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#244 Lifting Life's Greatest Load (Part 3 - Roof Off & Walls Down) · The OneCry Podcast

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This element of clearing your conscience in two directions, between God and you and God
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and you and man, roof off, walls down, is one of the primary accelerators of revival
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and spiritual awakening.
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Every great revival you see has this element of confession and repentance as a foundational
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hallmark of that and maybe God wants to begin revival and He wants to start it with you.
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Welcome to the OneCry Podcast, a nationwide call for spiritual awakening.
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The goal, accelerating the movement of God through sharing revival truth, stories, and
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reports.
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Well welcome to the OneCry Podcast.
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I'm Kyle Reno with the Bishop Bill Eliff over there.
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How's my buddy doing?
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You know, you've called me that, the Bishop, and I don't really know what it means.
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I have no idea.
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I have no authority and I certainly don't have any in your life.
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I don't know what the deal is, but I'll accept what you're saying.
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Way more authority in my life than you can imagine or fathom.
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Yet, I also don't know what it means.
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As one person said, I don't care what you call me as long as you call me.
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As long as you call me.
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I've heard, as long as you call me for supper, that's what I want.
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Well, we're calling all of our listeners to the table today, man.
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We're honored that you give us a few minutes each week with you and hope it's helpful.
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The last thing that we want is just to really put something out there every week.
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We're hoping that this is fostering the conversation around revival and spiritual awakening in
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light of what God's doing, even in our nation and all we need to see happen among the nations.
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I think, Bill, man, you have tackled a topic in these last couple weeks that you can't
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skirt around and that God is continually calling us to, specifically around confession and
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personal holiness.
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Man, I know that this week is where it gets real, real.
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So, bro, I'm going to kick it to you.
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Walk us into that truth.
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You know, Kyle, what you just said, you can't walk around this one.
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It's just like every kid, you've got to learn how to tie your shoes.
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Right.
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I mean, now I say that.
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Today, we have a lot of shoes that don't have to be tied.
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But when you're a kid, you just have to learn how to tie your shoes.
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Right.
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And you just have to learn how to put your pants on.
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You have to learn how to write.
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You have to learn it.
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These are basic things.
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And it's really tragic that many people don't know how to be right with God and right with others.
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Wow.
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We just don't know how to do it.
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And you look at the string of broken relationships and anger and bitterness and slander and gossip
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and all the junk that's in relationships and realize somewhere along the way they didn't get that.
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They didn't learn that.
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And we don't want to go another day without understanding this.
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So we've been talking about how to lift the load of sin and the guilt of sin, the weight of sin off your life.
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And it comes by gaining and maintaining a clear conscience in two directions between you and God and between you and man.
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Now, we all sin, right?
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We all sin against God and we all sin against other people.
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We say things.
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We do things.
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We have wrong motives.
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We steal.
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We lie.
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We exaggerate.
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We mistreat each other.
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We exalt ourselves before others.
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We blow up.
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We intimidate.
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I mean, this list is long of ways that we hurt other people.
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But do you know how to go back and fix that, right, as far as it lies within you?
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And your father, God, wants to teach you that.
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And he wants to teach us that in some measure, Kyle, today.
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So we're going to look at a little passage that is right in God's kingdom manifesto, Matthew 5, 6, and 7.
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When Jesus started his ministry, he gave us what we call the Sermon on the Mount.
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And he uses a little device.
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He says, now, in the world's kingdom, they operate this way.
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But in my kingdom, this is the way we're going to do it.
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And he says, in the world's kingdom, you know, you're not supposed to murder anybody.
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And in my kingdom, we don't want you to hate anybody.
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We don't want murder coming out of your heart.
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And he just kind of references all these things.
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And he says in verse 23, if you're presenting your offering at the altar,
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and there remember that your brother has something against you,
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leave your offering there before the altar, and go first, be reconciled to your brother,
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and then come present your offering.
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Now, God wants peace, right?
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He wants reconciliation.
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He wants you to have the tools where you know how to make sure that as far as it lies within you,
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you're at peace with all men.
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Some people, they won't be at peace with you because they're not going to do it.
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But you don't want that to be your fault, as far as it lies within you.
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And I want you to think, as we start this podcast today,
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I want you to think about somebody that maybe there's a little something between you and them.
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Maybe it's an unspoken deal.
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Maybe it's real.
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Maybe you did something.
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Maybe it's a huge thing in your past.
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Maybe it's unforgiveness that you have.
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Maybe it's bitterness.
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Maybe it's, well, you did something that really hurt somebody,
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or they did something that hurt you, and you've never resolved that.
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So I want you to think about that.
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And Paul said, we've been using this scripture, Acts 24, 16,
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I do my best to always maintain a clear conscience in two directions before God and before man.
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Norman Grubb, in his little book, Continuous Revival,
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and this is, by the way, one of the elemental truths of real revival and spiritual awakening.
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He was involved in a 20-year movement of God in Rwanda,
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and it just continued and continued and continued.
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And when they asked him what sustained that movement of revival, he was very quick to answer.
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He said, we kept the roof off and the walls down.
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That was it.
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We kept the roof off and the walls down.
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In other words, nothing between us and God and nothing between us and anybody else.
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Does that mean they didn't sin?
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No.
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It meant that they were very quick to clear their conscience with God and clear their conscience with man.
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Now, why is this so important?
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And let me just mention very quickly a couple of reasons why the clearing of our conscience with other people is important.
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First of all, God wants to lift the load of guilt and conviction in your life, right?
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I mean, you sin, there's a consequence for that, right?
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You have made a breach in your relationship with God or a breach in relationship with your kids or your parents or your wife or that guy.
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And there's only one way to remedy that, and that is to clear your conscience.
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Kyle, one time years ago, my dad and brothers and I all went back to the town where I was born to do a revival for a pastor there who was a friend of ours.
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And so we did this 10-day meeting.
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It was really a neat thing.
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We all preached and sang.
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In the middle of that, there was a woman who was the most prominent.
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Her family was the most prominent wealthy family in that little town, Arkansas town.
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And her mother, I mean, the woman had been, one of the sisters had been a good friend of my mother when my dad was pastor there years ago.
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So she came to my mother in the midst of that revival, and she was just, her face was just drawn.
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And she said, I need to tell you something.
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She said, when my dad died, he was very wealthy, and there was a squabble about the inheritance.
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And my sister and I got crossways with each other.
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And she looked and tears started coming down her eyes.
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And she said to my mom, she said, we've lived in the same town that had about 10,000 people in it.
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And he said, we have not spoken to each other in 20 years, 20 years.
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And my mom said, my mom was just this sweet, godly Christian.
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She said, well, there's only one thing to do.
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And the woman knew, you know, in her heart.
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But she said, you got to confess your sin to the Lord, but then you got to go confess your sin and ask for forgiveness from your sister.
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And she said, I don't think I can do that.
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And my mother wisely said, well, of course you can, because the Lord wants you to, and he'll give you the strength to do it.
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If you'll just say yes, you just got to surrender your body to say yes, and let him use you.
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So that night, she came back to the revival meeting.
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And I was there, Kyle.
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If I'm lying, I'm dying.
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That woman looked 20 years younger.
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Her face was relaxed.
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There was joy.
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She literally physically looked different.
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And she told my mom, she said, I went to my sister's house.
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I knocked on the door.
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I knocked on the door.
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She opened the door, and we immediately fell into each other's arms.
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And I confessed my sin.
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She confessed to me.
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And for 20 years, just think of the pain they had, the guilt, the shame they felt for 20 years, simply because they wouldn't clear their conscience with each other.
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So God wants to lift that load.
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And some of our listeners today, you got somebody that immediately comes to your mind that you need to clear your conscience with.
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Secondly, you can't really walk with God if you're not right with his kids.
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Now, that's what he's saying.
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That's what Jesus is saying here in this verse in the Sermon on the Mount.
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If you're trying to give an offering to God and act real spiritual, but you got one of my kids over here, that something's not right between you and him, you need to leave the offering and get up and go be reconciled.
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I want peace in my family.
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I want you to be reconciled to each other.
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You know, Kyle, you've got, what, 20 kids, five kids?
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Yeah, five of them.
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Five of them and a lot of boys.
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And I've got eight kids.
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And, you know, when my kids are mistreating each other or there's something that's not right, you know what?
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We're going to step in, right?
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I mean, we're just going to step in because, number one, we know it's going to have to get resolved.
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And number two, we want it to get resolved the right way.
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And number three, this is a teaching moment.
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That's right.
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This is teaching them about forgiveness.
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This is teaching them about clearing their conscience.
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And so a good parent parents that moment.
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He doesn't just ignore it and say, well, you all just duke it out over there.
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You may let them duke it out for a little bit, you know, but you want them to come to a healthy resolution.
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So God wants, we can't really walk with God if we're mistreating one of his children.
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Thirdly, we need to deal with this because God wants to illustrate the realities of his kingdom.
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Now, this whole get it in context, this whole Matthew 5, 6 and 7 is Jesus telling us the kingdom has come and it's among you.
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It's in your midst and it's a new kingdom.
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It's a different kingdom.
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It's not like this angry, bitter, mean, you get your own pound of flesh kind of kingdom.
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That's not the way we're going to operate in my kingdom.
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In my kingdom, if we hurt each other, we're going to go get reconciled to each other.
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If we sin against somebody, we're going to go clear our conscience with that person.
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That's the way my kingdom works.
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And I want to tell you something.
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When a church starts doing this, the world sits up and takes notice.
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And they say, you know, I have never seen people who operate like that.
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I want to be a part of that.
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And that's why the church, why it's so critical for us to maintain a clear conscience in the church,
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particularly because the church is to be this oasis in the midst of a really dark world,
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showing the world there's a better way to live and to be this witness to a watch world.
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And number four, you say, well, why should I even listen to this program today?
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It's because clearing our conscience, making sure there's the roof is off and the walls are down.
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Nothing between me and God, nothing between me and anybody else magnifies God's reputation.
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It says, look, this.
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What do you think of some parents when you see their kids just angry and fighting and they're doing nothing about it?
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They're just letting it go on, right?
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You think, well, you know what?
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They're not that great of parents.
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They really understand.
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They don't know how to do this.
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But what do you do?
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What do you think of parents who lovingly, graciously step in with their children and say, son, daughter,
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we can't do this in our family and there's a better way to live.
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And I'm going to teach you that.
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You see, God's reputation is at stake in the lives of his children.
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And so when when we're at odds with each other, we can abort the reputation of God.
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I love I love what Jonathan Edwards said, Kyle, when he said our task is to give the world a right opinion of God.
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And how I treat others.
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Determines if I'm giving them a right opinion of God, because I bear the name of of Christ.
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So.
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I want to just pause and ask everybody that's listening.
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Is there anybody that comes to mind right now?
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Anybody that that just immediately, you know who it is.
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And maybe it's a whole bunch of people.
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Maybe it's a whole group of people.
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Maybe it's a whole family.
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And things are not right.
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So are you going to ignore that?
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Are you going to go to them?
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You say, well, what do I do?
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What do I do?
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Well, let me just give you.
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I've dealt with this for years, counseling people.
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And I've noticed there are about 10 questions that people always ask me.
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And, Kyle, I want to see if we can answer those 10 questions.
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And they're found.
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We've been highlighting this little booklet, Lifting Life's Greatest Load.
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Those 10 questions and answers are found in this little book, which you can you can get.
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The way to get it is found in the notes on the podcast.
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But let me just let me just pose these questions.
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And let's see if we can answer them.
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Here's the first question.
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With whom should I clear my conscience?
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Who do I need to go to?
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And the truth is, here's a great rule of thumb.
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My confession should be as public as my sin.
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Let me say that again.
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My confession should be as public as my sin.
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Spurgeon said it like this.
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He said, a man can only be used again when his confession is as notorious as his sin.
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Isn't that a great statement?
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So if I've sinned against one person, I just need to go to that one person in private.
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I don't need to stand up and tell everybody else about that.
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If I've sinned against a group, I need to go to the group.
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I mean, I've had times, Kyle, where, you know, I've said something to one of my family members,
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maybe a kid or my wife in front of the other family members.
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And not only do I need to go to my wife and say, hey, what I said was wrong.
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Would you forgive me?
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But I need to go to my kids and say, you know, you just heard the way I responded to mom.
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That was wrong.
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Would you forgive me?
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Right.
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Because I want my confession to be as public as my sin.
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I was in Wichita Falls, Texas.
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And we were doing a meeting there.
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And one night, this girl comes to the microphone.
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And we were kind of having an open testimony time.
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She was the youth pastor's sister.
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And she was there in that church.
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And she'd gotten pregnant.
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And she'd had a child out of wedlock.
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And everybody chose to just keep it quiet.
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In other words, here was this girl who was obviously pregnant.
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But nobody said anything.
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And the church was gracious to her.
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But this girl said, I just, I couldn't look anybody in the eye.
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And she came to the microphone.
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And she said, I need to ask this church.
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I need to ask your forgiveness.
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Because I sinned against the Lord.
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And I got pregnant out of wedlock.
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And she said, I sinned against you parents.
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Because I made you, I forced you to have conversations with your children you never should have had to have.
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I sinned against you students.
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Because my silence about this made you think that this was okay.
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That there were no consequences.
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And I've sinned against the church because I've hurt the reputation of Christ.
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And I just want you to know, I've recognized what I've done.
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I've received the Lord's forgiveness.
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Would you forgive me?
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Now, Kyle, she said that.
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There were like 800 people there that night.
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This guy stands up in the back and he says, we forgive you.
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And another one, we forgive you, we forgive you.
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And also in this chorus of just hundreds of voices, we forgive you.
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And they're calling her by name.
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And then they all rushed, rushed the stage.
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And they just gathered around this girl.
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And I'm telling you, it was the most beautiful, redemptive, not that she hadn't sinned.
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Right?
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But she had come clean and cleared her conscience.
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And God forgave her and did a really redemptive thing.
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Isn't that beautiful?
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Amen.
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Here's a second question.
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What should I say?
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Well, I don't know what to say.
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If I go back to somebody, I don't know what to say.
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Well, my standard answer to that is use the language of the Bible.
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The prodigal son, when he had sinned against his dad,
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he said, I'm going to get up and I'm going to go to my father.
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And I'm going to say to them, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight.
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I'm not worthy to be up higher than, you know, would you forgive me?
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And so I just tell people, you don't have to be long.
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You don't have to give a whole explanation.
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And I've had to do this hundreds of times.
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Particularly in my own family.
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I've had to go to them and say, look, what I did, how I did that, what I said,
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how I said that was wrong.
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Would you forgive me?
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And I think it's wonderful not to just say, I'm sorry,
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but to ask for forgiveness because that gives them the opportunity to respond
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to what you're saying.
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So I remember the first time I started doing this when I was 17.
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I talked about it a few weeks ago on the podcast.
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I made a list of all my sins.
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And my dad challenged me.
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He said, sit down and just let the Lord show you your sins.
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It was seven pages long.
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And then he said, circle the ones that involve somebody else
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or you've hurt somebody else.
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So I did.
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And it was quite a list.
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And he said, now I'm going to tell you what to do.
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I want you to call them or go to them, whatever you need to do.
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And we talked about that.
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And just tell them, I'm trying to get right with God.
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I sinned against the Lord in what I did.
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And you were involved in that or you knew about that.
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Would you forgive me?
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He said, that's all you have to say.
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So I just started practicing this routine.
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I remember I had stolen a water pistol from a drugstore the last day
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of junior high school.
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Now, I didn't really steal it.
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Gerald Hannah stole it, but I just asked him to steal one for me too.
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So I'd used that excuse for years, but I stole it.
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So I went back to that.
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I can take you right to Don's Pharmacy where it happened here in Little Rock.
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I walked in.
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I said, Lord, please don't let anybody be in here.
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And it was like everybody I've ever known in my life was there.
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And I went to the pharmacy guy, and I said, look,
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I'm trying to get right with the Lord.
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And what I did was wrong.
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Would you forgive me?
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And here I paid him back with interest for this little water pistol.
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Now, I don't know what he thought about that, but I know what God thought
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about it, and I know what I felt about it.
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It was free.
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And so there's appropriate ways to do that and not appropriate ways,
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but just use the language of the Bible.
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Now, here's a third question.
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What if it happened a long time ago?
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I mean, it just happened so long ago.
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I'm still, I don't remember.
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Well, the interesting thing is, why do you still remember it?
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Why do you still have guilt and conviction about that?
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I was in a meeting one time, and God was just moving,
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and this old man comes up to the microphone, and he said,
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he was holding up this, like a screw and a bolt and a nut,
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and he said, 60 years ago, I stole a bolt and a nut from a hardware store.
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I just didn't want to pay for it, and I just grabbed it and stuck it
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in my pocket.
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He said, for 60 years, every time I've come to pray,
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the devil has said to me, you're a thief, and it's just shut me down
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for 60 years.
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Now, listen, if I was Satan, you know what I would do?
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I would attempt you to do something that was so small,
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you didn't think you had to deal with it, but so big that it would trip you up
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for the rest of your life.
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And I'm just saying, if God brings it to your mind,
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just go deal with it.
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Just go deal with it and take care of it.
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Here's a fourth question.
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What if I can't locate them?
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And the answer to that is ask God to help you find them.
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He knows where they are.
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We had a team member once when I traveled with Life Action,
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and he had cheated on a test, and so he felt conviction about it.
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He wanted to go clear his conscience.
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He called the school.
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The professor was no longer there.
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He confessed to the guys in the department.
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They said, well, don't worry about it.
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You're forgiven.
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But he just always felt bad because he loved that professor.
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And he was in the Dallas-Fort Worth Airport running to meet a plane,
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and he turned the corner, and he runs into this professor.
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And it's like God had just orchestrated something just to reconcile
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their hearts with each other and to resolve the issue.
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God will take care of that.
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Here's number five.
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What if they've died?
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I have a lot of people who they have died.
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Somebody died that they were at odds with, right?
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And they've always felt bad.
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I never cleared my conscience with my dad.
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Well, what I tell people to do is make your confession to God
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and ask God to deliver that if he needs to, right?
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I've even had people just say, look, put an empty chair and set it down there
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and just say to that person in your heart, you know, please forgive me.
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What I did was wrong.
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And just see, because you're making your confession before the Lord.
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Here's number six.
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What if it's just a small thing?
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And I kind of already referenced that.
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Just understand the enemy's tactics.
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He loves to trip us up with small things and just deal with it, right,
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and get it off your heart.
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Number seven, what if it costs money?
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And what if it costs money?
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Well, here's the question.
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How much is being right with God, man, worth to you?
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How much is a clear conscience and just a full heart
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and having the beautiful joy of knowing, man, the best I know,
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there's nothing between me and God and nothing between me and anybody else,
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how much is that worth to you?
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I'll tell you what it was worth to Zacchaeus.
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He said, I'm going to repay fourfold everybody that I've stolen from.
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You know, I could tell you stories about this.
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A man who came to the church one day and he said, you know,
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I've stolen from the church.
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I've just not tithed for years.
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And I've been more faithful to pay my tithe than I have been to give to the Lord.
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And he handed the church a check for $20,000.
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A man who said, I have stolen shop tools.
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He said, I work in a shop and everybody does this,
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but you just take the shop tools home.
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And before long you got a whole – because they refurbish the tools,
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before long you got a whole set of those shop tools at home.
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And he said, I realized what I had done,
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and so I went back to my supervisor with a check in hand,
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and I confessed and paid back.
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And he said, I just feel so liberated.
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There was one guy, Kyle, who said, he said,
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I was just really trying to be right with the Lord.
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He said, one day I went in and I saw this little sign above the coffee,
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and it says pay for what you drink at my work.
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And he said, I realized I hadn't paid for coffee for like 20 years or 10 years.
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And he said, I calculated it out and I went into my supervisor
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and told him I'm trying to get right with God.
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I've been stealing from his company. I don't care what you call it.
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And here's a check for $330.
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And the supervisor, who was a Christian,
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sat back and he said, you know what?
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I've been here for 20 years and I've never paid for my coffee.
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And he wrote a check for $660,
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and they took $1,000 back to their supervisor.
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Think of the impact of that in terms of witness for the kingdom.
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I've got honest men that work for me.
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They're not going to steal in the slightest way from this company.
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And here's number eight. This is a big one.
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What if they won't forgive me?
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What do I do?
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Well, that's their responsibility, not yours.
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I love what Romans 12 says.
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As far as it lies within you, be at peace with all men.
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In other words, there's some people that won't forgive you,
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but that's on them. That's not on you.
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But don't let the thought of their seeming possible unforgiveness
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keep you from doing the right thing.
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And then realize that sometimes the magnitude of your sin
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makes it difficult and hard for other people to forgive.
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And you may need some counsel and help how to navigate that,
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and so may they.
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But it still needs to come into the light.
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And here's number nine. We're coming down to the finish line, Kyle.
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What if somebody has something against me that's not legitimate?
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Well, it's still your responsibility to seek reconciliation.
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I'll tell you a little story.
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So I was in a church one time, and God was really moving,
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and some of the old controllers in that church got mad.
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And one ringleader had a meeting in his home with 20 men
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and tried to get me fired.
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And I sat in my office and folded my arms and thought,
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you know, if those guys are going to get right with the Lord,
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they're going to have to.
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They need to come to me and ask for forgiveness
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because what they'd done was not right, and it wasn't right.
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And the Lord just tapped me on the shoulder, and he said,
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I want you to go back and read what I said.
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So I went back and read Matthew 5, and it says,
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if you're presenting your offering and you realize that somebody
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has something against you, Bill, do they have something against you?
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Well, yeah, I don't think it's legitimate.
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I'd say it's legitimate, do they have something against you?
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Yeah.
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Then go seek to be reconciled.
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And I realized that God is so interested in reconciliation and peace
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and the witness of a clear conscience that it's always my responsibility to go.
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So I don't want to sound noble about this,
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but I called all – I think it was actually 25 men.
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I called all 25 of them, and I met with them individually and privately,
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and I said, apparently, you have something against me,
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and I may have harmed you, done something, and if there is,
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I want to reconcile that.
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And I listened, and there's some things the Lord showed me,
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but I knew at the end of that time that I had done what the Lord wanted me to do.
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And you know what that did, Kyle?
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It did something to other men in our church,
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because we're kind of circled around what happened,
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and it was a powerful teaching moment.
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I didn't intend it that way, and it was a humbling moment,
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an important moment for me.
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I got one more.
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You ready for one more, Kyle?
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I'm ready.
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Okay.
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Here's a question I hear all the time.
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Can I do this later?
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And my answer to that is delayed obedience is no obedience at all.
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Delayed obedience.
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Why would you want to do it later?
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Why would you want to just hold on to sin and to the pressure
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and the conviction that you feel and not just get it taken care of?
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So the time to deal with this is today.
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This element of clearing your conscience in two directions,
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between God and you and God and you and man, roof off, walls down,
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is one of the primary accelerators of revival and spiritual awakening.
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Every great revival you see has this element of confession
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and repentance as a foundational hallmark of that.
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And maybe God wants to begin revival, and he wants to start it with you.
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Man, I'm listening to these truths, Bill,
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and I'm thinking about in the first years of following the Lord,
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how many of these moments I had to have.
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And the spirit of God was relentless.
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And you've heard some of my story, and God's done great works to my family,
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but my family had so many dysfunctional parts to it.
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And I had made a bunch of bad decisions.
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I lived in an atmosphere and environment of a bunch of bad decisions.
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And what the Lord continually called me to do is,
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you do the next right thing regardless.
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You do the next right.
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And what I was learning is what you just said earlier, one of the things.
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Hey, you be the one that represents reconciliation and own what you can own.
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Confess and be the one that takes the bold step.
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What I didn't realize, and I'll say this to our listeners,
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which got my heart leaping.
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These bold moves is going to be good on a lot of different reasons, a lot of ways.
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It's going to be God-glorifying, very well could lead to reconciliation,
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like those two sisters, that story was powerful.
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But ultimately, man, it's freedom for you.
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It's freedom.
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There's just nothing like having that clear conscience for both God and man.
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It's just that air is so crisp and so full of life.
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I remember one time the Lord was telling me to go to a guy,
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and I didn't want to go because I thought I was right.
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And like your situation, I had biblical reasons why I thought I was right,
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but the Lord still wanted me to close the gap.
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And I'll never forget the Lord said,
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How much time are you wasting with these hypothetical conversations
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and thinking about this when you could have one real conversation?
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Oh, yeah.
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And I did.
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I went and had one, owned what I could own, and walked away, and I was free.
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And I was thinking, I wasted a month.
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A month.
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Yeah.
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Just circling one real conversation.
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Laboring about it.
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Yeah.
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Blaming, pitching blame, making excuses.
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Well, what if he does this?
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Yeah.
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And how stupid.
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You could make one phone call and get this resolved in ten minutes.
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Yeah.
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Ten minutes.
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And most of the time, when I go to clear my conscience,
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it doesn't take much longer than that.
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Now, sometimes it's a beautiful, longer conversation,
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but usually it's just, hey, God has convicted me.
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What I did was wrong.
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Would you forgive me?
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Would you forgive me?
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And people usually say, I remember the last call I made when I was 17,
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and I had this, took me several weeks of making a lot of phone calls
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and paying some people back and cleared some things up.
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And I did the worst one last.
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Don't do that, by the way.
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Put the hardest one first, because then everything else is easy.
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But I kept the hardest one to last.
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I know exactly where I was sitting.
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I picked up the phone.
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I said to the individual, you know, what I did was wrong.
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Would you forgive me?
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And they said, it was just silence.
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And they said, well, you know, I was wrong, too.
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And, yeah, I'll forgive you.
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And I said, well, thanks.
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And I just hung up the phone, and I turned around in my chair,
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and I was in an office, and I yelled out loud.
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And I thought, I'm free.
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It's not like I hadn't sinned.
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But to the best of my knowledge, there's nobody on the earth that I know of
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that can say that I'd sinned against them, that I had not sought to make it right.
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Well, there's a liberty in that.
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And you talk about hearing God suddenly in a new way,
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having spiritual authority and ministry in a new way.
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I mean, we could talk about that.
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We could take a whole other series and talk about that.
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But you've got to get there.
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This is tying your shoes.
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This is one-on-one.
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We have to live with the roof off and the walls down.
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And I bet some of our listeners need to do some work.
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No doubt.
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There's some work.
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There's some shoe-tying work that needs to happen in these next few days,
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and I pray that we'll do that.
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So, Kyle, lead us to pray about that, would you?
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Yep.
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Yeah.
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Well, hey, listen, let's walk into the presence of the Lord.
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You know, you can be driving down the road, but be conscious of the Lord right now.
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Know he welcomes us in because of the finished work in Jesus Christ.
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Lord, I'm going to ask, even now, for every one of us, if there's anyone,
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we're at the altar right now.
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If there's anyone that you want to show us that has anything against us,
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if there's any ground to make up with anyone, we're surrendering right now to do the next right thing.
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And so I'm asking, Spirit of the living God, give us the courage to do what Bill just shared with us
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and to rightly represent you in moving toward people and asking for forgiveness
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to own everything that we can own and to believe for the future.
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Lord, we love you.
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And I thank you that there's some work that's about to happen.
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So I pray you would speak in the heart of every one of us, be strong and courageous.
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I pray in Jesus' name.
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Amen.
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Amen.
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Well, Bill, thank you so much, bro, for the work and the thought around this series.
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It's been a blessing.
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And you should send it as a friend, like a bundle.
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So, hey, listen to these last three messages.
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I'd love to talk through it.
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We put in the show notes, by the way, the resource that Bill has written, a way for you to get that.
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I encourage you, it will help you come back to these truths and pass it on to other people.
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Man, we're honored to be a part of this spiritual journey with you
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and look forward to being back with you next week.
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We're praying for you.
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Have a blessed week.
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Amen.