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Marries a Man–Meets Christ–Divorces Man: Jay Dios Testimony · The Becket Cook Show

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  Speaker 1: Hey guys, welcome to the show today. I have a
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  Speaker 1: special guest, Jay Dios, and he has an amazing story
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  Speaker 1: of God rescuing him out of a life of homosexuality.
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  Speaker 1: And he was actually he's a young guy and he
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  Speaker 1: was actually married to a man, and then when he
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  Speaker 1: came back to the Lord, he divorced fat man. Praise God.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm excited to hear his story. It's fascinating. But
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  Speaker 1: first award from our sponsor, Please welcome Jay Dios.
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  Speaker 3: Thank you. Beckett is an honor to be on.
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  Speaker 1: It's so glad to have you and I I want
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  Speaker 1: to get into your story. It's it's kind of amazing.
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  Speaker 1: But let's start with, of course, your childhood. You say
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  Speaker 1: that you were raised in a United Methodist home. Now
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  Speaker 1: and you were faith in a faith filled United United
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  Speaker 1: Methodist home. Was this United Methodist church conservative or was it?
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  Speaker 1: Because there are a lot of United Methodist churches that
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  Speaker 1: are like completely wacko, but you're conservative.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, So it honestly tugs out my heart where the
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  Speaker 3: United Methodist Church ultimately went and their compromise. So the
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  Speaker 3: United Methodist churches that I attended were conservative from a
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  Speaker 3: theological perspective, Praise God. And actually they are not a
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  Speaker 3: part of the United Methodist Church anymore. They had split
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  Speaker 3: off into their own during that time too.
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  Speaker 2: Uh.
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  Speaker 3: The teaching that I grew up with was very much
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  Speaker 3: conservative principles and theology and a view of a Bible,
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  Speaker 3: view of the Bible. And so thankfully I was exposed
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  Speaker 3: to those kinds of truths as I was growing up.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, good, because there's a there's a Hollywood United Methodist
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  Speaker 1: church right near me and it's, uh, it has like
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  Speaker 1: rainbow flags on it and stuff. So I wanted to
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  Speaker 1: check on that. And you grew up in in North Atlanta, yes,
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  Speaker 1: and so.
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  Speaker 3: What when? So?
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  Speaker 1: And then you had you say you had early exposure
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  Speaker 1: to pornography at a childhood sleepover. How did that affect you?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah? And one thing as I've gotten older that just
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  Speaker 3: really has been on my heart is parents really be
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  Speaker 3: careful with who you entrust your kids with in a
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  Speaker 3: sleepover situation. I can't say I'm honestly a big fan
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  Speaker 3: of them, just because you hear so many heartbreaking stories
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  Speaker 3: that come out of them. Unfortunately, but in my particular case,
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  Speaker 3: I remember I was at a birthday party with some
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  Speaker 3: friends of mine. It was probably fifth or sixth grade,
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  Speaker 3: and there was really limited chaperoning, but there were some
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  Speaker 3: older siblings and their friends that essentially thought it would
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  Speaker 3: be really funny to kind of record like a reaction
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  Speaker 3: video of them showing us pornographic material. And up until
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  Speaker 3: that point I really hadn't had any kind of exposure
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  Speaker 3: to that level, Praise God, but I remember the video
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  Speaker 3: being very shocking to me. It ended up actually being
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  Speaker 3: two women in the video, and so that was also
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  Speaker 3: kind of like an initial shock to me that, oh wow,
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  Speaker 3: this is like two people of the same sex engaging
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  Speaker 3: in this behavior. And unfortunately, as shocking as it was,
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  Speaker 3: I don't think I had the tools to really process it,
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  Speaker 3: and ultimately it sparked like a darkness and curiosity in
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  Speaker 3: me that would lead to pornography use and masturbation when
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  Speaker 3: I was young. So and it deeply affected me.
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  Speaker 1: And then you say you came out at when you
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  Speaker 1: were eleven years old. What was the reaction from your parents?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I remember being very nervous because there was a
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  Speaker 3: level of just understanding that this was not okay, especially
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  Speaker 3: growing up in a conservative church where I did. I
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  Speaker 3: was aware of the stance, but also it's something scary
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  Speaker 3: to bring up to your parents and realize. So I
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  Speaker 3: remember actually like handing my mom a phone. This is
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  Speaker 3: back when there were layingline telephones. I remember handing my
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  Speaker 3: mom a phone and then going out into the garage
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  Speaker 3: and then telling her, Mom, I think I'm homosexual, And
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  Speaker 3: her reaction to me disclosing that information to her was
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  Speaker 3: very emotional, like she was very shocked. I do have
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  Speaker 3: a younger brother, and he had demonstrated a little bit
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  Speaker 3: more of like a feminine side than me at this point,
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  Speaker 3: and so I think it was very shocking to hear
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  Speaker 3: it from me and disclosing this to her. And then
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  Speaker 3: I don't think my dad was actually home. He came later,
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  Speaker 3: and then my mom was like, Hey, you've got to
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  Speaker 3: You've got to talk to your dad and let him know.
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  Speaker 1: And how did so, how did you kind of deal
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  Speaker 1: with this internal thing, this battle with regards to your faith,
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  Speaker 1: with regards to you growing up in the Christian church
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  Speaker 1: and the home and everything. So how did you how
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  Speaker 1: did you see it in terms of that?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, not as well as I wish I did. So
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  Speaker 3: it was it was kind of a mix of feelings
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  Speaker 3: of knowing that it was wrong, but also actively seeking
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  Speaker 3: out some kind of affirmation that this would be okay
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  Speaker 3: and reconciling this. I know, in high school and I
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  Speaker 3: went to a public high school, I started to meet
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  Speaker 3: a lot more people that were friendly to the idea
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  Speaker 3: of gay being a valid identity. And I had never
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  Speaker 3: experienced that before, and so I think I was attracted
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  Speaker 3: to that level of acceptance that was being presented. But then,
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  Speaker 3: as I had mentioned, like I was also struggling with
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  Speaker 3: lust as a teenager looking at pornographic material that was
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  Speaker 3: homosexual and sure, and then also just I grew up
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  Speaker 3: United Methodists, and I was United Methodists through high school
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  Speaker 3: as well, and I was actually a musically gifted student,
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  Speaker 3: and so like I played cello and tuba in my
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  Speaker 3: church's orchestra, and so I was a part of the
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  Speaker 3: music ministry. But for me, faith was like more routine.
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  Speaker 3: I didn't really read God's word on a regular basis.
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  Speaker 3: I wasn't as entrenched in it as I should have been.
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  Speaker 3: And because of that, I think the enemy really took
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  Speaker 3: advantage of me in that fragile state.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, and so you you say that you when you
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  Speaker 1: went away, when you went to college, did you did
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  Speaker 1: you deconstruct your faith because you were exposed to liberalism?
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  Speaker 1: And what happened to your faith in college?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah? So college was tough for me. It was the
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  Speaker 3: first time that I had actually experienced a level of
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  Speaker 3: animosity towards the Christian worldview, because growing up I was
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  Speaker 3: very much around Christians, and I was shocked at just
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  Speaker 3: kind of the negative comments towards Christianity, but then also
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  Speaker 3: this propping up of a secular humanist worldview. Combining with that,
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  Speaker 3: I also was struggling a lot with reconciling why do
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  Speaker 3: I believe what I believe? Is there like another option?
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  Speaker 3: How much of what my parents were telling me was
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  Speaker 3: true or how much of that was just like because
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  Speaker 3: I was raised in this way. And so the saving
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  Speaker 3: gri here is I knew I needed to find a
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  Speaker 3: church and I actually one of my best friends, I
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  Speaker 3: was like Hey, I've heard really great things about this
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  Speaker 3: church Connection Church. I think you should check it out
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  Speaker 3: with me. And so, fortunately, like I still felt like
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  Speaker 3: on my heart that I needed to be on Sundays
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  Speaker 3: in a church building and worshiping the Lord. But at
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  Speaker 3: the same time, I'm like, Lord, I deeply am struggling,
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  Speaker 3: and I need you to reveal yourself to me in
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  Speaker 3: light of all that I'm trying to navigate through here
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  Speaker 3: in college. And so I really went on a journey
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  Speaker 3: of understanding the difference between subjective truth and objective truth,
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  Speaker 3: and ultimately the spirit of truth will lead you into
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  Speaker 3: all truth, Praise God. And so a lot of things
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  Speaker 3: clicked for me, particularly when Pastor Brandon had preached a sermon.
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  Speaker 3: It's one of those sermons where it feels like there's
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  Speaker 3: nobody else in the room and it's just the pastor
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  Speaker 3: speaking to you, And I remember my heart was racing
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  Speaker 3: so fast because every word that he was saying was
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  Speaker 3: just resonating so deeply with my soul. And ultimately it
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  Speaker 3: clicked for me. I realized that a lot of the
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  Speaker 3: spiritual warfare around me is on truth and ultimately on
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  Speaker 3: the things of God, the character of God, the holiness
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  Speaker 3: of God. And so in that moment, I knew that
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  Speaker 3: God's word was true and I ended up standing up
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  Speaker 3: for an alter call at that time.
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  Speaker 1: So we'll be right back after this short break.
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  Speaker 3: Wow.
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  Speaker 1: And so but then you started to but then you
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  Speaker 1: started to read books like Matthew Vine's books and God
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  Speaker 1: in Gay Christian in Matthew Vines. I mean, I'm sure
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  Speaker 1: everyone knows this by now, but if you don't know,
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  Speaker 1: Matthew Vines is a gay affirming quote unquote Christian and
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  Speaker 1: he wrote a book called God and Gay Christian and
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  Speaker 1: he tries to argue that homosexual behavior is not a sin.
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  Speaker 1: But so, why so after this experience with Pastor Brandon
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  Speaker 1: and his sermon, why did you then go into this
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  Speaker 1: world of like Matthew Vines.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah. So, I think in desperation of my truth seeking,
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  Speaker 3: I didn't do a whole lot of Bible reading, so
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  Speaker 3: and I was really seeking out a lot of different voices,
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  Speaker 3: particularly on the conservative politic angle. But also I had
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  Speaker 3: like this deep sense of wanting to reconcile this identity. Ultimately,
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  Speaker 3: I was to see this identity that I believed that
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  Speaker 3: I was, which was gay right and my faith and
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  Speaker 3: so ultimately, like I had come across Matthew Vines's book,
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  Speaker 3: and at that time reading it, I think I had
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  Speaker 3: because I wasn't directly in the word of God, I
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  Speaker 3: became deeply influenced by the arguments he was making and
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  Speaker 3: I was like, oh, there might be actually a pathway
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  Speaker 3: for this to be true. And so ultimately, at that time,
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  Speaker 3: I think I was dealing so much with understanding the
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  Speaker 3: truth of God and how he was revealing himself to me,
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  Speaker 3: but still holding on to this false identity and desperately
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  Speaker 3: seeking some kind of reconciliation for that truth. And so
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  Speaker 3: unfortunately I didn't come to that reconciliation, and it really
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  Speaker 3: impacted me in the next years that would follow in
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  Speaker 3: my faith, like the way that I describe it as
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  Speaker 3: like I believe God's word was true, but in this
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  Speaker 3: area it was too hard for me to accept. And
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  Speaker 3: there's a difference between Jason saying that Jesus is Lord
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  Speaker 3: of your life and then just believing that he is
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  Speaker 3: the Son of God.
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  Speaker 1: So right, and so you ended up meeting a guy
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  Speaker 1: named Matthew, not Matthew Vines, but a guy named Matthew
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  Speaker 1: or matt and and you guys, you ended up getting married.
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  Speaker 3: Right, is this that's right? Yes, yep, and so go ahead.
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  Speaker 3: I was just gonna say so. Throughout my early twenties
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  Speaker 3: after college, I did eight several other men during that
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  Speaker 3: time period, and ultimately, what I was finding is I
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  Speaker 3: was seeking another Christian man. And what I was finding
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  Speaker 3: is a lot of the times when we get on
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  Speaker 3: the topics of the Lord and who he was in Christianity,
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  Speaker 3: that was always really a tough subject that would come up,
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  Speaker 3: and ultimately the relationship would fizzle out. So things changed
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  Speaker 3: a little bit with Matthew.
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  Speaker 1: So and then how did you decide to actually go
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  Speaker 1: through with I mean, that's a pretty strong commitment to
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  Speaker 1: get married, Like, how did that happen?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, there's a lot there. Ultimately, what I would say
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  Speaker 3: is there were there were a lot of good elements
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  Speaker 3: of Matthew and I's relationship, Like we had of friendship
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  Speaker 3: that was very similar to David and Jonathan, and we
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  Speaker 3: desperately wanted to pursue the Lord. In fact, I recall
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  Speaker 3: on our first date, we were saying, if we ever
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  Speaker 3: reach a point where we are in conflict with our
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  Speaker 3: relationship with God, we must encourage each other to pursue
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  Speaker 3: the Lord, and so with that there were a lot
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  Speaker 3: of great elements in that relationship in the pursuit of God,
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  Speaker 3: but this area in particular, the Enemy used to pervert
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  Speaker 3: the institution of marriage and ultimately our identity. And so
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  Speaker 3: because we both were still subscribing to this being our identity,
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  Speaker 3: that was a very big stronghold for us to break.
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  Speaker 3: And so with that, I think we were a chasing
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  Speaker 3: this relationship and all of the benefits that we might
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  Speaker 3: be receiving in this world, or we were perceiving to
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  Speaker 3: be receiving in this world, while also not pursuing the
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  Speaker 3: Lord and being involved in faith community in the way
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  Speaker 3: that we should have been. In fact, in a lot
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  Speaker 3: of ways, the irony of this is when Matthew and
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  Speaker 3: I got married and I started to spend a lot
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  Speaker 3: of time in the Word of God, in listening to
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  Speaker 3: the Lord and praying to the Lord and going back
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  Speaker 3: to church. That was ultimately what the Lord transformed my
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  Speaker 3: identity in and deeply impacted the mayoral union that we
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  Speaker 3: perceived that we had. So during that time, it's just
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  Speaker 3: a mix of not investing ourselves the way that we
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  Speaker 3: should have in pursuit of the Lord, and then also
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  Speaker 3: holding on to a false identity.
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  Speaker 1: And how long were you married to him?
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  Speaker 3: So we got married in September of twenty twenty two,
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  Speaker 3: and then our divorce had finalized, although in Louisiana there's
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  Speaker 3: a very long cooling off period as they call it.
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  Speaker 3: And our divorce finalized in July of twenty twenty five.
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  Speaker 3: But up until that point we had been living apart
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  Speaker 3: for like eight or nine months.
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  Speaker 1: So and who initiated the divorce? Was it you who
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  Speaker 1: initiated it?
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  Speaker 3: It was me? Yes?
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  Speaker 1: And was he shocked by this?
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  Speaker 3: So a big component of the journey that ultimately we
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  Speaker 3: went on is in twenty twenty four, around February of
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  Speaker 3: twenty twenty four, I had actually revealed to him that
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  Speaker 3: I was feeling conflict of identity and that I believe
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  Speaker 3: that we were living in a house of cards and
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  Speaker 3: not on a firm foundation in Christ. And so during
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  Speaker 3: that time I said, I really want to pray about this,
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  Speaker 3: speak to different leaders and voices, and really leave no
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  Speaker 3: stone unturn, and praise God that Matt ultimately was agreeable
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  Speaker 3: to go on that journey rather than reacting overly negative
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  Speaker 3: to that information. And so ultimately we had met with
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  Speaker 3: a variety of different voices, and at as that was occurring,
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  Speaker 3: I started to notice a pretty big split in where
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  Speaker 3: we were theologically aligning from an identity perspective. In fact,
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  Speaker 3: actually ironically, but also beautifully, the Lord gave me such
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  Speaker 3: a great appreciation for marriage through this process and how
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  Speaker 3: He's beautifully designed it between one man and one woman.
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  Speaker 3: And so he was shocked, I think at the news,
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  Speaker 3: and I think something that breaks my heart as I
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  Speaker 3: do recall him, like praying desperately in the middle of
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  Speaker 3: the night for the Lord not to take me away
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  Speaker 3: from him. But when you're living outside God's will for
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  Speaker 3: your life, ultimately that that prayer was not answered and
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  Speaker 3: there was deliverance there. And did your parents?
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  Speaker 1: Did your parents attend the wedding?
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  Speaker 3: They initially they did. And I'm glad that you brought
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  Speaker 3: that up, Beckett, because the wedding, as I reflect back,
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  Speaker 3: is a really difficult moment for me to reconcile, because
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  Speaker 3: I believe that I did a lot of damage to
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  Speaker 3: people I love's faith by standing up on that altar
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  Speaker 3: and proclaiming something that was not true. And thankfully the
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  Speaker 3: Lord has redeemed that moment and the way that I describe.
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  Speaker 3: It is like at the wedding there were different chapters
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  Speaker 3: of my life all together, but unfortunately they were celebrating
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  Speaker 3: sin ultimately being conducted. But I ended up getting baptized
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  Speaker 3: this past year in October, and God beautifully redeemed that
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  Speaker 3: because then again people from all different chapters of my
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  Speaker 3: life were there to witness the freedom and delivering. It's
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  Speaker 3: not only the Holy Spirit can bring about, and so
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  Speaker 3: in a lot of ways, that redeemed that situation.
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  Speaker 1: So, yes, good, And so we talk about because you
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  Speaker 1: were just before we started recording you, you were talking
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  Speaker 1: about I think you met Matthew Vines in person, and
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  Speaker 1: I think you were with matt and you, he says,
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  Speaker 1: because in his button and God and the gay Christian,
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  Speaker 1: one of his big arguments is you know, you shall
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  Speaker 1: know them by their fruit, and if their fruit is good,
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  Speaker 1: then it's all good. So talk about what he said
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  Speaker 1: to you and then what your reaction was later on
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  Speaker 1: the plane back home.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, for sure. And if your audience hasn't picked up
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  Speaker 3: on it already, like the Lord uses the name Matthew
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  Speaker 3: very profoundly in your life dirty of faith, Yes he
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  Speaker 3: still does. So with that, uh, Matthew Vines makes several
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  Speaker 3: different arguments, and he's incredibly articulate. However, it was very
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  Speaker 3: clear to me when I met him in person and
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  Speaker 3: he allowed me to have a conversation really with him theologically,
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  Speaker 3: face to face on this particular sin issue. There were
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  Speaker 3: a lot of like branch issues that ultimately you could
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  Speaker 3: get stuck debating on, but it's going to come to
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  Speaker 3: the root, and the root of it is related to
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  Speaker 3: living according to God's word, in obeying his word and
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  Speaker 3: what that means. And so one of Matthew's primary arguments
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  Speaker 3: is that coming from Matthew seven, is that you can
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  Speaker 3: essentially judge a tree by his fruit or in the
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  Speaker 3: context he was talking about teachers, but he relates it
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  Speaker 3: to Galatian in the fruit of the Spirit, and what
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  Speaker 3: he was saying is essentially, what fruit of the spirit
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  Speaker 3: do you violate by staying in a loving covenantal same
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  Speaker 3: sex marriage with Matt my former spouse Matt And at
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  Speaker 3: the time, I actually did not have an answer for him,
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  Speaker 3: and so I told him, I said, hey, I've got
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  Speaker 3: to pray about this. I'm not sure. And as I
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  Speaker 3: was going back home and on the plane, the Lord
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  Speaker 3: just beautifully clicked that last puzzle piece in place, and
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  Speaker 3: I realized that the fruit of the spirit that I
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  Speaker 3: was violating the most was faithfulness. Faithfulness in two ways.
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  Speaker 3: The first is I was not being faithful to God.
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  Speaker 3: Jesus says that if you love me, you will obey
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  Speaker 3: my commands. Yeah, and so the most important relationship that
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  Speaker 3: I will ever have, I was not being faithful to
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  Speaker 3: the Lord. But then also I was not being faithful
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  Speaker 3: to Matthew because I was leading him down a path
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  Speaker 3: of destruction and not in living in God's best And
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  Speaker 3: so ironically it was reading Matthew Vines's book that led
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  Speaker 3: me down this path of affirming theology. But it was
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  Speaker 3: a question that Matthew Vines had asked me that ultimately
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  Speaker 3: clicked it into place for me of how the Lord
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  Speaker 3: was going to work to restore my identity in him.
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  Speaker 3: So it's really beautiful how that worked out.
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  Speaker 1: That's amazing God. Yeah, I love how God works and moves.
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  Speaker 1: And now you're your identity is reclaimed. You're at I
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  Speaker 1: think Louis Giglio's church right passion Passion. Yes, I've been
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  Speaker 1: there one time. I was there for a well, I
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  Speaker 1: will I will say what I was there for because
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  Speaker 1: it's very controversial now, but I was there for a
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  Speaker 1: memorial service anyway. Okay, But so tell us what, so
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  Speaker 1: what is your life like now? What are you doing
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  Speaker 1: now with your you know, your story, what are you
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  Speaker 1: doing in general? Like, tell us what's happening and tell
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  Speaker 1: us what it's like, what your relationship is like with God.
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  Speaker 3: Now you're from Dallas, aren't you? Originally? Okay, So we
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  Speaker 3: were just there for Passion twenty twenty six. I was
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  Speaker 3: actually a captain for snacks and coffee for our door
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  Speaker 3: doorholders and those who are not familiar with Passion. It
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  Speaker 3: is a Christian conference. We had forty five thousand college
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  Speaker 3: aid students eighteen to twenty five years of age coming
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  Speaker 3: to worship the Lord and listened to amazing speakers and
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  Speaker 3: then ultimately the theme was about sending out arrows, going
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  Speaker 3: back to their spheres of influence and then speaking boldly
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  Speaker 3: for Christ and being the light of the world that
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  Speaker 3: Christ calls us to be. So Passion City Church is
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  Speaker 3: the church branch of the Passion movement. We've got three
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  Speaker 3: campuses in Atlanta and one in DC, and Passion City
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  Speaker 3: Church has been just an incredible home and community to me.
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  Speaker 3: It's one of the biggest blessings that the Lord has
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  Speaker 3: provided in my life. There are so many brothers and
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  Speaker 3: sisters of Christ there that have locked arms with me
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  Speaker 3: and walked with me through some of the most difficult
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  Speaker 3: moments through my faith journey. But ultimately with that I
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  Speaker 3: am serving as part of our experience in hosting team.
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  Speaker 3: I am also in a connect group. Ironically, my connect
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  Speaker 3: Group leader's name is Matthew Yes, and so I get
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  Speaker 3: to lock arms with brothers. Iron sharpens iron, and the
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  Speaker 3: Lord is really restored so much from like a relationship
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  Speaker 3: aspect in my life, both with just amazing people living
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  Speaker 3: out boldly for Christ, but also faithful teachers that are
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  Speaker 3: going to speak truth boldly and make sure that ultimately
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  Speaker 3: we are becoming more and more like Christ through the
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  Speaker 3: process of sanctification. So I'm living my best life like
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  Speaker 3: that's the best way to describe it. Like, I am
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  Speaker 3: so grateful for what the Lord has done.
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  Speaker 1: What would you say, because I mean you've probably heard
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  Speaker 1: me answer this question, but I cause I get I
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  Speaker 1: talk about it all the time. It's in my book, uh,
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  Speaker 1: you know, because people used to ask me when I
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  Speaker 1: get first got saved, you know, is it an isn't
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  Speaker 1: it unfair that you don't get to, you know, have
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  Speaker 1: a boyfriend or a husband or whatever. So what would
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  Speaker 1: you say to people about that?
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  Speaker 3: Is it?
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  Speaker 1: How do you feel about that question?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, so, I think in a lot of ways, our
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  Speaker 3: culture especially loves to idolize that romantic love, and it
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  Speaker 3: love is a very beautiful thing. What I have accepted
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  Speaker 3: in my heart is that I want to live God's
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  Speaker 3: will for my life. I want to let the spirit lead,
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  Speaker 3: and so ultimately, if it is in God's will, and
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  Speaker 3: actually I do pray that it is that I find
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  Speaker 3: a wife and build a family together, then beautiful, like
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  Speaker 3: that's amazing. But also if the Lord has the work
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  Speaker 3: paved out for me for his purposes as a single man,
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  Speaker 3: it says in one Timothy sixty six, godliness with contentment
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  Speaker 3: is great gain. And I feel that living with the Lord,
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  Speaker 3: with him leading, is the biggest blessing, the greatest fulfillment,
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  Speaker 3: because it's not just this earth that I get to
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  Speaker 3: look forward to, but it is eternity with Him, and
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  Speaker 3: that is the greatest relationship that you could ever have.
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  Speaker 1: Well, we're going to leave it there because you mentioned eternity,
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  Speaker 1: and that's a good place to leave it. I just
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  Speaker 1: love that. Yeah, eternal life is kind of a big deal.
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  Speaker 1: I always say so. It's it's amazing. But let's leave
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  Speaker 1: it there. And thank you so much Jay for telling
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  Speaker 1: your story. And I hope that guys who are watching
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  Speaker 1: or women who are watching who are kind of stuck
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  Speaker 1: in that world will hear this and it'll spark something
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  Speaker 1: in them. And God, will you know, convict them. The
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  Speaker 1: Holy Spirit will convict them and they will come fully
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  Speaker 1: under the authority and of the Lord Jesus Christ. So
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  Speaker 1: thank you so much, thank you for coming on.
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  Speaker 3: I appreciate it absolutely, Beckett. It's an honor. Praise God.
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