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HHBSO 20: Move Tech Bro, I Need Stamps · He's Hot but Something's Off...

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Hello. Welcome to He's Hop AS
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something's off with me. Just Joey TI just bought stamps.
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It was the most difficult thing I bought in a while.
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I think it was more difficult for me to buy stamps than to buy
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the car switching cars. The new car is coming in a
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couple of weeks. The old one's gone.
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But yeah, I didn't know where to buy stamps and I was just
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chatting with my friend randomly.
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He's asking why are you buying snaps?
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So there's some government thing where I need to mail a form in
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and the only way they will take the form is snail mail.
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And I can't remember the last time I snail mailed anything is
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to the point where I need, even though I have to look up where
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you buy stamps, what kind of stamps you're supposed to buy
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and to buy envelopes, because I have no envelopes.
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I do have a printer. So I was able to print the form,
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fill everything out and I was reading the instructions and it
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says it's going to take 180. It could take up to 180 days for
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them to process the thing I need them to process.
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But so weird when I got the citizenship, when I did the
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citizenship application, I went on site for the interview.
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I thought the government is going to be not the most
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efficient or the fastest and somehow in that one day I was a
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citizen after like 2 hours there, which is like very fast,
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it was way faster than I expected.
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And then this other random thing, snail mail, it might take
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six months, I don't know. So anyways, I don't know where
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to add the stamps. I went and got it today.
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They sell some to CVS apparently.
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Great. Got some stamps and I've got the
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envelopes and the letters are all done.
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I don't know where to like drop off snail mail, their mailboxes
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I think where you can drop them off.
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But I'm. I don't trust it because I don't
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do this really. Does it go in any random
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mailbox? I had this random thought that
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do people vandalize the mail in the mailboxes, but if someone
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just walks by and just pours a cola into the mailbox that's on
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the sidewalk, that's just destroy all the mail because
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stuff gets like, vandalized. It was just like sitting on a
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sidewalk on the street or whatever, right?
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So yeah, I'm going to go Google later.
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How do you mail something once you have to stamp?
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Like, what are good and bad places to drop off an envelope?
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If you're a Gen. Z or millennial listening to
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this, maybe you can identify. Otherwise, I'm sure there are
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people out there that are like girl, how can you not know how
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to mail a letter? But everything is so electronic
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these days. Literally.
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I can't remember the last time I mailed anything.
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It would have been like many, several, could have been 10
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years ago, something like that. I just don't know how to do
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these things. Anyway, it's not like they teach
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you in school so I don't look up and Google everything about how
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to mail a letter. So that was great.
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I was at the CVS just now on the way home from the gym to buy
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stamps. It was easy, but usually when I
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go to any sort of store, I will prefer stores where you have,
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you don't have to talk to anyone to get what you need and to
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check out your items. So a lot of stores now, they
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have self checkout, You don't have a cashier ringing up your
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stuff, You scan your own items. It's all electronic, it's a
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machine, it's a kiosk, you know, and then you're off.
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So I highly prefer that. But for this, for the stamps, I
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had to talk to someone because the stamps are kept with the
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cashiers, like the people that work the cashier desk.
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And it wasn't that busy at the CVS, but there was this one
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person, this random guy and the cashier who was a woman and it's
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pretty quiet in the CVSI was the only person in line.
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So this guy in front of me has just gone there and he's got
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headphones on. He's got headphones on like how
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I headphones are round up there over ear headphones is on one of
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its ear and is not on the other one.
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Like how I for my left ear I pull the my my headset back.
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He was wearing it exactly the same way these over ear
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headphones and as he was walking up to the cashier he was talking
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and I just gone there so I don't know like is he on the phone?
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Is this friend around the corner?
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Is he talking to cashier and ends up he was talking to the
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cashier and he looked straight. i.e.
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My gaydar didn't go off. But anyways, and I guess it's
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not that uncommon. It's not that uncommon for
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people to make small talk with a cashier or whoever's on the
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other side of a counter that's ringing up their stuff.
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So this guy, I don't know. I never do this, but I don't
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want to make small talk. I just, I'm I'll be very nice
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and polite and everything. I don't want to make small talk,
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bring my shit up and I want to get out of here.
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But this guy was making sponsor of the girl and I can't tell.
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This is how you know I'm really gay.
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I don't know if he was like flirting with the girl or he's
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just being nice. When I got up to after he was
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done and I was talking to the chick that was like, here, she
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didn't seem like the type of person that she wasn't rude.
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She was like friendly, but she wasn't.
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She didn't seem like she was trying to make conversation with
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anyone. Very nice, very pleasant, very
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professional, no complaints. But sometimes you can tell when
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someone's chatty. I've been, I've had times where
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I'm going through a checkout for some reason or rather or like an
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Uber, and you can tell when someone is open to small talk
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and also obviously when they try to initiate small talk.
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She did not seem like that kind of person when I got up there.
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So I'm thinking, was he just hitting on her, Which I don't.
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I make it a point not to hit on anyone who's working.
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Like doesn't matter if it's the gym or whoever, how hot they
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are, like they're working there. They're not there for you to hit
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on while, at least not when you're a cashier, The CVS.
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So I was just waiting. I was killing time on my phone,
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but this guy was just making the smallest or small talks.
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They're they're talking something about I think the
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weather in California versus Idaho or something and I think
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they were talking about he was asking about where she was from
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or where he something like that. I don't know.
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And I'm just thinking is this how straight people hit on each
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other? Just how that's what I meant by
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just how gay I am. I don't know how straight people
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interact with each other to like flirt or to like hit on someone
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in gay world. Actually, I don't even know.
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I don't even know how gays hit on each other.
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I think in an every in an everyday situation with the
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gays, let's say I'm at a restaurant or something, gays
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will give each other the look and when someone's properly
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checking you out, you can tell. I think I do this thing where if
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I'm checking someone out when I'm out and about, I usually am
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too shy or nervous or afraid or whatever for them to want to
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know that I'm checking them out. So I'll like, try to sneak look
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at someone you. We've all done it.
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I've been at lunch or brunch or dinner, whatever with my
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friends. We sit down in the restaurant
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and then one of my friends will see some hot guy in the
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restaurant and they'll say, oh, check out that guy over there.
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But like, don't look because we never want that person to know
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that we're looking at them because it feels gross for
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whatever reason. But when when the gays are
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checking each other out, you can tell.
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I just don't know how it works for straight people.
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For me, eye contact, it's it's the first thing that I noticed.
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If you want to hit on some money, you can always walk up to
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the to a person, but not in a restaurant in a bar or
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something, right. I don't hit on people very much.
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That's not you think that many people I want to hit on.
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When you when you read a club or a party or like the gay cruise I
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was just on, that's a very different environment.
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It's a lot easier to like walk up to someone.
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OKI do have a lot of I have tricks for not wanting to be
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hit. I have a lot of tricks for post,
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like for for how to signal to someone that I'm not interested
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without having to say no in like a dance floor, a club or party
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type situation. And I think these are useful for
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straight people too. But in a party, for example,
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sometimes people might come up to you and they'll make small
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talk or whatever. The standard thing is to just
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not I don't want to ask questions back.
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I already don't like small talk. But if you're talking to someone
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and they're like one word answers and they're not
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answering, they're not asking you questions back.
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It's just not that into you, to be completely honest, but if you
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all want, if you all want tips on how to be standoffish, I
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think I could do that. I've had, I have some friends
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that when they first met me for the first time in a party
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situation, for whatever reason, and I believe it, I don't doubt
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them at all. I just give off this standoffish
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stance. But now that nobody thought, Oh
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yeah, you're actually like, cool now that I know you were friends
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and we can like talk and chat and hang out on whatever, But
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yeah, the other thing I was thinking about when I was in
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line with stop talking, I need to do something.
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I need to buy my stamps and get the hell out of here.
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I'm not really a very patient person.
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I don't like waiting in line, and I at the CVS, I was
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literally waiting in line. Not that long, 60 seconds.
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But if you are standing in line at the cashier and you're
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counting 12360 seconds feels like a long time when you've got
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nothing else to do. So in my head I was thinking two
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things. I was thinking one of is he
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trying to hit on her? It's kind of gross.
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It is. And the second thing is hurry
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the fuck up so I can get my sense and get the hell out of
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here. Because I wasn't trying to spend
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all day and he was in no rush, but he was making the small talk
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and I was thinking get out so I can get my shit and I can get
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out. So yeah, there you go.
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I mentioned this before. I'm carless right now.
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I mentioned in the last episode CarMax was about to come and
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take my car away. They told my car away.
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It was super easy. They had a check for me for the
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amount ready to go and it was like the same as the the price
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or whatever they offer online when I did the appointment.
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Yeah, so that was really, really smooth.
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The only thing is, I parked the car out on the curb and it was
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7:00 PM when they came and it was past sunset but before dusk.
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So it was getting dark outside, but it wasn't dark yet and it
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only took 15 minutes. It's really fast, but out on the
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curb in front of my apartment building, for whatever reason,
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there were a ton of mosquitoes that I wasn't aware of.
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There was a mosquito that was trapped in my car from the day
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before. I sold the car because I was
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clearing out all my personal belongings and everything to
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prep it the day before and I noticed there wasn't mosquito in
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the car and I couldn't find it for long enough to, like, kill
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it or shoo it out. So it bit me a couple of times
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when I was in the car for like literally a couple of minutes
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just to clear everything out of it.
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But the data CarMax came. But the data CarMax came, they I
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was on the curb and she was doing all the paperwork.
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And I've done this thing before where like a company comes to
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you to buy your car, you have to sign a bunch of paperwork.
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It's pretty standard. It's pretty easy.
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That's not the problem. But while she was going through
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all the paperwork, the mosquitoes went to town.
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I was wearing shorts. I didn't know there were
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mosquitoes out there until we were standing by my car.
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And she started going through the paperwork and then my leg
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started itching like crazy. So I was standing there and I
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was listening to her and she was swinging everything.
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And I kept like leaning over and like kicking back one of my legs
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and like, just scratch it. Afterwards, when I got back into
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the house, I kid you not. Down the back of my right leg
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there were a row of like 7 bite marks.
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When a mosquito bites you, you get the little swelling right?
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You get like the little hard spot.
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I got like seven of those, but they were all in the line down
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the back of my right leg above my ankles.
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So it was like 7 mosquitoes were chewing and lining up to feast
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on my right leg one at a time and they all picked a fresh spot
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to bite me on. Perfect line.
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Just like 123-4567, which is so it's hilarious and horrible at
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the same time. Thank God the swelling and the
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itching went away the next morning.
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I think they were all gone, but it would have been horrible if
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my leg was itchy for like days on end.
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That would have been like really, really bad.
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But anyways, I'm surprised that CarMax took the car for the
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price that they did. I can't.
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I don't have time to sell the car myself, so I was glad that
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they just took it. But I don't have the new car yet
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and I need to do a few things that require driving.
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I've been getting groceries in little bits and pieces.
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I've been going to the Trader Joe's almost every day.
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This Trader Joe's where my gym is in West Hollywood.
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It's just downstairs. So I'm now getting used to
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stopping by the Trader Joe's most days after the gym to pick
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up. Not a lot of items, only a few
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items because it's a 20 minute walk from there back to the
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house and I didn't want to carry a whole ton of heavy groceries
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for that 20 minutes. So every day that I go to the
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gym, I'll pick up a few things at a time.
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So that is not a lot to carry. But yeah, I do need to maybe
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rent a car for like a day or two before the new one comes.
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The new car doesn't come for a couple of weeks.
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You know, it's on the ship somewhere to actually go run and
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do some chores and stuff. I need to apply for my passport
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now that I'm a citizen, but you have to do that in person.
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If it's the first time you're applying for a passport and none
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of those places are in walking distance, they're like at least
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like a mile and a half two miles away or something.
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They actually do passports. I found them at the Beverly
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Hills Public Library, and I thought that must be a nice
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library. A library in the middle of
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Beverly Hills must be like a nice library, right?
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But they don't have appointments for you to do the passport there
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until January. For some weird reason.
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I guess rich people don't go to a library to get their passport.
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They probably have some sort of special concierge passport
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service where people just renew the passwords for them and they
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don't need to like go anywhere or do anything themselves, I
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assume. I don't know how super rich
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people work. Yeah, I got to go get my
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passport eventually. I also want to visit my friend
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who is a dermatologist down in Orange County.
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I want to get some prescription retinal for my face.
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You can't if you're watching the video version of this podcast
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which is available on my YouTube channel, Just Joey T and that's
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on Spotify. I don't think it's a super high
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resin, it's not zoomed in, but I'm breaking out again and I
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don't think it's the dairy. It might be a stress and I think
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this throat infection whatever sores thing that I have.
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My thought I mentioned last so might be stress related as well,
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but I have to go to the doctor tomorrow anyways for something
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else. So I'm going to ask the doctor
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like hey, do I need some antibiotics or something like
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that or yeah, so I'm going to have them take a look at that.
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You might want to go to my friend who's a dermatologist.
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He just got board certified and it's always nice when you have a
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friend who is a doctor, a medical professional and you can
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ask them for the medical advice. I feel like I've never had a a
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PCP, a primary care physician that I quite fully trust because
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I don't go to the doctor that often.
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I have to go every three months because I take prep like the
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Descovy and that's why I'm going tomorrow.
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Because once a year they wanted you to have like a review of
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like you being a prep and ask you questions and do all this
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above the bus. So you have to go with for an
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actual visit and that's what I'm doing tomorrow.
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But other than that, you go in every three months to get tested
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and do blood work, but you're not seeing the doctor, you're
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just doing the labs. So I don't see the doctor that
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much. I will go in for an annual exam
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because it's free and it's covered by the insurance and
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that it's kind of fun and the annual prep office visit, that's
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what I'm doing tomorrow. But otherwise I don't go to the
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doctor very much and therefore I don't really have a rapport with
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any with my primary care doctor. I guess if you're if you see
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your doctor all the time you build the report, it's OK.
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But yeah, so for my skin at least up into some bad.
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I don't know if I mentioned this.
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This is the 20th episode I just realized of the podcast and I
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need to start writing down the topics I talk about because
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sometimes I don't know if I talk about something already or not.
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But anyways, I've been to some dermatologist for my acne and
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some of them are very dismissive and it just kind of treat you
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like a number. So to have a dermatologist in
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the area, the OC is a little bit of drive, but it's not that far.
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That actually is someone I know, and it's an actual friend that I
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actually trust is so much better than just going to like a random
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dermatologist. I was, I was hanging over a
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friend recently a couple weeks ago, and I had never noticed
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that he had like a mark or like a scar like something on his
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face. I guess the lighting where we're
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hanging out kind of made it more obvious.
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And he said I've had it for the while.
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And I was talking to him about it and he said it was this
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particular quote, UN quote dermatologist who apparently he
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said it's actually not a dermatologist but just does like
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Botox and procedures and stuff. And he mentioned the name of
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that person. I was like, oh, I used to go to
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that person for Botox before I decided to not get Botox this
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year to, like, save money. And.
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But when he mentioned the name, this doctor, non doctor person
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has like a slightly distinctive name.
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And he, like, mentioned it just without thinking.
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And it caught my ear. And I was like, oh, is it like
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doctor or or this and this. And then he's like, yeah, I'm
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like, oh, OK well, I guess I won't go to that person anymore.
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But apparently this person, I kind of saw the fuck to my
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friend's face. Like after doing a some sort of
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procedure or whatever. I'm not going to name names on
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here because I don't know US legal litigiousness, whatever.
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But I was like, okay. Well, I can't go to that person
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anywhere. So it's really nice that I
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can't. I have a friend that's a
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dermatologist that I go see him for that stuff.
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Once I get the car, then I'm going to make the drive down
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there because yeah, you can tell.
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I can. I don't know if you can tell on
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the video I'm breaking up right now.
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It might be due to stress and the stress I'm experiencing
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lately is about money, which is because it's self-inflicted.
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To be completely honest, I'm not blaming anyone for this.
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I've been on this career break for quite a long time now and I
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think I've just gone super lazy. I think it's so easy for me to
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just wake up at 9:00 AM, have breakfast, take an hour to eat
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breakfast, and then watch some TV.
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And before you know it, oh, it's lunch time.
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Let's eat lunch. And then after I eat lunch, oh,
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it's time for the gym. Let's go to the gym.
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When you go by the gym, it's 5:00 PM And that, that's like a
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whole day. It's so easy to do.
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And I am trying to start up a business of my own.
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The thought of it's a little weird.
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I was doing IT for my day job and I like it.
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I think some parts of doing a corporate IT job that I don't
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like. It's not with the IT, the
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technical stuff. I think it really depends on the
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culture of the company, the people that I work with, and
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that's where that was the part that I didn't like.
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I don't like my boss at my last job and I didn't really like the
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people I was working with, the culture.
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I think I've dug into this on like the first or second episode
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of the podcast. I dug into this.
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So if we were to rewind and go, no hit up that stuff, yeah.
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So I I want to start on my own business, but I think I know so
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little about starting with business that is a little bit
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kind of sort of that paralysis where oh, you don't even know
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exactly what to do, so you just don't do anything.
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But the other part of it is just me getting lazy.
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So to have the motivation to just do something and just go do
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it. I think I overthink things quite
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a bit. So I'm I've been luckily able
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the last few days to get myself to a mode where one step at a
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time, don't think, don't try to think 5 steps ahead.
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Because that's when I sabotage myself, when I try to tackle
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something that I don't know to convince myself and remind
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myself. But everyone starts a business
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and they've never done it before.
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Like, obviously there are lots of things that they don't know
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that's mean you shouldn't try, like just take baby steps.
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So the last couple of days I've been writing out kind of the
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the, the brand vision for you know what the brand represents
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and what the brand's values are doing.
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A little bit of a write up on what type of how we, how the
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products and how the brand would fit into the market versus the
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competitors that are already in the marketplace and what type of
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demo demographic is that the word, what type of people we
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would likely target with our market positioning.
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And it's actually something very interesting for me to like think
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about in my head because part of part of doing this exercises,
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where does the brand fit in, in terms of what what new
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interesting things are you bringing to the market.
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That's just not exactly what someone else is doing, right?
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Because I feel like if you're going to be selling a product or
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service, what makes your product or service different,
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differentiated from what everyone else is doing,
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Especially if it's a market where it's well established and
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there are hundreds of other companies kind of sort of doing
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the same thing, maybe offering very similar products.
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You know what? How are you going to
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differentiate yourself what, how watches someone buy your product
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or service versus the same or very similar product, service
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from the hundred other companies that already exist in that
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space? And I believe I do you have you
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know like a unique taken angle in terms of like the brand
23:56
positioning and how we're going to market the products and like
23:59
the target demographic that we're going to go after.
24:02
So that part I'm actually quite excited about to have that
24:08
uniqueness, that kind of value proposition that our brand has
24:12
that the vast majority of the existing other companies in that
24:17
category in the industry do not have.
24:19
So I think the, I just have to keep reminding myself, you know,
24:26
yes, it's a business, but like don't think so seriously about
24:29
it and don't try to like think too many steps ahead just like
24:34
get something done today. They just get one thing done
24:36
today and just keep chipping away at it.
24:41
I think it would be really awesome if I can get it to a
24:44
point where I can start, actually.
24:47
I can have the product be ready to sell and stocked up with
24:53
fulfillment service by the end of the year or maybe like in
24:57
January. And I I think it's going to take
25:02
work to get there, but I'm just not trying to slap myself out
25:06
and but I know I can just get this myself.
25:08
We're like, Oh my God, it's so much work.
25:10
My head then kind of shuts down that and I'm sitting on the
25:12
couch watching TV, not doing anything.
25:14
So tiny little baby steps and yeah, I will have to invest a
25:23
amount of money that I'm going to pull from my investments and
25:26
my savings. I mean you have to spend some
25:28
money to make some money. I don't think my business is
25:30
going to turn any significant profit for like the first little
25:34
bit. I kind of want to do this kind
25:36
of soft launch where Okay make the products and have the
25:41
products like ready to go, have it be in the warehouses, have it
25:45
be available online where people can buy it, kind of do like a
25:49
soft launch because no one really know about it.
25:51
And then when I get to that point then I'm going to really
25:55
have to learn and figure out how to really market the products.
26:00
And I think that's the point. You noticed that I'm have not
26:03
mentioned what this products last service is and that's
26:07
intentional. I feel like I'm not ready to
26:10
kind of reveal what I'm working on yet.
26:13
But I think once we get to the point where we have sellable
26:16
products and I know that okay, this is like actually something
26:21
I can offer and people can actually get, that's where I'm
26:26
going to be more comfortable talking to you guys and
26:29
actually, you know, saying out loud to people, hey, this is my
26:33
company, this is my product. People can actually go buy it
26:36
now. But yeah, the marketing part I
26:40
think is where I'm careful not to sight myself out.
26:43
I'm not good at marketing. And you know, just starting with
26:46
a business, I don't really have that much money to hire someone,
26:50
but I think I would rather kind of sort of do that.
26:53
I'm probably going to go look for some marketing expertise a
26:56
little later on once the product is ready to go.
26:58
It's in the factories or it's in the and what's, I don't know, a
27:01
workout. I'm working on some of the
27:02
fulfillment issues. Once the product's ready to go
27:05
on sale, the marketing is really what's going to make it or break
27:10
it. So it's kind of exciting and
27:11
scary at the same time a little bit, but I'm kind of sitting on
27:15
myself a goal which feels like very, it feels very attainable
27:24
and like very kind of impossible.
27:27
At the same time, I keep hearing this stat where but only 20 to
27:31
30% of small startup businesses actually succeed.
27:36
Or metric they're measuring success by, but I'm determined
27:40
not to get discouraged. I'm gonna take it one day at a
27:43
time and just at least do one thing every day.
27:46
Yeah, until I kind of get this off the ground.
27:49
And I'm also reminding myself, you know what?
27:53
If you spend X amount of dollars, I'm not spending my
27:55
life savings on it. I think I'm spending a sizable
27:58
but a manageable chunk of my money to do this.
28:01
And you know what? If I really don't want to do it,
28:05
there's no shame in just shutting it down.
28:07
I think there's part of me where I like, I don't like losing.
28:10
And I I mean a lot you don't. You don't set out to fail,
28:13
right? You set out to be successful.
28:15
You set out to win. You set out to get an A on that
28:17
test. You set out to win first prize
28:19
in the competition. So obviously I'm setting up to
28:23
be successful. But I also like the comfort of
28:27
you know what? You're starting a business for
28:29
yourself and give it, give it the, you know, good old college
28:33
try. Really try though.
28:36
And if for whatever reason it's not successful, don't take it
28:41
the wrong way. It's just not meant to be and we
28:43
can just cut our losses and move on.
28:46
That provides me some sort of comfort.
28:49
It's not like, you know, what if you if you do this and it fails,
28:54
your life is ruined. You know, it's not that bad.
28:57
Sometimes failure, failure is not necessarily a bad thing.
29:01
You know, as long as you learn from your mistakes and you kind
29:05
of sort of grow and get something out of it, I think
29:09
that's fine. We all make mistakes and we all
29:11
learn from them. So yeah, it's something I'm
29:15
going to work on. Hopefully by the end of the year
29:18
or maybe in January, I've got something to announce.
29:21
I'm really excited to be my own boss.
29:24
Actually. I don't even like that term.
29:26
But I'm I'm if one day this company is successful enough to
29:32
the point where I don't want to be like the next whatever super
29:36
big brand in this industry, but successful enough where we can
29:41
make good products and have new products come out and then also
29:47
be able to hire people. And that I think would be so
29:54
cool to be able to run a company that where I've got other people
29:59
working with me and run a workplace and run a company the
30:05
way I would like to run it and not be working for someone else
30:09
and have to a bit by someone else's rules.
30:12
One of the things I don't like with Oh my God, so the TE bitch.
30:17
One of the things I don't like about some of the companies, not
30:21
all of them, some of the companies I've worked for before
30:23
that were like tech startup companies, is that sometimes it
30:28
feels like a cult. It just feels like the CEO is
30:33
usually the founder of that company and they're still with
30:37
that company for like smaller startups like tech startups,
30:40
right? And we heard this term like tech
30:43
Bros in Silicon Valley. Sometimes it feels like a cult
30:45
when you work for some of these companies and kind of sort of on
30:48
the surface or at first glance in when you're working as an
30:53
employee of the company, it feels like the culture is like,
30:56
oh, nice and fun and everything, which is like typical Silicon
30:58
Valley kind of company culture that all these tech startups
31:03
aspire to, right? And then once in a while you get
31:05
free food and it's more like lax and people need to dress in the
31:09
suits and kind of stuff, that kind of vibe.
31:12
But the longer you work in some of those, sometimes it kind of
31:16
feels like because these companies usually are private
31:21
companies and the cofounder is the CEO, the founders are the
31:24
CEO's are like they're at the very top of the company.
31:27
Kind of feels like a little bit of whatever they want is how
31:31
everyone should act. In a way, yeah.
31:36
Because they're they, they own the company and they founded the
31:39
company. So it's kind of sort of like
31:40
it's hard to disagree with them. But this this one company I work
31:44
for when I'm not going to mention anything but where I was
31:47
an IT person there and we just needed some stands for the
31:51
iPads. Every conference room had an
31:53
iPad on the table so you can work the video conferencing
31:56
system. And this particular CEO, first
32:00
of all, he's fucking asshole. Second of all, he didn't like
32:04
the stands I picked for the iPads.
32:08
And I'm thinking one time he came by my desk and he actually
32:11
used the F word and to be like, oh what what the fuck kind of
32:15
stands are these? And like, I was that typical my
32:18
server, like, Oh my God, sorry, I will send you some options.
32:21
And he walked away. I don't ever want to be in that
32:24
position again. You know, I I don't.
32:27
I had enough of like my parents yelling at me when I was growing
32:30
up where I was just so scared of, like, authority figures,
32:35
like, mom. Yeah, I love my mom and nowadays
32:37
she doesn't yell at me. I've talked about this before
32:39
but growing up my mom was like very strict with us, right.
32:42
So I still have this thing where sometimes I'll be doing
32:46
something and I have this nagging, subconscious voice in
32:51
my head that's like, Oh my God, am I doing something wrong?
32:54
Am I going to get yelled at? So that's kind of stuck with me.
32:57
I have a lot of authority figures yell at me and previous,
32:59
you know, like, like teachers and that kind of stuff.
33:02
And my mom, that's where if I ever are in a situation
33:08
nowadays, like with a boss and everything, I always have this
33:10
little voice in my head that thinks, Oh my God like it is.
33:14
Is my boss angry with me or upset with me in some way, shape
33:19
or form? And I get like little like
33:21
scared. Have that fear.
33:22
I don't want to be in that position where like like with
33:25
this boss, like first of all if you're running a whole fucking
33:28
company is your priority really what the iPad stands look like
33:32
in the conference rooms fucking eight.
33:34
No. So at that moment I was that you
33:38
know that trauma if you were that I had can like wear his
33:42
head And it was very much like, Oh my God, like I'm sorry.
33:45
I was sending you some options for like some news stands and
33:47
blah blah blah. Now that I'm thinking about it,
33:51
or like after that interaction where I had some time to
33:53
decompress, I was thinking, this guy's just a fucking asshole.
33:57
I one of the reasons I want to be my own boss.
34:00
If I ever am lucky enough to have to be in the position where
34:03
to hire people. I want to treat people the way I
34:07
want to be treated. And with some of these companies
34:10
that I work for, just these cofounders like not to like
34:16
write on a stereotype, but it's it's always these like
34:20
middleaged white tech Bros that it feels a little bit like a
34:24
cult. Like, you know, whatever they
34:26
say, they think it's like gold and everyone needs to kind of
34:31
sort of worship them because they founded this company and
34:34
they're paying your paycheck. I just don't subscribe to that
34:39
anymore. So my feelings and attitudes on,
34:43
you know, the employeremployee relationship is very different.
34:47
I would love to work for a company where it's not some
34:50
white. Do it at the top.
34:52
You know, I would love to work for a company that, you know,
34:55
we're the CEO or the leadership. You know, it's predominantly not
34:59
white people, not like some like middle age-old white people.
35:03
No offense to white people, but like, you know, why can't we
35:07
have more people that are that look like me?
35:09
There are that are people of color that are leading the
35:15
company or, you know, running it, operating it.
35:18
Why don't we have more women? Why don't we have more, you
35:20
know, people of various backgrounds or people, different
35:25
cultures that not just like that stereotypical white techno
35:28
person from Silicon Valley? And I think that's one of the
35:31
reasons why I decided to take kind of this career break
35:36
because I was in tech, I was working for tech startups and
35:39
you know, it's always been like these, you know, like
35:42
middle-aged white people at the top.
35:43
And doesn't mean they're all, I'm not saying all middle-aged
35:46
white people are bad people, but just my experiences.
35:48
You know what I want to change? I want to, I want to work for
35:53
someone who is not some Silicon Valley tech bro.
35:57
You know it's not really the it's not really the best when
36:02
you get that label. So yeah that interaction stuck
36:05
with me. Like honestly you're don't worry
36:08
about the iPad stands bitch. Go run the fucking company.
36:12
And I'll say the company's not even that successful.
36:13
It's still it's still going, but it's just like no one listened
36:18
to this podcast. There's 20 people that listened
36:19
to this podcast and if some if if for some reason anyone that I
36:24
work without a company heard that story, they will
36:27
automatically probably already know, oh they're talking about
36:30
that company because yeah. I don't, I don't.
36:36
I I want to be. I want to be the type of
36:40
business owner that is the opposite of that.
36:44
It's like you want to take vacation to go to like a party
36:48
do it sounds everything's taken care of.
36:50
You want to go to EBC? Yeah.
36:52
Take a week off. You want to go on a cruise go
36:55
for it. You know, I I that's the kind of
36:58
culture that I want. If I were able to have my own
37:00
company where I have employees, I, you know, yeah, that that's
37:05
what I want. So to have the opportunity to
37:07
maybe have that with this company, I'm trying to start in
37:10
the future in a way it's pretty exciting.
37:13
So having said that, I am on the job hunt because hey, I do need
37:20
some money to come in. And again, if I can find a
37:23
company to work for where you know, like the leadership is
37:25
good, the culture is good, maybe not a tech startup anymore.
37:30
I still like doing the IT like the IT work actually enjoy
37:33
doing. So yeah, we'll see how that
37:36
goes. I'm on LinkedIn every day
37:38
looking for jobs right now and I just feel like kind of feel like
37:42
eventually there will be like opening or like a job posting
37:47
that's going to jump out at me. Right now everything is just
37:50
very like, blah blah blah blah, blah.
37:52
Every, every job, every posting for every company for that type
37:55
of role. It just looks like pretty much
37:57
the same. But something tells me
38:00
eventually I'm going to land on something good that's worth
38:04
waiting for, so I'm not sweating it.
38:06
So yeah, we'll see. All right.
38:10
Again, if you want to see all the pimples on my face right
38:14
now, the video version of this podcast is available on my
38:17
YouTube channel, Just Joey T and also on Spotify.
38:20
But until next time, bye.