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Trusting God Through Your Child’s Diagnosis | FT Krystal Boman | EP115 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl, Jessica and Smith and you already
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  Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress,
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  Speaker 1: have fun and just ask God for another day? Do
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  Speaker 1: you already know what it is? And then you know
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  Speaker 1: it's about to get real, so be sure to show
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  Speaker 1: your girl the love and like, come in and subscribe God.
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  Speaker 2: For another day. Hey, hey, I know we could be
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  Speaker 2: another way.
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  Speaker 1: And this movie this a way. Come on, if your
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  Speaker 1: souls not my God ain't good in jeesus, you will
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  Speaker 1: shoe drift away.
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  Speaker 3: Drift away, lord, Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Drift away, Lord. Baby. My daddy used a tenn song
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  Speaker 1: from Praising Version because that's a good I don't know
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  Speaker 1: them songs, them songs right there. Just just just get
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  Speaker 1: your ride, get your right. But if you don't know
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  Speaker 1: where you've landed, you've landed in the safe space for
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  Speaker 1: influences to decompress half of and just ask your girl,
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  Speaker 1: just as Smith and I'm super excited. It's another day,
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  Speaker 1: It's another Thursday, it's another day.
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  Speaker 3: Welcome, you're gonna get that rap album after all.
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  Speaker 1: I'm listen Thecrea and Declarity shall be so you know
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  Speaker 1: Christian rap is on the rise. And so I think
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  Speaker 1: I'm about to spend a little scripture. Okay, what did
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  Speaker 1: Peter do? He didn't do it because he did what
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  Speaker 1: the Lord told him. But I got one rap song together.
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  Speaker 1: I got one raps all together. Does a rate? Does
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  Speaker 1: a rate? Does a rate? Does a rate? Doesn't rate?
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  Speaker 1: But that one? Is it a consider a round song
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  Speaker 1: or just a song? It's a song. We're gonna it's
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  Speaker 1: gonna grow. You wanna ask them? You know verses? You
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  Speaker 1: want a verse? Oh, you're spoiled.
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  Speaker 3: Somebody spoiled y'all did it?
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  Speaker 1: Y'all did it? Y'all y'all have created a monster because
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  Speaker 1: nobody even even talking to coach today, she's like, tell
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  Speaker 1: this said she can hear. She said, Deyla, I did
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  Speaker 1: a pot of interview the other day and he was like, man,
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  Speaker 1: I ain't never seen nobody had their own theme song before.
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  Speaker 1: Because she she heard, she heard, what's up you guys?
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  Speaker 1: Tell them how you're doing, girl, because you already know
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  Speaker 1: they want to know I'm good, Like you know, uh,
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  Speaker 1: it's it's the summer time. You know, it's it's a
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  Speaker 1: little human outside. You know, it's a little hot, you know,
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  Speaker 1: glistening it before they started talking because you said the summertime,
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  Speaker 1: and I got this thrown on. It's thin, it's a
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  Speaker 1: little here. Still wre long sleeves because I'm very cold
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  Speaker 1: nature most of the time, and for some reason, like
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  Speaker 1: inside cold is a little different from the outside cold.
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  Speaker 1: From yeah, I'm typically gonna have some sleeves on a
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  Speaker 1: blanket or something on the inside.
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  Speaker 3: I even still put heaters at my feet.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, yes, ma'am. I have a heater in my work
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  Speaker 1: from home job. I got my heater in my work
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  Speaker 1: from home job, and I need another one because it'd
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  Speaker 1: be like overheating, so it goes you don't work there.
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  Speaker 1: I'm craving. But we're finna have a time today. Okay.
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  Speaker 1: I know y'all looking at the titles, description or whatever,
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  Speaker 1: no know what it is. But before we get into
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  Speaker 1: our special guest today, listen, you already know what time
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  Speaker 1: it is. What time is it?
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  Speaker 3: Community highlight highlight?
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  Speaker 1: Now, that's a song we gotta get ye because we
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  Speaker 1: got that song together. But no, it's the community highlight time,
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  Speaker 1: and I want to do a personal community highlight. She
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  Speaker 1: is not just somebody that has been supportive, but I
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  Speaker 1: just met this girl maybe like a month or two ago,
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  Speaker 1: and she has already like been pouring into the brand
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  Speaker 1: of Jessica is Smith period, Like it just as just
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  Speaker 1: the person that's supposed to offer and be this entrepreneur.
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  Speaker 1: Just hold up, not supposed to is the entrepreneur. Thank you,
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  Speaker 1: thank you. Anyway, she has been doing that, and so
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  Speaker 1: I want to shout my girl, Tiffany McCall out. She
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  Speaker 1: is the host of Free Your Mind podcast and I'm
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  Speaker 1: super excited to be doing life with you. Tiffany. This
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  Speaker 1: comes from my heart. You've you've entered my life and
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  Speaker 1: you have poured into me like nobody's being business and
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  Speaker 1: you've you've really shown me some true accountability, like you
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  Speaker 1: are a stranger and you are a stranger and now
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  Speaker 1: I feel like I know you, like you've told me
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  Speaker 1: the other day it was like, Jessica, accountability is not
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  Speaker 1: just about the business part, but it's about life because
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  Speaker 1: I was going through some things. Girl, I've been going
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  Speaker 1: through some personal things and you've been there, and so
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  Speaker 1: I just want to say thank you, and I just
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  Speaker 1: want to pour the love of the Lord into your space.
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  Speaker 1: I pray that everything that you've pinned out for the
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  Speaker 1: past five years it be brought back to you in
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  Speaker 1: double form. I pray right now, Lord, that God is
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  Speaker 1: very clear with you, that God breathes on every business,
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  Speaker 1: every thought, every attribute, your home, your your your space,
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  Speaker 1: your spaces of influence. I even thank you, Lord, thank
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  Speaker 1: the Lord for blessing and blowing on the on the
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  Speaker 1: stages that you come upon, whether it's acting, singing, speaking, hosting, moderating,
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  Speaker 1: every aspect and desire of your heart that has been
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  Speaker 1: made known to God, and you verbalized that. Hallelujah. I
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  Speaker 1: even challenge you to continue to verbalize it to the
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  Speaker 1: Lord and it shall come to pass. So I just
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  Speaker 1: want to say I love you till thank you so much,
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  Speaker 1: and we love you over here. It just asked the
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  Speaker 1: podcasta y'all gonna show my girls a love a Free
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  Speaker 1: of Mine podcast. She also does Freedom Fridays on her Instagram.
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  Speaker 1: So I mean she if you if you know how
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  Speaker 1: the Eric about due Era, you know what do they
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  Speaker 1: call him? The neo soul type of feel vibe. That's
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  Speaker 1: what my girl gives you. Like She's chocolate and fine
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  Speaker 1: and got the dreads and you know she's just beautiful
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  Speaker 1: just on the in side of she she her, she
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  Speaker 1: is her. I love that she is her okay, And
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  Speaker 1: so yeah, y'all know I do not pull up nobody
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  Speaker 1: that's not legit. I don't. I don't. The girl is
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  Speaker 1: git okay, and so let's let's get into it because
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  Speaker 1: I know y'all y'all ready to hear from our wonderful guest. Listen,
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  Speaker 1: I met this lady. She had did let me. Let'm
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  Speaker 1: just gonna tell y'all, y'all have be DM me to
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  Speaker 1: be on the podcast and stuff like that. I really
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  Speaker 1: go into prayer about it, like so if I don't,
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  Speaker 1: if I don't, for one, if you DM me on Facebook,
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  Speaker 1: sometimes I don't see it, so coming like on a
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  Speaker 1: photo or something, and then I can go go to
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  Speaker 1: the requests because I do not see it. And so
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  Speaker 1: that's what happened with the Woman of God this the
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  Speaker 1: other day. But she DM me and I didn't see
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  Speaker 1: the DM and then we end up being at the
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  Speaker 1: same event together, so we know this is God and
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  Speaker 1: we had an encounter, and she she waited to the
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  Speaker 1: till the end to tell me that she was the
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  Speaker 1: one that was like, why you ain't say that? Earlier
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  Speaker 1: when we were talking, she was like, Nah, I didn't
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  Speaker 1: want to do it X Y and Z. But after
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  Speaker 1: hearing her story, after hearing or at least part of
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  Speaker 1: the story, because I ain't I ain't even got a
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  Speaker 1: full story yet, but hearing her overcoming uh this, this
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  Speaker 1: disease and not pertaining to her but her daughter. I
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  Speaker 1: y'all know that my dad has been on his cancer journey,
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  Speaker 1: and so when I hear the word cancer, it does
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  Speaker 1: it does something to my chest and my stomach that
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  Speaker 1: I just I hate that word. I do not have
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  Speaker 1: a good relationship with quick cancer because it has just
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  Speaker 1: definitely disrupted some areas in our life. But God, but
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  Speaker 1: to God be the glory, right because there there are
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  Speaker 1: overcoming stories like the story that we're about to hear today,
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  Speaker 1: And so I am proud and excited to introduce you
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  Speaker 1: guys to my new friend, my new homegirl, Miss Crystal Bowman.
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  Speaker 1: I know, doesn't ray.
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  Speaker 4: You doing?
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  Speaker 1: Let me tell y'all something. I kept calling her miss
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  Speaker 1: Bowman earlier. She was like, don't you call me miss?
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  Speaker 1: I said, well, god you Crystal. So hete Crystal Man,
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  Speaker 1: how you doing? You know? Like how, No, don't give
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  Speaker 1: me no surface but answer, how are you? Crystal? I'm
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  Speaker 1: doing well?
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  Speaker 4: Honestly, I am doing really well. I'm in a space
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  Speaker 4: now to where I'm doing better through therapy, fasting, and praying.
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  Speaker 4: It's I'm in a better space.
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  Speaker 1: It's a lot because you you you didn't You didn't
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  Speaker 1: tackle the beast. Now you you have tackled a beast.
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  Speaker 1: So let's let's get to know about you before we
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  Speaker 1: start talking about your daughter's journey. Where are you from?
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  Speaker 4: I'm originally from Gordo, Alabama. Who yeah, you're not gonna
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  Speaker 4: find it. I'm from Gordo, Alabama. My graduating class only
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  Speaker 4: had seventy five people.
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  Speaker 1: So that, now, ma'am, that tells you a lot. Let
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  Speaker 1: me tell you something. No, you say seventy five people?
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  Speaker 1: I graduated with ten and I went to school at
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  Speaker 1: Fairfield shout out to Restoration Academy and Home of the Bulldogs.
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  Speaker 1: It was private school though, but no Gordo, Gordo. Where
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  Speaker 1: is that?
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  Speaker 2: Bye?
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  Speaker 4: It's in Pickens County, So it's West Pickens County. So
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  Speaker 4: Gordo reformed Carrollton Aliceville, OK. So it's in between Northport
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  Speaker 4: and Mississippi.
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  Speaker 3: Oh, okay, nor Northport, not Northport.
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  Speaker 1: And if y'all don't know what north part is, it's
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  Speaker 1: over there by Tuscalusis. I went to road Tipe. Yeah, okay,
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  Speaker 1: you thought I was like Reform. That sounds familiar, but
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  Speaker 1: you say North Fork. Yeah, I know exactly. Okay, now
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  Speaker 1: we're getting closed. Now that's where I'm from.
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  Speaker 4: It's not many people there, but that's where I'm from.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm a wife.
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  Speaker 4: We will be married fifteen years next month.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, Glory to God.
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  Speaker 4: We've been married fifteen years next month. And we have
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  Speaker 4: two children. Christline is our oldest. She is just turned
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  Speaker 4: thirteen and Keegan is ten. They're two weeks apart.
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  Speaker 1: Okay to their birthdays are two weeks apart. Oh wow,
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  Speaker 1: y'all be broke then, No, we know what happened. We know.
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  Speaker 1: Don't tell us what you know. People be like, I
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  Speaker 1: don't know how that happened.
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  Speaker 4: She was like, well, if you lay down, you know
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  Speaker 4: how it happened.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, don't be saying multiplier. Yeah that's viable. The only
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  Speaker 1: hunting is viable. Okay, So we're gonna talk about it here.
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  Speaker 1: You did what you were supposed to do. Yes, all right,
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  Speaker 1: I don't have it no more to You're not done?
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  Speaker 1: Was that your goal to have to and be done? Well?
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  Speaker 1: Here's the thing.
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  Speaker 4: My husband is the youngest of thirteen, So two is it?
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  Speaker 1: Because you know I'm done.
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  Speaker 4: I'm done.
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  Speaker 1: She was like, I see what's in your blood life?
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  Speaker 1: I saw it.
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  Speaker 3: He desired a big family because most people that come
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  Speaker 3: from big families.
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  Speaker 1: He did desire big family.
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  Speaker 4: But you should no, man's like the way this is
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  Speaker 4: set up?
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  Speaker 1: What about your side of the family. How many brothers sister?
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  Speaker 1: Did you ever?
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  Speaker 4: I have two older sisters, so I'm the baby of three.
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  Speaker 1: Girlsh So both of y'all are baby. So how did
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  Speaker 1: that work out? It's still working. Yeah, talking about in
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  Speaker 1: the beginning, girl, it's still it's it's oh, it's that's
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  Speaker 1: what you meant. It's still because it was a okay, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I got because slow moment.
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  Speaker 4: I'm just like, this ain't gonna work because we both
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  Speaker 4: like strong will, which is a good thing. We're both
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  Speaker 4: strong will, and we're both are like I want it
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  Speaker 4: my way or it ain't no way. Yeah, And so
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  Speaker 4: having to come together and being together we've been together
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  Speaker 4: twenty years, we've only been married fifteen.
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  Speaker 1: You know, it was a struggle. How did y'all meet.
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  Speaker 4: A mutual friend, aure friend and sublusive.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, did y'all do the blind date thing? No? Oh, okay, No.
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  Speaker 1: We met at a.
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  Speaker 4: A conference actually that he was in the business for
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  Speaker 4: Primerica at the time, and so his brother was doing
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  Speaker 4: it and my our friend was doing it, and so
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  Speaker 4: that's how we met. And he at the time he
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  Speaker 4: thought I had a bunch of kids, because it was
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  Speaker 4: a bunch of kids.
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  Speaker 1: There and they were all just like gravitated to me. Oh,
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  Speaker 1: so you've already always been like a motherly really.
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  Speaker 4: But not enough to have anymore.
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  Speaker 1: Let's make that clear her. So it did. So your
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  Speaker 1: your journey to becoming a mother? How was that? Did
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  Speaker 1: you struck? Because I know a lot of people deal
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  Speaker 1: with fertility, is what is that? Fertility?
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  Speaker 4: Yeah? Infertility. Yeah, I didn't deal with infertility. I did
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  Speaker 4: deal with fibroad tumors.
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  Speaker 1: Oh listen, yep, I don't know nothing about it, but
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  Speaker 1: there's a ray yep. Yeah, I dealt with that.
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  Speaker 4: And when we first started dating, it was the cycles
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  Speaker 4: were so bad, like I was passing out because I
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  Speaker 4: was losing so much blood.
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  Speaker 1: And so.
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  Speaker 4: A month, well about a month and a half into
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  Speaker 4: us dating, he came to my apartment and I had
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  Speaker 4: passed out and I don't know how long I had
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  Speaker 4: been there passed out, but I had passed out because
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  Speaker 4: I was losing so much blood.
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  Speaker 1: And so that's that's kind of how the whole fertility
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  Speaker 1: thing worked for me.
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  Speaker 4: He took me to the emergency room and the doctors
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  Speaker 4: was like, well, you need to have an emergency of hysterectomy.
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  Speaker 4: I was twenty two. Wow, I was twenty two, and
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  Speaker 4: I was like this, this is not this ain't what
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  Speaker 4: the Lord got said up for me because he knew
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  Speaker 4: I was wanted children.
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  Speaker 1: Let me let me polish you right there, because some
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  Speaker 1: people slow like me. And I'm just saying, so when
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  Speaker 1: the hysterectomy, when they take the do the hystericty part,
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  Speaker 1: that means that he was trying to prevent you from
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  Speaker 1: having kids.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, it's taking my uters out. So I was able
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  Speaker 4: to have children twenty years.
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  Speaker 1: I did not know that, but it's okay. I I
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  Speaker 1: was just trying to make sure I was in the
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  Speaker 1: right side.
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  Speaker 3: Typical mindset, and a lot of women deal with that.
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  Speaker 4: A lot of women deal with the pcos, they deal
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  Speaker 4: with that, they deal with the just the infertility all together.
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  Speaker 4: And so I knew I wanted children, but I was
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  Speaker 4: afraid at that point because I was just like, this
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  Speaker 4: is not what I've been praying for. And of course
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  Speaker 4: we weren't talking about marriage or children at that point,
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  Speaker 4: but you know, him finding me like that and we
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  Speaker 4: just started dating. I was like, this is gonna run
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  Speaker 4: this man off. We're gonna be like, what is wrong
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  Speaker 4: with this lady? You know, but it didn't like it.
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  Speaker 4: It literally drew him closer to me.
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  Speaker 1: Wow.
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  Speaker 4: And so, you know, him having all those siblings I
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  Speaker 4: think kind of helped, you know, you know, he knew
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  Speaker 4: how to navigate, like he had sisters that you know,
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  Speaker 4: dealt with cycles and things like that. So I think
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  Speaker 4: that that helped a whole lot. And it's just I'm
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  Speaker 4: telling you it was nothing but the grace of God
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  Speaker 4: that because I could have died like right now if
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  Speaker 4: he wouldn't have shown up.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah. Have you had any more scares that were similar
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  Speaker 1: to that, dealing with the fibroids or anything, because I've
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  Speaker 1: heard that women can have multiple encounters with that. They can.
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  Speaker 4: So that was when I was twenty two, not anything
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  Speaker 4: like passing out like that. When it got to the
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  Speaker 4: point to where the doctor was like, you know, you
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  Speaker 4: need to have an emergency his directive. And my mom
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  Speaker 4: was there and she's like, she's twenty two, we need
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  Speaker 4: a second opinion. She's like, we're not doing that.
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  Speaker 1: This was in Tuscalusa. So we found me another.
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  Speaker 4: Doctor here in Birmingham and she was like, you know,
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  Speaker 4: you do have the fibroid tumors, and then that's where
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  Speaker 4: the birth control came in, trying to control it, and
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  Speaker 4: so then I end up just having to have surgery
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  Speaker 4: to remove the fibroids. I had that surgery. She initially
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  Speaker 4: thought I only had three fibroid tumors and small as
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  Speaker 4: I am because at the time I was only one
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  Speaker 4: hundred and six pounds, but I was always looking like
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  Speaker 4: I was four months pregnant because of the tumors, like
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  Speaker 4: they were that big. So she thought that it was
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  Speaker 4: only three from the ultrasound when she got in there,
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  Speaker 4: it was actually seven and they were like the size
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  Speaker 4: of grapefruits. That's why I was looking pregnant. Like all
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  Speaker 4: of the time, there's a.
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  Speaker 1: Ray, you gotta go and bring stuff on the screen
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  Speaker 1: because there's a raise story. It sound almost sounds simular
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  Speaker 1: to that, and I just when I when I hear that.
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  Speaker 1: I just get scared, Like I just the thought of
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  Speaker 1: it just scares me as a one because I'm like, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: how do you know? Like could you not know before?
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  Speaker 1: Like can they not scream for stuff like that before? No,
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  Speaker 1: you have to have So I've always had pretty pretty
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  Speaker 1: heavy cycles, right, even starting out at a young age,
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  Speaker 1: which is why they actually put me on birth control
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  Speaker 1: was to kind of help regulate it a little bit.
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  Speaker 1: But around probably twenty seventeen, I just started having a
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  Speaker 1: different type of pain and so they scheduled you have
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  Speaker 1: to have an ultrasound, okay, And I was like, oh, okay,
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  Speaker 1: ultrasound like you think like you see on TV and
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  Speaker 1: they put the little jelly stuff when you said it,
• 18:04
  Speaker 1: what is it? It's an internal ultra sound. So this
• 18:07
  Speaker 1: is long prob thing, you know, and they and they
• 18:10
  Speaker 1: go internal in your you in your vagina. Ye, it's
• 18:15
  Speaker 1: worse than like an annual. To me, it was.
• 18:19
  Speaker 3: It is because because they're they're progeing, they're looking, they're
• 18:21
  Speaker 3: moving it and oh.
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you're going like all the where. I mean, it
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: feels like it's like right here. I mean I want
• 18:27
  Speaker 1: to feel like so you you know, you got your annual.
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: You know, you're preparing for those things. It wasn't prepared.
• 18:33
  Speaker 1: But in that in that evaluation, they discovered that I
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: had fibroid tumors as well. And so I kind of
• 18:40
  Speaker 1: went on this journey trying to you know, do change
• 18:42
  Speaker 1: all the things, the health things and stuff like that.
• 18:44
  Speaker 1: And probably around twenty twenty, so I was going like
• 18:48
  Speaker 1: every six months having an evaluation just to kind of
• 18:51
  Speaker 1: monitor them. And they were growing. So I had five
• 18:56
  Speaker 1: and kind of similar thing like, I decided to have
• 18:59
  Speaker 1: the the mile making me, which is the removal of
• 19:02
  Speaker 1: the fibroids, and she got in there and she actually ended.
• 19:06
  Speaker 3: Up removing eleven. Yeah, there was eleven.
• 19:08
  Speaker 1: And my situation went a little sideways because during recovery,
• 19:12
  Speaker 1: so it was like an overnight stay, but during recovery,
• 19:16
  Speaker 1: I ended up having internal bleeding. So I just remember
• 19:18
  Speaker 1: at some point that evening waking up and the room
• 19:21
  Speaker 1: was just full of people, you know, and they're talking
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: and they got the tilted the bed back and forth,
• 19:25
  Speaker 1: and then they began to like try to start new
• 19:28
  Speaker 1: ivs and I finally just stopped on the nurse. So
• 19:30
  Speaker 1: I'm laying there and I said, Hey, what's what's going on?
• 19:34
  Speaker 1: And he was trying to be so sweet and so calm,
• 19:35
  Speaker 1: and he was like, well, you know, you're you've lost
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: a lot of blood and we're just trying to get
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: your new IV started so we can get you some
• 19:41
  Speaker 1: fluid so you get the feeling better. And I'm like, oh, okay,
• 19:43
  Speaker 1: you know, not really understanding, right, And I ended up
• 19:47
  Speaker 1: long story short, I ended up having to go to
• 19:50
  Speaker 1: the ICU the pickline, so they had to They couldn't
• 19:54
  Speaker 1: get my veins, so they had to go with my
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: go on my neck, give me a pick line in
• 19:57
  Speaker 1: my neck, start blood. I had to go back into
• 20:00
  Speaker 1: surgery and so she could sew up all the holes
• 20:03
  Speaker 1: that she had pulled the five boys from. And so
• 20:06
  Speaker 1: three nights in the ICU, eight units of blood, four
• 20:09
  Speaker 1: bags of playlists and plasma, you know, and I'm grateful
• 20:12
  Speaker 1: that I'm here. But the thing was, you know, and
• 20:15
  Speaker 1: everybody's journey is different. I kind of knew I had
• 20:17
  Speaker 1: to understand and going in that it was a possibility
• 20:20
  Speaker 1: that they could come back, right, And so even so
• 20:24
  Speaker 1: it was probably about two so that maybe about the
• 20:26
  Speaker 1: end of twenty three, I started to experience some similar
• 20:29
  Speaker 1: symptoms and I went back and she was like, there
• 20:32
  Speaker 1: were a couple of little, small ones, you know, And
• 20:34
  Speaker 1: so my thought process has always been like, why is
• 20:37
  Speaker 1: this such an issue. It's a woman's issue, but it's
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: primarily a huge black woman's issue, you know what I'm saying.
• 20:45
  Speaker 1: And I'm like, I don't know why. I don't know
• 20:47
  Speaker 1: if it's like food, I don't know. All these things
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: could be factors, you know, but at the end of
• 20:51
  Speaker 1: the day, your health advocacy is very, very important. Because
• 20:56
  Speaker 1: I ended up switching doctors early on because the initial
• 20:58
  Speaker 1: obg Wyn that I went to it was a guy,
• 21:02
  Speaker 1: and for him, he was just like, oh, you know,
• 21:04
  Speaker 1: they're just fibroid tumors and you know, just take some talanol.
• 21:07
  Speaker 1: And I was like, you're just you're telling a you know.
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: At this time, I think I was maybe like my
• 21:12
  Speaker 1: late twenties something, your old woman that she has tumors
• 21:15
  Speaker 1: in her uterus, you know what I'm saying. And so
• 21:17
  Speaker 1: I end up switching my doctor who was you know,
• 21:19
  Speaker 1: she just kind of allowed me to explore some you know,
• 21:22
  Speaker 1: like the health things and stuff like that, but she
• 21:24
  Speaker 1: was like, you know, at the end of the day,
• 21:26
  Speaker 1: sometimes you know, those things work and sometimes they don't.
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: But but I'm here to support you whatever you want
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: to do. And you know, so I too, you know,
• 21:34
  Speaker 1: still have a desire to have children, and you know
• 21:37
  Speaker 1: that's still my prayer. Yes, thank you, thank you very much.
• 21:41
  Speaker 1: But you know, just sometimes you know, that just kind
• 21:43
  Speaker 1: of sits in the back of your in the back
• 21:44
  Speaker 1: of your head, you know. So I definitely understand the
• 21:46
  Speaker 1: German and I'm pretty sure there's so many women out
• 21:48
  Speaker 1: there who can also sympathize with your experience. Yeah, because
• 21:53
  Speaker 1: it's it's not.
• 21:57
  Speaker 4: It was scary.
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: Yeah, it sounds like I'm I'm a graphic I'm a
• 22:01
  Speaker 1: visual person. So I'm over here like I had to face.
• 22:05
  Speaker 1: I saw my face on the camera and looking at
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: desert and like I ever heard this story phone, I'm
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: looking at like, yeah, it's like I don't want to
• 22:14
  Speaker 1: go through it. That's not I don't want that to
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: be my testimony. You get to say, no, Lord, I
• 22:20
  Speaker 1: don't get I don't want that to be my testimony.
• 22:22
  Speaker 1: I don't want the vibroid name. So, so at that point,
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: were you fearful that you weren't going to become a mother?
• 22:28
  Speaker 4: I did because that doctor, you know, speaking of switching doctors,
• 22:33
  Speaker 4: that doctors, you know, initially told me even though you're
• 22:36
  Speaker 4: twenty two, your your chances of having a children, having children,
• 22:40
  Speaker 4: you might as well count that out. And I was like, no,
• 22:43
  Speaker 4: that that ain't what I talked to the Lord about,
• 22:45
  Speaker 4: and that ain't what he done told me that I'm gonna.
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: Have to be able to do.
• 22:48
  Speaker 4: And so we found me a doctor here and at
• 22:51
  Speaker 4: Brookwood and she was just like, you know, you have
• 22:53
  Speaker 4: the tumors and we need to get them out. She
• 22:57
  Speaker 4: was like, because it's gonna just progress and get worse
• 22:59
  Speaker 4: if you don't. She's like, You're going to continue to
• 23:00
  Speaker 4: fall out. Things are going to progressively get worse if
• 23:04
  Speaker 4: you don't do this. And so I had that that
• 23:08
  Speaker 4: initial surgery. She went in and took those seven out,
• 23:12
  Speaker 4: and I was doing perfect up until I got pregnant
• 23:16
  Speaker 4: with my daughter in twenty eleven.
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: So twenty eleven, you get pregnant with your daughter, right,
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: all right? So between that time, were you like, okay, god, well,
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: you were good, like you weren't having any problem with
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: tumors or anything like that, and then boom you get pregnant.
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: When now worry y'all trying to get pregnant at that time.
• 23:37
  Speaker 4: Yet yeah, might as well say, you know what I mean.
• 23:44
  Speaker 4: So we got married in twenty ten and then yeah,
• 23:49
  Speaker 4: I mean I was pregnant a year later.
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: You know. Wow.
• 23:52
  Speaker 4: So but when she was born in twenty twelve, the
• 23:56
  Speaker 4: tumors were growing with her, like the fiberard tumors came.
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: So how so did you have to have a sea
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: section or had to have a sea section?
• 24:04
  Speaker 4: Because the thing is those fibroad tumors again, they make
• 24:08
  Speaker 4: you lose so much blood on your cycles that I
• 24:12
  Speaker 4: couldn't have had her vaginally because she was like, you know,
• 24:15
  Speaker 4: you can die on the table if I try to
• 24:16
  Speaker 4: let you push her out.
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: And that's another reason why it's important to have a
• 24:20
  Speaker 1: good doctor because they say that, and you say you
• 24:24
  Speaker 1: kneeled me when I say they say it because this
• 24:25
  Speaker 1: is the level of ignorance.
• 24:26
  Speaker 4: That I have.
• 24:27
  Speaker 1: But I'm aware that black women are women of color
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: in general, have a higher risk of death rate absolutely
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: birth in their child. And so thank god that that
• 24:38
  Speaker 1: was not your story, that was not my story.
• 24:41
  Speaker 4: And so you know, she's like, you're gonna have to
• 24:43
  Speaker 4: have a sea section, because of course, I think most
• 24:45
  Speaker 4: women want to have their children naturally or at least
• 24:48
  Speaker 4: try to. And so that was, you know, kind of
• 24:50
  Speaker 4: a good punch. But I was like, hey, if you
• 24:52
  Speaker 4: can get her here safely and keep me here safely,
• 24:55
  Speaker 4: do what you gotta do.
• 24:56
  Speaker 1: Yeah, And so.
• 24:58
  Speaker 4: They the tumors came back, and so I had to
• 25:02
  Speaker 4: have a c section with her, and of course my
• 25:05
  Speaker 4: doctor was like, you know, you don't need to have
• 25:06
  Speaker 4: any more children after her, because again, this may not
• 25:09
  Speaker 4: be a good thing for you, you know. And so
• 25:12
  Speaker 4: I end up getting pregnant with my son in twenty fifteen,
• 25:15
  Speaker 4: and the tumors were they they came back, and she
• 25:19
  Speaker 4: was not pleased with me. She was like, I thought,
• 25:21
  Speaker 4: I told you you don't need to get pregnant no more.
• 25:23
  Speaker 4: Because the tumors were growing as he was growing, so
• 25:26
  Speaker 4: they didn't want them to basically suffocate him in the.
• 25:30
  Speaker 1: Right Okay, okay, so that makes sense.
• 25:33
  Speaker 4: Yeah, because they can't do that. They can literally kill
• 25:37
  Speaker 4: the baby in the room.
• 25:38
  Speaker 1: But your son has lived a healthy life. Oh yeah,
• 25:41
  Speaker 1: he's perfectly fine. Is he in athletics.
• 25:44
  Speaker 4: He's in basketball. He's in basketball, and so he's doing amazing.
• 25:51
  Speaker 4: So after he was born, I had to have a
• 25:55
  Speaker 4: partial hysterectomy so when I say having children, that that
• 25:58
  Speaker 4: would be the reason why.
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: And then listen, that makes sense that hey, y'all need
• 26:02
  Speaker 1: to be glad to hear okays, didn't make it like
• 26:11
  Speaker 1: I would be. I would be given the death step
• 26:13
  Speaker 1: every day. Don't don't clean your room. You know what
• 26:16
  Speaker 1: if it wasn't for me, you know, I brought you here.
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: Time shake you out because you almost took me, all right,
• 26:25
  Speaker 1: but no, we got to get back to the point where. Okay,
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: so now it's you you suffered. Let's just call it
• 26:31
  Speaker 1: the spade of spade to have the kids that you have,
• 26:34
  Speaker 1: but particularly with crystalline, crystallin crystalline, yes, having crystalline and
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: you experiencing being a natural mother. Now now you're not
• 26:44
  Speaker 1: playing mama to nobody else kids like you are actual mother.
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: What was that? What was that journey like from the
• 26:51
  Speaker 1: time that you you birthed her to the time what
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: was that period like from the time you birthed her
• 26:57
  Speaker 1: to the time that you found out about the diagnosis
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: of cancer. It was amazing.
• 27:04
  Speaker 4: And I say that because man said that she wasn't
• 27:08
  Speaker 4: supposed to be here, and so for her to be
• 27:10
  Speaker 4: here and to be thriving and it's what three years
• 27:14
  Speaker 4: difference between her and Keegan. You know, we were living
• 27:17
  Speaker 4: our best little life, you know, we were it was
• 27:20
  Speaker 4: just me, her and my husband at the time. She
• 27:24
  Speaker 4: was the youngest of you know, my mom's grandkids, and
• 27:27
  Speaker 4: so of course she's spoiled, you know, so we just
• 27:29
  Speaker 4: we were just living our best little life. And you know,
• 27:34
  Speaker 4: public school time came around, so she got into public
• 27:37
  Speaker 4: school and she was doing fine up until third grade.
• 27:42
  Speaker 4: Third grade is when it literally felt like my life
• 27:45
  Speaker 4: just fell apart.
• 27:46
  Speaker 1: And how old was she?
• 27:48
  Speaker 4: She was seven?
• 27:49
  Speaker 1: She was seven son third grade around what time of
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: the year. This was March March, so it's springtime. So
• 27:58
  Speaker 1: she's exiting the third.
• 27:59
  Speaker 4: Grade, getting ready to exit the third grade.
• 28:03
  Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, so what happened during that time?
• 28:07
  Speaker 4: So she was still in public school and they were
• 28:09
  Speaker 4: doing a math lesson and they were laying on the
• 28:12
  Speaker 4: floor doing something with the little blocks or whatever, and
• 28:16
  Speaker 4: a little girl stepped up on a step stool to
• 28:19
  Speaker 4: get water, and she stepped back down and she stepped
• 28:22
  Speaker 4: on crystal In's head. And it was a blessing that
• 28:28
  Speaker 4: she got stepped on.
• 28:29
  Speaker 1: You.
• 28:29
  Speaker 4: I was just telling somebody the other day it was
• 28:31
  Speaker 4: literally blessing that somebody kicked my daughter in the head,
• 28:34
  Speaker 4: because that's how we found out that she had a
• 28:36
  Speaker 4: brain tumor. That is literally how we found out. Her
• 28:41
  Speaker 4: teacher sent her to the nurse. Of course, the nurse
• 28:45
  Speaker 4: gave her ice pack center back to class. You know,
• 28:48
  Speaker 4: we never got a phone call that she had been
• 28:50
  Speaker 4: stepped on the head. That's another story. If actually I
• 28:55
  Speaker 4: didn't well in my brain, yeah, like I know, we
• 29:00
  Speaker 4: always have.
• 29:00
  Speaker 1: We might not go off like that, yeah, but we
• 29:04
  Speaker 1: always go off right here. Yeah. Yeah.
• 29:09
  Speaker 4: And my husband's like, you know, you okay. I'm like, no,
• 29:11
  Speaker 4: I'm not okay. But that's how we found out she
• 29:15
  Speaker 4: got stepped on And so I picked up her from
• 29:17
  Speaker 4: school because she was a car rider. I picked her
• 29:19
  Speaker 4: from school and uh, you know, gave her a snap
• 29:21
  Speaker 4: like I usually would, and I said, how was your day?
• 29:23
  Speaker 4: And she said, my head still hurts. And I said,
• 29:27
  Speaker 4: what do you mean it still hurts? And she was
• 29:28
  Speaker 4: like it was, it's been hurting since earlier. So she
• 29:31
  Speaker 4: never told me that she got stepped on the head
• 29:33
  Speaker 4: until a day later. And so that night that she
• 29:37
  Speaker 4: got stepped on the head, she just continued like she
• 29:40
  Speaker 4: woke up in a panic, just holding her head and
• 29:43
  Speaker 4: I told my husband, I said, something is not right.
• 29:45
  Speaker 4: And so the next morning I took her to a
• 29:49
  Speaker 4: stand in er in Pelham and they're like, you know,
• 29:53
  Speaker 4: she does have a concussion. And I was like okay,
• 29:56
  Speaker 4: and then she stepped on her head like that. Yeah,
• 29:58
  Speaker 4: that's not like a jump like you think about little kid.
• 30:02
  Speaker 4: These are little kids. And I don't know, you know,
• 30:06
  Speaker 4: she stepped more than once. I don't know, Like you said,
• 30:08
  Speaker 4: I don't know if she jumped down on it.
• 30:10
  Speaker 1: I don't know.
• 30:11
  Speaker 4: I still do not have the full story of literally
• 30:13
  Speaker 4: what happened. All I know she was stepped on the head,
• 30:16
  Speaker 4: and so I took her to that stand in the
• 30:18
  Speaker 4: r and then the second night she did the same thing,
• 30:22
  Speaker 4: just screaming in pain, and I say, we need to
• 30:25
  Speaker 4: take her to Children's and I took her and the
• 30:28
  Speaker 4: doctor's like, she does have a concussion, but she also
• 30:31
  Speaker 4: has a brain tumor. Wow. He said it just like that,
• 30:35
  Speaker 4: like it was an everyday practice. And I was like, okay,
• 30:39
  Speaker 4: so what do we need to do. I was like,
• 30:40
  Speaker 4: what do you mean? And he was like, she has
• 30:42
  Speaker 4: a brain tumor and she's probably had it since birth.
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: So okay, wait, so yeah all of it. Did she
• 30:53
  Speaker 1: experience like headaches or anything like, was it like hindsight
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: looking at it hindsight.
• 30:58
  Speaker 4: She had one seizure, but at the time she had
• 31:01
  Speaker 4: a fever with the seizure, so her pediatrician said it
• 31:04
  Speaker 4: was probably a feeble seizure. That that was the only
• 31:07
  Speaker 4: indication that we ever had. So to say that she
• 31:11
  Speaker 4: was literally kept by the Lord because it's no telling
• 31:14
  Speaker 4: what was really going on, and we just never knew.
• 31:17
  Speaker 4: We never had any other indications that anything was happening
• 31:20
  Speaker 4: with her. She was living her best little life in
• 31:22
  Speaker 4: school every day, hated to miss school.
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: So and that's was she able to like interact with
• 31:28
  Speaker 1: the different kids, like the activities they have, like I
• 31:30
  Speaker 1: know they have like plate would not play dates, the
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: stuff outside, you know, pe and that she has had
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: no issue until she got stepped on, no issues.
• 31:42
  Speaker 4: So and you know, I've always asked them, you know,
• 31:45
  Speaker 4: could that kit could have activated? And he was like,
• 31:47
  Speaker 4: that's not possible. And I'm just like, well to me
• 31:51
  Speaker 4: that that seems reasonable to me because otherwise nothing else
• 31:54
  Speaker 4: had happened. But that's how we found out. This was
• 31:57
  Speaker 4: twenty nineteen.
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: So did they Okay, so let's move forward with the Okay,
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: now we know that she has this brain tumor take
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: me to that day. Where where are the bowmens? Where
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: are you in your mind? I was lost.
• 32:16
  Speaker 4: I called my mama, screaming and crying. I called my
• 32:18
  Speaker 4: sisters and I was just like, what happens at this point?
• 32:23
  Speaker 4: And he was like, you know, it's the size of
• 32:25
  Speaker 4: a lemon.
• 32:26
  Speaker 1: Was the size of it.
• 32:27
  Speaker 4: And it was right behind her right eye. And I said, well,
• 32:32
  Speaker 4: you know, do we need to remove this? Like what
• 32:34
  Speaker 4: do we need to do at this point? And he
• 32:35
  Speaker 4: was like, well, there's really nothing that we need to
• 32:37
  Speaker 4: do right now because it's not affecting her. He said,
• 32:39
  Speaker 4: if she wouldn't have got stepped on the head, we
• 32:41
  Speaker 4: never would have known it was there. So if it's
• 32:43
  Speaker 4: not bothering her, we're not going to touch it because
• 32:45
  Speaker 4: the place where it was located, it could have messed
• 32:48
  Speaker 4: with her literally physically. He's like, she may not have
• 32:51
  Speaker 4: inequality of life if we go in and touch anything.
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: Because of what they had to do.
• 32:56
  Speaker 4: And so from twenty nineteen and of course, we you know,
• 33:00
  Speaker 4: started seeing the neurologies at Children's and he was like,
• 33:04
  Speaker 4: you know this is where it's placed, but we don't
• 33:05
  Speaker 4: need to touch it. So we watched it from twenty
• 33:08
  Speaker 4: nineteen to twenty twenty two, and it grew from a
• 33:13
  Speaker 4: lemon to a grapefruit in two years.
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: So I need I think, I just need cleary. Okay.
• 33:23
  Speaker 1: So when you say y'all watched it, what's the process
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: of watching it?
• 33:28
  Speaker 4: Doing MRIs every six months just to make sure that
• 33:31
  Speaker 4: it wasn't growing. And from nineteen till twenty one, well,
• 33:37
  Speaker 4: the beginning of twenty two, it had not grown, so
• 33:39
  Speaker 4: it had flowed. From the end of twenty one up
• 33:42
  Speaker 4: until March of twenty twenty two is when it just
• 33:46
  Speaker 4: like literally seemed like it grew overnight because that was
• 33:52
  Speaker 4: a timeframe. We read our six months appointments and it's
• 33:55
  Speaker 4: just like it just grew out of nowhere.
• 33:58
  Speaker 1: So at that point was showing it because and I
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: know you own alert at this point, like like if
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: it's a headache, if she sneezed too hard, like you're
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: right there, like so it what she's showing any signs
• 34:11
  Speaker 1: from that gap, It was.
• 34:13
  Speaker 4: My grains here and there, but it wasn't anything like
• 34:16
  Speaker 4: one or two times it would be to where she
• 34:19
  Speaker 4: couldn't even get out of bed because of the migrains,
• 34:20
  Speaker 4: and of course we had to call the doctor. He
• 34:22
  Speaker 4: brought us in to do emergency MRIs with contrasts and
• 34:26
  Speaker 4: all of that. But still at those times, it was
• 34:28
  Speaker 4: not growing. It had not grown from the limit to
• 34:32
  Speaker 4: the grapefruit that we had saw, like within six months,
• 34:35
  Speaker 4: it had not grown that much.
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: So during this during this period, like I really, I
• 34:39
  Speaker 1: really want to get into your mind right, like where
• 34:42
  Speaker 1: is your your mind as a mother? Like, okay, I
• 34:45
  Speaker 1: done have these fibroids. They said, I was supposed to
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: have a gun, but now I got her, and now
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: you're telling me that it's a tumor on her brain
• 34:53
  Speaker 1: and they trying to act like it's nothing, but I
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: know it's something like the brain is definitely got what
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: you're doing that.
• 34:59
  Speaker 4: Those were MYS words, like what we're doing right now?
• 35:01
  Speaker 4: And I know that we're not supposed to question God,
• 35:03
  Speaker 4: but I was like I asked the Lord. I'm like, hey,
• 35:06
  Speaker 4: what I know that I'm not gonna be able to
• 35:10
  Speaker 4: see what you're doing, but I need some answers because
• 35:13
  Speaker 4: what am I supposed to do?
• 35:14
  Speaker 1: That?
• 35:15
  Speaker 4: Am I just supposed to take their word and not
• 35:17
  Speaker 4: you know, not get a second opinion. Am I supposed
• 35:20
  Speaker 4: to just sit back and just to me, it felt
• 35:24
  Speaker 4: like she was deteriorating, but I knew that she wasn't
• 35:26
  Speaker 4: because she was still living her best of life. Nothing
• 35:29
  Speaker 4: was bothering her besides the headache here and there, and
• 35:32
  Speaker 4: we just kept on with life. We kept doing our
• 35:34
  Speaker 4: appointments every six months, and that was it. But in
• 35:38
  Speaker 4: my mind, I was like, okay, is my child. Am
• 35:42
  Speaker 4: I gonna go walk into her room and she's not
• 35:45
  Speaker 4: there anymore?
• 35:46
  Speaker 1: You know?
• 35:47
  Speaker 4: Am I going to.
• 35:50
  Speaker 1: I just didn't know.
• 35:52
  Speaker 4: I was fearful, you know, being totally transparent, I was
• 35:55
  Speaker 4: completely fearful because you just don't know, and you never
• 35:59
  Speaker 4: know what can trigger the next thing. You know, what
• 36:02
  Speaker 4: can what can this lead to? You know? And so
• 36:06
  Speaker 4: that's that's where we were up until March of twenty
• 36:09
  Speaker 4: twenty two, when the neurologists called and he was like, hey,
• 36:13
  Speaker 4: we got to move. He's like, we got to move
• 36:16
  Speaker 4: fast because the tumor has grown and if it continues
• 36:20
  Speaker 4: to grow, it's going to take her eyesight because it
• 36:23
  Speaker 4: was sitting behind the right eye and I mean, you know,
• 36:27
  Speaker 4: she needed glasses. But you know, we didn't know of
• 36:29
  Speaker 4: anything other than that because nothing else was bothering her, right,
• 36:33
  Speaker 4: And so that was March. That was marcha twenty that
• 36:38
  Speaker 4: was still it children. Yeah, that was March of twenty two.
• 36:41
  Speaker 4: And so of course we had to get the surgery
• 36:44
  Speaker 4: scheduled and all of that, and then she had surgery
• 36:47
  Speaker 4: in June June sixteenth of twenty twenty two, and they
• 36:51
  Speaker 4: went in and removed the tumor and was that.
• 36:53
  Speaker 1: That obviously was like a successful It was successful.
• 36:57
  Speaker 4: The type of tumor she has is called ganga gleamioma.
• 37:02
  Speaker 4: And if you're not in the space of your child
• 37:05
  Speaker 4: having a brain tumor, you will not know that. There
• 37:07
  Speaker 4: are over two thousand types of brain tumors.
• 37:10
  Speaker 1: Oh wow, yeah, so it's more children with possibly with
• 37:14
  Speaker 1: tumors than that. Don't know that don't know.
• 37:18
  Speaker 4: So when I say when I tell people, you know,
• 37:20
  Speaker 4: if your child's complaining of a headache, listen to them.
• 37:24
  Speaker 4: Don't just give them child knowlling motion and just rotated.
• 37:26
  Speaker 4: You need to see because a lot of the times
• 37:29
  Speaker 4: the doctors will not even just willingly do an mril
• 37:33
  Speaker 4: on a child or an adult for that matter. They
• 37:36
  Speaker 4: just there's just not something that they do. You have
• 37:38
  Speaker 4: to request those things, and most of the times you
• 37:40
  Speaker 4: have to be adamant about Okay, I need you to
• 37:44
  Speaker 4: do this, and if you can't find one doctor to
• 37:46
  Speaker 4: do it, you need to find somebody else because this
• 37:48
  Speaker 4: maybe could have been prevented, you know, for somebody else.
• 37:51
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you know.
• 37:52
  Speaker 4: So I tell people all the time, do listen to
• 37:55
  Speaker 4: your children. They're telling you something for a reason. Now,
• 37:57
  Speaker 4: you know, if your child acting and don't want to
• 37:59
  Speaker 4: go to school or whatever case is. But listen to them.
• 38:02
  Speaker 4: Pay attention to their mannerisms, pay attention to what if
• 38:06
  Speaker 4: they're sleeping a whole lot more than what they used to. Yeah,
• 38:08
  Speaker 4: it's different things like that that you have to watch
• 38:11
  Speaker 4: because it could be there and you just never know.
• 38:14
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you just never know that. So repeat.
• 38:16
  Speaker 4: The type of tumor is called ganga glemioma.
• 38:19
  Speaker 1: Ganga glemioma. All right, So with that tumor, did the
• 38:23
  Speaker 1: doctor say that it came from a specific thing or
• 38:26
  Speaker 1: how would it develop? Here's the thing.
• 38:28
  Speaker 4: They don't know. They don't know about any of these tumors,
• 38:31
  Speaker 4: the brain tumors. They don't know why they're there, how
• 38:34
  Speaker 4: they're there. You know, a lot of people contributed to it.
• 38:37
  Speaker 4: May be in the foods, it may be too much
• 38:39
  Speaker 4: sugar that they're eating. We don't know. Nobody really knows,
• 38:44
  Speaker 4: and so you know, us being at Saint Jude is
• 38:46
  Speaker 4: why they're trying to figure it out, you know, like
• 38:52
  Speaker 4: the trials and stuff like that. So they're doing a
• 38:53
  Speaker 4: whole lot of research trying to figure out why these
• 38:57
  Speaker 4: why there are so many children that has brain tumors.
• 39:00
  Speaker 1: I'm so glad you brought Saint Jude up because Saint
• 39:02
  Speaker 1: Jude is a very well known I don't want to
• 39:05
  Speaker 1: say popular, because I mean that popularity can sound, but
• 39:09
  Speaker 1: they're very well known for doing some intensive work for kids,
• 39:13
  Speaker 1: and they're accing for different donations and when I'm getting
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: chilled right now and I don't want to cry, but
• 39:18
  Speaker 1: they are really I've heard so many good things about
• 39:22
  Speaker 1: Saint June. So can you tell me how you went
• 39:25
  Speaker 1: from Children's to Saint Jude and why did you need
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: that trend? Or she needed that transition?
• 39:30
  Speaker 4: So December of twenty three, So from her surgery in
• 39:33
  Speaker 4: twenty two up until twenty four, perfectly fine, no issues,
• 39:37
  Speaker 4: living our best little life. Still, So December twenty three,
• 39:40
  Speaker 4: she woke up just out of the blue, and she said,
• 39:43
  Speaker 4: my back is hurting. And I was like, okay, and
• 39:47
  Speaker 4: I tried not to show her that I was worried, right,
• 39:51
  Speaker 4: And so December twenty three up until June of last year,
• 39:57
  Speaker 4: it got to the point to where she could not
• 39:59
  Speaker 4: even walk. And they were supposed to be doing scans
• 40:07
  Speaker 4: at Children's every three months after her surgery, they were
• 40:11
  Speaker 4: only doing them every six And I didn't find this
• 40:13
  Speaker 4: out until after the fact. But different story. And so
• 40:18
  Speaker 4: June of last year, you know, they were sending us
• 40:21
  Speaker 4: to physical therapy, they had put her on pain medications,
• 40:24
  Speaker 4: heat and pass it's all the things. Will come to
• 40:27
  Speaker 4: find out her brain had started leaking fluid.
• 40:31
  Speaker 1: From the side of where she had the surgery on.
• 40:34
  Speaker 4: Well, we really don't know. We really don't know, because
• 40:37
  Speaker 4: what happened was June of last year. We were at
• 40:40
  Speaker 4: an event in Cholera and she said, Mama, I feel
• 40:42
  Speaker 4: like I'm about to pass out. Of course, I didn't overreact,
• 40:46
  Speaker 4: but I took her on to Children's and the ophtalmologists
• 40:49
  Speaker 4: came in, you know, just looking at her eyes or whatever.
• 40:52
  Speaker 4: And he came back in and he said it's bold.
• 40:54
  Speaker 4: Her brain is full of fluid. And I was like,
• 40:58
  Speaker 4: what do you mean. I was like, we just had
• 41:00
  Speaker 4: an appointment, not even two months ago, and he was like,
• 41:03
  Speaker 4: her brain is full of fluid. He's like, I need
• 41:05
  Speaker 4: to get your doctor. He went and got the doctor.
• 41:08
  Speaker 4: He came in with three other people and I was like,
• 41:12
  Speaker 4: what is going on right now? And he was like,
• 41:14
  Speaker 4: we need to take her into Emergesy's surgery and I
• 41:16
  Speaker 4: was like, for what he said, if you wouldn't not
• 41:20
  Speaker 4: have brought her in tonight, she would she could have
• 41:23
  Speaker 4: fallen asleep and not woken up tomorrow morning because of
• 41:26
  Speaker 4: all the fluid on her brain. And I said, well,
• 41:30
  Speaker 4: what needs to happen? He said, we need to go
• 41:32
  Speaker 4: in within the next hour and a half, drain this
• 41:35
  Speaker 4: fluid off of her brain and put a shun in.
• 41:38
  Speaker 4: So basically what that is they go back into the
• 41:40
  Speaker 4: spot where they did their initial surgery in place A
• 41:44
  Speaker 4: two which runs from the top of her head down
• 41:47
  Speaker 4: behind the ear, and it filters out through her stomach
• 41:52
  Speaker 4: and she, according to them, she'll have that the rest
• 41:55
  Speaker 4: of her life because her brain, her body does not
• 41:58
  Speaker 4: flush out the fluid like I was does. It collects
• 42:01
  Speaker 4: in her brain and so that can cause her to
• 42:04
  Speaker 4: lose her vision or cause her to you know, she
• 42:09
  Speaker 4: could she could die from it.
• 42:11
  Speaker 1: And so that was last year and so that then they.
• 42:16
  Speaker 4: We spent seven days at Children's after this, and so
• 42:19
  Speaker 4: on the sixth day, her neurologist came in and he said,
• 42:24
  Speaker 4: I have good news and bad news. He said, the
• 42:26
  Speaker 4: bad news is no, he said, which one do you
• 42:28
  Speaker 4: want first? And Chrislyn said, I want the good news
• 42:30
  Speaker 4: because I'm hungry, So which one? And so she was like,
• 42:36
  Speaker 4: come on, and so he was like, well, the bad
• 42:38
  Speaker 4: news is you know, he said, the good news is,
• 42:42
  Speaker 4: you know, we got the shunt place. You know, all
• 42:45
  Speaker 4: of that is looking good, he said, But the bad
• 42:47
  Speaker 4: news is is that your tumors have come back and
• 42:51
  Speaker 4: they have spread. So the type of tumor that she has,
• 42:57
  Speaker 4: it is not supposed to come back and it's not
• 42:58
  Speaker 4: supposed to spread her is there?
• 43:01
  Speaker 1: Right?
• 43:01
  Speaker 4: The opposite? And so she initially started out, so did
• 43:04
  Speaker 4: they miss that?
• 43:05
  Speaker 1: I'm sorry? So did they misdiagnosed the original tumor or?
• 43:09
  Speaker 1: But so so the tumors that redeveloped were still the.
• 43:13
  Speaker 4: Gang of GLEMI on the oh wow, okay, yeah, and
• 43:16
  Speaker 4: I thought that they had missed didnosed too, until we
• 43:18
  Speaker 4: got to Saint Jude and it's like, no, this is
• 43:20
  Speaker 4: this is what she has. It's just it's just the
• 43:23
  Speaker 4: rare case that they come back. So she only had
• 43:26
  Speaker 4: one initially, and when they come back, it was literally half.
• 43:31
  Speaker 1: Of her brain. Wait hold up, you said you looking
• 43:36
  Speaker 1: it up, desiree. Oh so at first the first tumor
• 43:43
  Speaker 1: was just big enough to like it was the lemon,
• 43:45
  Speaker 1: then the grapefruit, and now we go from draining the
• 43:49
  Speaker 1: fluid and sat Saint Jude tells you that it's half
• 43:52
  Speaker 1: of her brain. So did children Children's told.
• 43:55
  Speaker 4: Me initially that it was half of her brain. This
• 43:57
  Speaker 4: was when we were still at Children's and that seven
• 43:59
  Speaker 4: days stay. He on that sixth day he came in
• 44:02
  Speaker 4: and he and he showed us the pictures. He was like,
• 44:04
  Speaker 4: it has literally taken over her brain. So that is
• 44:07
  Speaker 4: all of that white.
• 44:10
  Speaker 1: Is is the tumor. I don't know if y'all, I
• 44:14
  Speaker 1: don't know if they can see this. Yeah right here,
• 44:18
  Speaker 1: uh the light, but the white part was her brain.
• 44:22
  Speaker 1: Mm hmm.
• 44:23
  Speaker 4: Well the bigger, the bigger picture is her brain and
• 44:26
  Speaker 4: all of the white is the cancer. Mh yeah, So
• 44:32
  Speaker 4: that was June, and so we saw neurologist, the oncologists,
• 44:38
  Speaker 4: all those people at Children's and you know, of course
• 44:42
  Speaker 4: their thing was, you know, we need to play support,
• 44:44
  Speaker 4: we need to get chemo started as soon as possible.
• 44:47
  Speaker 4: And I wasn't comfortable with that because you know, they
• 44:50
  Speaker 4: started asking us about freezing her eggs because you know,
• 44:53
  Speaker 4: chemo messages with your fertility and all.
• 44:55
  Speaker 1: How old was she at this time? I'm sorry, how
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: old was she? She was?
• 45:00
  Speaker 4: What's this year? Eleven?
• 45:01
  Speaker 1: Eleven? Okay, yeah, so they start talking about freezing her eggs. Okay,
• 45:06
  Speaker 1: let me just talk about how the enemy works, like,
• 45:08
  Speaker 1: because I'm looking at this from a spiritual point too,
• 45:12
  Speaker 1: so the same thing or the same idea, because well
• 45:15
  Speaker 1: we'll say, oh, the enemy didn't come with me this
• 45:17
  Speaker 1: way or no, it got some different coloring, but the
• 45:21
  Speaker 1: same foundation, right. So the enemy is trying to come
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: for you and your motherhood and then now your daughter.
• 45:27
  Speaker 1: So the legacy that you uphold, you must be a
• 45:33
  Speaker 1: dangerous woman trying to you must be That's all I
• 45:37
  Speaker 1: can think. Yeah, because the literally it's like, I'm finna
• 45:39
  Speaker 1: mess with these eggs. I'm feeling I'm trying to I'm
• 45:41
  Speaker 1: trying to mess with these eggs. I'm trying to trying
• 45:44
  Speaker 1: to disrupt the legacy of this family. Wow, okay, so
• 45:48
  Speaker 1: their children's telling you that they want to freeze eggs
• 45:51
  Speaker 1: and you like, nah, fam, what we're not doing that.
• 45:53
  Speaker 1: We're not doing that. So is that when you made
• 45:55
  Speaker 1: the decision. I'm trying to figure out what was the
• 45:57
  Speaker 1: decision that made you go to Saint juecause it ain't
• 45:59
  Speaker 1: say you like Tennessee is all the life? Yeah, I asked.
• 46:02
  Speaker 4: I asked Children's because what they wanted to do was
• 46:05
  Speaker 4: play support here and she would go in once a
• 46:08
  Speaker 4: week to Children's and have chemo and that would be.
• 46:10
  Speaker 4: That would have been for twenty four weeks. And I
• 46:13
  Speaker 4: you know when they initially said it, and I said, well,
• 46:16
  Speaker 4: when once she placed the port, how long after that
• 46:19
  Speaker 4: are you going to start chemo? He said within an hour.
• 46:22
  Speaker 4: I said absolutely not. I said, you're not doing that.
• 46:25
  Speaker 4: And so we asked for a second opinion from Children's
• 46:29
  Speaker 4: and the oncologists came out and blatantly told us. He
• 46:32
  Speaker 4: was like, they're going to give you the same answer
• 46:34
  Speaker 4: that I'm going to give you. I said, well, I'm
• 46:36
  Speaker 4: going I want them to tell me no, and he
• 46:40
  Speaker 4: was like okay. He was like, but there's no there
• 46:43
  Speaker 4: is no money in childhood cancer research.
• 46:46
  Speaker 1: And I think that college collegist told you that there's
• 46:50
  Speaker 1: no money in childhood.
• 46:52
  Speaker 4: Research and he's right in that, but it was just
• 46:53
  Speaker 4: your delivery in it, right, Yeah, And so I think
• 46:57
  Speaker 4: that's what pushed me over the edge. I was like,
• 46:59
  Speaker 4: I'm with you, oh wow. And so when I asked
• 47:03
  Speaker 4: them for the second opinion and they would not refer me,
• 47:07
  Speaker 4: there's power in social media. I reached out to some
• 47:11
  Speaker 4: people on social media and I was like, I need
• 47:14
  Speaker 4: to we need some second opinions. And if you know
• 47:18
  Speaker 4: anything about Saint.
• 47:19
  Speaker 1: Jude, you have to be referred. I didn't know that
• 47:22
  Speaker 1: you have to be referred.
• 47:24
  Speaker 4: You know, it can be by another family, but they're
• 47:26
  Speaker 4: gonna take you probably quicker, I would say if it
• 47:29
  Speaker 4: came from a doctor. And so with him not referring us,
• 47:34
  Speaker 4: I reached out myself and I.
• 47:38
  Speaker 1: Email.
• 47:40
  Speaker 4: I emailed Saint Jude.
• 47:42
  Speaker 1: And I know that.
• 47:47
  Speaker 4: Everything that has happened up until this point it was
• 47:51
  Speaker 4: God connecting the dots, literally every last one of them.
• 47:55
  Speaker 4: And I say that because I reached out to this man.
• 47:58
  Speaker 4: On a Friday. The doctor is ain't you? He called
• 48:01
  Speaker 4: me that that Sunday and you you don't hear from
• 48:06
  Speaker 4: this called you? He called on Sunday.
• 48:10
  Speaker 1: Wow, I was asleep.
• 48:12
  Speaker 4: I missed his call. I called him back. He was
• 48:15
  Speaker 4: on the phone with another family and so then he
• 48:17
  Speaker 4: ended up calling me back and he was like hey,
• 48:19
  Speaker 4: miss Bowman and I was like his name is doctor Clemo.
• 48:23
  Speaker 4: And I was like hi, doctor Clemo. And I was
• 48:25
  Speaker 4: telling him and I was sleeping. He was like, you
• 48:26
  Speaker 4: deserve the rest.
• 48:28
  Speaker 1: And I was like, who is this fam? So, first
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: of all, because the energy is different, me and Desilray
• 48:33
  Speaker 1: was just talking about customer service. Customer service is needed everywhere,
• 48:38
  Speaker 1: like everywhere. So now you're probably getting the language that
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: you've been wont for a while. Wow.
• 48:43
  Speaker 4: It was literally when he said you need rest, I
• 48:47
  Speaker 4: was like, Okay, where this man come from?
• 48:52
  Speaker 1: And from that conversation.
• 48:56
  Speaker 4: Up until now he texts, he call. He was like,
• 49:03
  Speaker 4: you'll hear from So when I talked to him on
• 49:04
  Speaker 4: that Sunday and I told him what was happening, and
• 49:06
  Speaker 4: I was like, you know, they're wanting to start chemo
• 49:09
  Speaker 4: on her next week.
• 49:10
  Speaker 1: He was like, no, do not do that.
• 49:12
  Speaker 4: He was like, if you reached out to me, I'm
• 49:13
  Speaker 4: gonna help you. He said, if you will allow us
• 49:15
  Speaker 4: to help her, I'm going to help you.
• 49:17
  Speaker 1: He said.
• 49:18
  Speaker 4: There are so many other trial drugs out there that
• 49:21
  Speaker 4: she qualifies for. He was like, if you're willing to
• 49:23
  Speaker 4: let us help, will help her. I said please. And
• 49:27
  Speaker 4: so he was like, all right, give my nurse into
• 49:28
  Speaker 4: Wednesday and she'll call you. She called me on Tuesday
• 49:31
  Speaker 4: and you know, just getting all the paperwork, and she said,
• 49:36
  Speaker 4: can you all be here in the next week and
• 49:38
  Speaker 4: a half.
• 49:40
  Speaker 1: I was like, yes, ma'am.
• 49:43
  Speaker 4: And she was like, I know that it. You know,
• 49:45
  Speaker 4: I know everything's moving fast.
• 49:46
  Speaker 1: I know.
• 49:47
  Speaker 4: She was like, but we need to get her here,
• 49:50
  Speaker 4: and I.
• 49:50
  Speaker 1: Was like okay. And so in that process, did they
• 49:53
  Speaker 1: have to request like records and stuff from you everything?
• 49:56
  Speaker 4: Okay, I could have gotten her records, but you know
• 49:59
  Speaker 4: they have I have a team of people that get
• 50:02
  Speaker 4: all the records and all that. Once I told him,
• 50:04
  Speaker 4: I gave him to go ahead, I stepped back. I
• 50:06
  Speaker 4: didn't have to do anything but show up in Memphis
• 50:08
  Speaker 4: a week and a half later.
• 50:10
  Speaker 1: That was it.
• 50:11
  Speaker 4: And you know, you speak about donations, A lot of
• 50:13
  Speaker 4: people don't realize Saint Jude runs strictly off of donations everything,
• 50:20
  Speaker 4: and a lot of people only think, like from the commercials,
• 50:23
  Speaker 4: that we only don't have to pay for medical bills. No,
• 50:26
  Speaker 4: we never receive a medical bill. But they also provide
• 50:29
  Speaker 4: housing free of charge. They reimburse you for travel. You
• 50:34
  Speaker 4: don't have to pay for food the entire time that
• 50:36
  Speaker 4: you're there.
• 50:37
  Speaker 1: Are you kidding me? I did not desierate. Did you
• 50:40
  Speaker 1: notice not that? Not the like the the expenses and things. Yeah,
• 50:45
  Speaker 1: I didn't know the expenses. I knew the medical part.
• 50:47
  Speaker 4: You don't pay for. So their their thing is we
• 50:50
  Speaker 4: only want you to help your child get better, and
• 50:53
  Speaker 4: that has been it. So when people say, oh, y'all
• 50:57
  Speaker 4: go to Saint Jude, I'm like, yeah, but it's so much.
• 50:59
  Speaker 1: More to that commerce.
• 51:00
  Speaker 4: Sure, then you see, I promise you we don't have
• 51:02
  Speaker 4: to pay for absolutely nothing. Regardless of how you travel
• 51:07
  Speaker 4: to get there, which we drive because it's only four hours.
• 51:10
  Speaker 4: They reimburse you for gas. If we had to fly,
• 51:13
  Speaker 4: they would reimburse us for that. Regardless of how you
• 51:17
  Speaker 4: come in, they reimburse you for everything.
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: And they treat and they treat you better than the
• 51:23
  Speaker 1: folks that you act. Now, that's that's and it's not
• 51:28
  Speaker 1: it's not dogging because I really think I've heard some
• 51:30
  Speaker 1: success stories from children's right, I've heard success stories from U. A. B.
• 51:34
  Speaker 1: Bookwood or whatever. It's some success stories. But when you
• 51:37
  Speaker 1: specialize in something like cancer, right, it's the specialization, the
• 51:40
  Speaker 1: center around specialization. When you're doing that and you're having
• 51:44
  Speaker 1: success stories and you're serving, that's a serve. That's a
• 51:48
  Speaker 1: servant's mindset. Say.
• 51:50
  Speaker 4: And and the thing is he doctor Klimo is her
• 51:55
  Speaker 4: neurologists at Saint Jude. I talked to that man one time.
• 52:00
  Speaker 4: That was that Sunday. So when we made it to
• 52:03
  Speaker 4: Memphis in August of last year, the fourteenth is when
• 52:06
  Speaker 4: we had to arrive, I still had not seen him.
• 52:12
  Speaker 4: I wouldn't have known who he was. If I wouldn't
• 52:14
  Speaker 4: have googled him, I wouldn't have known anything about this man.
• 52:17
  Speaker 4: We were standing outside of the cafeteria one day talking
• 52:21
  Speaker 4: to another family and he walked by and I said, hey,
• 52:25
  Speaker 4: doctor Clemo, and he was like hey Crystal, and I
• 52:29
  Speaker 4: was like, wait a minute, wait, hold up.
• 52:32
  Speaker 1: So you don't know him, so that means he researched
• 52:36
  Speaker 1: you yeah.
• 52:38
  Speaker 4: Yes. So when I say the Lord connected every single
• 52:42
  Speaker 4: dot that needed to be connected in a straight.
• 52:44
  Speaker 1: Line, I'm telling you.
• 52:47
  Speaker 4: And that man gave me and Crystlin the biggest hug
• 52:51
  Speaker 4: like he had been known us forever. And I had
• 52:54
  Speaker 4: never met this man, never met him, talked to him
• 52:59
  Speaker 4: one time. And so it's the customer service. He has
• 53:07
  Speaker 4: the best bedside manners that I've ever seen in my life,
• 53:12
  Speaker 4: ever seen in my life. And I tell him all
• 53:15
  Speaker 4: the time, I appreciate you for listening to God because
• 53:19
  Speaker 4: you are in the position of giving my child a
• 53:24
  Speaker 4: second chance at life. And he was like, I'm just serving.
• 53:28
  Speaker 4: Those are his asad words.
• 53:30
  Speaker 1: And how so how long had do you know how
• 53:32
  Speaker 1: long he been in medicine or doing being in Saint
• 53:34
  Speaker 1: Jude at.
• 53:35
  Speaker 4: Least I don't know. I know he's he's been there
• 53:38
  Speaker 4: at least over ten years because there's a Facebook page
• 53:41
  Speaker 4: that we have for only for saying Jude families. And
• 53:44
  Speaker 4: so the research that I was talking about that I
• 53:46
  Speaker 4: went on Facebook. Every time you know, I was looking
• 53:51
  Speaker 4: up something, his name was only name popping up. You
• 53:53
  Speaker 4: know you need to you know, you need to reach
• 53:55
  Speaker 4: out to doctor Climo. He's a god saying that's all
• 53:57
  Speaker 4: I kept hearing, and even up until this day, just yesterday,
• 54:01
  Speaker 4: I had to refer a family from Birmingham to him.
• 54:04
  Speaker 4: And he's the type of person. When we were there
• 54:07
  Speaker 4: from August August fourteenth until September twentieth, because we had
• 54:11
  Speaker 4: to stay that length of time, he was calling, he
• 54:15
  Speaker 4: was like, hey, y'all good, you need anything? He was texting,
• 54:18
  Speaker 4: he was calling, he was like, how did you know
• 54:19
  Speaker 4: how the clinic go today? How did your MRIs go today?
• 54:23
  Speaker 4: And it's not just us. He is like that with
• 54:25
  Speaker 4: every one of his patients. So to have that amount
• 54:28
  Speaker 4: of time and still performing surgeries on people, he has
• 54:32
  Speaker 4: done surgeris on people that other doctors have said it
• 54:36
  Speaker 4: is not possible, you don't need to try to do this,
• 54:39
  Speaker 4: He's like, yeah, I can do that, and he's been
• 54:42
  Speaker 4: very successful at it. And so that's how we ended
• 54:47
  Speaker 4: up at Saint Jude. We were there for about a
• 54:50
  Speaker 4: right a little over a month because once they started
• 54:53
  Speaker 4: her on the chemo, they had to make sure, you know,
• 54:55
  Speaker 4: she didn't have any reactions to it or anything like that.
• 55:00
  Speaker 4: So the commercials do not do that place justice.
• 55:05
  Speaker 1: No, thank you for making us aware of that because
• 55:07
  Speaker 1: that's there's some of these commercials. I mean, yeah, so,
• 55:12
  Speaker 1: but I've never necessarily questioned Saint Jude, but I didn't
• 55:15
  Speaker 1: know the extents of how they served the family.
• 55:18
  Speaker 4: So, and they even have a school. They have an
• 55:21
  Speaker 4: entire school. Like when Crystine was up there, yeah, she
• 55:23
  Speaker 4: was still you know, getting her school work done.
• 55:26
  Speaker 1: They have an entire school. They have a salon for
• 55:32
  Speaker 1: the for the kids.
• 55:33
  Speaker 4: Yet their nails done, hair done, and the entire place
• 55:37
  Speaker 4: is ran off of donations.
• 55:40
  Speaker 1: So that was twenty twenty two. No, this was last year.
• 55:45
  Speaker 1: Last year. Okay, so twenty twenty four. Now we're in
• 55:48
  Speaker 1: twenty twenty five. Where's Crystalline. Now?
• 55:51
  Speaker 4: That girl thriving and she she is thriving.
• 55:56
  Speaker 1: She is, she said the testimon only that was at Thereek.
• 56:01
  Speaker 1: That's what I'm trying to I'm trying to get you
• 56:02
  Speaker 1: to get that answer. Look, she's starving, girl, she is.
• 56:09
  Speaker 4: She's taking chemo, went home twice a day, she's giving
• 56:11
  Speaker 4: it to herself. You know, she's just very mature for
• 56:15
  Speaker 4: her age, and I think all of this has made
• 56:18
  Speaker 4: her mature. But you know, but she's doing amazing.
• 56:21
  Speaker 1: She is.
• 56:23
  Speaker 4: She wants to be a cosmetologist. She's gotten a full
• 56:26
  Speaker 4: ride to school already. She she living her best life.
• 56:32
  Speaker 1: She's living her best life. So she's still on chemo.
• 56:35
  Speaker 1: But did they take what's going on with the side
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: of her brain? So that picture that I showed you
• 56:42
  Speaker 1: because you got to get me clear, because I got
• 56:45
  Speaker 1: two pictures that okay, So this that one that I've
• 56:49
  Speaker 1: showed you first, was August, right all right? Look at
• 56:52
  Speaker 1: that one.
• 56:54
  Speaker 4: That was October.
• 56:57
  Speaker 1: Oh, okay, hold on, I gotta, I gotta. I pulled this, Okay,
• 57:02
  Speaker 1: hold on, hold on? Is the light all the way
• 57:05
  Speaker 1: up on this light difference? Hold on? I was trying
• 57:12
  Speaker 1: to do that too. Okay, there we go. Okay, there
• 57:17
  Speaker 1: it is all right. So this is the same picture. Okay,
• 57:20
  Speaker 1: So I'm gonna show y'all the picture again. So the
• 57:22
  Speaker 1: the white it is the hold on right there right here?
• 57:27
  Speaker 1: This is good, all right, y'all See that bright part, Yeah,
• 57:30
  Speaker 1: i'all need to turn a little bit. This bright part right,
• 57:34
  Speaker 1: that's the that's the tumor. This and this next picture
• 57:37
  Speaker 1: is from when October of last year. Wow, the total different.
• 57:46
  Speaker 4: B And you know where her on colloge is. When
• 57:49
  Speaker 4: he showed us those pictures He was like, this ain't
• 57:52
  Speaker 4: even the same brain. He was like, we have never
• 57:56
  Speaker 4: seen this within a two months fan. Now, mind you,
• 57:59
  Speaker 4: this is trial drug that she's on. Wow, And she's
• 58:04
  Speaker 4: the only African American female on the medicine. So there
• 58:10
  Speaker 4: was really no you know, if she breaks out, you know,
• 58:13
  Speaker 4: what can we do for her?
• 58:15
  Speaker 1: None of that.
• 58:15
  Speaker 4: It was no research on it because she's the first.
• 58:19
  Speaker 4: And I was like, girl, you setting records at the
• 58:21
  Speaker 4: age of twelve, Come on, like you setting you setting
• 58:24
  Speaker 4: somebody up. And we've been telling her from the beginning,
• 58:28
  Speaker 4: this whole journey ain't even about us. It's somebody coming
• 58:31
  Speaker 4: behind us that's gonna need to see and hear if
• 58:34
  Speaker 4: I can, if she can go through this, what I'm
• 58:37
  Speaker 4: going through, ain't even It don't even matter. The stuff
• 58:40
  Speaker 4: that we complain about on a daily basis, it don't
• 58:43
  Speaker 4: even matter. We've been telling her that from the beginning.
• 58:45
  Speaker 4: And we've also been telling her if he did it before,
• 58:49
  Speaker 4: he will do it again. Yes, my god, that has
• 58:51
  Speaker 4: been our mottol. That's what's on our t shirts.
• 58:54
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, and that purchase. Yes, they all look,
• 58:59
  Speaker 1: I'm vincent, we got we got My daddy just told
• 59:02
  Speaker 1: me that his chemo is seventy eight hundred dollars. The
• 59:06
  Speaker 1: new chemo that they're about to do tart him all
• 59:08
  Speaker 1: for the people, it's seven eight hundred dollars for the copey. Okay, God,
• 59:12
  Speaker 1: So when people say, hey, can you help that our
• 59:15
  Speaker 1: medical bills, y'all think everything cute, y'all. On the other
• 59:19
  Speaker 1: side of that, y'all praying, but pray, prayer, Thank you Lord,
• 59:23
  Speaker 1: payment blessing seed in the ground.
• 59:26
  Speaker 4: We need that too, I mean, because you have to
• 59:28
  Speaker 4: think about it. I'm still trying to maintain a marriage.
• 59:30
  Speaker 4: I'm still trying to maintain being a mother to my
• 59:33
  Speaker 4: ten year old. That's like, you know, all the attention
• 59:36
  Speaker 4: is on my sister. I'm still trying to maintain that
• 59:40
  Speaker 4: my husband is the only one working. You know, I'm
• 59:42
  Speaker 4: trying to make sure that I'm still checking off boxes
• 59:46
  Speaker 4: that my marriage still gonna be intact when I get
• 59:48
  Speaker 4: back home. I was gone for a month and a half.
• 59:51
  Speaker 4: You know, marriages, you need your spouse, you know you
• 59:56
  Speaker 4: my son needed me, and so you know, we have
• 59:59
  Speaker 4: people to start go fundmes for us. But also in
• 1:00:03
  Speaker 4: the process, I started her a nonprofit and it's called
• 1:00:08
  Speaker 4: Standing with Crystalline, and I did that because when we
• 1:00:11
  Speaker 4: got there in August, I literally had to go into
• 1:00:17
  Speaker 4: prayer and fasten to ask the Lord to help me
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 4: stay focused because there are so many moving pieces around you.
• 1:00:25
  Speaker 4: You see all these children that are tubes up their noses,
• 1:00:31
  Speaker 4: you know, they're crying and pain. You see all of
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 4: these things, and it's just like, we're not there, and
• 1:00:36
  Speaker 4: I'm grateful for that, but there is somebody there that
• 1:00:39
  Speaker 4: needs to They need that encouragement. Yeah, you know, there
• 1:00:42
  Speaker 4: are parents walking around like they hadn't slept in days,
• 1:00:45
  Speaker 4: and most of them probably haven't because their children are
• 1:00:48
  Speaker 4: literally deadly sick. And so at one point I felt
• 1:00:53
  Speaker 4: guilty because I was like, she's here, but I still
• 1:00:57
  Speaker 4: feel guilty because you know, when you look at her,
• 1:01:01
  Speaker 4: you can't tell anything is wrong with her, you can't.
• 1:01:04
  Speaker 4: But you look at these other children and these other mothers,
• 1:01:07
  Speaker 4: and they're just like zoned out almost, And so you know,
• 1:01:11
  Speaker 4: I started her non profit because when we were there
• 1:01:13
  Speaker 4: that month, people were sending Crystalline things from literally all
• 1:01:17
  Speaker 4: over the world from just from her Facebook page that
• 1:01:21
  Speaker 4: I started, and so I was like, you know, these
• 1:01:24
  Speaker 4: other children need to know that they're not forgotten about.
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 4: These parents need to know that they're not forgotten about.
• 1:01:28
  Speaker 1: And so we started her nonprofit.
• 1:01:31
  Speaker 4: And every time we go back, which is every two
• 1:01:33
  Speaker 4: months right now for scans, we take back joy bags
• 1:01:38
  Speaker 4: and so we put like slinkies in there, or like
• 1:01:41
  Speaker 4: the remember the Slapberry slubbers. We put those notepads, blankets
• 1:01:46
  Speaker 4: and pillows, just stuff just to let these kids know
• 1:01:50
  Speaker 4: you're still a child, you know, and you're not forgotten about.
• 1:01:53
  Speaker 4: And so that's what her non profit does. And you know,
• 1:01:57
  Speaker 4: people are still pouring into that on a daily basis,
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 4: you know, buying her T shirts. My friend that makes
• 1:02:04
  Speaker 4: the T shirt, she gives all that money back to us,
• 1:02:06
  Speaker 4: you know, she makes them, but she's like, here, you
• 1:02:09
  Speaker 4: y'all need this. You know, my husband is the only
• 1:02:11
  Speaker 4: one working, and so you know, bills are still billing,
• 1:02:16
  Speaker 4: that they still building.
• 1:02:18
  Speaker 1: They do not care. And so.
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 4: I'm telling you it's the journey has been. You know,
• 1:02:26
  Speaker 4: people always say I don't know how you do it,
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 4: and I tell them when I say, it ain't nothing
• 1:02:30
  Speaker 4: but the grace of God, because I could be on
• 1:02:34
  Speaker 4: a straight jacket right now, literally and they're not.
• 1:02:38
  Speaker 1: But I'm not.
• 1:02:39
  Speaker 4: I'm not And I you know, I told the Lord,
• 1:02:41
  Speaker 4: I need you to help me stay focused. I need
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 4: you to help me support these other women around me,
• 1:02:48
  Speaker 4: because there are six families that I know of from
• 1:02:53
  Speaker 4: Birmingham at Saint jud And so when I say he
• 1:02:57
  Speaker 4: connecting all the dots, it's kind of like.
• 1:03:01
  Speaker 1: He didn't.
• 1:03:02
  Speaker 4: He hadn't brought us this far just to bring us
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 4: this far. There's somebody else but that's coming behind us
• 1:03:06
  Speaker 4: that it's gonna need to know.
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 1: You can do it. Yeah, you can do it. It
• 1:03:12
  Speaker 1: may not seem like it, you know, we we don't see.
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 4: What he's doing. But he is connected every single dot
• 1:03:17
  Speaker 4: that you need connected every day.
• 1:03:19
  Speaker 1: Man, this is this is so good. Before before I
• 1:03:22
  Speaker 1: let you land the plane on this, that's what I
• 1:03:24
  Speaker 1: want to hear from I want to hear from you.
• 1:03:26
  Speaker 3: This has been very put the camera on you, I
• 1:03:31
  Speaker 3: got it go, oh there we go.
• 1:03:35
  Speaker 1: This just has been very inspiring. And right when we
• 1:03:38
  Speaker 1: were getting ready to end, so me and Jessica did
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 1: his whole beautiful episode and and we had no sound
• 1:03:44
  Speaker 1: on the mic. So, but one of the basis of
• 1:03:48
  Speaker 1: that particular episode, we talked about Proverbs three, five and six,
• 1:03:53
  Speaker 1: and so right when you guys were finishing talking. That's
• 1:03:55
  Speaker 1: what scripture came up, because we just don't know how
• 1:03:59
  Speaker 1: our the journey that God has for us, right, and
• 1:04:03
  Speaker 1: so proverts three five and six. This is going to
• 1:04:05
  Speaker 1: be the passion translation. It says, trust in the Lord completely,
• 1:04:09
  Speaker 1: and do not rely on your own opinions with all
• 1:04:12
  Speaker 1: your heart. Rely on Him to guide you, and he
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 1: will lead you in every decision that you make. Become
• 1:04:18
  Speaker 1: intimate with him in every in whatever that you do,
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 1: and he will lead you and wherever you go. And
• 1:04:24
  Speaker 1: so it's it's if you just thinking about my own journey.
• 1:04:28
  Speaker 1: You know, Jess can probably sit here and think about
• 1:04:30
  Speaker 1: the journey that she's been on and the one thing
• 1:04:32
  Speaker 1: that I just remember my past and she's and she's
• 1:04:34
  Speaker 1: told me this, I know, like twice. So I know
• 1:04:36
  Speaker 1: that the Lord is just trying to reassure me that, hey,
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 1: the journey is not going to be what you may
• 1:04:40
  Speaker 1: think it may be, but just know it's exactly what
• 1:04:42
  Speaker 1: it's supposed to be because I'm with you, right, and
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 1: so just listen to the start of your journey. You know,
• 1:04:48
  Speaker 1: you know you've had some issues with fibroids. You met
• 1:04:52
  Speaker 1: your husband, y'all, out here living living your best newly
• 1:04:55
  Speaker 1: weed life. Now you've gotten blessed with the with with
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 1: your with your children. And now I was like a wrench, like, Lord,
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 1: now what. But at the end of the day, like
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 1: He's had this whole path already mapped out for you, guys,
• 1:05:07
  Speaker 1: all we literally have to do is continue to walk
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 1: the path, you know, And so I'm grateful for you
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 1: for coming and sharing your story, and I hope that
• 1:05:15
  Speaker 1: those listening found hope and inspiration in their story. You know,
• 1:05:20
  Speaker 1: no matter where you are on your journey, just know
• 1:05:22
  Speaker 1: that we're not walking this thing out by ourselves. You know,
• 1:05:25
  Speaker 1: God is always there, even if we don't feel like it.
• 1:05:28
  Speaker 1: You know, sometimes we'll be like I feel like I'm
• 1:05:30
  Speaker 1: by myself, But just know He's He's always there. And
• 1:05:32
  Speaker 1: if you just surrender your thoughts, surrender your your mind,
• 1:05:36
  Speaker 1: surrender the process to him, He's gonna guide you.
• 1:05:39
  Speaker 3: And direct you in exactly the way that you should go.
• 1:05:42
  Speaker 3: So just thank you so much.
• 1:05:44
  Speaker 1: We're gonna link all of crystallines information for her her
• 1:05:49
  Speaker 1: foundation in the comments. You guys, and if you have
• 1:05:52
  Speaker 1: a heart, it's not like you know, if anytime somebody's
• 1:05:55
  Speaker 1: asking for you to give something like, don't give out
• 1:05:57
  Speaker 1: an obligation, but if it's on your heart to so,
• 1:06:00
  Speaker 1: just be obedient. You just never know the seeds that
• 1:06:03
  Speaker 1: you're planning in the ground, and in order to get
• 1:06:05
  Speaker 1: a harvest, Okay, you gotta plan. You gotta be playing seeds.
• 1:06:09
  Speaker 1: And the more seeds that you're planning, the more that
• 1:06:12
  Speaker 1: your harvest will come. So just thank you so much
• 1:06:14
  Speaker 1: for just sharing your beautiful story. Yeah, and I'm gonna
• 1:06:17
  Speaker 1: tag along with that, Like not only that, but I
• 1:06:20
  Speaker 1: know y'all heard, and I didn't tap into that for
• 1:06:22
  Speaker 1: a reason because I heard what the Lord was leading
• 1:06:23
  Speaker 1: us to because it's it's it's gonna get there. But
• 1:06:28
  Speaker 1: I do not want to neglect the fact that she
• 1:06:31
  Speaker 1: is more than just the mom to crystallin. But she
• 1:06:35
  Speaker 1: was first a wife to Miss the Bowman. And we
• 1:06:38
  Speaker 1: believe in Kingdom marriages. We believe in so ands and those,
• 1:06:41
  Speaker 1: and so if anybody wants to do so and to
• 1:06:44
  Speaker 1: their date nights, gift cards or whatever, we'll make sure
• 1:06:47
  Speaker 1: that they get that. Like if y'all send it to
• 1:06:49
  Speaker 1: just as just put Bowman donation and I'll make sure
• 1:06:52
  Speaker 1: you get it. Like we're gonna we're gonna make sure
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 1: because I don't know. I don't want to get it
• 1:06:56
  Speaker 1: twisted with the non profit or whatever. But I ain't
• 1:06:58
  Speaker 1: no nothing prophets. So we can get it sent to you,
• 1:07:00
  Speaker 1: but just put put it under there as Bowman donation
• 1:07:03
  Speaker 1: and we're gonna send it directular to them so they
• 1:07:05
  Speaker 1: can go have date night or they can take care
• 1:07:08
  Speaker 1: of a bill that they need. Because this is this
• 1:07:11
  Speaker 1: is what this is about. It's kingdom, it's kingdom work,
• 1:07:15
  Speaker 1: and so if you want to sew into them, just
• 1:07:17
  Speaker 1: make sure you put bowmen seed. Okay, put Bowman seed,
• 1:07:22
  Speaker 1: and maybe we'll have a link up by then. By then, okay,
• 1:07:25
  Speaker 1: but no, this is this is fertile ground and whatever
• 1:07:29
  Speaker 1: your need is. And I even decree declare before this
• 1:07:32
  Speaker 1: episode airs that all of it will be taken care of.
• 1:07:34
  Speaker 1: That didn't hop my god, that this shall be overflow
• 1:07:38
  Speaker 1: what you experienced from this platform and the platforms that
• 1:07:42
  Speaker 1: you should go continuously speak with, that's gonna be overflow.
• 1:07:46
  Speaker 1: That's gonna be overflowed. And so man, we're coming in
• 1:07:50
  Speaker 1: unifying with you. But if you sow this seed and
• 1:07:53
  Speaker 1: it's specifically for bowmen, I need for y'all to put
• 1:07:57
  Speaker 1: Bowman seed in the subject line. So we can get
• 1:08:01
  Speaker 1: them taken care of. They can have date night, they
• 1:08:03
  Speaker 1: can pay a bill, they can do whatever they need
• 1:08:05
  Speaker 1: to do for that household. Okay, all right, so you
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  Speaker 1: together right now, because it's the camera going to come
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  Speaker 1: back to you. All right, all right, So I know
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  Speaker 1: you've said a lot. I know that there's a lot
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  Speaker 1: that's miss said or whatever. But on this platform, we
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  Speaker 1: like to give you the finals, the final say. So
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  Speaker 1: whatever's on your heart, whether you want to land a plane,
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  Speaker 1: we say, Jude, your nonprofit, whatever, however you want to
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  Speaker 1: end this thing, the floor is yours. Okay.
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  Speaker 4: So she does have a Facebook page as well. It's
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  Speaker 4: called Standing with Crystalline. It's her name is spelled k
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  Speaker 4: r y s t a l y N. I want
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  Speaker 4: to land it with something that has kept me grounded.
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  Speaker 1: Take your time's.
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  Speaker 4: Proverbs eighteen and ten, and it says, the name of
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  Speaker 4: the Lord is a strong fortress, and the godly run
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  Speaker 4: to him and are safe. That has been my safe
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  Speaker 4: and grace. Because things change around you, Circumstances change, people change,
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  Speaker 4: circumstances change, but the Lord is consistent. Yeah, He's consistent
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  Speaker 4: in everything that he does. The grace that he stands
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  Speaker 4: towards is thank you, the hope that he gives. And
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  Speaker 4: so I just want to encourage that if he did
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  Speaker 4: it before, he'll do it again. And that's how I'm
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  Speaker 4: going to end it, because don't give up on him.
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  Speaker 4: He is the same God that he was when things
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  Speaker 4: happen back then, things that are happening right now, and
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  Speaker 4: the things that are to calm he is. He is consistent,
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  Speaker 4: So do not give up on him. Don't turn your
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  Speaker 4: back on him, because he's not gonna do that to you.
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  Speaker 4: So that's that's how gonna end it, because.
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  Speaker 1: No, you deserve listen them, do not be ashamed of
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  Speaker 1: the tears, do not like those are. God is just
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  Speaker 1: continuously working the miracle and he is continuously truven that
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  Speaker 1: he's consistent. Like you just said, so I'm excited that
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  Speaker 1: you came here. Thank you so much for being open
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  Speaker 1: to share your story on just as the podcast, we
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  Speaker 1: can't wait to just continue to help. Well, like I
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  Speaker 1: just feel like I'm just like, oh, how can we help?
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  Speaker 1: But this is what one starts to start one when.
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  Speaker 4: We're not going to overlook the fact of how you
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  Speaker 4: pray for me. We're not gonna overlook that. I'm not
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  Speaker 4: overlooking that. I'm not overlooking it at all. No, ma'am,
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  Speaker 4: we're not overlooking that. We're not gonna put that, that
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  Speaker 4: whole interaction to the side. We're not doing that. Keep
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  Speaker 4: letting the Lord looke use you and however he sees fit.
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  Speaker 1: Amen. Amen, We love you.
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  Speaker 4: We love you.
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  Speaker 1: Crystal, Crystal got miss Bowman. Crystal, y'all. I know, I
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  Speaker 1: know sometimes people people think I'm insensible. I'm over here
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  Speaker 1: fighting tears, y'all. So we got the land. I'm trying
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  Speaker 1: not to be crying with her. You listen, But I'm
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  Speaker 1: just God because God is so good. God is so good.
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  Speaker 1: And so if you heard her story and you feel
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  Speaker 1: led the soul. If you heard her story and you
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  Speaker 1: feel led and you need more information, go to her page.
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  Speaker 1: Her information is in the description. Okay, she wants to
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  Speaker 1: help you, she wants your child to be well. So
• 1:11:51
  Speaker 1: if you're experiencing some of the same things that she experienced, listen,
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  Speaker 1: this is why you landed here. There is no there
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  Speaker 1: is not it's not by happen since you, lady, hear, okay,
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  Speaker 1: and so we just thank God for this moment. We
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  Speaker 1: thank you Christal for coming does a ray. It's been
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  Speaker 1: another great one. Thank you until next time. Until next week,
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  Speaker 1: remember life could be much more simple if you just
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  Speaker 1: asked thank you for tuning in to this week's episode.
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  Speaker 1: Jessica S. Smith. I know I won't see you back
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  Speaker 1: until next week, but until then, remember to love always
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  Speaker 1: yourself and always thank.
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  Speaker 2: Thank God for one another day. Hey, hey, I know
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  Speaker 2: we could be another way. Hey, pray thank God for
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  Speaker 2: another day. Hey hey, I'm just thankful for another day.
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  Speaker 2: Hey another day? Oh, another day wise, another day to
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  Speaker 2: get it right, another day that rise up, another day living,
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  Speaker 2: another day we loved ones. I always remember hold it
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