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- 0:04Gina Marie Rodriguez: This is Gina Marie Rodriguez and you're listening to the Jersey Arts Podcast.
- 0:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: Jonatha Brooke has a voice to soothe your soul and the lyrics to nurture it.
- 0:14Gina Marie Rodriguez: First introduced to audiences as a part of the duo, the Story Brooke eventually turned to an illustrious solo career and has been gifting us with her own unique storytelling ever since.
- 0:26Gina Marie Rodriguez: She has quite the discography to boast, with 14 albums over the past three decades, most of which were produced under her own independent label, bad Dog Records.
- 0:36Gina Marie Rodriguez: Jonatha has co-written songs with Katy Perry and the Courtyard Hounds.
- 0:41Gina Marie Rodriguez: She's written and performed for Disney films, numerous television shows, and she composed and performed the theme song for Josh Whedon's Dollhouse.
- 0:50Gina Marie Rodriguez: She also wrote the one-woman musical show my Mother has Four Noses in honor of her own mom, and now finds herself writing for the stage once again, with three new productions underway.
- 1:03Gina Marie Rodriguez: Today's episode is a little different than most.
- 1:05Gina Marie Rodriguez: While Jonathan and I do discuss her music and her career, we also fell into the topic of grief and how pivotal art is to the shared human experience.
- 1:15Gina Marie Rodriguez: We laughed, we cried Okay, well, I cried, but we had a grand old time.
- 1:21Gina Marie Rodriguez: Check out today's episode to learn more about the very talented Jonathan Brook.
- 1:26Gina Marie Rodriguez: It's so nice to meet you.
- 1:30Gina Marie Rodriguez: Thank you so much for taking the time.
- 1:32Gina Marie Rodriguez: I really do appreciate it.
- 1:33Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'm very excited.
- 1:35Jonatha Brooke: Likewise my pleasure.
- 1:36Jonatha Brooke: It's been a while since I've done anything like this, so this will be great.
- 1:40Gina Marie Rodriguez: Oh well, yay, I'm glad to be your introduction back into it.
- 1:44Jonatha Brooke: I guess, and I have to say, I love your twinkle lights in the background.
- 1:51Jonatha Brooke: Thank you, that was a COVID thing because I was so depressed and I think they are a great antidepressant.
- 1:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: They are.
- 1:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: No, they are.
- 1:55Gina Marie Rodriguez: I want twinkle lights all over my house and I've been trying to find the right one.
- 2:01Gina Marie Rodriguez: If that, makes sense.
- 2:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'm very particular about the design.
- 2:03Gina Marie Rodriguez: I haven't found it yet, but I'm with you on lights helping.
- 2:10Jonatha Brooke: Anyway, I guess.
- 2:11Gina Marie Rodriguez: I should talk to you about music too.
- 2:13Gina Marie Rodriguez: Okay, if we have to, I've been rocking out to your music because well, obviously because I was amping up to talk to you, right, but I hate when I have such a limited amount of time to talk to people because this is a short form podcast and I have.
- 2:25Gina Marie Rodriguez: I hate when I have, like, such a limited amount of time to talk to people because this is a short form podcast and I have a million questions.
- 2:28Gina Marie Rodriguez: But I'll try to be as concise as possible.
- 2:31Gina Marie Rodriguez: Okay, me too.
- 2:32Gina Marie Rodriguez: Okay, but you're, are you in the middle of your tour?
- 2:36Gina Marie Rodriguez: I know you were just in Denmark, right?
- 2:38Jonatha Brooke: Or just got back yesterday.
- 2:40Jonatha Brooke: No I think I got back Sunday.
- 2:41Jonatha Brooke: Oh, what's today, yesterday?
- 2:42Jonatha Brooke: No, I think I got back Sunday.
- 2:44Gina Marie Rodriguez: Oh, what's today, Tuesday?
- 2:45Jonatha Brooke: Yeah, so yeah, I'm always in the middle of my tour because it just as long as I can tour, I will, so there's no specific beginning or end.
- 2:57Jonatha Brooke: It used to be based around the cycles of new records, but I've been hoping to make a new record for a couple years now and I just haven't had the time or the funds, so I'm just on tour whenever I can be.
- 3:09Gina Marie Rodriguez: I love that.
- 3:09Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'm not a person who travels well, so I'm always fascinated by people who enjoy touring and long-term travel, so I guess I wanted to ask you what about it?
- 3:21Gina Marie Rodriguez: Do you enjoy?
- 3:23Jonatha Brooke: Not the travel part for sure, because it is just grueling and it's um.
- 3:28Jonatha Brooke: Especially as you get older your body doesn't bounce back quite as quickly to the insults and assaults of gross, disgusting planes and icky, coughing, gross people, uh.
- 3:42Jonatha Brooke: But I have to say I just love the camaraderie with my guitar player.
- 3:47Jonatha Brooke: In Denmark I can afford a band because two of my guys are there already, so I'm not paying for hotels most of the time and it's just, I don't know.
- 3:57Jonatha Brooke: I think once you've been on the road with a bunch of dudes it's hard not to still love it.
- 4:04Jonatha Brooke: And it is, is it's so grueling, but you get on stage and you get, you do your show and you rock and there's this dynamic thing that happens in it.
- 4:13Jonatha Brooke: I can't, I just can't quit it.
- 4:16Gina Marie Rodriguez: I think that's great.
- 4:16Gina Marie Rodriguez: When you said that you, you can't oh my gosh, I speak English.
- 4:20Gina Marie Rodriguez: Sometimes I have trouble with the language that I was born into.
- 4:23Gina Marie Rodriguez: Try Danish.
- 4:25Gina Marie Rodriguez: You were saying that being on tour with a bunch of dudes is actually something that you love.
- 4:31Gina Marie Rodriguez: It was not the direction I thought you were going to go in.
- 4:35Gina Marie Rodriguez: So is your band?
- 4:35Gina Marie Rodriguez: Mostly men.
- 4:38Jonatha Brooke: Right now.
- 4:38Jonatha Brooke: Yes, I mostly tour as a duo because it makes it affordable, and Sean Driscoll is my guitar player.
- 4:45Jonatha Brooke: He's based in New York and I'm in Minneapolis, but we just meet up wherever we're going and have an extra day of practice or whatever, but it's mostly dudes.
- 4:53Jonatha Brooke: Yeah, there are women in my Rolodex that I would dream of playing with again.
- 5:00Jonatha Brooke: It's just the money, it's the affordability factor.
- 5:05Gina Marie Rodriguez: I think everything in life is, you know, dependent on capitalism.
- 5:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: I feel for you, though I did want to ask, I mean I should.
- 5:12Gina Marie Rodriguez: Let's give them a shout out, the gentleman in Denmark who are those folks that you work?
- 5:17Jonatha Brooke: with so cool A drummer named Kent Olson and a bass player named Morden Jay and they're seasoned, really just awesome musicians.
- 5:28Jonatha Brooke: And they happen to be super fans of mine, so they like know my music inside and out.
- 5:33Jonatha Brooke: So it's just a pleasure because they love playing with me and so I feel great and they are honored and I'm honored and they're really good musicians and they're well known in that the sort of music world over there.
- 5:47Jonatha Brooke: So it gives me this little sort of cachet.
- 5:50Gina Marie Rodriguez: That's great.
- 5:51Gina Marie Rodriguez: So how often do you end up in Denmark?
- 5:53Jonatha Brooke: It seems like like once a.
- 5:54Jonatha Brooke: I was there in June, I was there last spring as well, so usually just once a year, but it's been more and more because I just love it.
- 6:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: Do you live in Minneapolis?
- 6:04Gina Marie Rodriguez: Are you still?
- 6:05Gina Marie Rodriguez: I do.
- 6:06Jonatha Brooke: I do.
- 6:07Gina Marie Rodriguez: Is it super cold right now?
- 6:09Jonatha Brooke: Gorgeous.
- 6:10Jonatha Brooke: It's like it was in the 50s yesterday.
- 6:12Jonatha Brooke: Let me tell you it is currently 31, but probably going up to like oh, 40, 42.
- 6:21Jonatha Brooke: Oh wow.
- 6:21Jonatha Brooke: So, I came home to like gorgeous, gorgeous springish weather.
- 6:26Jonatha Brooke: So it's, and also, you know, climate change.
- 6:30Jonatha Brooke: It's becoming a destination, moving place, because we won't probably have fires or floods, so come on down.
- 6:40Gina Marie Rodriguez: Wow, yeah, you know I haven't.
- 6:41Gina Marie Rodriguez: Well, again we're back on the travel thing, but I haven't seen much of our country, so I haven't really been past the East Coast.
- 6:48Gina Marie Rodriguez: I mean, I went out to LA once, but beyond that I'm kind of a Jersey girl and I've stuck here for most of it Amazing.
- 6:56Jonatha Brooke: You should come, we'll cook you dinner.
- 6:57Jonatha Brooke: Oh, please do I like cooked meals, because I can't cook at all, me neither I'm good at really good at cleaning and eating, but my husband is an amazing cook, so oh, thank God, Lucky.
- 7:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, you are lucky.
- 7:09Gina Marie Rodriguez: Maybe I'll ask you for relationship advice later too.
- 7:19Gina Marie Rodriguez: How do I find a man who can cook for me?
- 7:21Gina Marie Rodriguez: Anyway, moving on, I, before I forget, I want to tell you one thing my producer, or one of my producers for this podcast, jim Atkinson, is a huge, super fan of yours, so he's very happy to have you on this podcast and I shouldn't say it because I can't speak for him, but I'm assuming that he is currently living vicariously through me.
- 7:42Jonatha Brooke: Oh, that's wicked sweet.
- 7:43Jonatha Brooke: Tell him hello and give him a hug.
- 7:45Gina Marie Rodriguez: Absolutely.
- 7:46Gina Marie Rodriguez: See, she said hi, jim.
- 7:47Gina Marie Rodriguez: But in his honor I wanted to ask you a little bit about your song Inconsolable, which I believe it ended up on the season finale of the first season of a little show called what was it?
- 8:01Gina Marie Rodriguez: Buffy?
- 8:02Jonatha Brooke: the Vampire.
- 8:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: Slayer, possibly Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
- 8:05Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, how do you feel about that?
- 8:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: How did it end up on that show?
- 8:10Gina Marie Rodriguez: What was that process like?
- 8:12Jonatha Brooke: That's the weirdest thing, because I hate to admit it but I still have not seen that show.
- 8:16Jonatha Brooke: But it turns out that Joss Whedon is a big fan of mine, so it was his call.
- 8:22Jonatha Brooke: I didn't even know that it had happened until people started telling me like hey, did you know that inconsolable was on buffy?
- 8:28Jonatha Brooke: And then he ended up calling me to write his theme song for um dollhouse.
- 8:33Jonatha Brooke: So I wrote and sang what you don't know won't hurt you, um, for his, his next escapade.
- 8:40Jonatha Brooke: Uh, so it was.
- 8:42Jonatha Brooke: Uh, I guess it was kind of a love story and that was really fun to sort of hear from him himself and to have the assignment of like hey, I'm a super fan, I need you to write me a song that's kind of a cross between Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairies and your song Careful what you Wish For.
- 8:58Jonatha Brooke: I'm like got it.
- 8:59Jonatha Brooke: I got it, and then I sent it to him.
- 9:01Jonatha Brooke: He's like oh my god, that's.
- 9:01Jonatha Brooke: And then I sent it to him.
- 9:02Jonatha Brooke: He's like oh my God, that's exactly what I meant.
- 9:03Gina Marie Rodriguez: I love hearing the stories of artists like fangirling or fanboying over other artists.
- 9:12Jonatha Brooke: It's one of my favorite genres of fandom, so it is it is cool and and there's some quirky, weird things like you wouldn't expect.
- 9:18Jonatha Brooke: So, like I'm a super fan of Michael McDonald, like he's the he's the only one that, like I've ever gotten an autograph from.
- 9:25Jonatha Brooke: I just adore him so bad.
- 9:30Gina Marie Rodriguez: And then everyone else I'm kind of unfazed by.
- 9:31Gina Marie Rodriguez: Did you get starstruck when you met Michael McDonald?
- 9:34Jonatha Brooke: Totally, oh my God, oh, I also did when I was living in LA.
- 9:38Jonatha Brooke: I saw Joni Mitchell in the cereal aisle at Whole Foods and I just froze and I didn't want to bother her, but that happened.
- 9:48Gina Marie Rodriguez: Oh, so you didn't get to talk to her, nope.
- 9:51Gina Marie Rodriguez: Well, at least you have the cereal story though, because I think that's what I hold on to.
- 9:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: I do, I do.
- 9:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, that's the good thing about LA you just run into everybody and anybody.
- 9:59Jonatha Brooke: Yeah, we'll always have Cap'n Crunch in common.
- 10:01Gina Marie Rodriguez: Exactly.
- 10:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: I wanted to ask, since we're talking about film and television, do you have anything in the works, anything upcoming for composing for film and TV?
- 10:12Jonatha Brooke: I do not have any film and TV stuff happening.
- 10:15Jonatha Brooke: I am working concurrently on three different musicals so I am trying to keep about 40 characters straight in my head and what they sound like and how they should sing and how each thing has its own sort of sound and timbre and musical motif.
- 10:32Jonatha Brooke: So that's where my head is right now.
- 10:34Jonatha Brooke: I'm hoping finally to record a new Jonathan record and I have a couple songs that I've been working on for that.
- 10:40Jonatha Brooke: But it's a it's a juggle.
- 10:41Jonatha Brooke: Right now there's lots of things on the front burner.
- 10:44Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, I mean for our listeners who can't see me.
- 10:45Gina Marie Rodriguez: My jaw was just on the floor.
- 10:47Gina Marie Rodriguez: That's a lot to handle.
- 10:50Gina Marie Rodriguez: Is there anything that you can tell us about those musicals, or is it still too early?
- 10:53Jonatha Brooke: to say anything.
- 10:54Jonatha Brooke: No, I can tell you sort of plot lines.
- 10:56Jonatha Brooke: One of them is called Switched.
- 10:58Jonatha Brooke: It's about two women who are switched at birth and they kind of they find out from one of the moms who was kind of suspicious all along, who kind of knew, but she, she lets them know, basically around their 40th birthday, like hey, maybe you're not who you thought you were, and so that's we start the play there and then we sort of go back and forth between their 16 year old selves and their 40 year old selves.
- 11:19Jonatha Brooke: The second one is called Tempest, is called Tempest and it's a fictional story about an Antarctic explorer named Annie Lawson who perishes with her crew of three dudes.
- 11:35Jonatha Brooke: It's like me in a band in the Antarctic in the 1930s and the conceit of the story is that by the time it's 100, 110 years later, the technology exists to revive her because the ice has preserved her and her team.
- 11:46Jonatha Brooke: So she's revived and go and we sort of get to see both worlds in that one.
- 11:53Jonatha Brooke: And then the third one is a commission from the History Theater here in Minneapolis and it's an incredible story based on a novel called Evidence of V by Sheila O'Connor, about a girl, a 15-year-old girl and this is based on the truth a 15-year-old girl in Minneapolis in the 30s who is an amazing singer-dancer, gets into trouble with club owner where she's singing, gets knocked up and at that time girls were sent away to like prison, basically detention school, and she was locked up for six years just for getting pregnant, oh my God.
- 12:27Jonatha Brooke: And so we follow her through her sort of you know character arc of like despair and then agency and then despair and then going through this prison system basically wow, that also sounds scarily timely.
- 12:40Jonatha Brooke: So it, yeah, and that one is kind of fast-tracked.
- 12:43Gina Marie Rodriguez: That's in the season for 2026 wow, all I mean my jaw was on the floor for all of those.
- 12:50Gina Marie Rodriguez: They all sound amazing.
- 12:51Gina Marie Rodriguez: I have no idea how you're writing three different musicals concurrently like that.
- 12:56Jonatha Brooke: I just don't know either.
- 12:58Jonatha Brooke: I'm just trying to keep like.
- 12:59Jonatha Brooke: I'm trying to keep their.
- 13:00Jonatha Brooke: I'm trying to keep a specific sort of musical tone to each character so that I can identify it's like.
- 13:08Jonatha Brooke: It's like their vernacular or their accent, so that they don't all start whizzing together.
- 13:14Gina Marie Rodriguez: Right, right.
- 13:15Gina Marie Rodriguez: So are you.
- 13:16Gina Marie Rodriguez: You're writing the book and the lyrics and the music.
- 13:19Jonatha Brooke: Thank God, I'm just writing the music and the lyrics.
- 13:22Jonatha Brooke: Okay, I'm terrible at dialogue.
- 13:26Gina Marie Rodriguez: Well, while we're on theater, before I forget, I wanted to talk to you, if it's okay, about the one woman show that you did.
- 13:33Gina Marie Rodriguez: My Mother has four noses, so this is not about me, but I wanted to share that.
- 13:37Gina Marie Rodriguez: I lost my father two and a half years ago and one of the things that he left me with was write the book, gina, write the book about us, and I've had such trouble.
- 13:51Gina Marie Rodriguez: Like, right after he passed, I was actually, the words were flowing out of me and I wrote a good 15 pages in a day, and then I stalled.
- 14:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: And I haven't been able to do anything since, and I don't know that there's necessarily a question wrapped up in this, more my admiration for you that you were able to take a difficult time in your life about living with your mother and her struggle with Alzheimer's and then turning that into something really beautiful that other people were able to relate to.
- 14:21Gina Marie Rodriguez: So I guess, thank you there wasn't a question there, but thank you for being able to do that.
- 14:26Jonatha Brooke: I think this is something I talk about when I teach songwriting as well is sometimes to break the wall of.
- 14:35Jonatha Brooke: Either it's like the mean girl on your shoulder saying like you suck, you suck, you suck, don't bother, or it's your editor, so that you don't even let yourself write something before you've tried and then just edit it.
- 14:46Jonatha Brooke: So one of my favorite writers, mary Carr, always says like I'm not that great a writer, I'm just a really good editor.
- 14:53Jonatha Brooke: So for me the point is just like get it down, even if it sucks, just write and write and write free write.
- 15:00Jonatha Brooke: Give yourself assignments of like I will only write this one story.
- 15:04Jonatha Brooke: So then you're not overwhelmed by like I must write the story of my life with my father.
- 15:08Jonatha Brooke: It's more like what about that time where we made that little silly musical at breakfast about breakfast with mom?
- 15:16Jonatha Brooke: And you know I was Crepe Suzette and my husband was the muffin man and we were just like living in this Alzheimer's crazy world.
- 15:23Jonatha Brooke: And that really helped me because I too was overwhelmed.
- 15:27Jonatha Brooke: When I started I knew it was going to be theater, it was bigger than a record, but I'd never done that before.
- 15:34Jonatha Brooke: I was terrified.
- 15:34Jonatha Brooke: So I started just taking it in bite-sized chunk stories and that allowed me to move through it.
- 15:41Gina Marie Rodriguez: Thank you.
- 15:42Gina Marie Rodriguez: Thank you for that advice, I guess.
- 15:44Gina Marie Rodriguez: I guess that was the question built in there without me wanting to say it, so yeah, it's hard.
- 15:49Jonatha Brooke: I mean we all, anyone creative can tell you about, like the doldrums, you know where you're just like.
- 15:54Jonatha Brooke: Oh God, get me out of here, give me some wind.
- 15:57Gina Marie Rodriguez: I've been stuck in them for probably two and a half years.
- 16:00Gina Marie Rodriguez: I wonder why.
- 16:02Jonatha Brooke: Yeah Well, number one, you're grieving.
- 16:04Jonatha Brooke: It's a loss, but also giving yourself assignments is helpful.
- 16:09Jonatha Brooke: I luckily had a deadline so I couldn't not write it.
- 16:13Jonatha Brooke: I was in the theater, you know.
- 16:16Jonatha Brooke: Festival not write it, I was in the theater you know festival six months after mom died, so I'm like I better get cracking.
- 16:23Gina Marie Rodriguez: Wow, that is definitely.
- 16:25Gina Marie Rodriguez: That's a sooner deadline that I would have expected you to say, I know.
- 16:28Jonatha Brooke: I know.
- 16:28Jonatha Brooke: So I was like crying and grieving and writing and crying some more, and then singing and crying some more, and it was this whole cathartic process.
- 16:37Gina Marie Rodriguez: Wow, did it help?
- 16:38Gina Marie Rodriguez: I mean, you said it was catharsis, so like after you finished the run.
- 16:42Gina Marie Rodriguez: How did you feel?
- 16:44Gina Marie Rodriguez: Was it relief, Was it joy?
- 16:47Jonatha Brooke: I don't know if they're the right words for that, but it felt yeah, it certainly felt cathartic and there were some days, like any grief story, where it was really really rough and hard to get through the show.
- 17:00Jonatha Brooke: There were a couple of times when I started to lose it.
- 17:02Jonatha Brooke: But you know, I was acting, so I had to learn to sort of turn it off.
- 17:08Jonatha Brooke: Turn off like the Jonathan, real Jonathan, and be like character Jonathan.
- 17:14Jonatha Brooke: But it was, yeah, I think it was a great thing because it just became this beautiful love story and gesture to her and I think what also was healing for me was that it, it the play ends with I sort of show you pictures of my mother as normal mom, so you see her in her element.
- 17:40Jonatha Brooke: You see her silly and clownish and kind of sexy and making fun of herself and that was her essence.
- 17:47Jonatha Brooke: And so to be able to restore that for myself as well as to leave the audience with that as like this is my mom, she wasn't this weird, crazy Alzheimer person, she was that too, but like this is her essence, and that felt really powerful for me as the daughter telling the story.
- 18:07Jonatha Brooke: But also I think that gave the audience's permission to be like to laugh, to cry and then to walk away with.
- 18:13Jonatha Brooke: Oh, I love her too.
- 18:15Gina Marie Rodriguez: Absolutely, and I think that's what's beautiful about art.
- 18:19Gina Marie Rodriguez: You know, you just introduced her to a whole new world of people who are now sharing that love of your mom, and she gets to enjoy that in the afterlife as well.
- 18:29Jonatha Brooke: I sure hope, so I was so bummed.
- 18:32Jonatha Brooke: I wish she could have seen the show.
- 18:34Gina Marie Rodriguez: I fully believe that she did and probably revisits it all the time, because I also am adamant that time does not exist in the same way over there.
- 18:44Gina Marie Rodriguez: The other over there is.
- 18:46Gina Marie Rodriguez: But not that I want to spend too much time on grief, but I believe that because I don't know if you've had these experiences where, like, maybe you talk to someone who you've lost and ask for a sign, and I mean I got some very clear signs.
- 19:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: There was one day where I was drinking my coffee and coffee has a very strong smell.
- 19:07Gina Marie Rodriguez: Right, it is coffee, but I overwhelmingly smelled my father's cologne.
- 19:12Gina Marie Rodriguez: It was else in the room.
- 19:12Jonatha Brooke: I don't live with men.
- 19:13Jonatha Brooke: There's never any cologne here.
- 19:13Gina Marie Rodriguez: But it was very specifically his cologne room.
- 19:15Gina Marie Rodriguez: I don't live with men, there's never any cologne here, but it was very specifically his cologne.
- 19:19Gina Marie Rodriguez: I couldn't smell the coffee, I just smelled the cologne.
- 19:22Gina Marie Rodriguez: So I do.
- 19:23Gina Marie Rodriguez: I fully believe that she was over there watching your show and revisiting it and listening to the album however, I think so yeah, I did play her a little bit of the Kalimba song.
- 19:34Gina Marie Rodriguez: It's a song called Time I listened to that one and I think that's fantastic, but I'm glad she got to hear it while she was on this plane as well.
- 19:43Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, thank you, of course.
- 19:45Gina Marie Rodriguez: Love to your mom, love to my dad.
- 19:48Gina Marie Rodriguez: Okay, I'm going to try to center myself and bring it back.
- 19:52Gina Marie Rodriguez: I wanted to talk to you about your song.
- 19:56Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'll Try, because I'm a Disney nerd to begin with, but shamefully, I didn't know where that song came from or where like.
- 20:04Gina Marie Rodriguez: It was something that I had heard over and over and I couldn't figure out why.
- 20:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: And it wasn't until recently that I realized I used to have a collection of those Disney's greatest hits CDs.
- 20:16Gina Marie Rodriguez: So I had never seen Return to Neverland.
- 20:18Gina Marie Rodriguez: It's just that I had listened to that CD on repeat and I was like oh my God, this is a Peter Pan song, but it's, I mean, it's amazing.
- 20:26Gina Marie Rodriguez: Thank you for writing it.
- 20:27Gina Marie Rodriguez: But there, if you don't mind, if I could read some of the lyrics that I feel like are also timely right now, my whole world is changing.
- 20:44Jonatha Brooke: I don't know where to turn.
- 20:46Jonatha Brooke: I can't leave you waiting, but I can't stay and watch the city burn Dang.
- 20:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'mhmm, watch it.
- 20:57Gina Marie Rodriguez: Burn Dang, I'm going to cry.
- 21:00Gina Marie Rodriguez: This whole episode.
- 21:01Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'm trying not to Crying is good, I mean, it is also cathartic, but again everything feels like it's changing in the world and it's a little bit hard to function.
- 21:17Gina Marie Rodriguez: I guess I don't know what other word I want to use.
- 21:19Gina Marie Rodriguez: It does feel a bit like I don't know, like we're surrounded by trauma every day and I don't know how to push through that.
- 21:28Gina Marie Rodriguez: But that song has been bringing me a lot of solace, and not just because of the lyrics, but like your voice is so soothing and it actually regulates my nervous system.
- 21:40Gina Marie Rodriguez: So this is just going to turn into me saying thank you a lot for the art that you've put out into the world, and I wish I mean everybody who listens to this podcast is a fan of the arts, but I wish more people understood, um, what a saving grace it really can be in dark times.
- 21:59Gina Marie Rodriguez: So anyway, thank you, I'll try not to cry now.
- 22:03Jonatha Brooke: Well, that was.
- 22:04Jonatha Brooke: I mean, that was a gift.
- 22:05Jonatha Brooke: That song really.
- 22:06Jonatha Brooke: My friend the story is actually pretty good my friend, Bambi, who worked at Disney for 19 years, like, literally, she was named Bambi, Not self-given.
- 22:20Jonatha Brooke: She's the one that called me and said like hey, Jo, I think you're the one to write this song.
- 22:23Jonatha Brooke: Here's the assignment.
- 22:25Jonatha Brooke: I'm like I got it and, again, like the Joss Whedon one, it just was a gift.
- 22:29Jonatha Brooke: It sort of came down.
- 22:30Jonatha Brooke: I was finished in 20 minutes and the song became the glue for the movie because it went through multiple directors and producers, but it just was.
- 22:39Jonatha Brooke: It was such an easy voice to find this 12-year-old girl and it's been translated into like 15 or 20 languages.
- 22:49Jonatha Brooke: My drummer in Denmark, his wife, sang the Danish version.
- 22:54Jonatha Brooke: Oh wow, there's a French version, Italian, Spanish.
- 22:58Jonatha Brooke: It's crazy, it's really had life beyond me and that's so powerful.
- 23:05Jonatha Brooke: So I sing it every night.
- 23:06Jonatha Brooke: I sing it.
- 23:07Gina Marie Rodriguez: Oh, I love that.
- 23:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, amazing, it's also the power of Disney and then they called me again.
- 23:14Jonatha Brooke: I wrote a couple songs for Tinkerbell releases and I just love assignments.
- 23:20Jonatha Brooke: I love getting assignments.
- 23:21Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, yeah.
- 23:22Gina Marie Rodriguez: Well, you like your deadlines, right.
- 23:23Jonatha Brooke: I loved it.
- 23:24Jonatha Brooke: Nothing like a deadline.
- 23:27Gina Marie Rodriguez: To be fair, so do I.
- 23:28Gina Marie Rodriguez: They're very helpful, and the problem with me, and going back to my struggles in writing that book, are that self-inflicted deadlines don't work for me.
- 23:38Gina Marie Rodriguez: They don't work At all right Like I can tell myself I want to do it in two weeks and that's not going to happen.
- 23:43Gina Marie Rodriguez: So I need somebody else out there saying well, I will pay you $1,000 if you do it, or I will cook you a nice home-cooked meal.
- 23:51Jonatha Brooke: It doesn't have to be much or you're fired if you don't do it.
- 23:55Gina Marie Rodriguez: There's that one too.
- 23:56Gina Marie Rodriguez: I like that one less.
- 23:57Jonatha Brooke: Well, I ended up.
- 23:58Jonatha Brooke: I've been working on this song for weeks.
- 24:00Jonatha Brooke: I have a workshop happening starting Monday in New York and I've been on tour and so I've been like juggling and crazy.
- 24:08Jonatha Brooke: And then I have another workshop for another musical starting April 1st, once I get back from New York.
- 24:13Jonatha Brooke: Once I get back from New York.
- 24:17Jonatha Brooke: So I'm like and this morning, cause I have a zoom call at 1230 today with the thing where I've been struggling with this one song which is kind of about what death might be like, what we're speaking about, but it's kind of more fantastical and surreal and a little bit fun and jaunty.
- 24:31Jonatha Brooke: I I, just before I got on with you, I w I was like I found the lyric and well, and I sent it to my co-writers and I'm like here's the lyric.
- 24:42Jonatha Brooke: I haven't had time to sing it yet, but I think this is how it goes, you know.
- 24:46Jonatha Brooke: So like congrats down to the wire.
- 24:49Gina Marie Rodriguez: I love that and it's funny that we kind of went in that direction and I didn't know.
- 24:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: I didn't know that was happening, but we ended up there anyway.
- 24:57Jonatha Brooke: So see the universe you know, death is going to become my specialty oh my gosh.
- 25:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: Well, you know that could help a lot of people if it does, so sure, yeah, I wouldn't say anything against that.
- 25:07Gina Marie Rodriguez: However, it did make me think of uh, I was watching your oh, I forgot the name of what you called your covid sessions.
- 25:15Gina Marie Rodriguez: Was it the kitchen?
- 25:16Jonatha Brooke: oh, the kitchen, covid.
- 25:17Jonatha Brooke: Yes, I used to have a sign but I forgot.
- 25:21Gina Marie Rodriguez: We'll pull it out later, but I wanted to talk to you about that because there was one episode where you were talking about songs that dealt with despondence and joyous Was it?
- 25:32Gina Marie Rodriguez: Joyous grief?
- 25:33Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, I guess there is a theme.
- 25:35Gina Marie Rodriguez: It's clearly on my mind today, but I love those two words and I love your word of the day.
- 25:42Gina Marie Rodriguez: Do you have, I should ask you, do you have a word of the day today?
- 25:46Jonatha Brooke: It was.
- 25:47Jonatha Brooke: Oh shoot, I was asking my husband what it meant.
- 25:49Jonatha Brooke: Well, it was okay.
- 25:52Jonatha Brooke: This isn't the word, but this is the other thing I was chewing on.
- 25:56Jonatha Brooke: Like all due respect is this phrase that I put in the song, because one of my Antarctic explorers dudes is kind of mutinying because they're perishing Like the storm is coming in and like there's just nowhere to go and she wants to finish the experiment.
- 26:12Jonatha Brooke: They're gathering cells and we're going to prove it, and the French dude is like all due cells and we're going to prove it.
- 26:17Jonatha Brooke: And the French dude is like all due respect, we're going to die.
- 26:20Jonatha Brooke: So I sort of looked it up and it's got this like it's not respectful.
- 26:27Jonatha Brooke: It's like I totally disagree with you but I'm going to pretend that I respect you and I kind of love the dual nature of that meaning.
- 26:35Gina Marie Rodriguez: It's funny you said that, because I think I just read something online that I mean it was presented more as a joke like well, when they say, with all due respect, they never said how much respect was due.
- 26:46Gina Marie Rodriguez: And I never thought of it that way before because I always used or I used to use it as a caveat to no.
- 26:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: No, I do respect you, but I'm trying to offer a different opinion and now I realize, oh no, it could also be an insult.
- 27:03Gina Marie Rodriguez: Whoops.
- 27:04Jonatha Brooke: Yeah, yeah.
- 27:05Jonatha Brooke: So that was fun, because I hadn't thought of it that way until I looked it up either.
- 27:11Gina Marie Rodriguez: I love it.
- 27:11Gina Marie Rodriguez: I love.
- 27:12Gina Marie Rodriguez: Research Turns out a lot of great stuff.
- 27:15Jonatha Brooke: Oh, and the thing about joyful grief is that I think I live in that place where dueling things coexist, and it happens lyrically but it also happens melodically, with counterpoints and melodies, where there's you know, there's maybe two thoughts and maybe two melodies that coexist, and then they harmonize with each other, they meet in the middle somewhere and then they part again or they cross paths.
- 27:41Jonatha Brooke: I'm kind of obsessed with that nature of two things existing at once and your mind being able to hold both.
- 27:51Gina Marie Rodriguez: Absolutely.
- 27:52Gina Marie Rodriguez: There's so much nuance in the world and that's one thing that my therapist would tell you that I struggle with.
- 28:01Gina Marie Rodriguez: But I think that's what makes music beautiful and, like you were saying, I'm not a musician.
- 28:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: The best I can do is play maybe the first few notes of Yankee Doodle on the keyboard Yankee Doodle on the keyboard.
- 28:18Gina Marie Rodriguez: So I don't have the terminology that I need to express what I'm saying, but I think I understand what you're saying.
- 28:22Gina Marie Rodriguez: In that there is a melding of emotion.
- 28:26Gina Marie Rodriguez: I guess, I got that.
- 28:28Jonatha Brooke: Right.
- 28:29Gina Marie Rodriguez: Totally.
- 28:30Jonatha Brooke: I'll forget if I don't say it now, but you can edit it out if it's not important.
- 28:33Jonatha Brooke: One of the things that I loved about exploring the theater of the story with my mom was, you know, in the throes of caregiving, it's super intense and you're exhausted and people are like, no, you should really, you know, make sure you take care of you, and you're like when, how?
- 28:50Jonatha Brooke: But there are these things that happen in the caregiving maybe you experienced this with your dad but where, like, there's this really hard thing, like when mom was actively dying, which is itself this really weird frigging term.
- 29:05Jonatha Brooke: So she's actively dying, wow, let me put my head around that.
- 29:09Jonatha Brooke: But as she's actively dying, these crazy, actually hysterically funny things were happening.
- 29:15Jonatha Brooke: Dying, these crazy, actually hysterically funny things were happening.
- 29:19Jonatha Brooke: Like one of the caregivers went into this religious speaking in tongues, convulsions, like epileptic fit.
- 29:25Jonatha Brooke: It was like this crazy, like mom, mom is like you know, keep me really quiet.
- 29:30Jonatha Brooke: I'm reading her from the Bible and I'm like mom, everything's okay.
- 29:33Jonatha Brooke: And I'm here, I'm here, I'm holding her hand, I'm staring at her and then, audrey, our camera was like praise, Jesus, lord is my shepherd.
- 29:40Jonatha Brooke: I'm like, oh, my God, this is really happening.
- 29:45Jonatha Brooke: And like my, my little, my daughter person is like, oh my God, can you please go in the other room?
- 29:50Jonatha Brooke: Like mom, everything's okay.
- 29:51Jonatha Brooke: Like I, you know we're quiet here.
- 29:53Jonatha Brooke: And then my, my writer brain is like, oh my God, this is hysterically funny.
- 29:57Jonatha Brooke: Like, how do I, how am I going to tell this story later?
- 30:00Jonatha Brooke: Because, like, no one's going to believe this.
- 30:07Jonatha Brooke: So, like that, I just love that there can be these two things.
- 30:09Jonatha Brooke: And you're like, on the one hand, your, your heart is shredding, and then there's this incredibly like comical thing that you know, know you'll appreciate even more later.
- 30:17Jonatha Brooke: And so you're clocking it of like am I allowed to think this is funny now?
- 30:21Jonatha Brooke: And you're kind of like, just save it, save it.
- 30:23Gina Marie Rodriguez: Absolutely.
- 30:24Gina Marie Rodriguez: As I've gotten older, I understand better the notion of yin and yang.
- 30:28Gina Marie Rodriguez: When I was a kid, I had no concept of like.
- 30:32Gina Marie Rodriguez: What do you mean?
- 30:32Gina Marie Rodriguez: Balance, whatever.
- 30:33Gina Marie Rodriguez: Things are black and white and that's it.
- 30:35Gina Marie Rodriguez: There is no in between.
- 30:36Gina Marie Rodriguez: But but now, yes, everything that you just said, there is yin and yang right In order to take care of yourself.
- 30:45Gina Marie Rodriguez: Which, what?
- 30:46Gina Marie Rodriguez: What do they say?
- 30:47Gina Marie Rodriguez: It's that you know you have to put your own oxygen safety mask on first.
- 30:52Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, which I I understand.
- 30:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: But, like you were saying, almost all of us struggle with that notion because your impulse is to help the person that you love who's sitting right next to you, so it feels selfish to take care of yourself first.
- 31:09Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, but that's, that's the struggle, right?
- 31:12Jonatha Brooke: we all, we all deal with that to some extent yeah and there's some of each thing in the other thing too, which is life is interesting.
- 31:21Gina Marie Rodriguez: It is.
- 31:21Gina Marie Rodriguez: It is very difficult to process, right, but that's why I love talking to folks like you and other artists who are helping I don't know, I guess helping me to understand the things that didn't jump out at me before and it reminds me of I loved Carrie Fisher.
- 31:42Gina Marie Rodriguez: I still love Carrie Fisher, but she had that quote take your broken heart and turn it into art.
- 31:47Gina Marie Rodriguez: I remind myself of that constantly, constant, because what we all I mean, whether you consider yourself an artist or not, I think we all should be doing that.
- 31:59Gina Marie Rodriguez: You know when, if you, maybe you're not a writer, maybe you're not a musician, but if you lose someone, it's okay to pull out a journal and write down whatever you're feeling.
- 32:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: Or even nowadays, with cell phones, you can just do like a video diary or something.
- 32:13Gina Marie Rodriguez: It doesn't have to go anywhere, but we're all secretly artists somewhere.
- 32:18Gina Marie Rodriguez: You don't want to make a career out of it or or pursue it Like.
- 32:22Gina Marie Rodriguez: Art is pivotal to surviving this messy world.
- 32:26Jonatha Brooke: Totally, totally.
- 32:27Jonatha Brooke: Oh, I had one more idea for your, for your dad book.
- 32:30Jonatha Brooke: Oh, okay, what really?
- 32:32Jonatha Brooke: What helped me with creating the mom thing also was I got frustrated between how I would write a story and how I would tell it Like on stage when I'm introducing a song.
- 32:44Jonatha Brooke: Sometimes I tell goofy stories, and so I started recording myself in Photo Booth on my laptop.
- 32:52Jonatha Brooke: I just started giving myself assignments of like okay, tell the nose story, because my mom had prosthetic noses, because she had had skin cancer, and so I would tell it into the computer and then transcribe that and it would just feel much more natural.
- 33:06Jonatha Brooke: So that might be something that helps you.
- 33:09Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, yes, you know, it's funny because I I mean, I did take my own advice when my father first passed.
- 33:17Gina Marie Rodriguez: I started video diaries because, even though I consider myself a writer, I had the hardest time and I still have the hardest time writing journal entries because, like with everything else, I overthink it and I don't want to edit myself and it's a whole thing.
- 33:32Gina Marie Rodriguez: So I started these video diaries and I was like you know what, maybe I'll turn this into a documentary or maybe I'll use it as inspiration for the book.
- 33:39Gina Marie Rodriguez: So now I have hours upon hours upon hours upon hours of footage.
- 33:44Jonatha Brooke: There you go.
- 33:46Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, but I just have to figure out how I'm going to proceed with it.
- 33:52Jonatha Brooke: So it's either have someone else transcribe it.
- 33:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, Maybe I will honestly.
- 33:57Gina Marie Rodriguez: Or there's like computers that just do that.
- 33:59Gina Marie Rodriguez: There are this is a plug for Revcom With AI.
- 34:05Gina Marie Rodriguez: Now, yeah, they do.
- 34:07Gina Marie Rodriguez: There are those transcription services and you're right, maybe that's the route because part of it is, like, really hard to revisit.
- 34:15Gina Marie Rodriguez: So there's a limit, right, you want to stop yourself from doing too much of it, because you don't want to break down entirely and you know I'd only have to.
- 34:25Gina Marie Rodriguez: I would only want to revisit it like once before I start working on a project, rather than like the 50 times it would take me to actually.
- 34:34Jonatha Brooke: Yeah, and easier to just see it on a page than to witness yourself, kind of going through the.
- 34:39Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, you know, watch me have a mental breakdown, but that was really good advice.
- 34:44Gina Marie Rodriguez: So thank you, and I love that we're kind of on the same page because it's happening right.
- 34:49Jonatha Brooke: Whatever it takes to get the, you know it's like get it down.
- 34:53Gina Marie Rodriguez: I wanted to talk to you about two songs that I was just listening to before I jumped on with you Taste of Danger, which you recorded twice so or I mean a new rendition of an older song Can you tell me what led you to spicing it up and changing?
- 35:13Jonatha Brooke: do it again yeah, I guess I felt like I it's a.
- 35:18Jonatha Brooke: I just I think it's a really good song.
- 35:21Jonatha Brooke: I think that it is, uh, one of those songs that people get right away.
- 35:26Jonatha Brooke: You know, I didn't over complicate it, which can be one of my tendencies, uh, and I just was was telling a story that I just like the poetry of it, I like the rock of it, and I thought, well, if no one ever heard this the first time when it came out on the works, which was like 2009-ish 2010, I want to give it another shot.
- 35:47Jonatha Brooke: But if I'm going to do it, I'm going to do it completely differently.
- 35:50Jonatha Brooke: So I made it into this dark, I took it down a whole step and I made it this dark, moody sort of brooding piano thing, and then I added these background vocals and then I added this sort of John Mayer quote at the end, like hold on to whatever you find baby.
- 36:05Jonatha Brooke: And I'm like John, is this okay if I steal some shit from you?
- 36:08Jonatha Brooke: And he's like, yeah, yeah, do it, do it, do it.
- 36:10Jonatha Brooke: So I just wanted to like make a new version and challenge myself, but also just give that song another shot to be heard.
- 36:16Jonatha Brooke: I think that's fantastic.
- 36:18Gina Marie Rodriguez: I mean it's wonderful, Like all of your work is wonderful, but I was really enjoying that one and I'm lacking the words to express myself right now.
- 36:30Gina Marie Rodriguez: Like you know, it's at the tip of my tongue, but my brain is just not connecting to my tongue right now it's driving me nuts, I feel ya.
- 36:40Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, I was trying to say sometimes, in listening to an artist's music right before jumping on with them, it gives you an idea of who the artist is or what the conversation will be like.
- 36:53Gina Marie Rodriguez: And I mean listening to your work.
- 36:55Gina Marie Rodriguez: I think your voice is beautiful and the music is stunning, but I still didn't really know what the conversation would be like.
- 37:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: But you've been such a joy and, yeah, I loved talking to you and I wish this could go on forever.
- 37:08Gina Marie Rodriguez: I mean you might want to go, but I loved this conversation.
- 37:11Gina Marie Rodriguez: But, like I said, short form and I can only ask you so many.
- 37:14Jonatha Brooke: Damn yeah, we could go on all day we could tell a lot of things.
- 37:19Gina Marie Rodriguez: I love you.
- 37:19Gina Marie Rodriguez: You're my new best friend.
- 37:20Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'm your new best friend.
- 37:22Jonatha Brooke: No, like I need a new best friend.
- 37:24Jonatha Brooke: Minneapolis is a little lonely in the winter, you know, you don't?
- 37:27Jonatha Brooke: Oh gosh.
- 37:27Jonatha Brooke: Yeah, if it's crappy out, you just don't leave.
- 37:31Gina Marie Rodriguez: I have to ask you something really stupid, because we brought up Minneapolis again.
- 37:35Gina Marie Rodriguez: I feel like I have developed this false memory.
- 37:38Gina Marie Rodriguez: Do you remember a show?
- 37:40Gina Marie Rodriguez: There was a show called Bobby's World.
- 37:43Gina Marie Rodriguez: It was, I think it was an animated show and Howie Mandel was involved and all I remember is thinking it was set in Minnesota.
- 37:52Gina Marie Rodriguez: And I wonder if I made this up.
- 37:54Gina Marie Rodriguez: But I could have sworn that.
- 37:56Gina Marie Rodriguez: There was a character I think it was Bobby's mother who would always say something like don't you know, don't you know, like all the time.
- 38:03Gina Marie Rodriguez: And it is.
- 38:04Gina Marie Rodriguez: I mean, just knowing that you're in Minneapolis, I've just, like I don't know, had this I've never heard of that.
- 38:11Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'm writing it down, though I'm going to Google it.
- 38:13Gina Marie Rodriguez: I mean, it was a kid show.
- 38:15Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'm sure I remember this from my youth and, like I said, I've just learned about false memories and how sometimes it's wrong.
- 38:20Gina Marie Rodriguez: So I'm wondering if I have to.
- 38:22Gina Marie Rodriguez: It's a big adventure.
- 38:23Gina Marie Rodriguez: Maybe I just made this up entirely, but I guess, if I have to ask a question tied to that, is that the correct accent.
- 38:32Gina Marie Rodriguez: Does that exist, don't you?
- 38:33Gina Marie Rodriguez: Oh?
- 38:33Jonatha Brooke: yeah, oh yeah, sure, yeah, you betcha, great, great.
- 38:36Jonatha Brooke: Yeah.
- 38:37Jonatha Brooke: My husband is from here, which is part of the reason that we were not afraid to move here, but his sisters have much thicker.
- 38:45Jonatha Brooke: He doesn't have an accent because he left when he was 17.
- 38:48Jonatha Brooke: But his sisters are definitely Minneapolis kind of speakers.
- 38:52Gina Marie Rodriguez: Yeah, it's amazing.
- 38:59Gina Marie Rodriguez: Oh my God, I love it.
- 39:00Gina Marie Rodriguez: Well, now that I've just like brought Bobby's world into this, I think that's a great place to end.
- 39:02Gina Marie Rodriguez: Thank you so so much.
- 39:04Gina Marie Rodriguez: This really was a fantastic conversation.
- 39:07Jonatha Brooke: I appreciate everything about this day.
- 39:09Jonatha Brooke: Thanks, Gina.
- 39:11Gina Marie Rodriguez: Jonatha Brooke will be sharing her beautiful voice and music with the audience at the Lizzie Rose Music Room in Tuckerton, new Jersey, on March 30th.
- 39:19Gina Marie Rodriguez: For tickets and more information, be sure to visit LizzieRoseMusic.
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- 39:39Gina Marie Rodriguez: The Jersey Arts Podcast is presented by Art Pride New Jersey, advancing a state of creativity since 1986.
- 39:45Gina Marie Rodriguez: The show was co-founded by, and currently supported by funds from, the New Jersey State Council on the Arts.
- 39:51Gina Marie Rodriguez: This episode was hosted, edited and produced by me, Gina Marie Rodriguez.
- 39:56Gina Marie Rodriguez: Executive producers are Jim Atkinson and Isaac Serna-Diez, and my thanks to Jonatha Brooke for speaking with me today.
- 40:03Gina Marie Rodriguez: I'm Gina Marie Rodriguez for the Jersey Arts Podcast.
- 40:07Gina Marie Rodriguez: Thanks for listening.