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57: fear of being seen, meet the Invitation Mindset · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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If this message has found you, you want to be seen.
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You are calling in more visibility,
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stepping into your power, stepping into purpose,
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stepping into being seen in your magic and in your gifts.
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But at the very same time,
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the only thing that matches how passionately you want
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to be seen is how terrified you are of being seen.
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So you have this dual dance that you are doing
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between oh my word, that looks so juicy and exciting
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and I would love to be more seen and I would love to
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serve people through that visibility.
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And this could look like online visibility,
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starting a YouTube channel or growing your YouTube channel,
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taking it to the next level,
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or it could look like posting on TikTok,
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starting a blog, a sub-stack, having a newsletter.
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So it could look like online visibility,
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but it could also look like offline visibility.
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Speaking on a stage, hosting an event,
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taking up a leadership role in your community,
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being seen in your community, in space,
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in time, out there in the wild, okay?
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So I have realized like I used to think
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the fear of being seen was this very narrow topic,
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but I'm realizing almost in its specificity
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is its universality, the feeling that in a meeting
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or in a conversation, you have this thing you want to say
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and you feel the power of it,
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but it almost makes your heart beat so much
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that you're like oh my word,
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this is actually such a good idea.
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It's funny, the fear of success and the fear of being seen
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are so intimately woven because it's like oh my word,
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I almost can't face my own potency, my own power.
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And speaking this voice into the room,
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I'm equally terrified that people will think
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that I said something very wrong or unimportant
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or they'll think oh my gosh, that was like excellent
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and then I'll be held to the standard
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and then I'll have to keep that up.
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And so the fear of success is really merged
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in what the fear of being seen.
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For example, when it comes to the online space,
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what if I am seen and what if it goes well
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and then what if I have all these responsibilities
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and what are people ask things of me
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that I am not in the position to give
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and what if I lose my freedom, right?
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Like we have these deep fears and I feel you,
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it feels like the bigger it goes, there's more to lose
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and there's more that's going to be demanded of us.
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I understand and I feel you.
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So the fear of being seen affects us in our lives.
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The difficult conversations were scared to have.
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And then when we do have the difficult conversation,
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sometimes we won't even get to the deeper layer
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of what the conflict is actually about.
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We'll tell them maybe some of the surface things,
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but are we willing to be seen in like the underlying pain,
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the underlying trauma or experience
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that were terrified or feel really ashamed of voicing?
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So the fear of being seen affects each of us
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in our day-to-day lives, whether it's in relationships,
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friendships or in our creativity as creators as artists.
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We both long to be seen for our art
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and also because this is such a vulnerable part of us.
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It feels terrifying that we may be rejected, canceled,
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criticized or misunderstood,
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something that I believe in if you're new here,
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is that the collective is dreaming through each of our dreams.
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And so none of our dreams, when it comes to the podcast
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you want to start or the book you want to write,
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the event you want to host, the movement you want to join
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or lead like none of that is just you sitting
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on an island dreaming.
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In my heart, I feel that it is a collective consciousness
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and it is this new earth trying to awaken through our dreams.
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Our dreams are a portal to an unseen dimension of reality,
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to our subconscious, to the infinite, to intuition.
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And so equally, since the universe exists
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on these different scales,
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did you know that the shape of your neural pathways
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maps onto the shape of galaxies in the universe?
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Like we're magical beings, we are magical beings.
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And so, since the universe exists on all these scales,
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what if just as our dreams are a portal to the unseen world,
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you, my love, your creations, your consciousness
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is a portal to a new kind of world
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that every creation actually represents a portal
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into the consciousness and also into the kind of values
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and way of seeing the world that that artist has.
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And I'm going to give you an example.
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If you read a poem and you feel transformed by the poem
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in a sense, you've stepped through the portal
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of that artist's creation and you feel really invited,
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you feel really warm and welcome in that portal.
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As you've stepped through it, it leads to a place
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that looks more beautiful to you,
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that looks more wonderful, more wholesome.
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And you are forever changed by having been invited
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to walk through that portal.
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So, on that point, something that can really support you
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as you face the fear of being seen
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is this idea of an invitation.
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Now, all of us have faced the feeling of not being invited,
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right? You know, you're not invited to the party,
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you're the wedding, the event, you're not invited
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to that thing you saw you were going to be invited to
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and it feels like you're excluded.
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You're on the outside looking in,
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why does no one value you enough to invite you?
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You would have so invited them how dare they not invite you.
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It's very painful, especially if some of your friends
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are going and then they're talking about this event
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or this wedding and you're like,
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fuck, like I wasn't invited, it's so unjust.
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We felt the absolute exclusion and isolation
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of being on the outside looking in.
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And my love, when it comes to your creations
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and the ideas that you have but you don't work on
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or you work on but then don't share,
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I invite you to consider that these are unoffered
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invitations to the collective consciousness.
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These are things that people actually want to be invited to
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but you are depriving them of even the chance to say yes
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or no because we are so certain people will reject
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the invitation because on the other hand,
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there's the person who invites people to the event
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and no one shows up.
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That feels really humiliating, it feels very heartbreaking.
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That feels like a sense of deep isolation
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on the other side that you were vulnerable
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in inviting people and then no one came.
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Very painful, that it makes you almost want to retreat
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even further inwards, okay fine,
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then I'll never invite anyone to anything again
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because then I'll be able to protect myself
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from the sense of this wound, okay,
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of isolation of rejection is the deep fear.
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So I know that when you are protecting yourself
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from making these invitations by that,
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I mean posting the essay on Substack,
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speaking up in the meeting, sharing an idea,
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what if we did this, having the difficult conversation,
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sharing your art with the world in person or online,
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sharing it on Instagram, on TikTok,
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wherever you feel called,
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inviting people to come to your spoken poetry event,
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whatever it may be,
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there are all these unoffered invitations
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that are littered across the collective
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of these moments that don't get to happen
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because of the fear that is blocking us
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from making the invitation.
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At a grander scale, the biggest thing
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repressing these invitations is of course,
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supremacy, coloniality, capitalism like systemic factors
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are the biggest block to creativity
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and that creativity fully being expressed or lived.
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So absolutely, one technology to that first and foremost.
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When it comes to when we are in a position to share
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our voice with the world in some way, shape or form,
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such as we want to start a TikTok,
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but then we're afraid to,
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or we want to start a podcast or a YouTube,
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but we're afraid to,
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that is an unoffered invitation to the collective consciousness.
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Who knows what that would have unlocked in someone's heart
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in someone's consciousness had they been invited?
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So when you are an artist, you have a painting
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and you want to post it on Instagram
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and you're like,
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oh, I'm just scared that no one gets it.
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I understand that I hold that with so much love
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and at the same time we want to be invited to your art.
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We want to be invited to your perspective.
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We want to be invited to your ideas
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to your way of seeing the world
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and each time that you do not make that invitation,
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our lives are less full for that lack of invitation.
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You know why? You know why?
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Because we're all better for having the invitation
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and being able to say no,
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then not having the invitation at all.
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What does it mean?
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It's better to be invited to the party
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and be able to say no,
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then for someone to decide you aren't going to come anyway
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so they may as well not invite you.
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You know what I'm saying?
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Wait, what if I was going to move around my plans?
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What if I just wanted to feel like you wanted me there
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and therefore it would have felt nice
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to be able to say no, even though I can't make it?
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So it's more honoring or dignifying of a being
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to give them the option
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and let them from their fullness of self say no.
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Let them say no.
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How beautiful to be that generous.
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You know the sun, we could decide
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I could go outside today and experience the sunshine
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but I'm not going to
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and I'm more whole,
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I'm more alive for that choice.
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Like isn't it so in liveening
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that I could be in the sunshine
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but I'm choosing not to
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that the sun invited me in a sense
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into that experience of sun and my skin
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and I'm saying no.
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Isn't that better than a sun
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that never invited me at all
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because it decided on my behalf
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that I wouldn't like the sunshine?
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So when we're invited to things
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when someone sends you an essay
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because they think you may like it
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isn't that more in liveening
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than had they decided for you
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you weren't going to read it
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and therefore didn't send it to you at all.
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And there are many reasons
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why someone might do that.
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I understand
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but when someone invites you
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to watch their favorite movie,
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ah, even though they know
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you may not watch it
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because we all have lists and lists
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either consciously or in our notes app
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of things that we want to be watching
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and there's so much to watch
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and so they may think
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they're never going to watch this
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because of all the things they could watch
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why would they watch this
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but aren't we so much more nourished
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by having been invited to watch their favorite movie
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than had they decided for us
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that we were never going to watch it at all?
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Isn't it more precious for us to say
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you know what?
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I know this is their favorite movie.
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From the way that my life is,
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I'm not going to watch it.
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I think that is a more
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a liveening choice.
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That's the word that comes to my mind.
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Like it's a more expanded choice
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than had I just been not invited at all.
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It's more expansive to say no
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than to not have the invitation.
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And on the other hand,
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we may say yes.
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We may say yes to your video.
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We may say yes to your thumbnail.
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We may say yes to your podcast episode,
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to your book,
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to your screenplay, like we may say yes
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and we will be so much more alive and nourished
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and seen by that yes,
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by that ability to say yes because my love,
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if you are committed to sharing yourself with the world
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wherever you choose,
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eventually people will say yes.
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It may not be on the timeline you're expecting
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but eventually if we give
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and we give something that we feel
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is an integrity and alignment
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with what we are here to offer,
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it will eventually meet the people who want to receive it.
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Okay, I claim that, let it be so.
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That everything that you are called to express
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let that calling be felt
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as a collective calling to receive that expression.
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Is that gonna happen instantaneously?
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Absolutely not.
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Is that going to happen in the exact way
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that we're expecting?
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Also, unfortunately, absolutely not.
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In fact, not even unfortunately
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because that path of you sharing yourself
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is actually not only the collective dreaming through you
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but it's a more loving version of yourself
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dreaming through you as well.
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What do I mean by that?
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For me and my journey of sharing myself on the internet,
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I could not have known just how much this would catalyze
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and alchemize this would fuel my spiritual journey and growth.
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Before I started this journey,
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I was very disconnected from spirituality.
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I had a very narrow understanding of spirituality
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and I rejected it.
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It's through this path of sharing myself,
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realizing that the only way,
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the only way you can sustain visibility
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is by being so nourished beneath the surface of the earth,
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really tending to the roots beneath the earth
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such that from those roots can stem a beautiful tree
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and fruits, you know, you can't start growing a tree
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from the fruits, you have to start rooted.
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And so this work has asked me to go so much deeper
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into that truth and into myself
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and also into love, into this idea of like, oh my word.
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Give love.
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Don't seek to take, try to give love,
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try to give and inject love into the collective consciousness
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because that is why you're here to speak at all, okay?
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So give love.
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Before I record a soul session,
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which is what I call a podcast or video episode of the Soul Salon,
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sometimes I will sing to myself the words that I need most
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in order to be able to have the courage to record
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and to give voice to what I'm seeking to express
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in that soul session.
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And I didn't think that I would be sharing this.
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I just thought it was part of my private vault
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of things that I create.
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But I decided that it kind of speaks to the point
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of how we only rise rooted like by tending to these roots
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within us from that we can stem these leaves
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and these fruits that we're seeking to stem
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and that this is the kind of love that I am pouring
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into myself before I'm able to pour love into you
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and into the you, that is me, you know?
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And so I am going to share this with you.
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It feels very vulnerable when I'm singing,
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but it is an expression of my aliveness
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and something that I seek in my creativity
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is to leave my aliveness with you, you know,
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to leave it on earth with people to feel.
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So here is what I sang to myself
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before I started this soul session.
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I hope that it helps you as you face your fears
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of being seen.
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And so you are here as a vessel for something.
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For you it may be love, it may be art, it may be truth,
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it may be beauty in its core essence
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in the sense of beautiful flavors, beautiful smells, sounds,
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that kind of beauty that you walk into a room
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and you're like, oh, that kind of beauty
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that you look at a sunset and you're like, oh, my word.
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Is this not the point of being alive?
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Like if you are here as a vessel for that,
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then each time you don't invite us into that
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which you're a vessel for, we are less or for it.
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Like we are less nourished, we are starved for that choice.
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Like you're not nourishing our consciousness,
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you're actually depriving it from the beauty, the joy
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that you are here to bring, the truth you're here to bring,
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the experience you are here to share, the stories you are here
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to tell, they could be deeply painful stories,
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they could be exciting stories, but it's the stories
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that the collective wants to receive through you.
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You know, I've been thinking about the fact
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that on planet Earth there are around 7,000 languages,
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currently, and if we think of colonialism
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and the effect that that has had on the death
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of many languages or the weakening of many languages,
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the decrease of them, we could think that there would have
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been much more, but if we think of the Earth
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as speaking 7,000 languages,
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and we think of this universe on these different scales,
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I think of the infinity of love,
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like love is this infinite energy,
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and for some people this is how they receive the idea of God
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as this infinite energy of love, the creator,
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the cosmos, this infinity, like infinity,
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and the divine are very closely linked.
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So what if my love the specific way
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that you speak into and speak through love,
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is its own language?
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And you are here to share and speak that language,
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and eventually others who speak the language of love
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that you speak or who want to learn how to
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are going to feel called to your language of love.
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So that there are all these different forms of communication,
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there's energetic communication,
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there's just this feeling someone gives you
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or someone awakens within you.
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And so each time you don't offer us that,
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we are in a sense silenced from what we are here
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to express in this lifetime.
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Ooh, because you are a portal, you are a portal through you,
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someone can experience more love, more friendship,
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more possibility, more beauty, more creativity,
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more wholeness, more the feeling of being acknowledged
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of being seen, more accompanied in this lifetime,
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their hand held, like you are a portal through you,
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someone gets to feel and experience something
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that you give them more of.
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Maybe they already feel that way
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and they're seeking to feel it more,
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maybe they've never even felt the sweetness
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of what you are here to give.
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The way that you listen could be the portal.
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Oh my word, haven't we each been transported by a good listener?
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Oh my gosh, I'm gonna make a video on good listeners.
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Oh my word, I mean, I consider myself one,
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but I feel like we are literally like,
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actually just wait for that video to come.
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But essentially, have we not felt literally like we're in
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a vortex, like we're not on earth,
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we're in a different dimension because of the way
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someone held space for us.
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Like where is this that I am now?
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Because I'm not where I was before this conversation.
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I feel so seen, I feel so held, I feel so acknowledged.
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And if you haven't felt that way, my love,
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and manifesting it for you, it's a delicious feeling.
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And if you are the one who offers that feeling to others,
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babes just stick around because that's gonna be
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a love letter to you, to us.
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So what is that, that person in that conversation,
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their portal, their portal into an experience,
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someone didn't even know they were seeking,
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because sometimes we don't even know
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how much we're seeking to be deeply heard.
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And we talk about loneliness in society, isolation,
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and it's so real, but part of that loneliness
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is being fueled by people who are taught to speak
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and not taught to listen, it doesn't work.
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We're never gonna feel held by such a consciousness
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that only knows how to speak and not to deeply hear.
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Oh my word, okay, okay, we're getting,
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we're not getting distracted, it's all part of it,
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but you are a portal.
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You transport us to a place of more of something
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that we want to feel.
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We may not even know consciously that we want to feel that way.
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Maybe the way that you sing,
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it creates this frequency all around our body,
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we get tingles, maybe it's mournful,
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maybe it's melancholic, and it allows us to connect more
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with the feeling of grief within each of us.
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Maybe you have this really uplifting energy
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that each time we listen to you,
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we feel more like, wow, okay, maybe the universe will be okay.
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Maybe you bring love, maybe you bring peace,
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maybe you bring perspective,
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maybe you have a way of conceiving a reality
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that's so magnetic and potent,
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and you don't even realize how potent it is,
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because again, you feel the silencing effect
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of all your conditioning and all the voices within
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and the bullying and the trauma.
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So you're a portal and we want to go
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where you are here to take us,
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and you may not even know where that is.
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That's why sometimes you just have to allow your art
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to be spoken and shared and then surrender
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to not knowing what it's going to be a portal towards.
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And also through the act of creation itself,
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you get to experience the portal of creation.
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Like I am transformed by the speaking, by the speech,
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just as much as it potentially can transform.
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So I as the creator, emerging with and stepping into
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and through this portal.
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This is a system that I'm calling creative portals
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that I don't like the idea that we think of art
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in the sense of consumption.
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What did you consume?
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Consumption implies an ending, right?
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If you consume something, it implies
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that you are, it's a very capitalist understanding.
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Like it's now, there's none left, it's disposed of,
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it's finished.
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That's not what art does.
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Babes, that's not what an idea that blows your mind does.
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That's not what a song that speaks to you
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and tells your heart string does.
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That's not what a video that changes everything
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in your universe does.
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That's not what it does.
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You don't consume it if you think about it.
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It's not finished.
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In fact, it's just getting started.
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If you are invited into a portal that feels
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heart-made for you, you don't even,
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you just feel like, whoa, I belong here.
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I didn't even know I belonged here,
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but I belong here in this room, in this space.
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That to me is this idea of art as a creative portal
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and as artists as the portals
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to a more loving, a more healed world.
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That by artist, I mean people who create things.
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I mean creators, I mean visionaries of all forms
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that that consciousness is rebellious.
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It says, I insist not only in believing
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in what is not yet here,
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but I actually insist on creating it.
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Ooh, sexy, beautiful, wonderful.
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And that's also why I believe creativity as a consciousness
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is a kind of querying, it's a queer consciousness
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of creativity walked into the room.
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It wouldn't be straight, it wouldn't be straight.
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But essentially creativity as a consciousness
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it's always insisting on otherwise.
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Oh my gosh, oh my word, okay.
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So it's always insisting on otherwise
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and you are part of that insistence.
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So each time you silence that insistence
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and don't share it, I speak to so many incredible people
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on earth and they have an idea
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and they insist on repressing that idea.
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It's a self-policing, right?
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It's the whole surveillance police and colonial status.
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Let them internalize this policing so deeply within
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that they do our work for us essentially.
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They are so repressive towards themselves
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that they are externally oppressed by these systems
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and also internally oppressed
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by the way that they've internalized these systems.
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So I speak to all these incredible creators.
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It could be they want to host an event.
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It could be they want to write poetry
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and share it with the world.
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It could be they have a book idea
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and they really want to share it,
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but they're afraid of what the book is asking them
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to tap into.
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And I feel the power of how beautiful it would be
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for people to be invited into the worlds
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that they're trying to create.
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And if as creators of those things,
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we refuse to create, we're aligning ourselves
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with the status quo consciousness.
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When as creators, and I call this creative consciousness,
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we always need to align ourselves
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with this rebellious voice within us,
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with this what if voice, this childish voice,
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this what if a voice you want to call it,
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this hopeful voice, this voice of possibility.
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And that is why within the broader system,
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a lot of people will not understand the artist,
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the creator, the maker, because they insist on what is not yet.
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And every creator you admire had a whole group
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of people around them who said,
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that's not gonna work.
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That will never work.
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That's not possible.
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And so we must insist on staying faithful
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to this creative consciousness within us.
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And it's gonna ask everything of you.
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It's gonna ask everything of you.
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If you have an idea and you are committed
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to not just thinking about the idea,
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but actually bringing it to life,
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it's gonna ask a lot of you,
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but we are all here.
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We're here with you.
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You've been asked because you have the answers.
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Ah!
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You've been called,
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because you're the perfect one to pick up.
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Okay, who's calling?
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You've been called because this is your calling.
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This is our calling of you.
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And it's hard made for you.
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Hand made for you.
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It's like your calling.
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In the sense that we're calling you
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in a very particular specific way,
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and we hope that you'll pick up.
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And just think of it as an invitation.
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So, babe, what are you going to invite us into?
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What is the art you may invite us into?
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What is the idea you're gonna invite us into?
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What is the event you're going to invite us to
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and allow us from the fullness of our being to say yes?
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And also allow us to say no,
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because even if it's a no,
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number one, it could be a not yet.
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So many times I've said,
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I don't want to watch that yet.
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Okay, I've thought it's a no.
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And then like a year or two months later,
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I'm like, you know what, I'm ready.
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Or you see something and it kind of triggers you,
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but then like a week later you're like,
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okay fine, I'm ready.
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You know what I mean?
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Sometimes just being invited is this portal
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that has already shifted people's perspective
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on what's possible.
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So sometimes we need time for the invitation
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to match the saying of the yes.
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Like you might hear of an artist
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and be like, oh yeah, check her out.
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And then a year later, you're like,
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oh, let me check out that artist my friend told me about.
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And then suddenly it's like the teacher and the student.
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It's like the perfect time to receive that message.
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So trust in your invitations
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and trust that everything you create,
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not to mix metaphors, but why not?
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Cause I love mixing.
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Everything you create is like a breadcrumb.
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And you don't know which of the crumbs
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is gonna allow your ideal being,
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your ideal soul to find your work.
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So do you think if you want your art to be found
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in the world by the people who it's meant for?
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One breadcrumb is gonna do it.
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Is two gonna do it?
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Is three good?
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No, no, no, we gotta leave some breadcrums.
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You know, you never know which piece of your work
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is going to invite someone through the portal
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of your consciousness into how it is over there.
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So that's why I believe,
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and I have a video on,
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either it's out or it's coming out on the mosaic mindset
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on having this perspective of creation
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that reduces the pressure on each work
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so that we can invite more and more people into our worlds.
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You are an invitation.
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You know, we think of manifesting, we think of creating,
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but remember that you are a manifestation.
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You are a creation.
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And so as you are, you hold all the potency of those things.
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And so whatever you feel called to invite us into trust
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that life has already chosen you.
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I've been saying that so often recently
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because I'm like, whoa, life chose you.
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You know, life chose you.
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You had such a rare chance of being here.
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Here you are watching this video.
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Life has chosen you.
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There are trillions of cells conspiring
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to keep you alive in this moment.
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It's actually so profound.
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And yet of course, when you're surrounded by life,
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it can feel less magnificently, less magical,
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but it equally is.
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We need to keep reminding ourselves and asking ourselves,
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how can I be more and all of everything in my experience,
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which includes me necessarily.
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Includes being in awe of your thoughts, your ideas.
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You know what I wrote down the other day?
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I said, and I didn't mean this like in a disrespectful way.
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It was a way of trying to unblock myself
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because I felt like I haven't been creating
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as much as I want to.
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And I wrote down, my smallest idea
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is someone's greatest breakthrough.
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And I love that because it's relative to you.
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It's an idea you've already had.
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So it feels small.
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It feels like does anyone really care about that?
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And I love smallness.
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Smallness is part of the universe.
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We need smallness.
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But then when you encounter an idea that's new,
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it feels like the biggest thing in the world.
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It feels like, oh my word, I'll never be the same.
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I'll never see the world the same
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because now I have this idea.
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And then that person incorporates it into their heart
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and consciousness and then it becomes relatively
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to other ideas, small again.
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So your smallest idea, that idea you just had on a Tuesday,
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maybe you were sitting on the toilet, you were like,
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well, if you just shared that idea with others,
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it's someone's biggest breakthrough.
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As in, their heart, their mindset, their behavior
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will feel call to, spoken to, received
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by that small moment on that Tuesday.
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Because we underestimate our magic.
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We even underestimate or overestimate
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what magic has to look like.
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Magic can be the tiniest realization
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while you were making coffee last Thursday.
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Just being like, you know what?
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What if I wouldn't it be cool if, why don't we?
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Hmm, indeed, why don't we?
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So invite us, babes.
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We want to be invited.
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And trust that people saying no to your creativity
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or to your creations doesn't make them less magnificent
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because life has already chosen you.
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That force that is stretching towards more of life
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in the tree that is bending towards the sun,
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in the flower seeking companionship
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amongst the other flowers that's being pollinated by the bees.
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This life thing that's happening,
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this breath that is happening, it's already happened to you.
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So everything you create is simply an extension
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of that magnificence, of that life force, of that aliveness.
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And that's why I believe like creativity
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is one of the most in liveening things, relationship number one.
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And relationship is creative, creativity is relationship.
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I mean, are people writing me some kidding?
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And so, and so, that relationship has chosen
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to express itself through you.
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Through you, you, you is no mistake.
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Does life, I was gonna say, does life make mistakes?
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You know, that's a story for another day.
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But there's no mistake, it's you.
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So these ideas that just come to you from who knows where?
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That's magnificent, that's poetic, that's divine.
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You get to make that.
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Some version of it, not the perfect version.
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Not the version we tell ourselves if we only did it, no,
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just a version, could be a song.
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You never shared with anyone, but you allowed yourself
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to be seen in the singing.
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Seen by the cosmos is also watching.
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The earth, God, whatever you believe in, you're being witnessed.
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And we wanna witness you.
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So invite us to witness your unfolding.
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Don't wait, don't say I'll be ready then.
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When I have this thing, no, you are ready, you are ready.
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You are readiness itself.
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You are ready.
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You, you, you, you, you are.
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In your essence, you are readiness.
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For whatever you seek, whatever you seek, whatever you seek.
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Okay, I love you so much.
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Please invite us, we wanna be invited.
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You're so magical.
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Ah, I'm in awe of you.
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You're incredible.
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Please be in awe of yourself.
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Because it's only through that awe that you're gonna believe
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in your creations enough to, first of all, make them
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and second of all, share them and invite us to come along.
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I love you so much, my darling.
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I'm sending you so much love.
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You are the universe, expanding, experiencing,
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living, breathing.
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And we get to live and breathe and see through you.
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We want to step through your creative portal,
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through your creations as a portal to someplace more sacred,
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more divine, more loving, more whole, more wonderful,
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more interesting, because you're interesting.
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You have interesting things to say.
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More healing, more receptive, more understanding.
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So please invite us.
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We love you, okay?
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I love you so much.
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Thank you for stepping into the portal of the Soul Salon,
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a soulful place, a feeling place,
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a healing place for the dreamers, for the feelers,
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for the healers.
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I am so grateful because a new earth,
31:00
a new consciousness is awakening
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and you are so much part of that awakening, my love.
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And I will see you on the next Soul session.
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I love you.
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Bye.