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Episode #245: Not Honoring the Body · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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Speaker 1: Everybody, welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev's up
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Speaker 1: sister chatty Kathy over here.
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Speaker 2: I know I'm always chatty when I'm not, you know.
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Speaker 2: And it's like, you're gonna be very quiet, and then
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Speaker 2: no laughing. As soon as you say no laughing, the
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Speaker 2: laughter is going to burst forward. No matter what. I
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Speaker 2: should do that every day, no laughing, because we know
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Speaker 2: it's not going to be the case. Right, set myself up.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm not the person to be next to you
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Speaker 1: in a serious situation because I'd be like, and it
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Speaker 1: won't go well.
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Speaker 2: I know. I'm telling you, I'm an adult. And even
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Speaker 2: going through massage school, if they said any words that
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Speaker 2: were you know, just along the lines that were body oriented,
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Speaker 2: we might be looking at a body map or something
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Speaker 2: like that, and I was the adult, probably like maybe
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Speaker 2: the second or third person that was in there, the
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Speaker 2: oldest in the room or whatever, and I would be
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Speaker 2: laughing my butt off because because that's because that's I
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Speaker 2: thought it was funny. I just thought I was hilarious.
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Speaker 2: So what's going on. Let's see, I was sick last week, right,
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Speaker 2: and I know we talked about talking or getting together
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Speaker 2: and stuff like that, and it's like, because you'd set
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Speaker 2: me up several dates that could work with my schedule,
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Speaker 2: really and I just didn't feel it. And I think
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Speaker 2: that's this is a good topic to have because we're
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Speaker 2: in winter, even though our weather doesn't always reflect that
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Speaker 2: here and there it did, Yes it did, but you know,
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Speaker 2: it's it's recognizing things and being okay and honoring self.
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Speaker 2: And it's like, I just wasn't. I wasn't feeling it. Honestly,
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Speaker 2: I didn't. I felt disconnected, not not just I just
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Speaker 2: didn't feel like I was connecting with my vibe and
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Speaker 2: my stuff. I don't think I would have had anything.
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Speaker 2: I don't think I would have had anything good to
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Speaker 2: really say. Maybe I would have. I don't know. I
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Speaker 2: never gave it the opportunity, but I just didn't and
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Speaker 2: you were so patient, So thank you. And I finally
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Speaker 2: messaged you because I had I had seen some clients,
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Speaker 2: but it's like that, you know, when you go in
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Speaker 2: you're pretty much given your all, and it's at the
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Speaker 2: end of the day, I was just tired, you know.
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Speaker 2: It's even when I picked up my grandson on Friday,
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Speaker 2: I'm like, we're gonna take it easy, dude, because it's like,
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Speaker 2: I'm not. I can't, just don't. I just don't have
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Speaker 2: that kind of energy right now. And it's just I
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Speaker 2: had to honor my body. And it's like it's okay
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Speaker 2: for us to get sick, people get all panicky and
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Speaker 2: stuff like that. It's like, this is winter time, this
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Speaker 2: is a time of purging and stuff like, this time
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Speaker 2: of rest, so it's like the perfect opportunity for things
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Speaker 2: to come up in your body to come out, and
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Speaker 2: it needed to come out. I had coughing and sneezing,
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Speaker 2: you know, the constant the nose thing going on. And
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Speaker 2: it's like, but perspectively, I knew it was because I
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Speaker 2: was releasing stuff. Because because I have desires and goals
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Speaker 2: that where I want to be at. In order for
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Speaker 2: that to happen, that I had to allow my body
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Speaker 2: facilitate the space for it. My calendar had already facilitated
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Speaker 2: space for it. Had I didn't even know. I had
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Speaker 2: no clue, no clue. But so it's awesome. It's just
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Speaker 2: awesome when these things kind of play out like that.
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Speaker 2: So message today, I honor your freaking body.
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Speaker 1: Okay, Yeah, And it's okay, he did do that, it is,
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Speaker 1: but we think it's not because I grew up in
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Speaker 1: a time frame that it was not okay if you
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Speaker 1: weren't if you didn't have a fever and you weren't
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Speaker 1: vomiting or anything like that, your buck goes to school.
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Speaker 2: That's just the way it was. And I raised my
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Speaker 2: kids the same way. Now, if I was raising my grandkids,
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Speaker 2: that would not be the case. I'm just telling you
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Speaker 2: because why because we're teaching them not to honor their body.
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Speaker 2: I was taught not to honor my body, So therefore
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Speaker 2: I taught my children not to honor their body. When
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Speaker 2: they weren't feeling good, they should have just stayed home.
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Speaker 2: But it was not always convenient for a working mom.
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Speaker 2: It just wasn't right.
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Speaker 1: And what do we do when there's an issue with
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Speaker 1: their vehicle. We take it to the mechanic and it's
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Speaker 1: going to go down however long it's going to be down,
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Speaker 1: and it's going to cost however much is going to cost.
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Speaker 1: It's true, but we don't do that for ourselves.
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Speaker 2: No, we just push ourselves and keep pushing ourselves. Go
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Speaker 2: grab another coffee, or go grab some a sports drink
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Speaker 2: or you know whatever, just to ul up that tank,
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Speaker 2: to push me more and then you run. Then you're
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Speaker 2: like wondering why you're so depleted at the end of
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Speaker 2: the day. Yeah, well I'm healed that a lot of
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Speaker 2: the people that I know that have had all this stuff.
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Speaker 2: I mean, I went on antibiotics too, just to be
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Speaker 2: I mean, let's be real. But it was beneficial for
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Speaker 2: me to do that. And I have other people that
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Speaker 2: it's like they're still dealing with it and stuff weeks later.
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Speaker 2: So it's like I did what I needed to do. Yeah,
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Speaker 2: and it was what was right for me.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, and everything was working out fine, so yeah, because
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Speaker 1: believe me, my time got filled up with things I
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Speaker 1: needed to take care of too. So I was like, okay, well,
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Speaker 1: well and I and then when I texted you, I'm like, okay, well,
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Speaker 1: here's our options for a Thursday. And I was okay
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Speaker 1: with those, like, well, we can share a video that
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Speaker 1: has high views because apparently that meant something to a
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Speaker 1: lot of people, so maybe more people need to see it.
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Speaker 1: I get to to do it by myself, which I've
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Speaker 1: done before, not a big deal, so I was there
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Speaker 1: was no panic mode. There was just a it's going
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Speaker 1: to work out however it's supposed to work out now
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Speaker 1: when we get off because we do uh we do
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Speaker 1: post on Thursdays typically when we get done recording, then
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Speaker 1: I'll go and do that part make sure it gets
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Speaker 1: posted Thursday. So it's just it's like leaning more into
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Speaker 1: divine timing and everything's okay as it needs to be.
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Speaker 1: I I So, since you're talking about the body, this
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Speaker 1: is really interesting for me. Today. I'm teaching for the
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Speaker 1: Cojet program here in town, and I did my one
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Speaker 1: class today and I teach another one tomorrow. But I
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Speaker 1: got up today and it's not that I didn't have
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Speaker 1: I didn't have a headache. I didn't. It wasn't I'm
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Speaker 1: not sick. I'm not catching a cold and nothing like that.
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Speaker 1: I just had some head pressure.
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Speaker 2: You know.
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Speaker 1: I just want to close your eyes and just be like,
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Speaker 1: do just leave me alone right now. I just want
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Speaker 1: to stay here. So when I went ahead, got up,
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Speaker 1: went to work, just chill. I was not rushing, nothing
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Speaker 1: for nobody, and I went and taught this class. Well
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Speaker 1: interesting enough. And I've said this before that when I
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Speaker 1: am teaching or coaching having conversations where I'm giving guidance,
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Speaker 1: I listen, right, what am I saying to this person?
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Speaker 1: Because whatever this person is hearing, probably how's it.
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Speaker 2: Affecting me as well?
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Speaker 1: How's it showing up in my life too? So I
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Speaker 1: was talking about the body and how stress affects the body.
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Speaker 1: Then we go get a prescription and it covers it up,
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Speaker 1: and then we have side effects and we don't listen
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Speaker 1: to our bis. So the whole like, I just taught
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Speaker 1: about this today, and this whole time I was doing it,
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Speaker 1: I'm like, I was very chill. Typically I get pretty animated.
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Speaker 1: If you've watched our videos before for the like you
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Speaker 1: see me, I get all animated. My hands are going
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Speaker 1: and I most of the time my hands were in
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Speaker 1: my pocket. I was just calm because I was trying
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Speaker 1: to maintain my thought process with this pressure that was happening.
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Speaker 1: And it wasn't like extreme, but it was just enough
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Speaker 1: to be like, man, I just want to go sit
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Speaker 1: down and close my eyes. So I was talking about
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Speaker 1: how in the past and my history that I was
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Speaker 1: always in my head about pretty much how worthless I was.
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Speaker 1: I shouldn't be here on this planet. How can I
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Speaker 1: take my life? People would be better off if I
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Speaker 1: was like, I'm talking about this stuff, and I was
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Speaker 1: telling them that every day, or I carried a bottle
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Speaker 1: of Thailand al cedrin in my purse and every day
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Speaker 1: I was taking those pills every day because my I'd
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Speaker 1: get a headache every single day. And then when I
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Speaker 1: was learning about being in the head and overthinking and
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Speaker 1: being caught up and wrapped up in the not good
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Speaker 1: enough stories and all that stuff, replaying the past over
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Speaker 1: and over and over, and the fear of the future
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Speaker 1: and all the things, I said, you'll have headaches. But
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Speaker 1: I didn't equate it what I was experiencing to a headache,
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Speaker 1: because it wasn't a headache. So I heard myself say it,
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Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, And I already knew. I know
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Speaker 1: that there's something going on me and haven't I haven't
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Speaker 1: made the connection yet. But here I am talking about
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Speaker 1: headaches and the body and all that stuff, and I
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Speaker 1: was all good. So I get done with the class
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Speaker 1: and I'm driving. Well, I came to my house just
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Speaker 1: around the corner and I came to my house and
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Speaker 1: from the building where I was to my house, I
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Speaker 1: was like, oh, I've been focused on how much how
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Speaker 1: much stuff I have going on, all the pieces, all
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Speaker 1: the things, and I keep it's a I'm gonna use
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Speaker 1: these words, but it doesn't feel good to use these
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Speaker 1: words in this sense. But it's a blessing and a curse.
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Speaker 2: All this coming.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's like all this stuff coming to me, that
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Speaker 1: of creativity of Okay, we're you going to do this,
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Speaker 1: and then you can do this, this and this and well, this,
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Speaker 1: this and this takes more time, more energy, more effort,
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Speaker 1: more planning, more and more and more when I already
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Speaker 1: have a whole nother this, this and this to take
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Speaker 1: care of and and then the organization I'm in and
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Speaker 1: working full time, and the house and and the pressure building.
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Speaker 1: So it wasn't a headache of the way it used
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Speaker 1: to be for me. It was just thinking about all
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Speaker 1: the things that are on my list to do, and
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Speaker 1: then even more stuff coming to me of getting it
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Speaker 1: set up and all that, and then so just pressure.
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Speaker 1: It was pressure. And so I was feeling the pressure
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Speaker 1: because I've been thinking about it, and so it was
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Speaker 1: just it's been great to learn how to make those
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Speaker 1: connections between what am I doing, what am I perceiving,
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Speaker 1: how am I perceiving life and the things going on
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Speaker 1: and how my body reacts to it. So it was great,
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Speaker 1: and you know it would it went away. It did
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Speaker 1: a little bit, it lingered for a little bit after
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Speaker 1: I realized it, but as of right now, it's gone.
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Speaker 2: So and I didn't take anything for it. So nice.
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Speaker 2: So like a self imposed pressure, right, we put pressure
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Speaker 2: on ourselves to yep, And I get it. I hear you.
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Speaker 2: I mean I I can't even say that I get
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Speaker 2: it because you're I don't have your schedule. I don't.
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Speaker 2: I don't. It's not I'm not. That's I don't feel
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Speaker 2: thriving in that environment for myself at this time.
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Speaker 1: Yeah, and you know what, here's the thing. Nobody is
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Speaker 1: pressuring me to do it.
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Speaker 2: No, don't, it's you're yeah.
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Speaker 1: So, I just want to make that clear, Like nobody
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Speaker 1: out here is pressuring me to do any of it.
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Speaker 1: It's it's just all this stuff that's flowing to me
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Speaker 1: to to it's an opportunity to do it. Yeah so yeah,
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Speaker 1: so is so fascinating.
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Speaker 2: And to me, it's it's kind of divine when you
11:47
Speaker 2: think about a lot of this stuff, because I have
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Speaker 2: a lot of stuff I feel like that's been coming up.
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Speaker 2: It's like silly, I call that kind of stuff. It
11:53
Speaker 2: seems kind of silly because it's so obvious to us.
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Speaker 2: But when we get busy doing our things, we don't
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Speaker 2: have we don't stop to we have time to, we
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Speaker 2: don't take the time to stop and kind of evaluate
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Speaker 2: why are I feeling these ways? Why was I feeling sick?
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Speaker 1: You know?
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Speaker 2: Why was I doing all this stuff? And we just
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Speaker 2: don't do it. And it's okay, it's okay, but it's
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Speaker 2: a learning thing. And we're in a nine year, right,
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Speaker 2: It's a nine year for everybody, So this is like
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Speaker 2: completions of things, old habits coming to an end. If
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Speaker 2: you're so, you know, if you're ready to move beyond
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Speaker 2: a lot of that stuff. And I kind of am.
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Speaker 2: You see, you know, when I go to bed at night,
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Speaker 2: I'm asking my team to come in and it's like,
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Speaker 2: let's work through stuff that you know, seems to be
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Speaker 2: in my energy centers or whatever that might be a
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Speaker 2: block or holding me back or how am I holding
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Speaker 2: myself back? And it's like the craziest thing, Like I
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Speaker 2: can't even give you the examples, but it's like when
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Speaker 2: we start asking for things like that, for me, it's happening,
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Speaker 2: but we're already in that nine year. So it's like
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Speaker 2: I already know that there's a process that's happening right now,
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Speaker 2: which is wonderful. I think it's wonderful. I really do.
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Speaker 2: I would rather move forward without a lot of stuff.
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Speaker 2: And it's really taking the time because it's winter time
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Speaker 2: to reflect on where we're at, how far we've come,
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Speaker 2: and it's like you don't recognize some of your behaviors
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Speaker 2: are gone until you start recognizing, like, wait a minute,
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Speaker 2: I don't feel this way anymore that I was feeling before,
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Speaker 2: And I don't. And it's such a relief. It is
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Speaker 2: such and I can't put it all into words of
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Speaker 2: all the things that I've experienced because it's my own
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Speaker 2: personal journey and everybody's got to go on their personal journey.
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Speaker 2: But it's been it's it's actually wonderful, amidst amidst some
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Speaker 2: days that are kind of poopy, really because it feels like,
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Speaker 2: especially when you're on this journey like this, you feel
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Speaker 2: like you should always be in that contact of stuff
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Speaker 2: and we could be, but I'm not at that space yet,
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Speaker 2: So I catch myself falling backwards a little bit into
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Speaker 2: some of the falling backwards in the mud again, right,
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Speaker 2: getting all dirty again. But it's all, I don't stay
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Speaker 2: there very long. I can hose off pretty quick and
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Speaker 2: move on. But it's like it's some some days it
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Speaker 2: feels that way, But it's also recognizing my own self sabotage,
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Speaker 2: my lack of self confidence things. I have a lot
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Speaker 2: higher confidence self confidence now, but it's I still catch
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Speaker 2: myself looking into myself, and I might catch myself judging
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Speaker 2: myself or I'm not feeling like I'm good enough. The
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Speaker 2: other day, I was going to town. I was worrying. Yesterday.
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Speaker 2: I think it was I was wearing sweats. Normally I
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Speaker 2: would never go out in public the way I went out,
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Speaker 2: But it's like, who cares? Who cares? Who? If someone's
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Speaker 2: not going to like me because of the way I'm
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Speaker 2: dressed right now, that's not my problem, it's not. So
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Speaker 2: we get into that worry thing. That's then that was
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Speaker 2: an old pattern, that was something I learned from my mom.
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Speaker 2: So it's like, it's just all these things. I recognize
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Speaker 2: how hard I've been on myself in the past, expecting
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Speaker 2: myself to be a certain way, although I've learned the
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Speaker 2: tools now, and if I was to be in that
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Speaker 2: same my same experiences, probably in the most of my life.
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Speaker 2: I would have done some things differently because I'm in
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Speaker 2: a different space. But it's like I'm honoring those because
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Speaker 2: I guess what, I had those experiences for a reason,
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Speaker 2: because they were you know, that's what That's what those
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Speaker 2: were the tools that I got, those were the role
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Speaker 2: models that were around me. You learn how to act
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Speaker 2: and be in this world by the people that are
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Speaker 2: around you until you start, you know, until I get
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Speaker 2: to the point where I'm tired of acting the way
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Speaker 2: that I was acting. I'm tired of that. And then
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Speaker 2: I beat myself up for like four years since Jim died,
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Speaker 2: you know, all the stuff that I could have done differently,
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Speaker 2: and it's like I could not have done anything differently
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Speaker 2: at that time because I did not have the tools
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Speaker 2: that I have right now, right and so I've come
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Speaker 2: to peace with this and that's a nice So again
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Speaker 2: we're in the nine year closing out things. It's an
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Speaker 2: ending of the baptid behavior. I did the best that
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Speaker 2: I could. Thank you, Jim for showing up and being
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Speaker 2: with me even though I was I mean, I can.
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Speaker 2: It's so nice to be able to see yourself and
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Speaker 2: reflect upon yourself and not be so defensive and that's
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Speaker 2: another thing I've noticed. It's a lot because it's like
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Speaker 2: the wind out of a set, Like it's so such
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Speaker 2: a peaceful feeling to not be in that space. And
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Speaker 2: that's what my goal has been. But it's like to
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Speaker 2: be that defensive person. I'm I don't have to be
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Speaker 2: that way. That means that I've got to protect my self,
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Speaker 2: protect myself from what. I don't have anything to fear.
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Speaker 2: There's nothing to fear. What am I going to do? Die?
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Speaker 2: So we don't really die. I'm just going to dip
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Speaker 2: out all the body someday. It's going to be a
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Speaker 2: long time probably, but yeah. But it's like all these
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Speaker 2: things that go through our heads and stuff like that,
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Speaker 2: and our motivations that we don't even realize we're doing
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Speaker 2: it until we stop to analyze it, stop to take
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Speaker 2: a look at it, stop to take a look at yourself.
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Speaker 2: And it's like, how can I My question for myself
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Speaker 2: the last couple of days is how can I fall
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Speaker 2: in love with myself? Not from an egoic standpoint, not
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Speaker 2: from that I'm better than anybody else, but love me
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Speaker 2: no matter what, Love me, no matter if I've got
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Speaker 2: makeup on, if I don't do my hair. Do my
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Speaker 2: hair if I'm dressed up or I'm not dressed up.
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Speaker 2: Like love me. If I say something that might have
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Speaker 2: been out of turn, but it's like that's us second
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Speaker 2: guessing ourselves. And really if we realize everything is divine.
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Speaker 2: If we said something on accident, was never an accident.
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Speaker 2: When I'm taking when I'm journaling these days, I call
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Speaker 2: it journaling, but it's channeling when i'm doing it these days,
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Speaker 2: I'll catch myself writing something else. I'm talking to Jesus
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Speaker 2: the other day, and then I'm writing down the information
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Speaker 2: that I'm receiving, you know, second guessing myself still when
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Speaker 2: I'm doing this stuff, and then all of a sudden,
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Speaker 2: I start writing out the word God. It's like you
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Speaker 2: cannot make that stuff up. It's like it's not, it
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Speaker 2: was not. I wasn't doing it was so weird because
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Speaker 2: it's like that one little second, that one little blip
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Speaker 2: caught me up. You know, I wasn't paying attention, and
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Speaker 2: all of a sudden, I'm writing something else. Then my
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Speaker 2: mind was thinking it should be. So it's just listening
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Speaker 2: and it's just doing it. Anyways, even if you think
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Speaker 2: that you're not you know that it's not real or whatever.
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Speaker 2: It's still setting the intentions that still me moving forward.
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Speaker 2: So every morning I journal, I meditate, Every night I meditate.
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Speaker 2: If I have time in the middle of the day,
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Speaker 2: I meditate. I'm doing all kinds of different meditations. I'm
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Speaker 2: trying everything that I would never have done before, creating
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Speaker 2: yoga meditation. I'm going to try out this yoga Nidra
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Speaker 2: meditation or it's called I some and like I wrote
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Speaker 2: it down somewhere, but it's it's just all this new stuff,
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Speaker 2: and it's like, why not, Because if we need to
18:07
Speaker 2: explore all these things so we can figure out what
18:10
Speaker 2: do we like?
18:11
Speaker 1: Yeah, and what if it works?
18:14
Speaker 2: Oh my god, what if it works? There's a well,
18:18
Speaker 2: there's an incentive there because there's been when you have
18:20
Speaker 2: an experience with a yoga, the Korea yoga. Because I've
18:25
Speaker 2: been reading the Autobiography of a Yoga, I have not
18:28
Speaker 2: been reading it. I've been listening to it. So let
18:29
Speaker 2: me clarify. I've been listening to it, and I find
18:32
Speaker 2: it fascinating. There's some areas in there that might be
18:34
Speaker 2: a little bit It probably would be better if I had
18:37
Speaker 2: the book to look at it, to explore some of it,
18:39
Speaker 2: but I'm listening to it and I and that's why
18:42
Speaker 2: he started talking about the Korea Yoga, that we need
18:45
Speaker 2: this and it's such a short amount of time to
18:47
Speaker 2: do it, so I would I would have people take
18:50
Speaker 2: a look at it, you know, see what you feel.
18:52
Speaker 2: But for me, sitting you know, in the sitting in
18:56
Speaker 2: your lotus position and you're facing the east when you're
18:59
Speaker 2: doing having this experience, I started feeling a vibration in
19:02
Speaker 2: my legs coming up my body. So it's like there's
19:05
Speaker 2: an incentive for me. So for me, I kind of
19:07
Speaker 2: need that motivation. So now when I go into meditation,
19:10
Speaker 2: I'm setting my intentions like team, I need, you know,
19:13
Speaker 2: help me get receive some sort of an incentive. So
19:15
Speaker 2: I keep going with this. So it becomes my practice
19:18
Speaker 2: not to be in a space of addicted to it,
19:20
Speaker 2: but it be in a space of the world's kind
19:24
Speaker 2: of the energies that are around as it fills kind
19:27
Speaker 2: of chaotic, anxious. There's a lot of different things. I've
19:30
Speaker 2: been noticing lately that the best way that I can
19:35
Speaker 2: handle all that stuff, if I didn't have meditation, if
19:38
Speaker 2: I didn't start it. At the end of the last year,
19:40
Speaker 2: I would be in some deep duty right now. I'm
19:43
Speaker 2: just telling you because I could feel it. I could
19:46
Speaker 2: feel it, and so now I have an escape when
19:48
Speaker 2: that starts happening to me. But I'm also recognizing we've
19:53
Speaker 2: been so tuned in to everybody since we were children
19:56
Speaker 2: around us that I don't put so much attention into
20:00
Speaker 2: my own energy. So I keep calling back my energy.
20:03
Speaker 2: I keep calling on arch Angel Michael like surround me,
20:06
Speaker 2: and I learned that from you, but I asked them
20:08
Speaker 2: to surround me and help me to maintain and uplift
20:10
Speaker 2: my own energy. I just want to feel my own energy,
20:13
Speaker 2: or I'll say, I just want to feel the energy
20:15
Speaker 2: of God today. That's all I want to feel, because
20:18
Speaker 2: it doesn't do me any good typically to feel ever
20:22
Speaker 2: to feel anybody else's energy. It doesn't. But it's almost
20:26
Speaker 2: invasive if you think about it. But we've been trained
20:29
Speaker 2: to We've been trained that way since children, and so
20:32
Speaker 2: now it's time for what about this person right here? Me?
20:36
Speaker 2: And so it's it's really just taking that time to
20:38
Speaker 2: feel what does that feel like?
20:43
Speaker 1: But I was recognized, I recognize when I was teaching
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Speaker 1: today because I was talking about also the top of
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Speaker 1: topic of anger and having all of that in me
20:55
Speaker 1: at a young at my younger days, and what I've
21:00
Speaker 1: recognized because I thought about that too later, I said,
21:05
Speaker 1: singing to myself, when was the last time I was angry?
21:13
Speaker 1: I couldn't come up with anything. I don't know. I
21:15
Speaker 1: don't honestly, I don't know last time I was actually
21:17
Speaker 1: like angry. And what I do know for me is
21:25
Speaker 1: I get I don't get angry about things because that
21:30
Speaker 1: was a story that attached to I was angry more
21:33
Speaker 1: at myself because I wasn't living up to the perfectionism
21:38
Speaker 1: or the good enough.
21:40
Speaker 2: Story or all that.
21:41
Speaker 1: So I would get angry because I wasn't meeting my
21:46
Speaker 1: own expectations of what I thought other people wanted. And
21:50
Speaker 1: so now there's it's like there's no anger button to push,
21:59
Speaker 1: but I do get frustrated and irritated. And so that's
22:04
Speaker 1: kind of my next step. Okay, I'm recognizing that when
22:07
Speaker 1: this person does this, I get frustrated. I don't get
22:11
Speaker 1: angry or I get irritated or annoyed. Right, So it's
22:16
Speaker 1: just like another step of looking at it going Okay, well,
22:21
Speaker 1: when this happens, this is how I react. Got it
22:26
Speaker 1: note taken. I'll work on it because I know there
22:29
Speaker 1: will be plenty opportunity to practice. But I also noticed
22:33
Speaker 1: today was by having that pressure, I could feel.
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Speaker 2: The sense of.
22:44
Speaker 1: Deep calmness in my body. I was so calm today.
22:48
Speaker 1: I was just it was very interesting for most of
22:55
Speaker 1: the day, even though I there pressure going on, I
22:58
Speaker 1: was just super calm. And when there were things going
23:01
Speaker 1: on at work this afternoon, typically I would get right
23:08
Speaker 1: in there whatever it was. Right they're doing something or
23:13
Speaker 1: conversations going on, like I'm in there and I'm contributing, and.
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Speaker 2: It's like I had no desire.
23:26
Speaker 1: It was quiet did I'm sit there this whole time,
23:28
Speaker 1: just observing myself going, okay, we're keeping our mouths shut
23:34
Speaker 1: today and not overly involved type of thing. And then
23:44
Speaker 1: as you're talking just now, it just you said it,
23:48
Speaker 1: you said listen, listen, listen. I'm like, oh, is that
23:51
Speaker 1: the message? Now? I'm going to go back to what
23:56
Speaker 1: I would call my roots because my roots are being
23:59
Speaker 1: an introvert, and introverts are really good listeners. We don't
24:03
Speaker 1: speak up, we're not the center of attention. We're not
24:07
Speaker 1: doing any of that because we don't want the tension
24:09
Speaker 1: on us. So listen, let's just pull back a little
24:16
Speaker 1: bit and do more listening. And I know I'm a
24:20
Speaker 1: really good listener. I know that about myself. But maybe
24:26
Speaker 1: I've been doing too much talking for a while and
24:29
Speaker 1: now it's time to just pull it back and just
24:34
Speaker 1: more in that observing and listening mode. Every time you
24:38
Speaker 1: said it listen, I was like, I hear you. I
24:44
Speaker 1: heard it the first time. I got it the first time,
24:46
Speaker 1: actually very first time you said listen, I was like,
24:50
Speaker 1: that was it. If that was a piece of today,
24:54
Speaker 1: I know it.
24:56
Speaker 2: Nice.
24:57
Speaker 1: So we'll see how that goes. Because now I now
25:00
Speaker 1: that i'd use my voice. I like using my voice,
25:02
Speaker 1: and so so yeah, it's been a very very interesting, intriguing,
25:13
Speaker 1: introspection type of day because I had some head pressure.
25:21
Speaker 2: Nice because it facilitated something else. That's why there's a
25:25
Speaker 2: perfection there. Yeah, it's all perfect. It's so perfect because
25:28
Speaker 2: it helps us on the other side of that. And
25:31
Speaker 2: I'll tell you, with the listening, I hear things around.
25:35
Speaker 2: When I hear people having conversations, I'm hearing other things
25:40
Speaker 2: that aren't even being said. It's pretty awesome. It's pretty awesome.
25:45
Speaker 2: It really is, you know, anybody out there that wants
25:49
Speaker 2: to do any psychic work or mediumship, not even do
25:52
Speaker 2: the work really, but to recognize how you have it first,
25:56
Speaker 2: you got to listen because it's always been there, and
26:01
Speaker 2: it's like it's such a it's a valuable tool even
26:04
Speaker 2: for your own personal guidance in your daily activities, ticking
26:08
Speaker 2: out your wardrobes, like not knowing much to do even
26:11
Speaker 2: for your classes, like you and I know you do
26:14
Speaker 2: a lot of stuff, but you can rely on spirit,
26:16
Speaker 2: like what do we want to talk about today? Or
26:18
Speaker 2: what do these people need to hear today, these particular
26:22
Speaker 2: people that are in the space, because we could have
26:24
Speaker 2: a whole plan of things how they we think they
26:26
Speaker 2: should be, and it could turn out to be something
26:28
Speaker 2: totally different and then it changes their whole life. Yeah,
26:33
Speaker 2: and you're you still fly by the seat of your
26:34
Speaker 2: pants now that you didn't, you know what I mean.
26:36
Speaker 2: You've got such a toolhouse that you It's like you
26:40
Speaker 2: can the conversations could go any direction and you can
26:42
Speaker 2: still manage it.
26:44
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's exactly because I always have. I had notes
26:47
Speaker 1: and I pretty much just set them aside and I
26:51
Speaker 1: introduced myself and this is what I do, and I'm
26:56
Speaker 1: here for you. I could stand up because that an
26:59
Speaker 1: hour and a half today to talk and I and teach,
27:02
Speaker 1: and I was like, I could talk for the next
27:05
Speaker 1: hour and a half about all of this. But if
27:08
Speaker 1: you're not interested, there's no point in me talking about it.
27:11
Speaker 1: So I'm here for you. Why are you here in
27:14
Speaker 1: this room? You tell me what you showed up for.
27:17
Speaker 1: What do you need help with? Yeah, well you always started.
27:21
Speaker 1: That's awesome, so so yeah, and it's definitely when you
27:30
Speaker 1: know BEV talking about listening listening, if psychic is not
27:34
Speaker 1: in your wheelhouse, if you've been listening to us for
27:36
Speaker 1: a while, probably is. But if you're new, if psychic
27:39
Speaker 1: isn't in your wheelhouse right now of understanding, then just
27:43
Speaker 1: use intuition. You know what an in which your intuition is.
27:47
Speaker 1: It's that gut feeling, it's that mother's intuition, it's that knowingness.
27:52
Speaker 1: Psychic intuition same same, just it's differently received by the
27:56
Speaker 1: society and who you're speaking to. So if the word
28:00
Speaker 1: intuition feels better to you, then use that. So when
28:03
Speaker 1: you're listening, you you enhance that ability of your intuition
28:08
Speaker 1: and utilizing that more for our life, which is it's
28:13
Speaker 1: a tool that we have to help us navigate life.
28:16
Speaker 1: And so if you got anything out of this and
28:19
Speaker 1: that was it, that's great. Thanks for hanging out with us,
28:23
Speaker 1: thanks for listening this long to get that piece of information.
28:27
Speaker 2: You're welcome.
28:28
Speaker 1: That's right and TIChE.
28:32
Speaker 2: And it's also at your spidy senses, you know, when
28:35
Speaker 2: you have people that because I have people that have
28:37
Speaker 2: been police officers and you know that type of environment,
28:40
Speaker 2: it's your spidy senses. It's it's something you know that.
28:43
Speaker 2: It's just something innately you know. And there's some things
28:46
Speaker 2: that are inexplicable, you know, there are you can't there's
28:49
Speaker 2: just things that you just don't. You've had to experience
28:51
Speaker 2: of these knowings and stuff and it's like all it's
28:53
Speaker 2: all connected, all of it, whatever you want to call it.
28:58
Speaker 1: And it's an amazing tool to have, and it's it's
29:01
Speaker 1: part of you, whether you like it or not.
29:02
Speaker 2: Just saying because they can keep you alive. It can
29:06
Speaker 2: keep you alive, it can keep you it can keep
29:08
Speaker 2: you in a blissful state if you choose to follow that.
29:11
Speaker 2: And and I'm learning, I'm still learning to you know,
29:15
Speaker 2: navigate through and figure out what you know. I don't
29:18
Speaker 2: have to do it. I just got it's just listening
29:19
Speaker 2: because I'll guide you for everything. I'm just what I've
29:22
Speaker 2: been being told. I'll guide you through every They will
29:25
Speaker 2: guide you through everyth Are you listening? You don't have
29:30
Speaker 2: to do this all by yourself.
29:35
Speaker 1: We've been here all whole time, the whole time, rolling
29:42
Speaker 1: our eyes, wait.
29:47
Speaker 2: Patiently, standing by.
29:49
Speaker 1: Yes, then they do. They're so patient. All right, my friends,
29:54
Speaker 1: So we hope you got something out of this if
29:56
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30:00
Speaker 1: was some good information there. But listen to your body,
30:04
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30:08
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30:16
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30:19
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Speaker 2: So there we are. Any final words this, I want
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31:32
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31:36
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31:38
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31:41
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31:43
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