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Separation of the Mind · The Volume Shift

• Deion: Welcome back to the volume shift where we bridging the gaps between communities, religion, gender, you know what I'm saying, race, etc. I'm but doctors the doctor without the doctrine. Jhalil: I'm Ja Lil, urban activist slash black activist. Deion: Well, how you living, how you feeling. Jhalil: Man, I'm feeling great, dog. Just you know, for me and the fan we had when I was New York or whatever, for some birthday, man. He's fifteen now, so you know that's a Deion: Good. Jhalil: that's a new experience, man. Like young boy so big, we looking at pictures, he was little as shit. Now he he almost my size. You feel me? So that's crazy. Deion: Yeah, it is. Jhalil: And the other day we had the the 46th Street Reunion John. So, you know, I slid down there with the fan. That was a good john, too, man. It was all love, bro. Like the cops came to shut it down and all that. Like, nobody, we, you know, it ain't even going down like that, bro. Cuz anytime we all link up down there, man, it's like, it's all family, so it's all love. So they ended up. Deion: Right. Jhalil: They ended up just chilling. You feel the cops pull up, they get out, they just start busting it up with the people, like more with the story, bro, like it didn't shut down, so that was a good journal too. Nobody got hurt, everybody made it home safe, you know, so that was a real good Deion: A Jhalil: joint, man. Like that was some of my highlights for this week that just passed and shit. What's going on with you, man? Deion: lot of internal shit, you know what I'm saying? Like really realizing like I got a lot of work to do on myself, you feel me? Like and as we jump on these jaws. You know, I only could imagine like if people you know, when you start talking correction, people start wanting to, you know, zero in and I identify like something that need to be corrected in you, possibly. You feel me? Like, 'cause it's it's almost like the the know it all, John, like you think you perfect or something, but you know what I mean? And I don't ever want us to be looked upon like Like we trying to be perfect or we better then or anything like that. You feel me? Like, because we bringing about stuff that we need to bridge the gap on. You feel what I'm saying? So when we're talking about slavery and all of these type of things, it's like we just wanting to dive into it, you feel me? So we can do the corrections ourselves and make it better. You know what I'm saying? For ourselves. on this earth, you feel me? Like and so like I say, I'm I'm I'm like really realizing like I'm like damn like I'm doing a lot of shit that's like Jhalil: Mm. Deion: against who I really am. You know what I mean? Like and it's things that I feel like a be a distraction in what we try and give to the world because You might look at me like he smokes cigarettes or he do this or he do that. You feel what I'm saying? And it's like or how can you be giving advice about stuff that you ain't doing? You know what I mean? Stuff like that. And it's like We missin whole drone. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: You feel me? Like when people give you stuff, it ain't That shit ain't about the person giving it and nothing. It's about you, your life, like what it's gonna do for you. What if you take it and do something with it? What's gonna happen then? You feel me? Do the question then come from like you really intrigued on what it is and you wanna go closer? Because just identify with the truth. Well w what it really is and then approach that way. You feel what I'm saying? Like a lot of times like we wanna say certain things, like you know, it's a big thing about like fans and audience being voisterous about negative stuff, but it's like positive, it don't got a Jhalil: Yeah, really. Deion: lot to it. So for me it's like That's just people telling like I wanna see something different, but this is what would get it, get the attention. So this wow, this the way this what I'm gonna use. You feel me? Like, and I feel like that with a lot of things, especially me, like, you know what I mean? And I talk about me, I'm like, I wanna do all of this stuff, but I got stuff that's holding me back. You know what I mean? And I'm not pronouncing that. And I'm I'm like sheltering myself, like, you know what I mean? Like the double voices loud in my head. You feel me? Like so I'm rocking with what my mind Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: is is saying and and wanting to do. Not not really me. You know what I'm saying? And I'm noticing like, I'm separate from my mind. You know what I'm saying? Like Jhalil: Okay. Deion: shit that he be coming up with sometime. Like, what the fuck? And I'm thinking that I'm connected with it. It's in me, so it it's me. But it's like, nah, I'm I'm noticing, like, nah, that's not me. You feel me? And it's so crazy because when you rock with your mind and you do what your mind tells you. Like if you try to tell somebody like, no, that really wasn't me. I think that's what people be wanting to say. Like, yo, no, it's really like I alright, it's me because I fell victim to what my mind was trying to direct me to do, and I did it. So I fell slave Jhalil: Sorry. Deion: to that. You know what I mean? And I think that's even deeper when you talk about like the prison of the mind. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: You know what I'm saying? Like you feeling like you captive of actually having to do what your mind tells you to do. You feel what I'm saying? And it ain't no saying no to it. You feel me? And this is the you versus you, cause it's like I'm telling my mind no. And it's like it's getting overwhelming. Like, I'm like, whoa. Like, god damn, all right, I'm I'm just gonna do it. Fuck it. Like, you know what I mean? Like, so what I'm noticing, I'm like, all right, I'm not comfortable. with just letting my my mind just be and then me doing my own thing. I'm more comfortable with following what my mind say and just rocking out. You know what I mean? And then I'm noticing I'm like, my mind convinced me to do this thing and then I do it and then my mind would be like, make me feel guilty that I did it. I'm like, the fuck up, nigga, like you feel what I'm saying? I'm like Jhalil: Hmm. Deion: How dare you do some shit like that? You get me? And when you associate with your mind, like I said, you thinking that you that's you. Nah, that's how I am. No, that's how you let your mind lead you to be. That's not you. You know what I mean? Cause like I said, like I can pattern myself, condition it, and make habits, right? And then my mind that keep me there, cause what the mind wanna do is stay relevant. It wanna remind you of the past or even keep you in anxiety for the future. But it never wanna be present, cause it can't be present. You know what I'm saying? It can't be like if you wanna just sit there and be quiet, the mind wanna Go somewhere else. They don't want to sit still. Like they don't want to be present in the moment. You know what I'm saying? So my mind Jhalil: yeah. Deion: was like, like, bro, we gotta go get a cigarette. Like, you feel me? Like, and so that's what's not allowing me to get some time on not having it. And I'm not okay, I'm not comfortable with sitting there and and filling that shit. So I gotta jump up and go get the pork. I gotta jump up and go get the weed. I gotta jump up and go get the girls. I gotta jump up and go get that money. I gotta jump you, you see what I'm saying? And and whole time I'm not even wanting to do none of that shit. But my mind Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: convincing me, like, you feel me? And and whole time we was talking about the you versus you, but it was getting deeper and deeper. I'm like, shit. This is really the U Like that's the Us your mind. And then that's attached Jhalil: Yeah, yeah. Deion: with your body. So not only am I craving the joint cigarettes in my mind, I'm craving it in my body, but I'm antsy. I can't sit still. And because I don't want to be in that discomfort, I go get what's comfort. I go get now it's like it's not none of that stuff even exists. Now I got the port. You feel me? And I'm like, damn, what if I could change that? To like stuff that I really wanna do. Control the mind to help me do that the same way. Have that same drive. Like, don't sit still when you wanna be eager to go get something or do something that's right. That's right. Jhalil: Okay. That's the mission, bro. Deion: You feel me? Like when you when you wanna go get the vegetables and fruits to change your diet, the mind, like. Nah, that shit ain't no good for us. You wanna work out the mind like man? You can't do a hundred jumping jacks. So instantly, Jhalil: What? Deion: what it do? It it it stops the you from going to do it. It ain't no white man, it ain't no black man in the corner, ain't no, it's you. You in the house. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: I'm in the house by myself, bro. Ain't nobody. I ain't got no handcuffs. You feel me? Like, and I I'm I'm like, damn, that shit really. I'm like, this my fight. I don't want I'm like, I can't fight nothing else right now. There's my if I can get past this fight, I can win. You feel me? Like I can really win. Like, you know what I'm saying? And man, drop it in the comments. It's the same for you. You feel me? Like, we family, we in the same yard. We got dropped off on the same, you know, baseball field, bro. You feel me? Jhalil: Very yeah. Deion: And while we sitting here blaming everybody. Let's figure out what what it is for us, for you. You feel me? Put that work in for you. Like so now I'm like, yeah, I'm I'm trying to put that work in for me, man. Like I got to get back to reading. I lost a lot of shit. You know what I mean? Sitting in my pity, sitting in like, you know, stuff I ain't really talk and relieve for myself. You know what I mean? Like I said, Jhalil: Right. Deion: I didn't shelter myself also, like I didn't put myself in this house and and made it okay to be and be cool with it. You feel me? Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: Until it's revealed. Now I'm starting to feel all these waves, like, man. All this stuff happening in life and like shit. I ain't gonna man I don't know copy shit or Eric and shit, but I'm like, I got something for the world. The hell. But the devil or Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: whatever my mind, the devil, whatever you wanna name it, got me locked in the house chilling. And I ain't trying to be out there dealing with them folk like that. Like, you mean my Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: mind tell me what they'd be thinking? Yeah, man, they ain't gonna feel what you saying. They ain't gonna pop to it. Look at them. Look how they acting already. Like, you feel what I'm saying? Like all these things playing in my head. I'm like, that make me sit back even farther. Jhalil: Like to be honest, man, a lot of that shit, it just be stuff that like get placed in our face. You feel me? It could be the substances that got us thinking shit like that. You feel me? Cause each cigarette got a thousand, a thousand different chemicals in it, y'all. Each Deion: Were Jhalil: each shot of lick got a hundred chemicals in which we don't know what the fuck these things is. All the fruit now and the pesticides they spraying on this shit. So it's like, I believe the mind definitely is a part of our body, bro. But it's like it soak up even things that we not expecting for it to soak up. Like even if it's just around us, even if it's just on social media, even if it's just in our air, bro, like it still find a way to seep in and find out where it can, you know, place that information at. So it's like I I blame a lot of that shit on like the substances and like the Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: things that's around us. You feel me? Even the overall energy that's just around the world, bro. Like radio frequency shit, we can't hear shit. We can't see the smells, everything. You feel me? So it's like, Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: I don't think it's just on us. And I don't think, you know, it's detached from the the like body or nothing like that. But I think it's like Deion: Well. Jhalil: it's getting back to that, being able to be that silent shit. Like we gotta be able to fight that shit too, bro. And we gotta find ways to fight it. Like. Cause you know everybody brainwork like that. You try to sit down and relax. Soon as you lay down, close your eyes, now you think I'm out, Bills. And now your stomach growling. All right, let me get up, get something to eat. And now it's like while I'm up, let me smoke a black. Let me you feel me? That shit always Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: keep building. So it's like the hardest part is shutting that joint off. You feel me? But Deion: Mm-hmm. Jhalil: that's what they use meditation for and all that. Like some people meditate and like, you know, at first, That's it hard because you know the the thoughts keep coming. Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: But at the while it's like the more you do it, it's like yo. Deion: And that's why I'm saying most of us go the only comfort in shutting it down is going with it. That's why I'm saying and make it so hard Jhalil: Yeah. That's the point. Deion: that it's like the only way to shut it is to sh like go with it. Go get that crack, go get the heroin, stroll on social media. Because if you don't like be able to meditate and slow it down and and like manage it. That's why I'm saying me being still, I'm noticing that's the longer I I don't go to smoke. Because now I'm really being the observer of my mind. I'm like, look at this motherfucker. Like, you feel me? Like, why you think like that? Matter of fact, I don't even question it, I just listen. Jhalil: Yeah. And then like now at this point, bro, our brains like associated like that that fun that like euphoric feeling, bro, that you get that dopamine, like now, like as people now in today's bro, like we associated that shit with the wrong things. So it's like now at the wow, at the long day, smoking a pork might feel good. You feel me? And then we associate that with relaxing and feeling good and winding down and all that. Whereas though that's the opposite. Feel me? Is it's causing the chaos in your body. So it's like Deion: Yeah. Right. Right. Jhalil: and and that's another thing, bro. That's why I said, like, I don't blame it on us, bro. Our brain's supposed to think about what if, what about that, how, when, where it's supposed to. Like if it shit not thinking that it's wrong, it's broken. You feel me? Like, so it's Deion: But if it's contaminated, that's where we get in our lift. Jhalil: Yeah, is if it's contaminated, it's like it's gonna go whatever way and then it's it feels Deion: Right. Jhalil: like you can't fight it. You gotta go with it. You feel me? So that's where it is, bro. The the contamination of our shit, of all of us, bro. Deion: Right, right, right. I'm seeing, I'm seeing too like them cravings for sugar, the pesticides that's in your body, like that's that one o'clock in the morning. Get up. You feel me? And instead of being uncomfortable and sitting through it, it's like no, I gotta get up and get that that candy. Like I gotta go get up and get that snack. And then you you label it like so it be justified, you feel me? My little late night snack, you know what I mean? Like shit to make it look cute, cool, or Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: sound cool or feel cool, you feel me? Like, and I I'm like I'm really sitting and I'm like, God damn, bro. Like I've been avoiding and ignoring this for this long, bro. Like, you know what I'm saying? So I got about four, like, Like 30 years of work to undo, you get what I'm saying? Because that's how I've been rocking and rolling. Like I you know, that's what's been leading. You know, I I done have Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: my little jaws here and there, that's me. But for the most part, bro, the in the in the honesty, yeah. You know what I'm saying? Like the the selling drugs, Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: the the all the shit that I ever did, bro. Was mine leading. It was like Jhalil: Yeah, it ain't just come from nowhere, bro. But it was like Deion: You know, but at the same time, I justified it. You know what I mean? Because it it it convinced me, it it manipulated me. You feel me? And this is the this is the this is the oppression, bro. And to get out of the oppression that really have any type of freedom is to really manage and control your mind for Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: your safety, for your health, and everything else. You know what I'm saying? So Anytime people talk about health and all of these things, I think this is what they getting real like really down to. It's the you. You Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: know what I mean? It's really you. Jhalil: That's the main thing, bro. Everybody gotta find a way to like to accomplish these things, bro, and to go against this shit that's that's not good for us. You feel me? So everybody draw gonna be different a little bit. Like, so it ain't like a one size fits all type of answer, but it's the same general answer, bro. It's always gonna fall down to you as the person. Like Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: I really used to believe that like, bro, I was smoking weed so long that I thought life was gonna be corny without weed. Like you feel me? I'm like damn, like if I ain't smoking I I ain't high like it's gonna be boring. Everything like but once Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: I really just stop smoking weed, bro, I'm like damn, life the same for real, for real. Like I just was high for it. Like real Deion: Mm-hmm. Jhalil: I just was high doing it. Like now that I'm not high, like it's like, hey man, it feels like I never did this shit now. You feel me? It it's like it's no effect on You know. Yeah, don't don't Deion: That's beautiful. Get to that side. Jhalil: Yeah, don't get me wrong. Like I do miss the ritual of it. Like like not the weed itself, but you know, rolling up, chilling with my niggas, you know, smoking the rich the bed, everything like that. That shit was cool. Don't get me wrong, but I think that's that's what made me associate it with like, damn, it's gonna be boring without this, like Deion: But I think that's the trauma bond too though, you feel me? Like I'm really noticing that as I get older. Like the reason people fall out is because if one person dealt with a trauma and moving on, the other is stuck still. You know what I mean? So like I'm noticing like I'm like, if I can't go to the club and be drunk, that means like I got other spirits in me. You know what I mean? The wine and spirits. I gotta have them other spirits in me to even go there. Or I'm not gonna fill my s like you get what I'm saying? That's how people think, right? Like we had the club and we just like sitting there like You mean? Like and then you you'll put it on, nah, I'm just getting old. Like, nah, like you stop Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: you stop putting that spirit, that spirit ain't there. You know what I mean? Like, hey, Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: I ain't sitting here getting drunk and while and out. You know what I'm saying? So and it's the same thing with weed and all that, bro. It's like if if if you and the niggas can't get together and be friends and do all the shit y'all do without it having all those things in it. That's the trauma bond. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: It's you'll notice it 'cause soon as somebody stops smoking, you're not gonna see them as much. 'Cause what why what's the connection? Like I really really don't even want to smoke. But our minds are so, you know what I mean? That Jhalil: Mm. Deion: and then that's what connect us and all that. And then we put it on languages like the day ones and A ones and all those things. You get what I'm saying? So You know what I mean? Like Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: and that's the same thing though too, bro, with what's like you said about stopping weed, that's the fair, like. You put all these thoughts in your head, like no, and it ain't gonna be the same, this and that. So it stopped you, so it prolongs. So imagine you doing that with your friends. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: You get what I'm saying? The people that we said was friends and we thought we'd never be a part. You know what I mean? But life got its ways, right? Everybody start having kids, you start having responsibilities and shit like that. Now you realize, like, damn, our everyday joint wasn't as locked in as we thought. You know what I mean? Like, some stuff Jhalil: Mm. Deion: can put you separate the shit out of you, like. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: But when you in it, you ain't, you know what I'm saying? And that's the same way I feel too, man. And that's that's what's prolonging my john to be like, you know, I'm done with this this wee shit. And my thoughts. You know what I mean? The thoughts that I I keep heavy, like that I put on a pedestal, like, you know what I mean? I I got the thought it, that shit don't bother me and all of this type. But what I discovered too, and I don't mean to leave long winded and shit, is like I've been in I've been stu I was telling Jay the other day, like I'm like, damn, am I on some cowardly shit? You know what I mean? Cause a lot of stuff I don't speak on. And I'd be like justifying it. I'll be like, nah, that's my Capricorn, or like, nah, that's my my spirit. I don't be, you know what I'm saying? Like, but it's like, nah, like, you're not even in charge of that for real, for real. Like, if it come through you, you should say it. Like, you know what I mean? Because it need to be said. Like, it can save lives, it can do a lot of different things and shit, you know what I mean? But I didn't convince myself like nah especially when times when I don't say nothing then the the results become okay or something like that. I'll be like, yeah, see, see I I shouldn't have never said that's why I should and times like that, it could be true. Like you know times that you should, you mean. And you know, I suggest that to a lot of women too. They get the going. Shut the fuck up, man. Like You get what I'm saying? Like, it ain't about submission and about nothing. It's about our life and living, continuing to live. Sometimes all that, I gotta say something. Shut the fuck up. You know what I'm saying? Like you do not have to be keep running your fucking mouth right now. You know what I'm saying? Like, we can talk that shit once this situation over, but like, yeah, you know what I mean? Cause it could be a lot of and I don't mean to jump off that, but it just This was really you mean Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: is a woman could really Escalate some shit and and ain't that it ain't had to be necessary. Like, you get what I'm saying? And that's the same way, you feel me? Like, man come up and he approach a man on man situation. It's like, bro, do I have to be your mind'd be a trick? You like, no, nigga, like you gotta stand up as the man, do this and that, And you will act on that shit, and then you will get the trouble from it. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: It could be jail, it could be whatever, you feel me? Like, but it alters your shit. If you was just going to the store, now you gotta be on a run. Jhalil: Yeah, that's drawn. Deion: That's a crazy john, you feel what I'm saying? So and then it'd be like, man, like, you know, if we keep going that route, like, you know, it can just get more dangerous and dangerous. You know what I'm saying? And to a to a death end, like, and so I'm like, man, no, I gotta get off this train, like, you feel me? Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: I s I said it like, yeah. I'm on some white supremacy, but yeah, like my if I don't change this way of thinking, bro, then I I'm helping them. You know what I'm saying? Like, we helping them, bro. Like, if you don't check sis about her behaviors and all that, like we helping the white supremacy shit, bro. If you don't check Jhalil: You what my fault. Grab me a drone too. the joint I always get. The latte, you know, so Yeah. that's real rap though. Like, but I feel as though, bro, sometimes it's like it's a time for that shit and then sometimes it's not for the the time for that shit. Like, but I do believe in saying what you guys say, bro, cause like some people just never swear they wrong. Some people won't understand that they wrong until they hear that certain words from coming from somebody else. A lot of people just So yeah, like well I feel as though like some things definitely need to be said but it's like them times where it's like we we real angered about shit and all that like I don't I just don't think that's the right time to say it. You feel me because like a lot of people we don't know how to actually communicate when we angry. You feel me? Especially at the person that we communicating with. So it's like it's a healthy time and then it's an unhealthy time. Like, for example, we was talking about the job the other day with the mentor and and all of that, you feel me? Like Like sometimes you gotta you gotta step in and and say what you gotta say to the the third party in that situation. Cause they don't know what's going on. You feel me? But like at the same time, if you and party one had something in agreement and y'all already set something up, like third party don't got nothing to do with that. But at the same time, how would he know? Unless you was the tell him and keep it real. Like, listen, bro, that's Deion: you Jhalil: Not this one, this ain't for you. You feel me? So data times you do gotta stuff in like when it's about business and it's about some real life me and some real life shit as men, bro. We gotta have them tough conversations, bro. Like, and it's Deion: you You. Jhalil: just like hopefully that we when we do have these conversations, this somebody will So you don't gotta get fucked up, you feel me? Like, bro Like we don't wanna have to dupe nobody up or whatever, but sometimes it comes to that, man, and that's that's unfortunate, but like as men, bro, sometimes we gotta clash to see it the same way or to get over shit. And it don't always gotta be a clash with like violence and none of that, but it can be a little debate, it could be whatever. But it's information being transferred that the other party didn't even know. You feel me? So We can't hold our shit with everything. But with some things like a argument with the spouse and all that, that can wait till later. Like that's my spouse. You feel me? We ain't gonna separate from the argument. So I can wait a little bit until I calm down to the throw my little two cents in it or whatever. But I'm not gonna try Deion: You are welcome. Jhalil: to say it while she at the top of her lungs tryna it it just it ain't no benefit to that, bruh. Deion: Yeah. You know, I was trying to land something on a cowardly mind-john, because it's like, I was saying it in a sense, like, even if it's a rumble or something like that, I see kids going through something. My mind, like, I'm not intervening with, you get what I'm saying? Like, I'm not intervening. I got to talk myself out of it, you get what I'm saying? But I also got a natural drawn to just go jump right, like, what y'all doing? Now you get what I'm saying? And cowardly in that sense, you get what I'm saying? Cause you'll hate to see later that something happened bigger than what you could have stopped it from being. You get what I'm saying? And it's not enough Jhalil: Yeah, yeah, yeah. Deion: of that. It's not enough of that. You get what I'm saying? And for me, I'm just... being responsible, accountable for myself. Like, yo, I can't do it, even if it's risky for me. We just can't do it as humans, you know what I'm saying? Because it's like, nah, that ain't what it is. You feel me? And as we talking, we starting to understand like the mind is a motherfucker, a powerful Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: motherfucker. So I only can imagine what those kids' minds think of and stuff like that. You feel me? So. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: They don't even know that this is what's happening. Both of your minds is leading you physically and you're about to... And when you really think about the use in them, none of them wanna fight. None of them know why. You know what I'm saying? no. When I went to go play ball, bro, I wanted to go play ball. I didn't wanna think that I was gonna have to get in a fight. I didn't want to the boxing Jhalil: Mm. Deion: gym. I would went to the boxing gym for that if that's the way I was thinking. You get what I'm saying? And that's what I mean. Like you get me like we allowed that like we allowed that. So now that the basketball court is okay, like if you rumble, it's Jhalil: Yeah, bro. Deion: like, the me I wanted to play ball, bro. And I'm a joyous loving person to me, right? What people be saying, right? You know, I listen to what people don't say, but they what they not saying about Philadelphia. and all of that and when people say that I'm from north, I'm from south on this they like like they get in love with their mind. You know what saying? Because like I said, a lot of times we get to the you and the you. It don't be that. You know what I'm Jhalil: Yeah, right. Deion: Who the fuck want I do? Who want me angry? As a human being, with, with, cause even people with not all they limbs be happy. So who, you got everything, bro. You all equipped. Why? Because all the toxic stuff that they putting in us and that we putting in ourselves, Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: you know, like you said, me with the cigarettes, everything. I'm sitting here wondering why I'm so angry. Why I can't get past being angry, bro? Like, I really said, like, I'm angry as shit on the love. I had to stop me, like, you ain't even an angry person. Like, you know mean? Buck, like, smile, buck like that, fun, be jokeful, you know I mean? Like, as you walk around, that serious ass face, like. They didn't convince you that is protection. They didn't convince you that is a defense. You told me the whole time Jhalil: Yeah, bro. And the way we came up. Deion: I'm talking around, I'm like, because now I'm like, I don't want nobody to approach me to say nothing to me. You feel me? don't even want you to think that you got a chance, bro, to say something. And that's what's leading in my life, But to me, it's like, not even, bro, I'm so inviting, nigga. I just need you to come to the crib, nigga. You feel me? But because we got Jackers and home evasions and all these things that's put into your mind, it's like the natural human thing to... you're a stranger. What the fuck is a stranger? If we all the same. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: You a human being, I'm a human being. You mean, dogs let loose, dogs walk up on each other, sniff. yeah, you a dog. We out. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: You past human, this is like you a species of some kind and they mine or I don't want to know what the image or what y'all think of me. You get what I'm saying? It's just like. You think about all Jhalil: Yeah, bro. Deion: of this stuff, bro, like wow. And like I said, people not saying like, yo, when I walk down the street, I'd rather be happy with everybody. Instead, we like stone cold. You know saying? So when people talk Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: about Philly and opportunities and all that, this is it. I mean. Jhalil: Yeah, plus bro, it comes from it come from too, like how like in our city and like in our hoods and all that, like pride and ego above all. You feel me? Like it it really was like that for some reason. Like I I don't know where it came from. I don't know how it became so prominent and where we come from, but bro, like I don't know, like that celebrity attitude and and like Me thinking my shit that I got going on is way more important than yours and like I do this to you and all of that. Like all of that then swarmed it, bro. And it was like at some point, man, it's like, damn, bro, it consumed me too. You feel me? Like, and you gotta Deion: Okay. Jhalil: be able to bust out of that shit, dog. Like, and but it goes back to like like we say all the time, bro, energy is magnetic. That we in places where everybody is like that. How can you be the only one that's gonna be on some nice shit, joyous walking down the street? Now everybody with that same crazy ass attitude gonna look at you like you sweet. Like like you green or something. Feel me? So I I understand where it comes from, but at the same time, it's like, no, bro, like the more that shit, the more Positive shit that you put out, bro, the more positive that come back to you. It don't matter where you at. Like, real rare, it don't matter where you at, dog. Like Deion: And that's crazy, bro. Because as you say, I'm really picturing the hoods in our city, Jhalil: well. Deion: And I'm like, yo, we all on that same type time, like, you know what I'm saying? Like, you probably, there's probably so much talent and inventions and all kinds of stuff underneath. the shit that we put up over top. You know what mean? Jhalil: It is. Deion: Like what? Like motherfuckers really can cook they ass off. Motherfuckers really can dance. Motherfuckers really could flip and be a gymnast. Like all kinds of like beautiful things. You know Jhalil: Hey bro. Deion: what I mean? And you gotta think about it too, bro. Cause it's like, if we like that, then that mean we holding, we holding. Each other can't do. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: And all you're ready to free each other is to be that real like, no, bro. I wanna let you go, bro. I wanna free you. You know what I'm saying? Cause think about it, bro. To listen to somebody else's traumas and you doing okay. That's a little codependent, especially when you can utilize it to keep the person where they at. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: Meaning like, if you okay, you got the stuff you need. You did it, you know how to do it. But this person on the phone, your friend, your homie, like, they telling you all the shit that they going through in life. You know what mean? And you like, Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: and the feedback ain't from you, it's from like your mind and some other shit. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: You what mean? And you might even think it like, don't want her to get out of that shit. I don't want her to get ahead of me. You know what I mean? So I'm not going to tell her what's needed. Jhalil: Yeah, that's nutshit. Deion: then you attach minding your business to it. You feel me? You really amazin'. You talk about Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: the YNs. I don't hear a lot or enough about the women too. We all conditioned the young ladies is probably worse. Jhalil: Yeah, right, right, bro. Like that, and that's a shame because it's like, bro, that's where it like that's where the nurture, that's where all of that shit is supposed to be coming from. Like the feminist, like, not the feminist, like feminism and all of that, like that comes from like females. Like, you know, it's masculine, then it's feminine. Like, so if we got the young women trying to be masculine. Like that's not you feel me, it's no benefit now. Everybody hard. Deion: but you got that. You got that. That women that's being masculine Jhalil: Yeah, yeah, yeah. Deion: and passionate to the young ladies and just like, Jhalil: And then it's like they don't tell them the truth, bro. They don't tell them the truth. Yeah, I'm fifty. I get niggas and I did it, fuck these niggas and da da da da da. But you don't got no man. When you go home and lay in the bed, bro, is nobody that wanna be there with you. It's nobody that wanna be like, damn, babe, let me rub your feet. It's nobody that wanna be there like, no, fuck that. You ain't gotta call a plumber. I'ma fix the X trap S trap under the sink. It's nobody there to make it easier on you. Like, and then now we in a A place where we can see everything that's being said about us. So it's like now you riding by in the wheel, you see a female with a broke down tire or something. Like depending on how she looks, bro. And I ain't saying this Deion: Now. Jhalil: right, but depending on how she looks, how she's dressed, all of that shit, that's gonna determine if you're gonna help or not, bro. You feel me? Because it's like, damn, I don't know. She can be one of them drones who be talking that bullshit. Deion: Any words? Jhalil: Like so it's like it's putting us in a bad position and like we can't just let these certain little things influence us 'cause like females do they definitely be talking a lot of shit about us at the end of the day, but it's like come on, bro, who y'all do it for? Other women, like Deion: . Jhalil: what's the what's the fight? Like you you saying how bad we is and all that in turn for what reward? Do you want men or you don't want men? Like, so if you don't want men, you don't want to drive over bridges, you don't want electricity in your house, you don't want to sidewalk the wall going, you like what are you talking about, bro? This shit would be crazy without us. Like, it's and it's like it takes a mixture of both masculine and feminine. That's what they not understanding. And Deion: So, thank Jhalil: since we don't have feminine females to be around, like dog, we not fucking with that. Like we not coming at y'all. Niggas not having kids like that no more. Niggas not getting married like that no more. Niggas is staying clear, bro. And that shit got us hardened. Cause it's like, damn, we gotta look outside and see all these other races don't like us. We gotta look and see, yeah, well, we ain't qualified because we this color. We black men, we angry, we all that. And then now we go in the house. It's a fucking war in there too. Like, come on, bro. Like that that shit is Deion: So, thank Jhalil: It's preposterous. You feel me? Like, come on, dog. Deion: That's what I'm saying. We gotta go beyond that. You know what mean? Cause that's the results. And I Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: don't want us to keep staying in the results. Like everybody keeps Jhalil: Yeah, yeah. Deion: talking about the results. Like I'm gonna go through their experiences with men. Yo, if we all saying that we damaged from slavery and all that, then we gotta have grace. You dealing with these guys. or they gave you a bad experience, but they got a bad experience. They got Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: a bad experience. So if everybody keep going on for that, you feel me? Now, what we doing is keeping it present in our mind. So now you can't even go forward from it because you keep putting it in the future. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: You know what I'm saying? So now if you, you label every man and every woman to do the same thing, then that's why it's keep going to continue. You feel what I'm saying? It's Jhalil: Maybe Deion: just gonna keep appearing. No, you gotta be in the present. All right, this man is trying to break his chains. You try and break your chains. Now we working with something. You know what I mean? Soon as something happen. Right. Jhalil: Yes, yeah. But ain't nobody taking accountability, dog. Like Deion: And soon as something happened, we gotta think, we gotta be responsible for ourselves and say, yo, all right, yeah, no, that came from the whites supremacist shit, that came from oppression, that came from that thinking, hold on, not me, let's separate that. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: And now when you accept my apology, you really accept my apology. You know what mean? And I'm not just going to say it just so we can move forward. You know what mean? A lot of apology and all that come from like, yeah, you say you're going to work on yourself, but really work on yourself. Like really work on yourself. You feel what I'm saying? Jhalil: Yeah. But I see before that though, it go back to the like saying what we gotta say. Cause I ain't gonna lie, bro. Before we can move past anything and get the solution, bro, it's like it's certain things, bro, that just can't be just swept under the rug. Like, for example, like we always hear like how women's intuition is so strong. You feel me? So how you can sense if a nigga cheating or something, but you can't like You can't sense if a nigga ain't no good. You can't like you can't like receive when a nigga unhappy and shit like that, bro. Like get out of here, but then jump on the jown and bash all of us equally. Like you know all of us. And then it's like they hold us to so low standard that they think like some women think that we asleep with any woman just because you a woman. Some of y'all is buzzards. You feel me? Some of y'all don't have anything to offer. Some of y'all look good, but y'all smell funky. You feel me? Just the same as men. So it's like, bro, instead of all this bashing and before we get to the solution, bro, some things, some feelings got to get hurt, bro. Cause it's like that's the only thing they fucking understand sometimes, bro. And it's a shame that it's like that, but like my shit is a balance. My shit is equality, bro. So it's like I can't just take all of these things without No, bro. We're gonna have to level this out. Fuck that, dawg. Deion: If you willing to move forward, you just gotta let it go. That's the only thing. You feel me? Because you can't keep, you can't be like, or we can move forward but those scratches hurt it and no we gotta talk about it. Jhalil: That's why we talk about the scratches and then we move forward. Like that's why we talk about that first. Deion: But what is it going to That's what I'm saying. So what is it going to do? Jhalil: Cause then our solution can be like Deion: Now that you talk about it, like what? Jhalil: our solution is like, damn, I feel what you said, that scratch. Like I didn't even know that that would hurt you in that way. Or what you said to me in return, that's why I threw that scratch in the first place. Then after that's understood, then after that's talked about and understood, like now we come up with a solution how we don't scratch each other. And we know now why we shouldn't and how we You mean how we wouldn't throw that same low blow. Feel me? But it gotta be some type of understanding. Cause my that just cause we understand, that don't mean that another person gonna understand at the same level if we didn't have that conversation first. Like real rap, I just I don't know. I just don't see anything like getting solved like that. And when I say like a little conversation or a back and forth or debate, a healthy genre is what I'm talking. That don't mean we gotta fight and do all this extra shit and then come to a solution all. But I also need you to know how that made me feel and what the results of that was about to be. You feel me, before we even move on to the solution. Cause if you cut me too bad and I tell you about it, you cut me again, you're done. It ain't no like I don't care about no solution. My solution is to be to move on. You feel me? And that's without the same person. To be honest, bros. Deion: Yeah. Thank Jhalil: 'Cause it's like some people just I don't know, bro, like sometimes that shit just don't add up, bro. Energy's gotta match, bro. Like if if it don't if people not willing to, you know, cut some of their negative shit off and then, you know, take accountability for some things, bro, just because we come up with a solution, that don't mean you're gonna follow the rules. We looking at it like Deion: I mean, we coming from damaged places, damaged Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: places, like, so if we all damaged, to talk about the damage is like to keep living the damage. You get what I'm saying? Like, the longer we talk about it, the more I ain't gonna give up on it. To see how you... not letting certain things go. You're like, no, that made me feel this way. So, you know what I'm saying? So it's like, if we move into something new, come and go. The only reason that feeling is gonna be present if you keep it with us as we go through this journey. You get what I'm saying? And if we go on somewhere new, we don't need that old stuff, none of it. You get what I'm saying? Like, we don't need none of that, ooh, it's the power of now. You get what I'm saying? And that's my struggle. That's what I'm going through now. You feel what I'm saying? That's what it is. So I'm like, I want to stop smoking cigarettes. They bad for you, but they're filling the game. I'm holding on to that. I can't get past not smoking. You get what I'm saying? So that's my struggle. And I'm too legit in name trying let it go. And that's what I understand, bro. The things that we don't want to let go be the things that hold us back. You get what I'm saying? Jhalil: So let me so let me ask you a question because I I feel like I'm fifty percent there, but like I wanna ask you a question, right? Say you mind your business, right? And like somebody just attack your house and and blow you up and and like it me and you and your family injured and all that. Like your solution would be to just, you know, just Just do something else. You wouldn't like you feel you wouldn't take that no type of way. That wouldn't like even though your whole life has Deion: That's why I'm saying this. Jhalil: changed, you can't walk no more or nothing. You you'll just be like, All right me to like what what would you like what would it be, bro? Deion: I can't go into that story, because that story come with a beginning, a middle, and an end. You see what I'm saying? And that's what we do. We playing a movie like that's beginning this episode one, you know what I'm saying? Like, and I'm saying like, before that movie even get written. It gotta be natural stuff, normal stuff. If you keep giving me solutions that's from the damage shit that we, I ain't gonna have no choice but to say the results that we've been taught to respond by. Somebody punched me in my face, I'm geared to punch them back in they face. You know I'm saying? So when we hear people never getting punched in they face, He's like, huh? That's what you think you get what I'm saying? Because our mind won't go. It's trying to stay relevant and stay in those those spaces. Every living entity want to live. You know what mean? Like a fly don't know how annoying he is to a human because he not that. You know what he can do with a fly? He can do. So we fly and be on shit and be on you, irritate you, do all this shit. That's his... But he's trying to live. That's his instinct. You feel what I'm saying? Like a fly with everything. The trees. You get what I'm saying? And they don't go through all the feelings and emotional stuff that we go through. Life is just set up. Now we say our life is set up, but we combat it at every point we can. You know what mean? Because men is saying stuff. Men is saying this. You know what mean? Women is saying this. Not the create. the creator saying that you get me, but that's our ability as humans. We able to get to do all of this stuff, have feelings, emotions, all of these different things. You feel me? Like I do something to my dog. I'm thinking he gonna be fucked up forever. Cause I'm human and that's how we operate. But my dog be like regular is here. Just go back to like what he do. Like you get me? Like, you know, know, chain. You get what I'm saying? I read like success is like when a bird unites with everything that he is already. You know what saying? So we don't gotta go to school to learn to fly like a bird. You know what I'm saying? So we as humans, got everything. They put school, they put all of these things in our path. Now we like, you gotta be the most intelligent to come out of that school. And you know what I'm saying? All of these separational things that's being put in play. You know what mean? So that's what I mean like when you take the imagination we took all of that because now when we really it'd be hard to imagine life without the stuff that we already experienced like you know what mean if we saying we gonna move forward to something like what that new fresh life gonna look like it's a canvas that's blank I don't want to take what he did yesterday and put it on the You get what I'm saying? Like, cause now the canvas going, going back in a cycle of coming back. You know what I'm saying? Jhalil: I don't know. I see it like that with certain things, bro. It's just I don't know. I don't I don't really feel that way, bro, to be honest, cause I feel like everything is a cause and effect, bro. And then it's like once the effect comes and then like people going through it, like I don't think you can just brush it off and just move to the next thing, bro. Cause then that it that'll give the person that did the shit or the whatever it is the opportunity to just do it again. And it's like, I don't know. I I just I just don't see it being like that, bro. Like to be honest, like I could try to be like, well yeah, you know, like due to this, now my family lineage is going through this through ninety years of having to deal with this bullshit where people kept trying to build up and then it got demolished. People try to separate, do their own thing, it got demolished. People try to build up something else, forget about it, it got demolished. So it's like at that point, bro, it's like me like having a mind to think and like not just on some negative shit, bro. It's like something has to be done. Not just switching the game up again. Like that's why all of this shit is popping. That's why most of these things get created and most of these like new systems come about, bro. It's from people trying new things and then Deion: you Jhalil: People's ideas getting taken, whatever the case is. Like, it's no, it's like saying there's no remedy to that. Like it's no, it's no like consequence to to certain things, bro. And I just I don't believe that. Like, I don't believe that like every consequence gotta be violent. But like it gotta be some type of consequence. Like, like the shit that's going on in Italy right now, bro. I'm guessing they can't afford their fucking rent. They can't afford their bills. They can't afford basic necessities. You feel me? So it's like, you know what they did? They decide to stand together and say, fuck all of that. We're not paying our bills. We're not going to work. We not doing this. We not doing that. And that's that's their consequence to like whoever's controlling that shit in that way to change things. So that's what I mean, bro. It it gotta be some type of action. Like it can't just be like, well no, y'all didn't With me 8,800 times, I'ma just say, fuck it. I'ma just go around the corner when y'all come. No. It it's just not. It's not gonna change anything, bro. Cause like the bully don't just stop bullying you because he's starting to feel bad for you. The bully like stop bullying you once you stand up for yourself, bro. And I think it ain't been enough of that shit with like with Americans in this country at all, bro. It ain't been enough. Like, cause why the fuck They are still trying to pay some places paying nine dollars an hour, some places paying ten. Our hair is fifteen. But every month our energy cost is going up due to data centers being built. They taking all the water, all the natural resources cause we use an AI, all of this shit, bro. And it's like we can't afford none of the shit that we wanna do. We live in life like two pay bills. Like that that affects most of our like natural energy to just go out and have fun or just be a person and not have to think about this button, bro, we trapped in a cycle of just going to work, paying bills and figuring out how we gonna survive. That's that's not how we supposed to live life, bro. And I feel like until we do something about that shit, they gonna keep doing it. And the people who are they, they the ones with six hundred billion dollars, two trillion dollars. This and that. And I ain't taking nothing away from people who worked hard and, you know, got their bread and made investments. So be it, cool. But it's like for all of this shit, all of these taxes to be taken out of everything niggas make and all these speed and tickets and all these tickets for parking places and all that, where is a city, you feel me, that that got no power. And it is almost like a month and a half that they ain't have no power at all. You feel me? So it's like certain shit like that. I feel like that's the shit you need to fight for. It need be a consequence to that to them actions, bro. I can't just be like, all right, well yeah, we gonna go there and build a whole new power system for them. Why? So they can whoever in charge over there can take it away again with no repercussions, no No, bro. Real shit, I'm sick of that. Like it just it just that's not the natural flow of shit in my world. And and like How I see things anyway. Like, and it's a lot of things that you know, you would just let slide past, like, and figure out something else for. Is it's according to the situation. Everything not is severe enough to be like, no, well, you need to fill it and da da da da. So I feel what you're saying, bro. Everything don't need to be addressed, but it's a lot of things that do need to be addressed, bro. Cause like, come on, bro. We working three times harder just to make enough to pay this shit. Come on, bro. That's that's ridiculous. It should be a consequence of that. Deion: I mean, like, you know, we jumped to a couple different things, but I accept everything you're saying, right? Because the first thing you do is say, feel, right? And so anything that follows is more of a feeling than anything. You get what I'm saying? So I'm separating that. I don't, in my learning to try to really separate me from my mom, I'm learning all of that too. You know what saying? Like, it'll stop me from being healthy if I'm like, man, I don't feel like eating onions and I don't like onions. I don't like green peppers. don't like, you know what mean? Like, that's what Phil and I like and stuff like that do. You know what mean? So your natural thing to be healthy is determined by how you feel and what you like. That's what I'm noticing. Hold the fuck up. You know what mean? Like fuck if I like it or not. Fuck if I feel good about it. This is what I need. You feel what I'm saying? Same thing you would tell a child. You get me? Fuck if you like these green peas or whatever. You need to eat them, because they're going to do X, Y, and Z for your internal. You mean? to uncompressed. Jhalil: Yeah, and they got niggas not eating that shit. They they not eating that shit, bro. And that shit got niggas testosterone low and that shit got niggas acting like women. Like back in the day, bro, niggas took charge and I'm not saying of people. And this is not a feeling. This is actual truth. Like motherfuckers got up and did it because that's what needed to be done. And then now it's like we got we got people out here that's no, I don't I don't eat onions. No, I don't eat beets. I don't want this. I don't want none of that. But like that's the shit that's good. That's good for your testicles. That's good for your man health. That's good. Like, you feel me? And we avoiding all of those things. Like, so it's like, I don't know, bro. Maybe because I eat all that shit, it got me with my still, bro. And listen, bro. It ain't none of that. Like you said, bro. It ain't about what we like and all that shit. It's about what we need, bro, and what we need to do. Deion: And that's what I'm saying. Your feelings about... That's identification, bro. You know what mean? Like, I don't want to tell you that you a man and you shouldn't feel. You know what mean? But at the same time, these are things that you might tell your daughter or your wife. I don't give a fuck how y'all feel. We need to do this to protect our family. You get what I'm saying? It's not... And when you say it, more feelings are gonna come. You see what I'm saying? That's what feeling... And if you allow that, then nothing else is going past that. You can't get nothing past that. You know what I'm saying? Like, if I'm stuck at a feeling, bro... Ain't nothing happen. I'm telling you that right now. You feel me? You try to help two niggas get together and the one don't feel like, nigga, you're apology on me and shit, because I feel like you did that shit on purpose, nigga. Where we going with that? Where we? no, you got to learn, because he feels a higher weight than you feel. Nah. match with both of y'all feeling about it. The fact is we had a boxing match and if y'all don't stop y'all feeling shit, everybody in this arena gonna have to leave this boxing match and no one else is gonna be able to see it because y'all... This is Jhalil: Just still all the dog. Deion: I'm talking about, you feel me? Like that woman, grown ass woman got her kids out there but she feel disrespected. So she gotta stay out there and prove that. Nobody ever should make up and what's the feeling? Uncomfortability. You feel uncomfortable because what? You get what I'm saying? Like she feels uncomfortable because now when the mind seeps in and says, people won't talk about you good. Now all of that's added in. You get what I'm saying? So all of these things is why the results is like this. You know what mean? Like the results of outside is a lot of people still feeling tight waves about shit. But the past, and you know who thrives off of that? The mind, because the mind gotta stay relevant. You doing the mind job for you in that manner of negativity because it's keep replaying that same drone. So it's eating. The mind eating, the pain body eating. But you suffer. You know what mean? Like, when I go answer that call for the cigarette, the cigarette in my mind is winning. But me, I'm suffering. So at a point, I got a pussy. Y'all ain't going to live through me no more, unless it's the way I want y'all to live. through me. So that's why thinking how you think is like so you feel me because we thinking about it the same in the same manner but the thinking is a little different so the outcome is a little different you see what I'm saying and as soon as you change the thinking then it's gonna circle back around like you feel me But the thought without the feeling. Yeah, I think that you're right, but I still don't feel it. You see that separation, you get what I'm saying? So it's gonna be hard for those things to coexist. You know what I'm saying? And these things become the battle, like, shit. My volume check for this drum was sad, and you like, yo, it's the nicotine, it's the chemicals, bro. Got your mind off balance. You see what I'm saying? I listened. I'm like, yeah, I'm taking that. Because that's, I feel that. You know what And my feeling now is to free me, free Dion. So any good feeling towards that, yeah, I'm rocking with that feeling. You see what I'm saying? So that's why I'm learning it ain't a negative and positive unless it's in something that needed, like a battery, like technology, a machine. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: Negative positive exists in a machine, something that need battery, something that need. But with humans, it's like, no, we go through all experiences. And it ain't a right or wrong on them. You know what saying? This is what you gonna make up. You gonna take that badge on and keep it going bad? I ain't even really mean to say bad, you gonna take that because you think about it, right? Our shit was set up for us to not have a lot of resources and to be in poverty stripping of resources. So anytime we go back to try and think about how we can get out of it, we gonna list all of the things. But these the results. No, Lord man may have robbed me in 2020. Yeah, because we all was impoverished. Little man man don't do that if we not dare. You feel what I'm saying? But it's hard to think about a place like that if we don't remove this white supremacist shit in our mind. To be better than somebody, to have competence, all of that is white supremacy, You feel me? And because they did a number. So we get to these results of where we talking about minimum wages and all of these things from just overnight. No, this shit been in play. It's for eons, you know what saying? Not eons, but this from years. So it ain't gonna be no snap of a finger that we change the way our mental, but that's gonna be our escape from a oppression. You know what saying? Soon as we say it, what's the first thing a nigga say? We can't beat them in a war. They got more guns than us. got this, that, that, What you not saying is, yo, that's tightening our mind up. Stripping that jaw. And then like we can destroy them because now we don't need the cigarettes. Now we don't need to run to the market. Now we don't need to. You see what I'm saying? The Jhalil: Maybe. Deion: need for me to get out of poverty and me think about getting rich, I got to use one of their systems, one of their YouTubes, one of their Spotify, one of their water treatment centers, one of their... So I'm always captivated, bro. until I get out of that mind of that that conditioning. You feel me? Now I can think clear like, no, I ain't running after that. I'm going to buy this land and we going to make our own. I see a nigga on the joint. He done got so much bread to make a joint that that he recycled old recyclable stuff to make gas. You know how much time I'm it, bro. I can't even think like that right now because I'm thinking about going to work and stuff like that. And if I miss a build, I'm going to be fucked up. You see what I'm saying? I'm so in that, that I can never be thinking about a new invention, bro. You know what saying? Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: Like, bro, really fucking me. You would call that some nut ass shit. Like, bro, some nut ass shit. Like, we gotta get money right now. Like, what the fuck, bro? White supremacy. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: Cause all in it, you know you can't really do all of that. You can't get up like that. Cause they had a snap of a finger. If they want to take it, they can take it. But with him, nobody even know where he at to take it. He off the grid doing some, you know what mean? But it's on social media and shit. Everybody can see it. It's like, yo, what the fuck? What he got in him that allow him to go? Or am I missing something? Cause I'm only seeing the tape. So he might be gardening, he might be doing something, right? Or that might not even be even important. You get what I'm saying? Cause when you live in the South and there's all land and all that, and you don't got the distraction of the big city stuff. I don't, like, there ain't no, I don't, this is a 40 hours down there if you in the country. Jhalil: It gotta be, bro. I don't know though. I don't know because Deion: See what I'm saying? Our mind would go straight to yeah. But as I think about it, I'm like country life, don't really be. No, you get up and you go charm the motherfucking ground to grow your crops in the dude like, you know what I'm saying? Like. And that's that's like living. They don't feel like working. Because what you're doing, you're going to feed yourself with. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: We going to work for 40 hours so we can get money. You see what I'm saying? not the... And that's convincing us that that's our living, that's our life. We wanna live like, you know what mean? But I don't think people in the country live and that's more nature, bro. That's more connected with the nature. They doing natural, natural, natural stuff. At least that's what I'm seeing from a distance. I ain't never lived it, so I don't really know, but I live the city life, so I know. You know what I'm saying? But for me, I'm like, man, I'd rather be doing that, bro. That feel more value and more success to me than if I made it from the mud in the city and then I build up and go. live off away from everything. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: You get what I'm saying? Like, like, no. Like I said, like people saying, bro, the life of Jay-Z, you look at it is like, yeah. But if you not like, like if you can't accept, that's not a joint you should want. I'm telling you, when you get there and you bombarded by all that and you can't be regular. I don't wanna do nothing weird. ain't regular, bro. That's why I think I'm not so gung-ho off about being a celebrity or something, Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: You know what saying? And I can look at it like, damn, I failed in life. Maybe I was saved, because I really, my me, I don't be wanting that shit. Jhalil: Yeah. Too much. Deion: You know what saying? To have a billion, but God give up the rest is like, nah, bro. That's what I'm saying, bro. We be happy in the hood, regular. When we can get together with each other and build, we happy. You know what I'm saying? I seen that shit. You get real unhappy if somebody bring money in it. and try to separate from that human experience right there. You see it, right? You in a group, right? And y'all just enjoying that shit. And the nigga like, yeah, I just made 32 million though. That should have make you like... Jhalil: Mm. Deion: Cause we in a moment of y'know saying right now bro. And most of us internally probably feel like we fucked up. So to mention that you getting money while we trying wrestle through just being happy. You know what saying? And then Jhalil: jedne Deion: they'll leave like, the bros don't want to see me. No. And I ain't got shit to do. You taking it off one thing and trying to put it on. No. Be accountable for what you just did at that moment. You. Come on, bro. We ain't need that. You get what I'm saying? A lot of women think it's funny. They want to Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: be funny geeking and all that. It's not that time. This is serious right now. Like we really at war, bro. We out here. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: That's, that's, I'm telling myself this so I can pipe myself up so I can stop smoking cigarettes and stop so I can do what I need to do, bro. I'm going say that first and foremost. You know what mean? But at the same time, like. We all in this shit bro and we at war. I seen a joint the other day, it was a clip right? Boy snuck around the boy, smacked this bear out his head like, we off that, you gonna do better. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: You know what mean? And I remember I used to see the clip of the boy that was going around smacking niggas cigarettes out of their hand. used to be like, yo, don't fucking play with me. But I had to realize, like, that's not defending you. That's defending more of the cigarette. Jhalil: De Deion: The nigga trying to tell me something good for my health and I'm fighting back for it. I'm really conditioned, bro. I'm fucked up. I'm gonna need more. You know what I'm saying? And that's what Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: I'm meaning. We got a rally around that. Don't let him drown in them feelings and all that. No, grip him up. You know what I'm saying? So me telling you about Jay, I'm like, I had to wrestle through fellas and shit to leave out the door. You know what I was saying, But I'm like, no. I can't be on no feel like, you know what saying? I'm trying to change. I'm really trying to fight this disease, bro. I need everything. I need my nigga to come pull me the fuck out the door. And even if I felt uncomfortable, like, yo, you manhandling me. I need it. You feel me? Get me the fuck. Jhalil: Yeah, we're gonna see. Deion: Take me. You feel me? I get over the feeling shit later. But if I stay on the feeling, if I stay on the feeling shit, bro, I'm be back in the crib. Not changing, not throwing nothing. Jhalil: Yeah, you ain't even gonna go. Deion: Standing in that same front. No, my bro really real life trying to save me and I'm fighting against, no, I couldn't. I did it for a long time. That's why the prolonged is this long. Cause I for took. What? Nigga, that ain't disrespect, Pussy, don't be... No, when you said that, that made me feel a... No, pussy. Nah, as a man, you gotta really swim through that shit, break out them feelings. Feelings? You know Jhalil: Yeah, real shit. Deion: what mean? That's what I'm saying. When Harry said, it's time to go. Feelings? Bitch, I'm gonna shoot you in your head. We trying for freedom. I'ma kill the baby. I don't care. You get what I'm saying? Because it's bigger than Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: everything, bro. It's bigger than we at war. Jhalil: Yeah, okay. Deion: You know what mean? So I'm screaming this to myself, y'all. I swear to God. I'm trying to really replay it so I can hear it myself. So I won't, I can drown out the desires and cravings I have for, I want to smoke a cigarette. can't lie. That's what I want to do. The more I talk, the more I want to smoke cigarettes, everything. I'm trying to get out of it so I'm telling the truth. You get me? Like, I'm meeting with transparency because I'm really trying. I'm submitting, bro. You get what I'm saying? And I think that's the only real way, to get through it, to grow through it. You know what I'm saying? to get there and shit. And it's man shit. Jhalil: That's definitely the only way, man. Take that shit head on, bro. Like that shit hurt for the first two hours. Then at the four hours, it's like, damn, I got four hours. Then at the day, it's like, damn, it this was a day, it been three months. It been four months since I went a day. Like, you feel me? And that shit get Deion: Good. Jhalil: easier and easier, bro. Deion: And I gotta put some prayer with it. You feel me? God, remove these desires, cravings and all that from me, bro, for real. Because me by myself, it's been hard. I gotta moment Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: that. You feel what I'm saying? So it's like, yo, I feel like this the man shit, bro. All that Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: defining what a man is and everybody giving their definition, no. Maybe some of it, but. Jhalil: Right. Deion: For me in this moment, I'm discovering like yo, this the man shit. Jhalil: Real rap is identifying then rectifying that shit, bro. That's that's what it's about. Deion: Yeah Jhalil: Real shit. Deion: You know what mean? And the only thing I ain't caring is now I don't care about what people think. I'm not thinking about what y'all gonna say when y'all hear this. don't, I don't. It's my life on the line. And people kept telling me that through life. Like, yo, your life on the line? I just ignored this shit out of that shit. Pussy, don't know what you talking about. the fuck up. All that's defense. All of that's keeping this Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: shit in me. You know what mean? So when I see young boys and the ladies and everybody saying it, I'm like, damn, that's where they at with theirs. And Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: I don't know what could be done. Maybe they got to keep on living. I don't know. Maybe I got to say something. You know what mean? Like maybe something tragic. I don't know. But I'm seeing it and I'm like, Only thing I could do is go back and check in on me and try. keep getting it better for me. Like, fuck. Or I'm Jhalil: Okay. Deion: seeing it for that purpose, like, shit. It's like, guys showing me my mirror, like, yeah, nigga, that's you. That's you, right? How you be cursing niggas out with a car and all that. These are all of the things you gotta really deal with to eliminate and escape that cigarette. Because why you doing Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: it? You know what mean? These are the things I questioned myself on, bro. This is the question that I'm enjoying on then. I'm like, damn, why am I doing this shit? What's the purpose? Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: And it's Jhalil: Shit. Deion: a process, bro, but I'm slowly like, you know, working. don't think it, I ain't smoke 30 years of cigarette, you feel me, overnight. So I can't expect like the result. And I be putting that pressure on myself like, you know, you need to quit tomorrow. And that by itself overwhelmingly make me smoke a cigarette. I'll stop doing that. You feel what I'm saying? I'm like, shit. Jhalil: Yeah, bro. That shit real man. My mom was going through that same fight too, bro. Like smoking ports at a certain time, bro. And then that shit fucked her lungs up and turned having to get a double lung transplant and all that. Now it been twenty-something years since she smoked the cigarette. You feel me? But she always talk about it like, damn, I'm mad that it took me that long for it to start affecting my health for me to stop them, Johns. You feel me? Like, so yeah, bro. It ain't shit to it but to do it, man. Them Jones definitely be calling niggas, bro. Cause remember I used to smoke pors too. And then I I cheated a little bit, cause I stopped smoking pors, I started smoking blacks. You feel me? I'm like, damn, that's a cheat move. Like, but I'm gutted too. all of that shit is bullshit, bro. You feel me? Especially if you ain't like Growing your own tobacco and using like some real tobacco that you grew, some some natural nicotine shit that's you feel me, that won't kill a shit out you. Like until we start you wanna smoke cigarettes that bad, bro, grow some tobacco. See how hard that shit is, see how hot it be going to pick that shit and prepare that shit and all that. By the time you done doing that, you ain't even gonna wanna smoke that shit no more. Real Deion: You Jhalil: right, bro, like Imagine if we had to really go f go to Kali, get the weed seed, germinate the seed, Deion: you Jhalil: get the right soil, try or error, grow the plant. By the time that shit grow, bro, you'll be two years older. Like nigga, you gonna be like, man, fuck Come on, bro. Only reason we be wanting that Deion: Thank Jhalil: shit could be right there. Like, you know what I mean? If we had to really Deion: Bye. Jhalil: put in the work to do that shit, it'll be a rant, bro. Nobody be smoking no ports, nigga. You gotta go to the tobacco Deion: Ding-dong! Jhalil: field. It's 118 Outside, nigga, it's sun beaten. Like you brown as the tobacco out there. Like, come on, bro. Ain't nobody doing all that, bro. Real shit. Deion: That's one of the manipulation tactics on us that we got unconditioned ourselves on, Because they made Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: it, they put it in play, right, early. And now the results is in. We so microwave now, like everything gotta be fast. So see how they manipulated you out of doing the slow stuff, growing your foods. Jhalil: Mm. Deion: You know what mean? Like, now I'm making it run to the market. I'm running to the, you know what mean? I ain't cook today. I'm gonna just shoot to the fast food, y'all. You see what I'm saying? Like, so it add up all that stuff they didn't put in play to condition us, right? Now, the receiving of stuff is so easy. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: They did the work. That's what I'm saying. Like our mind, everything, they did the number on us. They prepped us on little baby shit. That's what I'm saying. Think about it. Now they putting gender shit in middle elementary school. So by the they 40. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: It's gonna be endless on what they say. Jhalil: Indeed. Deion: You know what saying? So just thinking about it in this conversation, I'm like, damn, they really did enough. We got some work to do. Especially Trump and them, they in a New World Order type. You know I'm Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: And we sit here arguing about, you know. What Shante did to us and what Nate did to us and what Man Man and them going around the corner and. Jhalil: Right, Deion: Hey! Jhalil: bro. It's no solutions this shit, bro. It's just all you know, just keep talking about what happened. Like it it's no solutions, bro. Then it's like it's it's not even enough unity. It's like for us to even be unified, bro, we gotta kinda like reconcile with each other. Like, you feel me? 'Cause like we don't trust each other. Like a lot of us don't even like each other, bro. So it's like damn, how you even get to the point the the form, like, you feel me? The form of solution is we don't even know how to be around Deion: Because you gotta look at it, gotta look at it differently. Jhalil: each other. Deion: We gotta look at it differently. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: Like when you shot me bro, when you scammed me, when you did me dirty, when you backdoor me, that wasn't you. wasn't. You feel me? And I'm not talking to you. I don't want the audience to think like, why, why are you talking to her? I'm no, bro. Jhalil: Yeah. They said Daniel. Deion: I'm saying like, Jhalil: I didn't know he was like that. Deion: yeah, right. So you know that all of that is poverty, bro. You know what mean? Like when niggas Stole niggas video games when we was young girls, when you try to bully people, when you... All of that is poverty, bro. Jhalil: Yeah, real shit. Definitely wouldn't. Deion: So who you grew up to be ain't you, for real. That's what I'm saying, like, switch cigarettes and weed and all this shit did to my life. 41 years passed, bro. You feel what I'm saying? Because my physical, I'm there, I'm partying, I'm doing all these things. I'm thinking I'm living me. I'm doing me, you know. I'm doing them. You feel me? Like, they ain't benefiting me. They get to make a movie about us. They get to do all this different shit. Make, make livens off shit, right? Be somewhere off, in a good life. You know what I'm saying? While we fighting and doing all of this shit on a low level, like. And we the bottom of the pyramid that make everything. You get what I'm saying? That make everything Jhalil: dva Deion: go. So like you said, and that's the work too, bro. They put the work in. So when Italy rise to do that, that work ain't, that wasn't thick enough chains. We got thick enough chains, bro. So when we try to do something like Italy, it's so set up for it not to be like that. You know what mean? Like, try and get the whole community on one accord. Jhalil: Shit impossible. Deion: When everybody, everybody been, everybody, all the work been done that everybody differently. YEMSEE! So when they hear the cry out for the fight, it's gonna be like, I know. I need mines. I like potato chips too much. I can't live without my Cool Ranch. You feel me? Black Panthers, all that shit. Everything, bro. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: So when we talk about like, yeah, they came in bombthor shit. think that they had help from inside. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: You feel me? When niggas talk about Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: slavery, they never say the Queens and Queens from Africa sold a lot of the slaves that came over on the ships. Jhalil: You know my take on that shit. You know my take on Deion: That's a big part of the story. Jhalil: that shit. I ain't bring me on no shift. They ain't bring me drink. Deion: However, I'm talking about everything, bro. But I'm talking about everything, everything. Jhalil: Yeah, I know. I'm I'm just saying, man. Deion: Because, but look, but look at the blend. If I take people from Africa, I take people from the land that's already the land. I take people from over there in Haiti. take people. Jhalil: They won't never know for the Deion: Y'all are the strange to a point. Then you put out words like strangers and it start making sense to you after a while. Like, y'all are strangers. You see what I'm saying? So the hypnotic, I mean, the illusion runs thick. The illusion, you know, run, the number that's been done. It's a heavy jump. You know what mean? And shit, man, I'm surprised that we even got some good thoughts. mean, some revolving thoughts still generating through us to see it and still be in the fight. You get me? Because a lot of our brothers and sisters, bro, they done, they gave up. They're not. They not trying to fight to make they look so better than they don't even see it like that. They don't even care enough about themselves, ourselves to begin to do any work, That's how strong the condition get. You know what I'm saying? Jhalil: Really? Deion: Like, that condition is shit. Man. I put it to people like this, right? Think about when you conditioning your hair and all that. It's a process. Jhalil: Yeah, yeah. Deion: You put this on, you do this, you wash or clean it first. It's a process, you know what saying? So it's worked on you. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: to a point like when they do give you something, at first they told you he was a nappy head little nigga baby, right? So what happens from there? You get to a point where I don't wanna be a nappy head nigga. Now you trade in your natural self. for the story that they told you about yourself and you wanna trade it in them. I don't wanna be in that big head, no, no. So what they do? This fucking horse hair and all this fake hair and this and that and bald heads and you know what I'm saying? Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: All kinds of shit, right? Now what they can sell you? They can sell you hair. Jhalil: Yeah, and that's a that shit, man, that shit make me sad too, bro. Like not either even come at our women and none of that shit. But it it make me sad to see like black females with like BBLs and like titty jobs and news jobs. Like, bro, like you feel like y'all understand that, like, dog other people like dream for like y'all like physique and all of that shit, bro, and what y'all do and like y'all mindset and all that. So it's like to change it for some to be some other shit and there's like something that's fucking you over too, man. That's that's sad, bro. Like that's really a shame, man. I really hope the sisters just start like being like happy with themselves, bro. Like real shit, dog. I I never thought Deion: All of us, man. Jhalil: about yeah, my nose fat as shit. I'ma go get a a bony jaw. Or I don't like this. I'm about to go. I ain't about to do none of that, bro. What you see is what you get. Like real right, bro. I ain't never had no problem. Deion: That's why I say bro, that's why I say when you do live and you get like that, be thankful. You know what mean? Jhalil: right, bro. Deion: Cause you could have it. You know what I mean? That Jhalil: Yeah, really. Deion: could be a thing that you could be dealing with. You know I'm saying? And that's what it is. Like a lot of people work like to even have to fight with yourself. to one, get a BBW or B, I mean, a BBL or whatever. Only think about that process, bro. That gotta be a strenuous type of thing. Like some shit that outside can't fan them. Like you, you really buying in the- Jhalil: Then it's like that should be like a status thing at this point, bro. Like Deion: Ha! Jhalil: I was just saying, I think that should be like a status thing. Like it's like I don't even think it's cause, you know, they don't be pleased with the body. I think it's just like, all right, it's just like a nigga that that get his bread right and get a nice car, get a nice crib. It's like, all right, now I got something to be proud of. And it's like I think our women is taking that as that. Like, I got a BBL, like, y'all not on my level type shit. And it's like that's that's the wrong thinking. Like you was cool with the law, but you feel me, you was cool with the little titties. You cool with the big titties or the big butt. There's no need to go down in size and all that. Now, one thing I can say, like some females get like breast reductions and all that. Now, like, if your shit is super big and it's fucking your back up and it's like all right, I can understand probably taking some off. Feel me, if it's fucking with your health, but like If you shit you perfect frame, you just a little bony, you just a little whatever, just keep it that way, dog. That shit lasts longer, natural. Like they don't tell you that, like when you do operations that's not necessary to your body, bro. Like now you got shit that you have to worry about. Now you got things that you gotta keep up. Now you got things that you gotta go get checked out, shit you never had to worry about before, like 'cause it's you you adding on some shit that's that's not normal, bro. Deion: you you Jhalil: It's not the bash nobody or nothing, but it's just the like get y'all to see, man, y'all beautiful either way. Men gonna like women either way. You can be short, small, tall, ugly, bald, whatever. It don't Deion: . Jhalil: matter, bro. Men gonna like women regardless. And men understand that too, bro. Some of us skinny, some of us got the dad bot, some of us whatever. Like some niggas is ugly, whatever. Like, we already know, bro. That's That's the cards we was dealt, bro. We gon' play it well. Real shit. So it's like we gotta be more comfortable with ourselves, man. Deion: no, man. That shit crossing the line, like, I just read. that a nigga went to go get a dickjump and died. Jhalil: That's what I'm saying, bro. 'Cause you the only you one of the only niggas in in the world that probably got that sh trying to do too much, bro. You don't go get you some gas station Deion: But like, you know. Jhalil: pills, nigga. Do something like Deion: But a lot of it is secondary, right? Like primary, I'm like, damn, to be dealing with that type of thinking so much that it make you travel and go, like that's heavy, bro. Jhalil: Yeah, that's crazy, bro. And that should have changed you too, 'cause Deion: That's what I'm saying, so if a woman... Whatever the thinking is, it pushes you to go to that extent. Jhalil: It's a bad job, bro. Deion: You gotta think about it, man. You gotta separate the mind from the you, man. And this episode, that shit. I mean, y'all do what y'all do. You do what y'all do. Feedback is for the person giving it. I'm saying it to myself. I might be using yous and hot, but Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: I need to stop doing what I'm doing. You feel what I'm saying? And free my mind from the sleeve thoughts and all of that. You know what I'm saying? A lot of times, I'm like, I be finding myself moving and grooving and that is not something I want to do. Is my Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: mind so routine with stuff that I just be, it just do it. You know what saying? Some real transparency. I'm like, man, you know, I got all this work to do. I'm on to be like masturbate or smoke a cigarette or get high, play the game or something like you get what I'm saying? So and I want people to really start thinking about that. listen to what Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: I'm saying. Don't try to judge me or whatever. Just listen to what I'm saying. A lot of times this is what people going through. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: and you asking you don't know why your son, whatever, you don't know why your man, listen, I'm telling you. The mind, depending on that mind, we don't know what's in it, because we don't, we was taught not to give it. You know what saying? Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: Even when Facebook asks you what's on your mind. You start thinking about what's on your mind. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: And whatever the mind give you, you just roll with it. But that's not the truth. That's not real. That's why they be saying all this social media stuff is fake. Because you're attached with your mind. Your mind said this was on your mind. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: But you, you ain't doing shit right now. I'm sitting in this chair. We doing this podcast. You feel me? Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: She be like, whistling your I'm getting ready for this Bahamas trip. Bitch, why your mind go there? you in Jhalil: Mm. Deion: competition competing with your mind, really, but Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: you trying to make it public. Jhalil: Yeah, bro. And I think that's why I have a hard Deion: And you're going up with everybody. Jhalil: time doing all that social media shit, just getting on and talking and d like I feel as though what's for me is for me. You feel me? I don't feel as though like everything that I got to say or everything on my mind is for everybody. And I don't feel Deion: Dude. Jhalil: comfortable with like not saying I'm I'm not vulnerable to the point that, you know, display my true self, but some things is private matters, bro. Like some things I get more information by thinking about it actually and doing it myself. Like, you feel me? Then just adding everybody into it. Like. So it's like it's a good Deion: Thanks. Jhalil: job to to do it sometimes and all that. But I'm not the type that's just gonna get on there and go live every single day and all that. I'm just I'm just not that type of character, bro. Like but shout out to the people who do that though, man. Y'all show a level of like vulnerability and like openness to like Be able to display your shit every day, bro. Especially the people who want some positive shit with it. Like some people they really go hard. They wake up in the morning before they brush their teeth and everything to to give positive messages or yo, this what I dreamed about. Maybe this might help or whatever. So shout out to them people. It's just like, man, I don't know. My shit real calculated. I think a lot too, bro. So it's like it's just everything not for everybody. Feel me? I don't want you thinking that just because I post videos that you know me. You'll probably get to know me or something, but like that's not gonna be like how a person really is. You feel me? Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: Right, bro. Like a Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: me and Buck we open on this job, but when you see us in the street you might not just be like, Yo, let me go talk to them and let me just try to like you might not it might not be that same feeling. Like although it is, but y it might not look as though that way. Like we can look intimidating. Like we not little men or none of that shit. Like feel me, we probably do look a certain way, but no, it's all love. Deion: you Jhalil: But you can't just assume that you know people, you feel me? Just through these little media interactions like. Deion: Yeah This is a beautiful Jhalil: Right, bro. Deion: job, man, and I appreciate you as a person, as a brother, you know what I mean, as a friend and a cause. for allowing this, you know what saying, man? You know, we work through things as humans, you know what saying? As we learn this stuff, man, you know what mean? And as we grow through it and we have lot of stuff going to come out in hindsight, you know what mean? Because you got to grow through things to get to that space. You know I mean? Jhalil: Yeah, Deion: But when you realize it, You know, it's not to go backwards, but it's more in reflection and to be present, you know what I'm saying? The time that a person get like to be like, you know, I want to forgive you or I want to accept this forgiveness, forgiveness. is going to determine the space that they're in. Jhalil: Anyway. Deion: And if we can be present, we probably, I'm talking about really present, don't think about the past or the future. Just in this moment, can we be cool? Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: me shake my hand like in this moment can we be cool now let's stay in that moment Jhalil: L Deion: You feel me? So now I'm moving forward. If we stay in the moment, no, I have to go backwards or forward and shit. You know what saying? But yeah, Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: man, if y'all felt this episode, you know, leave a comment, man. You know, there's a family. We want to be able to talk. Jhalil: Right, bro. Subscribe, like and share this job, man. All transparency, bro. Like we ain't talking down at nobody. We ain't talking at nobody, bro. We talking to each other and we talking, you know, like from experience, from what we went through and from like where we need to go. Like, you feel me? So if you got any inputs on what you think that you know, what would benefit us as a people, not just me and bro, but as a people. Like the affect our togetherness and and make it stronger, bro. Shoot them ideas, shoot them comments, bro. Cause we we willing to try different shit now, cause we been doing the same things and I ain't been working. You feel me? So like if it is Deion: Okay. Jhalil: time to establish something new, this is the time, bro. Not next week, not later on. Once you see this joint, drop it in there, man. And we open. He all ears, bro. And your comments or whatever, we gonna talk about it on the next show. It's just that. Deion: Word. This has been the volume shift. Until the next time, keep shiflin'. Jhalil: Yeah.