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When God Says No to Your Prayer · Jessi Morgan Devotions for the Christian Heart Podcast

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  SPEAKER_00: Hello, hello.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're listening to the Jesse Morgan Devotions for the Christian Heart Podcast, episode 100100.
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  SPEAKER_00: This week's devotional is titled When God Says No to Your Prayer.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let's go.
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  SPEAKER_00: Hi, I'm Jesse Morgan.
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  SPEAKER_00: I used to just share home decor and renovation tips on social media, but now I'm sharing something even closer to my heart.
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  SPEAKER_00: My journey in love for Jesus Christ, my Savior.
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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome to the Jesse Morgan Devotions for the Christian Hawk Podcast.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is a weekly devotional I started back in May 2024, but the inspiration for it came much earlier.
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  SPEAKER_00: It was rooted in a faith journey that began when my daughter was born four months early in 2023.
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  SPEAKER_00: Through that challenging time, God worked in ways that truly amazed me.
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  SPEAKER_00: On this podcast, I share personal stories of faith woven together with Scripture to show just how incredible God's word can be in our everyday lives.
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  SPEAKER_00: My hope is that through these stories, you'll be encouraged, uplifted, and reminded of God's love and presence, no matter what you're going through.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I invite you to spend less than 15 minutes with me each week as we reflect on these devotionals together.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let's all pray within.
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  SPEAKER_00: And by the end of this episode, you understand why it connects so closely to this to David's story.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because we're still in this uh the the study of David.
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  SPEAKER_00: First, I just want to say this is my 100th episode, and I'm so grateful for all of you who have listened and supported this podcast.
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  SPEAKER_00: Truly, truly, thank you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, let me take you back to when I was in high school, because this is this is going to be a throwback today.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, I ran Dragon Field for many, for many people that know, from elementary school all the way through college.
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  SPEAKER_00: And this particular story happened when I was around a sophomore junior in high school.
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  SPEAKER_00: Regionals were coming up, which is the championship meet before the state championship.
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  SPEAKER_00: And our regionals uh were always held at Westminster Academy up in Fort Lauderdale.
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  SPEAKER_00: The neck the night before regionals, I spent the night at one of my best friend's houses.
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  SPEAKER_00: She also she also ran track.
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, that Friday night, we decided we wanted to go out.
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  SPEAKER_00: Regionals on Saturday, and I was obviously at my friend's house on Friday.
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  SPEAKER_00: So we did something we definitely should not have done.
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  SPEAKER_00: We snuck out of the house, drove all the way down to Coconut Grove from Pembroke Pines to a place called Quench, which believe it or not, allowed 16-year-olds inside.
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  SPEAKER_00: We didn't drink or anything like that.
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  SPEAKER_00: We weren't doing anything crazy, but we were still somewhere we shouldn't have been.
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  SPEAKER_00: We danced, we hung out, we didn't even get back home to her house till like 4 30 in the morning.
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  SPEAKER_00: The whole time my parents thought I was sleeping at my best friend's house.
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  SPEAKER_00: I remember calling my mom saying, Yeah, we're just hanging out, we're about to go to the we're about to go to bed.
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  SPEAKER_00: Love you, mom.
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  SPEAKER_00: So now, so not only was I somewhere I shouldn't be, I was trying I was lying to my parents.
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  SPEAKER_00: I got back to the house around 4 30 in the morning, like I said, showered, put on my track uniform, and then drove to school because the team bus was leaving at 7 a.m.
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  SPEAKER_00: I was exhausted.
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  SPEAKER_00: But the meet must go on.
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  SPEAKER_00: We got to we got to regionals and I kept thinking, okay, maybe I'll just take a nap on the bleachers before my race.
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, Florida weather had other plans.
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  SPEAKER_00: It started pouring rain.
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  SPEAKER_00: The meat stopped for about three hours, but they didn't cancel it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Everyone was crowded together, under tents and on the bleachers, trying to stay dry.
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  SPEAKER_00: There was nowhere to lay down.
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  SPEAKER_00: No nap, no rest.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, fast forward through the day, because of the rain delays, we ended up running the 200 meter final at 1.30 in the morning, 1.30 a.m.
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  SPEAKER_00: At that point, I had basically no sleep at all.
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  SPEAKER_00: I was terrified, I was on adrenaline, but I had to run the race.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I was running against my biggest rival at the time, her name was Chantel, who I'm still friends with to this day, she's awesome.
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  SPEAKER_00: So we had an incredible, she had an incredible um finishing kick at the end of her races.
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  SPEAKER_00: Everyone knew if she got close in the last few meters, she could catch you.
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  SPEAKER_00: So for me, the key was always get out, get a fast start, get out of those blocks.
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  SPEAKER_00: The gun went off, I got out.
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  SPEAKER_00: She started closing in near the end, you know, near the end, and the last few meters it was a photo finish.
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  SPEAKER_00: At first we thought she had beaten me, but when the results came up, I had won.
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  SPEAKER_00: Regional champion.
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  SPEAKER_00: Everyone was celebrating, and of course I was excited.
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  SPEAKER_00: The next week we went to state championships, which was held at the University of Florida in Gainesville.
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  SPEAKER_00: State was always intense, of course, and super important, we know.
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  SPEAKER_00: I had to run multiple races for state, um preliminary races in the 100, 200, 400, and then finals in all three later on.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I ran a total of six times in that day.
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  SPEAKER_00: By the time I got to the 200 meter final, I was exhausted.
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  SPEAKER_00: Still, before the race started, I remember standing at the line and I was praying, and I said, Lord, I've worked so hard all year, I've done everything I'm supposed to do.
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  SPEAKER_00: Please let me win this race.
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  SPEAKER_00: Please.
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  SPEAKER_00: The gun went off.
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  SPEAKER_00: Chantel and I were neck and neck the whole way, but in the final 10 meters, she pulled ahead and she beat me.
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  SPEAKER_00: She deserved it.
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  SPEAKER_00: She ran a great race.
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  SPEAKER_00: I was eh kind of happy for her, but I remember feeling really disappointed.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I remember thinking, God, why didn't you let me win?
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  SPEAKER_00: But now, sitting here at 39 years old, I look back at that story and I look at it very differently now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because a week before regionals, I had lied to my parents.
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  SPEAKER_00: I had gone somewhere I shouldn't have gone.
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  SPEAKER_00: We drove across the city in the middle of the night.
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  SPEAKER_00: So many things could have gone wrong.
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  SPEAKER_00: We could have gotten in a car accident, something terrible could have happened.
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  SPEAKER_00: It was just reckless.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the very next day, I paid the price at the moment, running one of the biggest meets of the year with no sleep.
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  SPEAKER_00: Looking back now, I see something clearly that I didn't see then.
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  SPEAKER_00: I had already created the consequence of my own choices.
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  SPEAKER_00: So how was I gonna ask God to honor my prayer of winning state the next week when I had not honored what I was supposed to do?
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  SPEAKER_00: I had not asked God for forgiveness because I had sinned.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I'm gonna sit here and just ask God, okay, I know I messed up, I know, you know, I shouldn't have done what I did, but God please let me win this race.
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  SPEAKER_00: Really?
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  SPEAKER_00: Make that make sense.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that takes me directly to David in 2 Samuel chapter 12.
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  SPEAKER_00: By this point in the story, David has already committed a massive sin.
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  SPEAKER_00: He committed adultery with Bathsheba, a married woman.
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  SPEAKER_00: She became pregnant, David tried to cover it up, bringing her husband Uriah home from battle.
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  SPEAKER_00: When that didn't work out, David arranged for Uriah to be placed on the front line of the war so he could be killed.
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  SPEAKER_00: And after Uriah died, David took Bathsheba as his wife, and of course, you know, was gonna take care of the child.
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  SPEAKER_00: So God sends the prophet Nathan to confront David in chapter twelve.
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  SPEAKER_00: Nathan tells David a story about a rich man with many flocks and a poor man who had only one little lamb.
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  SPEAKER_00: A traveler came to the rich man, and instead of the rich man um taking one of his own sheep to give to the traveler, the rich man took the one lamb that belonged to the poor man.
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  SPEAKER_00: And as Nathan told the story to David, David was furious when he heard the story, and he said to Nathan, he said, That man deserves to die.
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  SPEAKER_00: And Nathan looked at him and said, You are the man.
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  SPEAKER_00: And David realized immediately what he had done.
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  SPEAKER_00: He confessed his sin, and Nathan told him that God had forgiven him, but there would still be consequences.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the first consequence was heartbreaking.
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  SPEAKER_00: The child born from David and Bathsheba would not live.
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  SPEAKER_00: When the child became sick, God I mean, God not God, I'm sorry, um, David.
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  SPEAKER_00: He fasted, he pleaded with God.
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  SPEAKER_00: David laid on the ground, he prayed, he pleaded and pleaded and prayed for God to spare the baby.
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  SPEAKER_00: For seven days he cried out to the Lord.
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  SPEAKER_00: But on the seventh day the child died.
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  SPEAKER_00: David's servants were afraid to even tell him.
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  SPEAKER_00: But when David realized what had happened, he did something that shocked everyone.
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  SPEAKER_00: He got up, he washed, he ate, got himself together, and then he went to worship the Lord.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when the people asked why, David said something incredibly profound.
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  SPEAKER_00: I think this is one of the most, you know, amazing verses in the Bible.
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  SPEAKER_00: 2 Samuel 12, 23, it says, For now that he is dead, why should I go on fasting?
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  SPEAKER_00: Can I bring him back again?
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  SPEAKER_00: I will go to him, but he will not return to me.
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  SPEAKER_00: David understood something powerful.
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  SPEAKER_00: He pleaded with God while there was still hope.
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  SPEAKER_00: But once the consequence came, he accepted it.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then he turned back to worship.
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  SPEAKER_00: Sometimes we pray for God to spare us from the consequences of something we created ourselves, and God's gonna not answer that prayer.
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  SPEAKER_00: Just like I prayed before the race, but David's response teaches us something deeper deeper.
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  SPEAKER_00: When we sin, first we should confess, then we accept the consequence, and then we restore our relationship with God.
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  SPEAKER_00: We praise Him for what we still have, because even in consequence, there's still mercy.
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  SPEAKER_00: And looking back now, I'm actually grateful I lost that race.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because that lesson stayed with me for the rest of my life about being responsible for my actions and how that could affect someone.
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  SPEAKER_00: That race really instilled that in me, and I honestly didn't realize it till I did this study, till I did this chapter.
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  SPEAKER_00: And let me leave this with you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Sometimes we beg God to remove the consequence of something we choose.
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  SPEAKER_00: But God's mercy isn't always removing the consequence.
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  SPEAKER_00: Sometimes his mercy is the lesson that changes us forever.
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  SPEAKER_00: David understood that, and eventually, so did I.
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  SPEAKER_00: Love you all.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let's pray.
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  SPEAKER_00: Heavenly Father, I thank you so much for the study of David.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much for scripture.
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  SPEAKER_00: Father, we please your holy name.
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  SPEAKER_00: Father, let us all understand that sin does have consequences.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we have to accept those consequences and we have to praise God right after because God is forgiving us of our sin.
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  SPEAKER_00: We need to be thankful that He does that.
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  SPEAKER_00: He's giving us another chance.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that's what salvation is, Lord.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much for that.
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  SPEAKER_00: Father, we thank you so much for the study of David and the continuation of, you know, seeing how his character just evolves and changes and he goes through tough times, but he always comes back and repents.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we're just so thankful that we get to read this scripture and read these stories of David.
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  SPEAKER_00: Father, we love you and we praise you and thank you for everybody listening.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we love you, Lord, in Jesus' name.
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  SPEAKER_00: Amen.
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  SPEAKER_00: Love you all.
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  SPEAKER_00: Till next time.
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, that wraps up this week's episode.
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  SPEAKER_00: I hope these devotions help you draw closer to God each day.
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  SPEAKER_00: If this episode encouraged you, please share it with someone who might need the same message.
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  SPEAKER_00: And don't forget to subscribe so you never miss a weekly episode.
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  SPEAKER_00: For more information or to reach out, check the show notes or visit jessymorganhome.com or find me on Instagram at Jessimorganlife.
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  SPEAKER_00: Remember, God's timing is always perfect.
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  SPEAKER_00: Keep trusting him.
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  SPEAKER_00: Until next time, this is Jesse Morgan praying off.
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  SPEAKER_00: Jesse Morgan Devotions behind the scenes starting right now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Hey everybody, it's Jesse Morgan.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, I'm just coming on here to just say thank you so much for all the support and the love and the comments and the reviews and everything for the podcast.
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  SPEAKER_00: I just hit my 100th episode.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm so excited.
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  SPEAKER_00: I was planning to do something special, but had some uh backfired with that.
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  SPEAKER_00: But I'm excited because I'm still gonna do it in a couple of weeks, hopefully, and share with you um that.
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  SPEAKER_00: But, anyways, um, just reflecting back, started this podcast in May of 2024.
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  SPEAKER_00: I remember my daughter just got home from the hospital and God said to me, Jessica, you're you gotta do a podcast and you need to launch it before you go back to work in in May.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I was just like, in my mind, I said, What I don't even know how to do this.
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't even know how to do this.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I had to figure it out.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I launched this podcast, and it all came from journaling.
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  SPEAKER_00: I used to text, um, I used to read my devotional and then text a nice paragraph to my mom, dad, and my aunt and my husband.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, I did that every day, you know, when my daughter was in the hospital because, you know, she was born four months early, couldn't absorb spinal fluid, had a mask like by her heart.
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  SPEAKER_00: Like my daughter went through a lot of things.
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  SPEAKER_00: And of course, me and my husband, we couldn't do anything but pray and have faith.
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  SPEAKER_00: We couldn't control the situation.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I dove into scripture.
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  SPEAKER_00: I dove into my devotionals and I had the support of my family and close friends, and that's all I needed.
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  SPEAKER_00: And going through those devotionals, reading through it, reflecting, sharing stories and perspective, it just grew into something to voice notes to a podcast.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I just can't believe I had that many topics to cover in a hundred episodes, but I'm so thankful because when it's Bible-based, there's so many lessons that come from the Bible.
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  SPEAKER_00: And there's so many lessons that come from the Bible at different times of your life, you know.
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  SPEAKER_00: So even right now, just so you know, I am doing a study with my I have a I go to a Bible study on Wednesday nights at my church.
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  SPEAKER_00: We are doing a study on Proverbs.
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  SPEAKER_00: I always hear about Proverbs being such a hard book to understand.
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  SPEAKER_00: And doing this lesson has probably been the best thing that's ever happened to me.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, because Proverbs are all about wisdom and how to understand facts and understanding and put it into best practices, which is wisdom.
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  SPEAKER_00: And Proverbs touches finances, stewardship, leadership, marriage, raising your kids, just how to treat each other.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's such an amazing study.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the words in in that book has just spoken to me in ways that I probably 10 years ago I wouldn't have appreciated as much.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I think that's what makes scripture so powerful.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I'm so thankful that you're here listening to these podcasts every week and hopefully getting something out of it.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, anyways, um, until next time, love you all.
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  SPEAKER_00: Also, shout out to my husband for being such an amazing partner, allowing me to do this podcast, allowing me to study for it, and him taking care of my daughter when whenever I'm recording.
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  SPEAKER_00: I just want to say thank you for him.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we just we're a team, and I'm just so thankful because going through everything that we went through with our daughter, I couldn't have done it without such an amazing partner.
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  SPEAKER_00: So um, love you, honey.
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  SPEAKER_00: But, anyways, till next time, Jesse Morgan signing off.