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Don't Worry, Trust God. | with Desiree Danielle | EP102 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl Jessica and Smith and you already
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  Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress,
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  Speaker 1: have fun and just ask God for another Do you
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  Speaker 1: already know what it is? And then you know it's
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  Speaker 1: about to get real. To be sure to show your
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  Speaker 1: girl the love and like coming subscribe God.
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  Speaker 2: For another day?
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  Speaker 3: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah that's little right? Oh like that? It's another week?
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  Speaker 4: Week right, TikTok has cub yo yo, yeo, it's your
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  Speaker 4: girl Jessica, and you have answered the safe space for
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  Speaker 4: influencers to decompress, have fun. Guess what just hello somebody,
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  Speaker 4: it's another week, another week, another week, another week?
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  Speaker 2: Hey, you made you made? You made you?
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  Speaker 4: Mad Am?
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  Speaker 2: I in a dance movie.
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  Speaker 4: Yes, y'all before I tell y'all what I did at
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  Speaker 4: the job.
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  Speaker 2: At the nine five and heard help wait for me?
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  Speaker 2: All right? Doesn't right, doesn't doesn't word does already doesn't
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  Speaker 2: like like the one one kind.
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  Speaker 4: You know?
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, baby, what's up you guys? Welcome back to another episode.
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  Speaker 4: Yes, girl, girl, you bad, don't do that? No, you
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  Speaker 4: just you look God not like for real? The hair
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  Speaker 4: is hairing somebody had if she had a man. Somebody
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  Speaker 4: asked the woman the guy that was okay. You know
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  Speaker 4: when women, especially the black ones, when they do something
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  Speaker 4: different to their hair, especially when they cut it off,
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  Speaker 4: you'd be like, what's either what's wrong with you or
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  Speaker 4: what's good? You know, bracing the change? You know what
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  Speaker 4: I'm saying.
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  Speaker 2: Somebody tells partnering and agreeing with what the Lord is doing.
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  Speaker 2: The Lord told you.
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  Speaker 4: I mean, he ain't said cut the hair, but I said,
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  Speaker 4: I am agreed with what the Lord is doing on
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  Speaker 4: the inside, on the inside. Was that something on inside?
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  Speaker 4: Justica work? You know out the transformation starts internal. It does,
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  Speaker 4: it does, but you are feeling like, I ain't gonna lie.
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  Speaker 2: You're feeling yourself.
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  Speaker 4: You're feeling yourself so so so I knew that this season,
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  Speaker 4: this season that's currently happening, it's just gonna take another
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  Speaker 4: level of boldness.
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  Speaker 2: And uh.
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  Speaker 4: Wait, does she have clusters on today? Are those my business?
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  Speaker 4: It's not a cluster.
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  Speaker 2: It looked like it's a strip. Baby. You put that
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  Speaker 2: strip on note, Baby, come on, it's on the line.
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  Speaker 4: I've been practicing because you ain't fa you ain't You're
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  Speaker 4: finna have your here.
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  Speaker 2: Just listen.
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  Speaker 4: I'm gonna have to put the strip on later on
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  Speaker 4: the day. And I'm scared. I'm nervous, child, because I
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  Speaker 4: like the clusters. The clusters they do well. And that
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  Speaker 4: I was scared.
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  Speaker 2: I was.
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  Speaker 4: I was nervous and trembling all at the same time.
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  Speaker 4: A song of your billy, I don't know.
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  Speaker 2: It's like. Okay.
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  Speaker 4: So yesterday when I was at the Jajob, I told people,
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  Speaker 4: you know, it was a week. It was a week, right,
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  Speaker 4: and I was full of worry, concern and frustration and
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  Speaker 4: all that good stuff.
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  Speaker 2: It was a week. And I won't say it was frustrated.
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  Speaker 2: I think I was a little bit overwhelmed. It's real.
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  Speaker 4: And so what I told the team was, because you know,
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  Speaker 4: we spread out in different places. Yeah, I said, oh,
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  Speaker 4: challenge for y'all, and I'm gonna challenge y'all to do this.
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  Speaker 2: So I said, put on your fifteen minute break.
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  Speaker 4: During your fifteen minute break, I'm going to need for
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  Speaker 4: you guys to put on your favorite upbeat song. Okay,
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  Speaker 4: and the door put the upbeat song on. Sorry, y'all.
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  Speaker 2: A lot of things are going over here, and I'm
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  Speaker 2: gonna eat for y'all. A dance.
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  Speaker 4: Okay, and if you bad, if you brave enough, you're
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  Speaker 4: recorded and putting our text missus thread. So my boy
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  Speaker 4: Shannon was like, you do it first? Who they talking to?
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  Speaker 2: Delira? What your what?
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  Speaker 4: You?
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  Speaker 2: What you know? Now? Oh that's how you baby? Baby?
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  Speaker 2: I was me, I was heard, because who else you're
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  Speaker 2: gonna be? Who was gonna who's gonna check me?
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  Speaker 4: But no, in that I had so much fun and
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  Speaker 4: I really oh I just heard the Lord say this.
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  Speaker 4: I really danced everything off. You know how people say
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  Speaker 4: they dance like David dance. I think if I'm not,
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  Speaker 4: if I'm not mistaken, that that dancing and that praising
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  Speaker 4: of the Lord is was after his son had died.
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  Speaker 4: If I'm not miss if I'm not missake, don't quote
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  Speaker 4: me on it. Listen, I'm not gonna look it up
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  Speaker 4: right now. I'm gonna look it up afterwards. But there
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  Speaker 4: was something that happened for David to dance, and not
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  Speaker 4: only dance, he literally clothes like he took he was
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  Speaker 4: coming out of his clothes. That's literally a picture of
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  Speaker 4: what God wants us to do in a certain situations
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  Speaker 4: like what we're about to talk right now, worrying impression, anxiety,
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  Speaker 4: dance that thing off.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, you're not gonna get stuck on me, shake it off.
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  Speaker 1: You know, like what, shay it all, say it all,
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  Speaker 1: but you know what y'all thought, I forgot, but I didn't. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: it's community highlight people before we get into it.
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  Speaker 4: It's community highlight time and today that's a rayon. Yes,
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  Speaker 4: I would I'm making this one personal. Okay, I'm making
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  Speaker 4: this one person. Okay, I would like to highlight my leaders,
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  Speaker 4: my pastors, pastors.
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  Speaker 2: Pastor Gino and Kareem Gardner.
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  Speaker 4: Okay, you guys, I attend one of the best churches
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  Speaker 4: in the land. There are a lot of great churches.
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  Speaker 4: I sometimes i'd be like thee best. No, it's a
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  Speaker 4: lot of great churches in land. You might not can
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  Speaker 4: get to mind. But if you can't, baby, it's gonna
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  Speaker 4: bless your socks off. We are Rehope of Church, Birmingham,
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  Speaker 4: located at twenty one twenty Center Point Parkway. Okay, and
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  Speaker 4: there is room ah blah blah at the whell. I
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  Speaker 4: love my pastors. I've always been I pressed with my pastors.
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  Speaker 4: My pastors knew day. I think that my pastors knew
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  Speaker 4: they were my pastors before I knew that.
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  Speaker 2: They were my pastors.
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  Speaker 4: Oh, most definitely, especially that doc on PG, that dog
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  Speaker 4: on PG Man. I love you guys. You guys are
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  Speaker 4: simply amazing. I'm enjoying also the growth and development. Just
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  Speaker 4: being able to see my leaders be open to expansion
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  Speaker 4: of themselves, like just watching yourselves grow and develop and
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  Speaker 4: being okay with with feedback or whatever like that's healthy leadership.
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  Speaker 4: And so I just appreciate you guys just digging in deeper.
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  Speaker 4: I don't know what it is about this season, but
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  Speaker 4: it's just like another dig of deep for them. And Baby,
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  Speaker 4: when I tell you PG, get on that mic on Sunday,
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  Speaker 4: I ask the congregation, y'all think I'm extra here.
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  Speaker 2: I am a loud person. I'm all the way in
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  Speaker 2: the back in.
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  Speaker 4: The media department and I'm coming straight to the front.
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  Speaker 4: If you say something good and I let him know, sir,
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  Speaker 4: I am with you, then I go back to my
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  Speaker 4: station because I gotta work the yes.
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  Speaker 2: The background.
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  Speaker 4: But all in all, you guys community high, like Doug,
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  Speaker 4: this is personal. It does go to my pastors Gino
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  Speaker 4: and Kareem Gardner. I love you guys, Thank you so
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  Speaker 4: much for putting God first. Thank you so much for
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  Speaker 4: being the leaders that you are, and I'm send blessings
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  Speaker 4: your way. May God increase what you don't even know
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  Speaker 4: that you want make. May God below on the things
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  Speaker 4: that you not you haven't even dared to ask God for.
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  Speaker 4: May God increase in enlarge your territory. Make God just
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  Speaker 4: show you and prove yourself. Prove yourselves to you. Wait,
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  Speaker 4: prove you to you, my God. I couldn't get that out.
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  Speaker 4: Prove you to you every day as you continue to
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  Speaker 4: trust Him, as you continue to lean out onto your
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  Speaker 4: own understanding. We love you, we adore you. Let's give
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  Speaker 4: it up for my pastors and yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, Okay,
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  Speaker 4: I'm not close to my button, baby, ain't close to
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  Speaker 4: my button. I'm just glad, so glad. You know I
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  Speaker 4: love my good clap button. I'm so glad. Don't don't
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  Speaker 4: we don't do y'all still ain't let me know if
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  Speaker 4: y'all y'all think, Just do like my button on, y'all,
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  Speaker 4: let's get it, get into it, so, Desirae, Yes, I
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  Speaker 4: wanted to talk about something that we've kind of hit
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  Speaker 4: on before, but I feel like we needed to, like
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  Speaker 4: basic baby, because when you don't get to listen to listen,
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  Speaker 4: gonna get you. When you don't get to listen to listen,
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  Speaker 4: go get you. So I told you right that we
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  Speaker 4: were well, you guys know that Desiree and I have
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  Speaker 4: been open about where we are financially and just going
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  Speaker 4: through transitions, not just transosition financially, but this is where
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  Speaker 4: it is rooted from right and so financially, you know,
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  Speaker 4: we're trusting, We're trusting God, but also depending on God
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  Speaker 4: to show us the areas of our creativity where our
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  Speaker 4: gift will make room for us, Okay, being courageous on
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  Speaker 4: some things.
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  Speaker 2: So we're like, God, you want us to do that,
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  Speaker 2: then you want us to do that, okay.
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  Speaker 4: And so this has come up. You know you guys.
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  Speaker 4: I do family prayer. I have family prayer at six
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  Speaker 4: am every Saturday morning with my family.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, we've been doing it.
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  Speaker 4: For oh, five years since I think I think it's
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  Speaker 4: been five years. I think somebody's gonna correct me. I
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  Speaker 4: don't know who, but somebody's gonna correct. And I feel
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  Speaker 4: like it was like twenty twenty one ish, okay, so
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  Speaker 4: it might get twenty one.
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  Speaker 2: So I think it's been four years. It's been four years.
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  Speaker 4: So we're doing this persistently for four years, every Saturday,
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  Speaker 4: and it's really I've really seen this this space just.
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  Speaker 2: Grow with my family. And so.
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  Speaker 4: This year it seems like the Lord has been leaning
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  Speaker 4: into us on Okay, go beyond prayer, right, and not
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  Speaker 4: just go to be on pari, but go beyond the word.
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  Speaker 2: I need you guys to be equipped, right, And I.
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  Speaker 4: Believe that when you're a true bloodline breaker, right, you
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  Speaker 4: can't limit yourself only to the Big Bible for your resource.
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  Speaker 2: What do I mean by that?
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  Speaker 4: I know somebody y'all like, oh, oh my god.
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  Speaker 1: No.
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  Speaker 4: The reason why the Lord put other authors and stuff
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  Speaker 4: on the earth and people were writing stuff like this
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  Speaker 4: because we can learn from them, right, So, tangibly speaking
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  Speaker 4: and practically speaking, there are things that are harming our
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  Speaker 4: bloodline because we so hooked on the Bible that we
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  Speaker 4: don't know how to look up other resources to help
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  Speaker 4: us get out of the things that we need to
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  Speaker 4: get out of.
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  Speaker 2: Right.
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  Speaker 4: The Bible is a great resource, however, and there are
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  Speaker 4: some things that we can learn in different communities. Like
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  Speaker 4: I'm in Emmu, right, and we're always doing these challenges
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  Speaker 4: and the challenges always include. And for people that don't
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  Speaker 4: know what emmu is, it's more thing me. I keep
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  Speaker 4: saying that, like y'a don't know what I'm talking about.
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  Speaker 4: It'll be like, all right, for thirty one days, we're
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  Speaker 4: gonna drink water, We're gonna ask somebody for sale, basically
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  Speaker 4: like promoting our product.
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  Speaker 2: We're gonna post every day. We're gonna do this. Some
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  Speaker 2: of the things that that does.
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  Speaker 4: It builds up confidence, It brings revenue in the home,
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  Speaker 4: It breaks any limitations off, It keeps you hydrated. We
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  Speaker 4: got one coming up that we're working out. It's all
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  Speaker 4: about hell. That is incongruent with the word. But we
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  Speaker 4: don't talk about the Bible. Oh well we don't. That
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  Speaker 4: is not a Bible study, right, and so the Lord
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  Speaker 4: was challenging me principles in that. It's definitely principles in
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  Speaker 4: the right. It's like community. That's the biggest thing.
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  Speaker 2: Like the enemy.
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  Speaker 4: The enemy's tactics is to get you so much so
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  Speaker 4: by yourself that that what community can break off you.
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  Speaker 4: You don't experience that, right, you will limit yourself when
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  Speaker 4: you're not in community. Right, there are some times where
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  Speaker 4: God calls you into those secret place seasons or quote
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  Speaker 4: unquote isolated seasons. But you're called into to those seasons,
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  Speaker 4: you're equipped for those seasons.
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  Speaker 2: It's you and God, not you and you. You know
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  Speaker 2: what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 4: You you by yourself, You allocating yourself, which will put
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  Speaker 4: yourself in your in your own way, like on atmosphere.
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  Speaker 4: And so so fast forward all of us, well, I
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  Speaker 4: wanna say all of us. Some of us were experiencing
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  Speaker 4: some financial opportunities, and even those that were experiencing financial
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  Speaker 4: opportunities weren't fit experiencing and financial opportunity, weren't starting what
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  Speaker 4: God gave us will right. And it started with me
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  Speaker 4: being just transparent with where I was and saying, hey,
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  Speaker 4: I started reaching out to my daddy. I think I
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  Speaker 4: told y'all that before I started reaching out to my dad,
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  Speaker 4: I started reaching out to my sister, just being kind
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  Speaker 4: of like open about where we were. And so long
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  Speaker 4: story show, we get to this month and my aunt
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  Speaker 4: had previously done a challenge, but it did include a devotional.
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  Speaker 2: But this devotional we.
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  Speaker 4: Started it like last week, child you it's like Mike
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  Speaker 4: Tyson hitting me in my throat.
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  Speaker 2: That's what it feels like.
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  Speaker 4: I gotta so one of the days talked about what
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  Speaker 4: we're gonna focus on today, which was worry, right, And
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  Speaker 4: I'm gonna read this to you, okay. The devotional is
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  Speaker 4: called Financial Fitness, a twenty one day devotional by Rick Warren.
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  Speaker 2: I don't know who Rick is, but Rick, you got
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  Speaker 2: a mean punch brother.
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  Speaker 4: Okay, all right, so I'm gonna read. I'm gonna read
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  Speaker 4: this to y'all. This was day five.
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  Speaker 2: It's called don't Worry Trust God.
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  Speaker 4: It says we can be the hero one day and
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  Speaker 4: a zero the next day, a multi millionaire one day,
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  Speaker 4: and bankrump the next day.
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  Speaker 2: When I say break rump, I got this retainer in.
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  Speaker 4: Y'all bankrupt the next No matter how much we make,
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  Speaker 4: no matter how much we say, finances are uncertain, so
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  Speaker 4: we worry. What does the Bible say about worrying over money? One,
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  Speaker 4: it's unreasonable. You're going to have fears in life. But
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  Speaker 4: there are better things to be scared of than a
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  Speaker 4: lack of finances. Even if you go bankrupt, it could
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  Speaker 4: be worse. Life is more than just the accumulation of things.
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  Speaker 4: Worry about what's truly important. Number Two, this one.
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  Speaker 2: God makes this. It's unnatural.
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  Speaker 4: Jesus reminds Us that animals and plants don't worry. Birds
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  Speaker 4: don't say it. I'd be better, I'd be better. Wait,
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  Speaker 4: I'm sorry, I'd better build a bigger nest for retirement.
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  Speaker 2: Only humans.
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  Speaker 4: Only human beings don't trust God to provide for them.
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  Speaker 4: Everything else in creation does.
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  Speaker 2: Three. It's unnecessary.
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  Speaker 4: Financial fears come from a misunderstanding about God and what
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  Speaker 4: he's promised to do for you. He's assumed the responsibility
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  Speaker 4: for your needs. He says, I'm your heavenly father, you're
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  Speaker 4: my child. I'm going to take care of your needs.
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  Speaker 4: We always get into trouble when we doubt the love
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  Speaker 4: of God. Worry is playing God.
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  Speaker 2: I'm gonna say that again. Worry is playing God.
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  Speaker 4: It's assuming responsibility for something that God has said he
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  Speaker 4: will take care of. Paul reminds us in Philippius four nineteen,
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  Speaker 4: and this same God who takes care of me will
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  Speaker 4: supply all your needs for his glorious richess, which have
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  Speaker 4: been given to us in Christ, Jesus. God knows what's
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  Speaker 4: going on in your life and in your wallet. He
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  Speaker 4: knows all your needs even before you x. He wants
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  Speaker 4: to help you out of a right.
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  Speaker 2: Chad goal what did you just hear me say? What?
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  Speaker 2: What did the Man of God point you.
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  Speaker 4: On that you're trying to be God, that we try
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  Speaker 4: to be God, which is what the Lord had already
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  Speaker 4: had already whooped me on, like a couple of years ago.
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  Speaker 4: Which what kind of let me down this journey of surrender,
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  Speaker 4: right because I was I was my provider, I was
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  Speaker 4: my source. I I'm just making sure like, hey, I'm good.
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  Speaker 4: I got depend on nobody and I was baby, I
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  Speaker 4: was good. Okay, what's your thought? I thought I was good?
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  Speaker 4: You thought you was good? Because if we really think
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  Speaker 4: about it, attaching it, we worry about. Money is so
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  Speaker 4: easy to worry about because it's something that we need.
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  Speaker 2: We need money like money is the currency of the world.
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  Speaker 2: Oh my god, money.
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  Speaker 4: See, money is the currency of the world, but not
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  Speaker 4: of God.
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  Speaker 2: Faith is the currency of Heaven.
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  Speaker 4: And so when girl, when he says it's unnatural to worry, I.
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  Speaker 2: Think that was so.
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  Speaker 4: That part was so profound to me because it says, I,
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  Speaker 4: if I'm truly a believer in Jesus Christ, if I'm
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  Speaker 4: truly identified as a kingdom citizen, Yah, It's almost like
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  Speaker 4: in the rule book, I just broke the rule of
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  Speaker 4: being a kingdom sin, I would be arrested right now.
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  Speaker 2: Oh y'all, this is so good to me.
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  Speaker 4: I would be if it was a law not to
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  Speaker 4: worry and I'm a kingdom citizen, I would be in jail.
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  Speaker 2: I would be under the jail, okay.
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  Speaker 4: And if we can be honest, it's worry is easy.
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  Speaker 4: It's easy to worry, but it's stressful to worry.
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  Speaker 2: Like it's easy to be like, Okay, I'm just gonna
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  Speaker 2: I'm just gonna think about.
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  Speaker 4: This, but it's it's but it's really in the sense
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  Speaker 4: of it's easy to lean because we're leaning to our flesh, right,
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  Speaker 4: But if we are spiritual beings and we're really leaning
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  Speaker 4: into that and we're feeding that, we have the opportunity
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  Speaker 4: to say, you know what, I don't have to worry
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  Speaker 4: about this because I don't own this anyway. The thing is,
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  Speaker 4: we're in a Western culture, r in a democracy, so
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  Speaker 4: we don't naturally sometimes have the concept of what a
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  Speaker 4: kingdom is because we've never been in the kingdom like that.
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  Speaker 2: Right.
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  Speaker 4: So, I had watched a couple of videos of doctor
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  Speaker 4: Mauls one row because his teaching is like kingdom, right,
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  Speaker 4: So coming from Mohammas. That was their structure, and so
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  Speaker 4: it just helped me visualize what the heavenly kingdom is
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  Speaker 4: supposed to look like. So, if you think about a kingdom,
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  Speaker 4: a king, a king owns everything in the kingdom, right,
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  Speaker 4: He owns the land, he owns the structures. I'm I
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  Speaker 4: want to say, the people too, in a sense. Right,
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  Speaker 4: and so with that means he, because he owns everything,
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  Speaker 4: he provides or lends out, say, lends out the things
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  Speaker 4: for the citizens to be able to provide for them,
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  Speaker 4: you know, to provide for them. So their they're homes, there,
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  Speaker 4: the money, all those things, the king.
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  Speaker 2: Provides for them.
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  Speaker 4: Right. So it's like, we don't understand that concept because
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  Speaker 4: I think we're in a culture.
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  Speaker 2: That's so innate to want our own things. And so
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  Speaker 2: I've just han't.
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  Speaker 4: I've been having to remind myself that I don't own
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  Speaker 4: none of this stuff like the king own it all,
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  Speaker 4: and he is literally entrusted things in my hand. And
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  Speaker 4: a part of this journey has really been me looking
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  Speaker 4: back over the things that he hasn't trusted in my
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  Speaker 4: hand that I've kind of mismanaged. Girl, you you in
• 20:36
  Speaker 4: this in this devotion, I've definitely mismanaged some uh, a
• 20:41
  Speaker 4: few things. You know, you're you're you're talking so good
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  Speaker 4: because literally, I think the day before or something like that,
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  Speaker 4: he talks about this is God's like everything belongs to God.
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  Speaker 2: I'm gonna say this again.
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  Speaker 4: Everything earththing belongs to God, even even the even the
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  Speaker 4: strand of hair that you pull on and you're saying, oh,
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  Speaker 4: it's great, that belong to God.
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  Speaker 2: You might want to ask God, can I pull this dow?
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  Speaker 2: Can I pull this?
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  Speaker 1: Like? No?
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  Speaker 4: But seriously, we need to think about it that way
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  Speaker 4: because the thing about it is you've been a business owner,
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  Speaker 4: right and if you think about it from the concept of, oh,
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  Speaker 4: I gotta worry about this, I gotta make sure I
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  Speaker 4: gotta oversee this. God is if we are in God
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  Speaker 4: and we are in the Kingdom, God is over the overseer.
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  Speaker 2: He is the owner here.
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  Speaker 4: That means when he's taking ownership, that means he's taken
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  Speaker 4: full responsibility. When they when I was well working at
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  Speaker 4: truck at enterprise, they'll be like certain things we couldn't
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  Speaker 4: do or they had rules and regulations.
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  Speaker 2: Why not just because of the customer.
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  Speaker 4: But the brand, It says the brand is the most
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  Speaker 4: valuable thing we own, y'all. I'm about to shout the
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  Speaker 4: way the Lord has given this to me. Right now,
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  Speaker 4: your brand is the the most powerful thing we own. Right,
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  Speaker 4: there was one of the core values. And so thinking
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  Speaker 4: about it, Chrissy Taylor is the is the CEO. Right,
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  Speaker 4: And so if I did something, what do customers normally
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  Speaker 4: say when when they come in us though, because they
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  Speaker 4: already know we the minions right, quote unquote minions, right,
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  Speaker 4: they know we're not the owner of the store. They
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  Speaker 4: I'm going to where the corporrporate management. They're going to corporate.
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  Speaker 4: So normally corporate addresses us about the issue somebody else
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  Speaker 4: has with us, right, And so what I'm well, the
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  Speaker 4: way the picture the Lord has given me is like,
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  Speaker 4: I'm corporate, I'm the owner, I run the business. I'm
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  Speaker 4: just allowing you to manage this portion. Yeah, And when
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  Speaker 4: I address you or something's coming up, like worry, worry
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  Speaker 4: gotta come to me. Worry really got to come address me,
• 22:48
  Speaker 4: and I gotta deal with the worry. But because you're
• 22:50
  Speaker 4: trying to be who I am in the situation, you're
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  Speaker 4: meeting worried before I can deal with it. Come on,
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  Speaker 4: You're you're meeting this space where I could have just
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  Speaker 4: nipped that in the bud and like, oh, go go
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  Speaker 4: going where you came from.
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  Speaker 2: Let me deal with this bad customer.
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  Speaker 4: I'm just saying, let me, let me deal with this
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  Speaker 4: bad customer, and I'm gonna deal with it in a
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  Speaker 4: way that you you be like, wow, I can come
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  Speaker 4: to you again.
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  Speaker 2: But because a lot of us has been.
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  Speaker 4: Been mismanaged by practical ownership. Are practical owners or practical
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  Speaker 4: business see this needs to talk to some of y'all.
• 23:27
  Speaker 4: Y'all need to teat y'all folks better. Because I don't
• 23:30
  Speaker 4: know how to deal with the people I treat God
• 23:33
  Speaker 4: like the people I treat God. I mismanaged the relationship
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  Speaker 4: with God and God is just like I've taken responsibility
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  Speaker 4: of the good, bad, and the ugly. When are you
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  Speaker 4: gonna give it back to me. I'm just I'm just
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  Speaker 4: letting you, Oh this is so good. I'm just letting
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  Speaker 4: you know the numbers. I'm just letting you see what's
• 23:51
  Speaker 4: going on. But I'm running the business.
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  Speaker 2: I don't need your help.
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  Speaker 4: I don't need I feel like a lot of times
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  Speaker 4: he'd be like, hey, sit down, please sit down, sit down,
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  Speaker 4: and I'm like, yo, your grandma, and I'm like, okay,
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  Speaker 4: so that's right, because I don't want to read. I'll
• 24:15
  Speaker 4: be stuttering so much and I'm I'm just worn out.
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  Speaker 4: I'm gonna give you this because you read so well.
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  Speaker 4: It's Matthew six, starting at twenty five verse twenty five Matthew,
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  Speaker 4: and this is where.
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  Speaker 2: That that devotional came from.
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  Speaker 4: And I'm backing up with scripture so so that you
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  Speaker 4: can hear, but also that you can go read for yourself.
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  Speaker 4: Don't don't just take I got the book in front
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  Speaker 4: of me, but I could be lying.
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  Speaker 2: To y'all, but I'm not. I might I might act
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  Speaker 2: like I don't read, I can't read, like I'm looking on.
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  Speaker 2: But I'll be like.
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  Speaker 4: Twenty five through just thirty four, go go go down
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  Speaker 4: read that thing.
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  Speaker 2: It says the cure for anxiety. Oh the rest of it. Okay,
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  Speaker 2: do you want the book? Okay?
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  Speaker 4: My eyeballs in today. Okay, So Matthew six and twenty five.
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  Speaker 4: That is why I tell you what version you start.
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  Speaker 4: I'm sorry, my apologies everybody. This is Matthew six and
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  Speaker 4: twenty five and the n L.
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  Speaker 2: T let mean you. She's y'all. I forgot y'all. She
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  Speaker 2: loved the n L t let me where you want
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  Speaker 2: me to be. Jes don't do well. I had got
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  Speaker 2: my real Bible.
• 25:38
  Speaker 4: I've been trying not to use my bible out Bible
• 25:41
  Speaker 4: because I get distracted with the social media.
• 25:43
  Speaker 2: No vacation.
• 25:45
  Speaker 4: They okay, but I'm I'm gonna get it out. You
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  Speaker 4: get started reading our cheduled read.
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  Speaker 2: Okay.
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  Speaker 4: That is why I tell you not to worry about
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  Speaker 4: everyday life, whether you have enough food and drink or
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  Speaker 4: enough clothes to wear. It's life more than food, and
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  Speaker 4: your body more than clothing. Look at the birds. Don't
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  Speaker 4: they plant? They don't plant or harvest or store food
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  Speaker 4: in barns for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren't
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  Speaker 4: you far more valuable to him than they are? Can
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  Speaker 4: can all your worries add a single moment to your life?
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  Speaker 4: And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies
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  Speaker 4: of the fields and how they grow. They don't work
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  Speaker 4: or make clothing their clothing. Yet Solomon, in all his glory,
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  Speaker 4: was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if
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  Speaker 4: God cares so wonderfully for wild wildflowers that are here
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  Speaker 4: today and thrown into the fire. Tomorrow, he will certainly
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  Speaker 4: care for you. Why do you have so little faith?
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  Speaker 4: So don't worry about these things saying what will I eat,
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  Speaker 4: what will I drink? What will I wear? These things
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  Speaker 4: dominate the thoughts of unbelievers. Come on, but your heavenly
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  Speaker 4: Father already knows your knee. Seek the Kingdom of God
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  Speaker 4: above all else, and live righteously, and he will give
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  Speaker 4: you everything that you need. So don't worry about tomorrow,
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  Speaker 4: for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is
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  Speaker 4: enough for today.
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  Speaker 2: Girl.
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  Speaker 4: I literally heard three things. Okay girl, the girl, this
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  Speaker 4: is gonna, this is gonna bless us he okay. So
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  Speaker 4: in the NLT version, verse twenty six, okay, I want
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  Speaker 4: y'all pay attention to this, it says, look at the birds.
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  Speaker 4: They don't plant or harvest or store food in barns,
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  Speaker 4: for your heavenly Father feeds them. Wash this line, and
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  Speaker 4: aren't you far more valuable to him than they are?
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  Speaker 4: I just heard the Lord say when he said that
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  Speaker 4: the reason why we worry because we don't know our value.
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  Speaker 2: It's true.
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  Speaker 4: The reason why we worry is because we lack the
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  Speaker 4: knowledge of who we are and I'm gonna keep you
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  Speaker 4: a buck with y'all. It's so easy to be like,
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  Speaker 4: I'm the limb up and not the borrow. I'm the
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  Speaker 4: head and not the tell amabu and not beneath.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, you're all about that height.
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  Speaker 4: But when you go home and you lay down in
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  Speaker 4: your bed, especially for a single person, when you're by yourself,
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  Speaker 4: oh my goodness, let's not even talk.
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  Speaker 2: Let's this go be on.
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  Speaker 4: I think about Kendall, my sister, she got three kids.
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  Speaker 4: You got to go home to them kids, and the
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  Speaker 4: kids say, Mama, I need, I need, I need, And
• 28:31
  Speaker 4: them kids got faith in you. So it's not just you.
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  Speaker 4: You you worried about other folks stuff. You worried about
• 28:36
  Speaker 4: your the responsibility that you have.
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  Speaker 2: Right.
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  Speaker 4: So, if I really understand my value in Christ, how
• 28:45
  Speaker 4: how I ooh Jesus, how I outrank every creep part
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  Speaker 4: of creation? How when when He created me, the only thing,
• 28:54
  Speaker 4: the biggest different, the difference that He gave me the
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  Speaker 4: outside of other creations like the birds and the trees
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  Speaker 4: and the land, was his breath. Do you think God
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  Speaker 4: would negate himself? Do you really think like I'm talking
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  Speaker 4: to meet you not being judgemental?
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  Speaker 2: I'm man it too.
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  Speaker 4: Do we really think that God would negate his own breath?
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  Speaker 4: That's how valuable, that's how valuable we are to him.
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  Speaker 4: He was like, I just need you to look around
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  Speaker 4: you and remind yourself I made you better than that,
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  Speaker 4: Thank you God. I need you to look around, look
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  Speaker 4: at your circumstances. Don't even just look at your circumstance, stances.
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  Speaker 2: Your worry.
• 29:40
  Speaker 4: Yeah, you're gonna you're gonna address you, gonna see that
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  Speaker 4: every day. But I need you to really look and
• 29:45
  Speaker 4: see the provision, Like I made this before you so
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  Speaker 4: you can walk into what I have for you already.
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  Speaker 4: I have so much how I ranked you as such
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  Speaker 4: a standard that nothing I can't even I can't even
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  Speaker 4: compare anything to you.
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  Speaker 1: You.
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  Speaker 4: I dressed them, and they're not. I don't like them
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  Speaker 4: as much as I like you. I don't love him
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  Speaker 4: as much as I love you. He's telling us that, no,
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  Speaker 4: like he's literally telling it. Sometimes people be like, oh God,
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  Speaker 4: God just loves the world. Jesus, Jesus loves No, we're
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  Speaker 4: talking about a God that's like, hey, Sam, you're worried
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  Speaker 4: about this, but I really dressed the little least. Damn.
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  Speaker 2: I really do this in real life for real. So
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  Speaker 2: that was the first thing I heard.
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  Speaker 4: Then once you scroll down, so now we ask when
• 30:33
  Speaker 4: it's talking about ask your self questions we going through
• 30:35
  Speaker 4: Bible study or now ask yourself the question what is
• 30:37
  Speaker 4: the cure of anxiety?
• 30:39
  Speaker 2: Did we get it? Did we get the cure of anxiety?
• 30:41
  Speaker 4: Yes, it says in thirty three seek the Kingdom of
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  Speaker 4: God above all else, and live righteously, and he will
• 30:51
  Speaker 4: give you everything you need. So the thing, the thing
• 30:54
  Speaker 4: about it is you have to ask are you seeking
• 30:57
  Speaker 4: the Kingdom of God? Then you have to ask are
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  Speaker 4: you no, let me go back? Are you seeking the
• 31:05
  Speaker 4: king of Kingdom of God above all else?
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  Speaker 2: That that Oh, I just got chills. I got my
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  Speaker 2: shun though.
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  Speaker 4: On okay, it says above all else, meaning what first
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  Speaker 4: it means before I do anything else, before I go
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  Speaker 4: to worry.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, thank you Lord, this is freeing me right now, y'all.
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  Speaker 2: Just don't understand, before I go.
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  Speaker 4: To worry, before I go to depression, before I go
• 31:36
  Speaker 4: to the familiarity of my emotions, I'm seeking God. I
• 31:44
  Speaker 4: just had a conversation with Ken on the other day
• 31:46
  Speaker 4: and I was telling her I was dealing I had
• 31:48
  Speaker 4: been dealing with anger.
• 31:49
  Speaker 2: Maybe I have to do an episode on that.
• 31:50
  Speaker 4: But I realized that the ease of me getting angry
• 31:55
  Speaker 4: is because I'm familiar with it, so because of my childhood,
• 31:58
  Speaker 4: but because of my love life things I've experienced.
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  Speaker 2: Y'all know.
• 32:01
  Speaker 4: I've been opening y'all about the abusive relationship that baby.
• 32:05
  Speaker 4: I mean, I can go to anger and snap quit
• 32:08
  Speaker 4: and had no problem with it. It's familiar, it's familiar.
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  Speaker 4: That's my safe space. And so now I am having
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  Speaker 4: to force myself out of my familiarity and get back
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  Speaker 4: to the normal Jesco who is in God. So now
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  Speaker 4: because I'm fighting that, the enemy keeps trying to present
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  Speaker 4: that that that anger even more, but how I respond
• 32:31
  Speaker 4: to it breaks the anger down right, So I don't
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  Speaker 4: really want that in my mind and my heart, I
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  Speaker 4: really don't want to be angry, but because my flesh
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  Speaker 4: is used to it and I'm comfortable and I can
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  Speaker 4: control what I think and that in that space, it's like, oh, well,
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  Speaker 4: I'm used to this and I'm comfortable here, but I'm
• 32:51
  Speaker 4: fearful of what the better looks like the other result.
• 32:56
  Speaker 4: It's the same difference with worry. If you're used to. Also,
• 32:59
  Speaker 4: I hear Lord say, worry has a control mechanism, so
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  Speaker 4: it tells it tells God that you don't trust him
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  Speaker 4: to be in control.
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  Speaker 2: It's just it's just.
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  Speaker 4: You don't trust God to be in control, which is
• 33:13
  Speaker 4: another form of pride. See, we bet we'll be out
• 33:17
  Speaker 4: here like, oh, well, he's prideful, he's stuck up.
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  Speaker 2: He's no, you ain't trusting God. God, excuse me. I
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  Speaker 2: don't know if y'all negroes or not, but you not
• 33:29
  Speaker 2: trusting God. It's a form of pride.
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  Speaker 4: It is because control says I don't need you now. Ownership,
• 33:40
  Speaker 4: taking owner this is God. You are revelating right now.
• 33:44
  Speaker 4: Taking ownership is taking responsibility for what's going on. But
• 33:49
  Speaker 4: taking control it's saying, Babe, I got this car, I'm
• 33:53
  Speaker 4: driving where I want to go. I'm doing what I
• 33:55
  Speaker 4: want to do. I'm submitting to what I want to
• 33:57
  Speaker 4: submit to. I don't know who this is for, but
• 33:59
  Speaker 4: I feel the Holy. I hear the Lord say that
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  Speaker 4: you are out of control because I'm not in it.
• 34:07
  Speaker 4: And so now i'm girl. I feel I'm trying this microphone. Okay, Church,
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  Speaker 4: So now we know, okay, the cure is the formula.
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  Speaker 2: We got to understand the formula.
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  Speaker 4: So now I seek God above all else, every above
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  Speaker 4: everything else right and y'all remember, and is a conjunction
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  Speaker 4: word that means together right and live righteously.
• 34:36
  Speaker 2: What does living righteously mean?
• 34:37
  Speaker 4: See after the Lord, follow God's heart, Obey godly faithfully
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  Speaker 4: according to God's instructions. Just oh be God.
• 34:46
  Speaker 2: Read that again.
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  Speaker 4: Living justly, honestly, faithfully according to God's words, according to
• 34:53
  Speaker 4: God's word. Does that mean that you always get it right? No?
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  Speaker 2: No, now is that excusing you? No, it's not.
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  Speaker 4: But the grace and mercy of God allows you to
• 35:05
  Speaker 4: live in righteousness. Is righteousness is not perfectionism, it's not.
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  Speaker 4: It's really a heart posture.
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  Speaker 2: Talk about it.
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  Speaker 4: It's really it's really the posture of your heart. Right,
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  Speaker 4: there's we're in a world of seeing. Yes, So living
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  Speaker 4: righteously doesn't mean that you will never ever sin ever
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  Speaker 4: again to lead this earth right, because you know, with people,
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  Speaker 4: the difference is a practicing sin. Right, It's like, yeah,
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  Speaker 4: I know I supposed to this, but I'm doing it anyway.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah I ain't not supposed to do this, but I'm.
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  Speaker 2: Doing it anyway. Versus you know what Lord, I'm surrendering.
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  Speaker 2: I messed up. I repent.
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  Speaker 4: Keep it moving, Lord, I'm stuck in this. I feel stuck.
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  Speaker 4: I don't feel like there's a way out come on,
• 35:48
  Speaker 4: Like if we if we can't be real with God.
• 35:50
  Speaker 4: Somebody ain't really telling your business.
• 35:53
  Speaker 2: Because you already know because.
• 35:58
  Speaker 4: He knows that's the ain't nothing secret, It's really not.
• 36:02
  Speaker 4: And so what I'm learning even in this thing. I
• 36:04
  Speaker 4: was talking to police the other day. She was like,
• 36:07
  Speaker 4: sul I love her.
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  Speaker 2: She was like out to Alicia.
• 36:11
  Speaker 4: She was like, girl, I be real with God like
• 36:15
  Speaker 4: them these times I praysident. I was like, God, I
• 36:17
  Speaker 4: know I'm probably I might do it again, God, but
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  Speaker 4: I need you forgive me right now.
• 36:21
  Speaker 2: Like she was like, I'm so fed up with being fake.
• 36:25
  Speaker 4: With the Lord right And I think the reason why
• 36:27
  Speaker 4: we hold on to worry is because we think because
• 36:30
  Speaker 4: we started in control, that we have.
• 36:32
  Speaker 2: To keep it. Yeah.
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  Speaker 4: Oh God, But I pray right now, even in this
• 36:37
  Speaker 4: moment that all of us that are are battling with control,
• 36:41
  Speaker 4: that word keeps coming up, battling with the control mechanisms
• 36:45
  Speaker 4: because of what broke your heart. I'm here to tell
• 36:48
  Speaker 4: you that God is a heart mender. And if you
• 36:51
  Speaker 4: give God the opportunity to me and what has been broken,
• 36:55
  Speaker 4: you will also see that he's been He's been there
• 36:58
  Speaker 4: all along waiting for you to just release control to
• 37:01
  Speaker 4: him and just take a ride.
• 37:02
  Speaker 2: My God, I just I just breathed.
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  Speaker 4: I just pray right now that the control mechanisms and
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  Speaker 4: the pride in that it's just broken off your life
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  Speaker 4: because I really see, thank you, Holy Spirit. I really
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  Speaker 4: see in the spirit that some of us are choking
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  Speaker 4: ourselves to death being in control.
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  Speaker 2: Like you're literally on your.
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  Speaker 4: Last Oh my God, hallelujah, You're really on your last,
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  Speaker 4: not leg, but your on Like it's like.
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  Speaker 2: It's suffocating you.
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  Speaker 4: Like the enemy is like, oh yeah, keep going to control,
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  Speaker 4: keep trying to fight me by yourself, keeping keeping leaning
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  Speaker 4: on your own understanding. But I hear the Lord say,
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  Speaker 4: is I want you to breathe again. I don't just
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  Speaker 4: want you to breathe out of your breath. I don't
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  Speaker 4: want you to just breathe out of your supply, thank you,
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  Speaker 4: Holy Spirit. But I want you to breathe out the
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  Speaker 4: breath that I provided for you. Thank you only Ghost,
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  Speaker 4: because he provided that's the first gift. Thank you, Holy
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  Speaker 4: spirit that he gave us. Why wouldn't he wants you
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  Speaker 4: to expect and on that. Why wouldn't he want you
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  Speaker 4: to live? Why would he want you to be in control?
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  Speaker 4: Why would he want you to worry?
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  Speaker 2: He literally, he literally wants us back to Eden.
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  Speaker 4: There's a song that calls that say, let's get back
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  Speaker 4: to Eden, get on top of the word.
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  Speaker 2: I love that song. I love that song. It was
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  Speaker 2: that Riggae Diller.
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  Speaker 4: Now I think we need to focus on that. God,
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  Speaker 4: how can I get back to Eden?
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  Speaker 2: Letting me be who I am? When we when we
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  Speaker 2: when we.
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  Speaker 4: Present ourselves, uh just laugh because it's almost like we
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  Speaker 4: present ourselves as God to these things, and they laugh
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  Speaker 4: at us because they've outlived us. Like worry, worry was
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  Speaker 4: here before you got here. Worry was here before you
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  Speaker 4: got here. Depression was here before you got here. Control
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  Speaker 4: was here before you got here. Who you think managed it,
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  Speaker 4: who you think oversees it. It's just if we really
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  Speaker 4: take a time, our time, and just pull ourselves back
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  Speaker 4: for a moment and just really consider what it actually is,
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  Speaker 4: we'll be like, you know what, fam, You're right, God,
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  Speaker 4: You're right. I'm I've been into and too much of
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  Speaker 4: myself to realize who you are.
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  Speaker 2: In this situation.
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  Speaker 4: You know, the to sometimes to deal with the thing,
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  Speaker 4: you have to deal with the root over thing. And honestly,
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  Speaker 4: the root of control is fear, girl, get into it.
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  Speaker 4: The root of control is fear. I'm saying this because'm
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  Speaker 4: talking about myself.
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  Speaker 2: Okay. If I think.
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  Speaker 4: About the spaces that I need, I need to feel
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  Speaker 4: like I need controlling, it's because I fear of not
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  Speaker 4: having control. It's because I fear that I'll be dropped
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  Speaker 4: in those spaces. I fear that I'll be disappointed in
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  Speaker 4: those spaces. So because I've been disappointed or let down
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  Speaker 4: by myself for other people, it's hard for me to
• 39:49
  Speaker 4: imagine an invisible.
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  Speaker 2: Father if you don't know your father, if you.
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  Speaker 4: Have a certain picture or relationship with the earthly father,
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  Speaker 4: it's hard sometimes to have a relationship with her heavenly
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  Speaker 4: father if you don't allow him to kind of go
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  Speaker 4: in and heal those spaces. Right.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, So, along this journey, as it.
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  Speaker 4: Has, as Coach d said in her episode, as the
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  Speaker 4: yes has looked like a decrease, it's really been an
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  Speaker 4: upgrade because he's literally been like breaking those things off
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  Speaker 4: of my out of my heart, you know what I'm saying,
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  Speaker 4: and really helped me to see, hey, I'm not them.
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  Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying, Like you can trust me,
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  Speaker 4: like I know I know, I know your purpose, I
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  Speaker 4: know why you're here, and I know the things that
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  Speaker 4: you've gone through. I know the things you're gonna be
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  Speaker 4: going through. So I just need you to lean in.
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  Speaker 4: And as I'm been leaning in, I'm I'm seeing myself
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  Speaker 4: a little bit more and it ain't and I literally
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  Speaker 4: this morning this is so crazy because literally this morning I.
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  Speaker 2: Said, dang, Lord, I really got control issues. I really
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  Speaker 2: got control issues.
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  Speaker 4: And it's and it's and it's very micro like if
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  Speaker 4: you if you're not careful, it'll sneak up like oh,
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  Speaker 4: you know, I'm just being cautious, but no, you really
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  Speaker 4: just don't trust in that space. And you can and
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  Speaker 4: I and there's been plenty of times I said, you
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  Speaker 4: know the Lord, I repent because I really just don't
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  Speaker 4: trust you in this space.
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  Speaker 2: I really just don't trust you in this space.
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  Speaker 4: And then say, teach me how to all absolutely in
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  Speaker 4: this space. That's the that's the that's the solution to
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  Speaker 4: It's like, Okay, now I've confessed where I am. But God,
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  Speaker 4: I don't know how to get out of it. I
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  Speaker 4: don't know another way. And then you just show me
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  Speaker 4: another way. And when God shows you another way and
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  Speaker 4: he wants you to be obedient, like as you say
• 41:31
  Speaker 4: that said in Coach Coach D's episode, which I'll y'all
• 41:34
  Speaker 4: loved and enjoyed. Sometimes it's with things that are uncomfortable
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  Speaker 4: because because I deal with other things outside of worry, right,
• 41:44
  Speaker 4: worrying will bring up the fact that I deal with
• 41:46
  Speaker 4: rejection issues like I battle with rejection.
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  Speaker 2: So any sign of rejection.
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  Speaker 4: Like little friends that like to bring their little friends
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  Speaker 4: to the to the barbecue, and it's sign of I
• 41:55
  Speaker 4: ain't bringing nothing, but they gonna bring their friends the
• 41:57
  Speaker 4: dog nothing, the dog won't pod. It's called just ask,
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  Speaker 4: and I'm like, God, I can't ask. I'm scared to ask.
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  Speaker 2: Yes, hypocrites oxy mo, you know, like in real life.
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  Speaker 4: So what one spirit it brings up, it has multiple
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  Speaker 4: spirits attached to it, and so you might feel like
• 42:25
  Speaker 4: you're overwhelmed. But when you look at the thing, you say, God,
• 42:29
  Speaker 4: I give you worry. You really say, God, I give
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  Speaker 4: you this portion of rejection that I'm dealing with God.
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  Speaker 4: I give you this portion of pride that I deal
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  Speaker 4: with because it's I would say it's a portion because
• 42:38
  Speaker 4: it's one area. Because if I give God my trust
• 42:42
  Speaker 4: in financial, it's gonna be easy for me to give
• 42:44
  Speaker 4: him trust in another area. But it's still that area
• 42:47
  Speaker 4: still has to be dealt with. So I hear, I
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  Speaker 4: hear the Lord say this, we are working, yes, and
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  Speaker 4: give yourself the freedom and the permission yes to be
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  Speaker 4: worked on. Because child, when I tell you this season
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  Speaker 4: a resurrect shut, let me tell you, huh, it feels
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  Speaker 4: like the most disrespectful thing I'm going.
• 43:17
  Speaker 2: It feels like the the most disrespectful thing. I was like, God,
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  Speaker 2: you're killing me. That's the point yesca. You have to
• 43:24
  Speaker 2: die to live.
• 43:25
  Speaker 4: And this is the crazy thing or not crazy the
• 43:29
  Speaker 4: I'm learning some things in this mentorship group I'm in.
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  Speaker 4: And it's a process, right. So there's like each level
• 43:34
  Speaker 4: that we go to, each each dimension, each space that
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  Speaker 4: the God is calling us into. It's the same process.
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  Speaker 4: He's gonna call you into that space. You can be like, oh,
• 43:42
  Speaker 4: this space, then he gonna be like, oh, but there's
• 43:44
  Speaker 4: some things that that's sitting there right there, that they
• 43:47
  Speaker 4: can't go in this space. They was all right down here,
• 43:49
  Speaker 4: but up here there ain't gonna go. So then he
• 43:51
  Speaker 4: started me like that's how I feel like.
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  Speaker 2: You'd be like.
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  Speaker 4: Like, oh, this is so uncomfortable. It doesn't feel good,
• 43:59
  Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying. But once the process is
• 44:02
  Speaker 4: done and you're beginning to walk in that space, she'd
• 44:04
  Speaker 4: be like, oh, okay, yeah, I'm good. And he'd be like, hey, hey,
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  Speaker 4: I got some more for you, and you'd be like ah.
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  Speaker 2: And the process starts all over again daily.
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  Speaker 4: That's why it's a daily process of surrendering, a daily
• 44:15
  Speaker 4: process of dying to yourself, a daily process of repenting,
• 44:20
  Speaker 4: like I repent for stuff like I'll be driving and
• 44:23
  Speaker 4: people do stuff.
• 44:24
  Speaker 2: So I've gotten delivered from curse words.
• 44:26
  Speaker 4: But I said yourself, and I'm like, Holy Spirit, I'm sorry,
• 44:29
  Speaker 4: she's not ugly.
• 44:29
  Speaker 2: I don't even know that, lady, she's not ugly.
• 44:32
  Speaker 4: Bless her, well, I need to ask. I'm in the
• 44:36
  Speaker 4: process of being delivered from cuss words. The Lord got
• 44:38
  Speaker 4: on me and talking about file words, and I said, God,
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  Speaker 4: I'm gonna work on it. Because the driving, the driving
• 44:46
  Speaker 4: of the raging is real. It's where we don't come
• 44:49
  Speaker 4: to you guys as perfect Christians.
• 44:51
  Speaker 2: We're not.
• 44:52
  Speaker 4: We're developing in our in our in our fellowship with
• 44:56
  Speaker 4: God and our submission to God. Like when you think
• 45:00
  Speaker 4: of really submission is going under the mission, right, But
• 45:04
  Speaker 4: if I think about it, some of oh, this is
• 45:06
  Speaker 4: so good when some of us think about it as drowning, right,
• 45:11
  Speaker 4: what I'm submerging right when I think about I can't
• 45:14
  Speaker 4: help but to think about water. You're going under, right,
• 45:18
  Speaker 4: But it's you know, but it's not that I wouldn't
• 45:21
  Speaker 4: I wouldn't do it under like that.
• 45:23
  Speaker 2: But some of us think that we're about to drown.
• 45:25
  Speaker 2: And I really.
• 45:26
  Speaker 4: Feel like that The Lord has some different things for
• 45:30
  Speaker 4: our community, especially with our Yes three sixty five mission,
• 45:34
  Speaker 4: Like the yes breaks down our no to God every day.
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  Speaker 4: So when we're intentional about our yess, when we say
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  Speaker 4: you know what, God, I don't even know what today bring,
• 45:42
  Speaker 4: but you do, so I give you my yes. That's
• 45:44
  Speaker 4: a trust move, right God. I want breakfast today. I
• 45:49
  Speaker 4: didn't have breakfast all week? Can I get breakfast today?
• 45:53
  Speaker 4: Can we eat something? I'm to that point, like God,
• 45:58
  Speaker 4: we need food and a refrigerator.
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  Speaker 2: Need some food? On how we gonna get it, but
• 46:04
  Speaker 2: we need food, food, getting refrigerator.
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  Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying, Like seeing God and just
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  Speaker 4: testing him in the things that you think he don't
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  Speaker 4: care about.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, that's what for me.
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  Speaker 4: I've definitely believing it leaning into Matthew six and thirty
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  Speaker 4: three because for a long time, like I've been very grateful,
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  Speaker 4: like the delight that I've built, I'm very grateful that
• 46:26
  Speaker 4: the God's mercy and his goodness in his favorite has
• 46:29
  Speaker 4: followed me and I've been able to do some great things.
• 46:32
  Speaker 2: Right.
• 46:32
  Speaker 4: Yeah, So in this but I can't say that I
• 46:34
  Speaker 4: was like, Oh Lord, is this what you want me
• 46:36
  Speaker 4: to do with is?
• 46:37
  Speaker 2: No, that's not it. I had an idea and I
• 46:38
  Speaker 2: went with it and just boom.
• 46:39
  Speaker 4: Right. So in this season, I'm learning to see God
• 46:42
  Speaker 4: for what his desire is for the thing when there's
• 46:44
  Speaker 4: my gifts, my talents, relationships, like Lord, what is this
• 46:47
  Speaker 4: supposed to look like? Even down to like you said, like,
• 46:50
  Speaker 4: so what we were in today?
• 46:51
  Speaker 2: Holy Spirit? What are we doing today? Holy Spirit?
• 46:53
  Speaker 4: Should I sit here? Should I sit there? And that's
• 46:55
  Speaker 4: that's new for me. So I have to be very
• 46:57
  Speaker 4: very intentional about asking and when they say seek the Kingdom,
• 47:00
  Speaker 4: it's not. I mean, it can be something super deep,
• 47:02
  Speaker 4: but it's just a matter of Hey, I just got this,
• 47:05
  Speaker 4: this business idea just came to me. What do you
• 47:07
  Speaker 4: want me to do with it? What are we doing this?
• 47:10
  Speaker 4: What do you want to see me do with this?
• 47:12
  Speaker 4: What do you want to see that in earth?
• 47:13
  Speaker 2: Hey?
• 47:13
  Speaker 4: Lord, I just met this young lady. She seems like
• 47:16
  Speaker 4: a real good person. What kind of connection is this?
• 47:19
  Speaker 4: And just really asking him that's seeking, asking him what
• 47:23
  Speaker 4: his desire and his will is for these things, you
• 47:25
  Speaker 4: know what I'm saying. And I think that's a part
• 47:28
  Speaker 4: of the not worrying, Like you can feel it come
• 47:30
  Speaker 4: up and he's be like, Okay, Lord, I'm beginning to
• 47:35
  Speaker 4: worry about this thing, and I don't want to.
• 47:36
  Speaker 2: I'm just gonna lay this right here at your feet.
• 47:39
  Speaker 4: And I'm gonna leave it right here, leave believe it
• 47:42
  Speaker 4: and don't pick it up, okay, because we were so good, Like,
• 47:45
  Speaker 4: oh Lord Jesus have all my stuff in the years,
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  Speaker 4: Just gonna you know what I think I can handle
• 47:51
  Speaker 4: right now?
• 47:52
  Speaker 2: You know what, Let me let me call Keisha to
• 47:54
  Speaker 2: help me on it.
• 47:55
  Speaker 4: Yeah, but I almost gonna say this one was one
• 47:57
  Speaker 4: last thing And I remember this because when we were
• 48:00
  Speaker 4: at Anti PAMs sitting, we were sitting on the beach.
• 48:03
  Speaker 2: We was just sitting there, just chilling.
• 48:05
  Speaker 4: And to see the birds, right, the birds that was flying,
• 48:09
  Speaker 4: you know, no care in the world. They wouldn't like, hey,
• 48:11
  Speaker 4: I don't know if I'm gonna make it or not.
• 48:12
  Speaker 4: They just flying because that's just what they do.
• 48:14
  Speaker 2: Right. Then they would scoop down in the water and.
• 48:17
  Speaker 4: Pick up a fish and going by their business, right,
• 48:20
  Speaker 4: And I remember you saying like they didn't even have
• 48:24
  Speaker 4: to worry necessarily about if the fish was gonna be
• 48:26
  Speaker 4: there or not, because it was there, because that's just
• 48:30
  Speaker 4: naturally how God provides. Right, It's like I'm scooping down here,
• 48:33
  Speaker 4: it's some fishing the water.
• 48:34
  Speaker 2: I know I'm gonna be provided for.
• 48:36
  Speaker 4: And just how beautiful you know, this journey would be
• 48:39
  Speaker 4: if we could just rely on Him like that.
• 48:41
  Speaker 2: Yeah, you know what I'm saying.
• 48:42
  Speaker 4: So this was good for This was good for me
• 48:44
  Speaker 4: because literally this morning I laid there and I was
• 48:46
  Speaker 4: talking all the spirit. I said, I have a control
• 48:49
  Speaker 4: issue literally this morning, and it's very micro.
• 48:53
  Speaker 2: It's very micro.
• 48:55
  Speaker 4: I just heard you say when you was showing talk
• 48:58
  Speaker 4: about the birds going to the It said you. The
• 49:00
  Speaker 4: birds went to the water, and they found the fish.
• 49:04
  Speaker 4: Our issue is that some of us are not in
• 49:07
  Speaker 4: the place that God wants to provide the provision, and so.
• 49:11
  Speaker 2: We have to get in in the right place.
• 49:14
  Speaker 4: We have to be in the right posture to receive
• 49:17
  Speaker 4: the promise right and sometimes we make the promise so big.
• 49:21
  Speaker 4: Sometimes the promises are the promises of today that your
• 49:25
  Speaker 4: needs will be meant.
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  Speaker 2: All right. The bird knew to where to go to
• 49:30
  Speaker 2: get what he needed. He knew. He didn't go on
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  Speaker 2: the tree. He did not go on.
• 49:36
  Speaker 4: He w that's what God provided him in. So don't
• 49:40
  Speaker 4: even be afraid of the waters that God is trying
• 49:42
  Speaker 4: to tell you to go get.
• 49:42
  Speaker 2: Your fish from.
• 49:44
  Speaker 4: So I just heard that it's like this settled. So y'all,
• 49:48
  Speaker 4: y'all know we can go all day with the word.
• 49:50
  Speaker 4: We got a whole vialble to go through. All right,
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