Please log off. You're no longer a member of this organization.
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  Speaker 1: But I didn't even say okay. I hit end. Because
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  Speaker 1: this is a little work from my own job. You
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  Speaker 1: get what I'm saying? I'm working from home. They asked
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  Speaker 1: me to log off.
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  Speaker 3: Baby, when I say ain't nothing come out, because.
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  Speaker 1: I asked the Lord.
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  Speaker 2: You did.
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  Speaker 1: Make it plain.
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  Speaker 3: You did.
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  Speaker 1: And make it quick.
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  Speaker 3: Yep. Some of us get the answer from God and
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  Speaker 3: we hesitate. Because now that I got the answer, you
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  Speaker 3: got to sustain me, dog. One thing I'm not going
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  Speaker 3: to do is be stressed out over no money on.
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  Speaker 3: I'm not going to do that. Because obviously you have
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  Speaker 3: a sustaining plan for me. And then you are not
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  Speaker 3: just a sustainer. But I understand that you do exceedingly
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  Speaker 3: abundantly above all that I could ask and think.
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  Speaker 1: So I need you to exceed what I expect. I
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  Speaker 1: don't want to just be able to pay my bills.
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  Speaker 1: I don't just want to be... Listen, y'all. Do y'all
• 37:33
  Speaker 1: see my nails? Y'all been seeing me get my nails
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  Speaker 1: done for.
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  Speaker 3: I need a mani and a pedi.
• 37:39
  Speaker 1: I need some acrylic. I need some overlay on these.
• 37:42
  Speaker 3: My toes look like dinosaurs right now. And they ashy.
• 37:47
  Speaker 1: And my feet are ashy. My feet are ashy. Just
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: a little bit. But that's not the point. The point is,
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  Speaker 1: this is what I want. And I'm asking for.
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  Speaker 3: And I'm in great expectation. But I also know what
• 37:59
  Speaker 3: the Lord will ask me.
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  Speaker 1: That's good. What is the Lord asking you to do
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  Speaker 1: for your solution?
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  Speaker 3: If I wasn't submitted to the idea of obedience, then
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  Speaker 3: he wouldn't have been able to respond the.
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  Speaker 1: Way he did because that would have hurt me.
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  Speaker 3: And sometimes you're asking for something, going back to what
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  Speaker 3: you said about the timing, that is not the wrong thing,
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  Speaker 3: but it's about the time.
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  Speaker 1: And you have to wait. Sometimes the Lord is really
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  Speaker 1: waiting on you.
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  Speaker 3: The Lord is really waiting on you. So I just
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  Speaker 3: wanted to let y'all know that I'm not only the
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  Speaker 3: BGTV studio manager, I'm a full-time content creator. So if
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  Speaker 3: you want to sow it to the ministry, this is
• 38:48
  Speaker 3: going on good ground because we out here entrepreneuring.
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  Speaker 1: Entrepreneuring full-time. Full-time, okay? Lily walking on water. Yeah. Desiree,
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to get you. You be done. Yeah, no,
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  Speaker 1: this was good.
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  Speaker 3: I think....
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  Speaker 1: It's just the season that we're in. Well, the season
• 39:04
  Speaker 1: that I'm currently in. It's just learning literally like.
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  Speaker 3: Like, I keep reminding myself of Jeremiah 29 and 11.
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  Speaker 3: I think we read it and we're like, oh, yes.
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  Speaker 3: But we forget what it really means. It means like, hey,
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  Speaker 3: the man that created you, that brought you down here
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  Speaker 3: to this earth, he already knew who you was before
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  Speaker 3: he even put you here. He already knew where you
• 39:25
  Speaker 3: needed to be in order to fulfill the purposes on
• 39:27
  Speaker 3: your life.
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  Speaker 1: So if that's the case.
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  Speaker 3: and he doesn't mean us harm, he mean us good things,
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  Speaker 3: that means we just have to journey along.
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  Speaker 1: And a part of the journey is the relationship.
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  Speaker 3: Like a part of the journey to getting to whatever
• 39:43
  Speaker 3: that is for whatever that looks like for you is
• 39:45
  Speaker 3: a part of the relationship with the Lord.
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  Speaker 1: And that is asking, seeking, knocking, waiting. You know what
• 39:50
  Speaker 1: I'm saying? And so that's kind of like where I am.
• 39:52
  Speaker 1: Like it's been really different.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah. But it's been really beautiful because I've every day
• 40:00
  Speaker 3: I've literally seen the hand of the Lord. Like typically
• 40:03
  Speaker 3: we live in life and we're all the things. But
• 40:06
  Speaker 3: like when you really take that time to sit and
• 40:08
  Speaker 3: to have conversation and to commune with the Lord, like
• 40:11
  Speaker 3: I can literally see him in my day to day life. Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: And I wouldn't trade that.
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  Speaker 2: For the world.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: It's a different type of experience. It's almost like, Lord,
• 40:20
  Speaker 3: you just say surprise every day. Yeah. You know what
• 40:23
  Speaker 3: I'm saying? Some of the stuff I'd be like, Lord,
• 40:25
  Speaker 3: I forgot I asked you that.
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  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying? Like, Lord, I really forgot
• 40:29
  Speaker 1: I asked you that, but you really.
• 40:34
  Speaker 3: You're really showing up in the way that you said
• 40:36
  Speaker 3: you would. And a lot of us are not used
• 40:38
  Speaker 3: to that because we've equated what man, the ability of
• 40:42
  Speaker 3: man show up is the ability of God show up.
• 40:46
  Speaker 1: And that's not the same thing, right? And I think that.
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  Speaker 3: making a decision to ask is also planting a seed
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  Speaker 3: and expounding your faith.
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  Speaker 1: You're watering your faith when you ask, right?
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  Speaker 3: And so, listen, what do you need to be asking
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  Speaker 3: God right now? What have you wanted and you haven't
• 41:04
  Speaker 3: sought the Lord on there? I want to give you
• 41:06
  Speaker 3: guys some homework and just write a few things like God, diary, journal,
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  Speaker 3: whatever you want to call it. Just sit down with
• 41:14
  Speaker 3: the Lord and just start asking. If you feel like
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  Speaker 3: it's a list, a laundry list, just do it. Because
• 41:20
  Speaker 3: whatever's done unto God is going to be covered. And
• 41:23
  Speaker 3: if he say no, there's a reason.
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  Speaker 1: Why he's saying no.
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  Speaker 3: Sometimes he says not yet. But a lot of times,
• 41:30
  Speaker 3: if your heart is aligned with the Lord, it says submit.
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  Speaker 3: Doesn't it say submit yourself? What's the desires of your heart?
• 41:38
  Speaker 3: You give the desires of your heart. Give me the scripture.
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  Speaker 1: Give me the scripture.
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  Speaker 3: Give me the scripture. One thing I'm not going to
• 41:44
  Speaker 3: do is end this live without the right scripture. Y'all,
• 41:47
  Speaker 3: hold on.
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  Speaker 1: I was ending, and I was ending well. I want
• 41:50
  Speaker 1: to say some Proverbs.
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  Speaker 3: It is.
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  Speaker 1: Desires of your heart. Scripture. Abide.
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  Speaker 2: Abide.
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  Speaker 1: Take delight. That's the words I was looking for.
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  Speaker 3: Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you
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  Speaker 3: the desire of your heart.
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  Speaker 1: Okay? So, let's do that.
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  Speaker 3: Desiree, I appreciate you. I love you, girl.
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  Speaker 1: I love you.
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  Speaker 3: And next time, bring some lotion because you're supposed to
• 42:13
  Speaker 3: be armor bearing me. Producer is another form of armor bearer, okay?
• 42:17
  Speaker 3: And so you would have been fired today.
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  Speaker 1: Oh, my. Because you showed up with ash and ankles. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I forgot.
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  Speaker 3: I forgot. But anyway, love you guys. Make sure you like, comment,
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  Speaker 3: next week, until next time, remember, life could be much
• 42:36
  Speaker 3: more simple if you just ask. Peace. See y'all later.
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  Speaker 2: Thank you for tuning in to this week's episode. Since
• 42:48
  Speaker 2: you've made it this far, you might as well connect
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  Speaker 2: I know I won't see you back until next week,
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  Speaker 2: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always
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  Speaker 2: thank God for another day.
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  Speaker 3: Pray, thank God for another day, hey, hey, I'm just
• 43:21
  Speaker 3: thankful for another day, hey, hey, another day older, another
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  Speaker 3: day wiser, another day to get it right, another day
• 43:30
  Speaker 3: to rise up, another day living, another day with loved ones,
• 43:34
  Speaker 3: always remember, hold it down for a bold one, yeah.