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- It’s not the shouting that breaks you. It’s the quiet moment when you finally stop lying and whisper, 'I can’t do this alone.' You know that feeling? When you walk into a room and your shoulders are up by your ears, and your smile is so tight it actually hurts your cheeks? I used to live there. For years, I thought being strong meant being unbreakable. I thought if I just kept my head down and my mouth shut, I could outlast anything life threw at me. But here’s the truth I’m learning now, slowly, painfully, beautifully: strength isn’t about holding everything together. Strength is about admitting that you’re falling apart. And that admission? That single sentence—'I am struggling'—is heavier than any scream you’ve ever let out. Think about it. Screaming is explosive. It’s kinetic. It’s energy moving outward. It demands attention. But saying 'I am struggling'? That’s internal. That’s vulnerability wrapped in barbed wire. It requires you to turn inward, look at the mess, and name it without flinching. Most of us would rather break a bone than say those three words. Because screaming feels like power, even when it’s destructive. But admitting struggle feels like surrender. And we are terrified of surrender. Let’s talk about that anger for a second. The screaming. We’ve all been there. Maybe it was over something small—a burnt piece of toast, a missed call, a sock on the floor—and suddenly you’re yelling. Why? Because anger is easy. Anger is a shield. It keeps people at a distance. If I’m angry at you, I don’t have to tell you that I’m scared. If I’m furious, I don’t have to show you that I’m lonely. Anger is a wall. It’s loud, so you don’t have to hear the silence inside yourself. But screaming... it exhausts you. It leaves you hollowed out. And then comes the shame. The next morning, when the adrenaline fades, and you look in the mirror and wonder who you became. I remember one Tuesday, years ago, I snapped at my partner over nothing. Just nothing. He didn’t yell back. He just looked at me with this sad, tired expression, and he said, 'What are you really fighting?' I couldn’t answer him. Because I didn’t know. Or maybe I knew too well, and that was the problem. I was fighting the fear that I wasn’t enough. I was fighting the exhaustion of pretending I had it all figured out. And instead of saying 'I’m tired,' I screamed. It was easier to be right than to be real. So why is 'I am struggling' so much harder? Because it strips away the armor. When you scream, you’re still in control of the narrative. You’re the victim, or the aggressor, but you’re the main character in a drama. But when you admit you’re struggling, you become human. Flawed. Needy. And in a world that rewards independence above all else, needing help feels like failure. It feels like you’re letting everyone down. I think about the last episode we did, where we talked about how mistakes don’t define us. Remember that? We said that starting over is possible. But starting over requires a starting point. And the starting point is often the admission that you’re lost. Saying 'I am struggling' is the key to that door. It’s the first step toward recovery, toward connection, toward peace. But it’s terrifying. Because once you say it, you can’t take it back. You open the floodgates. You invite people in. And what if they judge you? What if they pity you? What if they leave? Those are the fears that keep us silent. They keep us screaming into the void instead of reaching out a hand. I want to share a story with you. Not mine, but someone close to me. A friend of mine, Sarah, was always the rock. She was the one who organized the parties, remembered the birthdays, fixed the leaky faucets. She was the glue. But one day, she just stopped. She didn’t scream. She didn’t rage. She just sat on her couch, staring at the wall, and when I asked her how she was, she whispered, 'I’m drowning.' Three words. That’s all it took. In that moment, the mask fell off. And instead of running away, I sat down next to her. We didn’t fix anything that day. We just sat in the discomfort. But something shifted. Sarah realized she wasn’t weak for struggling; she was human. And because she admitted it, she allowed others to care for her. She allowed herself to receive. Before that, she was giving until she was empty. After that, she started filling her own cup. It wasn’t easy. There were days she wanted to go back to the performance. Days she wanted to pick up the phone and yell instead of asking for help. But she kept coming back to that truth: 'I am struggling.' And every time she said it, the burden got a little lighter. Because sharing pain cuts it in half. Keeping it secret doubles it. Here’s the thing about vulnerability that no one tells you: it’s scary. It’s not just scary; it’s terrifying. Because when you say 'I am struggling,' you are exposing your soft underbelly to a world that can be hard. You are showing your cracks. And we are taught that cracks are bad. We are taught to hide our flaws, to polish our surfaces, to present a curated version of ourselves on social media and in meetings and at dinner tables. But cracks are where the light gets in. That’s a cliché, yes, but it’s true. Your struggles are not signs of weakness; they are signs of depth. They are proof that you are living, that you are feeling, that you are engaged with the messy reality of being alive. When you scream, you are hiding behind the noise. When you admit struggle, you are standing in the open. It takes courage. It takes a kind of bravery that has nothing to do with physical strength and everything to do with emotional honesty. It takes believing that you are worthy of love even when you are not performing perfectly. That belief? That’s the hardest part. But it’s also the most liberating. Remember that episode we listened to recently? The one about small starts? This is one of them. Saying 'I am struggling' is a small start. It’s tiny. It’s barely a whisper. But it changes everything. It opens the door to therapy, to friendship, to rest, to grace. It allows you to ask for the help you need. And let’s be clear: asking for help is not weakness. It is wisdom. It is the smartest thing you can do when you are overwhelmed. You wouldn’t try to fix a broken engine by yelling at it. You’d call a mechanic. So why do we expect ourselves to fix our souls with sheer willpower? We don’t. We need support. We need community. We need people who can sit with us in the dark without trying to flip the light switch immediately. Sometimes, just having someone say, 'I hear you. It’s okay to not be okay,' is enough to get you through the night. That’s the gift of admission. It connects us. It reminds us that we are not alone in our struggles. That everyone, everywhere, is fighting some invisible battle. And when we name ours, we give others permission to name theirs. So today, I want to give you permission. Permission to stop screaming. Permission to put down the shield. Permission to whisper, 'I am struggling.' It doesn’t mean you’re failing. It means you’re growing. It means you’re ready for the next chapter. And the next chapter might just be the best one yet. Because when you stop fighting the truth, you can start building on it. You can build a life that is real, not just impressive. A life that is connected, not just crowded. A life that is yours, not just a performance for others. It’s okay to be tired. It’s okay to be scared. It’s okay to not have the answers. You don’t have to carry it all. You never did. You were never meant to. So take a breath. Let your shoulders drop. Unclench your jaw. And if you need to, say it out loud. Even if no one else hears it. Say it to yourself. 'I am struggling. And that is okay.' Feel the weight lift, just a little. Just a fraction. That’s the beginning of healing. That’s the second chance. And it’s waiting for you, right here, in this quiet moment. You are not alone. I’m right here with you. Until next time, be gentle with yourself. Love, Jane.