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AUTISM Black And White Thinking (Emotions) · Aspergers & Autism Podcast [The Aspie World] AuDHD

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  then we'll get started with the video.
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  But basically in this video when we talking about and dealing
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  with emotions autism Asperger's Syndrome dealing with emotions
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  are doing with different emotions black and white versus
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  kind of like the gray area in the middle.
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  Okay, so let me know in the chat.
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  You can hear me good. All right, so I want to see this
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  video a nice live video because usually I don't do live videos.
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  But now I realize I could do these live videos in here then
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  upload them to YouTube like you're watching right now if
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  you're watching on YouTube and it's all well and good.
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  going on today that oh, hey, Entice creative actually did a
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  So let me watching on the replay on Facebook or YouTube or sorry
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  It won't take away from the content.
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  We're talking about here today. So basically I thought I do this
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  video like this because that was the best way to do it rather
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  than a sit-down video on YouTube.
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  But if you want me to do more of a sit-down kind of academic
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  looking at the academic side of it in the study side of it on
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  YouTube. Let me know in the Comment
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  section below if you're watching this on the replay on YouTube or
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  Facebook and then I will upload that but I want to talk about
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  the difference of understanding emotions and reading my own
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  emotions dealing with those emotions.
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  So and I want to use a classic example because the feeling was
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  raw and and it's difficult. So people on the Spectrum who
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  have autism Asperger syndrome, they have a difficulty
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  understanding their own emotions.
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  Like they don't know how to properly kind of like show those
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  emotions. How do I how do I deal with
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  them? How do I communicate?
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  Emotions out there because it's very black and white.
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  So some things are the one way or the other way.
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  So for instance, I can be really really sad about something and
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  I'm really sad about it, but then I can be also instantly
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  happy about something. I'll be really happy about it
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  that kind of Middle Ground that gray area.
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  Is non-existent for me so it doesn't really I can't just be
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  like a little bit I have to eat everything on nothing.
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  You know, I mean, it's like that whole mean with a light switch
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  between my emotions on or off as like that's it.
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  And so the interesting thing that I want to talk about is I
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  was really involved with a political campaign that's
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  happened here in the UK. So pretty much this week or the
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  week just gone. We had a general election here
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  in the UK. And the general election was
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  between to put two political parties with it was loads
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  involved but there's only two main ones and that's heavily
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  involved with Her Majesty's opposition.
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  I work quite closely with the Labour party and I did a lot of
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  work with them and I spend a lot of money from them and I put a
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  lot of money in there and I donate to a lot of Charities
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  that are involved with them and all those kind of things anyway,
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  but I was emotionally attached to it and eight.
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  I know the leader of the party or that they actually do
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  particle Jeremy corbyn actually know his And so I was quite
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  involved with labor party and really kind of like, you know
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  there with them basically and then the general election
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  happened and unfortunately the rhetoric of brexit kind of took
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  over and it became another referendum here in the UK and
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  the conservative party. Got it.
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  Now. I had an epidemic meltdown
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  almost psychological breakdown because because I'd felt Despair
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  and give me just a second guys. Yeah, I felt despair because
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  like I said my emotions were like I can only be really happy
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  really sad. So when the when the election
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  came out and then obviously the the far right kind of extreme
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  party got in. I got really sad without drug me
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  excessively into anger and and I became so like I'm swamped in
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  negativity and anger and I kind of couldn't I couldn't hardly
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  see my eyes were so foggy literally actual foggy and that
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  stress and I couldn't really talk about it.
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  I can't communicate my emotions that well so my girlfriend was
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  like asthma right and I didn't know and then all my friends my
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  Facebook would just like messaging me like you okay, like
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  what's going on and and it's kind of like it was it was it
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  was consuming me like this, there's negative angle because I
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  was scared, you know fear kind of it consumed me but there was
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  no way to communicate that so nobody ever was off course long
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  as I don't really know. I can't like I don't know what's
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  wrong. I just feel a certain way and
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  Was it was really interesting? Because like it had been even a
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  long campaign, you know, and and it was a quite emotionally
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  exhausting because you put all your emotions and something to
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  try and help like the homeless people and disabled people and
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  people who are sick and in desperate need and then everyone
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  votes against it was quite damaging that was a damaging
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  kind of like thing for my sake. So this is interesting.
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  So I mental health of a massive kick and it's funny that my
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  mental health is a huge kick in the Ghoulies.
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  My autism doesn't allow me to see that middle ground that gray
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  area where like okay, there's you know, there's a way that I
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  don't know. You know, I can't even explain
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  like there's a there's a gray area.
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  So Because my emotions don't deal with gray area.
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  Well, I couldn't kind of like rationally think so my brains
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  want to complete meltdown. So then I kind of like just just
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  shut down and I started like just cutting people in my life
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  because I couldn't talk to them because I didn't know how to
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  talk how to communicate with them.
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  Like, how do I communicate with somebody who I felt had done the
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  wrong thing, which is obviously, you know, just an opinion in the
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  day. It was very difficult.
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  So then we flip that over and then we have the fact that then
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  I kind of of a kind of snapped out of it quite quickly because
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  then I realized that there was other things I could do that can
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  make me happy was really quite interesting.
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  So I went from being excessively sad like, you know, all the very
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  damaging Lee mentally unstable for like two days that exhausted
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  me a chameleon. I had a Catholic stress
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  blindness and stuff. It was really it was quite it
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  was quite difficult to watch and then like literally the same day
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  that I was feeling all these emotions.
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  I met up with some people who also helped me run the campaign
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  and then we talked Project move on the future and all when we
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  instantly felt better and and it was quite it was quite weird.
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  You know, like I've never had no experience that kind of level of
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  feeling down and and because of that it was I thought I'd I
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  thought I try to explain to you guys because you guys all know
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  that the whole thing better my girlfriend can't deal with it.
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  And this is why she kept the what she's like Knott County
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  with it was wrong with say what work shows a she can't
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  understand it because she was like one minute.
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  I'm excessively like sad like despair likely the end of
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  everything and then the next minute I'm like, oh, yeah.
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  I'm absolutely fine now and then so it's like it's like up and
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  down. There's no kind of like, oh, you
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  know, I'm feeling a bit down but let's go on with things.
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  It's almost like I'm completely immobilized or and completely
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  energized and activate its going to do stuff and it's
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  interesting. I don't know if anyone else
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  feels like this and get this way as well, but it's quite
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  frustrating because There's no because of the way my mind works
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  when my neurological path of in my brain work.
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  It's hard to find that kind of like, oh, yeah reason for
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  between the black and the white my girlfriend is neurotypical
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  and she's really good. Actually, it's usually good to
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  help me try to figure out but my goodness, it's crazy when you're
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  that when you're that depressed and but this is the this is the
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  kind of roller coaster part of the that I wanted to just ask us
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  because I was like super depressed like mannequin
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  manically depressed and it instantly a bank just back up to
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  normal speed just just a couple of hours apart, you know, and
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  that kind of to me that seems normal so I go okay.
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  I'm over it but my girlfriend's like how do you get like, how
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  did you go from being like that to being being not and I think
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  it's it's the way that black and white again, you know, there's
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  either extremely sad or extremely happy.
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  There's no like I'm a lot of a sudden look we're happy, you
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  know, there's no in between and then I found it quite
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  fascinating quite difficult to deal with but I'd love to If
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  anyone else ever comes across those kind of difficulties.
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  Hey greetings from Australia here.
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  And how's it going? Because yeah, I want to know I
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  do I like it. No, I do I do.
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  I wish it was better. I wish I could deal with with
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  emotions better and I wish I could deal with like feeling
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  down or depressed better. Obviously that's like an
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  ongoing, you know mental health issue.
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  Hey, thank you for loving my videos here from the UK and I
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  think that you know, I don't know if I can I don't know.
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  I'd love to know I'd love to be able to see that Grey area.
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  Maybe it's a good thing. I don't see Graham.
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  It was good to have just that like one extreme to the other,
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  you know, and and it's it's if it's a gray zone is confusing
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  and anxiety starting. Well, yeah, I think like like
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  you get like maybe it is and maybe it's that transition from
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  black to white. Is that the anxious part because
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  then I go from being anxious to being extremely depressed and I
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  had like that was probably the biggest burn out man.
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  Down shut down I've ever had it was all of those things in one
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  and it was it was scary to say the least because I felt really
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  suck. Like I felt so down.
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  I didn't know what I was doing anymore with life.
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  You know, I felt like oh my goodness.
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  What am I even doing anymore? Because you kind of you can't
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  see anything else to kind of focus on that one thing and that
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  one thing happened to be negative energy.
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  But now I'm still focusing on the happy things and the good
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  things and the positive energy and the active support moving
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  forward, but But gray areas and and all that middle ground don't
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  exist to me and it's difficult when I wish I could see gray
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  because I think it makes things a little bit easier.
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  But at the same time I'm glad my brain works the way it does and
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  I'm happy that I'm able to do all the things I can do.
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  Really I think to meet what to me.
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  Anyway, I think it's a It's a interesting thing hate from New
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  Zealand. So what are your thoughts?
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  Do you guys understand the gray area?
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  Do you have the black and white thought process is Everything
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  All or Nothing of can you just go half and half if you don't
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  want and also I'd like to know some techniques on it.
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  Maybe I should look at maybe we should do a proper video on it
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  not just live video because maybe we should look at like the
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  definitions of like, you know, what how to bridge that in
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  between part because I don't know if it's healthy going from
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  excessively depressive to excessively happy.
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  Then just stay in there, you know, it's not like, you know, I
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  don't know it's not it's not like it's not like you're going
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  like that and you've got like manic depressive personality
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  disorder. It's like I'm extremely
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  depressed and I'm extremely happy to carry little puffs of
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  being happy and until something else knocking down another go
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  back to being happy, but it's not, you know, it's frequent as
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  a manic-depressive I guess. How do you feel about online
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  therapy like seven cups or talk space guys?
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  Actually, I am trying out a new one.
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  I'm trying on up a mental health counseling app, which I will be
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  giving you guys access too soon because they wanted me to just
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  try it out. And so they give me the free
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  access to try out. So I'm going to try it out and
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  if if I like it I'm going to promote it and you guys will
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  have I'm sure you guys get a discount code if you get my
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  link, but anyway, they'll alright is coming with a
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  company. And I'll tell you more about it
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  when it's ready, but I want to test out first because I don't
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  want to do send you something which is just rubbish.
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  You know, I want to test it out because I'm looking at different
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  ones and you absolutely right not does online counseling local
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  and on counseling works. So there's online counseling
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  with me be I'm hoping so I'm hoping this one is I actually
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  have a counseling session this this week on the 20th of
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  December, which is Friday Saturday, Friday Friday in the
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  evening and it's gonna be good and I'm hoping to see you know,
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  if it works really well, then I can promote it to you guys. so
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  in terms of emotions, I think that this is one of the causes
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  of the shutdown's is because we're not feeling of wild on the
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  motion and I can't kind of like Express that I mean with that is
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  the gray area but no normal talking really expresses my
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  emotion, but that physical like boom hitting that Rock Bottom
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  low depressive state is kind of like my emotions kind of coming
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  out and rocking out a little bit and I think that that is
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  difficult to deal with because I'd love to be able to just
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  explain I'm feeling the same way, but I just feel like I lost
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  you know where government setting like, okay.
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  So how you know how you feel about it?
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  Why do you feel so sad? I'm like, I've no idea.
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  I can't explain it and I try and explain it and it just like I
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  don't even know I like the only I could say to us.
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  I felt detached from reality. I felt like outside of that like
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  and it sounds weird and it's not that you're going to get mad
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  when you say it starts from reality, but I didn't mean it
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  like that. I mean like I couldn't
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  communicate with what I was seeing and no way to relate to
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  the environment that I was presented with.
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  I mean how you know and that's that's honest, you know, that's
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  how I felt and it was weird and scary at the same time.
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  Maybe T talks with Dan should be like a thing green tea and
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  Christmas mug this time, even though I do have like a bunch of
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  different ones, but there's a Christmas like and yeah, maybe
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  we should do to time every week at this time.
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  But but yeah, but so that was the thing, you know, I don't
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  have healthy. I don't know if it's unhealthy.
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  I don't know if it's normal if it's your typical for people on
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  the Spectrum and but you know, I think it was definitely
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  something I wanted to talk about because it's that black and
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  white thinking, you know, it's everything on a thing and The in
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  between parts so difficult and I think that that in-between part
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  actually causes so much stress because I'm trying to think
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  about it. I'm trying to figure out but it
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  just doesn't compute and then it just has a backlash doesn't it?
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  And it just me, you know lashing out and then getting kind of
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  super depressed. And also I have this thing, you
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  know, when you're hitting that when you hit that Rock Bottom,
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  it's that kind of like, you know, the punching walls or like
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  hit my head and stuff because Cuz it's kind of like my body's
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  like a like a knee-jerk reaction.
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  I don't actually I'm not actually physically trying to
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  them and actually actively thinking about a bunch like I
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  hit myself book, it's weird. It's like I don't know and it's
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  I don't like it. I don't like it one bit.
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  You know, I wish I couldn't feel that negative energy and I wish
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  I didn't react like I'm in a wish I didn't get depressed.
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  But at the end of the day, I guess that we have to think
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  about things in Balance if I didn't ever get depressed and
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  how would I know what excessive happiness would be if I didn't
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  have anything to I prefer the opposite and so I think maybe
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  dark should exist to understand the light and that's a difficult
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  thing to kind of comprehend. You know, we only know extreme
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  gratitude because we see extreme Devastation.
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  So yeah, I'm always grateful for things and idea of gratitude for
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  everything and everyone that I'm not depressed.
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  I've got a cheat for results. So what you think what you all
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  must shift for autism, I actually did a video All About
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  Elon Musk fixing autism or solving autism as he said with
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  his company neural link the videos on my YouTube page.
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  So if you go to my YouTube page, it's like the fifth video.
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  I uploaded if you go back five videos.
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  It was a video Elon musk's autism, especially in him like
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  so yeah definitely check it out. And I don't know about it.
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  I explained on the video. My feelings are going to go
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  through it now because in this video was talking about, you
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  know, the difference between like the dark that the the black
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  and the white thinking, you know, there's no in-between part
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  and I think it makes us wildly unique to have that ability of
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  thinking and maybe that part of In comes into play in Great
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  Moments where you have to make decisions and I'm quite good at
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  making decisions about okay. I'm going to do this or I'm not
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  going to do that. And I know who I am.
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  My girlfriend says this is always an interesting trait
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  about me. I know what I want and I don't
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  want and I'll just do those things and that is a good
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  quality for having my lighten my hip my black and white thinking
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  No Gray in between because they're gray area because people
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  uncertainty and hesitation and hesitation can cause accidents
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  anxiety and all kinds of stuff. So yeah, maybe the black My
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  thinking does come into it, but but yeah, and you know, that's
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  how it is. I don't know.
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  Anyway guys, let me know what you think about.
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  December the what 17th. I'm going to see Star Wars
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  tomorrow, and it's gonna be amazing.
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