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- 0:09Natasha Rai: This is the Book Deal Podcast, monthly takeover by your host, Natasha Rai.
- 0:14Natasha Rai: I'll be bringing you even more debut and season authors as they talk about their path to publication.
- 0:26Madeleine Cleary: The Book Deal Podcast acknowledges the traditional owners of the land and waters which it's recorded on.
- 0:31Madeleine Cleary: and pays respect to their elders past, present, and emerging.
- 0:39Natasha Rai: Kaya Wilson is a writer, tsunami scientist, and lover of all things ocean, who somehow finds himself living in Canberra.
- 0:47Natasha Rai: Their first book, As Beautiful As Any Other, was listed by The Guardian as one of the best books of 2021 and shortlisted for the 2022 ACT Book of the Year.
- 0:58Natasha Rai: Their second book, a queer coming of age novel, Romeo, A Tale of Four Jumps, is in submission.
- 1:05Natasha Rai: Hi, Kaya.
- 1:07Natasha Rai: Welcome to the Book Deal Podcast.
- 1:09Kaya Wilson: Hello.
- 1:10Kaya Wilson: Thank you for having me.
- 1:11Natasha Rai: My absolute pleasure.
- 1:13Natasha Rai: Um, so we're here today to talk a little bit about your publishing journey, um, and how you got your first deal.
- 1:20Natasha Rai: But before we get to that, I would love to hear your elevator pitch.
- 1:23Natasha Rai: Yep, straight up.
- 1:28Kaya Wilson: Yeah, look, I've never been great at the elevator pitch.
- 1:31Kaya Wilson: But I'll give it a shot.
- 1:33Kaya Wilson: Um, the other day I called it emo memoir.
- 1:36Kaya Wilson: Um, look, it's a, it's, I'm actually.
- 1:40Kaya Wilson: You know, it's been a few years now and I was looking back at it and I feel really proud of it, right?
- 1:44Kaya Wilson: It's a, it's a memoir, it's broken up into thematic chapters, and it sort of covers, um, the period of time in, probably one of the more formative times of my life, um, when I began my gender transition, um, sort of emotionally and medically, and it's sort of about everything that got me there, and then where I thought it was going to take me, essentially.
- 2:10Natasha Rai: Thanks.
- 2:10Natasha Rai: That's a great pitch.
- 2:11Kaya Wilson: Thanks.
- 2:14Kaya Wilson: Yeah, like I did an event with Diana Reid.
- 2:17Kaya Wilson: Um, and she was like going off the charts, it was successful with Love and Virtue at the time.
- 2:22Kaya Wilson: And she had this pitch that was rehearsed, nailed, managed.
- 2:27Kaya Wilson: And that is something I want to do for my next book.
- 2:29Kaya Wilson: I want to, it's my new book resolution to get that pitch nailed in a way that.
- 2:34Kaya Wilson: You know, everyone can understand.
- 2:36Kaya Wilson: He doesn't have any idea what you're talking about.
- 2:38Natasha Rai: Yeah, I think it's, I find it really hard not to roll my eyes and make a stupid face.
- 2:42Natasha Rai: So
- 2:45Kaya Wilson: you've got one, but you've got one prepared though.
- 2:47Kaya Wilson: That's half the battle.
- 2:48Natasha Rai: Well, I've had to, you know, cause this is so close to release.
- 2:51Natasha Rai: So I've
- 2:52Kaya Wilson: had to kind of practice it a lot.
- 2:53Kaya Wilson: Absolutely.
- 2:54Kaya Wilson: And especially like fiction.
- 2:56Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 2:56Kaya Wilson: If you can, like, I would love to get you to do it now, but I'm not going to do that because it's not your job today, but I look forward to hearing it live on radio someday.
- 3:05Kaya Wilson: Exactly.
- 3:06Natasha Rai: Some other time.
- 3:07Natasha Rai: Um, so I don't know if you remember, but, um, you gave me some excellent advice many, many years ago.
- 3:13Natasha Rai: So you and I had a, we both had pieces in that Me Too anthology that came out in 2017, I think, or 2018.
- 3:20Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 3:21Natasha Rai: And we were doing an event together.
- 3:24Natasha Rai: And before we went on stage, you said to me, just be careful because when you're, you know, when you're up there and there's.
- 3:29Natasha Rai: A lot of lovely supportive people around, you might say a bit too much, or you might share a bit too much about yourself and later on you think, Oh, I really didn't want to do that.
- 3:39Natasha Rai: That's interesting.
- 3:40Natasha Rai: So I was thinking.
- 3:42Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 3:43Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 3:43Natasha Rai: I was like going
- 3:44Kaya Wilson: back in time.
- 3:44Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 3:45Kaya Wilson: Go on.
- 3:45Natasha Rai: So I was thinking about that advice that you gave me and I was wondering if that plays or had a part to play when you approach your memoir, like how do you even start something like that kind of a project?
- 3:57Kaya Wilson: Yeah, I mean, there's a boundaries, right?
- 3:59Kaya Wilson: We're talking about boundaries.
- 4:00Kaya Wilson: And I think, yeah, at the time, like, you know, it's part of everyone's psychological evolution.
- 4:06Kaya Wilson: And it's interesting for me to hear from you what I said at that time, because I think I was really learning a new type of boundaries, especially in terms of being In the public eye to a small degree with the book, absolutely.
- 4:21Kaya Wilson: I do think of it as a boundary text, even though there are some quite like exposing or vulnerable elements to it and moments that not everyone's going to share.
- 4:32Kaya Wilson: And, um, I think there's a few things in that.
- 4:37Kaya Wilson: And there's lots of people who approach memoir in different ways, right?
- 4:39Kaya Wilson: So some people, it seems to be that everyone who, most people who write memoir find a way to say what they need to say, and that might be either fictionalizing it or, or, uh, you know, classing it as auto fiction or, or something that gives them a little bit of, uh, liberation from mm-hmm You know, being exposed or they do something a bit like what I sort of did was like, write it first and then come back to sort of edit what you don't want to be made public.
- 5:17Kaya Wilson: And there are certain things about being from a slightly marginalized identity that can feel exposing in some ways, or you feel like are overexposed in general.
- 5:28Kaya Wilson: Um, and you feel like you don't want that.
- 5:31Kaya Wilson: I felt like I didn't want people to fixate on or.
- 5:35Kaya Wilson: I felt needed to be presented in a certain way because we don't, we don't live in a vacuum.
- 5:39Kaya Wilson: Right.
- 5:40Kaya Wilson: Um, yeah, there are some things that I did couch somewhat and, and that's also kind of interesting for me because some of those things I did hold back on, um, really came out of my fiction.
- 5:53Kaya Wilson: So, um, I think.
- 5:56Kaya Wilson: The things that need to come out, come out at some point.
- 5:58Kaya Wilson: It's just, you need to control how, how it's done in a way that you feel comfortable with.
- 6:02Kaya Wilson: And so sometimes your boundaries evolve, right?
- 6:04Kaya Wilson: Um, and.
- 6:07Kaya Wilson: You know, I don't know how you feel about that Me Too experience.
- 6:11Kaya Wilson: And it's interesting thinking back now, like, wow, like the Me Too movement, that was quite a heady time, wasn't it?
- 6:18Natasha Rai: It really was.
- 6:19Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 6:20Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 6:23Kaya Wilson: It feels almost quaint in this day and age.
- 6:29Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 6:30Kaya Wilson: But yeah, so boundaries, important.
- 6:31Kaya Wilson: Hold them and also establish them before you publish.
- 6:35Kaya Wilson: That's the other thing.
- 6:36Natasha Rai: So for you, Kaya, you wrote, you wrote it, and then once you kind of went back to it, did the themes emerge or did you have themes in mind that you then moved things around to fit?
- 6:49Kaya Wilson: Yeah, themes absolutely emerged.
- 6:51Kaya Wilson: So I actually wrote it, um, in a more conventional chronological way.
- 6:55Kaya Wilson: It's probably a series of like 80 essays of about like 1000 words each.
- 7:00Kaya Wilson: And I went back and I just tried an experiment one day where I tried to weave two things together.
- 7:06Kaya Wilson: And, um, I wrote one 5, 000 word chapter and I was like, Oh, this is good and it was thematic.
- 7:15Kaya Wilson: And I was like, Oh, thematic works.
- 7:17Kaya Wilson: I was like, Oh, no, I have to write the whole thing again.
- 7:19Kaya Wilson: And then I wrote the whole thing again.
- 7:20Kaya Wilson: And it just, um, the themes to me, what rose to the top, you know, it was the, the A story and B story.
- 7:28Kaya Wilson: It was the, the real meaning kind of came to the top when I made it thematic.
- 7:33Kaya Wilson: Um, And yeah, so sometimes when things are thematic, you can hide some of the content.
- 7:39Natasha Rai: Yeah, yeah.
- 7:40Natasha Rai: And you know, for some of our listeners who are considering or who are working on memoir, how did you look after yourself?
- 7:48Natasha Rai: Well, because I assume that parts of it must have been quite difficult to write.
- 7:52Kaya Wilson: Yeah, absolutely.
- 7:54Kaya Wilson: It was part of writing.
- 7:56Kaya Wilson: It was part of looking out to myself.
- 7:58Kaya Wilson: If that makes sense.
- 7:59Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 7:59Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 8:00Kaya Wilson: Um, I mean, that's not my entire mental health strategy.
- 8:05Natasha Rai: It's a good one though.
- 8:07Natasha Rai: It's almost like a catharsis, right?
- 8:09Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 8:09Kaya Wilson: And you know, it's making sense of things.
- 8:11Kaya Wilson: And it was a way that I have made sense of things a lot of people do get that from writing things.
- 8:17Kaya Wilson: I mean, I did also have therapy, et cetera.
- 8:21Kaya Wilson: Um, but.
- 8:23Kaya Wilson: Yeah, it was so important to my way of understanding myself and the world at the time that it's quite hard to even separate, um, separate it out.
- 8:34Natasha Rai: So you write this memoir, you put it into a, an order that makes sense to you in terms of themes.
- 8:41Natasha Rai: So tell me a little bit about your publication journey after that, because I know that you've had lots of short pieces and lots of publications already under your belt by that point.
- 8:51Kaya Wilson: Thanks.
- 8:51Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 8:52Kaya Wilson: So that was a, I'd say strategic, actually, the short pieces.
- 8:56Kaya Wilson: Um, and when we talk about boundaries, some of the short pieces of the things that I probably feel the weirdest about, but, and then also like now that kind of like first person opinion, PC type stuff, I'd barely even read it anymore.
- 9:13Kaya Wilson: Like, I think it was just for me, legit a phase or even like maybe a phase is.
- 9:18Kaya Wilson: In media at the time that I was a bit more engaged in, um, but, but that aside, the emotional or attachment to it aside, getting your, some things published is super important, I think, for me, it worked right.
- 9:35Kaya Wilson: So I had.
- 9:36Kaya Wilson: Um, short things published online, a couple in print and then two anthologies and then a book.
- 9:45Kaya Wilson: So the, for me, the key, the linchpin to all of it was having an agent.
- 9:51Kaya Wilson: Um, but it goes the same with an agent or not, right?
- 9:55Kaya Wilson: Because you're either you are pitching yourself or the agent is pitching you.
- 10:00Kaya Wilson: So you still need to have something to pitch, um, having something published means that not just you, but someone else has said, Oh, we think this is good enough to publish.
- 10:11Kaya Wilson: Um, my agent, uh, got me sort of.
- 10:16Kaya Wilson: Well, it kind of got me the invitation to apply or send a piece in for the Me Too anthology.
- 10:23Natasha Rai: So before we go into that, can we just take a step back?
- 10:27Natasha Rai: How did you get your agent?
- 10:29Natasha Rai: A lot of our listeners are very interested.
- 10:30Kaya Wilson: So yeah, I mean, this is probably, like I knew her socially.
- 10:36Kaya Wilson: Right.
- 10:37Kaya Wilson: And that's kind of an annoying thing to hear because it sounds like all who, you know, or having connections.
- 10:44Kaya Wilson: Um, and I did know someone semi famous watching someone pretty famous who she was the publicist for, so she knew all about like publishing.
- 10:57Kaya Wilson: Um, so my agent is Jane Novak.
- 10:59Kaya Wilson: She knew about publishing.
- 11:00Kaya Wilson: She was a publicist at the time when I first met her.
- 11:03Kaya Wilson: I really liked her.
- 11:04Kaya Wilson: I saw her in action with, uh, well known writers in a publicist role, but for like people who are stratospheric, they kind of have a publicist who follows them around.
- 11:16Kaya Wilson: Um, I don't have that.
- 11:20Kaya Wilson: Um, but yeah, so.
- 11:22Kaya Wilson: I'd seen her in action.
- 11:23Kaya Wilson: I'd seen her be very sensitive and, um, just really switched on.
- 11:29Kaya Wilson: It's like, I kind of knew how she worked, right?
- 11:31Kaya Wilson: And then she started a literary agency later down the track.
- 11:35Kaya Wilson: And then I was like, look, I'm writing some stuff.
- 11:38Kaya Wilson: And she was like, send it through.
- 11:40Kaya Wilson: And.
- 11:41Kaya Wilson: She was happy to take me on.
- 11:43Kaya Wilson: She's also like takes people on not in a kind of you sign a contract and that's it.
- 11:47Kaya Wilson: It's sort of more like I will sell each book that you produce kind of thing.
- 11:53Kaya Wilson: Um, so that's how I knew, so I knew her and I went, I trusted her already and I went, that's how I went with her.
- 11:59Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 11:59Natasha Rai: And Kaya, even though you might've known her, it still comes down to the quality of your work.
- 12:03Natasha Rai: Like she's not going to just say yes, because she knows you.
- 12:06Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 12:06Kaya Wilson: And she has said no to me before.
- 12:08Kaya Wilson: So like there, I did have a novel that she was like, it's the voice is wrong.
- 12:11Kaya Wilson: It's not, it doesn't work.
- 12:12Kaya Wilson: Um, so like, yeah, I also trust that she will say no to me, which is quite good.
- 12:17Natasha Rai: Yes.
- 12:18Kaya Wilson: Having said that I have introduced other people to her, um, or.
- 12:23Kaya Wilson: And, or tried to, and then she said, just tell them to email me on my website.
- 12:28Kaya Wilson: And I'm like, well, okay.
- 12:29Kaya Wilson: So that's how people get her anyway.
- 12:32Kaya Wilson: So me having an introduction.
- 12:35Kaya Wilson: So, okay.
- 12:35Kaya Wilson: I have introduced several people to her.
- 12:37Kaya Wilson: Some people, she was like, she was just like, just tell them to email me.
- 12:40Kaya Wilson: So that's like her blanket response.
- 12:42Kaya Wilson: One of them was a friend who she didn't took on, um, whose book I had read.
- 12:47Kaya Wilson: And then there was another one, which I think is one of the most brilliant books.
- 12:52Kaya Wilson: That's coming out with a different publisher in New York or with a publisher in New York anyway this year and she said no, she was too busy.
- 13:00Kaya Wilson: So whatever's on her website, if you email her and she says I'm too busy, she means it.
- 13:06Kaya Wilson: Okay.
- 13:06Kaya Wilson: So my point what I'm trying to make is that whatever she says to me is the same as what she says to a random person approaching her.
- 13:12Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 13:13Kaya Wilson: So.
- 13:15Kaya Wilson: Although I knew her already, and she had a social obligation to at least respond to me, she still also responds to strangers.
- 13:23Natasha Rai: Yeah, she tells the truth.
- 13:24Natasha Rai: Like she tells, I mean, she tells the same thing.
- 13:26Natasha Rai: Yeah, it's not a special treatment or something.
- 13:28Kaya Wilson: The only thing it meant is I didn't shop around.
- 13:30Natasha Rai: Hmm.
- 13:31Kaya Wilson: Um, and.
- 13:32Kaya Wilson: Like, I haven't made tons of money in writing, but like my first offer for my memoir, um, she bargained it up to an amount that exactly covered her, her cut.
- 13:45Kaya Wilson: So I don't know, I've already, she's, she's paid away already.
- 13:51Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 13:51Natasha Rai: I did.
- 13:52Natasha Rai: So, so you had Jane on your side and then she pitched you for the Me Too.
- 13:57Natasha Rai: Anthology.
- 13:58Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 14:00Kaya Wilson: Um, she said, do you have anything you could put in here?
- 14:02Kaya Wilson: Oh, I see.
- 14:02Natasha Rai: Right.
- 14:03Natasha Rai: Okay.
- 14:03Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 14:03Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 14:05Natasha Rai: And then after that, you sent her your, uh, kind of.
- 14:09Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 14:13Kaya Wilson: Well, you know, after that, then I, um, I actually sent her some of the early drafts.
- 14:19Kaya Wilson: So this is what I'm writing.
- 14:21Kaya Wilson: And she was like, great, get back to me when you've got a full length book.
- 14:25Kaya Wilson: And that was actually one of the key bits of advice, which I've continued to use.
- 14:30Kaya Wilson: It's a, I'd say less advice than a strategy.
- 14:33Kaya Wilson: And it's to write your full text, have creative control, um, and then submit it.
- 14:41Kaya Wilson: Um, because if you submit, for me particularly, that's what worked.
- 14:44Kaya Wilson: I don't actually give that advice to everyone.
- 14:47Kaya Wilson: But if you, you know, say, submit a few chapters and then you get a deal, they can often want to influence your creative direction.
- 14:53Natasha Rai: Oh, I see.
- 14:54Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 14:54Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 14:55Natasha Rai: This must be very difficult if you're writing memoir.
- 14:56Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 14:57Natasha Rai: Because it's your life, right?
- 14:58Kaya Wilson: I know, right?
- 14:59Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 15:00Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 15:00Kaya Wilson: And like, sometimes it can probably be gentle.
- 15:03Kaya Wilson: I mean, I heard about Kate Holden's.
- 15:06Kaya Wilson: Um, publisher talk about shirt in my skin.
- 15:08Kaya Wilson: She's about about, um, uh, what do you call it?
- 15:12Kaya Wilson: Maybe.
- 15:14Kaya Wilson: middle class heroin addiction story, uh, or sex work, like sort of sensitive issues.
- 15:19Kaya Wilson: And her publisher said, um, I want your mom to be in every chapter.
- 15:25Kaya Wilson: I was like, Oh God.
- 15:27Kaya Wilson: Um, but like, you know, so that's, I guess, gentle or advice that, um, maybe really worked, but like, That creative control was important to me and, and, and since then when people have tried to tell me how to solve a literary problem, it just doesn't work.
- 15:46Kaya Wilson: I'm really happy taking advice on the problems, but I need to come up with the solutions.
- 15:50Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 15:51Natasha Rai: Well it's your work.
- 15:53Kaya Wilson: Yeah, right.
- 15:54Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 15:59Steve Minon: Hello, my name's Steve Minon and I've written a novel called First name, second name, which is about four generations of two migrant families, one Chinese and one Scottish who come to Australia and become one.
- 16:11Steve Minon: The protagonist is a corpse who is on a nocturnal pilgrimage back to the town of his birth in far north Queensland.
- 16:19Steve Minon: I started writing First Name, Second Name when I discovered that my own second name, family name, was an anglicised amalgamation of two first names.
- 16:29Steve Minon: And it bothered me that my ancestors had allowed this to happen, and it made me think about what a migrant is prepared to lose when they come to Australia and are so keen to fit in.
- 16:38Steve Minon: And so the book is a reckoning with the past, and it is about intergenerational trauma.
- 16:43Steve Minon: It's about navigating a mixed race existence where one race is more accepted than the other.
- 16:48Steve Minon: But it's also about being an eternal outsider, because the protagonist is on a search for his sexual identity, and this causes a family estrangement.
- 16:58Steve Minon: It's complex, but it has been described by Michael Muhammad Ahmed as being a portrait of who we are now and who we are destined to become.
- 17:07Steve Minon: And that's a lot to live up to, but if you get to read it, I really hope you enjoy it.
- 17:11Steve Minon: It's out now via UQP.
- 17:17Natasha Rai: What happened after you, after you kind of got it into a form that you were happy with and she felt was ready for submission?
- 17:24Kaya Wilson: Yeah, so first up, that took longer than one wants it to.
- 17:27Kaya Wilson: I was pretty impatient and that just took longer than I wanted it and too bad.
- 17:31Kaya Wilson: Okay.
- 17:31Kaya Wilson: That's what happened.
- 17:32Kaya Wilson: So then she is kinda like a matchmaker, right?
- 17:35Kaya Wilson: So she picks.
- 17:37Kaya Wilson: Um, a publisher who she thinks will understand and honor the work, uh, with, and work well with the author.
- 17:45Kaya Wilson: And she picked Matilda Imla, who was then at Picador, which is an imprint of Pan Macmillan, and she was Um, so I'm missing a step actually.
- 17:59Kaya Wilson: So she picked her, but also in the meantime, I applied for every single emerging writer, competition, event, fellowship that I, that I could find.
- 18:12Kaya Wilson: And I was shortlisted for a bunch of them.
- 18:14Kaya Wilson: I ended up winning the only one that had no money.
- 18:16Kaya Wilson: Um, but in the end, it was a great deal.
- 18:24Kaya Wilson: And what.
- 18:25Kaya Wilson: Part of what the fellowship offered.
- 18:27Kaya Wilson: Uhhuh um, it was writing New South Wales, uh, UNA Fellowship and it offered weeks at Una and, uh, a manuscript assessment by Matilda Ila with the publisher at Pam Macmillan.
- 18:39Kaya Wilson: And then, so she provided the manuscript assessment, I did the, took the feedback that she gave me.
- 18:46Natasha Rai: Mm-hmm
- 18:46Kaya Wilson: Um, worked on it, and then Jane then resubmitted it to her.
- 18:50Natasha Rai: Amazing.
- 18:51Natasha Rai: So you already had that connection with her and that.
- 18:53Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 18:54Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 18:54Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 18:55Natasha Rai: And that's really important, isn't it?
- 18:56Natasha Rai: Like so many of us competitions, even if there's no money, the opportunity to get in front of a publisher or to have a relationship is so important.
- 19:06Kaya Wilson: It's pretty priceless and it also means like, so some of those competitions lock you in or kind of lock you in.
- 19:12Kaya Wilson: Right.
- 19:13Kaya Wilson: Or, or like, yeah, this was an assessment.
- 19:16Kaya Wilson: Great, knew who I was.
- 19:17Kaya Wilson: And then, yeah, you're not anonymous when you do send it.
- 19:21Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 19:22Natasha Rai: And so after she resubmitted it, um, did you have like a long wait?
- 19:26Natasha Rai: Like, how did that play out?
- 19:29Kaya Wilson: That is hard to think about.
- 19:31Kaya Wilson: Um, I, I couldn't tell you how long it was.
- 19:36Kaya Wilson: It would have been less than a month.
- 19:38Kaya Wilson: Okay.
- 19:39Kaya Wilson: That's pretty good.
- 19:41Kaya Wilson: Yeah, I think that is pretty good.
- 19:42Kaya Wilson: Yeah, I think industry standard is probably within six weeks, but I'm sure there's plenty that go over.
- 19:50Kaya Wilson: I've had some go over actually recently, so.
- 19:55Natasha Rai: And it was a yes.
- 19:57Natasha Rai: It was a yes, which was, it was magic.
- 19:58Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 19:58Kaya Wilson: So that was also a beautiful experience.
- 20:00Kaya Wilson: It was like, okay, it all, it was like, it was very stepped.
- 20:03Kaya Wilson: So it was like, okay, enter the competition and get the thing.
- 20:06Kaya Wilson: Have that relationship, work on it, take your time, resubmit, and it was like, okay, you lay the ground, and then it was a yes.
- 20:13Kaya Wilson: So, in a, in one sense, um, the, the, I didn't get a no, I didn't experience a no with that first book, but like, it was almost like, the groundwork had really been laid.
- 20:28Kaya Wilson: So like any opportunity for a no would have known about ahead of time.
- 20:31Natasha Rai: Yeah, exactly.
- 20:33Natasha Rai: And you did all that important work by entering those competitions as well.
- 20:36Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 20:36Kaya Wilson: And I guess some of those were almost like no's.
- 20:39Kaya Wilson: Um, but in a way it, like, it felt smooth, even though it was a sort of cumulative kind of process.
- 20:46Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 20:47Natasha Rai: And what was the kind of process like once you got that offer?
- 20:51Natasha Rai: Was there more, another few rounds of editing?
- 20:54Kaya Wilson: Yes.
- 20:55Kaya Wilson: So yeah, there was actually quite a big, cause I was like, great, done.
- 20:58Kaya Wilson: Sweet.
- 21:00Kaya Wilson: No.
- 21:01Kaya Wilson: Also, I was like, okay, well, so now I just like collect my check.
- 21:07Natasha Rai: Open my champagne.
- 21:11Kaya Wilson: Um, and although it's, I do think it's something actually Liz Duck Chong has said to me, like, it's really important to celebrate each milestone.
- 21:19Kaya Wilson: Uh, and I really try to honor that, which is nice because you're always on to the next thing.
- 21:22Kaya Wilson: So it's always good to like stop and go, okay, yeah, great.
- 21:25Kaya Wilson: Let's, let's open that champagne or whatever it is.
- 21:28Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 21:29Kaya Wilson: Um, and.
- 21:33Kaya Wilson: Okay, so then they read it, then they sent it to, they were actually on two, there were two main editors.
- 21:43Kaya Wilson: So there was like one person who did like, cool, like a deep edit.
- 21:47Kaya Wilson: Um, and then there was another person who kind of did another type of edit and then there was a line edit.
- 21:54Kaya Wilson: So the deep edit.
- 21:57Kaya Wilson: Was pretty full on, um, and require quite a lot of work after that.
- 22:03Kaya Wilson: And I'd say, you know, probably had it for six weeks or so, but like working on it quite a lot weekends then.
- 22:15Kaya Wilson: So I'd say maybe three or four rounds of edits.
- 22:19Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 22:20Natasha Rai: And just, just on that, given how some writers can feel quite.
- 22:25Natasha Rai: not precious, but very protective of their manuscripts, and it's fiction.
- 22:30Natasha Rai: How was that process for you being?
- 22:32Kaya Wilson: So for me, the process of editing, um, just for context, I was actually doing it the same time I was like finishing my PhD, which is also being edited.
- 22:43Kaya Wilson: Um, God.
- 22:45Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 22:48Kaya Wilson: And Honestly, I had a very sensitive, gentle editor for the, for the memoir that was honestly like light and day between the PhD where they just kind of, they've got no qualms with red pen or telling you you're wrong.
- 23:01Kaya Wilson: Okay.
- 23:03Kaya Wilson: It was actually the edit.
- 23:04Kaya Wilson: So for me, the editing process was.
- 23:06Kaya Wilson: Really great actually felt collaborative.
- 23:08Kaya Wilson: It felt like a little bit of a relief that was being taken care of and there's like publishing world.
- 23:12Kaya Wilson: So, yeah, so the editing was lovely.
- 23:15Kaya Wilson: It was much more of an emotional, difficult, emotionally difficult thing when I did a legal edit.
- 23:21Kaya Wilson: So, for me, because I name and talk about real people that aren't me, legal edit was quite hardcore.
- 23:31Kaya Wilson: Um, and.
- 23:33Kaya Wilson: So a lawyer literally said you like, like highlighted certain things and said, either you can't say this or you need to change it, or this is true, but it sounds a bit like you mean something else.
- 23:47Natasha Rai: Okay.
- 23:47Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 23:48Kaya Wilson: Um, and.
- 23:50Kaya Wilson: That felt, uh, that was difficult because it was very much about telling my truth.
- 23:57Kaya Wilson: And so when someone says, Oh, you can't tell your truth, that was a lot harder.
- 24:04Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 24:04Kaya Wilson: Um, and then I sort of settled it in the sense of I'm telling my emotional truth.
- 24:12Natasha Rai: Nice.
- 24:13Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 24:13Natasha Rai: I like that.
- 24:15Natasha Rai: And, um, when did your memoir get put out into the world?
- 24:20Kaya Wilson: It's 2021.
- 24:23Kaya Wilson: Um, my first event was Sydney Writers Festival, which I think was May.
- 24:28Natasha Rai: Oh, that's a big one.
- 24:29Kaya Wilson: It was a big one.
- 24:31Kaya Wilson: Sure.
- 24:31Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 24:32Kaya Wilson: So that, like, that was a lot.
- 24:34Kaya Wilson: Um, but it was cool.
- 24:35Kaya Wilson: It was really cool.
- 24:36Kaya Wilson: I was paired with, like, it was such a wild experience.
- 24:39Kaya Wilson: Like, I think back on it now, it was probably my wildest, like, Writer Festival events ever.
- 24:44Kaya Wilson: Um, and it was my first, uh, so that was really exciting.
- 24:49Kaya Wilson: Also, it just felt very cool, having gone to Sydney Writers Festival many times, it felt awesome being in it.
- 24:55Kaya Wilson: And also, you're sort of guaranteed a bit of an audience, which, um, well, I don't know if you are, but it felt like I was.
- 25:02Kaya Wilson: And I was like, I'm, I'm like, honestly, I'm sort of scared to even throw parties for myself.
- 25:07Kaya Wilson: Like, I just don't have that particular confidence angle or whatever it is.
- 25:13Kaya Wilson: Um, so yeah, I just.
- 25:16Kaya Wilson: I was like, Oh God, it was, it was nerve wracking.
- 25:20Kaya Wilson: And like, when we're talking about the, the, I guess like the confidence rainbow, I'm pretty confident on stage and that's not, that's okay for me.
- 25:29Kaya Wilson: But like the, the kind of experience of putting it into the world just added a whole different corner of the rainbow.
- 25:37Kaya Wilson: That was really Nerve wracking.
- 25:39Kaya Wilson: Yes.
- 25:40Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 25:41Kaya Wilson: And a lot of anxiety.
- 25:41Kaya Wilson: And, you know, you go to this like hotel and it's like such a cool hotel and like everyone's making a huge deal out of everything.
- 25:50Kaya Wilson: You know, the programs there, there's like super famous people in the hotel, you know, and then you like go to the event and you're in the green room and I was just like trying to do my breathing and.
- 26:00Kaya Wilson: You know, someone comes up to me and they're like chatting and they were like, relaxed and I'm trying to just like, hold it together.
- 26:07Natasha Rai: Trying to keep it together.
- 26:08Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 26:08Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 26:09Kaya Wilson: And it's like wild event with someone who'd written a book about, um, uh, donor babies.
- 26:15Kaya Wilson: So, um, so children who are conceived using, uh, donate, donated egg or sperm or whatever combination.
- 26:25Kaya Wilson: And she was very anti.
- 26:27Kaya Wilson: donor babies and she had been a donor baby herself but hadn't known about it until she was a grown up and so she had quite a lot of um, she had a lot of emotional baggage about the whole experience but then I was like this queer writer and then we were being moderated by Maeve Marsden who yeah literally she's lovely she's awesome and I'm so like no one else would have been to handle this And because she is both a donor baby and was pregnant with a donor baby at that moment.
- 26:57Kaya Wilson: And then this like journalist who was really anti the whole thing and then like me and I was just so relieved it was Maeve, um, who I was familiar with and I just knew would be able to do it.
- 27:06Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 27:07Kaya Wilson: Um, God, what an experience.
- 27:09Kaya Wilson: I know.
- 27:09Kaya Wilson: It was like, It was spicy and the questions were wild and it was a super queer audience because of me and Maeve, I guess.
- 27:17Kaya Wilson: And then, yeah, it was, it was, yeah, it was full on, but the, but then like the party afterwards was great, you know,
- 27:25Natasha Rai: yeah.
- 27:25Natasha Rai: Get rid of all that tension at the party.
- 27:26Kaya Wilson: Yeah, exactly.
- 27:29Natasha Rai: And so you've mentioned, Kaya, that you've just submitted your next manuscript.
- 27:34Natasha Rai: Is that fiction?
- 27:36Kaya Wilson: It is fiction.
- 27:38Natasha Rai: What can you say about that?
- 27:40Kaya Wilson: I'm like really comfortable talking about it.
- 27:42Kaya Wilson: I don't have a problem doing that.
- 27:45Kaya Wilson: I don't know if there's like reasons why you shouldn't.
- 27:48Natasha Rai: I don't know either.
- 27:48Natasha Rai: I've always been curious when writers are like, I can't talk about it.
- 27:51Natasha Rai: I'm like, why not?
- 27:53Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 27:53Kaya Wilson: I mean, I'm not under some kind of like, doesn't have a deal yet.
- 27:56Kaya Wilson: So it's not like I'm under some kind of, I don't know.
- 27:58Kaya Wilson: Also, it's not like state secrets.
- 28:00Kaya Wilson: Do you know what I mean?
- 28:01Kaya Wilson: This is, this is just.
- 28:02Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 28:03Kaya Wilson: Um, yes, I've written a novel, it's, um, it's young adult classic coming of age tale.
- 28:12Kaya Wilson: It's a bit of a riff off Romeo and Juliet with like a young queer character who, um, living their life and then goes off to tropical fruits festival up in Lismore and explores themselves, their body, other people's bodies, and, and has a wild time in a fairly like safe community situation, basically.
- 28:32Natasha Rai: Awesome.
- 28:33Natasha Rai: And so how was that experience for you writing something like, you know, fiction?
- 28:38Kaya Wilson: Yeah, it was, it was a totally different experience.
- 28:43Kaya Wilson: I'd describe it as joyous.
- 28:45Kaya Wilson: Like, it was really fun.
- 28:47Kaya Wilson: I was super strategic in how I set that out as well.
- 28:51Kaya Wilson: Like, I just feel like I'm in a place in my life where I'm a bit more in control of how my life works.
- 28:56Kaya Wilson: I, uh, very intentionally, um, worked out how to apply for a grant with Arts ACT and, you know, did a lot of work and research into how I could optimize it and how much I should ask for.
- 29:09Kaya Wilson: And I, I ended up getting a grant.
- 29:12Natasha Rai: Congratulations.
- 29:13Natasha Rai: Awesome.
- 29:13Kaya Wilson: Thanks.
- 29:14Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 29:14Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 29:14Kaya Wilson: So it was 25, 000, which is not to be sneezed at and much more than any advance.
- 29:20Kaya Wilson: Um, probably ever going to get.
- 29:21Kaya Wilson: So, um, yeah, I got that, went four days a week at my day job.
- 29:27Kaya Wilson: Uh, so wrote one day a week, which is a formula that worked for me with my memoir.
- 29:31Kaya Wilson: At the time I was doing a PhD, so I had a bit more control over my time, but yeah, so this time I just, yeah, went four days a week, uh, got a mentorship with Katherine Hayman.
- 29:40Natasha Rai: Oh, yes.
- 29:41Kaya Wilson: Yeah, a bit of an icon.
- 29:43Kaya Wilson: And, um, yeah, so did the mentorship, wrote, wrote the book, um, also did for the first time I really looked at books on creativity, um, books on plot and storytelling and, you know, Creativity in general.
- 30:00Kaya Wilson: Um, and that was a really kind of cool experience.
- 30:04Kaya Wilson: And it just felt honestly very playful and fun.
- 30:08Kaya Wilson: And like I had a license to kind of do whatever I wanted and I loved it.
- 30:13Kaya Wilson: I had a great time.
- 30:14Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 30:14Natasha Rai: How wonderful.
- 30:15Natasha Rai: And actually I was going to ask you about how you.
- 30:18Natasha Rai: Balance work and writing.
- 30:19Natasha Rai: But it sounds like, as you said, you were very strategic and figured out what you needed to do, which was the extra day, right?
- 30:24Natasha Rai: Or that one day.
- 30:25Kaya Wilson: Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- 30:25Kaya Wilson: It works for me.
- 30:26Kaya Wilson: I need to have that dedicated time.
- 30:29Kaya Wilson: I don't work well if I'm flipping and flopping between lots of other things.
- 30:33Kaya Wilson: I can't just like take lunch, break and do Right.
- 30:36Kaya Wilson: Right.
- 30:37Kaya Wilson: I mean, I can sort of try, but it doesn't suit me.
- 30:39Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 30:39Kaya Wilson: Um, and I think also, especially for fiction, well, for me anyway, there's this kind of concept of shutting everything out so you can have freedom.
- 30:48Kaya Wilson: And like, I just have to like, really, like life is pressurized for everyone.
- 30:53Kaya Wilson: Right.
- 30:53Kaya Wilson: And to do creative work under pressure just wasn't going to work for me.
- 31:01Kaya Wilson: And so I just needed to totally, uh, isolate time so that I could.
- 31:07Kaya Wilson: Really play and, um, create something without a kind of, without that sort of pressure, you know, it's hard to describe having read these creativity books.
- 31:20Kaya Wilson: Now, like, I'm starting to understand.
- 31:22Kaya Wilson: That's what helped it.
- 31:24Kaya Wilson: It helped me with my practice was more than with the content, um, and creating a writing practice is something I really understand now.
- 31:33Kaya Wilson: And it's It's so important, I think.
- 31:36Natasha Rai: So does that mean that before you started writing this particular manuscript, you didn't have a dedicated writing practice?
- 31:43Kaya Wilson: Well, I say I came and went.
- 31:44Kaya Wilson: So like when I was doing my PhD, I was writing my memoir.
- 31:46Kaya Wilson: I did do, I wrote, I wrote, wrote on Mondays.
- 31:49Kaya Wilson: Um, but no one was stopping me, you know, like no one was watching over my shoulder, whereas now I'm like, you know, I work for an environmental consultancy and my time is charged by the hour.
- 31:59Kaya Wilson: So I have to deliver 8 hours of work a day.
- 32:03Kaya Wilson: Um, so yeah, I had that one day a week practice during my PhD.
- 32:08Kaya Wilson: After I finished my PhD and I was working full time, I didn't have a practice in that sense.
- 32:12Kaya Wilson: I sort of did here and there, one at a time off on weekends.
- 32:17Kaya Wilson: Then when I got back to that Four days a week working one day a week writing.
- 32:21Kaya Wilson: I was like, okay, this is it.
- 32:23Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 32:23Kaya Wilson: And that has worked.
- 32:26Natasha Rai: Yeah.
- 32:27Natasha Rai: So are you going to try and keep that practice going or are you back to full time work?
- 32:32Kaya Wilson: Well, well, well spent the grant now.
- 32:36Kaya Wilson: Um, but I just couldn't bring myself to go back to five days a week.
- 32:40Kaya Wilson: Like I was like, I just thought about it.
- 32:42Kaya Wilson: I tried to like visualize it.
- 32:44Kaya Wilson: I can't do it and I can afford it.
- 32:47Kaya Wilson: Um, and I was like, this is a privilege that I am going to enjoy.
- 32:51Kaya Wilson: And so I just work four days a week still.
- 32:54Kaya Wilson: And that fifth day I either do an adventure, like go, like this weekend going canoeing, or I'll do writing from writing mode, or I might use it, um, to go to an event, say a writer's festival or something.
- 33:08Kaya Wilson: But I do whatever it is.
- 33:10Kaya Wilson: I can't try and keep it intentional.
- 33:12Natasha Rai: Yeah, I really like that.
- 33:14Kaya Wilson: Don't do laundry.
- 33:15Kaya Wilson: What I'm trying to say is don't do boring stuff.
- 33:17Natasha Rai: Yeah, exactly.
- 33:19Natasha Rai: You've got five other, six other days in fact to do that.
- 33:22Natasha Rai: Um, and also in terms of when you started to write that, this manuscript, um, Romeo A Tale of Four Charms, I really love the title.
- 33:30Kaya Wilson: Awesome.
- 33:30Natasha Rai: Um, did you feel any pressure or any type of, I don't know, worry or fear or misgivings about, you know, moving from forms, memoir to fiction?
- 33:44Kaya Wilson: Honestly, I didn't really, I didn't think about it.
- 33:47Kaya Wilson: I mean, what, you know, having tried to very intentionally take on a creative practice, I just, and, and, and having, although I have one day a week, it still feels like only one day a week.
- 34:01Kaya Wilson: Um, and I'm only going to spend it doing something that truly drives me.
- 34:05Kaya Wilson: Like writing a book is hard and.
- 34:08Kaya Wilson: It has, you have to have something sustaining you and so I just went with the thing that stirred my, my soul.
- 34:16Kaya Wilson: Yeah, yeah.
- 34:17Kaya Wilson: So I wasn't nervous about moving to fiction at all.
- 34:20Kaya Wilson: And then when I like submitted it to my agent, she was like, Oh, this is great.
- 34:25Kaya Wilson: She was like, Oh, I was a bit worried because moving from memoir to fiction is really hard.
- 34:29Kaya Wilson: And I was like, Oh, um, I didn't know that.
- 34:32Natasha Rai: So it sounds like either, you know, cause having spoken to lots of different emerging writers and debut writers, some of us, and I did at one point as well, there's a real sense of urgency.
- 34:48Natasha Rai: Like, Oh my God, if I don't write this thing, or if I don't grab this opportunity, it's gone forever.
- 34:54Natasha Rai: But it sounds like.
- 34:56Natasha Rai: You don't have that, or you, you've figured out how to write that?
- 35:01Kaya Wilson: I absolutely have a sense of urgency, um, but I don't, but I try and keep it out the door when I'm writing, if that makes sense.
- 35:09Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 35:10Kaya Wilson: So I use, probably channel that urgency.
- 35:13Kaya Wilson: We're trying to channel that urgency into planning, or, you know, getting those grant dates, or, um, that kind of thing.
- 35:23Kaya Wilson: And then I don't, I try to.
- 35:26Kaya Wilson: sort of negotiate with it when it's things like, oh, this is really topical and he's getting out now, you know, but I had no control over that.
- 35:32Kaya Wilson: So yeah, I, yeah, I do have that sense of urgency in many ways, but I definitely try and keep it out, out of the door.
- 35:41Natasha Rai: And it sounds like you've gotten quite good at channeling it into things you can do like g rant submissions.
- 35:46Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 35:47Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 35:48Kaya Wilson: And like those things are hard and Uh, artists are always bad at them usually, but you've got to like, I don't know, try and like use your skills.
- 35:56Kaya Wilson: Like I'm 40 now, I've accumulated other skills, I can do admin and like, yeah, so try and channel that kind of logistical energy into that.
- 36:06Natasha Rai: So we are actually nearly out of time and you've actually given me lots and lots of good tips, but, uh, the final question I have is, do you have any top tip or tips for any, for emerging writers?
- 36:19Kaya Wilson: Yeah, I mean, when I have said those things in response to your questions, you know, I think about, oh, well, that's what Stephen King talked about, you know, right?
- 36:28Kaya Wilson: The first draft with the door closed, second draft, the door open.
- 36:32Kaya Wilson: Um, it was kind of helpful conceptually, but I say the most helpful thing.
- 36:37Kaya Wilson: I think is developing that practice.
- 36:40Kaya Wilson: So, um, lots of people will tell you what works for them or they will tell you what is absolutely you must do.
- 36:47Kaya Wilson: But it is about what works for you.
- 36:49Kaya Wilson: So if you, um, if you've got small Children or whatever.
- 36:53Kaya Wilson: Working 5 a.
- 36:54Kaya Wilson: m.
- 36:54Kaya Wilson: 7 a.
- 36:55Kaya Wilson: m.
- 36:55Kaya Wilson: might be your time for practice or, or like, you just have to work it out so that you, you come to the table, you come to the desk or the, or whatever it is with regularity, however short or infrequent it is to just.
- 37:12Kaya Wilson: Or not some commitment that in a way that works for you.
- 37:17Natasha Rai: Exactly.
- 37:17Natasha Rai: Because I think people get trapped into the comparison.
- 37:21Natasha Rai: Like, oh, well, so and so can write five days a week, but I can only write two.
- 37:24Natasha Rai: It doesn't matter.
- 37:26Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 37:27Kaya Wilson: You just got to find that practice and like you will make progress even if it is incremental.
- 37:31Natasha Rai: Exactly.
- 37:32Natasha Rai: Progress is progress,
- 37:33Kaya Wilson: right?
- 37:33Kaya Wilson: Exactly.
- 37:34Kaya Wilson: Yeah.
- 37:36Natasha Rai: Well, thank you so much.
- 37:37Natasha Rai: It's been absolutely delightful having this chat with you.
- 37:40Kaya Wilson: Me too.
- 37:41Kaya Wilson: I really enjoyed it.
- 37:42Kaya Wilson: The only thing I have to hold back is I want to ask you too, I want to know what your practice is.
- 37:46Natasha Rai: We'll do that offline.
- 37:47Natasha Rai: Okay.
- 37:48Natasha Rai: Um, but honestly, best of luck with your, um, manuscript and, um, I hope it's not long before we see it on shelves.
- 37:54Kaya Wilson: Yeah, neither.
- 37:55Kaya Wilson: Neither.
- 37:56Kaya Wilson: Thank you so much.
- 37:56Kaya Wilson: It was a real pleasure.
- 37:57Natasha Rai: Thanks, Kaya.
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