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Trauma · Apostle Lazarus Femi

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  Speaker 1: Apostle Fermi Lazarus is a man raised by God to
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  Speaker 1: demonstrate his wisdom and authority to the last day church.
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  Speaker 1: He is the lead pastor of Sphere of Light Church
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  Speaker 1: and God told him years ago that a time will
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  Speaker 1: come where my wisdom will be needed to navigate tough
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  Speaker 1: times in the body of Christ.
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  Speaker 2: Then I will cause your voice to be heard.
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  Speaker 1: And all who pay attention to my word on your
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  Speaker 1: lips will not lack light and direction. He's a man
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  Speaker 1: sent from God, sent to raise God's end time armies.
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  Speaker 1: With Apostle Fermi Lazarus, every minute counts as you listen attentively.
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  Speaker 2: All right, start a new series on the subject titled, What? Trauma. Alright,
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  Speaker 2: and I'm going to show you scripture. Let me show
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  Speaker 2: you a scripture. Mark chapter number 8, verse 24. The
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  Speaker 2: book of Mark, chapter number 8, verse what? 24. Are
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  Speaker 2: you there? If you're there, say Amen. Be quiet. Mark 8.
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  Speaker 2: Now let me start the reading from verse 22 so
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  Speaker 2: we can have contextual background to understanding this. And he
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  Speaker 2: cometh to Bethesda. And they bring a blind man unto him,
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  Speaker 2: and besought him to touch him. And he took the
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  Speaker 2: blind man, and led him out of the town. And
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  Speaker 2: when he had spit on his eyes, and put his
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  Speaker 2: hand upon him, he haxed him, if he saw, that is,
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  Speaker 2: if he could now see. Then the man looked up
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  Speaker 2: and he looked up and said, I see men as
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  Speaker 2: trees walking. After he put his hands again upon his
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  Speaker 2: eyes and made him look up and he was restored.
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  Speaker 2: And he saw every man clearly. And he sent him
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  Speaker 2: away to his house saying, neither go into the town
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  Speaker 2: nor tell it to anyone in the town. We know
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  Speaker 2: the drama that followed. But there's something really. We miss something.
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  Speaker 2: Whenever we look at this scripture. The man had never seen.
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  Speaker 2: In his life. Never for once. And the person praying
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  Speaker 2: for him. Jesus himself. He did not delegate. He prayed
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  Speaker 2: for him. Himself. As a matter of fact. He took
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  Speaker 2: it extra. Okay. Okay. When the blind man came, the
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  Speaker 2: Bible said he held him by the hand and led
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  Speaker 2: him away from the people. Then Jesus spat on his face.
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  Speaker 2: The first thing the man saw was men like trees. Listen.
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  Speaker 2: When you begin to do the kind of things you
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  Speaker 2: have never done before, you perceive everyone else as superior
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  Speaker 2: and yourself as inferior. Listen, listen. Where was he talking from?
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  Speaker 2: It was the blue that blindness had dealt to him.
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  Speaker 2: A man who had never seen. How did he notice?
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  Speaker 2: What he was simply saying is that the kind of
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  Speaker 2: people I'm seeing don't look like me. They are taller.
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  Speaker 2: They are higher and they are bigger. The reason why
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  Speaker 2: I'm taking this subject is a prophetic subject for this year.
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  Speaker 2: You are about to step into the kind of field
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  Speaker 2: you have never stepped in. And you must not perceive
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  Speaker 2: men as trees. Are you following what I'm saying here?
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  Speaker 2: I know you have seen life to an extent. But
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  Speaker 2: you are about to see something entirely new that will
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  Speaker 2: blow your mind. You are about to enter into rooms
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  Speaker 2: that and corridors, where you must not perceive men as priests.
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  Speaker 2: While I was praying, preparing for this meeting, one of
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  Speaker 2: my daughters just sent me a video that I posted.
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  Speaker 2: I'm inside a private jet, flying with our woman. I
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  Speaker 2: said to her, never show it to people that you
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  Speaker 2: are too privileged to be with them. Own that place.
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  Speaker 2: When God lifts you, if he has not dealt with
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  Speaker 2: the scales in your mind, you will see men like
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  Speaker 2: trees and they will know you don't belong there. Okay?
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  Speaker 2: He said, I've seen men like trees. These guys are
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  Speaker 2: too tall. They are higher. Where was he talking from?
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  Speaker 2: He had never seen. He had never seen. I'm going somewhere.
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  Speaker 2: The known can traumatize the new. What you have always
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  Speaker 2: known can restrict everything else God wants to do. And
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  Speaker 2: that's why you need to wake up. Alright? And you
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  Speaker 2: look at this, I mean, search across scriptures, you will
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  Speaker 2: see several episodes of people who kept seeing men Like trees.
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  Speaker 2: And the reality of that. Was that they never stepped
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  Speaker 2: into God's best for them. Because they were traumatized. Exodus
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  Speaker 2: chapter number 1. Are you with me? Exodus 1. Now
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  Speaker 2: let's look at a conversation here. Alright. Let's start reading
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  Speaker 2: from verse 6. And Joseph died. And all his brethren.
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  Speaker 2: And all that generation died. And the children of Israel
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  Speaker 2: were fruitful and increased abundantly and multiplied and waxed exceeding mighty,
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  Speaker 2: and the land was full of them, was filled with them.
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  Speaker 2: And there arose a new king over Egypt, which knew
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  Speaker 2: not Joseph. Let me say this to you as a
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  Speaker 2: word of encouragement. As God lives you in life, you
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  Speaker 2: will meet people who pretend like they don't know about
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  Speaker 2: your exploits. It is not because your expert is small.
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  Speaker 2: It's because their mind is small. When you meet such people,
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  Speaker 2: embrace them and help their esteem. Is that okay now?
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  Speaker 2: The mark of Joseph was so loud, it would take
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  Speaker 2: three times to ignore it. But this guy deliberately said,
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  Speaker 2: who is Joseph? Is he an Egyptian? No, forget about him. Alright?
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  Speaker 2: And the reason why he did that is clear. There
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  Speaker 2: arose up a new king. He didn't know Joseph. We too,
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  Speaker 2: we don't know him. Aha. Alright, which knew not Joseph.
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  Speaker 2: And he said unto his people, Behold, the people of
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  Speaker 2: the children of Israel are more. Somehow they say more.
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  Speaker 2: That's the first population. And mightier. Might now talks about
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  Speaker 2: their capability. Their strength as a people. Look at it.
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  Speaker 2: They are more and mightier than we. Come on. Let
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  Speaker 2: us deal wisely with them. Lest they multiply themselves. And
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  Speaker 2: it comes to pass that when they forlet out any war,
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  Speaker 2: they join also unto our enemies and fight against us.
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  Speaker 2: And so get them out of the land. And they
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  Speaker 2: did say, I don't have time. Go and listen to
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  Speaker 2: my message, reversing the mistakes of Joseph, to show you
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  Speaker 2: that they actually built two estates for them. Okay? Let's continue. Therefore,
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  Speaker 2: they did set over them taxmasters to afflict them with
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  Speaker 2: their burdens. And they built for Pharaoh treasure cities, Phaethon, Ramses.
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  Speaker 2: But the more they afflicted them, the more they multiplied
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  Speaker 2: and grew. And they were grieved because of the children
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  Speaker 2: of Israel. And the Egyptians made the children of Israel
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  Speaker 2: to serve with rigor and made their lives bitter. With
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  Speaker 2: hard bondage. In mortar and in bricks. And in all
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  Speaker 2: manner of service in the field. And all their service.
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  Speaker 2: Wherein they made themselves. Was with rigor. That was what
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  Speaker 2: they did. Okay. I showed you this. When Pharaoh observed them.
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  Speaker 2: They had two dimensions of growth. The first is numbers.
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  Speaker 2: The second is strength. When they dealt with them. There
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  Speaker 2: was no more conversation about strength. What was left was what? Numbers.
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  Speaker 2: So you can see that with African nations. They have
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  Speaker 2: the power. They used to have what it takes to
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  Speaker 2: be world power. And then they dealt with them. Now
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  Speaker 2: you hear the most populous this and the most populous that.
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  Speaker 2: Because affliction takes away might and leaves you with numbers.
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  Speaker 2: You must understand that. Affliction takes away might and leaves
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  Speaker 2: you with what? Numbers. Never trivialize sufferings. Even when the
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  Speaker 2: suffering is gone, the man may still be suffering from
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  Speaker 2: the effect. And I'll share some of my funny stories
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  Speaker 2: that I suffered. But there's no trophy for suffering. Because
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  Speaker 2: if all of us start arguing now, say, I suffered
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  Speaker 2: more than you. They are not necessary. But you will
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  Speaker 2: discover that even when that season is over, you still
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  Speaker 2: have the tendency or the ability to do to yourself
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  Speaker 2: what your affliction did to you. Let's assume. Let's use
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  Speaker 2: the Nigerian one. Simple one. Okay? When you go to
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  Speaker 2: the market and buy meat, the sizes you cut them to,
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  Speaker 2: is it your affliction to your oppressors that are doing that? No.
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  Speaker 2: You have continued from where they stopped. That's the orientation.
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  Speaker 2: Affliction does it to a level. You do it better.
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  Speaker 2: They afflicted them. Okay? And they never recovered. They never did.
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  Speaker 2: And that's why we must not trivialize this teaching. Because
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  Speaker 2: I'm just getting started. They never recovered. They never recovered.
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  Speaker 2: At some point, they were saying that we miss the garlics,
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  Speaker 2: the cucumbers, the melon, and the leeks in Egypt, plus
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  Speaker 2: the chains. Because when a man goes through the furnace
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  Speaker 2: of affliction, he loses his self-perception. And that's why I've
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  Speaker 2: come to announce again, you are not your problems. Every
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  Speaker 2: challenge you are facing or that you have faced only
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  Speaker 2: came to pass. And be careful of your bargains while
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  Speaker 2: you are in it. Because you may bargain your word
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  Speaker 2: out of it. Is that clear now? Very important. Okay?
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  Speaker 2: I teach people some business principles. Don't make bargains when
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  Speaker 2: you are too excited. You may sell yourself. You are
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  Speaker 2: going to discuss business with somebody talking fast. Giving you
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  Speaker 2: things that will make you excited. You will sign contract.
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  Speaker 2: You will discover, I did not read it. Because you
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  Speaker 2: are not calming down. And don't make bargains when you
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  Speaker 2: are down. Okay? Because little things will communicate your essence.
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  Speaker 2: You must understand that. So, this is a real thing.
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  Speaker 2: The devil has tried it again and again. And guess what?
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  Speaker 2: It is working. The devil has done that across scriptures
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  Speaker 2: again and again. And it is working. So, let me
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  Speaker 2: begin to introduce you to our conversation tonight. What is trauma?
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  Speaker 2: What is trauma? I'm going to give you different definitions.
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  Speaker 2: But understand that I'm focusing particularly on the mind. Because
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  Speaker 2: as a man thinks in his heart, so is he.
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  Speaker 2: A trauma is an injury to the mind or emotions.
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  Speaker 2: An injury to the mind or emotions. Take that as
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  Speaker 2: first definition. Number two, an unforgettable experience that scars the
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  Speaker 2: soul An unforgettable experience that scars the soul. Number three.
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  Speaker 2: Number one, I said an injury to the mind or emotions.
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  Speaker 2: Number two, an unforgettable experience that scars the soul. Number three,
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  Speaker 2: a disturbing or distressing experience. A disturbing or distressing experience.
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  Speaker 2: Number four. An emotional wound leading to psychological injury. Alright?
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  Speaker 2: An emotional wound leading to psychological injury. So, what do
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  Speaker 2: we want to ask? Why is he teaching on the
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  Speaker 2: subject of trauma? In the body of Christ. There are
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  Speaker 2: many things that need to be taught. Salvation is there.
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  Speaker 2: Let me show you. Are you with your Bibles? Luke
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  Speaker 2: chapter number 4 please. So let me start reading from
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  Speaker 2: verse 16 so we can have background to this conversation.
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  Speaker 2: Luke 4 from verse 16. And he came to Nazareth
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  Speaker 2: where he had been brought up as his custom was.
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  Speaker 2: And he went into the synagogue on the Sabbath day
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  Speaker 2: and stood up for to read. And there was delivered
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  Speaker 2: unto him the book of the prophet Isaiah's. The word
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  Speaker 2: there is actually another spelling for Isaiah. And when he
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  Speaker 2: had opened the book, he found the place where it
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  Speaker 2: was written. The Spirit of the Lord is upon me,
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  Speaker 2: for he has anointed me, because he has anointed me
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  Speaker 2: to preach the gospel to the poor. He has sent
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  Speaker 2: me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives,
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  Speaker 2: and the rediscovering of sight to the blind, to set
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  Speaker 2: at liberty them that are bruised, to preach the acceptable
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  Speaker 2: ear of the Lord. And he closed the book. So
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  Speaker 2: when he said, he has anointed me to do what
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  Speaker 2: to the brokenhearted? To heal. Somebody said to heal. Said
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  Speaker 2: again to heal. Let me show you what that means
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  Speaker 2: in the simplest way you should never forget. Okay? Please come.
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  Speaker 2: One of the personalities I love so much, I read
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  Speaker 2: his books and I saw a movie that was acted
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  Speaker 2: out just for him. It's the man Nelson Mandela. If
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  Speaker 2: you want to, probably people have been asking me, what
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  Speaker 2: kind of books do you read? I recommend Long Walk
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  Speaker 2: to Freedom. But listen, when they arrested him And his friends.
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  Speaker 2: And they took them to. I think Pretoria first. And
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  Speaker 2: they were in prison. The first thing they did. And
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  Speaker 2: check any prison. Somebody gets to the prison. One of
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  Speaker 2: the first thing they do in the prison. Is to
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  Speaker 2: take the clothes off the person. And most times shave
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  Speaker 2: the hair. It is a way of announcing. We own you. Okay. Okay.
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  Speaker 2: And the idea of those systems is to get a
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  Speaker 2: man there and pass him through scripted curriculums to the
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  Speaker 2: end that you break him. So how do you break
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  Speaker 2: a man? Pass him through dehumanizing situations. His will will bend.
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  Speaker 2: The sense of might in him will bow. You know
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  Speaker 2: the man is broken when he switches from asking for
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  Speaker 2: freedom to asking for food. What that means is he
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  Speaker 2: can no longer perceive life outside. He is now institutionalized.
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  Speaker 2: Are you with me? Let me explain. This is the
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  Speaker 2: reason why you see that if a man stays long
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  Speaker 2: in prison, Chances are very high that he's coming back.
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  Speaker 2: Because the curriculum of the prison is to make sure
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  Speaker 2: that he cannot find identity in the real world. When
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  Speaker 2: he gets outside the real world, he's a nobody. But
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  Speaker 2: in the prison, he's a class captain. When he gets
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  Speaker 2: outside in the real world, he doesn't have anything. In
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  Speaker 2: the prison, somebody is fanning him. So, when you break
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  Speaker 2: a man, he becomes a king in a cubicle. And
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  Speaker 2: he can no longer see himself where it really matters.
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  Speaker 2: So what does he mean to be broken at it?
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  Speaker 2: Because sometimes when you read that scripture, you feel his
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  Speaker 2: heart break. No. Let me read this scripture in another translation.
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  Speaker 2: We need to understand. And this is the gospel. Is
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  Speaker 2: that okay? I'm going to show you another part. This
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  Speaker 2: is the scripture. Still that same Luke chapter number 4
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  Speaker 2: Luke 4, 18. He said, God's Spirit is upon me
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  Speaker 2: because He has chosen me to preach the message. of
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  Speaker 2: good news to the poor, sent me to announce pardon
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  Speaker 2: to prisoners, recovery of sight to the blind, to set
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  Speaker 2: the burdened, the burdened and the battered, the burdened and
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  Speaker 2: the what? The battered, those that life has shattered them,
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  Speaker 2: to announce God's year Alright? Let me read Amplified. Look
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  Speaker 2: at it. It said, The Spirit of the Lord is
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  Speaker 2: upon me because He has anointed me, the anointed one,
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  Speaker 2: the Messiah, to preach good news, the gospel, to the poor.
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  Speaker 2: He has sent me to announce the release of captives
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  Speaker 2: and recovery of sight to the blind, to send forth
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  Speaker 2: as delivered those who are oppressed, downtrodden, bruised, crushed, and
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  Speaker 2: broken down by calamity. There is a dimension of healing
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  Speaker 2: we are used to. Broken bones straightened out. Tumors disappearing.
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  Speaker 2: However powerful those ones are, when a person who is
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  Speaker 2: broken on the inside is healed, he will still be small.
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  Speaker 2: What I'm trying to tell you is that a person
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  Speaker 2: can be on a wheelchair for 20 years and everybody
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  Speaker 2: sees the person and concludes that this person is broke
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  Speaker 2: because he's on a wheelchair And 10 years after raising
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  Speaker 2: from wheelchair, he's still small. Because now the wheelchair is
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  Speaker 2: in the mind. So I saw a story a while back. Well,
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  Speaker 2: I don't know if it's fiction, but I read the
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  Speaker 2: story somewhere. There's this guy that they were using to
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  Speaker 2: test the integrity of prisons. So when they create or
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  Speaker 2: develop a new prison or build a new prison they
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  Speaker 2: will bring him there to test the integrity so he
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  Speaker 2: used to break the jail and escape and he had
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  Speaker 2: escaped from every prison they have ever put him and
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  Speaker 2: finally there was this time they invited him to break
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  Speaker 2: this particular one and the guy did everything he tried
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  Speaker 2: checking the routine of the warders check when they do
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  Speaker 2: this when they go on shift try to observe everything
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  Speaker 2: And he was not getting any clue. And he was
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  Speaker 2: there longer than he had stayed in any prison. And
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  Speaker 2: one time he was broken. Okay? Don't forget what I said.
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  Speaker 2: Being broken means he gave up. He could no longer
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  Speaker 2: see himself outside that thing. And he was crying. And
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  Speaker 2: he fell against the door of the prison. And when
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  Speaker 2: he fell against that door, the door opened. And it
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  Speaker 2: occurred to him, the real key that kept him was
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  Speaker 2: not bars of iron. It was in his mind. And
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  Speaker 2: when the devil gets people there, the Bible said what
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  Speaker 2: they need is what? Healing. Because affliction of the past
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  Speaker 2: can traumatize a man and take away the possibility of
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  Speaker 2: thinking anything better can come out. And you know that
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  Speaker 2: you will have to be healed to enter into your
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  Speaker 2: promised land. You have to. Because there are things you
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  Speaker 2: can't conceive, not because anybody is holding whip, but because
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  Speaker 2: life has shown you before. It's not yours. It's time
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  Speaker 2: to rethink. It's time to rediscover. I might have suffered,
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  Speaker 2: but that's not who I am. I said suffering tries
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  Speaker 2: to give you a new identity. It tries to change
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  Speaker 2: your perspective. Just like Nigerians. We are used to it.
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  Speaker 2: It's just four years. Let's let them. Four years like that.
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  Speaker 2: much suffering. We have acclimatized. When an African Nigerian gets
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  Speaker 2: to America, he sees men like trees. He's inferior. Meanwhile,
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  Speaker 2: the only difference is melanin. Period. That's why I told
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  Speaker 2: you it was the injured mind of Joseph that that
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  Speaker 2: was making him beg that guy, when you come out,
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  Speaker 2: bring me out. At least let me get a job
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  Speaker 2: as a butler. Level one. But the original design is
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  Speaker 2: that you are coming out to be the prime minister
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  Speaker 2: that same day. It is not going to be by favor,
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  Speaker 2: it will be by competence. Sometimes this aggression after favor
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  Speaker 2: can be a product of a fractured mind. Just help me,
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  Speaker 2: help me, just do anything for me, just bring me
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  Speaker 2: out of this situation. About something like, just marry me
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  Speaker 2: so I can live singleness. Do me a favor. Let
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  Speaker 2: people even call me a missus. Ask your neighbor, do
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  Speaker 2: you know who you are? Turn to another neighbor. Hold on.
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  Speaker 2: Let me. Hold on. Let me say this. Amen. Even
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  Speaker 2: if you are in the lowest point of your life
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  Speaker 2: and God has raised people to do you a favor,
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  Speaker 2: never feel worthless because they are doing you a favor. Listen,
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  Speaker 2: the moment people know that you feel privileged to be
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  Speaker 2: around them, they will manipulate you. They will. Never give
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  Speaker 2: that privilege to anybody. When you meet the class of
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  Speaker 2: people you have dreamt to meet all your life, always
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  Speaker 2: greet them with your shoulders high. Pleased to meet you.
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  Speaker 2: So good to see you. You are not pretending. You
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  Speaker 2: are simply not seeing men as trees. Do you understand
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  Speaker 2: what I'm saying? Are you sure? One of the signs
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  Speaker 2: that you are seeing men as trees is over admiration. Ha!
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  Speaker 2: You that have been seen inside tell me. Ha! Tell
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  Speaker 2: your neighbor, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up!
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  Speaker 2: Wake up! When God lifts you and you feel too privileged,
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  Speaker 2: people will call it luck. They will believe there is
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  Speaker 2: no hard work that brought you there. And that level
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  Speaker 2: will push you out. Is that okay now? Very important.
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  Speaker 2: Tell your neighbor again, wake up. So I refuse to
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  Speaker 2: see men as streets. How will Jesus open your eyes
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  Speaker 2: and you are not seeing well? Are you saying Jesus
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  Speaker 2: is not anointed? Somebody comes to propose to you, don't
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  Speaker 2: see him as three. Look into his eyes. Sometimes, stare
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  Speaker 2: at people in their eyes who separate fools from the wise.
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  Speaker 2: I'm just shy. I don't know why I can't look
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  Speaker 2: at you. I'm just shy. My body is giving me
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  Speaker 2: one kind. Shoo. My hand do you. Look at him.
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  Speaker 2: Shut up. Look at him. A boy was asking a girl.
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  Speaker 2: You are the most beautiful girl I've seen. The girl
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  Speaker 2: said my dad told me that this morning. How about that?
• 27:32
  Speaker 2: It was in my presence. Part one or part two.
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  Speaker 2: I can't forget this one. We hanged around as the friend.
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  Speaker 2: But when you describe that your friend is not behaving
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  Speaker 2: like a fool, you leave him. He was talking to
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  Speaker 2: that girl, Lucy. He was just giving his bars. He said,
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  Speaker 2: you are this, I like you, I like you. I
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  Speaker 2: told the girl, I like you. The girl, I've never
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  Speaker 2: said it in my life. Some girls are wicked. She
• 27:58
  Speaker 2: placed her hands on his shoulder and said, Sam, go
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  Speaker 2: and think about it again. You know what he said?
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  Speaker 2: The reason why we left him was because he said, okay.
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  Speaker 2: He said, okay. Hey, Jesus. Anyway, your delay. Okay. Never
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  Speaker 2: admire people so much so that you abandon your uniqueness.
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  Speaker 2: It is a sign that you have seen men like Jesus.
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  Speaker 2: If God wanted only them, he would not have created you.
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  Speaker 2: Say it again. I am important. You didn't say the word.
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  Speaker 2: There's something I needed to feel. Say it again. I
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  Speaker 2: am important. Say it loud and clear. I am important.
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  Speaker 2: I am not ordinary. I am not to be pitied.
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  Speaker 2: I'm not small. I'm not small. Are you small? Let
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  Speaker 2: me say this to you. When the Israelites saw the Anakite,
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  Speaker 2: look at their report. They said, we saw the Anakite there.
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  Speaker 2: They said, we are like grasshoppers in our sight. And
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  Speaker 2: so were we in their sight. Meaning that you perceive,
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  Speaker 2: people see you the way you perceive yourself. If you
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  Speaker 2: feel people are looking down on you, it's because it
• 29:35
  Speaker 2: is bearing witness with the way you see yourself. When
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  Speaker 2: people call you names and you are hungry because it
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  Speaker 2: is confirming your thoughts you know in Nigeria we ask
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  Speaker 2: questions like are you a fool what is the response
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  Speaker 2: no I'm not you call me fool there is agreement
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  Speaker 2: and when there is no real power the response is
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  Speaker 2: threatened Check any nation. The region where they fight the
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  Speaker 2: most is the region where they are poorly educated. The
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  Speaker 2: response of a poor man is to fight with Moses
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  Speaker 2: when he should fight with wisdom. Say it again. I
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  Speaker 2: am not small. I know who I am. This matter
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  Speaker 2: is a serious matter. There are people who never dust
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  Speaker 2: their certificate and knock at certain organizations because they feel
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  Speaker 2: it's not for their kind. The church concluded that I
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  Speaker 2: went to Southern South School. It's a polytechnic. It's not
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  Speaker 2: my kind they are looking for. And they make up
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  Speaker 2: their mind. They have not bounced them. They have bounced themselves.
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  Speaker 2: What kind of life is that? I remember we were
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  Speaker 2: posted to go serve. I got favor on camp. So
• 30:52
  Speaker 2: I chose where I would serve myself. And unfortunately I
• 30:57
  Speaker 2: went there with a girl. And she too was posted there.
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  Speaker 2: And we sat down. It was the College of Health.
• 31:05
  Speaker 2: And they were asking, how many courses can you take?
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  Speaker 2: Can you list the courses you can take? So I
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  Speaker 2: listed the ones I could take. And the girl, the
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  Speaker 2: Bible and the book they gave her, she was not right.
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  Speaker 2: As the man came back, I saw the girl went
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  Speaker 2: on her knees. Ah, what's going on? He said, please,
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  Speaker 2: I don't mind being a cleaner. He said, I managed
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  Speaker 2: to pass in school. So please, I don't mind. I
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  Speaker 2: will wash the toilet. I will clean the floor. I
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  Speaker 2: will clean everywhere. Please just accept me. So I called
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  Speaker 2: the man. And I begged him. Please reject me. I
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  Speaker 2: can't cope. I can't be coming here and seeing this
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  Speaker 2: every day. So I begged for rejection and they rejected me.
• 31:54
  Speaker 2: What happened to that person? You disqualify yourself based on
• 31:57
  Speaker 2: your own perception of yourself. When you find yourself giving
• 32:01
  Speaker 2: people too much story about your past. Who asked you?
• 32:05
  Speaker 2: Because you feel it is bare before everyone. Based on self-perception. Trauma.
• 32:15
  Speaker 2: An injury. It's a fracture to the soul. And that's
• 32:26
  Speaker 2: what the devil wants to achieve. He wants to control you.
• 32:30
  Speaker 2: let me show you a scripture Psalms chapter number 11
• 32:35
  Speaker 2: Psalms chapter number 11 from verse 3 I'm going somewhere
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  Speaker 2: tonight and by the time the meeting is over tonight
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  Speaker 2: one thing will be our testimony Father thank you for
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  Speaker 2: going back to my pastor and bringing me out Because
• 33:01
  Speaker 2: I'm just getting started. Psalms 11. Let's start from verse 2.
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  Speaker 2: Let me read from Amplified. See. The wicked are bending
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  Speaker 2: their bow. They make ready their harrow. Upon the string.
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  Speaker 2: That they may. In darkness. May shoot. At the upright
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  Speaker 2: in heart. Okay. What are they trying to attack? Verse 3.
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  Speaker 2: If the foundations are destroyed, what can the righteous do? So,
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  Speaker 2: the devil wants to fight you before you know how
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  Speaker 2: to fight. He wants to make sure that by the
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  Speaker 2: time you are coming alive to consciousness, you are already disadvantaged. Alright?
• 33:54
  Speaker 2: But we are getting somewhere. What is the devil after?
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  Speaker 2: Your foundations. It doesn't matter the intention and the amount
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  Speaker 2: you have to build. Once the foundation is weak, it
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  Speaker 2: will limit how far you can go. It will. It will.
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  Speaker 2: Is there hope for anyone with bad or poor foundation?
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  Speaker 2: I will show you. Yes, there is. At some point,
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  Speaker 2: The one that was born in Don Quijote and the
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  Speaker 2: one that has been sitting with princes will meet you.
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  Speaker 2: Whether or not hands will cross depends on what they
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  Speaker 2: have been doing with themselves. But I heard David said
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  Speaker 2: that you have lifted me from Don Quijote and set
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  Speaker 2: me among princes. You know when I sometimes just see
• 34:54
  Speaker 2: things happening you see children begging on the streets or
• 34:58
  Speaker 2: rolling tires in the rain And doing all those things.
• 35:02
  Speaker 2: And you see some others in good schools and doing
• 35:05
  Speaker 2: all that. At some point, they will meet. Who told
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  Speaker 2: you that when you see people like that, they are finished?
• 35:15
  Speaker 2: Who told you that a man's background is the sum
• 35:19
  Speaker 2: total of his life? Who told you? Sometimes it's people
• 35:24
  Speaker 2: who are born in that condition that have hunger to ascend.
• 35:30
  Speaker 2: And the process of growth forms character in them. There's
• 35:35
  Speaker 2: nothing wrong with being born privileged. Just make sure you
• 35:38
  Speaker 2: have sense. Because you can lose all the privilege. Very important. Okay?
• 35:47
  Speaker 2: So sometimes, if you have been crying, I wish I
• 35:50
  Speaker 2: was born from this kind of family. I would have
• 35:52
  Speaker 2: done this better. Stop that. Stop that. When you truly
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  Speaker 2: look closely, you will discover that there is no disadvantage
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  Speaker 2: in any setting. You will not be who you are
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  Speaker 2: today except that you went through what you went through.
• 36:07
  Speaker 2: And that process birthed certain characters and anointing in you
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  Speaker 2: that will make you see life differently and make you compassionate.
• 36:16
  Speaker 2: Never sit down and cry and start pitying yourself. Oh,
• 36:19
  Speaker 2: I wish, I wish. Don't wish for anything. Take responsibility
• 36:25
  Speaker 2: with what you have in your hands. Are you following
• 36:28
  Speaker 2: what I'm saying here? Very important. Oh, I wish my
• 36:31
  Speaker 2: parents were together. I wish they didn't divorce. Oh, I
• 36:34
  Speaker 2: wish I was not raised by a grandmother. Oh, I
• 36:36
  Speaker 2: wish this. I wish that. God will never allow any
• 36:40
  Speaker 2: man go beyond what he can bear. He will not.
• 36:47
  Speaker 2: Settle down. You will discover that even in the parables
• 36:51
  Speaker 2: of your life, a contact point of grace, things that
• 36:54
  Speaker 2: God made available that is the exclusive preserve of your kind.
• 37:01
  Speaker 2: To give you an edge. You are not your background.
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  Speaker 2: You are not your mother. You are not your dad.
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  Speaker 2: You will not repeat your mistakes. You must tell yourself that.
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  Speaker 2: God has brought you out. Set you apart. Because he's intentional.
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  Speaker 2: There's something he's doing. He's specific. He's deliberate. You may cry.
• 37:26
  Speaker 2: Or you are being formed. It is okay to cry sometimes.
• 37:32
  Speaker 2: Some people may look at you and take advantage of
• 37:34
  Speaker 2: you and use you and despise you. In fact, maybe
• 37:38
  Speaker 2: you have been going through settings where everywhere you get
• 37:41
  Speaker 2: to in life, people look down on you. Don't worry.
• 37:44
  Speaker 2: Life is not easy for the blind. There are people
• 37:47
  Speaker 2: that only sees when the light shines. But there are
• 37:50
  Speaker 2: those who can spot it miles ahead. You don't get
• 37:54
  Speaker 2: gold on the surface. You dig now to find it.
• 37:59
  Speaker 2: But you are not going to emerge until you stop crying.
• 38:04
  Speaker 2: Listen to what I'm saying. Nobody walks in pity and
• 38:08
  Speaker 2: change their life. People will match you where you are.
• 38:14
  Speaker 2: They will take advantage of you. You want to share
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  Speaker 2: your story with everybody. Some will use it against you.
• 38:21
  Speaker 2: So you must learn to be strong. Tell your neighbor,
• 38:24
  Speaker 2: be strong. Look at another neighbor and say, be strong.
• 38:32
  Speaker 2: Sometimes some boys will come to your life And say,
• 38:34
  Speaker 2: I like you until he discovers the kind of family
• 38:37
  Speaker 2: you are coming from. Just when you tell him, this
• 38:43
  Speaker 2: is the condition in my family, he runs. That simply
• 38:49
  Speaker 2: means that that family condition has been a system that
• 38:53
  Speaker 2: is seeking fools from you. It may not be pleasant,
• 38:57
  Speaker 2: but it is doing a good job. Are you with me?
• 39:03
  Speaker 2: look to another neighbor again and say, be strong. So,
• 39:10
  Speaker 2: the devil likes to attack things from the root. Because
• 39:21
  Speaker 2: when you get anything from the root, you set a
• 39:25
  Speaker 2: tempo for it. Um, Are you with me? I want
• 39:32
  Speaker 2: to try to explain what I'm saying. It is difficult
• 39:37
  Speaker 2: to join a vehicle that is moving and drive it.
• 39:41
  Speaker 2: The driver has to join the vehicle before it moves.
• 39:45
  Speaker 2: When the vehicle is already moving, whoever is in charge
• 39:47
  Speaker 2: is in charge. So, The devil wants to join himself
• 39:52
  Speaker 2: so that he can be in charge and steer the
• 39:55
  Speaker 2: wheel of your life. That's what he wants to do. Okay?
• 39:59
  Speaker 2: He wants to get in and from and create chaos.
• 40:05
  Speaker 2: Let me tell you the way the devil operates. The
• 40:07
  Speaker 2: devil is not omnipresent. He is not a man or
• 40:14
  Speaker 2: an individual, not a man, who is causing chaos all
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  Speaker 2: over the world. But he's not everywhere at every time.
• 40:20
  Speaker 2: The only way he can do so is to be strategic.
• 40:23
  Speaker 2: Do you understand what I'm saying? They said to somebody,
• 40:26
  Speaker 2: you have slept with a 10-year-old girl. Why did you
• 40:28
  Speaker 2: do it? It's not the devil. He only created the temple.
• 40:33
  Speaker 2: You will run with it. It is seed. It will germinate.
• 40:39
  Speaker 2: Because he may never have your time again. Just make
• 40:42
  Speaker 2: sure you plant it there at the time you plant it.
• 40:44
  Speaker 2: Don't worry. The harvest is sure. So it's not the devil.
• 40:48
  Speaker 2: Once you understand way this system works then you will
• 40:52
  Speaker 2: know that okay this is a seed system we can
• 40:56
  Speaker 2: kill it from the root so we can terminate the
• 40:58
  Speaker 2: harvest it's as simple as that okay so the devil
• 41:03
  Speaker 2: wants to get into homes is really all out against
• 41:08
  Speaker 2: families we need to understand this because this is the
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  Speaker 2: smallest but the most functional unit of the society As
• 41:18
  Speaker 2: goes the families, so goes the society. Okay? So, he
• 41:24
  Speaker 2: wants to infiltrate the system with ideas, with dysfunctionalities, with pain,
• 41:32
  Speaker 2: so that the children that will be born from those
• 41:34
  Speaker 2: systems will be born defective. One of the things environment
• 41:42
  Speaker 2: does is that it also communicates possibilities. Your environment does
• 41:51
  Speaker 2: not just show you a reality, it shows you a possibility.
• 41:54
  Speaker 2: So let me explain. If a child grows up from
• 41:59
  Speaker 2: a family where the father slapping the mother, dragging on
• 42:05
  Speaker 2: the floor is a regular thing. Even when the child
• 42:10
  Speaker 2: hates the father with passion and swears that I will
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  Speaker 2: never do this in my life. that child still has
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  Speaker 2: the likelihood of doing it compared to the one who
• 42:23
  Speaker 2: didn't see it. Because it will get to where it
• 42:28
  Speaker 2: will get to. It will say, maybe this is why
• 42:30
  Speaker 2: they beat women. Why? Because seeing it has communicated that
• 42:35
  Speaker 2: it is what? Possible. Tell your neighbor, be careful of
• 42:39
  Speaker 2: what you see. Are you seeing that now? So, what
• 42:45
  Speaker 2: is the devil doing? making sure that seeds are planted
• 42:49
  Speaker 2: where there is dysfunctionalities, where there is issues, where there
• 42:52
  Speaker 2: is confusion, where there is chaos, so they can carry
• 42:55
  Speaker 2: that seed. Sometimes the attack is actually not all those things.
• 43:03
  Speaker 2: The attack is growing up in a setting where there
• 43:05
  Speaker 2: is so much depravity. And that's why our role in
• 43:10
  Speaker 2: the society is beyond just churchgoers. If we say we
• 43:14
  Speaker 2: have revival in Nigeria, we must enter the society now
• 43:17
  Speaker 2: for transformation. If not, we are all sitting on the
• 43:22
  Speaker 2: keg of a gunpowder. The people we ignore on the streets,
• 43:26
  Speaker 2: when it gets to where it will get to, they
• 43:27
  Speaker 2: will say the only way out is that I will
• 43:29
  Speaker 2: avenge all the suffering I've gone through. I will kill
• 43:32
  Speaker 2: these people and they will taste a bit of my pain.
• 43:35
  Speaker 2: That's how people become adined. Spread love. Spread healing. Spread
• 43:41
  Speaker 2: the wave. Okay? Spread the wave. Unfortunately now, everybody suspects everybody.
• 43:52
  Speaker 2: Everybody suspects everybody. Let's see somebody and just hug the person.
• 43:59
  Speaker 2: So good to see you. It's becoming increasingly difficult to
• 44:05
  Speaker 2: give love. Because of the defect in our society. Particularly
• 44:11
  Speaker 2: in Nigeria. Nigeria. Everything is hard. Including pastors. I've become hard.
• 44:22
  Speaker 2: And the anointing can take the posture of your dysfunctionality.
• 44:28
  Speaker 2: And I've seen it. I've seen it. It's a journey
• 44:30
  Speaker 2: I had to go through. That your kind of background
• 44:33
  Speaker 2: can affect the way the church looks. Yes. Your background
• 44:37
  Speaker 2: does not just affect your family. It can affect the church. Yes.
• 44:41
  Speaker 2: That because you are not healed, you will bleed on
• 44:42
  Speaker 2: all the members. And you can call it faith. Faith talking.
• 44:48
  Speaker 2: If you think you can come to the church late,
• 44:50
  Speaker 2: you get out. This is not your father's house. Where
• 44:54
  Speaker 2: is he talking from? What he has seen. That's not
• 44:58
  Speaker 2: the Holy Ghost. That's not Jesus. And that's not faith.
• 45:02
  Speaker 2: Because faith functions through love. That's upbringing. And you can
• 45:12
  Speaker 2: get a calling around it. And get scriptures around it.
• 45:16
  Speaker 2: I'm saying these things are so deep, they can affect
• 45:18
  Speaker 2: your entire life. And where is the devil? Just from
• 45:21
  Speaker 2: the beginning, just planted the seed. And he will leave.
• 45:24
  Speaker 2: He will leave, sorry. The good man planted his seed
• 45:27
  Speaker 2: and went his way. The devil will plant his own
• 45:29
  Speaker 2: seed and leave too. This is the result. It will
• 45:33
  Speaker 2: come to this, it will come to that. okay I
• 45:46
  Speaker 2: want to say something but I'm going to say it
• 45:54
  Speaker 2: sir what I want to say fact check okay and
• 46:01
  Speaker 2: those of you who have traveled different countries that you
• 46:03
  Speaker 2: can bear witness with this go and check When you
• 46:10
  Speaker 2: travel to some countries, you'll be shocked. Is it the
• 46:13
  Speaker 2: same way it goes in Nigeria? Nigeria. Because of the
• 46:22
  Speaker 2: hardness of both your heart and the pastor. In order
• 46:25
  Speaker 2: to receive, you will collect. Come here. You know, a
• 46:30
  Speaker 2: pastor was going to impart me. And then I was stubborn.
• 46:37
  Speaker 2: So as he was coming to lay hands. I stood
• 46:40
  Speaker 2: like this. This impartation. I pushed my head. I was
• 46:47
  Speaker 2: pushing my head to his hand. If I fall here.
• 46:51
  Speaker 2: My siblings will laugh. And they will say. The man
• 46:56
  Speaker 2: lay hands. Put me. I stood. Later he started turning me.
• 47:00
  Speaker 2: When my eye turned. I said now I shall lie down.
• 47:08
  Speaker 2: So I lay down. And the man said something like,
• 47:11
  Speaker 2: it's a stubborn spirit. It's not a stubborn spirit. If
• 47:14
  Speaker 2: the spirit is stubborn, both of us are stubborn. But
• 47:19
  Speaker 2: you'll be amazed that just step to other places. Just worship.
• 47:27
  Speaker 2: People are already crying. Nigeria, you are still two hours
• 47:34
  Speaker 2: away from the Holy Ghost. Why is he doing this?
• 47:39
  Speaker 2: These people are faking it. One of my friends was
• 47:42
  Speaker 2: explaining when he traveled to Texas. And he saw people worshiping.
• 47:46
  Speaker 2: In the worship, they were carrying balloons. And they were singing. Balloon. Hey. Yeah.
• 48:01
  Speaker 2: And they were under the anointing. He said that was
• 48:04
  Speaker 2: when it occurred to him that his heart was hard. Ah,
• 48:09
  Speaker 2: you have faced problems and those things have formed sediments
• 48:15
  Speaker 2: on the layers of your heart that now become stuff
• 48:17
  Speaker 2: to see God and to perceive the reality. You have
• 48:22
  Speaker 2: seen life. Look at the things you have survived. Only you.
• 48:26
  Speaker 2: When you share your story, they can make 20 days
• 48:28
  Speaker 2: of newspaper. You have seen life. That's why we don't
• 48:33
  Speaker 2: perceive God on time. Because sometimes, that's why I say
• 48:37
  Speaker 2: I've said this. Whether in the church or in the society.
• 48:40
  Speaker 2: We will come back to this truth. The generation that
• 48:42
  Speaker 2: will question things. Will be the ones that will break through.
• 48:44
  Speaker 2: I had to start asking. Why is it that for
• 48:47
  Speaker 2: Holy Ghost to move in meetings. We will have to
• 48:49
  Speaker 2: gather like seven. Holy Ghost fire. Holy Ghost fire. Holy
• 48:54
  Speaker 2: Ghost fire. It's a dimension. But later I found out.
• 49:04
  Speaker 2: That prophecy is not epilepsy. You don't have to roll
• 49:07
  Speaker 2: on the floor to speak. When will you stand before
• 49:09
  Speaker 2: kings to prophesy? Apologies. If that's the one you know,
• 49:15
  Speaker 2: I'm saying it's not about God. It's the layer of
• 49:18
  Speaker 2: your heart. So when we get to places where we
• 49:22
  Speaker 2: see people are not doing all those struggles, we are
• 49:24
  Speaker 2: surprised that all these American preachers, they are not as
• 49:27
  Speaker 2: anointed as we are. I'm saying, I think it will
• 49:34
  Speaker 2: take Nigerians longer to adjust to heaven. Laughter Long. Do
• 49:41
  Speaker 2: you know what you have survived? Since 1960. We are
• 49:47
  Speaker 2: building it. In this country, you survive one. They say
• 49:52
  Speaker 2: this is the worst there can ever be. Another one
• 49:54
  Speaker 2: will come. We keep building survival methods. Nigerians should be studied.
• 50:05
  Speaker 2: Like we should be isolated, studied as specimens. But I'm
• 50:09
  Speaker 2: saying that these things are forming layers. You will have
• 50:13
  Speaker 2: to clear those things and choose, I will love. That
• 50:21
  Speaker 2: we can hold hands truly and there's connection. Check now,
• 50:25
  Speaker 2: even in church, when we say join us to a neighbor,
• 50:27
  Speaker 2: the neighbor is squeezing your hand. There's no feelings. It's forgotten.
• 50:32
  Speaker 2: I'm not even know what I'm talking about. Have you
• 50:37
  Speaker 2: heard that with the neighbor you are praying? Pastor, please
• 50:39
  Speaker 2: wrap up the prayer. Because the neighbor can be touched.
• 50:48
  Speaker 2: It's trauma. And it's happening to all of us. Gradually, gradually.
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  Speaker 2: We are not normal again. You don't believe that now
• 51:00
  Speaker 2: we are used to driving and seeing dead bodies on
• 51:02
  Speaker 2: the road. And say, who is that? Oh, they will
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  Speaker 2: carry day one, day two. How have you gotten used
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  Speaker 2: to that? And the more we experience these things, the
• 51:15
  Speaker 2: less we perceive God. Betrayals, heartbreaks, different things. We've survived
• 51:24
  Speaker 2: so much. Touch your heart. Place your hands on your chest. Say,
• 51:33
  Speaker 2: I have plenty love to give. Say it again. I
• 51:42
  Speaker 2: have plenty love. Say it one more time. I have
• 51:47
  Speaker 2: plenty love to give. I'm a love bean. I'm a
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  Speaker 2: love bean. Amen. Sometimes I see videos online where a
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  Speaker 2: woman has gone to heat with her own children and
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  Speaker 2: the house health And the children will be eating meat pie,
• 52:05
  Speaker 2: drinking things, and they give the outside a bottle of water.
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  Speaker 2: And I used to ask myself, you can own today,
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  Speaker 2: but who told you that you own tomorrow? Things change.
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  Speaker 2: The beggar will be lifted from donkey hill and set
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  Speaker 2: among princes. Some of us used to be driven from
• 52:23
  Speaker 2: seat where they put dignitaries. But who is he that
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  Speaker 2: has spoken when God has not said it? Hands do cross.
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  Speaker 2: It won't go forever. Let me tell you something. You
• 52:37
  Speaker 2: might be going through a situation where there is no
• 52:39
  Speaker 2: word with which you can get hope and encouragement. Hold
• 52:42
  Speaker 2: on to God. Okay. Hold on to God. Hallelujah. Amen. Say,
• 52:53
  Speaker 2: my emotions are healed. At some point as a pastor,
• 53:03
  Speaker 2: I did not know that my heart has been battered.
• 53:08
  Speaker 2: You know, in ministry you can have PTSD. That people
• 53:12
  Speaker 2: can betray you and from that moment you can no
• 53:16
  Speaker 2: longer perceive people right. You can get to a point
• 53:20
  Speaker 2: where you are greeting everybody but you are not letting
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  Speaker 2: them into your heart. Just so you don't betray me.
• 53:27
  Speaker 2: I don't want to give you too much because I
• 53:29
  Speaker 2: don't want to go through what I went through. Let
• 53:31
  Speaker 2: me explain a concept. I love boxing. I trained in
• 53:36
  Speaker 2: boxing until somebody beat me.
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  Speaker 1: Up.
• 53:40
  Speaker 2: So, somebody was explaining. Please, don't forget what I want
• 53:45
  Speaker 2: to tell you, okay? It's a very powerful concept. Two boxers. So,
• 53:49
  Speaker 2: let me, Pastor Toby, please come. So, let's assume that. So,
• 53:55
  Speaker 2: the guy, okay, let's say I'm the guy. And then
• 53:58
  Speaker 2: he's about to fight another guy, Anthony Joshua. In a
• 54:01
  Speaker 2: real sense, he was talking about him. So they asked him,
• 54:04
  Speaker 2: what's your game plan? He said, I'm going to beat him.
• 54:07
  Speaker 2: He said, because I discovered that the last time he
• 54:10
  Speaker 2: gave his best was when he fought Vladimir Klitschko. He said,
• 54:14
  Speaker 2: after that fight, he said, he has become something else.
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  Speaker 2: Though he won the fight. Listen to what I want
• 54:20
  Speaker 2: to show you. This guy won the fight. But the
• 54:24
  Speaker 2: guy he fought took him to a realm in that
• 54:28
  Speaker 2: fight that both of them digged it. That From that
• 54:32
  Speaker 2: day going forward, this guy is afraid of ever touching
• 54:35
  Speaker 2: that rim again. You can win and still not want
• 54:41
  Speaker 2: repetition because of the pain. So, and they now analyze
• 54:47
  Speaker 2: and say, when boxers get there, they're already rounding up. Okay?
• 54:53
  Speaker 2: So he said that's his game plan. I've seen it.
• 54:55
  Speaker 2: After that, this person beat him, beat him, beat him.
• 54:57
  Speaker 2: But so when these two now fought, eventually this guy
• 55:01
  Speaker 2: won again. So when he was talking, he said, it's
• 55:04
  Speaker 2: about the mind. It's about the mind. We can pick
• 55:10
  Speaker 2: many lessons from these things. People can take you in
• 55:13
  Speaker 2: a realm to a level in that you discover a
• 55:16
  Speaker 2: kind of heart and you will not know you have
• 55:20
  Speaker 2: made a decision. I will not let anybody into this
• 55:24
  Speaker 2: place again. If care is not taken, including your spouse, yes,
• 55:32
  Speaker 2: Do you know you can give your body and yet
• 55:34
  Speaker 2: not your all? Yes. Where your heart is, is far.
• 55:42
  Speaker 2: You can get to a point where you are anticipating
• 55:45
  Speaker 2: disappointment from people. I know it's just a matter of time.
• 55:49
  Speaker 2: They are all the same. So, let me protect myself.
• 55:56
  Speaker 2: And when we get there, we don't really go through
• 55:59
  Speaker 2: life enjoying all that God has for us. Because you
• 56:04
  Speaker 2: are busy defending and defecting. And what is going to
• 56:09
  Speaker 2: happen is that in the course of doing that, you
• 56:12
  Speaker 2: will not know you are betting pain. You are hurting people.
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  Speaker 2: They want to love you. But you are not allowing them.
• 56:20
  Speaker 2: They want to show you they care. But there is
• 56:22
  Speaker 2: no road to your heart. And I discovered that as
• 56:26
  Speaker 2: we climb the ladder in life, that's the more this happens.
• 56:31
  Speaker 2: We become less persons and more of personalities. That we
• 56:35
  Speaker 2: have found professional ways to address everybody. Hello, too good
• 56:38
  Speaker 2: to see you. Pleased to meet you. That person is
• 56:41
  Speaker 2: far from you as the heaven is to the earth.
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  Speaker 2: That you talk to people. There is a conversation. But
• 56:50
  Speaker 2: there is no heart connection. How did we get there? Why?
• 56:57
  Speaker 2: It's fear. Fear of disappointment. Fear of pain. Let me
• 57:05
  Speaker 2: tell you this. Thank you. Love, in its essence, is vulnerability.
• 57:16
  Speaker 2: Any love that is not vulnerable is not love. It
• 57:24
  Speaker 2: is vulnerability, not stupidity. If I say I love you,
• 57:27
  Speaker 2: I'm saying I'm giving you the privilege to hurt me
• 57:30
  Speaker 2: if you want to. I am. Oh God, help us.
• 57:40
  Speaker 2: I ask that there be a wave of healing. There
• 57:49
  Speaker 2: must be. Even in Nigerian church, people are hurt. I
• 57:55
  Speaker 2: saw the news. saw the trend. And I said to myself,
• 58:05
  Speaker 2: we are starting a new cycle. A generation that have
• 58:09
  Speaker 2: been struggling to believe that the church can be trusted.
• 58:13
  Speaker 2: There we go again. I have studied it. Nobody hates church.
• 58:31
  Speaker 2: Call me anywhere. Nobody hates church. And that's why when
• 58:37
  Speaker 2: I talk to atheists, I don't talk to them about
• 58:39
  Speaker 2: Jesus first. I talk to them about healing. How did
• 58:44
  Speaker 2: you get here? What happened? You lost something that made
• 58:48
  Speaker 2: you believe God can be alive and this is happening.
• 58:50
  Speaker 2: Let's talk about it. And every time we touch there,
• 58:54
  Speaker 2: we always come back with healing. And you discover that
• 58:58
  Speaker 2: the person who never laughs is now laughing and smiling
• 59:02
  Speaker 2: and crying. You see their vulnerability. It's hidden there, covered
• 59:08
  Speaker 2: with layers of muzzles. and six packs, but they are there.
• 59:18
  Speaker 2: And sometimes when we talk about church hurt, it is
• 59:21
  Speaker 2: a pastor who is hurt that is also hurting the
• 59:23
  Speaker 2: person who is hurt. It is a cycle. I feel
• 59:30
  Speaker 2: there has to be a platform where preachers can be
• 59:33
  Speaker 2: vulnerable and get healing. Because this anointing makes people feel
• 59:39
  Speaker 2: we don't need healing. But I don't think there's anyone
• 59:42
  Speaker 2: who needs help like a pastor. And every person you
• 59:49
  Speaker 2: see around, you don't know what will happen tomorrow. And
• 59:51
  Speaker 2: you are just hoping. I hope you'll still be there.
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  Speaker 2: Things can happen. and every opportunity I have to sit
• 1:00:06
  Speaker 2: with fathers in the body of Christ beyond their smiles
• 1:00:11
  Speaker 2: I look at them and I see their scars sometimes
• 1:00:15
  Speaker 2: I ask myself how are you still able to love
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 2: with all these scars can you be touched with what
• 1:00:25
  Speaker 2: touches others do you still have What's your conclusion about relationships?
• 1:00:35
  Speaker 2: You no longer believe in having best friends. Why? You've
• 1:00:40
  Speaker 2: been betrayed. You met a wrong person. Not a wrong institution.
• 1:00:47
  Speaker 2: Just a wrong person. Dust yourself. Get back again. And
• 1:00:56
  Speaker 2: love again. One way you can silence those who have
• 1:01:00
  Speaker 2: hurt you in the past is to love again. Never
• 1:01:03
  Speaker 2: give anybody the impression that they are so important you
• 1:01:07
  Speaker 2: can't find a replacement. You hurt me. People say, this
• 1:01:15
  Speaker 2: space in your life is vacant. I'm never going to
• 1:01:17
  Speaker 2: put anybody there because you are simply saying that person
• 1:01:21
  Speaker 2: is too important. Nobody deserves this space. They are leaving
• 1:01:24
  Speaker 2: a rent free in your head. Including your ex. From
• 1:01:34
  Speaker 2: that moment When anybody asks you for your phone number
• 1:01:36
  Speaker 2: You block it Men has come Don't forget that men
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  Speaker 2: are plenty Okay Amen Are you with me? I see
• 1:02:04
  Speaker 2: God doing surgeries and healing hearts, mending wounds again. You know,
• 1:02:16
  Speaker 2: I think about life and at some point I said,
• 1:02:21
  Speaker 2: when I was planning to get married, I said, my
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 2: wife was recommending, let's read these books about relationships. I
• 1:02:27
  Speaker 2: read all those books and I felt there's no book
• 1:02:29
  Speaker 2: that is addressing me Because everybody writes from the perspective
• 1:02:34
  Speaker 2: of the fact that we're all starting from a good point.
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 2: There's no book for my kind who did not even
• 1:02:40
  Speaker 2: know how to love. And I've said some things that
• 1:02:51
  Speaker 2: sometimes when you find people who are saying we can't
• 1:02:56
  Speaker 2: get our hands off each other, we're in a relationship
• 1:02:58
  Speaker 2: but this Somebody simply doesn't know how to love. You
• 1:03:05
  Speaker 2: are too broken. The only way you can express love
• 1:03:07
  Speaker 2: is to touch. Because you've not seen a real definition.
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 2: That's what is happening. Chances are very high that you
• 1:03:25
  Speaker 2: are a Christian today, except for a few. Because you
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 2: were born in the Christian home. So you had more,
• 1:03:32
  Speaker 2: better chances. Right? For accepting Jesus from children's church. Because
• 1:03:37
  Speaker 2: you've always been around the church. There might be people
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 2: who were born in Muslim families. And then God brought
• 1:03:41
  Speaker 2: them up somewhere else. You can't look at your advantages
• 1:03:47
  Speaker 2: and talk down others. You can't. You can't do that.
• 1:03:54
  Speaker 2: Four days ago makes it 15 years of preaching. Because
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 2: I sat down and I was counting losses. I remembered
• 1:04:06
  Speaker 2: this person. We didn't win. We didn't win. We met.
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 2: We said we were going in a direction that you
• 1:04:15
  Speaker 2: will not repeat the pattern of your parents. But I
• 1:04:18
  Speaker 2: couldn't carry the person out. We don't always win sometimes.
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 2: We have casualties. Just like the hospital. We have issues.
• 1:04:27
  Speaker 2: We have cases. We have cases. When you go for
• 1:04:30
  Speaker 2: healing meetings and see people coming out with wheelchair, carrying wheelchair,
• 1:04:33
  Speaker 2: there are people who still go back with their wheelchairs
• 1:04:35
  Speaker 2: after the meeting. Any genuine preacher will go back to
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 2: God and cry his eyes out. How about these ones?
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 2: Sometimes I sit with people and I hear their stories.
• 1:04:49
  Speaker 2: Would I have done better? Do you know what it
• 1:04:55
  Speaker 2: means to be born in a home where your father
• 1:04:57
  Speaker 2: hates you? Like you will remind him of his sins.
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 2: Because you were born out of wedlock. And he used
• 1:05:06
  Speaker 2: every opportunity to show you how worthless you are. The
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 2: image of love and protection is compromised. And you see
• 1:05:20
  Speaker 2: this girl in marriage and you are expecting... Because the
• 1:05:26
  Speaker 2: devil fought her before she could learn how to fight.
• 1:05:32
  Speaker 2: And we have to talk about that. And that's why
• 1:05:38
  Speaker 2: God needs to give us more kind men. That you
• 1:05:43
  Speaker 2: can know a girl's woes and cover her. I will
• 1:05:48
  Speaker 2: be the father you never had. Serious. Bless God for testimonies.
• 1:05:59
  Speaker 2: Sometimes I can't but remember Sometimes I stay awake till 2am,
• 1:06:05
  Speaker 2: 3am with names of people who had left the ministry
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 2: at some point who got offended. Are you still there?
• 1:06:16
  Speaker 2: Are you fine? Are you doing well? I prefer to
• 1:06:21
  Speaker 2: look like a fake pastor because you are doing better
• 1:06:24
  Speaker 2: without me than to look original because you are grounded.
• 1:06:26
  Speaker 2: I prefer that. Do you really listen to people's stories?
• 1:06:35
  Speaker 2: Do you take your time to connect to people's realities?
• 1:06:43
  Speaker 2: Have you any idea that your home is not all
• 1:06:46
  Speaker 2: that exists? And what we are talking about is real.
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 2: Some people don't know what a home looks like. They
• 1:07:00
  Speaker 2: grew up in a house Not a womb. How about
• 1:07:08
  Speaker 2: the one that was raped for years by her father?
• 1:07:13
  Speaker 2: Watching the story of a girl 17 years old. The
• 1:07:20
  Speaker 2: elder brother has been sleeping with her I think for
• 1:07:24
  Speaker 2: 7 years and the father for 5 years. And the
• 1:07:31
  Speaker 2: both of them knew that they were sleeping with her.
• 1:07:33
  Speaker 2: the mother had left. And now she had given birth
• 1:07:37
  Speaker 2: to a girl for the elder brother. Now that's dysfunctionality.
• 1:07:45
  Speaker 2: Is there a gospel for this kind? Is there a peer? Yes,
• 1:07:49
  Speaker 2: there is. Because there's a generation that must rise and say,
• 1:07:54
  Speaker 2: we are not leaving anyone behind. Doesn't matter how bad
• 1:07:57
  Speaker 2: it gets. When we do our church thing, some people
• 1:08:01
  Speaker 2: don't feel among We don't connect. Don't you get it?
• 1:08:06
  Speaker 2: When we have our meetings where we jest, we look
• 1:08:09
  Speaker 2: like one of the kind, the privileged ones. The son
• 1:08:15
  Speaker 2: of so-and-so general vassal, the daughter of so-and-so general vassal
• 1:08:18
  Speaker 2: coming together to get married. The privileged ones. And they
• 1:08:27
  Speaker 2: look in the shadows and look at us. And you
• 1:08:31
  Speaker 2: talk to them like they are so far away. Just feel.
• 1:08:37
  Speaker 2: I'm not like you. Maybe God hated me. That's why
• 1:08:40
  Speaker 2: I was born where I was born. Even pastors now
• 1:08:48
  Speaker 2: will check. Are you married from a good home? If
• 1:08:53
  Speaker 2: you pastored well, their home should have changed. A pastor
• 1:08:59
  Speaker 2: will say you can't marry so and so that you
• 1:09:01
  Speaker 2: have pastored for 30 years because it is not prestigious. Oh, sorry.
• 1:09:08
  Speaker 2: You know we don't say these things in the body
• 1:09:12
  Speaker 2: of Christ. Sorry. I've sat down to observe many Christian programs.
• 1:09:27
  Speaker 2: It's just us for ourselves. We use our language. Bro,
• 1:09:33
  Speaker 2: not Kali. In this church, if you hear anybody call bro,
• 1:09:37
  Speaker 2: the person is new. We've broken those protocols. Because bro
• 1:09:41
  Speaker 2: takes you far away. Some boys, they don't use that
• 1:09:47
  Speaker 2: language here. Then they stepped it up. Mama, that me.
• 1:09:53
  Speaker 2: Religion Shah wants to speak. We can't help it. Please
• 1:09:58
  Speaker 2: be seated. Are you with me? Are you sure? Sorry.
• 1:10:19
  Speaker 2: Studied it. It's like there are people we don't have
• 1:10:22
  Speaker 2: in our plan. They are not captured in our curriculum
• 1:10:26
  Speaker 2: for the year. It's for everyone but them. Even our
• 1:10:38
  Speaker 2: marriage counselling. Have you any idea that life doesn't revolve
• 1:10:46
  Speaker 2: around you? People have their own realities. Deep ones. And
• 1:10:57
  Speaker 2: when we come down to this point and raise people up,
• 1:11:01
  Speaker 2: you know what people say? They say they are building
• 1:11:03
  Speaker 2: user-friendly church. Should the church be user's enemy? Amen. Amen.
• 1:11:26
  Speaker 2: Help us. That we will be able to love again.
• 1:11:32
  Speaker 2: That's the prayer. Say it loud and clear. I am
• 1:11:38
  Speaker 2: a love being. Hope you know. That the same way
• 1:11:45
  Speaker 2: you are growing up. Doesn't matter the complaints. And the
• 1:11:49
  Speaker 2: schools you went to. Somebody went to a great issue.
• 1:11:54
  Speaker 2: I am complaining. I am going to a great issue.
• 1:12:03
  Speaker 2: There are people who Pay with half of their life
• 1:12:07
  Speaker 2: If they have the opportunity To have that name On
• 1:12:11
  Speaker 2: their certificate Okay, so I wanted to Actually I was
• 1:12:18
  Speaker 2: going to narrow from the foundation To talking about childhood
• 1:12:21
  Speaker 2: traumas And how that is one of the most potent
• 1:12:24
  Speaker 2: things The devil used to fight people So let me
• 1:12:27
  Speaker 2: just Can I jump a bit? So I can begin
• 1:12:30
  Speaker 2: to tie this up now. Okay? Are you being blessed?
• 1:12:36
  Speaker 2: Are you sure? So I wrote here, the devil finds
• 1:12:40
  Speaker 2: ways to fight, to begin healthy with people, trying to
• 1:12:44
  Speaker 2: make sure that regardless of their fighting spirit, they are
• 1:12:47
  Speaker 2: starting off on a disadvantaged ground. That's what the devil
• 1:12:51
  Speaker 2: tries to make them to do. Regardless of how you
• 1:12:54
  Speaker 2: try to fight later, you start from a disadvantaged ground.
• 1:13:04
  Speaker 2: through unhealthy or dysfunctional backgrounds. Simply put, the people you
• 1:13:15
  Speaker 2: call criminals, if they were born by your parents, they
• 1:13:18
  Speaker 2: would not be. Most of them would not have been.
• 1:13:21
  Speaker 2: They are victims of their environment. If they are better,
• 1:13:26
  Speaker 2: they will do better. Are you with me? Children are
• 1:13:33
  Speaker 2: born blank. Whatever the background is becomes the filter through
• 1:13:40
  Speaker 2: which they perceive life and approach life. The background becomes
• 1:13:46
  Speaker 2: the filter through which they perceive life and approach life.
• 1:13:53
  Speaker 2: And one way the devil successfully plot attack, are you
• 1:13:56
  Speaker 2: with me? One way devils hopefully plot and launch attack
• 1:14:00
  Speaker 2: against lives of people is by fighting them from their roots.
• 1:14:05
  Speaker 2: Fight parents but you are actually fighting their seeds. Growing
• 1:14:19
  Speaker 2: in a dysfunctional background is so bad because dysfunctionality becomes
• 1:14:24
  Speaker 2: the first exposure of the child. So I wrote five
• 1:14:32
  Speaker 2: things here. I'm just going to go through them. Traits
• 1:14:38
  Speaker 2: of children who are traumatized or people who are still
• 1:14:42
  Speaker 2: struggling with childhood trauma. And don't trivialize what I'm saying.
• 1:14:51
  Speaker 2: That there is somebody somewhere who is there only with
• 1:14:53
  Speaker 2: a perception because of something somebody said when the person
• 1:14:55
  Speaker 2: was five years old. We've been exposed to different kinds
• 1:15:01
  Speaker 2: of people. Most amongst them are those that the devil
• 1:15:04
  Speaker 2: used to launch a direct attack at certain aspects of
• 1:15:08
  Speaker 2: our futures. Releasing words that may not go away in
• 1:15:10
  Speaker 2: the hurry. Okay? Are you with me? I'm obviously remembering
• 1:15:16
  Speaker 2: things people said to you while you were young and
• 1:15:18
  Speaker 2: you have not forgotten. Is there anyone here? Let me
• 1:15:20
  Speaker 2: see your answer. Ah. It's happening. It's happening. It's happening.
• 1:15:31
  Speaker 2: Number one, individuals who are struggling with childhood trauma find
• 1:15:36
  Speaker 2: it difficult to stand up for themselves. They are scared.
• 1:15:47
  Speaker 2: They avoid conflict, not because they are peaceful, but because
• 1:15:52
  Speaker 2: they are scared. And that fear Leads them to isolation.
• 1:16:06
  Speaker 2: Contact with people can be hurting. So they are isolated.
• 1:16:11
  Speaker 2: When they are isolated. They get to their caves. And
• 1:16:15
  Speaker 2: the devil gives them toys. Addictions. Substance use. Something that
• 1:16:23
  Speaker 2: makes them feel among again. That's what happens. Number two.
• 1:16:32
  Speaker 2: People struggling with childhood trauma grow up to become people pleasers.
• 1:16:37
  Speaker 2: They want to please everybody. They want to manage people's
• 1:16:42
  Speaker 2: ego for them. They want to manage everybody's esteem at
• 1:16:46
  Speaker 2: the expense of yourself. Some people are dating narcissists. They
• 1:16:55
  Speaker 2: are self-absorbed individuals and they will make you feel bad
• 1:16:59
  Speaker 2: and you say it's true and bad. It takes a
• 1:17:04
  Speaker 2: level of being battered to hang around your abusers consistently.
• 1:17:08
  Speaker 2: That's not patience. That's bad esteem. Don't give people the
• 1:17:15
  Speaker 2: impression that you are a rag. I've related with people
• 1:17:22
  Speaker 2: that nobody has ever walked out of their lives and
• 1:17:24
  Speaker 2: I did. You can't put me down at the expense
• 1:17:29
  Speaker 2: of because of your ego. I will not be abused.
• 1:17:35
  Speaker 2: You cannot walk out of abusive relationships. You have friends
• 1:17:43
  Speaker 2: who will always talk about themselves and shut down your dreams.
• 1:17:46
  Speaker 2: When you say anything, they shut it down and they
• 1:17:48
  Speaker 2: talk about their own. And every time you leave them,
• 1:17:53
  Speaker 2: you go back doubting your very essence. Or you keep
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  Speaker 2: going back. The love of a slave and the trade
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  Speaker 2: of a slave master. This world is a wicked place.
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  Speaker 2: The moment people see that they can control you, they will.
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  Speaker 2: Don't be that nice. Be kind. That's the fruit of
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  Speaker 2: the Spirit. But I didn't see niceness there. Okay? You
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  Speaker 2: are a guy who is just starting life. And you
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  Speaker 2: are dating this girl that every time you want to
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  Speaker 2: go out, she brings all her friends. Yes. And right there,
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  Speaker 2: you're already bringing money from UBA. So you can pay
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  Speaker 2: all the bills. Stand up for yourself and tell her,
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  Speaker 2: this is my budget. You are man enough. Speak up.
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  Speaker 2: If she wants to leave you, let her go. Anybody
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  Speaker 2: who doesn't understand your season can't be worthy of your future.
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  Speaker 2: Let her go. I just have to manage. Let me
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  Speaker 2: prove that. What are you proving? Stop trying to use
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  Speaker 2: the money you don't have to appease people. Are you
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  Speaker 2: following what I'm saying here? It is not everywhere you
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  Speaker 2: can give tip. Sometimes the tip is your transport, Oga.
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  Speaker 2: Collect it. There are places you go to eat, there
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  Speaker 2: are green impressions, you collect change. Ah, Oga, yes. I will.
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  Speaker 2: You know, I went to preach somewhere. I've never seen
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  Speaker 2: this one. But because, you know, my nature. I'm a
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  Speaker 2: real person though. Don't go and think you come around me,
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  Speaker 2: I'm telling you, thou art. Thou art God. I went
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  Speaker 2: to preach. And I noticed that these people were giving
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  Speaker 2: me the impression that you have come here, you will
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  Speaker 2: not take honorarium. I said, we'll see. I don't need
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  Speaker 2: the money. But because of this thing, I'm passing it.
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  Speaker 2: So when I entered the car, the person brought the
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  Speaker 2: honorarium and gave me and he held it. So I
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  Speaker 2: held it too. He was giving me and I was
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  Speaker 2: trying to. I made it awkward. Then I collected and
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  Speaker 2: say god bless you thank you so much bye-bye and
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  Speaker 2: i wound up and i left why do you want
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  Speaker 2: to target my heart like i must leave it i
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  Speaker 2: collected it not because i needed the money don't give
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  Speaker 2: people impression that you'll always bow to their will because
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  Speaker 2: you want to prove a point don't do that stand
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  Speaker 2: up for yourself Are you learning something? Number three. Individuals
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  Speaker 2: suffering from childhood trauma are often shy. Sometimes. Shy. Because
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  Speaker 2: they are used to disappearing in the midst of people.
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  Speaker 2: But they are not used to exposure. They avoid light.
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  Speaker 2: They don't want to take the center stage. They have
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  Speaker 2: beautiful things on their inside they never do. They can sing,
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  Speaker 2: they will never sing. They can dance, they will never dance.
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  Speaker 2: But something tells them it's not for you. Or you
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  Speaker 2: may never do it well. You may never do it
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  Speaker 2: like the rest. Number four. Childhood trauma make people blame
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  Speaker 2: themselves for the things they are not even wrong about.
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  Speaker 2: You hear things like, it's my fault. There's a breakup.
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  Speaker 2: The guy is clearly wrong. God did get it. He said, no,
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  Speaker 2: it's my fault. It's my fault. I wish I had
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  Speaker 2: done it this way. I wish I had been cooking
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  Speaker 2: for him. Somebody you are not married to. I wish
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  Speaker 2: I had gone to the market earlier. I wish I
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  Speaker 2: did not talk like this. It can make you believe
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  Speaker 2: that you are not lovable. You are worthless. You are
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  Speaker 2: not even attractive. Hope you know when you look at
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  Speaker 2: the mirror, you don't really see well. You see what
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  Speaker 2: you have heard. Yes. If what you have in your
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  Speaker 2: mind is that you are not beautiful, regardless of who
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  Speaker 2: is staring at you in the mirror, you won't see
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  Speaker 2: the person. You will see that word clearly. Are you
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  Speaker 2: with me? When you have issues with trauma, you believe
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  Speaker 2: people are doing you a favor for loving you. You
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  Speaker 2: feel you are privileged to be loved. How? How are
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  Speaker 2: you not important? Nobody is doing you a favor when
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  Speaker 2: they love you. You are important. You are needed. Stop
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  Speaker 2: blaming yourself for what others did to you. Okay? If
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  Speaker 2: you have an abusive roommate, say, I think it's my fault.
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  Speaker 2: I think it's my person. Learn to look at situations
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  Speaker 2: well and call it what it is. Are you following
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  Speaker 2: what I'm saying here? Then, number five. Trauma makes you
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  Speaker 2: bully yourself. What you do Is that you use the
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  Speaker 2: exact same words of your abusers on yourself. I know
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  Speaker 2: I'm not smart. I know. I know I'm a stupid person.
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  Speaker 2: I know. I know I'm. Because I'm not. I'm ugly.
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  Speaker 2: I know. I know I'm not this. They have sown
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  Speaker 2: the seed of that word. And then you continue from there.
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  Speaker 2: Using every word on yourself. Look at what Job was saying.
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  Speaker 2: Because this is the day I was born. This and
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  Speaker 2: this and that. What am I teaching on this subject?
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  Speaker 2: Number one, because the Lord wants to bring people, wants
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  Speaker 2: to bring out people who are already making poor decisions
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  Speaker 2: due to their background. God wants to rescue them and
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  Speaker 2: bring them out. And unfortunately, some are living in the
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  Speaker 2: consequences of those decisions already. Have made something a decision
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  Speaker 2: that they are asking, will this ever go away? Yes.
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  Speaker 2: And some you will live with it. And it's not
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  Speaker 2: bad either. You have a child out of wedlock. Relax.
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  Speaker 2: It's not a sickness. Even at no cancers. Okay? That
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  Speaker 2: child becomes the testimony of what you have endured and survived.
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  Speaker 2: You are not second hand because you have a child.
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  Speaker 2: Before God, you are discharged. You are free. You are justified.
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  Speaker 2: Is that clear? Don't look at your child like the
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  Speaker 2: reward of iniquity. You will bear another pain. Another cycle
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  Speaker 2: is starting from there. Love that child. The man that
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  Speaker 2: will love you with that child will come. Very important.
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  Speaker 2: Don't look down on yourself and feel when they talk
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  Speaker 2: about people in church. I wish I am still young.
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  Speaker 2: I wish I am like them. I wish they would
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  Speaker 2: perceive me as a queen. You are. And your child
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  Speaker 2: is not taking away the crown. You are. Take this
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  Speaker 2: from me, pastor. You are. Because that's what Jesus calls you. Amen. Okay? So,
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  Speaker 2: number two. Another reason why I'm teaching this subject is
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  Speaker 2: because we're in a season that is changing. I need
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  Speaker 2: to take people who have healthy minds and healthy emotions
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  Speaker 2: to step into the fullness of what God wants to
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  Speaker 2: give you. So it's time to rise. Refuse to allow
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  Speaker 2: your minds and your emotions to be fractured. Christ. Dust
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  Speaker 2: yourself from the ashes of the past and enter into
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  Speaker 2: the fullness of what God has for you. Are you
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  Speaker 2: following what I'm saying here? Let me wrap up with
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  Speaker 2: this scripture. Romans chapter number 8 verse 1. Romans chapter
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  Speaker 2: number 8 verse 1. Quite popular scripture and I want
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  Speaker 2: us to pay attention to it. Romans chapter number 8
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  Speaker 2: verse 1. There is now therefore no condemnation to them
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  Speaker 2: who are in Christ Jesus who walk not after the
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  Speaker 2: flesh but after the spirit. There is no condemnation. This
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  Speaker 2: is the life we have. Now listen to what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 2: You have to get yourself up on time. So you
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  Speaker 2: will not become prey. There is no time for weeping.
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  Speaker 2: Locking and saying help me. Get up. Is that okay now?
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  Speaker 2: Get up. Pick yourself up. And get up. You don't
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  Speaker 2: look like your problem. That's the good news. And you
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  Speaker 2: don't have to look like it. So get up. And
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  Speaker 2: stand in the liberty that God has given to you.
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  Speaker 2: Praise God. Let's rise on our feet and give God praise.
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  Speaker 2: Let's thank him for freedom. Let's thank him for a
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  Speaker 2: new beginning. Oh, thank you, Father. Oh, thank you, Lord.
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  Speaker 2: We bless your holy name. Thank you, Lord. If you
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  Speaker 2: came here with a form of pain and something, just
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  Speaker 2: yield it to God and just raise your hands and
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  Speaker 2: yield it to him. Oh, I thank him for liberty,
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  Speaker 2: for liberation, for deliverance, for help. Oh, let's thank him.
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  Speaker 2: I'm no longer a slave to fear. I am the
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  Speaker 2: child of God. I'm no longer Come on. Two more times.
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  Speaker 2: One more time. to fear. I am a child of God.
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  Speaker 2: Thank you, Jesus. We bless you, Father. And we give
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  Speaker 2: you all the praise. Thank you for the wave of
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  Speaker 2: healing across the body of Christ. Amen. Now listen to this.
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  Speaker 2: Look up, everybody. In chemistry, there's something called physical change
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  Speaker 2: and chemical change. Simple things they say. Physical change are
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  Speaker 2: changes that can be reversed either forward or backward. Chemical
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  Speaker 2: changes can be reversed. For instance, when you convert liquid
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  Speaker 2: to solid through freezing, you can reverse it. Okay? But
• 1:28:58
  Speaker 2: when you burn a piece of paper, convert it to ash.
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  Speaker 2: You can't reverse it. So, there are permanent changes. Okay?
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  Speaker 2: Let me give you another one. When people eat, and
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  Speaker 2: it is, alright, digested in their system, and they pass
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  Speaker 2: some out as dungs, and then the rest absorbed by
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  Speaker 2: the body, you can't reverse it and make it rise again.
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  Speaker 2: But God said, Hi, we'll restore the years that the locusts,
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  Speaker 2: the canker worms, listen, when locusts eat, they defecate as
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  Speaker 2: they eat. He said, I will call it back. I
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  Speaker 2: will restore it again... Brand new... That's what he says... Amen...
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  Speaker 2: There is nothing you can do against us... But for us...
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  Speaker 2: I am not disadvantaged... This is the life I have...
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  Speaker 2: I am not disadvantaged... Glory... When they expect you to be...
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  Speaker 2: Covering and crying... You are rejoicing and say, what's happening there?
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  Speaker 2: Because there is nothing you can do against us. Thank you, Lord.
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  Speaker 2: We give you all the praise. Because that army is rising.
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  Speaker 2: Thank you, Father. Thank you, Lord. We bless your holy name. Amen.
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