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200 Episodes · Red Onion Randy - Life in a Supermax Prison

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  Speaker 1: You have to fight and fight and fight and fight
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  Speaker 1: to overcome. I can do something with my life. Hey, everybody.
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  Speaker 1: Red Onion Randy again for the 200th episode. 200 episodes.
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  Speaker 2: Me and Michael Garvin.
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  Speaker 1: Professor of art at the University of New South Wales
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  Speaker 1: in Sydney, Australia. And his beautiful wife, Chu Yan. We
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  Speaker 1: started this back in... Well, we started working around with
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  Speaker 1: it in 2019, but we didn't actually go on air
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  Speaker 1: until June of 2020. It's November of 2026.
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  Speaker 2: You know.
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  Speaker 1: six years I've been doing this podcast with a few
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  Speaker 1: breaks here and there unfortunately um you know though we
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  Speaker 1: did we did try our hardest to get one episode
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  Speaker 1: out every week uh that's it's insane to think that
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  Speaker 1: we've done 200 episodes I've wow it's been crazy.
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  Speaker 2: It really has.
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  Speaker 1: I went from Michael saying, dude, we should do a
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  Speaker 1: podcast together. Let's do a podcast together, to me asking him,
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  Speaker 1: what is a podcast, to here, to this moment right now.
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  Speaker 1: Sitting in a chair in the pod, using the wall.
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  Speaker 2: Phone, even though I could.
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  Speaker 1: use my tablet and the phone on it and the
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  Speaker 1: cell and everything, but I started on this phone. You know,
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  Speaker 1: so I figured for this milestone, I'd go old school
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  Speaker 1: and I'd get back on the wall again. I've shared
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  Speaker 1: pretty much everything. You know, there's some things, you know,
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  Speaker 1: I haven't talked about. You know, there's, you know, Some
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  Speaker 1: stupid stuff I've done that, you know, obviously I'm not
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  Speaker 1: going to throw out there. You know, man's got to
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  Speaker 1: have some secrets, I guess. But I've buried my soul.
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  Speaker 1: I've given y'all my heart. You know, I haven't come
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  Speaker 1: on this episode. I haven't lied.
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  Speaker 3: Not once.
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  Speaker 1: I haven't come on this podcast, I mean, excuse me, sorry.
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  Speaker 1: I haven't lied once. Obviously, you know, trying to remember
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  Speaker 1: everything exactly, you know, isn't the easiest thing.
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  Speaker 2: In the world for me.
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  Speaker 1: So I can guarantee you some of the things that
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  Speaker 1: I've said as fact were probably not fact.
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  Speaker 2: They were probably, you know.
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  Speaker 1: Just unintentional lies, unintentional Grandocity, whatever. You know, I'm not perfect.
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  Speaker 2: I'm a human.
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  Speaker 1: But I'm trying. Like, I'm actively working towards being better,
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  Speaker 1: to doing this better. I don't know if we're going
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  Speaker 1: to get another 200 episodes or more out of Red
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  Speaker 1: Onion Randy, or, you know, the podcast may take a
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  Speaker 1: different turn. You know, I'm really close to possibly getting
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  Speaker 1: out of prison. You know, I can see the light
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  Speaker 1: at the end of the tunnel. I just got a
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  Speaker 1: text message earlier this afternoon from the guy that's doing
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  Speaker 1: my pardon, telling me that he was informed by the
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  Speaker 1: Secretary of the Commonwealth's office that my pardon has been
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  Speaker 1: approved for the investigative stage. It is now going in
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  Speaker 1: front of the parole board. So I'm now being investigated and,
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  Speaker 1: you know, probably in a few weeks' time I'll be
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  Speaker 1: taken in front of the parole board. You know, so
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  Speaker 1: going home, you know, if I'm blessed enough, you know,
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  Speaker 1: if God honors me by giving me favor and getting
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  Speaker 1: me up out of here and giving me You know,
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  Speaker 1: a real chance at life this time. A legitimate chance
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  Speaker 1: at life this time. I'm sure the podcast... I'll keep going.
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  Speaker 1: I like doing this. This right here is my therapy.
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  Speaker 1: I love getting up here.
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  Speaker 2: And talking to y'all.
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  Speaker 1: And it's... You know, the podcast is just done good. Obviously,
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  Speaker 1: I would love to have billions of downloads every single week.
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  Speaker 2: That'd be pretty cool.
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  Speaker 1: Probably never going to happen. But, I mean, I think
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  Speaker 1: all total, I think all total, I know since, okay,
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  Speaker 1: so I've got two Michaels. I've got original Michael and
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  Speaker 1: I've got extra crispy Michael, which is, you know, extra
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  Speaker 1: crispy is my buddy, my brother, my family from, uh,
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  Speaker 1: Toronto on Ontario, Canada and everything. You know, he took
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  Speaker 1: over in 2023 when, uh, when original Michael and Julian,
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  Speaker 1: unfortunately due to health concerns and, and everything that Michael
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  Speaker 1: had going on in his life, you know, with his
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  Speaker 1: mom and, you know, so much other stuff that, you know,
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  Speaker 1: unfortunately he couldn't continue. Julian couldn't continue due to her
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  Speaker 1: health concerns. Um, But since Michael took over, Extra Crispy
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  Speaker 1: as I call him occasionally, we've had over 440,000 downloads.
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  Speaker 1: You know, my YouTube has grown to, I think, around 3,750 subscribers. And,
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  Speaker 1: you know, other stuff. I think we had, with Original
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  Speaker 1: Recipe Michael, I think we had... close to 200,000 downloads
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  Speaker 1: or something like that. I can't exactly remember. But to
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  Speaker 1: think that, you know, I've been listened to half a
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  Speaker 1: million times. Those numbers, they don't fill me with profits.
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  Speaker 1: They don't make me arrogant. They don't make me cocky
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  Speaker 1: in the slightest. It humbles me. This podcast.
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  Speaker 2: Has humbled me.
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  Speaker 1: Y'all's responses. You know, I've had people write in. I've
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  Speaker 1: had people call in. I've had people reach out to
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  Speaker 1: me and actually sign up on J-Pay, sign up on,
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  Speaker 1: you know, GTL, Biopath, whatever, getting out tablet thing. You know,
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  Speaker 1: and tell me personally, I'm with my family. I'm still
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  Speaker 1: with my family because of you. I was going to
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  Speaker 1: leave my wife. I was going to leave my children.
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  Speaker 1: I'm still with them because of you. And listening to
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  Speaker 1: your podcast, listening to your stories, your troubles, your fuck-ups,
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  Speaker 1: You know, your mistakes, but how you keep trying, how
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  Speaker 1: you don't give up, you don't quit. Like, that struck
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  Speaker 1: a chord on me, Randy. And, you know, I stuck
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  Speaker 1: it out. I stayed. You know, and they got their
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  Speaker 1: life back together. I've had people, you know, write in,
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  Speaker 1: call in, saying that, you know, they didn't go back
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  Speaker 1: to prison because of me. They was doing stuff that
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  Speaker 1: was going to send them back to prison. They was
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  Speaker 1: going to violate their parole But listening to me talk
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  Speaker 1: about it, you know, they had a little light bulb moment,
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  Speaker 1: a little piss in the awakening, whatever. And they're like,
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  Speaker 1: what the am I doing? Why am I doing this?
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  Speaker 1: And they stopped. Like, they just stopped. And they turned
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  Speaker 1: around and they started putting the work in. People have
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  Speaker 1: listened to my podcast. And quit drinking, quit doing drugs.
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  Speaker 1: I've had people write in, call in, write directly to
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  Speaker 1: me telling me that they credit me with saving their life.
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  Speaker 1: They was going to commit suicide. My wife is one
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  Speaker 1: of them. My wife is one of them. My wife
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  Speaker 1: was going to kill herself. And listening to my podcast,
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  Speaker 1: she decided no. And she completely turned her life around.
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  Speaker 1: around like she's doing good right now she's gone back
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  Speaker 1: to school she's gotten several you know she what do
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  Speaker 1: they call them things I hate when my brain does
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  Speaker 1: this but level she's uh she's leveled up she's now
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  Speaker 1: you know going for her level five in laser technology
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  Speaker 1: for tattoo removal for skin stuff vein stuff all like
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  Speaker 1: you know we're pregnant we did IVF together you know
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  Speaker 1: so that we could have a baby so that we
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  Speaker 1: could have our family together like This podcast, God has
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  Speaker 1: blessed me in so many ways. God has blessed me
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  Speaker 1: in so many ways, man. Let me tell y'all, I
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  Speaker 1: have never been more humbled than I am now. You know,
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  Speaker 1: I'm not the most emotional guy, you know, when it
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  Speaker 1: comes to the deeper feelings.
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  Speaker 2: You know, when it comes to the, you.
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  Speaker 1: Know, that stuff that really matters, like that stuff that
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  Speaker 1: really just chokes you up. You know, I've never been
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  Speaker 1: really comfortable with that. You know, I come from hell.
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  Speaker 1: I was raised in hell. And all the years in
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  Speaker 1: solitary confinement like that, 18 and a half years in
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  Speaker 1: solitary confinement, not all straight, not all straight. And yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I guess I earned it except for the last, you know,
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  Speaker 1: seven years of some changes. Seven years, 112 days to
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  Speaker 1: be exact. 2,667 days I did in solitary confinement without
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  Speaker 1: a charge, no investigation, no nothing. Simply because it was
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  Speaker 1: easier for them to label me as one of the
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  Speaker 1: dangerous inmates in Virginia. You know, so they could just
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  Speaker 1: lock me up. Put me back in a hole and
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  Speaker 1: just keep me there.
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  Speaker 2: And look at me now.
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  Speaker 1: I'm in the incentive prison, the Virginia model.
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  Speaker 2: Level three, Buckingham.
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  Speaker 1: God and y'all. My listeners, how many times have I
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  Speaker 1: come on this podcast and asked y'all for help? Asked
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  Speaker 1: y'all to, hey, please, send e-mails to.
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  Speaker 2: Call Richmond.
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  Speaker 1: You know, like, you know, call the warden. Email, like,
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  Speaker 1: help me out here. And a lot of you have.
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  Speaker 1: A lot of you have. I remember Red Onion. I
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  Speaker 1: remember when I was really struggling with my leg and
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  Speaker 1: the tumor in my leg and, you know, trying everything
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  Speaker 1: I could.
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  Speaker 2: To get help.
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  Speaker 1: To get them to take me to the hospital and
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  Speaker 1: get it biopsied. And I remember the warden being so pissed.
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  Speaker 1: Warden Jeffrey Kaiser, he sent my unit manager, Sweeney, to
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  Speaker 1: come and try to intimidate me. That shit didn't work.
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  Speaker 1: And I remember Sweeney telling me, When the warden come
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  Speaker 1: to work this morning, he had over 1,000 emails in
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  Speaker 1: his inbox directly related to you and your leg. You
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  Speaker 1: need to tell them to stop. I'll tell them to
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  Speaker 1: stop when y'all get me some fucking medical treatment. You
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  Speaker 1: want them to stop? Okay. Take me to the hospital.
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  Speaker 1: You know, it didn't quite work out the way... Y'all
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  Speaker 1: was hoping and I was hoping. I mean, to this day,
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  Speaker 1: it still hasn't been properly biopsied. You know, the most
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  Speaker 1: they did was drill eight holes in my tibia and,
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  Speaker 1: you know, send me back. And I haven't heard jacks
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  Speaker 1: from them since. And that was in what, 2023, 2022, 2023, 2023.
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  Speaker 1: That's the last I've heard. That's the last I've received
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  Speaker 1: any kind of treatment for my legs. You know, it's
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  Speaker 1: still the same tumor, still there sticking outside of it.
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  Speaker 1: But the fact that y'all stepped up, y'all helped. You know,
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  Speaker 1: y'all called, y'all sent emails, you know, to help get
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  Speaker 1: me out of them damn mountains. Yeah, I did my part.
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  Speaker 1: I kept my hands to myself. I kept my temper
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  Speaker 1: under control. But y'all pushed these people. Y'all pushed them
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  Speaker 1: and y'all pushed them and y'all.
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  Speaker 2: Let them know.
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  Speaker 1: Hey, we're not going to sit by and let this happen.
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  Speaker 1: And it worked. I'm here. This has been one heck
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  Speaker 1: of a journey. Getting the feedback, listening to how I've
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  Speaker 1: helped people has had a tremendous impact on my life.
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  Speaker 2: You know, it is... It has taught me. I have
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  Speaker 2: learned from it.
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  Speaker 1: Coming over here, getting on the phone, or, you know,
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  Speaker 1: now currently doing it in my cell mostly since we
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  Speaker 1: got the new Viral Path tablets, I don't really plot
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  Speaker 1: out and plan my episodes. You know, sometimes me and Michael,
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  Speaker 1: you know, we discuss a topic. You know, we say, well,
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  Speaker 1: we're going to talk about this. I'm like, all right,
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  Speaker 1: that's cool. You know, we'll... do a few things here
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  Speaker 1: or there. You know, some things he has to send
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  Speaker 1: me some information on. And I'll get it. I'll read it.
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  Speaker 1: Then I'll get on the phone call and, you know, court.
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  Speaker 1: But it's from the heart. Like I said, I don't
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  Speaker 1: pre-plan anything. I don't have production meetings. I don't have
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  Speaker 1: bullet points or a PowerPoint or any other kind of point.
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  Speaker 1: I just....
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  Speaker 2: I got a heart point.
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  Speaker 1: Everything you hear from me comes from the heart. I
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  Speaker 1: say what I mean, mean what I say. You know,
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  Speaker 1: right or wrong, I stand on it. And I know
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  Speaker 1: I'm not the most enlightened guy. I've been shaped. A
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  Speaker 1: lot of my viewpoints have been shaped by the hell
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  Speaker 1: I've gone through in life.
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  Speaker 2: Unfortunately.
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  Speaker 2: I've had a lot more bad than good happen to me.
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  Speaker 1: And that's probably stunted me in certain areas. It's probably
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  Speaker 1: blinded me in others. But again, work in progress. I've
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  Speaker 1: been reading Greg Hurwitz. Great author. Somebody told me that
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  Speaker 1: I really, really need to read his Orphan X series. Um,
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  Speaker 1: you know, his character, uh, Evan Smoke. And I have.
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  Speaker 1: I just went to the library today, and I got book, uh, seven, eight,
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  Speaker 1: and nine. And I'm reading them, and he's got, uh,
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  Speaker 1: this guy that came and took him out of a
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  Speaker 1: little orphanage group home in Baltimore, uh, John Jakes. I
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  Speaker 1: don't know. John Jakes?
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  Speaker 2: Something like that.
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  Speaker 1: Sorry.
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  Speaker 2: I really suck with names, let me tell you.
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  Speaker 1: But this guy had ten commandments. And I don't know
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  Speaker 1: what all the commandments are off the top of my head.
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  Speaker 1: But the second commandment, it's It speaks to me.
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  Speaker 2: Like, it really, really speaks to me.
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  Speaker 1: And it's this. How you do anything is how you
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  Speaker 1: do everything. And I've really taken that to heart. You know?
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  Speaker 1: The fact that the dude is a total badass. You know,
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  Speaker 1: he's not some muscle-bound, you know, dude.
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  Speaker 2: He's not.
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  Speaker 1: No, he's just an average guy.
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  Speaker 2: With some specialized training.
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  Speaker 1: OCD. I see a lot of myself in that character.
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  Speaker 1: Me and that character went through a lot of the
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  Speaker 1: same things. I was in some of those group homes.
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  Speaker 1: I've had to fight my share of Van Scivers. I've
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  Speaker 1: never been the big guy. I don't know what it's
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  Speaker 1: like to be a big guy. I know what it's
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  Speaker 1: like to fight the big guys I know what it's
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  Speaker 1: like to lose to some of them I know what
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  Speaker 1: it's like to win against some of them I know
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  Speaker 1: what it's like to get dragged apart by CO's from
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  Speaker 1: some of them and not finish it one way or
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  Speaker 1: the other I know what it's like to be all alone.
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  Speaker 1: I know what it's like to not understand social cues.
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  Speaker 1: You know, not to feel connected, not to feel loved.
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  Speaker 1: I do now, without a doubt. And that's the greatest
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  Speaker 1: thing this podcast has given me. Love. I have some
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  Speaker 1: people in this world that I've met through the documentary
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  Speaker 1: and through this podcast. That I can say they honestly,
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  Speaker 1: legitimately love me. Look, I've met a lot of people.
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  Speaker 1: At one point in time, I had over a hundred
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  Speaker 1: people writing me. But that was, that was rough. It
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  Speaker 1: was great, it was humbling, but Man, trying to correspond
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  Speaker 1: with 100 people can be really, really tough. And I'm
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  Speaker 1: sure I screwed up some of them. And, you know,
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  Speaker 1: some people just grew apart. Some people maybe I wasn't
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  Speaker 1: giving them what they wanted. That's life. But I have
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  Speaker 1: met some people that they love me. And I love them.
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  Speaker 1: I'll do anything for them. But back to Evan Smoke
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  Speaker 1: and the Orphan X series, how you do anything is
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  Speaker 1: how you do everything. I've been doing that with this podcast.
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  Speaker 1: I come on here and I do the absolute best
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  Speaker 1: that I can. I'm never trying to tear anything down.
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  Speaker 1: I'm just trying to make things better. I'm just trying
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  Speaker 1: to shine a light not just on some of the
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  Speaker 1: bad things here in prison, but the bad things in
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  Speaker 1: your life. The majority of our problems are self-induced. Whether
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  Speaker 1: you want to believe that or not, you know, I
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  Speaker 1: lived with that martyr complex for a long time growing up,
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  Speaker 1: especially in my teenage years and, you know, my early
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  Speaker 1: to mid-twenties. I was a martyr. It was everybody's fault
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  Speaker 1: but my own. That's a hard thing to accept. It's
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  Speaker 1: a hard thing to even realize to begin with. When
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  Speaker 1: you have to open your eyes and accept the fact that,
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  Speaker 1: you know what? The majority of my problems are self-inflicted.
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  Speaker 1: The majority of my problems are self-inflicted. I've done this
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  Speaker 1: to myself. You will never overcome. You will never conquer.
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  Speaker 1: You will never set yourself free until you accept that
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  Speaker 1: inescapable fact. Self-infliction is is probably our number one problem
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  Speaker 1: in this world. How you do anything is how you
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  Speaker 1: do everything. I want you to think about that. How
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  Speaker 1: you make your bed in the morning is how you'll
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  Speaker 1: do everything throughout your day. What you put in your
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  Speaker 1: body is how you'll do everything the rest of your day.
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  Speaker 1: You buck on your exercises, you buck on going to
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  Speaker 1: the gym or just running around the block or just
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  Speaker 1: doing some pushups or pullups in the garage, whatever. You
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  Speaker 1: buck on that.
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  Speaker 2: How you do anything is how you do everything.
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  Speaker 1: Not spending time with your family not telling your children
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  Speaker 1: you love them, you're proud of them, not sitting them
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  Speaker 1: down and teaching them when you have to correct them,
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  Speaker 1: when you have to do a little punishment. They're saying, hey, look,
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  Speaker 1: this is what you did wrong. This is why it's wrong.
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  Speaker 1: These can be some of the consequences later on in
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  Speaker 1: life if you don't learn these things now. How you
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  Speaker 1: do anything is how you do everything. That has become
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  Speaker 1: so important to me that I am seriously, seriously contemplating
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  Speaker 1: getting it tattooed on me when I get out of prison.
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  Speaker 1: And yeah, I went from if to when because I
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  Speaker 1: have faith. Because what's the point? What's the point otherwise?
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  Speaker 1: What's the point of putting in for it If you
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  Speaker 1: ain't going to believe, you're going to get it. And
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  Speaker 1: who knows? Just maybe my faith is the only thing
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  Speaker 1: that'll make that difference. Have faith in yourself. Believe in yourself. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: look at yourself. See what you're doing wrong. See where
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  Speaker 1: you're making bad choices, bad decisions. See where you're not
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  Speaker 1: giving it everything you have. Make those changes. Make those changes.
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  Speaker 1: I was raised in hell. I've done 35 years in prison.
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  Speaker 1: juvenile and adult. And I've done it. I'm not the
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  Speaker 1: same person I used to be. The last person I
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  Speaker 1: murdered was my old self. Who I used to be,
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  Speaker 1: that's the last person I put down. That's the last
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  Speaker 1: person I put hands on. That's the last person I
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: was violent with myself. I don't make excuses.
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  Speaker 2: Yes, my life is hard. I am struggling.
• 27:19
  Speaker 1: I am really struggling right now in so many different areas.
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: Prison has become so much harder. these last couple of
• 27:32
  Speaker 1: months than it's ever been for me. It is so
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: much harder for me to keep waking up in here.
• 27:39
  Speaker 1: To keep going through the steps day by day by day.
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  Speaker 2: But what am I going to do?
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: Kill myself? Take off on somebody and beat them up
• 27:59
  Speaker 1: so they That little physical pain will somehow compensate for
• 28:05
  Speaker 1: my spiritual or emotional pain. Make them feel just a
• 28:10
  Speaker 1: little bit of what I'm feeling. And then I'm stuck
• 28:15
  Speaker 1: in here. Do something stupid like, I don't know, try
• 28:21
  Speaker 1: to escape. Get caught within a day or two. Let's
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: face it.
• 28:27
  Speaker 2: Yes, it's getting called.
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: Unless you somehow know some multi-billionaire who's willing to spend
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: millions of dollars to get you out of the country,
• 28:36
  Speaker 1: your ass is getting called. The days of escaping and
• 28:40
  Speaker 1: making it are dead and gone. That will only ever
• 28:46
  Speaker 1: happen successfully in a movie or a television show. doing
• 28:59
  Speaker 1: this podcast, coming on here and talking to y'all, hearing
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: y'all's feedback, hearing how I've helped y'all, y'all just writing
• 29:09
  Speaker 1: in and saying, hey, good job this week, Randy. I
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: really enjoyed this episode. Thank you. Like, that means something
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: to me. I don't always get to listen to every
• 29:18
  Speaker 1: single response. I don't get to respond to every single response.
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: I'm very limited in what I can do. That stuff,
• 29:28
  Speaker 1: it energizes me. It keeps me going. It keeps me strong.
• 29:44
  Speaker 1: Y'all are the reason there's 200 episodes. It's not me.
• 29:48
  Speaker 1: It's not Michael.
• 29:49
  Speaker 2: It's not other Michael, Julian, Paulie.
• 29:53
  Speaker 1: It's y'all. Because as much as y'all have influenced my life,
• 29:59
  Speaker 1: y'all have influenced theirs. It's because of y'all that they've
• 30:11
  Speaker 1: made the sacrifices they've made. That they've spent their own
• 30:16
  Speaker 1: personal money on trying to grow this, on getting new equipment,
• 30:20
  Speaker 1: new programs, apps, and all these other things that they do.
• 30:26
  Speaker 1: The time that they've spent in editing a single episode,
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: you know, trying to make me sound good, it's because
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: of y'all. It's because of you, the listener. Yeah, I've
• 30:52
  Speaker 1: helped y'all.
• 30:55
  Speaker 2: Man, but y'all have helped.
• 30:56
  Speaker 1: Me so much more.
• 30:59
  Speaker 2: And I am grateful.
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: I'm thankful.
• 31:04
  Speaker 2: And I'm humbled.
• 31:11
  Speaker 1: Let's keep going. As long as y'all listen, I will
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: keep doing this. I'm here for y'all just as y'all
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: have been here for me. You know, I can't have
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: a personal relationship with every single listener. It'd be nice
• 31:30
  Speaker 1: if I could. But yeah, it's not going to happen.
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: But maybe that's not what we need. Maybe it's just
• 31:42
  Speaker 1: this little 20, 30 minutes a week, sometimes more, sometimes less.
• 31:52
  Speaker 1: Sometimes all you need is just a voice coming out
• 31:54
  Speaker 1: of a speaker. Any little thing can inspire you. Any
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: little thing can open your eyes. Any little thing can
• 32:11
  Speaker 1: keep you from giving up.
• 32:15
  Speaker 2: It can turn your whole life around. Don't quit. Don't quit.
• 32:27
  Speaker 1: Don't give up. There's been several times, couple times, everybody
• 32:31
  Speaker 1: thought this podcast was dead, including myself.
• 32:36
  Speaker 2: And look at us.
• 32:36
  Speaker 1: 200 episodes in and counting. Let's keep it going, people.
• 32:46
  Speaker 2: Not for me. For y'all.
• 32:51
  Speaker 1: Take care.
• 32:53
  Speaker 3: Love y'all.
• 33:07
  Speaker 1: This is Randy.
• 33:08
  Speaker 4: I'm a Supermax Red Onion State Prisoner. I hope you
• 33:12
  Speaker 4: enjoy listening to what I have to say. In this environment,
• 33:15
  Speaker 4: you are absolutely, completely, utterly, That loneliness, it's so crushing.
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: I got transferred from Red Onion up here to Wallace Ridge.
• 33:30
  Speaker 1: And we've been on lockdown after lockdown after lockdown. Completed
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: all of these programs. I have my GED. I have
• 33:37
  Speaker 1: my podcast.
• 33:38
  Speaker 2: I've been doing good.
• 33:39
  Speaker 1: When I got here to King Mountain, damn, it's such,
• 33:45
  Speaker 1: you know, it's, Such a culture shock.
• 33:48
  Speaker 2: It's so different.
• 33:49
  Speaker 1: I've been finally transferred to a medium security prison. No
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: longer in Supermax, and I can't thank God enough for it.
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: I'm wearing boots. I'm wearing actual boots. I feel like
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: a human being now. I'm going to talk about my fiancée,
• 34:08
  Speaker 1: soon-to-be wife, Nicole. She was there for me. She helped me.
• 34:13
  Speaker 1: You know, and it was just that mutual back and forth.
• 34:16
  Speaker 1: We fell in love. You know, it kind of caught
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: me by surprise, but I couldn't be more thankful, more
• 34:23
  Speaker 1: grateful for it.
• 34:24
  Speaker 3: Well, I'm a married man.
• 34:28
  Speaker 1: It's... Yeah.
• 34:32
  Speaker 2: It's incredible how happy that woman makes me.
• 34:34
  Speaker 1: I have been fighting to get transferred out of the
• 34:40
  Speaker 1: Western region.
• 34:42
  Speaker 2: For years.
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: I have been fighting to get transferred to a lower
• 34:47
  Speaker 1: level prison, medium security, for years. Now, and finally, at
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: a level three Buckingham Correctional Center. Man, it was, damn,
• 35:00
  Speaker 1: it's been a long ass time. My God, I'm loving it.