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DA CREW PODCAST SEASON 1_ EPISODE #94_HOST TRIVEDA HARRIS_(SHOW #12) · DA CREW Podcast

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sweet sweet. Good evening, Good evening, and welcome to Believing the Journey
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Podcast where I am your host, Trevida Harris, and I want to welcome
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you to this podcast where we talk out the journeys in life, how we
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have been through so many different obstacles, and how we are in our current
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situation that leads us to the purpose in which God has created us. So
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again I want to say welcome. This is episode number twelve of Believing the
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Journey Podcast, and tonight I have a guest who has originally been on the
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show, and this is us catching up with her, and her name is
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Antonia ni Nia Barnes, and we're catching up with her on a goal that
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she said the last time she was here on the show. And as always,
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we can't start any show without going to God in prayer. So let's
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go to God in prayer by your heads with me, please, Jillard,
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thank you for bringing us together as you do so often, and we thank
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you for everything that you do for us, keeping us in the path in
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which you have created for us. Even though sometimes we may fall astray and
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get distracted by the world, but we always find our way back to you.
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Thank you for keeping us safe and protected, give us the strength that
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we need to face any obstacles that we may be going through. Block anything
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that is sent in our path to get us off the path that you have
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for us. Thank you for bringing us together tonight and help me to stay
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focused on what we need to talk about and be the person that you have
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created me to be. In your precious name, Jesus, I pray.
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Now I'm gonna bring up my guest, Miss Antonia. How are you tonight?
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Hi am great? How are you? I am good and welcome back
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to the show. Thank you for having me. Yes, So let me
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start by asking you what have you been up to. I have been working.
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I have been at working. I've been working with more photographers locally and
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not locally. Okay, as far as the modeling, UM, I've kind
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of just been trying to get myself out there, meeting people. UM.
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Kind of branch off Um, I've been working on my book. Yeah,
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that's true. Have a date for I do, okay, And I've still
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been writing for Threats Online, so I do still do my blog writing,
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um every Tuesday something. Um, so yeah, I'm just working. Listen,
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when you were here originally, you were still so very shy and very
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timid and not sure about what you wanted to do and just being a guy
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about putting your writing out there. But as I told you before we came
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on this part, we had our little back to stage conversation that I've been
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watching, and I've been watching you come out of that shell. I see
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your photographs and oh my god, they are truly truly amazing. Thank you
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keep doing that. And I swear because I know you were like saying,
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well, I'm a plus sized girl, plus being short in statue, which
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I understand that it's well because I am sure in statue and curvious curvatus as
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well, so I understand. It's always kind of difficult to know what your
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angles are because you don't want to look super short, but you don't want
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to look like you're like too tall either. It's not really what it is
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because when people see you in public, They're like, well you look a
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lot taller, you know. Yeah, so you have done an amazing job
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with stepping out of that comfort zone. Now let me ask you this question,
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because I know what I told you to say and say that I can,
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I will and I shall. How often did you repeat that? Um?
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I honestly say it like twice a day, Like in the morning,
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I get up, I'm like brushing my teeth. I'm like, all right,
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girl, you can't shout with like you got this, like today it's
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gonna be a good day. Like what are you gonna achieve? What are
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you gonna get done? Like what's one positive thing you could put into the
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world. And I honestly like since then, like I truly live by that,
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Like if I don't push myself, if I don't like understand that,
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like I'm the only person that's gonna be able to drive myself to do the
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things that I need to do, I'm not gonna accomplish it. So I
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like that that's not every day. And I tell I tell my sister,
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my friend called the Crime Girl, you can and he's like, okay,
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say it every day, So I look by it. I do. I
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honestly do listen. That is one of the things that I actually have to
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say to myself on certain days because it's like, Okay, you know what,
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today I don't really feel like it. I don't have the energy,
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and it's like, okay, you know what, you gotta suck it up.
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You gotta actually say you can, you shell and you will. And
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once you say that to yourself, you get to move and you get to
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doing what you need to get accomplished for that day. Now, at the
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end of the day, you might be tired, but you've accomplished everything that
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you set out to do. And so that's the best part about saying that
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little saying And tell me about this book. So, like I said,
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I've been working with other photographers. I've been working on the cover of my
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book. Some of the models that I've met actually do draw or do art,
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okay, So I've been kind of clobing with them to get some pieces
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put into my book that kind of go with the writing that I have.
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And currently now I am just in the process of making my manuscript. I
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am putting together like you know, what's gonna work for me and what's not
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what I think is gonna should be in the book or be in the next
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book. Um. So that's really where I am right now. I do
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have a release date, um, so they it will be on Amazon Kindle
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book um for free order on September okay, Um, and then it will
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be able you'll be able to purchase it like on Amazon. I'm trying to
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push to get in like little local source here too. Um. No later
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than October. Okay, Okay, so we gotta for the book. Okay,
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we go give me something else to look forward to and reach out to
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you about and see when it's gonna be on the shows and everything. Yes,
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yes, Okay. Do we have a title for the book? Yes?
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Um. So that the book is all the words I couldn't say,
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Okay, and yeah, it's just basically, um, literally like all of
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the things I couldn't say, whether it's heartbreak, if it's pain, if
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it's love, if it's growth, Um, it's it's everything in one book.
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I feel like, um, they all tie in together. I've had
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my heartbroken, I fell in love. Um, I've cried some, I've
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laughed some. So um. A lot of the poetry is just kind of
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based on like life, like you know, you got your heartbroken, like
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here. It is like I laid my heart in line here. It is.
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I'm sure somebody else can relate. They probably cry into like girl,
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can't we be said that? But yeah, I definitely say it's gonna be
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a must read. Um, some of the pieces that I have posted,
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um for threads will be in there. Um pieces I have not posted.
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So I have some stuff you guys haven't seen yet. Okay, Okay,
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Well that's good because every thing that you've touched on just right there is something
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that someone can definitely relate to. Because we've all been in relationships where we've
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had our heartbroken, We've all been through like even the loss of a job,
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loss of a family member, just all of those things. And whenever
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you write poetry, that comes with that, and you gotta be able to
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feel the emotion to write the poetry. That's just how I see it now.
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Somebody else may not agree with that, but I agree. Poetry is
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an emotional thing to write. And you can put a bunch of words on
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the paper if you're not feeling what you're writing, no one else is gonna
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feel that either, you know. And that's one thing that I can say
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when I write my poetry whatever I'm feeling in that moment goes on the paper
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and it may not make a lot of sense at that time because I'm just
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writing for what I'm feeling. But once I get it out can always go
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back and edit. And I think a lot of times people tend to stay
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away from writing and staying a right from publishing their stories or whatever because they're
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afraid that it has to be perfect. But that's the reason you have a
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rough draft. That's the reason you can edit. But you can't edit a
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blank page if you never put anything on it. So if you never put
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anything on the page, you can't edit it. It's not wrong, it's
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just not there. So if you if you don't put nothing on the page,
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you can't edit it. So you gotta be able to put it down
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somewhere, and I do everywhere I go. I'm like, literally, I
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have my phone. I have my phone and my iPad where it's connected.
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So anytime I edit something, it goes because my iPads. When I get
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home, I'm like, all right, let me go on my public thing,
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let me edit, let me add. And it doesn't matter where we
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are, Like if we're in the car, myself and my partner or like
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I'm in the grocery store and I'm like, oh, yeah, that was
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good, okay, John. Yeah. Later, I'm like at home on
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the couch and I'm ignoring everybody, like what are you doing? And I'm
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like I'm getting myself, Like you gotta give me ten minutes because I have
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like two good segments I could put together really quick and like I'll be done.
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Um. But even like it doesn't matter what it is, like even
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if my like my sister, she like reach down. She's like, Sis,
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I'm having a bad day and I need something to read. And I'm
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like, what are you feeling? Like what's bothering you? What's going on?
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She's just like I'm not I'm just not feeling it. And I'm like,
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okay, give me one hour. I would piece something together and then
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I send it to her and she text me back like I can't believe it,
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and I was like, it just takes a pen on the paper,
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like literally, there's no real science to it. Like my feelings might not
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be your feelings. You might not understand what I'm saying. I might not
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understand what you're saying, but somebody somewhere is gonna feel exactly what she said
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dissected you know, so, and that's that's what I was worried about.
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I was. I was in the beginning, like you said, I was
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nervous critique and be like really harsh. And I've got a lot of positive
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feedback, and I'm like, you know, they look forward to it every
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week. They're like, girl posed exactly. That's what I was telling you.
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I'm like, I know I didn't posted this week. I'm sorry.
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Actually I'm editing right this second. Um. Yep. It makes a difference.
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It definitely, it definitely makes a difference. It definitely does. I
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can honestly say for me, I had to learn to start taking my phone
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with me certain places because you will get a burst of inspiration just anywhere.
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And I realized that, and this is gonna be crazy, is that I
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was in the hospital. They have put me back in the hospital. They
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were thinking that I was having another stroke, and all I had was my
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phone and I'm getting ready to go into the um get an MRI I done,
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and you know, you can't really have your phone in there because of
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the magnet. And so I was like, well, wait, y'all gotta
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wait a minute. I'm writing a poem right now, because what I was
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thinking about was they were about to place me in that little tunnel and it's
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dark and you might have those headphones on, and so what I wrote about
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was being in darkness and at the end, like if you're looking down at
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your feet, then you see the light. And so that's what I wrote
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about it now, And they were like, well, how did you write
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this? I was about to go into the MRI machine and it was nothing
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but darkness, and so I had to think about what I was about to
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experience, and so I wrote that down. So it became a good point
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for someone else, but it helped me to not think about being in in
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that tiny little space because I hate the MRI machine and it's so loud and
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it's like, okay, and they try to give you those little headphones and
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the little music or whatever, but it rounds nothing out. So you gotta
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either think about something else or what And so that that is really a good
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thing that you do have your phone to where you can do that, because
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that was one of the things that I had to learn to do to keep
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my phone with me, because I didn't always You don't always have access to
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pen and paper, but you'll have your phone with you. And so when
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you have your phone, you could just wake up in the middle of the
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night and just either voice record, which I started doing that as well,
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and then I would write it out or type it out later. But that
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came in handy to have the voice recorder and just think of something because it'll
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come to you in a dream as well. So if you don't have it
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and you can't get it down, you might not remember the Like me,
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I know, I have like a couple of like notes in my notepad and
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it's like three sentences and I'm like, what were you thinking about? Like
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what were you doing? Now? You put this down? And then a
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couple of these later, I came back and I added a couple more sentences,
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and by the end of it, I'm like, you're a really good
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poem here, really if you just take this out and that this and that's
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really good. So and a lot I know a lot of people are like,
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um, why don't you do voice overs? And I'm like, I
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hate my voice like and they're like yeah, but like you're writing is really
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good and we want to be able to like feel it from the way that
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you wrote it, and I'm like, I mean, I guess that makes
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sense. Um, But when I'm writing it, it's just like I'm writing
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like I'm not like, yeah, this is how I feel like the second
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it's kind of just like no, this is just like it's really good.
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It's flowing. It's like I was eating an apple and now I'm writing and
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and then they're what we want you to read it, Well, what if
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I don't want to cry right now? So it's like a bunch of emotions
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and it's like I was crying when I wrote this. I was I'm not
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I'm not crying now, so you gotta get it complete to cry. Yeah.
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Yeah, So I got the voice memos, but they're kind of why
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I can feel you on that. I don't think I have a good voice
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when it comes to things of that nature, but I've always had people as
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you know, have you thought about doing an audio book? And I'm like,
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nah, I ain't even thought about that. That ain't for me,
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you know. But the thing of it is that I have realized is that
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my voice is soothing to people and it'll put them to sleep. And I'm
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not wanting them to go to sleep, you know, I want them to
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stay awake, and so it's like, Okay, I get that I can
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soothe you to sleep, but I don't want you to fall asleep on what
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I'm saying. So that's another reason why I haven't even thought about doing that,
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because it's like, oh, well, your voice is relaxing, it's
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soothing, you should do Okay, Well, if it's relaxing and soothing and
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you gonna go to sleep, I don't want you to do I don't want
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you to do that. I want you to stay awake and stay focused on
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what we're talking about. But you know, nonetheless, it is what it
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is. But I understand not wanting to do it in that aspect because it's
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like we hear ourselves differently than what other people hear us too. And that's
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one thing that I've learned is that to me, my voice sounds really squeaky
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and really annoying sometimes, but no one will ever say that, And I'm
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like, Okay, you don't have to tell me, but that's how I
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hear myself, you know. So it's like, uh, it's okay,
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it's gonna be all right. But I am extremely proud of you. I
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really want you to know that I because I have watched you in the background
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over here. I'm like, oh, look at my girl coming out of
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that shell that she had when I first met her, and your photographs and
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everything and your writing is truly, truly amazing, and I cannot wait for
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everyone else to actually get a taste of what you have been doing, because
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it is amazing. I'm excited. I'm excited. I definitely have um stepped
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out of my comfort zone a little bit, especially with my photos because again,
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like I said, I was like, I'm sure, like my baby,
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um, and then from my photos when I first started back in like
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a little bit before December too. Now I can see the difference. I
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can see the confidence. I can like, yes, when photographers reach out
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and they're like, hey, let's work, I'm like, what's your ideas?
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I know exactly what to say, Like this is what I'm comfortable with.
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This is not what I'm comfortable with. Like with everybody, I'm like,
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I'm on our Instagram, like do you shoot a plus size girls?
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Like? You know? So I'm like, I know my angles, I
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know we're sure. So I'm always like networking, networking, networking, I'm
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like looking for other people to like work with. I'm like, hey,
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you know, I'm right if you sing, if you whatever, just like
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um, even with UM. There's another guy that I followed on Facebook and
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um he does like open which is not too far from us, okay,
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and he's like, hey, do you want to come to an open mac
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And I'm like, we're working on it. So he does have one coming
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up, and I'm like, you know what, like, if you don't
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do it now, you're never gonna do it. Step out of your comfort
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zone, step out of your yes. Because I did an open mic night
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with my poetry and I will tell you that was the very first time I
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had ever done it. And let me tell you, I got good and
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bad reviews. The reason is because when I get really nervous, I talk
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really fast, and so that's what happened. But overall, the point itself
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was good. It was just the fact that I didn't give it the emotion
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of what it needed. Now. When I was practicing at home in front
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of my family and everybody, it was fine, no problems, no shoes.
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But when I got up there, it's like, okay, everybody staring
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at me, and I don't really know how to take everybody staring at me,
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and I gotta right. So yeah, I'm like, I know when
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people can tell I'm nervous because at this point I'm like, okay, I
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get ready and then it's like all I'm saying and then I'm stuttering and I'm
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like, oh my bad, let me, I'm just gonna restart. Mm
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hmmm. So I have They're like, you gotta practice, and I'm like,
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well, I can't practice a front of people. I know, because
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I know you right easy, Like I could have a conversation with you going
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in front of a bunch of people. I don't know. I'm thinking of
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my head. Look are they gonna like it? I mean not gonna like
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it's a good am I talking to you? Fat? So I'm like overworking
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myself and then by the time I get there, I'm like, I'm just
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gonna watch everybody else. Yep, That's exactly what I wanted to do,
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but it was no go. I had to get up there, and I
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actually I'm grateful for that moment because it taught me how to critique myself.
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It also taught me how to slow down and deliver what I needed to and
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to not worry about anybody else. Now, my best friend is on him.
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She said I did phenomenal, phenomenal, but she's definitely very biased.
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She doesn't think I do anything that's bad, and I try to tell her
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sometimes it's bad, you know, But I'm grateful that she believes in me
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to no end. You know, I can honestly say that I do have
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one person that will always tell me the truth no matter what, and that's
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my youngest son. And he'll tell me if I have just messed it up
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completely. He like, now, you know you could have did better than
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that. And I'm like, well, what mistake did I make? He
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was like, well, from one Like I did a video one time.
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He was like, okay, well, your message was good, but the
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problem is you wasn't looking directly at the camera. You were looking all around.
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You need to make eye contact when you do that, okay, sir?
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Oh well you know he was like, ain't no. Well, and
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then like I might be talking to him about something and he's like, okay,
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so you're gonna post that, right, And I'm like nope. It's
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like, well, why you're not gonna post that? Because I don't think
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nobody want to hear that. So I still have those moments now where it's
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like now, I don't think nobody want to hear that, or he's like
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okay, well I don't want you to type that. I need you to
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make a video that goes with what you're talking about. And every once in
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a while I'll do it, and then I always run it by him first
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and be like, okay, well what do you think about this? He's
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like okay, so why you didn't post that? And I'm like, well,
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I needed to run it by you first because you know you're gonna hold
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me accountable. He's like okay, so h hit the post button post it.
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I'm like, give me your phone, I'll post it myself. So
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that's usually what happens. Now. My best friend is like that, like
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normally because she's not really honest. She's on social media, but not like
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enough, like she doesn't really do Facebook and stuff like that. So every
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time I get ready to post, I automatically send it to her, even
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if her phone gone do not deserve I'm like send anyway and still text back
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and she's like, oh, this one was really good. I like this
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one better than last one. Or she's like, well, what do you
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have to post with this and I'm just like, Okay, good, thank
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you for being honest, Like if you hate it, taught me you hate
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it if you couldn't relate, tell me you couldn't relate. And he's very
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honest. She'll tell me like your writing has gotten a lot better, or
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this piece was a lot better than the last piece. You should try to
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do this differently. So I feel like that definitely helps when someone's honest,
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like just be honest with me. Tell me, like, girl just makes
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no sense. Which way were you going with it? So I can defend
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it? Yeah, and that and it helps my book. Even when my
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book, I'm like, you know, like should all my poems kind of
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tie together? Or can they be all over the police? And so with
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over kind of things that I had to think of, like girl, you
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can't talk about riding the bike and then cry, and that you gotta figure
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it out, you go, you gotta piece it together. Maybe some of
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them might have to go into another book or a different post. So when
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you get ready to do your outline for your book. And this is the
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same thing that I told my sister, because my sister has a book of
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poets that she wants to put together as well, put your poems together in
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the sense of the emotion that you're tying to it, and make those your
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chapter headings. In that way, everything that's in that section goes along with
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that emotion and that feeling. That way, you're not going through so many
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different emotions in each page. They're all your section. So let's say you
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talk about like you have some poems that are about heartbreak or and then you
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have points that are about new beginnings. So you have that section and the
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points that follow along in that section. So make your outline according to that,
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and then you can build your chapters according to how your emotions go with
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your um your feelings, and that way it flows cohesively. That way,
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it's not so much of an overthinking. And then you might realize you got
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a upbeat poet at the beginning, or you got one at the end,
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and then you're trying to wind it down and now you don't brought everybody's emotions
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all the way back up, and they're like, oh Lord, where are
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we supposed to be going from here? So I'm kind of like, because
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I am using that Amazon KDP and I got halfway through it and it's like,
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all right, you need a manuscript, and I was like where do
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I start? Like do what? And then I like wrote a Friday and
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I was like, hey, so I'm on my manuscript part, but like
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I don't know where to start, Like I don't know what to pieces together.
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I don't know what to and he's like just making outline like that is
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your book. Your manuscript is your book, like your chapters, what your
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titles of your poems are, like how you want it to flow together.
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He's like, it's your book. It's gonna come out however you want it
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to come out. But you gotta just go through your nugget. You gotta
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go through your stuff and figure out like yes and no so And that's where
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I'm at all day today. I'm like clicking and push it in and my
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girlfriend she's like what are you doing? And I was like, oh,
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I'm creating my poems and she's like okay, and I'm like yeah, no,
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I'm not doing that one. And then I got my phone raggle and
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she's like what are you dragging it? And I'm like I doing my manuscript
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and she's like I would just leave you alone, and I was like thanks,
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I just needs like a good two hours to get it together because I
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am all over the place right now. She's like, okay, like whatever.
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And a lot of times I'm like, you know, and I'll say
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something about like poultry or like a specific kind of poem and she's like,
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I don't know what you're talking about. And I see her on Google like
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and I'm like, you could have just asked what I'm talking about. She's
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like, oh, I support you, You're doing great, and I'm just
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like thanks, thanks. I really have no idea, and I have dollars
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I say to make your outline. Is because when I did my poetry book,
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which I'm gonna do a second volume of poems, is because I had
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no idea what I was doing. I was just basically stepping outside of my
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comfort zone and becoming a writer, author or whatever, just listening to my
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best friend and listening to God at the same time. And it was just
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like, Okay, this is what you need to do. And so when
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I do that, it was just like, Okay, I'm just gonna put
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these together. So I picked twenty six of my favorite poems and I put
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them in a book. I had no rhyme, no reason, no nothing.
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It was just twenty six of my favorite poems. So when I say
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they're up and down and all over the place, they really are. Because
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I wasn't focused on everything else. I wasn't focused on if anybody was gonna
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like it, if anybody was gonna buy it. I didn't focus on any
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of that. I did it because my best friend said, you got these
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poems, you need to put them in a book. Okay, cool,
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God said, okay, I need you to just do what I told you
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to do. Don't worry about nothing else. Now. Once I did it,
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it was like, oh, okay, I did that. Now let
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me critique it and let me get better at the craft of actually formatting a
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book putting it together. So that's how I've done my second and third book
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and working on my fourth one. And the fourth one is titled God Never
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Counted Me Out. So that's the next book that is coming out for me,
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hopefully by November of this year. I can actually dedicate some more time
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to that. But when I first did it, I'm telling you, I
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was so over the place, and I was like, okay, yeah,
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I can't do that no more. But I got more poems that I need
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to put in a second volume, but I just haven't put them together.
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So I got to hold me accountable for putting that book together for the second
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volume of poems. So I no, no, I'm not even gonna say
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that I'm gonna put that book together, but I gotta finish this one first.
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God let me work on that first, because I got plenty of poems
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that I can make a second book. I just think that God never counted
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me out is a message that people really need to hear because so many things
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I've been through and people have counted me out so often versus not understanding that
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I was just never included in their counting in the first place. So you
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know, that's the one that needs to come out, and that's the one
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that I'm going to be working on to get it out by November. So
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I said November, so you can hold me to that day, so you
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hold me accountable as I did you and will be good. Now, if
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anybody wants to follow your work or you're writing that you do with threads,
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how can they do that? Um? So if you go directly to my
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Facebook page, and my Facebook page is near and if anybody doesn't have me
34:10
as a friend right at the beginning of my page, it says threads,
34:15
and then it's like my blog. There's a link that they can click that
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takes them directly to my blog and they can put everyone that I post or
34:22
have ever posted. And then if they want to keep like up of my
34:27
posting every week or get a notification, there's um kind of like a subscription
34:31
where they can. It's free, but they'll just put their email in and
34:35
every time I post, they'll get an email to say that I posted something.
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Okay, So like a quick little notification, then you've got new stuff
34:43
okay cold And I know that they will be excited as I am to read
34:49
and to see your photographs, because you are truly, truly amazing, and
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I am grateful to have you back, and we will keep this relationship going
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because you have not seen the last of me, because I am truly proud
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of you. I love to see your growth. I love to see you
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smiling, I love to see you shining coming outside of that little shell that
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you were in. Reminds me, like I said before, of myself,
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because our lives are parallel in so many different ways. But you have overcome
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a lot and you keep shining in so many different areas in so many different
35:32
ways, and I want you to keep embracing every bit of who you are
35:37
because you are now walking in the purpose in which God has created you.
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So I love you, I honor you, and I am grateful to have
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met you. And I will continue to be one of your biggest cheerleaders.
35:49
Okay, thank you so much. I early appreciate that. That's like I
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feel like, even with the beginning of the first podcast, I was just
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like, you know what, like just to have one person to say,
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like you can, like you got this, and like hold me accountable,
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like I'm here today. You know, I suck to what I said,
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And I have like made a lot of groups, so like just to have
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that one person and say, like you got this and you check in frequently,
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and yeah, I appreciate it. I appreciate it because it got his
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long life, not everybody and genuinely there for you or cares or support you.
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So I appreciate you. I do. I appreciate you a whole lot.
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Well, you are welcome. We started out as strangers, but that
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quickly went out the window after that first meeting, and like I told you,
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you might as well get used to me nagging you and being on you
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because I want you to see what I see in you, and that is
36:44
greatness. And you've only just scratched the surface. So there's so much more
36:47
that you have to show the world and I'm ready to see it, and
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I'm ready for you to see what God has for you as well. So
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you know I excited. I'm excited. Yeah, but it's always you know.
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I thank you for being here, and I thank for everybody who tuned
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in tonight. But as I always say, mind jo business and stay out
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of guys, because he doesn't need anything from you except for you to be
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obedient to what He's called you to do. Until next time, we'll see
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you again. Love y'all, good night, good night,