Latest / The Living Freed Podcast / Dear Diary: Life, notes, men don't worship in church
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- WEBVTT 00:00:19.709 --> 00:00:23.910 Dear Diary. I know, I know. Not our usual Thursday 00:00:23.910 --> 00:00:28.730 segment, but here we are. You know, I was thinking 00:00:28.730 --> 00:00:31.510 between what I'm supposed to be doing. and what 00:00:31.510 --> 00:00:34.490 I should be doing, and what I'm not doing, which 00:00:34.490 --> 00:00:39.789 is packing, I thought, I'm not going to release 00:00:39.789 --> 00:00:42.950 a full -on episode. We haven't done Dear Diary 00:00:42.950 --> 00:00:47.710 in like a year. So let's just throw one out there. 00:00:47.770 --> 00:00:50.450 It's easy on me. Hopefully it's entertaining 00:00:50.450 --> 00:00:56.509 for you. And yeah, this is where we are. So packing. 00:00:57.969 --> 00:01:00.619 Haven't touched it. haven't really thought about 00:01:00.619 --> 00:01:04.459 touching it I in fact I've bought more stuff 00:01:04.459 --> 00:01:08.040 more I just got a new suitcase at y 'all actually 00:01:08.040 --> 00:01:10.980 for those who are travelers the noble suitcase 00:01:10.980 --> 00:01:16.340 just came in my um carry -on size I got the yellow 00:01:16.340 --> 00:01:18.019 because I'm going through a yellow obsession 00:01:18.019 --> 00:01:22.239 right now last year it was sage green yeah I 00:01:22.239 --> 00:01:25.980 was on the sage green ride If it's not the color 00:01:25.980 --> 00:01:28.180 of the year, then it's always going to be pink. 00:01:28.340 --> 00:01:30.299 But the color of this year is butter yellow. 00:01:30.420 --> 00:01:33.760 So I got the yellow suitcase. It is so cute. 00:01:34.500 --> 00:01:37.260 I'm obsessed. But anyways, I should be packing. 00:01:37.439 --> 00:01:41.260 I'm not. No part of me is packed. I think I'll 00:01:41.260 --> 00:01:44.219 get back to it when I get back from Serena's 00:01:44.219 --> 00:01:47.939 30th birthday next week. I just don't want to. 00:01:48.519 --> 00:01:51.700 I don't want to. I hate packing. I hate moving. 00:01:51.819 --> 00:01:55.420 Like packing and moving. One day if I'm ever 00:01:55.420 --> 00:01:58.760 wealthy, I will definitely pay someone else to 00:01:58.760 --> 00:02:01.319 pack and move me. I just don't want to do it 00:02:01.319 --> 00:02:07.180 myself. None of that is – it's just bad. It's 00:02:07.180 --> 00:02:08.780 not even that it's not fun because obviously 00:02:08.780 --> 00:02:13.439 it's not fun. It's just bad. I don't know. Just 00:02:13.439 --> 00:02:17.039 not for me. Not my cup of tea. I don't feel like 00:02:17.039 --> 00:02:18.800 I'm good at it. I would say I'm a professional 00:02:18.800 --> 00:02:23.400 at this point. So I guess I have to be good at 00:02:23.400 --> 00:02:26.460 it. I don't know. Anyways, yeah, I should be 00:02:26.460 --> 00:02:27.699 doing that. I'm literally looking at all the 00:02:27.699 --> 00:02:29.340 stuff in my room thinking I should be packing 00:02:29.340 --> 00:02:32.620 something, at least in preparation for Serena's 00:02:32.620 --> 00:02:35.319 30th birthday. Also, do y 'all ever go through 00:02:35.319 --> 00:02:37.060 your random notes on your phone? Because speaking 00:02:37.060 --> 00:02:39.400 of Serena's 30th birthday, why do I have a note 00:02:39.400 --> 00:02:42.159 in here? I just saw it a second ago and it says 00:02:42.159 --> 00:02:44.729 something, Serena's wedding speech. you didn't 00:02:44.729 --> 00:02:46.590 know what it is it's a screenshot of the meme 00:02:46.590 --> 00:02:49.629 and it says at a wedding i hear the bride's brother 00:02:49.629 --> 00:02:51.750 say to the groom i hope you enjoy growing old 00:02:51.750 --> 00:02:54.270 with her as much as i enjoyed growing up with 00:02:54.270 --> 00:02:56.569 her and i thought that was gonna be funny that's 00:02:56.569 --> 00:02:59.490 just cute dang i was really expecting it to be 00:02:59.490 --> 00:03:03.909 witty witty it wasn't it was just sweet speaking 00:03:03.909 --> 00:03:07.110 of have y 'all seen it's like voicemails to isabel 00:03:07.110 --> 00:03:10.610 y 'all that straight up made me cry i was crying 00:03:10.610 --> 00:03:14.319 the whole entire time The whole entire time. 00:03:14.479 --> 00:03:17.719 I didn't stop crying. It was so sweet and cute. 00:03:18.939 --> 00:03:23.479 Also, I have a notes section here that says thoughts. 00:03:24.539 --> 00:03:27.479 The first thing says, you can't be defined by 00:03:27.479 --> 00:03:30.819 what you haven't done. And then right below that, 00:03:30.900 --> 00:03:34.560 it just says absorb. That's it. Nothing crazy. 00:03:36.280 --> 00:03:52.870 Oh, what is this? Wait, this is crazy. Why did 00:03:52.870 --> 00:03:55.069 I put this down? I wonder if I've read this anywhere. 00:03:55.569 --> 00:03:57.430 In case I haven't, I'm going to read it now. 00:03:57.590 --> 00:04:01.169 Okay. It said, I had a dream. I am not a dream 00:04:01.169 --> 00:04:03.909 journaling girl. I've never journaled my dreams. 00:04:04.090 --> 00:04:06.810 I don't think about journaling my dreams. The 00:04:06.810 --> 00:04:08.590 fact that I wrote this, when did I write this? 00:04:09.250 --> 00:04:13.370 It was back in January. Okay. It says, I had 00:04:13.370 --> 00:04:16.319 a dream. I had a book in my arms. I was very 00:04:16.319 --> 00:04:25.079 excited to live it. Or sorry. Oh, I love that 00:04:25.079 --> 00:04:28.019 I write to myself like this. Or sorry, I meant 00:04:28.019 --> 00:04:32.300 read it. Not but like this sweet small but not, 00:04:32.500 --> 00:04:37.819 but really, wow. What is my typing? Not like 00:04:37.819 --> 00:04:41.910 this sweet small book was going to be. this life 00:04:41.910 --> 00:04:44.069 I lived. I was going to get married, have kids, 00:04:44.189 --> 00:04:46.350 go to church on Sundays, a simple, sweet life. 00:04:46.589 --> 00:04:49.370 But I got called into God's office. He was sitting 00:04:49.370 --> 00:04:52.910 at a huge chair at a huge desk with a huge pile 00:04:52.910 --> 00:04:56.170 of books. And it was daunting how large the pile 00:04:56.170 --> 00:04:58.430 of books was. He asked for my small book back. 00:04:59.230 --> 00:05:02.930 I was heartbroken in my dream. I asked why. He 00:05:02.930 --> 00:05:05.730 said he wanted to exchange it for this huge pile. 00:05:05.930 --> 00:05:09.379 I said no at first. I would. I would be like, 00:05:09.459 --> 00:05:13.759 no, you can't have my book. I wanted the romance 00:05:13.759 --> 00:05:16.079 in my book, the love, the simple life I was going 00:05:16.079 --> 00:05:18.399 to live. Yeah, it sounds boring, but I was okay 00:05:18.399 --> 00:05:21.279 with that. He said no. These books right here, 00:05:21.379 --> 00:05:23.639 each one is a different part of a whole other 00:05:23.639 --> 00:05:26.379 life you will live. One holds adventures. One 00:05:26.379 --> 00:05:28.500 holds your growth. One tells how you'll get to 00:05:28.500 --> 00:05:31.199 know me. One tells how you get to know yourself. 00:05:31.360 --> 00:05:34.360 One tells of funny moments and another sad moments. 00:05:34.579 --> 00:05:37.019 One will tell you of the friends you will make 00:05:37.019 --> 00:05:40.920 and the others will have, and the others will, 00:05:41.040 --> 00:05:45.180 well, you'll have to read. Oh, and the others, 00:05:45.300 --> 00:05:47.060 oh, well, you'll have to read those and find 00:05:47.060 --> 00:05:49.620 out for yourself. All of a sudden, I was so excited 00:05:49.620 --> 00:05:52.600 to exchange my small book in and for this new 00:05:52.600 --> 00:05:56.980 life and new read to experience in my short time 00:05:56.980 --> 00:06:00.980 on this earth. Then I woke up. I learned that's 00:06:00.980 --> 00:06:04.120 what I did. I exchanged one small story that 00:06:04.120 --> 00:06:07.240 I was okay with living for a huge unknown story 00:06:07.240 --> 00:06:12.339 I didn't see coming. Wow. Maybe we should all 00:06:12.339 --> 00:06:14.800 start journaling our dreams more. That's crazy. 00:06:16.399 --> 00:06:19.319 but so real like do you ever think about that 00:06:19.319 --> 00:06:21.100 the life that you thought you were meant to live 00:06:21.100 --> 00:06:23.100 or you're going to live and then you don't live 00:06:23.100 --> 00:06:27.240 it at all but do you have any regrets I don't 00:06:27.240 --> 00:06:30.420 think I do I hope you don't like I genuinely 00:06:30.420 --> 00:06:36.019 don't think I have any regrets okay um before 00:06:36.019 --> 00:06:40.040 I forget something I learned okay because let's 00:06:40.040 --> 00:06:43.240 bring the bible into this really quick I was 00:06:43.240 --> 00:06:47.829 reading in Chronicles first or second. Sue me. 00:06:47.910 --> 00:06:51.350 I don't remember, but it was about King David 00:06:51.350 --> 00:06:55.569 and how he was all like, I need to get a census 00:06:55.569 --> 00:06:59.550 of the people. And his buddy was like, bro, do 00:06:59.550 --> 00:07:01.250 we really need to do that? And he was like, yeah, 00:07:01.269 --> 00:07:03.269 we need to do that. And he was like, oh, but 00:07:03.269 --> 00:07:05.990 like, what about God? Wouldn't he be mad? Like, 00:07:06.009 --> 00:07:07.970 let's just honor God and not do the census. And 00:07:07.970 --> 00:07:09.550 David was like, no, we're going to have, we're 00:07:09.550 --> 00:07:10.930 going to get it. We're going to do the census. 00:07:11.050 --> 00:07:13.350 I want to know how many people. And I was like, 00:07:13.410 --> 00:07:16.620 why would God be mad about that? that's weird. 00:07:16.740 --> 00:07:18.959 Wouldn't God, I mean, God obviously knows the 00:07:18.959 --> 00:07:21.199 numbers, but like David's helped grow this. Like 00:07:21.199 --> 00:07:23.560 wouldn't, shouldn't David know how many people 00:07:23.560 --> 00:07:25.420 are in his kingdom? I feel like that's logical. 00:07:25.800 --> 00:07:29.220 So then I started doing research and I feel like 00:07:29.220 --> 00:07:31.319 this is one of the subjects that like they just 00:07:31.319 --> 00:07:33.699 brush over in church that no one talks about 00:07:33.699 --> 00:07:36.079 and they definitely should talk about, but they 00:07:36.079 --> 00:07:38.180 just either assume that we know what it means 00:07:38.180 --> 00:07:42.100 or we're not going to care. Anyways, so basically 00:07:42.100 --> 00:07:45.459 back then, the only people who would take a census 00:07:45.459 --> 00:07:48.480 of something like to calculate the numbers of 00:07:48.480 --> 00:07:51.060 how much you have of something were the owners. 00:07:51.220 --> 00:07:53.980 So like if you had a farm, you would calculate 00:07:53.980 --> 00:07:56.439 how many cows you had or how many chickens you 00:07:56.439 --> 00:07:58.000 had and like you would get the solid number. 00:07:58.899 --> 00:08:02.180 And so because David called for a census of the 00:08:02.180 --> 00:08:05.740 people of Israel, it was basically claiming those 00:08:05.740 --> 00:08:09.319 people as his and not as God. So like. David 00:08:09.319 --> 00:08:11.819 wasn't just a shepherd. He was like, I'm the 00:08:11.819 --> 00:08:14.459 owner of this house. And God was like, you think 00:08:14.459 --> 00:08:15.800 you're the owner of this house? You ain't the 00:08:15.800 --> 00:08:18.339 owner of this house. And then that's when God 00:08:18.339 --> 00:08:21.959 was like, oh, you can, you know, go through three 00:08:21.959 --> 00:08:24.160 years of famine or three months of being chased 00:08:24.160 --> 00:08:28.959 down and murdered or three days of everyone being 00:08:28.959 --> 00:08:31.100 murdered that I feel like plaguing and murdering, 00:08:31.120 --> 00:08:33.259 I guess. I don't know. That's not exactly how 00:08:33.259 --> 00:08:35.259 it went. Sorry. I read this like a week ago. 00:08:36.179 --> 00:08:40.110 A lot's happened since then. Um, yeah. So anyways, 00:08:40.230 --> 00:08:43.210 I found that fascinating. Just some history and 00:08:43.210 --> 00:08:44.809 context for this story because I always thought 00:08:44.809 --> 00:08:46.490 it was weird that God got mad about that. I was 00:08:46.490 --> 00:08:48.789 like, bro, and why would God get mad about that? 00:08:48.850 --> 00:08:50.549 But honestly, that's fair because if you've worked 00:08:50.549 --> 00:08:52.809 hard on something, if you've done something and 00:08:52.809 --> 00:08:54.870 someone claims it as their own because of their 00:08:54.870 --> 00:08:58.889 pride, uh, I would be pissed. I would be mad 00:08:58.889 --> 00:09:03.429 too. I'd be like, no, that's, those are my people. 00:09:03.490 --> 00:09:06.399 Those are my things. That's my, like, that's 00:09:06.399 --> 00:09:08.759 mine. What are you talking about? So anyways, 00:09:09.059 --> 00:09:10.620 that's what I learned in the Bible recently. 00:09:12.039 --> 00:09:14.480 Also, I was sitting at Serena's church a couple 00:09:14.480 --> 00:09:16.139 weeks ago when I went down for my interview, 00:09:16.299 --> 00:09:19.559 and the pastor was talking about Daniel. Side 00:09:19.559 --> 00:09:22.679 note, Serena and I got in a conversation about 00:09:22.679 --> 00:09:25.559 Daniel, and we were talking about Daniel, and 00:09:25.559 --> 00:09:29.200 the line's no. We were talking about, see, this 00:09:29.200 --> 00:09:33.799 is what it's like to have ADHD. I think. Anyways. 00:09:34.409 --> 00:09:39.090 Um, we were talking about, oh, Bradshack, Meshack, 00:09:39.149 --> 00:09:41.830 and Bendigo in The Fiery Furnace. And I was like, 00:09:41.870 --> 00:09:43.230 oh yeah, because of Daniel, blah, blah, blah, 00:09:43.230 --> 00:09:45.250 blah. And Serena was like, Daniel wasn't there. 00:09:45.429 --> 00:09:47.169 I was like, dude, it's literally in the book 00:09:47.169 --> 00:09:49.009 of Daniel. Like, Daniel was there. And she was 00:09:49.009 --> 00:09:50.570 like, no, I'm telling you, I have the tattoo. 00:09:50.789 --> 00:09:52.429 Daniel wasn't there. And I was like, I'm telling 00:09:52.429 --> 00:09:55.389 you, I just read it last week. I swear, Daniel 00:09:55.389 --> 00:09:58.789 was there. So then she opened it and Daniel wasn't 00:09:58.789 --> 00:10:01.610 there. So I was wrong. So all that to say, it's 00:10:01.610 --> 00:10:04.210 okay to be wrong. We can all be wrong sometimes. 00:10:05.409 --> 00:10:09.769 It's just take the L. Just take the L. It's okay. 00:10:10.309 --> 00:10:14.269 Speaking of the L, so then, ironically, I'm saying 00:10:14.269 --> 00:10:17.169 it straight to Serena at church. In what book 00:10:17.169 --> 00:10:19.789 does her pastor open up? The book of Daniel. 00:10:19.909 --> 00:10:23.389 Thank God he did not preach on the fiery furnace. 00:10:24.070 --> 00:10:26.929 He preached like a couple chapters later, but 00:10:26.929 --> 00:10:29.750 I was elbowing her. I was like, dude, that's 00:10:29.750 --> 00:10:32.870 crazy. So the pastor didn't say this, but it 00:10:32.870 --> 00:10:34.950 did come to my mind while we were sitting there. 00:10:36.190 --> 00:10:39.809 And I want to just talk about briefly the enemy. 00:10:39.870 --> 00:10:43.529 Also, this is two in my notes app because this 00:10:43.529 --> 00:10:47.169 is who I am. And it says the enemy isn't created. 00:10:47.250 --> 00:10:52.500 He was created. Created. So the enemy isn't creative. 00:10:52.559 --> 00:10:56.179 He was created. He's not creative with his plans 00:10:56.179 --> 00:10:58.840 and tactics. He reuses the same blueprint over 00:10:58.840 --> 00:11:02.340 and over and over. God will make and create a 00:11:02.340 --> 00:11:05.980 way for you to persevere and conquer to not be 00:11:05.980 --> 00:11:09.940 defeated. And so anyways, thinking about y 'all, 00:11:09.980 --> 00:11:15.000 my mic just got unplugged and I don't know. I 00:11:15.000 --> 00:11:19.259 thought it died. It is crazy. It was crazy. It 00:11:19.259 --> 00:11:22.460 wasn't crazy. I'm just being dramatic. Okay, 00:11:22.519 --> 00:11:25.320 so thinking about that, the enemy cannot create. 00:11:25.379 --> 00:11:30.379 He has no power to create. He is, honestly, what 00:11:30.379 --> 00:11:36.759 is he doing? Not much in my case. But God has 00:11:36.759 --> 00:11:39.200 the power to create. Amazing, cool. We love that. 00:11:39.919 --> 00:11:42.840 But God also gave us the power to create. We 00:11:42.840 --> 00:11:47.840 get to create art. We have dreams. We have children, 00:11:48.120 --> 00:11:55.480 women. Literally create life. Crazy. And why 00:11:55.480 --> 00:11:57.200 am I talking about this? I don't know except 00:11:57.200 --> 00:11:59.379 for I did go to a church a couple weeks ago. 00:11:59.840 --> 00:12:02.879 And the worship leader between every single song 00:12:02.879 --> 00:12:05.840 kept talking about the enemy. And I was so annoyed. 00:12:06.000 --> 00:12:08.440 I was like, listen, it's been 45 minutes of worship. 00:12:08.679 --> 00:12:10.779 And you talked about the enemy between every 00:12:10.779 --> 00:12:12.759 single break of the songs. Like, I get it. Mention 00:12:12.759 --> 00:12:14.559 it once. You can be like, listen, don't let the 00:12:14.559 --> 00:12:16.259 enemy get you down. If you're going through a 00:12:16.259 --> 00:12:18.080 hard time in life, remember God is bigger. Your 00:12:18.080 --> 00:12:22.470 God is stronger. But no, this man just put so 00:12:22.470 --> 00:12:24.710 much emphasis on the enemy. And I was like, get 00:12:24.710 --> 00:12:27.929 out of here. Not the worship leader loser, but 00:12:27.929 --> 00:12:31.190 get the loser out of here being the enemy. Like, 00:12:31.190 --> 00:12:33.669 who? No. Why are we giving him so much attention? 00:12:33.830 --> 00:12:37.169 Be so for real. So that's my first thought. My 00:12:37.169 --> 00:12:40.009 second thought is I also toured another church 00:12:40.009 --> 00:12:44.490 in Wilmington. And tell me why no men worship 00:12:44.490 --> 00:12:47.519 during worship sessions. Have y 'all noticed 00:12:47.519 --> 00:12:51.679 that? I went to churches where men worshipped, 00:12:51.679 --> 00:12:54.399 but I feel like a lot of churches, at least in 00:12:54.399 --> 00:12:57.539 this area, none of them men worshipped. None 00:12:57.539 --> 00:13:00.000 of them were really singing. None of them put 00:13:00.000 --> 00:13:02.960 their hands up and surrendered to God or the 00:13:02.960 --> 00:13:06.539 Spirit. It really did make me miss my cult church 00:13:06.539 --> 00:13:09.659 for a minute there because the guys there worshipped 00:13:09.659 --> 00:13:13.000 God for the most part, except for the morals 00:13:13.000 --> 00:13:14.500 and everything else that's not aligned with it. 00:13:15.049 --> 00:13:18.629 with the word of God or his character. But like, 00:13:18.629 --> 00:13:21.129 why do men not worship in church? Can someone 00:13:21.129 --> 00:13:23.210 answer that for me? Like, is it an insecurity 00:13:23.210 --> 00:13:26.850 thing? Is it a lack of masculinity thing? What 00:13:26.850 --> 00:13:29.950 is it about not wanting to worship in church? 00:13:31.470 --> 00:13:35.669 That's my first question. That's my only question, 00:13:35.750 --> 00:13:38.169 actually. I have no other questions other than 00:13:38.169 --> 00:13:43.200 that. Yeah. If I had more, I would give it to 00:13:43.200 --> 00:13:46.679 you. But that's all I've got. I actually have 00:13:46.679 --> 00:13:48.840 Bible study tonight. We're going to the beach 00:13:48.840 --> 00:13:52.799 week three of Sunset Swims and Bible study. And 00:13:52.799 --> 00:13:55.539 I have no clue who we're going to study because 00:13:55.539 --> 00:13:57.019 we're going through women of the Bible. So I 00:13:57.019 --> 00:13:58.820 have no clue who we're going to study. Wish me 00:13:58.820 --> 00:14:01.480 luck on trying to decide that. We've done Esther. 00:14:01.860 --> 00:14:08.879 We've done Hannah. We did. Oh, we did Sarah, 00:14:09.039 --> 00:14:13.070 Abraham's wife. queen we love her so i don't 00:14:13.070 --> 00:14:15.370 know there's so many women to choose from and 00:14:15.370 --> 00:14:20.669 i have to decide i'm thinking maybe abigail her 00:14:20.669 --> 00:14:22.649 story's short but i feel like she's cool and 00:14:22.649 --> 00:14:28.450 she's like like kind of boss queen vibes i was 00:14:28.450 --> 00:14:31.450 also thinking mary like the mother of jesus because 00:14:31.450 --> 00:14:33.850 we did do mary magdalene with the study we were 00:14:33.850 --> 00:14:35.789 following but we're not following anymore because 00:14:35.789 --> 00:14:39.500 the lady who was leading it was so boring And 00:14:39.500 --> 00:14:41.419 she's so repetitive. She just kept repeating 00:14:41.419 --> 00:14:44.419 everything she said over and over and over. And 00:14:44.419 --> 00:14:46.620 none of us wanted to deal with that. So, yeah. 00:14:48.059 --> 00:14:52.460 And two, after Bible study last week, I obviously, 00:14:52.620 --> 00:14:55.019 someone posted on their story. They tagged me. 00:14:55.059 --> 00:14:57.799 I reposted because Bible study on the beach at 00:14:57.799 --> 00:15:01.240 sunset, iconic. If you're not doing that, you're 00:15:01.240 --> 00:15:03.919 missing out on life. Sorry. that's just how I 00:15:03.919 --> 00:15:06.720 feel anyways but then this girl I used to be 00:15:06.720 --> 00:15:08.580 friends with her little brother slid up in my 00:15:08.580 --> 00:15:12.720 dms based off of that prompt of the bible study 00:15:12.720 --> 00:15:15.879 thing and it was just weird and uncomfy and 10 00:15:15.879 --> 00:15:18.580 out of 10 cannot recommend that it was just like 00:15:18.580 --> 00:15:21.080 who does that I had to literally send a voice 00:15:21.080 --> 00:15:22.779 note to my sister and I was like you won't believe 00:15:22.779 --> 00:15:27.220 who just slid up in my dms and she was giggling 00:15:27.220 --> 00:15:31.259 and I was cackling. And then that was that because 00:15:31.259 --> 00:15:33.720 I did not let that conversation go on very long 00:15:33.720 --> 00:15:36.539 because literally, why would I? Why would I? 00:15:36.679 --> 00:15:39.039 Oh my gosh, you guys, speaking of my sister, 00:15:39.220 --> 00:15:41.720 I then went to Raleigh on Sunday with my younger 00:15:41.720 --> 00:15:45.379 brother and he turned on Wednesday for us to 00:15:45.379 --> 00:15:47.460 quote unquote watch while I drove. But then he 00:15:47.460 --> 00:15:50.779 fell asleep in the car. So I was basically by 00:15:50.779 --> 00:15:52.460 myself watching Wednesday and I was like, I was 00:15:52.460 --> 00:15:55.240 watching a documentary. earlier on the treadmill 00:15:55.240 --> 00:15:56.919 today. I could have turned that on. I should 00:15:56.919 --> 00:15:58.480 have turned it on and just ignored him sleeping. 00:15:58.960 --> 00:16:01.179 But I finally got to go to Crabtree Valley Mall 00:16:01.179 --> 00:16:03.220 and I went to Lush and I got my favorite soap. 00:16:03.399 --> 00:16:06.679 And then I went to Sephora and got things that 00:16:06.679 --> 00:16:09.899 we just don't have in Wilmington. We just don't. 00:16:09.899 --> 00:16:12.799 And then my sister got home from church and we 00:16:12.799 --> 00:16:16.039 went to, believe it or not, we went to Summer 00:16:16.039 --> 00:16:18.519 Moon. I know. It's like every time I'm in Wake 00:16:18.519 --> 00:16:20.620 Forest, I go to Summer Moon. It's like I'm addicted 00:16:20.620 --> 00:16:24.600 or something. No, I'm 100%. I love Summer Moon. 00:16:24.679 --> 00:16:27.039 I got beans this time. And the kid was like, 00:16:27.080 --> 00:16:28.480 do you want me to ground those for you? And I 00:16:28.480 --> 00:16:31.720 said, no, babies. I have my own. You don't know 00:16:31.720 --> 00:16:34.899 me. But I've got the whole setup. I need to make 00:16:34.899 --> 00:16:37.580 a coffee. That's what I need to do. I'm supposed 00:16:37.580 --> 00:16:40.500 to take my car to the car shop and then meet 00:16:40.500 --> 00:16:44.179 a friend for coffee. And I know I'm like going 00:16:44.179 --> 00:16:47.340 down on how many coffees I have. But I'm thinking 00:16:47.340 --> 00:16:50.620 I should really make a coffee. And yeah, I know 00:16:50.620 --> 00:16:52.759 week two of taking my car to the car shop. But 00:16:52.759 --> 00:16:55.720 y 'all, my AC is back. It's beautiful. It's amazing. 00:16:56.500 --> 00:16:59.659 We're driving back home Sunday night in the dark. 00:16:59.779 --> 00:17:02.000 And my lights are terrible. They're pointing 00:17:02.000 --> 00:17:04.279 at the ground. And not like in a cute, oh, I 00:17:04.279 --> 00:17:06.440 can see the roadway. Like they're pointing directly 00:17:06.440 --> 00:17:08.940 down to the ground. And like I can't see the 00:17:08.940 --> 00:17:11.099 road at all except for like the six inches that 00:17:11.099 --> 00:17:15.359 are in front of my tires. So. Taking the car 00:17:15.359 --> 00:17:17.759 to the car shop to get fixed. Fingers crossed 00:17:17.759 --> 00:17:21.440 that they do it. And that everything is great 00:17:21.440 --> 00:17:23.440 and dandy and perfect for when I move to Florida. 00:17:24.500 --> 00:17:27.759 Because I'm moving to Florida in like three weeks 00:17:27.759 --> 00:17:29.720 and I'm nauseous and I'm going to throw up thinking 00:17:29.720 --> 00:17:33.119 about it. I'm very excited. I'm freaking pumped, 00:17:33.220 --> 00:17:35.779 y 'all. I am. I'm so pumped to start this next 00:17:35.779 --> 00:17:39.420 chapter in my life. But with that, I always get 00:17:39.420 --> 00:17:41.299 really nervous about starting the next chapter 00:17:41.299 --> 00:17:43.680 in my life, especially when the chapter I'm in 00:17:43.680 --> 00:17:47.000 is so cute, comfy, cozy, easy peasy, little and 00:17:47.000 --> 00:17:49.940 squeezy. And why would I do anything else to 00:17:49.940 --> 00:17:54.019 make myself uncomfortable? You know, I wouldn't. 00:17:54.079 --> 00:17:59.440 So anyways, yeah. If anybody has any tips on 00:17:59.440 --> 00:18:01.740 making moves easier on yourself, please let me 00:18:01.740 --> 00:18:04.279 know. I would love to hear them. And I'm just 00:18:04.279 --> 00:18:06.240 really going to miss my family a lot. The truth 00:18:06.240 --> 00:18:08.319 is, it's so much easier than coming home from 00:18:08.319 --> 00:18:12.319 California. A six hour flight versus an hour 00:18:12.319 --> 00:18:15.180 and a half flight, totally different, totally 00:18:15.180 --> 00:18:18.019 different ballgame. This is easy. This will be 00:18:18.019 --> 00:18:22.099 fun. This will be perfect. So no problem. And 00:18:22.099 --> 00:18:24.500 they can drive down to me versus nobody was driving 00:18:24.500 --> 00:18:28.799 across the country to come see me. No one was 00:18:28.799 --> 00:18:33.109 doing that. Like, actually, no one did do that. 00:18:33.170 --> 00:18:35.990 But they will come down to Florida and see me, 00:18:36.089 --> 00:18:38.470 I'm sure. Fingers crossed. My mom already said 00:18:38.470 --> 00:18:40.769 she will. My sister said so, too. So, I mean, 00:18:40.829 --> 00:18:44.930 that's basically on the Bible. That's, it's great. 00:18:45.269 --> 00:18:49.309 Okay. So, yep. That's all that's going on. I've 00:18:49.309 --> 00:18:52.410 been rambling for almost 20 minutes now. So, 00:18:52.509 --> 00:18:55.029 I'm going to set you all free. I hope you enjoyed 00:18:55.029 --> 00:18:59.509 my ramble, the Bible history fact I learned for 00:18:59.509 --> 00:19:02.369 all of us. And the Random Thoughts in My Notes 00:19:02.369 --> 00:19:04.470 app. If you want to hear more from my notes app, 00:19:04.589 --> 00:19:08.029 I have years of random notes I could share with 00:19:08.029 --> 00:19:11.809 y 'all. Years. So just let me know. Okay, bye. 00:19:13.390 --> 00:19:34.450 XOXO, the Living Freed Podcast. Thank you.