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2023 Taught Me · Dr. Danielle Difference

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  Welcome
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  to
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  the
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  Crying
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  In
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  My
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  Cheesecake
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  podcast
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  where
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  we
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  are
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  in
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  pursuit
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  of
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  living
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  life
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  abundantly,
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  not
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  held
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  back
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  by
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  our
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  body
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  size
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  or
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  our
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  symptoms,
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  nor
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  are
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  we
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  held
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  back
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  by
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  our
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  hurts,
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  habits,
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  or
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  other
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  obstacles
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  in
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  life.
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  Learn
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  the
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  secrets
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  to
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  crush
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  it
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  in
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  your
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  health,
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  wellness,
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  relationships,
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  and
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  spiritual
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  life.
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  I
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  am
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  Danielle,
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  your
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  host
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  and
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  practitioner.
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  And
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  in
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  this
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  episode,
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  I
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  am
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  fulfilling
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  what
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  I
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  said
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  I
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  was
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  going
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  to
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  do,
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  and
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  that
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  was
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  share
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  with
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  you
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  what
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  2023
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  has
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  taught
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  me.
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  And
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  I
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  do
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  this
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  every
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  year.
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  I've
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  actually
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  started
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  this
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  since
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  I
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  think
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  2016.
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  I
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  have
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  been
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  actually
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  keeping
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  track
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  every
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  month
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  of
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  what
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  I've
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  learned.
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  What
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  has
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  that
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  month
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  taught
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  me?
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  And
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  it's,
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  it's
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  so
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  that,
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  um,
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  I
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  just,
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  you
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  know,
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  heads
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  up
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  here
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  and
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  I'm
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  going
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  to
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  get
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  into
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  it
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  here
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  shortly.
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  Um,
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  with
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  one
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  of
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  my
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  months
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  of
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  things
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  I
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  learned
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  is
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  that
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  I
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  struggled
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  when
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  I
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  was
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  a
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  child,
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  a
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  teenager
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  with
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  depression.
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  And
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  what
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  I've
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  learned
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  as
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  a
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  naturopathic
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  doctor
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  is
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  that
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  there
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  is
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  no,
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  you
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  don't
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  either
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  have
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  depression
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  or
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  anxiety.
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  You
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  actually
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  have
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  a
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  spectrum,
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  both
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  of
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  them
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  are
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  a
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  spectrum.
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  So
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  you're,
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  you're
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  like
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  on
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  the
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  spectrum,
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  right?
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  And
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  this
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  practice
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  of
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  keeping
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  track
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  of
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  what
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  I've
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  learned
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  each
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  month
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  is.
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  It
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  helps
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  me
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  stay
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  focused
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  that,
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  oh
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  my
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  gosh,
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  it
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  wasn't
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  a
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  waste
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  of
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  a
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  year
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  kind
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  of
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  thing.
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  Um,
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  some
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  people
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  like
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  to
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  keep
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  gratitude
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  lists
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  and
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  there
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  are
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  places
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  for
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  gratitude
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  lists
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  for
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  like,
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  you
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  know,
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  um,
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  attitude
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  adjustments
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  and
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  just
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  making
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  sure
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  that
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  it's
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  a
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  short
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  term
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  kind
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  of
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  satisfaction
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  thing.
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  But
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  for
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  me,
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  um,
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  I'm
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  an
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  all
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  or
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  nothing
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  personality
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  and
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  I
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  struggle
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  with,
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  well,
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  if
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  I
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  didn't
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  get
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  my
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  gratitude
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  list
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  written
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  every
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  single
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  day,
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  um,
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  then
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  I'm
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  just
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  not
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  going
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  to
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  do
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  it.
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  So
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  instead
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  I've
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  gotten
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  into
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  the
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  practice
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  and
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  I
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  have
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  done
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  this
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  for
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  years,
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  probably
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  decades
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  that
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  before
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  I
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  go
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  to
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  bed,
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  I
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  just.
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  Um,
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  pray
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  to
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  God
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  and
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  thank
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  him
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  for
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  two
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  to
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  three
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  things
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  I'm,
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  I'm
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  grateful
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  for
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  and
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  the
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  blessings
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  that
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  he
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  provided
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  that
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  day.
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  Um,
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  and
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  so
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  just
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  because
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  I
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  don't
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  write
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  them
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  down
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  doesn't
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  mean
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  I
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  don't
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  do
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  it.
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  And
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  that
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  is
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  kind
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  of
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  a
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  mind
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  shift
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  that
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  I've
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  had
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  to
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  have
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  that
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  what
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  works
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  for
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  me
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  is
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  keeping
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  track
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  of
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  what's
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  happened
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  each
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  month
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  of
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  the
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  year.
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  So,
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  without
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  further
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  ado,
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  let's
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  go
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  into
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  this.
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  January
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  of
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  2023.
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  I
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  want
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  to
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  give
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  some
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  background
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  and
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  some
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  information
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  about
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  this
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  before
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  I
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  go
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  into
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  what
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  I
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  actually
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  learned.
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  You
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  see,
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  October
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  of
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  2022,
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  I
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  was
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  two
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  months
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  from
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  a
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  stroke,
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  and
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  I
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  knew
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  that
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  because
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  I
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  took
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  some
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  functional
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  labs.
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  And
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  soon
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  after
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  I
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  had
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  done
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  the
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  functional
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  labs,
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  I
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  had
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  my
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  first
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  panic
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  attack
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  I'd
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  had
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  in
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  a
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  decade.
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  Um,
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  my
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  last
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  panic
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  attacks
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  were
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  in
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  my
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  twenties
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  and
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  I
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  hadn't
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  had
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  one
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  so
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  deep
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  like
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  I
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  had
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  then.
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  It
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  was
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  just
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  like
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  I
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  was
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  constantly
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  on
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  the
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  edge
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  and
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  I
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  was
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  wondering
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  if
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  I
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  was
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  going
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  to
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  have
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  to
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  go
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  to
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  the
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  hospital.
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  Um,
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  it
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  was
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  that
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  bad.
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  And
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  this
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  panic
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  attack,
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  I
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  should
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  say.
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  Um,
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  and
• 2:40
  what
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  I
• 2:40
  realized
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  is
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  that
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  I
• 2:43
  had
• 2:43
  been
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  running
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  so
• 2:45
  hard.
• 2:46
  My
• 2:46
  body
• 2:47
  had
• 2:47
  just
• 2:47
  been
• 2:47
  running
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  for
• 2:48
  so
• 2:48
  hard
• 2:49
  since
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  I
• 2:49
  started
• 2:49
  my
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  business,
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  if
• 2:50
  I
• 2:50
  can
• 2:50
  be
• 2:51
  honest.
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  When
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  my
• 2:52
  husband
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  and
• 2:53
  I
• 2:53
  moved
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  to
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  Southwest
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  Ohio,
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  it
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  was
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  a
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  fresh
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  start
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  for
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  us
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  and
• 2:56
  I
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  refused
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  to
• 2:57
  volunteer
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  or
• 2:58
  work
• 2:58
  or
• 2:58
  do
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  anything,
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  um,
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  outside
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  my
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  home
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  for
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  a
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  period
• 3:02
  of
• 3:02
  time.
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  And
• 3:03
  that
• 3:04
  only
• 3:04
  lasted
• 3:04
  like
• 3:04
  a
• 3:04
  year
• 3:05
  and
• 3:05
  a
• 3:05
  half,
• 3:06
  um,
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  which
• 3:07
  is
• 3:08
  good
• 3:08
  for
• 3:08
  me.
• 3:08
  It
• 3:08
  was
• 3:08
  good
• 3:09
  for
• 3:09
  me.
• 3:09
  But,
• 3:10
  uh,
• 3:10
  it
• 3:10
  only
• 3:11
  lasted
• 3:11
  a
• 3:11
  year
• 3:11
  and
• 3:11
  a
• 3:11
  half
• 3:12
  and
• 3:13
  I
• 3:14
  forgot
• 3:14
  this
• 3:15
  idea
• 3:15
  of
• 3:15
  rest
• 3:16
  and
• 3:16
  going
• 3:16
  slow.
• 3:17
  And
• 3:18
  it's
• 3:18
  not
• 3:18
  my
• 3:19
  personality's
• 3:19
  natural
• 3:20
  trait
• 3:20
  to
• 3:21
  go
• 3:21
  slow.
• 3:22
  Um,
• 3:22
  I'm
• 3:23
  all
• 3:23
  in
• 3:23
  or
• 3:23
  I'm
• 3:23
  all
• 3:24
  out,
• 3:25
  kind
• 3:25
  of
• 3:25
  like
• 3:25
  the
• 3:25
  all
• 3:26
  or
• 3:26
  nothing
• 3:26
  mentality.
• 3:27
  I'm
• 3:27
  either
• 3:27
  all
• 3:27
  in
• 3:27
  or
• 3:27
  all
• 3:28
  out.
• 3:28
  And
• 3:29
  I,
• 3:30
  so
• 3:30
  overwhelm,
• 3:31
  this
• 3:31
  is
• 3:31
  what
• 3:31
  I
• 3:31
  learned,
• 3:31
  is
• 3:32
  that
• 3:32
  overwhelm
• 3:33
  has
• 3:33
  been
• 3:33
  my
• 3:33
  constant
• 3:34
  companion.
• 3:35
  Um,
• 3:35
  and
• 3:36
  it's
• 3:36
  because
• 3:36
  of
• 3:36
  me
• 3:37
  and
• 3:37
  how
• 3:38
  my
• 3:38
  brain
• 3:38
  works.
• 3:40
  So
• 3:40
  I
• 3:41
  realized
• 3:42
  back
• 3:42
  in
• 3:42
  October,
• 3:43
  but
• 3:43
  I
• 3:43
  actually
• 3:44
  learned
• 3:44
  it,
• 3:45
  um,
• 3:46
  in
• 3:46
  January
• 3:46
  is
• 3:47
  that
• 3:47
  I
• 3:47
  need
• 3:47
  people
• 3:47
  in
• 3:47
  my
• 3:48
  life
• 3:48
  to
• 3:48
  sort
• 3:49
  out
• 3:49
  my
• 3:49
  thoughts
• 3:50
  and
• 3:50
  help
• 3:50
  me
• 3:50
  stay
• 3:51
  focused.
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  And
• 3:52
  what
• 3:52
  that
• 3:53
  looks
• 3:53
  like
• 3:53
  for
• 3:53
  me
• 3:53
  is
• 3:54
  I'm
• 3:54
  part
• 3:54
  of
• 3:54
  a
• 3:55
  high
• 3:55
  level
• 3:55
  mastermind.
• 3:56
  Um,
• 3:57
  for
• 3:57
  women
• 3:57
  in
• 3:57
  business
• 3:58
  and
• 3:58
  it's
• 3:58
  mostly
• 3:59
  moms
• 3:59
  that
• 3:59
  are
• 3:59
  entrepreneurs
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  and
• 4:01
  it's
• 4:01
  this
• 4:02
  space
• 4:03
  where
• 4:03
  we
• 4:03
  focus
• 4:04
  on
• 4:04
  our
• 4:05
  health
• 4:05
  and
• 4:05
  fitness
• 4:06
  and,
• 4:07
  um,
• 4:07
  just,
• 4:07
  you
• 4:07
  know,
• 4:07
  getting
• 4:08
  to
• 4:08
  the
• 4:08
  doctor's
• 4:08
  appointments,
• 4:09
  getting,
• 4:09
  you
• 4:09
  know,
• 4:09
  doing
• 4:10
  all
• 4:10
  the
• 4:10
  things
• 4:10
  it's,
• 4:11
  it's
• 4:11
  about
• 4:11
  getting,
• 4:11
  um,
• 4:12
  those
• 4:12
  walks
• 4:12
  in
• 4:12
  instead
• 4:13
  of
• 4:13
  choosing
• 4:13
  to
• 4:13
  work
• 4:14
  the
• 4:14
  whole
• 4:14
  time.
• 4:14
  It's
• 4:15
  about
• 4:15
  our
• 4:15
  relationships,
• 4:16
  making
• 4:16
  sure
• 4:17
  our
• 4:17
  marriages
• 4:17
  are
• 4:17
  strong
• 4:18
  and
• 4:18
  making
• 4:18
  sure
• 4:18
  our
• 4:18
  relationships
• 4:19
  with
• 4:19
  our
• 4:19
  kids
• 4:20
  are
• 4:20
  strong.
• 4:21
  Um,
• 4:21
  making
• 4:22
  sure
• 4:22
  our
• 4:22
  self
• 4:22
  care
• 4:23
  is
• 4:23
  taken
• 4:23
  care
• 4:23
  of.
• 4:23
  Like,
• 4:24
  are
• 4:24
  you
• 4:24
  showering?
• 4:25
  Are
• 4:25
  you,
• 4:26
  uh,
• 4:26
  getting
• 4:26
  to
• 4:26
  your
• 4:26
  doctor's
• 4:27
  appointments?
• 4:27
  Are
• 4:27
  you
• 4:27
  doing,
• 4:28
  you
• 4:28
  know,
• 4:28
  buying
• 4:28
  whole
• 4:29
  foods?
• 4:29
  All
• 4:30
  of
• 4:30
  those
• 4:30
  kinds
• 4:30
  of
• 4:30
  things.
• 4:31
  Um,
• 4:31
  and
• 4:32
  it,
• 4:32
  it's
• 4:32
  all
• 4:32
  also
• 4:33
  about
• 4:33
  our,
• 4:34
  um,
• 4:34
  environment.
• 4:35
  Um,
• 4:36
  who
• 4:36
  are
• 4:36
  we
• 4:36
  allowing
• 4:37
  around
• 4:37
  us?
• 4:38
  Who
• 4:38
  are
• 4:38
  we,
• 4:39
  um,
• 4:39
  what
• 4:39
  are
• 4:40
  we
• 4:40
  allowing
• 4:40
  around
• 4:41
  us?
• 4:41
  What
• 4:41
  is
• 4:41
  our
• 4:42
  environment
• 4:43
  chaotic?
• 4:43
  Does
• 4:44
  it
• 4:44
  feel
• 4:44
  chaotic?
• 4:45
  Does
• 4:45
  it
• 4:45
  have
• 4:45
  people
• 4:45
  in
• 4:46
  there
• 4:46
  that
• 4:46
  doesn't
• 4:46
  belong?
• 4:46
  Does
• 4:47
  it
• 4:47
  have,
• 4:47
  you
• 4:48
  know,
• 4:48
  clutter
• 4:49
  and
• 4:49
  whatever?
• 4:49
  And
• 4:49
  I'm
• 4:49
  a
• 4:49
  queen
• 4:50
  of
• 4:50
  clutter.
• 4:50
  Um,
• 4:51
  I
• 4:51
  will,
• 4:51
  I
• 4:51
  will
• 4:51
  have
• 4:51
  a
• 4:51
  clean
• 4:52
  house,
• 4:52
  but
• 4:52
  I
• 4:52
  will
• 4:53
  probably
• 4:53
  always
• 4:53
  have
• 4:54
  some
• 4:54
  form
• 4:54
  of
• 4:54
  clutter
• 4:55
  in
• 4:55
  my
• 4:55
  house.
• 4:56
  Organized
• 4:56
  clutter.
• 4:57
  That's
• 4:57
  what
• 4:57
  it
• 4:57
  is.
• 4:58
  Um,
• 4:59
  because
• 4:59
  I
• 4:59
  don't
• 5:00
  make
• 5:00
  the
• 5:00
  time
• 5:00
  to
• 5:00
  go
• 5:00
  through
• 5:00
  it
• 5:01
  is
• 5:01
  the
• 5:01
  problem.
• 5:01
  Um,
• 5:02
  so
• 5:03
  I
• 5:03
  need
• 5:03
  people,
• 5:04
  oh,
• 5:04
  and
• 5:04
  then
• 5:04
  obviously
• 5:05
  working
• 5:05
  on
• 5:05
  our
• 5:05
  business,
• 5:06
  like
• 5:06
  high
• 5:06
  level
• 5:06
  business
• 5:07
  things
• 5:07
  so
• 5:07
  that
• 5:07
  we
• 5:07
  can
• 5:08
  scale
• 5:08
  and
• 5:08
  we
• 5:09
  can
• 5:09
  keep
• 5:09
  our
• 5:09
  family
• 5:10
  a
• 5:10
  priority
• 5:10
  and
• 5:11
  our
• 5:11
  relationship
• 5:11
  with
• 5:11
  God
• 5:11
  and
• 5:12
  all
• 5:12
  of
• 5:12
  that
• 5:12
  kind
• 5:12
  of
• 5:12
  stuff
• 5:12
  a
• 5:12
  priority.
• 5:14
  But
• 5:14
  I
• 5:14
  realized
• 5:15
  that
• 5:16
  overwhelm
• 5:16
  has
• 5:16
  been
• 5:17
  that
• 5:17
  constant
• 5:17
  companion
• 5:18
  and
• 5:18
  it
• 5:18
  has
• 5:18
  controlled
• 5:19
  me
• 5:19
  for
• 5:19
  far
• 5:19
  too
• 5:20
  long.
• 5:21
  And
• 5:21
  I
• 5:21
  think
• 5:21
  I
• 5:21
  did
• 5:21
  an
• 5:22
  episode
• 5:22
  over
• 5:22
  this
• 5:22
  a
• 5:23
  while
• 5:23
  ago,
• 5:23
  maybe
• 5:23
  not,
• 5:24
  but
• 5:24
  I'm
• 5:24
  going
• 5:24
  to
• 5:24
  share
• 5:24
  this.
• 5:25
  In
• 5:26
  October
• 5:26
  after
• 5:26
  I
• 5:26
  had
• 5:26
  that,
• 5:27
  so
• 5:27
  I
• 5:27
  had,
• 5:27
  um,
• 5:28
  functional
• 5:28
  lab
• 5:28
  work
• 5:28
  done.
• 5:30
  attack.
• 5:30
  And
• 5:30
  then
• 5:30
  all
• 5:30
  of
• 5:30
  a
• 5:31
  sudden
• 5:31
  I
• 5:31
  listened
• 5:31
  to
• 5:31
  this
• 5:31
  podcast
• 5:32
  episode
• 5:32
  by
• 5:32
  my
• 5:32
  mastermind
• 5:34
  mentor.
• 5:34
  Her
• 5:34
  name
• 5:35
  is
• 5:35
  Tracy
• 5:35
  Harris
• 5:35
  and
• 5:36
  she
• 5:36
  has
• 5:36
  the,
• 5:37
  if
• 5:37
  you're
• 5:37
  in
• 5:37
  business
• 5:38
  and
• 5:38
  listening
• 5:38
  to
• 5:38
  this,
• 5:38
  her
• 5:39
  podcast
• 5:39
  is
• 5:39
  called
• 5:39
  Mums
• 5:40
  m
• 5:40
  u
• 5:40
  m
• 5:41
  s
• 5:41
  with
• 5:41
  hustle
• 5:42
  and
• 5:43
  I
• 5:44
  was
• 5:44
  listening
• 5:44
  to
• 5:44
  a
• 5:44
  podcast
• 5:45
  there
• 5:45
  and
• 5:45
  I
• 5:45
  had
• 5:45
  never
• 5:46
  heard
• 5:46
  of
• 5:46
  this
• 5:47
  idea
• 5:47
  of
• 5:47
  masculine
• 5:48
  and
• 5:48
  feminine
• 5:48
  energy
• 5:48
  put
• 5:49
  this
• 5:49
  way.
• 5:50
  I
• 5:50
  am
• 5:50
  not
• 5:50
  one
• 5:50
  of
• 5:50
  these
• 5:50
  people
• 5:51
  that's
• 5:51
  like
• 5:51
  this
• 5:51
  woo
• 5:51
  woo,
• 5:52
  energies,
• 5:52
  whatever.
• 5:53
  I
• 5:53
  realize
• 5:53
  our
• 5:53
  bodies
• 5:54
  have
• 5:55
  energy
• 5:55
  in
• 5:55
  them.
• 5:56
  I
• 5:56
  mean
• 5:56
  there
• 5:56
  is
• 5:56
  constant
• 5:57
  electrical
• 5:57
  conductivity
• 6:00
  happening
• 6:01
  in
• 6:01
  our
• 6:01
  bodies.
• 6:01
  There
• 6:02
  is,
• 6:02
  you
• 6:02
  know,
• 6:03
  there's
• 6:03
  mitochondria
• 6:04
  that
• 6:04
  are
• 6:04
  creating
• 6:04
  energy.
• 6:05
  I
• 6:05
  get
• 6:05
  that.
• 6:05
  We
• 6:05
  have
• 6:06
  quantum
• 6:06
  energy
• 6:06
  around
• 6:07
  us
• 6:07
  and
• 6:07
  in
• 6:07
  us
• 6:08
  and
• 6:08
  through
• 6:08
  us.
• 6:09
  And
• 6:09
  I
• 6:09
  think
• 6:09
  that
• 6:09
  there's
• 6:10
  probably
• 6:10
  reasons
• 6:10
  why
• 6:11
  we
• 6:11
  have
• 6:12
  been
• 6:12
  warned
• 6:12
  against
• 6:13
  the
• 6:13
  occult
• 6:14
  and
• 6:14
  practices
• 6:14
  as
• 6:15
  such,
• 6:16
  uh,
• 6:16
  digging
• 6:17
  into
• 6:17
  other
• 6:17
  people's
• 6:17
  energies.
• 6:18
  So
• 6:19
  anyway,
• 6:19
  all
• 6:19
  that
• 6:19
  to
• 6:20
  say,
• 6:21
  I
• 6:21
  was
• 6:22
  like,
• 6:22
  at
• 6:22
  first
• 6:23
  turned
• 6:23
  off,
• 6:23
  I'm
• 6:23
  like,
• 6:24
  Oh
• 6:24
  heck
• 6:24
  no,
• 6:24
  I'm
• 6:24
  not
• 6:25
  listening
• 6:25
  to
• 6:25
  this
• 6:25
  masculine
• 6:26
  and
• 6:26
  feminine
• 6:26
  energy
• 6:26
  thing.
• 6:27
  And
• 6:27
  what
• 6:27
  I
• 6:28
  realized,
• 6:29
  the
• 6:29
  way
• 6:29
  this
• 6:30
  guest
• 6:31
  put
• 6:31
  it
• 6:31
  was
• 6:32
  that
• 6:32
  Um,
• 6:34
  masculine
• 6:34
  energy
• 6:34
  is
• 6:35
  this
• 6:35
  energy
• 6:35
  that
• 6:35
  go,
• 6:36
  that
• 6:36
  is
• 6:36
  a
• 6:36
  go,
• 6:36
  go,
• 6:36
  go,
• 6:37
  go,
• 6:37
  go.
• 6:38
  And
• 6:38
  when
• 6:38
  you
• 6:38
  think
• 6:38
  about
• 6:39
  it,
• 6:39
  men
• 6:39
  are
• 6:40
  created
• 6:40
  to
• 6:40
  go,
• 6:41
  go,
• 6:41
  go.
• 6:41
  They
• 6:41
  are
• 6:42
  created
• 6:42
  to
• 6:42
  provide
• 6:43
  and
• 6:43
  protect
• 6:44
  and
• 6:44
  have
• 6:44
  that,
• 6:45
  um,
• 6:46
  you
• 6:46
  know,
• 6:46
  like
• 6:46
  that
• 6:46
  cat
• 6:46
  like
• 6:47
  reflexes
• 6:47
  is
• 6:47
  what
• 6:48
  I'm
• 6:48
  like
• 6:48
  thinking.
• 6:48
  And
• 6:49
  they're,
• 6:49
  they're
• 6:50
  the
• 6:50
  ones
• 6:50
  that
• 6:50
  have
• 6:51
  hormonal
• 6:51
  makeup
• 6:52
  and
• 6:52
  chemical
• 6:52
  makeup
• 6:53
  that
• 6:53
  Um,
• 6:54
  provides
• 6:54
  them
• 6:54
  the
• 6:54
  opportunity.
• 6:55
  Men
• 6:56
  go
• 6:56
  to
• 6:56
  war.
• 6:56
  They
• 6:57
  don't
• 6:57
  have
• 6:57
  to
• 6:57
  sleep.
• 6:57
  I
• 6:57
  mean,
• 6:57
  yes,
• 6:58
  we
• 6:58
  all
• 6:58
  need
• 6:58
  to
• 6:58
  sleep,
• 6:59
  but
• 6:59
  they
• 6:59
  don't
• 6:59
  have
• 7:00
  to
• 7:00
  sleep
• 7:00
  as
• 7:00
  much
• 7:00
  as
• 7:00
  us
• 7:01
  women.
• 7:01
  They
• 7:01
  don't
• 7:01
  have
• 7:01
  as
• 7:01
  much
• 7:02
  body
• 7:02
  fat.
• 7:02
  They
• 7:02
  have
• 7:02
  more
• 7:02
  muscle,
• 7:03
  muscle
• 7:03
  tissue.
• 7:04
  They
• 7:05
  have
• 7:05
  a
• 7:05
  lot
• 7:05
  of
• 7:05
  different
• 7:06
  body
• 7:06
  makeup
• 7:07
  because
• 7:07
  they
• 7:08
  were
• 7:08
  provided
• 7:09
  to
• 7:09
  be
• 7:09
  able
• 7:09
  to
• 7:09
  withstand
• 7:10
  that
• 7:10
  kind
• 7:10
  of
• 7:11
  stress.
• 7:12
  But
• 7:12
  then
• 7:12
  when
• 7:12
  we
• 7:12
  have
• 7:12
  pulled
• 7:13
  women
• 7:13
  out
• 7:13
  of
• 7:14
  the
• 7:14
  house
• 7:14
  and
• 7:14
  away
• 7:15
  from
• 7:15
  home
• 7:15
  and
• 7:16
  being
• 7:16
  the
• 7:16
  admins
• 7:16
  of
• 7:16
  our
• 7:16
  home,
• 7:17
  the
• 7:17
  nurturers
• 7:17
  of
• 7:17
  our
• 7:17
  children
• 7:18
  and
• 7:18
  of
• 7:18
  our
• 7:18
  marriages
• 7:19
  and,
• 7:19
  and
• 7:20
  so
• 7:20
  forth,
• 7:21
  when
• 7:21
  we
• 7:21
  have
• 7:21
  done
• 7:21
  that,
• 7:22
  we
• 7:22
  have
• 7:22
  put
• 7:22
  women
• 7:23
  in
• 7:23
  masculine
• 7:24
  roles
• 7:24
  and
• 7:25
  our
• 7:25
  bodies,
• 7:25
  if
• 7:26
  you
• 7:26
  look,
• 7:26
  when
• 7:27
  women
• 7:27
  start
• 7:27
  getting
• 7:27
  taken
• 7:28
  out
• 7:28
  of
• 7:28
  the
• 7:28
  home,
• 7:29
  our
• 7:29
  bodies
• 7:29
  have
• 7:30
  changed.
• 7:31
  Our
• 7:31
  female
• 7:32
  bodies
• 7:32
  have,
• 7:33
  um,
• 7:33
  held
• 7:34
  on
• 7:34
  to,
• 7:35
  you
• 7:35
  know,
• 7:35
  struggled
• 7:36
  with
• 7:36
  estrogen,
• 7:36
  struggling
• 7:37
  with
• 7:37
  too
• 7:37
  much
• 7:38
  estrogen.
• 7:38
  And
• 7:39
  many
• 7:39
  of
• 7:39
  us
• 7:39
  women
• 7:40
  that
• 7:40
  have
• 7:40
  too
• 7:40
  much
• 7:40
  estrogen
• 7:41
  started
• 7:41
  growing
• 7:41
  facial
• 7:41
  hair.
• 7:42
  Hmm,
• 7:42
  there's
• 7:42
  something
• 7:43
  there,
• 7:43
  right?
• 7:44
  Um,
• 7:44
  and
• 7:44
  I'm
• 7:44
  just
• 7:45
  using
• 7:45
  that
• 7:45
  as
• 7:45
  an
• 7:45
  example
• 7:46
  and
• 7:46
  it's,
• 7:47
  I'm
• 7:47
  very
• 7:47
  simplifying
• 7:48
  it
• 7:48
  right
• 7:48
  now.
• 7:49
  But
• 7:49
  when
• 7:50
  a
• 7:50
  woman
• 7:51
  When
• 7:51
  you
• 7:51
  think
• 7:51
  of
• 7:51
  feminine
• 7:52
  energy,
• 7:53
  feminine
• 7:53
  energy
• 7:54
  is
• 7:54
  sensual.
• 7:55
  It
• 7:55
  can
• 7:55
  be
• 7:55
  powerful
• 7:55
  too,
• 7:56
  don't
• 7:56
  get
• 7:56
  me
• 7:56
  wrong,
• 7:56
  but
• 7:57
  it's
• 7:57
  sensual.
• 7:57
  It's,
• 7:58
  um,
• 7:59
  it's
• 7:59
  this
• 7:59
  idea
• 8:00
  of
• 8:00
  gentleness
• 8:01
  and
• 8:01
  it's
• 8:01
  this
• 8:01
  idea
• 8:02
  of,
• 8:02
  and
• 8:02
  when
• 8:02
  I
• 8:02
  say
• 8:02
  gentleness,
• 8:03
  I
• 8:03
  don't
• 8:03
  mean
• 8:04
  like,
• 8:04
  because
• 8:04
  we
• 8:04
  all
• 8:04
  know
• 8:04
  I'm
• 8:05
  not
• 8:05
  a
• 8:05
  gentle
• 8:05
  person
• 8:06
  by
• 8:06
  any
• 8:06
  means.
• 8:07
  I
• 8:07
  am
• 8:07
  the
• 8:07
  most
• 8:07
  clumsiest,
• 8:08
  like
• 8:08
  even
• 8:08
  when
• 8:08
  I
• 8:08
  walked
• 8:09
  in
• 8:09
  the
• 8:09
  office
• 8:09
  today,
• 8:10
  I
• 8:10
  was
• 8:10
  clanking
• 8:11
  keys
• 8:11
  and
• 8:11
  I
• 8:11
  was
• 8:11
  loud
• 8:12
  and
• 8:12
  someone's
• 8:12
  patient
• 8:13
  was
• 8:13
  sitting
• 8:13
  outside
• 8:13
  their
• 8:14
  door
• 8:14
  and
• 8:15
  she
• 8:15
  just
• 8:15
  looked
• 8:15
  at
• 8:15
  me
• 8:16
  and
• 8:16
  I'm
• 8:16
  like,
• 8:16
  hey!
• 8:18
  I
• 8:18
  might
• 8:18
  make
• 8:19
  an
• 8:19
  entrance
• 8:19
  wherever
• 8:19
  I
• 8:20
  go.
• 8:20
  So
• 8:20
  I'm
• 8:21
  not
• 8:21
  saying
• 8:21
  gentleness
• 8:22
  like
• 8:22
  that,
• 8:22
  I'm
• 8:22
  saying
• 8:22
  gentleness
• 8:23
  of
• 8:23
  spirit
• 8:24
  and
• 8:24
  gentleness
• 8:24
  of
• 8:25
  wanting
• 8:25
  and
• 8:26
  seeing
• 8:26
  needs
• 8:27
  that
• 8:27
  need
• 8:27
  to
• 8:27
  be
• 8:27
  met
• 8:27
  kind
• 8:28
  of
• 8:28
  thing.
• 8:28
  Anyway,
• 8:29
  I
• 8:29
  just
• 8:29
  lost
• 8:29
  track
• 8:29
  of
• 8:30
  where
• 8:30
  I
• 8:30
  was
• 8:30
  going.
• 8:31
  Anyway,
• 8:31
  women
• 8:31
  are,
• 8:32
  um,
• 8:33
  anytime
• 8:33
  a
• 8:33
  woman
• 8:34
  is
• 8:34
  pulled
• 8:34
  out
• 8:34
  of
• 8:34
  the
• 8:34
  home,
• 8:35
  it
• 8:35
  needs
• 8:35
  to
• 8:36
  be
• 8:37
  an
• 8:37
  elite
• 8:38
  opportunity.
• 8:39
  That
• 8:39
  means
• 8:40
  that
• 8:40
  we
• 8:40
  shouldn't
• 8:40
  be
• 8:40
  at
• 8:41
  everyone's
• 8:41
  beck
• 8:41
  and
• 8:42
  call
• 8:42
  just
• 8:42
  because
• 8:43
  they
• 8:43
  call.
• 8:44
  Our
• 8:44
  priority
• 8:45
  is
• 8:45
  what's
• 8:45
  under
• 8:45
  our
• 8:46
  roof.
• 8:47
  And
• 8:47
  that
• 8:49
  made
• 8:49
  me
• 8:50
  cry.
• 8:51
  Um,
• 8:51
  I
• 8:51
  think
• 8:51
  I
• 8:51
  was
• 8:51
  actually
• 8:52
  cooking
• 8:52
  dinner
• 8:52
  at
• 8:52
  the
• 8:52
  time.
• 8:53
  And
• 8:53
  I
• 8:53
  was
• 8:54
  crying
• 8:54
  because
• 8:54
  I'm
• 8:54
  like,
• 8:55
  When
• 8:55
  did
• 8:56
  cooking
• 8:56
  dinner
• 8:56
  become
• 8:57
  this
• 8:57
  place
• 8:57
  that
• 8:57
  I
• 8:58
  hated
• 8:58
  doing?
• 8:59
  And
• 9:00
  that
• 9:00
  I
• 9:00
  was
• 9:00
  so
• 9:00
  detached
• 9:01
  from.
• 9:01
  Because
• 9:02
  it
• 9:02
  wasn't
• 9:02
  like
• 9:02
  that
• 9:03
  when
• 9:03
  I
• 9:03
  first
• 9:03
  moved
• 9:04
  to
• 9:04
  Southwest
• 9:04
  Ohio.
• 9:05
  I
• 9:05
  was
• 9:05
  actually
• 9:05
  very
• 9:05
  grateful
• 9:06
  to
• 9:06
  be
• 9:06
  able
• 9:06
  to
• 9:06
  have
• 9:06
  time
• 9:06
  to
• 9:07
  cook
• 9:07
  for
• 9:07
  my
• 9:07
  kids
• 9:07
  and
• 9:08
  family
• 9:08
  and
• 9:09
  clean
• 9:09
  up.
• 9:09
  And
• 9:10
  I
• 9:10
  was
• 9:10
  so
• 9:10
  grateful
• 9:10
  for
• 9:11
  my
• 9:11
  home
• 9:11
  and
• 9:11
  the
• 9:11
  kitchen,
• 9:12
  the
• 9:12
  large
• 9:12
  kitchen
• 9:13
  that
• 9:13
  I
• 9:13
  have.
• 9:13
  And
• 9:14
  I'm
• 9:14
  like,
• 9:14
  what
• 9:14
  happened?
• 9:15
  You
• 9:16
  know
• 9:16
  what
• 9:16
  happened?
• 9:17
  I
• 9:17
  was
• 9:17
  distracted
• 9:18
  in
• 9:18
  the
• 9:18
  overwhelm
• 9:19
  and
• 9:19
  doing
• 9:19
  and
• 9:19
  performing
• 9:20
  and
• 9:20
  I
• 9:20
  was
• 9:20
  pulled
• 9:20
  out
• 9:20
  of
• 9:21
  the
• 9:21
  house
• 9:21
  again.
• 9:22
  And
• 9:22
  I'm
• 9:22
  not
• 9:22
  saying
• 9:23
  that
• 9:23
  we
• 9:23
  can't
• 9:23
  be
• 9:23
  working
• 9:23
  women.
• 9:24
  I
• 9:24
  am
• 9:24
  literally
• 9:24
  out
• 9:25
  of
• 9:25
  the
• 9:25
  home
• 9:25
  right
• 9:25
  now.
• 9:25
  I
• 9:26
  am
• 9:26
  in
• 9:26
  my
• 9:27
  office
• 9:27
  and
• 9:27
  I
• 9:28
  am
• 9:28
  working.
• 9:28
  Um,
• 9:29
  but
• 9:30
  my
• 9:30
  work
• 9:31
  needs
• 9:31
  to
• 9:31
  be
• 9:31
  an
• 9:32
  elite
• 9:32
  opportunity
• 9:33
  and
• 9:34
  because
• 9:35
  every
• 9:35
  single
• 9:36
  patient
• 9:36
  or
• 9:36
  client
• 9:37
  or
• 9:38
  my
• 9:38
  Wilderness
• 9:38
  of
• 9:38
  Wellness
• 9:39
  members
• 9:39
  that
• 9:39
  I
• 9:39
  meet
• 9:39
  with,
• 9:40
  anytime
• 9:40
  I
• 9:40
  am
• 9:41
  meeting
• 9:41
  with
• 9:41
  someone
• 9:41
  that
• 9:41
  is
• 9:42
  not
• 9:42
  in
• 9:42
  my,
• 9:42
  under
• 9:43
  my
• 9:43
  roof,
• 9:44
  it
• 9:44
  is
• 9:44
  an
• 9:44
  elite
• 9:44
  opportunity.
• 9:46
  To
• 9:46
  be
• 9:46
  with
• 9:46
  that
• 9:46
  person
• 9:47
  at
• 9:47
  least
• 9:48
  female
• 9:49
  and
• 9:49
  so
• 9:50
  I
• 9:50
  realized
• 9:51
  that
• 9:51
  I
• 9:51
  needed
• 9:52
  to
• 9:53
  lean
• 9:53
  back
• 9:54
  into
• 9:55
  a
• 9:55
  place
• 9:56
  Where
• 9:57
  I
• 9:57
  could
• 9:57
  where
• 9:58
  I
• 9:58
  could
• 9:58
  trust
• 9:59
  and
• 9:59
  have
• 9:59
  this
• 9:59
  community
• 10:00
  of
• 10:00
  women
• 10:00
  in
• 10:01
  my
• 10:01
  life
• 10:01
  to
• 10:01
  help
• 10:01
  me
• 10:02
  sort
• 10:02
  out
• 10:02
  my
• 10:02
  thoughts
• 10:02
  and
• 10:03
  help
• 10:03
  me
• 10:03
  stay
• 10:03
  focused
• 10:04
  on
• 10:05
  my
• 10:05
  priorities
• 10:06
  Not
• 10:06
  everybody
• 10:06
  else's,
• 10:07
  not
• 10:07
  what
• 10:07
  the
• 10:07
  world
• 10:08
  says,
• 10:08
  not
• 10:09
  this
• 10:09
  go,
• 10:09
  go,
• 10:09
  go
• 10:09
  energy.
• 10:10
  So
• 10:11
  that's
• 10:11
  what
• 10:11
  I
• 10:11
  did
• 10:12
  in
• 10:12
  January.
• 10:12
  And
• 10:12
  I
• 10:12
  started
• 10:13
  January,
• 10:13
  2023
• 10:14
  in
• 10:14
  my
• 10:15
  inner
• 10:15
  circle
• 10:15
  mastermind
• 10:16
  with
• 10:16
  Tracy
• 10:16
  Harris
• 10:17
  and
• 10:17
  her
• 10:17
  husband,
• 10:17
  Carl.
• 10:19
  And,
• 10:19
  uh,
• 10:20
  they're
• 10:20
  out
• 10:20
  of
• 10:20
  Australia.
• 10:21
  So
• 10:21
  I'll
• 10:21
  have
• 10:22
  to
• 10:22
  talk
• 10:22
  about
• 10:22
  that
• 10:22
  here
• 10:22
  in
• 10:22
  a
• 10:22
  little
• 10:23
  bit.
• 10:23
  They're
• 10:23
  out
• 10:23
  of
• 10:23
  Australia.
• 10:24
  So,
• 10:25
  um,
• 10:25
  I
• 10:25
  learned
• 10:26
  also
• 10:26
  in
• 10:26
  January
• 10:27
  that
• 10:27
  I
• 10:27
  have
• 10:28
  to
• 10:28
  put
• 10:28
  subtitles
• 10:28
  on
• 10:29
  sometimes
• 10:29
  to
• 10:29
  understand
• 10:30
  what
• 10:30
  they're
• 10:30
  saying
• 10:30
  because
• 10:31
  they
• 10:31
  jumble
• 10:32
  their
• 10:32
  vowels
• 10:33
  together
• 10:33
  or
• 10:34
  some
• 10:34
  of
• 10:34
  their.
• 10:35
  Um,
• 10:36
  sayings
• 10:36
  or
• 10:36
  words
• 10:37
  they
• 10:37
  use
• 10:37
  are
• 10:37
  not
• 10:38
  the
• 10:38
  same
• 10:38
  that
• 10:38
  we
• 10:38
  use
• 10:38
  here
• 10:39
  and
• 10:39
  I
• 10:39
  have
• 10:40
  to
• 10:40
  remember,
• 10:41
  so
• 10:41
  like
• 10:42
  the
• 10:42
  weed
• 10:42
  eater
• 10:42
  or
• 10:43
  the
• 10:43
  weed
• 10:43
  whacker
• 10:43
  that
• 10:43
  we
• 10:44
  have,
• 10:45
  it's
• 10:45
  called
• 10:45
  the
• 10:46
  something
• 10:46
  whipper.
• 10:47
  Whipper
• 10:48
  snipper
• 10:48
  is
• 10:48
  what
• 10:48
  they
• 10:48
  call
• 10:49
  their
• 10:49
  weed
• 10:49
  whacker
• 10:49
  and
• 10:49
  I'm
• 10:49
  like,
• 10:50
  what
• 10:50
  is
• 10:50
  a
• 10:50
  whipper
• 10:50
  snipper?
• 10:51
  Anyway,
• 10:52
  um,
• 10:52
  just
• 10:52
  some
• 10:52
  weird
• 10:53
  things
• 10:53
  like
• 10:53
  that,
• 10:53
  but
• 10:54
  that's
• 10:54
  what
• 10:54
  I
• 10:55
  learned
• 10:55
  in
• 10:55
  January.
• 10:56
  Um,
• 10:57
  February,
• 10:57
  I
• 10:57
  was
• 10:57
  a
• 10:57
  new
• 10:58
  chicken
• 10:58
  mom.
• 10:59
  I
• 10:59
  got
• 10:59
  eight
• 11:00
  new
• 11:00
  chickens,
• 11:00
  I
• 11:00
  actually
• 11:00
  ordered
• 11:01
  seven
• 11:01
  and
• 11:01
  they
• 11:01
  sent
• 11:01
  me
• 11:01
  an
• 11:02
  extra.
• 11:02
  And
• 11:03
  I,
• 11:03
  because
• 11:04
  of
• 11:04
  needing,
• 11:04
  knowing
• 11:04
  that
• 11:04
  I
• 11:05
  needed
• 11:05
  to
• 11:05
  slow
• 11:05
  down,
• 11:06
  um,
• 11:07
  and
• 11:07
  I
• 11:07
  thought
• 11:07
  that
• 11:08
  having
• 11:08
  chickens
• 11:09
  would
• 11:09
  be
• 11:09
  a
• 11:09
  great
• 11:09
  addition
• 11:10
  to
• 11:10
  our
• 11:10
  family
• 11:11
  and
• 11:11
  our
• 11:12
  backyard.
• 11:12
  We
• 11:12
  have
• 11:12
  plenty
• 11:13
  of
• 11:13
  room
• 11:13
  for
• 11:13
  them.
• 11:14
  And
• 11:15
  so
• 11:15
  I
• 11:15
  know,
• 11:16
  I
• 11:16
  knew
• 11:16
  I
• 11:16
  needed
• 11:16
  to
• 11:17
  slow
• 11:17
  down
• 11:17
  and
• 11:18
  the
• 11:18
  moments
• 11:18
  with
• 11:18
  my
• 11:19
  chickens
• 11:19
  in
• 11:19
  February,
• 11:21
  um,
• 11:21
  provided
• 11:21
  the
• 11:21
  opportunity
• 11:22
  to
• 11:22
  do
• 11:22
  that.
• 11:23
  I
• 11:23
  got
• 11:23
  them
• 11:23
  in
• 11:23
  February,
• 11:24
  I
• 11:24
  should
• 11:24
  say.
• 11:25
  And
• 11:25
  so
• 11:26
  it
• 11:26
  was
• 11:26
  so
• 11:26
  exciting
• 11:27
  as
• 11:27
  we,
• 11:27
  as
• 11:27
  a
• 11:27
  family,
• 11:28
  the
• 11:28
  kids
• 11:28
  and
• 11:29
  I
• 11:29
  and
• 11:29
  my
• 11:29
  husband,
• 11:30
  we
• 11:30
  all,
• 11:31
  you
• 11:31
  know,
• 11:31
  kept
• 11:31
  going
• 11:31
  to
• 11:32
  Rural
• 11:32
  King
• 11:32
  and
• 11:33
  Tractor
• 11:33
  Supply
• 11:33
  and
• 11:34
  looking
• 11:34
  online,
• 11:34
  all
• 11:35
  the
• 11:35
  things
• 11:35
  we
• 11:35
  wanted
• 11:35
  to
• 11:35
  get
• 11:36
  them
• 11:36
  and
• 11:37
  it
• 11:37
  was
• 11:37
  just
• 11:38
  like
• 11:38
  shopping
• 11:38
  for
• 11:38
  another
• 11:39
  member
• 11:39
  of
• 11:39
  the
• 11:39
  family.
• 11:40
  And
• 11:40
  it
• 11:40
  was
• 11:40
  just,
• 11:40
  it
• 11:41
  was
• 11:41
  very
• 11:41
  bonding
• 11:42
  and
• 11:42
  I
• 11:42
  think
• 11:42
  that's
• 11:43
  another
• 11:43
  thing
• 11:43
  I
• 11:43
  needed
• 11:44
  was
• 11:44
  just
• 11:44
  that
• 11:45
  family
• 11:45
  project
• 11:46
  that
• 11:46
  was
• 11:46
  fun
• 11:46
  and
• 11:47
  exciting
• 11:47
  and
• 11:48
  everyone
• 11:48
  got
• 11:49
  into
• 11:49
  it.
• 11:49
  So.
• 11:50
  Um,
• 11:50
  I
• 11:51
  was
• 11:51
  able
• 11:51
  to
• 11:51
  lean
• 11:51
  into
• 11:51
  those
• 11:52
  quiet
• 11:52
  moments
• 11:53
  with
• 11:53
  my
• 11:53
  family
• 11:54
  and
• 11:54
  my
• 11:54
  chickens,
• 11:54
  getting
• 11:55
  to
• 11:55
  know
• 11:55
  them
• 11:55
  and
• 11:55
  meet
• 11:56
  their
• 11:56
  needs.
• 11:57
  In
• 11:57
  March,
• 11:59
  I
• 11:59
  learned
• 11:59
  that
• 11:59
  I
• 12:00
  am
• 12:00
  able
• 12:00
  to
• 12:01
  build
• 12:01
  things
• 12:01
  from
• 12:01
  nothing.
• 12:03
  I
• 12:03
  have
• 12:03
  the
• 12:03
  tenacity
• 12:04
  to
• 12:04
  move
• 12:04
  forward,
• 12:06
  but
• 12:06
  here's
• 12:06
  the
• 12:06
  clencher.
• 12:08
  I
• 12:08
  have
• 12:08
  to
• 12:08
  get
• 12:08
  clarity
• 12:09
  first
• 12:10
  and
• 12:10
  sit
• 12:10
  in
• 12:11
  that.
• 12:12
  You
• 12:12
  see,
• 12:12
  last
• 12:12
  year
• 12:13
  I
• 12:13
  was
• 12:14
  making
• 12:15
  an
• 12:15
  alt,
• 12:15
  like
• 12:15
  I
• 12:15
  had
• 12:15
  been
• 12:16
  for
• 12:16
  years,
• 12:16
  like
• 12:16
  making
• 12:17
  new
• 12:17
  programs
• 12:18
  for
• 12:18
  my
• 12:18
  business,
• 12:19
  for
• 12:19
  the
• 12:19
  crying
• 12:20
  in
• 12:20
  my
• 12:20
  cheesecake
• 12:20
  business,
• 12:21
  uh,
• 12:21
  Holistic
• 12:21
  Health
• 12:21
  Clinic,
• 12:22
  making
• 12:22
  new
• 12:23
  programs,
• 12:24
  uh,
• 12:24
  making
• 12:24
  new
• 12:24
  content.
• 12:25
  All
• 12:25
  the
• 12:25
  time
• 12:26
  for
• 12:26
  everybody
• 12:27
  and
• 12:27
  doing
• 12:28
  everything
• 12:28
  from
• 12:28
  scratch
• 12:29
  because
• 12:29
  I
• 12:29
  love
• 12:29
  creating
• 12:30
  content.
• 12:30
  I
• 12:30
  love
• 12:31
  teaching.
• 12:31
  I
• 12:31
  love
• 12:32
  that
• 12:32
  aspect
• 12:32
  of,
• 12:33
  of,
• 12:34
  of
• 12:34
  having
• 12:34
  this
• 12:34
  holistic
• 12:35
  health
• 12:35
  clinic,
• 12:36
  which
• 12:36
  is
• 12:36
  why
• 12:36
  I'm
• 12:36
  making
• 12:37
  the
• 12:37
  podcast.
• 12:38
  Um,
• 12:38
  I
• 12:38
  love
• 12:39
  creating
• 12:39
  things.
• 12:40
  It
• 12:40
  is
• 12:40
  so
• 12:40
  much
• 12:41
  fun.
• 12:41
  It
• 12:41
  helps
• 12:41
  me
• 12:41
  to
• 12:42
  feel
• 12:42
  connected
• 12:43
  to
• 12:43
  others
• 12:44
  and
• 12:44
  helps
• 12:44
  me
• 12:44
  to
• 12:45
  serve
• 12:45
  others
• 12:46
  in
• 12:46
  ways
• 12:47
  that
• 12:47
  maybe
• 12:47
  I
• 12:47
  can't
• 12:48
  do
• 12:48
  in
• 12:48
  person
• 12:49
  if
• 12:49
  they're
• 12:49
  far
• 12:49
  away
• 12:49
  and
• 12:49
  things.
• 12:50
  Anyway,
• 12:51
  so
• 12:51
  I
• 12:52
  know
• 12:53
  that
• 12:53
  I
• 12:53
  am
• 12:53
  able
• 12:53
  to
• 12:53
  build
• 12:54
  things
• 12:54
  from
• 12:54
  nothing,
• 12:55
  like
• 12:55
  create
• 12:56
  memberships,
• 12:57
  um,
• 12:57
  and
• 12:57
  create
• 12:58
  things
• 12:58
  like
• 12:58
  that.
• 12:59
  But
• 13:00
  I,
• 13:00
  and
• 13:00
  I
• 13:00
  know
• 13:01
  I
• 13:01
  have
• 13:01
  the
• 13:01
  tenacity
• 13:01
  to
• 13:02
  move
• 13:02
  forward
• 13:02
  in
• 13:02
  it,
• 13:03
  but
• 13:03
  the
• 13:03
  thing
• 13:04
  is,
• 13:04
  is
• 13:04
  that
• 13:04
  I
• 13:04
  was
• 13:05
  running
• 13:05
  through
• 13:06
  life
• 13:06
  without
• 13:06
  clarity.
• 13:07
  I
• 13:08
  was
• 13:08
  running
• 13:08
  in
• 13:08
  my
• 13:08
  business
• 13:09
  without
• 13:09
  clarity
• 13:10
  and
• 13:11
  I
• 13:11
  would
• 13:11
  just
• 13:11
  like,
• 13:11
  Oh,
• 13:12
  let's
• 13:12
  just
• 13:12
  do
• 13:13
  this
• 13:13
  this
• 13:13
  month.
• 13:13
  Let's
• 13:14
  do
• 13:14
  this
• 13:14
  this
• 13:14
  month.
• 13:14
  And
• 13:16
  I
• 13:16
  thought
• 13:16
  about
• 13:16
  that
• 13:17
  too
• 13:17
  as
• 13:17
  an,
• 13:17
  and
• 13:17
  even
• 13:18
  as
• 13:18
  I'm
• 13:18
  talking
• 13:18
  now,
• 13:19
  I'm
• 13:19
  like,
• 13:19
  Oh
• 13:19
  my
• 13:19
  goodness.
• 13:20
  I
• 13:22
  was,
• 13:23
  how
• 13:23
  many
• 13:23
  places
• 13:24
  in
• 13:24
  my
• 13:24
  life
• 13:24
  in
• 13:24
  the
• 13:24
  past
• 13:25
  have
• 13:25
  I
• 13:25
  not
• 13:25
  had
• 13:25
  clarity?
• 13:26
  And
• 13:26
  I
• 13:26
  just
• 13:26
  go
• 13:26
  with
• 13:26
  it.
• 13:28
  And
• 13:28
  I
• 13:28
  think
• 13:28
  back
• 13:28
  to
• 13:29
  when
• 13:29
  I
• 13:29
  was
• 13:30
  a
• 13:30
  child
• 13:31
  doing
• 13:32
  my
• 13:32
  first
• 13:32
  dieting
• 13:32
  program
• 13:34
  and
• 13:35
  I
• 13:35
  was
• 13:35
  like,
• 13:35
  I
• 13:35
  didn't
• 13:36
  have
• 13:36
  any
• 13:36
  clarity.
• 13:37
  The
• 13:38
  only
• 13:38
  thing
• 13:38
  I
• 13:38
  knew
• 13:39
  was
• 13:39
  that
• 13:39
  I
• 13:40
  could
• 13:40
  build
• 13:40
  things
• 13:40
  from
• 13:41
  nothing.
• 13:41
  I
• 13:42
  knew
• 13:42
  that
• 13:42
  I
• 13:42
  had
• 13:42
  the
• 13:42
  tenacity
• 13:43
  to
• 13:43
  move
• 13:43
  forward
• 13:43
  cause
• 13:43
  I
• 13:43
  am
• 13:44
  a
• 13:44
  really
• 13:44
  darn
• 13:44
  good
• 13:45
  athlete,
• 13:46
  but
• 13:46
  I
• 13:46
  have,
• 13:47
  I
• 13:47
  had
• 13:47
  no
• 13:48
  clarity
• 13:48
  of
• 13:48
  why
• 13:49
  I
• 13:49
  needed
• 13:49
  to
• 13:49
  diet.
• 13:50
  I
• 13:50
  had
• 13:51
  no
• 13:51
  clarity
• 13:51
  of
• 13:51
  what
• 13:52
  I
• 13:52
  needed
• 13:52
  to
• 13:52
  do
• 13:53
  and
• 13:53
  I
• 13:53
  had
• 13:54
  no
• 13:54
  clarity
• 13:54
  of
• 13:54
  what
• 13:55
  was
• 13:55
  actually
• 13:55
  going
• 13:55
  on
• 13:56
  with
• 13:56
  my
• 13:56
  body,
• 13:56
  why
• 13:56
  I
• 13:57
  was
• 13:57
  overweight
• 13:57
  nearly
• 13:58
  my
• 13:58
  whole
• 13:58
  life
• 13:58
  to
• 13:58
  begin
• 13:59
  with.
• 14:01
  And.
• 14:02
  Actually,
• 14:02
  I
• 14:02
  don't
• 14:02
  even
• 14:02
  think
• 14:02
  I've
• 14:03
  ever
• 14:03
  not
• 14:03
  been
• 14:03
  overweight
• 14:04
  in
• 14:04
  my
• 14:04
  life.
• 14:04
  I've
• 14:05
  always
• 14:05
  been
• 14:05
  obese
• 14:05
  or
• 14:06
  overweight.
• 14:07
  Anyway,
• 14:08
  but
• 14:08
  I
• 14:08
  have,
• 14:08
  like
• 14:09
  I
• 14:09
  realized
• 14:10
  that
• 14:10
  I
• 14:10
  have
• 14:11
  to
• 14:11
  get
• 14:11
  clarity
• 14:11
  first
• 14:12
  and
• 14:12
  then
• 14:12
  sit
• 14:12
  in
• 14:13
  it
• 14:14
  because
• 14:14
  it
• 14:14
  feels
• 14:14
  weird.
• 14:16
  It
• 14:16
  feels
• 14:16
  like
• 14:17
  I'm
• 14:17
  doing
• 14:17
  nothing
• 14:18
  for
• 14:18
  me,
• 14:19
  for
• 14:19
  someone
• 14:19
  that
• 14:19
  is
• 14:19
  constantly
• 14:20
  plagued
• 14:21
  by
• 14:21
  overwhelm
• 14:21
  and
• 14:22
  needing
• 14:22
  to
• 14:22
  always
• 14:22
  do
• 14:22
  something.
• 14:23
  It
• 14:24
  feels
• 14:24
  like
• 14:25
  awkward,
• 14:26
  like
• 14:26
  I'm
• 14:27
  not
• 14:27
  doing
• 14:27
  anything,
• 14:27
  like
• 14:28
  I'm
• 14:28
  not
• 14:28
  serving,
• 14:28
  like
• 14:28
  I
• 14:28
  have
• 14:29
  no
• 14:29
  purpose.
• 14:32
  So
• 14:32
  in
• 14:33
  March,
• 14:34
  I
• 14:34
  learned
• 14:34
  that
• 14:34
  clarity
• 14:35
  was
• 14:35
  vital
• 14:36
  to
• 14:37
  any
• 14:37
  kind
• 14:37
  of
• 14:37
  sustainable
• 14:38
  progress
• 14:39
  in
• 14:39
  any
• 14:39
  area
• 14:40
  of
• 14:40
  my
• 14:40
  life.
• 14:42
  In
• 14:42
  April,
• 14:43
  because
• 14:44
  I
• 14:44
  had
• 14:44
  that
• 14:44
  clarity
• 14:45
  of
• 14:45
  what
• 14:46
  I
• 14:46
  wanted
• 14:46
  to
• 14:46
  do,
• 14:47
  and
• 14:47
  I
• 14:47
  knew
• 14:47
  what
• 14:48
  I
• 14:48
  wanted
• 14:48
  to
• 14:48
  do.
• 14:48
  I
• 14:49
  wanted
• 14:49
  to
• 14:49
  only
• 14:49
  offer,
• 14:50
  I
• 14:50
  wanted
• 14:50
  to
• 14:50
  run
• 14:50
  a
• 14:51
  naturopathic
• 14:51
  clinic,
• 14:53
  and
• 14:53
  I
• 14:53
  wanted
• 14:53
  to
• 14:53
  offer,
• 14:54
  or
• 14:54
  run
• 14:54
  my
• 14:55
  membership,
• 14:55
  and
• 14:56
  that
• 14:56
  was
• 14:56
  it.
• 14:56
  That's
• 14:56
  all
• 14:57
  I
• 14:57
  wanted
• 14:57
  to
• 14:57
  do.
• 14:58
  But
• 14:58
  in
• 14:58
  April
• 14:59
  A
• 15:00
  weird
• 15:00
  bitterness
• 15:00
  started
• 15:01
  to
• 15:01
  creep
• 15:01
  in,
• 15:02
  and
• 15:03
  I'm
• 15:03
  not
• 15:03
  a
• 15:03
  bitter
• 15:03
  person
• 15:04
  by
• 15:04
  any
• 15:04
  means.
• 15:04
  I
• 15:04
  am
• 15:04
  one
• 15:05
  of
• 15:05
  those
• 15:05
  people
• 15:05
  that
• 15:05
  will
• 15:05
  forgive,
• 15:06
  I
• 15:06
  won't
• 15:06
  forget,
• 15:07
  but
• 15:07
  I
• 15:07
  will
• 15:07
  forgive
• 15:08
  like
• 15:08
  within
• 15:08
  a
• 15:08
  moment
• 15:09
  of
• 15:09
  someone
• 15:09
  apologizing
• 15:10
  and
• 15:10
  taking
• 15:11
  ownership,
• 15:11
  I
• 15:11
  will
• 15:11
  forgive
• 15:12
  and
• 15:12
  I'm
• 15:12
  good.
• 15:13
  And
• 15:13
  even
• 15:13
  if
• 15:13
  they
• 15:13
  don't,
• 15:14
  I
• 15:14
  realize,
• 15:14
  okay,
• 15:15
  that's
• 15:15
  on
• 15:15
  me,
• 15:15
  I
• 15:16
  need
• 15:16
  to
• 15:16
  forgive,
• 15:16
  it's
• 15:16
  not
• 15:16
  about
• 15:17
  them.
• 15:18
  But
• 15:18
  a
• 15:18
  weird
• 15:19
  bitterness
• 15:19
  was
• 15:19
  creeping
• 15:20
  in
• 15:20
  and
• 15:20
  I'm
• 15:20
  like,
• 15:20
  okay,
• 15:20
  this
• 15:21
  is
• 15:21
  not
• 15:21
  like
• 15:21
  me,
• 15:22
  what
• 15:22
  is
• 15:22
  going
• 15:23
  on?
• 15:23
  And
• 15:23
  I
• 15:23
  had
• 15:23
  to
• 15:23
  seek
• 15:24
  some
• 15:24
  counsel
• 15:24
  on
• 15:24
  this
• 15:25
  because
• 15:25
  I'm
• 15:25
  just
• 15:25
  like,
• 15:26
  why
• 15:26
  do
• 15:27
  I
• 15:27
  feel
• 15:27
  this
• 15:27
  way?
• 15:28
  And
• 15:29
  it
• 15:29
  was
• 15:29
  because
• 15:30
  I
• 15:30
  was
• 15:30
  finally
• 15:30
  starting
• 15:31
  to
• 15:31
  make
• 15:31
  choices
• 15:32
  that
• 15:32
  aligned
• 15:33
  with
• 15:33
  my
• 15:33
  actual
• 15:33
  life
• 15:34
  by
• 15:34
  design.
• 15:36
  I
• 15:36
  had
• 15:36
  the
• 15:36
  realization
• 15:37
  that
• 15:37
  I
• 15:37
  could
• 15:38
  make
• 15:38
  a
• 15:38
  life
• 15:39
  by
• 15:39
  design
• 15:39
  and
• 15:40
  that
• 15:40
  bitterness
• 15:40
  was
• 15:40
  actually
• 15:41
  the
• 15:41
  feelings
• 15:42
  that
• 15:42
  were
• 15:42
  tied
• 15:42
  to
• 15:43
  the
• 15:43
  things
• 15:43
  I
• 15:43
  had
• 15:43
  said
• 15:43
  yes
• 15:44
  to,
• 15:45
  in
• 15:45
  the
• 15:45
  need
• 15:45
  to
• 15:45
  be
• 15:47
  Wanted,
• 15:48
  desired,
• 15:48
  used,
• 15:49
  uh,
• 15:49
  and
• 15:50
  I
• 15:50
  don't
• 15:50
  mean
• 15:50
  used
• 15:50
  like
• 15:51
  used
• 15:51
  and
• 15:51
  abused,
• 15:51
  I
• 15:51
  mean
• 15:52
  like
• 15:52
  I
• 15:52
  want
• 15:52
  to
• 15:52
  be
• 15:52
  used.
• 15:53
  I
• 15:53
  want
• 15:53
  my
• 15:53
  skills
• 15:53
  to
• 15:54
  be
• 15:54
  on
• 15:54
  display
• 15:55
  and
• 15:55
  it's
• 15:55
  not
• 15:55
  for
• 15:55
  my
• 15:55
  glory,
• 15:56
  like
• 15:56
  I
• 15:56
  don't,
• 15:57
  like
• 15:57
  I
• 15:57
  just
• 15:57
  enjoy
• 15:59
  sharing
• 15:59
  my
• 15:59
  skills
• 16:00
  with
• 16:00
  others.
• 16:01
  And
• 16:02
  I
• 16:02
  realized
• 16:03
  though
• 16:03
  that
• 16:03
  that
• 16:03
  bitterness
• 16:04
  was
• 16:04
  actually
• 16:04
  connected
• 16:05
  to
• 16:05
  things
• 16:06
  I
• 16:06
  had
• 16:06
  said
• 16:06
  yes
• 16:06
  to
• 16:07
  that
• 16:08
  may
• 16:08
  have
• 16:08
  been
• 16:08
  good
• 16:09
  at
• 16:09
  the
• 16:09
  time,
• 16:10
  but
• 16:11
  weren't
• 16:11
  good
• 16:11
  any
• 16:12
  longer.
• 16:13
  And
• 16:13
  so
• 16:14
  I
• 16:14
  had
• 16:14
  to
• 16:14
  seek
• 16:14
  wise
• 16:15
  counsel
• 16:15
  on,
• 16:15
  Oh
• 16:16
  my
• 16:16
  goodness,
• 16:16
  like
• 16:16
  I'm
• 16:17
  feeling
• 16:17
  guilt,
• 16:18
  feeling
• 16:18
  guilt
• 16:18
  that
• 16:18
  I
• 16:19
  said
• 16:19
  yes
• 16:19
  to
• 16:19
  this.
• 16:19
  And
• 16:19
  what
• 16:19
  if
• 16:20
  I
• 16:20
  leave
• 16:20
  what's
• 16:20
  going
• 16:20
  to
• 16:20
  happen?
• 16:22
  Um,
• 16:22
  I
• 16:22
  felt
• 16:23
  guilt
• 16:23
  of
• 16:23
  like,
• 16:24
  but
• 16:24
  then
• 16:24
  what's
• 16:24
  going
• 16:24
  to
• 16:24
  like,
• 16:24
  you
• 16:25
  know,
• 16:25
  like
• 16:25
  the
• 16:25
  unknown,
• 16:26
  I
• 16:26
  felt
• 16:26
  guilt
• 16:26
  and
• 16:26
  shame
• 16:27
  over
• 16:27
  the
• 16:27
  unknown
• 16:28
  of
• 16:28
  how
• 16:28
  other
• 16:28
  people
• 16:28
  would
• 16:28
  take
• 16:29
  it
• 16:29
  if
• 16:29
  I
• 16:29
  stepped
• 16:29
  back.
• 16:32
  And
• 16:32
  that
• 16:32
  was
• 16:32
  hard.
• 16:33
  But
• 16:33
  what
• 16:34
  I
• 16:34
  did
• 16:34
  know
• 16:35
  was
• 16:35
  that
• 16:35
  I
• 16:35
  had
• 16:35
  to
• 16:35
  go
• 16:35
  seek
• 16:36
  counsel
• 16:38
  and
• 16:38
  I
• 16:38
  started
• 16:38
  therapy
• 16:39
  in
• 16:39
  April.
• 16:39
  I
• 16:40
  started
• 16:40
  back,
• 16:41
  I
• 16:41
  should
• 16:41
  say,
• 16:41
  back
• 16:42
  into
• 16:42
  regular
• 16:42
  therapy
• 16:43
  in
• 16:43
  April,
• 16:44
  because
• 16:44
  I
• 16:44
  knew
• 16:44
  what
• 16:44
  was
• 16:45
  coming
• 16:45
  in
• 16:45
  July,
• 16:46
  and
• 16:46
  we'll
• 16:46
  talk
• 16:46
  about
• 16:46
  that
• 16:47
  when
• 16:47
  we
• 16:47
  get
• 16:47
  to
• 16:47
  July.
• 16:48
  But
• 16:49
  April
• 16:49
  I
• 16:49
  had
• 16:49
  that,
• 16:50
  I
• 16:50
  had,
• 16:50
  I
• 16:50
  knew
• 16:51
  that
• 16:51
  a
• 16:51
  lot
• 16:51
  was
• 16:51
  coming
• 16:52
  this
• 16:52
  summer,
• 16:52
  and
• 16:53
  like
• 16:53
  what
• 16:53
  I
• 16:53
  wanted,
• 16:54
  that
• 16:54
  life
• 16:54
  by
• 16:54
  design,
• 16:56
  did
• 16:56
  not
• 16:56
  include
• 16:57
  all
• 16:58
  of
• 16:58
  the
• 16:58
  stress
• 16:58
  of
• 16:58
  these
• 16:58
  other
• 16:59
  places.
• 17:01
  So
• 17:01
  then
• 17:01
  May
• 17:01
  rolls
• 17:01
  around.
• 17:03
  And
• 17:03
  May
• 17:04
  really
• 17:06
  solidified.
• 17:08
  What
• 17:08
  it
• 17:08
  feels
• 17:08
  like
• 17:09
  when
• 17:09
  I've
• 17:09
  outgrown
• 17:10
  something
• 17:10
  or
• 17:11
  a
• 17:11
  group
• 17:11
  or
• 17:12
  what,
• 17:12
  what,
• 17:12
  what
• 17:13
  have
• 17:13
  you.
• 17:14
  I
• 17:14
  didn't
• 17:14
  like
• 17:15
  how
• 17:15
  I
• 17:15
  felt
• 17:15
  in
• 17:15
  May.
• 17:17
  I
• 17:17
  felt
• 17:17
  torn.
• 17:18
  I
• 17:19
  felt
• 17:19
  a
• 17:19
  sense
• 17:19
  of
• 17:19
  obligation,
• 17:21
  but
• 17:21
  also
• 17:22
  this
• 17:22
  dissonance
• 17:23
  inside
• 17:24
  me,
• 17:24
  this
• 17:24
  turmoil
• 17:25
  inside
• 17:25
  me
• 17:26
  of
• 17:26
  feeling
• 17:27
  trapped
• 17:28
  in
• 17:28
  a
• 17:28
  cage.
• 17:29
  And
• 17:30
  what
• 17:30
  I
• 17:30
  realized
• 17:31
  was
• 17:31
  the
• 17:32
  last
• 17:32
  time
• 17:32
  I
• 17:32
  felt
• 17:32
  that
• 17:33
  was
• 17:33
  when
• 17:33
  I
• 17:33
  was
• 17:33
  stuck
• 17:34
  in
• 17:34
  my
• 17:34
  hometown.
• 17:36
  I
• 17:36
  felt
• 17:36
  trapped
• 17:37
  in
• 17:37
  my
• 17:37
  hometown.
• 17:38
  You
• 17:38
  see,
• 17:39
  my
• 17:39
  hometown
• 17:39
  has
• 17:39
  one
• 17:40
  stoplight.
• 17:41
  And
• 17:41
  even
• 17:41
  to
• 17:41
  this
• 17:41
  day,
• 17:41
  that
• 17:42
  stoplight
• 17:42
  will
• 17:42
  shut
• 17:43
  off
• 17:43
  on,
• 17:44
  um,
• 17:44
  late
• 17:44
  at
• 17:44
  night,
• 17:45
  and
• 17:45
  it
• 17:45
  will
• 17:45
  shut
• 17:45
  off
• 17:46
  and,
• 17:46
  well,
• 17:46
  not
• 17:46
  shut
• 17:46
  off,
• 17:46
  but
• 17:47
  it'll
• 17:47
  flash
• 17:47
  yellow
• 17:47
  or
• 17:47
  red,
• 17:48
  um,
• 17:50
  on
• 17:50
  the
• 17:50
  weekends,
• 17:51
  you
• 17:51
  know,
• 17:51
  at
• 17:51
  nighttime
• 17:52
  or
• 17:52
  whatever.
• 17:53
  It
• 17:53
  really
• 17:53
  doesn't
• 17:53
  need
• 17:54
  a
• 17:54
  stoplight.
• 17:55
  It
• 17:55
  really
• 17:55
  could
• 17:55
  probably
• 17:55
  use
• 17:55
  a
• 17:56
  stop
• 17:56
  sign,
• 17:57
  except
• 17:57
  for
• 17:57
  when
• 17:57
  the
• 17:57
  school
• 17:58
  and
• 17:58
  the
• 17:58
  factory's
• 17:58
  lit
• 17:58
  out
• 17:58
  at
• 17:58
  the
• 17:59
  same
• 17:59
  time.
• 18:01
  Um,
• 18:01
  but
• 18:01
  I
• 18:01
  grew
• 18:01
  up
• 18:01
  in
• 18:02
  a
• 18:02
  fishbowl.
• 18:03
  Where
• 18:04
  everyone
• 18:05
  was
• 18:05
  allowed
• 18:05
  to
• 18:05
  have
• 18:05
  an
• 18:05
  opinion
• 18:06
  on
• 18:06
  me.
• 18:07
  Everyone
• 18:08
  was
• 18:08
  allowed
• 18:09
  to
• 18:09
  have
• 18:09
  an
• 18:09
  opinion
• 18:10
  about
• 18:10
  me.
• 18:11
  But
• 18:11
  I
• 18:11
  was
• 18:12
  not
• 18:12
  allowed
• 18:12
  to
• 18:13
  be
• 18:13
  myself.
• 18:15
  I
• 18:15
  had
• 18:15
  to
• 18:15
  put
• 18:15
  on
• 18:15
  a
• 18:15
  persona.
• 18:17
  I
• 18:17
  had
• 18:17
  to
• 18:17
  have
• 18:17
  my
• 18:18
  hair
• 18:18
  a
• 18:18
  certain
• 18:18
  way.
• 18:19
  I
• 18:19
  couldn't
• 18:19
  leave
• 18:20
  the
• 18:20
  house
• 18:20
  without
• 18:20
  makeup
• 18:21
  and
• 18:21
  my
• 18:21
  hair
• 18:21
  done.
• 18:21
  Or
• 18:22
  certain
• 18:22
  clothes.
• 18:23
  I
• 18:23
  wasn't
• 18:23
  allowed
• 18:24
  to
• 18:24
  hang
• 18:24
  out
• 18:24
  with
• 18:24
  certain
• 18:24
  people.
• 18:26
  Because
• 18:26
  of
• 18:26
  how
• 18:26
  it
• 18:26
  looked.
• 18:28
  And
• 18:29
  I
• 18:29
  will
• 18:29
  just
• 18:29
  leave
• 18:29
  it
• 18:29
  like
• 18:29
  that.
• 18:30
  But
• 18:30
  that
• 18:30
  was
• 18:31
  the
• 18:31
  last
• 18:31
  time
• 18:31
  I
• 18:31
  felt
• 18:32
  This
• 18:33
  weird
• 18:33
  sense
• 18:34
  of
• 18:34
  needing
• 18:34
  to
• 18:34
  break
• 18:35
  free.
• 18:36
  And
• 18:37
  it
• 18:37
  was
• 18:37
  ugly.
• 18:38
  And
• 18:38
  I
• 18:39
  finally
• 18:40
  spoke
• 18:40
  up
• 18:40
  and
• 18:40
  said,
• 18:41
  um,
• 18:41
  I
• 18:41
  spoke
• 18:42
  up
• 18:42
  to
• 18:42
  the
• 18:42
  people
• 18:42
  I
• 18:42
  needed
• 18:42
  to
• 18:43
  and
• 18:43
  said,
• 18:43
  Look,
• 18:44
  um,
• 18:44
  I
• 18:45
  have
• 18:45
  a
• 18:45
  lot
• 18:45
  on
• 18:45
  my
• 18:45
  plate
• 18:45
  this
• 18:46
  summer.
• 18:46
  I
• 18:46
  need
• 18:46
  to
• 18:47
  take
• 18:47
  a
• 18:47
  step
• 18:47
  back.
• 18:48
  And
• 18:48
  I
• 18:48
  left
• 18:48
  it
• 18:49
  at
• 18:49
  that.
• 18:50
  And
• 18:50
  it's
• 18:51
  been
• 18:51
  a
• 18:51
  really
• 18:51
  good
• 18:52
  break.
• 18:52
  Um,
• 18:53
  it
• 18:53
  was
• 18:53
  very
• 18:53
  much
• 18:54
  God
• 18:54
  centered,
• 18:54
  God
• 18:55
  led.
• 18:56
  And
• 18:56
  I
• 18:58
  I'm
• 18:58
  so
• 18:58
  grateful
• 18:58
  I
• 18:59
  did
• 18:59
  that
• 18:59
  in
• 18:59
  May
• 18:59
  because
• 19:00
  this
• 19:00
  summer,
• 19:02
  we're
• 19:02
  not
• 19:02
  there
• 19:02
  yet,
• 19:03
  the
• 19:03
  summer
• 19:03
  was
• 19:03
  rough.
• 19:04
  The
• 19:04
  summer
• 19:05
  was
• 19:05
  hard.
• 19:06
  June,
• 19:08
  I
• 19:08
  knew
• 19:08
  I
• 19:08
  needed
• 19:09
  to
• 19:09
  design
• 19:09
  my
• 19:10
  own
• 19:10
  path,
• 19:11
  my
• 19:11
  own
• 19:12
  way
• 19:12
  in
• 19:12
  life,
• 19:13
  my
• 19:13
  own
• 19:13
  way
• 19:13
  in
• 19:13
  my
• 19:14
  health
• 19:14
  and
• 19:14
  wellness
• 19:14
  business,
• 19:15
  this
• 19:15
  naturopathic
• 19:16
  business
• 19:16
  and
• 19:16
  the
• 19:17
  wilderness
• 19:17
  of
• 19:17
  wellness.
• 19:19
  And
• 19:19
  so
• 19:19
  I
• 19:19
  made
• 19:19
  a
• 19:19
  very
• 19:21
  prayerful,
• 19:22
  but
• 19:22
  a
• 19:22
  very,
• 19:22
  very,
• 19:23
  um,
• 19:24
  butt
• 19:24
  puckering
• 19:25
  decision
• 19:26
  to
• 19:27
  build
• 19:27
  out
• 19:27
  my
• 19:28
  own
• 19:28
  software
• 19:29
  and,
• 19:30
  um,
• 19:31
  have
• 19:31
  my
• 19:31
  own
• 19:31
  membership
• 19:32
  on
• 19:32
  my
• 19:32
  own,
• 19:32
  on
• 19:33
  my
• 19:33
  own
• 19:33
  software
• 19:33
  that
• 19:34
  was
• 19:34
  owned
• 19:34
  by
• 19:34
  me.
• 19:35
  No
• 19:35
  one
• 19:35
  else,
• 19:36
  no
• 19:36
  third
• 19:36
  party
• 19:36
  company
• 19:37
  that's
• 19:37
  hosting
• 19:37
  my
• 19:37
  stuff,
• 19:38
  nothing
• 19:38
  like
• 19:38
  that.
• 19:40
  Because
• 19:40
  I
• 19:40
  realized
• 19:41
  what
• 19:41
  I
• 19:41
  wanted
• 19:41
  to
• 19:42
  say,
• 19:42
  and
• 19:42
  what
• 19:42
  I
• 19:42
  wanted
• 19:43
  to
• 19:43
  talk
• 19:43
  about,
• 19:43
  and
• 19:44
  how
• 19:44
  I
• 19:44
  wanted
• 19:44
  to
• 19:44
  serve
• 19:45
  my
• 19:45
  members
• 19:46
  was
• 19:46
  not
• 19:46
  going
• 19:47
  to
• 19:47
  be
• 19:47
  able
• 19:47
  to
• 19:47
  be
• 19:48
  done
• 19:48
  on
• 19:49
  the
• 19:49
  platform
• 19:49
  I
• 19:49
  was
• 19:50
  using.
• 19:51
  And
• 19:52
  I
• 19:53
  want
• 19:53
  to
• 19:53
  address
• 19:54
  my
• 19:54
  people,
• 19:55
  um,
• 19:55
  about
• 19:56
  politics.
• 19:57
  I
• 19:57
  want
• 19:57
  to
• 19:57
  address
• 19:57
  my
• 19:57
  people
• 19:58
  about
• 19:58
  God,
• 19:59
  and
• 19:59
  about
• 19:59
  the
• 19:59
  relationship
• 20:00
  with
• 20:00
  God.
• 20:00
  I
• 20:00
  want
• 20:01
  to
• 20:01
  address
• 20:01
  my
• 20:01
  people
• 20:01
  about
• 20:02
  Big
• 20:02
  Pharma.
• 20:03
  I
• 20:03
  want
• 20:03
  to
• 20:03
  talk
• 20:04
  about
• 20:04
  vaccines.
• 20:05
  I
• 20:05
  want
• 20:05
  to
• 20:05
  talk
• 20:05
  about,
• 20:06
  um,
• 20:07
  Um,
• 20:08
  excuse
• 20:08
  me,
• 20:08
  I'm,
• 20:09
  I
• 20:09
  want
• 20:09
  to
• 20:10
  talk
• 20:10
  about
• 20:10
  all
• 20:10
  of
• 20:11
  the
• 20:11
  things
• 20:11
  that
• 20:12
  I
• 20:12
  never
• 20:12
  thought
• 20:12
  in
• 20:12
  America
• 20:13
  that
• 20:13
  we'd
• 20:13
  have
• 20:13
  to
• 20:13
  be
• 20:14
  filtered
• 20:14
  or
• 20:14
  worried
• 20:14
  about
• 20:16
  being
• 20:16
  filtered
• 20:16
  about.
• 20:17
  Um,
• 20:18
  I
• 20:18
  wanted
• 20:18
  it
• 20:18
  to
• 20:18
  be
• 20:18
  a
• 20:18
  safe
• 20:19
  space
• 20:19
  that
• 20:20
  I
• 20:20
  could
• 20:20
  control
• 20:21
  and
• 20:21
  it
• 20:21
  was
• 20:21
  easy
• 20:22
  that
• 20:22
  if
• 20:22
  I
• 20:22
  wanted
• 20:22
  to
• 20:22
  add
• 20:23
  updates
• 20:23
  or
• 20:24
  if
• 20:24
  I
• 20:24
  wanted
• 20:24
  to
• 20:25
  meet
• 20:25
  people
• 20:25
  in
• 20:26
  different
• 20:26
  ways,
• 20:26
  I
• 20:26
  could.
• 20:27
  So
• 20:27
  that's,
• 20:28
  that's
• 20:28
  why
• 20:28
  I've
• 20:28
  actually
• 20:28
  created
• 20:29
  three
• 20:29
  tiers
• 20:30
  of
• 20:30
  my
• 20:30
  Wilderness
• 20:30
  of
• 20:31
  Wellness
• 20:31
  membership
• 20:31
  because
• 20:32
  not
• 20:32
  everybody
• 20:32
  needs
• 20:33
  hardcore
• 20:34
  coaching
• 20:34
  or
• 20:35
  support.
• 20:35
  Not
• 20:36
  everybody
• 20:36
  wants
• 20:37
  that,
• 20:37
  and
• 20:37
  not
• 20:37
  everybody
• 20:38
  wants
• 20:38
  it
• 20:38
  all
• 20:38
  for
• 20:38
  long
• 20:39
  term.
• 20:40
  But
• 20:40
  also,
• 20:41
  people
• 20:41
  do
• 20:41
  want
• 20:42
  things
• 20:42
  to
• 20:42
  focus
• 20:42
  on
• 20:43
  each
• 20:43
  month.
• 20:43
  People
• 20:43
  do
• 20:44
  want
• 20:44
  resources
• 20:45
  on
• 20:45
  how
• 20:45
  to,
• 20:46
  and
• 20:46
  access
• 20:47
  to
• 20:47
  tools,
• 20:47
  knowing
• 20:48
  that
• 20:48
  this
• 20:49
  is
• 20:49
  how,
• 20:49
  you
• 20:49
  know,
• 20:49
  this
• 20:50
  is
• 20:50
  how
• 20:50
  I
• 20:50
  handle
• 20:50
  this.
• 20:51
  Or,
• 20:51
  this
• 20:51
  is
• 20:51
  what
• 20:51
  I
• 20:51
  need
• 20:51
  to
• 20:51
  work
• 20:52
  on
• 20:52
  for
• 20:52
  my,
• 20:53
  figuring
• 20:53
  out
• 20:53
  my
• 20:53
  own
• 20:54
  life
• 20:54
  by
• 20:54
  design.
• 20:55
  Or,
• 20:56
  Recipes
• 20:56
  and
• 20:57
  making
• 20:57
  their
• 20:57
  own
• 20:57
  meal
• 20:57
  plans.
• 20:58
  'cause
• 20:58
  who
• 20:58
  wants
• 20:59
  to
• 20:59
  be
• 20:59
  told
• 20:59
  what
• 20:59
  to
• 20:59
  eat?
• 21:00
  Why
• 21:00
  can't
• 21:00
  we
• 21:00
  just
• 21:00
  look
• 21:01
  up
• 21:01
  in,
• 21:01
  like,
• 21:01
  just
• 21:02
  on
• 21:02
  my
• 21:02
  platform?
• 21:02
  I'm
• 21:02
  just
• 21:02
  saying
• 21:03
  in
• 21:03
  my
• 21:04
  platform,
• 21:04
  you
• 21:04
  can
• 21:04
  literally
• 21:05
  type
• 21:05
  in
• 21:05
  what
• 21:05
  sounds
• 21:06
  good
• 21:06
  to
• 21:06
  you
• 21:07
  and
• 21:07
  then
• 21:07
  start
• 21:07
  making
• 21:08
  your
• 21:08
  own
• 21:08
  meal
• 21:08
  plans.
• 21:09
  How
• 21:09
  cool
• 21:09
  is
• 21:09
  that?
• 21:09
  And
• 21:10
  then
• 21:10
  you
• 21:10
  can
• 21:10
  actually
• 21:10
  print
• 21:10
  out
• 21:11
  the,
• 21:11
  the
• 21:11
  shopping
• 21:12
  list
• 21:12
  and
• 21:12
  you
• 21:12
  can
• 21:12
  also,
• 21:13
  um,
• 21:14
  if
• 21:14
  you
• 21:14
  have
• 21:14
  Instacart,
• 21:15
  you
• 21:15
  can
• 21:15
  actually
• 21:16
  go
• 21:16
  and
• 21:16
  check
• 21:16
  out
• 21:16
  with
• 21:16
  that.
• 21:17
  Like,
• 21:17
  that's,
• 21:17
  that's
• 21:17
  how
• 21:18
  easy
• 21:18
  it
• 21:18
  is.
• 21:19
  So
• 21:20
  I
• 21:21
  created
• 21:21
  that
• 21:21
  membership
• 21:22
  in
• 21:23
  a
• 21:23
  way
• 21:23
  to
• 21:24
  not
• 21:24
  only
• 21:24
  to
• 21:24
  meet.
• 21:25
  Um,
• 21:25
  and
• 21:25
  I
• 21:25
  love
• 21:26
  it
• 21:26
  because
• 21:26
  I
• 21:26
  can
• 21:26
  meet
• 21:27
  everyone's
• 21:27
  needs
• 21:27
  so
• 21:27
  much
• 21:28
  differently
• 21:29
  than
• 21:29
  I
• 21:29
  could
• 21:29
  on
• 21:30
  a
• 21:30
  different
• 21:30
  platform.
• 21:31
  And
• 21:31
  I
• 21:31
  love
• 21:31
  it.
• 21:32
  It
• 21:33
  launched
• 21:33
  in
• 21:33
  January
• 21:34
  of
• 21:34
  this
• 21:35
  year,
• 21:35
  2024,
• 21:36
  uh,
• 21:36
  and
• 21:36
  so
• 21:36
  it's
• 21:37
  still
• 21:37
  very
• 21:37
  new,
• 21:38
  um,
• 21:38
  and
• 21:38
  it's
• 21:38
  still
• 21:39
  not
• 21:39
  done,
• 21:40
  but
• 21:40
  we
• 21:40
  are
• 21:40
  working
• 21:40
  on
• 21:41
  it,
• 21:41
  and
• 21:41
  it
• 21:41
  has,
• 21:41
  I'm
• 21:42
  loving
• 21:42
  every
• 21:43
  single
• 21:43
  one
• 21:43
  of
• 21:43
  the
• 21:43
  ladies
• 21:43
  that
• 21:43
  has
• 21:44
  entered
• 21:44
  in,
• 21:45
  my
• 21:45
  former
• 21:45
  ladies,
• 21:46
  my
• 21:46
  OGs
• 21:46
  are
• 21:47
  still
• 21:47
  in
• 21:47
  there,
• 21:48
  and
• 21:49
  we're
• 21:49
  loving
• 21:49
  every
• 21:50
  bit
• 21:50
  of
• 21:50
  it,
• 21:50
  and
• 21:51
  loving
• 21:51
  the
• 21:51
  connection.
• 21:52
  So,
• 21:53
  I
• 21:53
  realized
• 21:53
  in
• 21:53
  June
• 21:54
  that
• 21:54
  sometimes
• 21:55
  it
• 21:55
  takes
• 21:55
  butt
• 21:55
  puckering,
• 21:57
  on
• 21:57
  your
• 21:57
  knees
• 21:58
  praying
• 21:58
  kind
• 21:58
  of
• 21:59
  decisions
• 22:00
  and
• 22:00
  taking
• 22:01
  action
• 22:01
  to
• 22:02
  pave
• 22:02
  your
• 22:02
  own
• 22:02
  way,
• 22:03
  to
• 22:03
  live
• 22:03
  your
• 22:03
  life
• 22:04
  your
• 22:04
  way.
• 22:05
  And
• 22:06
  God
• 22:06
  is
• 22:06
  in
• 22:06
  that
• 22:07
  scary
• 22:07
  in
• 22:07
  between.
• 22:08
  He's
• 22:08
  in
• 22:08
  that
• 22:08
  wait
• 22:08
  period.
• 22:09
  He's
• 22:09
  in
• 22:09
  the
• 22:10
  unknown.
• 22:11
  And
• 22:11
  I,
• 22:13
  I'm
• 22:13
  smiling,
• 22:13
  but
• 22:13
  I'm
• 22:14
  also
• 22:14
  like,
• 22:15
  Oh
• 22:15
  my
• 22:15
  gosh,
• 22:16
  that
• 22:16
  was
• 22:17
  so
• 22:17
  overwhelming
• 22:18
  and
• 22:18
  scary
• 22:18
  to
• 22:18
  step
• 22:19
  into.
• 22:20
  Okay,
• 22:20
  guys,
• 22:21
  here
• 22:21
  comes
• 22:21
  July.
• 22:23
  Um,
• 22:24
  I
• 22:24
  don't
• 22:24
  even
• 22:24
  know
• 22:24
  where
• 22:24
  to
• 22:24
  start
• 22:25
  in
• 22:25
  July.
• 22:27
  So
• 22:28
  I,
• 22:29
  oh
• 22:31
  my
• 22:31
  gosh,
• 22:32
  so
• 22:33
  it
• 22:33
  was
• 22:33
  the
• 22:33
  4th
• 22:33
  of
• 22:33
  July
• 22:34
  and
• 22:34
  it's
• 22:34
  kind
• 22:35
  of
• 22:35
  a
• 22:35
  big
• 22:35
  deal,
• 22:35
  4th
• 22:35
  of
• 22:35
  July
• 22:36
  here
• 22:36
  and
• 22:36
  where
• 22:36
  we
• 22:36
  live.
• 22:37
  It's,
• 22:37
  we
• 22:37
  have
• 22:38
  an
• 22:38
  Americana
• 22:38
  festival
• 22:39
  and,
• 22:39
  and
• 22:39
  it's,
• 22:40
  it's
• 22:40
  a
• 22:40
  big
• 22:40
  deal.
• 22:41
  Well,
• 22:41
  we
• 22:41
  didn't
• 22:41
  end
• 22:41
  up
• 22:42
  going
• 22:42
  because
• 22:43
  I
• 22:44
  was
• 22:44
  not
• 22:44
  in
• 22:45
  the
• 22:45
  mood
• 22:45
  to
• 22:45
  go
• 22:46
  and
• 22:46
  I
• 22:47
  feel
• 22:47
  really
• 22:47
  bad
• 22:48
  saying
• 22:48
  that
• 22:49
  because
• 22:49
  that's
• 22:49
  not
• 22:49
  me.
• 22:50
  That
• 22:50
  was
• 22:50
  my
• 22:51
  fear
• 22:52
  and
• 22:52
  anxiousness
• 22:52
  getting
• 22:53
  to
• 22:53
  me.
• 22:54
  I
• 22:54
  had
• 22:55
  to
• 22:55
  go
• 22:55
  to
• 22:55
  my
• 22:55
  parents
• 22:56
  house,
• 22:57
  um,
• 22:59
  and
• 22:59
  be
• 23:00
  there,
• 23:00
  I
• 23:00
  think
• 23:00
  I
• 23:00
  was
• 23:00
  there
• 23:01
  for
• 23:01
  a
• 23:01
  week
• 23:01
  and
• 23:01
  a
• 23:01
  half,
• 23:01
  like
• 23:01
  ten
• 23:02
  days.
• 23:03
  And
• 23:04
  that
• 23:04
  was
• 23:05
  ten
• 23:05
  days
• 23:06
  probably
• 23:06
  too
• 23:06
  long
• 23:07
  for
• 23:07
  me.
• 23:08
  Um,
• 23:09
  I
• 23:09
  wrote
• 23:10
  down,
• 23:10
  It's
• 23:10
  a
• 23:10
  weird
• 23:11
  and
• 23:11
  hard
• 23:11
  month.
• 23:12
  Well,
• 23:12
  yeah,
• 23:12
  it,
• 23:12
  it,
• 23:14
  I
• 23:14
  don't
• 23:14
  think
• 23:14
  weird
• 23:14
  is
• 23:14
  accurate.
• 23:16
  I
• 23:16
  think
• 23:16
  hard
• 23:17
  Was,
• 23:17
  is
• 23:18
  more
• 23:18
  accurate
• 23:19
  because
• 23:20
  I
• 23:20
  was
• 23:20
  in
• 23:21
  November
• 23:21
  and
• 23:21
  I'm
• 23:22
  like,
• 23:22
  wasn't
• 23:22
  it
• 23:22
  just
• 23:22
  July?
• 23:24
  Isn't
• 23:24
  it
• 23:24
  interesting
• 23:25
  how
• 23:26
  time
• 23:26
  flies
• 23:27
  even
• 23:27
  faster
• 23:28
  when
• 23:29
  we
• 23:29
  are
• 23:29
  trying,
• 23:29
  when
• 23:30
  we
• 23:30
  are
• 23:30
  in
• 23:30
  the
• 23:30
  midst
• 23:31
  of
• 23:32
  trauma
• 23:33
  or
• 23:33
  we
• 23:34
  are
• 23:34
  having
• 23:34
  to
• 23:34
  face
• 23:35
  difficult
• 23:35
  times
• 23:37
  and
• 23:37
  it's
• 23:37
  almost
• 23:38
  like
• 23:38
  our
• 23:38
  body
• 23:39
  has
• 23:40
  forgotten,
• 23:41
  um,
• 23:42
  or
• 23:42
  our
• 23:42
  brains
• 23:43
  have
• 23:43
  gone
• 23:44
  into
• 23:44
  protection
• 23:44
  mode.
• 23:45
  And
• 23:45
  it's
• 23:46
  like,
• 23:46
  oh,
• 23:46
  that
• 23:46
  didn't
• 23:46
  even
• 23:46
  happen.
• 23:47
  That
• 23:47
  wasn't,
• 23:48
  anyway,
• 23:49
  I
• 23:49
  just
• 23:50
  felt
• 23:50
  like
• 23:50
  I,
• 23:50
  I
• 23:51
  feel
• 23:51
  like
• 23:51
  I've
• 23:51
  lost
• 23:51
  my
• 23:52
  July
• 23:53
  and
• 23:54
  kind
• 23:54
  of
• 23:54
  like
• 23:54
  how
• 23:54
  I
• 23:54
  felt
• 23:54
  like
• 23:54
  I
• 23:54
  lost
• 23:55
  my
• 23:55
  2020
• 23:56
  and
• 23:57
  2021
• 23:57
  and
• 23:57
  2022,
• 23:58
  all
• 23:58
  of
• 23:58
  that.
• 24:00
  Uh,
• 24:00
  July
• 24:00
  was,
• 24:01
  so
• 24:01
  my
• 24:01
  mom,
• 24:02
  okay
• 24:02
  let
• 24:02
  me
• 24:02
  back
• 24:03
  up,
• 24:03
  my
• 24:04
  dad
• 24:04
  has
• 24:04
  been
• 24:04
  in
• 24:04
  stage
• 24:04
  four
• 24:05
  heart
• 24:05
  failure
• 24:05
  which
• 24:06
  is
• 24:06
  almost
• 24:06
  unheard
• 24:06
  of
• 24:07
  for
• 24:07
  this
• 24:07
  long,
• 24:07
  um,
• 24:08
  he's
• 24:08
  been
• 24:08
  in
• 24:08
  it
• 24:08
  for
• 24:09
  about
• 24:11
  two
• 24:12
  years
• 24:12
  now?
• 24:12
  Year
• 24:13
  and
• 24:13
  a
• 24:13
  half?
• 24:13
  Two
• 24:13
  years?
• 24:14
  It's
• 24:14
  almost
• 24:15
  unheard
• 24:15
  of
• 24:15
  to
• 24:15
  be
• 24:15
  in
• 24:15
  stage
• 24:16
  four
• 24:16
  heart
• 24:16
  failure
• 24:16
  for
• 24:16
  that
• 24:17
  long.
• 24:18
  And
• 24:19
  he
• 24:19
  is
• 24:20
  unable
• 24:21
  to
• 24:21
  be
• 24:21
  left
• 24:22
  alone.
• 24:23
  He
• 24:23
  was
• 24:23
  starting
• 24:24
  to
• 24:24
  fall
• 24:25
  a
• 24:25
  lot,
• 24:26
  like,
• 24:26
  when
• 24:26
  I
• 24:27
  say
• 24:27
  fall,
• 24:27
  I
• 24:27
  mean,
• 24:28
  holes
• 24:28
  in
• 24:28
  the
• 24:28
  wall,
• 24:29
  cracking
• 24:30
  his
• 24:30
  skull,
• 24:30
  like,
• 24:31
  not
• 24:31
  his
• 24:31
  skull,
• 24:32
  cracking
• 24:32
  skin
• 24:32
  open,
• 24:33
  he
• 24:34
  then
• 24:34
  decided
• 24:35
  that
• 24:35
  he
• 24:35
  was
• 24:35
  going
• 24:35
  to
• 24:35
  fall
• 24:36
  and
• 24:36
  break
• 24:36
  his
• 24:36
  arm.
• 24:38
  And,
• 24:39
  He
• 24:39
  wasn't
• 24:40
  getting
• 24:40
  the
• 24:40
  proper
• 24:41
  health
• 24:41
  care
• 24:41
  he
• 24:41
  needed.
• 24:42
  He
• 24:42
  wasn't
• 24:42
  having
• 24:43
  like,
• 24:43
  anyway,
• 24:44
  my
• 24:45
  mom
• 24:45
  is
• 24:45
  not
• 24:45
  confident
• 24:46
  in,
• 24:47
  um,
• 24:47
  speaking
• 24:48
  up.
• 24:48
  She
• 24:48
  doesn't
• 24:48
  want
• 24:48
  to
• 24:48
  ruffle
• 24:48
  anybody's
• 24:49
  feathers.
• 24:49
  And
• 24:50
  I
• 24:50
  think
• 24:50
  that
• 24:50
  there
• 24:50
  is
• 24:50
  an
• 24:50
  insecurity
• 24:51
  there
• 24:51
  of,
• 24:52
  am
• 24:52
  I
• 24:52
  even
• 24:52
  smart
• 24:53
  enough
• 24:53
  to
• 24:53
  speak
• 24:53
  up
• 24:54
  and
• 24:54
  demand
• 24:54
  help?
• 24:55
  I
• 24:55
  don't
• 24:55
  know
• 24:55
  what
• 24:55
  to
• 24:55
  say,
• 24:56
  all
• 24:56
  of
• 24:56
  that.
• 24:56
  So
• 24:57
  I
• 24:57
  got
• 24:58
  put
• 24:58
  in
• 24:58
  charge
• 24:58
  of
• 24:58
  that.
• 24:59
  Meanwhile,
• 24:59
  my
• 24:59
  mother
• 25:00
  had
• 25:00
  her.
• 25:01
  other
• 25:01
  knee
• 25:01
  replaced,
• 25:01
  the
• 25:02
  right
• 25:02
  knee
• 25:02
  replaced.
• 25:03
  When
• 25:03
  she
• 25:03
  had
• 25:03
  her
• 25:03
  left
• 25:04
  knee
• 25:04
  replaced,
• 25:04
  like,
• 25:04
  she
• 25:05
  recovered
• 25:05
  so
• 25:05
  stinking
• 25:06
  fast.
• 25:06
  She
• 25:06
  didn't
• 25:07
  stop
• 25:07
  driving.
• 25:07
  Like,
• 25:08
  she
• 25:08
  was
• 25:08
  very
• 25:08
  independent
• 25:09
  after
• 25:10
  her
• 25:10
  left
• 25:10
  knee
• 25:11
  was
• 25:11
  replaced.
• 25:12
  But
• 25:12
  the
• 25:12
  right
• 25:12
  one
• 25:12
  we
• 25:13
  were
• 25:13
  concerned
• 25:13
  about
• 25:13
  because,
• 25:14
  you
• 25:14
  know,
• 25:14
  you
• 25:14
  can't
• 25:14
  drive.
• 25:15
  You
• 25:15
  need,
• 25:16
  you
• 25:16
  need
• 25:16
  a
• 25:16
  right
• 25:16
  leg
• 25:16
  to
• 25:16
  drive.
• 25:18
  This
• 25:18
  is
• 25:18
  weird,
• 25:19
  but
• 25:19
  when
• 25:19
  I
• 25:19
  was
• 25:19
  in
• 25:19
  Australia,
• 25:20
  I
• 25:20
  realized,
• 25:21
  I'm
• 25:21
  like,
• 25:21
  Oh
• 25:21
  wait,
• 25:21
  is
• 25:21
  there
• 25:22
  a
• 25:22
  gas
• 25:22
  pedal
• 25:22
  on
• 25:22
  the
• 25:22
  same
• 25:23
  side?
• 25:23
  Like,
• 25:24
  because
• 25:24
  they
• 25:24
  drive
• 25:24
  on
• 25:24
  the
• 25:24
  wrong
• 25:25
  side
• 25:25
  of
• 25:25
  the
• 25:25
  road.
• 25:26
  And
• 25:26
  I'm
• 25:26
  like,
• 25:26
  is
• 25:26
  there
• 25:27
  a
• 25:27
  gas
• 25:27
  pedal
• 25:27
  still
• 25:27
  on
• 25:28
  the
• 25:28
  right?
• 25:28
  I
• 25:28
  don't
• 25:28
  know.
• 25:28
  I
• 25:28
  didn't
• 25:28
  even
• 25:29
  pay
• 25:29
  attention.
• 25:29
  I
• 25:29
  bet
• 25:29
  it
• 25:29
  is.
• 25:30
  It
• 25:30
  has
• 25:30
  to
• 25:30
  be
• 25:30
  on
• 25:30
  the
• 25:30
  right
• 25:30
  hand
• 25:31
  side.
• 25:31
  Anyway,
• 25:32
  um,
• 25:32
  all
• 25:33
  that
• 25:33
  to
• 25:33
  say,
• 25:34
  um,
• 25:34
  I
• 25:34
  had
• 25:34
  to
• 25:34
  go
• 25:34
  and
• 25:34
  help
• 25:34
  to
• 25:35
  care
• 25:35
  for
• 25:35
  my
• 25:35
  parents.
• 25:36
  It
• 25:37
  was
• 25:37
  harder
• 25:37
  to
• 25:38
  care
• 25:38
  for
• 25:38
  my
• 25:38
  father
• 25:40
  than
• 25:40
  it
• 25:40
  was
• 25:40
  to
• 25:41
  care
• 25:41
  for
• 25:41
  my
• 25:41
  last
• 25:42
  child
• 25:42
  who
• 25:42
  did
• 25:42
  not
• 25:43
  sleep
• 25:43
  for
• 25:44
  two
• 25:44
  and
• 25:44
  a
• 25:44
  half
• 25:44
  years.
• 25:46
  He
• 25:46
  didn't
• 25:46
  sleep
• 25:46
  by
• 25:47
  himself
• 25:47
  for
• 25:47
  three
• 25:48
  and
• 25:48
  a
• 25:48
  half
• 25:48
  years.
• 25:50
  I
• 25:51
  was
• 25:51
  exhausted.
• 25:52
  I
• 25:52
  was
• 25:53
  stressed.
• 25:54
  I
• 25:54
  went
• 25:55
  armed
• 25:55
  and
• 25:56
  guarded
• 25:56
  with
• 25:57
  proper
• 25:57
  foods.
• 25:58
  I
• 25:58
  went
• 25:58
  armed
• 25:59
  and
• 25:59
  guarded
• 25:59
  with,
• 26:00
  uh,
• 26:00
  guarded,
• 26:00
  guarded,
• 26:01
  guarded
• 26:01
  with
• 26:02
  the
• 26:02
  right
• 26:02
  supplements
• 26:03
  and
• 26:03
  the
• 26:03
  supports.
• 26:04
  I
• 26:05
  was
• 26:05
  not
• 26:05
  sleeping.
• 26:06
  Um,
• 26:06
  I
• 26:07
  was
• 26:07
  in
• 26:07
  a
• 26:07
  very
• 26:07
  light
• 26:08
  sleep,
• 26:08
  you
• 26:08
  know
• 26:08
  how
• 26:08
  it
• 26:08
  is
• 26:08
  if
• 26:09
  you're
• 26:09
  a
• 26:09
  mom,
• 26:09
  like
• 26:09
  you
• 26:09
  sleep
• 26:10
  in
• 26:10
  that
• 26:10
  very
• 26:10
  light
• 26:11
  sleep
• 26:11
  because
• 26:11
  you're
• 26:11
  afraid
• 26:11
  you're
• 26:12
  going
• 26:12
  to
• 26:12
  hear
• 26:12
  something
• 26:12
  happen.
• 26:13
  Every
• 26:13
  time
• 26:14
  I
• 26:14
  heard
• 26:14
  my
• 26:14
  dad
• 26:14
  move,
• 26:15
  I
• 26:15
  was
• 26:15
  like
• 26:15
  awake
• 26:16
  making
• 26:16
  sure
• 26:16
  he
• 26:16
  wasn't
• 26:17
  going
• 26:17
  to
• 26:17
  hurt
• 26:17
  himself.
• 26:18
  Um,
• 26:19
  I,
• 26:19
  it
• 26:19
  was,
• 26:21
  it
• 26:21
  was
• 26:21
  like
• 26:22
  being
• 26:22
  on
• 26:23
  24
• 26:24
  seven
• 26:25
  plus
• 26:26
  I
• 26:26
  was
• 26:26
  still
• 26:27
  working.
• 26:28
  I
• 26:28
  still
• 26:28
  worked
• 26:29
  full
• 26:29
  time
• 26:29
  while
• 26:29
  I
• 26:29
  was
• 26:29
  there.
• 26:31
  And.
• 26:32
  I
• 26:32
  still
• 26:33
  had
• 26:33
  to
• 26:33
  get
• 26:33
  up
• 26:33
  early
• 26:34
  for,
• 26:34
  for
• 26:34
  appointments
• 26:35
  with
• 26:35
  my
• 26:35
  clients
• 26:36
  and
• 26:36
  I
• 26:36
  still
• 26:36
  had
• 26:37
  to
• 26:37
  get
• 26:37
  up
• 26:37
  early
• 26:37
  for
• 26:38
  and
• 26:38
  stay
• 26:38
  up
• 26:38
  late
• 26:39
  for
• 26:39
  my
• 26:40
  mastermind
• 26:40
  calls
• 26:41
  and
• 26:42
  I
• 26:42
  still
• 26:42
  had
• 26:43
  content
• 26:44
  to
• 26:44
  make.
• 26:44
  I
• 26:44
  still
• 26:45
  had
• 26:45
  life
• 26:45
  and
• 26:45
  then
• 26:46
  I
• 26:46
  was
• 26:46
  still
• 26:46
  homeschooling
• 26:47
  my
• 26:47
  kids
• 26:47
  from
• 26:47
  afar.
• 26:48
  I
• 26:48
  was
• 26:48
  three
• 26:48
  and
• 26:48
  a
• 26:48
  half
• 26:48
  hours
• 26:49
  away
• 26:49
  from
• 26:49
  my
• 26:49
  kids.
• 26:50
  I
• 26:51
  was
• 26:51
  away
• 26:51
  from
• 26:51
  my
• 26:52
  kids
• 26:52
  longer
• 26:52
  than
• 26:52
  I
• 26:52
  had
• 26:53
  ever
• 26:53
  been.
• 26:55
  And
• 26:55
  that
• 26:56
  was
• 26:56
  really
• 26:57
  hard.
• 26:58
  Um,
• 26:58
  I
• 26:58
  was
• 26:58
  away
• 26:58
  from
• 26:59
  my
• 26:59
  husband
• 26:59
  for
• 26:59
  that
• 26:59
  long,
• 27:00
  but
• 27:00
  he
• 27:00
  and
• 27:00
  I
• 27:00
  had
• 27:00
  been
• 27:01
  apart
• 27:01
  that
• 27:01
  long,
• 27:01
  just,
• 27:01
  you
• 27:02
  know,
• 27:02
  military
• 27:02
  things
• 27:03
  and
• 27:03
  whatever.
• 27:03
  But
• 27:05
  that
• 27:05
  was
• 27:06
  really
• 27:06
  hard.
• 27:06
  I
• 27:06
  was
• 27:07
  homeschooling
• 27:07
  my
• 27:07
  kids
• 27:08
  from
• 27:08
  three
• 27:08
  and
• 27:08
  a
• 27:08
  half
• 27:09
  hours
• 27:09
  away
• 27:10
  and
• 27:10
  I'm
• 27:10
  grateful
• 27:10
  I
• 27:10
  can
• 27:10
  do
• 27:11
  that,
• 27:12
  but
• 27:12
  they
• 27:12
  were
• 27:12
  missing
• 27:12
  their
• 27:12
  mom.
• 27:13
  Um,
• 27:13
  and
• 27:14
  I
• 27:14
  was
• 27:14
  missing
• 27:15
  them.
• 27:15
  I
• 27:15
  was
• 27:15
  homesick.
• 27:16
  I
• 27:16
  was
• 27:16
  sick.
• 27:17
  Uh,
• 27:18
  I
• 27:18
  started
• 27:18
  to
• 27:18
  feel
• 27:19
  my
• 27:19
  immune
• 27:19
  system
• 27:20
  go
• 27:20
  wonky
• 27:20
  and
• 27:21
  how
• 27:21
  do
• 27:21
  I
• 27:21
  know?
• 27:22
  Um,
• 27:22
  I
• 27:22
  started
• 27:22
  to
• 27:23
  just
• 27:23
  feel
• 27:24
  like
• 27:24
  my
• 27:24
  lymph
• 27:25
  nodes
• 27:25
  were
• 27:25
  swelling.
• 27:26
  I
• 27:26
  was
• 27:26
  getting
• 27:26
  very
• 27:27
  sluggish.
• 27:27
  My
• 27:28
  brain
• 27:28
  wasn't
• 27:28
  working
• 27:29
  the
• 27:29
  way
• 27:29
  it
• 27:29
  was
• 27:29
  supposed
• 27:29
  to.
• 27:30
  Um,
• 27:31
  even
• 27:31
  though
• 27:31
  I
• 27:31
  was
• 27:31
  eating
• 27:31
  well,
• 27:33
  everything
• 27:33
  catches
• 27:33
  up.
• 27:35
  Um,
• 27:35
  I
• 27:36
  was
• 27:36
  verbally
• 27:36
  abused.
• 27:37
  And
• 27:38
  that
• 27:39
  was
• 27:39
  partially
• 27:39
  in
• 27:40
  pain,
• 27:40
  and
• 27:40
  partially,
• 27:41
  mostly
• 27:42
  because
• 27:42
  of
• 27:42
  undealt
• 27:43
  with
• 27:43
  trauma
• 27:45
  from
• 27:45
  childhood
• 27:45
  and
• 27:45
  adulthood.
• 27:47
  Um,
• 27:47
  I
• 27:47
  was
• 27:49
  having
• 27:49
  to,
• 27:50
  I
• 27:50
  had
• 27:50
  to
• 27:50
  have
• 27:51
  my
• 27:51
  crap
• 27:51
  together
• 27:51
  at
• 27:52
  all
• 27:52
  times.
• 27:54
  And
• 27:54
  when
• 27:54
  I
• 27:54
  got
• 27:54
  home,
• 27:56
  I
• 27:56
  was
• 27:56
  actually
• 27:56
  grateful
• 27:57
  my
• 27:57
  husband
• 27:57
  had
• 27:57
  to
• 27:57
  leave,
• 27:58
  um,
• 27:59
  that
• 27:59
  weekend
• 27:59
  because
• 28:00
  then
• 28:00
  that
• 28:00
  allowed
• 28:00
  me
• 28:00
  to
• 28:00
  come
• 28:01
  home.
• 28:02
  It
• 28:02
  was
• 28:02
  an
• 28:02
  excuse
• 28:02
  to
• 28:02
  come
• 28:03
  home
• 28:03
  because
• 28:03
  I
• 28:03
  wasn't
• 28:04
  strong
• 28:04
  enough
• 28:04
  to
• 28:04
  just
• 28:04
  say,
• 28:05
  I
• 28:05
  can't
• 28:05
  do
• 28:05
  this
• 28:05
  anymore.
• 28:07
  So
• 28:08
  I
• 28:09
  am
• 28:09
  grateful
• 28:10
  that
• 28:10
  he
• 28:10
  had
• 28:10
  to
• 28:10
  leave,
• 28:11
  but
• 28:12
  I'm
• 28:12
  also,
• 28:13
  when
• 28:13
  I
• 28:13
  got
• 28:14
  out
• 28:14
  of
• 28:14
  the
• 28:14
  car,
• 28:15
  he
• 28:15
  looked
• 28:15
  at
• 28:15
  me,
• 28:16
  my
• 28:16
  husband
• 28:16
  looked
• 28:16
  at
• 28:16
  me
• 28:16
  and
• 28:17
  he
• 28:17
  said,
• 28:18
  um,
• 28:19
  you
• 28:19
  look
• 28:19
  like
• 28:19
  you
• 28:19
  just
• 28:19
  got
• 28:20
  back
• 28:20
  from
• 28:20
  war.
• 28:21
  And
• 28:21
  I'm
• 28:21
  like,
• 28:21
  huh?
• 28:22
  And
• 28:23
  he's
• 28:23
  like,
• 28:23
  Danielle,
• 28:23
  you
• 28:23
  don't
• 28:24
  look
• 28:24
  like
• 28:24
  yourself.
• 28:26
  I
• 28:26
  have
• 28:26
  never
• 28:26
  slept.
• 28:28
  I
• 28:29
  went
• 28:29
  to
• 28:29
  Australia
• 28:30
  in
• 28:30
  October.
• 28:31
  I've
• 28:32
  been
• 28:32
  to
• 28:32
  Dubai.
• 28:33
  I
• 28:33
  have
• 28:34
  been
• 28:34
  in
• 28:34
  weird
• 28:34
  time
• 28:35
  zones
• 28:35
  and
• 28:35
  whatever
• 28:36
  and
• 28:36
  I
• 28:37
  have
• 28:37
  never
• 28:38
  slept
• 28:38
  harder
• 28:39
  and
• 28:39
  longer
• 28:40
  than
• 28:40
  when
• 28:41
  I
• 28:41
  got
• 28:41
  home
• 28:41
  from
• 28:42
  that
• 28:43
  trip
• 28:43
  up
• 28:43
  to
• 28:43
  my
• 28:44
  family.
• 28:45
  There's
• 28:46
  lots
• 28:46
  of
• 28:46
  weird,
• 28:47
  um,
• 28:49
  hardships
• 28:50
  I
• 28:50
  should
• 28:50
  say
• 28:50
  between
• 28:51
  the
• 28:51
  relationships
• 28:51
  up
• 28:51
  there.
• 28:52
  Lots
• 28:53
  of
• 28:53
  misunderstanding,
• 28:54
  lots
• 28:54
  of
• 28:54
  jealousy,
• 28:54
  lots
• 28:55
  of
• 28:55
  unspoken
• 28:56
  things.
• 28:57
  And
• 28:58
  lots
• 28:58
  of
• 28:59
  competition,
• 29:00
  lots
• 29:00
  of
• 29:01
  things
• 29:01
  like
• 29:02
  that.
• 29:02
  So
• 29:02
  it
• 29:02
  was
• 29:03
  just
• 29:03
  very,
• 29:04
  very
• 29:05
  hard.
• 29:07
  I
• 29:07
  could
• 29:07
  not
• 29:07
  be
• 29:08
  authentically
• 29:08
  me.
• 29:09
  I
• 29:09
  could
• 29:10
  not
• 29:10
  and
• 29:10
  did
• 29:10
  not
• 29:11
  live
• 29:11
  my
• 29:11
  life
• 29:11
  by
• 29:11
  design
• 29:12
  in
• 29:12
  July.
• 29:15
  And
• 29:15
  so
• 29:15
  I
• 29:15
  continued
• 29:15
  therapy,
• 29:16
  all
• 29:16
  of
• 29:16
  that.
• 29:17
  Moved
• 29:17
  into
• 29:18
  August.
• 29:19
  And
• 29:20
  this
• 29:20
  was
• 29:20
  refreshing.
• 29:21
  I
• 29:22
  turned
• 29:22
  39
• 29:22
  in
• 29:22
  August.
• 29:24
  And
• 29:25
  what
• 29:26
  made
• 29:26
  me
• 29:26
  really
• 29:27
  excited
• 29:27
  is
• 29:28
  that
• 29:28
  I
• 29:29
  realized
• 29:29
  when
• 29:29
  I
• 29:29
  turned
• 29:30
  39,
• 29:31
  I
• 29:31
  felt
• 29:31
  better
• 29:32
  physically,
• 29:33
  mentally,
• 29:34
  spiritually,
• 29:35
  emotionally,
• 29:35
  relationally,
• 29:37
  than
• 29:37
  I
• 29:37
  had
• 29:37
  ever
• 29:37
  felt
• 29:38
  in
• 29:38
  my
• 29:38
  life.
• 29:39
  39
• 29:40
  years
• 29:40
  old,
• 29:41
  and
• 29:41
  I
• 29:41
  feel
• 29:41
  amazing.
• 29:44
  But
• 29:44
  in
• 29:44
  August,
• 29:45
  I
• 29:45
  felt
• 29:45
  hope.
• 29:46
  excitement
• 29:47
  that
• 29:47
  lies
• 29:48
  in
• 29:48
  my
• 29:48
  new
• 29:48
  profession
• 29:49
  as
• 29:49
  a
• 29:49
  naturopathic
• 29:50
  doctor
• 29:50
  because
• 29:51
  I
• 29:51
  went
• 29:51
  to
• 29:51
  the
• 29:52
  conference
• 29:53
  of
• 29:53
  where
• 29:53
  I'm
• 29:53
  going
• 29:53
  to
• 29:53
  be
• 29:53
  taking
• 29:53
  my
• 29:54
  boards,
• 29:54
  the
• 29:54
  American
• 29:54
  Naturopathic
• 29:55
  Medical
• 29:55
  Association.
• 29:57
  And
• 29:58
  I
• 29:58
  learned
• 29:58
  how,
• 29:59
  um,
• 30:00
  I
• 30:00
  learned
• 30:00
  how
• 30:01
  the
• 30:01
  body
• 30:02
  responds
• 30:03
  to
• 30:04
  energetic
• 30:04
  medicine,
• 30:05
  which
• 30:05
  is
• 30:05
  homeopathy,
• 30:06
  that
• 30:07
  how
• 30:07
  we,
• 30:08
  how
• 30:08
  our
• 30:08
  bodies
• 30:08
  actually
• 30:09
  work
• 30:09
  to
• 30:10
  cure
• 30:10
  themselves
• 30:10
  and
• 30:11
  what
• 30:11
  symptoms
• 30:12
  are
• 30:12
  actually
• 30:12
  being
• 30:12
  pointed
• 30:12
  to.
• 30:13
  And
• 30:13
  I
• 30:13
  loved
• 30:14
  it.
• 30:14
  In
• 30:15
  September,
• 30:16
  I
• 30:16
  started
• 30:16
  to
• 30:16
  get
• 30:17
  in
• 30:17
  front
• 30:17
  of
• 30:17
  people
• 30:17
  again
• 30:18
  and
• 30:18
  I
• 30:19
  realized
• 30:19
  what
• 30:19
  has
• 30:20
  been
• 30:20
  missing
• 30:21
  from
• 30:21
  my
• 30:22
  life
• 30:22
  and
• 30:22
  that
• 30:22
  is
• 30:23
  serving
• 30:23
  my
• 30:23
  community.
• 30:25
  So
• 30:25
  that's
• 30:25
  why
• 30:25
  I
• 30:25
  have
• 30:25
  an
• 30:25
  office
• 30:26
  now
• 30:26
  in
• 30:26
  person
• 30:27
  so
• 30:27
  that
• 30:27
  people
• 30:28
  locally,
• 30:29
  um,
• 30:29
  or
• 30:29
  from
• 30:30
  out
• 30:30
  of
• 30:30
  town
• 30:30
  want
• 30:30
  to
• 30:30
  fly
• 30:31
  in
• 30:31
  and
• 30:31
  want
• 30:32
  to
• 30:32
  be
• 30:32
  served
• 30:33
  in
• 30:33
  front
• 30:33
  of
• 30:33
  my
• 30:33
  face
• 30:34
  and
• 30:34
  I
• 30:35
  can
• 30:35
  get
• 30:35
  my
• 30:35
  hands
• 30:35
  on
• 30:36
  people
• 30:36
  and
• 30:36
  start
• 30:36
  serving
• 30:37
  my
• 30:37
  community
• 30:37
  again.
• 30:38
  So
• 30:38
  I
• 30:38
  felt
• 30:38
  that
• 30:38
  deep
• 30:39
  desire
• 30:40
  to
• 30:40
  start
• 30:40
  serving
• 30:41
  people
• 30:41
  in
• 30:41
  my
• 30:41
  community.
• 30:43
  In
• 30:43
  October,
• 30:44
  I
• 30:44
  realized
• 30:44
  and
• 30:44
  learned
• 30:45
  that
• 30:45
  deep
• 30:45
  friendships
• 30:46
  for
• 30:46
  me
• 30:47
  are
• 30:47
  not
• 30:47
  usually
• 30:48
  found
• 30:48
  in
• 30:48
  proximity.
• 30:50
  I'm
• 30:50
  going
• 30:50
  to
• 30:50
  say
• 30:50
  that
• 30:51
  again.
• 30:52
  Deep
• 30:52
  friendships
• 30:52
  for
• 30:53
  me
• 30:53
  are
• 30:54
  not
• 30:54
  usually
• 30:54
  found
• 30:54
  in
• 30:55
  proximity.
• 30:56
  I
• 30:56
  flew
• 30:57
  to
• 30:57
  Australia
• 30:58
  by
• 30:58
  myself,
• 30:59
  um,
• 30:59
  the
• 30:59
  longest
• 31:00
  I
• 31:00
  have
• 31:00
  flown
• 31:01
  out
• 31:01
  of
• 31:01
  country
• 31:02
  by
• 31:02
  myself,
• 31:03
  and
• 31:04
  I
• 31:04
  wasn't
• 31:04
  scared
• 31:05
  at
• 31:05
  all
• 31:05
  because,
• 31:07
  and
• 31:07
  I,
• 31:07
  I
• 31:07
  feel
• 31:07
  like
• 31:07
  I
• 31:07
  should
• 31:08
  have
• 31:08
  been,
• 31:08
  I
• 31:08
  should
• 31:09
  have
• 31:09
  been.
• 31:09
  But
• 31:10
  from
• 31:10
  the
• 31:10
  moment
• 31:10
  I
• 31:10
  landed
• 31:11
  in
• 31:11
  Australia,
• 31:12
  I
• 31:12
  had
• 31:12
  a
• 31:12
  friend
• 31:13
  who
• 31:13
  went
• 31:14
  out
• 31:14
  of
• 31:14
  her
• 31:14
  way
• 31:15
  to
• 31:15
  pick
• 31:15
  me
• 31:15
  up
• 31:15
  at
• 31:16
  the
• 31:16
  airport.
• 31:17
  Oh,
• 31:18
  I've
• 31:18
  got
• 31:18
  tears
• 31:18
  in
• 31:19
  my
• 31:19
  eyes
• 31:19
  just
• 31:19
  thinking
• 31:19
  about
• 31:20
  it,
• 31:20
  oh
• 31:20
  my
• 31:20
  gosh.
• 31:21
  Um,
• 31:22
  she
• 31:22
  picks
• 31:22
  me
• 31:22
  up
• 31:22
  and
• 31:23
  takes
• 31:23
  me
• 31:24
  to
• 31:24
  a
• 31:24
  McDonald's,
• 31:24
  which
• 31:25
  was
• 31:25
  on
• 31:25
  the
• 31:25
  wrong
• 31:26
  side
• 31:26
  of
• 31:26
  the
• 31:26
  road.
• 31:26
  They
• 31:26
  had
• 31:27
  different
• 31:27
  food
• 31:27
  there
• 31:27
  than
• 31:28
  we
• 31:28
  have,
• 31:28
  but
• 31:29
  she
• 31:29
  takes
• 31:29
  me
• 31:29
  to
• 31:29
  McDonald's
• 31:30
  and
• 31:30
  gets
• 31:30
  me
• 31:30
  a
• 31:30
  coffee
• 31:31
  and,
• 31:32
  and
• 31:32
  then
• 31:32
  escorts
• 31:33
  me
• 31:33
  and
• 31:33
  takes
• 31:33
  me
• 31:33
  to
• 31:34
  my
• 31:34
  hotel
• 31:35
  and
• 31:35
  make
• 31:36
  sure
• 31:36
  that
• 31:36
  I'm
• 31:36
  taken
• 31:36
  care
• 31:37
  of.
• 31:37
  And
• 31:37
  then
• 31:37
  when
• 31:37
  I
• 31:37
  get
• 31:37
  there
• 31:38
  and
• 31:38
  I
• 31:38
  get
• 31:38
  cleaned
• 31:38
  up
• 31:39
  because
• 31:39
  my
• 31:39
  room
• 31:40
  wasn't
• 31:40
  done,
• 31:40
  but
• 31:40
  the
• 31:41
  hotel
• 31:41
  let
• 31:41
  me
• 31:41
  clean
• 31:42
  up
• 31:42
  in
• 31:42
  a
• 31:42
  different
• 31:42
  bathroom.
• 31:43
  Um,
• 31:43
  or
• 31:44
  in
• 31:44
  a
• 31:44
  private
• 31:44
  bathroom,
• 31:45
  um,
• 31:45
  another
• 31:46
  friend,
• 31:47
  she,
• 31:47
  I
• 31:47
  told
• 31:47
  her
• 31:48
  I
• 31:48
  was
• 31:48
  really
• 31:49
  in
• 31:49
  severe
• 31:50
  jet
• 31:50
  lag.
• 31:51
  Um,
• 31:51
  oh
• 31:51
  my
• 31:52
  goodness,
• 31:52
  I
• 31:52
  don't
• 31:52
  have
• 31:52
  a
• 31:52
  Kleenex
• 31:53
  sitting
• 31:53
  on
• 31:53
  my
• 31:53
  desk,
• 31:54
  uh,
• 31:54
  tears
• 31:54
  are
• 31:54
  rolling
• 31:55
  down
• 31:55
  my
• 31:55
  face.
• 31:55
  Um,
• 31:55
  I
• 31:56
  had
• 31:56
  another
• 31:56
  friend
• 31:57
  come
• 31:58
  and
• 31:58
  pick
• 31:58
  me
• 31:58
  up
• 31:58
  and
• 31:58
  made
• 31:59
  me
• 31:59
  get
• 31:59
  out
• 31:59
  in
• 31:59
  the
• 31:59
  sun
• 31:59
  and
• 32:00
  walked
• 32:00
  me
• 32:00
  in
• 32:01
  the
• 32:01
  sun
• 32:01
  to
• 32:01
  get,
• 32:02
  you
• 32:02
  know,
• 32:03
  sun
• 32:03
  therapy
• 32:03
  and
• 32:04
  get
• 32:04
  me
• 32:04
  heated
• 32:04
  up
• 32:05
  again.
• 32:05
  And
• 32:06
  then
• 32:06
  she
• 32:06
  got
• 32:06
  me
• 32:06
  some
• 32:06
  food,
• 32:07
  we
• 32:07
  went
• 32:07
  and
• 32:07
  had
• 32:07
  some
• 32:08
  breakfast
• 32:09
  and
• 32:09
  I
• 32:09
  ate
• 32:09
  nothing
• 32:10
  but
• 32:10
  fresh
• 32:10
  food
• 32:10
  the
• 32:11
  whole
• 32:11
  time.
• 32:12
  Anyway,
• 32:12
  all
• 32:13
  that
• 32:13
  to
• 32:13
  say,
• 32:14
  from
• 32:14
  the
• 32:14
  moment
• 32:15
  I
• 32:15
  landed
• 32:15
  in
• 32:15
  Australia,
• 32:16
  I
• 32:16
  felt
• 32:16
  like
• 32:17
  my
• 32:17
  people
• 32:17
  were
• 32:17
  there.
• 32:18
  I
• 32:18
  have
• 32:18
  not
• 32:19
  felt
• 32:20
  like
• 32:20
  I
• 32:20
  was
• 32:20
  whisked
• 32:21
  away
• 32:21
  and
• 32:22
  cared
• 32:22
  for
• 32:22
  like
• 32:22
  that
• 32:23
  and
• 32:23
  loved
• 32:23
  on
• 32:23
  such
• 32:24
  a
• 32:24
  deep
• 32:24
  level.
• 32:25
  And
• 32:26
  I
• 32:26
  say
• 32:26
  that,
• 32:27
  and
• 32:27
  I
• 32:27
  mean
• 32:27
  that
• 32:27
  by
• 32:27
  friends,
• 32:29
  because
• 32:29
  we
• 32:29
  can
• 32:30
  have
• 32:30
  hospitality.
• 32:31
  Like
• 32:31
  there's
• 32:31
  hospitality.
• 32:32
  People
• 32:32
  have
• 32:32
  the
• 32:33
  gift
• 32:33
  of
• 32:33
  hospitality.
• 32:33
  That
• 32:34
  is
• 32:34
  not
• 32:34
  mine.
• 32:35
  Um,
• 32:35
  I
• 32:35
  can,
• 32:36
  with
• 32:36
  the
• 32:36
  Holy
• 32:36
  Spirit's
• 32:37
  help,
• 32:37
  have
• 32:37
  hospitality,
• 32:38
  but
• 32:38
  that's
• 32:38
  not
• 32:38
  my
• 32:38
  gift.
• 32:40
  But
• 32:40
  this
• 32:41
  kind
• 32:41
  of
• 32:41
  hospitality
• 32:42
  and
• 32:42
  deep
• 32:42
  love
• 32:43
  was
• 32:43
  different.
• 32:45
  Um,
• 32:46
  I
• 32:46
  got
• 32:46
  to
• 32:46
  meet
• 32:47
  with
• 32:47
  powerhouse
• 32:47
  women
• 32:48
  where
• 32:48
  there
• 32:48
  was
• 32:49
  no
• 32:49
  such
• 32:49
  thing
• 32:49
  as
• 32:50
  competition.
• 32:51
  It
• 32:51
  was,
• 32:54
  like,
• 32:54
  I
• 32:54
  shared
• 32:54
  some
• 32:55
  very
• 32:55
  vulnerable
• 32:55
  things
• 32:56
  with
• 32:56
  me.
• 32:56
  They
• 32:56
  shared
• 32:56
  very
• 32:57
  vulnerable
• 32:57
  things,
• 32:57
  you
• 32:58
  know,
• 32:58
  back.
• 32:58
  And
• 32:59
  it's,
• 32:59
  I'm
• 32:59
  sorry,
• 33:00
  I
• 33:00
  shared
• 33:00
  very
• 33:00
  vulnerable
• 33:01
  things
• 33:01
  for,
• 33:01
  with
• 33:02
  them.
• 33:02
  And
• 33:02
  then
• 33:02
  they
• 33:02
  shared
• 33:03
  things
• 33:03
  with
• 33:03
  me.
• 33:03
  And
• 33:05
  I'm
• 33:05
  just
• 33:05
  overwhelmed
• 33:07
  at
• 33:07
  how
• 33:07
  much.
• 33:10
  I
• 33:10
  don't
• 33:10
  know.
• 33:10
  And
• 33:11
  it
• 33:11
  sucks
• 33:11
  because
• 33:12
  I
• 33:12
  can't
• 33:12
  just
• 33:12
  call
• 33:12
  them
• 33:12
  up
• 33:12
  and
• 33:13
  say,
• 33:13
  Hey,
• 33:13
  let's
• 33:13
  go
• 33:13
  get
• 33:14
  a
• 33:14
  coffee,
• 33:15
  which
• 33:15
  coffee
• 33:15
  is
• 33:15
  a
• 33:15
  big
• 33:15
  thing
• 33:16
  in
• 33:16
  Australia.
• 33:17
  They
• 33:17
  want
• 33:17
  me
• 33:17
  to
• 33:17
  move
• 33:18
  there.
• 33:18
  But
• 33:18
  I'm
• 33:18
  sorry.
• 33:18
  I
• 33:18
  was
• 33:19
  like,
• 33:19
  I'm
• 33:19
  sorry,
• 33:19
  guys.
• 33:19
  My
• 33:20
  red,
• 33:20
  white
• 33:20
  and
• 33:20
  blue,
• 33:21
  um,
• 33:22
  is
• 33:22
  much
• 33:22
  different
• 33:22
  than
• 33:23
  your
• 33:23
  red,
• 33:23
  white
• 33:23
  and
• 33:23
  blue.
• 33:24
  Um,
• 33:25
  I
• 33:25
  don't,
• 33:25
  I
• 33:25
  don't
• 33:26
  think
• 33:26
  I
• 33:26
  can
• 33:26
  do
• 33:26
  that
• 33:26
  because,
• 33:27
  okay,
• 33:27
  so
• 33:27
  let
• 33:27
  me
• 33:27
  explain.
• 33:28
  So
• 33:28
  when
• 33:28
  I
• 33:29
  was
• 33:29
  in
• 33:29
  Australia,
• 33:29
  it
• 33:29
  really
• 33:30
  didn't
• 33:30
  feel
• 33:30
  like
• 33:30
  I
• 33:30
  was
• 33:30
  other
• 33:31
  than
• 33:31
  the
• 33:31
  people
• 33:31
  driving
• 33:31
  on
• 33:31
  the
• 33:32
  wrong
• 33:32
  side
• 33:32
  of
• 33:32
  the
• 33:32
  road.
• 33:32
  It
• 33:33
  really
• 33:33
  did.
• 33:33
  And
• 33:33
  they
• 33:33
  talk
• 33:34
  funny.
• 33:34
  It
• 33:34
  doesn't,
• 33:35
  didn't
• 33:35
  feel
• 33:35
  different
• 33:36
  than
• 33:36
  America.
• 33:37
  Okay.
• 33:37
  Um,
• 33:38
  but
• 33:39
  what
• 33:39
  did
• 33:39
  feel
• 33:39
  different
• 33:39
  was
• 33:40
  like
• 33:40
  there
• 33:40
  was
• 33:40
  literally,
• 33:42
  I
• 33:42
  couldn't
• 33:42
  put
• 33:43
  my
• 33:43
  finger
• 33:43
  on
• 33:43
  it
• 33:44
  honestly
• 33:44
  until
• 33:45
  about
• 33:45
  the
• 33:45
  end.
• 33:46
  There
• 33:46
  was
• 33:46
  no
• 33:47
  sense
• 33:47
  of,
• 33:48
  this
• 33:48
  is
• 33:48
  weird,
• 33:49
  as
• 33:49
  I
• 33:49
  say
• 33:50
  this
• 33:50
  out
• 33:50
  loud,
• 33:50
  I'm
• 33:50
  like,
• 33:50
  this
• 33:50
  actually
• 33:51
  sounds
• 33:51
  really
• 33:51
  weird
• 33:52
  if
• 33:52
  you're
• 33:52
  not
• 33:52
  an
• 33:52
  American,
• 33:53
  um,
• 33:53
  but
• 33:54
  it,
• 33:54
  there
• 33:54
  was
• 33:55
  not
• 33:55
  a
• 33:55
  sense
• 33:55
  of
• 33:55
  patriotism
• 33:57
  and
• 33:58
  there
• 33:58
  was
• 33:58
  not
• 33:58
  a
• 33:58
  sense
• 33:59
  of
• 33:59
  Jesus
• 33:59
  or
• 34:00
  religion.
• 34:00
  It
• 34:02
  was
• 34:02
  very
• 34:02
  void
• 34:03
  and
• 34:03
  empty
• 34:04
  of
• 34:04
  Jesus.
• 34:05
  And
• 34:06
  like,
• 34:06
  if
• 34:06
  you're
• 34:06
  from
• 34:06
  America,
• 34:07
  you're
• 34:07
  going
• 34:07
  to
• 34:07
  understand
• 34:07
  this
• 34:07
  when
• 34:08
  I
• 34:08
  say
• 34:08
  it.
• 34:08
  But
• 34:08
  when
• 34:08
  I
• 34:08
  got
• 34:09
  to,
• 34:09
  when
• 34:09
  I
• 34:09
  landed
• 34:09
  in
• 34:10
  LA,
• 34:10
  the
• 34:11
  first
• 34:11
  thing
• 34:11
  I
• 34:11
  saw
• 34:12
  were
• 34:12
  people
• 34:12
  wearing
• 34:13
  Jesus
• 34:13
  t
• 34:13
  shirts.
• 34:14
  And
• 34:14
  I'm
• 34:15
  like,
• 34:15
  that's
• 34:15
  what
• 34:15
  was
• 34:15
  missing.
• 34:17
  Of
• 34:17
  all
• 34:17
  places
• 34:18
  in
• 34:18
  LA,
• 34:18
  there
• 34:18
  were
• 34:18
  Jesus
• 34:19
  t
• 34:19
  shirts.
• 34:19
  But
• 34:20
  like,
• 34:20
  the
• 34:20
  whole
• 34:21
  point
• 34:21
  I'm,
• 34:21
  I'm
• 34:21
  getting
• 34:22
  at
• 34:22
  is
• 34:22
  like,
• 34:23
  holy
• 34:23
  crap.
• 34:25
  They're
• 34:25
  much,
• 34:25
  they're
• 34:26
  definitely
• 34:26
  very
• 34:26
  different
• 34:27
  than
• 34:27
  us.
• 34:27
  They're
• 34:27
  not
• 34:28
  founded
• 34:28
  on
• 34:28
  religion.
• 34:29
  They're
• 34:29
  not
• 34:29
  founded
• 34:29
  on
• 34:30
  the
• 34:30
  freedom
• 34:30
  and
• 34:30
  the
• 34:31
  patriotism
• 34:31
  and
• 34:31
  the
• 34:31
  protection
• 34:32
  of,
• 34:32
  of
• 34:33
  who
• 34:33
  we
• 34:33
  are.
• 34:33
  Like
• 34:34
  it's
• 34:34
  just,
• 34:34
  it's,
• 34:34
  it's
• 34:35
  different.
• 34:35
  I'm
• 34:35
  not
• 34:35
  saying
• 34:35
  it's
• 34:36
  necessarily
• 34:36
  wrong.
• 34:36
  It
• 34:36
  was
• 34:37
  just
• 34:37
  different.
• 34:38
  Definitely
• 34:38
  couldn't
• 34:38
  move
• 34:39
  there
• 34:39
  and
• 34:39
  become
• 34:40
  a
• 34:40
  citizen,
• 34:40
  I
• 34:40
  don't
• 34:40
  think.
• 34:41
  Um,
• 34:42
  I
• 34:42
  say
• 34:42
  that,
• 34:42
  but
• 34:43
  I
• 34:43
  didn't
• 34:43
  say
• 34:43
  never
• 34:44
  because
• 34:44
  never,
• 34:45
  you
• 34:45
  know,
• 34:45
  we
• 34:45
  don't
• 34:45
  ever
• 34:46
  say
• 34:46
  never,
• 34:46
  right?
• 34:46
  We
• 34:46
  don't
• 34:47
  ever
• 34:47
  say
• 34:47
  never
• 34:48
  because
• 34:48
  we
• 34:48
  just
• 34:48
  don't
• 34:48
  know.
• 34:49
  But
• 34:49
  anyway,
• 34:50
  deep
• 34:50
  friendships
• 34:51
  for
• 34:51
  me
• 34:51
  are
• 34:51
  usually
• 34:52
  not
• 34:52
  found
• 34:52
  in
• 34:52
  proximity,
• 34:53
  which
• 34:53
  means
• 34:53
  I
• 34:53
  have
• 34:53
  to
• 34:54
  make
• 34:54
  more
• 34:54
  effort
• 34:55
  to
• 34:55
  keep
• 34:55
  those
• 34:55
  relationships
• 34:56
  up.
• 34:57
  And
• 34:57
  I'm
• 34:57
  hoping
• 34:57
  that
• 34:58
  that
• 34:58
  encourages
• 34:58
  anybody
• 34:58
  that
• 34:59
  feels
• 34:59
  very
• 34:59
  lonely
• 34:59
  right
• 35:00
  now.
• 35:00
  Um,
• 35:01
  anyway.
• 35:02
  Okay,
• 35:02
  so
• 35:02
  move
• 35:02
  on
• 35:02
  to
• 35:03
  November.
• 35:03
  So
• 35:04
  November,
• 35:06
  I
• 35:06
  had
• 35:07
  this.
• 35:08
  We
• 35:08
  had
• 35:08
  a
• 35:08
  lesson
• 35:09
  on
• 35:09
  audaciousness
• 35:10
  and
• 35:11
  I
• 35:11
  learned
• 35:12
  that
• 35:12
  audaciousness
• 35:13
  actually
• 35:13
  isn't
• 35:14
  bad.
• 35:14
  I
• 35:14
  remember
• 35:16
  as
• 35:16
  a
• 35:16
  child
• 35:17
  and
• 35:18
  even
• 35:18
  growing
• 35:18
  up,
• 35:19
  I
• 35:19
  remember
• 35:19
  people
• 35:20
  saying,
• 35:20
  the
• 35:21
  audacity
• 35:22
  she
• 35:22
  has
• 35:22
  like
• 35:23
  that
• 35:23
  shameful,
• 35:24
  scornful
• 35:24
  tone.
• 35:25
  So
• 35:25
  audacity
• 35:25
  has
• 35:26
  been
• 35:26
  to
• 35:26
  me
• 35:26
  like
• 35:27
  a,
• 35:27
  like
• 35:27
  something
• 35:28
  that's
• 35:28
  like
• 35:28
  a
• 35:28
  faux
• 35:28
  pas
• 35:29
  or
• 35:29
  it's
• 35:29
  like,
• 35:29
  what
• 35:29
  is
• 35:29
  that
• 35:30
  called
• 35:30
  when
• 35:30
  you
• 35:30
  don't.
• 35:31
  It's
• 35:31
  not
• 35:31
  acceptable
• 35:32
  by
• 35:33
  culture
• 35:33
  or
• 35:33
  whatever.
• 35:34
  Um,
• 35:35
  but
• 35:35
  it
• 35:35
  was
• 35:35
  always
• 35:35
  this
• 35:36
  like
• 35:36
  the
• 35:37
  audacity
• 35:37
  she
• 35:38
  had,
• 35:38
  like
• 35:38
  it
• 35:38
  implying
• 35:39
  disregard
• 35:40
  of
• 35:40
  restraints
• 35:41
  commonly
• 35:41
  imposed
• 35:42
  by
• 35:43
  convention
• 35:43
  or
• 35:44
  prudence
• 35:44
  or
• 35:44
  whatever.
• 35:45
  And
• 35:46
  so
• 35:46
  I
• 35:46
  thought
• 35:46
  to
• 35:46
  be
• 35:46
  a
• 35:46
  good
• 35:46
  girl,
• 35:47
  you
• 35:47
  weren't
• 35:47
  audacious.
• 35:49
  But
• 35:49
  then
• 35:50
  I
• 35:50
  realized
• 35:50
  that
• 35:52
  maybe
• 35:52
  audacity
• 35:55
  needs
• 35:55
  to
• 35:55
  change
• 35:55
  in
• 35:55
  my
• 35:56
  mind.
• 35:57
  What
• 35:57
  if?
• 35:58
  Audacity
• 35:58
  was
• 35:59
  that
• 35:59
  she
• 36:00
  had
• 36:00
  the
• 36:00
  audacity
• 36:01
  to
• 36:01
  change.
• 36:02
  She
• 36:02
  had
• 36:02
  the
• 36:02
  audacity
• 36:03
  to
• 36:03
  be
• 36:03
  different,
• 36:05
  to
• 36:05
  stand
• 36:05
  out
• 36:05
  because
• 36:06
  she
• 36:06
  is
• 36:06
  set
• 36:06
  free
• 36:07
  and
• 36:07
  set
• 36:07
  apart.
• 36:09
  And
• 36:09
  so
• 36:09
  that
• 36:09
  has
• 36:10
  changed
• 36:10
  how
• 36:10
  I'm
• 36:11
  approaching
• 36:12
  everything
• 36:13
  in
• 36:13
  my
• 36:13
  life.
• 36:14
  I
• 36:14
  am
• 36:14
  going
• 36:14
  to
• 36:14
  be
• 36:15
  audacious.
• 36:15
  I
• 36:16
  am
• 36:16
  audacious.
• 36:17
  I'm
• 36:17
  going
• 36:18
  to
• 36:18
  stand
• 36:18
  up
• 36:18
  and
• 36:18
  against
• 36:19
  and
• 36:19
  different
• 36:20
  from,
• 36:20
  um,
• 36:21
  my
• 36:21
  competition
• 36:22
  online
• 36:22
  and
• 36:22
  in,
• 36:23
  in
• 36:23
  the
• 36:23
  community
• 36:24
  with,
• 36:24
  um,
• 36:25
  holistic
• 36:25
  modalities
• 36:26
  of,
• 36:26
  of,
• 36:26
  of
• 36:27
  healing.
• 36:27
  And
• 36:28
  because
• 36:28
  I'm
• 36:28
  not
• 36:28
  going
• 36:29
  to
• 36:29
  offer
• 36:29
  new
• 36:29
  age
• 36:29
  supports.
• 36:30
  And
• 36:30
  if
• 36:30
  I
• 36:30
  have
• 36:30
  questions
• 36:31
  about
• 36:31
  something
• 36:31
  to
• 36:32
  me
• 36:32
  that
• 36:32
  comes
• 36:32
  up
• 36:32
  as
• 36:33
  new,
• 36:33
  and
• 36:34
  I
• 36:34
  want
• 36:34
  to
• 36:34
  make
• 36:34
  sure
• 36:34
  before
• 36:34
  I
• 36:35
  start.
• 36:38
  I'm
• 36:38
  going
• 36:39
  to
• 36:39
  be
• 36:39
  getting,
• 36:39
  um,
• 36:40
  support
• 36:40
  from
• 36:41
  my
• 36:41
  pastors
• 36:41
  at
• 36:41
  church
• 36:42
  and
• 36:42
  my
• 36:42
  elders
• 36:42
  at
• 36:42
  church
• 36:43
  and
• 36:43
  like
• 36:43
  have
• 36:43
  them
• 36:44
  pray
• 36:44
  with
• 36:44
  me
• 36:44
  over
• 36:44
  it.
• 36:45
  And,
• 36:46
  um,
• 36:46
  I'm
• 36:46
  also
• 36:47
  going
• 36:47
  to
• 36:47
  stand
• 36:47
  up
• 36:48
  and
• 36:48
  stand
• 36:48
  out
• 36:48
  as
• 36:48
  different
• 36:49
  online
• 36:49
  because
• 36:49
  I'm
• 36:49
  going
• 36:50
  to,
• 36:50
  because
• 36:51
  I
• 36:51
  approach
• 36:51
  things
• 36:52
  differently.
• 36:52
  Everything
• 36:53
  to
• 36:53
  me
• 36:53
  is
• 36:54
  connected.
• 36:55
  Your
• 36:55
  symptoms
• 36:55
  are
• 36:56
  a
• 36:56
  sign
• 36:56
  of
• 36:56
  a
• 36:56
  root
• 36:57
  cause,
• 36:57
  but
• 36:58
  that
• 36:58
  root
• 36:58
  cause
• 36:58
  isn't
• 36:58
  necessarily
• 36:59
  hormones.
• 37:00
  Hormones
• 37:00
  is
• 37:00
  not
• 37:00
  a
• 37:00
  root
• 37:00
  cause.
• 37:01
  Um,
• 37:02
  your
• 37:02
  hormones,
• 37:03
  like
• 37:03
  all
• 37:03
  of
• 37:03
  that
• 37:03
  crazy
• 37:04
  scammy
• 37:05
  marketing,
• 37:06
  I'm
• 37:06
  done
• 37:06
  with.
• 37:07
  I'm
• 37:07
  done
• 37:08
  with
• 37:08
  creating
• 37:08
  content
• 37:08
  for
• 37:09
  content's
• 37:09
  sake.
• 37:11
  I'm
• 37:11
  done
• 37:11
  with,
• 37:12
  I'm
• 37:12
  done
• 37:12
  with
• 37:13
  trying
• 37:13
  to
• 37:13
  serve
• 37:14
  everyone.
• 37:14
  I
• 37:15
  don't
• 37:15
  want
• 37:15
  to
• 37:15
  serve
• 37:15
  everyone.
• 37:16
  I
• 37:16
  don't
• 37:16
  want
• 37:16
  to
• 37:16
  serve
• 37:16
  bitter
• 37:17
  people.
• 37:18
  I
• 37:18
  don't
• 37:18
  want
• 37:18
  to
• 37:18
  receive
• 37:19
  text
• 37:19
  messages
• 37:19
  or
• 37:20
  messages
• 37:20
  from
• 37:20
  clients
• 37:21
  that
• 37:21
  are
• 37:21
  rude.
• 37:23
  Condescending.
• 37:25
  mean,
• 37:26
  not
• 37:27
  thoughtful,
• 37:28
  not,
• 37:28
  not
• 37:29
  loving
• 37:29
  and
• 37:30
  not,
• 37:31
  um,
• 37:33
  not
• 37:33
  a,
• 37:33
  uh,
• 37:34
  reflection
• 37:35
  of
• 37:35
  what
• 37:35
  I
• 37:35
  want
• 37:35
  to
• 37:35
  serve
• 37:36
  and
• 37:36
  who
• 37:36
  I
• 37:36
  want
• 37:36
  to
• 37:36
  serve
• 37:36
  here.
• 37:38
  So
• 37:38
  then
• 37:38
  that
• 37:39
  moves
• 37:39
  me
• 37:39
  into
• 37:39
  December
• 37:40
  of
• 37:40
  2023
• 37:41
  and
• 37:41
  I
• 37:41
  really
• 37:42
  do
• 37:42
  remember
• 37:42
  telling
• 37:42
  my
• 37:42
  husband
• 37:43
  I
• 37:43
  was
• 37:43
  laying
• 37:43
  in
• 37:43
  bed
• 37:44
  and
• 37:45
  this
• 37:45
  is
• 37:45
  probably
• 37:45
  TMI
• 37:46
  but
• 37:46
  he
• 37:46
  rubs
• 37:46
  my
• 37:46
  feet
• 37:46
  every
• 37:47
  night
• 37:47
  before
• 37:47
  bed
• 37:47
  and
• 37:48
  it's
• 37:48
  really
• 37:49
  helped
• 37:49
  me
• 37:49
  calm
• 37:49
  down
• 37:50
  but
• 37:50
  it's
• 37:50
  also
• 37:50
  really
• 37:50
  nice.
• 37:51
  Um,
• 37:52
  but
• 37:52
  in
• 37:53
  December
• 37:53
  of
• 37:53
  2023
• 37:54
  I
• 37:54
  remember
• 37:54
  telling
• 37:54
  my
• 37:54
  husband
• 37:55
  that
• 37:56
  it
• 37:56
  was
• 37:56
  about
• 37:56
  me
• 37:56
  finding
• 37:57
  my
• 37:57
  people.
• 37:58
  It
• 37:58
  was
• 37:58
  about
• 37:58
  me
• 38:00
  learning
• 38:00
  who
• 38:00
  I
• 38:00
  wanted
• 38:01
  to
• 38:01
  be
• 38:01
  around,
• 38:02
  who
• 38:02
  I
• 38:02
  aligned
• 38:03
  with
• 38:03
  and
• 38:03
  who
• 38:03
  I
• 38:03
  didn't,
• 38:04
  who
• 38:05
  I
• 38:05
  wanted
• 38:05
  to
• 38:05
  show
• 38:05
  up
• 38:06
  for.
• 38:07
  Who
• 38:07
  I
• 38:07
  wanted
• 38:07
  to
• 38:07
  serve
• 38:09
  and
• 38:09
  to
• 38:09
  make
• 38:09
  those
• 38:09
  things
• 38:09
  and
• 38:10
  those
• 38:10
  people
• 38:10
  my
• 38:10
  priority.
• 38:12
  I
• 38:12
  don't
• 38:12
  want
• 38:13
  to
• 38:13
  appease
• 38:13
  the
• 38:14
  greater
• 38:14
  masses
• 38:16
  and
• 38:16
  I
• 38:16
  know
• 38:16
  I'm
• 38:17
  not
• 38:17
  for
• 38:17
  that.
• 38:19
  I
• 38:19
  also
• 38:19
  know
• 38:19
  that
• 38:20
  I
• 38:20
  am
• 38:20
  no
• 38:20
  longer
• 38:21
  A
• 38:21
  nutrition
• 38:22
  coach.
• 38:22
  I
• 38:22
  started
• 38:23
  nutrition
• 38:23
  coaching
• 38:23
  in,
• 38:24
  um,
• 38:25
  in
• 38:25
  2019.
• 38:26
  Then
• 38:26
  I
• 38:27
  moved
• 38:27
  into
• 38:27
  become
• 38:27
  a,
• 38:28
  and
• 38:28
  I,
• 38:28
  oh,
• 38:28
  sorry.
• 38:29
  In
• 38:29
  2019,
• 38:30
  I
• 38:30
  became
• 38:30
  a
• 38:30
  nutrition
• 38:30
  coach.
• 38:31
  And
• 38:31
  that
• 38:31
  was
• 38:31
  awesome,
• 38:32
  and
• 38:32
  it
• 38:32
  set
• 38:32
  my
• 38:32
  foot,
• 38:33
  my
• 38:33
  feet
• 38:34
  in
• 38:34
  this
• 38:34
  idea
• 38:35
  of
• 38:35
  people
• 38:35
  being
• 38:36
  able
• 38:36
  to
• 38:36
  change
• 38:36
  their
• 38:36
  diet,
• 38:37
  changing
• 38:37
  their
• 38:37
  lives.
• 38:38
  But
• 38:38
  I
• 38:38
  realize
• 38:38
  that
• 38:38
  that's
• 38:39
  very
• 38:39
  lacking.
• 38:40
  That
• 38:40
  I
• 38:41
  cannot
• 38:41
  serve
• 38:41
  someone's
• 38:42
  heartburn.
• 38:42
  I
• 38:42
  can't
• 38:43
  take
• 38:43
  care
• 38:43
  of
• 38:43
  their
• 38:43
  heartburn.
• 38:43
  I
• 38:43
  can't
• 38:44
  take
• 38:44
  care
• 38:44
  of
• 38:44
  their
• 38:44
  constipation.
• 38:45
  I
• 38:45
  can't
• 38:45
  take
• 38:46
  care
• 38:46
  of
• 38:46
  their
• 38:46
  IBS
• 38:46
  or
• 38:47
  any
• 38:47
  other,
• 38:47
  their
• 38:48
  migraines
• 38:48
  and
• 38:48
  all
• 38:48
  those
• 38:48
  things.
• 38:49
  So
• 38:49
  then
• 38:49
  I
• 38:49
  became
• 38:49
  a
• 38:49
  nutritional
• 38:50
  therapy
• 38:50
  practitioner.
• 38:51
  And
• 38:51
  in
• 38:52
  that,
• 38:52
  I
• 38:52
  still
• 38:53
  did
• 38:53
  nutrition
• 38:53
  coaching,
• 38:54
  right?
• 38:54
  Like
• 38:54
  that's
• 38:54
  still
• 38:54
  part
• 38:55
  of
• 38:55
  it.
• 38:55
  But
• 38:55
  then
• 38:55
  I
• 38:56
  added
• 38:56
  on
• 38:56
  top
• 38:56
  of
• 38:56
  that
• 38:56
  being
• 38:57
  able
• 38:57
  to
• 38:57
  find
• 38:58
  root
• 38:58
  cause
• 38:58
  and
• 38:59
  utilizing
• 39:00
  foods
• 39:00
  and
• 39:01
  herbs
• 39:01
  and
• 39:02
  tinctures
• 39:03
  and
• 39:03
  other
• 39:03
  things
• 39:04
  to
• 39:04
  help
• 39:04
  them
• 39:04
  heal
• 39:05
  that
• 39:06
  root
• 39:06
  cause
• 39:06
  with
• 39:07
  food
• 39:07
  and
• 39:07
  lifestyle
• 39:08
  adjustments.
• 39:09
  But
• 39:09
  now,
• 39:10
  but
• 39:10
  that
• 39:11
  was
• 39:11
  limiting.
• 39:12
  I
• 39:12
  couldn't
• 39:12
  treat.
• 39:14
  I
• 39:14
  didn't
• 39:14
  have
• 39:14
  a
• 39:15
  wider
• 39:15
  scope
• 39:16
  to
• 39:16
  actually
• 39:16
  go
• 39:17
  in
• 39:17
  and
• 39:17
  like
• 39:17
  find
• 39:18
  disease
• 39:19
  and
• 39:19
  infections
• 39:20
  and
• 39:20
  other
• 39:20
  things
• 39:21
  that
• 39:21
  may
• 39:21
  actually
• 39:22
  be
• 39:22
  causing
• 39:23
  these
• 39:23
  other
• 39:23
  problems.
• 39:24
  So
• 39:25
  now,
• 39:26
  as
• 39:26
  a
• 39:26
  naturopathic
• 39:26
  doctor,
• 39:27
  I
• 39:27
  am
• 39:28
  using
• 39:28
  nutrition
• 39:28
  coaching,
• 39:29
  I
• 39:29
  am
• 39:29
  using
• 39:29
  nutritional
• 39:30
  therapy,
• 39:31
  but
• 39:31
  I'm
• 39:31
  actually
• 39:31
  able
• 39:31
  to
• 39:32
  treat
• 39:32
  and
• 39:33
  prevent
• 39:33
  and
• 39:34
  allow
• 39:34
  you
• 39:34
  to
• 39:35
  reverse
• 39:36
  some
• 39:36
  of
• 39:36
  your
• 39:36
  diseases
• 39:38
  and
• 39:38
  some
• 39:39
  if
• 39:39
  not
• 39:39
  most.
• 39:39
  I
• 39:40
  can
• 39:40
  help
• 39:40
  with
• 39:40
  people
• 39:41
  that
• 39:41
  are
• 39:41
  done
• 39:42
  with
• 39:42
  their
• 39:42
  chemo
• 39:42
  treatment.
• 39:43
  I
• 39:43
  can
• 39:43
  help
• 39:44
  with
• 39:44
  children.
• 39:44
  I
• 39:45
  can
• 39:45
  do
• 39:45
  all
• 39:46
  sorts
• 39:46
  of
• 39:46
  things
• 39:47
  that
• 39:47
  A
• 39:48
  functional
• 39:48
  nurse
• 39:49
  practitioner
• 39:49
  can
• 39:49
  do.
• 39:49
  The
• 39:50
  only
• 39:50
  thing
• 39:50
  I
• 39:50
  can't
• 39:50
  do
• 39:51
  is
• 39:51
  offer
• 39:51
  insurance
• 39:52
  and,
• 39:53
  um,
• 39:54
  write
• 39:54
  prescriptions.
• 39:55
  That's
• 39:55
  all
• 39:55
  I
• 39:55
  can't
• 39:56
  do.
• 39:57
  And
• 39:57
  so
• 39:58
  if
• 39:58
  you
• 39:58
  are
• 39:58
  interested
• 39:59
  in
• 39:59
  finding
• 40:00
  and
• 40:00
  working
• 40:01
  with
• 40:01
  a
• 40:01
  holistic
• 40:02
  practitioner
• 40:02
  that
• 40:03
  I
• 40:03
  can't
• 40:03
  be
• 40:03
  your
• 40:03
  primary
• 40:04
  care
• 40:04
  provider,
• 40:05
  but
• 40:06
  I
• 40:06
  can
• 40:07
  essentially
• 40:08
  as
• 40:08
  long
• 40:08
  as
• 40:08
  you
• 40:08
  have
• 40:08
  a
• 40:08
  primary
• 40:09
  care
• 40:09
  provider
• 40:10
  that
• 40:10
  can
• 40:10
  do,
• 40:11
  you
• 40:11
  know,
• 40:11
  emergency
• 40:12
  things
• 40:13
  or
• 40:13
  whatever,
• 40:13
  but
• 40:13
  I
• 40:14
  can
• 40:14
  provide
• 40:14
  acute
• 40:14
  treatments
• 40:15
  for
• 40:16
  things
• 40:16
  as
• 40:16
  well.
• 40:16
  So.
• 40:18
  If
• 40:18
  you
• 40:18
  are
• 40:18
  interested
• 40:18
  in
• 40:19
  a
• 40:19
  naturopathic
• 40:20
  approach
• 40:21
  for
• 40:21
  your
• 40:21
  support
• 40:21
  or
• 40:22
  for
• 40:22
  your
• 40:22
  health,
• 40:23
  let
• 40:23
  me
• 40:23
  know.
• 40:24
  I
• 40:24
  am
• 40:24
  currently
• 40:25
  taking
• 40:25
  new
• 40:25
  patients.
• 40:26
  I'm
• 40:27
  building
• 40:27
  up
• 40:27
  my,
• 40:28
  uh,
• 40:29
  my
• 40:29
  patient
• 40:29
  load
• 40:30
  and
• 40:30
  my
• 40:30
  caseload
• 40:31
  so
• 40:31
  that
• 40:32
  I
• 40:32
  can
• 40:32
  have
• 40:33
  the
• 40:33
  opportunity
• 40:34
  to
• 40:34
  serve.
• 40:35
  In
• 40:35
  the
• 40:35
  community
• 40:37
  and
• 40:37
  my
• 40:37
  community,
• 40:38
  like
• 40:38
  I
• 40:38
  said,
• 40:38
  is
• 40:38
  not
• 40:39
  by
• 40:39
  proximity.
• 40:39
  It's
• 40:40
  not
• 40:40
  found
• 40:40
  in
• 40:40
  proximity
• 40:41
  while
• 40:41
  some
• 40:42
  are,
• 40:43
  but
• 40:43
  my
• 40:43
  community
• 40:43
  is
• 40:44
  you.
• 40:44
  My
• 40:44
  community
• 40:45
  is
• 40:45
  my
• 40:45
  Instagram
• 40:46
  followers.
• 40:46
  My
• 40:47
  community
• 40:47
  is
• 40:47
  people
• 40:48
  on
• 40:48
  my
• 40:48
  newsletter
• 40:48
  in
• 40:48
  my
• 40:49
  wilderness
• 40:49
  of
• 40:49
  wellness.
• 40:50
  My
• 40:50
  community
• 40:50
  are
• 40:51
  the
• 40:51
  people
• 40:51
  that
• 40:51
  come
• 40:51
  and
• 40:52
  work
• 40:52
  with
• 40:52
  me
• 40:52
  as
• 40:52
  well.
• 40:53
  So
• 40:54
  take
• 40:54
  that
• 40:54
  step,
• 40:55
  take
• 40:55
  that
• 40:56
  step.
• 40:56
  And
• 40:57
  you
• 40:57
  can
• 40:58
  down
• 40:58
  in
• 40:58
  the
• 40:58
  show
• 40:58
  notes,
• 40:58
  you're
• 40:58
  gonna
• 40:59
  be
• 40:59
  able
• 40:59
  to
• 40:59
  find
• 40:59
  how
• 41:00
  to
• 41:00
  get
• 41:01
  started
• 41:01
  with
• 41:01
  me
• 41:01
  as
• 41:01
  a
• 41:02
  new
• 41:02
  patient.
• 41:03
  Um,
• 41:04
  And
• 41:04
  what
• 41:04
  that
• 41:04
  looks
• 41:04
  like,
• 41:05
  I'm
• 41:05
  going
• 41:05
  to
• 41:05
  pull
• 41:05
  back
• 41:06
  here
• 41:06
  just
• 41:06
  a
• 41:06
  minute.
• 41:06
  What
• 41:06
  does
• 41:06
  it
• 41:06
  look
• 41:07
  like
• 41:07
  to
• 41:07
  become
• 41:07
  a
• 41:07
  new
• 41:07
  patient
• 41:08
  of
• 41:08
  mine?
• 41:08
  You
• 41:09
  are
• 41:09
  sent
• 41:09
  lots
• 41:10
  and
• 41:10
  lots
• 41:10
  of
• 41:10
  forms.
• 41:11
  I
• 41:11
  say
• 41:11
  lots
• 41:11
  and
• 41:11
  lots
• 41:12
  of
• 41:12
  forms.
• 41:12
  It's
• 41:12
  pages
• 41:13
  of
• 41:13
  a
• 41:13
  couple
• 41:13
  of
• 41:13
  forms.
• 41:14
  And
• 41:14
  I'm
• 41:14
  going
• 41:15
  to
• 41:15
  find
• 41:15
  out
• 41:16
  your
• 41:16
  health
• 41:16
  history
• 41:16
  from
• 41:17
  birth,
• 41:17
  including
• 41:18
  your
• 41:18
  parents
• 41:18
  health,
• 41:19
  like,
• 41:19
  you
• 41:19
  know,
• 41:19
  their
• 41:20
  main,
• 41:20
  their
• 41:20
  basic
• 41:20
  health,
• 41:21
  um,
• 41:21
  all
• 41:22
  the
• 41:22
  way
• 41:22
  to
• 41:22
  who
• 41:22
  you
• 41:22
  are
• 41:22
  right
• 41:23
  now
• 41:23
  and
• 41:23
  what
• 41:23
  you're
• 41:23
  experiencing
• 41:24
  right
• 41:24
  now.
• 41:24
  I'm
• 41:24
  going
• 41:25
  to
• 41:25
  feel
• 41:26
  or
• 41:26
  see
• 41:26
  your
• 41:26
  symptom
• 41:27
  burden.
• 41:27
  Um,
• 41:28
  and
• 41:28
  assess
• 41:28
  that.
• 41:29
  And
• 41:29
  then
• 41:30
  we
• 41:30
  are
• 41:30
  going
• 41:30
  to
• 41:31
  have
• 41:31
  an
• 41:31
  initial
• 41:31
  wellness
• 41:32
  call
• 41:32
  or
• 41:32
  visit
• 41:33
  in
• 41:33
  person
• 41:34
  where
• 41:34
  I
• 41:34
  can
• 41:34
  put
• 41:34
  my
• 41:34
  hands
• 41:35
  on
• 41:35
  you
• 41:35
  and
• 41:35
  actually
• 41:36
  do
• 41:36
  some
• 41:36
  muscle
• 41:36
  testing.
• 41:37
  And
• 41:37
  I
• 41:37
  can
• 41:37
  do
• 41:38
  some
• 41:38
  other
• 41:38
  tests,
• 41:39
  some
• 41:39
  other
• 41:39
  like
• 41:39
  hands
• 41:40
  on
• 41:40
  testing,
• 41:40
  like
• 41:40
  iridology
• 41:42
  and
• 41:42
  so
• 41:42
  forth.
• 41:43
  And
• 41:43
  if
• 41:43
  you're
• 41:43
  here
• 41:43
  virtual,
• 41:44
  if
• 41:44
  you're
• 41:44
  a
• 41:44
  virtual
• 41:45
  client
• 41:45
  or
• 41:45
  patient
• 41:46
  of
• 41:46
  mine,
• 41:46
  that's
• 41:47
  totally
• 41:47
  fine
• 41:47
  because
• 41:47
  I
• 41:48
  actually
• 41:48
  have
• 41:48
  ways
• 41:48
  I
• 41:48
  can
• 41:48
  test
• 41:49
  you
• 41:49
  virtually
• 41:49
  as
• 41:50
  well,
• 41:50
  just
• 41:50
  like
• 41:50
  I
• 41:51
  would
• 41:51
  do
• 41:51
  in
• 41:51
  person.
• 41:52
  Um,
• 41:53
  but
• 41:53
  yes,
• 41:53
  if
• 41:53
  you're
• 41:53
  interested
• 41:54
  in
• 41:54
  that,
• 41:54
  check
• 41:54
  it
• 41:54
  out
• 41:55
  in
• 41:55
  the
• 41:55
  show
• 41:55
  notes,
• 41:56
  I
• 41:56
  would
• 41:56
  love
• 41:56
  to
• 41:56
  have
• 41:56
  you.
• 41:57
  I
• 41:57
  would
• 41:57
  love
• 41:58
  to
• 41:58
  have
• 41:58
  you
• 41:58
  here
• 41:59
  as
• 41:59
  part
• 41:59
  of
• 41:59
  my
• 42:00
  community,
• 42:00
  whether
• 42:01
  you're
• 42:01
  close
• 42:02
  in
• 42:02
  proximity
• 42:02
  or
• 42:03
  not.
• 42:03
  Remember
• 42:04
  that
• 42:04
  doesn't
• 42:04
  matter.
• 42:05
  What
• 42:05
  matters
• 42:05
  is
• 42:06
  finding
• 42:06
  the
• 42:06
  connections
• 42:07
  of
• 42:07
  the
• 42:07
  people
• 42:08
  that
• 42:08
  get
• 42:09
  you
• 42:09
  and
• 42:09
  love
• 42:09
  you
• 42:10
  anyway.
• 42:11
  Or
• 42:11
  maybe
• 42:12
  that's
• 42:12
  just
• 42:12
  me.
• 42:13
  But
• 42:13
  that
• 42:13
  is
• 42:14
  my
• 42:14
  wrap
• 42:15
  on
• 42:15
  2023.
• 42:16
  I
• 42:16
  would
• 42:16
  love
• 42:17
  to
• 42:17
  hear
• 42:17
  from
• 42:17
  you
• 42:17
  and
• 42:17
  hear
• 42:17
  what
• 42:18
  your
• 42:18
  wrap
• 42:18
  on
• 42:19
  2023
• 42:19
  is.
• 42:20
  You
• 42:20
  can
• 42:20
  seriously
• 42:21
  just
• 42:21
  send
• 42:21
  me
• 42:21
  an
• 42:21
  email
• 42:22
  at
• 42:22
  hello
• 42:22
  at
• 42:22
  cryinginmycheesecake.
• 42:23
  com
• 42:24
  or
• 42:25
  come
• 42:25
  find
• 42:25
  me
• 42:25
  on
• 42:26
  Instagram.
• 42:26
  Um,
• 42:27
  at
• 42:27
  crying
• 42:28
  in
• 42:28
  my
• 42:28
  cheesecake,
• 42:29
  but
• 42:29
  for
• 42:29
  now,
• 42:30
  I
• 42:30
  just
• 42:30
  want
• 42:30
  to
• 42:30
  thank
• 42:30
  you
• 42:30
  for
• 42:31
  listening
• 42:31
  to
• 42:31
  this
• 42:31
  podcast.
• 42:32
  The
• 42:32
  fact
• 42:32
  that
• 42:33
  you're
• 42:33
  here
• 42:33
  and
• 42:33
  you
• 42:33
  allow
• 42:34
  me
• 42:34
  in
• 42:34
  your
• 42:34
  ears
• 42:34
  for
• 42:35
  however
• 42:35
  many
• 42:35
  minutes
• 42:35
  this
• 42:35
  has
• 42:36
  been,
• 42:36
  I
• 42:37
  am
• 42:37
  so
• 42:37
  grateful
• 42:38
  and
• 42:38
  I
• 42:38
  hope
• 42:38
  it
• 42:38
  has
• 42:38
  encouraged
• 42:39
  you
• 42:39
  to
• 42:39
  make
• 42:40
  a
• 42:40
  next
• 42:40
  best
• 42:40
  step
• 42:41
  for
• 42:41
  your
• 42:41
  health.
• 42:42
  Take
• 42:42
  a
• 42:42
  look
• 42:42
  at
• 42:42
  those
• 42:42
  show
• 42:43
  notes
• 42:43
  for
• 42:43
  more
• 42:43
  information
• 42:44
  or
• 42:44
  other
• 42:44
  links
• 42:45
  I
• 42:45
  mentioned
• 42:45
  in
• 42:45
  the
• 42:45
  episode.
• 42:47
  And
• 42:47
  remember,
• 42:47
  my
• 42:48
  DMs
• 42:48
  are
• 42:48
  always
• 42:48
  open
• 42:49
  on
• 42:49
  Instagram,
• 42:49
  and
• 42:50
  so
• 42:50
  is
• 42:50
  my
• 42:50
  email
• 42:50
  inbox.
• 42:51
  Hello
• 42:52
  at
• 42:52
  cryinginmycheesecake.
• 42:53
  com
• 42:53
  or
• 42:54
  at
• 42:54
  cryinginmycheesecake
• 42:55
  on
• 42:56
  Instagram.
• 42:57
  I
• 42:57
  will
• 42:57
  talk
• 42:57
  to
• 42:57
  you
• 42:57
  soon.