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Ep 22 | When the Old Soul Awakens: Why Your Sensitivity Is Intelligent Design · Rise & Realign: Conversations for the Sensitive Soul

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Welcome to Rise and Realign, conversations for
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the sensitive soul. I'm Melissa, and this space
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is for those of us who feel deeply, love fiercely,
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and sense the world in ways that are hard to
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explain, but impossible to ignore. Here, we honor
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your sensitivity as a strength, not something
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to fix. Through reflections, realignment, and
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soul -led stories, we remember how to move through
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life in a way that feels true to who we really
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are. This is your space to rise, to realign,
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and to come home again and again to your own
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wise, sensitive self. So today is episode 22,
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which I don't know about you, but numbers didn't
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always have meaning for me. But definitely, the
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number 22 has held meaning for my family since
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my brother passed. That was back in 1990. I just,
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the number 22 just always lights me up. And not
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just because it reminds me of my brother and
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the special place, you know, that he is within
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my heart, but just because it is. It's a master
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builder number. It's about illumination and coming
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together, right? And so I've just... been very
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curious about a lot of things, which as somebody
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who, you know, in Western astrology, I'm a Gemini.
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So a lot of, you know, thinking and curiosity
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and, you know, a lot to... to talk about, really.
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And there's just so much to explore, right? Like,
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I have to say, having the freedom to just learn
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that there's so much more available than many
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of us were. you know raised to know and again
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to no fault of our parents because they lived
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their journey you know with where theirs began
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um but i'm really really grateful that in 2008
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I did experience a spontaneous spiritual awakening.
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And I didn't know what else to call it other
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than a spiritual awakening. But I've certainly
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learned since that time that even those words,
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spiritual awakening, means so many different
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things to so many different people. So I can
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only speak from my own experience. And for me,
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I was living in a very, you know, 3D materialistic
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world, right? Like, if you've listened to some
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of my earlier podcasts, you know, I used to feel
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like I was just a high -strung person. I couldn't
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change, right? And I had been able to check off
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all the boxes as far as, you know, that American
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dream. But when that awakening happened, I mean...
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it just opened me up to just pure positive love
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energy it was just bliss and the um thinking
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mind, which used to be so busy for me, right?
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And I used to, you know, call my best friend,
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I used to call my mom like, every day, because
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there's just so much to talk about, right? When
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the mind is so busy like that. But it was quiet.
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And I remember them even calling me because they
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hadn't heard from me and they wanted to understand,
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you know, what was going on. But I was married
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at the time and I was so, so blessed to have
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a husband who was very open and just really listened
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to what I was receiving in this openness. And
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I just felt like the veil was thin between physical
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and non -physical. bliss and love filled vibration
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for about five to six weeks. And, you know, my
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body just had like any of the symptoms I was
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dealing with before, which, you know, at the
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time I had a diagnosis of Hashimoto's, you know,
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IBS, I was fatigued, you know, um, you know,
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My body, though, was just all of a sudden at
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peace. It was like I didn't have the digestive
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upset. I was not fatigued anymore. I just felt
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so healthy, so alive, like filled with vitality.
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And just like this infinite field of possibilities
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just opened up. And I just. So much changed because
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I wasn't operating from that thinking mind anymore.
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I was literally living from my heart space. You
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know, I literally had just dropped out of my
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head and into my heart and it was wide open and
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it was just blissful and beautiful. And I just
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saw so much. you know, more understanding of
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like the different roles we all play and how
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we're all needed, you know, whether, whether,
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you know, and again, just seeing that our careers,
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our financial status, right? Like none of that
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mattered. We all were walking our path. So, you
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know, like for me whether it was somebody who
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was you know walking that career path of you
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know being an educated um professional right
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in in the helping field versus somebody who was
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like nope school's not for me you know i'm gonna
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go over here and i'm gonna do this task right
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whether Whether, you know, again, no matter what
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it was, I just saw value in all of it. Like it's
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all needed, right? We need people who are willing
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to say, yeah, sure. I'll hang on the back of
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this truck and pick up trash because back then
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that's what they did. They didn't have these
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trash trucks that pick them up for you, right?
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And I only remember this change because my young
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son, who's now 13, loved the trash trucks, right?
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But my point is, is, you know, I could just see
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how we all have value, right? There is no hierarchy
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of, you know, professions and, you know, money
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did not equal status and evolved consciousness
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or anything, right? Like, it was truly this totally
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open and... even field of consciousness in the
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sense of we're all here with a divine spark and
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with a divine purpose. And we don't necessarily
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know what that's going to be, right? When I think
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of You know, a lot of kids are asked, well, what
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do you want to be when you grow up, right? It's
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like, where does that question even come from,
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right? Like, let's live in the now and let life
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show us, you know, what lights us up, what opportunities
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come to us. Like, let us be here now and trust
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the natural unfolding, just like nature does,
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right? So this awakening, though, period was,
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again, it just revealed so much. And it did help
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me understand that I was not just Melissa in
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this body, you know, living the life that I was,
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right, which was married for, I think, 16 years
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when I had the awakening, and I had two children.
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And I even remember talking to my, they were
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seven and nine at the time. And I remember saying,
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okay, like, I get it. I don't have to direct
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your life. I don't have to decide, you know,
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all of these things about what you're going to
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need or do in the future. I know now that you
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have everything you need inside of you, right?
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Like the sacred geometry right inside each one
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of us. And I'm here to listen and love and support
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you, you know, as your journey unfolds. And at
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the time, you know, my son was seven. And I said,
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if you could change anything about your life,
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what would it be? And he said, I want to be homeschooled.
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And I was like, okay. Now, I never envisioned
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myself being a homeschool parent. Nope, never
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did. again used to just be so focused on balancing
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my career right um and being a mom which i loved
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so deeply um and and always will i feel it's
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such an honor and a privilege to um bring children
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into this world and to have them want to call
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me mom and want to talk to me right like because
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that's not the experience of all people um but
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it wasn't a surprise that he asked that because
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this was a kid who you know I had already read
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the book, like how to raise a spirited child,
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because I needed to understand, you know, how
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to support him before the awakening, even because
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it was like, he would complain about school.
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He would say he was. bored he would you know
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he just wanted to stay home and do his own thing
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right and it like frustrated him when he'd go
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to school and he'd get all lit up and excited
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about learning about the solar system and then
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you know the teacher would say oh we just introduce
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it that's all we're not going into it more he'll
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wait and do it in the next grade and i'd be like
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what Like, my kid is lit up about this and you
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want to put that on hold for a year? Like, I
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didn't understand it. And I didn't understand
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their report cards either because they weren't
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reporting on what my children were capable of.
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They were reporting on, you know, their ability
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to show the progress that they provided through
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teaching. So for me, it was just like, I see
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it. Okay. let's let's talk about this and I was
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surprised when my nine -year -old daughter said
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I want to be homeschooled too and it was really
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quite the journey right like I'm in this totally
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open and awakened state and I'm sharing this
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with my family and it they're my family of my
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home right my husband and my two kids were very
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open and just excited about the changes um and
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everything did change because i no longer was
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the same person because now i understood that
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each of us has our own sacred geometry within
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us our own life journey with lessons to help
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us discover, you know, more of who we really
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are, right? And I received the download that
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I am eternal. I am abundant. And I am connected.
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And not just me personally, right? Like this
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was the download for our experience here. as
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a soul. Now, this was new information for me.
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At 38, I had not thought about these things before.
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Even with my, you know, very active mind, the
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thoughts that were coming to me pre -October
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of 2008, you know, were very... I'll just say,
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you know, kind of confined to this three -dimensional
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material world. But I definitely didn't feel
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that heart connection until this awakening. And
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then everything changed. And I'm sharing this
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in more detail today because You know, you hear
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me talk a lot about being a highly sensitive
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person and to understand, you know, how you're
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wired differently if you are among the roughly
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20 to 30 percent of this population of individuals.
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You know, it is in over 100 species. But as far
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as being a human, right, like I talk a lot about
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what. what that's like, you know, so that we
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understand how our nervous system is more finely
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tuned, right? But I didn't understand a lot of
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this because of my early journey and the disconnect
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that can happen for us, right? There are certainly
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people who are born and stay connected to that
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soul knowing. Right. And so I'm speaking again
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about mine, just because there are so many people
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who don't know who they can talk to about this.
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And I was certainly one of them. Let me tell
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you, when I had that spiritual awakening in 2008,
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I was like. who can i talk to you know and louise
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hay and wayne dyer and esther and jerry hicks
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were all part of and greg braden were a big part
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of the awakening because i just sat down and
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watched the movie you um you can heal yourself
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um and they were each speaking about it in there
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and um I went to an I Can Do It conference and
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I got to, you know, get a book signing with Louise
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Hay and I got to interact with Wayne Dyer as
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we walked out after watching his, I think it
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was his last movie, but I can't recall the name
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of it. And I just remember feeling so elated
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that I got to be there, but it didn't answer
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any more of my questions. What I realized was...
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I was awakened and I needed to discover things
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on my own. And so I'm sharing this again because
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I know how lonely the journey can be for those
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of us who are, whether you resonate with the
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term, you know, old soul, right? Maybe you've
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always known that you were a little different
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in that sense, right? I did not used to think
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of myself as an old soul. And I don't know that
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anybody ever told me that, but once I had the
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awakening and I started to explore more in this
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arena, I totally could see that I've always been
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an old soul, right? Like the way I just really
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didn't. enjoy being with same aged kids, school
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was really hard for me. I missed a lot of school
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because of, you know, gut issues. And, but in
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my career, I mean, again, I was 19 working in
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a locked psychiatric ward. That's a big responsibility,
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right? And at 12, I was already, you know, babysitting
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a six week old, you know, multiple days a week
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as a job. So like when we think of the responsibilities
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that old souls can take on at a younger age,
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right? It doesn't make it easy for us though.
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We don't know necessarily, right? Like that we're
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an older soul. So I'm just speaking to this more
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because, you know, Oftentimes, this old soul
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path begins with the disconnection that I was
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just talking about. And it ends in deep remembrance
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of purpose. And although this spiritual awakening
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occurred, gosh, it's going on 18 years. So it's
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been 17 and a half years. This is what's been
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coming, you know. for me, is to really keep raising
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awareness that sensitivity is an intelligent
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design, that we're here to feel things, you know,
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to sense things quicker, to bring us back home
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to who we truly are, right? As society, you know,
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continues to get overloaded with, you know, there's
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just so much with light pollution, right? With
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the noises, with the amounts of people and, you
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know, just the things that go on in the environment,
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but the hecticness of everyday modern living,
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right? Like, this is a time for us to understand
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why. We're here with such a high sensitivity,
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right? Like I see us, you know, again, as the
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ones who can learn more quickly about why you're
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designed the way you're designed and the gift
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that it is and to unwrap it so that you can,
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again, keep realigning with who you really are.
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right with with what you're really here for what
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lights you up right because there is no hierarchy
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of well i'm here to do this and you know that
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has you know this status right like none of that
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matters we're souls in a human body and so the
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the important thing to understand from my perspective
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is to understand ourselves in our wholeness,
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right? And I say this in different ways. I say
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mind, body, spirit. I say mind, body, heart,
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and soul. Like there's no, again, one right way,
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because that's another thing that I've learned.
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Like we're all here having a very unique experience,
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which is all valid and beneficial to the all.
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to the wholeness of what we're experiencing here
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um but as highly sensitive individuals right
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like we need to come back to who we are and being
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highly sensitive there's a lot to understand
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i mean i learned it through you know the pain
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that came after that spiritual awakening because
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Initially, I thought, I want to share this with
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the world, right? I want everybody to know this.
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I was just so lit up and happy. I wanted everybody
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to feel the love and the light and the peace
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and the bliss and see the beauty that I was seeing.
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But after those roughly five to six weeks, like
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I was thrust right back into the heaviness and
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the heightened sensitivity, you know. and went
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through a lot of challenges um definitely leading
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from my heart felt clear but my nervous system
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it took it quite a long time to really recalibrate
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and to really be able to navigate my understanding
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of what was happening to me, to my children,
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to our relationships, right? I did. I went through
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a lot of changes. And I'm grateful to be on the
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other side of all of it, or a lot of it. I don't
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know if I can say all of it, but definitely a
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lot of it. And i'm somebody who like i dive deep
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i felt like after that spiritual awakening i
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became a mermaid i felt like i would just keep
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diving deep into the darkness and just keep searching
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what where are the gems right where's the jewels
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where's the gems what am i what am i getting
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through this experience like it has to be serving
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a purpose You know, and then I'd feel connected
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to it. And I'd, you know, feel like I'm like
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swimming up to the surface to the light. And
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now I'm like, you know, all happy again and feel
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like I got it all figured out until the next
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thing, you know. But I definitely am so grateful
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to be. On the other side, where I see the whole
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picture, you know, my life, my career has guided
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me through amazing learning opportunities. And,
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you know, I'm grateful. My former husband is
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my dearest friend. My children are adults. I
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was blessed with another child who, you know,
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that's just a whole nother story in and of itself.
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how he came into this world, but definitely through
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peace and love and to shine more light. And so
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I just really want to... you know, speak to how
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whatever your journey has been, right, whether
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you call it a spiritual awakening, you know,
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whether you call it, whether you call yourself
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an old soul, whether, you know, you call yourself
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an empath, like, there's so many different words
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that describe similar things. And so I'm just
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sharing from my heart with my voice, because
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I know the depth of beauty that there is within
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each of us. And our journeys are not easy. And
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we don't need to pretend that they are. And this
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is definitely my time to be raw and real. And
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I realign every single day, you know, with the
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ups and the downs that happen. This is definitely
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not a time I've learned, right, to like have
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a guru, I guess, you know, many call it. But
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believe me, I tried. I tried. I turned to a lot
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of ministers and just found myself like, nope,
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you got to keep going back inward. Keep going
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inward. You know, it's the inner journey and
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no one else can take you there but you. And so
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I just want you to know, like, wherever you are
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on your journey, whatever you're feeling, you
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know, whatever words resonate for you the most,
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you know, trust in yourself, you know, because
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you are so much more than you probably realize.
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And there are a lot of beautiful and amazing.
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opportunities to connect with other sensitive
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souls in a variety of ways, right? This is just
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the way I'm... walking and offering to support
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sensitive souls to rise and realign with their
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own truth, their own voice, their own path and
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journey, you know, because we do tend to carry,
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you know, more than is ours to carry. And until
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we realize that, we can get really bogged down
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and stress, does not serve us it absolutely will
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interfere in our flow um you know anyway i could
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go on and on about how that affects you know
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how our thoughts are flowing you know how our
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you know water and electricity in our body is
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flowing you know there's so much that i'm just
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so honored and blessed to have learned about
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both intuitively and through some really great
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other kindred souls out there sharing their truth.
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So, well, I just realized like that was a really
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long sharing and we haven't breathed together
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yet. So I really want to take a moment of stillness.
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You know, where you can place a hand on your
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heart and feel the intelligence of your own sensitivity,
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right? That heartbeat, that pulse of your own
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unique, intelligent design. And just connect
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with the breath. Maybe inhale as deeply as you
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can. And second inhale. And then a nice slow
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exhale out your mouth. Whether you're blowing
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out a candle or saying, ah, just let it out.
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Whatever you've been holding and carrying, right?
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And just do that again. Inhaling nice and deep.
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You can either hold it or just do a second inhale,
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whatever is going to help open you up for things
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to flow more easily. And then that nice exhale
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to just release, relax, let it all go. And again,
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I'm always a fan of at least three, but you know
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your body, your felt sense, and how many you
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need. So I did want to update that I had shared
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that I've been quietly creating a course. And
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more information comes to me as I'm creating.
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And so it will be available in the coming weeks.
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But the more aligned name. that came is your
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sensitivity is intelligent design. Because I
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really want to share both the science, right?
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And the soul and reconnecting you with your body.
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So that will be coming soon. So stay tuned for
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that. And along with that will be a seasonal
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gathering for embodied alignment. And that'll
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be sensitivity, realignment, spirals. So that
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will just support you as you start to become
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more aware of, again, the wholeness of who you
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are and to reconnect with you. So as always,
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you know, I invite you to keep returning to your
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breath. to your body and to what feels true for
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you right now. There is nothing you need to fix.
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Just notice what's here for you. Because where
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the heart leads, the body remembers and the soul
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awakens. As a reminder, we are here together
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to rise. Reclaim. Remember. And as always, I'm
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so grateful you're here. And if you'd like to
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walk this sensitive and strong path with me,
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I also write a weekly Rise and Realign lunar
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letter for sensitive women who are learning to
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understand themselves more deeply. And you can
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join me there. Everything is at realignwithmelissa
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.com. Take good care of you. Much love and light.