Latest / Dits & Dahs / we know the worth of water
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- Sue: In my life at the moment, the most vulnerable aspect of my existence is the lack of income. And after having coming out of destitution for the last couple years, it's improved. I no longer feel as though my back is against a financial wall. But it nonetheless, given what I do in the industry of music business, has been not being hired as well because that segment of the industry is suffering. And so you get a whole bunch of factors combining and conspiring towards the financial side of life that can be a challenge when emergencies happen. Because, yeah, you're no longer destitute, but it doesn't necessarily mean you have the cash on hand to cover that emergency. You just have enough to live day to day. And as I speak about on other blog posts, it's a day to day existence of really constricting the diet to rice and beans and Tin fish and special treat ordering a pizza once a month. How does that set with you in your life? Does that seem like an equal share? Do you experience the same? Are you so flush with money at the moment that you can't relate? My point is, I live in a forested woodland area only about forty five miles northwest of New York City. But because the neighborhood in which I live was started off as a summer Camp use only. Much of the day to day infrastructure of your utilities and water are not originally built for ⁓ three hundred and sixty five days usage. I live off a well, those of us in this part of my neighborhood. This morning my well d was dried, meaning there is no water coming into the house. Of course, I plan for these contingencies and have a stored supply of water at hand as I'm Speaking this, it's on the weekend, so if it's something beyond just stressing the well and allowing the aquifer to replenish, then I've got today to live through before I'm able to call a well specialist to perhaps replace the well pump. You know, there might be w water in the well, but there's no way currently to pump manually at hand. So my guess is, at the worst, it's a well pump replacement. At the best, it's just a sign of the times, which is to say, That although we received a couple of inches of rain a few days ago, it's still pretty dry, and it may take the aquifer more than a day to recover. It's if it's only the aquifer. So in the meantime, I go through a different routine when we don't have water coming into the house. So living in these houses with a well that I have, I don't have an automatic shutoff built on to the well pump. So if I'm out at home when the well runs dry, that means that when I return If it's more than a day or two, I'm likely gonna have a very, very expensive, to me expensive, repair bill, because the the pump will have burnt out. But that's not where we're at. I'm home and went into water conservation routine. And then you have this liminal space because of the routine where you have to allow time for the aquifer to refresh that for a lot of people like myself would generate or allow to creep in anxiety. Well what if you know, what if I turn the well on in a couple of well, if I turn the pump on in a couple of hours and there's still no water and it's a Sunday. And a lot of those questions can be easily solved because what? You got the cash on hand. You just spend the cash, you don't think about it. Yeah, you get concerned about how much it's gonna cost you, but the decision about how to fix your problem is because you have the finances at hand to do it. That doesn't mean being reckless and putting it on a credit card on the never never. That information. But there was a point in my life before destitution and I was carrying a boatload of credit card debt, unsecured debt, about eighty, ninety thousand of it, that I would make these emergency decisions and just put it on the credit card without thinking about it. Using the credit as my own personal bank, which I think is a common thing that most people do when they use a credit card. And that kind of mindset starts to creep into a habit in a way that if you're not aware. Is really gonna cause a lot of hurt and pain at a time when you know that you have no credit cards to use. Like being destitute. In my case, my situation is fortunate that I do have the cash. I don't have any way to replenish it, given the lack of income. You know, as I mentioned, it's a long recovery from coming out of destitution, specializing in an area of work That is temporarily experiencing a downturn. Gotta wait for things to improve and figure out how to take care of yourself in the meantime, of course, you can't ignore the fact that like some things in life that those things may never return, so don't wait for ⁓ But in the grand scheme of my life, as I regain control of its trajectory and recognize that a lot of these situations were energetically created to put me in a box. Yeah, think a box like a mirror. All the edges are mirrors and you break some shards and you put ⁓ in the box so that when you put me in that box I can only see a shattered reflection of myself with no way out. The idea of putting somebody in a freezer jar or a freezer. Energetically of course Well, I see now that this is another physical manifestation of that. That is now sort of frittering away because in the past, maybe a couple of years ago had this happened, I really would have been in a very difficult place because there was no cash to pay for this emergency. I have the cash, but I'm really loath to spend it for the sake of it. Knowing that it's gonna take very long time for that to be replenished due to lack of income is a part of what a lot of us are going through. It's one of the things that when I was applying to a couple of jobs at Universal Music yesterday, And was asked a question about potential conflicts of interest, I'm thinking, well, you're asking about a six month term position for my side hustles to be considered a conflict of interest for which they have not been active for at least six months, and that probably won't be for the six months that you hire me. There is no conflict of interest just because the non commercial music industry is struggling, of which I am a veteran. Am I mad? No. Am I frustrated? No. I've been here before with stressing a well. And for those are concerned, stressing a well in this context means that wasn't enough water in the well to do one load of laundry. I do two loads of laundry a week. I take a shower once every three days, and don't keep taps open. And for the most part I survived really well myself and my dog. So the fact that it's happening today, I'm very grateful that I have my Rainwater butts full, I can use those to flush toilets and such. But all of those haters that have been casting such projections towards me, and others in this situation, are starting to realize that when somebody is abundant, i. e. me not having my back against the financial wall and having cash on hand, that those finance crippling spells won't land. They'll be returned to them, and they've been paying for them, so they're actually perpetuating What they set out to do is just that they wanted it to happen to someone else, not them. You know, it's to fear it's to feed that arrogant ego to be able to point fingers and at somebody and that you don't know and say I'm better off than them. And I'm proud of that. And that's not what this is about either for me. I mean I'll survive. And if you check my website, Sue Sinclair dot com, each and every day you'll see a post from me proving that. If you're interested, visit my YouTube channel. I post twice a day. Each and every time that I experience a bit of a financial blip, I realize there are times when yes, this stuff is directly impacting me, but in the general, it's just something you go through. You're more than strong enough to endure it, you realize about yourself, and you also recognize those that are casting those vibes towards you aren't. Because they didn't turn in within and see how much love they have for themselves. Creation energy is what makes love. Everybody has that. Maybe some have buried buried it deep within to recognize that they feel that they are without. Hm or just haven't seen themselves within. And that creation energy is what'll motivate you to get through it. ⁓ it's not gonna be easy. You might even be kicking and screaming, complaining that all of this stuff is happening to you and others somebody else is doing it out of revenge. No. It's happening to you for a lesson. To get teach you how to get through it. And the idea that you can put a finger pointing energetically to whomever might have wished you ill with your well was also, of course, ridiculous. You have to take accountability for the fact that you got get yourself out of the stressed well situation, but understand with protection, remaining positive prevents any of those energies from returning. It's just a temporary thing, so if you stay positive all the time you're gonna be in a good state. place. All of these energies that are being projected and expecting to have a result, those that are doing so are spending money going to telepathic practitioners to get an inside scoop on what's going on via remote viewing at my end. Because their main source has discovered they aren't going to do that anymore. They're going to stop betraying their eternal love. So as a result, all of those financial stress energies that they're sending are bouncing back to them. Because after all, you send what you wish to receive. You create a cause, that's the effect you receive. It doesn't involve me. It does affect me, but only from the standpoint of my awareness telling me and my intuition telling me that like before, grace and patience is the way forward through these liminal spaces financially. And appreciate everything that you have and be grateful for it while you're going through it. Calmly, peacefully, and have some fun. Not having water temporarily just means that I have to find something else to do with my time. Thanks for listening.