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Adapt and Adjust with Lalah Delia · The Breakfast Club

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Speaker 1: Take a deep breath in through your nose.
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Speaker 2: Hold it.
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Speaker 1: Now, release slowly again deep in helle hold release, repeating
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Speaker 1: internally to yourself as you connect to my voice. I
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Speaker 1: am deeply, deeply well. I I am deeply, deeply well.
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Speaker 1: I am deeply wow. I'm Debbie Brown and this is
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Speaker 1: the Deeply Well Podcast. Welcome to Deeply Well, a soft
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Speaker 1: place to land on your journey. I'm Debbie Brown and
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Speaker 1: this is a podcast for those that are curious, creative,
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Speaker 1: and ready to expand on your journey of higher consciousness
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Speaker 1: and self care. This is where we heal, this is
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Speaker 1: where we become. Welcome to the show. My intention for
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Speaker 1: this episode is to really dive into what it is
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Speaker 1: to live with self mastery. I'm a big believer that
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Speaker 1: being on this journey, there is always, always, always deeper
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Speaker 1: to go, and that tends to be where once we
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Speaker 1: surrender to it, some of the fun and the creativity
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Speaker 1: can really come to life in the way that we
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Speaker 1: choose to experience what it is being alive and experience
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Speaker 1: our spiritual curriculum. Today's shoe I have a master I
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Speaker 1: have an incredible, incredible guest joining us today. Leyla Delia
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Speaker 1: is a best selling author, an educator, and a spiritual writer.
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Speaker 1: She's a certified spiritual practitioner and the founder of Vibrate
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Speaker 1: Higher Daily School. She is leading seekers to self empowerment
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Speaker 1: and a life of more grace and high vibrations. Her
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Speaker 1: best selling book, Vibrate Higher Daily, Live Your Power, spiritual writings, teaching, speaking,
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Speaker 1: and social media presence are guiding seekers all around the
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Speaker 1: globe on a journey back home to their empowered, higher
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Speaker 1: potential whole selves. Through her lyrical and organic writing, teaching
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Speaker 1: style and experiences, Layla en Liven spiritual seekers looking to
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Speaker 1: live with more intuition, empowerment, higher purpose and vibrations, confidence, grace,
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Speaker 1: and subconscious mind repro gramming. Her work is a response
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Speaker 1: to her journey and to the current vibrational state of
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Speaker 1: the world that we live in, navigate and journey through together,
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Speaker 1: my sister, Welcome to the show, Leila.
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Speaker 2: Thank you, sweet sister Devi for having me. I am
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Speaker 2: so excited about this conversation, as I am all of ours.
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Speaker 2: But this is in front of we be talking. Are
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Speaker 2: we talking? Yes?
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Speaker 1: Oh my god, I so I so love that about us.
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Speaker 1: Like you know, some people, it's just you were kind
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Speaker 1: of like born to talk.
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Speaker 2: To each other. I love that as perfect that is.
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Speaker 2: That's it. Yeah, born to talk to each other. Yeah.
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Speaker 1: I'll look up sometimes like we'll be we'll be like
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Speaker 1: chewing on some thoughts together, and I'll look up and
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Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, it's been three hours. We've been on
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Speaker 1: the phone for three.
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Speaker 2: Out easily and just flowing the entire time.
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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, Leila, I've been I've been really looking forward
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Speaker 1: to this conversation for so many reasons, but especially because
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Speaker 1: you know, when I thought of this newest season of
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Speaker 1: the podcast, those who been rocking with this show for
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Speaker 1: the last three and a half four years that I've
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Speaker 1: been doing it, everyone has been going so deep, at
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Speaker 1: least from the responses I've been getting from those of
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Speaker 1: you that that share, which I'm so grateful for those
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Speaker 1: shares and the expansive feedback that you give for each episode.
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Speaker 1: But I think we've reached a point for those that
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Speaker 1: really connected to the journey seriously to find new ways,
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Speaker 1: new tools, new techniques to go even deeper. And one
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Speaker 1: of the things that especially you and I always talk
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Speaker 1: about is surrendering to the understanding that even the things
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Speaker 1: that you have mastered, there's deeper to go, there's new
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Speaker 1: facets to see it through.
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Speaker 2: Yeah.
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Speaker 1: So I think before we dive into all of that,
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Speaker 1: I would love to start with saying, how is your
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Speaker 1: spirit right now? What are you currently savoring in your life?
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Speaker 2: Oh? I'm savoring slowing down, slow living and just being
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Speaker 2: able to be in the process of the shift happening.
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Speaker 2: And I'm going through an intense shift and I'm so
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Speaker 2: present with it. I'm mothering myself through it. I'm my
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Speaker 2: healer through it, I'm my nurse through it, my midwife
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Speaker 2: through it, and I'm just being so hands on with
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Speaker 2: myself at this moment, through this shift, and that process
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Speaker 2: has made it such a completely such a completely different shift.
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Speaker 2: So where it feels like, oh, my team is with me.
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Speaker 2: You know when I say my team, my support team
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Speaker 2: first off is me like all hands are on deck.
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Speaker 2: And so it feels so grounding and good going through
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Speaker 2: this shift. And I have you of course, you know,
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Speaker 2: just having beautiful sisters to you know, to bounce thoughts
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Speaker 2: and experience off of. It's really beautiful. So I'm savoring
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Speaker 2: being able to slow down and journey and grace.
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Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, something that that you shared with your community
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Speaker 1: and you've talked about in your book is just you know,
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Speaker 1: really being on this path for quite a while. You know,
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Speaker 1: you came into your awakening, you came into your understanding
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Speaker 1: that there was more, that there were more expansive ways
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Speaker 1: of being alive, and you chose a path of service
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Speaker 1: very early on. So a lot of you know, I
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Speaker 1: think shifting is something that you probably have a lot
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Speaker 1: of muscle memory in.
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Speaker 2: Right.
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Speaker 1: It's like your a neat way of being is to
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Speaker 1: kind of surrender to the feeling of that intuition guiding
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Speaker 1: you towards something new, different, more when you are like
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Speaker 1: in a moment like this, how do you know it's
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Speaker 1: time to shift? How are you made aware that okay,
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Speaker 1: there we grow again, you know, like this, let's lean
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Speaker 1: into it.
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Speaker 2: Yeah, for me and almost I would probably say the
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Speaker 2: person watching this right now, most of us. When your
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Speaker 2: life feels the most wonky, when your life feels the
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Speaker 2: most vulnerable, and when it feels like everything is like
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Speaker 2: not working out, falling apart, that's exactly what's supposed to
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Speaker 2: be happening. Because you're expanding, and so that that shell
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Speaker 2: that you've been in, that container that has held you
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Speaker 2: purposely has to expand out. It has to dissolve, it
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Speaker 2: has to burst open. And so just going through the
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Speaker 2: gravity of that, that's when I know every time and
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Speaker 2: I'm like, oh, okay, or if it hasn't happened a while,
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Speaker 2: I can almost track it and clock it. Now, I'm like, oh,
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Speaker 2: clock like clockwork. It's about time and another feeling. If
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Speaker 2: you don't have that, it's like you have this immense
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Speaker 2: amount of what can appear to be boredom where everything
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Speaker 2: just seems to be like crickets, you know, just it's
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Speaker 2: really like, Okay, I'm here, I'm existing. What's happening is
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Speaker 2: that restlessness that kind of starts to creep in? It does,
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Speaker 2: and I'm like, oh, you know. And so that those
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Speaker 2: two ways are how I know, yeah, yeah, and what
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Speaker 2: does that process look like? And I want to get like, okay,
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Speaker 2: let me start here. I remember like years ago I
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Speaker 2: had gone probably ten years ago, I had gone to
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Speaker 2: this event and Maryann Williamson was speaking, and at the
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Speaker 2: time she said something that felt incredibly revolutionary to me.
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Speaker 2: She was talking about how she approached feelings of depression,
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Speaker 2: and she was saying that she recognized that it's just
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Speaker 2: kind of you know, the warning signal that's letting you
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Speaker 2: know that it's time to work on self, it's time
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Speaker 2: to hermit, it's time to process. It doesn't have to
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Speaker 2: always have some of the gravity to it that it's
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Speaker 2: presented with always. And I remember she said that she
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Speaker 2: would kind of like build herself a little cave almost
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Speaker 2: like when she felt those feelings creep in, she'd say, Okay,
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Speaker 2: let me stalk my fridge, let me get you know,
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Speaker 2: let me clean everything. Let me get the things you
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Speaker 2: know that bring me comfort nearby. And it just I
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Speaker 2: remember the time that I heard that. That was incredibly
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Speaker 2: powerful for me, and I began to approach every time
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Speaker 2: I have an experience like you're talking about like that,
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Speaker 2: and I say, all right, well, I'm a book, a
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Speaker 2: spa appointment, have that on calendar ready to go.
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Speaker 1: I'm going to have you know, I'm going to have
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Speaker 1: the tools that I need nearby. I'm going to have
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Speaker 1: you know, the oils, I'm going to have you know,
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Speaker 1: the tinctures, all the things that I know my nervous
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Speaker 1: system craves when it's under duress. And then I'm going
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Speaker 1: to find things to kind of pack in my creativity.
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Speaker 1: If I'm not really feeling inspired, let me leave some
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Speaker 1: paper around with some colored pencils some you know, I
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Speaker 1: like making collages. So let me like get a little
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Speaker 1: stack of mags and some scissors. So for your process,
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Speaker 1: what does that look like for you? And what are
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Speaker 1: some ways that those listening can say, Oh, that's what
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Speaker 1: that feeling is inside? Okay, how do I maximize this? Yeah?
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Speaker 2: I get very very present, and when I say present,
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Speaker 2: like all throughout the day, like I'm on, I'm and
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Speaker 2: what I'm going through it because I understand my body
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Speaker 2: is so sensitive and most of us are highly sensitive.
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Speaker 2: Some times we don't realize it because we're tuning it
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Speaker 2: out with other distractions in our life, which is another
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Speaker 2: important conversation you know, of like the things that are
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Speaker 2: taking away that sensitivity. That's so necessary, right, and so
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Speaker 2: it's okay to feel, and so I allow myself to
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Speaker 2: feel whatever is coming through, so I can know that
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Speaker 2: a shift is happening. And it's just like a navigator,
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Speaker 2: like being able to feel, you know, just the you know,
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Speaker 2: the waves you know, you know, look at them and
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Speaker 2: understand the weather that's coming in and being able to forecast.
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Speaker 2: I need to do this, do that, like you say,
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Speaker 2: So for me, I have to always turn to rest
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Speaker 2: and I have to turn to body work. Massage is
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Speaker 2: like yeah, like I just had the best chiatsu massage.
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Speaker 2: This person was like rolling my body in ways I
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Speaker 2: didn't even know it was possible, and it was like
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Speaker 2: completely different right exactly. And I was like, resurrect me
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Speaker 2: through this change I'm going through. And I because what
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Speaker 2: can happen. What can happen is that it can feel
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Speaker 2: like a midlife crisis or even a thing now called
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Speaker 2: quarter life crisis, and it could feel like that, but
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Speaker 2: then when you realize, oh, this is just another shifty
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Speaker 2: you know, this is just another awakened or ascension, like
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Speaker 2: whatever your language is for, it's it's something and we
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Speaker 2: can't deny that these things happen, almost like milestones in
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Speaker 2: our lives. And so just allowing myself to say, I
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Speaker 2: know I'm headed for this milestone. What can I do
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Speaker 2: to prepare? And another thing is having my toolbag flower essences.
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Speaker 2: I keep them in my I joke a lot now
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Speaker 2: like inner within myself because my purse looks so different
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Speaker 2: now that it used to look like back in the day,
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Speaker 2: and like now and I'm you know, I will and
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Speaker 2: you know, like I've done this with you, Like we
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Speaker 2: could be out at a function or you know, out
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Speaker 2: of town or whatever, and I'm like, oh, I have this,
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Speaker 2: and I have that. Pull out medicines and herbs and
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Speaker 2: tinctures and it's just like it. It keeps me so grounded.
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Speaker 2: So plant medicine. I stick with that. I stay with that.
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Speaker 2: I listen to music that helps my brain waves be
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Speaker 2: in a supportive space and create firm, healthy boundaries of
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Speaker 2: not just energy from people, but things of like what
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Speaker 2: can come into my eargate iGATE during this very vulnerable time,
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Speaker 2: and knowing that it's a vulnerable time. And with that,
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Speaker 2: if I'm in a vulnerable time, I really have to
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Speaker 2: mother and be mindful of how I'm authoring my thoughts
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Speaker 2: and my words and my beliefs during this time. And
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Speaker 2: so I'm just so hands on. And so now I
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Speaker 2: talk about in the book that become the chemist of
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Speaker 2: your life, so that you can understand your life as
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Speaker 2: your laboratory. And certain things together make potions, and certain
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Speaker 2: compounds together are beautiful, but other compounds together are poisons
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Speaker 2: and toxins. So just really understanding that and all this
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Speaker 2: helps to inform how you take care of your vessel,
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Speaker 2: which is carrying the gifts and this next expansion. Yeah,
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Speaker 2: I love that so so much. One of my teachers
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Speaker 2: kind of described it as like run experiments on yourself. Yeah,
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Speaker 2: you know, like be willing to experiment with yourself, like
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Speaker 2: even in those thoughts and actions, like if I made
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Speaker 2: this decision differently, let's just see what could come, you know,
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Speaker 2: and then kind of we get to adapt from there.
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Speaker 2: Adapt That word is like, that's the word. That's the
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Speaker 2: word adapt because it's gonna it's going to cause you
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Speaker 2: to adapt so much.
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Speaker 1: Something that that you were talking about, And this is
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Speaker 1: something we really live by and talk about all the time.
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Speaker 1: But I haven't talked about it too much on the
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Speaker 1: show yet. You know, there's a lot of phrases that
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Speaker 1: are getting thrown around a lot right now. A lot
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Speaker 1: of a lot of people are like I'm an impath,
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Speaker 1: I'm highly sensitive.
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Speaker 2: A lot are. But it's also there are.
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Speaker 1: Terms that I think are not always fully translated. And
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Speaker 1: I would love to talk about that with you for
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Speaker 1: a minute, because you and I are both empathic, and
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Speaker 1: we are both like very highly sensitive, like very high
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Speaker 1: Like we can't be in toxic rooms because we'll absorb
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Speaker 1: the energy that's present, so you know one thing about
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Speaker 1: you and I will pop up and we'll be in
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Speaker 1: the mix, and then you won't hear from us for months. Yes, yes,
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Speaker 1: but you know that piece. That's something. When I first
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Speaker 1: learned of that phrase early in my journey, I really
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Speaker 1: rejected that label highly sensitive because I didn't fully understand
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Speaker 1: what it meant, and as someone that had lived a
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Speaker 1: life that I felt like, I don't look like the
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Speaker 1: things that I've been through, so sometimes people assume things
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Speaker 1: are easier than they've actually been. I really rejected that
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Speaker 1: because I would say, I'm not sensitive. You don't know
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Speaker 1: my life.
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Speaker 2: Do you know what I've walked through?
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Speaker 1: I'm not sensitive, And I didn't really understand that it
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Speaker 1: meant like deep sensitivity of your physical body, like at
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Speaker 1: a cellular level, the way that your body responds to stress,
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Speaker 1: the way that your body responds to toxicity. But that
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Speaker 1: alone is such a profound healing journey. When you can
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Speaker 1: understand that you know some things that may be happening
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Speaker 1: to you physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, there's a whole other
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Speaker 1: category of experience you're having that could be massively different
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Speaker 1: from other people. Yes, can we speak to that can
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Speaker 1: you speak on what that journey is for you, kind
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Speaker 1: of being someone that's highly sensitive, someone that is incredibly intuitive,
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Speaker 1: and how you adapt your needs around that.
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Speaker 2: Oh, absolutely was. It was helpful for me as well
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Speaker 2: because I had language for what I was experiencing, and
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Speaker 2: like the adage goes, name it to tame it, and
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Speaker 2: so it helps to know, Okay, well, I have a
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Speaker 2: sensitivity to stimuli, into energy, into people's fields, and even
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Speaker 2: to people's thoughts, like I can. I can literally be
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Speaker 2: in a room and feel someone's thoughts. But when I
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Speaker 2: was younger, I didn't know what to do with that,
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Speaker 2: like what are you growing up in the eighties and
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Speaker 2: in night, Like yeah, there was just no context language,
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Speaker 2: no language, no community, no support for any of this.
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Speaker 2: So it kind of swept that swept under the rug.
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Speaker 2: So we're our generation is the ones who were awakening
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Speaker 2: to it in a way of like oh we're we're
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Speaker 2: We brought the support online. So now this next generation
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Speaker 2: and the generations to come, we'll have language forward and
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Speaker 2: community and support and a path already paved to say
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Speaker 2: it's okay to land here and to be like this.
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Speaker 2: But I, for the life of me, I felt so
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Speaker 2: awkward For a huge majority of my life. It was
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Speaker 2: a lot of masking. It was a lot of fitting
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Speaker 2: in because oh, no one else is feeling this, all right,
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Speaker 2: you know, I'm just keeping it to myself. But at
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Speaker 2: the same time, I'm reading the room. I know we
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Speaker 2: shouldn't be here. I know I shouldn't be here for sure,
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Speaker 2: but going along with it. So there's a lot of
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Speaker 2: killing I had to do through even that type of
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Speaker 2: thing of not being true to who I was because
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Speaker 2: no one else could understand it. So I just kind
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Speaker 2: of just buried it, right and so now, but living
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Speaker 2: in that authenticity, authenticity and in my power with it
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Speaker 2: changed the game. Like, I'm so happy that I claimed
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Speaker 2: who I am and I'm proud of it. I'm happy,
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Speaker 2: you know, I'm full of gratitude for being able to
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Speaker 2: name like what I'm going through, and you know, even
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Speaker 2: even on a deeper level of like recently finding out
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Speaker 2: other things about myself of like, Okay, you're on the
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Speaker 2: spectrum and it's okay, it's okay to be you know,
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Speaker 2: high functioning and on the spectrum. And I never understood
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Speaker 2: that before you I love you, Yeah, And so for
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Speaker 2: me understanding, well, this is why you had that gift,
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Speaker 2: This is why you had these feelings, this is why
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Speaker 2: you could perceive things. This is why people didn't always
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Speaker 2: understand you, and this is why you were misled or mislabeled.
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Speaker 2: And you know, thinking back far as like kindergarten, you know,
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Speaker 2: being put back in kindergarten because they didn't know what
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Speaker 2: was wrong with me. But now that I understand that
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Speaker 2: it wasn't anything wrong. It was just different, right, and
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Speaker 2: it was just something different. And so being able to
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Speaker 2: share that even in this space, this is my first time,
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Speaker 2: as you know, sharing this publicly. But I'm at home here,
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Speaker 2: you know, I'm at home here. My mother left the
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Speaker 2: planet not knowing because I did have a later in life,
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Speaker 2: as obviously, diagnosis of you know, of being on the spectrum.
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Speaker 2: So it's different for me. And then you know, the
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Speaker 2: way I see energy. I have a niece who also,
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Speaker 2: you know, is on the autism spectrum, and she is
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Speaker 2: such a joy to our family, and for so long
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Speaker 2: I connected with her, you know, I connected with my
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Speaker 2: niece on such a deep level. Now I was always like,
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Speaker 2: this is my baby, this is my baby. But now
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Speaker 2: I understand. Now I understand why a truly felt like that.
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Speaker 2: So it gave me this new for one, a new identity,
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Speaker 2: and I'm like, wow, cool is that? Like? I embrace it.
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Speaker 2: You know, there was grief a little bit when I
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Speaker 2: first found out to you know, because I was like,
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Speaker 2: I went through denial of like there is absolutely no way,
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Speaker 2: and then I had to understand what highly functioning meant.
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Speaker 2: But also being careful of that word because anyone who's
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Speaker 2: highly sensitive or who is on the spectrum or who
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Speaker 2: is empathic people, because you can function sometimes at a
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Speaker 2: high capacity, you're not given the grace to also have
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Speaker 2: your sensitivities. And I think, you know, that's why a
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Speaker 2: lot of people now want to remove the term highly
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Speaker 2: functioning it comes to autism, because it sometimes gives people
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Speaker 2: a false sense of you know, capacity, when sometimes it's
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Speaker 2: not there. So so yeah, so just energy, being empathic,
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Speaker 2: highly sensitives. I think that once you can realize whoever
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Speaker 2: you are and however you identify, that it's okay and
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Speaker 2: to just journey and grace and understand that this is
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Speaker 2: how your unique spirit chose to be in this type
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Speaker 2: of body this lifetime, and that body is necessary, that
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Speaker 2: sensitivity is necessary, and learning how to master it one
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Speaker 2: thing for me when I was younger, I was very
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Speaker 2: highly reactive. My feelings would get hurt so easy. I
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Speaker 2: would get triggered so easy, I would pop off so easy.
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Speaker 2: I would just be like, Okay, this is what we're
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Speaker 2: doing so easy, you know, match the energy so easy.
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Speaker 2: And that was as you know, for my types, that's
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Speaker 2: the absolute worst you could do is to match energy.
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Speaker 2: Take even more on. So, you know, being able now
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Speaker 2: to stay in the practice of mindfulness, vibration and meditation,
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Speaker 2: all these things just really helped speak you know, to
22:05
Speaker 2: who and what that was, and you know, just the
22:08
Speaker 2: times that we're.
22:09
Speaker 1: In deeply well, I just really want to express, like
22:30
Speaker 1: how much, just how much I honor the gift that
22:37
Speaker 1: you are giving so many by choosing to share your
22:41
Speaker 1: experience right now, because this is a piece of things
22:47
Speaker 1: that are kind of I feel that, you know, these
22:51
Speaker 1: conversations around mental health and spiritual development have been really intensifying,
22:57
Speaker 1: especially since twenty twenty, but really in the life last
23:00
Speaker 1: couple of decades. For the ability for children to have
23:05
Speaker 1: diagnosises that are supportive to them being able to live
23:10
Speaker 1: a life that allows them to maximize their possibilities, and
23:16
Speaker 1: something that is happening right now is that there is
23:20
Speaker 1: a huge wave of Generation X and Generation and millennials
23:26
Speaker 1: that are getting very late diagnosises, and there are men
23:31
Speaker 1: and women across the country that are awakening to finding
23:34
Speaker 1: out that they have neurodivergence in a variety of ways,
23:39
Speaker 1: with many being you know what is at least right now,
23:43
Speaker 1: I think this is still the correct terminology. It's changing
23:45
Speaker 1: pretty rapidly, but being on the spectrum of autism and
23:50
Speaker 1: a lot of people are not getting that diagnosis, especially
23:53
Speaker 1: women and girls until now like thirties, forties, fifties, sixties,
24:00
Speaker 1: and it is it's so powerful to just have an
24:08
Speaker 1: understanding of who you are and who you've been, and
24:12
Speaker 1: to understand that so many of the things that you
24:15
Speaker 1: may have been fighting with yourself over in Wye or
24:18
Speaker 1: you know, reactions that you're having internally that other people
24:21
Speaker 1: aren't seeing, ways that you're trying to understand the world
24:24
Speaker 1: around you that other people are completely unaware of. Yeah,
24:29
Speaker 1: and to just know that you're perfectly designed and this
24:33
Speaker 1: whole time you just weren't giving the phrasing and you
24:35
Speaker 1: weren't giving the support to be able to be your
24:38
Speaker 1: full whole self, and so.
24:43
Speaker 2: I'm just so yeah, thank you, we are just yeah,
24:50
Speaker 2: it's your being your full whole self. Like that's if
24:55
Speaker 2: there was anything I could look back on, if anything,
24:58
Speaker 2: out of all the things I can regret of my past,
25:01
Speaker 2: that's the only one because everything else I understand was purpose,
25:07
Speaker 2: you know, it was prerequisite lessons, it was, it was
25:11
Speaker 2: boot camp. But not being able to be my full self,
25:15
Speaker 2: that's the one where I understand that that had the
25:21
Speaker 2: most impact for me, honestly, even over the trauma over
25:26
Speaker 2: domestic like like really over domestic violence, you know, over
25:31
Speaker 2: being lost in these streets, really like being turned out
25:35
Speaker 2: like in so many different ways, you know, through predator relationships.
25:39
Speaker 2: But it was not being able to be in my
25:41
Speaker 2: full self. And I know, had I had the language
25:45
Speaker 2: and the knowledge, there's no way I would have been
25:47
Speaker 2: you know, made a lot of the decisions that I
25:49
Speaker 2: made or put up with a lot that I put
25:52
Speaker 2: up with and not having like any type of guidance like, oh,
25:57
Speaker 2: there you go, you're out there, figure it out, you know,
26:00
Speaker 2: but we figured out. Like, thank goodness, I figured it out.
26:04
Speaker 2: And I give thanks for that survival mechanism that my
26:06
Speaker 2: soul came here with to just be thrown into the deep,
26:10
Speaker 2: you know, into the deep and teaching myself how to
26:14
Speaker 2: swim in it.
26:14
Speaker 1: M yeah, mmm, how does that feel in this moment?
26:22
Speaker 1: What is changing and shifting for you with just the
26:27
Speaker 1: deep and understanding of how your body and brain works.
26:31
Speaker 2: Yeah, A lot of it is this this new like
26:35
Speaker 2: I was saying when we began our conversation, this embodiment
26:39
Speaker 2: of mind dwelling Hiller has just completely like, Okay, now
26:45
Speaker 2: you're ready, right, and mothering myself now you're ready. Now
26:52
Speaker 2: you're ready to receive my love and my care. And
26:55
Speaker 2: so I have been loving myself and nurturing myself because
26:59
Speaker 2: my mother's not here, you know, she again she left
27:04
Speaker 2: this realm before she knew and I know she would
27:08
Speaker 2: be here holding space for me completely. And so my
27:11
Speaker 2: grandmother Layla as well, my grandmother Diglia as well. And
27:14
Speaker 2: so I think that for me, the number one thing
27:17
Speaker 2: that I was clear I had to do was to
27:20
Speaker 2: nurture and love myself and mother myself through it. So
27:22
Speaker 2: it's feeling very nurturing, and it's feeling very I'm learning
27:29
Speaker 2: myself through it. You know, there's probably still because it's fresh,
27:35
Speaker 2: you know, the awareness of it it's days where I'm like, oh, okay,
27:39
Speaker 2: this is why I'm seeing this like this, or this
27:41
Speaker 2: is this is what's happening, or this is why I
27:43
Speaker 2: need to do this, and I give thanks for And
27:49
Speaker 2: I know you said this to me in a conversation
27:51
Speaker 2: about being at a certain level to receive it. Now
27:55
Speaker 2: you know that I had done enough work to where
27:58
Speaker 2: this is the embodiment that I expect parents through that,
28:01
Speaker 2: and I'm grateful that I did that. Like I laid
28:03
Speaker 2: so much groundwork in healing and loving myself and knowing
28:08
Speaker 2: how to journey and grace and so the things that
28:10
Speaker 2: I wrote in this book, the things that I write, like,
28:13
Speaker 2: I really write from such a real place that it
28:16
Speaker 2: just it's they're like medicine words and they are words
28:19
Speaker 2: of They're not just words like oh I just have
28:21
Speaker 2: to write something to post online. No, this is like
28:24
Speaker 2: channeled intuitive words that are helping me, but also that
28:28
Speaker 2: I know that are helping other people as well. And
28:31
Speaker 2: so it's feeling very supported and I'm just so grateful
28:34
Speaker 2: because what I first found out, it was like WHOA
28:38
Speaker 2: like that that divine sacred whirlwind, that tornado, you know,
28:42
Speaker 2: like Dorothy and the Wiz like, Okay, where am I?
28:45
Speaker 1: Like?
28:45
Speaker 2: What is this? So? Yeah, just finding this so in
28:50
Speaker 2: that movie The Wiz is just my ultimate favorite spiritual
28:53
Speaker 2: teaching movie. But yeah, just coming back home to myself. Yeah,
28:57
Speaker 2: and knowing that I was always home, but how and
29:00
Speaker 2: the awareness that I'm home is different.
29:01
Speaker 1: Now. What I'm hearing out what you're saying is like,
29:07
Speaker 1: oh does it.
29:11
Speaker 2: Nose break? I'm sorry? Okay, this like.
29:18
Speaker 1: Visual that I feel that I'm getting in everything that
29:20
Speaker 1: you're just saying is like also like when you come
29:24
Speaker 1: into new information about yourself and about your life, you know,
29:31
Speaker 1: there is a grief that flows with that, right like
29:34
Speaker 1: who would I have been if I had had the support?
29:39
Speaker 1: Who would I have been if I had known there
29:40
Speaker 1: was a different choice? Or you know, for all of us,
29:43
Speaker 1: I think there is this grief that can come in
29:47
Speaker 1: with some massive breakthroughs and shifts that come forward and on.
29:55
Speaker 1: You know, if we're looking at this through Yen and Yong,
29:58
Speaker 1: Light in the dark, dark in the light, continuously, continuously,
30:01
Speaker 1: there's always this balancing that happens cosmically where there's also
30:08
Speaker 1: this opportunity to really jump back into your path, into
30:12
Speaker 1: your past and heal those ages like to sit in
30:17
Speaker 1: thought and in meditation and prayer around pivotal moments in
30:21
Speaker 1: your life where you didn't have the information you have
30:24
Speaker 1: now and extend that grace then as you're walking through
30:31
Speaker 1: this part of your journey now and this new expansion.
30:34
Speaker 1: This just really define glorious uncovering. How has the healing
30:47
Speaker 1: felt in that for you? And is there opportunities that
30:51
Speaker 1: have been kind of presenting to like love that little Laila,
30:55
Speaker 1: like go back and hold that little Laila, or just
30:57
Speaker 1: experience even the creative gift that maybe weren't noticed or
31:02
Speaker 1: weren't appreciate it that were part of the way that
31:05
Speaker 1: you're designed.
31:06
Speaker 2: Yeah, oh absolutely, I would say all of the above.
31:09
Speaker 2: It's my son allows me to play and I it's
31:15
Speaker 2: something very interesting about our relationship because he brings out
31:20
Speaker 2: my inner child, and my inner child just has so
31:23
Speaker 2: much fun with him. And what started as me playing
31:29
Speaker 2: with him when he was a toddler in a way
31:32
Speaker 2: of showing him how to play. You know, just one
31:35
Speaker 2: day he was being really rough with his action figures,
31:38
Speaker 2: like me to them, and I was like, oh, I
31:40
Speaker 2: want to teach him in this moment, like how to
31:42
Speaker 2: be on a team, like how to work together, you know,
31:45
Speaker 2: like let's make what if your action heroes or he
31:48
Speaker 2: tells me not have to call them toys, their figures
31:51
Speaker 2: action figures, okay, And so so my politically correct as
31:54
Speaker 2: a boy mama got to be correct. So his action figures,
32:00
Speaker 2: like what if he learns how to work on a team,
32:02
Speaker 2: And so that was such a pivotal Yeah, I mean
32:04
Speaker 2: five minutes in, he was like a completely different having
32:07
Speaker 2: a completely different supportive experience with himself, right, And so
32:11
Speaker 2: in that moment while I was teaching him, I was like, oh,
32:14
Speaker 2: but this is fun, Like I was on the floor
32:16
Speaker 2: with him, and ever since that moment, I was so
32:19
Speaker 2: mindful of he needs play and I was already aware
32:24
Speaker 2: that little Layla, you know, is feeling some things about
32:28
Speaker 2: what she experienced when she was younger and not having
32:31
Speaker 2: full range to just be who she was. And so
32:34
Speaker 2: in that moment that feeling, I was like, I want
32:37
Speaker 2: to generate this more because he enjoyed it. I enjoyed it,
32:39
Speaker 2: And so we continue just have playtime together. And even
32:43
Speaker 2: till now he's fourteen now and we still do the
32:45
Speaker 2: same thing. Like our relationship is just so unique in
32:48
Speaker 2: a way of like we play I'm mama, you know, mama,
32:52
Speaker 2: you know number one. But we we play and that
32:56
Speaker 2: really allows me to just be free in who I am.
32:59
Speaker 2: So that is is having playtime my daughter as well,
33:03
Speaker 2: like we I get to really with her. My inner
33:06
Speaker 2: teenager is there with her and my young adult self
33:11
Speaker 2: and it's like I already got through mama phase and
33:13
Speaker 2: she's she's twenty five now, so it's like I can
33:16
Speaker 2: have India, so I can have I can have different
33:22
Speaker 2: levels of expression with her and with her. I'm aware
33:27
Speaker 2: that being able to be my younger self and mindful,
33:32
Speaker 2: like you're your younger self, but you're your mindful younger
33:35
Speaker 2: self is a good friend to her, you know, is
33:38
Speaker 2: a sister to her. And I'm so aware that at
33:41
Speaker 2: the same time, all these different things are going on
33:44
Speaker 2: and it's so multi dimensional and so in that way,
33:47
Speaker 2: I feel really fool And then as mama, they really
33:51
Speaker 2: are such supportive children, like they really are, like she
33:55
Speaker 2: she brings me tinctures. She you know, they give a
33:58
Speaker 2: sade like whatever isah. And this was even before the diagnosis,
34:02
Speaker 2: but it's it's like even now it's become like, oh,
34:06
Speaker 2: things make sense, you know. So we're feeling really together
34:10
Speaker 2: as a unit, really supportive as a unit. And I
34:14
Speaker 2: give thanks. I give so much thanks for the children
34:19
Speaker 2: that I incarnated onto this planet with like because they
34:23
Speaker 2: are they are such spiritual giants, and I'm so grateful
34:29
Speaker 2: that we recognize each other and we said, okay, this
34:31
Speaker 2: is how we're going to do it this lifetime. But
34:33
Speaker 2: I'm clear that your soul is mastery. Your soul is mastery.
34:38
Speaker 2: So even that's how I parent, like, I'm not parent
34:41
Speaker 2: like you're you're a subservient. You know you you are
34:45
Speaker 2: a spiritual master and you incarnated as a child, my
34:48
Speaker 2: child this time, so I honor you. And it's just
34:51
Speaker 2: so beautiful to express that in family dynamics, and it's
34:56
Speaker 2: allowing me because I'm in this dynamic, in this this
34:59
Speaker 2: type of community at home, it feels so supportive. And
35:02
Speaker 2: it didn't always feel like that, you know, when I
35:04
Speaker 2: was younger, it was like who trying to figure it
35:07
Speaker 2: out and of course having spiritual spiritual spiritual giants in
35:12
Speaker 2: my life, but without that missing piece again, it was
35:17
Speaker 2: just like, you know, they did the best they could,
35:19
Speaker 2: and they did a really good job. I have to say,
35:22
Speaker 2: they did a really good job. Even you know, people
35:26
Speaker 2: in my family who I was at odds with for
35:30
Speaker 2: some reason of them judging me like you know, when
35:33
Speaker 2: I went on my healing journey, or when I was
35:35
Speaker 2: awkward and different, like they did a really good job
35:38
Speaker 2: and making me not feel okay with myself because that
35:41
Speaker 2: really was also in the pot of like why I'm
35:45
Speaker 2: going on self discovery. You know, I'm not okay agreeing
35:49
Speaker 2: with you that I'm different and awkward right now. I
35:52
Speaker 2: know why they saw something different in me, but none
35:54
Speaker 2: of us had the language. So I have compassion. You know,
35:56
Speaker 2: none of us understood why, and none of us understood
35:59
Speaker 2: why I thought the way I So I have compassion
36:01
Speaker 2: for them. And to this day, which so interesting, is
36:04
Speaker 2: that they're calling me for advice. They've been calling me
36:07
Speaker 2: for advice. They've come around. You know, it's completely loving.
36:10
Speaker 2: It was always loving, but you know, but it's like
36:13
Speaker 2: a deeper respect for who I am. And yeah that
36:17
Speaker 2: was before the diagnosis, you see. So it's like, yeah,
36:20
Speaker 2: your I just know that your gift carries you in
36:24
Speaker 2: places where you may not feel me now. You may
36:26
Speaker 2: not get it now, but it's going to make sense
36:28
Speaker 2: one day, right, Just give me time to get on
36:31
Speaker 2: my journey to heal, to get past some things, to
36:35
Speaker 2: set my life up how it needs to be, and
36:36
Speaker 2: you'll see exactly who I am. But in the meantime,
36:39
Speaker 2: I don't have to prove anything to you, you know.
36:42
Speaker 2: And that's where, yeah, Oh, that was the most powerful
36:46
Speaker 2: thing that I could have done, is like let them go,
36:49
Speaker 2: like release anyone who made me feel like I was awkward,
36:53
Speaker 2: I was different, I was defiant, whatever it was, and
36:56
Speaker 2: just to keep moving on my journey. And the more
36:59
Speaker 2: I kept moving, it was like this handfull of me
37:01
Speaker 2: where that hand was so much more beautiful and it
37:06
Speaker 2: was just so healing and cathartic for me that I
37:09
Speaker 2: kept going towards that and away from this other energy,
37:12
Speaker 2: whether it was friends, family, whoever was relationships, And that's
37:16
Speaker 2: like I just wanted more of that in my life.
37:18
Speaker 2: And I'm still moving towards that, this divine guidance, Like
37:24
Speaker 2: I'm still moving towards there, and so I feel like
37:26
Speaker 2: that's really what's informing and guiding me.
37:50
Speaker 1: Deeply. Wow, so many things to deepen in and what
38:00
Speaker 1: you just shared, you know, there's a couple of thoughts
38:03
Speaker 1: that were coming to me as you were talking. I
38:05
Speaker 1: was reading recently, I just loved the way that they
38:09
Speaker 1: phrased this, where they said, you know, even your even
38:12
Speaker 1: the villains in your life, have a gift for you. You know,
38:15
Speaker 1: both both your villains and your heroes in this story
38:19
Speaker 1: that you're living have gifts, you know. And to what
38:24
Speaker 1: you said, it's like that shift and awareness is so powerful,
38:27
Speaker 1: and depending on what the experience is, it doesn't always
38:31
Speaker 1: feel possible, and it could take many, many, many steps,
38:36
Speaker 1: surrenders and practicings to get to that point. But when
38:41
Speaker 1: we understand that, like everything is a catalyst to become
38:45
Speaker 1: even what we can perceive as the worst things. And
38:49
Speaker 1: that is not to minimize from some of the things
38:52
Speaker 1: that can be experienced, because there is a darkness on
38:56
Speaker 1: this planet, you know, everything. There are some experience and
39:00
Speaker 1: says that that some have that it's like that that
39:04
Speaker 1: can never be scrubbed clean. And I, my God, like.
39:10
Speaker 2: I get that.
39:11
Speaker 1: Yeah, And with a lot of work and surrenderings, sometimes
39:17
Speaker 1: there are possibilities to relate to even the most devastating
39:22
Speaker 1: circumstances in a way that alleviates suffering for us, you know.
39:27
Speaker 1: And another thing I was thinking it, I remember I
39:31
Speaker 1: was doing I had.
39:33
Speaker 2: A really.
39:35
Speaker 1: Really painful experience with someone in my life that was
39:40
Speaker 1: in my life for a very long time. And you know,
39:44
Speaker 1: part of I understood immediately that I was being asked
39:48
Speaker 1: to be brought to a new depth of compassion, but
39:53
Speaker 1: it was still kind of like the balancing of that
39:55
Speaker 1: sacred rage mixed with For me, it was always I
39:59
Speaker 1: went directly to can passion and I would always kind
40:01
Speaker 1: of bypass the anger and things and so anyho. That
40:05
Speaker 1: was part of a long process. But I remember I
40:09
Speaker 1: was doing this Akashic records reading a long long time ago,
40:14
Speaker 1: and we were talking about in the spiritual world and
40:18
Speaker 1: on a karmic level, what that dynamic was between myself
40:23
Speaker 1: and that person. And they were like, yeah, but you
40:27
Speaker 1: both like really signed up for this and they were
40:31
Speaker 1: meant to teach you through pain last for that, and
40:35
Speaker 1: they had this visual of that actually meant it kind
40:39
Speaker 1: of really helped me on my journey to forgiveness and acceptance.
40:43
Speaker 1: And they said, when you get back to the spirit realm,
40:45
Speaker 1: you're going to give each other high fives, like the
40:48
Speaker 1: second you see that, once you both cross over, it's
40:50
Speaker 1: going to be like what we did it. And now
40:53
Speaker 1: that I'm so far removed from the pain points of
40:58
Speaker 1: that experience for me and the trauma of that experience.
41:03
Speaker 1: I am so grateful for that experience in a way
41:08
Speaker 1: that I still haven't amassed the words to convey, because
41:12
Speaker 1: I realized that for me and whatever I signed up
41:15
Speaker 1: for in this life, I could only learn it that way. Yeah,
41:19
Speaker 1: And when I chose to learn it, and when I
41:21
Speaker 1: chose not to be kind of as Roomy would say,
41:24
Speaker 1: you know, in that field where there's no right or wrong.
41:27
Speaker 1: When I chose to not be in that field of
41:29
Speaker 1: judgment of assessing myself as the good person and them
41:33
Speaker 1: as the bad person in it, regardless of what the
41:36
Speaker 1: optics were, it freed me. It freed me to the
41:38
Speaker 1: depths of my soul and I can never forget that freedom.
41:44
Speaker 1: And so I look at that and I say God
41:46
Speaker 1: that I short of choose a rough way to learn it, but.
41:51
Speaker 2: Wow, thank you God for that learning.
41:54
Speaker 1: Ooh who I've become with that learning that part?
42:00
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, because you're becoming something through it. And
42:05
Speaker 2: it's like when you can and now having the mindfulness
42:09
Speaker 2: and awareness and even the language for people maybe not
42:14
Speaker 2: now maybe going through something and they feel like what
42:17
Speaker 2: is going on? But if you can just hold onto
42:19
Speaker 2: who you're becoming in it, that's the medicine and that's
42:23
Speaker 2: what's going to change the game on how you come out.
42:26
Speaker 2: And that was that right there. Like when we're reactive,
42:29
Speaker 2: like how I used to be. I used to just
42:30
Speaker 2: be like okay, you know, just and when you're reactive,
42:35
Speaker 2: everything somebody does, every wind blow, every sound is like
42:41
Speaker 2: you're moving a different direction. That is not a way
42:43
Speaker 2: to live. It's so exhausting. And you don't deserve that,
42:47
Speaker 2: Like we deserve better. We deserve to be mindful in
42:50
Speaker 2: our situation and take our time through the chaos to
42:53
Speaker 2: understand what's going on, to understand like who this person,
42:56
Speaker 2: like to even give ourselves grace and time to understand. Okay,
43:00
Speaker 2: are the adversary, but I chose this. This is a lesson.
43:05
Speaker 2: I'm in such deep cover that I'm thinking you're really
43:07
Speaker 2: the enemy, but you're really the teacher, right, this is
43:10
Speaker 2: really a lesson and this not everyone is ready for
43:13
Speaker 2: this conversation though, you know, And it's a deep conversation
43:18
Speaker 2: of learning how to be human and how does the
43:21
Speaker 2: soul come into this human body and leave with compassion
43:25
Speaker 2: and love and life? Right and leave better, right, and
43:29
Speaker 2: then leave their energy signature on the earth, light and
43:33
Speaker 2: powerful and something that can be useful, purposeful. Right. But
43:38
Speaker 2: when we're ready for that conversation, our lives expand into
43:42
Speaker 2: a completely different place, and then we understand, oh, I
43:45
Speaker 2: have more power over my life than I realized. No
43:48
Speaker 2: matter how what cards are dealt, no matter what you know,
43:51
Speaker 2: how it looks on the onset, whatever this three D
43:54
Speaker 2: reality labels it as, or how it shows up, I
43:59
Speaker 2: have power. And that's what's important about it, you know.
44:03
Speaker 2: And that goes to what we were saying. You don't
44:05
Speaker 2: once you get to there, you don't look like what
44:08
Speaker 2: you've been through. Yeah, it's just like you start to
44:10
Speaker 2: embody this radiance and this light and wisdom. It's just
44:14
Speaker 2: it has a look. It has a look and a
44:16
Speaker 2: vibe in a film, you know, because I look at
44:18
Speaker 2: me post and then after whoof I mean it's funny
44:23
Speaker 2: because like what I thought was like back then and beautiful,
44:27
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, I can see it now, you know,
44:28
Speaker 2: I can see her stress. You know, she was doing
44:30
Speaker 2: the best she could. I give her grace. But it's
44:32
Speaker 2: a look, you know, it's a it's a it's a
44:34
Speaker 2: whole thing.
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Speaker 3: Yeah.
44:36
Speaker 1: Yeah, she she showed up under duress, she showed up well,
44:40
Speaker 1: but in comparison to what's possible. Yeah, you really really
44:44
Speaker 1: really see that oof.
44:47
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, especially when you say I'm letting it go,
44:51
Speaker 2: like I'm I'm no longer harboring like and holding that
44:55
Speaker 2: animosity and the energy.
44:58
Speaker 1: I don't know, I cannot die a thousand depths. Right,
45:01
Speaker 1: It's like you prolonged the injury. And also you know,
45:07
Speaker 1: like it was really coming forward, like the concept of
45:10
Speaker 1: being a divine co creator because we create even sometimes
45:15
Speaker 1: the harm. Right, It's like, what are we actively connecting
45:19
Speaker 1: ourselves to? What are we actively choosing to be in
45:23
Speaker 1: communion with? And I think that goes for literally everything,
45:28
Speaker 1: you know. I it's like you have to be so
45:34
Speaker 1: committed to fiercely editing like yourself, your life, your process
45:39
Speaker 1: at all times and surrendering detaching and saying okay, I'm
45:42
Speaker 1: going to let that go. I'm going to release that. Yeah,
45:45
Speaker 1: even sometimes holding on to the friendships, the relationships, the job,
45:49
Speaker 1: the this, the that. When you know there is a
45:52
Speaker 1: call to stop, you know there is a call to
45:56
Speaker 1: let something end, but you don't. At that point, you're
46:00
Speaker 1: creating your reality. You're co creating the pain in your life.
46:05
Speaker 1: You're co creating the distress in your life. Yeah, and
46:09
Speaker 1: it just it's all such a ripple effect. It has
46:12
Speaker 1: an effect on everything. It's not as simple as as
46:15
Speaker 1: trying to be stoic or saying all endure, all endure,
46:18
Speaker 1: it makes me righteous. It's like you're also killing your body.
46:23
Speaker 1: You know, women and men, especially especially women of color. Yeah,
46:28
Speaker 1: die a lot faster of a wide spectrum of diseases
46:34
Speaker 1: that don't typically happen to other people. And if you
46:37
Speaker 1: look into you know, the foundation of that person. A
46:42
Speaker 1: lot of times, it's not not creating freedom when you're
46:48
Speaker 1: called to for yourself. Yeah.
46:52
Speaker 2: Yes, it's stress related, yeah, and toxic related and living
46:59
Speaker 2: a life that is not authentic to yourself. I can
47:02
Speaker 2: relate to that in a way of I had my
47:05
Speaker 2: body and this is this is like this may take
47:09
Speaker 2: us in a different direction. I'm not sure, but what
47:12
Speaker 2: I do know is that when you do not live
47:15
Speaker 2: a life authentic to you, your body becomes successible, susceptible,
47:23
Speaker 2: susceptible to illness, to compromise. And it's so important to
47:31
Speaker 2: be in this vessel, in your authentic signature right. So
47:34
Speaker 2: it's not just like, oh, I'm authentic like it's it's
47:36
Speaker 2: a catchphrase. No, I have to be who I am.
47:39
Speaker 2: I have to live and breathe and eat and serve
47:43
Speaker 2: who I am. If not, I'm jeopardizing my body. It's
47:47
Speaker 2: compromising this vessel that I'm carrying the gift in and
47:50
Speaker 2: that I'm gonna can do it right.
47:52
Speaker 1: And I'm jeopardizing my purpose pose. I'm jeopardizing why I
47:58
Speaker 1: chose to come here, that I was called to do.
48:01
Speaker 2: That's it.
48:02
Speaker 1: It affects literally everything that that ability to moment by
48:07
Speaker 1: moment choose the higher choice, choose the higher awareness, and
48:11
Speaker 1: all the sikes practice. I'm not trying to overly simplify.
48:14
Speaker 1: It is a journey me all the way. It is
48:19
Speaker 1: a journey. It is a journey, and no one is wrong.
48:22
Speaker 1: And journey and grace tell me how to do all
48:24
Speaker 1: of that right away, and journey and grace, Journey and
48:27
Speaker 1: grace all the way there.
48:28
Speaker 2: Because when you journey and grace and love yourself through it,
48:31
Speaker 2: like those days where you feel off, in those days
48:34
Speaker 2: you're like I missed the mark, Like yeah, they don't
48:36
Speaker 2: take you out. It's like journey and grace.
48:39
Speaker 1: And you repair in real time and real you know
48:43
Speaker 1: you're not affording things. There's not shame. It can just
48:45
Speaker 1: be like, yeah, I could have made a different choice
48:47
Speaker 1: and I didn't, and I accept that, and now I'll
48:51
Speaker 1: co create something.
48:52
Speaker 2: Else, something else, right, And that's that. Just hearing you
48:56
Speaker 2: say that feels so much lighter than taking a week
48:59
Speaker 2: or two to like really be heavy and just burdened
49:03
Speaker 2: with this energy or this knowing of like I missed
49:05
Speaker 2: the mark or it didn't happen like I thought it
49:07
Speaker 2: should happen. Like when you can just say, okay, let
49:10
Speaker 2: me reconfigure, let me be the can miss in the
49:12
Speaker 2: library laboratory, let me make some other things work, And
49:16
Speaker 2: it's like knowing how to shuffle things around and adapt
49:19
Speaker 2: that word you said earlier, like that that it literally
49:22
Speaker 2: is like adapting is just like the that's the word
49:25
Speaker 2: for earth. They gave us. They put that in you somewhere,
49:27
Speaker 2: so that unlocks something different levels unlock when you remember, oh,
49:32
Speaker 2: I have to adapt, like adapt and adjust, you know, yeah, yeah,
49:35
Speaker 2: they use that in the military, adapt and adjust, because
49:37
Speaker 2: it really is a form of survival.
49:39
Speaker 1: I feel like that is a superpower both of us have,
49:43
Speaker 1: Like we have high levels of adaptability. Yeah, Like and
49:46
Speaker 1: I think, you know in something that we explore this
49:50
Speaker 1: a lot in our friendship and in conversations, and I
49:53
Speaker 1: think it's something I explore personally a lot as well.
49:55
Speaker 1: But the ability to also be at peace with the
49:59
Speaker 1: fact that there are very logical circumstances that arise that,
50:05
Speaker 1: like life doesn't have to always be righteous, happy, good
50:11
Speaker 1: to also be worthy. And that's something that I feel
50:14
Speaker 1: really as I age, as I grow, especially you know,
50:19
Speaker 1: as a mother that is always looking through the facets
50:23
Speaker 1: of how do I translate this wisdom for my child
50:27
Speaker 1: in a way that's supportive to who he's becoming. You know,
50:30
Speaker 1: It's like that's something I'm really grateful for, Like I
50:33
Speaker 1: can have a really good day on a bad day.
50:38
Speaker 1: It's like it's this understanding we are constantly oscillating between
50:42
Speaker 1: grief and joy, between you know, challenge and freedom. It's
50:47
Speaker 1: all meant to be at play all the time. And
50:51
Speaker 1: when you kind of just adapt to that or at
50:53
Speaker 1: tune to that, you get to have like a more
50:55
Speaker 1: gentle sway as opposed to these really hard rocking back
51:00
Speaker 1: and forth, Like it doesn't have to be you know,
51:03
Speaker 1: the the ship in the ship in these you know,
51:10
Speaker 1: rocking against harsh waves. Yeah, it can kind of just
51:13
Speaker 1: how can I glide down this river because it's gonna
51:15
Speaker 1: go anyway. You know, all of this is going to
51:18
Speaker 1: happen anyway, So how do I alleviate my suffering? And
51:23
Speaker 1: I think the way you express it is so divine,
51:25
Speaker 1: which is journey and grace. Journey and grace.
51:29
Speaker 3: Yeah, you have to, like I I if there is
51:33
Speaker 3: just one thing I could like the last thing I
51:36
Speaker 3: ever wrote, Okay, yeah, that's that's deep to say.
51:40
Speaker 2: That's that's a lot to say. But it was a
51:42
Speaker 2: journey and grace just because that that's everything. Like, it
51:45
Speaker 2: helps you return to your lightness, It helps you return home,
51:48
Speaker 2: it helps you let go, it helps you detach. You know,
51:51
Speaker 2: it helps you remember who you are. That you're learning,
51:54
Speaker 2: you're growing, you're expanding, and that's the beautiful thing about
51:57
Speaker 2: you know, being on a level of learning, growing and
52:01
Speaker 2: ascending and transfiguring your life is like, oh, there's going
52:04
Speaker 2: to be different levels. I'm always going to be learning into,
52:08
Speaker 2: leaning into, expanding, stretching, breaking into and so and sometimes
52:14
Speaker 2: nudge sometimes thrown into you know, it can happen all
52:17
Speaker 2: kind of ways, and so yeah, that grace is just oh,
52:21
Speaker 2: it's medicine. It's just straight medicine.
52:24
Speaker 1: Because this Earth School is never going to run short
52:27
Speaker 1: on lessons everyone, that's.
52:29
Speaker 2: For sure, and always always showing up to teach, never
52:33
Speaker 2: a day off, never tell y'all. Yeah, Leila.
52:37
Speaker 1: The way that I love to end each show is
52:40
Speaker 1: by providing a little bit of soul work for the
52:42
Speaker 1: audience that resonates with this episode, something that they can
52:45
Speaker 1: deepen in. It could be an inquiry, it could be
52:48
Speaker 1: a practice, it could be a thought to savor, to
52:51
Speaker 1: chew on, and to explore until our next episode. So,
52:55
Speaker 1: my dearest Master Teacher sister, I would love to ask,
53:01
Speaker 1: considering the conversation that we just had, for those that
53:05
Speaker 1: are connecting to the sound of our voice right now,
53:08
Speaker 1: what is something What is an intention you'd like everyone
53:12
Speaker 1: to kind of deepen into over this next week or so.
53:17
Speaker 2: The intention that I would love for us to deepen
53:20
Speaker 2: into is to expand and expand, encourage and grace, because
53:27
Speaker 2: you're going to need both. There's a lot of things
53:30
Speaker 2: shifting right now on the planet, and it can feel
53:35
Speaker 2: like we're in a different universe and things don't feel
53:38
Speaker 2: the same and this is supposed to happen. You know,
53:41
Speaker 2: every big shift, this happens. And the shift is not
53:45
Speaker 2: just in culture. The shift is internally. The shift is spiritual.
53:50
Speaker 2: The shift is cosmic. It's planetary, but it's also there's
53:57
Speaker 2: a lot of light coming. We're moving through a photonic
54:00
Speaker 2: and so there's really there's a lot we're going through
54:02
Speaker 2: as literally as a planet. We're getting more light onto
54:05
Speaker 2: the planet now. So those of us who have allowed
54:08
Speaker 2: ourselves to be sensitive are going to pick up on this.
54:10
Speaker 2: So this is going to cause us now to have
54:13
Speaker 2: to write, now, show up a little more in our
54:16
Speaker 2: lives with courage. Now that courage may tell you you
54:20
Speaker 2: need courage to say out like you need courage to
54:23
Speaker 2: start to stop doing so much in your life. Right,
54:27
Speaker 2: And the person who resonates with that knows exactly what
54:30
Speaker 2: that is. Right, you're doing too much. Sit down and
54:33
Speaker 2: let life. It's time for you to receive. It's time
54:36
Speaker 2: for you to rest, it's time for you to heal. Right,
54:39
Speaker 2: it's time for you to get out of the way.
54:41
Speaker 2: It's time for you now to be still so things
54:43
Speaker 2: can happen for you the way they need to only
54:45
Speaker 2: when you're still. For others of us and I'm in
54:47
Speaker 2: this class. It's time to expand and do more and
54:50
Speaker 2: go and there's certain codes that are going to be
54:53
Speaker 2: awakened and you're going to receive more emotion. You need
54:56
Speaker 2: to be emotion more for here and you need to
54:58
Speaker 2: expand in this that right there is calling for courage.
55:03
Speaker 2: And courage is important because fear a lot of times
55:07
Speaker 2: is the teacher, you know, when when where it's time
55:10
Speaker 2: for us to show up and do more or do less,
55:13
Speaker 2: fear is telling us, well, you're not going to be
55:15
Speaker 2: as important if you're not speaking up and you know,
55:17
Speaker 2: you're not going to be seen in your power if
55:19
Speaker 2: you're not doing as much, or you're you're going to
55:22
Speaker 2: be judged if you're doing too much. So we have
55:24
Speaker 2: to be able to tell fear to behave and we
55:28
Speaker 2: go forward, you know, we go forward with our gifts,
55:31
Speaker 2: We go forward with the with the lessons and journey
55:33
Speaker 2: and grace on the days that you don't get it,
55:35
Speaker 2: so really make a mantra and really live into that
55:39
Speaker 2: prayer every day of courage and grace, like what this
55:42
Speaker 2: looks like for me in this moment, Courage to say
55:45
Speaker 2: yes and grace when I don't say yes or grace
55:48
Speaker 2: when I don't feel comfortable in it, knowing that you know,
55:51
Speaker 2: as I continue to move that the flow, it's going
55:54
Speaker 2: to sync up with me. And I'm you know where
55:57
Speaker 2: I'm supposed to be. I'll be guided there and expanded
55:59
Speaker 2: into that. But being obedient to spirit is just so important.
56:03
Speaker 2: And again that word obedience, Obedience, I say that in
56:06
Speaker 2: the most grandmotherly, loving, spiritual way possible, is just obedience
56:12
Speaker 2: to your higher self, obedience to your creator, Obedience to
56:16
Speaker 2: that beautiful gift that you carry, you know, into that
56:18
Speaker 2: body that needs healing and rests all of it, and
56:21
Speaker 2: that work in you that needs to go forth.
56:23
Speaker 1: Now right, So obedience to all of it.
56:26
Speaker 2: And just to say yes, I'm saying yes to courage
56:30
Speaker 2: and I'm saying yes to Grace.
56:37
Speaker 1: You may want to take a deep in hell in
56:39
Speaker 1: and out there and if that was really resonating, allow
56:44
Speaker 1: yourself to roll that over a couple times in your
56:47
Speaker 1: own body with your own voice. I am obedient to Courage,
56:52
Speaker 1: I am obedient to Grace. My heart is open to
57:02
Speaker 1: receive guidance. Supernatural healing has made its way into my life. MM.
57:17
Speaker 2: That was so beautiful.
57:19
Speaker 1: M thank you, thank you, thank you, thank.
57:22
Speaker 2: You, thank you, thank you, my beloved sweet sister. Thank
57:24
Speaker 2: you so much for this conversation. Thank you so much
57:28
Speaker 2: for having me. Thank you, I mean, m yeah, thank
57:35
Speaker 2: you so much. Thank you for everything that you were
57:40
Speaker 2: willing to share with us and for all the ways
57:43
Speaker 2: that I know it's just profoundly expanding. Everyone that heard
57:48
Speaker 2: your voice today, Wow, wow, wow m M.
57:59
Speaker 1: I know everyone knows where to find you, but head
58:03
Speaker 1: to Leila's instagram at Leiladelia, head to a bookstore near
58:08
Speaker 1: you if you haven't already. But I know most more
58:11
Speaker 1: than likely you have this beautiful bestselling book Vibrate Higher Daily,
58:16
Speaker 1: and you also have your community, the Vibrate Higher Community.
58:20
Speaker 1: So these things are really I mean, I know some
58:23
Speaker 1: people listening right now are like, yep, I know where
58:26
Speaker 1: my work is really consider you know, creating space that
58:31
Speaker 1: feels supportive to do that, and having more conversation with
58:36
Speaker 1: people that you resonate with. And maybe there are some
58:40
Speaker 1: terms that you heard us say on this show that
58:43
Speaker 1: it could be really worthy to dedicate an afternoon to
58:45
Speaker 1: some Google searches, to doing some deep dives, to going
58:49
Speaker 1: into different forums, to going into different instagram pages and
58:54
Speaker 1: just expanding your world and expanding what you know is
58:58
Speaker 1: possible for yourself. Yeah.
59:00
Speaker 2: Absolutely, because we're guided, Like that's we're guiding each other home,
59:05
Speaker 2: you know, so hearing, you know, overhearing a conversation, and
59:08
Speaker 2: that's really what a podcast is. You're overhearing a conversation,
59:11
Speaker 2: you know. And I was like, oh, those words, that
59:13
Speaker 2: word popped out, you know, write it down, meditate on it,
59:16
Speaker 2: and the more like that one word, like if you heard.
59:19
Speaker 2: And this is one thing I can say as a
59:20
Speaker 2: writer is that pay attention to the words that catch
59:24
Speaker 2: your attention because when you go read that word, that
59:27
Speaker 2: word is going to open up a floodgate of other
59:30
Speaker 2: words and a conversation that can turn into some medicine
59:34
Speaker 2: and answers. So yeah, definitely, definitely. I love that you said.
59:37
Speaker 2: Google and research it, track it yeah yeah, track it yeah.
59:41
Speaker 1: Track it, follow it, and set intention for things to
59:44
Speaker 1: be revealed.
59:45
Speaker 2: Yes.
59:46
Speaker 1: Yeah, I love you.
59:48
Speaker 2: I love you so much. Thank you so much for
59:52
Speaker 2: coming on the show. My honor, my honor, Thank you.
59:56
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59:59
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