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Best of full interview: G Herbo Talks New Album 'Lil Herb,' Grief; Father's Passing, Family, Meek Mill, Funny Marco + More · The Breakfast Club

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  Speaker 1: Every day clicks up the Breakfast Club, finish for y'all
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  Speaker 1: done morning.
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  Speaker 2: Everybody is Steve j n V Jess hilarious, Charlamagne the guy.
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  Speaker 2: We are the Breakfast Club. We got a special guest
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  Speaker 2: in the building. Yes, sir at Gerbo, Welcome and congratulations.
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  Speaker 2: Man the number one record a couple of weeks ago, grass.
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  Speaker 1: Man, thank you.
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  Speaker 3: I'm good.
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  Speaker 1: I'm good.
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  Speaker 3: I'm glad to be here.
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  Speaker 1: I's a field number one record.
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  Speaker 4: I feel good. I'm not gonna lie.
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  Speaker 1: I feel great.
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  Speaker 4: It feel great. I'll just be trying to like stay
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  Speaker 4: in the moment real just just keep it like up,
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  Speaker 4: you know, like when you where you got those type
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  Speaker 4: of moments you just trying to figure out like all right,
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  Speaker 4: well I me personally, like I gotta figure out what's
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  Speaker 4: the next best thing, Like what do I do next?
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  Speaker 3: From that? Like I try to live in a moment
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  Speaker 3: and grasp up that energy. But just keep it going.
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  Speaker 3: You're not trying to catch another number one.
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  Speaker 4: I'm just trying to keep it going.
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  Speaker 2: Did you expect that to be the record because it's
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  Speaker 2: not your typical of course, Well, it was just you
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  Speaker 2: just spitting.
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  Speaker 4: Nah, Hell Noah, for sure. I was just literally, I
• 1:02
  Speaker 4: can't say it enough. It was just me just having
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  Speaker 4: fun in the studio. I was in New York and
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  Speaker 4: was in the studio me south Side Smack and you
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  Speaker 4: know south Side Like I really, I'd be having to
• 1:13
  Speaker 4: give a lot of credit to Big Bro because he
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  Speaker 4: want the only people that could tell me, like, rap
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  Speaker 4: on this, just rap on this and figure it out
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  Speaker 4: like just rap And that's what I did and that
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  Speaker 4: that should changed my life?
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  Speaker 2: Who picked it as a single? Like was it just
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  Speaker 2: I'm just gonna release and see what happened?
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  Speaker 1: And it just took over.
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  Speaker 3: That's what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 4: That's why I like, as artists, you gotta like really
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  Speaker 4: just bet on yourself for real, for real. Because I
• 1:38
  Speaker 4: was in the in a mold of just trying to
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  Speaker 4: do music and see what the streets connected to.
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  Speaker 3: I didn't even like that.
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  Speaker 4: Song came out and December on my app. I got
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  Speaker 4: an app on my own app, like where I just
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  Speaker 4: put out music material content. All this is just for
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  Speaker 4: the people who really support me. Like you know what
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  Speaker 4: I'm saying, My fans, they know about the g app.
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  Speaker 4: I put it out on my app on a project
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  Speaker 4: that I was just recording all samples too, Like I
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  Speaker 4: did a project with all samples and it couldn't even
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  Speaker 4: go on Apple Music.
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  Speaker 3: It couldn't go on DSPs.
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  Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying. Like I put it out
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  Speaker 4: on the APP in December, and the label put it
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  Speaker 4: out on DSPs in like March April. So it's like
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  Speaker 4: you gotta just trash it and just see what the
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  Speaker 4: streets fuck with you? App I appreciate it. Has it
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  Speaker 4: changed the bag? Has that single changed your bag?
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  Speaker 3: Absolutely?
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  Speaker 1: Because see I'll be thinking that.
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  Speaker 5: You know a lot of people be fronting on like
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  Speaker 5: the power of radio and having a big radio record.
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  Speaker 1: Speak to that.
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  Speaker 4: Man for sure, And you gotta put money in radio though,
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  Speaker 4: like you gotta, like you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 3: What you put in it, come out. We'll go out
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  Speaker 3: on the wash, come out on the wrist.
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  Speaker 4: Whatever they're saying is you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 3: So like.
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  Speaker 4: I've always been like I knew because I've been independent
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  Speaker 4: this whole time. So I know about like analytics, I
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  Speaker 4: know about like residuals, I know what, Like one record
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  Speaker 4: can really change your life, you know what I'm saying, Like,
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  Speaker 4: and I finally caught that record that like that life
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  Speaker 4: changing records.
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  Speaker 3: So yeah, the bag been.
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  Speaker 5: Crazy and the royalties from radio are better than the streaming.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, absolutely for sure. And it's like once you once
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  Speaker 4: you get a song that really go radio, it's like
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  Speaker 4: it's just like it just changed everything for real.
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  Speaker 1: Change the places you actually perform at for sure.
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  Speaker 4: Exactly like you could put you could put you put
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  Speaker 4: money in radio for sure for what to do what
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  Speaker 4: it's supposed to do. But just like even like it's
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  Speaker 4: a difference between like putting something in radio for just
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  Speaker 4: get on the radio for shit to get like rhythmic
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  Speaker 4: play playlists, you know what I'm saying, Like all of that.
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  Speaker 4: It's just a big super difference. Like I'll be talking
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  Speaker 4: to like Make all the time. It's just like once
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  Speaker 4: you get a record, Like I'm not even talking about
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  Speaker 4: what legit Like there's certain records that like the format
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  Speaker 4: where you know it could go radio, you know what
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  Speaker 4: I'm saying, Like I feel like every artist, all you
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  Speaker 4: need is like one radio record a year, just one, like.
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  Speaker 1: You feel I'm saying, it ain't that easy to get one.
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  Speaker 4: It's not easy at all. But like you know, hit Maker,
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  Speaker 4: that's my big brother, Like he the god of this
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  Speaker 4: ship like you fee what I'm saying, Like he know
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  Speaker 4: the whole formula he do it like and that's why
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  Speaker 4: he's so rich, like that Nigga richest shit because he
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  Speaker 4: on radio every year at least.
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  Speaker 1: Point it out right for sure.
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  Speaker 4: Wallow Herb, Willow Herb. I was just trying to like
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  Speaker 4: tap into like that old hunger, like my old self.
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  Speaker 4: And when I be rapping good and shit, like I
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  Speaker 4: be reading comments and shit, sometimes my fans be like,
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  Speaker 4: oh that ain't they Ain't.
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  Speaker 3: You heard what?
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  Speaker 4: That's little herd, you know what I'm saying. Like I
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  Speaker 4: feel like that was like one of my best errors
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  Speaker 4: of rap. Like I always been able to rap. I'm
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  Speaker 4: an EMC, so it's like I don't care if I'm
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  Speaker 4: not even all the way tapped into like my confidence
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  Speaker 4: and all of that shit. I'm always gonna be able
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  Speaker 4: to rap good. You feel me, But like once you
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  Speaker 4: really focus on straight rap, it's different.
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  Speaker 3: That's what I was trying to do.
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  Speaker 4: So that's why I went and like name my album
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  Speaker 4: of Herb like I was going up like listening to
• 5:05
  Speaker 4: old interviews, listen to old music videos. I mean, watch
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  Speaker 4: old music videos, listen to old songs and shit like that,
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  Speaker 4: and like I was just trying to find like a
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  Speaker 4: higher level of rap for myself, you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 4: And I say this all the time, like you could
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  Speaker 4: really get caught up in what's in front of you,
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  Speaker 4: Like always been the type of person like I say
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  Speaker 4: this a lot a lot of rooms that I was in,
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  Speaker 4: I wasn't really in the rooms, you know what I'm saying,
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  Speaker 4: because I'm thinking about like my past. I'm thinking about
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  Speaker 4: what I gotta do when I get out the room.
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  Speaker 4: Like I'm just saying what's up, Like there's certain conversations
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  Speaker 4: that I really couldn't have because my mind is all
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  Speaker 4: over the place. You feel me, Like so like in
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  Speaker 4: this like era where I am mentally, I was just
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  Speaker 4: trying to.
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  Speaker 3: Like find that old hunger that made me enjoy what.
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  Speaker 4: I have now, you know what I'm saying, Like like
• 6:01
  Speaker 4: that's that's why I really named my project Little Herb,
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  Speaker 4: because like you were, like on the day to day,
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  Speaker 4: I'm thirty years old. I've been rapping since I was
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  Speaker 4: like sixteen for real, for real, like you feel me,
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  Speaker 4: And I was trying to figure out like damn, like
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  Speaker 4: it's like all the steps to that it took me
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  Speaker 4: to get here. You feel what I'm saying, Like I
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  Speaker 4: forgot a lot. I'm not gonna lie. It's a lot
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  Speaker 4: of shit that I did that I forgot.
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  Speaker 3: So it's like I.
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  Speaker 4: Wanted to make myself remember, so I had to like
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  Speaker 4: go back in and like tap in with my old
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  Speaker 4: self for real.
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  Speaker 5: I heard you say, Little Herb is a full circle
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  Speaker 5: moment and it's a return to the fundamentals. But you
• 6:36
  Speaker 5: closing the chapter on the little Herb area, what what
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  Speaker 5: is closing that chapter actually look like?
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  Speaker 4: Closing that chapter is like for real, just letting go,
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  Speaker 4: Like it's a lot of shit that I held on
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  Speaker 4: to that I just don't need no more.
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  Speaker 3: Like for real, for real, like the.
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  Speaker 1: Street therapy talk right there.
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  Speaker 4: Just letting go for real real and it is. It
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  Speaker 4: is definitely therapy that helped me. It's like a lot
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  Speaker 4: of that you hold on to you just like just
• 7:02
  Speaker 4: let it go, Just let it go and just let
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  Speaker 4: it find you. You know what I'm saying, Like, no,
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  Speaker 4: for real, Like I was one of the people that
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  Speaker 4: just like my heart is so big, and I feel
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  Speaker 4: like people knew that, Like people knew that, Like they
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  Speaker 4: grab me and I'm grabbing them back. You fee what
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  Speaker 4: I'm saying, Like I'm holding on to that type of shit.
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  Speaker 4: It's like that's just letting that chapter go like.
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  Speaker 3: I should.
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  Speaker 4: Like and people been saying this to me for years
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  Speaker 4: and I've been knowing it, but I never really acted
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  Speaker 4: on it. Like I shouldn't focus on nothing but music
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  Speaker 4: and my family and like God, like that's the only
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  Speaker 4: thing that I should wake up and care about. I
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  Speaker 4: shouldn't really give a fuck about how somebody else eat
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  Speaker 4: or how somebody else get the work or get the
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  Speaker 4: sleep or any of that shit, and not worried about
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  Speaker 4: that for years. Like let's be closing that chapter, Like
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  Speaker 4: I'm gonna tap into this, tell my story and just
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  Speaker 4: let go for let go and let God for real
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  Speaker 4: for and that go for everything and everybody. And it's
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  Speaker 4: a whole other chapter opening for me because everything that
• 8:01
  Speaker 4: got me here, I don't I don't even really have.
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  Speaker 3: It no more, for real real, like all my friends dead.
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  Speaker 4: I'm finna be a real, one hundred percent independent artist,
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  Speaker 4: Like I don't got no label, no production company. I'm
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  Speaker 4: one hundred percent a real new person and a new artist.
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  Speaker 4: So it's like I just want to just tap into
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  Speaker 4: this shit, do what I need to do, and I'm
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  Speaker 4: already doing it for real. But just like letting go
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  Speaker 4: for real, like I don't. I don't want to have
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  Speaker 4: no attachments other than family, No bullshit.
• 8:32
  Speaker 5: How did you balance revisiting like those old traumas with
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  Speaker 5: the grown man you are now like you're thirty, so
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  Speaker 5: you your a whole new level of life. You don't
• 8:40
  Speaker 5: shift to the face shot that kid, nineteen year old kid?
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  Speaker 4: No more? Yeah, no, for sure.
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  Speaker 3: My homie, my one of my best friends.
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  Speaker 4: He used to say this shit like he only probably
• 8:50
  Speaker 4: like eight months older than me. He like, bro, once
• 8:52
  Speaker 4: you touched thirty, you just gonna start, I think, he said.
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  Speaker 4: He used to tell me, I can't wait you turn
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  Speaker 4: thirty like he turned thirty. He like, I can't wait
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  Speaker 4: till you turn thirty because it's just like it's like
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  Speaker 4: a light switch.
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  Speaker 3: Like shit, just you know what I'm saying, just tap in.
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  Speaker 4: For you and it's for me for real, Like I promise, I'm.
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  Speaker 3: Like, I don't.
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  Speaker 4: I don't be wanting to sound like cliche or corny
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  Speaker 4: and none of this type of shit. But like my
• 9:18
  Speaker 4: girl is like my toughest critic, Like she's one of
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  Speaker 4: the people who really just like stay on me, like
• 9:24
  Speaker 4: she tell me a lot of shit that I know
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  Speaker 4: and I don't act on you know what I'm saying,
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  Speaker 4: which is coming to like my business, niggas around me.
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  Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, like all of that you
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  Speaker 4: feel me like and like to kind of like tap
• 9:38
  Speaker 4: into the what you were saying. The question is like
• 9:42
  Speaker 4: you just gotta you just gotta really like just go
• 9:45
  Speaker 4: with your gut, your intuition. You fee what I'm saying.
• 9:47
  Speaker 4: Like a lot of times niggas question theyself and feel
• 9:50
  Speaker 4: like all right, but you know you might know the answer,
• 9:53
  Speaker 4: you might know right from wrong and not do it
• 9:55
  Speaker 4: because you question it has going to like affect other people.
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  Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, And I'm one of them
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  Speaker 4: type of people, but like I'm one of them type
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  Speaker 4: of people that think about how it's going to affect
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  Speaker 4: other people. And like I was saying that, like because
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  Speaker 4: my girl she like she don't give a fuck, like
• 10:11
  Speaker 4: she don't care, and you need that, like you need
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  Speaker 4: it because like I really got to stop caring for real,
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  Speaker 4: for real, Like I feel like I care too much
• 10:18
  Speaker 4: and I like done certain shit or not done certain
• 10:22
  Speaker 4: things because I'm figuring. I'm feeling like it's going to
• 10:26
  Speaker 4: affect people in a negative way or whatever way it is.
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  Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying. It's like if you got
• 10:30
  Speaker 4: a good heart, if you just lead with what is
• 10:33
  Speaker 4: right for you, like it'll it'll work out for sure.
• 10:35
  Speaker 2: Now you talk about Meek Mill changing your life, right, Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: he was your inspiration. Yeah, break that down to what
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  Speaker 2: you've seen in milk, that meat that made you think
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  Speaker 2: that you can do it.
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  Speaker 4: Bro. Literally, I've just got done listening to We're Gonna
• 10:47
  Speaker 4: get this money right now on my way here.
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  Speaker 3: Like, Meek is my.
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  Speaker 4: Favorite rapper for real, Bro, it's my big better And
• 10:53
  Speaker 4: I was just with Meek last night. We just did
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  Speaker 4: a song last night. We was in the.
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  Speaker 3: Studio last night, I believe, yeah, two nights ago.
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  Speaker 4: Who's list in the studio the other day. But Meek
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  Speaker 4: is just like like he's like I used to listen
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  Speaker 4: to me and watch me when he was a battle rapper.
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  Speaker 4: But when he really got rich and made this shit happen,
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  Speaker 4: It's like all right, But that like it's different from
• 11:19
  Speaker 4: me watching like Wayne and hole Man. You know what
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  Speaker 4: I'm saying, Like I couldn't like I could relate to it.
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  Speaker 4: But it's like when I grew up and me, I've
• 11:31
  Speaker 4: seen them niggas rich already, Like I seen Meek turn
• 11:35
  Speaker 4: rich coming from the streets and going through all the
• 11:37
  Speaker 4: shit that he went through and really like talking about
• 11:40
  Speaker 4: it and preaching like positivity and motivation. That shit made
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  Speaker 4: me feel like I just want to be like that
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  Speaker 4: for real, real, Like that nigga really like helped me
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  Speaker 4: grow into the artist that I am today, for real
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  Speaker 4: real because like damn, like this nigga, Meek, like it's
• 11:55
  Speaker 4: not like he was an artist and he was like
• 12:00
  Speaker 4: far away, you knowe what I'm saying, Like I felt
• 12:03
  Speaker 4: like I.
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  Speaker 3: Could grasp on to that shit and become that.
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  Speaker 4: Like this nigga is a real street nigga that became
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  Speaker 4: the biggest in the world. Like he became the biggest
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  Speaker 4: best rat and he's a rap guy. Like I love rapping.
• 12:15
  Speaker 4: I'm an mc so I studied that first and foremost.
• 12:19
  Speaker 4: But just a blueprinter like that nigga, Like he like
• 12:22
  Speaker 4: he gave you the real blueprint. Like you get on,
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  Speaker 4: you take care of niggas, you do what you supposed
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  Speaker 4: to do. You take care of your family, your mother,
• 12:29
  Speaker 4: like that nigg used to make me like I just
• 12:31
  Speaker 4: used to have to just get money to my mama.
• 12:33
  Speaker 4: Just like thinking about that type of shit. You fee
• 12:35
  Speaker 4: what I'm saying. Like I retire my mom when I
• 12:37
  Speaker 4: was sixteen years old, bro literally and they put a
• 12:40
  Speaker 4: lot of pressure on me. I told my mama stopped
• 12:42
  Speaker 4: working when I was sixteen.
• 12:43
  Speaker 3: She never worked.
• 12:44
  Speaker 4: Since I'm taking care of her, my aunties, my whole
• 12:47
  Speaker 4: family since I was sixteen. That's a lot of pressure.
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  Speaker 1: I hell, love of pressure, a lot of pressure.
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  Speaker 2: But how do you I was one question I was
• 12:54
  Speaker 2: gonna say, So, now you're the meat meal for a
• 12:56
  Speaker 2: lot of these younger artists, So what do you show
• 12:59
  Speaker 2: them to show them that they can do it? What
• 13:01
  Speaker 2: do you do different? So because you know you got
• 13:03
  Speaker 2: a lot of kids watching and they want to be.
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  Speaker 3: Increble for sure.
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  Speaker 4: Like for me, it's I just try to like what's
• 13:10
  Speaker 4: the word, Like you gotta like show them's like like
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  Speaker 4: what Mek did for real, like being.
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  Speaker 3: Show fel tangible.
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  Speaker 4: You just gotta showing Like Like the thing with me
• 13:19
  Speaker 4: that I feel like make a difference a lot is
• 13:21
  Speaker 4: I let people see me in a physical like you
• 13:24
  Speaker 4: gotta see it like have conversations like seeing is believing.
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  Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, Like, you know you could do
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  Speaker 4: this when you could actually get in front of somebody
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  Speaker 4: like me. Growing up, I never seen nobody that I
• 13:34
  Speaker 4: looked up to, and I wanted to be like in
• 13:37
  Speaker 4: front of me talking to me. You know what I'm saying,
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  Speaker 4: Like I just had to have a manpower, like I
• 13:41
  Speaker 4: could do it.
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  Speaker 3: I'm gonna do it. You fel what I'm saying. And
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  Speaker 3: it happened for me.
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  Speaker 4: And when I got a certain age like nineteen twenty eight,
• 13:50
  Speaker 4: like those ages when I started traveling and having conversations
• 13:53
  Speaker 4: with people that I looked up to, But like fourteen, fifteen, sixteen,
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  Speaker 4: them years really matter whereas like you know what I'm saying,
• 14:00
  Speaker 4: and I try to be the person where I just
• 14:03
  Speaker 4: go back and do certain things and go touch the community,
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  Speaker 4: and you know what I'm saying, tell them that they
• 14:08
  Speaker 4: could really make it, like this shit is nothing for real,
• 14:12
  Speaker 4: like but like and I ain't gonna say it's nothing
• 14:15
  Speaker 4: like it's it's a task.
• 14:18
  Speaker 3: For sure, it's hard, but it's easy at the same time.
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  Speaker 4: All you gotta do is wake up and strive to
• 14:24
  Speaker 4: go get it and want to do it and believe
• 14:26
  Speaker 4: that you could do it. You just gotta have a vision.
• 14:28
  Speaker 4: You fee what I'm saying. And when I go look
• 14:30
  Speaker 4: at like these kids and be going to talk and
• 14:33
  Speaker 4: have conversations, like they got the same power that I got,
• 14:36
  Speaker 4: Like they really got something in them. They just don't
• 14:40
  Speaker 4: think it's possible. This shit is really possible, like they
• 14:43
  Speaker 4: when you wake up and all you got is this
• 14:45
  Speaker 4: four block radius and your hood and the shit that
• 14:48
  Speaker 4: you're dealing with every day, you think that's your life,
• 14:50
  Speaker 4: but it's like it's so much outside of that. All
• 14:53
  Speaker 4: you gotta know is how to break that cycle. And
• 14:56
  Speaker 4: you feel what I'm saying, like, that's that's the thing
• 14:58
  Speaker 4: with me, Like I feel like that's what make a
• 15:00
  Speaker 4: difference in why people like believe in me because I try.
• 15:05
  Speaker 4: I let him touch me. I let him, you know.
• 15:07
  Speaker 4: Paul's like, you know what I'm saying. I go see
• 15:10
  Speaker 4: the people.
• 15:10
  Speaker 5: I'm thinking about something now, and you made me think
• 15:12
  Speaker 5: about it when you said you've been rapping since she
• 15:14
  Speaker 5: was nineteen, because I can remember like your first friend,
• 15:18
  Speaker 5: I can remember your first early breakfast club interviews.
• 15:20
  Speaker 4: Right.
• 15:20
  Speaker 5: But then it started getting me thinking about all of
• 15:23
  Speaker 5: these artists we've seen from Chicago that have come through
• 15:27
  Speaker 5: come through here the past fifteen years.
• 15:28
  Speaker 3: You talk about what's possible.
• 15:30
  Speaker 5: Man, you are proof that's surviving as possible, and Chief
• 15:32
  Speaker 5: Keiths proof that's surviving.
• 15:34
  Speaker 3: Is sure, so so definitely know what I mean.
• 15:36
  Speaker 5: People like Dirk that's locked up, people like Bond that's
• 15:38
  Speaker 5: no longer here, plenty of other artists you probably interview
• 15:41
  Speaker 5: from Chicago.
• 15:42
  Speaker 3: How does that feel? It feel great?
• 15:44
  Speaker 5: Man?
• 15:44
  Speaker 4: You know, And I'm gonna say this again. I'm gonna
• 15:49
  Speaker 4: shout make out real quick because he just told me
• 15:52
  Speaker 4: the other day and it's like he told me this before,
• 15:54
  Speaker 4: but him telling me the other.
• 15:57
  Speaker 3: Day is just like.
• 15:59
  Speaker 4: If a difference, a different feeling to him saying. It's
• 16:02
  Speaker 4: like he's like, man, want you to chosen one. It's
• 16:05
  Speaker 4: certain things that just affect you differently, you know what
• 16:08
  Speaker 4: I'm saying. And I learned that from the streets, Like
• 16:11
  Speaker 4: I didn't bump my head so many times and did
• 16:13
  Speaker 4: so much and been arrested in and fell off and
• 16:17
  Speaker 4: came back or whatever the case may be. You know
• 16:19
  Speaker 4: what I'm saying. It's like when you do certain things,
• 16:22
  Speaker 4: God just punish you differently because you can't get away
• 16:25
  Speaker 4: with that, you feel I'm saying, like you would think
• 16:27
  Speaker 4: you would see somebody else doing it, like, oh he
• 16:29
  Speaker 4: did it, and you can't do that because God got
• 16:32
  Speaker 4: a different path for you. And like surviving in Chicago,
• 16:39
  Speaker 4: just making it out of the streets alone is a blessing.
• 16:42
  Speaker 4: Like it's literally like I'd be seeing some of my
• 16:45
  Speaker 4: homies and certain people that just like but and I
• 16:48
  Speaker 4: understand it. Other people don't get it. Like it's certain
• 16:51
  Speaker 4: people where you just like you just like wash your
• 16:54
  Speaker 4: hands with everything. I know, certain niggas that was real
• 16:58
  Speaker 4: menaces in the streets that don't do nothing but just
• 17:00
  Speaker 4: be at home with their girl and their kids now
• 17:02
  Speaker 4: because they just want peace. Like damn, I made it
• 17:05
  Speaker 4: out this shit. I can't believe I'm still alive. Like
• 17:08
  Speaker 4: a lot of people never experience life to that capacity
• 17:11
  Speaker 4: where they're just grateful that they're alive, that they still here,
• 17:14
  Speaker 4: you knowe what I'm saying. And it's a lot of
• 17:16
  Speaker 4: people when it comes surviving, you gotta you gotta make decisions,
• 17:22
  Speaker 4: and it gotta be calculated, and it's a lot of
• 17:24
  Speaker 4: people that's just raised off survival or you will do anything.
• 17:28
  Speaker 3: It's a difference, like when you survive and you just
• 17:33
  Speaker 3: raised off survival.
• 17:34
  Speaker 4: Like I'm trying to explain that with Like, it's certain
• 17:36
  Speaker 4: people where if you just like survival is your first.
• 17:39
  Speaker 3: Instinct, you will do anything. You will kill your closest friend,
• 17:44
  Speaker 3: you a snitch, rob steal from your mama.
• 17:48
  Speaker 4: Your grandma, and and you gotta understand this, like it's
• 17:53
  Speaker 4: just life. It's certain people who don't know nothing else.
• 17:56
  Speaker 4: They was raised off of survival. They mother and father
• 17:59
  Speaker 4: raised them off of survivals. So it's like a lot
• 18:03
  Speaker 4: of people don't understand that, you know what I'm saying,
• 18:05
  Speaker 4: It's just me being here today. I try to, Like
• 18:08
  Speaker 4: I think that's one of the reasons why, Like I
• 18:12
  Speaker 4: probably got took advantage of so much because I understand
• 18:17
  Speaker 4: both sides of the fence, and I try to get
• 18:19
  Speaker 4: everybody the benefit of the doubt, you know what I'm saying,
• 18:21
  Speaker 4: Like I try to, like I try to think about
• 18:26
  Speaker 4: putting myself in other people's shoes before I make a decision,
• 18:29
  Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying. Like I always before I
• 18:31
  Speaker 4: do anything, I always think about the consequences, repercussions, everything.
• 18:37
  Speaker 4: So if I do something to anybody or do anything
• 18:41
  Speaker 4: I thought about it so many times. I'm comfortable with
• 18:43
  Speaker 4: how it play out, you know what I'm saying, and
• 18:45
  Speaker 4: like you like, it's only certain people that think like that,
• 18:48
  Speaker 4: especially in life and coming from Chicago, you gotta think
• 18:52
  Speaker 4: about both sides of the fence. It's certain people that
• 18:54
  Speaker 4: think a lot, and it's certain people that don't think
• 18:56
  Speaker 4: at all. You feel me and this shit like, it's
• 18:59
  Speaker 4: a blessing to be for sure, for sure because I've
• 19:01
  Speaker 4: seen a lot.
• 19:02
  Speaker 3: I experienced a lot. I've seen a lot of death, and.
• 19:06
  Speaker 4: I just come from one of the toughest neighborhoods in Chicago,
• 19:09
  Speaker 4: like one of the most poverty struck in neighborhoods where
• 19:12
  Speaker 4: it's like I was a kid and people used to
• 19:14
  Speaker 4: like a lady walked out. I think I said this
• 19:16
  Speaker 4: before on a breakfast club interview when I was when
• 19:18
  Speaker 4: I was in Shorty, Like a lady walked up on me.
• 19:21
  Speaker 4: I'm waiting on my mom. She coming from the laundry man.
• 19:24
  Speaker 4: Lady walked up on me, like you got some c
• 19:26
  Speaker 4: I'm like, m hmm, like what.
• 19:29
  Speaker 3: I'm like what. She's like, you got some c?
• 19:31
  Speaker 4: She asks for crack. I'm like nine years old. I'm
• 19:35
  Speaker 4: like nineteen, wait on my mama to come in the house,
• 19:37
  Speaker 4: like you got some sea. I'm like what, Yeah, she
• 19:40
  Speaker 4: asked me if I had cracked, literally a kid three
• 19:43
  Speaker 4: in the morning, I'm outside because that's now you're selling.
• 19:46
  Speaker 3: Crack for real, for real, So when did you get some?
• 19:54
  Speaker 4: That's the statute of limitations with this ship for real
• 20:00
  Speaker 4: crack a statute of limitations for sure. But I always
• 20:04
  Speaker 4: been one of them kids. It's like I just wanted
• 20:08
  Speaker 4: to get money. I knew how to get money early on,
• 20:10
  Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying. And I used to do
• 20:13
  Speaker 4: shit to just get fly, like get fresh and shit.
• 20:15
  Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying. And I'm blessed that I
• 20:19
  Speaker 4: didn't have to do it for long. You feel me
• 20:21
  Speaker 4: like I ain't got like I started really making money
• 20:23
  Speaker 4: off music at sixteen years old, but I was outside
• 20:27
  Speaker 4: two for sure.
• 20:28
  Speaker 5: What the first record you made money off?
• 20:31
  Speaker 4: What did the Nicky record?
• 20:32
  Speaker 1: Right?
• 20:32
  Speaker 5: What?
• 20:32
  Speaker 4: Chicago? Oh?
• 20:34
  Speaker 3: The first record?
• 20:35
  Speaker 4: I actually like when we started making money, like after
• 20:37
  Speaker 4: Kills Shit came out? Yeah, killed Shit.
• 20:40
  Speaker 3: Yeah.
• 20:41
  Speaker 2: I was gonna ask what you know? He mentioned Sosa,
• 20:44
  Speaker 2: He mentioned Vaughan, mentioned Dirt.
• 20:46
  Speaker 1: Have you spoke to dirt.
• 20:47
  Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I supposed to. I supposed to Smirk saw
• 20:50
  Speaker 4: the dirt probably like a month, month or two ago.
• 20:53
  Speaker 1: How is he doing?
• 20:53
  Speaker 4: Yeah, he doing good for sure, like mentally, And that's
• 20:56
  Speaker 4: the thing about Smirk. If you know him, you know
• 21:01
  Speaker 4: he good like that. Nigga's really a real discipline mentally
• 21:07
  Speaker 4: strong nigga for real, for real, like this shit just
• 21:10
  Speaker 4: like he just like this is just a part of
• 21:12
  Speaker 4: his journey. Like he know he coming from under this shit.
• 21:15
  Speaker 4: We all know he coming from under this the shit,
• 21:16
  Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying. But like he's he he
• 21:19
  Speaker 4: won them type of niggas, like he never gonna lose hisself.
• 21:21
  Speaker 4: All he doing is praying, talking to his family, like
• 21:26
  Speaker 4: connecting with God. You know what I'm saying, Like shit
• 21:28
  Speaker 4: like that, And yeah, Smirk definitely good. I spoke to him.
• 21:32
  Speaker 4: I sent them like a little snippet of music that
• 21:34
  Speaker 4: I'm putting out and the music that I like was
• 21:37
  Speaker 4: saying his name and shit like that. You feel what
• 21:39
  Speaker 4: I'm saying, Like smart brother, Yeah.
• 21:41
  Speaker 3: We smirked.
• 21:43
  Speaker 6: So for little Herd. Right, do you are you getting personal?
• 21:47
  Speaker 6: Like are we hearing the pain? Because you have been
• 21:49
  Speaker 6: through a lot since you lost your friends and then
• 21:51
  Speaker 6: go the rest of your dad. So you know what
• 21:52
  Speaker 6: I'm saying, You've been through a lot of shit. Yeah,
• 21:55
  Speaker 6: So are we getting the personal getting the pain?
• 21:57
  Speaker 3: Definitely? I'm speaking about like everything.
• 22:00
  Speaker 4: I feel like I've I covered a lot in this album.
• 22:04
  Speaker 4: I'm really talking about a lot, a lot, A lot,
• 22:07
  Speaker 4: a lot, and it makes me feel good though, you
• 22:10
  Speaker 4: know what I'm saying. Like it's like rap always been
• 22:13
  Speaker 4: a form of like therapy for me, you know what
• 22:15
  Speaker 4: I'm saying.
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: So it's like.
• 22:17
  Speaker 4: Certain I don't really like when I'm in the studio,
• 22:19
  Speaker 4: I just rap, and just like I got to a
• 22:23
  Speaker 4: point in my life in my career where I don't
• 22:25
  Speaker 4: think about like how people gonn receive it, like how
• 22:29
  Speaker 4: the world gonna receive it, have my family gonna receive
• 22:33
  Speaker 4: it or whatever.
• 22:33
  Speaker 3: I just speak about whatever is on my mind and
• 22:37
  Speaker 3: go from there.
• 22:37
  Speaker 4: You knowee what I'm saying. And that's how I picked
• 22:39
  Speaker 4: the records. You feel what I'm saying and I don't.
• 22:42
  Speaker 4: I'm saying that to say like I don't really realize
• 22:46
  Speaker 4: all the shit I'm talking about and what I cover
• 22:48
  Speaker 4: until I'm hearing it. Like I'm a speaker, you know,
• 22:50
  Speaker 4: what I'm saying. I just go in the studio and
• 22:53
  Speaker 4: rap and like here a week later, two weeks later,
• 22:56
  Speaker 4: like damn, I just said some shit like like yeah,
• 22:59
  Speaker 4: now for sure that this album is And you know
• 23:03
  Speaker 4: I altaists say this all the time. I feel like
• 23:05
  Speaker 4: I always feel like this, but like you would say, like, oh,
• 23:09
  Speaker 4: you're this is one of my best projects, Like I don't.
• 23:12
  Speaker 4: I'm not even gonna say this is my best project
• 23:14
  Speaker 4: or my best body of work. I really don't feel
• 23:16
  Speaker 4: like it's my best body of work, but I just
• 23:17
  Speaker 4: feel like it's my best era of rap. I feel
• 23:20
  Speaker 4: like I'm rapping better than I ever rapped before. Like
• 23:23
  Speaker 4: however they receive it or whoever feel like this project
• 23:26
  Speaker 4: better than this one or not, Like I just know
• 23:29
  Speaker 4: for a fact I'm rapping so good and I gave
• 23:31
  Speaker 4: it my all for sure.
• 23:33
  Speaker 5: That Therapeutic was this album. Though, in regard to your
• 23:36
  Speaker 5: grieving process, because I hear you mention your brother a lot,
• 23:38
  Speaker 5: especially on Give It All, How did that help?
• 23:43
  Speaker 4: I ain't gonna lie that I've been dealing with del
• 23:46
  Speaker 4: since I was a kid. Bro Like I lost I
• 23:49
  Speaker 4: started losing friends when I was like fourteen years old.
• 23:53
  Speaker 4: You know, like, and I'm talking about that, I'm touching
• 23:55
  Speaker 4: on that my and my album, my project. But you
• 23:59
  Speaker 4: gotta really like realize I'm thirty years old. I've been
• 24:02
  Speaker 4: losing people I love for fifteen years and still managing
• 24:07
  Speaker 4: to wake up and make it happen and beg herbo
• 24:11
  Speaker 4: and take pictures and smile for the fans, Like I
• 24:14
  Speaker 4: really didn't lost some of my best friends and had
• 24:17
  Speaker 4: to go do a show that same day, you know
• 24:19
  Speaker 4: what I'm saying, Like my homie Cap died twenty fifteen,
• 24:22
  Speaker 4: I had to perform in front of ten thousand people.
• 24:24
  Speaker 4: I just had to find an emmy. A lot of
• 24:26
  Speaker 4: people can't do that. A lot of people like non,
• 24:27
  Speaker 4: I just lost my homie. Fuck this shit, I'm gonna
• 24:29
  Speaker 4: go spind like.
• 24:31
  Speaker 3: I want to go do the show.
• 24:33
  Speaker 4: Like so it's like, I feel like I'm really destined
• 24:36
  Speaker 4: for this shit. I chose my own destiny, I chose
• 24:38
  Speaker 4: my own path. And I'm saying that, like for me,
• 24:41
  Speaker 4: they experience all of that death and feel like I
• 24:45
  Speaker 4: was numb to it. When my little brother died, it
• 24:47
  Speaker 4: changed my life. That was some of the worst pain
• 24:50
  Speaker 4: that I ever felt in my life. Ever, I could
• 24:54
  Speaker 4: never I never could fathom, like, and I'm a street nigga,
• 24:59
  Speaker 4: Like when I wake up, when I walk out the house,
• 25:01
  Speaker 4: I feel like I'm gonna die, like you know, like
• 25:04
  Speaker 4: I really feel like that, and that's what get me home.
• 25:06
  Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, Like every step, every move
• 25:08
  Speaker 4: that I take is calculated. And I never felt like
• 25:12
  Speaker 4: he was gonna die, you know what I'm saying, Like,
• 25:14
  Speaker 4: no bullshit, I never ever think like him. Hell no,
• 25:18
  Speaker 4: I just I never thought he was going to die.
• 25:20
  Speaker 4: Every day I wake up, wake up, I really feel
• 25:22
  Speaker 4: like I'm gonna die. I feel like somebody would do
• 25:24
  Speaker 4: something to me. And that's just the life I live.
• 25:27
  Speaker 2: And that's just you still feel like that because I
• 25:28
  Speaker 2: remember the last day you said you feel like that.
• 25:30
  Speaker 2: You said you were going to therapy to help you, and.
• 25:33
  Speaker 3: It helped me with it helped me with it.
• 25:35
  Speaker 4: But like, nah, hell no, And I'm glad that even
• 25:38
  Speaker 4: going through therapy and and like growing and healing the
• 25:44
  Speaker 4: way that I've healed in my life, I'm kind of
• 25:47
  Speaker 4: glad that I never lost that edge for real, because
• 25:51
  Speaker 4: that's how I protect myself, That's how I protect my children,
• 25:53
  Speaker 4: that's how I make sure I get back home, you
• 25:55
  Speaker 4: feel I'm saying, like, and I'm not out here thuging.
• 25:59
  Speaker 4: I ain't wild and I ain't doing no crazy shit.
• 26:01
  Speaker 4: Some days I leave the house and it just be
• 26:03
  Speaker 4: just me by myself, no security, nothing.
• 26:05
  Speaker 3: But I'm still on point.
• 26:07
  Speaker 4: I'm still watching my back, I'm still aware of my surroundings,
• 26:10
  Speaker 4: you feel I'm saying. So it's like I'm glad that
• 26:12
  Speaker 4: I never lost that edge real real and when like
• 26:15
  Speaker 4: going back to what you know what I'm saying.
• 26:16
  Speaker 3: What you said, Charla.
• 26:17
  Speaker 4: Magne, Like when I when my little brother died, I
• 26:21
  Speaker 4: lost myself, Like I became an alcoholic, like a badass alcoholic.
• 26:26
  Speaker 4: I never used to drink bro I used to drink
• 26:27
  Speaker 4: a fifth of liquor every single day, like every day
• 26:31
  Speaker 4: by myself.
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: Like, and.
• 26:34
  Speaker 4: My girl was pregnant when he died. You feel me, Like,
• 26:39
  Speaker 4: and I was like I was trying to like.
• 26:43
  Speaker 3: Not be that weak around her.
• 26:45
  Speaker 4: You feel me because she she know I didn't been
• 26:47
  Speaker 4: through shit, like she didn't been around me, and I
• 26:49
  Speaker 4: didn't lost homies.
• 26:50
  Speaker 3: You feel what I'm saying, Like, and.
• 26:53
  Speaker 4: She used to like say shit like snap out of it,
• 26:56
  Speaker 4: like you feel me like she used to like say it,
• 26:58
  Speaker 4: but it's like I can't.
• 26:59
  Speaker 3: It was just so hard for me.
• 27:01
  Speaker 4: I really couldn't for real, Like I used to have
• 27:02
  Speaker 4: to leave the house just to go cry, like swear
• 27:04
  Speaker 4: to God, like just go get in the con just
• 27:07
  Speaker 4: cry for hour straight because I ain't want to do
• 27:09
  Speaker 4: that in front of her.
• 27:10
  Speaker 3: And I felt like I should have. I should have,
• 27:13
  Speaker 3: I should have, but I was like I don't know.
• 27:16
  Speaker 7: I just And when she said snap out of it,
• 27:18
  Speaker 7: what does she mean, like.
• 27:20
  Speaker 4: Not snap out of the grief, snap out of the healing,
• 27:23
  Speaker 4: snap out of the crashing out like drinking and drinking
• 27:26
  Speaker 4: every day and wanting to go to the club and
• 27:29
  Speaker 4: just feel something because I really can't feel nothing, you
• 27:31
  Speaker 4: know what I'm saying. Like that was like that's what
• 27:34
  Speaker 4: she used to tell me to snap out of and
• 27:35
  Speaker 4: it was like it was hard, man, I ain't gonna lie.
• 27:39
  Speaker 5: Did people in your family try to like blame you
• 27:43
  Speaker 5: because you know, for whatever reason, when you the person
• 27:45
  Speaker 5: that made it when something bad go happen, they feel
• 27:48
  Speaker 5: like your success and your money could have kept that
• 27:50
  Speaker 5: person from being in that situation.
• 27:52
  Speaker 4: Nah, not really for real, for real, Like honestly they didn't.
• 27:56
  Speaker 4: And that was like the the biggest blessing. Nobody ever
• 28:00
  Speaker 4: blamed me for real, real like. And I had a
• 28:03
  Speaker 4: conversation with my grandma and I said this when I
• 28:05
  Speaker 4: did the This Ship with Shannon Sharp, I just did
• 28:11
  Speaker 4: an interview with him. And I had a conversation with
• 28:15
  Speaker 4: my grandma and she made me like she It was
• 28:19
  Speaker 4: one of the conversations that made me snap out of
• 28:22
  Speaker 4: drinking and crashing out because she like, man, I already
• 28:26
  Speaker 4: lost him. I'm not finna lose you to this shit.
• 28:30
  Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying. And she didn't blame me,
• 28:34
  Speaker 4: but like it was like my little brother was real,
• 28:38
  Speaker 4: like good nigga, a solid nigga. And I know for
• 28:41
  Speaker 4: a fact he got killed because somebody wanted to hurt me.
• 28:44
  Speaker 4: For sure, it wasn't my fault. But she like, you
• 28:50
  Speaker 4: gotta do it the right way, like if you finish,
• 28:52
  Speaker 4: like no, everybody we grieve and we all going through
• 28:56
  Speaker 4: the same shit, but you can't grieve like that, like
• 28:58
  Speaker 4: you gotta go make it like you gotta make this
• 29:01
  Speaker 4: shit happen for him, because it's like he not finna
• 29:04
  Speaker 4: die vain. You feel me like that was the conversation
• 29:07
  Speaker 4: that she held me, and that shit just turned me up.
• 29:09
  Speaker 4: And one of the last conversations I sort of got
• 29:12
  Speaker 4: my brother died at eleven am or some shit. We
• 29:17
  Speaker 4: was texting at four or five in the morning. My
• 29:19
  Speaker 4: last conversation with him was just like, Bro, I don't
• 29:22
  Speaker 4: want to do nothing to see you win, like I
• 29:23
  Speaker 4: ain't never ask you for nothing, like he never really
• 29:26
  Speaker 4: asked me for no money. Everything I ever gave him,
• 29:29
  Speaker 4: everything we ever did was just like a bonus like that.
• 29:31
  Speaker 4: Nigga never asked me for no money ever. He never
• 29:35
  Speaker 4: asked me like give me this, buy me this, put
• 29:37
  Speaker 4: me on, do this, do that, And he been with
• 29:39
  Speaker 4: me every step of the way. You feel me, he
• 29:41
  Speaker 4: just enjoyed the fruit of my label. That Nigga literally
• 29:43
  Speaker 4: never asked me for no money ever in life. And
• 29:47
  Speaker 4: our last conversation was, Bro, I just want to see
• 29:50
  Speaker 4: you win, like I just want you to do this shit.
• 29:52
  Speaker 4: And we was talking back and forth, and I saw
• 29:53
  Speaker 4: to God the next morning that Nigga died.
• 29:56
  Speaker 5: So so were you blaming yourself That's why you was
• 29:58
  Speaker 5: trying to escape?
• 30:00
  Speaker 4: Yeah, for sure, I was definitely blaming myself because I
• 30:05
  Speaker 4: just felt like and I used to have these conversations
• 30:07
  Speaker 4: with him, like I used to really tell him. And
• 30:08
  Speaker 4: that's the reason why I had to go back and
• 30:11
  Speaker 4: think and reflect because I used to tell that nigga, like, bro,
• 30:13
  Speaker 4: move to LA, like he got kids, just like I
• 30:16
  Speaker 4: got kids. I used to really tell that nigga, like, man,
• 30:19
  Speaker 4: go back and take care of them every now and then,
• 30:21
  Speaker 4: or do whatever you need to do. Send that shit,
• 30:23
  Speaker 4: like Bro, just come with me, please, Like I used
• 30:26
  Speaker 4: to have that conversation with him, like Bro, just come
• 30:28
  Speaker 4: to La, move to La, like please just come out here.
• 30:30
  Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying because I know what that
• 30:34
  Speaker 4: shit like, Bro, Like you feel what I'm saying Like
• 30:35
  Speaker 4: I used to. I used to talk to that nigga
• 30:37
  Speaker 4: and be like, Bro, just stop going back for real,
• 30:40
  Speaker 4: for real, because I'm thinking about that shit like he
• 30:44
  Speaker 4: he my brother was in the streets, but I feel
• 30:46
  Speaker 4: like he was just naive to the fact, like he
• 30:48
  Speaker 4: really like like I said, like I used to leave
• 30:49
  Speaker 4: out the house and feel like I'm gonna die every day.
• 30:52
  Speaker 3: He didn't have that man set. He didn't think like that.
• 30:55
  Speaker 4: If you feel me, and I used to think like that,
• 30:57
  Speaker 4: and it's scammy, Like I hate to see somebody I
• 30:59
  Speaker 4: love walking like man, this nigga could die.
• 31:02
  Speaker 3: Like you feel what I'm saying.
• 31:03
  Speaker 4: And I was blaming myself in a way because I
• 31:06
  Speaker 4: just felt like I should have, well I could have.
• 31:09
  Speaker 4: I ain't gonna say I should have, Like I felt
• 31:11
  Speaker 4: like I could have just like changed everybody in life
• 31:14
  Speaker 4: by force. And you can't do that. You can't feel
• 31:17
  Speaker 4: like you could save everybody, you know what I'm saying.
• 31:19
  Speaker 4: And I stopped blaming myself when I just realized that,
• 31:24
  Speaker 4: like I realized, like you, like it was nothing I
• 31:27
  Speaker 4: could do for real, like I used to really I
• 31:29
  Speaker 4: used to think like that's why I was so fucked
• 31:31
  Speaker 4: up because I felt like even me being g Herbo,
• 31:33
  Speaker 4: being an artist, being a star, I wish I was
• 31:36
  Speaker 4: really with him when that shit happened, because it wouldn't
• 31:38
  Speaker 4: have happened like that, Like I would have put my
• 31:40
  Speaker 4: life on the line. I would have put everything on
• 31:42
  Speaker 4: the line one thousand percent, like the scenario on how
• 31:46
  Speaker 4: he died. I feel like if I was you can't
• 31:49
  Speaker 4: feel like that, like cause you know you're thinking about
• 31:51
  Speaker 4: every scenario like I'm thinking, like if it was me
• 31:53
  Speaker 4: in there, like it probably wouldn't have happened like that.
• 31:55
  Speaker 4: I would have did this this way, but you don't know,
• 31:58
  Speaker 4: like you know what I'm saying God is that like
• 32:00
  Speaker 4: he's he is the person who control your destiny and say,
• 32:04
  Speaker 4: how like shit happened? But I'm thinking about that, and
• 32:06
  Speaker 4: it's like I really used to like really wish I
• 32:09
  Speaker 4: was with him, Like I just really felt like I
• 32:11
  Speaker 4: wish like still to this day, I really wish I
• 32:14
  Speaker 4: just would have been there, like because I feel like
• 32:16
  Speaker 4: it wouldn't have happened that way.
• 32:17
  Speaker 2: But how do you stop yourself haashing out right? Like
• 32:19
  Speaker 2: we've seen it with Gilly and the bad One of
• 32:22
  Speaker 2: the worst things about the Internet is the internet to
• 32:24
  Speaker 2: make you you you lose yourself, right, They'll trick you
• 32:26
  Speaker 2: into taking you off the street. How did you say,
• 32:28
  Speaker 2: you know what, I'm just gonna stay focused and gave
• 32:31
  Speaker 2: my brother, but still focus on my family.
• 32:33
  Speaker 1: Yeah, because a lot.
• 32:34
  Speaker 2: Of times people are like, now, I gotta get my
• 32:35
  Speaker 2: I gotta get my get back, I gotta do this,
• 32:37
  Speaker 2: I gotta do that, And it put you in so.
• 32:38
  Speaker 4: You're talking about like what I what I said on
• 32:41
  Speaker 4: the interview I just did with Gilly. It's like naturally,
• 32:48
  Speaker 4: it's like every action deserves a reaction, and I come
• 32:51
  Speaker 4: from a place where it's like you gotta react like
• 32:54
  Speaker 4: certain shit you do, like even if you like.
• 32:58
  Speaker 3: Some shit might happen to you today and you make
• 33:01
  Speaker 3: it home.
• 33:02
  Speaker 4: When you get in the house, you're thinking about what
• 33:05
  Speaker 4: the people gonna say, Like what the.
• 33:07
  Speaker 3: Hood gonna say when I come back, I gotta do something.
• 33:09
  Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, and I want them niggas
• 33:11
  Speaker 4: like me personally, if I go to sleep, like with
• 33:14
  Speaker 4: it on my mind, like if I'm thinking about it
• 33:17
  Speaker 4: all day, I'm gonna have to do something like for real,
• 33:20
  Speaker 4: for real, Like if that shits stay on my brain
• 33:22
  Speaker 4: and I think about it three times, full times, five times.
• 33:24
  Speaker 3: That's what I feel like.
• 33:25
  Speaker 4: It is eligible for me to not crash out but
• 33:29
  Speaker 4: react because I'm never gonna crash out because if I was,
• 33:32
  Speaker 4: I feel like the definition of when people say like
• 33:35
  Speaker 4: crash out is when you react right then off emotion.
• 33:38
  Speaker 4: That's a crash out. You feel what I'm saying, Like,
• 33:40
  Speaker 4: whatever I do to you, If I didn't thought about
• 33:43
  Speaker 4: this shit and calculating my steps and whatever consequences happened
• 33:46
  Speaker 4: behind that, that's not a crash out Because.
• 33:48
  Speaker 3: I'm a choice. I'm okay with what happens.
• 33:51
  Speaker 4: You fee what I'm saying, like and for me, like
• 33:54
  Speaker 4: how I stop myself from doing that? Is like certain
• 33:57
  Speaker 4: shit is not worth it, Like I know for I
• 34:00
  Speaker 4: know my power, I know what I could do.
• 34:02
  Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.
• 34:02
  Speaker 4: It's like certain shit is just like I'm automatically like
• 34:06
  Speaker 4: not a person that like confrontation. I hate confrontation because
• 34:10
  Speaker 4: I only know how to deal with it one of
• 34:11
  Speaker 4: two ways. Somebody gotta fight or die or something, you
• 34:15
  Speaker 4: know what I'm saying, Like, I only know how to
• 34:17
  Speaker 4: approach it that way. Like I'm not a person that
• 34:19
  Speaker 4: could have a two hour long conversation about something and
• 34:22
  Speaker 4: get to the bottom of it.
• 34:23
  Speaker 1: That's just not me.
• 34:24
  Speaker 4: So I avoid it every chance I could get, you
• 34:27
  Speaker 4: feel I'm saying. So it's like just you gotta know yourself.
• 34:30
  Speaker 4: You gotta know like you you gotta know when people
• 34:34
  Speaker 4: say things or try to push your buttons and just.
• 34:36
  Speaker 3: Let them have it.
• 34:37
  Speaker 4: Like I don't care about nobody saying I'm a pump
• 34:39
  Speaker 4: or nobody saying I'm a bitch or.
• 34:41
  Speaker 3: None of that type of shit.
• 34:42
  Speaker 4: And I used to for sure you feel what I'm saying,
• 34:44
  Speaker 4: But it's like at this point, I just think about
• 34:46
  Speaker 4: my kids. Like literally, that's the main reason why I
• 34:49
  Speaker 4: don't do crazy shit because I think about my kids.
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: It's like, my kids.
• 34:53
  Speaker 4: Don't understand what I got going on. You know, I'm saying,
• 34:56
  Speaker 4: my kids don't understand. If I end up in jailing,
• 34:58
  Speaker 4: I'm be like, what the fuck how my daddy go?
• 35:00
  Speaker 4: And I know what put me in jail, you know
• 35:02
  Speaker 4: what I'm saying, Like, I know what got me there,
• 35:04
  Speaker 4: I know what I did, But a lot of times
• 35:06
  Speaker 4: people don't explain that to their kids. You feel what
• 35:08
  Speaker 4: I'm saying, And being a father, like you gotta be
• 35:11
  Speaker 4: transparent as with your kids, like with like that, Like
• 35:14
  Speaker 4: if you make a crazy decision or life changing decision,
• 35:17
  Speaker 4: you got to explain that to your kids for real,
• 35:20
  Speaker 4: for real, so they don't make the decision, so they
• 35:22
  Speaker 4: understand why my dad and not coming home all.
• 35:24
  Speaker 3: That type of shit.
• 35:25
  Speaker 4: So I just that's the type of confrontation that I
• 35:29
  Speaker 4: avoid as well. Like I just think about my children,
• 35:32
  Speaker 4: bro like a lot of shit like when you had kids,
• 35:34
  Speaker 4: Like it's a lot of shit that you would do
• 35:37
  Speaker 4: that when you had kids, Like, hell no, I ain't
• 35:40
  Speaker 4: even think about doing that for sure.
• 35:42
  Speaker 5: I want to go back to one thing you said
• 35:44
  Speaker 5: in regard to how you react to death, because you know,
• 35:47
  Speaker 5: staying busy as a response to trauma, right, and we
• 35:51
  Speaker 5: saw that in real time, if you don't mind me
• 35:53
  Speaker 5: bringing up like people don't know today your father passed.
• 35:57
  Speaker 5: God blessed it. I came here, you was scheduled to
• 35:59
  Speaker 5: do at this club interview. You came in the studio and.
• 36:02
  Speaker 1: Still wanted to do it, like bro go home, like what.
• 36:06
  Speaker 4: Some of it? And I love you forever for that
• 36:09
  Speaker 4: because I really was here to do this. And it's
• 36:11
  Speaker 4: like that's the thing, Like I'm so used to deaf
• 36:16
  Speaker 4: and used to ship. It's like I didn't even process
• 36:18
  Speaker 4: it for real, like I came here because it's like
• 36:20
  Speaker 4: I really was in my head trying to forget that
• 36:22
  Speaker 4: my dad is dead. But I gotta like understand it.
• 36:26
  Speaker 4: I gotta know, like, yeah, my pop was just that today.
• 36:29
  Speaker 4: I need to process that, like and you.
• 36:31
  Speaker 5: Had just got the news while you was in the.
• 36:33
  Speaker 4: Car on the way. Yeah, my dad was in the hospital.
• 36:37
  Speaker 4: I knew he was sick and I found out he died,
• 36:39
  Speaker 4: and I just came here. I don't know.
• 36:41
  Speaker 3: I just like I don't even like you know what
• 36:47
  Speaker 3: what are you doing?
• 36:48
  Speaker 4: Like we're not doing Yeah, now you told me, like bro,
• 36:51
  Speaker 4: just go home, like just leave bro for real.
• 36:53
  Speaker 7: For the rest of that day, like what did you do?
• 36:55
  Speaker 7: Did you reflect on it? Were you afraid to even?
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: I was afraid.
• 36:59
  Speaker 4: I was afraid because like when you lose a parent,
• 37:02
  Speaker 4: that's shit different real real and my dad like I didn't.
• 37:05
  Speaker 4: I didn't have an absent father, like my father been
• 37:07
  Speaker 4: living with me my entire life, like my mother and
• 37:10
  Speaker 4: my dad been together forty years for real, real like,
• 37:14
  Speaker 4: and I think I was just trying to like not
• 37:18
  Speaker 4: feel it, like not processing, like you.
• 37:20
  Speaker 3: Know what I'm saying.
• 37:20
  Speaker 4: I was just like, all right, man, let me just
• 37:22
  Speaker 4: do it, and like that's the that's the problem, Like
• 37:24
  Speaker 4: that's the thing. Like you feel like, all right, let
• 37:26
  Speaker 4: me just do it and push through this and this
• 37:27
  Speaker 4: is my job, this is my life, Like you got
• 37:29
  Speaker 4: to put that shit to the side. Sometimes when you're
• 37:32
  Speaker 4: going through things like that, you feel what I'm saying.
• 37:34
  Speaker 4: And the rest of that day for me was really
• 37:36
  Speaker 4: just like I was scared, Like I ain't want to
• 37:39
  Speaker 4: call my mama, I didn't want to talk to my sister.
• 37:41
  Speaker 4: It took me so long and just asked my sister,
• 37:43
  Speaker 4: are you okay?
• 37:44
  Speaker 3: How you doing?
• 37:45
  Speaker 1: That?
• 37:45
  Speaker 4: Shit was hard for real, real, like it was super hard. Okay, Yeah,
• 37:50
  Speaker 4: Like I was scared to like had them conversations with her,
• 37:53
  Speaker 4: like how you feeling? You know what I'm saying that
• 37:54
  Speaker 4: even my mom, Like I keep my mom close to me,
• 37:57
  Speaker 4: and my mom like this you feel me and.
• 38:01
  Speaker 3: I know it, like I could see it.
• 38:03
  Speaker 4: I know she was not okay, And I used to
• 38:06
  Speaker 4: avoid them conversations, you know what I'm saying, Like she
• 38:08
  Speaker 4: would bring stuff up and like send me pictures and
• 38:11
  Speaker 4: all that shit. Like it was it was like I
• 38:15
  Speaker 4: didn't want to look at pictures of my dad for
• 38:17
  Speaker 4: a long time because it made me cry. Like I
• 38:21
  Speaker 4: ain't like and I'm not I'm like I didn't been
• 38:25
  Speaker 4: in therapy. I'm a person that's not like shy from
• 38:27
  Speaker 4: my emotions, like I'm intune my emotions all of that.
• 38:30
  Speaker 3: But just like it was hard because like.
• 38:34
  Speaker 4: For me, just I just thought he had more time,
• 38:36
  Speaker 4: Like I just wanted him to be here. So I
• 38:38
  Speaker 4: wasn't trying to like live in reality because I'm still
• 38:42
  Speaker 4: I was still grieving my little brother. Yeah you feel
• 38:44
  Speaker 4: what I'm saying.
• 38:45
  Speaker 3: So when that happened.
• 38:46
  Speaker 4: It was just like I didn't want to believe that
• 38:49
  Speaker 4: my dad was dead because I be on the road.
• 38:51
  Speaker 4: Sometimes I go eight months without seeing my pops. So
• 38:54
  Speaker 4: it's like you feel me, like eight nine months without
• 38:56
  Speaker 4: seeing them at all. Sometimes I go months without talking
• 38:59
  Speaker 4: to him.
• 39:00
  Speaker 3: I was trying to like.
• 39:01
  Speaker 4: Tap into that, like you feel me, like, let me
• 39:04
  Speaker 4: just getting that mentality like he like he here, but
• 39:07
  Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying, but he my my pops
• 39:09
  Speaker 4: really like that shit crazy. I think about that shit
• 39:12
  Speaker 4: every day, like, man, they really died on me, and
• 39:14
  Speaker 4: it's crazy. Like that's why I like I pray every day,
• 39:18
  Speaker 4: like I pray so much because my pops.
• 39:22
  Speaker 3: My last conversation with him.
• 39:23
  Speaker 4: My dad died the day after his birthday, like my
• 39:26
  Speaker 4: birthday October eighth, my dad birthday October sixteenth. He died
• 39:29
  Speaker 4: on seventeenth. And my last conversation with him, while I
• 39:33
  Speaker 4: called him, I said every birthday, I said, man, you're
• 39:34
  Speaker 4: on your way, boy, you're getting old, Like you're getting old? What?
• 39:38
  Speaker 4: And he died Like that was the last thing I
• 39:41
  Speaker 4: said to my pops, like boy, on your way, boy,
• 39:43
  Speaker 4: you about to be seting me, you know what? I'm saying,
• 39:45
  Speaker 4: like you getting old, that nigga, stop getting old a dream.
• 39:50
  Speaker 7: Like nigga, you said that I was on my way.
• 39:53
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I hope So I want him to.
• 39:55
  Speaker 4: Now he haven't chat, I want him to.
• 39:57
  Speaker 3: I hope he.
• 39:57
  Speaker 4: I hope he's telling me that the night like that
• 39:59
  Speaker 4: should have gave me a lot of comfort for real,
• 40:01
  Speaker 4: for real.
• 40:01
  Speaker 5: Like is it hard to write about I mean, like
• 40:03
  Speaker 5: I said, you write about your brother now, yeah, but
• 40:06
  Speaker 5: think brother would past three years ago?
• 40:08
  Speaker 4: Five?
• 40:09
  Speaker 1: Okay, So is it hard?
• 40:10
  Speaker 4: It's hard to put that on paper right now in
• 40:12
  Speaker 4: a way like only like I'll just like for sure,
• 40:16
  Speaker 4: like in a way I just rap about like my
• 40:19
  Speaker 4: pop's passing. I never like I didn't got all the way,
• 40:22
  Speaker 4: like I didn't made songs like paying homage to my brother,
• 40:25
  Speaker 4: like give it all that songs about my brother and
• 40:29
  Speaker 4: made songs just talking about how I felt that day,
• 40:32
  Speaker 4: Like I didn't made multiple songs about my brother died,
• 40:35
  Speaker 4: like I ain't did that for my pop. Shit all
• 40:37
  Speaker 4: I said on Wax for real is just like my
• 40:39
  Speaker 4: dad did. Like I never spoke about the emotions how
• 40:42
  Speaker 4: I felt, none of that. So yeah, it is definitely
• 40:45
  Speaker 4: tough because I don't know. I feel like mentally or
• 40:49
  Speaker 4: just where I'm at in life, like I ain't been
• 40:51
  Speaker 4: able to tap into that pain.
• 40:54
  Speaker 2: Do you do you make it a conscious effort not
• 40:57
  Speaker 2: to take it out on your girl?
• 40:59
  Speaker 1: Right?
• 41:00
  Speaker 2: And the reason I say that is a lot of
• 41:02
  Speaker 2: times when we deal with things, the only person we
• 41:04
  Speaker 2: do really get a chance to talk to it is
• 41:06
  Speaker 2: your girl. Absolutely, if honest to your wife, do you
• 41:08
  Speaker 2: make it a contra effort when you talk about the
• 41:10
  Speaker 2: death your brother, everything that's going on in the streets,
• 41:13
  Speaker 2: your father?
• 41:13
  Speaker 1: Do you make it that effort not to do it?
• 41:15
  Speaker 3: No?
• 41:16
  Speaker 4: Now I talk to her about everything, Like, whatever emotion
• 41:20
  Speaker 4: I'm feeling, I bring it to her in a way
• 41:23
  Speaker 4: where I just want her to understand it, Like I
• 41:25
  Speaker 4: used to bring it to her where she just felt
• 41:27
  Speaker 4: my pain in a fucked up way because I was
• 41:30
  Speaker 4: mentally just not there. I'm arguing and like I just
• 41:33
  Speaker 4: said earlier in the interview, like I'm not confrontational. So
• 41:36
  Speaker 4: every day I'm trying to find it in me to
• 41:39
  Speaker 4: not crash out on somebody. So she might say the
• 41:41
  Speaker 4: smallest thing and it triggered me and we started arguing
• 41:44
  Speaker 4: and doing goofy shit like it was silly, like I
• 41:47
  Speaker 4: really should just tell her, like I should tell her
• 41:50
  Speaker 4: what I'm feeling and what I'm going through. And I
• 41:52
  Speaker 4: feel like she gave me grace because when my little
• 41:57
  Speaker 4: brother died, she knew that shit tore me apart art,
• 42:00
  Speaker 4: like she understood it. So it's like she's just like,
• 42:03
  Speaker 4: just let me get away with murder for real. Like
• 42:05
  Speaker 4: I used to come home and argue and not come
• 42:08
  Speaker 4: home sometimes, Like I really used to purposely not come
• 42:11
  Speaker 4: home because I'm just fucked up in the head, Like
• 42:13
  Speaker 4: I just slept in my car in the garage, all
• 42:15
  Speaker 4: type of shit, just because I just didn't want to
• 42:17
  Speaker 4: go up there and feel that shit. Because like I said,
• 42:19
  Speaker 4: when when my brother died, she was pregnant, so she
• 42:23
  Speaker 4: fully emotionus to me, yea, she got feel like.
• 42:27
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 42:27
  Speaker 4: So it's like like like like now I definitely make
• 42:31
  Speaker 4: it like like a thing, like making my business to
• 42:35
  Speaker 4: not put that on her and to communicate with her,
• 42:38
  Speaker 4: like communication is key, and she is a communicator, like
• 42:44
  Speaker 4: she's gonna say what you feel, she gonna say what
• 42:47
  Speaker 4: she feel how she feel, like she not holding nothing back.
• 42:51
  Speaker 4: And as a man, I ain't never really experienced that
• 42:54
  Speaker 4: for real, to be honest, like I ain't never had
• 42:56
  Speaker 4: to really like just sit down and talk. You feel me, Like,
• 42:59
  Speaker 4: she really make me sit down and talk about this shit.
• 43:02
  Speaker 4: And I appreciate that though from her and her pops
• 43:05
  Speaker 4: told me some real shit. I ain't gonna wow dad
• 43:07
  Speaker 4: like me and her pops like this. And sometimes she
• 43:12
  Speaker 4: don't even like it because her dad gonna tell me
• 43:15
  Speaker 4: shit that's like beneficial to me and might not be
• 43:20
  Speaker 4: beneficial to her, you know what I'm saying, Like yeah, yeah,
• 43:24
  Speaker 4: So like he told me some real shit that nigga
• 43:27
  Speaker 4: told me one day, he said, Bro, whatever the fuck
• 43:29
  Speaker 4: you got going on, lead that shit at the doormat
• 43:32
  Speaker 4: before you walk in the house.
• 43:33
  Speaker 3: Bro, walk in the house with peace.
• 43:36
  Speaker 4: Walk in the house like you want to go in
• 43:37
  Speaker 4: the house and see your girl and talk to your
• 43:39
  Speaker 4: girl and be with your kids.
• 43:40
  Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.
• 43:41
  Speaker 4: And that shit helped me, I swear to God, like
• 43:44
  Speaker 4: I literally some days I just go and walk in
• 43:46
  Speaker 4: the house and I'll look at the doormat like literally,
• 43:48
  Speaker 4: like boy, going this motherfucker and be happiness right no
• 43:52
  Speaker 4: matter what's going on, because you gotta be grateful to
• 43:54
  Speaker 4: make it in the house. That nigga told me that shit.
• 43:56
  Speaker 4: I swear to God, that changed my whole perspective. Like,
• 43:59
  Speaker 4: whatever you got going on, however, your day went lead
• 44:02
  Speaker 4: that ship at the concrete before you walk in the house,
• 44:05
  Speaker 4: and that ship helped me.
• 44:07
  Speaker 6: I know you was happy when Ari and Tina got cool.
• 44:11
  Speaker 6: I know because the long back and forth and the
• 44:13
  Speaker 6: beef and stuff.
• 44:14
  Speaker 7: How did that make you feel? To see that?
• 44:16
  Speaker 3: It made me feel great, like amazing.
• 44:19
  Speaker 4: For really had nothing to do with that, Nah.
• 44:21
  Speaker 3: Nothing, nothing at all.
• 44:23
  Speaker 4: And the reason why it happened is because you don't like,
• 44:27
  Speaker 4: you don't really play the middle. You just play right
• 44:29
  Speaker 4: and wrong. You know what I'm saying, Like, you don't
• 44:31
  Speaker 4: play the middle. You know what I'm saying like, I'm
• 44:33
  Speaker 4: not going like shy away from my love for my woman.
• 44:38
  Speaker 4: I'm not going to shy away from my love for
• 44:40
  Speaker 4: my son.
• 44:40
  Speaker 3: Mom. You feel me like.
• 44:42
  Speaker 4: Just like I just want everybody to be a family.
• 44:46
  Speaker 6: And you said, we're not a blended family. With a family,
• 44:49
  Speaker 6: everybody can call each other.
• 44:50
  Speaker 4: And yeah, ive seen people say like, oh I love
• 44:53
  Speaker 4: a blended family. It's like it's just a family. Like
• 44:56
  Speaker 4: fuck the blended ship.
• 44:57
  Speaker 7: I love that.
• 44:58
  Speaker 5: Your money bag to this song.
• 45:00
  Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, yeah that too. How did that come about?
• 45:04
  Speaker 3: We was like, uh, in Atlanta.
• 45:06
  Speaker 4: I was in Atlanta for my son game, and I
• 45:10
  Speaker 4: was talking about my show, like the Swerve and Friendship.
• 45:14
  Speaker 3: I was talking about it, and I was on the
• 45:17
  Speaker 3: phone with Bag at the time.
• 45:18
  Speaker 4: I'm like, man, let me holler at him mellow like
• 45:22
  Speaker 4: if I was talking to him like man, I'm trying
• 45:25
  Speaker 4: to bring you out for this ship, you feel me?
• 45:27
  Speaker 1: And he like, all right, bet, we need to do
• 45:29
  Speaker 1: some shit real quick.
• 45:31
  Speaker 4: I'm gonna send you something, send it back, gonna drop
• 45:33
  Speaker 4: this ship before the show. It was like we had
• 45:35
  Speaker 4: like a two week deadline or some shit like we
• 45:37
  Speaker 4: did that shit quick. We sent the song no matter
• 45:41
  Speaker 4: of fact, I don't even think he sent the song,
• 45:43
  Speaker 4: tripping like we need to do some shit.
• 45:46
  Speaker 3: We was in LA I pulled up on him.
• 45:47
  Speaker 4: We did a song together, and then he like structured it,
• 45:50
  Speaker 4: put the song together, then sent it and I finished
• 45:52
  Speaker 4: the song. He's like, all right, bet we're finna shoot
• 45:54
  Speaker 4: this ship on I think my show was on the
• 45:57
  Speaker 4: twenty six or some shit like that. We shot the
• 45:59
  Speaker 4: video on the twentieth, put that ship right out, and
• 46:02
  Speaker 4: I brought him out to the song. So it's like, yeah,
• 46:04
  Speaker 4: he put that play together. That was hard.
• 46:07
  Speaker 7: It's about you said, y'all rushed and did it.
• 46:09
  Speaker 3: Yeah, that ship, we definitely rushed and did it like
• 46:13
  Speaker 3: all that ship was strategic for sure.
• 46:15
  Speaker 7: Did y'all have any conversations you know about the relationship.
• 46:18
  Speaker 7: Y'all never even had to know.
• 46:19
  Speaker 3: Hell, we don't even got to do that.
• 46:20
  Speaker 4: Bro like me and him ain't never had no like
• 46:23
  Speaker 4: differist like it was never no confusion and none of
• 46:25
  Speaker 4: that type of ship like at all. We ain't got
• 46:28
  Speaker 4: to talk about that because it's just it just is
• 46:30
  Speaker 4: what it is.
• 46:31
  Speaker 5: I want to ask one more question about just the
• 46:33
  Speaker 5: grieving process, and I put a button on it. How
• 46:35
  Speaker 5: have you helped Funny Marco through his grieving process? Because
• 46:39
  Speaker 5: you killed him on the show. It's still impacted him.
• 46:44
  Speaker 1: Just here he was just talking about him.
• 46:46
  Speaker 3: He was literally just here that when was that last week?
• 46:49
  Speaker 4: Can you tell me what he said?
• 46:50
  Speaker 3: What the fuck did he say?
• 46:51
  Speaker 5: He just it hurt him and he's learning from it
• 46:54
  Speaker 5: and he grew from it and he had to learn
• 46:55
  Speaker 5: to have you know, thicker skin because of it. Like
• 46:58
  Speaker 5: you ever think about how you affected one Marco negatively?
• 47:01
  Speaker 1: Like, yeah, I did.
• 47:03
  Speaker 3: I'm not gonna lie I did.
• 47:05
  Speaker 4: But at the same time I didn't because and I
• 47:08
  Speaker 4: and marcael my mans like me and him still talk.
• 47:11
  Speaker 4: I didn't apologize to him about this ship. And it's like,
• 47:15
  Speaker 4: it's like what I said, what happened in the watch
• 47:18
  Speaker 4: come out in the rints like Marco's a troll. He
• 47:22
  Speaker 4: hurt people feelings every single day, and they called me
• 47:25
  Speaker 4: there to hurt his feelings. I swear to god, they
• 47:28
  Speaker 4: literally called me there like me and south Side. We
• 47:30
  Speaker 4: was drunk and all that shit for sure, like we
• 47:33
  Speaker 4: I think the way we did it just came off
• 47:35
  Speaker 4: a little aggressive because how we are as nature like
• 47:38
  Speaker 4: we street niggas, you know what I'm saying, Like, I
• 47:40
  Speaker 4: feel like he was a little intimidated when we did,
• 47:44
  Speaker 4: but we wasn't going to do nothing to We weren't
• 47:46
  Speaker 4: trying to scam. They literally called us there and said,
• 47:49
  Speaker 4: do whatever, troll him, hurt them, disrespect them, talk like
• 47:53
  Speaker 4: not disrespect them. I'm sorry, I'm not gonna say dispect them,
• 47:56
  Speaker 4: talk about him, do whatever you Yeah, they told us
• 48:00
  Speaker 4: to flip the script, but he didn't know that. I
• 48:01
  Speaker 4: don't think he told us to do that what.
• 48:07
  Speaker 3: We did and he needed to be more prepared.
• 48:09
  Speaker 4: What did he say, I forgot the other day when
• 48:11
  Speaker 4: he was here.
• 48:12
  Speaker 1: Now he said he should have trolled back.
• 48:14
  Speaker 4: Ye don't know whether he posted to troll back and
• 48:21
  Speaker 4: just it would have been a totally different experience. They
• 48:24
  Speaker 4: think we came on there and shipped on him, and
• 48:26
  Speaker 4: we wasn't doing that. We was really having fun. We
• 48:28
  Speaker 4: fucked with broke, but he wasn't like ready for a
• 48:33
  Speaker 4: nigga to come and do that to him, like and
• 48:35
  Speaker 4: when we left, his team was like, oh, we love it.
• 48:37
  Speaker 4: It's gonna be so great. They called and asked me
• 48:40
  Speaker 4: in Southside, do we want our own show? I swear
• 48:43
  Speaker 4: to god, Wow, y'all want your own show? Like, man,
• 48:45
  Speaker 4: he don't know do that we'll give a funk about
• 48:47
  Speaker 4: having their own show. We just did. Like they literally
• 48:50
  Speaker 4: called us and asked us, did we want to show
• 48:52
  Speaker 4: that we want all this ship like you feel me
• 48:53
  Speaker 4: in Like no, but we really had fun at night.
• 48:56
  Speaker 3: I ain't gonna lie right.
• 48:58
  Speaker 4: We didn't think that it was going like how that
• 49:02
  Speaker 4: effect on the world and on him too, So like
• 49:05
  Speaker 4: shout funny, Margot, man, I fuck with you like and
• 49:07
  Speaker 4: I told him this though, Like I was like, bro, man, nigga,
• 49:10
  Speaker 4: you know, we fuck with you for real.
• 49:11
  Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying. But like we definitely violated.
• 49:13
  Speaker 3: I ain't gonna.
• 49:16
  Speaker 4: He said he used to just one person.
• 49:17
  Speaker 3: He said, it was two of y'all.
• 49:21
  Speaker 5: We valolated. Man, I apologize again. Man, you got the
• 49:24
  Speaker 5: song thank me. How important is to thank yourself?
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: Man?
• 49:29
  Speaker 3: Very very important man.
• 49:30
  Speaker 4: And I feel like I ain't really realize that until
• 49:33
  Speaker 4: I did that record, Like you gotta think yourself and
• 49:36
  Speaker 4: congratulate yourself. You feel I'm saying because I'm one of
• 49:39
  Speaker 4: them type of people that I'll really soon as I
• 49:41
  Speaker 4: drop a project, soon as I do anything, I be
• 49:44
  Speaker 4: on to the next ship. Like I don't even listen
• 49:46
  Speaker 4: to like if I used to be that artist, Like
• 49:49
  Speaker 4: soon as my album drop on Friday Saturday, I'm playing
• 49:52
  Speaker 4: unreleased music that I just worked on. And you gotta
• 49:55
  Speaker 4: live in like you gotta grasp ontil, you gotta live in.
• 49:57
  Speaker 4: And went legit helped me do that, Like me having
• 50:00
  Speaker 4: that type of big record and everybody just like congratulating
• 50:04
  Speaker 4: me and just like telling me this record is this
• 50:07
  Speaker 4: and you know what I'm saying, this is crazy and
• 50:08
  Speaker 4: you got this moment and you the hottest right now,
• 50:11
  Speaker 4: Like you feel what I'm saying. I never in my career,
• 50:13
  Speaker 4: nobody never walked up on me, but like you the
• 50:15
  Speaker 4: hottest out of everybody.
• 50:17
  Speaker 3: You feel me.
• 50:17
  Speaker 4: Niggas told me I'm the favorite rapper, Like yeah, you,
• 50:20
  Speaker 4: but niggas walk up to me now and be like
• 50:23
  Speaker 4: you the one, You the top dog, And I ain't
• 50:25
  Speaker 4: never felt that before, you know what I'm saying. So
• 50:27
  Speaker 4: it's like you gotta like thank yourself and you gotta like.
• 50:33
  Speaker 3: Like live in in it.
• 50:36
  Speaker 4: You feel me like a lot of times, and I said,
• 50:38
  Speaker 4: is already a lot of rooms. I didn't used to
• 50:42
  Speaker 4: be in them, bitches. For real, mentally I was really
• 50:45
  Speaker 4: somewhere else, Like I really forgot a lot of my
• 50:49
  Speaker 4: life and a lot of my career and a lot
• 50:51
  Speaker 4: of relationships and a lot of people that I met.
• 50:53
  Speaker 4: That was important because mentally, I'm just thinking about some
• 50:56
  Speaker 4: whole water shit. So it's like you gotta grasp into
• 50:59
  Speaker 4: it and be great for what you have. So that's
• 51:01
  Speaker 4: like thank me that record, Like I had to deep,
• 51:04
  Speaker 4: like dig deep into just like being grateful for what
• 51:08
  Speaker 4: I got and thinking myself and just that I got
• 51:10
  Speaker 4: this far, like I was able to change my circumstances,
• 51:15
  Speaker 4: my family circumstances creative family have kids like and all
• 51:20
  Speaker 4: this shit was kind of strategic, like I was. I
• 51:22
  Speaker 4: was one of the niggas, Like I wasn't having no
• 51:25
  Speaker 4: children until I got some money and got out the streets.
• 51:29
  Speaker 4: I just couldn't do it, like for real, for real,
• 51:31
  Speaker 4: Like I could have probably had ten kids already, you
• 51:33
  Speaker 4: know what I'm saying. But I was just the type
• 51:35
  Speaker 4: of nigga that I'm not doing that shit until I'm
• 51:39
  Speaker 4: able to really like raise my kids and focus on
• 51:42
  Speaker 4: my kids or find a woman that I cared about
• 51:45
  Speaker 4: enough to create a family with them, you know what
• 51:47
  Speaker 4: I'm saying. And when I think about that type of shit,
• 51:50
  Speaker 4: just being grateful that I was able to like create
• 51:53
  Speaker 4: life for real, for real, like you know what I'm saying.
• 51:55
  Speaker 4: So it's very important to thank yourself. And that's a
• 51:58
  Speaker 4: real important record for shure.
• 52:00
  Speaker 5: Are you still struggling with a nightmare because on one
• 52:02
  Speaker 5: chance you say you're dealing with sleep paralysis, you.
• 52:06
  Speaker 3: Know you be having nightmaenes? You still that's ship bad, bro?
• 52:08
  Speaker 3: Ain't we say that's the hag riding you?
• 52:11
  Speaker 5: When you have to sleep paralys when you can't your eyes,
• 52:15
  Speaker 5: your eyes are open, you feel like what you mean,
• 52:17
  Speaker 5: Like hag is a spiritual creature, maybe evil depending on
• 52:25
  Speaker 5: who you ask, but it haunts you.
• 52:28
  Speaker 3: I definitely, And.
• 52:30
  Speaker 4: I'm very spiritual for sure. Like, and I struggle with
• 52:34
  Speaker 4: sleep a lot, like sleep paradises I have. Sleep paralysis
• 52:37
  Speaker 4: is a lot, nightmare is a lot. Like sometimes my girl,
• 52:41
  Speaker 4: just wake me up, and like you feel me, like
• 52:43
  Speaker 4: I sweat in my sleep, Like I ain't gonna lie.
• 52:46
  Speaker 4: I still got a lot of healing to do, Like
• 52:49
  Speaker 4: it's a point where I say this to my girl
• 52:51
  Speaker 4: all the time.
• 52:52
  Speaker 3: You think I'd be joking, Like, and that's why you
• 52:55
  Speaker 3: do this ship, Like that's why you.
• 52:59
  Speaker 4: Get money and you do the shit you're doing so
• 53:01
  Speaker 4: you could chill, Like I really want to be able
• 53:04
  Speaker 4: to chill and just sleep and relax and heal and heal,
• 53:07
  Speaker 4: Like it's a point of my life. I want to
• 53:09
  Speaker 4: enjoy my life. I ain't like I'm trying to get
• 53:12
  Speaker 4: enough money to quit for real. Real, Like when artists
• 53:15
  Speaker 4: were like Nigga be like, oh yeah, you fell off,
• 53:17
  Speaker 4: They gonna say that shit to death when it comes
• 53:19
  Speaker 4: in because I'm stopping this shit.
• 53:21
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna enjoy my family.
• 53:22
  Speaker 4: I'm enjoying my kids because I really can't sleep some
• 53:25
  Speaker 4: nice like for real. Three four days ago, I woke
• 53:28
  Speaker 4: up every single hour. I told my girl she was sleep,
• 53:31
  Speaker 4: she's sleeping like a baby.
• 53:33
  Speaker 3: I woke up.
• 53:33
  Speaker 4: Every hour because I heard five six nightmentes. I can't sleep.
• 53:37
  Speaker 4: This shit is fucked up for me, you feel me?
• 53:39
  Speaker 4: And I still wake up and do the breakfast club.
• 53:41
  Speaker 4: I still go do my shows. I still go to
• 53:44
  Speaker 4: the studio like if what I'm saying, I still try
• 53:46
  Speaker 4: to show up. So it's gonna be a point of
• 53:48
  Speaker 4: my life and my career. Well, I'm quitting this shit.
• 53:52
  Speaker 5: I need to be able to take care of everybody
• 53:54
  Speaker 5: and go to sleep, just chill and just go vacation.
• 53:57
  Speaker 4: And be with my family. Like I'm g I've only
• 54:00
  Speaker 4: been to three four countries. I have not seen the world.
• 54:04
  Speaker 4: I want to see this ship.
• 54:05
  Speaker 1: They're gonna start seeing it now because.
• 54:09
  Speaker 4: I just want to say.
• 54:10
  Speaker 5: The hag feeds off the energy of the sleeping victims,
• 54:13
  Speaker 5: so it steals their breath and where their skin is
• 54:15
  Speaker 5: a disguise.
• 54:16
  Speaker 4: So but I've seen a lot of death, bro, you know,
• 54:19
  Speaker 4: I mean dead bodies. I've seen a lot, seeing my
• 54:22
  Speaker 4: friends die a lot. Everything about getting saved, not really,
• 54:29
  Speaker 4: to be honest, not really, I haven't.
• 54:31
  Speaker 5: I've been thinking about it. I'm not, but I've been
• 54:33
  Speaker 5: thinking about it for sure, Like why are you looking
• 54:36
  Speaker 5: at me like.
• 54:36
  Speaker 7: That because you've been thinking about getting saved with you not?
• 54:40
  Speaker 4: No, I mean I'm not saved, but I know you're
• 54:43
  Speaker 4: not saying. He doesn't say he's not doing it.
• 54:46
  Speaker 3: I've been thinking about it. I just wanted to.
• 54:49
  Speaker 4: I don't know. I'm just always looking for different ways
• 54:51
  Speaker 4: to find in peace for sure, definitely I need it
• 54:55
  Speaker 4: and my like my biggest thing, like what bring me
• 54:58
  Speaker 4: peace for real is just being around my kids. I
• 55:00
  Speaker 4: swear to guys when I be home, like my girls
• 55:03
  Speaker 4: say that, and I like seeing little memes and ship
• 55:07
  Speaker 4: like when you comfortable and you at comfort, that's when
• 55:10
  Speaker 4: you really sleep. I like I just said, I got
• 55:13
  Speaker 4: sleep proudly don't sleep, but sometimes like I could come home,
• 55:16
  Speaker 4: like when I'm on the road, it just that one
• 55:19
  Speaker 4: night of sleep everything for me, like for real, for real,
• 55:22
  Speaker 4: Like I get home and be with my girl on
• 55:24
  Speaker 4: the couch and be with my kids and I just
• 55:27
  Speaker 4: fall asleep.
• 55:27
  Speaker 3: Bro, that ship just bring me so much comfort and peace.
• 55:31
  Speaker 4: That's your sign.
• 55:32
  Speaker 3: Be like you always sleeping, all you do is sleep.
• 55:35
  Speaker 2: I can't you do sleep, But that's the best. That's
• 55:37
  Speaker 2: the best time you feel comfortable at home. We want
• 55:40
  Speaker 2: to get into something that what you want to hear
• 55:42
  Speaker 2: down man.
• 55:42
  Speaker 3: Let's play give it out.
• 55:43
  Speaker 4: That's one of my favorite songs.
• 55:45
  Speaker 1: And we appreciate you for joining us. Brother.
• 55:48
  Speaker 3: I do have one last question before you.
• 55:50
  Speaker 1: Do that chat. Yeah, we all lives. If you've got questions,
• 55:52
  Speaker 1: you heard, but let us know now because let's get
• 55:56
  Speaker 1: a chat.
• 55:56
  Speaker 3: But I wanted to ask you about Chicago, right.
• 56:00
  Speaker 4: It built you, but it also caused you so much pain.
• 56:04
  Speaker 4: What's your relationship with the city now? It's like it's crazy.
• 56:08
  Speaker 4: I love Chicago so much and I just had this
• 56:11
  Speaker 4: conversation with me yesterday. He like, Bro, we about to
• 56:14
  Speaker 4: neglect that bitch, like we not even going there on
• 56:16
  Speaker 4: tour or nothing, like they gotta really miss you for
• 56:19
  Speaker 4: real real because I go there so much and and
• 56:22
  Speaker 4: I be feeling comfortable because it just it's home for me,
• 56:27
  Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying. And I still, of course,
• 56:30
  Speaker 4: like I already you know I'm gonna be on my
• 56:33
  Speaker 4: on my head on swivel, regardless, you know what I'm saying,
• 56:35
  Speaker 4: I always take precaution and do all of that.
• 56:37
  Speaker 3: My relationship with Chicago is.
• 56:39
  Speaker 4: My mother won't leave, you know what I'm saying, Like
• 56:42
  Speaker 4: she won't leave, so it's like my heart is still
• 56:44
  Speaker 4: there something like not even some days a lot of that.
• 56:47
  Speaker 4: I go to Chicago and I don't see my mom
• 56:49
  Speaker 4: because she hang with me in LA like she'd be
• 56:51
  Speaker 4: with me out of that. But my heart is still
• 56:53
  Speaker 4: in Chicago. My mom, now, my auntie's there, my grandmother there,
• 56:57
  Speaker 4: like my friends there. So I go there and I
• 56:59
  Speaker 4: enjoy myself. If I go to restaurants, I do this
• 57:01
  Speaker 4: and like I really moved in Chicago, like probably nobody
• 57:06
  Speaker 4: else for real, for real, it's not many artists in Chicago,
• 57:09
  Speaker 4: especially as big as I am at my level, that
• 57:12
  Speaker 4: go outside and do the ship that I do in Chicago.
• 57:15
  Speaker 4: I go to clubs every time I'm there. I go
• 57:17
  Speaker 4: to restaurants, like I don't sit in my hotel. I
• 57:19
  Speaker 4: go outside in Chicago. And I just did that big
• 57:22
  Speaker 4: ass concert and hit all them artists there, and I
• 57:25
  Speaker 4: went to three spots after that, like they.
• 57:28
  Speaker 3: Didn't like my team didn't want me to go outside.
• 57:31
  Speaker 5: Saying this in the check Now you'd be everywhere you
• 57:33
  Speaker 5: there love top five Chicago in Chicago, love her whole
• 57:37
  Speaker 5: like we.
• 57:39
  Speaker 4: Went to we did the show, and I went to
• 57:42
  Speaker 4: three places. I went to a bowling alley, a club,
• 57:46
  Speaker 4: and another club. And it was peaceful, like it was
• 57:49
  Speaker 4: no nothing like I hear everybody. I had Polo there,
• 57:52
  Speaker 4: Bag came outside. I already came outside, Doug came outside,
• 57:58
  Speaker 4: twenty one came outside. Every everybody came outside. And it's
• 58:01
  Speaker 4: like that ship really like it's smooth. It's dangerous, but
• 58:04
  Speaker 4: Chicago is a great place for sure.
• 58:07
  Speaker 1: Chad, say that Chicago love you like they love d rolls.
• 58:11
  Speaker 5: When they getting when you get when you get another
• 58:13
  Speaker 5: when we're doing another four minutes, the hell when they
• 58:15
  Speaker 5: getting anotherour.
• 58:15
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna definitely do it. I ain't gonna lie.
• 58:17
  Speaker 4: I be saying I'm done, but I definitely like that's
• 58:19
  Speaker 4: that's something that I just gotta do, like you know
• 58:22
  Speaker 4: how like like like like t Grizzly do the robberies,
• 58:25
  Speaker 4: I gotta keep doing four minutes A hell's for sure.
• 58:28
  Speaker 1: All right, Well, we appreciate you for joining.
• 58:30
  Speaker 2: Man, make sure you pick up her abo album this
• 58:32
  Speaker 2: week Her and It's the Breakfast Club, Good Morning, every
• 58:36
  Speaker 2: day a week.
• 58:37
  Speaker 1: Click up The Breakfast Club you don't finish for y'all done,