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Episode #206: Reflecting on Your Healing Journey · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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I welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev. Good day, Hello,
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Hello. We had to just take a moment before recording to just kind of
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bring ourselves present, take a breath. We have very fulfilling schedules. Sometimes
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things pop up that's kind of out of our control, and we navigate life
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as we will and as we can and the best that we can in the
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moment, and sometimes that brings up feeling frazzled and our world rocked. It
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just depends on the intensity of what's happening. I know I have a fulfilling
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schedule. I choose to use the word fulfilling instead of saying I'm busy because
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I just to me that has a heavier energy to it. So I have
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a very fulfilling schedule. Bev and I have kind of had to cut back
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to about thirty to forty five minutes for our videos because we have so much
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going on, but we still want to show up for each other and for
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our audience. So we just had to take breath and then we hit record,
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and now we're going to show up in our best way that we can
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for you in this recording, and here we are. So what you got
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to say about that man or anything else that you don't even have to talk
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about that anything else. We have my house husband, my boyfriend, whatever
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you want to call him. He's very important to me. But we have
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family in town, which is his sister, and it's stricken awesome. It's
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his sister, her daughter, and then her daughter. So there's a different
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dynamics that I've been able to witness and it's refreshing, it's awesome. So
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it's like it's there's such an opportunity every time, and even if we sometimes
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sit back and say, oh, that's not so awesome, there's still an
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opportunity to be gained from everything that we're experiencing. It's not it's like we've
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talked about, it's not happening to us, it's happening for us, right
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So, and I've had had these experiences and I love the littles anyways,
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we just I just always get along good with the kids because I'm a kid
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at heart. Which was funny because we were outside, I had been playing.
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I just had met a little one, she's three, and we're outside
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playing and I went and you know, let her do her own thing,
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and I went to go do my own thing and she's like, hey,
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mom, where's that little girl at? And so she was talking about me
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because she was referring to me. So it's interesting to find out, you
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know, a perspective from a child's. Yeah, you know, they're perceiving
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things, how they're receiving the energies. So it's awesome. So I know,
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in that very moment, I was a little girl nice even though it's
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like this big person too, right, because she's so so physically. The
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perspective from a little person looking up to an adult or seeing an adult like
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we look like giants, yea. For her to recognize, you know,
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to acknowledge or recognizing you that little girl, that's amazing. And I've not
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ever heard of that either from a child. I that was the first time,
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and I thought, well that was And you're right, but it's like,
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as long as we're down at their level, it's different, it's not
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the same. And then because they get to perceive things differently, because if
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you think about it, when you're you're smaller, you're a child, it's
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like everybody above you is almost intimidating a bit or can be, and she's
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not that way. And then she tells me all the time, Miss Beeth,
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I love you, ah right, it's just's just the sweet. It's
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just it's just nice to be around these type of energies. And it's something,
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it's it's different, it's new, it's fresh, right because you're the
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same circle you're usually around every day or every week. And then to have
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somebody is this the first time you've met them? Yes? Yeah, So
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to have that fresh energy coming in with no expectation I would imagine in I
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mean no, no, because I had no idea and I love free them,
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so I figured i'd love them too. So yeah, and just having
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this opportunity to interact and you're showing up in your in your best possible form
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in that moment too, and and that looks different. We talked about this
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last week and we don't have to go on that tangent, but the way
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you show up in your best possible form now with this little and the family
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members is way different than years past or even a year ago or ten years
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ago. Right, So, and then just being able to acknowledge that in
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yourself of how this this little is feeling your energy and your playfulness and your
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kindness and your your presence, you know, being at her level, being
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able to look at her eye to eye and being engaged. So I think
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that's just amazing. I think that's awesome. It really is, and it
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helped me see a lot of things because for me, my whole life,
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I've always been like defensive, guarded, have to have my own back,
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you know, being all that protected and all that all that energy that my
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response is, even to my mom, if they would have asked me to
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do something would have been negative. It was always negative. I don't think
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I ever did anything positive really honestly when I look at a lot of those
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behaviors. But it's like, I don't beat myself up for it because I'm
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recognizing I learned that from somewhere and I and you don't know that something doesn't
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have to be in your experience anymore until you experience something else. Yeah,
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So that's why we don't we don't want to lock ourselves in our house and
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not have experiences because those experiences, well, however we perceive them, whether
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they're good or bad, there there's something to them. There's something that we
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help to we grow from. So I've gotten to watch a mom, a
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daughter, and a daughter, like how all of them react with each other
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and how they all have conversations with each other and it's different. So it's
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like when mom asked her daughter to do something, it's just a matter of
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fact, or it's just the conversation is so different. The energy is different.
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So it's I'll go back to the energy. You know, we tell
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our kids or we talk to people, doesn't have to be our children,
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but we talk to them about all these other things, but we're not really
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We've got a feeling that's underlying all that, and it's like half the time
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we don't even pay attention to what that feeling is or those feelings are.
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And so to me, this has helped me kind of take a look at
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some of those things and how does that How do I take a template that
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I'm experiencing now and laid over or overlaid over my current experiences. It's it's
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gave me a different asking. So when I'm seeing the behavior, I'm like,
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God, I want to feel this all the time. And when I
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see the animated excitement from the little all the way up from little to mom
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all the way up right, It's like that's always been there. So it's
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like for me, I was always like quashing those feelings or not allowing myself
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to feel those feelings, and certainly never allowing those feelings to be seen by
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anybody else, because then they had something they could take away from me,
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or push my buttons, or you know, do something to pick on me
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or whatever. Because and I was picked on a lot, not by people
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in school as much as maybe you know, my stepdad thinking he was being
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playful, but for me, from my perspective, right, I thought it
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just was picking all the time, picking. So it's just it's it's made
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me see things a lot differently. But also remember we have to honor ourselves.
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And it's like we talk about this all the time because I don't always
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hear it, so I have to talk about it again, so maybe I'll
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hear it the next time. And I have not been honoring myself. So
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by the time last night rolled around, I was tired and I had,
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you know, was getting stuff done. And it's like then my spine started
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like by low back way like low backs started bothering me. And next thing
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you know, it seemed like I was it seemed like my spine was inflamed.
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And what was that. It's like I stopped for a minute to start
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paying attention to because it trap, it was the whole thing. It went
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from one area up to another area. And then I just laid there relaxed
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and kind of laid into the space and was like, okay, what's going
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on here? And it's I feel better this morning. So nice. It's
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just interesting. You just get you know, you just have to honorself.
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It's just taking that time and our body gets the signs and the symptoms get
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a little bit louder and louder and louder until we listen. And that's and
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I totally agree with you as far as that because having, like I mentioned
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earlier, fulfilling schedule, it's I've been on the go a lot and remembering,
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okay, stop and breathe, or set an alarm on my phone,
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get up and move your body, like get up and walk away from your
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desk, or get up and go outside and get a breath of fresh air,
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or you know, when your body's like, hey, you got a
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pee. And then I sit there and sit there and sit there and sit
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and I'm like, oh, I got go beat right, It's like,
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don't wait till that. So one of my one of my things is especially
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I've seen it at work, like the walk to the bathroom. I can't
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wait till the last minute. Let's put us put it that way. It's
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it's quite the walk. And but when I'm sitting there and I'm in that
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creative flow and I'm just things are rolling and I'm doing my work and it's
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like, oh, I'll just get this one more thing done, and then
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something else comes up or you get interrupted, and then you're having a conversation
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or things. So it's it's being more mindful of that, and and also
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just making sure that I do have some I don't really want to call it
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downtime, but sometime where I can just basically just just kind of sit and
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not think about all the things and and just I it's not really me time,
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but like my husband's sitting there and we're just chilling. So just some
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I guess, just some downtime. It's really important for me to have.
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And that doesn't mean that I need to be meditating or journaling, like seriously
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like not doing anything, but sitting there. It's true, I understand that
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conversation because it's that's important. Yeah, because I've had about like a lot
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of stuff coming up and and I mean, I just want to hit on
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back in the day when I did not feel supported whatsoever, only because that
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was my perspective and I wasn't allowing myself to be supported. I had back
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discomfort for a long long time until I recognized that there was two things going
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on. I wasn't feeling emotionally supported and then also I wasn't feeling financially supported.
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And again it was just because of my perspective and the way I was
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viewing the world and all the things. And so when my backs are to
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bother me, bohy do I stop and think? Where am I not feeling
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supported? And how am I going to change this right now? And it's
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like real quick because that is such an uncomfortable sensation and I don't want to
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I don't want to be sitting in that mess, you know, for myself.
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So just having that acknowledgment right away, because I absolutely know that to
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be true for myself that when my back is is is uncomfortable. I know
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it's because I'm viewing my world as not being supported in some way. And
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and that's not as it's the furthest from the truth. That's just my story
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that I you know, conjure up in my head and recognizing how am I
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being supported? And then I start thinking about all the ways that I'm supported,
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and it's almost an immediate release, and it's it's amazing how how powerful
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we are with our thoughts and our emotions that affect us physically. Well,
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that's just another sign of our masterful manifestational skills. No kidding, it's true,
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but it really is. It really is, and that's it really is.
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It's it's that powerful. That's really what it's letting us know. Right,
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Yeah, because as far as being supported, I couldn't think of anything.
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I mean, God, I feel so I am very supported. But
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I guess that would be more of a mindset anyways, because I'm try was
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when you were saying that, because I understand that conversation. I've understood that
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to be part of mine. It's like, then, I'm sitting here when
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you're saying that, thinking how do I feel like I'm not being supported?
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And I don't really I can't find any good reasons. So it's probably it
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probably has a lot to do with how I'm supporting myself, honestly. Yeah,
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yeah, yeah, it's not because before because I'll tell you breakfast is
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may sheets are claning, like everything's taken care of. Everything's always taken care
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of. So I'm very lucky as far as all that goes. Really think
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you bet just come back to what you were saying earlier, not taking the
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time yourself and exactly supporting that. Yeah. Yeah, and I do that
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too. I sort of throw that out there. I'm not I'm not innocent
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of that. I'm I have those experiences too. It has some it has
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some stuff on it. You know, it's a fastball sometimes, right.
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I don't know that's what makes me think of baseball, but it is.
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It's like a fastball is kind of coming at you fast and you just are
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prepared to you just grab it all of a sudden. Yeah. So yeah,
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And so you know, some people thrive on the the busyness and the
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time constraints and the deadlines and all the things. Some people thrive on that.
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Some people thrive on being challenged. And I you got to recognize where
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where do you lie? And I know if I am like on the go
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constant and and just go, go, go go, I will have a
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tendency to just drop like just be done. And then when I start feeling
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that way, I will start feeling some resentment and like these negative what we're
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called negative emotions start coming in and I'm like, whoa, whoa, whoa,
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whoa, whoa? What time out? First of all, first of
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all, you said yes to this, So take responsibility for your own involvement
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in saying yes, you will do this right. So this is a conversation
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with myself. And then second of all, you didn't say no, You
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didn't create a boundary for yourself. You jumped in and said I'll do it
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right for whatever reason that was. So I start, you know, going
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down the list where am I going to take responsibility for all of this that
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is happening. And then also the other thing is my energy. So once
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you start going down that lane of oh my god, I have so much
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to do, Oh my god, there's so much to do, oh my
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gosh, and you just stay in that energy that you're too busy, you
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have too much to do, there's too many commitments, there's all these things.
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Well, now that's an energy you know that I would be putting out.
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And so what's going to happen? More stuff is going to be happening
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where people are like, hey, me, and can you do this?
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Hey me, I need this? Oh can you do right? And so
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it's just more and more starts coming because of the energetic match to that.
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And so I've been sharing this for a while that the statement when I start
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feeling like I have quote unquote too much to do or things are getting kind
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of out of hand, like so much going on, oh okay, bring
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it back in. I have all the time, space and energy I need
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to complete the tasks that need my attention today or in this moment or right
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just to remember, I create the space that I need to get my things
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done. And here's here's something I experienced just yesterday at work. Was there's
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this like little project. It's not a huge project. It's actually a small
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project, but it takes quite a bit of time. And I wanted to
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get that done so that we had it for a Friday evening event that we
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had. And it was like two o'clock and I told my boss, I
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said, listen, I am hoping to get this done for tonight. I
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don't know if I'm gonna be able to get it done, but I'm diligently
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working on it. And she just looked at me and she said, if
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you get it done, great. If you don't get it done, it's
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okay. And I knew that she would feel that way, but it was
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a relief that she said it. But I was all being honest, like,
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I'm working on it, well, I don't know if I'm gonna get
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done now back in the day, So you know, I mentioned this quite
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frequently that I compare myself to me. So back in the day, I
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would have been a basket case about not getting it done because of people pleasing
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and perfectionism, and I it would have it would have I would have been
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a mess. I probably would have been almost to tears. If I was
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in that space of thinking I'm not going to get this done, I would
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have probably just I would have been first angry and then cried no joke.
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And then now being in a space where somebody says, if you don't get
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done, it's okay, I was just like and then even still being able
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to walk away from it when someone tells you it's okay to walk away from
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it, do you know what I mean? Yeah, Because it's a different
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space too, because I had everything you've said by I've been there, done
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that right, done the same exact things, same exact emotions, trying trying
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to push ourselves beyond we're human. You know, we can't, We're not
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human, but we're we're having a human experience right now. And then we're
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still having our expectations of our you know, the bigger portion of us to
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be running the show in a lot of ways, and we've been limited.
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Now we have to use these bodies. Yeah I say limited, but that
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we have to use these bodies. But on the other side that I've heard
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conversations like I think Susan Geeseman's talked about talking to spirit and spirit missus the
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actual being in the body, being able to sense and touch things and feel
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things the way they did while they were in the physical body while they were
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here. So that's just a different perspective on things. But because it's you
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know, we can say, oh, we're being punished to be here,
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and spite that and this, we're I don't believe that we are, even
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amongst the stuff that I've experienced that hasn't always been that great, But I
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don't think it was a punishment. And I even hear other people thinking that
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they're still being tech like they I don't know if I want to refer to
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it as being tested because I don't really think the universe tests. I think
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that there's experiences that come up, and then maybe they're coming up because we
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haven't completely grown from them yet. That's the only reason they're showing up.
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We haven't become completely neutral to it to allow it to fall away. Yeah.
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I call it because I used to say that, oh, universe is
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testing me, see how well I'm doing? Now I call it just give
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me an opportunity to check in with myself. Yeah. Oh gag, my
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gages are growing crazy right now. I can see what's going on here.
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Yeah, so those those check ins show up with the physical sensations of discomfort.
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Oh how am I viewing my world right now? The check in is
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what am I attracting? If I'm attracting a lot of negative people, what's
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going on within me? If I'm attracting negative type conversations? What am I
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thinking about? H am I attracting? You know, like things are breaking
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down and I'm having to fork out money after money after my am I am
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I in a lack of mentality that I don't have enough? Right? So
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it's it's always an opportunity for me to check in with me mentally, emotionally,
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physically, and spiritually of where I'm at with my thoughts, words,
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and emotions and my spiritual connection, so complete check in with myself. Yeah,
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which is it? That We've talked about this stuff a lot though,
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And it's like when we start having the experiences like this whole mercury and retrograde
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started I think April first. It's just like I've had on right now,
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like I've been on a roller is wud you just say? There's so much
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going on right now with it? Really is it's like a roller coaster ride
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in a lot of ways. It's like there it's like they're super highs and
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then there's like uh, and then there's super highs and there's like uh.
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And so when I get into those moments, I'm really Lately, I had
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a couple of a just recently and we always get along great, but it's
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like there was an abrasiveness between our two energies and not more than one person.
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And I know it's I know it's not just them, it's partially me,
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and I know that we're coming together for a reason. But before I
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would have said something or been sharp about things and it's like I just quieted
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down and didn't say anything outside of myself because I also have been having readings
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done and seeing these and when I say I'm having readings done, I'm just
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doing random If I'm drawn to a tourist reading because I'm a Torrian, but
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I'm not really a Toryan. It's just something that it gives me navigational skills
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right now. Really, But this person I listen to does talk about a
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lot of the astrological stuff that's going on and how it's affecting as and to
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remember on these days. And I didn't look up the specific days, I
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didn't write them down, but I'm it gave me an awareness that these days
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are coming up, these moments are happening, so for me not to get
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wrapped up in it, not to have a reaction to it, which is
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not always so easy. If I catch it early, it's great because but
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it's also recognizing I don't want to have a reaction with people around me.
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I don't want to because I love the people that are around me. I
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love them, so why would I want to have a reaction. So it
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just makes me go with inside and I start checking in with myself, Oh
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why am I feeling this way right Well? Isn't that interesting that you're feeling
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that way right now? Is this you? Now? You just felt the
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same way with the last person that was in here. So I like having
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a dialogue and a conversation that I'm kind of like the same thing. I'm
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looking at my navigational I'm looking at my tool. It's almost as if we
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could wake up in the morning and then recognize, oh, just getting into
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my suit, Okay, stretch a little bit. Okay, there's a little
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bit of stuff that going on in the back, you know, in the
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spinal region, you know, just checking in with self and then knowing that
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it's like, we don't have to stay in that space. It's just a
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matter of being having an awareness of it and then moving through it and then
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asking what it's about or what messages that's bringing. And I know all that
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sounds kind of crazy to a lot of people, because for me, for
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the longest time, it did. And it's like I would hear even during
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the spiritual process, I'm hearing all this stuff and it's like whatever, you
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know, some days it was easier to understand that. Some days are like
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this is a bunch of bullshit. But it's not for me now because I
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recognize that. But it's recognizing how I can shift my mood so easily,
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And it's just being an awareness of that. And if we can be aware
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that, like our suit that we're in right now, if we just like
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if we just could view it like stepping into the cockpit of a ship or
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an airplane, jet, whatever you want to be in right now, and
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then recognizing, Okay, got to look at all these things, like really
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checking in with your equipment before you decide to get up out of bed and
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go do the day. But you can still set yourself up right that's where
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the setting your intentions the night before. But I mean I could do all
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this stuff. I could imagine that, Okay, I'm checking my ship.
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Okay, everything's turned down, I'm turning, the lights are off, bodies
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quieted down. Okay, we're gonna go ahead and step out of this and
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go do our own thing in the middle of the night. And then when
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I come in in the morning, I'm gonna come back into it with whatever.
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You know, tool maybe I got a good, great night's sleep,
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and so now I'm bringing that energy in that suit which that takes me to
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the next thing. Sometimes we say yes because we've had a good night sleep
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that night, and then later on we actually don't have to sleep anymore.
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It's like, why the hell, Like what was I thinking when I said
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yes? Right, I'm kind of thing I just I just agreed to do
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and I'm like, wait, what it's a year long commitment. So oh
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so, but I know, I know a lot of growth is personal growth
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is going to and it just contributes to even you know, amplifying my self
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confidence. And so so I have a year well it's actually a couple of
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year commitment, but anyway, it's going to build on as I go.
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It's going to build and so so I get to you know, this is
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going to give me the opportunity to really hone in on the tools that I
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have to be the creator and manifestor of amazing stuff. And so that's my
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focus. I mean, I think it's going to be cool to see how
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it unfolds. So I agree, holding just holding that that perspective is super
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important, that focus. Yeah, and because you know you're getting there's something
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that's coming from it for you, do you know what I mean? Just
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like, what if you would have said no. What if I would have
25:26
said no to family? Then I missed that whole opportunity right there was there's
25:30
an opportunity of growth that I could never have experienced otherwise I don't believe I
25:36
could have. That's probably not even true. It probably shut up another way,
25:40
but not to have it so intimately, so you know, close,
25:42
and to be able to watch it and just laugh and just appreciate every moment
25:48
of it. Yeah. So, and it's just like for you, it's
25:51
the same thing, you know, even though we get tired and stuff like
25:53
that, is there's so much for gaining, so much. Yes, And
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I'm a firm believer, so you know, I'm just throwing us out there.
26:03
If it doesn't resonate with you, it's okay. But I'm a firm
26:07
believer that, you know, what, whatever we create here now in this
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lifetime, in past lifetimes, what we've healed now and for past it affects
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past lifetimes, but it was also carried forward into other lifetimes. And so
26:19
I'm like, I'm we're always creating. We're always creating, always creating,
26:23
always creating, And so whatever I'm creating now is moving into or we'll move
26:30
into that next lifetime. So I'm like, well, if I managed to
26:34
get this far in this lifetime, because I can imagine, I can imagine
26:40
my like, what this lifetime has been like, and how far I've come
26:44
in really in a short amount of time, And to think what previous lifetimes
26:52
could have been like based on that time frame, right, and that and
26:57
those that belief system and the programming and all that in those timelines, Like
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I've come such a such a so far in this life in my healing process,
27:11
that how much better could the next one be? Right? And so
27:18
I'm just like, Okay, And it doesn't matter if it never happens,
27:22
It doesn't matter to me, if it's if it's not even real that we
27:26
don't have other lifetime. I believe we do, but it doesn't matter because
27:30
really, what my goal is to be into better in myself in each moment,
27:36
in each day. And if I am doing that for myself, then
27:42
my life just keeps getting better and better and better in this lifetime. And
27:47
I don't know how much time I have on this planet in this lifetime.
27:52
Why wouldn't it make more sense to having a goal to make it even better
27:56
instead of sifting and stirring in the shit that you've been living with for so
28:02
long. It's like, how I do that. I want it to be
28:04
better and better and better and better, which means I have to get better
28:07
and better and better, which means I have to be mindful of what I'm
28:11
thinking about, what I'm talking about, how I'm feeling, and my spiritual
28:15
connection. All of that matters. It's a whole package. I agree,
28:22
and I agree with what you said, and I also agree that I feel
28:26
like we have influence over everything. All of our selves have influence over everything.
28:32
And it's like and if you can become one with self, you become
28:36
one with all of yourselves and it's not just all of yourselves, and you're
28:38
one with everybody else too, and everything changes, and then you have access
28:41
to even more information because it's not limited. Otherwise it's limited. I'll look
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at it. I have a picture of myself because I like my teeth,
28:49
the way my smile was, I liked why my skin looked, I liked
28:52
the way my energy fell in the picture. So I'll look at it and
28:56
I'll look at it and I'm like, I'm I'm you're waking up right now?
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Where you're at right now. You're awake. You're awake with all this
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information that I already have right now. And I know that. And when
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I'm telling you this, I have goosebumps down the front of my body.
29:10
I feel emotional about it. And so for me, I know this to
29:12
be true. I know that this is what resonates with me. It doesn't
29:15
mean it resonates with everybody, because we're all individuals and we all have our
29:18
own experiences and thank you, thank you for having individuality. Honestly, because
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we were talking about that this morning. It'd be so boring if we were
29:26
all the same, it would, yeah, we would do the same thing,
29:29
and then we'd be wondering what we're missing, probably, or maybe we
29:32
would just be happy. And that's not knowing. I don't know. And
29:36
that and all the people on the planet, with all the different personalities and
29:41
belief systems and programming and all the things, they all give us an opportunity
29:47
to check in with ourselves on so many levels they do, And I do
29:53
you say that, but I just I feel like I'm doing it so much
29:56
all the time these days, like because I'll catch myself even wanting to almost
30:02
want to just say something like, well that's not true. But it's like,
30:03
what what does it matter? Why do I have to say I don't
30:07
have to say anything. I don't have to have I don't have to participate
30:08
in that energy. I don't have to feel that way. And not to
30:11
say that I was participating in that energy anyways. It was just how I
30:15
catch myself how I'm feeling and I feel like there's that defensiveness again, or
30:18
that there's that you've got to be right or you've got to know everything or
30:22
whatever. But I'm recognizing just because I'm taking the time to be hav an
30:26
awareness of myself, just to take the time to even listen to your thoughts.
30:30
And it wasn't overnight. I wasn't doing this overnight. And someone planned
30:33
to seed, probably you planning the seed for you know that you know,
30:37
for this stuff to happening, because we've just talked about so much of this
30:40
stuff all the time that it was already happening. It just wasn't happening if
30:44
I was focusing on it. Maybe it wasn't happening to the speed that I
30:47
would have liked it to. But it was divinely working. I mean,
30:52
there was nothing that there was no restrictions, that was exactly where it was
30:56
supposed to be. And we were talking about that last night too, Just
30:59
enjoying the journey where we're at right now to the next part of the journey,
31:02
because it's all a journey, right we don't it's like it's like we
31:06
want to like wipe out parts of our lives and stuff like that, and
31:07
it's like the journey. It took a journey to get to where we're at
31:11
right now in this in this human experience. I want to wipe it all
31:14
out. I don't want to wipe it all out. I guess before I
31:17
felt like I would want to wipe it a lot of it out, and
31:18
it's like, I don't want to wipe it out. I gained a lot
31:22
of information from that. Yeah, I gain a lot of I don't want
31:25
that and I want this absolutely, Yes, yes, and yes, it's
31:34
it's uh. It is a journey. It's one of the things that a
31:44
mentor of mine reminds us of is and even Abraham Esther Hicks. Abraham talks
31:52
about you're never going to get it done. So it's just the journey.
31:57
It's the journey of being creative and then watching that creativity unfold and then where
32:06
does that lead what comes next after that as far as who are you attracting
32:10
into your life during the creative process, and then where does that lead and
32:15
where does that connection take you? And what does that experience bring up for
32:22
you? Is it more healing? Is it more joy? It could be
32:25
neutral, Like if we're just constantly creating and and and the things that we
32:36
are creating actually are affecting other people, you could be just being an example
32:45
for somebody, not even having a conversation, like people are watching me that
32:50
I will see people in public and I'll introduce myself and they'll theyn't even just
32:55
overhear who I am, and they're like, oh, are you made me
32:58
wait on the Tea Time podcast? Or oh you A'my Wade that taught this
33:02
class or spoke here, and I'm like, people are watching. So just
33:07
being an example from a distance when you're in that, when you're in your
33:10
creative actually all the time, but just using that creative flow as an example,
33:17
maybe you're just being in an example for somebody and that's going to affect
33:22
their life and you may never ever know it. They will never introduce themselves.
33:29
They'll never tell you their story, but because you did something that influenced
33:34
the way they were thinking, to help shift, something to help spark something
33:37
like, it affected them and you may never know it, but it was
33:43
very valuable to them. And that's why, you know, It's another reason
33:47
why it's so important for me to just keep being and doing better in myself
33:51
because I know people are watching. I'm influencing people I don't even know,
33:58
and that to me matters. So I would much rather be a positive influence
34:05
than the person I used to be that which wasn't so great. It just
34:14
reminds me, like we want to where do we want to be at when
34:16
we're having our life review? Do you know what I mean? How do
34:20
we show up? That's how That's how you showed up. That's how you
34:22
know. Because like, even though we may not know from this perspective,
34:27
but from another perspective, from from our spiritual perspective, once we're no longer
34:30
in this physical body having that review, then you see how it affected things.
34:36
So from maybe from here, from an ego side, we might want
34:38
to know some of that stuff, but from another side, I think we
34:40
want to know I guess maybe how how was the experience? Because you hear
34:47
all these people talking about, like especially when they have these near death experiences,
34:51
and how they go in and this the remorse they feel, and the
34:53
expectation, right, even the expectation for everything bad. Like God sitting in
34:59
front of with this big freaking long scroll and it's like all the stuff that
35:02
I did wrong, and it's like it gets to the other page and there's
35:06
like a paragraph of the stuff that I did right. Right, That's what
35:08
for me, That's how it felt, has felt for most of my life.
35:10
But realizing it's not true, it's not true. That's just what we've
35:14
focused on, and it's so what do we want to focus on? Well,
35:17
like you were saying, I'm going to show up and do and be
35:20
the best version of myself I didn't want to be when I was grown up
35:22
that way. I don't know where that went awry or sideways, but it
35:28
did. But here I am now and recognizing that there's so much to change,
35:32
and I do know that we can change. We can change a lot
35:36
of our pasts just by how we feel about it, just by what we
35:38
feel about it, what we're putting out about it. And I'll go back
35:42
to the picture, just seeing the picture. What if I wasn't in a
35:45
great space in that day, I could still make it a great space in
35:47
that day. I can imagine what I was thinking that day. And then
35:51
our imagination is our creativity. It's everything. It's everything, like there's no
35:55
limits, be playful about it. We just get so caught up and like
35:59
that's being immature sure, or that's childlike, or that's daydreaming that we think
36:04
that it's all wrong, but it's not wrong. That's our creativity and our
36:07
court. I feel like life would be very boring without our creativity. I
36:12
want to I want to say something about that, because it actually kept me
36:15
awake the other night, you know, in a in a good way.
36:20
So the my husband texts me, he's like, I got a powerball ticket,
36:25
and I said, okay, I had no idea what powerball was up
36:29
to, didn't wasn't. I don't keep track of that until you know,
36:32
like the buzz starts happening, they're like, oh, it's up to this,
36:36
right. So So anyway, I went to bed and I was laying
36:42
there and I I got so much excitement in me about what I would do
36:50
with some of the funds. If I were to win a large amount of
36:54
money, not necessarily power Ball, but if I was to win a large
36:58
amount of money, and I I tell you what I was thinking about,
37:04
like a like a healing center, having you know, the healing modalities,
37:07
the holistic healing modalities, having a rooms where I'm not kidding you, I
37:14
have a handful of women around me right now that are like, oh my
37:17
god, they won't it's relationship issues. They won't leave because of financial reasons
37:22
and all the things, and they don't think they could survive by themselves.
37:25
I was like, Oh, I create some like a like a motel hotel
37:30
type place where they could just have a transition period so they could get on
37:32
their feet and then go out, you know, on their own and and
37:37
having a like self sufficient a guard. Like. I was building this whole
37:40
community in my head with all this money that I got, and I was
37:45
so excited I couldn't go to sleep. And it was so fun. Though,
37:50
Yeah, that's awesome. I love to put that out in the world
37:54
and people can go start building these communities for people to Yeah. So anyway,
38:00
I mean had a reiki room, like the large you know, where
38:02
you can do reiki shares and classes and the musical instruments of you know,
38:07
sound bowls and tuning for like, I had all this stuff going on and
38:10
it was just so fun laying there just thinking about it and creating it in
38:15
my imagination and then the excitement kept me awake. It took me a while
38:20
to go to sleep, and it was just fun. That's awesome. It's
38:23
so funny that you say all that, because a couple of years ago I
38:25
was making I was making a place that was like that, and it had
38:30
all these rooms, but it had one area, one huge area that had
38:32
the stage and stuff like that, but it had other smaller intimate spaces.
38:37
But there were so many out of the rooms and of course it would have
38:38
to be soundproof, and it's like you've got there's so many different modalities that
38:43
are out there of these days to help people to assist them and then I
38:46
know that works. Yeah, So it's like it it goes along right along
38:52
with what you're saying too. But it was it's huge, and for me,
38:54
I was thinking about it being out kind of like where I'm at and
38:59
then having a huge jerry and then a huge outdoor area with growing up foods
39:02
and you know, flowers and fruits and all that kind of stuff. So
39:07
yeah, it's interesting because all part of the it's a community thing, right.
39:10
Yeah. With that was then you know, to help teach the residents
39:16
about business and stuff to actually have like a farmer's market and treat it as
39:21
a business and having you know, keeping track of the financials and all the
39:24
things and and just and and then having like you know, having the kitchen
39:30
to where you can have from the garden to the kitchen and having people cooking
39:35
and and and if that's their you know, joy. And so it was
39:39
just this kind of a flow thing of having self sufficient but also a learning
39:45
and growing experience, having classes of of you know, coming home to yourself,
39:51
all the things that we talk about. Just it was just a huge
39:53
like I literally was laying there for quite a while thinking about all this and
39:57
it was just it was just so fun us as we could probably make a
40:00
whole nother recording probably a few hours of that. So like I'm thinking,
40:05
we'll yell, then we'll add a space for kids and and blah, you
40:07
know they're and for them to be able to explore and be around animals and
40:12
planting things and be in the dirt, you know, all these good things
40:15
they go along that that's part of the grounding part is especially when we're younger
40:19
like that that I mean, it's not especially when we're younger, but it's
40:22
important at when we're younger and as we age in these bodies. As these
40:25
bodies age, I guess, is to be in that space of honoring all
40:30
that and being outside and enjoying it. But it's so important too when you're
40:34
a kid, because you're you're in those first parties, those first chakras,
40:38
right, being grounded and all that stuff. So you're in that space.
40:42
And the more we can be in that space, gosh, the more beneficially
40:45
your children are that they're more calm, they're not reactive, they're just more
40:52
facilitating peace and then kind of guiding other people around too, just so gently.
40:57
And I think that's the way it could be. But yeah, we
40:59
could probably we could go crazy with that's my mind like thinking about it now
41:02
too, walking into the space. And I know you, well, my
41:07
dilemma is we're gonna have to wrap this up. But my dilemma would create
41:12
such an amazing community nobody'd ever want to leave when the idea is to have
41:16
it as like a transitional space for people to grow and then go out into
41:21
the world. And I'm like, well, then people will just want to
41:24
stay because it's going to be so incredibly amazing the energy and the connection and
41:29
everything. So there's that, and I just have to get property and build
41:32
more. So tell them to tell them they need to go out and create
41:37
more. Take this to your hometown, take this to where you're going to
41:39
be out and greet it from your own house. It's like, and we're
41:43
talking about all this stuff like it's like a big, huge undertaking, but
41:45
really it starts in our own living rooms, right, It starts right there.
41:50
It doesn't have to be a big space. It's just getting together and
41:52
having the distune like we do, having the conversations, having different perspectives,
41:58
ye, allowing for our growth, allowing us to feel excitement. Good Lord,
42:04
seriously, all right, friends, good talk. So BV has been
42:13
playing in the dart with the littles. I get to go do some laughter
42:15
yoga with some eighth through twelfth graders. So that's where I'm going to go
42:22
to do some and bring some light hardness into their their space. And there
42:28
will be adult women there so they get to experience it as well. So
42:31
having the opportunity to share in some joy with a group of people this morning
42:37
is actually it's this afternoon, but I got things to lead up to that,
42:42
and just being able to contribute in that way is I'm starting to get
42:47
emotional because that means so much to me right now. So whow that was
42:52
great, but as an awesome demonstration of knowing that you're on your path,
42:57
knowing that you're on the path moment for you, Yeah, it's awesome.
43:02
Thanks for showing up, Amy, Oh, you're welcome. That's awesome.
43:09
It's awesome. Yeah, it's so funny, like I just being in that
43:13
space of joy and fine and playful and then all of a sudden, man,
43:15
you just you know, you hit that heart center with the love and
43:20
the other other energies of joy in a different way. And how that just
43:27
that emotion comes up because it's so meaningful only because again coming back to comparing
43:34
myself now to where I was, and that's the meaning of it for me.
43:38
So people who don't know me, don't know me from thirty forty years
43:43
ago to who I am today. They don't understand that they don't understand that
43:46
meaningfulness of my journey and the comparison of myself. Yeah. Right, so
43:55
there's that. So good job. I know, amazing. I just you
44:02
know, just sitting here as you know, we're recording, and I you
44:06
know, we see your I see myself, and I I a lot of
44:12
times I'm looking at myself. I'm like, wow, look at that smile,
44:15
look at those eyes, look at look how you're glowing. Look how
44:17
like I'm acknowledging myself even though I'm having a conversation with you and the audience
44:22
that that I am seeing myself on my own camera on my laptop, and
44:29
and I'm just like sometimes it's just amazing and blown away, like wow,
44:35
look look at look at me go type of thing. Yeah. So I
44:39
want Pete, That's what I want up for other people to do, is
44:42
be able to look in the mirror and go, wow, I'm so proud
44:45
of you and look at you go You're showing up so well and so good
44:49
and I love you so much. And just imagine yourself saying that in front
44:52
of a mirror every day and really connecting with that. That's what me,
44:58
that's what matters. Yeah, so all right, any final words, sister,
45:07
have a great week. That's it. Just be simple, right,
45:12
take your time, be now, enjoy it, Enjoy the journey, every
45:17
moment, every moment of everything and everybody that's around you. Because even in
45:22
the hard things, there's gratitude. You gotta you gotta gotta acknowledge it,
45:29
but it's there and you can do it. So all right, my friend,
45:36
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45:37
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