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- 0:02SPEAKER_00: Blessings and welcome to the Ascension Alchemist Podcast.
- 0:06SPEAKER_00: It is your host's hostess, Reverend Honey Borden here.
- 0:10SPEAKER_00: Much love, everyone, on this beautiful day, wherever you are.
- 0:15SPEAKER_00: Thank you for joining on this beautiful episode today.
- 0:21SPEAKER_00: This episode is being recorded from Kauai right now, as I will be getting ready to leave shortly to come back to the mainland.
- 0:32SPEAKER_00: And this Escension Alchemist podcast is all about aligning with our God presence and embodying that truth.
- 0:43SPEAKER_00: And as a community, facing all kinds of things that we'll face through this walk, which sometimes is wonderful and easy, and sometimes it just isn't.
- 0:54SPEAKER_00: So welcome to this episode today, as this episode is about surprises and moving through discomfort as well as how to self-love greater.
- 1:15SPEAKER_00: So currently, as I am sharing this video and podcast with all of you, it is colder.
- 1:28SPEAKER_00: Heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy rain to a point where rainy yesterday, rainy today, rainy tomorrow, and all week with this whatever front they're moving.
- 1:40SPEAKER_00: And I got up this morning feeling really just all kinds of discomfort moving through me and wanting to leave the island.
- 1:49SPEAKER_00: So I don't know about you out if you ever experienced where you're somewhere, you just feel like it's all closing in.
- 2:02SPEAKER_00: So there's this discomfort that's showing up and how to meet it, how to how to how to actually really face it, where sometimes one feels you can't quite even face it.
- 2:21SPEAKER_00: Want to more like run away from it, but how do you actually meet it?
- 2:27SPEAKER_00: So that's what I was experiencing today.
- 2:30SPEAKER_00: And and Michael couldn't quite understand what was going on, so he wasn't really facing what I was facing naturally for him.
- 2:43SPEAKER_00: Oh, it's just rain, calm, but for me, other things were showing up, and and within this, while it's showing up, while knowing I like to make decisions when I'm in an aligned state, here it is where there's this misalignment coming up, and my human self is very uncomfortable, and few things are showing up inside of me that seem to be more of vulnerable and raw, and of course, the island energy, the spirit of the wind, spirit of the water brings all of that up too.
- 3:23SPEAKER_00: So here I am with it, and yet I still decided, you know what, I'm gonna go ahead and fly out tonight.
- 3:32SPEAKER_00: That would be better for me because at the end of the day, no one can bring that comfort to you than yourself.
- 3:40SPEAKER_00: So if you can also be with your partner that may not quite understand what's going on, and you do have to honor what's right for you because nobody else is in your body, you're the one who is in your body, and your body communicates to you.
- 3:58SPEAKER_00: So with that, it's been okay, how to navigate this, how to breathe deeper, how to embrace while giving myself permission to be raw, be vulnerable, and even in a place where perhaps you know my own my own spouse isn't quite being understanding.
- 4:32SPEAKER_00: So it's been a very interesting day to navigate, embrace, and just let it all be.
- 4:45SPEAKER_00: So having said that, there are a lot of beautiful, beautiful blessings out of everything, and yet how do we still choose celebration when we're in in discomfort and raise God and all of this, right?
- 5:02SPEAKER_00: So I've been breathing and communicating with God, God Almighty, you are my strength, you are my join here.
- 5:11SPEAKER_00: It's only rain, and makes no sense to have this much around rain.
- 5:18SPEAKER_00: Yet what did surface in me was because we were right by the water.
- 5:25SPEAKER_00: What did surface in me is when I was a kid, how I had drowned in the water, so that really surfaced up inside of me.
- 5:35SPEAKER_00: So there's some more clearing, forgiving that, so it's not heavy on my chest anymore.
- 5:44SPEAKER_00: Yet I can feel the heaviness moving through.
- 5:47SPEAKER_00: So it's always these emotions that come up to go into motion to move out and move out.
- 5:54SPEAKER_00: And here's that state for me right now.
- 6:00SPEAKER_00: While I'm looking at beautiful trees and gorgeous orange flowers and these beautiful birds that have red heads, they're so cute.
- 6:10SPEAKER_00: And also recognizing I love going on these, I love going on trips, and I'm in a very different place before.
- 6:19SPEAKER_00: I used to want to go on a trip to just get away from things, but I just have no desire for that.
- 6:26SPEAKER_00: I really love where I am, and I don't feel the need I have to go somewhere to discover anything, although we had so much fun here at the same time.
- 6:38SPEAKER_00: So that's all I have for today.
- 6:41SPEAKER_00: It's a short one that you you'll you'll be receiving, and yeah, I'm just short in words today.
- 6:57SPEAKER_00: Short in words and letting myself be meet meet with all of this, and I'm sure some of you have experienced this when you meet this place of raw, vulnerable discomfort, and you know you're moving through it, and yet there's been all this beauty as well that has taken place, celebration.
- 7:23SPEAKER_00: So I get a chance to really celebrate Michael's 50th, just support him in every way possible and everything that he wanted to experience in all kinds of ways, and so I'm looking forward to having a few days to myself as I go back as he goes to LA and Laguna, he's got some clients out there.
- 7:46SPEAKER_00: So that's what I got for now.
- 7:48SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much for listening to this short episode.
- 7:52SPEAKER_00: I'll have more later in the week with you.
- 7:56SPEAKER_00: That'll be definitely much more enriched that I'll share with you.
- 8:01SPEAKER_00: Have a beautiful, blessed day.