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Greed Is a Lie: The Holy Power of Wanting More · Becoming Flame: Where Sensuality, Sovereignty, and Sacred Power Ignite

• Kait Tregenza: Hi, welcome to another episode of Becoming Flame. Today we are going to talk about the of greed. into a holy embodiment. Hi and welcome back to Becoming Fame podcast. Today we are going to talk about how to turn greed, the sin of gluttony a holy embodiment of could your next alchemical superpower through transformational process, through the shifting of what of what is required to actually see what is underneath greed. So first of all, why is it even a sin? Why is greed a sin? Because you a that believes the abundance of universe is infinite, all that somebody desires and and yearns for and is part of the truth of them can be achieved and can be possible. And ⁓ you are the creator that you create as big and as much as you would want and can amass as much wealth or as much abundance or as of ⁓ whatever it that you are greeting and lusting and ⁓ gluttonous over. can't be controlled, right? Because control comes from scarcity mindset. It comes from a scarcity model where And overculture has it is that we all need to survive and then trickles, trickles, trickles, trickles, trickles that down into all the other people at the bottom. And these people depend on these people to get tiny, tiny little bits. And then people at the bottom are so busy trying to do all the things that they need to do to get just the little bits. ⁓ that they have nothing left over. have no energy left over. They have no of anything over. no overflow at the end of whether that's week, a month, a year or a lifetime. And then it starts and again and again, each generation, because nobody has enough to get out of that system of Nobody has enough to get out of that system. so we're hooked into it and we're linking into it and it just stays, stays, stays, stays, stays. Why therefore is greed important? So first of all, let's stop calling it greed because people are not inherently greedy. Actually, one of the greatest myths. People are not inherently greedy. Even who ⁓ are grossly who overeat to the point of total destruction, even them, cannot eat second of every day. So there is a limit to greed because at some point you get satiated and if you're truly embodied, you're never going to overeat to the point where you feel discomfort ⁓ you're in your body. You feel your body. My is that a lot of people who do overeat or overindulge in certain They're trying to feel their body. They're actually trying to feel it. They're trying to make it enough and heavy enough that they can feel it because they don't know how to get into their body to feel what they want to feel, to be grounded safe and heavy and solid enough. They probably didn't feel like they had a solid foundation. And so they're trying to create solidity. in the physical form around them because they lack solidity in self. And so when we really debunk what greed or overindulgence is, a lot of the time it's got nothing to do with a scarcity, a scarcity model. It's to do with feeling that connection to a higher purpose, to a higher role for for oneself. Okay, so let's go back to scarcity. Why does this exist? So we know that very easy to control people when you need them to be constantly coming back to you. They're on you for income, for food, for housing, for what to do that day when they've been in a system where they don't even think for themselves and now is coming on board of that. Track that out to some, not even 30 years into the future, track that out five years from now, 10 years from now. How much thinking you going to do for yourself? ⁓ and analytical, deep process thinking versus outsourcing to AI. And here's the way to know that to be true. When you don't know to go somewhere and you're on the street in your own hometown or in your own country, you're not traveling to a different place that you've never been like. You just know or less where you are, but not a hundred percent. How do find that location? You pull out this thing in your pocket and you tap it in, and then you follow those directions there, right? Well, in your childhood, depending on how old you are at the time that you're listening to this, but most us who likely listening to this podcast, remember that you used to have a book. Now, when I was in Paris, when it 2008. So maybe the had come out, but people definitely didn't like people weren't in this realm of like, just only use an iPhone and I'm so like apps weren't a thing then, ⁓ you know, was just maybe an elevated font. didn't know what iPhone, what smartphones were going to be yet. Right? So in 2008, I lived in Paris and I had this compact book that I would be, I would just carry around with me. And it had, it was divided by Aaron Dismont. And then you would just like find where you're going to go. And then you would trace it with your finger or you would look at it in the map. And then you would look at the street sign and you would be like, okay, this is where I am. You would geo-navigate yourself. You would geo-locate yourself by looking. the map and looking at the street and looking around you all by talking to people right? And so that that's how you would go. And ⁓ zest for life, wanting be involved in life, wanting to be in the streets, ingest the culture, ingest France, Paris, like take it all and want more and more and more and fill yourself up with that is greed, right? That's the indulgence. ⁓ the that they want you to have. Why? Paris was, I was 19, 20, this age. I was living, I would go out every night to a jazz bar or to a, you know, to some kind of a live performance. I would, I there by myself. I didn't know anyone. And I was so greedy to speak French, to make friends, to be part of life. And ⁓ that that greediness, that yearning, that longing, that This is the feeling of greed, right? Like I want to take it all in. I want to bring more to me. Do you know what another word for that is? Passion, indulgence, enjoyment, immersion, So when ⁓ go into and we ⁓ bring that into us and we want to bathe ourselves in, we want to immerse ourselves in it. ⁓ I want do deep dive into a culture or an experience and we want to be in the streets and we want to talk to people. The easiest way for me to make friends when I was in Paris was to talk to people, to ask them directions, to them like, what's this place, you know? So six months of arriving, I was fully fluent in French because ⁓ every ⁓ I myself. completely immersed. I brought it all into me and I was indulgent in every single way. I made so many friends. I boyfriends. I into the culture via these people that just started talking to in a bar because I went out and I wanted to like eat it all up. And every night would be out until like one or two a.m. in the morning and just loving it. I was high on life that for like two years I... And I was also very young, years. I could live this vibrant, huge life on four or five hours of sleep every night. And realized I didn't have to eat as much. I didn't have to sleep as much. I didn't have to do any that like self-care that if not living a life full of passion, full of gluttonous living of greed and indulgence. then you need to eat more. You need to sleep more. Your body's tired. It's not, not in vitality. It's not indulging. It's not, you know, loving that it's high on. And so if you have ⁓ a culture people that are passionate, that are full of life, that are full of vitality, that are full of health, that are that are vibrating, that believe that the universe is infinite and abundant and that all that they want is coming to them and it is available freely ⁓ through these other ways of just bringing that which you want to you, then you don't have people who are sick, you don't have people who are dependent, you don't have people that need you any way, that you don't have control over them. So gluttony, greed, is a sin. Because if you indulge every single passion that you have and you deep dive into something, how do you control them? Those are free people. If doesn't need money to enjoy life, I was pennies, nothing, and I ⁓ ⁓ amazing time. I will tell you how much I earned when I lived in Paris. I earned 300 euros per month. I had like a tiny, tiny studio, on the top of a, a top of an apartment building, it's called a Chambre du Bon, and ⁓ would, don't know, it would be enough room for like a mattress. ⁓ And I was lucky that I actually had my own bathroom and shower, but everybody else on the floor had a shared shower and toilet and they had just enough room for a mattress, maybe not even on a stand because the ceilings were like really low. ⁓ night I either go out and you know, dinner or snacks something somewhere, or I would sit my little It was like this tiny little window sill on the slanted roof, like, you know, the like really typical Parisian ones that would go up onto the top and I would sit there and I would either climb, like honestly perilously climb on this like very slanted, like I would say steeper than 60 degrees. would climb onto it and sit at the top of that. And like, I think back now and I'm like, ⁓ my God, how did I not die? But anyway, of course I didn't die. I'm not allowed apparently. And then I sit there and I would like eat my cheese and my bread for dinner or whatever. And I had a view, an unencumbered view to the Eiffel Tower in one direction and then like the ⁓ Arc Triomphe and then like all of these other areas in Paris that I could see because ⁓ Paris is actually very flash and it doesn't have like really tall buildings. So like if you are on an elevated scale, you can actually see quite far. Anyway, so I had, you I was in walking distance to the Eiffel Tower and I could see that every now and then did the light show. I mean, obviously that gets a bit after a while, but you know, that my greed. That was me like bringing it all in and just like, ⁓ my God, I'm living in a movie and this is amazing. And so ⁓ really don't need to eat a lot when you are already full up, when you're full of culture, when you're full of life, when you're full of love, when you're full of adventure and exotic, whatever you're doing, right? Okay, so that's the first reason why greed would be a sin. can control somebody doesn't need anything them. When you are free in your spirit, when you're free in yourself and your passion is flowing, ⁓ Your life force is flowing, your vitality is flowing and you are that overflow. That's right? Overflow is greed. It's gluttonous. It is more than you need and they don't want you to have that. And so one of the first really important things to start understand unpack is if you want to be living a life of ⁓ overflow, Where are you denying yourself than you need? Because overflow is literally more than you need. is ⁓ from your needs. It more than you can handle. It is more than you need at that time. And so are you denying yourself with food or with excitement or with pleasure or with... love with partnership, with help. you denying help? Are denying money, work, opportunities? Where is I'm not allowing myself overflow. I'm not allowing myself to be greedy, to be gluttonous in your life. Cause that will some really important information for to go, okay, is that even true? Like where is that belief coming from? Can I release that now? Why is myself in this place in my life serving What is it keeping me safe from? What is the other side of that denial? Why don't I that? What does that mean? So for example, if you are denying yourself more work, you know, for example, more money, sorry, if you're denying yourself more clients, more, more money, maybe you think, that's because I don't to more work. So is the information that you don't want more money. So is the information I don't want more money or is the information I need to restructuring the way that I ⁓ money so earning more money doesn't earn me more work. So many, many years ago, I started to cap my income and I made this discovery that for me, earning money was very tied into the amount of abuse that I would receive. Okay? So a lot of us have been here, um, abusive blouses, maybe abusive parents, um, around how you received money as a child. Like you, if you, um, if you wanted $10, you needed to do something in order to get that $10 that you didn't necessarily want to do. I'm not talking about like do some chores. Maybe that is traumatic for you. don't know. Unpacking the dishwasher is not my favorite thing, but I don't know that it would have been my childhood trauma, but it might have been for you. I'm not going to judge. But what I was ⁓ realizing for me, I needed to ask my father for money when I was growing up, it was set so many conditions. hoops to jump through requirements for me to do things that I really didn't want to do. So father was very physically abusive when I was a child and my mother didn't have the resources and finances that sometimes I would have needed. And so ⁓ I had to him for that money. And body started to associate especially gaining money from a masculine figure, from a paternal or figure or authority, because for example, he had the money, I didn't. I needed to or ask of him. I needed to do a presentation of ⁓ justification of why needed that money. ⁓ And so first all, that really drilled into me. do everything you possibly possibly can money before have to ⁓ subjugate to the humiliation of your abuser for resources. Huge pattern for me, huge. Super fun, super fun stuff. So not only was it not freely given, I needed to justify ⁓ to my own father I would need books for school or a for university or all of these that necessarily indulgent and like pleasure-based. Like this is what I really, really in life. It wasn't like clothes or concert. Like I would never ask my father for like I go and do this really fun thing that I would love to do because the act of asking for that stipend would be so worse than any would be so much worse than any of the fun that I could get from that event. So for me him for money was like a re-traumatization every time. And so if anybody's been physically abused by somebody and then they have to ask that person for anything, but particularly like a capacity to carry out an obligation in your life, for example, schooling. I didn't know I had a choice not to finish high school at that time. I would have never chosen that anyway. And you know, things that were like asking my body contract and distort And like, I hate this feeling. So I grew up being like, I never want to ask anyone anything. And what was fascinating, not fascinating, very obvious if you are in this realm and understanding this like way of, you know, alchemizing pain into power. But whenever I got a job, I only ever had a male boss, obviously. And so going in asking for a raise, or for a promotion or any of that would bring me so much scrutiny. it would just be like, my God, this is, I would rather quit and have no money than be putting in a position to beg because all my bosses were extremely abusive. I forgot to say that part. And so I would have to yet again beg my abuser for more ⁓ And then the way that, boss would abuse me was through financial abuse, right? So paying my invoices or not paying promotions not paying overtime. ⁓ And would have to go and like advocate for myself, for this person who was mentally, emotionally verbally abusing me now financially abusing me ⁓ and like beg these crumbs I was like, It wasn't even like I was asking for more. was like, I'm just asking you to honor what the deal is. And that's basically how it had started with my father as well, right? Like, I didn't ask you to birth me. didn't ask you. I was the eldest of four, right? So like there was more decision points along the way to say, yeah, let's go and have more kids and do And so the cost associated with having children was something that he didn't necessarily want. to front up to, I have to like beg him justify my existence on the planet and the reasons that I would need this money to fulfill my, you know, scholastic obligations or education or ⁓ whatever it And, and it so after I did this whole big presentation, put this whole together and I would like be sweating and I was so terrified of him. he would always ⁓ like 90 % of the time deny me after having gone through that. So I learned really quickly to have no needs, to have like non-existent financial needs or to make that money myself. And what was interesting was... And the unpacking of this greed stuff was really, really interesting for me to unpack my money stuff was I either only had male bosses I would get into a relationship with a man and my financial situation would dissolve almost immediately as I entered into that relationship. So I would be making really good money and then get into a relationship and my job would dry up or my business would dry up or something would happen that would prevent me from not working or the idea was to, ⁓ know, all of a sudden it was like, ⁓ let's go back to school and learn something, you know, whatever. And so it was like, anytime I got into a relationship, money dried up completely. And I became dependent on the mail in dynamic my relationship. And so having to beg and ask and justify my partner for money was awful and I hated it. And then I was working, I only ever had these male bosses and having to ask them for money was just as awful. And so the way that I could ever make money was ⁓ working for myself and trying hard not to get into a relationship. And so money and relationships and power and abuse all became really entangled. And so my juvenile or unhealed conclusion to that, that I think any person would naturally become obvious to them to make was to reduce all my financial needs and live outside of money. Which by the way is an extremely valuable skill set for what may be coming up in the future and who knows what's going to happen. I'm a genius that I don't even know about and this is not a story about, you know, reducing my need and grabbing my transforming greed overflow. maybe it's going to be like, ⁓ and now I how to live out of outside of money and currency and you suckers are going to. go down with the financial system and I'm going to live off greed. I don't know. Put that, put a pin in that story for later. But for now I'm telling you about alchemizing my, greed into overflow. So me, greed was into abuse. And actually that's the case for everybody because a, an abusive system is controlling you into believing that what you truly desire, is too much. It's It's a sin. You shouldn't want for anything. What is the number one thing that the church says all the time and that you know and our culture says or war culture says is want not. want anything. ⁓ Don't ⁓ anything. have desires. Don't have goals and visions ideas for yourself. Naughty naughty naughty. Don't do that. So untangling this abuse from this money was such a huge process for me. And basically even when I made, even when I could come out of like, you know, full scarcity and into like the next level of abundance for me, the money made, the more abuse that came with it until such a time. I literally heard myself say to one of my coaches or therapists, can't remember who I was talking to, but I remember saying, I don't want to, I think it was a coach that I was working through to like try to break into the next level. And she was like getting really frustrated with me. She was like trying to do this all like mental mindset stuff, which does not work if you're truly trying to alchemize your life, right? It's all held in your body. So I remember her saying to me like, I don't understand why, like logically, you know, you want more money. Logically, you know, your life is going. So what is the problem here? And I remember blurting out, cannot take any more shit. I just cannot take any more shit. There's that I want in this enough to take any more shit for it. And I said her, my version of A luxurious, decadent life at the moment is being left ⁓ And I would take zero money for that piece. I take it anymore. Like it's too The stress, the anxiety, the bullshit that I have to deal with every day from ⁓ all of people outside of me. And the more responsibility that I have to take on the abuse that I get every single day. And I literally cannot. So for me, the overflow was abuse. I couldn't, it was overflowing my life. I was in so much abuse from all of these people because in my mind I was earning more than I thought I could. And my life was overrun by these abusive people all around. And that was like still not even the aha moment. well, actually that's not true. It was an aha moment. So that was an aha moment that I was like, yeah, I already know this though. I already know that my money is linked to abuse. I've doing this. I've been doing all of these practices. I've been going through it, going through it, going through it, going through it. ⁓ And ⁓ on, am no further along. than I was when I make no money. I have, and I'm not in a relationship. I have this most peaceful, beautiful, decadent life where I'm like, that's how I want to feel every day. And could learn to live outside the currency of money that I saw so linked into a system abuse that because I was so, sensitive to the energy of that. like even taking ⁓ ⁓ you need to take some access point into that abuse system because it's a manmade system of and have not, of accumulation just circulation. And the whole spell really off for me. And so it was like, why would I be greedy for that? which is tied into this system control, of scarcity, of manipulation, of deception, of right? People all go into their, they volunteer themselves into slavery to, you know, to do of this stuff that they don't want to do in order to get this paper, to spend it on stuff that they don't even want. And so I started to really like live outside of the conceptualization of like, what do we need money for and how can we get our needs And my deepest wants and desires were like creativity, freedom, expression of self, truth, and ability to go wherever I wanted to go and do whatever I wanted to do that day. And so it was like, okay, well, how does that happen? And you in ⁓ system millions millions of dollars. And I knew that lots of women could ⁓ and disentangle themselves from the abusive, controlling aspects of the money and the system to which it is attached. And I was like, okay, well, so how do you do that? And I think what came around for me was, well, what could be if I this? When I started to understand the aspects of my life that I was ⁓ greedy for and so in overflow, it was fun, creativity, playfulness, peace, creativity, travel. Freedom. Travel. for my daughter, love, you know, then, you know, spending a lot of time in nature, going swimming in the ocean, all of these things. was like, it's just like how I was in or in any of the countries that I traveled to. ⁓ It was like, I to drink this all in. I want to drink it all in. want to fill myself up. And so in that aspect, I was like, yeah. And like, look at what's happening. you're filling yourself up on all of this stuff ⁓ ⁓ back to you. Okay, so you're in this really give and take and ⁓ overflow the that you're really, really in value with. And, you know, example, having community and a village around me, and I was like filling myself up with that and overflowing and, and, and, and I was ⁓ this feels so good. This is like indulgent, like anywhere where society tells you that scarcity is most predominant. For The one of the things that I was really, really weird about was like, it's hard to get a job. I don't know where this came from. I don't know where this came from because never experienced difficulty getting a job when applied for one or when I pitched to go and work for that company. was always like every single time that I've ever tried to get a job, I got it straight away. But I never liked those jobs. And so it wasn't like, ⁓ yeah, this is amazing. I should just... As it turns out, it doesn't matter what the job could be. It could be in an, I mean, was a right? You to do things that I don't necessarily want to do every day and you have to answer to other people. And ⁓ it's it's not in my design. And it's not that I'm uncooperative or I don't like the that I was working with. It was more that I... It wasn't in my design. It's not my chart. It's not my blueprint. It's not my purpose. Because this, what I'm talking about, unpacking and disentangling myself from money making it possible for me to earn millions dollars through my own business and through my own skills, talents and intelligence and what I make what I do and the vision that I hold. the path that I'm carving out for myself, my daughter, and anyone else who wants to come along with me, my bigger purpose. So of my ⁓ journey been like finding where it's greedy for me to want that. I really, really, really want to work for myself and to able to my individual expression on this planet. for myself and for anyone else who can benefit from me being my authentic true self. And want to experience, I am so greedy and excited and like indulgent in the idea that I could be paid to be me. That excites me so much ⁓ than title that a corporate company could give me. The security of a monthly paycheck. feels oppressive to me, feels constrictive to me. It feels like there's no greed to want to go after that. so what started to be revealed to me was your greed and where you're like wanting much for that to come to you reveals your deeper desires. reveals the blueprint. It reveals the journey that you're on. ⁓ And so you're greeting and glassing after it's like, Go there, follow that desire, follow that, like, I want to feel myself. I want to take all of that in. I want to, I want to bring that into me and not in a grabby like, like way, more in this like, wouldn't it feel amazing if I would $10 million into my business this year and I could pay all of these other people that work for me a really fat paycheck. I could then ask for ⁓ million ⁓ next year and I could give them even more money. And I could, I could, I could give my daughter this and I could give myself this. And I was like, yeah, I want to eat that. want to take that. want to, I want have that as mine because what would I do with it if I were there? And I think this is like part of, know, the and the journey for me was at a time, a couple of ago, like eight years ago now, no longer, I don't know, a long time, doesn't matter. A time in the past that we would consider is a while ago. I starting a consulting and I had no passion for it. And I had no desire to clients. And every time I got a client, was like, ⁓ I don't to do the work for you. I don't want to do this. And so I really sat down again with this greed idea or this desire idea of why do want to make millions of dollars? ⁓ Why would do that? Why do I even need it when I know how to live so cheaply and I'm not lacking for anything? And what I did was this exercise of like, if I had $20 million, would I ultimately want to do with that? And I kind of came up with a good, like a few ideas. But they were like more like self-serving and they were more like, like in the realm of like helping others, but like really more self-serving. So I was like, no, I'm not in it. I like, this doesn't feel exciting. Like I don't get it. So I was like, okay, what if I had $200 million? And then I elevated my thinking to a different level. I was like, oh yeah, bring that money to me. Yeah, like what does it feel like? Oh my God, a $200 million under my. Under my management, what would I do with it? And then I, that's when I clicked into, I could start investing in all these special companies and I could the world trying to find the best solutions to the biggest problems on this planet that I believe needs solving. And could invest in that kind of company and this kind of company and ⁓ we solve this problem and this problem. And then I started going, ⁓ okay, what are the problems that I really want to solve? ⁓ my God, I want to. bring me more problems to solve. And then I was in that greed again. I was like, ⁓ yes, bring me more problems. I want more problems. I can solve so many problems. then I realized I was like, $200 million is not enough. I need, my God, I need a billion dollars to just these five, ⁓ six, seven And I was like, my God, I need more. I need more. Bring it to me. I need to solve biggest problems of our generation. am this unique mind that even though when I'm in my lowest form of self, I don't believe that my mind is interesting or exciting. But here ⁓ this billion dollar level, I the fucking genius of the planet. Bring me more intelligence. Bring me more intelligence. ⁓ I to accumulate knowledge and intelligence and patent recognition and, and, and, experts that I can work with and I'm bringing all of these people and I'm sitting here and I'm like, I'm working with a team of 10, like subject matter experts. I'm working with conglomerate of a of high net worth individuals who have collectively a billion dollars between them. And I bringing all of these solution architects, IE founders, CEO startups, academics, people who know things to me and I'm bringing them all together and I'm architecting ⁓ solution to these huge huge problems and that was all because ⁓ became greedier. I became desirous ⁓ a bigger At 20 million dollars I couldn't feel I was like I don't know maybe I just buy a house and a car and a piece of land and It's kind of it, like go on a few holidays, working for a couple of years. Like ⁓ $20 million ⁓ to do to change the world? And I couldn't tap into it. wasn't greedy for me. It wasn't big enough for me. And so 200 million, I could start to access it, but 2 billion, 1 billion, whatever it was, like once I moved over that billion dollar mark where it's like, Now we could maybe make a dent here, but I can't do that alone. I need more people. I need more intelligence. I need more resources. I need to bring this to me. And that's when I was like, yes, now powerful. Now I know my desire. Now I step into this. Now this This shifts. This moves. ⁓ And so wasn't necessarily about just disentangling myself from abuse and power. It was myself to a way where the of all that I needed was already there. I was here, I couldn't access it. As soon as I came here and I brought my vision to that point, it was like, the architecture is here. Or at least ⁓ I can assemble in a way that it would be here because I can see it all. ⁓ I can see And I can translate between all these disparate, disconnected, non-unified, non-communicating points of the solution to bring that infrastructure together to create solution around. And so even though I was working for just ⁓ one within global network that I created, it was like I was the that was bringing all of these people together. not for me and my personal career, not because I didn't care. I didn't care. I didn't get paid for any of that. What I cared, I realized I work for the earth. I work for this new earth concept, which shouldn't be a concept, which needs to be reality. And I need to be the conduit for all of this stuff to move through me. And so in dismantling ⁓ I realize all I need to do is make myself bigger to be the conduit for of this to move through. I need to be solid. I need to be stable. And then everyone with a solution that's a right match for me and the network that I've created in the architecture that I've created can through me and find that solution and find that grounding ⁓ and codes that I'm emitting those people And so here I am, I know that universe, source, light, whatever will pay me. The earth will pay me. I will be paid. And up to me ⁓ and earth to work on my issues around money. And then when I sat with the earth, who's my actual employer, and I said, why, why is money so tied to abuse? And She basically said to me, how else would you dedicate your life to dismantling systems of abuse the or the reharmonization of earth, woman and connection? Like we need to bring back the mother. We need to bring back the unity. We need to bring back the harmony and If you got paid really, really well and you had an opportunity to ignore the abuse on this planet, maybe... and you had an opportunity to ignore the abuse on this planet, possible you wouldn't be dismantling it. It's possible that you wouldn't be here it, seeing it. And that changed everything for me because all of sudden now, every time somebody came into my orbit that was abusive or like out of characteristic, like weird and and in a position of power that had opportunity to be bigger and it was abusive towards me, now I could see it differently because it was like... that was the shift away from this other oppressive, like light and love spiritual, like, ⁓ my God, if something bad happens in your frequency, that means that you're not a good person or you're in a low vibration or this or that. No, for me, at least my architecture and my structures and setting up many architectural structures for the because I've done this in the U S I've done this in Australia. I've done this in China. I've done this in Europe. Wherever I go, I set up these networks and I set up these systems. It's what's in me. And it was interesting because somebody told me and explained that to me my South node is in Virgo and Virgo knows innately how to set up structures and systems and, and design principles for And I it in my sleep, but as an Aquarius person, I never want to be in those systems myself. Like I'm repelled from those systems. ⁓ So I set up systems. for me to operate within them. And so I get my greed and my gluttony and all of that fulfilled by being like, this for the earth and I'm making the earth so much bigger and it's like you come through me and then I go on and do the next thing. And so my greed wasn't ever fulfilled by career status or by money or by accumulation or by any of that. It's by up disparate, like using my unique way of thinking and being and with people, ⁓ them in structures and systems that maintain beyond me and that don't need me anymore. And I go on and do the next thing and the next thing. ⁓ And you know, I love like the greed in me is like years later, people ring me and are like, ⁓ it's functioning. It's still going so well. Like ⁓ what set up was like, It's like it's flourishing without you and we think about you every day and we just wish you the best. It's like, cool, this is really great. This is what I get filled up on. so I think knowing you're greedy for, knowing what your desire truly is, is important. And I hope that story about money has been clear. And if not, I'm just going to summarize it again. It's that when I was operating at the low, lower end of like, just need to make more money so I can get out of abuse. All that did was bring the abuse to match the money that I was making. And that was when it was about myself. I stepped back and I said, let's be so gluttonous, so greedy, ⁓ in overflow in the aspects of my life that are showing up in overflow and the ones that are not, and just allow overflow and overflow and overflow in every aspect of me and my life and my skills and my talents and my What it shifted me from was I'm not wrong. I'm the problem in terms of not wanting career or not wanting to work for someone else or ⁓ not wanting be in relationships that are abusive or not being so repelled ⁓ asking abusers for or for support or for like the tiniest crumbs. it was like ⁓ back and be like, what is the most desirous thing that you could be, that you could want, that you could have, that you could bring into your life? being paid to be free, being paid to be me, being in for the skills and talents that I am, that I have, that I possess, that I share out, that I catalyze in other people as well. And that I can just because I build something and just because I love building that doesn't mean that I have to stick around and be smaller into the thing that I built. I can let that go and I can like, I can build this so many times again because I love it and I'm in joy of that. ⁓ I gift this to you. I gift this to you. ⁓ a network of all of these things that I want and I gift this for you. And so when I was in VCN, I was making all of these investments in all of these different companies. was like, good, and now go and like, do you, like be who you are. And I'm going to go over here and be who I am. And I to really just, accept bring in the gluttonous, greedy, longing, yearning, indulgent aspects, of everything that I desired in my life, it just shifted until like now it's like, yes, I'm operating at this higher level. I can bring people into that vision. And the overflow is in how I spill out that into other people as well. And it's no longer about how much do I want to earn so that I can buy X thing. Cause that is not motivating to me at all. Or know. because And so really what I want the takeaways from this episode to be are... So really what I want their takeaways from this episode to be are that greed ⁓ desire. And if you can just into your greed, into your indulgence, into your gluttony, into that part of you that just wants, wants, wants, wants, without apology, you'll discover that what you call greed is often just that of you that finally admits I want more life. I want more vitality. I want more beauty. I want more wealth. want more truth. I want, in my case, this very specific thing that I am here to offer to the world. Because it is raw life before it into your definition of Because in its unhealed form, yes, greed grasps. It's grabby and it's sticky and it's like, like, give it me, give it to me. ⁓ But in its alchemized form, it becomes appetite, devotion, and this capacity to receive fully that which you are desiring to have. And once you break it from this false holiness built on deprivation, once you get out of deprivation as if like, if I deprive myself, then I'm better than, or then I'm holier than, or then I'm closer to God or whatever. when you can see that greed becomes holy when you stop worshipping the lack, when you stop self-denial, when you stop invisibility as virtues. And that was so important for me when I was, it wasn't necessarily that I thought it was holy to stop asking for nothing, but I did definitely think it was safer to ask for nothing, to reduce myself. ⁓ So you think it's holy or safe, that, that, that self deprivation is serving a greater purpose for you. Whether it's like your definition of what a good person is or what your definition of safety is. If you can discover either of those two aspects for you about why you're continuing to deprive yourself and reduce your needs into nothing and to become invisible. you can alchemize that and you can find goodness wanting or you can find safety in wanting. that will be so valuable for the transformation. expands your receiving capacity, right? And for me, the deeper work is not about wanting more because actually what you want is already present. It's in your blueprint, it's in your design, it's in your truth system, it's in your body technology. What you want and what you're here for exists. And job is to go in and find what it is that you want. much of what do you want to be filled up with? What do you want to absolutely devour in every way? And becoming enough to hold that, to accept that, fill yourself up with that without collapse, without the guilt, without the self-sabotage, without all of the and entwinements. So for me, it's like, I need to grow my nervous strong enough be the company that can hold multiple eight figures, figures per year without the collapse, without the self-sabotage, because I'm tapping into that bigger vision of what it is that I want to be doing. And when I am serving the bigger vision and that's what I want so badly, and I'm like, ⁓ yes, bring that into me. Then $20 million, $30 million, $200 million, it's not enough to do those huge big things that I want to do. And now it's like, okay, great. Let's expand beyond there. Let's want more. Let's bring other people into that wanting, into that vision, into that opportunity to serve the earth. serve women, serve children. And so holding more for yourself becomes holding for others and for greater vision. And that is where greed is in its most potent form. I want a that is safe for children. I want a world that is safe for everyone. How do I as one single person and create that? I can't. I need to hold a vision. I need to invite other people and build this network and build this structure. ⁓ And so the last 10, 15 years, I have been building these structures a vision where other people contribute into it, where it's not just mine, it's our collective vision. ⁓ that is my deepest greed on this planet, is that we work to make a world we all wish to live in. And we collectively believe that we can. That is so different to I want to make $10 million in my businesses here. I hope that this is landing for you. Because the final thing that I need to say on this is that it must be transmuted from consumption creation. It be transmuted. It must be alchemized. Holy greed does not just take. It ⁓ circulates. builds, it generates, it turns desire into this embodied ⁓ this embodied beauty, this ⁓ this amazing capacity for you to hold a container for others to move in with you and to create alongside you in togetherness and in cohesion. for this vision to come to. You are not singularly going to change the world. Your body is not designed to. may not even have this ⁓ amount of resources for, but most importantly, you only have two hands in one body in 24 hours in a day. In multiplication of that, you now have an army of people ⁓ that working on the same, same goals. A Fortune company is not run by one person and neither should your grand and grandiose. vision be either. We need to invite others into this. We need to bring the vision to such a level that it is already than us. Because if you tap into your true vision of your true greed and want and desire in this world, it exists at a level at the collective where other people want that as well. ⁓ And you elevate into that and you live there and you tap into that vision and that creation and that greed and that desire, others also hold the same one, but each one of you is going to be a node in that, a cog in that new machine, that principle for the creation of that, right? And you all need to organize yourselves together where each one of you ⁓ operates domain of excellence, your domain of mastery. And by the way, mastering yourself is a form of greed. It's a transmuted greed because it means you're so completely full up of yourself. devoured yourself. You've mastered yourself. You've been obsessed with yourself in such a way that you have shown up in dedication to who you are, what you do and honoring and honing in your craft to a of mastery that requires you to show every day to be obsessed with it every day. That's greed transmuted. That's greed alchemized. so we just need to actually see what greed is. It's it's wanting all that. It's consuming all of that. And ⁓ the definitely doesn't want masters. It doesn't want people who know how to create their own incomes, their own abundance, their own flow. And it exist. of slavery, capitalism, all of these things, they cannot exist. in a world emboldened masters their craft who know and understand that abundance is infinite and is theirs to own and that can work with the infinite powers ⁓ of overflow achieve at a higher level of vision and a high level of mastery and quality. And that is why you need to become the greediest, indulgent, most... gluttonous person that you know and embody that and transmute all reasons why not to be. I love you. Go ⁓ and a I love you.