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Talk To Me Tuesday · Black Girl Interrupted Podcast

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Speaker 1: Another What's up?
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Speaker 2: What's up? What's up? Day? Y'all? Y'all know what's your girl?
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Your favorite girl friend the Bible? Who will bring y'all
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another episode of Black Girl interrupted. Man, let me tell
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y'all it is, y'all. I'm falking up and everything, y'all.
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I'm these flashes is killing me, y'all, But I just
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want to jump on for a little while tonight, not
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too long. Tonight's conversation was actually supposed to be a
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little different, but I really want to save it to
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tomorrow because the topic I have for tonight really is
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gonna apply for tomorrow. So tonight we are doing talk
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to me Tuesday. Hey, So tonight, I just want y'all,
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how y'all feeling a date? That's what I want to
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talk about. I want to talk about all things beautiful,
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all things positive, all things. I want to know what
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you guys have going on. I want to know how
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was your day to date. But I want to first
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start off by letting y'all know, let me take these off, y'all,
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because I'm so foggy. Everything I'm hot. I want to
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just first start off by saying, thank y'all, Thank y'all,
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Thank y'all. Thank y'all so much for all the love
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and support that you ladies and gentlemen give me each
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and every episode. Today, my husband had his radiation seeding
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done today. I overwhelmed, but I'm also grateful at the
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same time. Procedure went phenomenal. Thank y'all for all the prayers.
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Let me say that first, thank y'all for all the prayers.
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The procedure went wonderful. Blood pressure was a little elevated,
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but that's common, you know, and a person that has
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never dealt with the terminal illness. So he was a
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little anxious. But once I got him home, I got
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him comfortable and now he's up. I don't know what
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he's in there doing. He's he needs to be sitting down,
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being still. So there's my sister, Hey, my jewel, Hey baby.
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I love you, Sis, and thank you. Thank you, Thank
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you Sis for just loving me, thank you for supporting me,
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and thank you for those dope shirts that you made
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for me for the Baddies Brunch. So, anybody that is
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new too, black girls, interrupt that podcast. I always lead
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off with something inspirational, empowering, encouraging, uplifting, because we all
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go through things life. Life's for us a lot of days,
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and sometimes we just don't take the time to just
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stop and just say, hey, you know what I need
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to refeel myself. So I always try to do something
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to encourage y'all. I want y'all to know that I
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love y'all. I want you to know that I appreciate
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everything that y'all have done for me thus far. I'm
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excited to tell y'all about the Baddies Brunch, like I
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can't wait to tell y'all how it all went down.
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I can't wait to tell y'all about the amazing women
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that I connected with and some of the beautiful things
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that are about to come to pass for Black Girl
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interrupt the podcast, So before we get started, here we go.
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Like I said, always something inspirational, something empowering, something uplifting,
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and then we're going to get into tonight's conversation. So
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fld tight. Here we go. Life will knock you between
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the eyes.
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Speaker 3: It will catch you on the blinds that come out
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of nowhere step you can't anticipate. They will knock the
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win out of you. You want to give up. It's
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going to be very challenging. Whenever you decide that you
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want to grow. Whenever you decide that you want to
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go to another level, all hell will break loose.
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Speaker 2: It's hard, it's not easy. It's hard changing your life.
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Speaker 3: And here's what I want to say to you, for
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those of you that have experienced some hardships, don't give
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up on your dream. There moments when you're going to
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doubt yourself.
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Speaker 4: The air.
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Speaker 3: Rough times are going to come, but they have not
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come to stay. They have come to pass.
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Speaker 2: We all go through problem. They don't have to overwhelm
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you though. Problems don't have to take you out.
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Speaker 5: Though problems will have to make your life miserable though
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you is you go back and running your safety there
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or can't do it help and you're gonna be running
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to it for the rest of your life until you
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get to a point.
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Speaker 6: Where you look at life and say you will not
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beat me. It's easy to complain. It's easy to point
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out your circumstances. It's easy to talk about what has
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happened to you. It's easy to talk about your situation,
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what you're going through.
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Speaker 3: But if you do what is easy, your life will
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be hard.
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Speaker 5: But if you do what is hard, your life will
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be easy.
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Speaker 3: See, it's easy to be on the bottom. It doesn't
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take any effort to be a loser, doesn't take any motivation,
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any drive in order to.
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Speaker 1: Stay down there at a low level.
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Speaker 3: But it calls on everything in you, ladies and gentlemen.
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You have to harness your will to say, I'm going
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to challenge myself. Sometimes I have to pull myself out
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of bed and card less things I know I should do.
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I talk to things I shouldn't do I do. I
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found that the biggest enemy you have to deal with
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is yourselves.
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Speaker 5: Your problem is some of you are phenomenally still. But
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it is a phenomenal will that says every time I
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get knocked down, I will get back up and I
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will succeed. I will not surrender. You have something great
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in you. You can do it. Where you are is temporary.
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You will not be there for the rest of your life.
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Hit my last for a second, hit my last for
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a minute, hit my last for an hour, hit my
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last for a week.
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Speaker 2: It might last for a day, it might last for months.
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Speaker 5: But sooner or later, if you do not surrender, if
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you do not give up, if you do not give in,
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it will subside.
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Speaker 3: You've got to say Yes, Yes.
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Speaker 2: To my dreams.
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Speaker 3: Yes to me, I can make it. Yes I can.
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Doesn't matter how many failures I've made, doesn't matter how
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many mistakes I've endured, doesn't matter about my defeat, doesn't
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matter about what I've done.
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Speaker 2: I don't care about the fact I'm in.
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Speaker 3: A hole now, doesn't matter about where I am. Yes, Yes,
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the last chapter to.
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Speaker 2: My life has not been written yet.
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Speaker 3: If you judge me now, you'll judge me prematurely. I
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haven't exposed all my stuff yet. I'm still in the
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process of transforming my life. I'm still in the process
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of becoming.
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Speaker 5: Yes, you are prayers, you are unique, you are special,
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You are talented, and you deserve to have everything you want.
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Speaker 7: And stop listening to the people who.
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Speaker 5: Tell you you don't kill the noise.
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Speaker 7: What do they know?
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Speaker 2: Who are they?
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Speaker 5: And when that thing tells you to quit, you look
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at it in his eye and say, I ain't going nowhere.
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I will break you before you break me. You will
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not defeat me. You will not destroy me. You've been
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through so much hell you gonna quit now? You don't
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quit now. It's the tenth round. You got two more
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to go. When you get to success, It's not about
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still when you get to a certain lower success.
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Speaker 2: It's about standing up.
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Speaker 5: It's about you wanna break lee. You can't take me.
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I'm far too long, I'm far too hard. It's too
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late now. He should have broken me a long time ago.
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Speaker 7: I'm nothing breakable now.
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Speaker 2: Man, man, man, man man. Let me tell y'all. I
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think that's like one of my favorite videos, Like I
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don't know what is going on while I'm so foggy,
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but oh well, I guess maybe I'll just get y'all
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a Chinese ass tonight, because babe, your girl is over
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your blinds as a baby, I can still see the fingers. No,
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but that video. I played that one because I've had
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so many people send me messages from Sunday all the
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way until today telling me Ashley at your time, and
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it is. I am so blessed and so grateful for
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the rule that God is leading me down as of
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right now. So on Sunday, y'all, I went to a
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baddies brunch, foss baddies brunch. I don't know what. I
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don't know where all of this came from, but for
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some reason, I have social anxiety real bad. So I'm
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freaking out. I'm like, you know what I'm gonna go.
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You know, I'm gonna push through, and I'm trying to
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get in and everybody to go. So my homegirl came
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with me. I didn't even think she was gonna show up,
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but she was there before I got there. And then
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the fact that my fibermalga is getting a little worse,
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so I'm having to utilize my walker a little more
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than what I anticipate. So I was a little nervous
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about that. I was like, you know, are people gonna
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look at me? Are they gonna stare? But I said,
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you know what, I'm walking in with my head held
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high anyway, because I know what it is that I'm
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trying to do. I know where it is I'm trying
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to go. So I walked in there, and let me
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tell y'all, I was m I was met with an
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abundance of love and support. I met three of the
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most I'm sorry, four of the most amazing women, two
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of which are therapists, the other one is an esthetician,
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and the fourth lady is a motivational speaker. So we
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had conversations and I said, you know, I would love
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to collab with you guys. So I was speaking with
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a young lady who's the esthetician. I said, do you
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ever like speak to young black girls about self esteem?
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Little chocolate girls? She said, no, I've never done that.
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I said, I want to collabor with you. I said,
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I want to bring you on my show. I said,
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because self esteem is a very big issue amongst black
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girls and black women. And she said, you know what,
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I would love to. So we've already connected. On the
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back end, the two therapists are going to help me
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put my mental health panel together. I'm so excited. Y'all
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kept telling me, Ashley, if you want to go, you
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gotta you gotta fight, you gotta fight through, you gotta
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stay consistent. So here I am. My body is ravaging
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with opinion right now. But guess what I'm here. Yeah.
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I had to lay down and taking that when I
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got off work. I have been up since four o'clock
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this morning. Again, my husband had his re seating procedure
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this morning. We had to be there at five point fifteen,
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so four o'clock I was up and been running ever since.
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But I had to show up for y'all. Y'all deserve
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that I needed. Y'all tonight, I needed to come in
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here and I just needed to just I needed to decompress.
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I needed to let y'all know what a phenomenal job
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I did over the weekend. I didn't freak out, I mingled,
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I networked with people, and I left out of there
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so proud. I cried as I walked all the way
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to my car because I thanked God for opening these
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doors for me, doors that I didn't even think I
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could even walk through. So again, today Is talked to
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me Tuesday. So I'm just talking to y'all. I'm letting
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y'all know the great things that are about to happen
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for all of us, because I tell y'all, when I win,
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we all win. Everyone that has stood with me. When
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I make it to the top, I'm bringing y'all with me.
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Some of y'all will be left behind. But the ones
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that have stuck with me, the ones that have encouraged me,
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the ones that have pushed me to be great. Come on,
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we're about to eat, and we cooking all winter long,
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we cooking. I'm kicking these doors and I'm not taking
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no for an answer. I'm stepping out on faith. You understand,
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because God says, you only need faith the size of
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a mustard seed. So everything I'm speaking on specific in
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what it is that I want my mental health panel,
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We're gonna have that march, So we gotta get to
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work now. Yes, it is going to be for men
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and for women, not just women, but for my fellows too,
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because my fellows deserve a safe space as well. My
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fellows deserve a space where they could come in and
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they could decompress and get the resources that they need
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to heal themselves. I always talk to my ladies, but
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I'm talking to my fellows right now. So once we
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get every once we get all the i's dotted and
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the t's crossed, invitations will go out and I can't
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wait for that. Oh, I can't wait for that. Again.
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To give y'all an update back with my husband. So
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tomorrow he does go for his scans just to ensure
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that the markers are inserted where they're supposed to be,
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and then we will know tomorrow exactly what they he
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will start as radiation treatments. So I'm excited about that
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because his role to recovery started to date. We did
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the seeding. Next is the next step is the radiation,
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and then we go from there, because it's only up
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from here. I've been down for so long, can't nobody
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hold me back now. I'm using my pain now to
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to provide the fuel to my fire. I told y'all,
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no matter how heavy life gets for me, I won't
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give up this time, I promise. So I say all
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of that to say I want to encourage somebody. I
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want someone to know that excuse me that, don't give up.
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Keep going. Step into your destiny, Step into your destiny,
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step into your purpose, stop standing in your way. Let
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your life shine. I know it's a lot of people
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out here that don't want to see you win, but
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I want to see you win. I want to see
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you make it. I want to see whatever it is
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that you have talked about. I want to see it
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coming to fruition. If it's anything that I can do
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to help you get to the next step, let's connect
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because I want us all the win. The table is
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big enough for everybody to eat it. I'm not gatekeeping
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no information. Any information that I find. I want to
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share that with anybody that needs it. Any information, any resources.
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That's what I'm here for. Because some had someone did
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that for me. So allow me to be a blessing
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to you, and then you take that and you go
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be a blessing to somebody else. That's what I want
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us to do. Let's start creating generational wealth. Let's start
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creating things that we own that can't nobody take from us.
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Has us. It's good to see you, baby, I love you,
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I love you, I love you. But yes, everything that
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you have spoken, let's make it happen. Let the world
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see your gift because everyone is born with a gift. Yeah,
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you do have people that say, oh girl, that's a
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dumb idea. Okay, it may be a dumb idea to them,
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but someone else is gonna like it because you may
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not not always be an acquired taste. And that's okay.
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God wanted you to be different, because if He wanted
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us all be the same, we would all look the same,
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we would all walk the same, we would talk the same,
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we would dress the same, we would eat the same everything.
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But just know we're created in His likeness and that's
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all that matters. So don't worry about what you hate
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us say, don't worry about what the nay say us say.
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I'm telling you that you're great, and I want you
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to get up and I want you to go be great.
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I want you to remind yourself how far that you've come.
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You understand. I want you to celebrate the small victories
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and not just the big ones, because the small ones
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will help get you to the big ones. So again,
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whatever it is, I want to know what you're doing.
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How can I support you? You need me to share.
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I don't have a problem with that because God is
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gonna bless me anyway. So we ain't doing no gate
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keeping over here, baby, That's not what we're doing. We
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celebrating everybody's milestones, regardless of where you are. It doesn't
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matter how you start, and I tell you all this
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every time. It doesn't matter how you start. It's how
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you finish. You understand, it's to finish product. And it's
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okay if you got to stop and start over, stop
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and start over, just as long as you don't give up.
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Because that was me, you know, I'm gonna be hones,
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That's what y'all, black girl interrupted. I created that for us,
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but because I wasn't where I felt I should have been,
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I didn't pour into it as much. So here I
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am and I'm back, and I'm ready, and I'm filled
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with love. I'm filled with joy, I'm filled with grace.
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I'm grateful, I'm great. I'm here with mercy because I
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know now that this is what I was destined to do.
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I was destined to come and be the voice for
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the ones that are afraid to talk. Excuse me? Did
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I get jealous? Because I saw people that I had
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given information to her, that I had helped, that once
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they got on they really forgot about me. Yeah, that
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bothered me. But then my sister told me, and she said,
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it just wasn't your time. And I said, what do
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you mean it was at my time? She says, it
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wasn't your time. She said, look at everything that you
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were going through. She said, do you think God will
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gonna bless you and you wouldn't be able to substantiate
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the gift that He gave you. So she said, God
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had to wait until you were right. He had to
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wait until you were ready, not just physically, but mentally
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and emotionally ready, because you know, if God gave us
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everything that we asked for, would we really be able
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to handle that. I'm gonna be honest with you, absolutely not.
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I would have fumbled it and then would have been
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crawling back to God begging and saying, well, God, can
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you help me one again? God would have been like,
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well what happened this time? So God had to give
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me some room to breathe. God had to give me
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some room to grow. And I'm very I am very
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proud of the woman that I'm growing into. I'm very
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proud of the mother that I'm growing into. I'm very
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proud of the friend that I'm growing into. I'm very
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proud of the daughter that I'm growing into. I don't
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regret any decisions that I ever made, because it wouldn't
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shape me to be the woman I am today. I'm
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grateful for the wife that I'm growing into be. I
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thank God for every test that God gives to me.
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I'm grateful for that because you know what, I'm gonna
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smash it every time. Did I get stressed this week?
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Did I get overwhelmed? I did? But you know what,
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I told God? I said, you know what, you got it?
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You got it? And I told God, I say, but
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I'm human. God says, I understand that, but you can't
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ask me to step in and move on your behalf.
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If you still gonna be in a way. So I said, okay, cool,
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you got it. And now I'm not ashamed or embarrassed
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to tell anybody that I'm human first, but my faith
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is strong, and every day I talk to God and
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I tell him God, this is what I want, this
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is what I want to do. I told God, I
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want to continue being a blessing to some because guess what,
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if I'm a blessing to you, then I've done exactly
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what God has granted me to do. And then it's
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gonna go to the next person and the next person,
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and then before you know it, ten people, twenty people,
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thirty people, forty people, one hundred people, a thousand people,
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five thousand people, five hundred thousand people. I'm grateful for
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every obstacle that I endured in the forty plus years
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that I've been on this earth. I'm not ashamed and
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I'm not embarrassed. See a lot of y'all be embarrassed
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to let your skirt your hymn show. I don't mind
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getting neaked for y'all. And I mean, and I don't
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mean that literally, okay, because I only get neggar for
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my husband. But I'm grateful for that. I'm grateful for
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every monkey wrench that God has thrown my weight. I'm
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glad every weapon that form didn't prosper. I'm grateful for
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that because every day I'm tested. Let me tell y'all,
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my husband had to pay almost eleven hundred dollars a
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day for us procedure, right, and I just want to
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I just want to testify to show you how great
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God is. So I was like, man, here we are.
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Now we're dipping into our savings. But we got this bill,
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we got that bill, this medical building came. Your medication
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is fifteen hundred dollars. How are we going to do this?
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So I sat down with God one night I got
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off when I got off work, I sat down with God. Y'all,
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excuse me. I think I'm getting no cold. And I say, God,
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I just need you. And I was specific in what
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I asked for. God say, hold tight, I got you.
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Last Thursday Friday, Thursday, doctor's office call because I say, hey,
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you know, we may need to set up a payment plan.
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Doctors office called and said, oh, all you have to
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pay is three hundred dollars on a day of the procedure.
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We'll figure out the rest on another day, when I
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tell y'all, I threw that I was at work. Baby,
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I threw that headset and I started whooping and hollering
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around him, and I said, thank you God his medication.
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I'm like, man fifteen hundred every thirty days. I said,
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let me, let me, let me google, let me let
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me figure out is there any type of financial assistance
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for the type of medication that he has to take.
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So I went to the website. You know, they said,
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you know you are qualified, you know, to get it
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for at least ten dollars up to ten dollars a month.
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My husband was approved. His medicine is only going to
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cost him ten dollars a month. I'm bragging on God.
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You understand. I'm bragging because I want you all to
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know how good God really is. But you have to
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be specific in what it is that you want. And
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I had to move. I had to move out of
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the way because God says, if you're gonna worry, don't pray.
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But if you're gonna pray, don't worry. And I say,
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but God, that's the human He say, I understand, you're
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human first, that's the flesh. But you got to trust me.
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You can't caught me if you don't trust me. So
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I said, all right, God, you got it. Whatever you
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do you And all this happened the same day my
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husband made it out of his procedure, clean bill of health.
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Only just blood pressure, just slightly elevated. But my husband
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is alive. He's here. I'm here, y'all are here. So
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I came here tonight because you know what, I just
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wanted yop to know how good God really truly is
24:54
and what he can do for you. I'm a witness,
24:58
I could attest to how great he is. I was
25:02
able to be in a space with Vivica, a fox
25:06
who posed with my T shirt. Vivica and that woman
25:14
told me, she say, you keep going, little sis. I
25:21
started screaming, baby the look kid in me. I'm screaming
25:25
on the inside. But I didn't want her to know that.
25:29
So before we left, I wrote her a letter and
25:33
I said, never take your I used that meme I posted,
25:37
never take yourself off the top shelf, make him reach,
25:41
And Vivica told us she said, I love me some me.
25:46
So on the flip side of the letter, I said,
25:48
I love me some me. Whatever she did with the
25:52
letter after I left. I don't know, but I just
25:55
wanted her to know that I appreciated her seeing something
26:00
to me that a lot of times I don't always
26:02
seeing myself. So I'm grateful for being able to rub
26:09
elbows and interact with some phenomenal women that are wanting
26:15
to see me win. I'm grateful for all the messages
26:19
that I received. I'm grateful for the comments. I'm grateful
26:23
for the love and the support that y'all give me
26:26
and understanding. But I'm here, y'all. I'm not going nowhere.
26:32
I'm here with black Girl interrupted. Like I told y'all, baby,
26:36
we going out a twenty twenty five with a baby
26:40
and we kicking in the door in twenty twenty six.
26:42
Because they need to know us. They need to know
26:44
our names, they need to know our faces. We need
26:47
to stop being afraid to take chances because that chance
26:52
or that's I'm sorry, that step you took might be
26:57
the step that you needed to take. Because it's your time.
27:01
It's our time, y'all kept telling me Ashley, it's your time,
27:04
it's your time, it's our time. It's not just my time,
27:07
it's our time. We all need We are all gonna
27:11
win in twenty twenty six, because I want y'all to
27:14
remember everything that you allowed to be taken away from you.
27:18
You need to come back and get it in twenty
27:19
twenty six. Do you understand I allowed a lot to
27:22
be taken from me in twenty twenty five, But I
27:24
be damn excuse my language if I allow it to
27:27
be taken away from me again in twenty twenty six,
27:29
because guess what. Depression don't live here with me no more.
27:32
Anxiety don't live here with me no more. I am blessed, baby,
27:36
I am grateful. I speak to my God every day
27:40
and I tell them God, I don't want this on
27:42
me no more because I know me and I can
27:47
honestly tell y'all I am the most stable in my
27:53
mind that I've been in a long time. And I
27:56
owe that to God. I owe that to y'all loving people,
28:01
encouraging me. I owe it to y'all because y'all loved me.
28:12
Y'all poured into me. Some of y'all poured into me,
28:15
and y'all cups weren't even full. You understand y'all did
28:20
that for me. So now it's time for me to
28:23
return the favor. It's time for me to love on y'all.
28:26
It's time for me to pour into y'all. Is time
28:28
for me to encourage 'all. This time for me to
28:29
uplift y'all, because guess what, I know how to keep
28:33
my cup full. My blessings are starting to overflow. And
28:37
I owe that to y'all. I owe that to God.
28:40
I owe that to myself because guess what, I'm not afraid.
28:43
I'm not scared because what they say, scared money, don't
28:47
make money. But I don't get in and do this
28:51
for money. I do this because guess what, I genuinely
28:55
enjoy getting in front of his camera and loving on y'all.
29:00
Love fellowshipping with y'all. I love this. Let me tell y'all,
29:04
when I get done with my shows, I do my
29:07
praise and worship and I thank God for allowing me
29:10
to still have the voice to do what it is
29:13
that I love doing. I thank God for that. I
29:19
think y'all for not letting me fall. I thank y'all
29:23
for tapping me on the shoulder and telling me get up,
29:27
Get up, Get up. My baby says, says, it's our time.
29:32
You better tell them because everything that we're gonna touch
29:36
in twenty twenty six is gonna be everything that we
29:38
ask for. You understand, that's what's gonna happen for us,
29:42
So no more crying. Get up. We gotta put our
29:45
big girl pants on, and we gotta walk like we
29:48
own it. You understand. There's my girl. I love you, Jen.
29:53
Let me tell you something. I met her by chance
29:56
in a group on Facebook, and whatever reason God has
30:00
kept her connected to me, I don't know what it is,
30:03
but I love her so much. She's been absolutely amazing
30:06
to me. So thank you Jim for just loving me
30:09
because I love your bad girl. But it's our time.
30:16
It's our time. Our lights have been dimmed for too long.
30:19
What what did the Governor of New York say? It's
30:23
time for us to turn the volume up. It's time
30:24
for them to hear us. They gotta hear us. It's
30:28
time for us to make some noise because guess what,
30:30
we've been moving so quietly. We've been like we've been
30:33
scared the talk. But guess what, y'all gonna hear me
30:39
in this little bit. Anybody, I got a big mouth,
30:41
and y'all about the hearing, So be pard to get
30:44
be sick of me. As my sister told me. She said, girl,
30:47
you better tell them be prepared to be sick of you,
30:49
because guess what, y'all gonna get tired of me because
30:52
I'm going hard in the paint. I'm stepping, I'm high stepping.
31:00
So I'm gonna let twenty twenty five play out the
31:02
way it needs to. But guess what, twenty twenty six,
31:06
I'm on the top shelf, and you damn right, you're
31:08
gonna need a ladder to reach me because that's how
31:13
high I'm elevating myself. That's how high I'm gonna elevate you,
31:17
and you and you. I'm here to elevate baby, I'm
31:20
here to pull you all up to the top with
31:22
me because I don't want to eat a loan. It
31:28
gets lonely at the top. It gets lonely up there.
31:36
Regardless of what I have going on. I'm showing up
31:40
for you because I know God is working for me
31:43
on the back end. You understand, So I'm showing up.
31:47
I didn't feel good today. I had to lay down
31:49
the ticket nap, I pushed the show back. I say, God, say,
31:53
I just need you the rest real quick. Just just
31:54
lay down because you're doing too much right now, I say,
31:58
I know, God out no problem here. I am. I'm hyped,
32:06
I'm full of energy, I'm full of love. I mean,
32:08
I'm full of encouragement. I'm on fire. Baby. What they say?
32:12
This girl is on fire and I am. I told y'all,
32:15
I'm cooking all year long. Jen says, you're my sister
32:21
in your mind. You my sister from another mister. Baby,
32:24
it doesn't even matter because you stuck with me. So
32:27
whenever I come to Montgomery, Alabama, tell your husband, uh,
32:31
we're gonna hang out. We're gonna do our girl things.
32:34
But I bring you back sleepy. I probably so I will.
32:37
But absolutely, my sister says, be obedient. Man, Do you
32:43
hear me? I had to sit down. You get what
32:46
I'm saying. I had to sit down. I had to
32:49
be quiet. I came across this song by Fantasia, y'all
32:56
cost it's called necessary bah bah boy, I tell you so.
33:06
Apparently this breakdown was necessary for me to get to
33:10
where it is that I'm trying to go. And I'm
33:13
good with that because see, I allowed the devil to
33:18
break me. But God say, not, my child, you will
33:22
so God put me back together. He made all my
33:25
pieces connect again, you understand. And I thank him for
33:28
that because I told God. I said, Man, God, I'm tired.
33:32
I can't go. I can't do this. He said, yes
33:34
you can. He said, your mind is telling you you
33:39
can't do it, but I'm telling you you can. I say,
33:43
but how God, he said, with me, okay, let me
33:49
mind little, let me be quiet. Then, so I had
33:53
to be quiet. I had to self isolate, I had
33:58
to reset. I had to refocus because I couldn't see
34:04
because my vision was blurry. You understand, my vision was blurned.
34:06
I couldn't see clearly because I'm looking here and there
34:10
and everywhere. But God says, I'm gonna need you to saying,
34:13
I need you to focus because you all in You
34:16
all in other people's lanes, and that ain't why I'm
34:18
asking you to be staying your own lane. Oh but God,
34:22
he's saying, no, but stay in your own lane. Noted.
34:30
So as God continues to walk with me on my journey,
34:34
my days get easier, my days get lighter. The relationship
34:38
that I'm rebuilding with my mother, thank you. The relationship
34:44
that I'm rebuilding with my children, thank you. The relationship
34:49
that I'm rebuilding with my husband, thank you, with my siblings,
34:55
with my friends, thank you. I owe it to him
35:01
because I was horrible, y'all. I was terrible. But guess what.
35:07
I'm here. I'm in a fight. I'm prepared for the war.
35:15
I know what it's like. I bend down. I've been
35:18
in the dark and the dark was killing me. But
35:23
here I am in the light. I'm shining. And guess what.
35:26
My windows of opportunity, guess what, m My windows of
35:34
opportunity have come. It's time for me to be fruitful
35:38
and multiply. And when I say that, it's time for
35:41
me to pass these mustarses onto somebody else. It's time
35:44
for me to encourage somebody else. It's time for me
35:46
to pick somebody up and grab them and bring them
35:48
along the way. Because I'm standing in front of the storm.
35:53
You understand. And God and I say this all the time.
35:56
Sometimes God will bring you to the storm not to
35:58
get wet, but to be a witness. Somebody missed that.
36:05
Let me say that one more time. I'm standing in
36:08
front of the storm. You understand, I'm watching it. But
36:12
God says I didn't bring you here to get you wet.
36:14
I wanted you to be a witness. I wanted you
36:17
to go back, and I wanted you to tell people
36:19
what the storm looks like. I need somebody better, say
36:24
a man, because I've been in the war. I've been
36:28
in the battle. I've been in a fight. I've been battered.
36:31
I've been bruised. But I didn't break. I bent, but
36:37
I didn't break. I didn't break because I.
36:43
Speaker 4: Wasn't built that way. God say, I built you ford tough.
36:55
I built you to be able to withstand any storm
36:58
that comes your way.
37:00
Speaker 2: I prepared you. I gave you the tools. I gave
37:05
you the gear that you needed to win the war.
37:08
But actually you took it off because you thought you
37:11
could defeat it, and you let it defeat you.
37:16
Speaker 5: I did.
37:19
Speaker 2: I let the war beat me. Here I am running
37:24
trying to get back to God. And God says, I
37:26
told you, let me move on. Your behalf, sit down,
37:34
be still. I got you the rest of the way.
37:40
So that's what I'm doing. My sister told me, she
37:42
just said, you've got to be obedient. I hear you.
37:48
I understand what it means to be obedient. Now I
37:54
get it. Two plus two now equals four. Because I
37:59
was trying to get fired. God say two plus two
38:02
don't equal five, it's four. Well, God, what if I
38:05
subtractor or add one and carry the two? He said,
38:07
that's not how it works. Noted, here I am adding
38:16
stuff in that I didn't even need to because God
38:17
had already stepped in on my behalf. He had already
38:21
taken care of that. And here I am stressing. I'm stressed,
38:27
hair falling out, body just all out of whack, not
38:31
knowing God had already moved and set forth on my behalf.
38:35
You understand he had already done it for me. He
38:38
was just wondering when I was going to open a box.
38:43
He said, you tube us are trying to do other stuff,
38:44
and I just gave you your gift. He gave me
38:51
a gift. I said, thank you. He said, you do
38:58
with this what you will, but you be mindful of
39:02
how you handle your gift. Huh. I ain't understand that.
39:08
Let me say that one more time. God says, you
39:10
be mindful of how you handle your gift. HM, got you,
39:20
Jennifer says. She says, I got a spare room for
39:23
someone who will never be considered a spare first tier.
39:26
You better tell him. You better tell him because anytime
39:30
you come to Houston, no hotel for you, my love,
39:35
you gotta bed, home cooked meal with some breakfast. Oh yeah,
39:40
you get infinite five star treatment, my love. My sil says,
39:46
you better speak sissy, She says, But God, amen, because baby,
39:54
let me tell you my baby, Sis says amen. Jen says,
40:01
I wish I was there to hold your hand. You
40:03
are an inspiration. I appreciate that, and I'm grateful. I'm humbled.
40:09
I am, I am says Come on now, stress for nothing.
40:16
I'm telling you here, I am worried trying to figure out, well,
40:22
how am I gonna do this? How is this gonna
40:24
how is it? It's already done, It's already handled. What
40:32
we got coming for Black girl interrupted, y'all are most
40:35
definitely going to be a part of anybody that's here,
40:38
and you want to come to the mental health panel.
40:41
I'm not charging an arm and a leg for it
40:43
because resources are free. Because again, I don't think y'all
40:48
understand I'm not doing this for the money. Is that
40:52
a nice just absolutely? But I do this because I
40:56
want to help somebody. I want to encourage somebody. I
40:58
want to empower somebody. I want someone to know what
41:03
I've gone through. I want someone to know my story.
41:05
And I want you to know that because I was
41:07
a victim and I'm a victor. You understand I'm victorious.
41:13
That's what I want y'all to know. I'm grateful. I'm Ashley.
41:17
You understand. I'm finally walking in my life. I'm finally
41:21
walking in the righteous path that God has set forth
41:24
for me. Because everyone's path is different. But I was
41:29
so focused on what everybody else had going on, and
41:32
I'm like, well why you know, well why I'm not
41:34
where everybody is? You know, you know why am I
41:37
doing this podcast? And I don't have a lot of
41:39
people that come. God says it only takes one. Okay,
41:50
God said He'll pick one out of the hundred and
41:53
leave the ninety nine behind. That. Uh that that God
42:06
said it only takes one, just one. I say, but God,
42:13
they don't come, I say, is And I told God,
42:16
I say, well, maybe I need to switch it up.
42:18
You know, my sister says, they need to listen to you.
42:22
And you know, since let me tell you, I say, well,
42:24
maybe I need to switch it up. Maybe I need
42:26
to get messy on my should. You know, maybe I
42:28
need to have some drama. God say, that's not what
42:32
I want you to do. He says, See, you're trying
42:36
to be like everybody else, but I create you differently.
42:41
But God, but Ashley, all right, God you got okay,
42:46
Jesus Christian Christ, let me go all be quiet, Let
42:48
me just hush my mouth, because God says, I have
42:52
something different for you to do. I have a different
42:55
assignment for you. I say, But God, I say, you
43:01
keep giving me these assignments. And he said, but how
43:04
many of them have you passed? I say, all of them?
43:08
He said exactly. He say, even when you think you didn't,
43:12
you did. He said, why you think I kept you?
43:18
He said, I couldn't let you go? June second. I
43:22
couldn't let you go. I took thirteen pills, y'all June second,
43:27
twenty twenty five, because I was tired of living. I
43:30
was tired of being here. And God, since I kept
43:32
you because you have a purpose. Look at it, find it,
43:39
I say, for God, I can't. He said, yes, you can.
43:44
He said, you, my child, So stop saying what you
43:47
can't do. Stop saying what you can't do, he said,
43:53
because all things through Christ's strengthen you. Right, Okay said,
44:03
all things through Christ strengthen you. Right, you find strength
44:06
in me? Right, I say, I do, God, he says,
44:09
So on those days that got heavy, then I carry you.
44:12
I say, you did God. He said, Then what are
44:15
you complaining about? What are you complaining for? I see you,
44:22
I hear you. You're my child, so I know how
44:25
you feel before you even feel it. He said. Why
44:29
do you think I step in and move on your behalf?
44:37
Because I know, I hear and I see before you do.
44:42
I said, but God, I don't have no friends. He said, yes,
44:44
you do. Look around you, so I'm looking. He said.
44:53
I'm your friend. He said, I'm your friend. I'm your father.
44:56
I'm your brother. I'm your sister. I'm your cousin. I'm
44:58
your uncle. He said. I'm everything you ask him for.
45:02
He said. I'm your doctor. I'm your healer, he said,
45:09
but most importantly, I'm your provider. So I provide wherever
45:13
you lack. You understand, God says, wherever you fall short,
45:17
I fill it in. So stop stressing, because if I
45:26
really wanted you to fall, I would have left you.
45:29
June the second I would have left you to die.
45:38
Did you hear me? God said, if I didn't care,
45:44
I would have left you to die. I say, for God,
45:50
but I wanted to say, but I'm not ready for
45:53
you said.
45:59
Speaker 8: Your journey is not over. Your story is being rewritten.
46:08
He said, I know what you've gone through.
46:10
Speaker 2: He said. I was there. He said, I watched it
46:12
every time. And I kept you for a reason, he said,
46:15
because I wanted you to see what your purpose was.
46:18
I wanted you to keep shining you on light. Because
46:22
somebody is afraid to talk, somebody's afraid to be vulnerable.
46:26
You understand, my husband told me. He say, Babe, you
46:29
know sometimes I think you're a little too vulnerable. I say,
46:34
but bait, I say, but you have to understand. There
46:39
are people that are sitting in a position like me,
46:43
that are one pill away, one drink awake, one bullet away,
46:46
one car ride away from giving up. And if I
46:52
don't show how I made it, because I want you
47:01
to know, it does get better. It takes time, but
47:05
it does get easier. Your little does get lighter. But
47:11
you just got to leave it with him. You gotta
47:15
take your hands out of it. So that's what I did,
47:21
I'm in the I'm just chilling on the sideline while
47:24
he works for me. He said, I just need you
47:27
to rest, be still, chill out, enjoy life here. I am.
47:38
I'm here. I'm enjoying my life. I'm enjoying my children.
47:44
I'm enjoying my husband. I'm enjoying my mother. I'm enjoying
47:48
my sisters, my brothers, my family, my friends. I'm enjoying it.
47:54
I am. I love it. I love it here now.
47:59
I love the stable state of mind that I've made
48:03
it into. You understand I love it. I love that
48:08
I'm in a stable state of mind now. I love it. Tonight,
48:14
I'm gonna do my praise and worship because God brought
48:17
my husband home safer than one piece. I'm grateful for that.
48:24
I'm grateful. Te says, you have me over here with chills.
48:31
I'm only doing what God asked me to do today.
48:34
This was his message. I'm just the best of the past.
48:37
On the word, Jennifer says. Ephesians two ten is my
48:42
life verse. You are God's masterpiece. Why was that my
48:47
verse of the week? Because I'm created in God's likeness.
48:53
You understand He created me in his likeness. He ain't. Nah,
49:02
it's good to see you. And let me tell y'all
49:04
my girl, Now I didn't even know, but I'm glad
49:08
you bounced back. Baby, I'm glad you bounced back. So
49:15
my little sister says Ashley. She says, I ever tells
49:17
someone there bout my daughter. She was in a car wreck.
49:20
She said. God spoke to her and me and told
49:21
us the struggles that we had to go through for
49:23
her to change. But God, she couldn't walk, talk or eat,
49:27
but he brought her back. Baby. Let me tell you something.
49:32
Let me tell y'all something. Y'all have to be mindful
49:40
with the things that you're doing. How you speak over people.
49:42
You understand, because God has a way of humbling you.
49:45
God has a way of taking things away from you.
49:49
You understand. We see this right here. She said. God
49:56
spoke to her and her daughter and told them, y'all
50:02
gotta go through this. A lot of people forget that
50:07
whatever you saw you will reap. So just because God
50:13
didn't get you, God will get whatever's closer to God
50:16
will get to you through your children, through your spouse,
50:20
through your children, through your friends, through your family. God
50:25
don't forget because how dare you mistreat a child of his?
50:34
Some people right now, let me tell you, and I
50:35
know this is going to offend a lot of people.
50:37
Some of y'all are going through what y'all are going
50:39
through right now because you wake up with hate in
50:40
your heart because some of y'all carry a jealous and
50:44
envious spirit. You understand, I can only attest because that's
50:48
why I wasn't winning, because I was jealous of other people.
50:51
I was envious of other people because they had what
50:53
I wanted. Here I am. I'm doing this God. I'm
50:56
trying to live righteousness. You know. I'm trying to live,
50:58
you know, righteously. But you just keep taking away from me.
51:05
God says, well, you think I'm gonna keep blessing you
51:11
and you're doing harm to people. You're bringing harm to people.
51:15
You think I'm gonna bless you and you're harming something
51:18
connected to me. I say, but God, he say, no,
51:22
ain't no, But God, I said what I said. I'm
51:26
not blessing you until you turn it around. Hello. Some
51:35
of y'all mad right now because you can't figure out
51:39
why does this keep happening. Think about some of the
51:42
things that you've done in your life to people. So
51:44
now you're sowing. You're reaping what you sold. You gotta
51:50
fix that. You gotta sit down with yourself and you
51:54
got to reevaluate your life. You have to understand and say,
51:59
I don't want to be the way anymore. God fix me,
52:02
heal me, make me the way you see fit. But
52:07
you gotta be receptive of the change. See, some of
52:11
y'all want to live righteous, but wanna still play in
52:14
the devil's playground. You understand, God is not gonna bless
52:17
you that way, So you have to pick a side.
52:20
You can't straddle the fence. Either you wanna walk with
52:23
God or you want to still signify whatever the devil
52:26
gives you to do. You want to still complete work
52:29
for the devil, but you want God to bless you.
52:32
That's not how it works. That's not what's going to happen.
52:36
You have to ask God to change your heart and
52:38
your mind. You understand, because you can't straddle the fence.
52:41
You can't wear your halo and have horns underneath it. Yes,
52:48
I said it. See that's the problem. Some of y'all
52:53
be wanting people to sugarcoat. No, baby, I'm giving it
52:57
to your straight raw, No chaser snatched the band aid all.
53:01
I know it hurts, but being is temporary. So some
53:08
of y'all are going through what you're going through because
53:10
of things that you've cost, things that you've done. H H.
53:20
I said it. I absolutely did. Some of y'all are
53:25
in your own mess because of what you did. Maybe
53:30
it was how you treated the cashier at the story
53:31
the other day. I don't know. Maybe because you're lied
53:35
to somebody, Maybe because you cheated somewhere. I don't know.
53:41
But sometimes we are the creators of our own storms.
53:46
Y'all didn't hear me. Sometimes y'all are we Let me
53:52
correct myself. Sometimes we are the creators of our own storms.
53:57
Sometimes we create drama. Sometimes we create mess just because
54:03
we want to fit in. I want to be cool.
54:06
I want friends, And that ain't even the real you.
54:13
You up there faking and fraud for people. Some of
54:16
us know the real you outside of this. I said
54:21
what I said. Some of us know the real youth,
54:25
some of some of us know your real true intentions.
54:30
I see people post on Facebook. I'm not calling nobody out,
54:34
but I look at some of these posts. I'm like, girl,
54:36
that ain't even you in real life, girl, You lying boy?
54:40
Stop the cap that ain't even you you, you ain't
54:43
even built like that. But I say, hey, but God
54:48
say a shoot, I say, I know, he said, did
54:51
stop judging? I say so, I just be quiet, Just
55:00
be quiet. I just don't say a word, because God says,
55:06
that's not your battle. God say, see you so busy
55:11
trying to point out everybody else's flaws, But what about yours? Yeah,
55:17
m He checked me on that. He did check. God
55:23
checked me on that. He said, why are you sitting
55:25
up accounting everybody else's flaws? What about yours? He said, Actually,
55:31
how many people have you lied to? How many people
55:33
have you got over on? I said, you know what,
55:34
You're right. Let me go and be quiet, let me
55:36
mind my business. He said, because haven't you what you sold?
55:41
I said, and I did? I said, baby, I say, God,
55:44
you got me good, he said, and I was supposed to.
55:48
He said that I had to correct you. I had
55:50
to correct you. Tease say say that now, she'd say,
55:56
you should have so many more people watching. Let me
55:59
tell you why. I'm gonna tell you why. And this
56:03
is just my honor, this is just my opinion. Why
56:06
I don't fit because I'm not talking about drama because
56:11
I'm not on here with mess. I'm not on here gossipping.
56:16
That's why people, let me tell you, Until people are
56:21
ready to change, they're not gonna like being in my
56:23
space because I'm not here to entertain drama. I'm not
56:27
here to entertain mess. I don't want that around me.
56:30
I don't want the toxicity. I see y'all be like, ooh,
56:33
I want that toxic. I don't want that because I
56:36
was toxic. You understand, No, I don't want that no more.
56:44
I don't care if I sit here and have to
56:45
talk to myself. Somebody's listening. Somebody's listening. Somebody didn't sharing
56:54
my post, somebody didn't win and reposting something I didn't
56:57
say on my podcast because I've seen it. So that's
57:00
how I know people are watching. That's how I know
57:05
they are. And then too, you have to understand this.
57:08
A lot of people won't support you because of who
57:11
you are, because a lot of us are still stuck
57:15
in at crabs in a barrel mentality, you understand, because
57:18
they don't want to see me get ahead, or they
57:20
don't want to see you get ahead. They don't want
57:22
this person to get ahead because guess what, now they
57:26
feel like we're gonna change. But one thing I've learned,
57:30
the higher you elevate, the busier the devil gets. And
57:33
I'm okay with that because guess what, this is gonna
57:39
fall into the hands of where it's supposed to in
57:43
the right time. So I don't even stress about it
57:46
no more because I'm more concerned. She'll say, on up tower,
57:53
own baby, and you have to She says, well, I'm
57:56
watching and I love it. We need more of this.
57:59
I'm back Mondays. I'm on TikTok, I stream live. I
58:03
do my mental Mondays on TikTok on Mondays and then
58:07
Tuesdays and Wednesdays, I'm over here. I got all my
58:10
episodes written out for the rest of the year, so
58:14
I'm here. I'm in it. And the beautiful thing about
58:18
it is that I know somebody is gonna be like,
58:23
you know what, I need to go hear this message today.
58:25
See a lot of people are afraid to change, and
58:27
that's cool. I was afraid. I didn't want to change.
58:31
I wanted to still be the same Ashley. But in
58:34
order for me to elevate, I had to change, not
58:37
just me, but I had to change my mindset. I
58:39
had to change the way I moved. That had to
58:40
change the way I operated. I had to change the
58:42
circles that I ran in. Sometimes the people around you
58:48
will block your lessons. Sometimes. I know it hurts those
58:53
friendship breakups. I know they hurt. But again, God say,
58:57
painters on the temporary we've been may endure for them.
59:00
But joy come up in the morning, you understand, so
59:03
let go. Sometimes you gotta let go of the people
59:06
that are attached to you because they're weighing you down.
59:10
And I didn't want to be weighed down anymore. I
59:14
had a conversation with a really good friend of mine.
59:16
We've known each other over twenty five plus years, and
59:20
we had a conversation Sunday and I told her. She said,
59:23
you know, I'm starting to reevaluate some friendships. I said, oh, honey,
59:27
I've been done that. I talked too and t I'm
59:31
gonna send you my phone number two. I talked to
59:34
the same people week in and week out, and I'm
59:38
okay with that. I'm good with that because the people
59:42
that I'm connected to, they pour into me, they encourage me,
59:47
they love me on the days that I feel like
59:49
I can't even get up and love myself. I praised
59:53
in fellowship with a couple of people that I'm friends
59:57
with on Facebook. Y'all want to be part of the
1:00:02
conversation to fellowship with us, Absolutely, you're more than welcome.
1:00:06
The door is open. I'm never gonna deny anybody that
1:00:11
needs the fellowship. I'm never gonna deny you entry for that,
1:00:16
even if it's just me and you on the phone,
1:00:18
even if that just consists of me sending you affirmations
1:00:21
every day, even if it's just me texting you and saying,
1:00:25
hey girl, I love you. Because I know life lives,
1:00:30
and I know we get busy, but we have to
1:00:35
make time for the ones that make time make time
1:00:37
for us. We have to stop supporting those that don't
1:00:41
support us. We have to stop begging to sit at
1:00:44
tables that we weren't even invited to. Stop trying to
1:00:48
interject in a place that God didn't design for you
1:00:50
to go. You understand, because we be so busy trying
1:00:52
to go on everybody door, and guess what, not everybody's
1:00:55
doors meant for you to walk into. Not every invitation
1:00:58
that sent you was meant for you to open. Sometimes
1:01:00
you gotta put return to send her and send it back.
1:01:03
Stop trying to intertwine with people that are not good
1:01:06
for your energy, and I'm gonna say that again. Stop
1:01:12
trying to intertwine with people that are not good for
1:01:16
your energy. Stop trying to entertain, intertwine with people that
1:01:20
are not good for your mental Stop trying to intertwine
1:01:24
with people that all they do is speak negative every day,
1:01:26
because guess what you're gonna inherit those bad habits. I
1:01:32
said it, I said it. Be mindful with who you
1:01:39
associate yourself with, because guess what, all connections are in
1:01:42
good connections, Sometimes you need to pull the plug. Sometimes
1:01:45
you need to disconnect and go somewhere where you're gonna
1:01:51
be recharged. You understand, not be in a space where
1:01:53
you're gonna be drained and depleted, where you can't even
1:01:57
go for yourself. Some of y'all don't be ready to
1:02:01
hear this message. You understand, sir, And I'm gonna be
1:02:03
And I'm gonna tell you I'm about quality instead of quantity,
1:02:08
because I want to bring your quality content each and
1:02:10
every week. I don't care if a million people sit
1:02:13
in here. If my quality ain't good, then people are
1:02:16
not gonna come back because the quantity don't make a difference.
1:02:20
The quality is what counts. You could sit in a
1:02:23
space with one hundred people and leave with nothing. I'm
1:02:29
gonna let y'all sok on that one for a moment.
1:02:31
I'm gonna let that digest again, and I'm gonna say
1:02:34
it one more time. Some of y'all go to these uh,
1:02:37
these these events or whatever and leave with nothing. But
1:02:42
you didn't give all your energy to it. You didn't
1:02:44
spend all your money and left with nothing. You defeated
1:02:49
the purpose. So yeah, I'm about quality and not quantity
1:02:56
because people are gonna hear my message and guess what
1:02:59
it's gonna It's gonna resonate with somebody, and guess what
1:03:02
they're gonna be like. Girl, I just man, I came
1:03:04
across this podcast. A black girl interrupted, and I ain't
1:03:07
never heard of it, but man, I just so happened
1:03:09
to hop on for about ten minutes, and man, this
1:03:12
lady gave me some nourishment. In ten minutes, I walked
1:03:16
away feeling fat. I didn't leave dreamed, I didn't sat
1:03:21
on some lives. I didn't sat in spaces and I'm
1:03:24
just like y'all got five thousand people in here, baby,
1:03:26
and I ain't learned nothing. So I'm focused on the quality.
1:03:32
I'm focused on the content that I give y'all every
1:03:35
week because I want to make sure that you left,
1:03:39
that you leave this live my podcast fed you. No,
1:03:43
I'm so sorry, let me rewind. I want you to
1:03:47
leave our space fed. I don't want you to leave dreamed.
1:03:51
I don't want you to feel like you didn't learn
1:03:53
anything or you didn't get anything from the information that
1:03:55
I gave you. So I work on this. I pour
1:03:59
my heart in to this because this is what I
1:04:01
want to do permanently. No, I'm not a psychiatrist. I'm
1:04:06
not a therapist. I'm not a psychologist. I'll only tell
1:04:09
y'all from my experience. You understand, because guess what, there's
1:04:13
somebody out there that's going through the same thing I'm
1:04:14
going through right now, but they can't talk because they're
1:04:17
afraid to talk. Because guess what, a listening ear becomes
1:04:20
a running mouth. How about that? How about that a
1:04:29
listening ear sometimes becomes a running mouth. Sometimes people can't
1:04:33
wait to see you fall. They get on the phone
1:04:36
and be like, girl, yeah, girl, let me tell you
1:04:38
about tea. Girl. Yeah, you know her lights is off it. Girl,
1:04:41
she got that man laying up over there. That's what
1:04:44
they be saying. And we be right up in the things.
1:04:47
Speaker 1: Heyd girl, Oh he's this as.
1:04:53
Speaker 2: You better be mindful with who you call cysts and
1:04:56
who you call friends, because what they say wolf in
1:05:00
Sheep's clothing, The Devil was once the angel was once
1:05:05
an angel. T says, we need more positive things in
1:05:12
the world. And that's what and you know what, that's
1:05:16
what I want to do is spread the positivity. I
1:05:18
want to I want to open up the doors to
1:05:21
have positive, cohesive conversations. I want to open the door
1:05:26
to let people know we can have meaningful conversations and
1:05:29
we ain't got to get out to be cussing one
1:05:32
another out, because that's what people like. The Devil loves drama,
1:05:37
and those with those evil envy of spirits, they gravitate
1:05:40
towards the drama because they want to go where it's popular.
1:05:43
I don't care to be popular, because guess what, I'm
1:05:46
somebody in real life. See a lot of people get
1:05:49
on this platform, on these platforms, and I look at that.
1:05:52
I listen to a lot of these podcasts. Some of
1:05:55
them I like, some of them. I'm just like, you
1:05:57
know what, your might needs to be cut off? What
1:05:59
kindred I want to say, turn the TV off? Some
1:06:01
of y'all need y'all TV's cut completely. I'm talking about
1:06:04
cut the cord. Excuse me, cut the cord, and we
1:06:07
don't even hear anything else from y'all. Yes, I'm on
1:06:13
TikTok under black Girl interrupted. Yeah, I'm on TikTok. But
1:06:20
everybody wants to go where it's popular. I don't care
1:06:22
to be popular, because I'm popular in my own right.
1:06:27
I'm celebrated in real life. My children celebrate me. My husband,
1:06:32
oh god, when I take that man hikes me up,
1:06:35
hype me up, a hide me up, he does. My
1:06:39
children hype me up. My children celebrate my sisters, my brothers,
1:06:48
my real friends. They hype me up, and they tell me, Ashley,
1:06:52
it's time. My sister Jule just told me the other day.
1:06:58
She said, if you want to build your followers back up,
1:07:00
you gotta stay consistent. And so in that moment, I
1:07:03
had to be rawing true with my sister, and I said,
1:07:05
you know what, sister, let me be honest with you.
1:07:07
Let me tell you why. She said it wasn't your time.
1:07:14
She said, you jealous of what of a facade? Basically
1:07:17
is what she told me. She's like, here, you jealous
1:07:18
of who? She said, Girl, if you only knew everything
1:07:24
ain't what it appears to be. You understand. You see
1:07:28
these people on Facebook be posting and they didn't even
1:07:35
got no more. They floss them what they knew at
1:07:37
the time and all that, but they rent. It's passed through.
1:07:43
They baby standing wearing hand me down clothes while they
1:07:46
hair and nails and all that done. So she says,
1:07:52
believe half of what you see and more of what
1:07:54
you hear. I hope I said that, right. I hope
1:07:57
I said that right. Sis. I hope I said that right.
1:08:00
But yeah, so I'm okay with being the uncool kid.
1:08:06
I'm cool because I'd rather be blessed than favored than
1:08:12
to be popular. Cloud is a hell of a drug. Baby.
1:08:20
I love what I do. I want to continue to
1:08:24
have meaningful, cohesive conversations. That's what I want to do.
1:08:29
I want to make it safe. I want to continue
1:08:31
to make this space safe when we're able to talk
1:08:34
and people are able to unpack, and people leave with something.
1:08:41
That's what I want. I want yall to leave with something.
1:08:47
I don't never want y'all to be afraid to ask
1:08:50
a question. I don't never want y'all to be afraid
1:08:54
to say, ash I'm struggling, what can I do? Don't
1:08:59
never be afraid, because guess what? Who am I to judge?
1:09:04
Who am I? Who am I to judge? I can't
1:09:09
judge nobody. That's not for me to do because you
1:09:13
don't have to answer to me or pass by me
1:09:15
on your way out of here. You got to talk
1:09:17
to God. You got to make it right with him,
1:09:21
not me, because I don't have the room to judge
1:09:24
nobody because my hands have been dirty a lot of times.
1:09:31
I've done low down stuff to people, a lot of times,
1:09:34
my children included. I'm not embarrassed to say that. I'm
1:09:42
not embarrassed for y'all to know the real me. I'm
1:09:48
not ashamed some of y'all are. Y'all are embarrassed of
1:09:52
the things that you've done or your flaws. I'm not
1:09:54
embarrassed because my flaws have built me into the woman
1:09:59
I've grown into today, the accountable woman the one that
1:10:05
can say, you know what, You're right. I made a mistake,
1:10:07
I messed up. I hurt you. I apologize. See the
1:10:13
old me, I wouldn't care if I hurt your feelings.
1:10:16
Oh okay, your feelings hurt and deal with it. But
1:10:21
the new mean I apologize. I hurt you, I apologize.
1:10:29
I'm sorry. I'm not ashamed to say that I wronged you.
1:10:36
I apologize. All I can answer is for you to forgive.
1:10:40
If you don't forgive, I understand and I respect it.
1:10:45
But right now I'm in a season of forgiveness. I
1:10:52
forgive everyone that has done me wrong, family included. Don't
1:11:00
never get in misconstrued because just because I forgive you
1:11:04
doesn't mean you get re entry into my life. I
1:11:07
forgive you because I have to release the I have
1:11:09
to relinkish the power that you've had that you held
1:11:11
over me. You know, I tell people all the time,
1:11:19
just because you're delayed doesn't mean that's a denial. If
1:11:23
it just wasn't your time, but everyone's time is coming.
1:11:30
Just sit tight and be still. Like my girl Sis says,
1:11:34
you be obedient, take your hands out of sit back
1:11:38
and chill. May God carry you the rest of the
1:11:42
way he knows he sees it. Just let him hold
1:11:50
you on those dark days, on those jewelry days, on
1:11:53
those dimn days, think about what you're grateful for. And
1:11:59
I say this all the somebody didn't wake up today.
1:12:05
Somebody's not gonna wake up tomorrow. You may have had
1:12:09
your last conversation with somebody today, who knows. But I
1:12:14
know when my time comes, I want to be able
1:12:17
to tell God thank you. That's how I want it
1:12:25
to be. But I want to leave y'all with this.
1:12:32
We're no longer doing one sided friendships. We're no longer
1:12:35
doing one sided relationships. We're no longer accepting the bare
1:12:38
minimum from people. We're no longer dealing with half assed people. Okay,
1:12:45
And when I say half assed people, I'm talking about
1:12:47
the ones that will show up for the ones that
1:12:50
don't like them but won't show up for you. But
1:12:53
you will attend everything that they invite you to. And
1:12:56
they got nine an immuni excuses as to why they can't.
1:13:00
I'm show it for you. So I say all of
1:13:04
that to say, take care of yourself. Put you first.
1:13:12
Start saying no boundaries are okay, It's okay to self
1:13:17
isolate to reset because your real true friends will understand,
1:13:23
but they'll still check on you, and they'll show up
1:13:26
when you need them, even when you don't ask. And
1:13:31
I'm grateful for the beautiful people that God has placed
1:13:34
in my circle. So on that note, I'm gonna bring
1:13:39
Black Girl interrupt that podcast to an end. Well, a
1:13:41
close for tonight, I'm so sorry, A close for tonight,
1:13:46
so tomorrow night. That was my final thought. Yo, So
1:13:50
tomorrow night is Men's It's International Men's Day. My daughter
1:13:58
has an awards arismony tomorrow at six o'clock, so I'm
1:14:02
hoping to start about seven forty five, eight o'clock. I
1:14:06
want my women to show up, but I want my
1:14:09
fellas to show up because this is all about the fellas.
1:14:12
This is all about men that are domestic abusive virus.
1:14:15
These are all about men that suffer with mental health.
1:14:17
These are men that are going through health issues. It's
1:14:20
International Men's Day. So I love y'all. I want you
1:14:26
all to pray before you late. And I hope that
1:14:29
tonight's episode you left with something. I hope you left
1:14:32
with a different frame of mind. I hope you left
1:14:37
with you know what if this girl can do it.
1:14:39
I can do it too. I'm leaving y'all with that,
1:14:44
but I love y'all. I hope every person that tuned
1:14:49
in and joined me. I hope you have a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
1:14:54
beautiful night. I hope you have a fantastic d and
1:15:02
I will see y'all tomorrow. I love y'all, God bless you,
1:15:08
and just know we're all gonna get to the finish line.
1:15:12
We all just got the finish strong. Ah, love you,
1:15:17
See you tomorrow night. Hello,