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What is a Narcissist's biggest regret? · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  What is going on beautiful people?
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  What went to another episode of the narcissist code?
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  I'm your favorite selfaware narcissist Mr. Lee Hammock
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  better known as mental illness across all social media
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  platforms. This is the first time I see in
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  my face or hear my lovely voice. I'm a clinically diagnosed
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  narcissist and I use my platform on social media to raise
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  awareness for NPD, get more people in the therapy like
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  myself and also validate the victims, survivors and thrivers
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  of said disorder, said toxic people said toxic traits.
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  Today's episode is going to be about what is a narcissist
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  biggest regret. What could be an artist's
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  biggest regret before what happened to today's episode?
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  Eastern 6:00 PM Pacific. I don't see that backwards, but
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  yeah, yeah. So this video is inspired by a
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  video that popped across my time.
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  I didn't watch the video, but I did see the title.
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  The title of her video was like a Narcissist regrets losing
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  access to you. And I was just like, you know
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  what that is a I'm gonna. I'm gonna link the video.
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  I had to go back and find it. I'll link it in the comment, I
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  mean, in the description. But yeah, y'all.
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  I was just like, I saw the title and I was like, Yep, that is one
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  of the narcissist biggest regrets right there is losing
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  access to you. Not how they treated you, not
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  what they done to you, not what they put you through, but losing
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  that access and control over you.
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  Losing access and control over what Some may consider Grade A
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  supply, like the perfect supply for that narcissistic person, if
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  that. If that narcissist could build a
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  supply from scratch, like if there was a store, you know how
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  you know how build-a-bear works? It's not.
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  Yeah, but like my mind just works in very, very unique
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  images. You know how the the shop
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  build-a-bear, Are you how you used to go in there and just
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  build your own bear? You pick the the skin, the, the
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  feeling does it have a voice and not like that what it does for a
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  living. That's how if a narcissist could
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  go to build a supply, it would build a grade A supply, whatever
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  supply fits them, they would build that.
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  And they regret losing that personalized supply.
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  They regret losing access and control to that personalized
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  supply. You know, I know, I know a lot
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  of people want to y'all want to feel it.
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  I and I get that Y'all know a lot of people at the core.
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  A lot of people just want to know that they mattered.
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  I just want to know that I mattered.
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  I didn't. Y'all might not say that, but a
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  lot of people expressed that thought or that feeling where
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  you just want to know that you mattered.
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  And I completely understand that.
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  That's something that I am I this was something I'm
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  completely understanding of because you just want to matter
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  and it and that's true. Like I said and this what if you
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  were a good person, if you did everything that you could do for
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  that narcissistic person. If you love them
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  unconditionally, which I like. I know everybody's going to have
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  different opinions but unconditional love my mind if I
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  know narcissist think in in conditions a narcissist love
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  comes with strings attached. So it's hard for me to think
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  about love without conditions. So, so in that space right
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  there, if you love them unconditionally, if you gave
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  them everything that they ask for, if you help them build a
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  business, if you help them build a life, if you help them out of
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  a rut, if you help them out of a hole, then yeah, they regret
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  losing access to you. They probably don't regret
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  treating you bad. They probably regret getting
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  caught up. They probably regret doing it so
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  many times. But they don't.
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  They regret overall. They regret losing that access
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  to what? Like I said, what what a lot of
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  people would consider Grade A supply, a good supply, a person
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  that validates them, a person that's there for them.
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  You know, one thing a narcissist lacks?
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  What most narcissists lack is the ability to treat you well.
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  And that's just being realistic. A lot of narcissists lack the
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  ability to actually treat you like a human being, like an
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  equal human being. Because my my mind doesn't work
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  like that. Y'all.
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  It's just hard for me to see. It's not right.
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  Right now it works a lot differently.
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  But previously to my therapy, it wouldn't.
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  The way my mind worked, I didn't see people on the same level as
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  me, Even if they were above me, even if they had more money than
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  me, taller than me, better looking at me, whatever it was,
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  I always found some way, shape or form that I was better than
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  them. Your or my delusional mindset
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  would always make me find something that I thought I was
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  better than them at to make my to make myself feel better about
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  the current situation. Y'all and feeling in public as
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  well. I'm outside my son's dentist
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  office right now. He's doing.
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  He's 15, so he doesn't need me in there.
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  You want to go in there by itself, but I'm.
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  I'm feeling outside right now so this is kind of cool.
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  But yeah, they would regret their access to you.
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  Y'all they like. So, like, that's why I say you
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  might not get to see them regret and not you might not get to see
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  them express that regret because you wouldn't know contact,
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  because they act like they don't care.
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  A lot of narcissists, that's what they'll do right there.
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  Even if they regret losing that access to you, I'll be damned if
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  I'm going to show it. Some narcissists will show up
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  because they'll become extremely obsessive over you and do a lot
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  of different things and whatnot, you know, in order to, you know,
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  try to help move on and stuff like that.
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  They'll go out here and find a new supply really quickly, act
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  like they're the happiest person in the world.
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  They'll throw themselves into a new relationship, new career,
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  whatever it is that they'll do to try to get over the feelings
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  of losing you, to try to get over their their regret of
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  losing their control over you and losing the access over you.
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  They might not ever express it, but they do.
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  Y'all narcissists. Or people too.
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  But the ego, y'all the ego of the ego of nurses is so damn big
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  and so damn inflated it's hard to just come out and just say
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  hey, look, I did you wrong. I'm going to actually work on
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  myself. It's damn near impossible.
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  That's why you rarely see a diagnosed narcissist like myself
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  or Ben Taylor or my mom would just went blank.
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  Y'all myself or Ben Taylor. Raw motivations.
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  Yes, that's why you barely. You rarely ever see a narcissist
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  working on themselves like because the pride and the ego
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  are so big and so strong and whatnot And Leon Walker Junior,
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  that's the that's the name who escaped me.
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  Another self war narcissist is working himself, Leon Walker
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  Junior on all platforms. But because it's they're not
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  going to express the ego is so big.
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  I'm going to act like I don't care.
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  Like even if I want to cry when you're packing your stuff up and
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  leaving, even if I even if I think this is the last time I'm
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  going to see you, I'm going to be cold, callous and stone
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  faced. Because I don't want to express
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  that emotions and that vulnerability because that
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  emotions and vulnerability make me feel weak right now as a
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  diagnosis. Narcissist.
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  That's in therapy. I understand that emotions and
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  vulnerability are actually strength.
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  The the ability to not only express them but have some type
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  of control over them is what helps you be a strong person.
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  You see what I'm saying? So I understand that space.
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  I understand that dynamic 100%. I get that.
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  Trust me when I say I get, I do get that.
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  I do understand that space and what not.
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  But that's that's the the dynamic, that's the dilemma a
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  lot of arsenses face though. They don't want to express that
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  even if they have lost the best supply that they're ever going
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  to have, you might like say you might actually be the best
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  they're going to get. You mean you might actually be
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  the best, the best thing that ever happened to them, but you
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  might not ever know that because they're not going to let you
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  know that. You mean they're not going to
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  let you know that because the problem, the pride and the ego,
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  they're so big and so high that it's it's just a lot.
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  It becomes a lot and whatnot. It just does like they even
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  their biggest regrets and like they think about it later on.
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  It's not like they never think about you.
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  I know so many people ask that question.
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  I do a longer video on the. I do a longer video on this
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  later. Does the narcissist ever think
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  about you That was yeah. There was a little car making
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  all that noise. This.
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  I'm going to do a longer video about that longer podcast.
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  Does the narcissist ever think about you?
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  I'm going to go deeper into detail but yeah they do they.
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  Yeah they do. I think about exes that I messed
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  up with 15 years ago. 16 years ago. 20 years ago.
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  I think about this stuff all the time.
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  Y'all. But it's just that am I going to
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  openly admit it and work up and and no no I'm.
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  I'm too I'm too proud for too egotistical.
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  So you right now I'm in a different state.
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  But back. Back before therapy.
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  There's no way in here you can get that out of me.
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  That I miss somebody. That I regret losing somebody,
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  that I regret treating somebody badly, that I regret cheating on
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  somebody. To be you, you had to on my call
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  on my death bed. I wouldn't say that.
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  I wouldn't even admit that on my death bed.
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  You know what I mean? So that's why I tell people.
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  Just like if you're dealing with a narcissist or a toxic person,
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  they might regret losing you. But the only yeah, this is right
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  here. The only way they can regret
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  losing you is if they actually lose you.
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  They have to lose you. Not the threat, not the threat
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  of losing you actually losing you.
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  It can't be a regret of losing you if you still if they still
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  have access to you. You hear what I said?
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  Narcissist. Biggest regret is having act of
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  losing access to you. If they still have access to
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  you, then they haven't lost you. And I know with kids is very
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  different when I say they don't have.
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  They have access to the kids, not to you.
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  You see what I'm saying? They still don't have access to
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  you. You've moved on with your life.
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  You're happy that this. When I say you moved on and
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  you're happy, it doesn't necessarily mean that you're in
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  a new relationship. It means that you're happy by
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  yourself. It means that you're happy being
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  you were content being alone. You're happy being single.
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  You like you can be happy by yourself.
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  Y'all. You don't have to move on in a
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  new relationship. But that narcissist, the person,
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  Even if they regret losing you, they won't.
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  But they probably won't tell you.
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  Some of them will tell you, and they'll show you through their
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  actions. By becoming obsessive, by
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  becoming stalkery, by becoming dangerous as hell.
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  Because some narcissists will do that.
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  Y'all they becomes dangerous, stalkery as hell.
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  Not leave you alone. Pop up at your work, Pop up, pop
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  up at your job. Call you 100 times.
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  Just like being. Being just Just being like a
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  little Nat. You mean just being like a
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  little Nat? Like, seriously?
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  That's how it's going to. That's how it goes with a lot of
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  narcissistic talks to people. Y'all and their biggest regret
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  is losing access to you. But they have to lose access to
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  you. They have to.
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  You know they they have to. They have to lose access.
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  You have to go. No contact.
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  They have to fill it. They can't feel the sting if
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  they don't get stung. You see what I'm saying?
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  They cannot feel the sting of losing you.
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  If they don't get stung by losing you, they're not going to
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  regret treating you like they might actually regret treating
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  you badly. But they won't actually say that
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  out loud. They access, you know, they
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  might. Some of them might.
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  Y'all. I'm not going to say I can't
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  speak for all. I can't speak in absolutes about
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  narcissistic people, but some of them might regret treating you
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  badly. I can't say all of them want,
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  but some of them might. And they just because I said
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  some of them might does not mean you give them another chance, or
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  at least said they might regret treating me badly.
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  Least said they might regret losing access.
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  That doesn't mean they're going to treat you better.
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  Again, y'all have to say this. If you're looking for a sign to
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  go back into your toxic relationship, this ain't it.
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  If you're looking for a sign to go back to your toxic ex, this
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  ain't it. This just ain't it.
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  You know what I mean? You have to empower yourself.
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  You have to embolden yourself. You have to be as strong as you
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  possibly can. Because if you don't, if you
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  don't, it's going to. This cycle just continues.
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  Why would the cycle stop? Y'all.
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  They can't regret losing you. They can't experiences their
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  they can't experiences their main regret, their biggest
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  regret, if they still have access to you.
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  And this is not major. Trying to say everybody leave
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  your relationship right now, I'm just saying they're not going to
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  treat you better. Y'all.
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  If they haven't treated you better in 10 years, what are you
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  telling yourself? What's the story that you're
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  telling yourself that makes you think, oh, this year right here
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  is going to be better this time, right here is going to be better
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  this day, right here is going to be better.
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  What makes you think that right there?
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  What do you tell? What are you telling us?
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  What? What story are you repeating in
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  your mind that makes you think that this person is going to
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  treat you better for some reason?
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  You mean losing access to you is a narcissist?
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  Could be a narcissist. Biggest regret.
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  Anyways. Y'all people driving by and
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