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EP 165 Squaddin n Poddin · Kennel Talk Podcast

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What's up, What's up? Welcome to another episode of
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Kenneth Hall podcast Your boy cadet, the bolegged assassin and
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we got a guest podcast the members of Squadron and Potter
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man, brand new podcast on the scene.
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What's going on? What's up with y'all man?
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How y'all living bro man? We good.
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You want us to tell us about our week?
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Man, go ahead, man. Shit.
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What's what's y'all *** had going on?
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What's y'all had going on today? How about that?
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Hey man, we was just having a great conversation with Kennel
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Talk and the host cadet. He so kindly invited us as it
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invited us into his space and we're just happy to be here,
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man. Word I got Lou.
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Lou been on the podcast before. Got his little Big Brother Dre.
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You feel me? Yes, Sir.
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And the man with the plan we here Louis V Lou Hack man here
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we live. Word I ain't got Kid G on here,
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man. Sorry brother, it's probably
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going to be the third episode. He ain't been on the podcast.
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It was 1 episode with some ladies.
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I had to kick him off because I know he was going to be flirting
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the whole time. So I'm like sorry.
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Sorry, Sir. That's funny.
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I'm going to give the pause first, but we need your head in
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a little more. On which one?
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The laptop, yeah. Oh God, see, I can't even see
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that joint. Hold on.
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Yeah, just tilt it down a little bit and you'll be good.
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Yeah, There you go. That's good.
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Yo, what the fuck is going on bro?
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All right. Pat.
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You know, all right. Hey, so I wanted to get y'all on
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the episode. You feel me?
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Want to talk about fatherhood real quick, man, I know, Pat.
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You got two that. Hey, what?
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That 2 just came out of nowhere. You know, Dre, you got one.
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And then we got Uncle Lou in the building.
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I'm gonna get. I'm gonna get your perspective
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as well as Uncle Lou. So the the first topic I want to
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talk about was like, what was your first thoughts after
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hearing that your your lady was pregnant?
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Who wants to go first? I'll go.
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Yeah. I think I'm the longest father
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on here. Yeah.
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How old is your daughter? She is 9.
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OK, yeah, you definitely got it. She.
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Is 9. So for me, my wife had a dream a
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few days before. She actually told me, but she
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had a dream saying, oh, yeah, hey, I had a dream that I was
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pregnant. And I was like, you're crazy.
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You're not pregnant. Like, what are you talking
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about? Why are you saying that?
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And so then a few days later, I came home from work and she had
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like a little gift bag on the bed.
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Then it's just a random day. I'm like, why is this gift bag
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here? I pick up the gift bag.
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It felt light. It felt like it was empty.
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She's like giggling. I'm like, OK, what's going on
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here? Then I reach in and there's a, a
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test, a pregnancy test in there. I look at it and it said
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pregnant. And immediately I, I don't, you
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know, honestly, I don't know what my immediate thoughts were,
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but I was just really, I like, like, are you for real?
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Like this is real. And she's like, yeah, this is, I
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took the test today and, and it's pregnant.
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And so I, I think my, I think my immediate thought was like,
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like, I'm not ready for this. Like what do we like, what, what
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do we do? What's the next?
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How old were you? 2520.
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Five, OK. 25 S young, younger, younger father than obviously
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everybody here since since, you know, I did first, but it I
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think my first thought was like, what do I do next?
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Like how do I prepare for this? I'm a person that likes being
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prepared, so I mean, obviously there's some excitement too,
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like you're going to be a dad, but it is more fear than
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excitement for me. 25. Yeah, 25 is a little different.
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I don't think I was. 25 I'd be panicking.
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Yeah, 'cause I'm like, I was. Mine's a little different
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situation. How was you?
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How was it 2023 or 26? I was like 32.
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So I'm I'm cool at that point. You feel me?
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The first child, yeah, because she got, she got pregnant 2022.
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We got our baby in 2023. So yeah, the fear of side of
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things wasn't there. It was more excitement than
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anything. I can't even say I remember like
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the whole situation. I just know I was just like
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excited. Like I was excited to find out
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the sex. I wasn't trying to do the
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waiting bullshit like, Nah, I want to know, you feel me?
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And I was very excited as a girl because I got a niece and she
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kind of changed my perspective on that.
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But that's another topic we'll get into.
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What about you, Packed? How did you feel the first time
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you heard that your lady was pregnant?
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Wait, did you say your baby was born in 23?
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Yeah. What month?
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February, Valentine's Day. February.
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I hope, yeah. That makes.
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She bought to be 3. Astrology shit.
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She Aquarius. My daughter's an aquarium bro.
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She's an asshole just like me, bro.
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I don't even judge her. OK, OK, OK Don't even judge her,
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bro. I ain't even gonna care.
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I. Can't 'cause I don't even know
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what to do with that information.
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Sometimes I just ask to see if it's one of the ones that I
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actually know shit about. I know about aquariuses and
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sagges. I know sagges ain't shit.
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And that's all I know. Yeah.
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And then my wife is a Libra. You feel me?
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I I I know. I vibe with libras.
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That's it. That's funny.
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Yeah, when I found out it was, it was just so perfect.
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I mean, everything happened so fast.
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I literally met my wife in the middle of June 2023.
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And then she was telling me by September here, September, she
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told me she was pregnant. I think it was.
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Yeah, September. So it was what, like, what's
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that? Three months.
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OK it. Was quick, it was fast and
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planned. Like I remember when we fucked
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we literally said let's have a baby.
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She wanted mines I wanted her to have it and then we had sex to
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have it one for one show and she told me yes.
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Like, I left Montreal and then when I think I was on the road,
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she showed me the pregnancy thing and she was like, wow,
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we're pregnant. You said within three months.
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She three months after I met her, Yeah.
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Bro, what, what kind of vibe she had to do that?
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That's, that's, that's crazy. What type of what, what, what
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type of vibe? Like, what was her vibe that
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made you get to that point where you're just like, yeah.
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Oh well, I just got out of something.
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What do you mean? I ain't asking you no shit about
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that, *** Oh my goodness it. Was literally like I was just in
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something for five years. When I met my wife, it was six
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months after the five year relationship was for sure done.
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Like the year before it was for sure done.
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It was just kind of like that Gray area break, not sure trying
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to see, but six months after. So when she met me, I was like
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actually outside and I had no plans to be with nobody.
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That's how that's how it happens.
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That's how it happens like that. This was my hot boys summer.
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I was ready and I also knew what I wanted in a girl.
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I wasn't even thinking wife, like next girl's going to be my
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wife. I just knew what type of girl I
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would tolerate. And when I met her, she was just
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checking boxes off fast and we would talk every day.
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Like she's in Montreal, I'm in the truck.
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So there's a lot of Facetiming going on and we talked, we, I
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mean, we talked a lot for like one week and just that one week
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was just like, all right, I'm going to come see you in like 2
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weeks. All right, bet.
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And then all it all, it really took from that point to when I
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saw her with all the conversations we had, I already
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knew I really liked her and I really wanted to fuck her.
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I knew that. So at this point all I needed to
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know is how she looked right in front of me and the sex got to
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be good. That's the only things I need.
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So I met her seen her look just as good as she did on FaceTime.
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Everything was checking out sex, mid sex we just stopped.
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Like in the middle fuck we just stopped and we were staring at
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each other and in that moment of staring at I just remember
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thinking in my head like. Fuck, she put that shit on that
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*** I love this girl shit. So I knew I loved her.
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So you had the emotional connection already there.
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That's what it sounded like. Yeah, everything was there.
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We just needed to check off the physical.
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And then once that was checked off, then it was just like,
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damn. So then one thing led to
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another, like maybe a couple months later after seeing each
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other, she was the first one to bring up like, I want to have
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your babies. And it didn't scare me at all.
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It was just kind of like, yeah, you for sure can let's do it.
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And. We just did it.
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She got pregnant right away and it was just like, yo what I
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have? A baby.
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This is crazy catch you just you reminded me of a situation and
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and Lou noticed this girl this this from college this girl we
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was having sex one time and I knew she wanted to get pregnant,
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but then I was playing around one time when we fucking we
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fucking I'm like off in the bus and I felt her grip get tighter.
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I say yeah right *** psyche. He got 5 more minutes bro hell
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no. And you know how to talk about
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model model type. You remember her shot of Herman?
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Great woman, great woman. Respectfully.
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Yeah, respectfully because she married with her situation,
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there's a lot of people have disrespect on it, but not her.
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So, Luke. But I also want to add to.
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That OK, motherfucker, go ahead. I I find there's a difference in
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feeling. When I found out about my first,
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then my second, now the second was planned that we would do
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that this September, September 2026, we're going to go forward
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and have a second. So to find out my wife was
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pregnant last April. When we both find out it was
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just kind of like oh fuck want to have another kid but damn
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this is mad. Soon like she just started
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working out again, started feeling herself like we're back
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to just being us again. We got my mom watching the baby.
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It's like yo we're back it's us. And then she found out again.
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It was like, damn, we just got out of that.
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I want to talk about that. Feeling was different.
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Let's remember that the conversation about the the
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physique of the woman. OK, but I'm gonna let Lube.
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This is 1 aspect we never talk about.
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Like the brothers, the siblings, the family members when they
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find out, you know the person they grew up with is now having
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a child. So how was it for you?
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Like hearing that you were becoming an uncle.
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I don't really have a long story.
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I was happy, I was happy. I was ready to support where I
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drove down to Gainesville to see the baby.
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Amelia is a different case. She was, she was premature.
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OK, so she was. Yeah, she was early.
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She was premature. So I drove down all supportive.
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I've always been there. Oh, Dre, you in Gainesville now?
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I was. Just happy for him when I found
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out. Nah, bro, that's a that's a
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story. She was born in Gainesville, but
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we we lived in Central Florida. OK, Yeah, OK.
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Well, that's the whole story. Yeah.
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We, we got to get to. It's all good, man.
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Yeah, alright, 'cause you know, I have my cousins 'cause I, I
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think I still got videos of like when I told my cousins, like one
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of my cousin I grew up with since diapers, like he's really
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my brother and like dumb boys was like excited.
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I'm talking about like jumping up and down with me as if like I
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won the lottery type shit. But you kind of glanced
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something that I didn't, I didn't have as a topic, but it
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is something I I was thinking about right is like, do you OK?
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This probably goes more to the pack.
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Do you feel guilty bro? Like the second baby, like
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you're hijacking this woman's body, bro.
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Like, 'cause my wife, she got pregnant.
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We, I got her pregnant. Thanksgiving of like, what was
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this, 2024, right? I remember when that shit
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happened cause the food was busting and I had to bust.
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So I remember what happened and I just remember like feeling
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guilty, 'cause she was back in her swing of like working out.
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And she's always been used to her body being a certain way.
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But we all know what happens, you know, babies change things
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or whatever. So I always had that in my back
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of my head. I'm just like damn, like I don't
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know how *** be out here just getting girls pregnant.
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You busting 7 babies out of them.
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Like you just said, fuck what they want.
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Yeah. Damn that's a good ass question
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because it's definitely something I dealt with.
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Not only did I feel guilty for what you're saying as far as
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taking her out of getting back to herself and she was really
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like when she was working out, like I felt guilty because I
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wasn't working out like she was. I'm like, man, you really like
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putting it, putting work in. And I mean, granted, I was busy
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like working, but I wasn't working out like she was.
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And I was proud of her and she was proud of herself.
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And I could see her glow and her feeling herself And then like us
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having drinks and like hanging out like we was like back.
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I'm like, yo, we're back. And then when she found out, and
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when we found out, it slowly turned into a guilt because at
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first it was like, Oh no, damn, way too early.
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Fuck. And then it turned into like,
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well, well, you'll be done sooner or will be done sooner.
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This is. A good thing.
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And a lot of people can't get pregnant.
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This is a blessing. So then we started looking at
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the positive. But I think on top of the fact
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that I'm away from home all the time and then I'm having to see
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her on FaceTime and phone calls, like as the months go by, her
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struggling as she gets bigger and I'm still not there.
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She's. Like trying to deal with our
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baby and my stepson and. It's a lot just.
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It was just a lot and I'm just like, damn, none of this would
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have happened if it wasn't for me.
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I'm I'm the reason why this is happening.
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I feel you, I feel you. It's.
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Hard. It's definitely hard.
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Even right now, it's hard. It's like, I feel like a lot of
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a lot of guys don't really think about that aspect, man.
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Because me personally, I love my wife is like in that mode where
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she's like motivated. She's in the gym, like working
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out. Like I like, 'cause that's the
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person that I married, like the motivated, disciplined person,
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you know what I'm saying? Like, and you know, that that
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aspect of things as well as like that postpartum, that's a
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different aspect that, you know, that we as men got to deal with
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too, 'cause we got to be the rock for them.
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And their moment of like, you know, feeling like, you know,
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they're, they're weak or whatever it may be at the time.
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But yeah, I felt guilty. And then for me with the second
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baby, like I wasn't as excited as the first one.
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I was excited, but not as excited.
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And for her, she felt like I wasn't happy.
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And I'm just like, no, I'm cool. I'm just, I've been here
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already, you know, I mean, like, this is not new.
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Just got to make sure the baby's healthy, take care of you, make
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sure you, you eat what you want to eat, but at the same time not
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eat what you want to eat 'cause we remember what happened the
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first time, you know, I mean, like, gotta be a little more
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careful what we intaking, but yeah.
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I think that goes back to what we were talking earlier with men
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emotions versus women emotions, especially like a mother.
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I think when they're pregnant again, it's their first time
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with this baby where I feel like, oh, it's just like another
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one. And now because you've already
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been through it, it's like, all right, we do this, we do that,
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we do this, we do that. And it's another one.
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It's just another one. But it's the first this one.
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For her. And she feels it all.
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I'm still, I'm still not even connected to my second child
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yet. Like I, unlike the first one, I
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got to stay home for like a month and 1/2 after she was
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born. So I'm shirtless.
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I got the baby in her diaper. We're doing skin to skin every
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day for a month and a half versus this one's born and I was
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gone like within seven days. So right now it's almost a month
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since I seen the the newborn and I'm still like I'm I'm still
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processing that I have one like the.
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First one. Like she's now calling me daddy
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and it's like she's growing up. She's getting to that place that
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I always thought about. Like I can't wait till she calls
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me daddy. And she will walk and get play.
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Yeah. So we're.
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There now. And now we're starting over with
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another one that I need to like, introduce myself to.
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She don't even know me for him. Yeah, those face times go a long
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way because I'm, I'm pretty much, I mean, I ain't in the
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same situation as you, but I've been gone for like about two
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months since the newborn, but I was able to be home for like,
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wow, like 3-4 months. I was, I was in Florida, but
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then I had to come back to Canada 'cause we got a wedding
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money flying from Canada to Florida.
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But just know I'll fuck with you if I do that for you, boy,
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'cause God damn, that shit is not cheap, bro.
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But shout to Randy. Yeah, yeah, the second baby is
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for sure. Like you kind of don't stress
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things the same way you stressed the first one.
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Like where you like, bro, don't nobody come around my baby.
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But what's crazy is our second baby, she had what they said was
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a slight heart murmur. So we had to like monitor her
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for like a month or whatever. So like, you know, me and wife,
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are we nervous? And we're just like, yeah, ain't
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no visits, ain't nobody coming over or none of that shit.
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You feel me? And people, some people took it
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personal. It's just like, bro, just just
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chill. We don't, we ain't trying to put
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it our information in our business out there.
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But you know, it's a good reason behind it.
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Just relax, right? But she's all good.
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Heart murmur was you know what is it a hole?
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It's supposed to close like damn near right away.
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But whatever reason, I'm still open.
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But she's good. All right, let's go to the next
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topic here. So with with both of you guys
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having daughters and you pack being in the same, same place as
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me, two daughters, has it changed how you look at treating
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women or even in general just how you look at women period?
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And that goes to you too, Lucas. Now you got a niece.
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Treating women, I don't think it's, I don't think it's changed
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anything for me in, in that trying to think in that aspect.
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Nah, I don't think it's it's changed anything.
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Have obviously having a daughter it it it's I feel like it
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obviously I don't know exactly how it feels, but I I imagine
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it's different from having a son, but I never.
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You weren't a you weren't an asshole.
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Yeah, exactly. Yeah.
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That's what I'm looking at, the group of people that I'm talking
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to. And I'm like, yeah, now you feel
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me? Like I don't think we, we have
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anybody that could be like, yeah, Lewis or Packer Cadet was
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like a asshole. Like, Oh my God, he was, you
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know what I'm saying? Like.
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Yeah, so I don't think it it ever.
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It never made me change how I feel about women or how how I
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look about women with my daughter.
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I just, you know, I, I, I know she's a girl, but I, I do try to
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play rough with her a little bit.
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More than. That's why we're here.
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Both. Yeah, you know, so get her ready
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for that. But as far as how I view women
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or how I look at women or how I treat women, I I've always been
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a respectful person, whether it be man or woman.
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So it didn't, it didn't change any of that.
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Now when she gets into those teenage years and those things
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start happening, that might make me change.
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My thought process on that, that because now I'm, I actually have
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to raise someone going through, you know, hormonal changes and
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all that that might make me appreciate certain things.
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I'm scared of that shit. So yeah, As for right now, Nah,
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nothing, nothing much has changed.
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I say OK, so how does it work? I think I'll root more for women
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I always like, you know, I've never been against women like,
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you know, I want, I want to shit on you, but I definitely feel
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like I root a lot more for women to win in situations, you know,
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I mean, like, why not? That's a good one.
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You know. What was the girl recently?
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Osaka. Is that her name?
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Naomi. Naomi, I guess, I guess a little
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crybaby tennis player. I'm like, yeah, beat that girl
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at Brownie. I don't even want her to be
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humble. Don't be humble.
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Talk your shit bro. Like fuck she mad at tennis is 1
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sport like you can't blame nobody but yourself.
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Like I don't want to hear none of those excuses bro you ain't
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got time for that. But with the world I don't you
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know how some people were like a lot of guys will be like y'all
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don't want no daughter man shit me I want a daughter I want
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y'all *** to be scared when when this girl pop up with this last
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name y'all know y'all can't play with her cuz her daddy is crazy
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and he won't go to prison and with a smile on his face.
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Bro, talk to your kids, make sure they treat women right,
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bro. Like, oh, oh, her last name
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Dufresne. Oh, shit.
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Yeah. Hey, man Leader.
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That's what I want. Shit.
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Me I ain't. Yeah, the world, I ain't really.
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The world is fucked up, man. It's gonna be fucked up
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regardless of. I kind of feel like if it was a
21:49
boy, I think I'll be probably a little more fearful than a girl
21:56
to a certain extent 'cause it's like with girls, I just feel
22:01
like sometimes you can still get away with certain things as a
22:04
woman, but like as a dude bro, especially a black man like you,
22:07
come on, They ain't giving you too much leeway in this, in this
22:10
world, at least in America. I don't know, I can't speak for
22:13
every other country, but we don't get a lot of leeway to be
22:17
boys and kids and shit like that.
22:23
I'm gonna say something I've never I've never heard I never
22:29
heard this side of having daughters and psych and
22:34
psychology and how it may make you view women.
22:38
But cadet, I mean Dre, either one of y'all could say maybe
22:44
y'all haven't felt this way. The only thing that comes to my
22:48
mind that has me has my viewpoint changed when I see
22:54
women and specifically women in porn?
22:58
What? The fuck?
23:02
Listen, it's weird, but I think I've changed my daughter's
23:06
diaper so many times and seeing like a baby's a baby naked and
23:12
then returning to just like my regular life and like just
23:15
seeing porn or whatever. It changes the way I view just
23:18
the woman's anatomy and the women in sex work where I'm
23:22
like, you was like a little baby getting white.
23:24
Like you go too deep, you go too deep, I'm.
23:30
Like you was getting white and like he's not.
23:35
Judging her? At all.
23:36
Oh shit, I can see her as. A back thinking about her
23:39
father. Bro wow the back is.
23:43
Trying to save the porn stars bro.
23:45
He's the guy that goes to the strip club and tries to save the
23:48
girl. You know I can take you out of
23:49
here. You.
23:51
As a baby. Now.
23:55
This is. Crazy man, I mean.
23:58
I've never had that. Thought, Nah, hell no, I ain't
24:01
never had that either. But in all honesty, was was your
24:07
daughter's the first like girl baby that you ever changed?
24:09
Because I've never changed a girl like ever in life.
24:12
First like girl baby pussy. Yeah, damn *** vagina.
24:18
That's what you feel like. Those two words don't, don't.
24:20
They don't mix. That's what you're saying though
24:23
first. Girl baby pussy.
24:25
A a first girl vagina ever being changed cause I've never
24:28
changed. No girl.
24:29
I always change boys, my little brother and shit like that.
24:31
Yeah, I've ever seen the vagina. At that like that small.
24:36
I would hope so. God damn it.
24:37
Shit, I got. A lot of girl.
24:41
Cousins. I just never, I never changed.
24:43
Like, yeah, I got a little cousin like we used to
24:45
babysitter, but we never changed her.
24:46
You feel like me and my older or not older but me and my cousin.
24:50
But yeah, I was nervous about that.
24:51
I don't know about y'all, 'cause you know, with boys, bro, make
24:53
sure that his Ding Ling balls is clean, booty clean.
24:56
You're cool. But like with women, you got to
24:58
do front to back. It's a technique to shit, you
25:00
feel me like? And I'll be using mad wax 'cause
25:03
I don't want her to be dirty or no type of nothing.
25:05
You know what I'm saying? Like I'll use about 7-8 wax.
25:08
Let her do the one herself. Boys about to be 15 in that
25:10
bitch. Yeah, we ain't paying that.
25:17
So, OK, so for Dre Pack, I know there comes a different
25:24
motivation, right? Do you guys think having your
25:27
daughters or being married lit the fire?
25:29
And then for Lou bro, like seeing your brother, you know,
25:32
married and and child and all that stuff, do you feel like
25:35
it's a it's a pressure on you either for yourself or from your
25:37
parents? Haitian.
25:40
Household. No.
25:41
You want to go first. Lou.
25:43
Yeah. Let Lou go first, bro.
25:44
I haven't talked in a little. Yeah, no.
25:46
I don't cause me and my brothers, we grew up in a two
25:49
parent household. Our parents been married over 30
25:51
years. They're like the pillar of a
25:53
good marriage. They like they sometimes go on
25:57
dates. Their anniversary was not too
25:59
long ago when they went on a movie date.
26:01
OK, and it's one of the nice movies where you can order food.
26:04
Yeah, I don't hear about old Haitians going on movie dates,
26:07
that that's a first. Yeah, Haitians on a movie day.
26:11
Yeah, I let him. I told him about this movie.
26:13
Yeah. But so I had that.
26:16
That was like my, my parents are my role models.
26:18
So I had that growing up. So then Andre, it's just more
26:22
motivation out there. But me, I'm just very picky.
26:26
So I'm going to be picky and be single, then be not picky and
26:30
pick someone I don't really really want and get a divorce,
26:34
get whatever and just hate it. So I'm OK with being single
26:37
forever and having no child. What's your what's your ideal
26:40
man? You you, you don't discriminate
26:41
or you like 1 sided like Mr. Steve.
26:43
Shout out to Steve man. What'd you say?
26:46
No, that's not. Yeah.
26:51
I only I only date black women. OK, I guess.
26:56
Steve has been on the podcast too.
26:57
Boy he had a lot of hate after that episode.
26:59
Boy he needed some backup. What, They hated that *** Steve
27:06
needed some backup. I need him to come back, do
27:10
another one. Oh man, I don't think he does
27:13
do. It again he's not pod in so I
27:15
don't think no he. Would come back.
27:19
Hey, so Lou, Lou. All right, so what's the longest
27:24
relationship you've been in, bro?
27:27
Wait, what is this? Yeah, we trying to.
27:28
We trying to fill you up. Hey, man, how tall are you?
27:31
How tall are you, bro? You 62.
27:33
What's going on? You 6.
27:34
Two, what you said. No, we trying to sell you at
27:37
this point, man. Pause.
27:38
My bad, sorry. You 62, you 62.
27:40
What else? What else you got going on for
27:42
yourself? Yeah, I'm 62.
27:43
My longest relationship is about 8 months. *** *** he probably
27:50
should have left that alone. God damn *** what you say?
27:53
8 months is crazy bro what the fuck.
27:55
Yeah, I mean, I'm being honest, I'm not going to lie, but.
27:58
Yeah, he's 6/2. He has a full beard, ladies man.
28:02
Can I be ready to leave now? I've been single for what like
28:08
2-3 years now? So anything that's like not
28:13
worth the hassle? Why would I be here?
28:16
Like it's not worth it. You know it gets worse as you
28:18
get older, right? Like that.
28:19
That patience level for bullshit that I've been hearing in the
28:22
dating scene is just going to get worse bro.
28:25
Yeah, I got to work on that. I've been working on it.
28:28
I've been working on. It is it really on you or is it
28:30
on the women though, like to be honest, you know, I mean like.
28:34
I want I don't want to blame others so I always blame myself.
28:37
So I would say it's more me. Damn, they said.
28:40
If you make it to nine months, you got to marry the girl.
28:42
Other people. Whoever makes it to nine months,
28:44
you have to marry her. I mean, you're not wrong, miss
28:48
them. You're not wrong.
28:49
Now that's a fact, cause me, I had like a curse with two year
28:52
mark, bro. Like it's either before two
28:54
years or right at two years. I'm we're breaking up about two
28:57
years. It's something about it bro.
28:59
And then wifey shit we've been locked in about officially since
29:03
2019. That's.
29:06
Amazing. Yeah, fire.
29:08
All right, so back to you gentlemen.
29:13
Did your daughters or being married light a different fire
29:18
and like your motivation to get to it?
29:22
For me, this is like I've I've asked, I don't know if I've
29:27
asked packed this, but I've asked multiple fathers of of my
29:30
age. I, I, I always say like before
29:33
having a kid, right? If someone were to ask me, do
29:37
you think you could murder somebody?
29:39
My answer would be no, I don't. I don't think I could.
29:44
Yeah. After having a child, yes,
29:47
without hesitation. Mama, somebody.
29:51
Something clicks. Something changed.
29:53
It's like, yeah, if someone did, yes, without hesitation to
29:58
defend my family, what I have, it would take nothing.
30:01
So there's definitely some kind of innate thing that just turns
30:08
on I, I, I imagine if, if you want to be a father, if you want
30:10
to be a president father. Obviously a.
30:12
Nation is out there that don't care, but if you want to be a
30:15
president father, a president husband, I feel like there is
30:18
something that that that turns on.
30:20
It just makes you want to do better and not just for
30:23
yourself, but obviously for them and and you know, it just makes
30:27
you want to get to it, whatever it takes.
30:30
I agree with that. How about you, Clack?
30:32
Yeah, and I agree with everything Jay said.
30:35
I think before having a wife and kids, if I ever wanted to get
30:41
better or I always want to get better, but it would always be
30:45
for myself, right? And there's also times where I'd
30:50
be like God, like I promise I'm, I'm going to be better now I'm
30:53
I'm going to do better. So it'd be like either me
30:55
talking to me or me talking to God.
30:57
I never really cared too much about being better in a sense,
31:00
in a way for like friends or family.
31:03
I felt like I always showed up for friends and family and it
31:05
wasn't something I ever felt like, how can I be a better
31:07
friend or family member, which I feel like we always have room to
31:10
improve. But I think having the wife and
31:14
kids, because I really wanted them once I got them and then it
31:19
was like, yeah, all right. I can't do certain things.
31:22
Like like I can't just if, if trucking is hard, I can't just
31:26
quit and just go home and be like, yeah, I'm going to figure
31:29
something else out. Yeah, there's no like I, I guess
31:33
I'm just going to figure it out. It's like, no, whatever the
31:35
problem is, I have to, I have to figure it out now.
31:38
People depending on you, depending on me.
31:41
Yeah, and I and I asked for it. It's not like a shock.
31:45
It's like, yo, I want to be the leader.
31:47
I want to provide, So what do I got to do to do that?
31:50
And what do I got to do to keep this role?
31:52
Because that's what I want. So I agree with that.
31:56
There's there's no losing now. I can't.
31:59
I've said that a lot, Like, you gotta want to be a husband and a
32:03
father, bro, 'cause it's a lot of stuff where you just gotta
32:06
suck it up, bro. Yeah.
32:07
And like, if you're not, you're not volunteering to be these two
32:11
things. Like, bro, you're you're gonna
32:13
quit, to be honest. Like you got to have that
32:16
self-discipline, like you said, like before, it's just like, all
32:18
right, I'm doing this for myself or I'm, I'm a, you know, wake up
32:21
early to go to this job for myself or I'm gonna go work out
32:23
for myself. But now it's like I, I want to
32:25
work out because I want to be around for my child.
32:27
Like, I want to be able to put some money on their head if they
32:30
disrespect my family. You know what I'm saying?
32:32
Like different motivations, right?
32:34
Yeah, Yeah. But even even I've said like the
32:41
whole process of of giving birth, like I don't understand
32:45
how people will get to the point of having a baby with someone
32:51
like that. They don't even know their
32:53
favorite color. Like, you know, I'm saying like,
32:56
like you know absolutely nothing about this person and you're
32:59
taking this big ass risk and like I'm feeling I will have a
33:03
baby. Like and then the person is not
33:05
even present in this crazy and wild situation.
33:07
Like Rob was right there with my wife.
33:10
Like bro everything after the stitches, wiping and flushing
33:13
shit, all types of craziness. Real quick cadet.
33:15
What's up? Could we get more?
33:17
Could we get more body? Oh you know I got bad posture
33:22
man Yo hey why you say shit like that bro?
33:24
All these paws were in the ass. Fucking lazy saying shit bro Can
33:29
we get more? Body is crazy, dawg.
33:33
Crazy because my shit is straight auditory.
33:35
Like yo, that's crazy. For the people that listen to
33:41
kennel talk, we, we got video going and, and you know, a
33:45
little bit these *** I can't see the laptop.
33:48
One on camera. Hold on, I'm really not bro,
33:50
I'll just be in the zone can y'all see me?
33:54
Yeah, that's much better if you could stay right there all.
33:57
Right, but let me tilt it down. That's good.
34:01
That's good. That's really packed it.
34:03
While in the whole damn episode, bro.
34:08
Flag on the play dog. Oh, shit, man.
34:14
Hey, man. Alright, so I'm I'm gonna end it
34:16
with this. Yeah.
34:18
I'm gonna ask Lou first, though. So if or when you get to that
34:22
point, would you want like a boy or a girl first?
34:24
Or you, You don't even matter. I would want a healthy baby
34:31
first and foremost, but. Good answer Sir, good answer.
34:34
But having a niece, my niece is pretty cool.
34:38
I guess I'm lucky to have a cool niece.
34:41
Pretty cool. I wouldn't mind.
34:42
Like I said, just healthy, healthy baby.
34:44
Yeah, yeah, for sure. How many?
34:47
I guess the leaning towards boy, but it doesn't matter how many.
34:54
How many babies? How many?
34:56
I'm old, I already know I don't have the.
34:59
Patience for multiple kids. One kid yo Miss Sam.
35:03
Chill with the twins. Chill with the twins one.
35:05
Kid twins, whatever God blesses me with.
35:07
You know, Lou, you might fuck around and get like quad, what
35:12
is it? Quadruplets or whatever.
35:13
How the fuck you say? Oh gosh.
35:15
I don't know how they do it man. I thought I was going to get
35:18
twins, man, because on my mama's side there's a bunch of sets of
35:21
twins. I'd have been cool one and done.
35:24
You worried about? That too.
35:26
Oh yeah, your side of your. Wife's side, OK, there's there's
35:30
twins and supposedly it skips a generation or something and we
35:33
were worried, but Nah, just one. So.
35:37
So your daughter's a sage, bro. You gonna let me talk shit about
35:40
sage and your daughter's a sage? That's news to me.
35:44
I don't know nothing about that. He said he don't care about
35:48
that. She's my daughter and I'm gonna
35:50
stand beside her like I don't know nothing else.
35:52
December. 20th whatever that means.
35:58
Yeah, so she, I, she's she's she's close to some other shit.
36:01
She I, she cool, She good had. More than one kid.
36:06
I think it would change how much I like Lou as a friend.
36:11
I feel like he would suck. I feel like Lou might be a great
36:14
father, but I just feel like you would be so like like just a
36:19
mopper and complainer about the kids like 2-3, four.
36:23
I feel like you would just always be like bro man like.
36:27
They won't shut the fuck up. I don't think I would.
36:31
I can see it. I can see it.
36:33
Low key, bro. 3-4 kids. Lou.
36:36
Yeah. 3-4 kids is why. It's fuck.
36:40
It's fuck. You would you would be like bro
36:43
man. Bro no, but that's my doing
36:47
unless it's triplet. Oh damn.
36:49
If I they say you a soft uncle Lou, what happened?
36:54
They say you a soft uncle bro. I'm a soft uncle.
36:58
Yeah. Wait, Louis says uncle is funny.
37:01
He's trying to be tough. I mean, no, I just might.
37:03
As a uncle, I just annoy Amelia. I play around with her and I
37:08
annoy her. I try to bother her.
37:09
I have videos of me annoying. Her.
37:11
Yeah, that's me as a dad too. I know.
37:13
What I do, I think that's like an uncle's job and she's the
37:16
girl, so I try to toughen her up a little bit.
37:19
I feel you on that, But I feel you, man.
37:23
I don't think I'll be. Complaining about if I had a
37:25
bunch of kids, I'll be happy to have kids.
37:28
I don't even see myself having kids because I don't see myself
37:30
with a girl right now. So it's like.
37:33
Go. I I 100% will get a vasectomy.
37:37
I will get a vasectomy vasectomy tomorrow if I could because I
37:40
ain't having no more damn kids. Bro.
37:43
I've seen you can. I'm straight like I can't what?
37:48
He said you can't have a vasectomy.
37:51
Let me tell you something, I don't seen these these families
37:54
walking through this airport with like 5 girls chasing that
37:57
boy. I'm good, I'm good.
38:00
This second one definitely kicked my ass.
38:02
You going to find out Tupac when you get back home?
38:05
It's a different fatigue on that second one.
38:06
That first one, at least for me, my first one was cool little
38:10
smooth. Oh no, the first one for us was
38:13
tough. Really.
38:14
OK, so it was. Like it can't get worse.
38:16
This one is not as. Bad as Nah.
38:19
See, there you go, complete opposite our first one.
38:21
She cried maybe the first couple days being home and then after
38:24
that she was sleeping through the night.
38:27
She ain't whine or fuss. This second one. *** I used to
38:32
wake up and go jogging because I was just so fucking frustrated
38:38
and I needed to get my mind off of being frustrated from being
38:41
sleep deprived. So I'm like, fuck it, let me go
38:44
run, get tired and crash when I get because you know, you got to
38:47
take the shifts like one night is mine.
38:50
She was smooth with my wife, but when it came to me, God, I swear
38:55
I woke up like every hour one night, like 11:00, twelve
38:58
o'clock 1:00, yeah. That's how Romy was.
39:02
Romy was that night after night after night.
39:05
And I just remember like every night it would just be like, I
39:07
put my head down and the the whole routine was really I, I
39:12
get the baby and change the baby, then give the baby to my
39:16
wife to feed the baby. I was like.
39:18
The whole thing. So I just remember like putting
39:21
my head down as soon as I put my head down, if I didn't hear the
39:24
baby, maybe I would hear my wife like Steph and I'm like.
39:29
Yeah, you already sleep deprived bro.
39:35
Yeah, man. That's funny.
39:38
See, my, my experience is so different.
39:41
Like our, our, I don't want to call it a curse, but our, our
39:46
daughter was in the ICU for 20 days.
39:49
OK, I want to say 20 days. So obviously we had
39:53
complications, all that stuff. She was born early, she was 3
39:56
lbs, five oz, seven weeks early. All these that would be
40:00
attributed to negative things, but she was in the NICU.
40:03
So yeah, NICU newborn ICU for for 20 days.
40:07
So in those twenty days they, they developed the routine.
40:13
So all we had to do when we got her home was follow the routine.
40:17
And so I ain't gonna say I'm lucky, but I.
40:22
Yeah, because she was in the ICU in the hospital for 20 days with
40:25
the nurses. Different place.
40:27
Completely separate, like we would have to go down.
40:30
Waiting. Nah, they just looking through
40:32
the window, right? Like we had to.
40:34
There was a point we left the hospital and came home and she
40:37
was still in the hospital. Like, we're home in Orlando and
40:41
she's in the hospital in Gainesville.
40:42
Oh shit. Damn, yeah.
40:46
Granted, we tried to stay up there as much of those 20 days
40:49
as we could, but you know, it's got to got to work and things
40:54
like that. So yeah, they were able to,
40:57
well, yeah, plus my wife was in the ICU on another level anyway.
41:01
But so yeah, they, they did the work of the routine and getting
41:04
her on the whatever, 4 hour feeding schedule and whatever.
41:08
Like, so one week once we brought her home, we were just
41:12
like, all right, so we got their schedule.
41:14
We just transferred the same thing and on top of that my wife
41:18
was the stressor and she would be the one like sleeping when
41:21
one eye open. I was.
41:23
I was. Out Hey between both of these
41:28
pictures there's pictures with both of them with them knocked
41:30
out on my chest and I'm CKO. Swaddle her up, get her all
41:37
bundled up, throw her in the thing and go to bed.
41:40
Yeah, I'm a swaddler. When When When the second one
41:44
wasn't swallowed. She's moving and kicking and
41:46
fighting and tighten this thing off.
41:50
Yeah. Yeah, tie you up, go to sleep.
41:53
Pressure. Yeah, yeah, it's funny.
41:54
Do y'all think y'all y'all still want a boy?
41:58
Would y'all try for? Definitely I, Amelia asked me
42:01
the other day. I said, Amelia, I wanted a boy.
42:04
I'm not gonna lie to you. I wanted.
42:06
I wanted. But.
42:07
I have you now and you know, that's, that's just, that's what
42:10
it is. I'm happy, but I definitely
42:12
wanted a boy for sure. But I'm saying, do you want one
42:16
now? Would you still like go after
42:18
that? Oh well, we can't, but if we
42:21
could, I would. Oh, OK.
42:23
And what about you, Pat? Would you still chase after the
42:25
boy? No.
42:30
Now my stepson is going to be my like actual boy experience.
42:35
With my. First daughter, I call her the
42:38
son I never had. She's very much all boy
42:41
qualities. As far as?
42:42
What I would see in a little boy, She's just a girl.
42:45
So I'm I'm. I'm.
42:47
Super Gucci. Yeah.
42:48
For my mother. For my mother, I was the closest
42:51
she was going to get to a girl, for sure.
42:53
I do all the cooking and cleaning and type shit, you feel
42:55
me? But I'm still a *** Shout out to
42:58
my stepdad. Stepdad stepped in just in time.
43:01
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Right when it was crucial.
43:04
In common question for you stepdad.
43:08
Yeah. Yeah, I was going to ask
43:09
question for you with your stepdad situation, your
43:13
biological dad ever met him? What happened with that whole
43:16
thing? That *** around, I don't fuck
43:19
with him. That's a that that's, you know,
43:21
that's the episode I've been wanting to do for like damn near
43:24
2 years. But I just, it's one of them
43:28
episodes. Like I not to go too deep into
43:32
it, but I realized he wasn't shit.
43:35
Like the week of my wedding, that's when everybody,
43:38
everything hit me like this *** really ain't been shit and I
43:42
ain't gonna kiss your ass like I'm a grown ass man with my
43:44
camera on. Riverside turned off.
43:47
It shows you're still in here, but your cameras are.
43:49
My phone's probably about to die.
43:51
Oh yeah, he got some he off, but yeah, your.
43:57
Stepdad is, you know him, he's around.
44:00
Yeah, yeah, My stepdad, he, I've known him since not.
44:02
Not your stepdad, my dad. My bad.
44:03
My biological. Yeah, I know.
44:05
I know who he is my whole life. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
44:10
But he ain't, he ain't, he ain't active or not like that.
44:12
You feeling like he lives in Jersey?
44:15
Yeah, yeah, I've seen him like it's so it's a it's a weird
44:19
situation. So he lives in Jersey, like I
44:20
was born in Jersey. So I would go to Jersey every
44:23
summer, but I would always be with my uncles.
44:25
I would see him and he'll pull up, hey, how you doing?
44:28
Give me like a little bread. And then that pretty much be our
44:31
interaction, bro. Like legit, I can only think of,
44:34
yeah, my mother's side shouting them.
44:35
They really like, do you know the epitome of what I'm like,
44:39
alright, this how I'm supposed to be taking care of my family.
44:42
Feel like they really set the tone.
44:44
But yeah, as far as him, like I can only remember him buying me
44:47
a Big Mac meal my whole life and I'm 35, about to be 36 in like 7
44:52
days. So it is what it is.
44:55
That's why I really don't care to have a boy because I don't
44:57
really care to keep the last name.
44:58
Going to be honest, you know, a lot of people feel like, oh, I
45:01
want to keep the name. I don't give a fuck.
45:04
That's chicken. Die with me.
45:08
So you feel like he let you down and you're like growing up years
45:15
and your stepdad being there wasn't like, I don't need him.
45:18
I got him. It was like, I still want my
45:20
dad. Nah.
45:22
So honestly speaking, I wasn't one of those people were like,
45:25
I'm just like, Oh my God, I wish my dad was he.
45:28
I'd never felt like that. My mom was cool, like, you know
45:31
what I'm saying? Like I never, I've always been
45:33
like kind of sort of independent to a certain extent.
45:36
But with my stepdad, I wouldn't say he was super active, but he
45:38
was just like he showed me like as a man, OK, you cut the grass,
45:44
you take care of the car, you do these things.
45:46
Like he gave me the example. I wouldn't say like he was super
45:49
active. Like hey son, like I never
45:51
called him dad or nothing like that.
45:52
I called him by his first name to this day I wouldn't say he
45:54
was super active but. So he was a great husband, more
45:58
so. I wouldn't even say that he
45:59
Haitian. You know how Haitian ***
46:01
sometimes he *** *** don't be shit, bro.
46:05
He he, he was the most active to go around, bro.
46:07
Like, you know, he married my mother shot him, but you know.
46:11
They still married. Yeah, yeah, they still married.
46:13
Yeah, ain't no disrespect to him, but not like that was just
46:16
like what? What I OK, so This is why this
46:19
also, not to go on topic, but like when people use the absence
46:24
of people as an excuse to why you ain't shit, I can never
46:27
respect it. You know what I'm saying, 'cause
46:29
like my biological dad wasn't active.
46:32
This *** got a bunch of kids, couple different baby Mamas, you
46:36
know what I'm saying? Like I'm married once and I got,
46:38
you know, all my kids with one person, so I made sure that I
46:41
didn't want to go down that path.
46:43
So when people would be like, well, my daddy wasn't man, shut
46:46
the fuck up, *** man the fuck up.
46:48
Like you knew right but and wrong.
46:50
You know what I'm saying? So I can't never excuse it.
46:52
And I can only say that because I went through it like we were
46:56
saying in y'all in y'all episode where you were saying like, you
47:00
can't dismiss someone's feelings, right?
47:03
But I've been in a situation where, OK, my dad had a bunch of
47:06
women and a bunch of kids and I'm like, I don't want to be
47:09
like that. So I'm not going to be like
47:11
that. You know what I'm saying?
47:12
So you don't want to repeat the trauma.
47:14
Why? Why?
47:14
You know, that's it. That's just how I feel.
47:17
But yeah, I'm gonna do the episode one of these days.
47:20
But that's, that's a deep 1. I don't know if I want to go
47:22
down that route. Yeah, that that's that's one of
47:26
mine. Did you know yours?
47:29
No, I didn't know my biological dad, but I didn't know I had a
47:33
biological dad. It wasn't until I was 17, got
47:35
kicked out and I had like little ideas throughout my high school
47:39
years because we needed a physical form for football and
47:44
there's no dad in my birth certificate.
47:46
So I used to joke with my mom like, yo, where's daddy?
47:48
Like he was late to the hospital and shoot.
47:52
And one time, one one of the times, one of the years when I
47:55
made a joke, she was like 7 stop.
47:57
And I just remember it kind of like was in the back of my head,
48:00
like she doesn't want to talk about it.
48:02
And I was just like, whatever. But when I got kicked out, there
48:06
was like a one-on-one moment my mom and I had at a park when she
48:10
was trying to convince me to move back at the house.
48:13
And she just started breaking down crying.
48:16
And she's like, what do you want to know?
48:18
And when she asked that question, that was the first
48:20
thing that came to my mind. I was like, so is my dad my dad
48:23
or no? And she was like, no, he's not.
48:27
You have your dad. And I didn't want to tell you
48:28
because I didn't want you to leave.
48:31
And I felt like that moment was definitely great to have, but I
48:36
felt like it bared more weight on her than me and she probably
48:40
thought it would have meant more to me, or like that it would
48:43
have hurt to hear something. Like that but I'm so.
48:46
Used to my stepdad that to hear that news, I was just more so
48:50
sad that my mom was crying about it versus like, well you didn't
48:53
tell me I had a dad. Then when I turn 18 I get a
48:56
random Facebook request from my biological dad.
48:59
I find out it's him and then I met him in person when I like
49:04
around the time I got my first car.
49:06
I want to say I was probably like 20 or something, I don't
49:10
even remember, but I met him in person and I just remember being
49:14
kind of like awkward like this is my dad I guess like it is.
49:18
But I don't really know you. But whatever, you're down to pay
49:20
for my car. I really need it.
49:24
And you don't seem crazy or something.
49:26
So I'm here to hear you. And at this point in my life,
49:29
like I'll send him pictures of my my daughter and we talked
49:34
like very randomly, but I don't have no hard feelings.
49:38
I I just have a whole bunch of curiosity, but I.
49:41
Don't. Hold no weight or like no anger
49:43
towards any my mom or him. Or.
49:45
Because thankfully I grew up with a stepdad that held it down
49:49
and he was a Haitian dad, so. It's not like.
49:51
He gave me what I thought I needed because I remember crying
49:54
about like seeing stuff on TV like white white kids playing
49:57
catch with their. Dad playing.
49:59
Baseball, I'm like, I'll never get to play catch with my dad,
50:02
but that's like typical Haitian shit.
50:05
I ain't think about none of that though.
50:06
That's the crazy part bro. Like I just.
50:08
Well, not my bio, but my stepdad.
50:09
No. For your stepdad, yeah, I just,
50:11
I just went through life, bro. I ain't really too much like
50:14
think about that stuff. You knew he was your stepfather.
50:19
Who, me? Yeah, yeah, yeah, I knew.
50:21
He's my stepfather for sure. That's the big difference.
50:24
No, but I'm saying the yearning part because even when you got a
50:27
stepfather, you could still be like, damn, I wish I had my real
50:29
dad to, you know, go to my games and just down the third.
50:32
But like for me, I really didn't care.
50:34
Like I was just like, whatever, it is what it is, you know,
50:36
saying. That's why I say it was, it
50:38
wasn't until like, when did I get married?
50:40
2021, So I was like 31. It wasn't until then I was just
50:43
like, damn, this *** really ain't shit.
50:45
Like, you know, he ain't go to my high school graduation, He
50:48
ain't go to my military graduation, he ain't go to my
50:50
Academy. Like, you know what I'm saying?
50:52
Like, and now you, because of your pride, you don't go to my
50:54
wedding. And now what?
50:56
Really like set me over the edge to where I was like, yeah, I
50:59
can't be around this *** unless he apologizes 'cause I'll
51:01
definitely put my hands on him. Is the disrespect to my wife,
51:06
'cause now it's like, oh God, you disrespecting me, *** I'm
51:09
used to you ain't being shit. But like now you're
51:11
disrespecting my wife and like, I don't give a fuck who you is.
51:14
You're not disrespecting my wife and you 'cause she tried to
51:17
reach out to him. She tried to reach out to him
51:20
when the whole situation happened 'cause my mother had
51:23
told him. Mind you, my mother was never
51:24
one of those people that's like bashing him or anything.
51:27
Like, that never happened throughout my years.
51:30
Yeah. But on the way to the wedding,
51:33
she, she brought up the fact that, you know, he was in
51:35
Jersey, like trying to like dirty my name.
51:38
And I'm just like, what? What you mean he basically
51:41
saying like, you didn't invite him to the wedding and did.
51:43
I'm like, what? Like bro, he want me to like
51:47
kiss his ass and like Loki beg him to come to a wedding.
51:49
Like bro, you should feel so honored that I'm even giving you
51:53
an invitation. And what's crazy is I'm cool
51:55
with all my siblings. Like all like literally all my
51:57
siblings was there except for one cause like she had just had
52:00
a baby type shit. Outside of that, all my siblings
52:03
was front and center and these Louis, Louis was there.
52:07
Louis there, he. Women.
52:09
You say that again. These are his kids with.
52:11
Other with other women, even his, even his wife is like she
52:15
loves me to death. You feel me like I've never been
52:17
a disrespectful kid, nothing like that.
52:19
You know what I'm saying? Never no situations where you
52:22
would feel like ashamed or anything like that.
52:24
You know what I'm saying? So that's why I'm just like ***
52:26
it ain't me *** it's whatever you got going on within
52:29
yourself. That's how I look at it like I'm
52:31
cool, I have my family, I have my loved ones, I got support,
52:34
I'm cool. I'm not going out of my way to
52:37
look for an apology either. So like it's cool on my side but
52:41
fuck all that. Do y'all feel like as girl dads
52:45
y'all feel like y'all have gotten a little more emotional?
52:47
Like with certain things that you might watch that includes
52:49
girls like babies, child's or whatever child's children.
52:59
When it comes to. Like well yours is 9 bro you're
53:02
like outside of that room. Have you ever?
53:04
Yeah, yeah, I watching movies and stuff.
53:08
I've never been the emotional type watching movies.
53:10
I'm more, I think I've told the guys on The Pop before.
53:12
I'm more so get emotional. Like if I'm watching like let's
53:16
say America's Got Talent or something and it's a real person
53:21
given their real story, that kind of stuff will make, you
53:25
know, make me a bit emotional, but not from not due to my
53:29
daughter. I don't think that has OK has
53:34
done anything. Nah.
53:38
What about you, Pat? For sure, yeah.
53:40
Yeah. Yeah, and not even just as a
53:44
dad, but even as a husband. I think whenever there's
53:47
anything where I could just I, I could just feel that person like
53:52
whether they're about to lose their wife or their kid is sick
53:56
or just died and the the two people like recently actually I
54:01
I got, I felt a way I don't know if y'all seen his and hers.
54:04
I ain't fully watched. It hasn't like caught my
54:06
attention like that. I can't get past the second
54:08
episode. OK.
54:12
Without telling too much. Yeah, without telling too much,
54:15
there's 2 characters in there who lost the kid in the past.
54:18
Right. And full circle, they get a
54:21
moment to talk about that moment.
54:23
And like, she's kind of getting on him about like after that
54:31
happened, because she, she left and disappeared for like a year.
54:35
So he's like, you just left me. Like after that happened, you
54:38
just left me. Yeah.
54:40
And I needed you. And yeah.
54:42
And you, you just disappeared. And all I wanted to do was
54:45
comfort you. I wanted to be there for you.
54:47
I just wanted to tell you things were OK.
54:49
And she's like, I, I, I didn't leave or just disappear.
54:55
You kept trying to make me forget about it.
54:57
And that memory of my child was all I had.
55:02
It was all I had. And you were trying to take that
55:04
from me. And like when she's like
55:06
breaking up crying, I, I, I feeling, I'm like, I could feel
55:10
like me trying to console my wife about some shit like that.
55:14
And if we were to lose our kid in the thought of losing a kid,
55:17
just like, oh man, we'd be sick, we'd be hurt.
55:21
So I I feel for scenario. I don't think I could watch John
55:24
Q now, as a father actually going, actually going to turn me
55:29
up. The hell no.
55:31
Yeah, yeah, it would hit harder. Now bro, I've gotten super
55:35
emotional with like situations as involving kids and like, you
55:39
know what I'm saying? Like especially those like
55:41
realistic type of movies or shows.
55:44
But shit, yeah, I'm off of that. That should be blind.
55:47
Even have you ever heard J Cole's song She's Mine?
55:52
Maybe you might have heard it, but you.
55:54
You listen to Nicole. Yeah, I do listen to Nicole.
55:58
He's got a song called She's Mine.
56:00
Yeah, I think it's on For Your Eyes Only, I think.
56:03
But she's got a He's got a song called She's Mine Part 1 and
56:05
She's Mine Part 2. And one of the parts is about
56:10
him having his wife. But the other part was about him
56:13
having a daughter or his his child.
56:16
I don't know if it's a boy or girl.
56:19
And anytime I hear that one about a kid, I cry every single
56:22
time I hear that. Like he just be saying like damn
56:25
it feel good to have you. Damn it feel good to have you.
56:29
You hear the? Baby crying in the back and
56:32
she's. Like, oh wait, I gotta listen to
56:33
that. That's going to make me
56:34
emotional. Bro, he's like everything he
56:37
says just hits and he's just like, I want to cry, 'cause now
56:40
you're here and I can finally be right by your side.
56:43
And then he says I don't want to die, 'cause now you're here.
56:47
Oh, my Mama, I ain't want to bring that up, but when my first
56:51
one was born, that crossed my mind.
56:54
I got sad bro, 'cause I'm like, fuck, I'm gonna have to leave
56:56
this earth one day, bro. Yeah, And I, I'm like, do ***
57:00
think about this shit, bro? Like fuck dog.
57:02
Like she ain't even been a month.
57:03
When I thought that I was like, damn, I love the hell out of
57:06
them babies, bro. I could be having a shitty day.
57:08
I see them little faces on FaceTime, bro.
57:10
I'm hey baby, hey baby, hey Dada baby, you know what I'm saying?
57:13
Like I'm up, bro. I know that's it.
57:18
I'll. Be trying to divide my energy
57:20
and give my give my still try to give my wife the me.
57:23
That she needs. But sometimes I think because
57:27
we're both adults, we're more transparent with the fact that
57:32
we may be tired or stressed. But I could I feel guilty
57:37
sometimes because sometimes she'll FaceTime me and it's me
57:39
and her and then she'll hold on. Your daughter wants to talk to
57:42
you. But while me and her were
57:42
talking I'm just like. Yeah, she.
57:45
Put the. Baby on.
57:46
I'm guilty. I'm guilty.
57:49
That's fact. It's not even you don't even do
57:53
it on purpose bro. It's just a different energy
57:56
they bring out of you bro. Like, I don't know, but yeah,
57:59
man. All right man, I'm gonna go
58:00
ahead and end it like this, bro. I appreciate y'all for coming
58:03
on, man. But before I end the podcast, I
58:05
always give the guests the opportunity to plug whatever
58:07
they got going on squatting and potting.
58:10
What else y'all got going on, man?
58:11
Y'all could do your personal pages if y'all want to.
58:14
It's all about the squad right now.
58:16
Squatting and. Potting and pot is.
58:18
All y'all need to. Know for sure y'all spell it out
58:20
for them. Pack.
58:21
Spell it out. SQUADDIN, that's squatting.
58:26
No G and pardon, no GPODDIN. Yeah, everywhere.
58:34
I'm gonna put it all in descriptions.
58:35
On all platforms, Yeah, officially on all platforms.
58:40
Y'all in the TikTok chat, we on our, we on everything now,
58:43
Spotify, Apple Podcasts, all that good stuff.
58:45
We are officially everywhere. Oh yeah.
58:47
Oh yeah. So.
58:48
Part and that's all we got to. Say appreciate y'all boys man.
58:50
I don't fuck around open. Try to open up a Band-Aid on my
58:53
black ass with a daddy conversation.
58:56
Yeah, I'll be the moderator for that one if y'all want it.
58:59
I mean I I got some questions. I'll say less now we can do that
59:03
because that's the part too. I'm like, do I want to do a solo
59:05
or do I want somebody to like, you know what I'm saying?
59:07
Like, yeah, I'll do that. I could do that.
59:10
That's gonna be a that's gonna be a motherfucker.
59:15
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