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June 27 - Wanting What Is Right · The Daily Ripples Podcast

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  Hey guys, this is the Daily Ripples and this is Corey and it's just me.
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  So I hope everybody, you know, just listens and we're going to jump around and I'm going
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  to start out with the set aside prayer though.
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  There's different versions, but this is just one of them.
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  It's dear God, please set aside everything I'm, everything I think I know about myself, this
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  book, my disease, these steps, and especially about you, dear God, so that I might have an
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  open mind and a new experience with all these things.
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  Please help me see the truth.
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  But today is June 27th.
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  Wanting what is right.
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  The stone.
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  Lasting change happens when doing what is right becomes something I want, not something
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  I resist.
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  Ripple one practical.
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  Today I will check my attitude towards growth.
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  Am I resisting what I know is good for me, or am I beginning to embrace it?
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  I will learn into the habits and principles that bring life, even if they once felt uncomfortable.
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  As I follow, or ripple to spiritual, as I follow Christ, the Holy Spirit reshapes my desires.
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  What I once resisted begins to feel natural.
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  The Father's grace works within me, not just changing my actions, but changing my heart.
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  Over time, obedience becomes willingness, and willingness becomes joy.
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  When I was first reading this, I was thinking, and I talk about this page a lot, and it's in the 12 and 12.
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  I was thinking about how it talks about on 130, says that first he goes along because he must,
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  but later he discovers a way of life he really wants to live.
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  I think about page 25.
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  You know, I don't know, because when I first came in, started doing this recovery deal,
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  I didn't have anywhere else to go.
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  I didn't have anything else to do.
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  And the way it worked for me was God just aligned my life in these certain things and
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  with these certain people.
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  So when I think about what I did, and it kind of aligns with this, but I did
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  what was in front of me, right? You know, I did what I knew what to do, and the only
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  thing I knew what to do was get help and listen to somebody else. And, you know, I mean,
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  you know, it's this program, man, it's, or, you know, at least, you know, in my, what I
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  had going on, you know, I, you know, there was nothing else I could have done anyways.
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  I don't know if that makes sense, but on page 25, and this is kind of interesting to me,
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  it says, the great fact is just this and nothing less, that we have had deep and effective spiritual
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  experiences which have revolutionized our whole attitude toward life, toward our fellows,
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  and towards God's universe.
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  And when I think about that, right, like, so attitudes, you know, when it's revolution our
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  whole attitude. And, you know, one kind of, you know, a simpler definition of like back then of
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  that attitude is like kind of like positioning of one's mind toward a subject. So my positioning of
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  my mind kind of changed through this process drastically, actually. I mean, completely,
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  100%, completely different person today than I've ever been. And I hope that continues because,
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  You know, I hope I continue to learn and to be obedient and spiritually, you know, and all the things I do today because, you know, I would not change my life today for the world.
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  But, you know, what's interesting on page 25 of the big book, it says our whole attitude toward life, toward our fellows.
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  And so our whole attitude towards life is kind of mental.
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  And toward our fellows is physical.
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  And towards God's universe is spiritual.
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  So, you know, you've got the three sides, right?
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  Physical, mental, spiritual.
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  And so on page 64, you know, that tells me I've got this spiritual malady.
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  And so it says,
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  From it stems all forms of spiritual disease,
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  for we've not only been mentally and physically ill,
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  Mentally and physically, and I've talked about this before, but the mental part is when I
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  stop drinking, when I get the girl back, when I get right back with the job or get a new
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  job because I couldn't keep the old one, or to a more extreme degree, which I've been in
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  these situations too, when I go to institutions, and I get out, and for some reason, that period
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  a ton in between.
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  On my own, I still
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  drink.
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  The physical is, when I take a drink,
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  I want
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  more. Not everybody's like
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  that. Not everybody has that problem.
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  My mother doesn't have that problem.
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  That's
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  the mental and physical.
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  That's it.
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  When the
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  spiritual malady is overcome, we
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  straighten out mentally and physically.
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  You've got mental
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  physical and spiritual and the three sides of that and so when I look at all this work and I
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  think about my positioning towards a subject well I thought the world was against me and so
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  when my positioning today is on page 62 is my troubles are I think of basically of my own making
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  They have a rise out of myself.
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  And I am, when I'm, you know, and that's a weird thing too, because like, when I'm, so when I'm in this place of self-will run riot, and you know, it says in this, in the stone, it says, lasting change happens when doing what is right becomes something I want, not something I resist.
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  Well, you know, it's interesting to me because if I'm in self-will run, well, the book says they arise out of ourselves and the alcoholic is an extreme example of self-will run right, though he usually doesn't think so.
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  So when I think about self-will run running, when I'm running past things, I'm not really looking, I'm not really watching.
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  And so I'm just passing everything by.
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  And I don't really see the hurt I'm doing, how I'm being.
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  And so when it says this, I think, you know, when I'm in that place in my life, which I've been in that place, I don't even know.
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  And it's not like me saying, oh, I'm going to do the next right indicated thing, because I think I am doing the next right indicated thing.
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  And then it goes on, am I resisting what I know is good for me or am I beginning to embrace it?
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  And, you know, when I'm in it, I'm embracing it.
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  I'm not thinking about anything else besides my point of view and my attitude towards that.
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  So the way I'm viewing it.
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  And so when I, you know, and then it goes on to say, I will lean into the habits and principles that bring life, even if they once felt uncomfortable.
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  And I don't know, you know, God, you know, I was talking to a friend of mine today and we were talking about this certain subject.
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  And I said, you know, well, you know, God will show me which way to do this.
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  And, you know, I usually run things till they don't run anymore, right?
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  Just like my drinking, I ran its course completely.
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  I got to a place where, you know, it, you know, I mean, it was just, there was no more
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  options.
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  Well, I mean, I could have gone to the bitter end.
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  But yeah, I like how the spiritual, ripple to the spiritual.
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  As I follow Christ, the Holy Spirit reshapes my desires.
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  And I, you know, that makes sense to me because I alone couldn't do this.
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  On the same page, page 62, it says, neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power.
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  So I can't do this by myself.
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  The next sentence says we had to have God's self.
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  So when I look at all this and I think, you know, hey, maybe through this work, God will reshape my desires.
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  but I can't do it alone because I've tried to do it alone.
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  I've tried and I've tried and I've tried to be a better guy.
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  Let me be more honest.
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  Well, you know, the seven deadlies take my anger away.
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  I don't want to do this.
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  All these different things.
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  And, you know, for some reason, I can't live up to that,
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  even if I wanted to.
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  I had to have God's help.
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  And so when I read that, and I think, you know,
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  the next page over, it says we had a new employer. And I look at this different right this second,
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  because when I'm going through this work with a new guy, man, when we're reading this together,
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  it says, when we sincerely took such a position, all sorts of remarkable things followed. And that
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  new position is, he is the principal, we are his agents. He is the father, we are his children,
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  most good ideas are simple. And this concept was the keystone of the new and triumphant art through
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  which we pass the freedom. And the new and triumphant art, the way I was described,
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  was we had morals on one side of the art and philosophical convictions on the other side of the
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  art, but we could not live up to them. So at the top of the art was the keystone. If you can imagine
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  like the St. Louis art. And just imagine the top of that missing. So that's the keystone. And so,
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  you know, that's it. That's God. And when it comes together, this is what it says,
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  and this is the promises of that. It says, when we sincerely took such a position,
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  all sorts of remarkable things followed. We had a new employer. And it's going to tell me what,
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  you know, what that looks like. Being all powerful, he provided what we needed if we
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  kept close to him and performed his work well. Well, when I look at this right this minute,
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  I'm not actively about to do another inventory right this second. But when I'm with a new guy
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  and I look at this, I'm like, well, what's his work, I wonder? Well, in chronological order,
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  the next number is four after three, and we're talking about the third step. So I point out to
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  them, well, I imagine his work is the fourth step. And then it says, established on such a footing,
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  we became less and less interested in ourselves, our little plans and designs, more and more we
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  became interested in seeing what we could contribute to life as we felt new power flow in. So that's
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  crazy because, you know, I hear so many different people talk about, I'm powerless, I'm powerless
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  against this job, these people, places, and things. I think that's great. And I think, you know,
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  They say that a lot in treatment centers.
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  But this book tells me, as I felt new power flow in.
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  So I got this power, right?
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  As we enjoyed peace of mind, as we discovered we could face life successfully, as we became conscious of his presence,
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  we began to lose our fear today, tomorrow, or the hereafter.
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  We were reborn.
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  Then it says we're now at step three.
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  So, you know, I think it's cool because, like, you know, it's not me doing this.
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  It's not me being a better Corey.
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  It's not me trying to practice all these things.
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  You know, there's some vigilant things I have to do.
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  I got to, you know, I have to watch.
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  I have to be vigilant in this work.
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  I have to be vigilant through my day.
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  But, you know, I think, you know, at the end of the day, it says right here, it says,
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  the Father's grace works within me.
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  Not just changing my actions, but changing my heart.
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  Over time, obedience becomes willingness.
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  And willingness becomes joy.
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  We'll end this with a prayer.
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  Father, shape my desires to align with what is right.
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  Through Your Spirit, help me embrace the life You are leading me into.
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  Through Your Son, Amen.
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  Thank you, guys.