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Aging, Love, Loss and Laughs — Our First Real Talk · Let’s Talk, Sister!

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  Welcome to Let's Talk Sister, about life, the whole damn thing.
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  We're Shell and Chrissy. We're sisters, and this is where we talk about life
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  as we've lived it, as we're living it, and sometimes where we're still trying to figure it out.
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  We'll talk about family, relationships, love, loss, grief, joy,
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  work, money, spirituality, sexuality, aging, our bodies, and probably a whole
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  bunch of other stuff we haven't even talked about yet.
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  We don't have all the answers, and we're definitely not going to pretend we do.
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  We're just two sisters having real conversation and inviting you to be part of them.
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  So grab your coffee, your wine, or whatever gets you through the day and come hang out with us.
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  Let's talk, sister, about life, the whole damn thing.
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  Welcome to the very first episode of let's talk sister who are we well we're
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  sisters literally literally,
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  but there's a whole lot more to the story in our first episode we're introducing
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  ourselves talking about our age difference i'm i'm older way older.
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  What we remember about growing up together, how our relationship has evolved
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  over the years, and who we are today, both personally and professionally.
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  We've lived very different lives in some ways, and we've shared some pretty
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  significant experiences in others. We've experienced love, loss,
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  marriage, family, careers. Wait, wait, marriages.
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  Yeah, that's true. So successes, careers, failure, grief, joy,
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  reinvention, aging, which sucks ass, and all the messy stuff that happens in between.
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  And that is actually why we created Let's Talk, Sister.
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  This isn't a podcast where we're going to sit behind microphones and pretend
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  to have a life figured out because we don't.
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  We're going to talk about life, the whole damn thing.
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  The beautiful parts the heartbreaking parts the ridiculous parts the things
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  that make us laugh until we can't breathe or pee our pants,
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  and the things that have brought us to our knees we'll talk about death and
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  grief bliss and love family and relationships business and careers money,
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  aging our bodies our mistakes our wins the things we've survived and the things
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  we're still trying to figure out p.s and children so children don't be mad at
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  us we're just loving you from From right behind this microphone.
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  We might name drop. I might change your name. So I don't know.
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  And yes, probably a few things that make us look at each other and say,
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  are we really going to talk about this? Yep, we probably are.
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  Because more than anything, we want Let's Talk Sister to become a safe place
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  for real conversations.
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  We're not here to tell you how to live your life.
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  We're going to share ours honestly and create space for you to bring yours into
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  the conversation, too. We want to hear, fuck it.
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  Okay. Oh, sorry. Don't apologize.
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  Never apologize. We want you to hear something and think, oh, my God, me too.
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  We want you to laugh with us, cry with us, disagree with us,
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  tell us your stories, ask us uncomfortable questions, and be part of the community
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  where authenticity, why you got to have big words in there, matter more than
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  having everything together.
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  Because, oh, my gosh, you're cracking me up.
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  Because none of us is just one thing.
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  We're personal and professional, strong and scared, grieving and joyful.
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  Success is still figuring shit out.
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  I thought that said sacred instead of scared. You know, I thought it said sacred,
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  too. And then, like, I did a double take, and I was like, nope, that's scared.
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  No, no, yo, we're sacred.
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  Yeah, we're sacred, too, bitches.
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  Sometimes all in the same damn day. Yep, that's life. The whole damn thing.
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  Welcome to it. Let's talk, sister.
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  Okay, this is where it's going to get real. So, fuck, how old are you, sissy? Too old.
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  48. All right, and I'm 56. Like she said, I'm way older.
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  I do have gray hair, but you would never know because I dye those sparkles. Same.
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  Yep. So eight years difference. And yet...
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  One of my very best friends in life. Like she's my person. Yeah.
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  So who are you? Tell the world who you are. Well, I think first and foremost,
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  when I came to this world, I was a daughter and a sister.
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  And then I morphed into a mother and then a wife and then a divorcee and then
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  a wife again and then a mother to a stepchild and then a medium.
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  And then now I'm just living my best life as a dog mom like how about you because
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  all my kids are grown-ass adults,
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  so yeah well and I let's see where do I start I was born a preemie so I was
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  fighting coming into the world like I knew I needed to get going with this thing
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  and so Scorpio right here
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  and and I was always good at everything I,
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  tried so it's just been a pattern my life like do a whole bunch of things and do I'm excellent.
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  And then I became a mom at 18.
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  That child was not born. And so instead, I became rebellious a little bit and
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  joined the Marine Corps, you know, because I was scared to travel.
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  So what I do, I joined something that took me all around the world.
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  And then I got married and had two amazing children with that sperm donor and
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  then became a divorcee as well.
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  And yeah, the path took me down a road where I remarried and remarried and had
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  another baby, my youngest, and also had a stepchild. And then...
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  Yeah, I, what I love is the fact that like we can, we can laugh about the multiple
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  marriages for both of us.
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  Like, you have great kids and I have great kids, you know, and they're 100%
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  mine, like all four of them. Three I birthed, one I didn't, you know.
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  Yeah, and I have six total, two in heaven, one stepchild, one in-law and three,
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  okay, don't be mad at me children, vagina babies. Patch goblins.
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  And, you know, I wouldn't change a dang thing because it made me who I am and
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  I like who I am and I love who you are.
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  And I love your grit that you've gotten through all of your life experiences.
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  And I remember when you joined the Marines, because remember I had the tonsillectomy? I do.
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  And, like, I tried to talk to you over the phone and I'm all...
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  It didn't work out very well. It was so funny. Yeah. And it was like,
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  you know, being eight years older, you know, I like wanted the hell out of what
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  I was in my life and I just wanted to get on with it.
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  And so I feel like I missed so much of that teenage part of your life.
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  But I was just like, I was into myself at that moment. Let me tell you something.
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  Like, my early teen experience gave teenage angst a whole different definition
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  than what other people have gone through.
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  I think a lot of that has to do with, you know, the experiences that I went
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  through, which is like when grief started for me. Yeah, exactly. So, history.
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  We have two brothers, amazing brothers, Jay and Jacob, that are now on the other side of things.
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  And we know they're very still very much still with us have a daughter on the
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  other side we've lost grandparents and parents you know my mom is deceased and you know
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  it's it's brought us to right now right here yeah so to clarify michelle and
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  i are half sisters but you would never know that
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  just because of how,
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  we have handled adulthood i think because like when we were younger michelle lived in Nebraska,
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  with her mom and our older brother, and then I grew up in Colorado with our
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  dad, my mom, and our two brothers that were handicapped.
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  And so if you hear us talk, I just want to clarify. So I refer to my mom, which is my mom.
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  And then I refer to Kristen's mom as mom, too, because when my mom died,
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  I asked Deb to be my mom because I still need a mom.
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  And she's always been kind and generous and loving. And she's a great example
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  of what a mom should be. And that's what I needed.
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  And this will come up, but, you know, my mom was, had some mental, she was bipolar.
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  She was clinically depressed and she hid that from the world,
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  but I was her safe person and I got to see all of her.
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  And so she was my greatest fan and sometimes my greatest enemy.
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  And so mom too has brought me this piece that I'm okay exactly how I am.
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  And, um, I still need that.
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  Yeah. So I'm grateful. Yeah. Two moms. I needed two. I need extra parenting.
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  Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah, you do.
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  It's all good. It's all good. Hey, I'm all up for help. So just like,
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  you know, sometimes our children need other moms. And you know what?
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  It's okay. Like, we don't have to be the end all be all, though we fucking rock. Yeah.
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  I mean, like, there was a point in time where my oldest, my daughter,
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  she had to go to a different household and live with a different mom.
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  And I'm thankful for that because it helped to shape my daughter,
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  who's now 26, into who she is.
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  And her and I have a great relationship too. Yeah.
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  And, you know, let's throw this out there. Like, you know, relationships ebb and flow.
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  So I have one of my children who, you know, isn't in life right now.
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  And that's okay. What I wish is love, peace, joy, gratitude,
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  bliss, and happiness for.
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  Him and his whole entire family because I would never wish anything else.
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  And if he only heard one message from me ever, it would be, I love you.
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  Yeah. I love you too. Yeah. So that is what we know. And so that's who we are.
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  How old do you make me sound? I am like young and I work out and I'm like,
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  dude, I'm a young 56. I do not work out. I am fluffy and content.
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  Like I'm totally Yeah. So we're going to talk about some of our differences
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  and some of our similarities. But if you saw us together, you'd be like, you are sisters.
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  So my dad... All the time. Dad, you got strong genes. Mm-hmm.
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  I don't know how it happens, but you have my mom's bedonky donk.
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  I don't know how that worked. I don't know.
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  But I mean, it's fine. Well, I have a theory. You want it? Yeah.
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  Mom and dad, my mom and dad, deny this. But, but, speaking of but.
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  I, and every African-American I know, thinks that my mom slept with a mailman
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  because I have a black girl butt.
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  Like, where did that come from? No one else on my side has black girl butt.
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  Like, I don't even think, like, on dad's side, nobody has a,
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  they have pancake ass. Okay, so then that comes back to dad.
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  Maybe my mom isn't my mom. She's just someone that raised me.
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  We got to talk to Dad. I don't think that's going to track, sis. I need to tell you that.
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  All right. Well, I guess somewhere in our family, some of our genes,
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  there's probably, you know, some badonkadonk butt genes.
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  I don't, because Grandma Jerry had a bank, I guess. But maybe it's before her.
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  Maybe somewhere back in history, there's a badonkadonk. Maybe.
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  I don't know. All I know is mine is liked very well by my husband.
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  And people like badonkadonks. I was like, people pay for this.
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  Mine's free. Mine's free too. I know. Isn't that great? Wait, high five. High five.
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  High five for the badonkadonka. All right. So, wow. If that doesn't let you
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  into our world and who we are, this is a normal conversation every day.
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  So love you, children. Love you, mom. Love you, dad.
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  Love you, mom. In heaven, love Jay Jacob, Tasha. All of you. Love you. All of you.
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  And that's it for this episode of Let's Talk, Sister, about life, the whole damn thing.
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  We're just two sisters sharing life as we've lived it, as we are living it,
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  and sometimes as we're still trying to figure the hell out.
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  But this isn't just our conversation. We want you in it too.
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  Share your stories with us. Tell us what you're going through.
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  Ask us questions or give us something you think sisters need to talk about.
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  Come join us at Let's Talk Sister dot com.
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  Until next time, keep showing up, keep being real, and remember,
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  whatever you're walking through.
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  You don't have to pretend it's perfect. Let's talk, sister.