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When I Am Not There Anymore: The Spiritual Secret of Rosh Hashanah with Dr. Miriam Menaker · Tehillim for the Soul with Dr. Miriam Menaker

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  once a musician was asked,"How do you know you are successful in your performance?" The pianist in this case, he answer at a very deep level.
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  He says,"When I reach the moment that I am not there anymore." It is when the musical instrument becomes the musician.
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  He is one with the music.
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  Good morning.
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  Today we will review another, discourse, but this time it's from the Rebbe of Lubavitch of blessed memory.
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  Here he explains what is the reason that on Rosh Hashanah that falls on Shabbat we don't blow the shofar.
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  So that is something that has a lot of meaning, deep meaning, not only because they are afraid that a person is going to carry on Shabbat, This is Halakha, but this is not the real meaning of not to blow the shofar at the holiday of Rosh Hashanah when you know that the shofar is the central to the holiday of Rosh Hashanah, symbolize the crowning of Hashem on the first day of creation as Adam did.
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  Because the first Rosh Hashanah was happened also be Shabbat, when Adam was finally created.
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  Not of the day of the creation, that was in the 25th of Elul, but on the day of the completion of the creation.
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  The world was not set complete only when, Adam was created, Adam and Chava, because the man is the one that complete the whole creation.
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  Good morning, Anita.
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  Nice to- Good morning.
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  Good morning I am explaining here why we don't blow the shofar on Rosh Hashanah when falls in Shabbat a deep explanation is that Shabbat itself embodies maljut.
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  We call Shabbat maljut.
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  Is the day of where everything receive, is the recipient of everything that happened during those six day of, of the week.
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  And maljut, what is maljut?
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  Maljut is sovereignty, and therefore does not require the sounding of the shofar.
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  Shabbat is known as the supreme pleasure, sanctifying itself and expressing its holiness without the human action required on other holidays.
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  So what created the completion at the moment of the creation was the presence of Adam and Chava.
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  But there is something higher than that, and this is what we are going to explain here.
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  What is this supreme pleasure that Hashem has?
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  A king takes pleasure in being recognized by his subjects, whose connection to him allows them to attach to the king essence.
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  This revelation expressed through the shofar is inherent in Shabbat, through which we attach ourself to Hashem.
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  So what brings pleasure to Hashem is our attachment when we want to connect with him.
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  That is what create and give this supreme pleasure of Hashem.
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  Shabbat is inherently holy because God sanctifies it.
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  Unlike, here's Dr.
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  Yuld, unlike the rest of the holidays where we say that Israel is who sanctify the Shabbat.
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  Okay?
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  Let me give you a more simple detail of what is happening.
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  Shabbat is higher than the holidays.
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  The holiness of Shabbat is higher than every holiday.
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  So when a holiday fall in Shabbat, the action, the, uh, energy of the holiday increase in its value.
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  So this is what happened in Rosh Hashanah, that precisely Rosh Hashanah is the crowning of Hashem, is the beginning of all what is going to succeed, through the all the months ahead.
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  There are two kinds, of silence.
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  In if there is no shofar means that there is silence.
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  So what is the high level of silence?
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  You can have one silence that is very simple, it's empty thought.
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  That's why a person doesn't have anything to say, he keep himself silent.
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  But there is another type of silence that is higher, that conveys a deeper meaning beyond words.
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  There is a moment when the words cannot express what we are feeling, and it's beyond us.
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  So that is the meaning of the silence, that there is no the sound of the blowing of the shofar during Rosh Hashanah that falls on Shabbat.
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  And I will give you a practical example in educating a child.
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  There is two ways to educate a child, is telling the child directly what they have to do, why they have to behave in this way.
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  And there is another way that is indirect, where mostly you teach the, the child by your own model, but you behaving in the right way.
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  That is a higher level of educating a child.
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  So you are not going to express yourself with words and words, and sometimes words that a child doesn't want to listen to you.
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  The one rejects the parents from, because of that.
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  But when you don't express it, when you don't say directly, and instead you find indirect way to teach and educate your child, the child accept the message in at a higher and deeper level.
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  That is the meaning of this silence during Shabbat So the shofars serve this awakens the bitul.
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  That is what the shofar does.
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  And I know Hannah, he likes very much the word bitul.
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  So what is bitul?
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  We have to understand what means bitul.
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  Is helping a person set aside personal will before the will of the king.
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  That is bitul.
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  I put myself to the side, and I allow Hashem to be the king.
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  That is the real bitul.
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  Is not that I am without ego.
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  We need a little bit of ego because that is my presence.
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  That is our connection.
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  But it's only when my, reason to connect with Hashem is so strong that I want to be part of him.
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  And I am not separate from Hashem When I enforce my present to Hashem, but the nullification is to be only a channel for the Hashem energy.
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  And there is a story about in Russia, a Hasid, his name was Rabbi Futerfas, and he spent in the Gulag, that is a, one of the prison in Russia at the time of the Tsar.
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  He spent 10 years in the Gulag.
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  And one day, a, one person was sobbing and crying, he was saying,"I was a big musician in Moscow, and now who I am?
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  I am nothing." And he was sobbing.
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  Then another, another friend says,"No, I was a doctor.
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  I was the doctor of the Tsar, and now who I am here?" And then Rabbi Futerfas says that,"I don't suffer because I lose who I used to be in the past when I have my wife and my children and my home.
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  Now I serve Hashem, in another way completely different." But being a slave also is a way to serve Hashem.
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  Be a prisoner is I-- this is another way where Hashem is putting me in order that I will continue serving Him.
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  So this is very deep, very profound.
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  He was not suffering because of the change of a status from who he was in the past.
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  He said,"Okay, this is my new way to connect with Hashem, and I have to use this new status that I am, This is not what I prefer to be.
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  I don't want to be a slave in the gulag.
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  I don't want to be a prisoner and having lack of food and hard work.
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  But this hard work that I am doing today is another way to serve Hashem." So on the first day of creation, Adam and all existing proclaim,"Come, let us bow before the one who created us and everything that exists." This is what Adam said to everything that existed, animals and birds and everything that was there.
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  This nullification, this is the nullification before the creator of the world brings a person to recognize that everything comes from Hashem and that nothing exists apart from him.
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  As a result, created being cannot claim independent creative power, which is why labor is forbidden on Shabbat.
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  Why the labor is forbidden on Shabbat?
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  This is a very deep, understanding of why we cannot work on Shabbat.
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  Shabbat is more than refraining from work.
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  It reflects a standing in the king's presence.
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  I- in that estate, a person is filled with awe, connection and attachment rather than involvement in the physical world.
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  Let's says I am in front of a king.
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  Automatically, I cannot do any other thing beside being there, as is obvious.
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  So that is the reason that labor is forbidden in Shabbat.
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  Every Shabbat is betul, a higher level of intimacy With Hashem on Rosh Hashanah that falls on Shabbat, Betul rises and it is Shabbat Shabbaton, mean a higher level of Shabbat Bitul frees a person from vanity.
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  That is another point about Bitul and ego, aligning them with their true self and the flow of divine energy.
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  This is so beautiful.
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  It means becoming a channel for the infinite.
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  In its truest form, Betul helps heal the suffering within existence.
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  That is so beautiful.
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  So people are weak, can complain and suffer from lacking in this world.
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  And you feel like a victim.
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  Why things is happening to me?
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  Why I am suffering?
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  Why, I don't have whatever I It was, it is normal to receive.
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  So when you have Betul, and you are free of your ego and your vanity, on life, then you align with Hashem, and there is no difference between you and Hashem.
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  You really become a channel of Hashem utmost light, supremes light.
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  We call in Hebrew a supreme Elyon, is a level that is beyond understanding.
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  Instead of being in my own bubble, when a person feels that he's a victim, he is in his own bubble.
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  He feels separate from his environment.
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  I open myself to being a channel of the true reality, being part of it.
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  I am part of the reality that I am living at this time in my world So the Alter Rebe,, continued, explaining that there are two levels of Bitul One is the tool of an eved, of a servant.
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  And the other is the tool where you are completely in silence.
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  You don't exist anymore.
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  You are above existence.
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  You are beyond existence.
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  So you are not anymore a servant.
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  That a servant follow what his master tells him to do.
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  But when you are beyond existence, you are part of Hashem.
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  You are a conduit to Hashem.
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  You don't feel any separation between you and God.
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  You are part of that energy because in reality there is no existing beside Hashem.
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  Ein lo bilvado.
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  There is no anything that exists beside God.
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  Who we are?
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  We are a, spark in the cosmos.
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  If I will take a picture from the cosmos and I will be completely invisible, if I will take a picture of the Earth and I will focus in me, I will not be seen.
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  So this is the significance of being beyond that.
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  So an example, another example is once a musician was asked,"How do you know you are successful in your performance?" And the, the pianist in this case, he answer at a very deep level.
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  He says,"When I reach the moment that I am not there anymore." It is when the musical instrument becomes the musician.
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  He is one with the music.
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  You can The,, violin will not complain, they like me or they don't like me.
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  The piano will not complain.
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  Only we are the one that we have that doubt constantly, I am performing right or not That, is what is the difference So now we can understand the bitul of Rosh Hashanah on Shabbat.
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  When the shofar is not blowing by human effort, it is an essential nullification that transcends physical action.
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  So that is the beauty of, not blowing the shofar.
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  So you are- we don't need a human being to express Hashem.
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  Hashem is there already So this elevated light of Rosh Hashanah and Shabbat brings a person into union with Hashem beyond human will until one becomes united with the Almighty, blessed be He, as one.
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  And this is infinite light reveal on Rosh Hashanah.
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  And one does not depend on human effort, but is drawn solely from Hashem as a hidden higher illumination from the world of Atzilut, the world of complete unity.
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  So then what this light is draw from Atzilut, the highest world that exist before Under the Ein Sof, on the, under the infinite light.
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  You remember that there is fa- four levels.
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  You have at the higher level Atzilut.
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  Then we have Briah.
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  We have Yetzirah.
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  And we have Assiah.
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  So we reach at that moment a the highest level, and this is the meaning of this coming Rosh Hashanah that falls on Shabbat.
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  So that will inspire us to have a wonderful prayer and wonderful understanding.
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  And with this, I think that I am giving you the most essential understanding of this coming Rosh Hashanah.
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  Thank you very much.
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  I would like now to open to you and listen to your,, to your words.
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  Anita, I would like to hear from you what is your comments about- I mean- this beautifulness.
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  Beautiful day I'm gonna pass for now, and i'll pass for now, and let's- Okay come back.
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  Then, Shana Tova.
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  I think this was absolutely excellent explanation of, uh, not blowing the shofar on Sh- on Shabbat.
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  And, it clarified so much, uh, because there's some things going around saying, and which I, I didn't accept, um, but now I have an understanding saying that if Shabbat, a lot of bad things can happen when Shabbat is not blown on Rosh Hashanah, and it's absolutely ridiculous.
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  Um, and it's a shame that these things, uh, go around, and then people believe them.
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  Um, but this was absolutely beautiful, and thank you.
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  Julie.
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  Hello, everyone.
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  Good morning, Julie.
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  I have,, when I, um, turned on the, the Zoom, the first thing that I heard was that we are only a channel for Hashem's light and energy.
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  I, um, really, I put an asterisk by it, and it's The message is very, powerful.
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  Once again, we're only a channel for Hashem's light and energy, and I just feel like it's something that I want to keep working on all the time.
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  How am I showing up as a channel for Hashem's energy and light?
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  And I just find it so powerful that, um, another statement that I can add to my list of what I'm working on, and one being I have to remember that I am a channel, that we're all channels, but I have to focus on that I am a channel for Hashem's light and energy.
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  And again, what does that mean?
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  Well, you know, Moses was the only one that got a hint of what, um, God's personality was, and God told us, you know,"If you wanna know me, you know, then look at the 13 attributes of mercy." And I've really, really been focusing on that, and it's really It's uplifting my life in different kinds of ways.
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  It's huge.
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  It really, really is.
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  It's like we all are a channel for Hashem's light and energy, and it's so important to really think about that when we show up.
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  So thank you very much for that.
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  I get to add just another little asterisk to what I'm working on.
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  So thank you.
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  Sana?
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  Okay.
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  Um, yeah, thank you for the class.
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  Very, very deep and beautiful.
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  Um, I love the word Bitul and the concept of Bitul, for sure.
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  And today you mentioned that according to the teaching of the Rebbe, uh, there's two kinds of Bitul.
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  The, the Bitul that we are a, a servant, Eved- Mm-hmm and the, the one that is above existence.
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  And I was wondering if there are, like, two steps of Bitul.
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  In order to get to the one beyond existence- Mm-hmm if we start by being a servant, maybe that's- Correct.
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  Correct.
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  Okay.
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  Absolutely.
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  Okay, awesome.
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  And, um, just a parallel here, if you can, uh, give us our, your opinion on this.
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  The people that had, um, nearly death experiences, and we don't know for sure, of course, but they mention the, the light, right?
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  They mention being above their body and the light.
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  Uh, do you see this as the Ein Sof itself, and are, is this a state of Bitul that they had for those moments, and then they came back?
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  Is this the Ein Sof?
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  I don't think so, that will be the Ein Sof.
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  Ein Sof is above.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  But certainly is, i- is an, i- inspire, motivate the person to a very huge level of Bitul, because they understand very clearly the situation where they are at.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  And, and only the point that they can come back, they were nearly dead, and they can come back to life, is a huge, uh, experience.
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  So absolutely- Okay must produce Bitul.
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  Thank you, Miriam.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  Um, I would like to hear from Rene.
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  Um, well, like Julie, I too had kind of another one of these aha moments.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  Um, and it goes back again to the betul and, and, um, the separation, kind of the humility.
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  I mean, we talk about humility, it comes up at Pesach as well.
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  Um, but like today was a new level of really separating, stepping back, letting go, and being the channel that Julie talked about.
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  So you made that really clear in your talk today.
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  Uh, the idea is not to feel separate.
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  The idea is to feel completely attached to God.
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  Because the- But separated from our own ego.
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  I- it's not- Sorry.
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  Ego is- Oh my, uh, my existence.
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  I exist and I know that I exist.
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  Okay.
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  And because that I know that I exist, there is a separation between me and God.
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  God is there, and I am here.
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  But the highest level of unity with Hashem is when I am part of the energy.
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  The energy flows through my veins and my arteries.
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  I am not separate Is like I return to my source.
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  I am there together with my source.
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  Is my neshamah is going back to his up source of, uh, that it exists in a complete, in a indifferent, means without shape, without form, is part of Hashem.
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  I am not an individual anymore.
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  I think that's what I meant.
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  Okay.
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  I didn't say it correctly, but I'm glad you said it.
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  Okay, perfect.
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  Okay, perfect.
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  Ashira?
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  Um, I agree.
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  I think the concept of the tool was, um, my favorite part.
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  Uh, it's still a little difficult for me to understand, but I think overall it's a beautiful message and, um, yeah, I just liked learning it.
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  Thank you.
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  Yes, but the idea of the tool is where I read here that- Yes It, uh, is that the person doesn't have any more vanity.
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  What is vanity?
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  Vanity is something superficial.
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  Uh, I don't have that anymore, and and I am not anymore a victim of my events.
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  This is a huge thing, because in- Yeah, I agree.
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  Because- It's a, yeah, it's a- Yes it's a beautiful, it's a beautiful concept.
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  I think that's the hard thing, is separating yourself from, um, your past and also from, you know, all the material world that we live in.
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  It, but yeah, it's very good message.
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  I appreciate it.
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  I would like to hear your voice.
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  Tess Levy.
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  Or Tehillah.
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  Or Tehillah.
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  Yeah, either one.
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  Uh, I'm friends with Anita, and I'm friends with your beautiful daughter.
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  Ah, so nice.
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  Okay.
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  Uh, if you listen to the class, I would like very much to hear from you what is your understanding, and if you have any question or, or if you want to, I always give the opportunity to, to talk after my talk.
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  So I'm, like, a very interesting case in all of this, because I came from the Hollywood world.
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  Oh.
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  And I've humbled myself to the point where I've let go of a lot of the things that would drive somebody in that industry.
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  Um, and when you talk about, like, the ego, like, it is important to have a sense of self and our importance, but our importance is through, you know, mitzvot and Torah and trying to do good in the world as opposed to only serving ourselves as much as, you know, we can.
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  And that's how we can illuminate the light of Hashem, is through realizing that we're much more than just ourself.
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  Um, and I ta- when you talked about the prisoner and, like, being a prisoner, like, at times in the beginning, I felt like,"Why is Hashem doing this to me?
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  Why am I all of a sudden, like, having to re-create myself in this way that I'm no longer Tess?" Like, I have to become Tehillah, I have to do this.
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  Like, there's so many things.
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  I mean, I usually, like, I cover my hair when I'm out.
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  Like, it's like there's so many things.
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  But Hashem sometimes takes you out of your comfort zone so you can serve Him better.
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  And so it creates this, like, and if you see Hashem's hand in everything and you see that Hashem actually is running the world and is- Caring about you enough to put you in a position where you can connect deeper and you see the hand of Hashem, then you're able to accept and you can accept and adjust to whatever reality Hashem puts in front of you because you realize it's actually is Hashem in everything.
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  So I like the class because when I hear people that are, you know, very much connected speak on this type of level, I realize that it's not an individual thing.
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  It's kind of happening to all of us in different ways.
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  So, um, thank you, Anita, for letting me join the class, because it was great.
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  Thank you.
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  And, and, a- and happy Rosh Hashanah.
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  Ha- and have a sweet, healthy year.
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  Amen.
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  You are wonderful.
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  You say everything.
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  Thank you so much.
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  Thank you.
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  You completed my words.
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  Aw.
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  And Dr.
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  Yoon this, um, session was very deep, um, especially, um, about Bitul, uh, made me think a lot about this, and then I think I need more time to really formulate and organize my thought.
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  But, um, uh, in a- I think Bitul, for us, uh, who, who live in this world, in the lower world, still have this physical body, but also try to Learn enough to nullify ourselves, um, while we are having physical body.
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  Um, it's extremely difficult, I think, a concept to grab, just like, as you said, it's experimentally old.
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  It's, it's one of those that we just have to have, uh, the trust bitahon to really grab it.
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  Um, so it's, it's hard, but, um, I think through Torah study, um, I think we are able to reach kind of a...
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  We're trying to reach a level and with a bitahon.
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  So I was, like, kind of thinking of, like, how do we actually, um, try to be there.
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  Um, so, like, in my mind, it was like Torah study and Emunah and Bitahon, and we'll get there.
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  And then meanwhile, we can use our physical body, not for vanity, but, um, for mitzvot, we can use our physical body.
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  So how do we exist in this lower world having bi- bi- bitul, um, like, with this challenging of dealing with the physical world and with our physical body and a lot of exper- i- influence of this material world?
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  So, um, I try to see the balance between it, um, because we are here in a lower world, and, but how do we get there?
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  But at the same time, this is so mu- it is such a gift that we are here.
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  And, um, just like last, last time I mentioned, uh, seeing Like class in general, it just gave me a really different level of appreciation of our physical body.
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  With this physical body, our presence, even right now in this moment, being here, like we're here, our physical body, and speaking through our bodies, it just gave me a different level of appreciation of a physical presence, this vessel.
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  Um, although we're struggling with it though, um, you know, to get to Betul.
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  So I was thinking about that, uh, during the class.
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  Thank you.
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  Yeah.
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  Very nice.
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  Very nice.
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  Anita, are you ready?
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  Morning.
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  Um, w- when I think of, about, uh, Betul, I think about, a baby.
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  Because babies are so innocent and they have- Mm everything is just open to them.
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  They love everybody.
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  They, they have no agenda.
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  They are stripped of all of the agenda that, uh, that, um, adults have that kind of muddle our brain and make it more difficult to see the light, to see the light of God.
• 37:46
  Um, I, I think, um, I- I...
• 37:52
  Yeah, I think that the easiest way for me to understand it is, is through the eyes of an, an infant.
• 38:02
  Also, I was reading that, um, line that Julie wrote, wrote down, that I also wrote down, um, w- that we are all a channel for Hashem's light, and I think that's so true, but I think we don't all allow Hashem's light in.
• 38:26
  Mm-hmm.
• 38:27
  And that's, uh, that's, uh, the important element.
• 38:30
  It's out there.
• 38:31
  It's for us.
• 38:33
  We could grab it, but, um, something holds us back, and, um- If we could find out what's holding us back and just allow ourselves to be released, I, I think, um, we would get there a lot quicker.
• 38:53
  Mm-hmm.
• 38:54
  What do you think, Julie?
• 38:56
  You want to add something?
• 38:57
  Yeah, I really think, um, I think the more that I think that the more we work on our inner selves, you talk about it all the time with all the, you know, with all the muck, with all the energies, the bad energies, the negative energies and everything like that, it's very difficult to get to that state.
• 39:20
  It's extremely difficult because there's so much blockage there.
• 39:25
  And you talk about it all the time, and it's so true, and I just feel it.
• 39:29
  I feel like the more we work on ourselves, we work on our inner selves.
• 39:33
  Like, the other day I was out, and someone made a comment that they're working on their outer selves, like they were doing Botox.
• 39:40
  And I was sitting with my sister, and we both said,"We're working on our inner selves.
• 39:46
  We're not focused on the outer selves.
• 39:48
  We're working on our inner selves." And I think the more we work on our inner selves, the more we can be that channel for God's light and energy.
• 40:00
  I really, I feel it.
• 40:01
  I've never felt it so strongly as this year when I started doing 60 days again.
• 40:07
  You know?
• 40:08
  Every year I've done 60 days.
• 40:09
  I don't know how many years I've done 60 days.
• 40:12
  And it's always been, okay, I read it, I take it in.
• 40:18
  This year I took a journal, and every day I'm writing.
• 40:23
  Mm.
• 40:23
  And it has been transformational.
• 40:27
  Transformational.
• 40:28
  Because I said I didn't realize how many psychological patterns that I have not worked through at my age, and I started to go,"Wait a moment." You know?
• 40:40
  You can avoid this, or you can really look at it and say,"Wait a moment.
• 40:45
  It's time to really go deep and accept that there's some things you need to change." And it has been so powerful.
• 40:55
  It really has been.
• 40:56
  So again, to hear that I am a channel for Hashem's light and energy, and when I'm not acting like that, then I'm not His channel.
• 41:06
  That is not how He behaves, you know?
• 41:09
  And that's not how He wants us to behave.
• 41:12
  So that is something that I will continue to work on, and it's not easy, but again, uh, the more and more we work on ourselves and we really release what's bothering us and holding on to us, the more we can, I feel, really be that channel and that light and energy.
• 41:32
  Yes, very rewarding.
• 41:34
  Is very, is a hard work It's very hard work But it's a very rewarding work.
• 41:42
  Absolutely.
• 41:43
  Is when you m- you at least you move forward trying- Mm-hmm to master it.
• 41:50
  Mm-hmm.
• 41:50
  Is that give you a sense of satisfaction, like an athlete that is able to reach its goal.
• 41:59
  Mm-hmm.
• 41:59
  That is, that is, that is the po- the position that we are.
• 42:03
  And the beauty of all this is to perceive and recognize that, uh, the kindness and the mercy that- Mm-hmm HaShem has towards us- Right i- is, is beyond.
• 42:19
  Mm-hmm.
• 42:20
  It is beyond understanding.
• 42:21
  Right.
• 42:21
  He's giving us everything, but we are a little behind, and, like, we have a lot of blockages.
• 42:30
  We are not, uh, aware of them.
• 42:34
  Right.
• 42:34
  So, uh, uh, that's why I think that, uh, having this perspective is very useful And instead of telling you, okay, what are the sounds of the shofar, what we have to eat in Rosh Hashanah, and all these things that are very important too.
• 42:56
  Here we are transforming our essence, and I think that this is the higher level that we can reach in life.
• 43:07
  And we are now starting a new year, a new opportunity.
• 43:12
  A new chapter is opening.
• 43:14
  A new book is opening.
• 43:17
  So BeEzrat Hashem, we will have this year with all the good events that Hashem wants from, for us.
• 43:28
  And we are going to go and pick it up, all these packages of good energy- Mm-hmm and bring them in, bring them in, into our life, And at the same time, be a lamp, lamp lighter to the people around us.
• 43:46
  Exactly.
• 43:46
  We have to be- Mm-hmm a lamp lighter.
• 43:49
  So thank you very much.
• 43:51
  This is what I have it for you.
• 43:55
  I, uh, I, I didn't prepare any meditation.
• 44:00
  I can go to a meditation of Rosh Hashanah that is what to think when we are listening to the shofar on the, on Sunday.
• 44:11
  M- Shabbat, no, but on Sunday, what we are going to feel.
• 44:16
  So we have to see that we are conquering, through the sound of the shofar, we are first of all, be present in the first sound, in the first of tekiah We are present in the first sounds of tekiah.
• 44:35
  Then, at the sounds of shevarim, that means the sounds of breaking the Gevurot, breaking, the hardship that we can find in life.
• 44:49
  We break that.
• 44:51
  We have to break.
• 44:53
  And, and we have to be active in this action, not passive.
• 44:59
  We have to be active.
• 45:00
  We are breaking it.
• 45:02
  Find the way that is more suitable for you to break those blockages.
• 45:08
  So you think that at, at the sound of the shevarim, that is only three sounds, at this moment, you are breaking all the Gevurot.
• 45:21
  This is the expression of what is happening.
• 45:23
  Shevarim is what is happening.
• 45:25
  What are my blockages?
• 45:27
  Because when we go through a process of transformation, you cannot go from the negativity up to the ceiling.
• 45:38
  You have to go through a process.
• 45:41
  Mm-hmm.
• 45:41
  So the first process is to accept the blockages- Mm-hmm but in a very positive way, with hope and confidence.
• 45:53
  After that, we recognize it, and then we are breaking, and we break them one after the other.
• 46:03
  Then finally, we receive Hashem countenance, and that is what will fill us and will give us all the hope and all the energy for the coming year So that, that will be my end words today.
• 46:25
  And Bezrat Hashem, I wish you a wonderful- Okay prayer time, a wonderful connection with your family, with your friends.
• 46:37
  And when you are cooking for your holiday, you are bringing all the spices in the food that you are preparing.
• 46:48
  Those are the spices that you are going to put in.
• 46:51
  And all the person that are going to eat your food, they are going to receive your energy.
• 47:00
  So that is the beauty of the Akeret Habayit, of the woman in the house.
• 47:05
  She brings, she, spread her energy in the things that she cook.
• 47:12
  When she makes a delicious dessert- that delicious dessert is her going up, is her feeling more and more.
• 47:23
  Beautiful.
• 47:23
  Thank you.
• 47:23
  So thank you so much and, and that is my best of my wishes, and I'm sure that we are going to have a wonderful, wonderful year, full of simcha- Amen full of peace, Emunah Tova.
• 47:41
  Peace.
• 47:42
  Amen.
• 47:42
  Yes, is peace.
• 47:43
  Is it is I, I connect with you because I know how heavy and how huge is to lose a son.
• 47:55
  Yes.
• 47:55
  Is a very, very heavy, very sad.
• 48:00
  But see that you have now an angel with you everywhere where you go, is there with you, is your angels.
• 48:10
  And that angel is that will enforce you and will give you all the power that you need to do more and more mitzvot, and continue being the, beautiful Emunah Tova that you are.
• 48:24
  Thank you.