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Look Again (feat. Racquel Wyatt) · Jess Ask

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Hey, it's your girl, Jess. You've just entered a safe space for
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and questions so we can keep the conversation going. Now, let's get into
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this week's episode. Yo, yo, Yo, it's your girl, Jess
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and I'm super excited about this week's episode. Y'all. If you're on YouTube,
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you see my girls pretty small. Give us some give us some tea,
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rock, give us some Rocky. I'm so excited that you're here.
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Thank you so much. Girl. It was like it was a no brainer,
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especially after we the conversation that we had on your show, Like it
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was it was real, like you brought something out of me that I didn't
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know I was ready to be transparent with and like it was no after that
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show, it was confirmation that I had to have you on this season.
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Y'all. Y'all, her name I called a rock, but her name is
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Rakale Wyatt. That's her government name. That's the government. We gotta we
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gotta let him let the folks know what the government look like. This.
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So I'm gonna let I'm gonna let you tell the people a little bit about
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yourself before we get into the conversations. I'm not sure if they're they're ready
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for what you awesome like. So I'm your little drop drop about yourself.
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India. We're gonna get in two weeks again. So I'm Raquel. Everybody
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calls me Rock. Um I am thirty years yo, thirty years and four
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and a half months and um yeah, I just moved to Tallahassee, Florida,
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So I'm a Floridian now and I am a creative. I am an
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entrepreneur. Um, I am a designer. I am a full time student
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again and also a full time worker again. So how I'm doing all those
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full time don't ask me, is by the grace of the board. Um
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and um. I have no children, but a whole bunch of nieces and
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nephews, So I'm t t rock to everybody. Uh yeah, now don't
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we at y'all. But because for some reason anytime they need some Uh you
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got five dollars. I know you ain't talk to your MoMA first. I
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just know for a fact you bypassed your mamacademy. I know you did.
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Whatever. Uh, that's about it. I come from a musical family.
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I come from a creative family. So everybody's in their own lanes. We
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justs all I got. Man, your mom girl, talk about creative.
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Your mom's voice came from the angels. Like your mom makes me want to
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cry every time, Like anytime you post, I can't be anywhere in public,
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like I have to be in my room or you know, somewhere I'm
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okay with just randomly crying because your mom has a serenity about her, like
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she she's like you you just roll over and talk to Jesus or you just
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roll over and just be like, Hi, Jesus. How blame mama God?
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Like your mama, your mama just it's like, if you don't stop
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and this is the woman God, you're missing all the grease, you're missing
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the evidence that God is really real. Like shout out to miss wife,
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mister White, the prophet, the prophetic voice. Okay, she can sing
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me or lullaby, you know that's what she needs to do. Just just
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ask her for a thirty second week lullaby for me, because sometimes your girl
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can't sleep, and I would be it would soothe my heart, herd,
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herd. I. But yeah, your brother is an artist too, right,
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Yes he is so. Um, let me ask you this. Being
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come from a family that is so creative and had so many gifts, was
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it hard for you to identify yours? Yes? Extremely, let's talk about
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so. For a very long time I was either um pastor Wendy and Passage's
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daughter, Wendy Wyatt's daughter, uh Gerald Watt's twin, or Mike Grizzly's sister,
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And so me having a name for a identity outside of that became of
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a little difficult thing. And for a while I was just lying, don't
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ask me about my family, like, don't ask me about this like And
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it took the Lord to really be like, you know, that is a
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part of who you are, Like that's a part of your making, and
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you know your place in that family strategically, but you also have to own
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your own voice. And until you do, then yeah, they're gonna just
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know you as the sibling of or the relative of. They won't know who
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you are until you start talking and or start moving. And so now the
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dynamic is a little bit different, and people are like, wait, y'all
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related, because they'll know me from over here, now my brother from over
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here. And you know, unless you are in the music community or created
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community, you wouldn't put two and two together. And so things are different
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now. But it took me a very long time to kind of figure out
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where I was a lot of questions I had were kind of like, so,
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where do I fit in this picture? My dad, my dad is
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well, both parents are full time pastors, but my dad is also he
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works in the school system as well, so he has his corporate identity as
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well as in the church. My mom, of course as a vocal artist
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teacher and she's a pastor. My brother is an artist, a producer as
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well as a musician. And for a while I just kind of served in
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the church. I was always a creative but mostly serving in the church and
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like serving my family, helping, like where I could be there. And
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so for a very long time, until I moved, or until I got
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ready to move, it was very much like, well, this will kind
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of just be my life. But I knew it wasn't going to be my
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life and that's not what God had signed me up for. But I had
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not made the decision start walking in faith, and when I did, think
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shifted. I don't to answer your question, no, baby, you answered
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it in full. You hear me. That was so powerful. There's a
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few questions I have from that because the first question is, is you mentioned
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that you are currently in school and this is your first year back in back
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in school or in school, and I'm I know we talked about it lightly,
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and I want to ask about, like does your family dynamic and you
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finding your voice and utilizing the voice that you have. What's that your hesitancy
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about pursuing a higher education or going in your lane or going off because baby,
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you y'all from Georgia, right and you can move up, but four
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five hours away from what you know what you're comfortable with. Can you talk
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about your journey with that and why why now? Why go back to school?
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Now? You know? Uh So when I first graduated from high school,
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um in twenty eleven, I went straight into college and our household a
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higher education was it wasn't up for discussion. That was a part of the
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journey. That's what you did and as the oldest child. We weren't even
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about to have that conversation, Like it didn't matter what was going on.
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I was going to college, so I had um select in my college dad,
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and I failed mins really miserably the first time. I went eighteen years
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old, fresh out my parents' house, my first time at my parents' house.
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And I also had been struggling severely for the for the year and a
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half prior to me moving out with depression, and nobody knew that, and
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so by the time I got to it wasn't until this year my mom even
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knew that, and it's been over a decade. But U so by the
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time I got to school and I was by myself and I was an adult
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and I lived. I went to a school where they didn't have like coed,
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they didn't have a divided dorms or a co ed and they treated you
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like an adult, so like whatever you want to do is whatever you wanted
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to do. So I wasn't going to class like that wasn't a thing,
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or I went to like the first three weeks and after that was like whatever.
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So I bombed that miserably, and it was the first time I ever
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failed at anything in my life. And so by the end of that year
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of my freshman year of college, once I realized how badly I failed,
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I said I'd never do it again because it was such a sore spot for
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me. Number One, I had failed miserably clearly. Everybody had these high
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expectations of me that I could not reach in my mind, and there was
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too much against me for me to do it again. So I was never
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gonna happen for me. Um. But so after that I started working,
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um, serving jobs like in restaurants, corporate America whatever. Fast forward,
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the lords started dealing with me. I want to say twenty twenty probably he
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started dealing with me about college. UM. And it wasn't like every single
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day or every single night, but just like every couple of months, and
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be like, here go a dream of me literally walking on a campus and
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like and knowing that I'm enrolled in school, and I was just like that's
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wild, Like I'll never do it again, Like I feel too badly again.
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Like it was. It became one of the biggest fears for me to
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even even attempt it again because of how badly I feel. And so he
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kept dealing with me about it. Kept dealing with me, and then by
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summer of twenty one, UM, I was at work. I was working
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in a real estate office, and he just like I pressed upon me.
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It was like, have you looked at your transcript um from Kennesaw which is
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the school I went to? And I never thought to go back and look
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at it. So I went and I ordered it um from the transcript third
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party or whatever, and I got it back and when I looked at it,
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I realized, it's a long way to answer this question. So sorry
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story. When I looked at the transcript, it wasn't as bad as I
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thought. I had only God, I had only remembered complete failure. And
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when I looked at it, there were spots of no, you didn't you.
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I mean, you didn't do good at all, but like you did
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pass some courses. You do have credits like those are transferable if you were
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wanting to go again. So I looked at him, and I when I
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saw it on my screen, I had I took an early lunch. I
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looked at it in my office. I took early lunch because I had to
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immediately leave my office. I was about to have a meltdown because it altered
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everything I had ever believed for the last ten years. I was just marked
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with failure, just you'll never do it again. And then all of a
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sudden, wait, you didn't completely you actually wait a minute. So I
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called my mom and I'm like bawling on the phone. She was like,
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what's Wrong's wrong? And I explained the situation. She was like and she
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had to like calm me down, which was like, the Lord is just
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letting you know when you're ready, the door is still open for you.
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It wasn't a closed door, just when you're ready. So I said,
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okay. So like I had to breathe through all of that, breathe through
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all of that. And so after that realization is when he started talking to
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me about it more. Fast forward to April no to March of twenty two,
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and I started having dreams about fam you in Tallahassee. Now, I
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always promised myself if I ever did go back, it was gonna be to
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an HBCU. I wanted to. I wanted to have that experience. And
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also my grandfather went to FAMU for his undergrad So in honor he's passed away
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now, but an honor of him, I was gonna do it as like
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a memorial kind of thing. So that was in March. So by April
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thirteenth I applied, and consequently I did not get in because and I didn't
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find out. From April thirteenth to June twenty six, I'm just out here
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on faith, just believing God, like they gonna let me in. They're
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gonna let me in. They gonna let me. I did all my due
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diligence, They're gonna let me in. I didn't put up all these records,
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sent them everything they need, spend money on transcripts, everything. It
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didn't get in because as a transfer student, my GP was too low.
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And I drove the day I found out they hadn't sent me a letter or
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anything. I drove the Tallahassee from Columbus so three hours and I sat in
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the admission's office and said, I don't have an answer. I need an
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answer today, and they came walked over to me all softly, ma'am.
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So unfortunately, so now I'm in this admin office all embarrassed because out and
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drove my three hours on faith just to find out a big old nose.
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So that when that happened, it was like the Lord had been danglingless in
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front of me and then slam the door shut. You're talking good rock.
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So it was like I literally was not okay for forty eight hours because it
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was just like, why would you even bringing this back up? You know
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how it hurts me to even relive this entire experience and how much faith it
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took from even and start this journey again. And then there's a big no,
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and I can't get back in this door. It's what they're telling me
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right now, that's what I'm hearing. This is an absolute not for me.
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It's not gonna happen. And so I talked with an advisor there and
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they were like, well, there's this other school called TCC. It's talahas
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To Community College and you can go there, work on your GPA, and
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then transfer back in. And when I heard it, not to be funny,
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but when I heard community college, I heard low like low budget school.
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I said, no, we need universities, we do four year colleges.
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Like, no, we don't do community college. And so that's not
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what I signed up for. And I didn't even know what a TCC was,
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and so that was just a hot mess. And the next day we
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went to TCC to look at the campus, and I said, maybe it's
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too late to apply, and we walked up there. I say, is
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it too late? I said, of course not. Man, you can
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apply right now. We can get you right in the door for fall.
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And I was like, okay, whatever this is like June twenty seven,
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and I applied that night. It took me all day, but I applied
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that night and I had an acceptance in thirty minutes, suddenly, suddenly.
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But what happened was after we toured the campus that morning, the day after
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I got denied, we toured the campus the next morning for TCC and I
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got in my car and I sat and I ain't told this story since I've
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been living throughout this UM. I sat in my car in front of TCC's
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admin office and I screamed bald. I was like, Lord, you literally
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put this in front of me and you snatched it away. And I'm three
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hours away from home by myself, off of faith. I don't have no
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money, I don't have no like. I'm out here by myself. You
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left me in the wilderness, and I like, what you want me to
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do with this? They told me, no, I can't go back.
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They told me, no, I have nothing. I am here with literally
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nothing but a word and some I mean must have seen faith at this point
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because I'm not down, completely not down. And so I told him then
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in the prayer like I was just like, you don't have to make this
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make sense today. I don't drove these albums. Today gotta be the day,
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like you're gonna have to show me something and it's going to be like
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tangible proof, like you wasn't crazy. So I got the acceptance that night
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after I applied. So now we're still on track. Okay, we're still
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moving to Tallahassee. Is it's gonna be a different school, And fast forward,
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things start rolling. It's all of a sudden, I'm leaving in a
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month and a half to leave Columbus to go to Tallahassee. But fast forward
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to present day. It is February twenty first, almost eight months later.
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And what I didn't know is that number one TCC was gonna be cheaper,
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and the scholarships and financial aid that I had was gonna cover for everything so
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out of pocket. That's the first thing I didn't know. The second thing
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I didn't realize about community colleges is that they help you get back in the
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groove of school, so that if you've been out for a long time,
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they can get you back in the groove. And like they have teachers that
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actually care about you. That was number two. I certainly did not expect
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to have a four point zero my first semester back in college when I went
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in with a one point seven. Wait wait, wait, wait right you
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helping you helping the feeble right now? Wait, I yowa a bar.
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You came to Tallahassee with a one point seven and you are not even done
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with your second semester, your first year, and you you got a four
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point oh. And let me let me say it, a four point oh,
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Like damn, you spent ten years in mental anguish thinking that you failed
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at something that you were actually good at. Raw, I just don't let
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me, okay, let me just tell you what I just heard. Like
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you just said that for ten years, you were stuck in a place that
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was a lie. Literally you were stuck in a lie, and it took
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ten years for you to go back to even look at that place, y'all.
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I love what I love about healing and deliverance is always scary for the
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for what we got to go back to what we experienced. But the beautiful
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thing about that is we remember what we remember versus the entire thing. That
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we remember what we choose to remember, and that could be a something that
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kept us in bundage. But if we just trust God to go back to
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that place, that's the first step. You gotta trust God to go back
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to that place and look at that thing again, y'all. That's what Rock
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saying. She said she had to have courage enough to just go look at
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it. She had to have courage enough to just go look at the thing
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again. And watch this. When she looked at y'all, she got knowledge.
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Watch this, The word of God says you. We parish for the
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lack of knowledge. She was pariship for teaching because you did not know that
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you were you. You felt at something, you didn't feel at everything.
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You really it wasn't it wasn't your knee. You fighting depression. You depressed,
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But over a lie, y'all, over a lie or a lie,
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a complete lie. She was an anguish and tormenting over So the enemy just
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kept the lot going, fueled the lot until she said, you know what,
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God, I'm gonna trust you over then what I believe. I'm gonna
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trust you over this feeling that I have. I'm gonna trust you over what
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I believe in myself. When God said do it, I'm gonna I'm gonna
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show you something and then I'm gonna put something in you and I'm not gonna
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leave you along until you go to this place. Now, I need you
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to go to Tallahassee. The reason why you watched it, the reason why
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you had to go to Tallahassee because you would have never went to that community
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college. You would have community college at home because that's your comfort zone.
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So God said, trust me and this you had to go. You had
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to go get your denial. You're not yet from fam. You to go
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to the place where you need to be and then get blessed in the place
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that you didn't want to go to, get blessed in the place of process,
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right this, And the crazy part is your testimony ain't even done,
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since that's the wild part. But yeah, yeah, I literally I did
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not know that was gonna happen. And then again present day, February second,
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I started working in the enrollment center at my school. So I spent
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four or five months hold up. Wait, wait, did you say you're
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working enrollment center for the school? What they except students and declined students.
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So my job is to help students apply and get what they need done.
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But i'm we're the first line for student affairs. So my boss told me,
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let me tell you, Let me tell you. Let's tell my boss
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told me. She said, first of all, you blew us away in
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your interview but part of the reason why we hired you is because you are
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already a student. You already know how this process works. So you can
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get on the phone to tell anybody, Okay, this is what you need
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to do to apply to get here and do da that makes you have this,
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It makes you have that. So the same school that I did not
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want no piece of to enroll in or anything else, now pay my bills
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and they offered me the highest salary that I've ever been offered in corporate America.
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So when I calculated my bills for the month, because I have an
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apartment by myself, now well I calculate my bills and everything else that I
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half of the month, I still have access to be chilling just me and
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I didn't even want to see no parts of this school when I first saw
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it, but it was literally the door to everything else I needed. So
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I just to include to include school benefits, meaning after six months, I
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am now for tuition reimburrassement. So as long as I'm taking no no no,
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no no no no. Because I was each other fan. So as
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long as I am enrolled, they're gonna start paying for my classes and then
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let's go. This is too good because I was applying for months begging God
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for a corporate jo I said, Lord, I do corporate America. Why
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these people not hiring me? I'm confused. Like I got all the credentials,
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I am fully able to do these jobs, denied for every single one
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of them until I got to this one and I asked God for a certain
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amount. I asked God for certain things that I wanted, But what I
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did not ask God for was Teriian reimbursement, or a full paid spring break,
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or two weeks of vacation for Christmas, or access to all the other
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amenities that I have. I didn't ask for all of that. I got
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a plan of spring break now because it's paid, and I get time,
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oh for a whole week in two weeks and for Christmas. They were like,
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yeah, we get off on the sixteenth pole back on the second,
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just hanging out with your family. You mean I get to sit on my
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mum account for two weeks and not worry about nothing, and y'all gonna put
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the rectifies into my account. I'm confused. I've never known this life before.
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Everything I needed was literally after I said, okay, God, I'm
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gonna just trust you to include the apartment that I now live in that first
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somehow I qualified by myself. Still ain't figured that part out yet, but
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I lived there by myself. And that's the gig. Like I think you
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did a I owe you on me, because right now, y'all, she
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told me by the ear of her of her lives that we did. Y'all
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gonna follow her? What is it? I am? I am rekilled.
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You can call me rock. You can call me rock. I recall you
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got me so missed up in the head right now. Yeah, I see
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what you I see what you were saying for me. Because this testimony,
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this this is not even it's not even done. And how quickly God exposed
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you to what he has for you to Literally he says, you know what
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I'm going to pay you back for your suffering because you're my daughter. I
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Am going to pay you back in full things that you didn't even think about,
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that that you would need and benefit you. I love you that much
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to prepare you. Like the table was set you just you you just said
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it had to say, God, where do you want me to sit?
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God? What would you like for me to sit? Do you do you
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want me to sit in this chair? This? This is my plate?
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Or and then just trust that trust that your point wasn't gonna be empty,
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that he was bringing you everything. Watched it that he was bringing you everything
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that you needed. You didn't have to go seek it. Like he literally
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put it in front of you and said, hey, just trust me in
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this, and like that is the favor and that is the love of God.
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And this season is I told you early and everybody already knows now it
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is what it is. It goes back to it is what it is because
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God is that I am that I am. He says, your response shall
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be I am that I am. So you literally you're literally living in the
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idiot is what it is? Part of your life? Like I don't know
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how to explain it, girl, I don't know how to explain it.
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It is what it is, it is, and I'm trusting God in the
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is what it is period yo, like rock like I'm a little speechless right
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now, Okay, let me let me I need to say this one part
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though. What wow? Um? So for a year, it wasn't even
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a full year. About ten months before I moved, I quit my full
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time job. September thirty twenty one was the last day I worked in Corporate
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America. The Lord told me to leave my job for some reason. I
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was like, this is crazy. It's the easiest job I've ever done.
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Why would I leave? Told me to leave? So for the next that
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started my trust and faith walk. So by the time he was like pack
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up and move, I was like, well, okay, here we go.
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But when I was when I first got there August, when I first
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got Tallahassee August seventeen, I had no job, had no nothing, nothing
31:33
lyric just had a couple of love offerings that some church people slid me on
31:36
the way out and go okay. So I was like, okay, I
31:41
need a job, and I went to the mall. I was applying to
31:45
other places. They didn't work. I went to the mall, said,
31:47
okay, I'm leaving here with a job. I walked in the journeys,
31:48
Underground Journeys. I had never worked retail in my life. I walked into
31:52
Underground Journeys the Friday, the Thursday before Labor Day weekend, and the girl
31:57
said, can I help you? I said, I need a job,
32:00
and they hired me the next day. So from Labor Day weekend to when
32:08
did I leave there, I got offered the job the twenty seventh. So
32:16
yeah, the twenty eighth was my last day. I worked Underground Journeys part
32:22
time, making between one hundred and one hundred and twenty dollars a week.
32:25
Asked me how I survived off for that for four months. I don't know.
32:29
I can't give you the mask work did that. My last day was
32:36
the twenty eighth, and I started in this new role on the second.
32:45
And so I haven't had any kind of income for real since the twenty eighth.
32:52
And for some reason, I'm not hungry, and for some reason,
32:58
I still got lights on, and for some reason I got everything I need
33:02
in excess. I can't make this math math for you right now, I
33:09
really can't. I'm still trying to figure out how all these things lined up
33:15
the way that they did, and how anytime I think I'm about to be
33:20
at my very last couple of dollars, I'm getting a random cash app from
33:23
somebody. Oh just thinking about you? So so are you just literally putting
33:31
people like putting me on the minds of people just to I don't know how
33:37
this works. I can't make this make sense. But I wasn't just crossing
33:43
my legs waiting on God, Okay, you send me out here whatever you
33:46
want me to do, and just rocking in place like that's not how this
33:51
worked. That like, what are you going to do in the meantime he
33:53
doesn't send you out here? Okay, Well I gotta figure out something to
33:57
do. So I went to class in the daytime, and in the evenings
34:00
I was at journeys work. I had worked my first Black Friday all my
34:05
feet. I've never done a vote, But like things I said I never
34:08
do, I'm doing DoorDash now and I actually love DoorDash and I'm only doing
34:14
it right now just because I won't income I don't have to do it anymore.
34:19
But I was like the things I said I never do, I enjoy.
34:24
It's wild for me, wild for me. I don't know what just
34:30
happened, but this is good. This is good. I didn't even know
34:38
that we were gonna go this way. I'm so sorry. And the reason
34:44
that we went this way it wasn't in the in the cost plane. Oh
34:47
listen, and that's this is why. Okay, so give y'all back story.
34:52
Like Rod was like, okay, what you need from me? What
34:55
we're gonna be doing? And I told her it's just gonna be me and
35:00
her talking. Like one thing I've done. I have a podcast mentor.
35:07
My podcast mentor is Tim Ross. He don't know it. He don't know
35:13
it yet. I'm gonna go ahead, put it, answer it. Yeah,
35:15
yeah, my podcast mentor. It's Tim Ross. And the reason why
35:22
he's my mentor is because he don't it's he's an example example of it is
35:31
what it is like, don't try to overdo being you, and he's unapologically,
35:37
unapologically himself, Like this world has enough people trying to be everybody else
35:43
other than themselves. And even if you're still trying to figure it out,
35:45
like which I don't. I think I'm starting to get into a place where
35:49
I know that and being bold in who I am and the meaning the good
35:54
back. And so I aspire to have the level of confidence and and peace
36:01
about who I am as Tim Ross exemplifies, you know what I'm saying,
36:07
Like he is, I love the Basement like I love the Basement like I
36:13
would. That's probably the only one of the only podcasts I can listen to
36:16
for hours like I would listen to I will. I will commit to listening
36:23
to that for hours because one is good too. The reason why it's doing
36:29
so well is because they're not doing all the preparation. They're allowing how the
36:34
Holy Spirit to be Holy Spirit. And so that's what you don't get from
36:37
me. That's what you don't get from just ads. We're just gonna have
36:39
a conversation and wherever the conversation leads, Like you just don't know how many
36:45
people you just free by telling your story of you going back to school.
36:50
Now you now, let me tell ya something six is creative like Che's bomb
36:52
creative like And it kind of is a great segue to what one of the
36:58
things I did want to bring up because I think this is powerful. Okay,
37:01
So me and Rock have only I've known of Rocks for probably probably seven
37:12
or eight years. I've known of her. What I mean by that is,
37:15
I know I know her through our mutual best friend shout out to Philip,
37:22
shout out to out outside our best friend Philip, and so I've known
37:27
of her, and I've understood the level of influence that she has in phillips
37:31
life and vice versa. I understand that before that was a me, that
37:36
was a rock. That was like before there was a lot of people,
37:38
there was a rock. And so I'm feeling so I'm FeelA, be so
37:43
TRANSPARI with you. You don't even so y'all haven't told her? Okay,
37:45
wait a minute, Wait a minute, wait a minute before you say whatever
37:47
you for to say. I found a picture of you and Phil from Ariel's
37:52
wedding in my phone. Yes, I have to send it to you because
37:58
I look, I zoomed it. I was like, who this girl?
38:00
He posted away? Oh my, that's Jay. You can't that girl winning
38:06
everything? And we would not. I mean, I mulled you. You
38:10
are mugging vu. That's why they just said it to you. I mowed
38:15
you. I'm not even Fenna, Lie, I mowed you. Okay,
38:17
So if anybody knows me personally, y'all understand a level of friendship that me
38:22
and Philip has, Yes, And I'm really it knowing me period my friends.
38:28
I do not play about like I am very I don't say territorial,
38:31
but cut throat like I just when I love, I love so hard and
38:37
so Philip, you know he tells me. He was like, no,
38:39
you know, my friend, you don't remember. No, I ain't heard.
38:44
No. Okay, thank you, thank you so much, you know,
38:47
not necessarily being that, but just like looking back at it was a
38:52
spear of what like competition, right, and so I'm about to get I'm
39:00
trying to free some felts being transparent with this child. So um, we
39:05
finally finally met last year, Um when Philip guy his PhD. And that
39:13
wasn't Mannie twenty twenty two. Yeah, we were together for not even a
39:22
full hour. Now, I was shot, like when everybody first came out
39:27
or whatever I was. You know, I'm at the work only is I'm
39:30
more like so of an introvert, but I'm really like peeping game and looking.
39:32
I knew exactly who she would y'all. I knew exactly and I was
39:45
like, you know I spoke the I spoke the UM, I spoke to
39:49
Philip Brothers or whatever, and I spoke to Um. Now I didn't know
39:52
it for a few people, but I definitely knew who she would and I
39:55
was like, Okay, you know cool being she healed. You know what
39:59
I say? Hill, She Hill. You know what I'm saying, Like,
40:06
I just didn't know and if you, I'm gonna be real real transplaying
40:09
with you. I just didn't know what to expect. You get what I'm
40:15
saying. And so so when I think it was that that evening where you
40:22
just came to me, or when I was asleep, I kept going asleep,
40:28
but then when I finally woke up, you came to me and you
40:30
just started talking to me. And I was like, okay, this,
40:35
you know, this is cute. You know what I'm saying. Like now
40:37
I'm telling myself this is cute. In my brain, I'm like okay,
40:39
And Philip knows how I am, Like he finally explained to me, like
40:44
I'm there. I'm mindful of how much I released myself to people because of
40:49
the things that I've experienced, right, and so at that point I'm like
40:52
that, like I'm like, yes, she being nice, but she don't
40:54
really know me showing who I am. She's just doing nice because I'm okay,
40:59
we can right um. And so that weekend she end up being my
41:07
best friend. You end up being my best friend. And like we were
41:13
mad at Philip, like bro mad, why didn't you? Like why haven't
41:20
why hasn't this happened yet? Like why why are we just meet each other?
41:24
Like this is so irritating to the point where we don't need Philip to
41:29
talk to each other. Obviously, right y'all don't see him on but why
41:36
listen? We were celebrating at Philip's brand and you would think that we've been
41:43
newing. That was like people really asked us, like, oh, how
41:45
long y'all been friends? Oh? We just mad yesterday, like we just
41:50
made yesterday and there was not a line. And so the conversations that we
41:54
have we don't talk every day. We don't, you know, do all
41:58
the every day. But the love up and respect is there not because of
42:02
who we connected to, but how we appreciate each other. But Rock,
42:07
you had to present the first and what I admire about you, And this
42:10
is a segue that I'm going into when you with your creativity. Earlier were
42:15
talking about you know, your family and how you know you had to find
42:21
your voice and utilize your voice. What I feel like when I the moments
42:25
that I have used my voice, like I was dislike, Um, I
42:30
wasn't accepted, I was misunderstood, stood especially about by women, especially about
42:37
women, Like I got some stuff that I still probably got to heal from
42:42
from high school, like to a point where it's like, why are y'all
42:49
fighting me? Why do I feel like y'all are fighting me? And so
42:53
I just automatically assume that because the regard that Philip had for me, that
43:01
you you automatically be like, have that same spirit. So I went ahead
43:06
and say, you know, I'm gonna do it to her first. And
43:08
so my question to you is when did you how did you learn to manage
43:15
understanding who you are not to just anybody, but to yourself first, right,
43:22
because you have to embrace that first and then manage being the the encourager.
43:30
The y'all, she is very creative, like that thing, like she
43:35
is so creative, she is she is just brilliant, y'all. Like I
43:39
just can't I can't describe how brilliant she is and to have her like somebody
43:45
like her just love on me and poor to me. And I have not
43:51
known her a full year yet she don't owe me, not a thing,
43:57
not a thing, and she is so powerful And I'm trying to find a
44:07
word for just accepting and encouraging of other people's guilts, like how do you
44:15
how do you somebody that struggles with insecurity like I have, right because obviously
44:20
there was an insecure decision, insecure thought process, and I know you.
44:23
This is my first time release releasing this stuff to you of how to open
44:29
up to you being being that you're a beautiful black woman. You are gifted,
44:35
talented and anointed, right, but you're able to steal appreciate other's guilts
44:40
like there's a there's a special kind of somebody and normally people have to learn
44:46
it, but it seems like it's so natural for you. And thank you
44:53
for all the things I feel honest, Um, and to before I answer
45:00
that to your point, when this is my side of the story, she
45:07
told herself, Um, I did not know she would be there because Phil,
45:20
He's gonna be done. What it's by the time of this conversation is
45:22
over, but he talked to her about me, but he didn't really talk
45:30
to me about her. Mm so feel you now, Dot Sullivan him,
45:42
um so by the time and you you're gonna crack up. But this is
45:49
how I saw this. By time, I was I got there Thursday night
45:53
of graduation weekend, got that Thursday night, and so Friday morning, everybody's
46:00
together and then we all are waiting outside and I'm with the family or whatever.
46:07
We're all waiting outside for Phil to come out. But then here it
46:10
comes this dark skinned Barbie walking up and her hair is like blowing in the
46:15
wind, and I was like, who was And then I was like,
46:22
oh hey. I was just like, okay whatever, and then like y'all's
46:28
pictures were perfect, and I was like, I don't know if I like
46:30
this, but okay whatever. Everybody likes her, so I'm gonna shut up.
46:37
And then I think we went to where do we go? Oh,
46:40
lady game? Yeah, I think that's the first time. Wait, yeah,
46:49
that was was kind of like yeah anyway, anyway, uh, that
46:54
was the first time we saw it. And then after that, I was
46:57
just like, I think I got comfortable with you really quickly. But I've
47:05
learned when it comes to multiple friendships or number one Fiel's case, he's everybody's
47:09
friends. So I had to learn quickly that you just have you just have
47:15
a special play. If you're friends with him, he like values your friendship
47:20
and you're special to him. So you just gotta be like confronted. You
47:25
gotta be you know, kind of secure in your friendship and not be jealous
47:30
of whatever else is going on. But by the time I connected with you,
47:36
it was like I felt like I had a friend, like not just
47:43
like not like another you run into how much people and y'all be social media
47:52
girls and be the end of the conversation because and at this part, I
47:59
haven't told you, and if I cry out, I'll be very upset.
48:01
But um so, of course the weekend went on, and then by Sunday
48:08
morning, of course, all the things and just leave it there, let
48:20
all the things, and and I she is in the bed, and I
48:32
pretty much pushed her over and like just get in the bed with her.
48:36
And we just started laughing. We didn't say two words, We just laughing
48:40
word We're just laughing. And it's like before ten o'clock in the morning and
48:45
kicking kid and before. But by time we finished laughing about whatever, you
48:51
turned to me, it was like, okay, but are you okay?
48:54
And when you asked me it was like my heart was like no, she's
49:00
a friend, Like she cares about my heart at the end of the day.
49:07
So when I knew that, I was like, I found a sister
49:10
for life. That's what I don't know. But to answer your question,
49:21
I'll realize really quickly that I can't do everything I'm not. I'm good at
49:27
a lot, but I'm not good at everything. And it takes the pressure
49:32
off of me when I realize other people are good in other areas and take
49:37
some point. I'm usually the point person and directing traffic and all things like
49:45
that. And when it came to fields graduation party, you were directing traffic.
49:49
So I'm like, okay, where I need to put this box because
49:52
clearly I ain't got to worry about nothing because miss Mama got it so okay.
49:58
And so to be able to be like and honoring gifts and other people
50:02
like you realize how literally how diverse the kingdom is and how the Lord literally
50:13
gave each person a certain kind of gift, and you have most people with
50:16
you know that, you know share a gift, but everybody's flow is different,
50:22
and so the way I do it in the way you do it.
50:25
It can be getting the same job done, but execute it differently and with
50:30
their own taste and style. And I think it's so beautiful when everybody does
50:37
what they're called to do, when they're called to do it, and it
50:39
flows perfectly. You're not running into each other, you're not on top of
50:44
each other, nobody's colliding. When everybody's in their own zone, it flows
50:47
beautifully and it's harmonious. And I just I have been to your point earlier
50:55
about being kind of scarred about using my voice. I was, and I
51:02
had this thought earlier, and it was probably as the Lord that had put
51:07
me down this path early in my brain because I'm a pastor's kid. A
51:13
lot of times in the development of the ministry, there were seasons where I
51:17
was put in how can I say this leadership type roles when I feel like
51:28
they were it was premature because of number one, because of my age biologically
51:35
and my age mature wise, immaturity. I had not developed or grown at
51:44
all as a woman, especially not as a leader. But because there was
51:47
a void here I am now leading a group, or here I am now
51:52
overseeing. And there were people in certain groups that were older than me,
51:59
but I'm having to give them instruction and I'm nowhere in my right mind in
52:05
a position to be doing that, I don't think. But somehow I'm being
52:09
trusted with these assignments, and I'm just like, I know there were times
52:16
I mishandled people. I know there were Would they ever say it to me,
52:21
Probably not, but I know there were times. But and I was
52:25
in there were key times that I was over leadership moments, and I was
52:30
barely twenty one. I was like, I have no regard for how life
52:37
really works. I have no children, Like I'm living in my mom house,
52:40
like I don't know what's what, and trying to tell grown folks what
52:46
to do, like that's that's crazy. So for to answer the other question,
52:51
for a very long time, I was very silent, and that's how
52:53
I ended up in the complacent part of my life, where I was just
52:59
like, this is just how it always will be, me serving me,
53:04
doing what everybody thinks I should be doing, making sure my family straight got
53:07
out to die, and I stopped dreaming completely dreaming or fantasizing about anything other
53:15
than doing what I was doing in that moment. It was a very distant
53:20
memory. I just started dreaming again, probably after the pandemic started, because
53:28
like the idea of anything other than what I just work, go home,
53:34
work, go home. And I had always been a dreamer. I'd always
53:38
been thinking outside the box. I would had crazy visions at sixteen and seventeen
53:43
about what life would look like. But when life kept knocking me down so
53:49
badly, by the end of it, I was just like, Okay,
53:52
so this is this is what it's gonna be. This is we hustle,
53:57
we go to church, we go home because back to work. Um so
54:07
yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. It took a lot for me to even
54:10
get to the place where I was like, yeah, I'm gonna have a
54:14
podcast or yeah I'm gonna do my live or anything else and actually use my
54:16
voice. That did not happen overnight. It did not happen overnight. A
54:22
journey and it don't happen over night. Like the Lord had to really,
54:27
I know it sounds like what you like, The Lord had to really like
54:30
push me and be like you're gonna do You're gonna do this podcast because I
54:36
need you to appreciate your voice. And in my first season, I only
54:39
had one one guest and that was that was my friend, my sister friend
54:45
Breath. She's gonna be on again this season, but that's my that's my
54:51
sister friend Bree. And but the Lord literally made me do nine episodes of
54:54
just listening to myself, like literally appreciating what I bring to the table and
55:04
to also take myself serious. Like a lot of us want, we want
55:09
so much help, but it's like, have you even been your own help?
55:14
Like have you even gotten to the point where you appreciate what you bring
55:16
yourself? And literally the first season of just as oh this is so good,
55:28
thank you all the spirit this revelation. So the first season was back
55:32
to the basics, just called back to the basics and not realizing that not
55:39
calling ourselves basis. But what back to the basis means back to your foundation
55:45
is you and God. That's the foundation. That's the foundational relationship that you
55:52
should look at. That's the foundational principle that you should look at. That's
55:54
the foundation of what goes on between you and God and what God allows you
55:59
to release. A God allows you to experience. That's what you go back
56:02
to when all else fills you. That's what you go back to. That's
56:07
what you value, that's what you honor. And I dishonored myself by highlighting
56:12
everybody else because of this comparison situation that I have going on, right,
56:17
Like, that was all I was doing with you, bro, I was
56:21
comparing myself. I was measuring myself up to you and trying to figure out
56:24
what what was it about this girl? And that's a that's the thing about
56:29
what has broken me as being a branch manager my nine to five Like I
56:32
don't, I don't. I can see the good and the excellence and the
56:37
greatness and my assistant ranch manager or my account specials, like I see the
56:43
greatness in them, and I even tell them Now I say it from a
56:46
proud place. I'd be like I tell everybody like, oh, that's gonna
56:49
better than me, with no with no hesitation, because it's an honor.
56:53
They're supposed to go ahead of me. I didn't do my job. If
56:59
they don't, they're not better than me, right, And so it makes
57:02
me, this was his head, made me, like you said, you
57:06
said it so eloquently, like honoring people's gifts, but also honoring the fact
57:12
that you don't always have to be the one to do. Does it my
57:15
value? And the way I saw myself was what can I do? Because
57:20
that's all people like the people that I was dealing with at certain point in
57:22
my life, what I can do, it shows my value, not who
57:28
I am. To the point where I didn't even know who I am,
57:30
or I didn't do anything when God should everything down. God literally shout everything
57:36
down at a point in my life to where he had to say, Okay,
57:39
you you have nope, you have permission to do nothing. You have
57:44
permission to go to church, be a regular member, go to word a
57:51
regular listen. If y'all don't know, I'm a PK two. So what
57:54
is a regular member? Let's talk about that. What is a regular member?
58:00
Show up, pagetized, get the word and go home. That was
58:07
that was my assignment for a season. Show up, pagetized, get the
58:10
word and go home, because I need you to understand why you're able to
58:17
do this is so good. I I was so into what I was doing
58:24
that I didn't know who I was. Because I didn't I didn't realize my
58:29
doing came out of my being. But because I could never identify the be
58:34
the do was in vain. Oh day right, Like it's so easy,
58:54
that's so reality, it's so reality, so many of us that that's why,
59:00
that's why our businesses are feeling. That's why we we we hop I
59:04
don't almost call it. I have to watch my mouth, but we hopping,
59:07
hopping, you know what I wanted to say, UM from entrepreneurship Opportunity
59:16
here, business open opportunity here. But like I what's his name? I
59:23
can't think it. Shan't Shan the one that's our social proof. Oh my
59:28
gosh, I'm having a brain fart. I'm having a brain fart. But
59:35
he was talking about UM. He always brings up the fact that he he
59:40
sold T shirts or something like that, working at UM, working at the
59:46
cheesecake factory. He focused on one thing and then made it bigger, like
59:53
this part the podcast situation not only see on podcast when he teach other people
59:58
to the podcast, ain't teach your the people how to you know, he
1:00:00
has other businesses where he started with his one thing. And so the reason
1:00:04
why we'd be like, oh I'm good at this, I'm good at this
1:00:06
I'm good at this. But God, where do you have Like you said
1:00:08
earlier, you said this earlier over the God, where do you have me?
1:00:13
Where do you want me to be? Because you might I'm Kingdom,
1:00:16
so I'm gonna be good at everything you put me in, Sir. I'm
1:00:22
kingdom, so I'm gonna be good at wherever folks want me to do because
1:00:25
I'm kingdom. That's in my DNA. But that's not a requirement or prerequisite
1:00:31
for me to do everything. Girl, I'm freeing myself right now. It
1:00:37
is not it is not right. And you know, the last two weeks
1:00:52
I'm meant text you this. I discovered a new church here in town two
1:00:57
weeks ago. Last Sunday was my my second time going, and the church
1:01:02
is called the Restoration Place. Wow. And when I first the first Sunday
1:01:09
i went, I was I don't think praising worship had even started yet.
1:01:15
I was already crying, and I was like, I don't know why.
1:01:16
I just feel like safe here. But it was just like, you don't
1:01:21
have to do no work. I just want you to like see, and
1:01:25
I got all I needed that whole service. I was like, I go
1:01:29
back next Sunday. But when I say snotted all through service last Sunday,
1:01:34
Like so I was telling somebody about it, they were like, how fading
1:01:37
is the name? Like you literally been in warfare mode for months, like
1:01:43
just trying to get through it, trying to get through it, and you
1:01:45
finally get to a place where you can exhale. So the Lord was like,
1:01:49
come over here for a second. I just want to pour back into
1:01:52
you. That's it. You ain't gotta do nothing like just sitting alligin,
1:01:57
just being a subasing worship. Just be man like, just be, just
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be, because I feel like the enemy blinds us with who just with the
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factor. Just be, because if we get caught up in the doing,
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will attach to what he was, what we're doing, even if it's good,
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even if it's good, it will distract us from our actual purpose and
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where God has designed us to be and lane that we're supposed to be in,
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because he knows once we find out where we really supposed who we really
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are, will connected to the lane we're supposed to be in and dominate and
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literally dominate and demolish that area because if everybody was in the lane, everybody
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will be in this in position to attack every demonic spirit, every every evil
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territory, every evil thought, every we like. That's how kingdom spreads when
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where we're supposed to be. That was why the Lord allowed you to not
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even get the denial in Tallahassee until you made it to Talahassee, so you
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could connect to where you were supposed to be, because that was your This
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is your lame right now, I was telling you I did not know it
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was already there, because I said, before I got the reason why I
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had to go to Tallahassee, I was pressed for weeks ago to physically go,
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and I said, I would not have known this other option existed until
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I went. I would I would not have just found that out online.
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I mean I could have probably gotten to the website eventually, but I had
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to go see it for myself and connect for those things to fall into place.
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And uh yeah, I just would have never thought that this was how
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the story was gonna play out. And it's not done, but I didn't.
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I didn't think it was that's all. It is not done. It's
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not this. I'm I'm I'm so so proud of you, and I'm so
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appreciative you. I'm appreciative that I know you in real life. So this
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is just not like a whole podcast situation. This is like a life thing.
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And I'm just grateful that my my resistance and um, my weakness or
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opportunity did not keep you away from just being you so much so that I
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get to expose myself to the rock. So watch this. After after I
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did did You a Live and we were talking, I was like, her
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nickname is rock How I run it? Because when we think about the rock,
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we think about the solid, We think about how solid it is.
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We think about something that's you know, hard, we think it's about something
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that is dangerous if you put it in the right hand, like David,
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you know is you think about all these things. But when you think about
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it, when you think about somebody that's your rock, you think somebody that's
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that it, that it is so solid and unwavering. And we were talking
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about how many people, how people like depend on you and all that stuff
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like that, and it's so befitting though, like you are so solid like
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you are, you are solid solid, and I'm I'm just appreciative of your
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being like just as simple as that. Nothing that you do what's crazy is
1:05:47
y'all. What I like about her and eyes relationship. We haven't done anything
1:05:51
for each other other than be there for each other, like just be this
1:05:57
relationship, just be situation. Don't send had sent no cash all, hadn't
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visit each other, and this is just this is an example of a friendship
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that is a just be friendship, like I'm here for you, I support
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you, I like I'm I'm I just appreciate you being. I don't know,
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I really don't know if I've ever really experienced that like that for this
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amount of time with someone, with someone period, like I love all my
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friends. It's not discredit anything, but just just a being situation like this
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is this is a just be friendship, not saying we won't get to the
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point and yeah we gonna fly each other out and stuff later. We're gonna
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do all that right now. Period. It's a just big But I think
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that's how it started. That was our foundation of like we were just kind
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of chilling, like you don't owe me nothing, I don't owe you nothing.
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It was kind of just like we here and so there was nothing to
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fake or you know, make grand after that, Like our core was just
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like sitting on the couch of talking or laying around and talking like it so
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we don't have to do nothing else. After that, it was just that's
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just what it was, um, especially after you told me how to put
1:07:23
that hat on with that dress when I wanted to. But anyway, I'm
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gonna tell you the truth. One thing I'm not gonna like to anybody's woman.
1:07:30
If you if it's not fitting, if it don't go together to me
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it because I don't ask. I don't consider myself or financially. I asked
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my I asked my sisters today. I said, hey, is this navy
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blue? If this and I'm telling you them, don't go to gether and
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I gotta ask if this color the navy blue? You don't need to weg
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it's not the outfit. Ain't outfit? Okay. She was like, but
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no, we're not doing that. But I know it wasn't. But you
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gave though when you gave me, gave it. Okay, we did a
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thing. We did a fact. Yes, yes, girl, I'm so
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grateful for you, um, for being on here. So I'm gonna give
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you opportunity. If there was one thing one thought that you would leave with
1:08:30
the people, and after this you can say where you where they can find
1:08:35
you in all and stuff like that. What is that that one thing?
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One thought? Um, I've been saying this a lot lately, but I
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think it's worth repeating. I think you heard me say this before. UM,
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handle what you can handle today? As a previous overthinker, when I
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started this faith walk in the last year and a half two years, the
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math wasn't mathing. It still don't math. Honestly, the details were not
1:09:24
ironed out. I didn't know when I was getting ready to move to Tallahassee,
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I didn't know where I was gonna live. Like. I can't tell
1:09:30
you how many things from a mental standard were completely out of source and did
1:09:38
not make sense until I started moving. So I've just coined this. Okay,
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what can I handle today? Even when it comes down to me being
1:09:49
the grocery store and wanting to buy the entire section. Oh, I'm gonna
1:09:56
need this in a couple of weeks. Okay, But what do you need
1:09:58
today? That's so good? What can wait? Like? What? What
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do I not have to think about right this second? What needs to what's
1:10:08
the priority today? Because the Bible clearly says tomorrow has no problems of his
1:10:13
own. You do not like you don't know what's coming tomorrow. You can
1:10:17
plan all day. People plan all day. People that are no longer living
1:10:21
planned for tomorrow. You can plan all day God, But the reality is
1:10:30
what can you do today? So master today and then if the Lord we
1:10:36
pray allows you to see tomorrow, doing to worry about tomorrow. But in
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the meantime, just thank God for today on one thing that has helped me
1:10:46
on this journey. And you'll see this if you follow me. I started
1:10:54
around this time last year. I started a grateful list. So every single
1:10:58
day in my phone, I'll write down something I'm grateful for every single day.
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And some days, specifically last year, we're so hard that some if
1:11:05
you look at some dates, they say, I breathe today. That's all
1:11:11
it is. I breathe today because the day itself was so bad or so
1:11:18
it went so wrong. So if all I have in my phone is I
1:11:23
breathe today. I had to be grateful for something every single day. So
1:11:27
it brought me to a place of humility for the smallest of things. So
1:11:30
by the time I get to the place where I'm getting salaries and benefits and
1:11:35
all these extra things. I'm gonna praise them even some more. But I
1:11:40
was thankful to God for the days I had a PB and J and so
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I can be even that much more grateful for what he's done in excess.
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But I had to bring myself all the way down. So gratitude, humility,
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and taking care of what you need to take care of one day at
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a time is what I would say. Um, and following. You can
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follow me on Instagram and TikTok at. You can call me Rock r a
1:12:13
c Q. Um. I would get Facebook, but it's better to do
1:12:17
the other ones, and then um, Twitter is rock said what so our
1:12:26
a c Q said, wha t um. But those are my platforms.
1:12:30
But if you go to my Instagram, my link tree is in my bios
1:12:33
so you can find all my links there. That's the easiest route to get
1:12:36
all my places. But yeah, that's yeah. The Instagram is a must
1:12:42
follow, y'all. Like my girl, My girl has a show every week,
1:12:47
I'm calling the show, just calling the show every week Thursday night.
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What is that seven fifteen Eastern Standard time for so seven fifteen Central, eight
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fifteen Eastern Standard time, y'all. She is absolutely amazing there's a lot of
1:13:09
great people that's on there. If you're interested even being on her show,
1:13:12
like you need to reach out to her and say, you know, hey,
1:13:15
we look like creators need to help other creators, Like this is what
1:13:19
this is part of. We have a genuine relationship. But this is what
1:13:23
we're doing right now. Like another creative is helping another creative, but the
1:13:27
creative is mine. When they come together, they do major things like they
1:13:30
exposed, just different type of things. So you can call me sugar.
1:13:35
I mean, let's talk sugar. I'm just like you can call me sugar.
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Let's talk sugar. I don't know why what you can call me sugar
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instagraund name name with your shugar. The show is called Let's Talk Sugar.
1:13:55
Her Instagram name call me. Y'all listen, Okay, have a great day,
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y'all. Thank y'all so much for coming listening. Until next time.
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Remember life is much more simple when you just ask. Have a great one.
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