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Why Am I Not Moving Forward? | When Progress in Riding Stalls · Two Point Perspective

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  So
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  I
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  want
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  to
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  talk
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  about
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  progress.
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  In
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  my
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  experience,
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  progress
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  in
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  writing
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  has
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  always
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  worked
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  the
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  same
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  way.
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  You
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  showed
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  up,
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  you
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  did
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  the
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  work,
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  and
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  over
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  time
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  you
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  move
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  forward.
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  So
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  when
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  that
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  stopped
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  happening,
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  when
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  nothing
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  was
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  really
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  changing,
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  something
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  wasn't
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  lining
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  up.
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  This
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  is
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  two
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  point
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  perspective.
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  Two
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  riders
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  with
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  different
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  viewpoints
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  from
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  different
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  generations
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  talking
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  about
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  the
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  same
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  sport.
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  That
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  led
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  me
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  to
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  a
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  question
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  that
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  I
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  think
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  a
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  lot
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  of
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  writers
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  run
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  into
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  at
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  some
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  point,
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  especially
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  adult
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  amateurs.
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  Why
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  am
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  I
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  not
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  moving
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  forward
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  even
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  though
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  I'm
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  doing
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  all
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  the
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  work
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  again?
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  Because
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  for
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  most
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  of
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  my
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  riding
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  life,
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  progress
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  worked
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  in
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  a
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  pretty
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  predictable
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  way.
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  You
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  showed
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  up,
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  you
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  worked,
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  you
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  stayed
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  consistent,
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  and
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  over
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  time,
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  things
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  eventually
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  opened
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  up.
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  Not
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  quickly,
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  not
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  instantly,
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  but
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  certainly
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  steadily.
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  And
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  then
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  I
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  had
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  a
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  horse
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  that
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  would
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  occasionally
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  leave
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  a
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  jump
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  in
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  a
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  way
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  that
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  basically
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  turned
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  me
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  into
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  a
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  flying
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  object.
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  And
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  I
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  don't
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  mean
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  a
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  little
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  stumble.
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  I
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  mean
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  black
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  eyes,
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  bruised
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  ribs,
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  jammed
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  fingers.
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  It's
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  honestly
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  a
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  wonder
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  that
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  something
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  worse
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  didn't
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  happen.
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  After
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  one
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  fall
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  that
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  I
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  know
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  really
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  scared
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  everybody.
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  The
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  decision
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  was
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  made
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  for
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  me
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  to
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  step
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  down
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  a
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  division
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  for
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  a
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  while
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  until
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  we
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  could
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  straighten
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  things
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  out.
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  And
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  that
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  made
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  a
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  lot
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  of
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  sense
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  to
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  me.
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  I've
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  never
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  had
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  an
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  issue
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  doing
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  what
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  makes
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  sense
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  for
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  the
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  horse
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  or
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  for
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  myself.
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  And
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  to
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  be
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  honest,
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  I
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  had
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  really
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  scared
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  myself
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  a
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  little
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  bit
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  too.
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  The
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  first
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  time
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  I
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  showed
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  in
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  a
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  lower
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  division,
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  things
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  went
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  really
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  well,
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  which
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  told
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  me
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  that
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  it
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  probably
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  was
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  the
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  right
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  decision.
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  So
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  I
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  assumed
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  that
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  there
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  was
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  a
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  plan.
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  But
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  then
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  time
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  kept
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  passing.
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  Six
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  months
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  turned
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  into
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  more
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  than
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  a
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  year,
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  and
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  I
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  was
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  still
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  doing
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  the
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  same
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  thing.
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  That's
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  when
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  I
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  started
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  thinking,
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  if
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  this
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  is
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  actually
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  being
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  fixed,
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  shouldn't
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  something
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  look
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  different
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  by
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  now?
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  And
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  what
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  got
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  hard
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  was
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  realizing
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  that
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  my
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  goals
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  weren't
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  really
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  part
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  of
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  the
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  conversation
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  anymore.
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  For
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  some
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  riders,
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  I'm
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  sure
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  that's
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  fine,
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  but
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  for
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  others
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  like
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  me,
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  having
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  goals
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  is
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  the
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  whole
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  point.
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  I
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  wasn't
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  frustrated
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  about
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  riding
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  in
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  a
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  lower
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  division.
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  What
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  frustrated
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  me
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  was
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  having
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  the
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  goal
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  I
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  had,
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  which
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  was
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  to
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  get
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  back
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  to
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  where
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  I
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  had
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  been
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  and
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  not
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  understanding
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  the
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  path
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  to
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  move
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  forward,
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  especially
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  while
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  I
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  was
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  watching
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  other
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  adult
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  riders
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  that
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  I
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  had
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  ridden
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  with
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  continue
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  to
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  move
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  up.
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  The
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  part
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  that
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  became
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  clear,
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  if
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  I
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  look
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  back
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  on
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  it,
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  is
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  that
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  there
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  never
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  was
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  a
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  conversation
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  about
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  what
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  better
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  was
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  supposed
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  to
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  look
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  like.
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  There
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  were
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  no
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  benchmarks.
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  There
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  were
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  no
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  clear
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  indicators
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  of
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  what
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  progress
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  should
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  be,
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  no
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  sense
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  of,
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  like,
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  well,
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  once
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  this
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  improves,
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  then
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  we
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  can
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  revisit
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  the
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  conversation.
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  I
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  was
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  just
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  continuing
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  at
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  the
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  same
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  level.
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  And
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  over
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  time
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  that
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  starts
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  to
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  feel
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  really
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  confusing,
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  because
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  progress
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  shouldn't
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  be
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  a
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  Mystery.
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  Wanting
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  to
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  move
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  forward
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  doesn't
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  mean
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  that
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  you're
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  impatient.
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  It
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  means
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  that
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  you're
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  invested.
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  And
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  that's
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  when
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  I
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  realized
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  something
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  really
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  important.
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  I
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  wasn't
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  struggling.
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  I
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  was
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  stuck.
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  And
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  that's
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  where
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  it
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  starts
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  to
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  mess
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  with
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  your
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  head.
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  Because
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  when
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  time
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  keeps
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  passing
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  and
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  nothing
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  is
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  changing,
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  you
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  don't
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  just
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  get
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  frustrated.
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  You
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  just
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  start
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  replaying
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  everything.
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  Every
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  ride,
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  every
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  miss,
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  every
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  other
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  mistake,
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  every
• 4:01
  comment
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  that's
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  made.
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  You
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  just
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  start
• 4:04
  wondering,
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  am
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  I
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  missing
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  something
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  that
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  is
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  super
• 4:07
  obvious?
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  Maybe
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  I'm
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  not
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  good
• 4:10
  enough.
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  Maybe
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  I'm
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  overestimating
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  my
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  ability.
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  And
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  then
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  you
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  start
• 4:15
  asking
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  yourself
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  a
• 4:17
  really
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  uncomfortable
• 4:18
  question.
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  What
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  if
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  they're
• 4:20
  right?
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  What
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  if
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  my
• 4:22
  goals
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  are
• 4:23
  unrealistic?
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  What
• 4:25
  if
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  wanting
• 4:26
  to
• 4:26
  move
• 4:26
  forward
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  is
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  asking
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  too
• 4:28
  much?
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  And
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  that's
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  a
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  hard
• 4:30
  place
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  to
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  be,
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  Especially
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  when
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  you
• 4:33
  know
• 4:33
  you've
• 4:33
  done
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  this
• 4:34
  before,
• 4:35
  you've
• 4:35
  ridden
• 4:36
  successfully
• 4:37
  at
• 4:37
  a
• 4:37
  higher
• 4:38
  level,
• 4:38
  and
• 4:38
  you
• 4:39
  know
• 4:39
  what
• 4:39
  it
• 4:39
  feels
• 4:40
  like
• 4:40
  when
• 4:41
  things
• 4:41
  are
• 4:41
  working.
• 4:42
  But
• 4:42
  now
• 4:42
  you're
• 4:43
  being
• 4:43
  told
• 4:43
  to
• 4:44
  step
• 4:44
  down,
• 4:45
  not
• 4:45
  because
• 4:45
  of
• 4:46
  something
• 4:46
  you
• 4:46
  suddenly
• 4:47
  forgot
• 4:47
  how
• 4:47
  to
• 4:48
  do,
• 4:48
  but
• 4:49
  because
• 4:49
  the
• 4:49
  horse
• 4:50
  keeps
• 4:51
  doing
• 4:51
  this
• 4:51
  specific
• 4:52
  thing.
• 4:53
  Granted,
• 4:54
  I'm
• 4:54
  sure
• 4:54
  I
• 4:54
  didn't
• 4:55
  help,
• 4:55
  and
• 4:56
  if
• 4:56
  I
• 4:56
  missed,
• 4:57
  that
• 4:57
  was
• 4:58
  what
• 4:58
  happened.
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  So
• 5:00
  I
• 5:00
  guess
• 5:01
  my
• 5:01
  missing
• 5:01
  was
• 5:02
  part
• 5:02
  of
• 5:03
  it.
• 5:03
  But
• 5:04
  that's
• 5:04
  where
• 5:04
  the
• 5:04
  confusion
• 5:05
  set
• 5:05
  in.
• 5:06
  Because
• 5:07
  if
• 5:07
  it's
• 5:08
  you,
• 5:08
  then
• 5:09
  you're
• 5:09
  supposed
• 5:09
  to
• 5:09
  fix
• 5:10
  it.
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  But
• 5:10
  if
• 5:11
  it's
• 5:11
  the
• 5:11
  horse
• 5:12
  or
• 5:12
  the
• 5:12
  connection
• 5:13
  that
• 5:13
  you
• 5:13
  have
• 5:13
  with
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  the
• 5:14
  horse
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  or
• 5:15
  don't,
• 5:16
  then
• 5:16
  maybe
• 5:16
  it's
• 5:17
  not
• 5:17
  something
• 5:17
  you
• 5:18
  can
• 5:18
  fix
• 5:18
  from
• 5:18
  your
• 5:19
  side.
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  And
• 5:20
  when
• 5:20
  no
• 5:20
  one
• 5:20
  is
• 5:21
  clearly
• 5:21
  framing
• 5:22
  it
• 5:22
  that
• 5:22
  way,
• 5:23
  when
• 5:23
  it's
• 5:24
  not
• 5:24
  talked
• 5:24
  through
• 5:25
  honestly,
• 5:26
  then
• 5:26
  you
• 5:26
  end
• 5:27
  up
• 5:27
  carrying
• 5:27
  all
• 5:28
  of
• 5:28
  it
• 5:29
  yourself.
• 5:30
  You're
• 5:31
  trying
• 5:31
  to
• 5:31
  fix
• 5:31
  something
• 5:32
  that
• 5:32
  might
• 5:33
  not
• 5:33
  actually
• 5:34
  be
• 5:34
  fixable
• 5:35
  by
• 5:35
  you,
• 5:36
  and
• 5:37
  that's
• 5:37
  exhausting.
• 5:38
  Over
• 5:39
  time,
• 5:40
  situations
• 5:40
  like
• 5:41
  that
• 5:41
  can
• 5:41
  make
• 5:41
  even
• 5:42
  very
• 5:42
  capable
• 5:43
  riders
• 5:43
  start
• 5:44
  doubting
• 5:44
  themselves,
• 5:45
  not
• 5:46
  because
• 5:46
  they
• 5:46
  aren't
• 5:46
  paying
• 5:47
  attention,
• 5:48
  but
• 5:48
  because
• 5:48
  they're
• 5:49
  paying
• 5:49
  attention
• 5:49
  to
• 5:50
  everything
• 5:51
  and
• 5:51
  still
• 5:51
  not
• 5:51
  getting
• 5:52
  clarity.
• 5:53
  And
• 5:53
  I
• 5:53
  think
• 5:54
  that's
• 5:54
  the
• 5:54
  part
• 5:54
  people
• 5:55
  don't
• 5:55
  talk
• 5:55
  about
• 5:56
  enough.
• 5:57
  It's
• 5:58
  not
• 5:58
  just
• 5:58
  about
• 5:58
  patience.
• 6:00
  It's
• 6:00
  certainly
• 6:00
  not
• 6:01
  about
• 6:01
  ego.
• 6:02
  It's
• 6:02
  about
• 6:03
  understanding
• 6:04
  whether
• 6:04
  the
• 6:04
  problem
• 6:05
  you're
• 6:05
  being
• 6:05
  asked
• 6:05
  to
• 6:06
  solve
• 6:06
  is
• 6:07
  actually
• 6:07
  yours
• 6:07
  to
• 6:08
  solve.
• 6:09
  Without
• 6:10
  clarity,
• 6:11
  it
• 6:11
  becomes
• 6:12
  really
• 6:12
  easy
• 6:13
  to
• 6:13
  start
• 6:13
  shrinking
• 6:14
  your
• 6:14
  own
• 6:14
  goals
• 6:15
  just
• 6:16
  to
• 6:16
  make
• 6:16
  the
• 6:16
  situation
• 6:17
  feel
• 6:18
  easier.
• 6:19
  And
• 6:19
  timing
• 6:20
  matters
• 6:21
  here,
• 6:21
  because
• 6:22
  the
• 6:22
  longer
• 6:22
  that
• 6:23
  goes
• 6:23
  on,
• 6:23
  the
• 6:24
  harder
• 6:24
  it
• 6:24
  is
• 6:24
  for
• 6:25
  you
• 6:25
  to
• 6:25
  trust
• 6:25
  yourself
• 6:26
  again.
• 6:27
  I
• 6:27
  know.
• 6:28
  I
• 6:29
  can't
• 6:30
  even
• 6:30
  imagine
• 6:31
  how
• 6:31
  many
• 6:31
  times
• 6:32
  I
• 6:33
  would
• 6:33
  walk
• 6:33
  into
• 6:34
  a
• 6:34
  ring
• 6:34
  and
• 6:34
  go,
• 6:35
  I
• 6:35
  know
• 6:35
  I'm
• 6:35
  going
• 6:35
  to
• 6:35
  miss.
• 6:36
  I
• 6:36
  know
• 6:36
  I'm
• 6:36
  going
• 6:36
  to
• 6:36
  miss.
• 6:37
  And
• 6:37
  if
• 6:37
  I
• 6:37
  miss
• 6:38
  I'm
• 6:38
  going
• 6:38
  to
• 6:39
  die.
• 6:39
  And
• 6:40
  after
• 6:40
  a
• 6:41
  while,
• 6:42
  I
• 6:42
  realize
• 6:43
  that
• 6:43
  when
• 6:44
  the
• 6:44
  same
• 6:44
  things
• 6:44
  keep
• 6:45
  happening,
• 6:46
  that's
• 6:46
  not
• 6:47
  random.
• 6:47
  Not
• 6:48
  in
• 6:48
  writing,
• 6:48
  anyway.
• 6:49
  And
• 6:50
  it
• 6:50
  doesn't
• 6:50
  mean
• 6:50
  you
• 6:51
  aren't
• 6:51
  paying
• 6:51
  attention.
• 6:52
  Because
• 6:52
  I
• 6:53
  was
• 6:53
  paying
• 6:54
  attention.
• 6:55
  I
• 6:55
  could
• 6:55
  see
• 6:56
  what
• 6:56
  was
• 6:56
  happening.
• 6:57
  I
• 6:57
  just
• 6:57
  didn't
• 6:58
  have
• 6:58
  the
• 6:58
  tools
• 6:59
  to
• 6:59
  change
• 6:59
  it
• 6:59
  yet.
• 7:01
  When
• 7:01
  something
• 7:01
  keeps
• 7:02
  showing
• 7:02
  up
• 7:02
  and
• 7:03
  when
• 7:03
  progress
• 7:04
  doesn't
• 7:04
  look
• 7:04
  the
• 7:05
  way
• 7:05
  that
• 7:05
  you'd
• 7:05
  expect,
• 7:07
  that's
• 7:07
  usually
• 7:07
  a
• 7:08
  sign
• 7:08
  that
• 7:08
  something
• 7:09
  needs
• 7:10
  adjusting.
• 7:11
  Not
• 7:11
  that
• 7:12
  everything
• 7:12
  is
• 7:12
  wrong,
• 7:13
  just
• 7:14
  that
• 7:14
  something
• 7:15
  isn't
• 7:15
  lining
• 7:15
  up.
• 7:16
  Sometimes
• 7:17
  it's
• 7:17
  the
• 7:17
  horse,
• 7:19
  sometimes
• 7:19
  it's
• 7:19
  the
• 7:20
  approach,
• 7:21
  sometimes
• 7:21
  it's
• 7:22
  the
• 7:22
  environment.
• 7:23
  But
• 7:23
  it's
• 7:24
  almost
• 7:24
  never
• 7:25
  just
• 7:25
  bad
• 7:25
  luck.
• 7:27
  And
• 7:27
  this
• 7:27
  is
• 7:27
  where
• 7:27
  riding
• 7:28
  overlaps
• 7:29
  so
• 7:29
  clearly
• 7:30
  with
• 7:30
  the
• 7:30
  rest
• 7:30
  of
• 7:31
  life.
• 7:32
  In
• 7:32
  careers,
• 7:33
  in
• 7:34
  relationships,
• 7:35
  in
• 7:35
  health.
• 7:36
  When
• 7:37
  the
• 7:37
  same
• 7:37
  issues
• 7:38
  keep
• 7:38
  repeating
• 7:39
  and
• 7:39
  nothing
• 7:40
  really
• 7:40
  changes,
• 7:41
  that's
• 7:42
  usually
• 7:42
  your
• 7:43
  cue
• 7:44
  to
• 7:44
  pause
• 7:44
  and
• 7:45
  take
• 7:45
  a
• 7:45
  closer
• 7:45
  look.
• 7:47
  Not
• 7:47
  to
• 7:47
  blame
• 7:47
  anybody,
• 7:48
  not
• 7:49
  to
• 7:49
  get
• 7:49
  angry,
• 7:50
  but
• 7:50
  just
• 7:50
  to
• 7:50
  ask,
• 7:52
  so
• 7:52
  what
• 7:53
  am
• 7:53
  I
• 7:53
  missing
• 7:53
  here?
• 7:54
  One
• 7:55
  thing
• 7:55
  I
• 7:55
  wish
• 7:55
  I'd
• 7:56
  understood
• 7:57
  earlier
• 7:58
  is
• 7:58
  how
• 7:58
  important
• 7:59
  clarity
• 8:00
  is
• 8:00
  for
• 8:01
  progress.
• 8:02
  It
• 8:02
  really
• 8:03
  helps
• 8:03
  to
• 8:03
  know
• 8:03
  what
• 8:04
  you're
• 8:04
  actually
• 8:04
  working
• 8:05
  toward.
• 8:06
  What
• 8:07
  is
• 8:07
  improvement
• 8:08
  supposed
• 8:08
  to
• 8:08
  look
• 8:09
  like?
• 8:10
  How
• 8:10
  will
• 8:10
  you
• 8:10
  know
• 8:10
  when
• 8:11
  you're
• 8:11
  ready
• 8:11
  to
• 8:11
  move
• 8:11
  on?
• 8:13
  We
• 8:13
  always
• 8:13
  hear,
• 8:14
  trust
• 8:15
  the
• 8:15
  process,
• 8:16
  and
• 8:16
  that's
• 8:17
  fair.
• 8:17
  But
• 8:18
  you
• 8:18
  should
• 8:18
  be
• 8:18
  able
• 8:19
  to
• 8:19
  see
• 8:19
  the
• 8:19
  process.
• 8:21
  It
• 8:21
  shouldn't
• 8:21
  feel
• 8:22
  like
• 8:22
  you're
• 8:22
  guessing
• 8:23
  all
• 8:23
  the
• 8:23
  time.
• 8:24
  And
• 8:24
  I
• 8:24
  think
• 8:25
  this
• 8:25
  matters
• 8:25
  even
• 8:26
  more
• 8:26
  for
• 8:27
  adult
• 8:27
  amateurs.
• 8:29
  When
• 8:29
  you
• 8:29
  start
• 8:30
  later
• 8:30
  in
• 8:30
  life
• 8:31
  or
• 8:31
  come
• 8:31
  back
• 8:32
  to
• 8:32
  riding
• 8:33
  later
• 8:33
  in
• 8:33
  life,
• 8:34
  time
• 8:35
  matters.
• 8:37
  Not
• 8:37
  in
• 8:37
  a
• 8:37
  rushed
• 8:38
  way,
• 8:38
  but
• 8:38
  in
• 8:38
  a
• 8:39
  practical
• 8:39
  way.
• 8:40
  Because
• 8:41
  adult
• 8:41
  amateurs
• 8:42
  don't
• 8:42
  have
• 8:43
  unlimited
• 8:43
  seasons.
• 8:45
  We're
• 8:45
  balancing
• 8:46
  work,
• 8:47
  family.
• 8:48
  Our
• 8:48
  bodies
• 8:49
  don't
• 8:49
  bounce
• 8:49
  back
• 8:50
  the
• 8:50
  way
• 8:50
  they
• 8:50
  used
• 8:51
  to.
• 8:52
  And
• 8:52
  certainly
• 8:53
  this
• 8:53
  sport
• 8:54
  doesn't
• 8:54
  get
• 8:55
  cheaper
• 8:55
  or
• 8:55
  easier
• 8:56
  with
• 8:56
  time.
• 8:57
  So
• 8:58
  when
• 8:58
  something
• 8:58
  isn't
• 8:59
  moving
• 8:59
  forward,
• 9:00
  it
• 9:00
  matters.
• 9:02
  You
• 9:02
  want
• 9:02
  your
• 9:03
  effort
• 9:03
  to
• 9:03
  count.
• 9:04
  You
• 9:05
  want
• 9:05
  each
• 9:05
  ride
• 9:06
  to
• 9:06
  actually
• 9:07
  move
• 9:07
  you
• 9:08
  somewhere.
• 9:09
  For
• 9:09
  me,
• 9:10
  things
• 9:10
  started
• 9:10
  to
• 9:11
  change
• 9:11
  once
• 9:12
  I
• 9:12
  stopped
• 9:12
  just
• 9:13
  accepting
• 9:14
  that
• 9:14
  things
• 9:14
  were
• 9:14
  happening
• 9:15
  to
• 9:15
  me
• 9:16
  and
• 9:16
  I
• 9:17
  started
• 9:17
  asking
• 9:17
  better
• 9:18
  questions
• 9:19
  about
• 9:19
  why.
• 9:20
  Not
• 9:21
  because
• 9:21
  I
• 9:21
  wasn't
• 9:21
  paying
• 9:21
  attention
• 9:22
  before,
• 9:23
  but
• 9:23
  because
• 9:24
  I
• 9:24
  finally
• 9:25
  had
• 9:25
  enough
• 9:25
  perspective
• 9:26
  to
• 9:27
  do
• 9:27
  something
• 9:27
  with
• 9:28
  what
• 9:28
  I
• 9:28
  was
• 9:28
  seeing.
• 9:30
  Looking
• 9:30
  back,
• 9:31
  the
• 9:31
  hardest
• 9:32
  part
• 9:32
  wasn't
• 9:33
  the
• 9:33
  setback.
• 9:35
  It
• 9:35
  was
• 9:35
  not
• 9:35
  knowing
• 9:36
  what
• 9:36
  I
• 9:36
  was
• 9:36
  actually
• 9:37
  supposed
• 9:37
  to
• 9:38
  do
• 9:38
  with
• 9:38
  it.
• 9:39
  Thanks
• 9:40
  for
• 9:40
  being
• 9:40
  here
• 9:40
  today.
• 9:41
  And
• 9:41
  as
• 9:42
  always,
• 9:43
  let's
• 9:44
  ride.