Latest / The Breakfast Club / Time Is Your Power

Transcript

Time Is Your Power · The Breakfast Club

• 0:02
  Speaker 1: I'm a homegrow that knows a little bit about everything
• 0:04
  Speaker 1: and everybody.
• 0:06
  Speaker 2: You know, if you don't lie about that, right, la Hey, y'all,
• 0:10
  Speaker 2: what's up.
• 0:10
  Speaker 1: It's Laura Rosa and this is another episode of The
• 0:13
  Speaker 1: Latest with Laura Rosa. This is your daily take on
• 0:16
  Speaker 1: all things pop culture, entertainment, news, and all of the
• 0:20
  Speaker 1: conversations that shape the room.
• 0:22
  Speaker 2: Baby.
• 0:22
  Speaker 1: Now, y'all know, we kick off the episode every single
• 0:25
  Speaker 1: episode checking in behind the scenes of the Grind. So
• 0:29
  Speaker 1: let's get too it. Checking in behind the scenes of
• 0:35
  Speaker 1: the Grind today. Yeah, I think behind the scenes of
• 0:39
  Speaker 1: the Grind today, I am honestly, uh reevaluating a lot
• 0:44
  Speaker 1: of things in their.
• 0:44
  Speaker 2: Importance to me.
• 0:46
  Speaker 1: And I know that behind the scenes of the Grind
• 0:48
  Speaker 1: is literally you guys coming with me behind the scenes sometimes,
• 0:51
  Speaker 1: but a lot of times it's me telling y'all.
• 0:53
  Speaker 2: Like just where my mental is in real life.
• 0:57
  Speaker 1: Like I think, on the surface of everything, whether you
• 1:00
  Speaker 1: are tuning in here daily to the Latest with Laurna Rosa,
• 1:02
  Speaker 1: the podcast, or watching the Breakfast Club shoot. If we
• 1:06
  Speaker 1: even follow each other on social media, Lauren La Rosa,
• 1:08
  Speaker 1: everywhere you're seeing, but so much on the surface level.
• 1:13
  Speaker 1: So I like to use this time to give you, guys,
• 1:15
  Speaker 1: like sometimes just to look into like my mental and
• 1:18
  Speaker 1: how I'm feeling about things, because I think when people ask,
• 1:21
  Speaker 1: and that's the reason why I added this segment in
• 1:23
  Speaker 1: the beginning of the podcast, how are you really feeling?
• 1:26
  Speaker 3: Like?
• 1:26
  Speaker 1: I want to check in, which is what I ask
• 1:29
  Speaker 1: myself every single time before I crack this microphone for
• 1:31
  Speaker 1: the podcast. We're not always honest. I know for me,
• 1:35
  Speaker 1: I'm not always honest, and it's not because I don't
• 1:37
  Speaker 1: want to be. It's just because I'm like, yo, who
• 1:39
  Speaker 1: has time to hear that? And do I even have
• 1:41
  Speaker 1: time to face what I'm even discussing? And most of
• 1:44
  Speaker 1: the time it's like, no, I'm trying to get to
• 1:46
  Speaker 1: the next thing you got, you know, news.
• 1:48
  Speaker 2: Breaking things happening.
• 1:50
  Speaker 1: But here on the podcast, we take the time to ask,
• 1:52
  Speaker 1: how are you really feeling?
• 1:55
  Speaker 3: Now?
• 1:55
  Speaker 1: Think about it? Take a second with me, y'all. So
• 1:59
  Speaker 1: I told you the guys that I was reevaluating, you know,
• 2:01
  Speaker 1: just what things are most important to me or just
• 2:06
  Speaker 1: like prioritizing you know, things in their importance to myself.
• 2:10
  Speaker 1: And the reason why I'm doing that. I don't mean
• 2:12
  Speaker 1: people in my life. I literally mean things in my life,
• 2:14
  Speaker 1: and like moving variables is because I have literally gotten
• 2:19
  Speaker 1: to a point now where my time means so much
• 2:24
  Speaker 1: and you know, people will be like me and Beyonce
• 2:27
  Speaker 1: got the same twenty four hours in a day, and
• 2:28
  Speaker 1: it's like, realistically, you do, but what you do with
• 2:32
  Speaker 1: that time is very very important. For a while now,
• 2:36
  Speaker 1: probably for like the last year, I've been feeling really
• 2:39
  Speaker 1: I've talked about here on the podcast and other behind
• 2:41
  Speaker 1: the scenes of the Grind opening of the episodes, where
• 2:44
  Speaker 1: you know, I go through guilt about certain things, whether
• 2:47
  Speaker 1: it's not being able to spend time, whether it's no
• 2:50
  Speaker 1: longer want into a lot of time to certain things.
• 2:52
  Speaker 1: I think I finally gotten to the point where I
• 2:54
  Speaker 1: understand why I was going through that. And the reason
• 2:58
  Speaker 1: why I say that is I have an instants happened
• 3:01
  Speaker 1: today where I was reporting on something within the Breakfast Club,
• 3:05
  Speaker 1: and I don't ever like to talk about things that
• 3:08
  Speaker 1: I haven't watched or experience to myself. But I've had
• 3:11
  Speaker 1: to learn to kind of like delegate, allow some of
• 3:14
  Speaker 1: the producers that work with me to be able to
• 3:16
  Speaker 1: watch things and you know, talk me and produce me
• 3:19
  Speaker 1: through things, even if I haven't seen them myselfs I'm
• 3:21
  Speaker 1: really not fully comfortable with that yet. I'll be honest
• 3:23
  Speaker 1: with you guys, But for the sake of time, literally,
• 3:28
  Speaker 1: I've had to learn how to do that because there's
• 3:30
  Speaker 1: just not enough hours between when I leave the breakfast club,
• 3:33
  Speaker 1: when I record the Latest with on the Roads of
• 3:35
  Speaker 1: the podcast, when I try to eat, try to be
• 3:37
  Speaker 1: a daughter, try to be a grand daughter, try to
• 3:39
  Speaker 1: be a girlfriend, try to get some sleep, try to
• 3:41
  Speaker 1: just take a breather so that I don't burn myself
• 3:43
  Speaker 1: out to do everything. And I gotten to a point
• 3:46
  Speaker 1: where I was doing that again. I talked to you
• 3:47
  Speaker 1: guys through that burnout point here on the Latest with
• 3:50
  Speaker 1: Lorna Rosa as well in the behind the scenes of
• 3:52
  Speaker 1: the Grind check in, you know, some months ago. But
• 3:57
  Speaker 1: you know, when I think about now, when people or
• 4:00
  Speaker 1: like yo, my time is money, my time means everything,
• 4:03
  Speaker 1: I literally don't have the time to I think what
• 4:06
  Speaker 1: has changed the time for me is, you know, when
• 4:09
  Speaker 1: I'm here and I'm on the show and I'm thinking
• 4:11
  Speaker 1: about how valuable your word is and you know your
• 4:15
  Speaker 1: commentary is, I'm literally trying every moment that you hear
• 4:22
  Speaker 1: me on whatever microphone I am on to make impacts.
• 4:26
  Speaker 1: So in doing that, there's a lot of preparation. There's
• 4:29
  Speaker 1: a lot of and sometimes preparation isn't even research.
• 4:33
  Speaker 2: I'm be honest with y'all. You know that's the majority
• 4:35
  Speaker 2: of it.
• 4:35
  Speaker 1: But a lot of the preparation for myself, it's just
• 4:38
  Speaker 1: talking myself into like, yo, you got it, Like you're here,
• 4:44
  Speaker 1: you have arrived. And I don't battle that as much
• 4:48
  Speaker 1: unless I feel like I haven't applied myself time wise
• 4:52
  Speaker 1: to what my prep routine is in order to do
• 4:56
  Speaker 1: what I need to do and show up every single day.
• 4:58
  Speaker 1: And the reason why I'll tell you telling you guys
• 5:00
  Speaker 1: all of this is because there was going back to
• 5:02
  Speaker 1: what I was saying, there was a segment that I
• 5:03
  Speaker 1: did on The Breakfast Club. Within that segment, or not
• 5:07
  Speaker 1: even just within the segment, there was a show that
• 5:10
  Speaker 1: we produced and did with on The Breakfast Club where
• 5:13
  Speaker 1: I wasn't really too you know for sure about a
• 5:15
  Speaker 1: lot of the topics I was talking about, not because
• 5:17
  Speaker 1: I didn't know about them and that the producers we
• 5:21
  Speaker 1: didn't like do our normal call the night before and
• 5:23
  Speaker 1: we delegate and people watch this and watch that, but
• 5:27
  Speaker 1: because I just didn't think that they were very strong.
• 5:29
  Speaker 2: Knock it out the part topics.
• 5:31
  Speaker 1: I didn't have any exclusive stuff, so I was like, Yo,
• 5:33
  Speaker 1: this is not strong.
• 5:34
  Speaker 2: This is not what I'm used to doing.
• 5:36
  Speaker 1: But I literally took the time to like separate myself
• 5:43
  Speaker 1: from a lot of things the night before, you know,
• 5:47
  Speaker 1: And I felt horrible doing it, but I took the
• 5:51
  Speaker 1: time to separate myself from sitting on the phone for
• 5:54
  Speaker 1: no reason and just catching up, and I told myself, like, Yo,
• 5:57
  Speaker 1: this is something this week I want to practice not
• 5:59
  Speaker 1: doing a lot of And I was so happy I
• 6:01
  Speaker 1: did that because not only was I able to prep
• 6:04
  Speaker 1: the topics and get the information surrounding as much as
• 6:06
  Speaker 1: I could to know whether I was doing something right
• 6:09
  Speaker 1: or wrong when I came to report it, but I
• 6:12
  Speaker 1: also was able to I think I feel like it
• 6:14
  Speaker 1: was like I was able to more clearly lock in
• 6:17
  Speaker 1: to think about POV. And that's something that I've learned
• 6:19
  Speaker 1: a lot about and being in this personality space. And
• 6:22
  Speaker 1: I was thinking about that today, like, if your time
• 6:25
  Speaker 1: is money, right, and your time is so valuable and
• 6:28
  Speaker 1: you don't have time to waste on certain things, the
• 6:30
  Speaker 1: people watching you don't either, when they're coming to you,
• 6:33
  Speaker 1: they expect you to understand that they want things to
• 6:35
  Speaker 1: be concise, they want things to be clear. But a
• 6:37
  Speaker 1: lot of times it's not that you got to have
• 6:39
  Speaker 1: the exclusive Lauren. You don't got to tell people first
• 6:41
  Speaker 1: all the time. It's not that you have to have
• 6:44
  Speaker 1: the best interview, booking or SoundBite or whatever. A lot
• 6:48
  Speaker 1: of times it's just the way you're talking about it,
• 6:50
  Speaker 1: and that alone can be something that is exclusive to
• 6:54
  Speaker 1: the room you're in, the platform, you're on, whatever you're doing.
• 6:57
  Speaker 1: And when I was talking myself through that, I was like, girl,
• 7:00
  Speaker 1: oh you this is why you need to be okay
• 7:04
  Speaker 1: with telling yourself no, Like, no, I gotta take the time.
• 7:07
  Speaker 1: I ain't got the time because I just woke up
• 7:10
  Speaker 1: this morning feeling so much clarity and power in that thought,
• 7:19
  Speaker 1: the thought of y'all got to understand like for the
• 7:22
  Speaker 1: last like for the last literally like I would say,
• 7:28
  Speaker 1: eight to eight years of my life prior to prior
• 7:32
  Speaker 1: to twenty twenty three, being in a newsroom like TMZ
• 7:36
  Speaker 1: where you are literally like you whipped into shape. It
• 7:40
  Speaker 1: was one of the best things I've ever done. It.
• 7:42
  Speaker 1: I tell people all the time. It was a boot camp.
• 7:44
  Speaker 1: I wanted to go to school for my masters. That
• 7:45
  Speaker 1: was the best master's program I could have did in
• 7:47
  Speaker 1: the area of media production, conversation, reporting, news, all of
• 7:53
  Speaker 1: the things right, and people keep having these conversations about
• 7:56
  Speaker 1: journalism versus influencer or whatever. In that newsroom. It's not
• 8:00
  Speaker 1: about the title. It's really about the know how and
• 8:03
  Speaker 1: which you know how to do. You're literally only as
• 8:05
  Speaker 1: good as your last story, to be honest with you,
• 8:07
  Speaker 1: I have been whipped into shape in that way. So
• 8:10
  Speaker 1: a lot of times when I come in here, if
• 8:11
  Speaker 1: I don't feel like something is strong and I'm about
• 8:13
  Speaker 1: to get on this podcast, if I don't feel like
• 8:15
  Speaker 1: i'm you know, I go a week without an exclusive
• 8:19
  Speaker 1: and whatever, I don't feel like I'm I'm doing it
• 8:23
  Speaker 1: like it doesn't feel like I'm here all the time.
• 8:25
  Speaker 1: If I'm being honest with y'all, but realizing that it's
• 8:30
  Speaker 1: okay to say, yo, I don't got time to do
• 8:33
  Speaker 1: all of the surrounding things so that I can just
• 8:35
  Speaker 1: focus on just the feeling of girl, you are here,
• 8:39
  Speaker 1: you got this.
• 8:41
  Speaker 2: It took such weight off my shoulders. I don't know
• 8:44
  Speaker 2: why I.
• 8:44
  Speaker 1: Was feeling so guilty about making room in space for myself,
• 8:51
  Speaker 1: Like it be messing me up, y'all. Like I don't
• 8:53
  Speaker 1: know what is going on in this era of my life.
• 8:56
  Speaker 1: And as I'm turning thirty thirty four to thirty five,
• 8:59
  Speaker 1: as I'm turning thirty five five years old, but I've
• 9:02
  Speaker 1: literally begin like talking to myself in a way that
• 9:05
  Speaker 1: I never ever had to. Like I've always been a
• 9:07
  Speaker 1: very confident girl. Okay, I've always showed up. I've always
• 9:11
  Speaker 1: taken up space. But in this era of my life
• 9:13
  Speaker 1: where everything is I mean not everything, but there's a
• 9:15
  Speaker 1: lot of things that are public, there's a lot of
• 9:17
  Speaker 1: things that can be critiqued and commented on. You know,
• 9:20
  Speaker 1: I think for a bit, I kind of like ran
• 9:22
  Speaker 1: into the shell of like if I just play and safe,
• 9:24
  Speaker 1: I'm cool, And that's not how I want to live
• 9:28
  Speaker 1: my life. Like you can be great or you can
• 9:30
  Speaker 1: be living in fear, and I don't want to live
• 9:32
  Speaker 1: in fear. I want to be great. Okay, God does
• 9:34
  Speaker 1: not give me the spirit of fear. And literally me
• 9:38
  Speaker 1: realizing that in order to be great, I can't be
• 9:41
  Speaker 1: afraid to say I got to create this really protected
• 9:45
  Speaker 1: space for myself. I don't have the time to like
• 9:48
  Speaker 1: I can't answer every phone call, I can't get back
• 9:50
  Speaker 1: to every text, I can't show up to every birthday.
• 9:52
  Speaker 1: Then I can't make every birthday trip like I just can't.
• 9:55
  Speaker 1: In the season of my life that I'm in, it
• 9:57
  Speaker 1: is so sensitive and it is so important for me
• 9:59
  Speaker 1: to understand and that that is okay.
• 10:01
  Speaker 2: It's literally like a make or break for me.
• 10:05
  Speaker 1: And God, I don't know what it was that put
• 10:06
  Speaker 1: that on my spirit today of like, you just feel
• 10:10
  Speaker 1: so much better since you did that, because you were
• 10:12
  Speaker 1: able to take that. Even though I still feel like
• 10:13
  Speaker 1: I'll be running out of time every night preparing for
• 10:15
  Speaker 1: the next day, I woke up today feeling better, feeling
• 10:20
  Speaker 1: a lot more confident. And that has been happening over
• 10:22
  Speaker 1: these last couple of weeks as I've been making no changes.
• 10:24
  Speaker 1: So if anybody out there is listening to this and
• 10:26
  Speaker 1: you've been feeling a little bit like you know, off
• 10:29
  Speaker 1: a bit, you might got to look around and realize
• 10:31
  Speaker 1: you ain't got the time to be doing ABC D
• 10:34
  Speaker 1: and E like you gotta focus on A and it's
• 10:36
  Speaker 1: got to be okay, and people in your life who
• 10:38
  Speaker 1: don't understand that. I think there might be a season
• 10:41
  Speaker 1: of out growing and I'm okay with that too. Let's
• 10:44
  Speaker 1: get on it into the latest, y'all. Speaking of seasons
• 10:48
  Speaker 1: in life, Hayden pan Tier, actress, you know, from bringing
• 10:53
  Speaker 1: on Scream and so much more, she had been talking
• 10:57
  Speaker 1: a lot about just different seasons of her life that
• 10:59
  Speaker 1: she had been through. There is a Jay Shehatty interview
• 11:01
  Speaker 1: that she did when she released her book about her
• 11:04
  Speaker 1: life and some of her past struggles with addiction and
• 11:06
  Speaker 1: depression and you know, young child fame and domestic violence
• 11:10
  Speaker 1: and a relationship that she was in. But she recently
• 11:12
  Speaker 1: passed away at the age of thirty six. There was
• 11:15
  Speaker 1: a call that was made to an apartment that she
• 11:17
  Speaker 1: was at in South Carolina for a woman in cardiac arrest,
• 11:21
  Speaker 1: and then it was you know, reports were updated, you
• 11:23
  Speaker 1: know via TMZ that this call actually came in as
• 11:26
  Speaker 1: a woman cardiac arrest.
• 11:27
  Speaker 2: And then there was a mention of an overdose.
• 11:29
  Speaker 1: And now I mean everybody across the boarders reporting is
• 11:32
  Speaker 1: including a TMZ that there was narcan or narkhan found
• 11:38
  Speaker 1: at the scene of uh, you know, where she passed away,
• 11:41
  Speaker 1: because she did pass away on the scene. So again,
• 11:45
  Speaker 1: no toxicology report officially out I've seen reports that the
• 11:49
  Speaker 1: toxicology and stuff are done, but no official cause of
• 11:53
  Speaker 1: death yet, but you know, people are beginning to speculate
• 11:55
  Speaker 1: whether this was an overdose. Now we the new information
• 11:58
  Speaker 1: that we found out that was just some background is
• 12:01
  Speaker 1: that her on again, off again boyfriend was actually there
• 12:04
  Speaker 1: with her, him and another family member when she was
• 12:08
  Speaker 1: you know, and they made the phone call to get
• 12:10
  Speaker 1: responders there. She was unconscious and they were there. As
• 12:16
  Speaker 1: you know, paramedics tried to revive her back to life
• 12:19
  Speaker 1: and were unsuccessful. And we are told that her on again,
• 12:22
  Speaker 1: off again boyfriend, Brian Hankerson, actually is his name. We
• 12:27
  Speaker 1: are told that he got very emotional when they pronounced
• 12:31
  Speaker 1: her dead, which I mean, you can imagine they now,
• 12:35
  Speaker 1: you know, Henkerson and Hayden been dating for some time,
• 12:40
  Speaker 1: on again, off again, but you know, according to recent reports,
• 12:43
  Speaker 1: he sat down for interviews and talked a bit about
• 12:46
  Speaker 1: you know, you know, just the fact that they were
• 12:49
  Speaker 1: still in a relationship at the current time, and that
• 12:51
  Speaker 1: they kept it a secret because of her career, because
• 12:54
  Speaker 1: of how bad their relationship had gotten in the midst
• 12:57
  Speaker 1: of all of the other turmoil. So you know, fans
• 13:03
  Speaker 1: are trying to put things together. I saw people pointing
• 13:06
  Speaker 1: fingers toward him. I know that police have said that
• 13:08
  Speaker 1: there was no you know, imminent or immediate signs of
• 13:11
  Speaker 1: foul play whatsoever. We don't know what happened, but I
• 13:17
  Speaker 1: have seen people pouring out love for her. More recently,
• 13:22
  Speaker 1: Solange did now her and Solange did bring It on
• 13:26
  Speaker 1: Again together, and you know, like they were young, there
• 13:30
  Speaker 1: were teenagers. But this is a movie that, like a
• 13:32
  Speaker 1: lot of us remember, a lot of us point to
• 13:34
  Speaker 1: when it comes to Hayden's career. Solange says, rest in peace, Hayden,
• 13:38
  Speaker 1: because you are so deserving of it. We had so
• 13:41
  Speaker 1: many parallels in our lives, and the world watched you
• 13:44
  Speaker 1: so courageously live in your radical truth, telling your story.
• 13:48
  Speaker 1: We watched your endless quest for vulnerability and healing. I
• 13:51
  Speaker 1: salute your journey, and I honor the work we created
• 13:54
  Speaker 1: together that became something that really means something to people,
• 13:58
  Speaker 1: reaching people we couldn't have it. Imagine at the time
• 14:01
  Speaker 1: as two young girls trying to keep looking to the
• 14:04
  Speaker 1: light the lights around you. Now, Rest easy, Hayden. I
• 14:08
  Speaker 1: also saw miss Viola Davis poor out love for her
• 14:12
  Speaker 1: as well too. Emma Roberts, Jeremy Renner. So many people
• 14:17
  Speaker 1: are poor and got love. As the updates you know continue,
• 14:20
  Speaker 1: you know, and they will. I think people want to
• 14:23
  Speaker 1: know what happened. I know that, you know. Like I mentioned,
• 14:26
  Speaker 1: she had talked about her struggles with addictions. There was
• 14:30
  Speaker 1: also reports via a police report that her boyfriend, Hankerson,
• 14:35
  Speaker 1: who we talked about a bit, when police arrived, he
• 14:39
  Speaker 1: gave police a bag of medicine that she had been taking.
• 14:43
  Speaker 1: Across various reports, I saw, you know, several outlets reporting
• 14:46
  Speaker 1: that she had been complaining of back pain for the
• 14:49
  Speaker 1: last year. So not for sure if she was taking
• 14:51
  Speaker 1: medicine for that. And you know, there will be some
• 14:54
  Speaker 1: updates here, but those are the most recent updates. Wanted
• 14:58
  Speaker 1: to bring you guys that and we'll watch this closely.
• 15:01
  Speaker 1: The story is developing.
• 15:04
  Speaker 3: Now.
• 15:04
  Speaker 1: Before we get on out of here, I do want
• 15:05
  Speaker 1: to grab a bit of an interview that she did.
• 15:08
  Speaker 1: I mentioned Jay Shetty in an interview that she did,
• 15:10
  Speaker 1: and I saw him Jay Shetty, speak out about you know,
• 15:13
  Speaker 1: hating in her light as well too, and just her
• 15:15
  Speaker 1: courageous spirit for telling her story. She was very honest
• 15:19
  Speaker 1: about a lot of the things she went through. She
• 15:21
  Speaker 1: talked about addiction. Let's take a listen.
• 15:24
  Speaker 3: I've been struggling for a long time and I just
• 15:29
  Speaker 3: needed a break. Four years ended up being the amount
• 15:33
  Speaker 3: of time, and I definitely absolutely did not expect it
• 15:36
  Speaker 3: would that long. I felt like I was walking blind
• 15:39
  Speaker 3: and there was nobody there that was really able to
• 15:43
  Speaker 3: support me in the way that I needed to be supported.
• 15:46
  Speaker 3: And I don't like to ask for help either, you know,
• 15:49
  Speaker 3: I want to be that strong, stoke woman. But I mean,
• 15:51
  Speaker 3: when you see a happy go Luki girl for years
• 15:56
  Speaker 3: suddenly on the floor in a puddle of mess and alcohol,
• 16:03
  Speaker 3: you got to know something's wrong. Panetier revealing that she
• 16:06
  Speaker 3: was first introduced to the substances that would lead her
• 16:09
  Speaker 3: down a dark path in her teen years. When I
• 16:12
  Speaker 3: was about sixteen, one of the people that I was
• 16:16
  Speaker 3: working with in my inner circle introduced me for the
• 16:19
  Speaker 3: first time to what she called happy pills. And I
• 16:22
  Speaker 3: had no idea what they were, but I know that
• 16:25
  Speaker 3: when I was given one and I was sent down
• 16:27
  Speaker 3: a red carpet, I was like lively and like totally
• 16:31
  Speaker 3: down to answer the questions in a chatterbox, what did.
• 16:34
  Speaker 2: You come to learn? Those happy pills were.
• 16:37
  Speaker 3: I think they were a form of adderall. I was
• 16:39
  Speaker 3: completely annowledgeable about drugs and that kind of thing. I
• 16:46
  Speaker 3: did grow up around people that I felt like I
• 16:51
  Speaker 3: didn't realize till later, but I felt like used alcohol
• 16:56
  Speaker 3: as medicine.
• 16:57
  Speaker 1: She talked about postpartum depression in the decision to give
• 17:01
  Speaker 1: up her daughter following experiencing that, Let's take a listen.
• 17:05
  Speaker 4: What do you want people to know about postponed depression
• 17:08
  Speaker 4: that you think they miss?
• 17:10
  Speaker 3: That it's real, that it's not something we make up,
• 17:14
  Speaker 3: it's not something we want. It's not you know that
• 17:20
  Speaker 3: we've we've we've lost our our marbles and and it's
• 17:27
  Speaker 3: not something that we want to go through. And and
• 17:32
  Speaker 3: we're not lying when we tell you something strong, and
• 17:36
  Speaker 3: and we're we're in tears for absolutely no reason, Like
• 17:41
  Speaker 3: we don't have control over this, and this would be
• 17:44
  Speaker 3: the last thing that we would ever want to experience
• 17:49
  Speaker 3: or go through it. We want to be with our children,
• 17:52
  Speaker 3: our child, our brand new child, and have be filled
• 17:56
  Speaker 3: with joy and feel like the luckiest person in the world,
• 18:01
  Speaker 3: and and you know, capture every every moment, and for
• 18:08
  Speaker 3: anyone to think otherwise is just misinformed and Uh yeah,
• 18:16
  Speaker 3: I just I think people need to know a lot
• 18:20
  Speaker 3: more about it, need to understand.
• 18:22
  Speaker 1: And she also talked about the loss of her brother
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: and how that impacted her currently while she was living.
• 18:27
  Speaker 3: Oh yeah, there's a there was nothing in my life
• 18:31
  Speaker 3: that feels like losing my other half, like the other
• 18:36
  Speaker 3: half that I was, that was born to be my
• 18:39
  Speaker 3: my the yang to my yang, and we were so close,
• 18:45
  Speaker 3: and especially being the older sibling who that's your job
• 18:51
  Speaker 3: to protect them and keep them safe and not being
• 18:56
  Speaker 3: able to is I mean, your heartbreaking doesn't doesn't even
• 19:02
  Speaker 3: begin to cover it. I would need to a dictionary
• 19:06
  Speaker 3: to go through all the words for all the feelings
• 19:08
  Speaker 3: that you know, I go through your mind. But I've
• 19:14
  Speaker 3: got I mean, I collapsed and it's stayed with me.
• 19:17
  Speaker 3: I know time is like the best is the best
• 19:19
  Speaker 3: tailor generally, but it's been three years and every year
• 19:25
  Speaker 3: it's gotten, it's changed. The heartbreak has changed. But losing
• 19:33
  Speaker 3: him and realizing how much of life I was going
• 19:37
  Speaker 3: to have to go through alone and without him where
• 19:41
  Speaker 3: I when I always saw him as being there. You know,
• 19:46
  Speaker 3: the day that my parents are not here anymore, I'm
• 19:49
  Speaker 3: going to have to do alone and the fact that
• 19:53
  Speaker 3: he's not here to be a part of my daughter's life,
• 19:58
  Speaker 3: and the fact that he's I mean, there's so many
• 20:03
  Speaker 3: times I want to call him all the time, and
• 20:07
  Speaker 3: he was my best, best friend, and and like when
• 20:13
  Speaker 3: he first died, I just remember screaming, I don't want
• 20:18
  Speaker 3: to live in a world where he doesn't exist, so
• 20:24
  Speaker 3: I unfortunately had to. But he seems so alive in
• 20:31
  Speaker 3: my head still. He was such a big, big personality,
• 20:40
  Speaker 3: and he just like I ain no matter how, no
• 20:44
  Speaker 3: matter what, Like I was just one of those people.
• 20:47
  Speaker 3: I never thought anything could take him down or take
• 20:52
  Speaker 3: him away. He was so good too, And it makes
• 20:56
  Speaker 3: you so angry to see so that they're bad people
• 21:03
  Speaker 3: thriving in this world, and then one so good that's
• 21:08
  Speaker 3: just taken from you. Why it's not fair, It doesn't
• 21:16
  Speaker 3: make sense. So that's something I just I don't think
• 21:22
  Speaker 3: i'll ever I'll never get over, It'll just evolve. Luckily,
• 21:28
  Speaker 3: he was an amazing artist, and I have his his
• 21:32
  Speaker 3: paint some of his paintings, and that keeps part of
• 21:35
  Speaker 3: him alive for me. He left that behind, beautiful things behind,
• 21:43
  Speaker 3: but and I feel him with me. I know that's
• 21:49
  Speaker 3: he's protecting me from where he is and was needed elsewhere.
• 21:54
  Speaker 3: But I wish they would send him back to me.
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: Praying for her soul, praying for her family. I mean,
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: she started acting at eleven months old in commercials and
• 22:03
  Speaker 1: then grew up in the spotlight. There's always so much
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: that people are dealing with. Man, when I tell you, guys,
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: like I started this episode talking about like saying literally
• 22:13
  Speaker 1: setting boundaries for your life and being like, I don't
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: have the time. Not only should we do that, because
• 22:18
  Speaker 1: like you need to provide space for your mental to
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: be clear, but literally, y'all, she was thirty six years old.
• 22:24
  Speaker 1: Nobody knows what their timeline on this earth is going
• 22:27
  Speaker 1: to look like it is, and like it is so
• 22:30
  Speaker 1: beyond us to think that we have all the time
• 22:33
  Speaker 1: in the world, because we do not. You gotta do
• 22:36
  Speaker 1: the best you can with what you got in my
• 22:39
  Speaker 1: Mariah Carey voice, but like, seriously, you have to take
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: the time to really it's not even about like accomplishing things.
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: And I used to think, oh my god, I used
• 22:49
  Speaker 1: to think everything was about accomplishing things. And I used
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: to think everything was about achieving this level of success
• 22:54
  Speaker 1: and platform and influence because my whole goal was just
• 22:58
  Speaker 1: like I always wanted to be able to accumulate audience
• 23:01
  Speaker 1: because I'm like, I'll always be able to make money
• 23:03
  Speaker 1: and take care of people I love, and I also
• 23:05
  Speaker 1: be able to help people.
• 23:06
  Speaker 2: But it's not even really all about that.
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: I saw young thug he spoke to kids in Atlanta,
• 23:14
  Speaker 1: and people were, you know, dragging him about what he
• 23:17
  Speaker 1: was saying to the young kids. I take a listen
• 23:19
  Speaker 1: to that really quickly.
• 23:19
  Speaker 4: So is really the most important.
• 23:21
  Speaker 2: If you be fas, you're.
• 23:23
  Speaker 4: Almost as important as the richest person in the world.
• 23:27
  Speaker 4: So Fain is like more so like the money for us.
• 23:31
  Speaker 4: So fan is really the most important. It's very important.
• 23:34
  Speaker 4: You got to you gotta keep up with it. You
• 23:36
  Speaker 4: got to always make sure it leads, it leads to
• 23:38
  Speaker 4: the right leads you.
• 23:39
  Speaker 3: To the right room.
• 23:40
  Speaker 4: You not know how to move, got to move totally different,
• 23:42
  Speaker 4: gott to move, militaries, so many, so many things people don't.
• 23:47
  Speaker 2: Know about, Bain.
• 23:47
  Speaker 3: That's like very important.
• 23:49
  Speaker 4: Defin move you dot know how to be because you
• 23:51
  Speaker 4: end up in like situations. You know I've ended up now.
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: This was at a charter school in Georgia, ages K
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: through four. According to what I saw online, but people
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: were upset at the message. You know, talk about like fame,
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: and you know, people are interpreting this as him encouraging
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: the kids to want to be famous. But I think
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: it's more so from what I heard from it and
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: knowing how kids are about celebrities, you know, they don't
• 24:11
  Speaker 1: understand their k through fourth grade, right. I think what
• 24:15
  Speaker 1: it is that I interpreted from it anyway was literally
• 24:19
  Speaker 1: what we're saying right now. It's like, figure out what
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: you got the time for, set out to do that,
• 24:23
  Speaker 1: do that very well, build, build, build, and then protect it.
• 24:29
  Speaker 1: But also in protecting it, what can you do for
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: other people? People are literally pouring out love for hand
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: and Panitea right now because of her honesty, not because
• 24:38
  Speaker 1: she was perfect, you know, nobody's perfect. Not because she was,
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: you know, without life experience, but she used her life
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: experience come to be her testimony.
• 24:48
  Speaker 2: And I'm sure that it's helped somebody.
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: That interview circulated so much even before her passing and
• 24:53
  Speaker 1: now is recirculating again.
• 24:55
  Speaker 2: God rest her soul.
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: This has been another episode of the Latest with Lon
• 24:59
  Speaker 1: La Rosa. I am Lauren the Rosa and I tell
• 25:01
  Speaker 1: y'all every single episode man, y'all could be anywhere with
• 25:04
  Speaker 1: any old body, but you choose to be right here
• 25:06
  Speaker 1: with me every single episode, my Lowriders. I appreciate you, guys,
• 25:10
  Speaker 1: and I'll catch you in the next one.