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• Buc: Welcome back to the volume shift. I'm Buck Docter. This is the Doctor Without the Doctrine. Nah, but you were saying like how, ⁓ them crap became normal and shit. Jhalil: And I'm Jahlil, urban activist slash blackdivist, you know. Yeah, and it's like, how can we just say don't cry, bro? Like when you suppress that type of like when you suppress them emotions, man, like you blow up at the wrong times and like it come off the wrong way. So it's like sometimes, bro, you do gotta cry. And it's hard, especially, you know, being a man, bro, like they really they pounded that shit into us, bro. Like we gotta be tough. Buc: Yeah. And we back at it, man. We felt like, you know, we ended the last episode with some real deep conversation, you know what saying? And we wanted to continue it. And I mean, so we'll call this the continuation of the disconnect and the Black families, you know what saying? But before we jump back into the topic, man, and get right to it, like how you living, how you feeling, you know, I always gotta do a check in. Jhalil: And rightfully so, we are protectors and you know, like we protect our families and our communities and all that. So I wouldn't say just walking around too emotional, but at the same time, bro, like it's certain situations, bro. You guys just had that release like, ⁓ man, I'm doing great, man. Like, ⁓ been looking at like different cribs. I'm ready to move, expand the crib up a little bit. Cause you know, it's time to move, man. Like I love the hood, bro. But like, I don't know. I think I'm ready to upgrade the quality of life for the kids and all that, man. Cause some of the stuff that we around is like, I don't know, man. It ain't really. Buc: Yeah. And I think before I say my points and shit, I'm gonna say like, I think naturally as humans, like that got be your river, like you feel me? Like your river of emotions, your river of the like, all of that stuff. You know what mean? Like your organs, everything. You know what mean? Like, so when you cry out, you can relieve like a lot of the stuff. You know I'm saying? Jhalil: It ain't no good for them to learn that, bro. But other than that though, man, I'm great, man. So I've been making my calls, talking to some realtors, know, like stepping my game up. That's all. How you, man? Buc: the same as your bowel movement or your urine or whatever. You know, you're shooting out the toxins and all of that stuff that's put in your body. You feel me? like, the connection for me is like slavery and shit. You know what I mean? And I always got to drill that point so we can understand where it really originates from. You get me? That's the love, but I'm gravy baby, you know. You know, we be on the same boat, you feel me? Brothers like that, you know what saying? But personally, individually, like I'm just, you know, always looking to grow. I'm always in my head, you know what I'm saying? But I'm good overall, you know what I'm saying? Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yes, sir. Buc: Well, yeah, man, you know, in the vein of things and everything that's going on in the current world, man, you thought this conversation would be, you know, ideal and perfect for the time, You know what saying? And really getting into the meat and bones of like how slavery intentionally, you know, fucked our families up. You feel me? And the last episode, we got into it. So for me, like, don't cry, become normal because like, when you trying to escape slavery and shit like that, you got your kids and all that. Like, you can't cry out there. Jhalil: BLEH Buc: It's a, you know, alert to get caught. You get what I'm saying? So then you gotta fast forward a little bit, you know I'm saying, to where, then it, like, I think it took a while to become like, like what you were saying, you know what mean? That's more like the eight, like the eighties and shit going into the nineties and all of that. And I mean, like, but pre that is like. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Buc: you know, through just conversating. You know what mean? But I feel like on this one, we're going to go into like more like, you know, talking points and stuff like that to where as though we can get into like, you know, in depth with everything and connected a lot more cleaner. You know what I'm saying? So yeah, man, the survival. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Buc: Don't cry, you know what saying? Was like, become like, don't be a victim. You know what I'm Don't be a victim, you get what I'm saying? And that wasn't the takeaway, it's natural thing that I was just explaining about being human and relieving you. I don't think they even knew that that was the case. But the don't cry was like. Jhalil: Yaaaa ⁓ Yeah Buc: habits that got passed down. What would you say some of the habits is or are? Jhalil: ⁓ man. One of them is like, I guess like due to history, man, like I feel like a lot of us, bro, we forgot how to love ourselves. You feel me? Cause like now it's, seemed like in our neighborhoods, it's hard to love each other. You feel me? It's hard to get to know each other. And people would rather just like, ⁓ no, well they do them, I'ma do me. But like. Buc: No, we ain't paying no victims. And so even getting those weapons, getting hit with the weapon, all of that, you get what I'm saying? Jhalil: You can't cry in badger, bro. You gotta thug it out, bro, because that shit not stronger than the, I mean, it's not stronger or bigger than the program, like. Buc: And sometimes they call for like the abuse to continue. You get what I'm saying? So. Jhalil: That's not getting us nowhere, bro. And we always talk about, sometimes I like to revisit the past, but I like how you said that, I don't know, it's relevant, but at the same time, bro, we can't let somebody else be the narrator of our story. You feel me? So I think it is a point where it's like, we gotta discuss these things and moving forward, we gotta create our own new- Buc: The more you might cry out in the midst of getting abused, like the more the abuser might. You get what I'm saying? So I think about the times when I was getting my ass whooped, it's like, shut the fuck up, don't cry. You feel what I'm saying? Because you cry, I'm gonna get you something more to cry about. Jhalil: Yeah, right, that was big. pathway basically like. Buc: You get what I'm saying? All of that's inclusive in how it could become normal. You get what I'm saying? Yeah. Jhalil: So that's one of my main things, bro. I don't really feel no love in the hood no more, man. Like yesterday, for instance, right? We broke our fast, so we about to go grab something to eat. So I walked to the store and I just see a lady just laying on the ground. You feel me? I'm like, whoa. So me and wife, we go over there, we ask her like, oh, you good? Like she, cause you know, sometimes people succumb to their vices. So you think that made like our parents like you think that made them cool or like or was they just conditioned to that? Buc: Okay. Jhalil: in the vein of, you know, just staying on the script too and like, like whenever I talk I'm playing it's cause... ⁓ Buc: No, definitely get you. I think it's a mixture, you get what I'm saying? But one could give the other, like the conditioning could make a cold parent. You get what I'm saying? So what came first, you know what I'm saying? I don't really know, but like I can understand it because coming from all of that slavery stuff, you know what I'm saying? Jhalil: I'ma say that, people get high and do whatever and be, but this was an older lady, bro, and she actually just fell. And then it broke my heart, because as talking to her, after we helped her up or whatever, she fell and she said people was just walking over her, walking right past her, all that. And I'm like, damn, that shit actually broke my heart, bro. And this was like an older white lady and everything. You feel me? Sweet little lady, bro. You feel me? And I'm like, damn, like that kind of struck me the wrong way. And I'm like, damn, I don't know if I want to live in the community like that, bro. Cause I don't know how I would feel. and my mom fall down and people just walking around there and nobody asking for help or nothing. It don't matter what you look like, bro. You feel me? We should have that. Buc: I can get why a motherfucker would be angry. You feel what I'm saying? So, and then we gotta mix it with ⁓ discipline rooted in protection. You get what I'm saying? Cause I'll whoop your ass before I let the wolves eat you up. You get what I'm saying? Cause once you in the white man grips, I can't help you. You get what I'm saying? So. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Buc: Help them merit the movement we still recruit and you know what saying? Jhalil: We should have that compassion and be like, no, it don't matter what our backgrounds is, where we come from, nothing. Help is help and it don't hurt, bro. Buc: I think all of that's inclusive and the co-parent and it be the repeat of thing. You know what mean? Like, grandmom did it, so mom do it. You know I mean? And it could be those feelings that lead the way. Jhalil: I'm gonna need ⁓ shit. Buc: But yeah, that's all in connection through the slavery thing, I think. You know what saying? Whereas though, you know, every man for themselves, that type of survival, that type of, you know what I'm saying? Like disconnect even within your own self. Like, you know what I mean? Like, I take your identity and then bam, go out there and try to survive. You know I'm saying? Like I felt so crazy that my mom did it to me that. I still got that anger or whatever and bitterness in me that I do it to my kids too. You feel what I'm saying? But I think most of it was really like in the vein of protecting, like, nah, I'ma whoop your ass. Like I'ma discipline you in house. So discipline you in the house. Jhalil: Bye. Right Buc: And to a point even me as your brother come tell you something, man, you don't got to trust and believe in me that, you know what saying? Like you only try and survive in your own individual. You know I'm saying? So that individualism definitely come from out of there. You know what mean? Like, and I don't think that ever was our people. You know what saying? Jhalil: So they don't even got to do it. Yeah. Buc: If you think about slavery, you get what I'm saying? Jhalil: All right. Buc: If your kids new to it, they free. They don't know all of the conditioned stuff that you know already that demands them in beating you. You gotta keep them in line. Jhalil: Yeah Thank Buc: If we predate before slavery and all that and we talk in tribal times or or what have you life before that, you know what saying? I feel like some of this stuff might still be the same, but a lot of it was too traditional and too communal unity that it wasn't like that. So you got to think about it when they tell us the stories, right, of bringing slaves. You understand what I'm saying? Like... And as painful as it is to even conversate about, cause that should make you angry, right? Like that should be like, like, why we have to do that? Like, you get what I'm saying? Jhalil: Yeah. you Buc: Even, but that's the importance though. You gotta like walk that motherfucking walk and get into anything, you feel me? In order to like really come out this shit hood. You get rid of the same issue. know, even that, that goes into like, you know, the overworked parent. You know I'm saying? Like, and the whole conditioning behind that is like. from over from Africa over here, they say they had to mix-match the tribes. Jhalil: Yeah. Buc: So it can be no communicating and all of that, you know what saying? And you fast forward to now, and we kind of do it ourselves now. You know I'm saying? I don't fuck with bro and them. Are they from 8th Street? No, I'm cool. You know what mean? Like H block shit, no, it's us. You know I'm saying? So that individualism made us separate. Jhalil: So yeah, man. Yeah. Buc: Now I'm gonna keep you busy. You feel me? Like, when you do think you get the mental to be able to ⁓ reproduce back into your kids, now I'm gonna keep you busy. Jhalil: Yeah. Buc: You know what I'm Within, you know what saying? That's definitely a hard hit and a survival habit that we definitely gotta get rid of. You know I mean? We talk all the time. The worst thing in the streets right now is brothers not knowing each other. Jhalil: Super busy bro. Super distracted. So many distractions out this zone bro like. Buc: Yeah, but I mean, trauma didn't start with us, you know what saying? But, know, Hill and Ken, you know what mean? And I'll keep saying that, you feel me? Because... Jhalil: Hey bro, that's crazy right? Buc: That make it easier for me to up on you. You know what saying? And take your life. No, if I knew your mom, I knew your sister, I knew you was having a bad day, I knew you was going through this with your wife, I knew you was doing this with your job, I knew... The importance right now is to do the healing. Jhalil: We need the healing man, because if you don't heal, you can't see the ultimate picture bro. Buc: Alright. Jhalil: It's like, but that's another thing. It's like, man, we gotta really learn how to heal, bro. Like, cause a lot of people don't even think how to heal. Like, you feel me? Or know how to. So I think that's like another subject too. Like, where it's like, man, we gotta like seek therapy. Like, and it don't just gotta be like going to a therapist and all that, but like. Mm-hmm. Buc: You feel what I'm saying? So for sure that had to be like. ⁓ Jhalil: Yeah, man, I think that like separated us like to the point where it's like it even seeped into like the family structure, bro, where it's like, damn, like everybody for theyself, bro. And it's like, that's a bad job, bro. Because like, I don't understand how we can all be in the same community, bro. We pay the same bills. We go through the same thing. We work at the same jobs. Like we eat the same food. We live point. Even how we do, bro, you see how if I'm going through some shit, bro, I'ma hit my big bro from the rip. I'ma call you. don't, you mean, but that's enough there for you for me to be like, damn, right, I ain't see it this way or another way to look at it. You feel me? So now I don't gotta take that out on somebody else or my kids or none of that, or even myself. You feel me? I can move past it and grow on. ⁓ zero, one miles apart from each other right next door. And it's like, sheesh, man, like we don't know nothing about each other. And it's not to say like, yeah, like you my neighbor, so I need to know your business and all of that. No, it's not that, but it's just like being a neighbor and in the vein of being a community, bro. Like I got your back, bro. You feel me? And it'd be thorough if you got mine too. Cause now it's harder for us to harm each other. Buc: Mm-hmm. And that's what I mean, to be able to look at it like you outside of your body, you feel me? Like you outside of yourself. And a lot of times we gotta do that as humans, you feel me? Like that five seconds, 10 seconds, man, could be a deciding point, you feel me? And if you take yourself outside of yourself and view it, like, it'll be less to do. Meaning like, you're not gonna Jhalil: And man, cause if they really do how all the propaganda going on with the war and all this crazy shit going on, who we gonna go to, bro? You feel me? You can't make it across town to your homies every time. You can't make it, I can't make it back to Philly if they close the fucking road down. I take a back road and do this and get in a boat and build, like it's too much, bro. Buc: Hmm. You gotta go and watch yourself engage simple, like, you know what mean? Like, immaturely, like, like petty, you know what I'm saying? Like nutty as shit, you feel what I'm saying? Like, so when you gain back, when you jump back in, you like, man, that's not even worth none of this shit. You get what I'm saying? And I understand, like, when my, when my brother, Jhalil: We gotta build community and really be there for each other, bro, because then that'd make it easier for everybody, for real, for real, bro. Buc: Morning. Jhalil: think that's the only way to up our rank, man. I think it trickled down to our next talking point, is survival. Buc: I want to get into more survival habits, At least one that I think that's very important, right? Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Buc: going through something and he don't know how like, like, you know what mean? What's the word I'm looking for? Like he don't know how to reciprocate that. I mean, not reciprocate, but like explain it or tell it. You know what saying? Like, and so he, he latched out on me just cause, cause the mirror. the dependency, you know what I'm saying? Like government set up funds for us to depend on them, you feel me? And that's another heavy hitter from slavery, you get me? Like for us, for them, for me, like that's the number one thing that's separated our families. Because if I can take the father out of the picture and he the... Jhalil: Thank you. Buc: You know what I'm saying? Jhalil: Yeah. Buc: But in the mirror I can't react back the same. If I don't know no better, I react back the same. I show them the exact what the mirror is showing. You get me? Like a mirror does. So if I go like this to the mirror, I can see that happening, right? So all dramatically, if somebody, your mirror and they do that to you, you mirror back. And then when you're rumbling, you get what I'm saying? But if I understand like, the breadwinner or the one that's gonna go out and make the ends, right? And I could make the woman the top, John, you feel me? Then that can separate it. And then I give her her independence and all of this type of stuff, right? And then welfare, you know I mean? And not even just to put it on our families, but the design was for farmers. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. I'm getting really grossed out, bro. Buc: No, like, my man, we already got the wrong image in our mirrors. We already got hate for the skin in our mirrors. We already got, you know, all of these, you know what saying, vices and things like that, that we got in those mirrors, so I can't help assist him worsen his mirror. You get me? And... wives and all them type people, you know what mean? And for us to jump on it and get into it, you know, we took that, like, you know, holding on to it dearly, you feel me? To a point where Trump even say like, I'm gonna take away, you know, the sugar and shit, like buying snacks and shit with the stamps. Jhalil: Yeah, I agree. Buc: And like I said, that's the same thing when you're in a relationship, being able to foresee all of these things. lot of people don't know, so they don't got it to do it. But that's the importance of the value shift. That shit is so good. Cause you don't need to be buying no fucking snacks anyway with all this sugar and all that and black supposed to have. Right? So black supposed to be high on diabetes. Here you got a white man talking about you gonna take that away. But that's the trickery, you know what I'm saying? Like I give it to you enough that you crave it and then I can snatch it away from you and then you be fiending for it. You feel me? Like. Jhalil: diabetes going around all this other shit. BLEH Buc: You know what saying? And hopefully people start watching this drone and really start taking heed. You know what mean? Because it's just a different perspective. You get what I'm saying? But it's a real drone through lived experience that me and bro, know, been going through. We was born in different times. Jhalil: Alright. Buc: That's one thing, but that's not the point of what I was saying. The point I was trying to make was the fact that he could say that and then you fight back to one. Keep it. Jhalil: you Buc: That's a mental, psychological thing, you feel me? That where it's don't, now I know I got you as a dependent, like, you know what saying? I can do no wrong. Because even you gonna defend it, even though it's against you. You get what I'm saying? So for me, like, you know, and. But today we connect on here. We don't find no disconnect. If we do find a disconnect, we find a way to reconnect it. Jhalil: weird Shit, bro. We got to build that bridge, dawg. Because at the end of the day, it ain't too many sources of people that me or you probably go outside of to voice these different things. You feel me? So that goes back to community, bro. And slash brotherhood. We got to have that open communication to where as though now stress don't become like... Buc: And the bigger of it that I don't think a lot of people recognize or see is the fact that, and this happened when I got off, so don't get me fucked up. I was using them, John. You hear me? But at the same time, when I got off and recognized, I'm like, damn, the hold on it is that you get capped on your salary. You're not allowed to make more than Jhalil: our overall tone, you feel me? It don't become what we put in the world and like how we treat people and you feel me? It just, that's not beneficial to us. But what is beneficial to us is even if we do go through our disagreements or whatever, we find a way to bring it back and gain this common ground, bro. So we can keep building. Sorry. Mm-hmm. Buc: two grand, three grand a month depending on how many folks living in the house and all of this, right? So that keep it at a cap. And the fact that you wanna fight to stay at a cap. Thank you. Jhalil: Bye. And yeah, that turn your drive down, bro. Buc: and you just so immune to survival habits. You okay with survival habits? Long as I can get past the day, it's okay. And then we put a lot of these things in our heads, like, you know what I'm saying? Long as I can make it to next week, I'm good. And that's a person with a job, you feel me? Like, long as I can do these survival habits to have you at a standstill and stuff. Mm hmm. Jhalil: That's exactly what we trying to bring with the volume shift, bro. Cause it's deeper than just me and bro. Or me and my wife, me and my family, him and his family is deeper, bro. We all a community, man. So we got to open up these different corridors and bridges and create them so we can continue to grow together. Buc: Yeah. And see, you know, a part of that overworked parenthood is like, you don't get these conversations, you don't get like the real information that your folk might have for you. You feel me to go out and represent said family in the community. You get what I'm saying? So all of that stuff's a disconnect. You know what saying? and progressing in life. You feel what saying? So it's not just some cool shit to be just saying. And that's how we used to take it. Like, yeah, that's some cool shit to struggle. You know, I love struggle bars and all this. You feel me? Like, we support the struggle. Like, oh, he came from the mud and this and that. Like, wow, what a person I have to be with. Jhalil: game. Mmm. But there's no support though. There's no support when you advancing. You feel me? That's when like it get lonely at the top kick in. You feel me? That's when like all these other things kick in, bro. And it's like, man, it's all irrelevant for real, for real. Like even back to the sugar and the sweets and all that. Like, bro, since when has it been hard for people to get money? Buc: It's no wonder that it's happening. It's not a coincidence. You get what I'm saying? Like, it's really strategic, you know what saying? It's strategic, but it's like, it's like, have a plan for you, but you don't gotta follow the plan. And that's my most important thing, you feel me? Jhalil: And. Like now I'm not talking about life changing money or whatever, but you know, bro, ends come in. They just, they come and they go, bro. It is what it is. So even if you do want these same shit that's gonna give you diabetes, bro, you can take 20 or $30 and go buy that shit. Like it's not like the end of the world for that. You know what mean? Like we gotta start looking at the bigger picture of it. Like if that's one of the main things, like grandmom got diabetes. Buc: I don't give a fuck if the puppet master is showing that. don't gotta gravitate to it. We don't gotta do it. You get what I'm saying? Like, when you see somebody hurting young guy, like walk past him, you feel me? There's so many thoughts in your head. Jhalil: Yeah. Buc: But in the value of the natural human joint is the lowest. Jhalil: Somebody got to their foot cut off. It's cancer running rampant. Maybe we should start investing in things that's going to overturn that shit. You feel me? Things that's going to boost our immune systems and all of that. to be honest, it's it's snacks, bro. Who cares about that shit? And they can say that all they want, but at the same time, it's a person, a company, a big business that runs those things. Buc: because of all these other voices that we didn't allow to be in our head. You feel me? People always talk about you renting space in my head. it's like, y'all say them little things like it's nothing, but that be the real deal. You feel me? Jhalil: I it's the moment of value. Buc: You start being in the room forever, you feel me? And so then that get into like, you know, incarceration impact. You feel what I'm saying? Especially via the fucking overworked parent. Jhalil: snacks. You feel me? So like either way bro, it's like they gonna find a way to do what they gotta do and get that to the public, bro. So I think it's like bigger picture, like it's bigger shit that's going on other than that. NNNN Buc: You know what mean? Like, if both parents and I was in they both got work. Yeah, but the addiction and all of that to it and ⁓ the manipulation and the programming and all of that, you know what saying? With all of that inclusive, it's like, the point of it is this, right? Jhalil: Thank you. Buc: Not alone, just one parent, you feel what I'm saying? And then it's like, most people would say, well, how, I gotta work, I gotta, you feel what I'm saying? You in survival mood to where it's though like, I ain't give you enough money, right, as the oppressor, right? So how you survive is penny pitching. Jhalil: BLEEEH Buc: You know, we gotta find a balance. You get what I'm saying? I got a lot of things in my head. That's why I keep like, and I don't know if I really want to say, you know, what it is, but you know, I just hesitate on just saying it right now. I will say it eventually, but like right now, you know what mean? But, you know, the end... Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Buc: I'ma go get the cheapest thing, like, you get what I'm saying? And that's what you just don't know. But through slavery and all of that, it's like, when you got the chitlins and all of that, you put the hot sauce on it to make it better, just so you can digest it. You get what I'm saying? And it's not a bad thing, but that was your survival. You couldn't just go without not eating anything. Jhalil: cheapest thing is the worst thing too. Buc: incarceration impact, man. And it's so heavy. Like, you feel what I'm saying? And it's so crazy that Wallo would be like, I went through a family of ⁓ officers and shit. And then he went through a family of like, inmates. You get what I'm saying? Like, and that was just crazy to hear. I'm like, damn, that's wild. Like, Jhalil: you Buc: You see what I'm saying? So then when you fast forward to how we eat and how we spend our money, it's tight. Because we always in survival. So that's why we bringing up these topics to let people recognize like, ⁓ shit, I never even thought that I was in survival. You get what I'm saying? Like, I'm just penny pitching because I'm this. But the whole thing of it is, it's keeping you at bay. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Buc: And I don't know if it's a thing that we don't care enough. I just don't know if we know what to do or how to go about it. You get what I'm saying? Because a lot of times when we start talking like this in the hood, it's like, bro, you want some deep shit. It's real dismissive. You know what I'm saying? I don't want you to penetrate. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Alright. Buc: You get what I'm saying? So when you start thinking outside of survival, then you start going to Whole Foods. Yeah, you spending more money. You spending more money, but you're getting your is better for you. And you're not even consuming as much. Because even if you are in survival, once you buy that high priced stuff, you're going to want to still penny pinch it because you like I ain't got that much to but. Jhalil: Exactly, spending their little ice shift. Buc: the conditioning that master gave me, like, no, I want to keep that. But with the thing that master understood was that when you give the brain something, it's going to take it and develop it. You get what I'm saying? So that's why it was so important for the master to keep the media. Jhalil: Thanks, X. Alright, well... Buc: Also, it's going to put you in the mindset to go get more. I gotta go get more money so that I can go and be okay shopping fairly at Whole Foods. You get what I'm saying? Jhalil: It's ugly. Buc: Cause that's the, that's the poisoning tool. You get what I'm saying? Like that's the thing that's gonna push this stuff into your brain for it to grow. And then you start being the person that act out and do the thing. You get what I'm saying? And then when I come as your brother and I tell you, yo, that shit, no, they manipulated us. They brainwashed, they fucked us over. Jhalil: Exactly. And then that puts you in the mindset, all right, well now I want to buy wholesale because me buying the cheaper stuff is going to cost more money. So now I'm going to invest in a Costco membership. You feel me? Where I can go spend this bean and get blah, blah, blah and bulk. You feel me? So it's like, I don't know. It's just, it's worth that investment. Like something like health and wellness, bro. That's, that's worth the investing. Buc: You talking about, nah, you want some deep shit, bruh. I ain't trying to really... I'm trying to get the master money. Like, I don't know what the fuck you talking I'm trying to get the master's money. Jhalil: It's like fasting, bro. It's like before that, when we not fasting, bro, we eating all this crazy stuff. I'm eating snacks. I'm eating this and that. Like, bro, I look at the fridge now, bro. I got all juice. I'm drinking smoothies every day. There's a ton of fruit in this joint. Like we got noodles in here, bro. It's still a full pack. We don't even want that. Like, you feel? It's just, it's a different mindset, bro. And it's like... Buc: and be up in his eyes and shit like that. You get what I'm saying? you know, all this stuff, is very deep. Jhalil: Very very deep Wow, man. I just know that damn persuasion effect, man. It damaged us a lot, It puts you where you need to be. It puts your mindset where you need to be. So now it's like, even before this, it's like, now I'm teaching my family, bro, because I identified that even myself, bro, even with a business that's doing good, it's progressing every year, I caught myself in survival mode. So it's like, no, bro, I got to switch that and unlearn it. So now it's teaching the kids, like, when we get money, bro, we split it in three ways. to the point where it's like, man, too much of us had to go through that shit, bro. It's like, out of all of these subjects, bro, I can guarantee that most of the people listening or seeing this, you know, and then went through one of them, bro. Whether it's like the parenting, whether it's incarceration, being overworked. It's like, bro, it's all relevant to what happened. Like we gotta save, we gotta invest, and then we gotta give too as well. You feel me? Because there's always somebody who's less fortunate. So I teach my daughter and my son this all the time. So you get that dub, make sure you save this. You can spend a couple dollars on whatever you want. No questions asked, you feel me? As long as it's not something that's gonna cause you demise and then you gonna help out. We gotta find our way out of it though, man. Buc: Yeah Jhalil: And it's like, man, even though we talk about it, it's still like, it's still so much work to do. It's like, it's an extensive job, cause it can't just be two people, bro. It's a whole person show. You know I mean? Real rap, like it ain't just us. Buc: and take me village, you know what saying? That's what the guest score provides too, alongside like people commenting and sharing it. You feel me actually wanting to like get rid of a lot of that stuff, you know what saying? Cause you think about it, bro, you watch a podcast, you like, damn, like I wish I could get on that job. Jhalil: and it's like, You're going to look out for your community, Because then that take you right out of that survival. It's like, man, I give all the time. I got this to invest all the time so I can look at that account while it's growing. I don't feel like I got to end post-spend. You feel me? The money is there, bro. It's not going nowhere. You mean? But we got to put those tactics in our families and in ourselves first and implement that, bro. That's the way to get out of survival. Buc: Okay. But if the opportunity approaches, would you really do it? You feel what I'm saying? And that's truth to yourself. You get what I'm saying? Without all of the mud and all of that messy stuff, you get what I'm saying? We got it in us, bro. You feel me? You just gotta remove the layers of the stuff that's been presented. You get me in it? Jhalil: you Buc: Yeah. And not even just to leave it on, you know, us on a lower level, does living regular citizen lives, right? Like even those, you know, that's making fortunes and got wealth, you feel me? Like they still be in the mindset of survival as well. Like, you feel me? Like, Jhalil: Mm, mm. Exactly. nearby layers is different. Buc: You know. Yeah. Especially, you know, we've all been through different things, you feel me? And your cell membrane via your ancestors could have been different, you know what I'm saying? That need to upkeep everything is the same type of survival. You get what I'm saying? For a person, like you said, to be living on the same block, right? But I dress my kids in Balenciaga and you don't? And for that to be a disconnect or for me to look at you, I'm up here and you down there, all of that is like, you know what mean? You're trying to survive. You know, I know folk that just wasn't affected by like a lot of this stuff. So they lens, they lens ain't foggy. When they look at stuff, they looking at it real like reality, like, you know what I'm saying? That's why I look at stuff and be like, yeah, but the truth is like, let's look at this whole picture. You feel me? Oh, nevermind. Jhalil: Thank you. Buc: the master's slavery game. You know where's the, like you know what saying? Like look at me master, I done reached the highest of the, look I'm separate from them, I wear this. Like you know what I'm saying? I got this crown on cause you know, I did, you get what I'm saying? And that's not to confuse anybody that really make a earning. Jhalil: me. Buc: Look at one side or one person's viewpoint or one person's this and one person's that. Jhalil: And then that's choosing sides, you feel me? It's like, it don't get done. You gotta learn how to take yourself out of the drone and be the mediator, like, or at least to see it as the mediator, you feel me? And then make a decision. Buc: that's deserving and then go out and, you know, ⁓ love on they self with jewelry and stuff like that. That's not to confuse that. You feel me? I'm talking about the mindsets and all of that that go behind like when you do it. You feel me? Because a lot of people just wear good shit. They don't got to announce it. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Buc: Yeah. Jhalil: Cause if not, it turn lopsided. Like it's just going to seem like you jumping on the side that you favor with. And then that's, that's never really a good thing. here. No. It's what about the other party, bro? Then it's like that bring us to like the emotional language gap. Like, you feel me? Like I might ask you, yo, you good? Instead of like, if I see you say I'm going on, I might be like, yo, you good? Instead of just asking like, yo bro, how you really feeling? Like, and man, and us being his brothers, like we can really see that shit on each other. But it's like. And then when you buy the good shit, it it lasts longer. You feel me? If you just buying all cheap shit, you gotta keep buying it, keep buying it, keep buying it. You feel me? Cause it don't last long. So it's like, there's no problem with going out to buy these things and treating yourself and all that, but that shouldn't be the foundation of everything. You feel me? Buc: Right. It's the attitude in it. Let's say that, right? Like, it's the attitude behind it, you feel me? Like, and that's all I saying, like. Jhalil: Yay! Buc: Yes. Jhalil: We all can see that in each other too. Like I can look in somebody's eyes and be like, damn bro, they look sad. Or that person look happy or that person look confident. You feel me? So we gotta start keeping it a being with ourselves, bro. Even if it's uncomfortable with like, I mean, you see somebody with that hurt in their eyes, it's nothing wrong to be like, damn bro, you are, you feeling all right, man? What's going on? I don't gotta know you. Alright. Buc: I can just imagine being back in time, like, and I see a white person for the first time. Like, that shit just would be like, what the fuck? But I don't know if I got that type of, you know what I'm saying, that'll make them wanna do something, like, violent to them or some shit. You get what I'm saying? Like, it probably would make me just more curious. Like, how the fuck is your skin, like? Jhalil: You feel me, but you shouldn't take that person to leave her. Like, cause if I'm extending my drone, that mean I honestly care, bro. Or sis, you feel me? Buc: in You feel me? Like everybody I didn't encounter looked like this, you feel me? But obviously you see when they get it, you know, they look upon it as something different or maybe, you know, that's a big fear. So like we know when you fear that strong, you can do anything to anybody. You feel what I'm saying? But you know. Jhalil: Mm hmm. Buc: Right? And sometimes it come from the families. You feel me? It started a family like the in-house family, you know, on the block. You feel what I'm saying? You told not to tell you your in-house business. You get what I'm saying? But what I'm learning now is if you're not in control of the narrative, then like it can go wherever the fucking goes. You get me? So all of that. Jhalil: Okay. ⁓ Thank you. Buc: They just some of the survival habits that, you know, that we got via that. And hopefully, you know, this little spill allows people to connect at all and start really making sense of your current life and being like, yo, and like, you know, slavery intentionally breaking up families and all that, right? You got a lot of cheating and all of this different stuff, right? How they like... shying away from it being private, you know what saying? That take away accountability and responsibility. You get what I'm saying? So for me it's like, if said person takes responsibility for doing whatever they did or said, you know what I'm saying? Then like, we can honor that. Jhalil: Very good. Buc: push sex. Sex is like, hey, fucking weird, right? And so much that you even confused about its proper, you know what mean, way of going about it. You feel what I'm saying? And as much as all the religious people talk about stuff, they still try and get a little ass. They still try. You know what saying? But when you want, when you're doing stuff that... Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Buc: Cause at the time you gotta know like that you don't want this to get out. You get me? So it's like, why are you doing things that you don't want to get out? And then having a problem with somebody when they put it out, like it don't make sense. Do you get what I'm saying? That's number one in the vein of responsibility, accountability and discipline of self, self-discipline, the best discipline. Jhalil: Right? It's nature. Like, you feel me? . Buc: You're getting what I I don't know so much nature, because you gotta, we gotta put it on the scale. Nature versus manipulation. You know what saying? Because I don't know if we was as horny like that. Obviously, you know, naturally, like you said, in that vein, I think naturally, yeah, you're gonna be attracted to the opposite and then you're gonna want like. You know what saying? If I stop myself from doing all these things, then I don't gotta worry about the talk. Jhalil: Yeah, where is it like? Exactly. But if I'm out here acting crazy, how can I be mad if somebody, you know, identify the shit that, you know mean? That could use some buttoning up on. Can't take that the wrong way. You feel me? Or bro pulled me to the side that, you know, he identify something. I can't take that personal. Cause he already know the mission. You feel me? If I know the mission, then you know the mission, but I'm not here moving according to the mission, bro. You can't take that personal. Buc: You're getting little things. you know, share that attraction with some type of physicality and all that. And you know what mean? But the over abuse of it is like. Jhalil: The hypersexuality, bro, but that shit is linked to depression. Depression and shit like that. You feel me? When you overly sexual, bro, that's linked to something that's a trauma or something, bro. There's so much more things that we could be doing, bro, but if that's in your mind all day, all day, all night, bro, it's probably time for a cleanse, bro. Buc: You get what I'm saying? Jhalil: You gotta take that as fuel and put that in your engine to go harder, bro. That's all it is. Buc: Yes. Yeah, and that's what I'm saying. A lot of that stuff come from a lot of that stuff. You know what saying? When you're only truthful about yourself, if you ain't truthful about what you do and how you move and all of that, you wanna be moving hush hush wise. You know what I'm saying? That moving hush hush wise, you gotta do certain nutshit to even operate. You get what I'm saying? And to keep people from getting to your stuff. Jhalil: Roar right! Buc: Like I can't completely put it on individual because I just know how that manipulation happened. You feel what I'm saying? Like it was a time in life where you just didn't show it. You feel me? Now I'm just happy as fuck where it's hard to like not, the shit is in your subconscious. You feel what I'm saying? That's how much is pressed. Like, and then now you got messengers. Jhalil: Thank Mm-hmm. Buc: You get what I'm saying? It's ultimately like I be looking at people and once they get some money, that they get that title of celebrity is all like all of a sudden they stop being human. It's like, no, you feel what I'm saying? Like same things that mother fucker regularly getting into same things. You get what I'm saying? So when they respond the same way, it's not nothing going to stop that because they got money now. Jhalil: you ⁓ shit, bro. That shit is on your feed. Buc: everybody messengers, you know what So that's one of the top things. You stop even thinking about, when you think about a relationship, you ain't think about who fucking love and connect there with a person character. You think about how good the gag gonna be or how good the pussy gonna be. You feel what I'm saying? And whether I can deal with that the longest. You feel me? That's not your beginning. You feel what I'm saying? Like you think I'm not gonna curse you the fuck out cuz I got money and I gotta be this upstanding. No, I'm a human motherfucker. You violated This is what it is. You get what I'm saying? So for me is like no we looking at We be looking at things and and trying justify them and make them you know, okay, but to me it'd be Jhalil: and find that none of that shit. NNNN That's definitely not. Buc: So you had to been manipulated to get to that point. You feel what I'm saying? Like, we just naturally wasn't even, you know what I Like, I ain't even gonna go there, but yeah, like, and all of that stuff is a part of the survival, You get me? And you know the connection with that. You know what I'm saying? Jhalil: Okay. Buc: you try and get away from irresponsibility and accountability, you know what saying, by straining. And see, that's the master trick that we've been taught. So now we doing it in a box on each other. We doing snake ass shit. You get what I'm saying? Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Definitely part of that survival shit. Yeah, I know. All right, I know on the other hand, like, bro, people like they look at people and be like, oh, well, they got some bread, so I can't keep it real with them. You feel me? I ain't gonna be able to get to this. I ain't gonna be able to get to that point if I upset this person with keeping it real with them or if I bring up this, I'm gonna be lame or you feel me? All of that shit, though, bro, that's just contributing to our demise, bro. Buc: The fact that they took the Mandingo tribe and over-sexualized because of how big they was physically, you feel me? They wanted to reproduce more big, strong motherfuckers, so they taking motherfuckers and they doing like the animal kingdom. They motherfucking lyin' Thanks. Jhalil: And it's like, it never showed us that like, all right, you know, just telling people what they want to hear is going to make us better as a people, bro. And it's like, I look at that shit every day, bro. It's like, whether I deal with politics or not, you feel me? Sometimes making the harder decision, like when we talk about the president, you got to make the harder decision. So people don't want to hear that shit. They want to hear what make them feel good. Buc: Poison High. Jhalil: Mmm. Buc: women up and they fucking tell they can't fuck no more. Like you feel, you know what it look, you know what the fuck it feel like to try and nut back to back to back to back. But I think a regular person probably got three at the strongest, you know what Jhalil: you Yeah, as strong as after that, you gonna fall asleep. Buc: gonna be too hurt because number one thing is sperm reproduced right so that means sperm is life so if I ejaculate too many motherfucking times taking life out Jhalil: You feel me? But you don't wanna hear what's gonna make you get up off your ass and really implement these things and make yourself a better person. Whereas like that should be the easy thing. Like that should be easier than getting money. That should be easier than getting up and going to work. Your man fixing yourself. That should be easy, bro. Buc: Mm hmm. Jhalil: Real shit, Every joint, bro. Especially useless joints. Now it's probably different if it's like, you know, with some compassion, you're with your partner, it's love, it's bonding, it's synchronicity. Like, I think that's when it's valuable. You feel me? That's when it becomes like, it's enchanted. You feel me? Like, and that's how I was looked on back in the day. you feel me? But now, it's like, man. Buc: No matter if I got a million cells. Number. Jhalil: When it's like, man, we got so pacified and we see all these wrong examples and we start to think that that's the way, bro. And it's like, no, bro, that's fucking us over, man. We can't keep doing that. So it's like, man, that's why I really got love for this genre, bro. And we really is going to shift the volume on that shit, bro. Because there's too much emphasis on the cool thing. Buc: Mm-hmm. Jhalil: trying to hit and get up out of there. Next victim. Like, you mean, next cheeks. Buc: And that's why I'm saying like, you know, select. That's why we got to really say it like this so we can pinpoint it and change it. You get what I'm saying? Like, you think it's from pimping and all of this nonsense, right? Like, no, you ODing and wanting that much pussy in your life is because they forced it like that. You get what I'm saying? Like, man, what you think? Jhalil: But no, bro, fuck all that. This is the cool thing, bro. Self-improvement. Real rap, self-improvement is thorough, bro. That's flavor. It's not just about how you look, how you dress, what you make. Because none of that make you a good person, You feel me? It's your actions that make you a good person. It's like, you what mean? Your trustworthiness. If people come to you for advice and things like that. Buc: Yeah. ⁓ Jhalil: And I think they forced our women to be so sexual too, because it's like, they know that's how, they think that's how they're going to get what they want, in a sense. They know that that's one of men's favorite things, so they pump them to think that, all right, if I get on this joint and I shake my ass all day, maybe I can get that money that I need to do this and do that. That's the shit that make you wealthy. You feel me? That's the shit that make you rich in life. But not money. Not that. It's like social equity. You feel me? How is your social equity? Buc: Mm-hmm. Yeah, man. And it's gonna have to revert back to families. You know what mean? Reconnecting and getting over a lot of this poison. Like I was saying, in the first part, it's like you can't demonize family members based on the action that they then got via this slave shit. You get what I'm saying? Jhalil: ⁓ sis, you got way more skills than that. You're not giving yourself enough credit. And bro, you not giving yourself enough credit even when you so lustful. Cause you can always see that shit and keep it pushing, bro. You don't gotta succumb to that. But it's the trickery, bro. Buc: And that's why you gotta take accountability and responsibility too, right? Like, cause now that's why you got women and they might say like, it's for their own personal shit, but like, come on now, that attention is different. You get what I'm saying? So, do you pay my fans to you? Jhalil: what to say. Buc: We'd have all been poisoned in a way. You get what I'm saying? Like a lot of times, My aunts and would go crazy on my cousins and them, which was they kids, you know what I'm saying? But they was in the streets and doing all this different stuff, right? But no accountability responsibility for them even being out there. You'd be able to see. Jhalil: Alright. Buc: nor was it any self thing where it's like... I understand y'all pushing Christianity and God and everything like that, you feel me? like, if you don't truly know better yourself and you pushing that, it's like, you pushing the wrong stuff into us, you get what I'm saying? So if you ain't even strive to like get out of the captivity, then how you expecting us to magically just do it? Jhalil: feel like it tonight is cool, we can wait. It's die down. Buc: But then, you know, that's when the poison get put in, right? I think Islamically they say the ⁓ satan can take the tongue, you know what saying? And use it through the woman. You know, she strike hard with her tongue like. Jhalil: Okay. Buc: And then if we don't magically do it, you get mad at us and sent us for life. You get what I'm saying? Like lot of my cousins was on drugs and all of that different stuff. People don't want to say it, but a lot of those things was the cause of they deaths too. And them wanting to kill themselves or wanting to get up out of here, you know I'm saying? Because... and say some, know what That's why women automatically go for the, you bitch ass nigga or you pussy, because it's so, the great, it like, I wanna cut you, so, you know what I'm saying? But I say responsibility, accountability. If I don't respond to that, then that go away. So that's why I always be saying like, we gotta be accountable, even though like, you know, it's happening to us, like. Jhalil: Yeah Buc: Just dealing with your inside family might be terrifying, bro. Like, it might be like, you can't pick your family, so it's like, who got demonized and who got ⁓ conditioned to worse and all of this? We don't know until these things start, you know, roaring its ugly head, you feel me? And then we not even in position to know how to deal with it, because it's so new. We gotta be accountable and responsive to be like, them times I should have been strong enough to be like, no, I'm cool. You feel me? Because women got it in they mind that like, ⁓ this was working. ⁓ this would have get me a bag. ⁓ this would do that. And if y'all got the customers for it, you don't start the business. You feel what I'm saying? Jhalil: Yeah. Err... Alright, go. Buc: or we've never seen the reactions or the results of like what drugs really do. You feel me? Until it's in real time. So for me, I gotta take accountability and taking those extra views, a couple extra seconds, you what I mean? You feel me? To make a mother fucking think like, damn, like, we should keep doing this. No, like, I wanna take that shit out my hour room. You know what I'm saying? Jhalil: You won't know. You won't try that shit because you see the cool shit, the cool side of that shit, bro. But you don't see the side where it's like, damn, about to get put out your crib because you ain't pay your rent. You fucking around in the streets or you losing this battle to health. You feel me? And now you need this operation, but you need this bread to get the operation. You feel me? People don't push that enough. And like all the connections and relationships you lose. Yeah. Yeah, for sure, bro, because it's going to keep drawing you back in, bro. It's just like, man. That's why I was like, bro, that algorithm is crazy. Buc: And then you get on top of like, then not even wanting the importance to have a family. Jhalil: You know Nobody talk about the realness of that shit, bro. like, you know, coming from Philly, bro, like, and coming from a lot of places, I ain't even going just personalized Philly, but through my experience, bro, a lot of us, like, we went through the drugs shit and all that, and nobody told us, like, yeah, we had the D.A.R.E. commercials and all that. But some of the most thorough motherfuckers was out there getting high or selling drugs. Buc: You see what I'm saying? Like, I'd rather be a single nigga doing, you know mean? Fucking up other niggas' houses and shit like that. Especially even when you come from getting hurt. You feel me? If a nigga can't fuck your house up with a better gay or better sex or courtship girl at a yimzian time or whatever the case may have been. You got that took an advantage of, like, now you like, I don't want to get got again. Jhalil: Yeah. Yeah. you And man, so that became flashy to us, And it's like, damn, that's a bad job, bro. And still, even to this day, it's like intensified. That shit would be like, ⁓ damn, you drinking Quigen. You ain't drinking Watt. Like, bro, niggas want your drugs not as good as my drugs. Like, that's crazy. Like, you feel? You smoking Rudgy? and you Buc: You feel me? you know, women ask the questions like, damn, why men cheat so much? I tell you, that first hurt as a boy, before that, you was, you was naive. was, you know what mean? You was manipulative. You was manipulative. You was in love. You knew what love really was, like, to you. You thought you, they told you you was a young boy. You don't know what love, no, I felt that shit. Jhalil: Right. Head over hills, bro. Buc: you You Jhalil: like, well, I got this shit from San Francisco. Bro, that's not the same pack you are. You know what But that's all that hood shit, bro. It's like, bro, they told us the wrong way and we ran with that shit, bro. We picked it up and ran. Mike Vick with it. Like, shit crazy, dog. I remember at the time, that shit used to seem cool to be high. Buc: And then I felt that hurt too. And then out of the comparison, I chose like, I don't want to be hurt again. And that's just what it is. So in your mind, you already like, listen, I been cheap. Jhalil: Then it's like, man, yo, you forgot what that love felt like. Buc: And. If you a man and you going into a relationship with that, like you automatically going, you ain't never been committed. You feel me? Like you was already registered. I mean, had reservations to fuck. Jhalil: You know what Motherfuckers blew it up and all that. The slow talk. You know The lingo and all that. But, man, it's like, bro, all this shit that we do, bro, we gotta run companies. We gotta manage people and do different things and solve problems. I see somebody just standing there, I'm like, damn, bro. You ugly, bro. You I mean? I love you, but you ugly, man. You gotta get it together. Buc: and seven. Jhalil: Bro, where it bro? Buc: Mm-hmm. Jhalil: NNNN Buc: This one just was added to it and then you will call her what? What we used to call her, your main drone. If you got a main drone, mean, got, you get what I'm saying? So all of these contribute, you know, contributes to the separation of families, you feel me? And I don't give a fuck to us. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Bro, shit. Buc: It just make me think like, damn, what was going on that made him succumb to that? you feel me? Or he just didn't really know how heavy it would get. You get me or like? Jhalil: Yeah, no, this was place Buc: I really give it a thought to a lot of this shit through the stuff that happened through slavery, And the fact that it's been, you know, ⁓ pushed up into now is just a time that we really gotta realize it. You know what mean? And, you know, this ain't new for real, because Malcolm and them was on this. When Elijah ⁓ Muhammad started, it was... Like, you know what mean? Cause those things is intriguing to me. Like, damn, how a motherfucker get to this point where, you know what I mean? You can't even see the embarrassment cause you can't even like, you know what I'm Like nothing. And I rode the train downtown to get my records and shit like, and I had this guy shake it on the drum. Jhalil: you Buc: Islam but it was for blacks to stand and be you know and unite the family back together and all of that you know what mean so fast forward we just doing that too now but I'm just we just trying to put it in a way that we can connect it to the hood like you know what mean because even we know man the hood is the most valuable place like once we get the hood together you got you got geniuses bro you got Jhalil: Mm hmm. you Buc: He dip and heavy like, he keeps stopping through the train, you know what I And he can't get in front of me like, you feel me? I tell you anything in life be about the individual, you feel me? So I'm going through this and I'm like. Jhalil: Yeah Buc: You got inventors, you got motherfuckin', you got motherfuckin' warriors, you know what sayin'? You got motherfuckers that intellectually just got a mind. Because the fact is, we always put here for a reason and a point. You get me? So you already come with some equipment. It's two individuals, because it's me and then it's him, right? So what's in his life journey that's brought him to this spot, right? And what's in mine that brought me and what I'm looking at, you feel me? And you got choices, right? You got, you be like, you dumb ass, like what the fuck is, you know what I'm saying? Like dickhead, what did you do? Like you, you know what I Or you can help, or try help. Jhalil: And. Okay. Buc: It's just the fucked up part is the people that know that they ain't help us. They try to hurt us and they try to fuck up our natural thing that we got and that we can share. You know what saying? or stay away from me because you don't know how to help or you don't want to hurt even more. You feel what I'm saying? So as a human, I'm just standing there. I'm like, and then I'm getting the thoughts from other people on the train that's watching. you know, cause people go, what? Let me see what O.A. ain't gonna do cause boy drone. You feel what I'm saying? So now you got all of that. And I'm thinking all, I'm like. Jhalil: And that shit been working flawlessly, bro. And that's the hurt part, you know what mean? That shit been working flawlessly, And it's pushed in our face so much, bro. It wasn't even like, I remember being a kid growing up, bro. It wasn't even nothing sexual on TV until like after 12. Buc: Yeah. Jhalil: See you Buc: Wow, like, and he damn near tipping over me, bro, like to where it's at. You know how it is, ⁓ Jhalil: You feel me? Like when all the kids would sleep. But now it's like, bro, you wake up in the morning, bro. Every movie is in commercials, all type of shit, bro. It's all these sex jokes and all type of shit that just, like man, it's just, it's crazy, bro. Bro. Buc: And it gets you like that. So I'm like, in my head, I'm already seeing this. So I'm like, I'm not going to do it. And I don't want it to go how I'm seeing it in my head. So I'm just like. Jhalil: Day... Buc: without a doubt, but that's why, you know, we talking about it and we want to start taking heed of it. You know what saying? We don't want to keep, you know, continuing to live in it. You know, they say once you know something, then you got to take responsibility. Right. So all the errors is funny. Like I want us to really get a lot of errors, but it's like we might have to face like people not going to look at it because they don't want to. And it's so crazy because I thought it was my stop that was about to come up. So I stood up. And then it seemed like he got, started getting his shit together like, ⁓ you feel me? Not on that, but it's like my movement struck his movement. Jhalil: you Buc: And feel me, Takan. Get up a little bit. Jhalil: And again is energy, you know that shit is like energy is contagious, bro Buc: they ain't ready for the responsibility. You feel what I'm saying? But if you is ready for the responsibility, you know what I'm saying? Drop a ugh in the comments, you know what I'm saying? Apparently. So then he dipping and I'm like, damn, that's not even my job. So I sit back down and shit, but his whole posture changed now. And then he went back and he went over and sat down and shit. But pre that a woman got on at the stop before and she seen him and she was like, hey, yo, sit down. Just sit down, man. Get yourself together. Like she was trying and me coaching through. Jhalil: Mm-hmm, for sure. Buc: But then that goes right into a lot of the little methods and things that I want us to take accountability for. You feel me? Like pushing, don't cry. Jhalil: Meh. Yeah, that don't crash. It's crazy, bro. Like with me, that's so tough, bro. It's like you gotta let that emotional pain out, bro. Cause then if not, it's just bottled up. Like, and then you, you exert that shit at the wrong time. Buc: And then say. So that's why I really ain't see a need to say it again on that note, you feel what I'm saying? So I'm just like watching everything played out and shit. And so it was an older guy that was sitting behind him and shit when he had walked up and he seen him, he just moved. You feel what I'm saying? So I'm just seeing all of these different operations around a person that like is really. Jhalil: NNNN Thanks. Buc: You know, kind of calling off a ho. You know? Jhalil: Yeah, bro. Shit, you don't know what the bro was going through, He could have lost some money, just got cooked up. He could have lost his job. could have just... Man, you never know, bro. And then there's like, we in a point too where it's like, it's so crazy that like, people would take shit the wrong way and then shit get blown out of proportion, bro. You feel me? Where it's like, damn, bro, I'm telling you, like, maybe you should sit down because like, nigga, you can fall. Buc: Yeah, but man, we don't never know. in Jhalil: Like everybody might not be as thorough as me. Somebody might just knock you out because you're too close and you're doing too much. You feel me? But it's like, it's a touchy job, bro. It's like you never know what to expect when somebody under the influence, bro. Buc: Yeah. Jhalil: You never know, like. ⁓ right. Buc: Yeah, I think it's a lot more to discuss, man. And it seemed like a continuation, you feel me? Jhalil: This shit gonna be a series bro, cuz it's like Buc: You know, it's just so heavy and like we didn't got into like at least an hour and damn it 45 minutes, you feel me? So I don't want overkill on one ever shoe shoe, you know, as like, do it to be continued. Jhalil: Yeah, and bro, we gonna go live too. We gonna go live on this too as well, because we know other people got inputs, bro. And I know for sure, it's always some parts that we might miss or it might be some violent points that y'all might have. So we definitely need that so we can all get on one accord, bro. I think it's valuable for us and it's valuable for our communities, man. Hey man, who else we got bro? At the end of the day, like you feel me? We all together in this bro. Even if you going here, I'm going there, you at this part in life, I'm down here, we still here together bro. Buc: ⁓ Hello, yeah. Jhalil: It's like, yeah, man, the volume shift, bro, like, ain't comfortable. And like we said, Trauma didn't start with us. What the hell it might? know what I Yeah, bro. Right, bro. Buc: And shit, until the next time, man, we volume shift. We're holla.