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Season 5 - Episode 26 - How quickly can anxiety sneak up? · Good Morning From The Chicken Coop!

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  Hey everybody, welcome to the good morning from the Chicken
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  Coop podcast. My name is Kim Johnson and I am
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  a mastermindset coach, creative strategist, and also happened to
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  be a farmer. This is my chicken coop and I
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  come out here every day to record a podcast to teach
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  distinctions, possibilities, new ways of thinking, and just bring
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  some joy into the world. So welcome to the coop and let's
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  start your day off in a fantastic way.
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  Hey everybody, good afternoon. Chilly afternoon from the
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  chicken coop and I'm watching my husband who's watching a
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  football game right now and he's riddled with anxiety over what's
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  going to happen. Got me thinking about how when I
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  was a kid, anxiety, as we've talked about many times, was
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  something that was a huge part of my life.
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  It was a state I was often engaged in that emotion which
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  caused the state of just overwhelm and you name it,
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  everything else was thrown into the mix.
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  And I know that very, very well. And what really struck me this
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  afternoon was how how quickly we can lose ourselves to anxiety
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  and how much it stays and how much we pick on up on someone
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  elses. So here I am.
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  I'm having a very relaxing afternoon.
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  And because I'm recording this on Sunday afternoon and putting
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  this up Monday morning, just so you know, so I can be out here
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  with the chickens and doing this.
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  And one of the things that I recognized was I was not
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  anxious. I had nothing to be anxious
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  about. I was, you know, basically
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  sitting working on doing video editing, trying to learn some
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  new techniques and video editing studying.
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  I had a book I was reading. I was looking at plants that I
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  wanted to order. I've got 75 legitimate 75 tabs
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  on my computer. I was completely like in
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  engulfed in another state of being.
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  I was deep in curiosity and all of a sudden I could feel his
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  anxiety going up, up, up, getting closer to the game and
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  how all of a sudden I was picking up on that.
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  And then before you know it, I felt like I was riddled with
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  anxiety and I wasn't even anxious prior to that.
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  But this is how it works with strong emotions.
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  We can even with weak emotions, it just if they're consistent,
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  we can pick up on them. But that but for some reason,
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  you know, there are those of us who have a very high sensitivity
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  to picking up any emotion. I like to refer to it as being
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  thinly veiled. I just all of a sudden I can
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  feel it. And once I start to feel it, I
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  get like and and it almost feels physically to me like I drank
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  coffee with caffeine because it makes me very uncomfortable if I
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  drink coffee with caffeine but or even tea that's caffeinated.
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  Caffeine doesn't make me feel great and I'm already amped up
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  enough without it and I really don't need it.
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  But it, it gives me like the heebie jeebies and I can't
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  explain it. But when you couple that with it
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  being like that's the physical aspect, but the actual mental
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  aspect is it's just overwhelmed. All of a sudden I find myself
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  going down a rabbit hole thinking about all the things
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  that I have to do this week, thinking about all the stuff
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  that I haven't gotten done that I'm probably not going to be
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  able to get done because of the weather, whatever.
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  I all of a sudden there you go. And before you know it, I'm
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  trying to clean at the same time I'm trying to do the other stuff
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  that I was doing at the same time that I'm listening, you
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  know, okay, who's how does anybody have dirty laundry?
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  I want to put laundry in and I start the panic process and
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  anxiety is right at the front of my bus and making me crazy.
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  So the reason I'm bringing this up and and pointing it out in
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  this way and telling you exactly what happened on a very like
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  relaxed Sunday day. I mean, I woke up this morning.
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  My son-in-law was out doing he's he's becoming a pastor and he
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  was out doing a, a sermon out by the water.
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  It was beautiful. My son and I went, we watched it
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  even though it was cold. We were in this little building
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  on the dock. It was, it was beautiful.
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  I had nothing to be anxious about.
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  Came home, made my son lunch, everything was great.
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  My day even started off great. So where did the anxiety come
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  from? And it was borrowed.
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  It was borrowed from what was going on in my husbands head
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  over something as silly as a football game.
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  And that's what's important. It can be picked up, it can be
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  transmitted, it can you can pick it up from anything, anywhere,
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  anytime. And that goes for any emotion.
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  So when you start feeling something, you have to pause and
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  ask yourself, is this mine or did I borrow this?
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  And by the third load of dishes, because my husband is cooking
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  during this football game to distract himself.
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  And when he cooks, it's like Edward Scissorhands in the
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  kitchen. Everything is everywhere.
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  And I can't stand it. And I don't mind.
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  So I start cleaning. I like cleaning, so I start
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  doing the dishes and fixing things up and doing dishes and
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  fixing things up and doing dishes and fixing things up.
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  But by the 3rd or 4th load of dishes I was like, OK, I really
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  feel off what is going on? And then I started to explore it
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  and I was like, ah, I get it. So I said, oh you know what, I'm
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  going to come out now. I'm going to record while the
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  girls are having a snack. I'm going to hit my reset button
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  and I'm going to go back in and I'm not going to allow myself to
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  go in there unconsciously. I'm going to go in very aware of
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  how I want to feel and settle down.
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  So take some advice from someone who's very thinly veiled with
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  picking up on emotions when I'm not being aware of it or in my
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  coaching head. You know, you have to stay on
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  it. You have to really understand is
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  this mine or am I borrowing it because it can come from
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  anywhere, my friends. OK, I hope you guys have a
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  blessed day and I will see you tomorrow.
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  Bye.