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Being in a toxic relationship can DESTROY your body · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  What is going on, beautiful people?
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  Today we're going to be talking about how narcissistic or toxic
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  abuse can actually destroy your body, your physical body.
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  If you're new here, my name is Lee Hammock.
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  I'm a self aware narcissist and welcome to another episode of
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  the Narcissist Code. So welcome back folks, welcome
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  back, welcome back, welcome back.
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  Yes, yes, yes. Part of it, part of dealing with
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  a narcissist and toxic person in this relationship.
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  Yeah, in these toxic spaces, part of it is coming to the
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  realization that it could absolutely have an effect on
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  your physical health. It can destroy your body.
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  It just absolutely can. You know, not just through just
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  mental, emotional abuse can have a direct effect on your physical
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  well-being. It can actually make you sick.
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  I don't think a lot of people realize this, but like, being in
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  a toxic relationship for long enough can absolutely lead to
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  you being sick. It can absolutely lead to you
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  putting on weight or losing a lot of weight.
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  It can absolutely result in you looking in the mirror and not
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  really not like recognizing yourself anymore.
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  This happens y'all. It happens, y'all.
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  Stress kills. Let's be real.
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  Let's keep it hot. Let's keep it hot and rated like
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  a little Caesar pizza. I tell everybody this all the
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  time. Stress is a killer.
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  When you're in a toxic, narcissistic relationship,
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  stress is going to be on the menu at all times.
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  Stress is going to be consistently on the menu.
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  Stress like you're going to be stressed out.
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  This is one of the the telltale signs of being in an abusive
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  relationship is that you're going to experience a lot of
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  stress. There's going to mess with you.
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  It's one of the things that is going to consistently mess with
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  you. Y'all, you very rarely when
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  you're in a narcissistic types of relationship, are you going
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  to have peace? Are you going to get to
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  experience some type of peace? They're not like your peace
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  doesn't benefit the narcissist. I know that sounds ridiculous to
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  say out loud, but let's be I, I told you, I'll keep it high and
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  ready your peace. You being at peace does not
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  benefit the narcissist at all. And yes, I'm in a old house
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  right now. We're on vacation.
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  You I'm an old house filming. That's how you see this these
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  kind of what is it like kind of artistic, artistic wallpaper in
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  here. So it's the it's the unique
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  choice, but this is what happens.
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  Y'all narcissistic people bring you stress like when you like.
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  This is one of the telltale signs of being in a toxic
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  relationship. I I ask people are like, how do
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  you feel when you when that person is coming home from work?
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  Like if they come home from work at 5:15 every day or if you get
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  home from work at 5:15 every day, how do you feel going home?
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  Or to your narcissistic partner, how do you how do you feel when
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  they are coming home to you? Ask yourself that question isn't
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  it's an important question to ask.
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  How do you feel? How are you feeling?
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  What is going on in your heart, in your mind?
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  Is your heart racing? Are you feeling great?
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  I'm going to hone to my partner very it might feel their way in
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  the beginning. You might feel that way in the
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  beginning. It very well might be that way
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  in the beginning where you feeling you're just feeling
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  exuberant about going home to your toxic, possibly
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  narcissistic partner, right? You might very well be feeling
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  exuberant. You might be very, very, very,
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  very well feeling good at first, but as the relationship shifts,
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  as things keep going on, as the relationship progresses, you
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  don't feel as good coming home anymore.
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  So that's stress. You get stressed coming, you get
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  stressed getting up in the morning.
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  You get stressed going to sleep beside this person.
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  You get stressed coming home. You get stressed at work.
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  You get stressed on break on lunch.
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  You get stressed when you're on vacation.
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  You get stressed when you're not on vacation, when they're on
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  vacation. It's all like you're going to be
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  consistently stressed and under stress and duressed the entirety
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  of this relationship. When the love bombing phase
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  ends, when the devaluation starts, when the love bombing
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  ends, you're going to be under constant stress.
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  You know, all the love that you were feeling, all those good
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  emotions that you might have been feeling in the beginning,
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  they're going to turn into bad emotions.
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  They're going to turn into you feeling bad about yourself or
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  you feeling bad about this situation or this relationship
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  in general. They're going to switch.
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  They're going to change up. They're going.
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  The dynamic is going to flip on on top of his head.
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  Sometimes that's just the space that you fall into when you're
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  in a toxic narcissistic relationship.
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  And the longer you stay in it, the more stress you're going to
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  feel and the more your body is going to change.
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  You're going to eat you. You might eat your feelings
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  right, so you might gain weight. You might stop eating at all, so
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  you might lose weight. The narcissistic person might
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  use might be might be performing food abuse on you.
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  I have a very recent video I did about food abuse, how they just
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  chastise you for eating too much.
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  You really, you really going to eat that?
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  You going to eat that your, your pants look a little weird on you
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  now. So you might stop.
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  You might be self-conscious. They might make you super
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  self-conscious and stop you from eating.
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  You see, you see what I'm saying?
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  This could be your parent making you feel like you're too big and
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  they put a, a damn a lock on the refrigerator so you can't go
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  into it at night. They put a lock on the pantry so
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  you can only go into it when they allow you to go into it.
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  When you earn it right, you have to earn the right to eat, which
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  is insane for you know, you see what I'm saying?
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  Having to have a kid insane to make them earn the right to eat
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  within your house, within your space.
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  It's insane mindset. But this is the, the, this is
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  the mindset of a toxic, narcissistic, abusive person.
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  I promise you they like the more look, the more stress you are
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  under, the better the narcissist feels.
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  Your stress directly benefits the narcissist, right?
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  You being under stress, you've been under constant stress and
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  the rest benefits them. It's one of those things that
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  happens y'all, and this is again, this is not me trying to
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  just lay into you. I'm just letting you know the
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  mindset that goes into this. Your stress is directly
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  beneficial to them. So you like you might eat, start
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  eating too much, you might start eating too little like the
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  stress can actually lower your make your immune system go down
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  so you can start getting sick in general like set like you can go
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  and start getting sick in general, like you start getting
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  more cold. You, you like, you used to be
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  like imagine, and a lot of you might, a lot of you might
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  understand this. Imagine being pretty much
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  healthy your entire life, right? You like, you go to your entire
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  entire life without getting a cold, but somehow in this toxic
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  relationship, you get colds all the damn time.
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  You always sick. You like, damn, I'm always sick.
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  What is going on? What's happening?
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  Why am I always sick? Why I always got a headache?
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  Why am I always why I always get a while walking around all day
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  with a damn headache? Like there's rarely, rarely a
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  day that goes by I don't, I don't have a damn headache.
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  The stress of this relationship is destroying your mental
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  health. It really is destroying your
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  physical health. It's making you actually getting
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  physically sick. Why am I getting all these hives
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  and whatnot? It can destroy you.
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  It can, like I said, stress. Like imagine being in one of
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  these toxic narcissistic relationships, right?
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  Right in the stress of it causing you to have a like this,
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  you can get PTSD from toxic relationship y'all.
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  You can develop CPTSD or PTSD from being in a narcissistically
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  or toxic abusive relationship for being in a relationship in
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  general that brings you a lot of stress.
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  You can get PTSD from it. You know, PTSD like you've been
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  like you've been to war and you saw some things something
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  happens when you saw your friend or family member get unalived in
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  the war or something like that. You can this relationship can
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  cause you to have a mental health struggles like that which
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  which can be in is like I said, it is relate.
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  This is a question you have to ask yourself.
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  A lot of people have to ask themselves this question right
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  here. Is this relationship worth your
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  mental, physical, emotional health?
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  I know people believe I love them.
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  I love them so much. Is love worth your physical
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  health? Because it can destroy your body
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  one day you can be you. See what I'm saying?
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  Narcissistic people, again, they make you feel.
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  They can make you feel bad about going to the gym.
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  You can go into this relationship a personal trainer,
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  right? Or a fitness freak.
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  And you just always, you work out three, 4-5 times a week.
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  You might have met the narcissist in the gym and now
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  they make you feel self-conscious like every time
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  you go to the gym they have something to say to you or
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  you're meeting you're Boo at the gym, you're cheating me at the
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  gym. So now you don't even want to go
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  to the gym. Every time you go to the gym,
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  you have your little workout outfit on or whatever.
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  They make you feel bad. You get it's an argument every
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  time. So you need to stop going to the
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  gym. So now you don't recognize
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  yourself. Now they keep putting now they
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  keep like I said, now you keep putting babies in you.
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  You know, if you're, if you're, you know, child childbearing
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  person, they keep putting babies in you over and over again.
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  They keep you pregnant, they don't let you go work out.
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  They don't let you. They they make sure you don't.
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  You're not eating good. So now you might have gained a
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  lot of weight. You know, you no longer
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  recognize yourself. So now you're stressed out
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  because you don't look the same anymore.
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  You see how that works? That's awful.
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  But this happens to so many people.
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  It really does. So many people go through this
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  type of abuse where you look different, you feel different,
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  you act different, like you have like mental abuse leads to
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  physical abuse, which can lead to you getting physically sick.
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  Like you, you like, you might need a therapist.
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  And this is not me trying to, you know, pick on anybody, but a
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  lot of times both in like in a relationship with a narcissist,
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  you might need to go talk to a therapist as well.
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  You absolutely may need to go speak to a therapist because
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  like, if you don't, this is what happens.
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  If you don't go talk to a therapist, you might end up
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  going through this road, this toxic rodeo of just being, just
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  being always being unhealthy, always being sick, always with,
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  you know, stuffy nose or headache or something like that.
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  These toxic relationships could absolutely destroy your body.
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  A narcissist could destroy your body.
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  Guess what happens? Y'all, you already know what
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  happens. Soon as you start looking
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  different or acting different, feeling different, you're always
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  sick. You, you didn't gain weight, you
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  don't lose weight, you don't look the same anymore.
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  And narcissist tells you I'm leaving you and they go find
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  somebody else. They leave you mentally,
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  emotionally, and sometimes physically broken.
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  And then they feel like they tell you that you're not good
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  enough for them anymore. So they try to replace you.
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  They go out of their way to replace you.
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  Now ain't there some evil like they went out of their way to
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  destroy you and they're trying to break you down Now they've
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  replaced you and leave you like leave, leave you kind of leave
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  you where you are right now. And this is not the end.
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  I'll tell you right here. This is not just because they
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  leave you. It's not the end.
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  It's not the end because sometimes as soon as you get out
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  of a relationship, there's a, there's a woman in my, in my, in
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  my support group. I do have a support group.
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  Got the mental healers. You can find a link in the
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  description or scroll across the bottom of the screen.
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  Everything you can find at mentalillness.net.
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  Right. But she, she's like, I don't
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  work out. She's like, I, I've been on the
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  relationship eight months. I lost 50 lbs.
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  So I, I walked by crowds of dudes and they like, damn, girl,
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  look at you, you know what I'm saying?
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  They, she's flexing on them now. She and she all she did, she she
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  walks more and she's outside. She's healthier, she's happy.
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  You know, she and she's like, yeah, I lost 50 lbs.
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  I don't go to she's like, I don't go to the gym.
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  I'd just be out here walking. I don't lost £50 because the
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  stress she's people like you'd be surprised, like narcissistic
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  abuse can toxic abuse. The stress can keep you up late
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  at night. So now you, you sleep deprived.
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  So now you're unhappy. Now you're always tense.
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  Now you can't give fully to your kids.
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  So destroying your mental health, physical health, because
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  now you sleep deprived. Now you get out of these toxic
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  relationships. Guess what happened?
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  You sleep a lot better. Like damn, damn, I you wake, you
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  go to sleep one night. You, you so you in this time
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  while you're in a narcissistic relationship, right?
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  You normally get about 3-4 hours of sleep a night.
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  Maybe that Now you get out of it, you sleep 678 hours.
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  You're like, damn, I'm refreshed.
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  You see what I'm saying? You like Simba.
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  I'm really I'm working on my roar.
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  You got a roar now. Used to be like a little pic
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  squeak. You're like Ram Ram now you in
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  the morning. It's brings you peace.
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  A lot of times to get out of these relationships that they're
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  not really trying to work on themselves.
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  If they're not trying to change their behaviors to make you feel
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  any better or to lower the stress in the damn house.
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  It's sometimes it's better to be without this person at least
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  sleep in a different room or something like that.
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  You know what I mean? I just wanted y'all to be safe
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  and protect yourself y'all, because y'all know y'all know if
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  y'all can't say anything about Lee Lee hey, Lee want us to win.
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  He I feel like Lee want us to win.
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  He tells me I want he want us to win and he's doing his thing to
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  help us win. If that's all I want, I want
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  y'all to win. I seriously seriously.
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  Do you know I mean but anyways, y'all, thank you for tuning into
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  This is out. Peace.
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