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Ep 28 | When the Spiral Speaks: Dropping the Masks and Trusting What Arises · Rise & Realign: Conversations for the Sensitive Soul

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Welcome to Rise and Realign, Conversations for
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the Sensitive Soul. I'm Melissa, and this space
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is for those of us who feel deeply, love fiercely,
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and sense the world in ways that are hard to
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explain but impossible to ignore. Here, we honor
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your sensitivity as a strength, not something
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to fix. Through reflections, realignment, and
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soul -led stories, we remember how to move through
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life in a way that feels true to who we really
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are. This is your space to rise, to realign,
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and to come home again and again to your own
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wise, sensitive self. Well, I have to start out
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by saying last week's episode 27 was titled disruptions
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are part of the plan, trusting your sensitive
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nervous system. And I just can't help but laugh
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because, you know, I am a Gemini and. Gemini
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is ruled by the planet Mercury. And so I record
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and publish my weekly podcast on Wednesdays.
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And I discovered on Monday, that my podcast actually
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didn't publish on Wednesday at 4 .44pm Pacific.
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And so of course, that was unsettling for me
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because I was like, what? Like, how did this
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happen? And then that's my curious mind, you
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know, being like, how did this happen? Like,
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was it me? Was it the platform? You know, and
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of course, I had to go down this whole, whole,
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you know, investigative experience to just accept
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that it must have been me, you know, I must have
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somehow not scheduled it. Although that doesn't
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sound like it was what happened, but I just accept
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that that must be what occurred. And so... You
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know, it's interesting because, you know, I had
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to just laugh at like, okay, so on Wednesday,
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that's what was coming through me to share from
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my heart, right? About how the unexpected disruptions
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that pop up in our day to day life, no matter
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how we're scheduling things or planning things,
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right? They just arise. And it's, how are we?
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navigating these moments when they come up, you
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know, and I've shared that in the past, I'd be
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like, I don't have time for this, you know, and
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I would just swim in that sea of frustration.
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But, you know, where I am on my journey now,
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I'm certainly at a much wiser place where I can
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just accept like, okay, this is the universe's
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way of showing me, you know, even more. So I'm
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grateful. and it made me laugh. What else has
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been making me laugh is actually, you know, seeing
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what's going on, you know, with the transits
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and the, you know, planets, you know, how Uranus
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is now, you know, in Gemini and will be for like
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33 years and hasn't been for 83 years. And so
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that interests me, because again, I'm Gemini,
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and I didn't always understand what being born
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under that sign of Gemini actually meant, you
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know, because it being a twin, and, you know,
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some people talk about it as somebody being two
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faced. And there were just things about it that
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I didn't like, which actually, again, makes me
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giggle, because that's kind of how I felt when
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I learned about my own human design. 13 years
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ago, a friend from the spiritual center I attended,
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you know, said, Oh, I just went through this
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training, you know, let me share this with you.
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And I was like, Okay. But I didn't like what
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she shared, you know, I mean, I, of course, didn't
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know what being a manifesting generator meant
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at that time. But she shared a lot about like
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emotional waves and how I had like three of them.
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And I was just like, No, not digging that. But
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again, as we live and learn and grow, we can
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start to see how, oh, maybe this does kind of
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give me some framework to understand why I do
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what I do, right? And so I actually came across
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a Instagram clip last night. Gosh, and I forget
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what his channel was called. you know he was
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like taking instructions you know from god so
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god was telling him you know this and this about
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gemini and it was just making me laugh you know
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but um parts of it you know that are that i did
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resonate with right which of course i'm very
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curious my you know my mind has been fascinated
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with consciousness you know and the human experience
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since i was like a senior in high school but
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um It was just funny. And I could see, you know,
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the truth and what it was saying. And like, I
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am somebody who like, I'm a deep dive kind of
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gal, you know, I, I really found, you know, a
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true understanding of myself when I discovered.
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Dr. Elaine Aaron's research on the highly sensitive
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person. And that was really profound for me because
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it just gave me a language to understand my own
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experiences and challenges and also gifts, you
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know, and that became a real part of my passion
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and my career. And so although I was educating,
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you know, others, hosting groups and educational,
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you know, settings where I would teach about
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it, whether it was for pregnant women, new moms,
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you know, or just again, professionals. I felt,
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you know, like there was more to understand because
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me being a sensitive woman, you know, I had my
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own health challenges. And, you know, after being
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somebody who worked in locked psychiatric wards
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for adults and children, you know, and just saw
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how medication was just so heavily prescribed
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when they didn't know how to understand or help.
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these individuals when they were having uncomfortable
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experiences right and behaving in ways that others
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couldn't manage and couldn't understand um i
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have come to understand so much more and even
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though at one time i was also a guardian ad litem
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and a rogers monitor for the juvenile court system
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like i literally was going into um locked psychiatric
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wards and interviewing the psychiatrists and
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you know reviewing records and you know needing
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to prepare a report to explain like what this
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child's experience was but again it was like
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so medication focused right and a lot of these
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kids were already in disruptive home placements
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they were in foster care or you know programs
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and so i was you know, found myself again, having
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that spiritual awakening in 2008 and realizing
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like, oh my God, like I can't keep doing this.
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You know, I see things so differently. Medication
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is not the answer. Right. And I had already discovered
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that in my own personal journey and had gotten
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off medication and started to go that more holistic
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path and, you know, working with a naturopathic
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physician for my own health challenges, you know,
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but. I just got to this point where I was like,
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okay, yes, I'm very fascinated with the mind,
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right? That's why I, you know, have the professional
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training that I do. And that's why I work in
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the mental health field. But there's so much
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more that needed to be understood. And that's
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when I started to really delve into, you know,
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more body -based, more energy -based, you know,
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more, you know, soul. led, you know, trainings
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and experiences. And, you know, I've been running
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groups, I mean, from the age of 19 in Locke Psychiatric
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Awards for those, you know, again, having serious
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mental health issues to, you know, leading Lumerian
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sisterhood circles, you know, just, again, women
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who remembered their pasts. I've just done such
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a plethora of things. But what I really keep
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coming back to is how we need to understand our
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body, right? And as sensitive souls, right? As
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individuals who have this sensory intelligence,
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our body is so wise, right? Like we have trillions
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of cells with any intelligence and individual
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consciousness and, you know, us. being curious
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about our body more you know is what i find helps
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us to live from that more holistic understanding
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you know that we are whole beings you know and
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we can't separate ourselves you know as far as
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you know i mean gosh as a mental health professional
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right when we look at you know what what we call
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anxiety and depression like There's no test,
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right, that tells somebody that's what they're
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experiencing, that, you know, there's not a blood
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test, there's no genetic testing, right? But
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these are real life experiences that many of
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us have. And there are so many different reasons
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why we may experience anxiety or depression specifically,
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right? Gosh, my own deeper dive into understanding,
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you know, my physical health, right, led me into
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training with Dr. Leslie Korn on integrative
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mental health. And she really started to open
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my eyes to understand You know how a lot of the
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other things that had already interested me,
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right, which again had to do with my own spiritual
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awakening, right, and understanding that nature,
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you know, is here and is very much a part of
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our... human journey, right? Like the sun is
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nourishing the plants and we eat the plants.
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And so that light is getting within our system,
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right? I mean, there's just so many angles. Gosh,
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I feel like I could really talk for hours and
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hours, but I do my best to be as concise as possible
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to just open up your curiosity right about what
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it means to be a highly sensitive individual
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and specifically woman because that is who i'm
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here to really support and walk this path with
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as a spiral guide and also as a holistic telehealth
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psychotherapist because I know the value in understanding
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how does our body, you know, communicate with
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us? How do we need to care for our body? How
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do we need to understand our connection to nature,
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right? And how technology and other things are
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impacting us, right? And the biggest thing is
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that, you know, I am an awakened, sensitive woman,
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and I'm here to support other people. sensitive
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women who are also waking up. And when I say
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waking up, that can mean different things to
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different people, right? I mean, I have some
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amazing, you know, women that I work with who,
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you know, they're waking up to their own patterns,
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right? Their own conditioning from their own
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family members, right? They're waking up out
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of that. Some are just again, waking up to like,
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wow. I don't trust myself, you know, I really
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want to trust myself, right? And so they're walking
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that path to start seeing like, okay, where am
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I abandoning myself? And where do I need to be
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reconnecting? Right. And so we certainly explore
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that. But I have some young, amazing, sensitive
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women who, again, so intelligent. Right. And
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are already wanting to understand why is my body
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doing this or, you know, why am I drawn to these
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relationships? Right. And this is what I mean,
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like being a sensitive woman, like having the
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ability to. you know, to be high functioning,
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to have this high capacity to understand, right?
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And care so deeply. And again, that's because
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there's these core elements to how we're designed,
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you know, how our neuroanatomy is just a little
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bit different, right? And how our nervous system
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is more finely tuned. Like all of this is for
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us to Wake up sooner, wake up out of the conditioning,
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right? Which I love the human design system for
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being able to show people like a body graph chart.
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Um, because actually I was just going over this
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in my, the realign circle for sensitive and strong
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women in their twenties. You know, we were actually
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looking at their human design charts. And I was
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talking about how, you know, where they see the
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white, where it's open, where it's undefined
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in their charts, right? Like that's how we're
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all conditioned through that openness, you know,
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and as highly sensitive individuals, like we
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feel it more deeply, right? We can see it. So
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waking up to understanding like, okay, yes, we've
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been conditioned. That's part of how we gain
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our wisdom, right? well, what is your true nature,
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right? Like, what is your true essence? Like,
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what are you here to express? You know, who are
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you here to be? You know, what lights you up
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and to like, pay attention more to that. That's
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what I feel is really powerful is again, speaking
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to your intelligence right like you have this
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sensory intelligence and you have this depth
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of processing that helps you understand and see
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things and wake up out of the old patterns wake
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up out of the old conditioning right and realign
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with your voice your truth right how you're designed
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because i mean this is what i say consistently
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there is nothing wrong with you Right. And even
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if Ra Uruhu talks about like the openness, right,
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where the white is, you know, people may be in
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their not self there or even in their defined
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areas. Right. Like I see it more as you're still.
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living and learning and growing, right? And so
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there's different, in a sense, milestones that
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we reach, you know, in our maturity, where we
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can start to see and feel and sense things differently.
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So we really don't want to judge ourselves, right?
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And so I'm speaking, obviously. about astrology
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today. I'm speaking about the human design system
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specifically, right? Because that's a synergy
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of the Chinese I Ching, the Hindu Brahman chakra
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system, the Kabbalah, the tree of life, right?
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East, did I say Eastern and Western astrology?
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And your unique genetic codes at the moment of
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your birth, right? So it's like, it's the time,
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the date and the location, right? And all of
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that creates this body graph chart. That is one
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way that we can understand why we do what we
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do, you know, and to let go of old language that
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we may have carried, right? That made us believe
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that there was something wrong with us, right?
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So again, I'm here to keep reminding you that
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your sensitivity is a gift. It's important to
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be creating that space for you to discover what
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makes you, you, what makes you unique, right?
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Like what story you've been living, right? Where
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you were born, who you were raised with, right?
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What were the planets doing? What was the society
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and culture doing, right? Because I mean, somebody
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born on one side of the continent or the planet,
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right? um is going to have different um a different
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makeup right different experience different beliefs
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different a lot of differences, right? And so
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that's why it's so important that we not compare
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ourselves to others, right? And if you're like
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me, born and raised in America, right? And going
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through the public school system or, or any school
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system where it's always same age kids, right?
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And it's like, you're just always swimming in
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a sea of the same people, right? The same Sure,
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there may be different kids, you know, different
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grade levels, right? But you're all the same
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age. You're missing out on a lot of different
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things. And again, there's that, those barriers,
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those blinders that we have, right? So this seems
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like a good time to take a break and breathe
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love. So I just want to remind you, like take
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that nice deep breath in through your nose. Do
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another inhale. And then a nice long exhale,
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whether you want to like blow out a candle or
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do a hum. Like just let it go. You don't need
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to carry comparison. You know, do another one.
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Nice deep inhale in through your nose. Second
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inhale. And again, just let it out. Just let
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out whatever you've been carrying that's not
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yours. That could be your society, right? Your
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culture, your family, your conditioning, whatever
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you want to call it, like let it go. Because
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we need the space to realign, to really connect,
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be centered and be still so that we can see the
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vastness, right? There's so many different ways
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to experience life. There's so many different
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perspectives. And what's important is to just
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keep being true to you because you are here on
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purpose, with a purpose that only you can fulfill.
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And there's no wrong way to do it. There may
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be ways that feel more painful than others, but
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that even of itself isn't to say it's wrong,
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right? Like I've really come to see that. All
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of our paths have their ups and their downs,
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right? The things that we view ourselves as successful
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in and other areas where we see like, well, we're
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still learning and growing. And I just am here
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to say like, that's part of this journey, right?
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Like it's about experimenting, exploring and
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coming back to your truth. your center your unique
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light right and your body and as a sensitive
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being again your sensory intelligence is there
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to keep communicating how you are doing not in
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a judgmental way but in a way that helps you
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recognize like wow that one really upset me whatever
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it may be right And again, I shared at the beginning
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how the podcast not posting last Wednesday. Yeah,
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that felt frustrating for me, but it was just
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a couple of minutes, right? I was just like,
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okay, it is what it is. I mean, there's no going
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back. It's not going to publish last Wednesday,
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right? So now, you know, in that moment I said,
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well, I need to explore what happened. Was it
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me? Was it the platform? You know? And so that
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was. an unexpected disruption, right? But it
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was also an opportunity for me to recognize like,
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wow, you know, that didn't linger. I navigated
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through that with way more grace and ease than
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I would have in the past, right? And that's what's
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important to recognize. Wherever you are on your
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journey, whatever you're learning about yourself,
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right? Wherever you're recognizing some old patterns
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or whether you're waking up because of again
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the planetary shifting that's happening i mean
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the the idea right around um how uranus is now
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in gemini and i'm a gemini like that's that sparked
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my interest like oh what does that mean because
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i'm not an astrologist i certainly am not somebody
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who has a lot of experience in that i really
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just follow my own heart, my own inner guidance,
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right? And I use the human design system in ways
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that feel most beneficial and powerful for me.
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And also, you know, when we understand things
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like the human design system talks about our
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incarnation cross, right? I'm a right ankle sleeping
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phoenix. In 2027, we then move into the cross
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of the sleeping Phoenix and we are completing,
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you know, the cross of planning. So again, these
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things excite me like, oh, does this explain
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why all of a sudden, you know, like however long
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I've been doing this podcast, I guess it's been
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six months now. Was that part of why all of a
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sudden my quiet, you know, self decided to start
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speaking more publicly, right? More loudly for
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others to hear. I don't know. I'm just curious
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and I'm open. And I really enjoy speaking from
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my heart because I also realized that those,
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that twin concept of the Gemini, you know, became
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my understanding too, that I had been living
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a life where it's like, okay, I wear this hat
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as a therapist and I can speak about these things.
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But then over here, I do my BG5 business and
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career consultations, which is the business side
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of human design. I use both. I just like the
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language of BG5 because it speaks in a positive
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way. Um, that seems more clear for many people,
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but it doesn't matter to me. The whole point
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is if somebody is open and interested. And what
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I discovered is that over the last couple of
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years, um, clients started coming into sessions
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talking about human design. And so it was like,
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well, I'm not gonna, you know, pretend that I
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don't know anything about the human design system.
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Of course, I'm going to be honest. And then when
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clients are like, well, can we talk about that?
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Right? Like it became a natural thing for me
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to say, okay, I'm not wearing two different hats
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anymore. Right? Like, I'm not going to do this
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over here and that over there. I'm going to be
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myself. my whole self, right? Which is kind of
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funny because I talk about how, you know, becoming
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a holistic psychotherapist, you know, for me
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was about that inclusivity of mind, body, heart,
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and soul, right? Like we're not separating parts.
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But yet, you know, when you're a licensed professional,
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there are certain things that, you know, you
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want to be sure that You're providing what your
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client is most needing within that professional
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lens. And these sensitive women, again, were
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like interested, wanting to hear more, wanting
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to understand more. And so this is what I'm recognizing,
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you know, as I even go on, say, Instagram or
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something, more and more people are talking about
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how, you know, we can't. be wearing two different
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hats we need to be our authentic and true self
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right like no shame or um or hiding is is healthy
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right and so again we need to take off the masks
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that say over here i'm this person and over here
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i'm that person right like i am who i am i mean
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i'm a licensed independent clinical social worker
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and i have been since the 90s and that in and
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of itself is very broad in the sense of i am
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here to be an advocate to you know show kindness
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and caring and compassion, you know, for those
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who aren't yet ready to speak for themselves,
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right? Which is why my master's in social work
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is focused on children and families, right? And
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at this point in my journey, like I'm here to
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speak about the importance of being your authentic
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and true self. And as sensitive individuals and
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especially sensitive women, like this is the
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time to really understand what is your body communicating
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to you. Because that mind -body connection, your
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heart, your soul, right? Like it's about understanding
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the relationship, the connection, and how it's
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communicating so that you can see. that again
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those unexpected disruptions they are part of
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your evolution they're part of your growth they're
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part of your integration it's part of being that
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embodied unique you right so i see this as an
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opportunity for you to Be more true to you, but
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also create more space where you can be still,
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where you can be centered in your heart, where
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you can quiet that chitter chatter, you know,
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slow down on all the planning that maybe you've
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done. Open yourself up to what else is possible.
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It's not only the way you've lived. It's not
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only the way you've seen others live, right?
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Like this is the invitation. Come back home to
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you. Come back home to what's true and correct
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for you in your heart, in your soul. And there's
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many ways to do that. I'm just sharing, you know,
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the ways that I have explored. And of course,
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I love quantum biology for health. And that is
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what I live every day, which just nature, you
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know, Mother Earth, she's here supporting us,
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you know, connecting in so many ways is what's
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essential for us. So if you're recognizing yourself
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as a sensitive woman who's curious, who's waking
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up, right, who wants to learn more, the best
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way to begin with me is my essentials course.
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I call it Your Sensitivity is Intelligent Design,
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and it's for sensitive and strong women. And
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it's a science -informed course. It's, of course,
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the research around this sensory processing sensitivity
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trait, which is completely normal, yet invisible.
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And it's in approximately 20 % of the population.
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Some are saying it's up to 30 now. But when the
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research was originally done, it was about 20%.
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Um, but yeah, I go into explaining the neuroanatomy,
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your nervous system, how to understand, you know,
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the gifts and the challenges of being a highly
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sensitive woman. I cover the different ages and
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stages that we go through our twenties, our thirties,
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forties, fifties, awakening, pregnancy, motherhood,
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all of that. And it's independent. So you get
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to go through it at your own pace, whether it's,
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you know, every day for about four weeks, or
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once a week, which it can take you then six months
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to go through. But either way, I include four
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seasonal threshold gatherings also for you to
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come together with me and other sensitive women.
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And it's called Sensitivity Realignment Spiral.
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And that first gathering will be at the summer
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solstice. But you can learn more about that and
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join at realignwithmelissa .com. But before we
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close, I invite you to return to your breath,
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to your body, to what feels true for you right
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now. Because there's nothing you need to fix.
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Just notice what's here. Where the heart leads,
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the body remembers, and the soul awakens. As
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a reminder, we are here together to rise, reclaim,
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remember. And as always, I'm so grateful you're
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here. And if you'd like to walk this sensitive
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and strong path with me, in addition to the course
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I mentioned, I also write a weekly Rise and Realign
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lunar letter for sensitive women who are curious
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about the influence of the moon and what is being
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revealed through the different phases. You can
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find everything at realignwithmelissa .com. Take
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good care of you. Much love and light.