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I Think I Need to Enjoy My Life More · Ok But Are You Good?

• 0:03
  SPEAKER_00: Hi there.
• 0:04
  SPEAKER_00: I'm your host, Corinne, and this is Okay But Are You Good?
• 0:07
  SPEAKER_00: Where we check in on ourselves on a weekly basis to see how we're doing.
• 0:11
  SPEAKER_00: Are we living our best lives or are we just trying to get by?
• 0:14
  SPEAKER_00: Another week, another anxious person is trying to survive out here.
• 0:21
  SPEAKER_00: Me.
• 0:21
  SPEAKER_00: And I've realized, you know, I spend so much time focused on things that do not matter and overplaying scenarios that no one else is.
• 0:30
  SPEAKER_00: Like I really need to chill out and enjoy my life a little bit more.
• 0:34
  SPEAKER_00: We probably all do, right?
• 0:36
  SPEAKER_00: I mean, aside from my mind playing constant tricks and games with me, nothing's wrong.
• 0:44
  SPEAKER_00: I've I feel good, like I'm chilling, I'm just going through the motions of what I gotta get done.
• 0:50
  SPEAKER_00: But it's getting boring, it's getting so serious and like almost too routiny.
• 0:56
  SPEAKER_00: And it's like, eh, like we gotta spice it up a little bit.
• 0:59
  SPEAKER_00: We need things to look forward to.
• 1:02
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I almost need to start taking my own advice of enjoy life a little bit, plan things, give it a balance of having your routine and your schedule and staying on top of life.
• 1:14
  SPEAKER_00: But we also got to have things that spruce it up and make it enjoyable.
• 1:20
  SPEAKER_00: And that's what we're gonna dive into this week.
• 1:24
  SPEAKER_00: Look, I'll be the first to say I really do love when life is boring and there's nothing chaotic or unplanned that comes up.
• 1:34
  SPEAKER_00: But sometimes it gets to a point where it's just not enjoyable anymore.
• 1:40
  SPEAKER_00: And you're just going through the motions of doing your house chores, doing your job, running errands, making sure your bills are paid, whatever other obligations I could go on and on.
• 1:54
  SPEAKER_00: Like there's just so much we constantly have to do, but like not things that we want to do.
• 2:02
  SPEAKER_00: And it makes me like really miss being younger and in school.
• 2:06
  SPEAKER_00: It's like you're never satisfied when you're young.
• 2:08
  SPEAKER_00: You want to be older and can drive and have more freedom.
• 2:12
  SPEAKER_00: But now that I have more freedom, there's more responsibilities, like my biggest goal isn't just hanging out with my friends every weekend and what we're doing.
• 2:19
  SPEAKER_00: It's like, oh, I better make sure I meal prep and do and clean the kitchen so I have a better day tomorrow and I'm not spending money that I don't have on silly things all the time.
• 2:32
  SPEAKER_00: It's trying to balance like getting having a coffee uh while you're at the office so you have something to look forward to, but also not spending a million dollars on seven, eight dollar coffees every day.
• 2:46
  SPEAKER_00: So you gotta find other ways to enjoy your day and not just be a robot because I definitely feel like a robot most of the time.
• 2:56
  SPEAKER_00: I know like it's getting more real, computers are taking over, the robots are taking over.
• 3:02
  SPEAKER_00: It's just, you know, I don't want to be a robot.
• 3:05
  SPEAKER_00: I want to be a human being and enjoy my life and like still be responsible and like get what I need done.
• 3:12
  SPEAKER_00: Like, how do we balance that?
• 3:14
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I feel like I'm I've always been that person that is constantly thinking about the future and working towards the next goal.
• 3:23
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, even if it's like just for the day, not like five years.
• 3:27
  SPEAKER_00: I don't have a five-year plan.
• 3:28
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I gotta think about it a little bit.
• 3:30
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm the type of person that's constantly living in the future.
• 3:34
  SPEAKER_00: I've never been one to live in the present.
• 3:37
  SPEAKER_00: I have been working towards that, but it's baby steps.
• 3:41
  SPEAKER_00: And I've realized lately it's gotten even worse as I've gotten older, and I'll be at appointments or I'll be working out, and I can't even focus on that hour of doing my simple errand or my task.
• 3:55
  SPEAKER_00: I'm like, oh, okay, like I'm wasting time right now.
• 3:57
  SPEAKER_00: I gotta make sure after I do this, then I gotta go do this and that, so I'm not behind.
• 4:02
  SPEAKER_00: And I'm like, what am I doing?
• 4:04
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I should be able to go to the gym for an hour and turn my brain off and doom scroll and not have to use my brain.
• 4:13
  SPEAKER_00: But also, that is boring in itself.
• 4:16
  SPEAKER_00: Why, like, why does the gym have to be my one hour of freedom?
• 4:19
  SPEAKER_00: Like, and I'm still in recovery.
• 4:23
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I'm not even 100% yet, so it's not even enjoyable in the sense that it should be.
• 4:29
  SPEAKER_00: And these moments keep they keep they've been racking up lately.
• 4:34
  SPEAKER_00: I'll be with my friends and I'm not really focused because I'm like, oh, like I'm giving up time that I could be doing something more productive so I have a better work week.
• 4:43
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I just haven't figured out completely the like math to that.
• 4:48
  SPEAKER_00: And I've realized like, I was just talking to my husband about this too.
• 4:51
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I think people just do things very tired.
• 4:54
  SPEAKER_00: Like, and I I have to be well rested and like feel my best to give my full out.
• 5:01
  SPEAKER_00: I hate feeling on like low battery mode, so there's like a lot of like things I gotta do now.
• 5:07
  SPEAKER_00: It takes so much effort to do simple, fun things, and that is so lame.
• 5:13
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know how I got to this point in my life where like I have to schedule and having fun basically, and oh my gosh, that's so crazy because I used to have so many friend groups, and there'd be so many plans, now life has gotten a little bit slower, everyone just like working to live, and I really want to live to work.
• 5:36
  SPEAKER_00: Wait, wait, opposite, opposite.
• 5:40
  SPEAKER_00: I really want to work to live so I can pay for my travels and enjoy my life.
• 5:46
  SPEAKER_00: Like, all I care about, my fun is traveling.
• 5:51
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I really do want to reach that goal of going to all 50 states and all seven continents, and I know I will do it.
• 5:57
  SPEAKER_00: I just gotta keep working to pay for it, and I'll get there, you know.
• 6:03
  SPEAKER_00: Like, soon I'm gonna cross off like three states off my list.
• 6:07
  SPEAKER_00: I'm going to New Orleans, Mississippi, and Alabama.
• 6:10
  SPEAKER_00: I'm really excited to go to New Orleans, or I guess Louisiana.
• 6:15
  SPEAKER_00: And I've never been, and I'm excited, and it's been on my bucket list forever.
• 6:20
  SPEAKER_00: So I know when I'm there, I'll be present.
• 6:22
  SPEAKER_00: It's like I can't be present when I'm home.
• 6:27
  SPEAKER_00: Like I have to like literally leave the state to not uh to be able to have fun, basically.
• 6:35
  SPEAKER_00: Because when I'm home and I'm only a couple hours away or something, I'm like, oh, okay, this is how long it's gonna take to get home.
• 6:41
  SPEAKER_00: It's gonna take forever.
• 6:43
  SPEAKER_00: And then it's not fun.
• 6:44
  SPEAKER_00: And then I'm like, I'd rather just stay home so I can chill and know I'm ahead of the game.
• 6:49
  SPEAKER_00: That's why I don't like having plans on Sundays.
• 6:51
  SPEAKER_00: If I hang out with you on a Sunday, that means like you're a real one and I will do it.
• 6:56
  SPEAKER_00: And that means I my Friday, Saturday, I made all the effort to make sure everything's done.
• 7:01
  SPEAKER_00: So then my fun day is Sunday.
• 7:03
  SPEAKER_00: What kind of life is that?
• 7:05
  SPEAKER_00: That's not the life I thought I'd be living.
• 7:07
  SPEAKER_00: It's not a bad life.
• 7:08
  SPEAKER_00: It's just like very boring, very adulty, very responsible most of the time.
• 7:13
  SPEAKER_00: And it's because I get stressed out or I feel guilty when I'm not productive, when I'm not getting the things done I need to, and then it doesn't set me up for success for the week.
• 7:23
  SPEAKER_00: I've gotten to the point where I'm like meal prepping halfway through the week and I'd prefer to do it Sunday.
• 7:29
  SPEAKER_00: So that way I have more time during the week to do something else.
• 7:33
  SPEAKER_00: It's like just a domino effect, and I can't seem to get out of this cycle.
• 7:37
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe when I get back, or like this, my trip will help reset me a little bit.
• 7:44
  SPEAKER_00: So that will be good.
• 7:46
  SPEAKER_00: But I really do want to shift to the mindset of like just being happy to be alive and being in the moment and enjoy the experiences that like I might not have a chance to again.
• 7:59
  SPEAKER_00: So that's why, you know, I might just have to accept that to enjoy my life, other things have to be put aside.
• 8:08
  SPEAKER_00: And it's not gonna be the end of the world if it takes an extra day or two.
• 8:12
  SPEAKER_00: I see myself just not happy, um, not really like being who I want to be.
• 8:18
  SPEAKER_00: And I've been a little bit more sad lately.
• 8:22
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I feel like I've gotten good at compartmentalizing and just like working through it, and I get distracted, so I kind of almost forget, which sounds ridiculous, but it's the truth.
• 8:35
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I forget, like, oh yeah, I'm actually really sad.
• 8:39
  SPEAKER_00: And I laugh because it's uncomfortable to talk about because I do have so much going for me, but I still have a lot to work on, and that's why I want to be able to enjoy life more and balance responsibility and fun because life's too short, and time is a gift, and I want to make the most of it.
• 9:01
  SPEAKER_00: And some of the ways I'm making the most of it is my reading, my workout hobbies, and then another thing is I bought a journal.
• 9:12
  SPEAKER_00: I used to write all the time back in the day.
• 9:14
  SPEAKER_00: Like I had one of those journals with like the password, and only I could open it, and they they don't make that stuff anymore, or maybe I just don't buy it.
• 9:22
  SPEAKER_00: But I have a journal, I used to write all the time.
• 9:24
  SPEAKER_00: You know, this is pre-social media, so I'm excited to pick that up.
• 9:28
  SPEAKER_00: I think for me, pen to paper is the best.
• 9:30
  SPEAKER_00: It got all my thoughts out and processed, and I was hesitant at first because I was like, I don't have time for that, but like I really do enjoy reading and writing.
• 9:40
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm like, why not just continue to pick up hobbies that I liked when I was younger?
• 9:45
  SPEAKER_00: It's so funny when you think about all the things that we like made, like gave up when we were younger because we ran out of time, life changed, and you kind of like outgrew it almost.
• 9:56
  SPEAKER_00: I did outgrow reading for a while, like especially when I was in college, because I don't know, I just didn't have time, I guess.
• 10:02
  SPEAKER_00: And journaling, I don't remember when I gave it up.
• 10:04
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe once social media became a thing, but it's not like I was writing paragraphs online or anything like that.
• 10:10
  SPEAKER_00: I just probably ran out of time.
• 10:14
  SPEAKER_00: Or just didn't feel like writing, to be honest.
• 10:16
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm trying to incorporate slowly but surely things I enjoy because I just want to be a happy person.
• 10:24
  SPEAKER_00: It seems so simple, but it's so not when you've been so sad for like half your life.
• 10:30
  SPEAKER_00: And it's ridiculous to me because I know I have so much going for me and I am blessed, but like you're still, it's still not enough.
• 10:40
  SPEAKER_00: Like you're still like sad.
• 10:42
  SPEAKER_00: So that's why this episode like really hits home.
• 10:47
  SPEAKER_00: I just wanna work on my anxiety and like being present and enjoy this life because life is too short, and it really is.
• 10:58
  SPEAKER_00: It is when you have these reality checks.
• 11:01
  SPEAKER_00: And I recently had like two reality checks.
• 11:03
  SPEAKER_00: I'm like, okay, like let's make life lighter, let's make it more enjoyable.
• 11:08
  SPEAKER_00: And that's what I'm gonna do with my journaling and like reading.
• 11:12
  SPEAKER_00: I haven't read in so long, to be honest, and my upcoming travels.
• 11:16
  SPEAKER_00: I get to see one of my best friends.
• 11:18
  SPEAKER_00: I well, I get to see all my college best friends, but I get to see my other best friend next month.
• 11:24
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm really excited.
• 11:25
  SPEAKER_00: I haven't seen her in like two years, which is crazy because we talk all the time.
• 11:28
  SPEAKER_00: But but I think it's just those small little efforts of like, I made this plan with my friend to come out to LA in June, like five months ago.
• 11:37
  SPEAKER_00: Like, we've been waiting this long for this plan.
• 11:40
  SPEAKER_00: So it will be really nice.
• 11:42
  SPEAKER_00: And I also like want to rest a little bit more and not have it be so frowned upon and just be like, you know what?
• 11:49
  SPEAKER_00: I need this time to just chill out and not have to think about what's on my to-do list 24-7 and like and really romanticize my life more.
• 11:58
  SPEAKER_00: I I think it like those rose-colored glasses like really help you get through it.
• 12:03
  SPEAKER_00: I like it at least it helps me.
• 12:06
  SPEAKER_00: So maybe it'll help you because I don't know about you, but I feel like enjoying life kind of is like a skill or like a gift in itself.
• 12:14
  SPEAKER_00: Like those people that can enjoy life and still be responsible, not be so negative about it and think about woe is me all the time.
• 12:22
  SPEAKER_00: Like they're winning.
• 12:23
  SPEAKER_00: And I want to be one of those people.
• 12:25
  SPEAKER_00: I think like sometimes I can be, but I want to be high percentage of that.
• 12:30
  SPEAKER_00: I want to wake up with those sunshine and roses and rainbows and like, no, actually, I don't.
• 12:38
  SPEAKER_00: I I just want to wake up in a good mood and looking forward to my day, basically.
• 12:46
  SPEAKER_00: Because I am like black cat energy, not goal, like golden retriever.
• 12:50
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I'm black cat for sure.
• 12:52
  SPEAKER_00: Or maybe I'm like in-between, but they don't have an in-between, it's one or the other.
• 12:55
  SPEAKER_00: Why is there never a gray area?
• 12:57
  SPEAKER_00: Again, this is how my brain works.
• 12:59
  SPEAKER_00: So hopefully this resonates with you and like you want to also enjoy life more.
• 13:05
  SPEAKER_00: So, like, pick up some of those old hobbies, hit up your friends, get what you need done, but don't be so stressed out if it takes longer, because life is too short and you're too pretty to be sad and miserable and and not be living in the moment.
• 13:23
  SPEAKER_00: So, I hope this upcoming week you are able to enjoy life more if you haven't been able to lately, because that is what I'm gonna work towards and pick up some of my old hobbies, and I think we'll be okay, you know?
• 13:37
  SPEAKER_00: It has to be, or else what's the point, right?
• 13:39
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much for listening in.
• 13:41
  SPEAKER_00: Make sure to like them, subscribe, and ask yourself okay, but are you good?
• 13:45
  SPEAKER_00: And I'll see y'all next week.
• 13:47
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much.