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#82 Grieving, Loss, and Christmas · Deep-Grace Diving with Tim Wright and Terey Summers

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SPEAKER_02: I have a vivid memory when I was a kid
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our Christmas Eve was fairly packed partly because my grandpa
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was a pastor and we
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would have to build everything around him speaking at the 11
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o'clock service at
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night and so we would sometimes we would go over to our church
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because my grandpa
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was at a different church we would go to our church for
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Christmas Eve and early
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SPEAKER_02: Christmas Eve
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then we would go over to my um uncle al's house uncle al and
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aunt elsie and the
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reason why i remember her house with two reasons one she had
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this beautiful
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christmas tree always had red beautiful red balls on it and red
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lights and ours
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SPEAKER_02: always was just either multicolored or white
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第二,她是 famous for her baked beans,所以那一直就 propelled us into
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christmas eve,如果你 catch
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and then we would sing christmas carols together and coming
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from a musical family
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that was always pretty good uncle al died and i i can remember
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watching aunt marie
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and i'm a pretty little kid still just sitting there it's in
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her house and just
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SPEAKER_02: this sort of this look of of both
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joy and yet the tears just coming because she missed her
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husband so so very much
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and that's a story that's told over and over and over again
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every year around the
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holidays tough time of year especially not to discount the
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second third and fourth
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but the first one in particular just trying to navigate your
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way through that sense
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SPEAKER_02: of loss and
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I've done a couple of funerals this year so I know that these
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families will be
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going through their all those holidays for the first time and
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now we're in
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Christmas and you know Christmas lasts at least a month now if
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not longer and so
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there's a lot of memories that are stirred over that course of
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time and then you
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SPEAKER_02: get to Christmas Eve you get to Christmas Day
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We thought we'd talk about it in part because Terry has been
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through this journey a
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SPEAKER_02: few times and articulates so well for us what it's like,
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SPEAKER_02: what you do,
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SPEAKER_02: how you get through it,
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SPEAKER_02: how you don't get through it.
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Lost her husband Jimmy several years ago and then Jonathan not
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too long ago.
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and um and terry sent us a text which i won't read for you but
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she did say there
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are a number of women who've lost spouses who have sort of
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connected with her and
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and uh so this is a important for her as well uh terry let's
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just uh we don't
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necessarily need to go back to um your first christmas without
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jimmy but you can if
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you want but i know jonathan's your first christmas without
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jonathan is probably
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SPEAKER_02: fresher
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what was that because you're a christmas person and you love
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this holiday like the
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rest of us yeah um what was that like was it was last year the
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first one or two
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years yeah last year was the first but i do want to hearken
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just back a little bit
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and just say that there was a setting uh because i worked with
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you in that first
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christmas without uh following jimmy's death and it was it was
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a it was those were
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SPEAKER_00: difficult weeks yes but there was
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SPEAKER_00: 感谢观看,感谢观看
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very different than the first year and I think that there's a
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lot of even research
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around it I hear a lot of widows share that because there's
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like a settling in that
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SPEAKER_00: almost you can't
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when I say numbness I don't mean that I didn't feel anything
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because I felt
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everything last year and I couldn't believe it but there is
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this thawing out and a
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reality that sets in in year two no matter where that falls in
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line up with the
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SPEAKER_00: holidays that says yeah this is it
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SPEAKER_00: 这个是这个是这个是这个是这个是这个是这个是这个是这个是这个是这个是这个是
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i i'm so tickled that you did ask meto talk about it becausefor
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myselfi know you
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guys knowboth of youthat i am a verbalprocessorand you've been
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on the other end of
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SPEAKER_00: that many timesbut it does helpme to talk about itfor my own sakebut
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I don't think everyone else many are not verbal processors and
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I hear somebody else
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say what you're feeling and thinking is for myself especially
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this past it was just
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16 months of few days ago so in this past year plus to read
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something that someone
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else said before I did or didn't put the words to is like oh
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you know so um
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I was at you're right tim i'm right there what that's one of
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the things beautiful
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things you and i have in common is the love for christmas also
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the whole fall for
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me i grew up in southern california the weather never changed
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there just like it
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really doesn't change hereand i'm as annoyed as you think i am
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but um i loved the
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SPEAKER_00: fall and so i started feeling this
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SPEAKER_00: 我认识了我认识了我认识了
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this went back and forth and I remember even where I was
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standing out probably
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setting a pumpkin out on my front patio is what I believe but I
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feel like I had the
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conclusion that the me that always was before Jonathan then
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became married to
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SPEAKER_00: Jonathan and the me that always was was now shared with him
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so as when that person you share your life with leaves there's
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that space that they
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occupied that is still also part of you and that's where the
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crux came and i was
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think i was telling you tim that when i when i got to the point
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of starting to
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decorate for christmas which is was a little bit before
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thanksgiving um i just
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SPEAKER_00: stood in my kitchen and thought what am i doing
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what is this how do i have both and and and being a christ
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follower there's a
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celebration within me that i will never really be able to deny
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and that's a joy but
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as a as as just my basic humanness i love christmas i love it
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for all the things
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SPEAKER_00: obviously the birth but then i really don't like it because
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the person I shared that withis not hereand I just like I said
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I stood in my
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SPEAKER_00: kitchenand I felt like there's got to be room for both
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I think I was wrestling like the visual I had in my head is
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that the Terry before
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that always loved Christmas was elbowing the grief out of the
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way and then the
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sorrow was elbowing Terry back out of the way and it was just
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this thing so I I
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SPEAKER_00: asked God help me understand how to expand my heart
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and I'm practicing that I don't like maybe we should come back
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next year and I can
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tell you how it went but I um I just am trying to allow for
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both of them and they
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and it isn't painless so the my joy for Christmas and my joy
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for the holiday and my
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SPEAKER_00: joy for the season
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doesn't have pain in it really in and of itself it's not until
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it bumps up against
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my sorrow and missing Jonathan so I think I'm just trying to
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practice and it is a
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practice acknowledging both and letting both be there which is
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really weird because
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SPEAKER_00: it's this roller coaster it's what you described about your aunt
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SPEAKER_00: that you sensed joy but tears were flowing.
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SPEAKER_00: And so I think,
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SPEAKER_00: and I know you know this,
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I've said this way back when when you and I first met and I
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used to do some
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SPEAKER_00: performing initially when I came to Community Church of Joy,
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SPEAKER_00: I would always share back then that I knew instinctively that pain,
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SPEAKER_00: 明天天天天天
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um i'm finishing up inside and jonathan loved the decorations
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but he was all for me
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doing them so that's when you're done um yeah but he loved them
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like a little kid
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SPEAKER_00: would and just childlike
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I think I probably you know overdid even for him to in his past
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and history but one
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thing he did do is we had a magnetized we have I have a
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magnetized advent calendar
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SPEAKER_00: and it was always his role
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挺 easy to pick up a little ornament to the tree but it was his
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thing and I made
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myself do that last year and most of the time not to be graphic
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but I felt like I
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was just going to throw up it was sorrow and the wrenching so I
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did that this year
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SPEAKER_00: and I thought I'm still here I'm still here and
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SPEAKER_00: who I always was has been stretched with his loss so why not
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so um that's the bulk of where i'm at right now and you know
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we're relatively early
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in the season but i mean if you include include thanksgiving
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and all so it's i'm
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i'm just trying to practice allowing both to to to show up
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there are as many
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SPEAKER_02: different ways to grieve as there are people
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SPEAKER_02: And so there's no one right or wrong way to grieve.
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SPEAKER_02: And I think it's important for people to hear that.
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SPEAKER_02: I know there are some people,
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SPEAKER_02: for example,
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SPEAKER_02: in the holiday season,
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SPEAKER_02: especially their first time around,
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SPEAKER_02: they choose not to do what they used to do.
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SPEAKER_02: 嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯
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there you think you're okay and then all of a sudden bam it
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just hits you out of
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nowhere um and and i know you've been uh getting some uh help
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the counselor and so
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on as well which is really important for you so we're not
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making terry the model
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SPEAKER_02: right we're just listening to one story of how someone grieved
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yes because I love them you know I think that was what drove me
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but they this year
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Thanksgiving last year I did pull away from things that I had
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normally done for
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Thanksgiving and even and I spent Christmas Eve and most of
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Christmas Day by myself
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SPEAKER_00: last year
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SPEAKER_00: 但那是所有我可以带自己去做我感受了我感受了我感受了我感受了我感受了
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SPEAKER_00: I guess I would just say to really listen and be fair,
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SPEAKER_00: you know,
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SPEAKER_00: because there aren't any you should as why don't choose,
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SPEAKER_00: you know,
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SPEAKER_00: like there's just being as honest and as kind to yourself as possible.
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And last year,
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I mean,
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it was searing pain to sit by myself on Christmas Eve.
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SPEAKER_00: But it was really the...
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SPEAKER_00: 最最最最最最最最最
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to step out of the lane and other than last year and and take
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on some new things
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new ways of doing things and though that too was hard it was
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like okay i am i'm
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SPEAKER_00: still here on the drive home after being in three different locations
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on thanksgiving and and being invited into lovely scenarios and
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and one of which
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was my um brother's family which i always spent time with but
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two others i wrote on
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SPEAKER_00: the drive home it was a big exhale like you did it you did something
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knew and it was hard but there was joy in the middle of it like
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I really dug some
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of the choices that I made they were radically one was
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radically different I went
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to a church meal for Thanksgiving and I did break down there a
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little bit while I
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SPEAKER_00: was fixing my coffee because I thought how did I get here
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I want while they're waiting like how did I get here my back
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was to the rest of the
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room and they're all seated at round tables at a little church
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that I attend and
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it's not a little church but and I just stood there and thought
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he is not here
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SPEAKER_00: having a coffee with me and it was
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I let myself cry I thought this is the longest I've ever
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stirred a coffee in my
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SPEAKER_00: life but I'm not turning around until I'm done crying but
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Terry you're talking about of course the ultimate loss a spouse
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a partner many of
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us were a certain age where we've lost parents grandparents
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along the way and we
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think of them and and and there are moments where for me you
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know once in a while
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doesn't happen every year but every once in a while I think I
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would have been cool
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SPEAKER_02: if right
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my parents had seen this or my grandparents had been here for
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this moment yeah
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there's also the loss that people experience at christmas when
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uh it may be that uh
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SPEAKER_02: the kids have grown
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and now you've got kids and their kids um for a little older
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audience their kids
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and your your kids and your grandkids uh some might be in texas
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some might be in
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minnesota some might be over in europe right and and those
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family christmases that
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you value so highly they have to change you you have this sense
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of loss because the
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kids aren't there anymore maybe this is the year you couldn't
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do with the grandkids
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SPEAKER_02: or
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maybe there are certain health things that happen we've had
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that with Jan with her
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cancer four years ago where she just didn't have the stamina to
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do all the things
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SPEAKER_02: that we used to do and there's a kind of a loss I
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SPEAKER_02: 每年在 Christmastime,
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Jan and I would go out every night and walk and see the
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Christmas lights in our
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SPEAKER_02: neighborhood.
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SPEAKER_02: We'd take the dogs out.
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SPEAKER_02: I'm doing that myself, right?
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So there's always just this little bit of loss that we all
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experience where things
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SPEAKER_02: aren't quite what they were,
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SPEAKER_01: right?
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SPEAKER_02: John, you're still a young man, but you've moved, right?
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SPEAKER_02: And you've moved a lot and had your family stuff upturned?
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for sure yeah i mean i i appreciate so much terry um launching
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us on this topic
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with such a tender place in her heart i am super thankful i
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think it's something
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that that if it hasn't happened it will happen to everybody and
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it may not be a
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SPEAKER_03: spouse but it'll be someone else
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and and uh there will be those times when you will think and i
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just want to say
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this so matter of factly because we danced around this a little
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bit if in your
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grief you are uh working your way through the christmas holiday
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season without the
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SPEAKER_03: usual splendor and joy and reverence of
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of past holiday seasons God doesn't love you less for that like
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you're not
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disappointed in in your you know in your festivity meter
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whatever that is and in
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fact he's walking with you every step of the way and my my
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question for you and for
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SPEAKER_03: both of you is knowing that this really applies to everybody
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what are a couple of helpful or even unhelpful ways if we know
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people that are
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walking through this first Christmas or this second Christmas
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that we can be
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supportive or say because it is a hard area for friends as well
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how do I how do I
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help without being nosy what do I say without being you know
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critical or what so
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what are a couple of helpful or even unhelpful ways that we
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should keep in mind
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SPEAKER_02: That's a great question.
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SPEAKER_02: I'm going to let Terry answer first.
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SPEAKER_00: It is a great question.
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SPEAKER_00: And early on with the loss of Jonathan and as present as I was,
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I did think about people around me and how they were maybe
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struggling to relate to
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SPEAKER_00: me or to
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but what came to my mind was the word prayer for me obviously
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if someone's praying
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for me that's about as good as it gets but the word presence
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like the ministry of
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presence and presence does not it isn't narrowly defined as to
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sitting across from
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SPEAKER_00: me and holding my hands in my house it is a text message
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I think less words more ways to show presence because words
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were kind of shooting
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in the dark and we don't really have a basis even if we've been
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through something
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similar it's still another person hearkening back to what Tim
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said earlier as many
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SPEAKER_00: ways to grieve as there are people so as a matter of fact today
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SPEAKER_00: 一位一位朋友在我的社群中,就在我社群中,你不需要回答,没有想法,
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I'm thinking about you and you are in capital letters loved and
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I thought she just
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that bullseye like like there there is no expectation really
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not from me because I
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know that there aren't any real words you know what I mean
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there's nothing that can
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SPEAKER_00: really
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但是那些信息,我们在社交社会,我们在社交社会,他们接到我们的信息,甚至说,你不需要回答应,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息,我认为这些信息
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SPEAKER_00: 你不想去吃飯吃飯吃飯吃飯吃飯吃飯吃飯吃飯吃飯吃飯
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今天是非常棒的,而且它做了我,我认识,它做了我的心意,它做了我的心意,它做了我的心意,它做了我的心意,但它做了我的心意,它做了我的心意,但它做了我的心意,它做了我的心意,它做了我的心意,它做了我的心意
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but i i also feel and i don't mean to diminish this to
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something so this is for the
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individual to something as simple as this but music does
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amazing things and i've
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been playing this doesn't answer your question directly john
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but i've been playing
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SPEAKER_00: christmas music um and uh
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SPEAKER_00: 就是这个意义的平衡上的意义你那里的意义那里的意义那里的意义
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I don't know if that answered your question.At least for sure
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is just presence and
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whatever way that looks like for you and no pressure on the
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person that's that's
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trying to be there for somebody else either.I think that's the
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biggest thing I
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could say is there's pressure on both sides and keeping it kind
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of simple and
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SPEAKER_00: honest and without weight.
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but yet a quiet presence that demonstrates I'm thinking about
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you and I'm thinking about you.
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SPEAKER_00: And I think that covers so much,
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SPEAKER_00: more than one would expect of a grieving person on holidays,
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SPEAKER_00: I think.
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I think that is really helpful because a lot of times we just
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don't know what to do.
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SPEAKER_01: Right.
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SPEAKER_02: And then we end up saying things that are
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SPEAKER_02: 嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯
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you have with the person right if you're really close to this
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personyou do want to
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just because you love that person want to make sure they're
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doing okayand sometimes
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people who are grieving not everybody but sometimes people are
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grieving needs
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somebody to make sure they're okaysher right some people are
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pretty they can kind
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SPEAKER_02: of manage they've got whatever skillsyou
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and i'm not quite sure how you do it but but um if you sense
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there's a friend who's
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really stuck in their grief and sometimes people just get stuck
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there um to find
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gracious ways to say are you doing okay um how can i help um
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and and maybe there
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may come points where you know if they've sat in their house
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for a month and
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SPEAKER_02: haven't gone out um
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to be able to say i just want you know i'm here for you but uh
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i think you might
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want to take a shower or you know get have something to eat how
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can i help you it's
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kind of tricky but when there are those people who are stuck in
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their grief they
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SPEAKER_02: don't know they're stuck in their grief right um
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or maybe they don't realize that they've been there really long
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not that the grief
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is wrong but that they've got to come up for some air once in a
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while and maybe
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need one trusted friend to sort of say I want to come and sit
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with you for a few
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minutes so this is just talking pastorally but then there's a
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reality of someone
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SPEAKER_02: who's going through the grief and how you receive that and hear it
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I have retreated and I am seeing someone so I do have a
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counselor that was a trauma
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SPEAKER_00: grief person recommended and I will say to the term stuck
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I think that...I had a youth pastor that lives here in Arizona
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now.He was from
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California.He reached out to me about two months after Jonathan
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died.And he said,I
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am...he forewarned me,which I thought was wonderful.Because it
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wasn't this
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coercive,manipulative,little passive.You know,like he just came
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out and said,
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I need to ask you it's the pastor in me or it's the friend in
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me or whatever are
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you resting are you eating are you and and that was like up
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front and I knew I
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it validated everything i didn't feel like i was put on the
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spot i didn't feel he
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was being intrusive it's i so i think the more the more honest
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everybody is with
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one another the better because it is hard and awkward i will
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say though if and i
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don't think that i'm there uh at this point i've had others
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that think that i am
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SPEAKER_00: but i'm the only one with my journey right um
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um a lot of observers say things and they're really lucky that
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i have held my job
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but um i if there's signs and i that might require a profession
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like a a pastor
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like yourself someone that that would say i am a little
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concerned about them um and
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i don't know a time frame can necessarily judge it you could be
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super concerned
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at eight weeks and then or super concerned two years three
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years later that's right
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um but i think that just one of those reach outs um and as
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forthrightly as possible
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to see if they are that individual is is doing okay you know um
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and okay is loose
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SPEAKER_00: right but uh
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I think it's a great question I just think it's sort of maybe a
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little tenuous
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because there's a lot of room you I would want to give someone
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in a length of time
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SPEAKER_00: I think that there's this idea that there's something magical and a
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SPEAKER_00: 一年一
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I think Terry your your friend did it exactly right yeah rather
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than saying I'm
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concerned about you to say let me ask you how you're doing are
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you eating are you
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you know are you able to get around the house are you right you
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know open whatever
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questions you want to ask so it's not saying I think there's
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something wrong with
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you correct I want to make sure you're okay right right and
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then you just have to
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SPEAKER_02: allow the grieving person
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and may need somebody to intervene but that's where you've got
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to be close enough
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and loving enough to know how to do it and maybe even seek some
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information from
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someone that counsels grievers what would be the best questions
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for me to ask my
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dear friend Terry I've sensed that it might be worth a check in
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but I think from
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SPEAKER_00: the get go
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SPEAKER_02: yes not okay as in am I doing okay yes
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right he's right he's forcing me to come to terms with how i'm
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grieving exactly and
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i was so tickled that he did that at that time too and then of
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course my counselor
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um who has is witnessing me on a regular basis sees that i'm
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okay but early on when
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you know he didn't know me as well and um and i was staying
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home and i was
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SPEAKER_00: explaining
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why now i'm a thinker and i'm really i really go over in my
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head everything that i
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kind of choose to do um and then some but he he did say now he
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he he had to ask are
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you feeling like you could go out if you yeah wanted to you
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know and um i had to
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SPEAKER_00: think about that yeah yep
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Terry,I have a song I'm going to play for us as we wrap up our
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Christmas season,but
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I want to kind of give you the final word.What would you say to
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people like you who
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are grieving about Jesus and Christmas in the midst of
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grief?Sorry,my heart is so
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SPEAKER_00: tender.
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to anyone who's in this space right now but sit i would say
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what i tell myself i
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told myself this this morning sit quietly in the presence of
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jesus that was the you
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SPEAKER_00: know the season he came in the story is
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SPEAKER_00: as we read last week in such a beautiful depiction and a powerful one,
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but that Prince of Peace is the giver of a peace that the
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scripture says passes all
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SPEAKER_00: understanding.
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and whatever that means for you in sitting with the Prince of
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Peace I would just
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either start there or end there in your day because he Jesus
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meets me where I don't
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SPEAKER_00: sometimes even know where I'm at and he is love he is grace and
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definitely understanding and um an ever present friend so
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that's what i would say
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yeah and said well yeah amen well done terry um years ago when
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i was in high school
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SPEAKER_02: uh we uh our choir which is where i met jan
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When my mom died several years ago we were all together and so
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we went in the
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SPEAKER_02: recording studio and recorded it just so that we would have it.
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SPEAKER_01: Oh cool.
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And then during COVID we sang it again and we got some other
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family members to join
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SPEAKER_02: us and we made a video of it so it's kind of us singing on singing.
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and as our little Christmas Merry Christmas to you we're going
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to close with that
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this is us singing the benediction you're going to hear four
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notes we forgot to
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edit out on this one that's just to give us the pitch because
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it's sung Acapulca
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and so John Terry Merry Christmas Merry Christmas Merry
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Christmas Merry Christmas
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to all of our friends thank you for listening and we'll be back
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with you next time
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The Lord lift His countenance upon youAnd give you peaceAnd
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give you peaceThe Lord
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SPEAKER_01: make His face to shine upon youAnd be gracious unto you
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SPEAKER_01: and be gracious, the Lord be gracious, gracious unto you.
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SPEAKER_01: Amen.
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SPEAKER_01: Amen.
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