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Mother's Day Celebrations | believe in the journey hosted by Triveda Harris · DA CREW Podcast

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Speaker 1: Good evening, and welcome to a special episode of Believe
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Speaker 1: in the Journey podcast, and Happy Mother's Day to the
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Speaker 1: mothers that are out there, all of the ones who
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Speaker 1: have given birth, who have stepped in and taken on
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Speaker 1: the role as mom step mom, and I don't necessarily
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Speaker 1: want to say stepmom, but bonus mom, loving the child
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Speaker 1: like it's your own, because I have multiple children that
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Speaker 1: I did not birth that call me mom, and I
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Speaker 1: don't know how many bonus children I have, you know,
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Speaker 1: And I'm grateful for those children. The three that I
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Speaker 1: birth are just my gift, and I'm grateful that God
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Speaker 1: chose me to be their mom, and I am loving it.
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Speaker 1: I want to say a special thank you for my mother.
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Speaker 1: I'm gonna do my best, y'all to get through this
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Speaker 1: part of today's show because many of us are in
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Speaker 1: mourning and going through the stages of grief of our
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Speaker 1: moms not being here, and today is bittersweet for that
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Speaker 1: particular reason, and so it's been bittersweet for me. You know,
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Speaker 1: it's been three years since my mom passed. But before
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Speaker 1: I get into all of that, you know, we can't
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Speaker 1: do anything until we go to God in prayer. So
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Speaker 1: let's do that first. Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for
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Speaker 1: the mothers that have taken the moment to actually extend
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Speaker 1: on the journey of life, because without you giving us
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Speaker 1: the blessing of the children, that you decided we needed
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Speaker 1: to be the extensions of you, Because being a mother
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Speaker 1: is the closest thing that I believe is a walk
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Speaker 1: with God. Because your little blessings are what makes us
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Speaker 1: as moms, the strength, the salvation, the nurse, the teacher,
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Speaker 1: the friend, the enemy sometimes when especially when you have girls,
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Speaker 1: they can be your enemy sometimes because they're the split
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Speaker 1: personality of yourself. But we thank you for choosing us
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Speaker 1: as mothers to carry what you have given us. And
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Speaker 1: we honor each and every mother, yeah, and even the
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Speaker 1: roles of the bonus mom to step in and love
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Speaker 1: on those children, the aunties, the TT's, the ggs, and
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Speaker 1: every name that you give yourself in that role, in
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Speaker 1: that specific title and position, We honor you today and
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Speaker 1: we thank you Lord for giving us the strength to
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Speaker 1: do what you have called us to do in that
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Speaker 1: role of mom. So in your person's the Holy name Jesus,
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Speaker 1: we pray Amen. And I want to read this little
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Speaker 1: thing that I have, and it's basically a letter from heaven.
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Speaker 1: So it says, when tomorrow starts without me and I'm
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Speaker 1: not here to see if the sun should rise and
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Speaker 1: find your eyes filled with tears for me, I wish
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Speaker 1: so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today
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Speaker 1: while thinking of many things we didn't get to say.
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Speaker 1: I know, I know how much you love me and
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Speaker 1: as much as I love you. And each time you
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Speaker 1: think of me, I know you'll miss me too when
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Speaker 1: tomorrow starts without me. Don't think we're far apart, for
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Speaker 1: every time you think of me, I'm right here in
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Speaker 1: your heart. And so that's a cute little point. I
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Speaker 1: don't know who the author of that is, but it's
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Speaker 1: fitting for today. You know, my mom was the epitome
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Speaker 1: of resilience and strength and just about fire and so
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Speaker 1: many boy and this morning, as I was just thinking
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Speaker 1: about her memory and what she brought to my life,
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Speaker 1: is as all of that, And she showed up for
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Speaker 1: me in moments that I didn't think she was, you know,
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Speaker 1: in the highlights of life. She may not have been
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Speaker 1: there every moment of growing up, but she was there
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Speaker 1: in the moments where it counted the most. And she
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Speaker 1: left me with lessons that I utilized today. And as
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Speaker 1: you can see today, I even have my hair like
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Speaker 1: my mama to wear her hair ironically and her two braids,
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Speaker 1: her go to hairstyle, and it's just one of those things.
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Speaker 1: Today is just loving her. I wish she was here
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Speaker 1: to see all of the things that I've been able
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Speaker 1: to do and accomplish. And you know, before she made
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Speaker 1: that transition over, she allowed God to be in her
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Speaker 1: life and and help her to get over. And when
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Speaker 1: I am talking with my granddaughter, my oldest one, Sky,
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Speaker 1: it's now, this may make me cry.
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Speaker 2: Okay, all right, all right, take your tie. It's okay, understandable, understandable.
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Speaker 1: She looks at pictures of her and my mom and
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Speaker 1: she'll always say, t T, my grandma and God are
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Speaker 1: walking together.
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Speaker 3: Come on, come on.
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Speaker 1: God needed to get her to walk with him. Oh
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Speaker 1: And I said yeah. She says he had to come
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Speaker 1: get her. Say yeah, he had to come get her.
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Speaker 1: She says, I love my great grandma and I want
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Speaker 1: to walk with her too. I said, I know. She said,
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Speaker 1: you miss your mommy. I said, yeah, I miss my mommy.
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Speaker 1: She say, her and God are together.
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Speaker 3: T T.
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Speaker 1: It's okay, so she remembers my mom. But it's weird
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Speaker 1: in a sense, not necessarily weird. But I don't ever
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Speaker 1: cry when she's talking to me about it, because she
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Speaker 1: I don't want her to think that she's making me sad. Yeah,
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Speaker 1: but for her to say Grandma, my great grandma is
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Speaker 1: walking with God, oh says a lot, because what three
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Speaker 1: year old knows about to walk with them?
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Speaker 3: That is God? That's good speaking through her.
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Speaker 1: Yeah. So yeah, So she's like, t T, my great
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Speaker 1: grandma's walking with God and he had to get her.
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Speaker 1: And I'm like, yeah, she they're walking together. And she
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Speaker 1: just recently started saying that part. She would always say.
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Speaker 1: I would say, well, she said your your mommy died.
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Speaker 1: Great grandma died and I said, yeah, she passed, and
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Speaker 1: so she was like, oh I miss her. I'm like
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Speaker 1: I miss her too, and so just thinking about that,
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Speaker 1: and so I'm having like my phone out. She'll say
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Speaker 1: I want to see pictures of me and my great grandma,
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Speaker 1: and so to show her pictures, and God forbid, I
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Speaker 1: try to scroll past a picture. I go back, go back,
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Speaker 1: t T. I wasn't done looking at that picture. My
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Speaker 1: bad my phone. Yes, I mean you've heard her plenty
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Speaker 1: of times. So you know, three going on thirty.
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Speaker 3: Three definitely not three yo.
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Speaker 1: No, no, no, absolutely.
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Speaker 4: And yeah.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, and so she knows pictures of laying on the
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Speaker 1: bed with my mom and my mom holding her. And
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Speaker 1: that's one of the things that I can say, my mom,
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Speaker 1: even though she was barely able to hold herself up,
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Speaker 1: she was gonna make sure that she held that baby.
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Speaker 1: And yeah, she was gonna hold that baby. And so
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Speaker 1: she she helps her. So you know, it's just one
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Speaker 1: of those things. But love on your mom, regardless of
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Speaker 1: whether it's good or bad or indifferent. Your mother is
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Speaker 1: who brought you into this world. And without your mother
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Speaker 1: bringing you into this world, you would not be in existence.
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Speaker 3: Now.
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Speaker 1: I do understand that there are some circumstances that are unforgivable.
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Speaker 1: I get that, but still be saying that you have
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Speaker 1: the life that you have because that mother. No matter
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Speaker 1: how loosely you may use the term for their behavior,
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Speaker 1: are their actions. Their action to give you life is
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Speaker 1: still valuable and it's worthy to say thank you if
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Speaker 1: you say nothing else. So just be mindful of that.
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Speaker 1: You don't have to be in contact with them, but
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Speaker 1: just be mindful of that because without that you would
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Speaker 1: not be in existence, you know. And that's one thing
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Speaker 1: that I can say. You know, me and my mom
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Speaker 1: our relationship did not start out as the beautiful rainbows
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Speaker 1: and sunshine and skittles and all of that kind of stuff.
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Speaker 1: We had our moments, we had really discussions, but ultimately
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Speaker 1: I was able to let go of the idea of
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Speaker 1: what I thought my mother should be for me and
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Speaker 1: start to see an individual and learn to love her
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Speaker 1: she was and who God hated her to be for me.
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Speaker 1: And you know, she was my mom and I love her.
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Speaker 1: I miss her, I am her in so many ways
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Speaker 1: am and I see more of her in me as
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Speaker 1: I get older.
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Speaker 3: So oh, I know that's.
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Speaker 1: Imist stop talking.
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Speaker 3: So you got you got you?
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Speaker 5: We here together. That's what this is. This is you
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Speaker 5: can celebrate your mom together. This is this is fine
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Speaker 5: what I.
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Speaker 3: Understand and can relate to the facts.
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Speaker 5: Of seeing your faith seeing them as you get older,
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Speaker 5: because it's funny to me that more and more I'll
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Speaker 5: take a picture and.
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Speaker 3: I'll see my biological mom and I'm like, oh my god.
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Speaker 5: And I mean I have a cousin who if I
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Speaker 5: pop her? If I change my profile pictures, he said,
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Speaker 5: every time. He he's like, oh my god, that's Auntie.
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Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 5: It's like crazy. To him, it's like the wildest thing.
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Speaker 5: I don't see it all the time though, but it's
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Speaker 5: like the wildest thing. But then Tanya that she sees
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Speaker 5: my adopted mom in me. He's like, she's like that
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Speaker 5: that was the mom. He's like, because that's the wildest thing.
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Speaker 5: And I'm like, Daddy said, your feet the moment enough
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Speaker 5: they look like you, so apparently that's what happened.
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Speaker 3: But I love what you say.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, you stay around the longest, that's who you tend
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Speaker 1: to look at.
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Speaker 3: That's good. But I love that. I love that she
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Speaker 3: says that because I think she practically was the first
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Speaker 3: question that's ever said that to me. And I'm like,
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Speaker 3: I feel so honored by that because I want to.
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Speaker 3: I want to. I want to be her.
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Speaker 5: I want to honor her. I want to be the
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Speaker 5: first and she will. Yeah, he placed in me. She
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Speaker 5: didn't burst me, but he always said I had agree
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Speaker 5: with you in my heart.
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Speaker 3: That means a lot. Yeah, that means so much to me.
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Speaker 3: So it's like everything I try to do, it's like
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Speaker 3: in honor of her.
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Speaker 4: So when Sara said that was like, really my mom,
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Speaker 4: She's like, girl, yeah, that was the mother she was
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Speaker 4: for fat and I was like, yes, she really was,
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Speaker 4: so yeah, she was.
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Speaker 3: Supposed to have me.
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Speaker 1: Yeah the.
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Speaker 2: Brave.
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Speaker 3: I saw it. I saw it that you have one.
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Speaker 3: When you said the head, I said, yep, that's my
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Speaker 3: that's my mom right there, because wow, yeah, yeah, that's.
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Speaker 1: The time I do this hairstyle. I think of my
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Speaker 1: mom because my mom she would put them two plants
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Speaker 1: in her head and honey, yeah, because my mom is
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Speaker 1: extremely tender headed and he would not like anybody combing
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Speaker 1: her hair at all, and so you come near her
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Speaker 1: with a comb and it's a whole problem. Like she
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Speaker 1: did not like it. She didn't want to done. Yeah,
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Speaker 1: like and so it was crazy Like when she was
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Speaker 1: beginning her transition stage, my aunt called me and she
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Speaker 1: was like, yeah, your mom said she wants you to
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Speaker 1: come and calmb her hair, like she was at the hospital.
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Speaker 1: And I was like you sure you talking about my
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Speaker 1: mama and she was like, yeah, your mama said she
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Speaker 1: want And so I was like, yeah, I'm gonna have
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Speaker 1: to call her and see about that because I don't
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Speaker 1: think that's what she said, and because my mama her
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Speaker 1: hair does not go together in the same sentence. So
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Speaker 1: I called my mama. I was like, yeah, Midra called
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Speaker 1: me and told me that you wanted your hair braided.
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Speaker 1: And she was like, yeah, you are right. The medication
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Speaker 1: like they like, what have they done? Like because you
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Speaker 1: you don't know, let me talk to the doctor, the
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Speaker 1: nurse in there, somebody in there with you, because no,
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Speaker 1: she's talking about Travita. I need you to come home
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Speaker 1: my hair. Mm hmmm. Because now when she say Trevina,
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Speaker 1: I know she's serious because any other time it is Eda.
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Speaker 1: But she said, Tavia, stop playing with me, okay, to
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Speaker 1: do what you.
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Speaker 3: Need to do.
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Speaker 1: Anything else you need me to do, yeah, bring me
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Speaker 1: some chewing gum. Okay, all right. Now I got there
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Speaker 1: and I was like, you really want me to braid
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Speaker 1: your hair? She was like, yeah, you're gonna bring my hair.
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Speaker 1: Ki gonna hold my hand, okay. So Kai held her
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Speaker 1: hand while I braided her hair. And I have the
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Speaker 1: picture of her hair after I finished braiding her hair. Oh,
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Speaker 1: and so great. It's just those memories right there, I
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Speaker 1: have and I cherished those because for the longest it
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Speaker 1: was in and out, in and out and you know,
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Speaker 1: the grieving process is one of those things that you know,
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Speaker 1: it's a moment by moment adjustment.
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Speaker 3: You never know.
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Speaker 1: What the emotions are gonna come when they come, and
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Speaker 1: you just have to give yourself commission to feel yeah yeah,
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Speaker 1: because it's never ended. Yeah, and when they come, you
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Speaker 1: just deal with them as they come and you just
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Speaker 1: take it. And that's one of the things that like,
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Speaker 1: when mom finally transitioned over, it was harder for me
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Speaker 1: in the sense of it being the final goodbye because
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Speaker 1: I have been, you know, grieving all along because it
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Speaker 1: would on and off, on and off, and this time
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Speaker 1: it was like, she's not coming back.
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Speaker 3: Yeah.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know what.
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Speaker 3: Happened, but you do good get the kickback and in
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Speaker 3: the name of Jesus, Yeah.
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Speaker 1: So I don't know, but if you can see me, good,
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Speaker 1: if you can hear me good. Computer wants to try
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Speaker 1: to restart right now for summer. And I don't know why,
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Speaker 1: like it's just trying to do its own little thing.
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Speaker 1: But anyway, if y'all can still hear me, yeah, okay, yeah, yeah,
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Speaker 1: it just said that it needs to restart, but it's
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Speaker 1: it doesn't need a new update or anything but to.
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Speaker 3: Do the most.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, I just want to do something that it doesn't
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Speaker 1: need to do. But yeah, okay, as long as you
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Speaker 1: can hear me, I'm okay, you ain't got to necessarily
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Speaker 1: see me. You know, I already ugly cry anyway, so
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Speaker 1: you know that was fine. Yeah, even uglier what nobody
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Speaker 1: will see it? Yeah? Yeah, he was like, now need
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Speaker 1: to see all that. But you know, and I'm also
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Speaker 1: glad he's not here because he's gonna be looking at
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Speaker 1: me crazy. Yeah, because he was like he he got
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Speaker 1: me a cake. He told me, like he was at
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Speaker 1: work this morning. He was like, oh yeah, your cake
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Speaker 1: is in the refrigerator and I was like, what cake.
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Speaker 1: He was like, your mother's day cake. And I was
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Speaker 1: like okay, you know, and it's my favorite coach, which
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Speaker 1: is blue, and so I'm like okay, yeah. And so
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Speaker 1: I he got home from work and he's like, did
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Speaker 1: you see your cake? I was like, yeah, I saw
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Speaker 1: the cake. He was like, but you hadn't cut it.
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Speaker 1: I said, there's no utensils, like I can't touch the
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Speaker 1: cake and so well, and then he pulls out his
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Speaker 1: little pocket knife and he's like knife and I was like,
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Speaker 1: it's like we got a knife. I said, no, that
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Speaker 1: knife has been with you all day and I'm not
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Speaker 1: putting that on my cake. So I don't have a knife,
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Speaker 1: so I can't take until you go get man.
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Speaker 3: He's he's going to go shop and get you a knife.
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Speaker 1: But that he's out right now going to do that.
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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, he's gonna. Look out, he's gonna come back
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Speaker 3: with a whole bag.
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Speaker 1: He talked about we need. Look, he done went through
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Speaker 1: the whole list of what we need. Well, yeah, you go.
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Speaker 1: Then he talked about to me and I'm like, you
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Speaker 1: just said what I needed to text you and he
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Speaker 1: was like, okay, So what do you want to eat?
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Speaker 1: I was like, So I told him what I wanted
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Speaker 1: to eat and he was like, he was like, so
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Speaker 1: you hadn't it. I was like, I didn't eat, No,
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Speaker 1: but I was gonna eat. But there's no potholders to
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Speaker 1: take anything out of the oven. There's no spatch clock
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Speaker 1: to even do anything. Like I have my cook wares,
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Speaker 1: but I don't have the utensils because I was at
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Speaker 1: the house with Nate. So because I didn't want to
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Speaker 1: bring them here now mind you, I was gonna buy
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Speaker 1: some to bring but Nate told me up. He was like,
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Speaker 1: you're gonna get new stuff, so don't buy it here.
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Speaker 1: So you know, I got two people telling me not
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Speaker 1: to do something. So I listened. When I knew that
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Speaker 1: I was right, But now I don't have nothing to
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Speaker 1: do what I need to do, Like that's a whole.
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Speaker 3: Yeah.
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Speaker 1: So, and I was talking like they had a family
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Speaker 1: cookout for his mom and grandma yesterday, and so as
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Speaker 1: I was talking to them, like his mom, the first
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Speaker 1: thing she said to me, she was like, why you
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Speaker 1: didn't make that stuff? Like she had came to my
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Speaker 1: daughter's baby shower, and she was talking about the group
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Speaker 1: dip that I made. And I was like, well, nobody
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Speaker 1: told me that I needed to make anything. And plus
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Speaker 1: I've been unpacking since I got here. So she was like, well,
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Speaker 1: you need to make some of that because I need that.
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Speaker 1: And I was like okay, and.
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Speaker 3: Don't bring it behind.
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Speaker 1: Yeah. She was like, so you need to make that.
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Speaker 1: I was like, okay, I will the next time, you know,
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Speaker 1: y'all have something. And then when his grandma got there, yeah,
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Speaker 1: And so then when his grandma got there, everybody bum
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Speaker 1: rushed her first, and so I just waited my turn
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Speaker 1: and so when it was finally clear so I could
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Speaker 1: speak to her, she was like, I know you didn't
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Speaker 1: wait to come speak to me. I said, I couldn't
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Speaker 1: even get over here, like everybody was in the way.
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Speaker 1: She told her, I don't want to hear none of that.
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Speaker 1: I don't want to hear none of it. I said,
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Speaker 1: why are you saying me? I waited my turn, like
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Speaker 1: I waited. Everybody else was take they was in front
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Speaker 1: of her.
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Speaker 5: You're supposed to carry on like a Thanksgiving Friday Friday, right,
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Speaker 5: I was supposed.
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Speaker 1: To knock little kids over like I didn't want to
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Speaker 1: be rude, you know, I waited my turn. She talked
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Speaker 1: about I want.
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Speaker 3: Knocked over.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, Like I wasn't gonna knock over the little kids.
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Speaker 1: I was gonna do what I needed to do and
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Speaker 1: be respectful and weigh my turn.
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Speaker 3: Oh.
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Speaker 1: It's a beautiful blesson to be welcome into a family
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Speaker 1: and to be treated like I've been here the whole time.
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Speaker 3: And you know, for you to get there that's all.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, And that's basically what it seems like.
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Speaker 3: I do know what it is doing.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, And so it's been one of those things where
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Speaker 1: I am grateful for the space, and like I had
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Speaker 1: the conversation earlier with my dad, that we are in
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Speaker 1: a space to where we I trust God's timing, where
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Speaker 1: he tells me I am moving according to his time
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Speaker 1: and not my own. And so if I am moving
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Speaker 1: according to his time, it was time for me to
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Speaker 1: be here, and I was not supposed to be here
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Speaker 1: any sooner than I got here. Yeah, And so had
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Speaker 1: I came earlier, it would not have worked. And there's
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Speaker 1: so many things that have been in alignment that are
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Speaker 1: even falling into place as this week goes by, because
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Speaker 1: there are some things that were supposed to happen while
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Speaker 1: I was still in Swartanburg, but they were delayed for
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Speaker 1: this moment. And so I was telling my dad, I
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Speaker 1: was like, this is God's alignment and I could not
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Speaker 1: rush what God was doing, so I had to to
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Speaker 1: stay patient. Now did I get discouraged? Did I get
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Speaker 1: a little sidetrack? Yes, of course I did. Yeah, And
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Speaker 1: I was a little anty, I was a little uneasy,
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Speaker 1: I was a little frustrated. I was all of those things.
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Speaker 1: But as I sat in the stillness of what God
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Speaker 1: said to do and to trust him, it worked out
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Speaker 1: according to him. Because had I tried to be the
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Speaker 1: GPS driver, it would have been a problem. And you know,
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Speaker 1: as I was telling Nathan, and then we're gonna get
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Speaker 1: off of here because I don't know. I think it's
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Speaker 1: gonna do something else. But then I'm gonna get off
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Speaker 1: here because it's trying to do something else. But hopefully
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Speaker 1: don't let me say this. And as we were driving
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Speaker 1: up here, I was having a conversation with God, and
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Speaker 1: I was telling Nathan after we got here, I said,
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Speaker 1: you know, the funny thing about life is this is
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Speaker 1: that God is the is the driver. We're the passengers
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Speaker 1: in life, I said, but we are some horrible passengers
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Speaker 1: because he'll complain all the time. We over there in
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Speaker 1: the passenger see saying we God, why you go on?
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Speaker 1: Why you solong? Why why you going right when I
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Speaker 1: need to go straight? Don't you need to turn right here?
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Speaker 1: Don't you like we over here making all of these
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Speaker 1: assumptions and thinking we know what we're supposed to be going.
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Speaker 1: But we said, Jesus, take the wheel, but we want
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Speaker 1: to be over here driving too. We don't have to
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Speaker 1: complain the whole time. Like if we gonna ask him
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Speaker 1: to be the driver, we gotta sit out up and
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Speaker 1: actually ride, like let him do the driving, and you know,
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Speaker 1: and I'm sitting over there and I'm like, God, you
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Speaker 1: ain't got to talk to me like this, Like I
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Speaker 1: understand it. Yeah, I'm like, you ain't gotta talk to
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Speaker 1: me like this. I understand. Like I know I'm a
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Speaker 1: horrible passenger. I get it, you know, but you ain't
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Speaker 1: have to say it like that.
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Speaker 3: Right now.
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Speaker 1: I'm just trying to get there to the destination at
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Speaker 1: hand today. But you ain't have to do me like that.
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Speaker 1: You know, I've been on the right course today. I
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Speaker 1: ain't even stay it on. I ain't the GPS today,
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Speaker 1: ain't had to reroute me, not one time. And you
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Speaker 1: know I've been following directions and now you want to
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Speaker 1: tell me I'm a bad passenger, like I've been on
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Speaker 1: the right path right now.
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Speaker 3: Now.
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Speaker 1: Tomorrow might be a different story, but as of today, I'm.
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Speaker 3: On the right.
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Speaker 1: You ain't rerouted me yet, So just just keep me
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Speaker 1: right here today. Can I get a gold star for today?
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Speaker 1: Tomorrow the different story? Like, you know, I might have
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Speaker 1: some questions or I might want to go to the
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Speaker 1: right when you say go to the left or stay straight.
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Speaker 4: I don't know.
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Speaker 1: But today, can can I just have a gold start?
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Speaker 3: Can I have a feeling that we get off to
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Speaker 3: say that? Did that sound familiar to you?
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Speaker 1: As I driving here yesterday it's Friday. I was just like,
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Speaker 1: we are some horrible passengers like me, like God is
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Speaker 1: the driver all the time for directions. It's like, but
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Speaker 1: we don't know how to sit there and shut up.
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Speaker 3: The whole time.
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Speaker 1: We got to complain about something. It's too hot in
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Speaker 1: the car, turn the air cold, the seat, don't recline,
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Speaker 1: it's not why why I'm not breaking fast enough? Like
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Speaker 1: it's something no whole time. You ain't got no snacks
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Speaker 1: in your car, Like it's something like it's something you
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Speaker 1: ain't got no games, you ain't gonna like it's something
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Speaker 1: the whole time.
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Speaker 3: So I love that. I love that promise. Yeah, we're
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Speaker 3: like I have lost my mind and I'm like, no,
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Speaker 3: this is is my plan. We having a conversation. I
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Speaker 3: wonder why you got to do this.
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Speaker 1: We are a bad passenger. I was just like, I'm sorry,
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Speaker 1: but I'm a bad passenger.
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Speaker 3: I get it, get it, I got question, question, I'm
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Speaker 3: gonna get an answer. I definitely.
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Speaker 5: I'm not gonna get But it's gonna be a real
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Speaker 5: short answer, like because I said so, or you're gonna
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Speaker 5: do it or not. And I know you get a
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Speaker 5: lot of I'm getting a lot of humm. I'm like,
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Speaker 5: what is father, You're gonna do it right?
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Speaker 1: Okay, Yeah, it's the second guess. And that's just like
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Speaker 1: the book that I just completed.
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Speaker 2: Now.
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Speaker 1: I started that book back in January February. Sometimes I
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Speaker 1: wrote live chapters and I stopped, and I just stopped.
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Speaker 1: I have no rhyme reason or purpose for stopping.
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Speaker 3: I just stop.
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Speaker 1: And I was like, Okay, I have to finish this
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Speaker 1: because I'm gonna be moving. I got some things that
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Speaker 1: have that have to be done. And so in the
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Speaker 1: midst of all of that, I was like, okay, gotta look, look,
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Speaker 1: I gotta do this. I gotta I gotta finish it.
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Speaker 1: So in the midst of me packing, it's stuff in disarray,
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Speaker 1: it's stuff everywhere. And so I wrote the last two
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Speaker 1: chapters six and seven, and so like, okay, I'm gonna
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Speaker 1: complete it. And so I completed and you know, it
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Speaker 1: takes seventy two hours for it to accepting. I finished
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Speaker 1: that book Sunday night at no early Sunday morning at
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Speaker 1: about eight thirty. I'm thinking it's going to be Wednesday
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Speaker 1: Thursday before I hear anything from them. It was Monday, Monday,
32:59
Speaker 1: and I was like, well, I said, wait. I was
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Speaker 1: confused because I'm like, wait, no, it never happens that quickly.
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Speaker 1: What's you doing? But the title of the book is
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Speaker 1: God never counted me out? So all right, this this,
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Speaker 1: this is what you do. Okay, I'm gonna stay over here.
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Speaker 1: I ain't gotta no, yeah, I'm gonna just stay over here.
33:25
Speaker 1: The crazy part about that is I hadn't even ordered
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Speaker 1: my own Arthur copies yet because I didn't want to
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Speaker 1: them because I was. My brother ordered his and got
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Speaker 1: his book Wednesday. I'm a little salty a little bit because, yeah,
33:46
Speaker 1: a little saucy because he got his book and I
33:49
Speaker 1: ain't even got my author copy yet. So yeah, i'm
33:53
Speaker 1: a little but yeah, I'm a little saucy about it.
33:57
Speaker 1: But it is.
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Speaker 3: It's okay.
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Speaker 1: But I want to thank you for being with me
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Speaker 1: tonight and homs and Happy Mother's Day to the mothers
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Speaker 1: who tuned in tonight.
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Speaker 3: Love on your mom.
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Speaker 1: If you haven't called her yet, call her and tell
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Speaker 1: her Happy Mother's day, even if your center text, send
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Speaker 1: her email, serre facts, something, because you will not be
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Speaker 1: living if you did not do that. So just acknowledge
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Speaker 1: the fact that she gave you life. If nothing else,
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Speaker 1: do that. But I thank you guys for tuning in.
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Speaker 1: I thank you for being here with me tonight, and
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Speaker 1: remember to stay out of God's business. The only thing
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Speaker 1: that he needs you to do is to be obedient
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Speaker 1: to what He's called you to do. Until next time.
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Speaker 1: I'll see you guys in two weeks. Love you, good night,
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Speaker 1: Love you, Love you too. Good night,