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Dee-1 "My Grandpa’s Final Lesson Changed My Life Forever" | The Love You Moore Show · Love You Moore with Willie Moore Jr.

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  [SPEAKER_05]: Next, on the love of yours.
• 0:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, bro is like... Let me say this, let me.
• 0:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: So... So like... This is how long?
• 0:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm a rapper, I can't hear you, hello.
• 0:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: There we go.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I, so broke my grandpa, you know what I mean?
• 0:32
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like his last days, like, Finn and Dad, um, Hospital B. We grew up Catholic, called the priest up.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Grandpa, you know, Finn and the be out of here.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Can you come, pray over him, that alive?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Father Tone in New Orleans, real cool dude, let him in.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: He comes to the hospital.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: He's sitting at the bedside, talking on my grandpa, and at the end of the convo, the priest is in tears because he's like, my young grandpa is blessing me in a way that I would have never imagined through what he's telling me, his reflections on life and everything.
• 1:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: He leaves, I welcome back to his car.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: He goes to church the next day, this was Saturday.
• 1:32
  [SPEAKER_02]: And he scraps his whole sermon and preaches about my grandpa, right?
• 1:36
  [SPEAKER_02]: And about the convoy they had and how blessed he was by it.
• 1:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: He sends me the YouTube video of the sermon after after church while I'm in the hospital next to my grandpa.
• 1:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: Y'all are in the care about who I am.
• 1:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, I don't at all.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Y'all care about what am I doing.
• 1:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: And the probably the impact of that is something that I feel it, man.
• 2:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think I feel it.
• 2:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think I feel it.
• 2:05
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, and I'm like fame and social media is creating a lot of Christian narcissists.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You feel me?
• 2:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: Explain.
• 2:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, bro.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: It's just a lot of people that really just want to be famous and they just use a Christianity as the lowest hanging fruit to help them appear appeal to a captive audience
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Yeah, it's a different field today.
• 2:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: You can feel it, can't you?
• 2:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: I put these boots on specifically for the guests that I'm about to hang out with because we walk in into a whole revolution right now that's really attractive to the next generation.
• 2:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: And of course, he's been literally disrupting culture now for years and years.
• 2:43
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I feel like we getting close to the pinnacle of the pop of the revolution.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And he's one of the leading men.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: doing what he has to do.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: But before I tell you who that is, can I do?
• 2:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: Can you do me a five a real quick?
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Come here.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Come a little closer, Shakwan.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Thank you.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Subscribe to this channel.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Come on, that's what we got to do.
• 3:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: Come on, we got to do.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: You got to stop when the shopping and go ahead and then commit.
• 3:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: Listen, don't cost you nothing to press subscribe.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: We're on our way to three hundred thousand subscribers.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And I cannot wait to hit that mark.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Not because we want to walk around and say three hundred.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Well, maybe you know the movie.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: I watched that movie.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: I liked the three hundred.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Let's do it for that.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Let's do it for the three hundred movie.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Let's go all the way three hundred thousand.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And I just believe by faith man, guys going to do it sooner than later.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: But as I said,
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  [SPEAKER_08]: The young man that I get an opportunity to hang out with, I have known him for years and years and years and years and years and to see the maturation of his brand, his ministry and his mission has been really, really encouraging.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: To many of you all who are in the Louisiana area, you probably know him as Ms.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Dahl's thing.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm a y'all grown now, but I see you on this comment on my teacher, right?
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And for others who are at, you know, schools like Harvard and so many other schools, you may know him as the rapper David Augustine aka D. One, but for me, it's my brother and my friend D. One in the building.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: What's up, champ?
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Yes, sir.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Thank you for having me, bro.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Yes, Lord.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: All I'm gonna say is a lot of the change, man.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Man, bro, it's crazy.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Cause I don't even remember when we first met.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: But all I know is you've been the same version of you since I met you, meaning like, I'm gonna find a way to shine the light that God gave me.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: By any means necessary.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: That's what I know you as you feel me.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And I think that's what we got in coming.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And more so than anything else is just, I'm gonna use the God gave me.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And I'm gonna maximize it during this existence down here and after that, go be with him.
• 4:36
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's the real talk.
• 4:37
  [SPEAKER_08]: I think I think you're absolutely right about that most people ask me like so what's the goal?
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  [SPEAKER_08]: What's it been?
• 4:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: I just like bro.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: I just want to use all these gifts that guy gave me because I know I know life is fleeting and mom is quickly become members.
• 4:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: So if I can use this in a cool way and bring some glory to his kingdom and some people give they light to the Lord some people change their life and make some different decisions.
• 4:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: They're man, you know I did my purpose I did my job like a lot of people do it to be saying I do it to be purposeful man.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Yes, sir
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  [SPEAKER_02]: and I tell people about myself, there's never been a blueprint to me trying to do God's work.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: It's never been me looking at like, oh, this is a business plan for me.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, it was literally me graduating college from L.S.U and Bad and Rouge Louise and a year ago.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Can I just boo you real quick?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I went to all men.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You went to all men.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: It's okay.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: L.S.U.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And that's all me.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Hot time, got your mighty hood of hell or weed.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Right, it's so aside from that, brother.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Now imagine graduating with a college bro, you know, almost lost my life in college.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Bro, I was at LSU, and I was, I was trying to be a, I guess I was just trying to be a man that my grandparents and my parents could be proud of, so I'm in route to getting this degree.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And man, one day.
• 5:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: Three dudes, come out of nowhere.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm playing basketball and these three dudes come run up on me and my boy and we victims of our arm rivalry, right?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And this is a few months before I graduate.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: One of the dudes in the middle, out of all three of them put a gun out his waistband, put a right up here on my tail, but actually it was right here, right here on my temple bro.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And, you know, they're trying to, it's crazy.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: They're trying to avenge
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  [SPEAKER_02]: one of their homeboys who got his car broken into and they was trying to like earn a stripe for him or they was trying to, you know, show their love to the him.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So them coming thinking that we did it leads to this taking place on this basketball court.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And in that moment, bro, I had all the way become okay with like, I'm about to die, you know what I'm saying?
• 6:34
  [SPEAKER_02]: And like, once you get to that point where you're okay with that and I'm really about to die, two thousand my head, one,
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I didn't think it was going to happen like this, God, like this while.
• 6:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like they bought it literally blew my brains out.
• 6:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: But secondly, man, I'm about to die the same way.
• 6:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: My best friend just died, you know, recently back in New Orleans.
• 6:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I just was like, well, I guess this was my fate.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So in that moment, it hurt me that I knew I could have lived my life.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm like, twenty years old at the time.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: It hurt me that I knew I could have lived my life bolder.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: It's that I always trying to fit in with people.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Damn, I could have been bolder about trying to do the right thing and go and make the right thing cool, right?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: But I was too concerned with trying to fit in.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So all is going through my head over the course of like ten or fifteen seconds, right?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: A young lady was walking her second floor apartment.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: She looked down on the basketball court saw a list transpiring and she gasped real life.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Oh my god, you know, so when she did that, it caught everybody's attention.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: They looked up and saw her and they got spooked because now it's a witness to seeing what they're doing.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So they put the gun up, they ran off with our stuff and that was it, right?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I was okay with dying in that moment.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So because I was okay with it, it made everything after that feel like, man, I finally live my life fearful of trying to fit in with people or not having your acceptance or not being bold enough to make God proud after that bro, it's been up.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And I just had a different level of boldness about me.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Yeah, I was definitely bold.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: So I don't know if you had an opportunity to see any of the shows, but on the love you more show, we'd like to do a icebreaker.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And what you'd be in a musician, this icebreaker is literally a rendition of when I had went to therapy.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Because I started going there.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: I believe in Jesus and therapy, they go hand-to-hand, hand-to-hand, like pin-and-blood and jelly-back.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Go see it, go learn, go get more tools.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was challenged about not trusting people.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And we had to go into a moment in my life where my best friend, just like yours, they said he took his life.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: But I just knew he didn't do that.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And then the girl disappeared.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And from then on, it was really tough for me to
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  [SPEAKER_08]: really trust women like that.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Because she just disappeared.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: I've never seen her till this day.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: We still don't have these answers.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: So I had to go back to that in therapy.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And I remember when the therapist said, take me back to that funeral.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And that's how this song transpire.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: It's safe room for me.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Check this out.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Oh God, oh God Is there anybody out there?
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Never lost a friend like me?
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Oh God, oh God Is there anybody out there?
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Who needs to forgive God like me?
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Always keep it right now.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: That's mine.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Is everybody out there?
• 9:54
  [SPEAKER_05]: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: God is up to sleep now.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Oh God.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: I know how you feel.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Those feelings are me.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: I know.
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  [SPEAKER_05]: Just a little room
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  [SPEAKER_08]: anybody who's lost someone, make sure that you go stream, save room for me.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, I play that record because every single time I see you, you have Ms.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Augustine around your neck.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: And you've allowed her to go all around the world.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Whoa, Ms.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: Augustine, say it this version of David Augustine now.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Man, my grandmother, and it's funny you said it because I'm a grandpa around my neck today.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, it's always one of the other.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: All both, you know, when I really feel it, feel like I really flexed.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Man, my grandparents, they would truly smile at the man that I've become because I still have that innocence about me that they appreciate.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I still have that joy about me that could light up a room with my smile and with my laughter.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: But I have a sense of purpose that I think they could have never even
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Imagine that I would
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  [SPEAKER_02]: that I would grab on to and I would, you know, definitively know that this is what God called me to do, so I'm not gonna relent upon this purpose for anyone.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I think?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: That's something that my grandparents couldn't always relate to the path I took cause hip-hop.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: It like, man, what is this?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, my grandpa, like, please, won't you just go play the trumpet or something, you know?
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And my grandma, like, oh, I like when you was a teacher and I'm like, my mom, I'm still a teacher as a rapper.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: But I just have a way bigger class from right now.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And I don't think that she fully understood that until she will come to my shows and see all these people who are reciting my lyrics word for word and who are you in the fine behind love behind God behind these principles that's centered around making the world better.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: That's what I'm, that's what I'm thinking that they will feel is they know, man.
• 13:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: I had, you know, I don't know with the people you lost, sometimes we don't get a last conversation with them that we really proud of, you know, man, I think God knew that I loved my grandparents so much that he allowed me to have some powerful last conversations with them that I'm a hold on to until the day I leave this earth, you know.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And with my grandmother,
• 14:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: I was out here in Atlanta.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I was still living in New Orleans at the time, but I was out here in Atlanta and she called me.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And you know, I saw your mama call you or you call your mama.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Sometimes they'll be hitting us up and we busy.
• 14:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it's like, dang, I can't, I can't meet in a view, you know, maybe answer the phone.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So I will miss some of her phone calls, but she called me and I was riding past Lennox Mall.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And I was visiting that land of thinking about moving here.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And I remember answering that phone and talking with her.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Sam Benz, your mom, she joking.
• 14:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: She got all kind of, you know, just funny remarks to make.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: But she was like, I know that you are so committed to your work.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: And I love that.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: She said, I love that because you still make time for my mom.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, and her telling me that man that felt so good.
• 14:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: And that's the last time I ever talked to her, bro.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Well, so I just feel like everywhere I go on this earth.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: I still want to make time for my mom.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So I still want to wear around my neck or when my grandpa around my neck, you know what I mean?
• 15:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, that's good.
• 15:08
  [SPEAKER_08]: I think I would do one.
• 15:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: I got to ask you this.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: So I've seen you like really celebrate, you know, my mom and papa on so many occasions like what were pertinent, what were the parents growing up like what was like
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  [SPEAKER_08]: I see the fire.
• 15:21
  [SPEAKER_08]: Yeah.
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  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like, he always shows love the grandma and Papa, but like his wife.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: My mom and daddy are great people.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: A lot of people fry the thing.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: He was an orphan.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: He didn't even have a mom and daddy.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Now, bro, my mom and daddy are great, bro.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: It's interesting.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: They married and they're married.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: They're still together.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: They're in New Orleans.
• 15:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 15:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like literally.
• 15:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: So.
• 15:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: My grandparents that I speak of so much, those are my dad's parents.
• 15:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: Got it.
• 15:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: I never knew my mom's parents.
• 15:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: She from the country, she from a country town in Louisiana called Franklin.
• 15:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: Oh, yeah, okay.
• 15:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 15:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: There you go.
• 15:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: So she from there, um, and I never knew her parents.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, I know her mother passed before I was born and her father.
• 15:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think he passed when I was a little baby.
• 16:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So you've seen them really healthy household just growing up.
• 16:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: I did, man.
• 16:05
  [SPEAKER_02]: My dad was a welder.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: My whole life.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So I've seen blue collar worker wake up every morning.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, four a.m.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: in the morning.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: Go work on on the port of New Orleans.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, welding barges and ships and all that type of stuff.
• 16:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: And always leaving now after working ten to twelve hours, making it to my basketball.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: My baseball practice is you know to come and show that support and be there.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: My mama.
• 16:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: I saw my mom go to college while I was in middle school.
• 16:30
  [SPEAKER_02]: So she used to pick me up and let's just up here and bring us to the university.
• 16:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: And we would sit in library while she was in the class from taking night classes after working full-time all day to get her bachelor's degree.
• 16:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I saw her up it from a bachelor's to
• 16:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: getting her master's degree while I was in high school at that time.
• 16:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, so I saw this.
• 16:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: Bro, I have very, very good examples of just people that worked hard, that are not famous.
• 16:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, like my mom, she don't even be wanting to be in pictures that I post publicly because she's such a social worker at heart.
• 17:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: She's a social worker.
• 17:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: Okay.
• 17:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: So in her mind, it's like A.
• 17:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not trying to be famous.
• 17:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not trying to do nothing but make impact on the lives of my clients.
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  [SPEAKER_02]: So I've seen my family work selflessly my whole life.
• 17:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I think with my grandparents, they just had a different perspective on helping raising me because when you when you're a grandparents, you get to
• 17:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: I would say you get to enjoy the fun part of mentorship and guidance and not have to deal with the day-to-day part of these kids getting on my nerves.
• 17:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: So my grandparents' bro, it was just always so much joy and so much love that I'm like, I think I got off into the world and I was like, man, I'm trying to feel that in this world and I never been able to find it.
• 17:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: You hear me?
• 17:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: I never been able to find it.
• 17:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: They're just kind of hitting me hard.
• 17:55
  [SPEAKER_08]: So my dad's ninety four.
• 17:56
  [SPEAKER_08]: Yeah, my mom that you just heard, she eighty four.
• 17:59
  [SPEAKER_08]: And like we grew up in the hood, of course, you know, like the pedigree is what it was.
• 18:04
  [SPEAKER_08]: But in the house, it would just feel with love and to even imagine not being able to have that.
• 18:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's a little difficult because I know that it's rare.
• 18:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: I know that this unique.
• 18:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: We don't live in it.
• 18:15
  [SPEAKER_08]: They will never let me move out the neighborhood.
• 18:17
  [SPEAKER_08]: They just clean up what they got like this outhouse here.
• 18:19
  [SPEAKER_08]: I pay for this out, you know.
• 18:21
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I, when you said I was like,
• 18:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: Wow, like, you know, right now I haven't been able to find a bro, you know what I mean?
• 18:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: And maybe maybe there's a flaw in looking for that, you know, in other people, you know, and as I get older, you talk about maturation and even therapy and just growth, I think it's almost like that should be a way that I can share with I received from my grandparents without
• 18:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: condemning what I'm not receiving from other people and just cherish.
• 18:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: So with my parents, bro, I love my parents just as much as my grandparents.
• 18:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: I've had to learn to accept that they have a different style of loving me than my grandparents had of loving me.
• 19:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: One is in better or worse than the other, but you just have to appreciate that they're different.
• 19:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: So when it comes to knowing that there are different types of love, what type of woman could support a D-one and what type of support can you give a woman, considering that you know, you have a pretty, pretty big mantle on your life, you know, to be quite honest, like, does D-one try to date us like, man, really got tired of it, right?
• 19:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, for sure.
• 19:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: No, I think that the type of woman, the understands my mission.
• 19:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, like at this point, it's like if I had a little baby, it's like you married a David and a little David.
• 19:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's like my mission is like my child.
• 19:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: So somebody who gets with me, they getting with me and my mission.
• 19:46
  [SPEAKER_02]: And if they just like I like David, David is sweet, David is charming.
• 19:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: He has me cool all that, but the mission side or what do you want us to call to?
• 19:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know how I feel about that that wouldn't be ideal at this point, you know, because at this point, the mission has preceded even me being able to meet
• 20:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: whoever I meet in the world.
• 20:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
• 20:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like the mission is mission been attached to me for sure.
• 20:14
  [SPEAKER_02]: Fifteen plus years at this point.
• 20:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, bro.
• 20:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: At least sixteen.
• 20:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: Fifteen sixty.
• 20:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, literally more like sixteen.
• 20:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: So I feel so I feel so attached to that that I want to make sure that I'm in a position to love the mission.
• 20:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: But then I also love the woman, the way that the woman deserves to be loved, you know?
• 20:33
  [SPEAKER_08]: So, so how do you do?
• 20:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: How do you
• 20:36
  [SPEAKER_08]: differentiate David from D. One.
• 20:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: They're the same person.
• 20:40
  [SPEAKER_06]: Okay.
• 20:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 20:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I don't think there's such thing as clocking out.
• 20:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't think there's a clocking out of D. One to be David.
• 20:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's one of my superpowers is I never had to create a character named D. One.
• 20:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: David just started rapping and got a stage name.
• 20:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
• 20:58
  [SPEAKER_02]: Name D. One.
• 20:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: So they're one in the same.
• 21:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: I do think that I've had to learn to deal with fame and celebrity status in real time.
• 21:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: There was no training man you were for this stuff.
• 21:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: Nobody in my family could help me when it came to that.
• 21:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: Nobody that I was close to growing up was able to teach me.
• 21:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: Look, this is how you're going to adjust to this.
• 21:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: I come from a family where nobody saw it out of fame, everybody just wanted to be a good person, and God's eyes.
• 21:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it would help do their work, and provide for their loved ones.
• 21:30
  [SPEAKER_02]: And that's it.
• 21:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, man, this stuff.
• 21:34
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't have kids at this stage of life, but I feel like I'm raising a whole bunch of households.
• 21:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
• 21:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: Just because of the weight of the calling on me.
• 21:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: And there's a lot of
• 21:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: burdens that I bear, the weight of a culture that I feel like, man, God, you gave me an opportunity to shift this culture into, to unzambify people.
• 21:54
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I mean, from being hypnotized by this odd form, that I don't even call it, it started out as hip hop, but it has become some, I call it, hip or critical hop.
• 22:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: because it's so hypocritical, bro, and it's so adverse to our healthy growth and our forward progress as a people that I'm like, dang, God, you didn't call me to do this.
• 22:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: The way this is definitely heavy.
• 22:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: So I just try to
• 22:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm just trying, I'm just trying.
• 22:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't really, I don't be knowing.
• 22:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm like, God, I don't know the magnitude of what you've called me to.
• 22:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I don't know what the shape of what you've called me to looks like.
• 22:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: And any desires that I've had on this journey
• 22:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: Those personal desires that personal ambition, I've always felt like that is caused my ego to maybe get in the way of what God's path for me is.
• 22:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: So I've always tried to figure out how to kill my ego and how to kill my own personal ambition.
• 22:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: And in doing that, you know, it be
• 23:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: It'd be an interesting journey, bro, like life, it'd feel like a roller coaster slash field trip, you know?
• 23:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 23:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 23:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I had to throw field trip in there because field trips are fun, you know?
• 23:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 23:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: And roller coasters are fun at times, but they could be scary at times.
• 23:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 23:15
  [SPEAKER_08]: What's scariest moment that you've had to kind of endure?
• 23:19
  [SPEAKER_08]: Because you've had a lot.
• 23:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: I can, I can consider you a distant friend.
• 23:23
  [SPEAKER_08]: I just cheer from, from stands and like, did you honestly what happened?
• 23:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: I say that on radio.
• 23:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: And, you know, just as a brother and as a friend, sometimes I'm like, how he going handle this part?
• 23:35
  [SPEAKER_08]: Because I want to handle this wrong.
• 23:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, I was like, is he ever coming to the station so I could highly him about that?
• 23:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: Because I think a lot of times, you know, I think I fight with, like, bro, you don't really know what I've been through.
• 23:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I know what that pedigree is.
• 23:52
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, I know the pedigree of God who actually, not that he was made to do that, but he's had enough
• 23:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: traumatic experiences that like that's his pedigree bro like he gonna hurt some but then when I look at you rapping I'm like bro you ain't even that pedigree you should probably be me those who know they know they can look you in your eyes and sing what you experience so when I look in certain people eyes when I go minister at jails and stuff ninety two percent of these guys I'm like bro like you made a mistake but eight percent of like that you know they want to do this how do you remain how do you keep your composure doing all scary moments in what scary moment was yeah
• 24:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: Bro, I got stuff that nobody don't know about, that I've been through what has happened to me, that I still struggle with the fame part because it's like, with the fame is being an open book.
• 24:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: A form of ministry for the people who guard has allowed me to have their ears in their attention, or is it like being an open book?
• 24:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: Can be the scariest part because maybe some of these things, I haven't even come to grips with about my own life or my own background and would not end.
• 25:00
  [SPEAKER_02]: That stuff is way scarier than some rappers having beef with me.
• 25:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, bro, so when people see a fearlessness in me when it comes to the hip hop industry or me trying to literally shift this culture, that fearlessness is there because the fear that I have, I ain't sweating on these little dudes.
• 25:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: The fear that I have is some stuff that people don't know publicly because this ain't been a D one moment yet.
• 25:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: This ain't been a D one.
• 25:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: Tell all yet.
• 25:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's stuff that David is like.
• 25:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: Do you even want to talk about this stuff publicly or is that going to make it?
• 25:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
• 25:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, I still got a lot of that.
• 25:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 25:39
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, I think I do too.
• 25:41
  [SPEAKER_08]: I've never got into the Manusha of what divorce was like for me, even though it's very public and people like her side and I just never really necessarily said stuff.
• 25:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: I think it's very freeing for me on this platform when I think the second episode, I got with Larry Reed.
• 25:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was like, I was molested as a kid.
• 26:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: And that was tough.
• 26:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: And that's why I was so sexually active.
• 26:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's why I became pretty willy.
• 26:03
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's why I made all six songs because that's what I thought I was good at.
• 26:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I live my life to prove that I can be the be this guy.
• 26:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I got a chance to see that.
• 26:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I can understand the scariestness of it all, but however, I just know that a lot of times
• 26:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: I would prefer to eighth mile it.
• 26:18
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I'm just literally asking God, like, okay, what's the time of that?
• 26:21
  [SPEAKER_08]: Because once I free myself in front of the world, if you would, it would be so many men in my inbox, like, hey, bro, I went through that too and that was tough for me to just add another.
• 26:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was like, yo, the one thing that I thought would be something that would be very heavy, actually became another wing of my ministry because I actually became a human.
• 26:39
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like I was adopted.
• 26:40
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I wanted to be like, uh, the hooks to boost.
• 26:43
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like that was my,
• 26:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: Leans of family.
• 26:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, I'm like, well, we don't have the best children.
• 26:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: We're gonna do this.
• 26:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I had this perfect thing going on.
• 26:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: I just couldn't really live up to it.
• 26:52
  [SPEAKER_08]: And once I freed myself of that weight, it was like, God decided to just continue.
• 26:56
  [SPEAKER_08]: It was like, okay, what that's going.
• 26:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: Now, let me show you how to use it.
• 27:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's like everything God chooses.
• 27:01
  [SPEAKER_08]: He uses.
• 27:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: He's like, oh, I told you for that too.
• 27:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: He'll go out there and use it.
• 27:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I'm interested to see what that freedom is gonna look like for you because you are already like killing it.
• 27:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 27:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: I need it, bro.
• 27:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
• 27:14
  [SPEAKER_03]: So, um...
• 27:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, it's like I say it's good for people to see that like man, it's man killing this man so this but I'm knowing that it's like it's so much more potential bro.
• 27:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's just that it's the gotta be unlocked and and and and and and dealt with to where I understand it.
• 27:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm always been a teacher so I think I'm not used to
• 27:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: presenting something unless I'm able to teach about it.
• 27:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it's hard to teach about something when you're going through it in real time.
• 27:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: If that makes sense.
• 27:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: So I tell you make sense.
• 27:54
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, usually whatever I'm teaching is because I'm a master of that subject.
• 27:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm a math teacher because I know math like the back of my hand.
• 28:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm teaching hip-hop because I understand the history of hip-hop and the potential of hip-hop.
• 28:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: If I'm teaching stuff that on a personal level, maybe has, you know, has a challenge to me, you know, or things from childhood that I've like buried, you know, I'm saying it's almost like, I gotta get to the point where at least in my head, if I'm, when I present that stuff is because I'm in a position,
• 28:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: to teach on it and maybe that's just me being a teacher and feeling like I got to be there way where as maybe what you're saying is not as not always about being able to teach.
• 28:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: Sometimes it's just about being able to.
• 28:41
  [SPEAKER_02]: free yourself of holding on to something, you know what I mean?
• 28:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I've learned how to minister from the womb, because I believe a lot of times when we come to church culture and people who are in leadership, it's just fair, acidic, sad, acidic thing where it's like, if they know this part is just another, but when we look at Jesus, like he minister through the womb, like we continuously talk about the womb that he minister from.
• 29:03
  [SPEAKER_08]: like, we were across because of the womb.
• 29:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: We were like, it's like, I don't see nobody with a tomb on there.
• 29:08
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, I ain't nobody like just a tomb, baby.
• 29:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: Yeah.
• 29:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: Then when he came up out of, like, these are the clothes he wore.
• 29:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: It was like, nah, like, the ministry part is this the womb.
• 29:18
  [SPEAKER_08]: And so I think Christian people specifically people who get an opportunity to have a light on them.
• 29:23
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I'm guilty too.
• 29:24
  [SPEAKER_08]: I was preaching all around the world.
• 29:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: And like, was buried in this pretty Willie side.
• 29:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: People call me pretty Willie.
• 29:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: They might not.
• 29:31
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm blessing people right now.
• 29:33
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then God is like, no, I want to use that, too.
• 29:35
  [SPEAKER_08]: The Bible says that people that overcome by the blood of the lamb and the war and the words of their testimony, I'm like, how you want to use that, too?
• 29:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: But it can ruin all of this.
• 29:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: Man, I started to show that.
• 29:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then God had a whole new audience that just, I don't know that just keep coming.
• 29:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, this pretty, really kid does two million streams a month without drivers.
• 29:55
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I'm like, God, it's their way to minister in there.
• 29:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then the first time I go out is fifteen hundred people in St.
• 30:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: Louis and they will not stop screaming because they know who I have become.
• 30:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: But they also know where I've been.
• 30:08
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I couldn't even finish songs.
• 30:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: I kept going like this because they kept screaming.
• 30:11
  [SPEAKER_08]: I kept crying.
• 30:12
  [SPEAKER_08]: Yeah, the neighborhood gone.
• 30:15
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know what I mean?
• 30:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: And it just touched my heart so much.
• 30:17
  [SPEAKER_08]: So, you know, as God's timing reveals itself, I just think that there's a level of freedom.
• 30:22
  [SPEAKER_08]: There's a level of people who may not necessarily understand, but God just, he just has his hands on you.
• 30:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like it's really weird to see.
• 30:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: That is all God.
• 30:31
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, I mean, don't get me wrong.
• 30:32
  [SPEAKER_08]: I love the music.
• 30:33
  [SPEAKER_08]: I think the music is good.
• 30:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I think you don't, I don't think sometimes you understand that the man that you represent is
• 30:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's a full man that people and large can really do it.
• 30:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like if you didn't do music, we would still want to hear what you had to say.
• 30:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, I've been seeing that.
• 30:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: I've been seeing that over the past few years.
• 30:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: And you know what man dealing with the fame stuff?
• 30:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's also challenging because I see firsthand how this generation, like fame and social media is creating a lot of Christian narcissists.
• 31:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: You feel me?
• 31:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: Explain.
• 31:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, bro.
• 31:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's just a lot of people that really just want to be famous and they just use a Christianity as the lowest hanging fruit to help them appear appeal to a captive audience.
• 31:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, I mean, and I see it, bro, like I see it clear as day and any sad, you know, I feel bad for Jesus.
• 31:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: I feel bad.
• 31:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: I do.
• 31:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: I feel bad for God who feels like, man, y'all just, y'all just, y'all just, y'all literally
• 31:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: utilizing me to push your own agenda, and I see it, and it's something where some stuff that... There's a lot of things that I... You talked about how I deal with adversity, like public adversity.
• 31:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: There's a lot of things I know I could do or say they could go super viral.
• 31:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: If that's all I was concerned with doing.
• 31:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: But I don't...
• 31:53
  [SPEAKER_02]: do that stuff because I'd be wrestling with, well, what is God gonna get the glory from?
• 31:58
  [SPEAKER_02]: And oftentimes God ain't gonna get the glory from the thing that's gonna go to most viral, you know what I mean?
• 32:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: Because the people are entertained by mess and celaciousness and would not.
• 32:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I think that being, when I talk about, you know, a lot of narcissism being involved in what it is that we're doing, I just think that we live in a tell our society where people want to
• 32:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: they want to figure out how to, how to best, how to best elevate themselves and whoever comes along for the ride, they're happy, they're like, all right, cool, you was able to come up through this as well, all good, but I know deep down, you know, bro, it's like, let me say this, let me.
• 32:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: I,
• 32:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: So.
• 32:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: So like.
• 33:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm a rapper.
• 33:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: I can't hold on.
• 33:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: There we go.
• 33:05
  [SPEAKER_02]: I. So bro, my grandpa, you know what I mean?
• 33:09
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like his last days.
• 33:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like.
• 33:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: Finn died.
• 33:14
  [SPEAKER_02]: Um, has to be.
• 33:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: We grew up Catholic, called a priest up.
• 33:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: Grandpa, you know, a friend of God here, can you come, pray over him, die, die, die.
• 33:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: Father Tone in New Orleans, real cool dude, let him in.
• 33:30
  [SPEAKER_02]: He comes to the hospital.
• 33:34
  [SPEAKER_02]: He's sitting at the bedside, talking on my grandpa, and at the end of the convoy, the priest is in tears because he's like,
• 33:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: Man, your grandpa is blessing me in a way that I would have never imagined through what he's telling me, his reflections on life and everything.
• 34:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: He leaves.
• 34:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: I welcome back to his car.
• 34:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: He goes to church the next day.
• 34:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: This was Saturday.
• 34:08
  [SPEAKER_02]: And he scrapes his whole sermon and preaches about my grandpa, right?
• 34:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: And about the convoy they had and how blessed he was by it.
• 34:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: He sends me the YouTube video of the sermon after after church while I'm in the hospital next to my grandpa.
• 34:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: So I'm looking at it.
• 34:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it's crazy.
• 34:32
  [SPEAKER_02]: So I show my grandpa, I've been a dad, you know what I mean?
• 34:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: Show him the sermon and all the great things, the past day, saying about him and about the convoy.
• 34:52
  [SPEAKER_03]: For the first time in my whole life,
• 34:56
  [SPEAKER_03]: I see my grandpa start crying.
• 34:59
  [SPEAKER_03]: First, now it is.
• 35:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: Now the scene is, you know, and as the priest is giving him praise, you know, for the man he is in the convoluted head.
• 35:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: My grandpa just started saying, I'm over and over.
• 35:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: God, I'm not worthy.
• 35:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not worthy.
• 35:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's so bad.
• 35:37
  [SPEAKER_07]: Just like.
• 35:41
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's like... It's a...
• 36:00
  [SPEAKER_07]: It's a different level of selflessness.
• 36:09
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's a different...
• 36:27
  [SPEAKER_03]: It's a different level of selflessness that I've seen from the people I love, to where I'm trying, I'm trying to live up today.
• 36:55
  [SPEAKER_03]: I just see it so much in the industry, I'm in real objects like self glorification and narcissism and just like I see it, bro, I see it.
• 37:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: Whether or not people have made it and even when it's in me, it's like I'm trying to like
• 37:18
  [SPEAKER_02]: serve and lead from the most selfless place possible because like I've seen it you know I mean in my grandparents so that's just that bro that type of stuff.
• 37:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think that type of stuff gives me the strength to be the man who people see is like taking on like these glides, you know, in the industry and it's just because.
• 37:55
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, it's just because like,
• 38:00
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not really no industry at all, at the court.
• 38:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not an industry duper, I'm just in it, you know, come and see, they don't like.
• 38:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm fit to make a difference in it, but the whole way, I think, and move, it don't fit in.
• 38:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: So, that's how I would just be.
• 38:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: I just be trying.
• 38:28
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think the standard that I'm trying to live up to is in anything that this world can relate to or even fathom.
• 38:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: So in this industry, we just set the bar so low, long as you got some talent and some charisma, it's like,
• 38:45
  [SPEAKER_02]: that crown them, you know what I'm saying?
• 38:47
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like give them a platform and magnified it by forty years straight of just giving a platform to whoever got talent and charisma, even if they don't have no real character or no real morality that they try to uphold.
• 39:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: And that's why our community has like, she's been so hypnotized, you know, by what I call a hypocritical hype.
• 39:14
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it's tough.
• 39:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: So I'm trying, I'm trying, bro.
• 39:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: And there's other things I want outside of saving the culture or helping elevate the culture.
• 39:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, this is just such a tough task that it's like, man, trying to figure out how to just
• 39:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know.
• 39:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: Navigating this journey is going to require something from you.
• 39:56
  [SPEAKER_08]: Then I don't think you know how to do it.
• 40:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: David, you got to be kind to yourself.
• 40:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: You got to explore what kindness looks like for you.
• 40:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I think if Miss Augustine could say anything to the David that you are now, is that you don't know the journey that it took for me to be selfless.
• 40:24
  [SPEAKER_08]: The one thing that I believe would be a really great blessing is if you knew the journey of selflessness.
• 40:36
  [SPEAKER_08]: I think you will be kind to yourself because you're a mimicking a journey that you don't even know that you're mimicking.
• 40:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: And what got allowed you to do with seeing your grandfather is to see the pinnacle of what selflessness looks like.
• 40:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: And although he may have worked a different journey,
• 40:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: The selflessness, the weight of taking care of with so little and growing out and educating and doing this business is the same weight.
• 41:04
  [SPEAKER_08]: But God bless you to see the result of what selflessness looks like.
• 41:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I think the desire that you have for people to wake up is admirable.
• 41:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: However, I do think you have to be mindful of being kind to yourself.
• 41:18
  [SPEAKER_08]: And kind doesn't mean that you get it right.
• 41:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: Kind simply means that I love the fact that I get it wrong.
• 41:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, yeah.
• 41:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: And you know, um, it's a lot of people that's waiting to pound on my mistakes or my flaws or my imperfections because because of what I'm telling us that we're called to, which is like a man we're called to this amazing standard that Jesus said, we call to this level of greatness that
• 41:56
  [SPEAKER_02]: we all have inside of us that we just aren't tapping into and it's like even me just saying that and trying to model that it just has so many people that's waiting to try to discredit the heart behind what I'm doing and everything that you know man that stuff is
• 42:19
  [SPEAKER_02]: That stuff is heavy, bro.
• 42:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: That stuff is heavy.
• 42:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 42:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: And like I say, the personal stuff.
• 42:31
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, like I always, like my most famous song, you know, is a song called, I'm not perfect.
• 42:37
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm a Christian, you know, but I made sure to put, I'm not perfect in the title, you know, because I wanted people to know that they're like, man, I go hard, behind God, but I'm not ever claiming that I'm flawless, you know, and hopefully people can accept that as a package deal, you know?
• 42:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: And,
• 43:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: saying that you're not perfect doesn't have to become an excuse to to to languish in in in in sin and all that stuff, you know, and I just, uh, man, bro, I'm just trying to never gave fire and rule on this stuff is so weird thing, it's a weird thing, it's just a weird thing, bro, when, um, yeah.
• 43:29
  [SPEAKER_02]: But maybe the fact that I feel so uncomfortable in this space is there is that reason why I'm called to this space, you know, because it's like, oh, here ain't nothing like a lot of the ones that just are rushing to be in this, you know, for selfish reasons, it's like, like I'm literally only
• 43:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: using hip hop for the platform that it affords me to be able to put out God's word and put out the truth and put out love and education mixed into making words rhyme and making songs and having an audience.
• 44:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's the only reason why I'm using it is for the platform bro.
• 44:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like I don't love none of this.
• 44:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: I don't I remember
• 44:24
  [SPEAKER_08]: I just remember where I met you.
• 44:25
  [SPEAKER_08]: We down in Texas with Bizzle Neumann, and then D-Wans on the show.
• 44:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: And as the first rapper, I have a saying to say, yeah, I used to be a middle school teacher.
• 44:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: I mean, what did you start rapping for?
• 44:37
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I think you told the story about one of the kids got him or be a son.
• 44:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: I don't know if he just rode it or tatted it or something like that.
• 44:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, you know, you like, bro, that means money over, do you know what that means?
• 44:49
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, nah, one of the rappers got it, so I got it.
• 44:52
  [SPEAKER_08]: And it was from that moment that you stepped out on faith and was like, I'm gonna need that influence to when it started wasn't necessary.
• 45:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: And so I think the beauty of it all is that God honors, I mean, your Bible guy.
• 45:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: So David, so Samuel the prophet he goes to, I think most people know the story goes to
• 45:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: Um, Jesse's house to go pick the next king.
• 45:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: He had a little scared.
• 45:17
  [SPEAKER_08]: He scared us here because he like, I don't want saw the find out because Saul was set tripping and he goes in there and then he sees out these beautiful men.
• 45:25
  [SPEAKER_08]: And he's just like, surely you're the king.
• 45:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: You're the cleanest story goes that ain't none of them in the king.
• 45:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then they go get David and it was like him.
• 45:32
  [SPEAKER_08]: He ain't the most looking cool kid.
• 45:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: It just happens that you, you know, you David say good looking, but he's a kid.
• 45:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then it's just part.
• 45:41
  [SPEAKER_08]: where in IV version it says, you know, people just the outside, but God, God looks at the heart and he judges the heart and he examines the heart.
• 45:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's three different versions there.
• 45:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: And so I believe that if God is examining the heart, the biggest attack is on the heart.
• 46:01
  [SPEAKER_08]: Because if I was the enemy, I wanna go to where, I wanna go to where it really gonna irritate some.
• 46:08
  [SPEAKER_08]: So he's looking at the heart, meaning the motive, let me go knock on his heart.
• 46:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: And so what I have seen that enemy's biggest strategy is that he always wants to do something to make us protect our heart.
• 46:23
  [SPEAKER_08]: But the Bible says guard our heart.
• 46:25
  [SPEAKER_08]: Protection means I ain't let nobody come in here.
• 46:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: You can't come in here.
• 46:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: Guarding means let me gauge who I'm letting in here.
• 46:32
  [SPEAKER_08]: And that's a different position.
• 46:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: And so our circumstances and experiences make us be like.
• 46:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: Man, yo, it's crazy, but I just think if Dave, if David, aka D. One, can't remember that tattoo.
• 46:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: And remember, and you might not even notice because you was just in the book, how much faith it took.
• 46:52
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, I was in that seat.
• 46:53
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm about to go be a rapper pretty willy.
• 46:55
  [SPEAKER_08]: I got a full rise scholarship to the University of Mississippi.
• 46:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: My baby, by the Golden Law School, you just heard my mom and she love to brag on the phone with her friend.
• 47:03
  [SPEAKER_08]: And she got to go back and tell him he's gonna be a rapper.
• 47:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: I know that had to be very difficult for her.
• 47:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I knew that God wanted to use my journey differently.
• 47:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I think if you always continue to know that my motive is so pure, that my actions of humanity can never overshadow my Christianity.
• 47:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: Because anything that comes, staying on my anything that ever came, God just continued to elevate me as an ego and not in the prideful way is because my heart posture has always been pure.
• 47:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I never wanted to harm anybody.
• 47:32
  [SPEAKER_08]: I just was human.
• 47:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: And just a human.
• 47:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, that's, that's what it is.
• 47:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's what it is at the core, man.
• 47:42
  [SPEAKER_02]: So, you know, I've maintained my pure heart as much as humanly possible, man, throughout this journey.
• 47:49
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's water, in the spirit of this water.
• 47:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: Every time I see this water, I will never, I, when you're in the room, I'm just like, oh, it's water.
• 47:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's water.
• 47:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: I got water.
• 47:59
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's why we can connect because it's water.
• 48:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: I don't have no, like if I heard it, if I heard you and I, and I didn't address it, I overlooked it.
• 48:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: Mm-hmm.
• 48:07
  [SPEAKER_06]: Yeah.
• 48:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: I don't have them strategies no more.
• 48:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: Right.
• 48:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: And if I did have them strategies, I'm from there, bro.
• 48:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, I'm going to tell you, April, I came here for this.
• 48:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, bro, like, I'm not sneaking in.
• 48:18
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm bringing it to you, like, April.
• 48:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: Let's figure this out.
• 48:22
  [SPEAKER_08]: If I made them mistake, man, I...
• 48:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: Man, I didn't try my bad like I was on some crazy that it was a day.
• 48:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's why we're drinking right?
• 48:32
  [SPEAKER_08]: I know I went through the patterns every wrong decision.
• 48:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: I made it was because I had some alcohol
• 48:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then I meet my old dude, I'm like, now they're here.
• 48:40
  [SPEAKER_08]: Alcoholic, he can function.
• 48:41
  [SPEAKER_08]: He can do what he has to do.
• 48:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like, that's in my bloodline.
• 48:43
  [SPEAKER_08]: I gotta get rid of that.
• 48:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: That gotta go.
• 48:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: I mean, even my brothers here, like, they're like, oh man, how long is going to be?
• 48:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like, no, I gotta, it's a perpetual state of, I'm not finna make no mama stage that could be detrimental, not before, because of my name.
• 48:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: I can see that he's gonna keep on redoing what he's gonna do with me.
• 49:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: But man, look how many people I let down, like, bro, that was following Jesus because of me.
• 49:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then God was like, you ain't let them down, you let them to me.
• 49:08
  [SPEAKER_08]: Now I'm going to keep on elevating you to show to show them that it's a free gift for grace.
• 49:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: I have no idea how I'm continuously spreading his word and people continue to book and he doing this.
• 49:19
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I know what my heart mode of views.
• 49:21
  [SPEAKER_08]: I just want to see people get it and let them know that they ain't got to do the Michael Jackson and get to these Jesus that I talk to.
• 49:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: That the imperfection that I have has been better every failure that I've ever had has been better than any success that I did I have ever experienced because I've learned from it.
• 49:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm smart enough to be disciplined enough like what you got around your neck is what I got God bless right now still on earth at ninety four and eighty four.
• 49:41
  [SPEAKER_08]: I get a chance to sit at the feet of wisdom.
• 49:43
  [SPEAKER_08]: I was the young dude who want to be with all folks me too.
• 49:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like man y'all cool, but
• 49:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: Hey, that didn't tell me about that one.
• 49:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: Yeah.
• 49:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: But God knew that I had to get somebody that all in me because I would be called the leader generation of young people who might not get a chance to have a grandfather or a grandmother or a ninety-four-year-old father.
• 50:01
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I think that through this journey, you know, I see a pinnacle here and I know you know, but it's like what he's doing for you, like it's a growth and growth requires trials and tribulations and joy in them.
• 50:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, yeah, the joy in the trials and tribulations is the part that I got to that got to click to me that that point and that point and click to me yet, you know, the joy I put on I would say, yeah, it's just it's just me knowing it's just me knowing that I
• 50:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: that I'm in a position that I never thought I would be in, and I said that in a really humble way, I'm in a position I never thought I'd be in, so therefore I have a level of responsibility that I never thought I would have.
• 50:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's what it is.
• 51:01
  [SPEAKER_08]: Man, you know what, this year, going in the school, like I have been stuck on this one scripture, and I give it to my kids.
• 51:11
  [SPEAKER_08]: I've been giving it to people that I coach.
• 51:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: I've been giving it to everybody.
• 51:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: And it's just James one, two, three, four that we've all heard.
• 51:17
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's like consider a pure joy.
• 51:19
  [SPEAKER_08]: My brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials and many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.
• 51:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then he gives us a command.
• 51:27
  [SPEAKER_08]: He said, let perseverance finish his work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
• 51:33
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I just been stuck there because don't know that it's makes sense.
• 51:37
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like, wait, man, you say joy and trials of many kind, why from the neighborhood, we can play and cook and do some stupid what I'm doing.
• 51:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: I get joy when things work out.
• 51:47
  [SPEAKER_08]: But he's challenging my heart posture to have joy in it because perseverance
• 51:52
  [SPEAKER_08]: is making me mature.
• 51:53
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like, I'm already mature.
• 51:55
  [SPEAKER_08]: He was like, no, you matured to them.
• 51:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: You're not matured to me.
• 51:59
  [SPEAKER_08]: You taking on a kingdom as a little baby.
• 52:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I'm like, hey, I'm trying to mature you up.
• 52:04
  [SPEAKER_08]: And the only way to do it is do the trial and then finally it gave me so much joy and the scripture at the end.
• 52:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: It was like, so I don't like nothing.
• 52:12
  [SPEAKER_08]: So when I look at everything that I lack,
• 52:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: Sometimes I'm lacking sleep.
• 52:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: Sometimes I'm lacking the financial back and for this huge vision that I have.
• 52:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: Sometimes I'm lacking the friend.
• 52:22
  [SPEAKER_08]: Sometimes I'm lacking people that I can trust.
• 52:25
  [SPEAKER_08]: Sometimes I'm lacking confidence.
• 52:27
  [SPEAKER_08]: Sometimes I'm lacking discipline.
• 52:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I'm like, man, you got to put me through the trial.
• 52:31
  [SPEAKER_08]: So now when I go through the trial, I remember the scripture and then I discovered what joy looked like.
• 52:37
  [SPEAKER_08]: You got this jovial attitude towards a generation that has to know that this is a zombie generation that has to wake up.
• 52:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: However, you also, in my opinion, you also have to be like, yo, my trials and tribulations.
• 52:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: Yeah, something mature to come about it.
• 52:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: I know it look crazy.
• 52:56
  [SPEAKER_08]: Oh my God, they talking about me.
• 52:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like I remember when the news came out and I remember my friend from a very super duper blog that everybody uses.
• 53:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: She called and she's like, what's going on?
• 53:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: We getting a whole lot of work while wearing about this than the other.
• 53:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was like, you know, divorce is tough.
• 53:19
  [SPEAKER_08]: And she said, so what happened?
• 53:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: I said, I got it wrong.
• 53:21
  [SPEAKER_08]: I made a mistake.
• 53:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: So you forgive yourself before the, yeah.
• 53:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know what?
• 53:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: I made a mistake.
• 53:31
  [SPEAKER_08]: If you have to cover it, be gentle.
• 53:33
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's all I asked.
• 53:36
  [SPEAKER_08]: She didn't say, yeah, and they had never hit their website.
• 53:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's like I know who you are.
• 53:40
  [SPEAKER_08]: Later on, when I seen her at the same Jew thing, she said, I know who you are as a man.
• 53:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was like, dang, I wouldn't know, like, I don't hang out with her.
• 53:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: But evidently, my character has showed up, so my mistake.
• 53:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: She was like, I can't, I can't mess it with what I see God doing.
• 53:56
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like I won't put no light on me.
• 53:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: I say Larry Rene, like he was the king of messyness in our niche gospel culture.
• 54:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: But he called and said, are you okay?
• 54:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was like, I already know you gonna have to do your job.
• 54:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: And he said, are you okay?
• 54:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was honest, I said, no, I'm not okay.
• 54:17
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's the toughest time in my life, bro.
• 54:18
  [SPEAKER_08]: But you do what you gotta do.
• 54:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: And he said, I want to test this.
• 54:25
  [SPEAKER_08]: I said, okay.
• 54:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: I just think you have to know that your character, your main character, man, it is spoke volumes.
• 54:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: Because you have no reason to care so much about this generation.
• 54:41
  [SPEAKER_08]: It has to be God.
• 54:43
  [SPEAKER_08]: You have no reason to conduct yourself or at least attempt this role, because this is the role most people don't want to take.
• 54:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: So even people who don't believe in the God that we serve, they believe in you.
• 54:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: And they also believe in the fact that you healed me.
• 54:59
  [SPEAKER_08]: You'll be surprised how many people will say, not him.
• 55:03
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's my God.
• 55:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then you gotta have the great father in the way for where he's taking you.
• 55:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: You gotta see.
• 55:11
  [SPEAKER_08]: You gotta see.
• 55:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: They won't be honest with you, man.
• 55:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: I told the other guests, I talked to the guy when I run.
• 55:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: Man, I say so many people in Africa, like they're stages for you around the country, and they didn't book you the scene.
• 55:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: It was speaking in a way and teaching in a way.
• 55:35
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, I don't know if you say in the Ali movie, that's what I say.
• 55:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: And when all those people were at the thrill of Manila, that's what I say in the vision for you before I came today.
• 55:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, there are people all around the world.
• 55:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: And here's the thing, this is the weird part, as black as you are.
• 55:49
  [SPEAKER_08]: And all this African stuff you got, it was white people, man.
• 55:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: And black people.
• 55:55
  [SPEAKER_08]: And it was a beautiful kaleidoscope of people.
• 55:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was like, well, I'm a share that the end of the interview.
• 56:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: I don't know how we get there, but I know that as sure as my name is Willie, that I see a stadium of people that yo but was sitting there and I'm like, what is this?
• 56:11
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I just kind of seen like it's probably over, I want to say Africa or a Caribbean country, but it was, it was so many different people.
• 56:19
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was waiting for you to start rapping.
• 56:23
  [SPEAKER_08]: And you came on, did that new wall in the talk and everybody laughed and never just enjoyed what you were giving.
• 56:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: And so I don't know what the Lord is going to put you through to make this maturity happening, which it becomes a global pandemic.
• 56:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: Everybody will be infected by what God has in you.
• 56:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: Whether you enjoy the way you nights like it's uncontrollable, you can't control what the mission is.
• 56:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: I do see a companionship for you.
• 56:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: Um, you are looking in the wrong package though.
• 56:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: Out of beauty can you you are inner beauty guy.
• 56:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: Mm.
• 56:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: You are inner beauty guy.
• 56:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: So you said she can't look good.
• 57:01
  [SPEAKER_08]: Oh, I'm not saying she can't look good.
• 57:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm not saying she can't look good.
• 57:04
  [SPEAKER_08]: She might look good, but that's not the determinant factor.
• 57:07
  [SPEAKER_06]: Mm.
• 57:08
  [SPEAKER_08]: inner, inner beauty.
• 57:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: She can have both, but your determination on who walks with you is who's what's on the inside because you've seen what it looks like to serve a man.
• 57:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's not like she's your servant, but she's going to have to serve.
• 57:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: She's going to have to serve and that's okay because she's going to enjoy it.
• 57:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: And if there's any friction, it's a waste of time.
• 57:33
  [SPEAKER_08]: You can't have friction.
• 57:35
  [SPEAKER_08]: Your life is friction.
• 57:37
  [SPEAKER_08]: But friction creates fire.
• 57:39
  [SPEAKER_08]: You're on the way to a fire.
• 57:41
  [SPEAKER_08]: Who wanna go to the fire with me?
• 57:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: Who gonna come to the fire with me?
• 57:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: They often ask on Wigglesworth.
• 57:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: I forgot his name, but they were saying, I was like, why don't these people keep coming to see you?
• 57:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: He said, I get what Jesus and I said myself on fire and everybody comes to watch.
• 57:56
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's you.
• 57:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: You want to fight a friction?
• 58:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: She got to get in there and be in that friction with you.
• 58:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: When the fire comes, she's running right towards it.
• 58:04
  [SPEAKER_08]: And when all the people comes like, hey, don't worry about it.
• 58:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: We hear for friction.
• 58:08
  [SPEAKER_08]: We fire proof.
• 58:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: You seem what happened to us last season.
• 58:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's powerful.
• 58:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: You want to make you fire proof, huh?
• 58:15
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.
• 58:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm honestly just trying my best, brother.
• 58:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm trying my best.
• 58:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yes, I want to be a good stewarder.
• 58:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: this platform and of this temporary time we have here on earth man.
• 58:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: And I do know for a fact that the stuff that I still, you know, personally have like intentionally been like, oh, I don't need to make his way to my public platform.
• 58:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, just childhood type stuff, man.
• 58:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: I probably am going to be a better man when when I open that can.
• 58:52
  [SPEAKER_08]: And here's the thing, I think you need to, I think you're hard to know what this field like.
• 58:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: And brothers don't see this often.
• 59:04
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I love you, not because of what you do, but because of who you are.
• 59:12
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I believe guys gonna send more people who are not excited about what you do.
• 59:17
  [SPEAKER_08]: But they see the heart that you have.
• 59:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: And whenever you have to walk down that journey, if the camera's in here, I did the true promo.
• 59:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: I know I know what guy I want to do with you.
• 59:31
  [SPEAKER_08]: If you wouldn't rob the bank, I'd say he was just in a tough spot.
• 59:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: He was doing the full of keys.
• 59:35
  [SPEAKER_08]: And when you get in the car, I'm like, man, what was you doing?
• 59:39
  [SPEAKER_08]: But you got to have people.
• 59:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: I wanted you to know, because I want your heart to know what this feels like, so you can desire.
• 59:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: Because I don't want nothing but to see what God has for you.
• 59:53
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I want you to know that there are so many people who will love you for who you are.
• 59:58
  [SPEAKER_08]: and not for what you do.
• 1:00:00
  [SPEAKER_08]: It may be a handful, but you got a few people when I prayed that you felt that today, so you can take that feeling in.
• 1:00:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: And as the Bible talks about, you know, when the scales on like, no, that don't feel right here, like, it feel like a motive.
• 1:00:16
  [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, I said, it's not to prolong it, but
• 1:00:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: you know what you're saying is so opposite from what my day-to-day is like because you know you get on internet on a day-to-day basis and it's a space of like what have you done for me lately on here?
• 1:00:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: What have you posted that caught my attention?
• 1:00:35
  [SPEAKER_02]: What have you posted that's worthy of me sharing it?
• 1:00:38
  [SPEAKER_02]: What are you saying doing or wrapping or dropping or promoting that is charismatic enough and catchy enough to where it's worthy of
• 1:00:48
  [SPEAKER_02]: Ten seconds of my attention, you know what I mean?
• 1:00:51
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think they're being conditioned to that makes it to where we do live in the world of man.
• 1:00:59
  [SPEAKER_02]: Y'all know even care about who I am.
• 1:01:01
  [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, I don't at all.
• 1:01:02
  [SPEAKER_02]: Y'all care about what am I doing and and the probably the impact of that is it's something that I think I feel it, man.
• 1:01:13
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think I feel I think I feel it, you know, and it's okay because I'm also in the space where I'm not in need of anything.
• 1:01:20
  [SPEAKER_02]: So I don't know
• 1:01:22
  [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know what God is going to do with me man.
• 1:01:27
  [SPEAKER_02]: I think it's going to be powerful though because he's getting me to the point to where like I have a line in a song.
• 1:01:33
  [SPEAKER_02]: I got a song called Gangster and I say they don't like me but they know they can't deny me.
• 1:01:40
  [SPEAKER_02]: I'm a real gangster and you know right where to find me g a and g s t a do not try me growing and nurturing gifts serving the almighty right and when I say that bro.
• 1:01:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's so real when I say down like me, but they know they can't deny me because you don't always like the person.
• 1:01:57
  [SPEAKER_02]: that's bringing the news then that you necessarily don't want to hear.
• 1:02:03
  [SPEAKER_02]: If you're enjoying, now, I'm enjoying this thing we call culture.
• 1:02:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's full of sin, that's full of debatory.
• 1:02:09
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's full of the glorification of a bunch of foolishness.
• 1:02:12
  [SPEAKER_02]: We actually really dislike the dude that's trying to come over here and be the part of pooper.
• 1:02:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: No matter how loving he is with his delivery and his approach.
• 1:02:21
  [SPEAKER_02]: But I said, they don't like me, but they know they can't deny me.
• 1:02:24
  [SPEAKER_02]: And that's the part where I thank God, it's graced me with enough talent, enough of a big following, enough reach in education, in hip hop, in the faith-based community to where it's like, Dan, this the dude that we can't get rid of.
• 1:02:39
  [SPEAKER_02]: And over time, it's turned from what you said it off air.
• 1:02:43
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's like it's turned from like a moment to like,
• 1:02:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: a movement that's really being created, you know, and I feel that bro, and that's what keeps me going, man, but, but I'd be sad sometimes, you know, I'd be sad bro, because we just so lost man, and I'd be out my heart, it just be hurting bro, it'd be hurting.
• 1:03:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's all, that's all.
• 1:03:12
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, the I'll be honest man.
• 1:03:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I know, I know we got to go guys, but we got to, we got to explore a rest looks like to.
• 1:03:24
  [SPEAKER_08]: And seeing what pulling away because you have to, you know, Jesus always pulled away and anybody, man, where are you going?
• 1:03:32
  [SPEAKER_08]: Even like, man, I had to go to a secluded place and just relax for a minute just so I can see what else.
• 1:03:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then you know, I think in your rest if you go get rest and I'm not trying to be a know it all.
• 1:03:43
  [SPEAKER_08]: God knows and being led by the spirit, but there are other groups of teams, you know, in your rest, like God will start showing you who to trust because there's a lot of people that you're gonna point.
• 1:03:53
  [SPEAKER_08]: I just say you becoming a master, delegator.
• 1:03:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: And there's gonna be a lot of delegation.
• 1:03:59
  [SPEAKER_08]: Please don't let
• 1:04:01
  [SPEAKER_08]: the people who came into your life during while you were finding the path.
• 1:04:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: Don't let those scars stop you from allowing yourself to jump back into another group of people who are going, like, be there.
• 1:04:13
  [SPEAKER_08]: But they won't get to this space.
• 1:04:15
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, this, you go on this, but I need you on this, this, this and this.
• 1:04:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: You've got people like me, you've got people like Charlotte Man, you've got people, you know, people who actually like, man, I right, I right with the dude, I don't, I don't say the boy said, twenty thirteen.
• 1:04:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know what I'm saying?
• 1:04:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: He never switched up.
• 1:04:31
  [SPEAKER_08]: He's matured, but he never switched up.
• 1:04:33
  [SPEAKER_08]: His message been the same.
• 1:04:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: I ain't saying he perfect, but I know he consists, you know what I mean?
• 1:04:38
  [SPEAKER_08]: And so I think that's gonna be really, really good, man.
• 1:04:40
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I'm so, um, immensely grateful that you would
• 1:04:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: feel safe enough, man, to share that because here's the one thing I ain't gonna do.
• 1:04:47
  [SPEAKER_08]: I can't talk about it.
• 1:04:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm a prayer body.
• 1:04:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I'm gonna check on it.
• 1:04:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I'm gonna be like, yo, bro, I'll hear because this part is probably one of the most difficult parts when you get what you pray for, and then God exceeds your expectations, and it's like, I didn't ask for this, but I just wanted to go to the street.
• 1:05:04
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then it's all good.
• 1:05:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then he continues to breathe on, and he was just like, yeah, I gotta send you through something, mature you, nothing's gonna be like it.
• 1:05:12
  [SPEAKER_08]: Now let's go to the next level.
• 1:05:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: didn't something else and then he breaks it down mature just another that you keep going it's just the maturation of the way this is just his way it's but I could never be this free without what I went through three years ago.
• 1:05:25
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's what as I'm listening to you.
• 1:05:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's what I was discerning is like you speaking from a place of the item been through what at one time felt like the unthinkable for me felt like oh bro if I ever had to deal with this publicly let alone that I yeah and and like I said I'm just a
• 1:05:44
  [SPEAKER_02]: Oh, but I'm just, I'm just David, but I'm just loyal to knowledge, grandson, you know what I'm saying?
• 1:05:49
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, that's all I am, bro.
• 1:05:50
  [SPEAKER_02]: That's all I feel like.
• 1:05:52
  [SPEAKER_02]: And so the stuff that I deal with personally, part of me is just like, man, is this a teachable moment for me to put on display for everybody and then bless other people through that and it would not.
• 1:06:04
  [SPEAKER_02]: And it's just like,
• 1:06:06
  [SPEAKER_02]: being on this side of it.
• 1:06:07
  [SPEAKER_02]: It's like, no indeed, but it's gonna be so uncomfortable.
• 1:06:10
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know what I'm saying?
• 1:06:11
  [SPEAKER_02]: Like, no, and your whole family is just lay back New Orleans private people who might need business and go to work.
• 1:06:17
  [SPEAKER_02]: You know, so that idea of just, man, you're calling this to put it out there on first street.
• 1:06:23
  [SPEAKER_02]: Not just the good, but the bad and the ugly tool.
• 1:06:26
  [SPEAKER_02]: And that, that, that, that, that, that, it's like, mm.
• 1:06:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I mean, you've known this since you were a child, but now God is bringing it up to the forefront.
• 1:06:37
  [SPEAKER_08]: I knew the day that I said, I do, that this is gonna be a difficult role.
• 1:06:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: I had something to prove.
• 1:06:43
  [SPEAKER_08]: I wanted to beat my dad up.
• 1:06:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: He's such a great guy.
• 1:06:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: He's such a great guy, but he got into the voice.
• 1:06:49
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I was like, the one thing I can do to be a kid.
• 1:06:52
  [SPEAKER_08]: Then what I call myself Willie Moore Jr.
• 1:06:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: He's more senior.
• 1:06:55
  [SPEAKER_08]: He's flawless.
• 1:06:56
  [SPEAKER_08]: He's gonna work every day.
• 1:06:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: Of course, he's a janitorial worker.
• 1:06:59
  [SPEAKER_08]: They wouldn't make it no millions of dollars, but he knew what they want.
• 1:07:03
  [SPEAKER_08]: But the one thing he did is he got into voice.
• 1:07:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I was like, I don't feel I'm hell I want, I'm gonna beat you in this for a competitive.
• 1:07:11
  [SPEAKER_08]: And sometimes I may, you know, I think sometimes you make decisions based up on your own personal wants and your own personal selfish motives and my heart wasn't pure.
• 1:07:19
  [SPEAKER_08]: And, you know, it caused a lot of ripples across the world.
• 1:07:23
  [SPEAKER_08]: We wrote books together.
• 1:07:25
  [SPEAKER_08]: A lot of people were let down.
• 1:07:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: I repented.
• 1:07:27
  [SPEAKER_08]: I apologize.
• 1:07:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: It was very embarrassing.
• 1:07:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: I didn't like the comments.
• 1:07:31
  [SPEAKER_08]: The same people who were cheering me on.
• 1:07:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: They drug me through the mud and hurt.
• 1:07:37
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I had to go through it because now I have such a freedom.
• 1:07:41
  [SPEAKER_08]: that I'm just like, oh no, you remember the guy that I preached about when y'all was booking me for that.
• 1:07:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I was traveling out of the world to do that.
• 1:07:49
  [SPEAKER_08]: I actually know him differently now.
• 1:07:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I know that the way that he's been taught to the world.
• 1:07:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: And even sometimes the way that I taught about him was from a place of something that I just read about.
• 1:08:01
  [SPEAKER_08]: But he decided to write it on the tablets of my heart.
• 1:08:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: And he made my life a biblical research paper.
• 1:08:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: And he presented it to the world.
• 1:08:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: And through this research,
• 1:08:11
  [SPEAKER_08]: I found out that his grace is sufficient.
• 1:08:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I actually know what that means.
• 1:08:15
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I get a chance to come back.
• 1:08:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I never was perfect.
• 1:08:17
  [SPEAKER_08]: And I get a chance to say, yeah, it's all good.
• 1:08:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: And millions of people have been blessed.
• 1:08:22
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like, man, I need to write another book.
• 1:08:25
  [SPEAKER_08]: And you know what I mean or whatever.
• 1:08:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: But then it's like okay, it's that personal guy.
• 1:08:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: Now I get everything from the pureness and motives of my heart.
• 1:08:31
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, I'm just getting the big guess for the hits.
• 1:08:33
  [SPEAKER_08]: I told the team the other day.
• 1:08:34
  [SPEAKER_08]: It was like, man, I think we should get more girl guess.
• 1:08:36
  [SPEAKER_08]: Cause when we look at it to be this, this and this, I was like, if we ever start chasing numbers, he'll take his hands off of it.
• 1:08:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: And this I mean being wonderful.
• 1:08:44
  [SPEAKER_08]: I had to go through maturity to get this.
• 1:08:46
  [SPEAKER_08]: I had to go through hell to get this part positive.
• 1:08:48
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like I don't want this be mad at me.
• 1:08:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like I don't I ain't never said this publicly for my boy right until you when I found out that he had left me because I thought I had messed up so bad that I couldn't hear his voice no more.
• 1:09:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: I was like when he finally I started hearing this voice again my boy right said damn bro
• 1:09:09
  [SPEAKER_08]: You was decking certain about God's voice.
• 1:09:11
  [SPEAKER_08]: I was just like, I can't just lose his voice.
• 1:09:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: I can't lose his voice.
• 1:09:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, I can't lose his voice.
• 1:09:18
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then when I started hearing and seeing visions again, I was like, oh.
• 1:09:22
  [SPEAKER_08]: They can't stop me now, because I know he'll never leave me nor forsaken me.
• 1:09:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: That was just a word.
• 1:09:27
  [SPEAKER_08]: That was just a scripture for me.
• 1:09:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: But now I know that for a fact.
• 1:09:30
  [SPEAKER_08]: So you can't tell me about a guy that I was an alcoholic with and I was still praying to when he never left.
• 1:09:35
  [SPEAKER_08]: You can't tell me about a guy that I was having, you know, I haven't, you know, premed, like you can't tell me nothing about him.
• 1:09:42
  [SPEAKER_08]: I took that blunt and that Bible.
• 1:09:43
  [SPEAKER_08]: He's still didn't leave.
• 1:09:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: And because I didn't leave him while doing that, he made that crooked past straight.
• 1:09:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: He took that taste out of my mouth.
• 1:09:51
  [SPEAKER_08]: So the culture that tells me that I have to be one way.
• 1:09:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: I say, it's both there.
• 1:09:56
  [SPEAKER_08]: You got to be hotter cold.
• 1:09:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like, yes, I'm hot on him.
• 1:09:59
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I got some things in me that that's still hot on that.
• 1:10:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I'm not giving away this fire.
• 1:10:04
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm doing this in this.
• 1:10:05
  [SPEAKER_08]: And he said he would make them crooked past straight.
• 1:10:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: So now I'm going to celebrate recovery around the world.
• 1:10:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like, hey, don't give up Jesus because you got to have it because he can work through that habit and you will get a testimony that's like, my, I don't need to have a taste for it.
• 1:10:18
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm be like, yeah, then I try to drink a little stuff.
• 1:10:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: Then my stomach blew up.
• 1:10:22
  [SPEAKER_08]: It was like, no, we ain't there no more.
• 1:10:23
  [SPEAKER_08]: I got you out of there.
• 1:10:25
  [SPEAKER_08]: So I just feel in my heart, man, that whatever happens,
• 1:10:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's for the greater good because your heart pure and my heart was pure and on the other side of purity guy continues to elevate and he continues to mature me.
• 1:10:37
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm looking forward to whatever's next.
• 1:10:40
  [SPEAKER_08]: Like whatever the next trial is, I'm counting it all joy because I see where this took me.
• 1:10:45
  [SPEAKER_08]: I'm like, okay guy, what's the next trial?
• 1:10:47
  [SPEAKER_08]: And you know, just in my spirit, I think it's
• 1:10:50
  [SPEAKER_08]: You know, the hard part and, you know, I hate the way sometimes the prophetic gift works.
• 1:10:54
  [SPEAKER_08]: But my dad's ninety four and my mom's eighty four.
• 1:10:57
  [SPEAKER_08]: I got to come to grips that, you know, that joy may be leaving soon.
• 1:11:02
  [SPEAKER_08]: But I got joy about it because I know it's gone.
• 1:11:06
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's gone.
• 1:11:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: It's gone.
• 1:11:07
  [SPEAKER_08]: I ain't gone lagging out there.
• 1:11:09
  [SPEAKER_06]: Hmm.
• 1:11:10
  [SPEAKER_08]: And then it's gonna be so mad, you know what I mean?
• 1:11:14
  [SPEAKER_08]: But man, I appreciate the conversation.
• 1:11:16
  [SPEAKER_08]: Y'all make sure y'all subscribe to the channel.
• 1:11:18
  [SPEAKER_08]: I think a lot of inspiration is going forth.
• 1:11:20
  [SPEAKER_08]: And, uh, man, my gangster's going away.
• 1:11:23
  [SPEAKER_08]: I ain't no rappa no more, but you ain't supposed to do this on camera.
• 1:11:26
  [SPEAKER_08]: So that's what's up.
• 1:11:27
  [SPEAKER_08]: Right.
• 1:11:28
  [SPEAKER_08]: That's what's up.
• 1:11:29
  [SPEAKER_08]: Right out.
• 1:11:30
  [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.
• 1:11:31
  [SPEAKER_03]: Good job.
• 1:11:35
  [SPEAKER_00]: I love you more love you more love you more love