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- Ted Thao: Welcome to Internal Insights, a quick, honest conversation about mental health in about five minutes or less. I'm your host Ted Tao, a licensed professional counselor, and the owner of Internal Insights Therapy in San Antonio, Texas. Every episode, we take one idea from therapy, trauma, anxiety, relationships, identity, and talk about it plainly. No jargon, no fluff, just something real. Let's get into it. Have you ever said, I just want to figure this one out on my own and watch someone's face fall like you told them you don't need them anymore? That reaction says a lot more about how we've come to think about independence than it does about you. When most people hear the word independent, they picture someone staying off by themselves. No help, no closeness, and maybe even a little cold. Like independence and connections. Are opposites, and choosing one means giving up the other. But that's not really what independence means. At its core, independence is the ability to choose, to choose how you spend your time, what you believe, who you lit close to you, and yes, sometimes to choose who you lean on. Being independent doesn't mean you never need anyone. It means you get to decide who's in your corner instead of just going along with whoever's there. Think about it like this. Imagine your life is a house and every relationship is a door. Being dependent is like having those doors swung wide open whether you want them to or not. Anyone can walk in, anyone can leave. And you don't really have much say in it. Being independent is having a house where you hold the keys. You can open a door wide for the people who feel good to for you to have around, and you can leave it shut for the people who drain you. And that's not exclusion. That's just someone finally being in charge of their own front door. A lot of us grew up in families or cultures where closeness is shown through togetherness. Doing these things as a unit, checking in constantly, putting your family's needs ahead of your own, there is a real beauty in that. But somewhere along the way, some of us picked up the idea that wanting space or wanting to make our own decisions meant we were rejecting the people who raised us. That's rarely true. Wanting independence usually isn't about pushing people out. It's about wanting to have a say. And opening or closing a door. This actually connects a lot to what I hear in sessions. Someone would tell me, why do I feel so guilty about wanting to be independent? Like I'm doing something wrong just by wanting space to make my own choices. Here's what I usually say the guilt didn't come out of nowhere. If you grew up somewhere that equated closeness with obligation. Then wanting independence can feel like betrayal, even when it isn't one. Your nervous system learned that pulling away, even in healthy ways, was risky. So the guilt shows up as a kind of alarm bell. But the alarm was going off over something that wasn't even a threat. Wanting independence doesn't mean you love people in your life any less. It means you're noticing you're allowed to have a say in your own life too. Those two things can live together. You can be someone who deeply values family and connection and still want to be someone who makes choices for themselves. That's not selfish. That's what it looks like to be a whole person. If this guilt shows up the next time you are choosing yourself, try not to take it as proof you did something wrong. Take it as a sign. You're being someone with your own front door and your own set of keys. You're not closing anybody out. It's just you finally being the one who decides to let come in. That's it for this episode of Internal Insights. If this gave you something to sit with, or just made you feel a little less alone, that's the whole point. This isn't a replacement for therapy, but if you're looking for support, you can find me at Internal Insights Therapy in San Antonio, Texas. Thank you for spending five minutes with me. I'll see you next time.