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Episode 4 | The Dangers of Porn · If I Knew Then What I Know Now

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SPEAKER_00: I started off last Thursday, so you got Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Wednesday.
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SPEAKER_00: So Day 7.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm on day seven.
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SPEAKER_00: I started over last Thursday.
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SPEAKER_00: And I had guys strapped over.
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SPEAKER_00: Dang, time is flying that fast.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm on day seven.
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SPEAKER_00: But time be moving.
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SPEAKER_00: Where day you are?
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SPEAKER_00: Bro, zero.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey y'all, I feel I feel hard tremendously.
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SPEAKER_00: Bro, you gotta get back on the ladder, bro.
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SPEAKER_00: Bro, I'll okay.
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SPEAKER_00: I have prepared me some healthy meals this week.
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SPEAKER_00: Besides today.
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SPEAKER_00: He'll be back on day one my day.
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SPEAKER_00: But anyway, God first stick to the code.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, man.
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SPEAKER_00: This is your boy Corey Davis, man.
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SPEAKER_00: Core with the C, Corey, E dig me.
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SPEAKER_00: Say that.
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SPEAKER_00: Yo, what's going on?
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SPEAKER_00: This is your boy Johnny Gladdy, Mr.
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SPEAKER_00: Hip Hop Cardio, Mr.
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SPEAKER_00: Gladdy photography.
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SPEAKER_00: Can I take your picture?
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SPEAKER_00: We'll be glad to.
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SPEAKER_00: Let's get it, my boy.
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SPEAKER_00: Episode four, man.
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SPEAKER_00: How you feel?
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SPEAKER_00: Episode four, man.
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SPEAKER_00: We're kicking down the door, man.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, if I knew then, what I know now, the podcast.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, what we talking about today, baby.
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SPEAKER_00: We're talking about some controversial.
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SPEAKER_00: Talking about some taboo, they call them taboo type topics.
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SPEAKER_00: Type of topics that folks don't really want to indulge in.
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SPEAKER_00: The type of topics that you know I'm saying people really want to shy away from, but low-key, everybody in the household experiencing it or going through it or struggling with it.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey boy, not only struggling with it, but been been struggling for a long time.
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SPEAKER_00: Decades.
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SPEAKER_00: So this is something that don't hit everybody at an early, early age.
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SPEAKER_00: Definitely hit me at an early age.
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SPEAKER_00: Boy.
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SPEAKER_00: Super early.
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SPEAKER_00: What are we talking about?
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SPEAKER_00: Porn.
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SPEAKER_00: P O R N.
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SPEAKER_00: Oh, but you about to misspell it?
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, you misspell that.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm already, boy.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, man, I'm gonna start it off like this.
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SPEAKER_00: Man, I know, like a lot of people out there, I seen it, experienced it at a young, young age.
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SPEAKER_00: I had to be like, I had to be like sixth grade, maybe, fifth grade.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: I was young though, for sure.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Super young.
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SPEAKER_00: And it's and really back then, you gotta think about it.
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SPEAKER_00: It's like 2005, 2004, 2005, 2006, you know, in that range.
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SPEAKER_00: So we ain't got cell phones and super, super duper access to it.
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SPEAKER_00: Now, it really started off with magazines.
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SPEAKER_00: Bro, not even that.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's true.
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SPEAKER_00: Started off with a little magazine.
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SPEAKER_00: Them little DVDs.
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SPEAKER_00: Little DVD, little VHSs.
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SPEAKER_00: That's why parents, y'all gotta be careful when y'all expose your kids around the house.
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SPEAKER_00: Trying to hide, trying to hide a little, trying to hide a little VHSs up under the bed.
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SPEAKER_00: We know what's over there.
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SPEAKER_00: Boy, I remember one time, boy, um What happened?
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SPEAKER_00: Boy, this the first time I got exposed to porn, it was simply because I was watching, you know, a regular, a regular movie.
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SPEAKER_00: I fucking it was Aladdin, I think, or something like that.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: But somebody, you know how you could you used to go re record over your tapes?
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SPEAKER_01: Oh, yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Somebody recorded a video over the Aladdin movie.
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SPEAKER_00: My life.
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SPEAKER_00: It'll win from Atlanta.
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SPEAKER_00: It'll win from Atlanta.
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SPEAKER_00: The big booty women.
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SPEAKER_00: That boy is card.
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SPEAKER_00: He like, I didn't know this was in Atlanta.
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SPEAKER_00: Like over.
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SPEAKER_00: Nah, for real, but we gotta be serious, man.
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SPEAKER_00: We gotta be serious.
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SPEAKER_00: No, for real.
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SPEAKER_00: Not for real, though.
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SPEAKER_00: And record over the over the children's music.
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SPEAKER_00: Over the gender news movie.
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SPEAKER_00: Over Aladdin.
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SPEAKER_00: At a young age, man.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, man.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, you hey, who did everything?
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SPEAKER_00: I ain't calling no names.
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SPEAKER_00: You just went and bought you a blank VHS.
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SPEAKER_00: You was that bad you wanted to get it.
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SPEAKER_00: Yes.
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SPEAKER_00: So they done bootlegged.
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SPEAKER_00: Let me say this.
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SPEAKER_00: I was not at home, okay?
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SPEAKER_00: When my mom were in my with nobody in my house.
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SPEAKER_00: I was losing.
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SPEAKER_00: How old you were?
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SPEAKER_00: You had to be like elementary mills.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, about probably seven, eight, something around that.
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SPEAKER_00: Young, super young, bro.
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SPEAKER_00: I just remember like I just remember like seeing like little magazines with women in like bikinis.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: That's what kind of like started to spark it a little bit.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: And man, I just remember, like you said, being over a family member house.
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SPEAKER_00: Shoot, being over a family member house.
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SPEAKER_00: A lot of parents, a lot of stuff be happening outside the household.
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SPEAKER_00: You gotta be careful with what your kids go to.
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SPEAKER_00: They do.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: Because you don't know what be going on.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm be one of the parents, but I ain't gonna lie to you, but my kids ain't going nowhere.
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SPEAKER_00: You go to our house.
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SPEAKER_00: I know what's at our house.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't know what's in so-and-so house.
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SPEAKER_00: Because you gotta pret you gotta think about it like this.
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SPEAKER_00: You gotta protect your kids.
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SPEAKER_00: It's like my mama, she wouldn't even let us go anywhere like that.
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SPEAKER_00: Like if it went out of our cousin's house, you know what I'm trying to say, or somewhere close.
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SPEAKER_00: She was real protective about where we went because she knew what we could get exposed to.
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SPEAKER_00: Yep.
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SPEAKER_00: So yeah, that happened at a young age with me, man.
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SPEAKER_00: We uh, you know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: Me and my cousins really, we we watching it.
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SPEAKER_00: We we trying to sneak and watch it.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm young though.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Like I'm like I'm I'm already knowing I ain't supposed to be watching this.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: But you know, you young, curious, trying to see what's going on, you know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: Putting the TV on mute, making you slick.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: And now you know you're doing something.
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SPEAKER_00: No, you gotta know you're doing something you gotta do.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, when you gotta sneak and do it, try to turn it and turn the TV down.
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SPEAKER_00: Hey, Aljo's side of point, hey bro, it's that is a real deal demon, that boy.
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SPEAKER_00: Real deal.
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SPEAKER_00: When I say that thing is something serious, serious, I'm talking about 40, 50, 60 year olds I know right now are probably still struggling with that.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: And it might have been because they might have been molested or touched or might have just seen something, got exposed to something too early, and they just ain't never really been able to shake it.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: I know, I know I I struggled with it for a long time.
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SPEAKER_00: I got a video, an old video got like when I used to watch it, how I was talking about not that type of video.
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SPEAKER_00: Laughing, bruh.
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SPEAKER_00: Wait, what are you talking about?
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SPEAKER_00: Bruh said he had the videos on that.
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SPEAKER_00: No, bro.
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SPEAKER_00: Shout out to our producer Wade, man.
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SPEAKER_00: Clapping though, that boy finally got a haircut, man.
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SPEAKER_00: It took him four episodes.
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SPEAKER_00: Man, took that boy four episodes, but he finally got a shape up.
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SPEAKER_00: That boy was a little like a piss battery.
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unknown: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: And a crisis line on his head.
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SPEAKER_00: But what I was saying, I don't even remember what I was saying.
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SPEAKER_00: What I was saying.
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SPEAKER_00: Oh, yeah, yeah, video.
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SPEAKER_00: What was I going with there though?
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SPEAKER_00: You was talking about how you the video that you made about how you should struggle with.
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SPEAKER_00: Oh, yeah, yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: I got a video on my Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday.
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SPEAKER_00: I used watching it every day, bro.
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SPEAKER_00: Like for real.
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SPEAKER_00: Like I was super duper addicted to it, and I made excuses for it.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: That's how, like, I was trying to justify it.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Because we can propose this question right now.
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SPEAKER_00: Do y'all believe that watching porn is a sin?
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SPEAKER_00: Do y'all think that it's something?
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SPEAKER_00: Do y'all think that is this that's something God wants us to do?
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SPEAKER_00: What would y'all say?
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SPEAKER_00: They're about to say yep.
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SPEAKER_00: No, no, no, nothing.
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SPEAKER_00: That's all right.
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SPEAKER_00: No, no, no.
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SPEAKER_00: Do you think that's something?
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SPEAKER_00: Is it a sin?
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SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna say 100%.
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SPEAKER_00: Yes.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: So when it so, and then like we do with with our sin, what we try to do?
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SPEAKER_00: We try to justify it.
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SPEAKER_00: We try to find ways to make it seem like art ain't really that bad.
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SPEAKER_00: So I'm I'm doing this, I'm I'm saying this to myself like over the years.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm trying to make excuses for.
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SPEAKER_00: Well, Corey, you ain't out here having sex.
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SPEAKER_00: Ain't nothing wrong watching a little porn.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Well, Corey, you ain't out here freeing this girl, doing it to this girl, trying to do this, this, then, third with these different women.
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SPEAKER_00: At least you can do is just go in that closet real quick.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Go in that bathroom real quick.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: That's that's what I'm telling myself.
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SPEAKER_00: Lighting again, and that ain't nothing wrong.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm telling myself.
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SPEAKER_00: Try to act like, trying to act like trying to cover it up or trying to basically like lie to myself.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Lie to myself so much to where I'm really, I'm like, I'm looking at the scriptures.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm like, shoot, and that ain't even in the Bible.
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SPEAKER_00: It ain't nowhere in the Bible, they just say, do not watch more.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: And I think I think that that's how we do.
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SPEAKER_00: They take everything so literal, like, oh, we don't say this actually in the in the Bible for a word, for verbatim can't talk.
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SPEAKER_00: But you know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: So we try to try to justify, you know, what's right and what's wrong.
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SPEAKER_00: But we but it's it's something about like every time that I would go, I would go through that and do that, bro.
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SPEAKER_00: That strong conviction that comes out of the way.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you talking about it.
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SPEAKER_00: You feel like a slob.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you do.
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SPEAKER_00: You feel disgusting.
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SPEAKER_00: You feel disgusting.
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SPEAKER_00: In a moment, you feel amazing.
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SPEAKER_00: Yep.
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SPEAKER_00: But soon after, soon I'm talking about immediately after, it's like your world just starts crumbling down.
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SPEAKER_00: Man, what?
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SPEAKER_00: It's like you just you just feel like a worthless piece of train.
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SPEAKER_00: Like, like you just feel like worthless, bro.
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SPEAKER_00: You just feel like I can't even believe I just did that.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: But see, I think we all have had that.
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SPEAKER_00: It's that conviction.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, the conviction.
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SPEAKER_00: Now, if you now this is what I will say.
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SPEAKER_00: If you doing that and you ain't feeling that, we got a real problem.
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SPEAKER_00: Houston, we got a real problem.
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SPEAKER_00: If you if you sinning, but there's no conviction going on, boy, you far out there.
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SPEAKER_00: You far out there.
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SPEAKER_00: And we all go astray.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm not saying I'm perfect or better than the next person.
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SPEAKER_00: But if you out there getting convicted, yes, sir.
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SPEAKER_00: If you out there getting convicted, that's a good thing.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: That's a good sign.
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SPEAKER_00: Because it shows, it shows where the heart is.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: Because sometimes, sometimes we're in we're in things and we're trying to get deliver things to come out of things, and but when you have an intentional heart for God, it's just like that's when the convention comes.
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SPEAKER_00: And it shows it shows the fear of God.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it shows fear of fear.
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SPEAKER_00: It shows the fear of God.
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SPEAKER_00: People are like, what do you mean to fear God?
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SPEAKER_00: It don't mean to be like, oh no, no, no.
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SPEAKER_00: It's reverence.
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SPEAKER_00: It's reverence.
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SPEAKER_00: Showing reverence for it.
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SPEAKER_00: It's wanting to be obedient because you know there is somebody who can send you to heaven to hell.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: So you so you start to get that conviction because you're like, oh, snap, I know I ain't supposed to be doing this.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: But you try to trick yourself into doing it and make yourself feel okay with it.
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SPEAKER_00: And then next thing you know, you go down this slippery slope.
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SPEAKER_00: How many times we done say, hey, man, I'm done, man.
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SPEAKER_00: I ain't watching no more.
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SPEAKER_00: But then you back in it.
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SPEAKER_00: 8 59 p.m.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm right back at it.
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SPEAKER_00: But that's why we have to.
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SPEAKER_00: Like I ain't need, like I ain't even just say that.
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SPEAKER_00: But that's why we have to, you know, God are you know, the Bible talks about, you know, God guarding your ear and eye gates, is because it's like everything now in the world has made it so easy and accessible.
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SPEAKER_00: Man, so it's just like the accessibility is wild.
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SPEAKER_00: Even when you tell yourself like, I'm done, you have to be careful what you watch, what you entertain.
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SPEAKER_00: Because it could be even something like, you know, because we don't even try to justify uh just looking at girls twerking on Instagram.
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SPEAKER_00: They ain't the same.
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SPEAKER_00: Oh, I done did I done I done I done got to the point where I well, I was YouTube and twerking.
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SPEAKER_00: I was like, Well shit, they ain't naked, they ain't naked, they ain't naked, Lord.
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SPEAKER_00: They got some money, they got underwrong, they got a little basic on.
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SPEAKER_00: But I'm for real, bro.
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SPEAKER_00: That's how like much I wrestled with it and struggled with it.
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SPEAKER_00: Cause I'm like, okay, well, I just want to watch them naked.
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SPEAKER_00: I still try to get my feel and my face in.
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SPEAKER_00: But I won't take it that far.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna go to second base instead of going all the way home.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: But you still in the wrong because it's that list.
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SPEAKER_00: That list is something serious, boy.
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SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Everybody turn your Bibles.
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SPEAKER_00: Pull out your Bibles.
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SPEAKER_00: Bible 618.
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SPEAKER_00: Oh, yeah, I got it on my mind.
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SPEAKER_00: Well, and it says flee from sexual immorality.
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SPEAKER_00: Wow.
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SPEAKER_00: All of the sins a person commits are outside the body.
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SPEAKER_00: Uh-huh.
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SPEAKER_00: But whoever sins sexually, yes sir, sins against their body.
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SPEAKER_00: Uh-huh.
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SPEAKER_00: Somebody elaborate that fucking.
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SPEAKER_00: Bring that down again, bring that down one more time, one more time, one more time.
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SPEAKER_00: What's it?
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SPEAKER_00: From sexual immorality.
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SPEAKER_00: Flee, flee, hold on.
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SPEAKER_00: Stop about that.
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SPEAKER_00: Flee.
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SPEAKER_00: That means run.
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SPEAKER_00: That means get away from it.
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SPEAKER_00: That means get away.
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SPEAKER_00: Don't run to it.
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SPEAKER_00: Run from it.
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SPEAKER_00: Okay?
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SPEAKER_00: Flee from it.
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SPEAKER_00: All other sins a person commits are outside the body.
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SPEAKER_00: Outside the body.
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SPEAKER_00: All the other sins that we do that ain't sexual immorality is sins that we commit outside the body.
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SPEAKER_00: But this is why this one is so powerful.
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SPEAKER_00: Whoever sins sexually sins against their own body.
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SPEAKER_00: And that's why when we do that, it's so like hurtful.
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SPEAKER_00: Because it's within.
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SPEAKER_00: It's you.
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SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
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SPEAKER_00: That's why that's why it cut us so bad.
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SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
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SPEAKER_00: Because it's the heart.
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SPEAKER_00: It's like the mind.
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SPEAKER_00: It's like your emotions, your thoughts.
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SPEAKER_00: Now all of a sudden you're going throughout a day, you're thinking about it.
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SPEAKER_00: You can't stop thinking about it.
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SPEAKER_00: You can't stop thinking about it.
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SPEAKER_00: You can't wait to get home to do it.
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SPEAKER_00: It can really consume your life.
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SPEAKER_00: It consumes your thoughts.
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SPEAKER_00: It consume your heart.
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SPEAKER_00: It consume your actions.
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SPEAKER_00: Like I done been so I done been in church sitting there thinking about it.
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SPEAKER_00: I done been, it's been a way with a laugh at everything.
12:54
SPEAKER_00: I'm being transparent, y'all.
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SPEAKER_00: It's gonna be some moments in this podcast, it's gonna be comical, whatever the case may be.
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SPEAKER_00: But trust me when I say this is a serious matter for real.
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SPEAKER_00: Serious matter.
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SPEAKER_00: We're gonna laugh at a little stuff here and there because we're laughing at our past.
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SPEAKER_00: But at the same time, at the same time, bro, I done been in places where I didn't.
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SPEAKER_00: Porn.
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SPEAKER_00: Wow.
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SPEAKER_00: I done been in places where I need to be focused, bro.
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SPEAKER_00: But all I can think about is the video I was watching last night.
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SPEAKER_00: Or I'm just I'm just like, well, I can't even wait to get off.
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SPEAKER_00: I can't wait to get off.
13:25
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
13:25
SPEAKER_00: So I can get off.
13:26
SPEAKER_00: Because you gotta think, you gotta think, you know, what we what we feed, it becomes us.
13:32
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
13:33
SPEAKER_00: You it l it literally starts to breathe and live inside of you what you consume your time with, what you consume your thoughts with.
13:39
SPEAKER_00: That's why you like you said, you in church, you know what I'm saying?
13:42
SPEAKER_00: You in church, you know, instead of fleeting feeding your spirit, man, you're feeding the flesh.
13:46
SPEAKER_00: That's why your flesh is reacting.
13:48
SPEAKER_00: You know, and a lot of times we have to understand that when we feed our our spirit our our flesh more than our spirit, man, your your your flesh is gonna react in a way that's unpleasing.
13:57
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm trying to say?
13:57
SPEAKER_00: So you have to be in a place where you gotta you gotta control, you gotta get some self-control.
14:02
SPEAKER_00: Yep, and I'm gonna say that's that's a that's a good thing.
14:04
SPEAKER_00: Self-control is being bees with that.
14:06
SPEAKER_00: Gotta have some self-control.
14:07
SPEAKER_00: This is because it's easy to relapse.
14:10
SPEAKER_00: This ain't like a drug for real.
14:12
SPEAKER_00: I ain't never did drugs, but this is a drug.
14:14
SPEAKER_00: Well, porn is a drug, boy.
14:16
SPEAKER_00: And and it's and it's free.
14:18
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
14:19
SPEAKER_00: You ain't even got to pay for this.
14:20
SPEAKER_00: You gotta let internet, you got Wi-Fi, okay, cool.
14:24
SPEAKER_00: You got, or somebody got a hot spot, you can connect.
14:27
SPEAKER_00: You on there.
14:29
SPEAKER_00: I I I honestly feel like, you know, pornography is like any other addiction that somebody may go through.
14:34
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it is.
14:34
SPEAKER_00: You know, whether it be uh And it's mental too, it's a lot of mental tied to it.
14:38
SPEAKER_00: Right, that's that's all that's what I was getting to.
14:40
SPEAKER_00: Because of the mental distraction that comes with that, because there's so many things and goals and stuff you can reach in life, but that that that that sin, it kind of destroys all of that.
14:51
SPEAKER_00: You're occupied by sin.
14:53
SPEAKER_00: So it's like I can't even focus on where where God wants me to go.
14:56
SPEAKER_00: I can't even focus on the place and my business, the things I need to do, how to get there.
15:01
SPEAKER_00: You know, you got so many people, so many people who are just struggling daily because they can't they can't get past where they are.
15:06
SPEAKER_00: Because they got their hold on.
15:07
SPEAKER_00: You got a hold on them.
15:07
SPEAKER_00: Yep, the times you should have been working on your business, the times you should have been working on your dreams, the times you should have been working on that very thing that you said you need to do in order for you to grow, you on a you on porn.
15:17
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
15:18
SPEAKER_00: You you're looking at different sites.
15:19
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
15:20
SPEAKER_00: That's what you spend your time on.
15:21
SPEAKER_00: That's the nose hour that went by, hour and a half don't went by.
15:23
SPEAKER_00: Now you sleepy tired, wondering why it ain't enough time in the day.
15:26
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
15:26
SPEAKER_00: It's because you ain't using utilizing it the right time.
15:28
SPEAKER_00: Because I've personally been there.
15:29
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
15:30
SPEAKER_00: I personally been there where it's just like, dang, I need to get X, Y, and Z done.
15:34
SPEAKER_00: But here I get boy, three hours don't went by.
15:37
SPEAKER_00: And I don't waste the time.
15:38
SPEAKER_00: That boy battery life crazy.
15:40
SPEAKER_00: Three hours?
15:42
SPEAKER_00: That boy battery life was on a honey.
15:44
SPEAKER_00: Nah, for real, though.
15:46
SPEAKER_00: Everybody turn your Bibles to Ephesians.
15:50
SPEAKER_00: The first one's breaking, right?
15:51
SPEAKER_00: Yes, now we in Ephesians.
15:55
SPEAKER_00: Go ahead, go ahead, go, go ahead, bro.
15:56
SPEAKER_00: I do matter for the church and X.
15:57
SPEAKER_00: Ephesians chapter 5.
16:00
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, verse 3.
16:02
SPEAKER_00: But among you, there must not be uh even a hint of sexual morality.
16:08
SPEAKER_00: Okay.
16:09
SPEAKER_00: Any kind of impurity or of greed.
16:13
SPEAKER_00: Because these are improper for God's community.
16:17
unknown: Amen.
16:18
SPEAKER_00: I agree 100%, bro.
16:20
SPEAKER_00: I'm telling you, bro, because that once that stuff starts to seep into your spirit, yeah, it can create it can it can taint the whole thing.
16:27
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
16:28
SPEAKER_00: It can taint your team, it can taint your your growth, it can it can taint what you got.
16:32
SPEAKER_00: It's a poison, bro.
16:34
SPEAKER_00: It's literally a poison that can really derail your whole life.
16:38
SPEAKER_00: You know how many people in the Bible, kings and stuff like that, fail due to less?
16:43
SPEAKER_00: It might not have been porn or whatever the case may be, but how many kings that we done read in the Bible that were great, rich, famous, all the type of stuff like that.
16:50
SPEAKER_00: They had the world at their fingertips, but lost it due to lack of self-control.
16:54
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
16:54
SPEAKER_00: Due to lack of self-control.
16:56
SPEAKER_00: Because you can't control your your desire, your flesh.
16:59
SPEAKER_00: I heard it best from this rapper.
17:00
SPEAKER_00: I don't even know if he rap no more.
17:02
SPEAKER_00: Y'all know his name's Siege.
17:03
SPEAKER_00: Y'all remember him?
17:04
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I remember Siege.
17:05
SPEAKER_00: Good dude.
17:06
SPEAKER_00: Child of Siege, y'all never Siege, man.
17:09
SPEAKER_00: This was years ago.
17:10
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
17:10
SPEAKER_00: Over a decade ago.
17:12
SPEAKER_00: I still remember this.
17:13
SPEAKER_00: What he said on that stage that day resonated to me to this day.
17:16
SPEAKER_00: He said, Boy, your flesh need a curfew.
17:20
SPEAKER_00: And I still, and I hope you see the clip, bro.
17:23
SPEAKER_00: He said, Your flesh need a curfew.
17:25
SPEAKER_00: And when I say he was speaking to me, because you know how many nights my flesh is up 10, 11, 12 o'clock at night, trying to sneak and do something I know ain't got no business.
17:34
SPEAKER_00: Yes, sir.
17:35
SPEAKER_00: But if I gave my flesh a curfew, you know how much how much I could avoid it?
17:39
SPEAKER_00: All the stupid sin and all the wasted time I could avoid it.
17:42
SPEAKER_00: If I say, okay, flesh, we turn it off.
17:44
SPEAKER_00: 8 o'clock, put your phone up.
17:46
SPEAKER_00: Parents, do not allow these kids to be out here having these electronics.
17:50
SPEAKER_00: I'm telling you.
17:51
SPEAKER_00: That's another thing.
17:52
SPEAKER_00: If you think they in their room, looking up scripts, that's another thing.
17:56
SPEAKER_00: They're not.
17:56
SPEAKER_00: Because here's the thing.
17:57
SPEAKER_00: Some of them, it's a select few, but I promise you.
18:00
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
18:00
SPEAKER_00: A lot of them are taking advantage of the freedom that they got.
18:03
SPEAKER_00: You gotta realize it's 2026 now.
18:05
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
18:06
SPEAKER_00: We we had to really, really, really sneak for real and do it.
18:10
SPEAKER_00: But now these kids is all you gotta do is go to Google.
18:13
SPEAKER_00: You know, and Twitter.
18:15
SPEAKER_00: It is on social media now.
18:16
SPEAKER_00: Pastor Joshua Child, Pastor Joshua Childs was talking about that tonight.
18:19
SPEAKER_00: He was just talking about something, you know, why in the world give a four and a five-year-old a cell phone?
18:24
SPEAKER_00: Definitely.
18:25
SPEAKER_00: He said, um, he said, um, he said he was talking about how how how addicted we become to these phones.
18:30
SPEAKER_00: Even you checking your phone when it ain't no ain't no alarm even going off on.
18:33
SPEAKER_00: Ain't nobody even called you.
18:34
SPEAKER_00: But you're picking it up.
18:35
SPEAKER_00: You're picking it up, you're picking it up.
18:36
SPEAKER_00: Like the world has made it so accessible.
18:38
SPEAKER_00: And the crazy thing is, is when we saw, when we saw um, you know, pornography and magazines and stuff like that, it was catered to one way.
18:46
SPEAKER_00: Now the world got so many different aspects.
18:48
SPEAKER_00: I mean, you can got cartoons, I mean so many crazy wild things.
18:53
SPEAKER_00: Animals, animals, anything, bro.
18:55
SPEAKER_00: Anything you want to look up.
18:56
SPEAKER_00: Anything you want to look up is there now.
18:58
SPEAKER_00: Messing the mouth of a people, bro.
19:00
SPEAKER_00: The enemy and all his demons and all, bro, they done opened up the floodgates to have us exposed to any and everything.
19:08
SPEAKER_00: And it's sad, bro.
19:12
SPEAKER_00: We really at a bad place when the country.
19:14
SPEAKER_00: Because I feel like it done, I feel like it done got to the point where folks don't even look at it as being wrong no more.
19:19
SPEAKER_00: Because think about it.
19:21
SPEAKER_00: How much money how much more than money that industry making?
19:23
SPEAKER_00: Wait, let's let's let's Google this.
19:24
SPEAKER_00: Look it up, let's look it up.
19:26
SPEAKER_00: Imagine you in the industry now.
19:27
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
19:28
SPEAKER_00: Making Buku money.
19:29
SPEAKER_00: But they make millions.
19:29
SPEAKER_00: Providing for your family.
19:31
SPEAKER_00: They make it.
19:33
SPEAKER_00: You think we're gonna be able to see and tell this person what they're doing, they need to stop.
19:36
SPEAKER_00: It's gonna be hard to do that because now the money is tied to it.
19:38
SPEAKER_00: And now the now they got financial status, they got notoriety status.
19:42
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's famous porn stars out here that people actually know, follow on social media, all type of stuff like that.
19:47
SPEAKER_00: So, but this also made me think about this.
19:50
SPEAKER_00: The devil also can reward you too.
19:52
SPEAKER_00: That's what I'm saying.
19:53
SPEAKER_00: Did he not take Christ on top of that mountain?
19:56
SPEAKER_00: And what'd he say?
19:57
SPEAKER_00: Put a scripture, put it up two way.
19:59
SPEAKER_00: What did he say when he took took God on Christ God on top of that mountain?
20:02
SPEAKER_00: What'd he say?
20:02
SPEAKER_00: He said a whole million things.
20:04
SPEAKER_00: He said, I give you.
20:05
SPEAKER_00: I give you all the things.
20:05
SPEAKER_00: I give you all these if you just worship me.
20:07
SPEAKER_00: You think you got out of me?
20:09
SPEAKER_00: He told him to jump all those things.
20:10
SPEAKER_00: So But what did Jesus do?
20:12
SPEAKER_00: He used scripture.
20:13
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
20:14
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm trying to say?
20:15
SPEAKER_00: Against that.
20:15
SPEAKER_00: So that's why we have to be in our word, you know what I'm saying, daily.
20:18
SPEAKER_00: So exactly.
20:19
SPEAKER_00: So if you think Christ ain't gonna get, if Christ can get tempted with the whole world, with the whole world, and and and Satan trying to tempt him to bow down to him and follow him, do you think, do you don't think it's other people out here that have been tempted like that and actually and actually took debate?
20:37
SPEAKER_00: Yes, it's people out here that actually took debate.
20:39
SPEAKER_00: But look what he offered Christ though.
20:41
SPEAKER_00: He said, I'll give you the world.
20:42
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
20:43
SPEAKER_00: What comes with the world?
20:44
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
20:44
SPEAKER_00: Money, power, fame, materialistic stuff.
20:47
SPEAKER_00: So when we see these things on social media, a lot of times we associate it with success and we think it came from God.
20:56
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
20:56
SPEAKER_00: Unfortunately, the true story, all success don't come from God.
21:00
SPEAKER_00: And it's not truly success.
21:02
SPEAKER_00: It's it's a mirage.
21:03
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's not real, really success.
21:05
SPEAKER_00: You think it is, but it's not.
21:07
SPEAKER_00: Anything that's not of God, that's Satan's hands on that.
21:12
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
21:13
SPEAKER_00: If you gotta come up, or if you made a living, or if you got if you gotta come up on doing something harm to people, that's not from God, bro.
21:21
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and and and I don't care if you even say thank you, God, for this award, or thank you, God, for my life, for my current situation life, but it didn't come from God.
21:29
SPEAKER_00: How?
21:30
SPEAKER_00: How did it come from God?
21:31
SPEAKER_00: If that's the case, then we could just do whatever we want to do and just say thank you, God.
21:34
SPEAKER_00: But that's why we gotta take that why we gotta take initiative, initiative.
21:37
SPEAKER_00: Like Colossians, well, I was looking over here at Colossians three and five.
21:40
SPEAKER_00: It says, put to death, therefore, what is earthly in you sexual immorality, immorality, impurity, passions, evil desires, which is idolatry, emphasizing the need to actively reject sinful desires.
21:56
SPEAKER_00: So that goes from that fleeing again, you know what I'm saying?
21:58
SPEAKER_00: Because even when the even when The enemy offers the world to us, we gotta have that that desire in us to reject him.
22:04
SPEAKER_00: Got to.
22:05
SPEAKER_00: And we gotta reject sinful.
22:06
SPEAKER_00: We gotta reject the sinful nature because but that junk will kill you.
22:09
SPEAKER_00: It will.
22:10
SPEAKER_00: It literally will take you out.
22:11
SPEAKER_00: And people people play around with it.
22:12
SPEAKER_00: And I'm not saying that, you know, because you got some people that that literally struggle.
22:16
SPEAKER_00: You got people that that literally that they're trying to do right, right?
22:19
SPEAKER_00: They're trying to get in their word, you know, God is transforming them.
22:21
SPEAKER_00: But when you get to the point, like you said, where you just don't care.
22:24
SPEAKER_00: You don't got no conviction no more.
22:26
SPEAKER_00: Are you really rejecting?
22:27
SPEAKER_00: No.
22:29
SPEAKER_00: You've accepted.
22:30
SPEAKER_00: You've accepted.
22:30
SPEAKER_00: You've accepted.
22:31
SPEAKER_00: You've you've took debate.
22:32
SPEAKER_00: You've bit the bait.
22:33
SPEAKER_00: And you ain't you won't care about looking back.
22:35
SPEAKER_00: What it what is saying?
22:36
SPEAKER_00: The wait of the sin is what?
22:37
SPEAKER_00: Death.
22:38
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
22:39
SPEAKER_00: What you about to say now, bro?
22:40
SPEAKER_00: What'd you about to say?
22:41
SPEAKER_00: Wait, what does that say?
22:42
SPEAKER_00: Devil took good, what?
22:43
SPEAKER_00: What is the the scripts right in Matthew?
22:45
SPEAKER_00: What did it say?
22:46
SPEAKER_00: Okay, um, turn to your Bibles to Matthew 4 and 8 through 10.
22:51
SPEAKER_00: Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed them all the kingdoms of the world in the splendor.
22:59
SPEAKER_00: All this I will give to you.
23:02
SPEAKER_00: If you bow down and worship me, Jesus said to him, Away from me, Satan.
23:08
SPEAKER_00: For it is written, worship the Lord your God and serve him only spiritually.
23:15
SPEAKER_00: So that just goes to that just my bad, I hit the camera.
23:17
SPEAKER_00: So that just goes to the point that we're making, bro.
23:20
SPEAKER_00: Like Satan tempted Christ with the world and made it look pretty, made it look, you know what I'm saying, that mirage.
23:28
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
23:29
SPEAKER_00: He he he'll do the same thing to us in different ways.
23:32
SPEAKER_00: And so many of us fall subject to that.
23:34
SPEAKER_00: We do.
23:34
SPEAKER_00: We do and and if you in that porn industry, you have failed such.
23:38
SPEAKER_00: I'm not saying I'm not saying you can't come out of that, and I'm not saying you stuck for life, but you have fell victim to a lifestyle that was probably portrayed to you as not so bad.
23:50
SPEAKER_00: Come over here and make some money.
23:51
SPEAKER_00: I know you're struggling.
23:52
SPEAKER_00: I know you're a struggle single mama or a struggle-single father, or you out here just damn bad, you a felon, can't find another job.
23:58
SPEAKER_00: Come and step into this lane.
24:00
SPEAKER_00: That's what the enemy does.
24:01
SPEAKER_00: He makes stuff that don't look bad look good.
24:03
SPEAKER_00: Look good.
24:04
SPEAKER_00: That's why you got a lot of strippers and things like that.
24:06
SPEAKER_00: You hear a lot of them.
24:06
SPEAKER_00: I know I know some personally.
24:08
SPEAKER_00: Or he made stuff that look bad to make it look good.
24:10
SPEAKER_00: I know some personally that they say, I'm only doing this to put myself through college.
24:14
SPEAKER_00: I'm only doing this because I need, I gotta feed my kids.
24:16
SPEAKER_00: It's kind of like kind of like I got I got some people that I know personally who are now in prison because they was like, you know, lust is lust, lust and all and all the things and seeing all that stuff is is is all in one.
24:27
SPEAKER_00: So it's like I have some people now that I know that are in prison because they like, oh, they don't they don't think it's bad because they like, oh, I'm just trying to feed my family, or I'm just trying to do what's best for me, or I need to make some money.
24:37
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
24:37
SPEAKER_00: But they don't realize that that thing got them in a chokehold.
24:40
SPEAKER_00: I'm telling you, they blind to the sin now.
24:42
SPEAKER_00: It's not even sin no more than that.
24:44
SPEAKER_00: This is just my lifestyle.
24:45
SPEAKER_00: But that's why every single thing that happens to them on the end of that, bro, is negative.
24:50
SPEAKER_00: It creates a negative impact because it just it's like deal me.
24:54
SPEAKER_00: Like you get you get into something that's gonna, you think you think it's a good thing, but it's gonna trip you up at the end.
24:58
SPEAKER_00: Yep, it's a hole, it's a pitfall.
25:00
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, pitfall.
25:01
SPEAKER_00: It's a stumbling block, it's it's a negative obstacle.
25:03
SPEAKER_00: One thing gonna lead to another.
25:05
SPEAKER_00: One thing leads to another.
25:06
SPEAKER_00: And it's just gonna it's just gonna get worse and worse, bro.
25:08
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
25:08
SPEAKER_00: Like to all the young people out there that might be watching or listening to this podcast, bro, I don't care how old this person may be.
25:16
SPEAKER_00: I don't care how wise this person may look.
25:18
SPEAKER_00: I don't care how many followers they got on social media.
25:20
SPEAKER_00: If anybody is leading y'all or making it seem like it's okay to watch their stuff, it's not.
25:26
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's not, it's not okay whatsoever.
25:30
SPEAKER_00: It's it's gonna lead you down a road you don't want to go on.
25:33
SPEAKER_00: Um, and I know even by us talking about this, it might be a young person who ain't even really who ain't even really dived into that.
25:41
SPEAKER_00: Don't do it.
25:42
SPEAKER_00: I know we're talking about it right now, and you and you might be a rookie to it.
25:45
SPEAKER_00: You might not even really know for real what we're talking about.
25:48
SPEAKER_00: Just know that it's a real thing out here.
25:50
SPEAKER_00: Because we what do you say we battle not against flesh and blood about the what is it?
25:54
SPEAKER_00: What is it we we battle not with flesh and blood, but with the principality, what is it?
25:58
SPEAKER_00: So we we battle with the unseen world out here.
26:00
SPEAKER_00: We battle with we're not wrestling not against flesh and blood.
26:03
SPEAKER_00: So it's it's it's it's an unseen world out here that we can't physically see with our physical eye.
26:08
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, but it's a it's a demonic spiritual world out here that's that's pulling strings and and trying to get you to do things you ain't supposed to do, and it's gonna make it seem like it's okay.
26:18
SPEAKER_00: It's gonna appear to you, it's gonna come to you in a way that's gonna make you think that it's okay for you to do.
26:24
SPEAKER_00: But we telling you here right now today, flee.
26:28
SPEAKER_00: What'd it say?
26:29
SPEAKER_00: Flee from all sexual immorality.
26:32
SPEAKER_00: Not not not this and that.
26:34
SPEAKER_00: Okay, yeah, Corey, yeah, you're not doing this with these women, but you can still no flee from all.
26:39
SPEAKER_00: Listen, because the enemy, one thing about the enemy, and I and I mean Corey talk about this on time, one thing about the enemy is he's crafty.
26:46
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm trying to say?
26:47
SPEAKER_00: So he knows when you're at your lonely place.
26:50
SPEAKER_00: And these these are the things that he does is he triggers people when they're going through, when they're lonely, uh, when they want to cope with something.
26:57
SPEAKER_00: You know, you use it as a coke a coping mechanism.
26:59
SPEAKER_00: Certain demons even try to attach you and link themselves to you as coping mechanisms.
27:05
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
27:05
SPEAKER_00: And I've even seen it one time where, you know, um, you know, we're you know, we were we were dealing with a situation, you know, casting some demons out or whatever, and then you know, one of the demons is like, you know, well, how how is she gonna cope now?
27:16
SPEAKER_00: Because those demons they they get so embedded in you they they make you feel like you need the sin.
27:21
SPEAKER_00: You need them to move.
27:22
SPEAKER_00: And like one thing I was looking up, it says, um many people report using porn to cope with stress or difficult emotions, while the research suggests that the strategy may be may backfire on them.
27:36
SPEAKER_00: Oh, it's gonna backfire.
27:38
SPEAKER_00: Think about how many single people out here not married, so they're not out here, you know, having regular sex or whatever case may be.
27:46
SPEAKER_00: They single now.
27:48
SPEAKER_00: You single, their lustful desire is gonna creep inside of you because it's natural.
27:54
SPEAKER_00: It's natural.
27:54
SPEAKER_00: So a lot of people, what they do, they relieve themselves.
27:57
SPEAKER_00: They go out here and they masturbate.
28:00
SPEAKER_00: So the question really is the thing about it is I now I struggle as a as a single person myself, I struggle with this.
28:08
SPEAKER_00: So I'm not even gonna sit here and act like I had it all together when I was single.
28:12
SPEAKER_00: I struggled with porn single and when I got married.
28:15
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
28:16
SPEAKER_00: It wasn't that, it wasn't no sweets that just cut off.
28:18
SPEAKER_00: I got married.
28:19
SPEAKER_00: Oh, no more porn with me.
28:20
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
28:21
SPEAKER_00: That's just to go to show you how dangerous porn is.
28:24
SPEAKER_00: I wasn't out here just doing it and having said, blah, blah, blah.
28:26
SPEAKER_00: And then when I got married and started having sex, it didn't just automatically wipe that desire away.
28:32
SPEAKER_00: Why?
28:32
SPEAKER_00: Because I've been watching it since what we say in fifth, sixth grade.
28:35
SPEAKER_00: It stuff is deep, deep rooted in you.
28:37
SPEAKER_00: It does.
28:37
SPEAKER_00: And then it gets you to a point where when you marry and you're involved in it, it's like you don't even have that desire for your wife like you need to because you're still in that fantasy world.
28:48
SPEAKER_00: A fantasy world, bro.
28:49
SPEAKER_00: That fantasy world.
28:50
SPEAKER_00: And I know my single people are.
28:51
SPEAKER_00: Desiring something you can't even have.
28:52
SPEAKER_00: And I know it's hard.
28:53
SPEAKER_00: I know it's hard.
28:54
SPEAKER_00: As a single person, I've been there.
28:56
SPEAKER_00: I know it's hard for you not to do that.
28:59
SPEAKER_00: Because that was my excuse.
29:01
SPEAKER_00: I'm single.
29:02
SPEAKER_00: It's the least I could do.
29:03
SPEAKER_00: Lord, forgive me.
29:04
SPEAKER_00: Like, I know I'm doing something I ain't supposed to do, but shoot, but at least let me pass on this one.
29:08
SPEAKER_00: Let me get the hall pass, Lord.
29:09
SPEAKER_00: Let me get let me get to get out of jail free card.
29:11
SPEAKER_00: I ain't I ain't married.
29:12
SPEAKER_00: Let me at least do this, Lord.
29:13
SPEAKER_00: And I'm telling you to my 13, 14, 15-year-olds out there, stop while you can right now.
29:20
SPEAKER_00: And if you ain't started it, don't start it.
29:22
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
29:22
SPEAKER_00: Don't even start it.
29:23
SPEAKER_00: Don't even get inquisitive and want to look and find out what it is we're talking about.
29:28
SPEAKER_00: Because we're telling you that it's a role that you do not want to go on.
29:33
SPEAKER_00: And this is wisdom right here.
29:34
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
29:34
SPEAKER_00: Wisdom is applying the knowledge that somebody is giving you.
29:38
SPEAKER_00: Knowledge and wisdom is two different things.
29:39
SPEAKER_00: Knowledge is just knowing information.
29:41
SPEAKER_00: Wisdom is applying the information.
29:43
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
29:43
SPEAKER_00: So we're giving y'all wisdom right now if you apply it.
29:47
SPEAKER_00: So do not run towards the sexual immorality that's going to come your way.
29:53
SPEAKER_00: Because it's going to come.
29:54
SPEAKER_00: It's going to come.
29:55
SPEAKER_00: If Jesus was tempted with every sin, but then sin, we're going to be tempted with all kinds of sins.
30:00
SPEAKER_00: So flee from it.
30:02
SPEAKER_00: Go the opposite direction.
30:03
SPEAKER_00: You're going to go to school, you're going to go to these classrooms, you're going to go to these school buses, you're going to go to these school sporting events.
30:09
SPEAKER_00: Everybody's going to be talking about it.
30:11
SPEAKER_00: I'm telling you right now what's finna happen.
30:13
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
30:13
SPEAKER_00: They're going to be talking about it.
30:15
SPEAKER_00: They gon', they might even.
30:16
SPEAKER_00: I remember being in a drive-thru, bro, with me, my cousin, and like some of his homeboys or whatever.
30:23
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
30:24
SPEAKER_00: But they got it pulled up on their phone in the back seat.
30:27
SPEAKER_00: For real.
30:28
SPEAKER_00: Like this is like because it become it become people it becomes normalized so much to where it's like, it's not even, it's not even like a what are you doing?
30:38
SPEAKER_00: It's like a just it just become normal.
30:40
SPEAKER_00: Everybody celebrates.
30:40
SPEAKER_00: Like it just become normal.
30:42
SPEAKER_00: So you're going to be put in situations like that.
30:44
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
30:45
SPEAKER_00: Don't even allow yourself to go down that road because I'm 32 years old.
30:51
SPEAKER_00: And that has scarred me to this day.
30:54
SPEAKER_00: I'm still scared from the magazines that I seen at my grandparents' house.
31:00
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
31:00
SPEAKER_00: I'm still scarred from the movies and the videos I seen that I wasn't supposed to see.
31:05
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
31:06
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
31:07
SPEAKER_00: Titanic messed me up a little bit.
31:08
SPEAKER_00: Y'all remember Titanic?
31:09
SPEAKER_00: Bro.
31:10
SPEAKER_00: I had Titanic on VHS.
31:11
SPEAKER_00: Baby boy.
31:12
SPEAKER_00: I had Titanic on VHS.
31:13
SPEAKER_00: Bro, baby boy.
31:14
SPEAKER_00: First time I ever seen a white woman naked in my life.
31:17
SPEAKER_00: Bro.
31:17
SPEAKER_00: Y'all don't remember when Rose was spread out on that couch?
31:20
SPEAKER_00: Bro.
31:20
SPEAKER_00: I remember on Baby Boy.
31:22
SPEAKER_00: Boy, and then the VHS, that was on the first tape.
31:24
SPEAKER_00: It cut off.
31:25
SPEAKER_00: Boy, I put that second tape in so quick.
31:27
SPEAKER_00: I said, what is going on?
31:29
SPEAKER_00: No, I remember I got troubled by my grandma because I kept rewinding the scenes on Baby Boy.
31:33
SPEAKER_00: Oh, Baby Boy.
31:34
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
31:34
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, bro.
31:35
SPEAKER_00: I love you, Jody.
31:36
SPEAKER_00: I mean them taco.
31:38
SPEAKER_00: Hey.
31:38
SPEAKER_00: My grandma said, what you say?
31:40
SPEAKER_00: What you doing?
31:41
SPEAKER_00: I'm telling you, Mike Journal so quick.
31:43
SPEAKER_00: True over there and trying to cut TV out.
31:45
SPEAKER_00: Hey, oh, speaking of trying to cut something off.
31:48
SPEAKER_00: My mom and daddy probably gonna see this.
31:49
SPEAKER_00: It's cool.
31:50
SPEAKER_00: I'm like 15, 16 years old.
31:51
SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna tell y'all a story.
31:53
SPEAKER_00: I'm like 15, 16 years old at the time.
31:55
SPEAKER_00: You know, this is when we had the big boy computers.
31:56
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
31:56
SPEAKER_00: We ain't had a little fancy laptop you got over there.
31:58
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
31:59
SPEAKER_00: Ain't these computers with these monitors on here.
32:01
SPEAKER_00: We got the old school computer.
32:03
SPEAKER_00: I'm talking about it turned blue when you cut it on.
32:05
SPEAKER_00: Y'all know what I'm talking about?
32:06
SPEAKER_00: The one that makes a little noise when you cut the computer on.
32:08
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
32:09
SPEAKER_00: I'm at home by myself, bro.
32:11
SPEAKER_00: Watching porn.
32:13
SPEAKER_00: Now, people that know my house, as soon as you walk in my house, the living room, right there.
32:18
SPEAKER_00: Right there.
32:19
SPEAKER_00: So the computer was back on that back wall.
32:21
SPEAKER_00: Uh-huh.
32:22
SPEAKER_00: Facing this way.
32:23
SPEAKER_00: So as soon as you walk in, all you gotta do is turn your head like this.
32:26
SPEAKER_00: You're gonna see the computer.
32:27
SPEAKER_00: Easy as day.
32:27
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
32:28
SPEAKER_00: Boy, the computer froze.
32:31
unknown: Oh, I had a simple story.
32:32
SPEAKER_00: Boy, my daddy pulled up, boy.
32:34
SPEAKER_00: My daddy is, I'm hearing the I'm hearing the body say, We got music blasting.
32:40
SPEAKER_00: Boy, heartbeat, fast as I don't know what.
32:42
SPEAKER_00: Arms, sweat, hand, sweat.
32:44
SPEAKER_00: I'm like, I'm praying.
32:45
SPEAKER_00: Literally, God, please.
32:46
SPEAKER_00: God, please cut this off.
32:48
SPEAKER_00: Please let it cut off.
32:49
SPEAKER_00: It won't cut off.
32:50
SPEAKER_00: It won't cut off.
32:51
SPEAKER_00: No the Lord.
32:51
SPEAKER_00: That won't not see.
32:53
SPEAKER_00: And look, moments like that, that be God.
32:56
SPEAKER_00: We always be trying to talk about.
32:58
SPEAKER_00: You know how we be talking about, okay?
32:59
SPEAKER_00: We hear God's voice?
33:00
SPEAKER_00: Uh-huh.
33:00
SPEAKER_00: That was his voice right there.
33:01
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
33:02
SPEAKER_00: We be thinking all the time it's a physical voice.
33:04
SPEAKER_01: Yep.
33:05
SPEAKER_00: But sometimes it be in little moments like that.
33:07
SPEAKER_00: Them little red flag moments.
33:09
SPEAKER_00: God be throwing them red flags at us, like, boy.
33:11
SPEAKER_00: But guess what?
33:12
SPEAKER_00: Boy, you're about to get exposed.
33:13
SPEAKER_00: But guess what?
33:13
SPEAKER_00: The computer cut off.
33:14
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
33:15
SPEAKER_00: That was that grace.
33:15
SPEAKER_00: That was that grace it gives.
33:16
SPEAKER_00: That I didn't deserve.
33:18
SPEAKER_00: Come on, somebody.
33:18
SPEAKER_00: That grace he gave.
33:19
SPEAKER_00: And guess what I did?
33:21
SPEAKER_00: Took advantage of it.
33:22
SPEAKER_00: Start watching it again.
33:24
SPEAKER_00: But that's what we do, though.
33:25
SPEAKER_00: That's what we do.
33:25
SPEAKER_00: I'm just being 100.
33:26
SPEAKER_00: That's what we do.
33:27
SPEAKER_00: I was able to God save me in that moment.
33:30
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
33:30
SPEAKER_00: God, please, I'm gonna do no more.
33:32
SPEAKER_00: Straight line.
33:32
SPEAKER_00: God know I'm lying.
33:33
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
33:34
SPEAKER_00: But I'm gonna say I'm gonna say you son.
33:36
SPEAKER_00: And that's what we do.
33:36
SPEAKER_00: We take advantage of the grace.
33:38
SPEAKER_00: We follow Lord forgive me.
33:40
SPEAKER_00: Father, Lord, forgive me.
33:41
SPEAKER_00: Fall Lord forgive me.
33:42
SPEAKER_00: But do you truly mean it in your heart?
33:43
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm trying to say?
33:44
SPEAKER_00: Because repent means what?
33:45
SPEAKER_00: To turn away from.
33:46
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
33:46
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm trying to say?
33:47
SPEAKER_00: I'm laying this down.
33:48
SPEAKER_00: I'm crucifying this flesh so that I can be better.
33:51
SPEAKER_00: And I feel like a lot of times that's what we really need to do.
33:55
SPEAKER_00: What are you about to say, Wade?
33:57
SPEAKER_00: I got a story I want to tell.
33:59
SPEAKER_00: Yes, sir.
33:59
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, go ahead.
34:00
SPEAKER_00: I told my story.
34:01
SPEAKER_00: I got another one too.
34:02
SPEAKER_00: So porn introduced to me when I was uh like ten years old.
34:08
SPEAKER_00: And I'm gonna be honest, this is an honest podcast.
34:10
SPEAKER_00: I lost my Virginia at 11 years old.
34:12
SPEAKER_00: Okay.
34:13
SPEAKER_00: 11 years old.
34:14
SPEAKER_00: How old was the woman if you want to share that?
34:16
SPEAKER_00: Same age.
34:17
SPEAKER_00: Okay, y'all both was young, y'all like that.
34:19
SPEAKER_00: But porn led me to get kicked out of school.
34:23
SPEAKER_00: I got caught doing it in the bathroom.
34:26
SPEAKER_00: Wow.
34:26
SPEAKER_00: See what I'm saying?
34:27
SPEAKER_00: At McCann's Middle School.
34:28
SPEAKER_00: A lot of people know that story.
34:30
SPEAKER_00: And that was so embarrassing because So you like like sixth grade?
34:33
SPEAKER_00: Seventh.
34:33
SPEAKER_00: Seventh grade.
34:34
SPEAKER_00: Sixth or seventh grade.
34:35
SPEAKER_00: So you like 13 at the time, 12, 13.
34:38
SPEAKER_00: 11 going on the road.
34:39
SPEAKER_00: Seventh grade?
34:42
SPEAKER_00: Go on, go on.
34:43
SPEAKER_00: Go ahead, go ahead, go finish the story.
34:45
SPEAKER_00: I was like 12.
34:46
SPEAKER_00: Come on, man.
34:47
SPEAKER_00: Leave that man alone, man.
34:48
SPEAKER_00: But my birthday is in July, so because I don't early birthday.
34:51
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, early birthday.
34:52
SPEAKER_00: So Johnny, chill off.
34:55
SPEAKER_00: I ain't do that, bro.
34:57
SPEAKER_00: I'll just I'll just wait.
34:58
SPEAKER_00: I just did this story, bro.
34:59
SPEAKER_00: Go ahead.
34:59
SPEAKER_00: So you so you got caught in McKinsey.
35:01
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, a lot of people know this story, man.
35:04
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
35:04
SPEAKER_00: Because I had to live with that all the way through high school, all the way till I graduated.
35:08
SPEAKER_00: That's the boy that got kicked out of school.
35:10
SPEAKER_00: That's the boy that got kicked out of school.
35:12
SPEAKER_00: For hunching.
35:13
SPEAKER_00: In the bathroom.
35:21
SPEAKER_00: Wait, come on, man.
35:23
SPEAKER_00: Why you had a nigga laugh?
35:28
SPEAKER_00: Bro, chill, bro.
35:31
SPEAKER_00: So you mean to tell me you got called to school because somebody smells you.
35:35
SPEAKER_00: Or y'all.
35:36
SPEAKER_00: Or whoever.
35:37
SPEAKER_00: These two 11th grade kids.
35:43
SPEAKER_00: 11 year old kid.
35:44
SPEAKER_00: Timeout.
35:45
SPEAKER_00: Timeout.
35:45
SPEAKER_00: Bro, you being dead timeout.
35:47
SPEAKER_00: Bro, you lying, bro.
35:48
SPEAKER_00: I don't even believe it.
35:52
SPEAKER_00: You ain't got to call him.
35:53
SPEAKER_00: Don't call him.
35:53
SPEAKER_00: Time out, bro.
35:54
SPEAKER_00: I did not know this where that story was going on.
35:56
SPEAKER_00: I did not either.
35:57
SPEAKER_00: So y'all got caught because of the smell.
35:59
SPEAKER_00: Listen, listen.
36:00
SPEAKER_00: We know snakes has a smell.
36:01
SPEAKER_00: It does.
36:02
SPEAKER_00: Well, when you little.
36:06
SPEAKER_00: Go ahead, bro.
36:08
SPEAKER_00: I didn't know you were going that way.
36:09
SPEAKER_00: I didn't know you was going that way.
36:10
SPEAKER_00: We done, bro, we done, we're done.
36:11
SPEAKER_00: Go ahead.
36:11
SPEAKER_00: So when at my age, I was little, bro.
36:16
SPEAKER_00: So what happened was.
36:17
SPEAKER_00: Hygiene terrible.
36:18
SPEAKER_00: We know.
36:18
SPEAKER_00: We forget to put on the older and stuff when we're young.
36:21
SPEAKER_00: I know my feet used to be stanked.
36:23
SPEAKER_00: Go ahead.
36:23
SPEAKER_00: Because I didn't know what was sex at the time, right?
36:27
SPEAKER_00: You just going off what you saw.
36:29
SPEAKER_00: Exactly.
36:29
SPEAKER_00: So basically, what happened was white stuff on me.
36:34
SPEAKER_00: On my shoes.
36:36
SPEAKER_00: Golly.
36:38
SPEAKER_00: Well, you grew up early, boy.
36:40
SPEAKER_00: I couldn't even do that when I was 11.
36:41
SPEAKER_00: I know where you're going, but I 11?
36:44
SPEAKER_00: I couldn't even do that when I was 11.
36:46
SPEAKER_00: I tried.
36:47
SPEAKER_00: It didn't work.
36:49
SPEAKER_00: It was on the news.
36:50
SPEAKER_00: That's how bad it was, bro.
36:51
SPEAKER_00: Anyway.
36:52
SPEAKER_00: The news.
36:54
SPEAKER_00: Yes.
36:55
SPEAKER_00: Oh, that's embarrassing.
36:56
SPEAKER_00: That is very embarrassing.
36:57
SPEAKER_00: Well, I know you got the worst whooping of your life, boy.
37:00
SPEAKER_00: And see, those were the things that you're doing.
37:01
SPEAKER_00: No, because what happened was they headlined it wrong.
37:03
SPEAKER_00: Two special media kids.
37:16
SPEAKER_00: Wait.
37:16
SPEAKER_00: I know you didn't do all the making this false story.
37:32
SPEAKER_00: No, that is really working my mother.
37:36
SPEAKER_00: So you gave a white.
37:37
SPEAKER_00: So that's why you gotta work his mother.
37:42
SPEAKER_00: I believe him.
37:43
SPEAKER_00: Bro, I know.
37:45
SPEAKER_00: Do they label that any for real?
37:49
SPEAKER_00: Put it on Jotty.
37:50
SPEAKER_00: Don't put it on me.
37:51
SPEAKER_00: Put it on you a straight baby.
37:52
SPEAKER_00: Put it on Johnny, bro.
37:53
SPEAKER_00: Put it a straight baby.
37:55
SPEAKER_00: I remember that on me, bro.
37:57
SPEAKER_00: I remember the headline.
37:59
SPEAKER_00: Get out of me.
38:00
SPEAKER_00: White lady.
38:02
SPEAKER_00: Come until you live.
38:08
SPEAKER_00: No, no, bro.
38:10
SPEAKER_00: Stop, bro.
38:11
SPEAKER_00: Two special ed kids out of McCass Middle School.
38:14
SPEAKER_00: Caught.
38:15
SPEAKER_00: Caught having sex in the bathroom.
38:20
unknown: So not only.
38:26
SPEAKER_00: Man, I was in an anger management class.
38:28
SPEAKER_00: They thought it was special.
38:32
SPEAKER_00: What?
38:35
SPEAKER_00: Shout out to everybody that was in there with me.
38:37
SPEAKER_00: Hey, man, that is crazy.
38:38
SPEAKER_00: Hey, yeah.
38:39
SPEAKER_00: So you said it's a true story.
38:41
SPEAKER_00: I got tears in my eyes.
38:42
SPEAKER_00: True story words.
38:46
SPEAKER_00: This will not be a stamp.
38:47
SPEAKER_00: I got T.
38:48
SPEAKER_00: I got T.
38:49
SPEAKER_00: Let me Google it.
38:50
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you gotta watch.
38:51
SPEAKER_00: You're gonna have to just watch the podcast and get this.
38:53
SPEAKER_00: We ain't clipping this.
38:55
SPEAKER_00: We ain't clipping this.
38:55
SPEAKER_00: Hey, no.
38:57
SPEAKER_00: I guarantee you, everybody, people that know us, the people that don't know us, though, we're not laughing at nuts.
39:04
SPEAKER_00: This man is crazy, bro.
39:05
SPEAKER_00: There's no way that this was a real story.
39:07
SPEAKER_00: He said he said it was real.
39:09
SPEAKER_00: He put it on his mom.
39:10
SPEAKER_00: Yo.
39:10
SPEAKER_00: Hey, I I believe him.
39:12
SPEAKER_00: He put it on his mom.
39:13
SPEAKER_00: I gotta believe it.
39:14
SPEAKER_00: Are you about to Google it?
39:14
SPEAKER_00: He got worse and worse.
39:16
SPEAKER_00: I think it's on Google.
39:17
SPEAKER_00: It's not on Google.
39:18
SPEAKER_00: It's not on Google.
39:19
SPEAKER_00: Oh my God.
39:21
SPEAKER_00: Oh my God, bro.
39:22
SPEAKER_00: My head hurt.
39:24
SPEAKER_00: My head hurt laughing like that, bro.
39:25
SPEAKER_00: Stop, bro.
39:26
SPEAKER_00: Wow.
39:28
SPEAKER_00: But man, like, do you do you have you ever had like moments, bro, where you just like, you know, with that, with pornography, man, like you just lost your self-identity?
39:36
SPEAKER_00: Man, yeah, bro.
39:38
SPEAKER_00: It had you feeling like you ain't you purposeless.
39:40
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
39:41
SPEAKER_00: It started it started.
39:43
SPEAKER_00: It started to strip you of everything God called you to be.
39:47
SPEAKER_00: Because it's almost like you, it's almost like you giving up, it's almost like you giving up your life to that.
39:52
SPEAKER_00: It's like you're giving up your soul.
39:53
SPEAKER_00: It's like yo, you start to you just start to lose yourself in every way.
39:56
SPEAKER_00: Then you wake up.
39:57
SPEAKER_00: You know, you're not motivated no more to do nothing.
39:58
SPEAKER_00: All you want to do is that.
40:00
SPEAKER_00: Because you feel, bro, I don't have to be a good thing.
40:02
SPEAKER_00: I don't have times, bro, where I wake up like the next morning and I can my countenance is low.
40:06
SPEAKER_00: I feel down.
40:07
SPEAKER_00: You feel down?
40:07
SPEAKER_00: I feel destroyed.
40:09
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and I can't even like.
40:10
SPEAKER_00: But that's that the enemy plays so many tricks and games, bro, on our mental.
40:15
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, he does.
40:16
SPEAKER_00: Our mental is the most and heart number the most powerful things, bro.
40:19
SPEAKER_00: That's why he plays, that's why he played mind games.
40:22
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
40:22
SPEAKER_00: That's why he did with Adam and Eve in the in the in the garden.
40:25
SPEAKER_00: Play mind game.
40:26
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
40:26
SPEAKER_00: It was a mind game.
40:27
SPEAKER_00: It was a mind game.
40:28
SPEAKER_00: He did he really say you couldn't eat from there eat.
40:31
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
40:31
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
40:32
SPEAKER_00: He already knew, he knew.
40:33
SPEAKER_00: Satan knew what was up.
40:34
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
40:35
SPEAKER_00: But he tricked, he gonna mentally trick you.
40:37
SPEAKER_00: Because if he can get in your mind, he can make you, he can, he can you become a puppet.
40:41
SPEAKER_00: He can pull the strings down.
40:44
SPEAKER_00: It had their feelings now.
40:46
SPEAKER_00: And that's how crap he is.
40:47
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
40:47
SPEAKER_00: Because he, but the enemy's supposed to eve.
40:49
SPEAKER_00: He didn't he didn't speak to the one that God gave the instruction to.
40:52
SPEAKER_00: Because he knew that he would do better.
40:53
SPEAKER_00: Adam would probably just shut it down immediately.
40:55
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, he would have shut it down immediately.
40:56
SPEAKER_00: I know what God said.
40:58
SPEAKER_00: Know what God said.
40:59
SPEAKER_00: And that's how we have to be.
41:00
SPEAKER_00: Thank you, Holy Spirit.
41:01
SPEAKER_00: That's how we have to be in our lives about who God says we are.
41:05
SPEAKER_00: Or what God told us to do to live living righteously.
41:07
SPEAKER_00: I know what God said.
41:08
SPEAKER_00: I know what God said.
41:09
SPEAKER_00: I know who God called me to be.
41:10
SPEAKER_00: So when that sexual purpose is.
41:11
SPEAKER_00: When that sexual immorality comes by your door, I know you can recognize it.
41:15
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah.
41:16
SPEAKER_00: I know exactly who this demon is.
41:18
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
41:18
SPEAKER_00: But go on here.
41:20
SPEAKER_00: The Bible tells us to cast down thoughts.
41:22
SPEAKER_00: Not only cast down, it's supposed to take captive of our thoughts.
41:24
SPEAKER_00: What happens when you take something captive?
41:26
SPEAKER_00: You hold that thought hostage and you have to ask yourself, where did you come from?
41:29
SPEAKER_00: Who sent you?
41:30
SPEAKER_00: What you doing here?
41:31
SPEAKER_00: You got authority over your thoughts.
41:32
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
41:34
SPEAKER_00: Get authority back over your mental.
41:35
SPEAKER_00: Come on now.
41:36
SPEAKER_00: Gotta get authority back over your mental.
41:38
SPEAKER_00: And it's a and that's a daily, that's a daily battle.
41:41
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
41:42
SPEAKER_00: Daily war.
41:43
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
41:43
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
41:44
SPEAKER_00: Every day, bro.
41:44
SPEAKER_00: We wake up, it's like my mind always thinks of something crazy.
41:47
SPEAKER_00: And I gotta, like you say, my mind's telling me no.
41:50
SPEAKER_00: You gotta cast down.
41:51
SPEAKER_00: You gotta tell me captured.
41:54
SPEAKER_00: Nah, I was playing, man.
41:55
SPEAKER_00: But uh my body telling me yeah.
41:57
SPEAKER_00: They used to always be me, man.
41:59
SPEAKER_00: And it's just like, man, I had to I had to learn, man, to uh to uh take captive of those thoughts daily, man.
42:05
SPEAKER_00: Bro, I was need, bro, I'm bro, I was deep in it, bro.
42:08
SPEAKER_00: Like bad, bro.
42:08
SPEAKER_00: Bro, every day.
42:09
SPEAKER_00: Nah, I didn't I didn't have no subscription because I wasn't paying no money for that.
42:14
SPEAKER_00: Did you pay a subscription?
42:15
SPEAKER_00: No.
42:16
SPEAKER_00: Hey, bro, you're on a different level.
42:17
SPEAKER_00: You on a different level.
42:18
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
42:19
SPEAKER_00: Bro, I remember a whole another level.
42:22
SPEAKER_00: Y'all remember Skype?
42:23
SPEAKER_00: Y'all remember Skype?
42:24
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
42:25
SPEAKER_00: The little video chat app, Skype.
42:26
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
42:27
SPEAKER_00: I remember I remember trying to look at girls on there.
42:32
SPEAKER_00: Skype, bro.
42:32
SPEAKER_00: I done got on Skype.
42:34
SPEAKER_00: Like, you know, they be having like that.
42:35
SPEAKER_00: Skype used to have like these like foreign women.
42:38
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
42:38
SPEAKER_00: Or just foreign people in general.
42:40
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
42:40
SPEAKER_00: It was like a it was like a video chat uh app where you just create an account and you just have your screen on it.
42:45
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
42:46
SPEAKER_00: It got to the point where I'm trying to get women to show me stuff that I don't even know.
42:52
SPEAKER_01: Bro.
42:52
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
42:53
SPEAKER_00: Like it got it got like that, it got that bad.
42:55
SPEAKER_00: It got bad, bro.
42:56
SPEAKER_00: Like I like, bro, I'm I'm I'ma say this on the podcast, bro.
43:00
SPEAKER_00: And y'all gonna laugh.
43:01
SPEAKER_00: I know y'all gonna laugh.
43:02
SPEAKER_00: It got soup, it got bad, bro.
43:04
SPEAKER_00: It got so bad to the point, bro.
43:06
SPEAKER_00: I did that junk in a car ride home.
43:11
SPEAKER_00: Bad, bro.
43:13
SPEAKER_00: Bad, bro.
43:14
SPEAKER_00: I'm talking about riding.
43:16
SPEAKER_00: Broad daylight.
43:22
SPEAKER_00: You said it was daylight.
43:24
SPEAKER_00: Broad daylight, bro.
43:26
SPEAKER_00: Sun out.
43:27
SPEAKER_00: Sun out, bro.
43:28
SPEAKER_00: That's bad, bro.
43:30
SPEAKER_00: One hand on the steering wheel, one hand on my phone, bro.
43:34
SPEAKER_00: Put the phone down.
43:36
SPEAKER_00: But that's how bad it had.
43:37
SPEAKER_00: Bro, that's how bad it had, bro.
43:38
SPEAKER_00: I'm talking about.
43:39
SPEAKER_00: So when I'm speaking on this topic, boy, I'm telling you.
43:42
SPEAKER_00: I can tell.
43:43
SPEAKER_00: But I done got I got to a point.
43:45
SPEAKER_00: I got to a point and like, cause I know somebody probably were, y'all talking about talking about it so much.
43:50
SPEAKER_00: What about how you how you get out of it?
43:53
SPEAKER_00: Wait, wait, wait.
43:54
SPEAKER_00: Go ahead.
43:55
SPEAKER_00: I know you finna get serious, man.
43:56
SPEAKER_00: I What you finna say, man?
44:00
SPEAKER_00: Do not laugh, bro.
44:00
SPEAKER_00: I need y'all to lock in.
44:02
SPEAKER_00: Y'all, first of all, let's let's go.
44:03
SPEAKER_00: We don't hey this is not script.
44:05
SPEAKER_00: This is not script.
44:06
SPEAKER_00: Whatever Wade's about to say, we don't know.
44:07
SPEAKER_00: We don't know.
44:08
SPEAKER_00: This is Wade.
44:09
SPEAKER_00: This is Wade.
44:10
SPEAKER_00: This is Wade being Wade.
44:11
SPEAKER_00: Like he was the first time.
44:13
SPEAKER_00: I had a homeboy from back in the day, bro.
44:15
SPEAKER_00: Like he had got everything taken from him.
44:18
SPEAKER_00: He got like so frustrated and so mad.
44:22
SPEAKER_00: Bro, he used his grandma.
44:24
SPEAKER_00: Bro, use his grandma what?
44:27
SPEAKER_00: Bro, he used his grandma what?
44:29
SPEAKER_00: You can't even get it out.
44:30
SPEAKER_00: He used his grandma what?
44:32
SPEAKER_00: He went off on his grandma.
44:35
SPEAKER_00: What you mean he went off on his grandma?
44:40
SPEAKER_00: Lock him up.
44:42
SPEAKER_00: Lock him up.
44:44
SPEAKER_00: Hey.
44:45
SPEAKER_00: Put him in the bar.
44:46
SPEAKER_00: Put him behind bars.
44:47
SPEAKER_00: Whatever he's right now, put him behind bars.
44:50
SPEAKER_00: He deserved 25.
44:52
SPEAKER_00: True story, bro.
44:53
SPEAKER_00: True story.
44:53
SPEAKER_00: But this is wild.
44:55
SPEAKER_00: He said she took everything from him.
44:57
SPEAKER_00: But that's crazy.
44:58
SPEAKER_00: But that shows you how to do how demonic.
45:05
SPEAKER_00: Demon Demon.
45:08
SPEAKER_00: And the pornography demons is demon.
45:13
SPEAKER_00: And them Pokemon.
45:14
SPEAKER_00: And demonic.
45:18
SPEAKER_00: And it's a demon demon.
45:20
SPEAKER_00: There's a demon demon.
45:22
SPEAKER_00: And it's a big demon.
45:23
SPEAKER_00: And that demon that was inside of him, bro.
45:26
SPEAKER_00: Came from another planet.
45:28
SPEAKER_00: Another planet.
45:29
SPEAKER_00: Universe.
45:31
SPEAKER_00: Bro, that is that is insane.
45:35
SPEAKER_00: Oh, my grandma would have killed me.
45:37
SPEAKER_00: Oh your grandma.
45:38
SPEAKER_00: I'd have been dead.
45:40
SPEAKER_00: I'm letting you know by now.
45:41
SPEAKER_00: Lona Man.
45:42
SPEAKER_00: Was he sleeping?
45:43
SPEAKER_00: My bed in.
45:44
SPEAKER_00: She had to be sleeping.
45:46
SPEAKER_00: He didn't get up.
45:48
SPEAKER_00: Like he thought about his grandma.
45:51
SPEAKER_00: Oh.
45:52
SPEAKER_00: That's even worse.
45:53
SPEAKER_00: Oh, I thought he talked about he put it on her or something.
45:56
SPEAKER_00: But it's worse, though.
45:58
SPEAKER_00: Off on your grandma?
45:59
SPEAKER_00: But that's crazy.
46:02
SPEAKER_00: God almighty, bro.
46:04
SPEAKER_00: Wow.
46:05
SPEAKER_00: But it shows you how deep this thing goes.
46:08
SPEAKER_00: How deep this thing goes.
46:09
SPEAKER_00: And that's the thing.
46:10
SPEAKER_00: You be thinking it's just surface level.
46:13
SPEAKER_00: You know how people get involved in drugs.
46:15
SPEAKER_00: And they be like, and they be like, man, I'm about to just hit this look.
46:18
SPEAKER_00: Next thing you know, they are full-blown meth head.
46:21
SPEAKER_00: But this how deep this thing goes of child trafficking gets gets exploited.
46:26
SPEAKER_00: And that's how, and next thing you know, you so knee deep in this thing, bro.
46:30
SPEAKER_00: You bro, you you looking at, you looking at, you googling stuff about porn that you, if that if somebody was to see your phone, boy, you need to be locked up.
46:39
SPEAKER_00: You need to be locked up.
46:40
SPEAKER_00: Because you ain't even looking at women no more.
46:42
SPEAKER_00: You looking at dogs and everything.
46:44
SPEAKER_00: Cats.
46:46
SPEAKER_00: Dudes.
46:46
SPEAKER_00: For real.
46:49
SPEAKER_00: Like you probably trying to find underage kids.
46:52
SPEAKER_00: Listen to this, bro.
46:52
SPEAKER_00: It says that porn use can escalate over time.
46:56
SPEAKER_00: Individuals seeking treatment frequently report escalation toward more extreme material.
47:02
SPEAKER_00: Some consumers say that they started to consume porn that they previously found disgusting.
47:07
SPEAKER_00: So even the things that they found disgusting, I usually didn't watch this kind of stuff before, but now I'm interested.
47:13
SPEAKER_00: Because it because it's a desire that continues to grow.
47:17
SPEAKER_00: Continues to grow in you.
47:18
SPEAKER_00: So you ain't gonna just look at you.
47:19
SPEAKER_00: You ain't gonna just look at what you kind of like.
47:21
SPEAKER_00: Oh, you like you like light-skinned women with big blades.
47:25
SPEAKER_00: That's gonna grow into something.
47:26
SPEAKER_00: It's gonna grow into something.
47:28
SPEAKER_00: I'm only gonna look at this little bit.
47:29
SPEAKER_00: I'm only gonna look at this little bit.
47:30
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, for now, until you six months down the line.
47:33
SPEAKER_00: Now you looking at this.
47:34
SPEAKER_00: Now you a whole year and a half in.
47:35
SPEAKER_00: Now you looking at this.
47:37
SPEAKER_00: Bro, I was bro.
47:38
SPEAKER_00: I had a whole setup at my mom and daddy's house.
47:41
SPEAKER_00: When I used to live with my mom and daddy, I had I had I was a mastermind behind this thing, bro.
47:46
SPEAKER_00: I had a towel in the closet, sitting on the floor, laid out.
47:51
SPEAKER_00: Bro, this bro, I'm telling you, bro, I was I was I was strategic about this thing.
47:55
SPEAKER_00: Wow.
47:56
SPEAKER_00: I never had an experience where my mom and daddy actually caught me.
47:59
SPEAKER_00: Wow.
47:59
SPEAKER_00: But I used to do it in the house all the time.
48:01
SPEAKER_00: You got caught with my sister.
48:02
SPEAKER_00: I ain't never got caught by nobody.
48:04
SPEAKER_00: I've never got caught.
48:06
SPEAKER_00: Your sister called you?
48:07
SPEAKER_00: She did.
48:08
SPEAKER_00: That boy got caught.
48:09
SPEAKER_00: Draws on the ankles.
48:10
SPEAKER_00: And she told my mama.
48:12
SPEAKER_00: And she told on you.
48:13
SPEAKER_00: You got a whoopee.
48:14
SPEAKER_00: You got a whooping?
48:14
SPEAKER_00: No, my mama just taught me about it.
48:16
SPEAKER_00: But I'm telling you, bro.
48:17
SPEAKER_00: But that's how that's how but that's how bad I wanted to do it, bro.
48:20
SPEAKER_00: I wanted to do it so bad to where I was like, okay, I gotta think of a plan B.
48:25
SPEAKER_00: If I get caught, I can I can disguise this.
48:28
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
48:29
SPEAKER_00: Like that's how bad it's.
48:30
SPEAKER_00: But it's teaching you other tactics.
48:31
SPEAKER_00: It's teaching you to be sneaky.
48:33
SPEAKER_00: It's a you to be mistaken.
48:35
SPEAKER_00: Trace of the enemy.
48:36
SPEAKER_00: I'm telling you.
48:37
SPEAKER_00: You you developed that.
48:38
SPEAKER_00: Developing, you developing the very thing that you're not supposed to become.
48:43
SPEAKER_00: And it's and it's robbing you.
48:44
SPEAKER_00: And it's it's a slow rob.
48:46
SPEAKER_00: It ain't just a quick grab, it's a day-to-day thing, bro.
48:49
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
48:50
SPEAKER_00: So hey, man.
48:53
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
48:54
SPEAKER_00: That's why it's that's why it's important for everybody watching this.
48:57
SPEAKER_00: Um, I don't know, you know, what your what what your you know spiritual background is, man, but to develop that relationship with God, man, you know, you because we have to we have to be in a place, man, where we're seeking him daily for understanding, seeking him daily.
49:10
SPEAKER_00: Because it ain't gonna, it don't, it don't, you don't fix it overnight.
49:13
SPEAKER_00: And find somebody to talk to.
49:14
SPEAKER_00: But it's through friends.
49:15
SPEAKER_00: You got you got us.
49:16
SPEAKER_00: If you need somebody to talk to about this, open up to somebody about it, bro.
49:19
SPEAKER_00: Because it's one of them topics where people try to hide and try to act like they don't really deal with.
49:24
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
49:24
SPEAKER_00: But I'm telling you, like, that's gonna make it worse.
49:27
SPEAKER_00: Trying to bottle it and try to act like you can trying to act like you can do it on your own, you can't, bro.
49:32
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you need you're gonna have to open up to somebody.
49:34
SPEAKER_00: You're gonna have to say something to someone.
49:35
SPEAKER_00: And you gotta know yourself.
49:36
SPEAKER_00: You gotta know what triggers you.
49:39
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
49:39
SPEAKER_00: You gotta know your triggers.
49:40
SPEAKER_00: You gotta know, oh, I can't, I can't look at this.
49:43
SPEAKER_00: I can't watch this certain show.
49:45
SPEAKER_00: I can't be around this certain people.
49:46
SPEAKER_00: I can't listen to the type of music.
49:47
SPEAKER_00: I can listen to this type of music.
49:48
SPEAKER_00: I can't even have these certain conversations with people because you know what triggers you.
49:52
SPEAKER_00: Because I'm pretty sure, Corey, in your life, in my life, there have been certain words I heard in music, or I've been certain things that people may say who I'm who I'm having conversations with.
50:00
SPEAKER_00: I get home and you know, in the middle of the night, I'm thinking about these things, and it caused me to start scrolling, starting.
50:05
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it wasn't nothing to trigger me back in the day.
50:07
SPEAKER_00: I'm I'm triggered as soon as I wake up.
50:09
SPEAKER_00: I'm triggered.
50:10
SPEAKER_00: I'm ready to do something.
50:12
SPEAKER_00: So, but nah, that junk real, bro.
50:14
SPEAKER_00: It's real, it's a it's a real thing out here, man.
50:17
SPEAKER_00: And my prayer is to, is to, is to, it's for all the people that's out there that's like stuck in it.
50:22
SPEAKER_00: And I and like I was gonna say, I was like I was getting to about the whole, how do you, how do you overcome it?
50:28
SPEAKER_00: How do you get to a place to where you can be on the other side of the fence and say, I no longer struggle with porn.
50:34
SPEAKER_00: Because I'm there now.
50:35
SPEAKER_00: I'm in a place to where I can say, Thank God for for all your grace and mercy.
50:43
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
50:43
SPEAKER_00: Thank God for all the times you allowed me to go through what I was going through, but get to the other side.
50:49
SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna be honest with y'all, it's not really no clear two plus two equal four answer to how to overcome it.
50:56
SPEAKER_00: Like we talked about earlier, it's just a self-control thing, it's just a self-disciplined thing.
51:01
SPEAKER_00: One thing I would tell myself is I would be like, because I got a competitive spirit already.
51:06
SPEAKER_00: I'm already competitive, I'm a competitive person.
51:08
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
51:08
SPEAKER_00: So I kind of looked at it from a competitive nature.
51:10
SPEAKER_00: I say, okay, so you telling me this stronger than you?
51:14
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
51:14
SPEAKER_00: That's what I started to tell myself.
51:16
SPEAKER_00: So you telling me that this porn is bigger than you.
51:20
SPEAKER_00: It's bigger than your guy that you say you worship.
51:23
SPEAKER_00: So that's basically what you're saying.
51:25
SPEAKER_00: Because you say God can do all things.
51:27
SPEAKER_00: So if that's true, then go ahead and start activating that and prove to not only him, but to yourself that you can overcome this.
51:35
SPEAKER_00: And then one day, and then one day at a time, I just started to lose the desire to do it.
51:40
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
51:41
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
51:42
SPEAKER_00: I remember I went a long time.
51:43
SPEAKER_00: I think I went like a year, I know for sure.
51:44
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
51:45
SPEAKER_00: I think I had one like a whole year, or maybe even two without doing it.
51:48
SPEAKER_00: And then I slipped back.
51:49
SPEAKER_00: Bro, and then when I slip back, I slip back.
51:52
SPEAKER_00: What Matthew 16, 24 say?
51:54
SPEAKER_00: Matthew 16, 24.
51:56
SPEAKER_00: If then Jesus said to his disciples, If you want to be my followers, you must deny yourself daily.
52:02
SPEAKER_00: Pick up your cross and follow.
52:04
SPEAKER_00: Follow me.
52:05
SPEAKER_00: Then it says, for anyone who finds their life will lose it, but anyone who loses their life for my name's sake will find it.
52:11
SPEAKER_00: Then it says, What what good does it profit a man to gain the whole world but lose his soul?
52:16
SPEAKER_00: Lose his soul, bro.
52:16
SPEAKER_00: And shout out to Sammy, man.
52:18
SPEAKER_00: Sammy had a sermon about this.
52:20
SPEAKER_00: He said, Would you rather be uh a sheep or or I believe he said uh uh uh sheep or a what's the other people that a wolf he said because uh no he didn't say wolf, he said some other animal that's like a sheep.
52:35
SPEAKER_00: He said because sheep listen to you know their their master.
52:39
SPEAKER_00: The shepherd.
52:39
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, they do because if they if the sheep hear something somebody that's not that they don't recognize their voice, yeah, they're not gonna listen.
52:46
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
52:47
SPEAKER_00: And it was another one they said, would you rather be something else?
52:50
SPEAKER_00: Uh another animal like a sheep um that's something similar, but his sheep know his sheep know uh his voice.
52:56
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, that's script.
52:57
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, yeah.
52:59
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, bro.
53:00
SPEAKER_00: So I would say, man, you know, deny yourself daily, picking up your cross and following him.
53:05
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
53:06
SPEAKER_00: That gives you a peace.
53:08
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
53:08
SPEAKER_00: That peace about it.
53:09
SPEAKER_00: That that but that doesn't mean that it says deny yourself daily.
53:12
SPEAKER_00: That means it's gonna be a day it's gonna be a daily thing.
53:14
SPEAKER_00: And people think, you know, I don't care how easy I don't care what anybody says, you know, you can you can tell a person all day, just stop.
53:21
SPEAKER_00: But that it comes with a daily strive.
53:24
SPEAKER_00: It comes with a diligent diligently seeking God.
53:27
SPEAKER_00: It comes with a a passionate desire to say, okay, every day I'm gonna try again.
53:32
SPEAKER_00: If I fail, I'm gonna try again, I'm gonna try again.
53:34
SPEAKER_00: But you gotta put on your armor daily and protect yourself.
53:38
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
53:38
SPEAKER_00: Say we always talk about I can do all things through Christ um uh who gives me strength.
53:42
SPEAKER_00: But then the Bible also says, according to the power that worketh within us.
53:46
SPEAKER_00: So that means we gotta do something on our mic on our power within you.
53:49
SPEAKER_00: We gotta activate that power within us to continuously um seek God, continuously try again, continuously wake up a day and make a conscious decision that hey, I might I might fail in this moment.
54:00
SPEAKER_00: You know, I'm gonna I'm gonna stay with God, I'm gonna go with God.
54:02
SPEAKER_00: And I believe, you know, we can't take his grace for granted, but I believe with every try that we go go through, God gives us more grace each time.
54:10
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
54:12
SPEAKER_00: Facts.
54:12
SPEAKER_00: See, he said forgives us 70 times 70 for the same sin one day.
54:15
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
54:15
SPEAKER_00: All those things, all the grace we're sin about, grace about much more.
54:18
SPEAKER_00: You know, we have all those all those different scriptures, and we can't take for granted the grace of God, but he gives us grace as we diligently try in our heart.
54:26
SPEAKER_00: And that's that's that's the difference, is you can't, you gotta, you gotta continuously try in your heart.
54:32
SPEAKER_00: I feel I feel like it's it's a it's a heart posture that we need to um to get free.
54:36
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm trying to say?
54:38
SPEAKER_00: For real.
54:38
SPEAKER_00: So we'll we'll we'll end it off with this, man.
54:40
SPEAKER_00: If I knew then what I know now, if I knew then what I know now when it comes to porn, would you have ever opened up that door?
54:51
SPEAKER_00: If you could go back knowing what we know right now, and you be in that predicament, think about maybe like the first real predicament you was really in to where it was like, oh, this thing getting real.
55:02
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
55:03
SPEAKER_00: Would you have continued to walk through that door?
55:06
SPEAKER_00: Me personally, I wouldn't, I wouldn't change nothing.
55:08
SPEAKER_00: So you still going to the bathroom?
55:10
SPEAKER_00: No, not now.
55:11
SPEAKER_00: I'm saying we're talking about if you can go back to that moment.
55:15
SPEAKER_00: No, so no, so back then, you you have to fail to learn, especially in this type of uh sinful uh area when we talk about you know lust and all this type of stuff.
55:28
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
55:29
SPEAKER_00: I mean, everybody falls short from God, right?
55:33
SPEAKER_00: So you have to understand, like, you're gonna go through this, especially as teenagers.
55:38
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, right?
55:38
SPEAKER_00: Teenagers going through this every day.
55:40
SPEAKER_00: Every day.
55:41
SPEAKER_00: But there's no way to you can't not avoid it because it's something that's a na it's a natural thing.
55:47
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
55:48
SPEAKER_00: So the best thing to do is you know, go through it but understand, you know, who is God, right?
55:53
SPEAKER_00: Because you can't stay in there.
55:55
SPEAKER_00: It's it's a it's a natural thing.
55:57
SPEAKER_00: And that's something that we should we didn't cover because it's definitely a natural thing.
56:00
SPEAKER_00: What do you mean by a natural thing?
56:02
SPEAKER_00: Because we everybody just less like just them emotions.
56:07
SPEAKER_00: It's a natural thing.
56:08
SPEAKER_00: It's a natural thing.
56:10
SPEAKER_00: You can't tell me not when y'all found when y'all discovered yourself, yeah.
56:17
SPEAKER_00: You didn't sometimes, most of the time, it ain't porn.
56:20
SPEAKER_00: You just curious.
56:21
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah, I see what you're saying.
56:22
SPEAKER_00: I see what you're saying with different spending, because you automatically I mean, erections happen automatically.
56:27
SPEAKER_00: So you white, you like, what is this feeling?
56:28
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I get what you're saying on that end.
56:31
SPEAKER_00: Um my thing I would say, if I knew then what I knew now, bro, is not I because I like like like Wade said, it just came across me.
56:37
SPEAKER_00: I didn't search for it, it just I happened to see it.
56:40
SPEAKER_00: But if I knew then what I knew now, I would have had a conversation about it with somebody.
56:46
SPEAKER_00: I never talked with anybody about it because I was shame.
56:49
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I didn't feel like I didn't feel like it was a shameful thing.
56:52
SPEAKER_00: It makes you feel like you're the only one going through it.
56:54
SPEAKER_00: Right.
56:54
SPEAKER_00: And it you know, you enjoyed it in the moment, you know what I'm saying?
56:57
SPEAKER_00: It would have feels great, but I didn't really know what it was.
57:00
SPEAKER_00: I just saw it, I wanted to act upon it.
57:02
SPEAKER_00: You know, all my friends talked about it in school.
57:04
SPEAKER_00: It was like a cool thing to do, you know what I'm saying?
57:06
SPEAKER_00: You know, all the boys chop it up and laugh about it, da da da.
57:09
SPEAKER_00: But it's like, man, I would have I would have definitely had a conversation so I could understand not just what it does, but how it would affect me in the long run.
57:18
SPEAKER_00: Because I went through a lot of struggles with it in my adult life.
57:21
SPEAKER_00: Right.
57:21
SPEAKER_00: And it and it's not even the sin.
57:24
SPEAKER_00: Um, it's about what the sin made me do.
57:26
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, all the stuff that comes with it.
57:27
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, the distraction that I had, uh how for how how many things I did not get done because I was wasting time on.
57:32
SPEAKER_00: Distracted.
57:32
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, distractions.
57:34
SPEAKER_00: That temporary nut is not worth, it's not worth what comes right after that.
57:38
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
57:39
SPEAKER_00: That that mental turmoil that you go through, it's not worth it.
57:43
SPEAKER_00: Um it ain't even worth it, bro.
57:44
SPEAKER_00: It ain't even it ain't even worth that little pleasure that you finna get.
57:47
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
57:48
SPEAKER_00: And to Johnny's point, make sure you talk to the right person.
57:51
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
57:54
SPEAKER_00: You got old heads out here like, oh, you do your thing.
57:57
SPEAKER_00: Do your thing, man.
57:58
SPEAKER_00: You just a young man, you just doing a man thing.
58:00
SPEAKER_00: At least you ain't, at least you ain't gay.
58:02
SPEAKER_00: They're gonna be trying to say all that type of stuff.
58:04
SPEAKER_00: And that's just another case of the blind leading the blind.
58:07
SPEAKER_00: Blind leading the blind, bro.
58:08
SPEAKER_00: Nah, bro.
58:09
SPEAKER_00: Do what do what you do.
58:12
SPEAKER_00: Follow God, follow, follow God, bro.
58:14
SPEAKER_00: Follow his ways, follow his teachings, and align yourself with people who are striving to do just that, man.
58:20
SPEAKER_00: I think we need to, I think we need to uh end this thing off with a with a prayer, man.
58:23
SPEAKER_00: I think we should end it off with a prayer.
58:27
SPEAKER_00: I think we should end this thing off with a prayer to all the people that's in the in the industry, all the people that's currently going through, going through it, trying to come out of it, and all the people that's gonna get tempted by it.
58:42
SPEAKER_00: Because I saw something I saw something on social media that was powerful too.
58:45
SPEAKER_00: It said, and I'll and I end with this.
58:48
SPEAKER_00: But it basically, I only remember who it was.
58:50
SPEAKER_00: But they basically said, while you sitting there clicking and trying to watch these different sites, that's somebody's daughter.
58:59
SPEAKER_00: Uh that they on their hands and knees praying, God get them out of that situation.
59:03
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
59:04
SPEAKER_00: But you boosting their views.
59:06
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
59:06
SPEAKER_00: You getting, you getting you getting likes and traction and comments to what they doing, making them feel like they doing something right.
59:13
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
59:13
SPEAKER_00: Making them feel like this is confirmation for my life.
59:15
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
59:16
SPEAKER_00: Whole time, they mama and daddy crying.
59:18
SPEAKER_00: Lord, please bring my daughter back.
59:20
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
59:20
SPEAKER_00: You know what I'm saying?
59:21
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
59:21
SPEAKER_00: So just think about that for real.
59:23
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
59:24
SPEAKER_00: Would you want your daughter doing it?
59:26
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
59:26
SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna leave you with some real questions.
59:27
SPEAKER_00: Would you want your child in?
59:29
SPEAKER_00: Would you want your child on one of them videos when they 18 years old?
59:36
SPEAKER_00: Let me ask y'all a question.
59:39
SPEAKER_00: Say if they they pray for their daughter, they on their knees praying hard, praying, Lord, say my child.
59:45
SPEAKER_00: Deliver her.
59:46
SPEAKER_00: But she ain't even, she ain't listening.
59:49
SPEAKER_00: So the the scripture, faith without works is dead.
59:52
SPEAKER_00: I mean, what so much of a person can keep praying?
59:57
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
59:57
SPEAKER_00: That's all you that's all you can do.
59:59
SPEAKER_00: I mean, you can't, you know, when somebody becomes an adult, they're gonna make their own decisions.
1:00:05
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
1:00:06
SPEAKER_00: So you can't force them to do what you feel like they should be doing.
1:00:10
SPEAKER_00: All you can do is pray and then give it to God.
1:00:12
SPEAKER_00: All you can do is impart the seeds.
1:00:14
SPEAKER_00: That's it.
1:00:15
SPEAKER_00: You know, you you you you you impart seeds in them, you know, you know, training up a child in the way it should go.
1:00:20
SPEAKER_00: You hear that, you hear that all the time.
1:00:22
SPEAKER_00: They get old, they want to depart from it.
1:00:24
SPEAKER_00: And it's not not necessarily saying the child won't go through, the child won't stray, the child won't do anything.
1:00:28
SPEAKER_00: But we have to trust as parents that we sold seeds on good ground.
1:00:32
SPEAKER_00: And if if we trust in God enough, the same God that brought us through will be the same God that will bring them, bring them through.
1:00:39
SPEAKER_00: He'll bring them back to their remembrance.
1:00:40
SPEAKER_00: You remind them of who they are, you remind them of everything you you steal into it.
1:00:44
SPEAKER_00: Because they're gonna come on this with sin, bro, there comes a moment that you hit rock bottom.
1:00:49
SPEAKER_00: And Reggie Rock was talking about shout out to Reggie Rock, if y'all don't know who he is.
1:00:53
SPEAKER_00: Rapper, man.
1:00:54
SPEAKER_00: Shout out to Reggie Rock, man.
1:00:56
SPEAKER_00: He's talking about, you know, parts of our life, man.
1:00:58
SPEAKER_00: You know, he at his lowest moment, man, is that where he found God, bro?
1:01:02
SPEAKER_00: And I believe that sometimes the things that we do, they knock us down to our lowest moment.
1:01:06
SPEAKER_00: We may be on a high horse for just a we maybe it looked it looked good for a moment.
1:01:09
SPEAKER_00: It looked temporarily good, but I promise you, it leads to a lower moment, bro.
1:01:14
SPEAKER_00: And I think in those lower moments, bro, is when we realized, oh man, I did have a praying mama.
1:01:19
SPEAKER_00: I did have a praying grandma.
1:01:20
SPEAKER_00: My mama did still be able to do that.
1:01:21
SPEAKER_00: You gotta come back to your remembrance.
1:01:22
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, come out of your remembrance.
1:01:24
SPEAKER_00: Um, I remember, you know, I remember who I am.
1:01:26
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
1:01:26
SPEAKER_00: And you're gonna and you gotta go with that, man.
1:01:28
SPEAKER_00: So those are the seeds that we gotta plant, man.
1:01:30
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, no matter how our kids receive it, no matter how many people in this life, no matter how many people watching this podcast receive what we say, because there are gonna be people who make who don't want to receive what we say.
1:01:39
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
1:01:39
SPEAKER_00: Pretty sure we're gonna get bad lag, pretty sure we're gonna get backlash.
1:01:42
SPEAKER_00: Yeah, but we have to trust enough that the seeds that we store are on good ground.
1:01:45
SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
1:01:46
SPEAKER_00: And we can't we can't be responsible for what they do with it, but we know we planted it.
1:01:50
SPEAKER_00: Right.
1:01:50
SPEAKER_00: And and then that's what God, that's what God is well for.
1:01:53
SPEAKER_00: Let God water it.
1:01:54
SPEAKER_00: We plant it and let God water it.
1:01:56
SPEAKER_00: Yes.
1:01:57
unknown: Yeah.
1:01:57
SPEAKER_00: He the ultimate guard.
1:01:59
SPEAKER_00: Water only matters to those who got seed in the ground.
1:02:03
SPEAKER_00: Lay that solid foundation and then take your hands off of it.
1:02:06
SPEAKER_00: Let God got it.
1:02:08
SPEAKER_00: Yep.
1:02:08
SPEAKER_00: So man, build your house is on a solid rock, man.
1:02:13
SPEAKER_00: So yeah, man.
1:02:14
SPEAKER_00: So hey man.
1:02:15
SPEAKER_00: With a good show, man.
1:02:16
SPEAKER_00: Say a quick little prayer.
1:02:16
SPEAKER_00: We'll say a little quick little prayer.
1:02:18
SPEAKER_00: Father God, thank you guys right now for waking us up.
1:02:20
SPEAKER_00: Man, I want to see another beautiful day.
1:02:22
SPEAKER_00: This was a great episode.
1:02:23
SPEAKER_00: I'm glad me and my brothers was able to come together and talk about a real topic, a real life topic that uh a lot of us go through.
1:02:30
SPEAKER_00: But, you know, we might not necessarily talk about God.
1:02:33
SPEAKER_00: So my prayer is for, you know, that little boy that was just like me, that was in that situation that felt like that this was life.
1:02:41
SPEAKER_00: That, you know, this is just what I do, or I just feel stuck, or I just feel depressed, or I just feel like, you know, this is the least I can do, or this it's not that bad.
1:02:49
SPEAKER_00: And all these just these run around roller coaster thoughts that, you know, they might be having, God, I pray that you speak to their heart, speak to their mind, Lord, and and just let them know that it's not okay to do what they're doing, but at the end of the day, it's not the end of the world.
1:03:06
SPEAKER_00: So don't don't don't beat yourself up to the point where you just can't get out of that funk.
1:03:11
SPEAKER_00: But just because God gives us that grace and mercy, don't take advantage of it.
1:03:16
SPEAKER_00: Don't just act like, oh, well, God gonna forgive me.
1:03:19
SPEAKER_00: You know, just let them know, yeah, you're gonna forgive them, but you also want them to start to make to make strides to be better and do better, Lord.
1:03:25
SPEAKER_00: So my heart goes out to that child.
1:03:27
SPEAKER_00: It was just like me growing up and getting exposed to stuff too early, God.
1:03:30
SPEAKER_00: I pray that you, I pray that you that you clean their heart, you clean their mind, Lord, and you get them, you get them a reset.
1:03:36
SPEAKER_00: Just the same way our phones update, Lord, you update their spirit, you update their heart, you update their flesh, you update their mind, so that they're able to also reach other people that's coming behind them and able to have these same conversations that we having today.
1:03:49
SPEAKER_00: Because that's what life is about.
1:03:50
SPEAKER_00: It's a circle of life.
1:03:51
SPEAKER_00: Ain't nothing new under Sun.
1:03:53
SPEAKER_00: What we're going through right now, 2026, they was going through the same type of similar stuff even back in the Bible days.
1:03:58
SPEAKER_00: So we know that you're with us, God.
1:04:00
SPEAKER_00: We know that you love us, Lord.
1:04:01
SPEAKER_00: And my heart goes out to anybody that's in that industry, Lord, and to that praying mama, that praying daddy that's continuously asking you to bring their daughter back home, Lord.
1:04:10
SPEAKER_00: We believe in that that that the porn industry is gonna have an all-time low with numbers all-time low, with their funds all-time low in 2026 like they never had before.
1:04:20
SPEAKER_00: And we're gonna continue just to grow and continue just to beat the eyes and defy the eyes and be everything you call for us to be, Lord, and and fight that temptation and get that lust up off us, guys.
1:04:31
SPEAKER_00: So we love you and we thank you.
1:04:32
SPEAKER_00: Jesus' name I pray.
1:04:33
SPEAKER_00: Amen.
1:04:34
SPEAKER_00: Amen.
1:04:34
SPEAKER_00: That's a wrap.
1:04:37
SPEAKER_00: Episode four.
1:04:40
SPEAKER_00: If I knew then, what I know now.
1:04:42
SPEAKER_00: The podcast.