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189. Kirsten Ferguson, Peloton Instructor · Hurdle with Emily Abbate

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  Speaker 1: And times where I go through challenges, I go back
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  Speaker 1: to that moment and I say, you've made it through that,
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  Speaker 1: and you you came out on the other side with
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  Speaker 1: some of the most incredible blessings that you are so
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  Speaker 1: grateful for.
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  Speaker 2: So this is a piece of cake. You know you
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  Speaker 2: got this.
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  Speaker 3: Hey everyone, Emily A body here coming to you from
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  Speaker 3: the AG studio. You are listening to episode one eighty
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  Speaker 3: nine of Hurdle, a wellness focus podcast where I connect
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  Speaker 3: with everyone from your favorite athletes to top experts and
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  Speaker 3: industry CEOs about their highest ties, toughest moments, and everything
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  Speaker 3: in between. We all go through hurdles in life, and
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  Speaker 3: my goal through these discussions is to empower you to
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  Speaker 3: better navigate yours and move with intention so that you
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  Speaker 3: can stride towards your own big potential and have some
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  Speaker 3: fun along the way. I hope everybody had a great holiday,
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  Speaker 3: and for those of you that are online.
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  Speaker 4: This week, I am too. You are not alone.
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  Speaker 3: We can do hard things and that's why I am
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  Speaker 3: bringing you this episode specifically to remind you that episode
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  Speaker 3: one eight nine I am chatting with Peloton instructor Kirston Ferguson.
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  Speaker 3: You know that the fitness circle in New York is
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  Speaker 3: quite small, so a lot of the Peloton instructors that
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  Speaker 3: I've had on the show, I have met them before,
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  Speaker 3: we've hung out before, but Kirsten is new to the
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  Speaker 3: squad and we hadn't spoken before, and so this was
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  Speaker 3: a really exciting opportunity to get to know her better.
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  Speaker 3: In today's episode, we talk mostly about the hardships that
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  Speaker 3: she's faced over the last decade, from struggling to have
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  Speaker 3: children and navigating multiple miscarriages to navigating divorce. Kirsten talks
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  Speaker 3: to me about how she got into fitness, eventually.
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  Speaker 5: Teaching spin at home during the panic, and that the beautiful,
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  Speaker 5: literally like serendipitous way that Peloton came to her in
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  Speaker 5: her life, perhaps when she really needed it most.
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  Speaker 3: I cannot say thank you to Kirsten enough. I really
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  Speaker 3: appreciate her vulnerability, her openness, especially when it comes to
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  Speaker 3: such hard, hard moments. She says it in Jay's episode,
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  Speaker 3: and I can really really identify with this that she
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  Speaker 3: is open about the struggles that she faced with miscarriage
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  Speaker 3: because she knows that being vocal will help and empower
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  Speaker 3: women to feel less alone on their journey. And that
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  Speaker 3: is why I'm open and honest about the things that
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  Speaker 3: I have been through. I know how important it is
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  Speaker 3: for us to find that connection.
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  Speaker 4: Life's hard enough as it is.
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  Speaker 2: Right.
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  Speaker 3: Thank you Kirsten again, I really appreciate it, and I'm
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  Speaker 3: super excited to bring this episode to the feed.
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  Speaker 4: Make sure you're following along with Hurdle over on social media.
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  Speaker 4: It's at Hurdle Podcast.
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  Speaker 3: I'm over at Emily a Body and I had a
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  Speaker 3: lot of reach out last week from individuals who wanted
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  Speaker 3: to go to the goal Setting Workshop but could not
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  Speaker 3: make it live. Well, the good news is that I
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  Speaker 3: have an on demand workshop that you can take to
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  Speaker 3: gear yourself up for twenty twenty two and beyond. I
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  Speaker 3: will link the on demand a goal Setting Workshop in
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  Speaker 3: the show notes and I hope.
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  Speaker 4: That it can help you on your journey. That's it
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  Speaker 4: for now. With that, let's get to Hurtling today.
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  Speaker 3: I am sitting down with Kirsten Ferguson. She is a
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  Speaker 3: Peloton instructor. How you doing today, Kirsten?
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  Speaker 2: I am good? I am good. It is what day
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  Speaker 2: is it? I don't even know what day? It is?
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  Speaker 1: Monday morning, It's Christmas time. My toddlers are off school,
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  Speaker 1: for two weeks. It is crazy town in the Ferguson household.
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  Speaker 2: But all is well.
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  Speaker 4: How is that for you?
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  Speaker 3: What does the momming and the work combo look like
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  Speaker 3: for you these days?
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  Speaker 2: You know, every day is different.
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  Speaker 1: Every day is a journey, like to say, figuring it
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  Speaker 1: out as I go, balancing it all. Every day is
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  Speaker 1: a new challenge, a new day. But it's been going
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  Speaker 1: good so far. Four months in and it's been good.
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  Speaker 3: We won't like jump ahead too fast, too soon. But
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  Speaker 3: you've only been teaching at Peloton for a short while now.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, it's been almost four months, so still fresh, still new,
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  Speaker 1: even though I feel like I've been here forever. Just
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  Speaker 1: get started and then it's just like you're on the
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  Speaker 1: journey and you're like off to the races.
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  Speaker 4: But it's been great. Off to the races.
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  Speaker 3: Well, you're no stranger to inspiring people via fitness. Have
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  Speaker 3: you always been a super active person?
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  Speaker 2: So in high.
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  Speaker 1: School, I played basketball, but I didn't really fall in
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  Speaker 1: love with fitness until I started my journey towards motherhood.
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  Speaker 2: So I mean, I played basketball and did the things.
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  Speaker 1: But when I moved to New York City to go
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  Speaker 1: to fashion school, I kind of hung up my Nikes
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  Speaker 1: for stilettos and did the whole New York City fashion
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  Speaker 1: route for a little bit until I found that, you
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  Speaker 1: know what, this isn't really for me, and I actually
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  Speaker 1: started working for the NFL in marketing.
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  Speaker 2: Wow.
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  Speaker 1: Hard pivot for you, hard pivot. I feel like I'm
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  Speaker 1: a cat. I've lived like nine lives.
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  Speaker 4: What interested you in getting involved in marketing?
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  Speaker 3: Because again, such like a big detour from where you
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  Speaker 3: had been originally.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, So I was studying fashion merchandising. I thought it
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  Speaker 1: was what I wanted to do. I thought shopping for
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  Speaker 1: a living, how fabulous. And it wasn't that. It wasn't
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  Speaker 1: what I thought.
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  Speaker 2: And I had a friend that worked at the NFL,
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  Speaker 2: and I just went in for an interview to be
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  Speaker 2: an assistant in the sponsorship, which I had no idea
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  Speaker 2: what that was at the time.
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  Speaker 1: I'm in the interview googling what is sponsorship? And I
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  Speaker 1: got the job and I figured it out. Seven years later,
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  Speaker 1: I was still there, loving what I did.
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  Speaker 2: And I have been.
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  Speaker 1: One that just trusts the process, trusts the journey and
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  Speaker 1: see where it takes you. And that's where it kind
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  Speaker 1: of ended me up for seven years and then I
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  Speaker 1: did the Beyonce Super Bowl halftime show and it was like,
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  Speaker 1: Mike Drop, what do you do after that?
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  Speaker 3: You know that's so interesting, right, because I think a
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  Speaker 3: lot of people often hesitate to go for opportunities like
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  Speaker 3: the one you just mentioned in the NFL and sponsorships
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  Speaker 3: because either like a little imposter syndrome gets in the way,
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  Speaker 3: or they're like, well, I can't be good as good
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  Speaker 3: as whoever else like could be up for this. So
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  Speaker 3: do you think that you always had that sense of
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  Speaker 3: boldness or was this kind of a skill that you
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  Speaker 3: acquired over time.
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  Speaker 1: Gosh, No, it is something I acquired over time, and
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  Speaker 1: it's something I'm still fighting to this day. You know,
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  Speaker 1: even when I was in that interview, I was having
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  Speaker 1: those conversations with myself, like girl, you know you are
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  Speaker 1: not qualified for this job. What are you doing here?
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  Speaker 1: But I just did it. And I've learned to just
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  Speaker 1: try something and see what happens. And that has been
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  Speaker 1: my journey. Even up to my Peloton auditions. I couldn't
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  Speaker 1: believe that it was happening for me. In my head,
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  Speaker 1: I was going through all the reasons I was not
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  Speaker 1: qualified to do this role at all, but I said,
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  Speaker 1: you know what, Kirsten, just go through the process. You know,
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  Speaker 1: what's the worst that can happen. They don't choose you.
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  Speaker 2: But look at all the lessons you could learn through
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  Speaker 2: the process.
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  Speaker 1: And you know, I stuck with that every single interview,
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  Speaker 1: every single audition, and look where it's gotten me. So
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  Speaker 1: I've really learned to trust that. But in the past,
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  Speaker 1: absolutely not, absolutely not. Fear had stopped me so many
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  Speaker 1: times in my life from taking things or doing things,
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  Speaker 1: or believing that I could do things. But I think
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  Speaker 1: it wasn't until like the last four years where I
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  Speaker 1: really started to just embrace fear. If you don't have
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  Speaker 1: those butterflies in your stomach, you don't have that, is
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  Speaker 1: it really where you're supposed to be. You know, I've
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  Speaker 1: started to realize that and it's really worked in my favor.
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  Speaker 3: Then you mentioned not really getting heavily into fitness until
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  Speaker 3: your journey to motherhood began. Tell us a little bit
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  Speaker 3: about perhaps the catalyst for that with you.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah. Absolutely, So.
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  Speaker 1: I had worked at the NFL for seven years and
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  Speaker 1: at the time my husband at the time, and I
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  Speaker 1: was like, maybe it's time to have some kids. He
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  Speaker 1: was working at the NFL at the time or working
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  Speaker 1: for the NFL. He played for the Jets for ten
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  Speaker 1: years and I was working for the NFL, and we
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  Speaker 1: were just so crazy, and I was like, you know what,
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  Speaker 1: maybe we step away. I'll step away and you really
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  Speaker 1: try this mom life out, and you know, just thinking
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  Speaker 1: that that was just the next step in life, right,
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  Speaker 1: and you know, so many of my friends were having
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  Speaker 1: children and I was like, this is this is it,
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  Speaker 1: this is the time. And it didn't happen like that
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  Speaker 1: for me. I struggled to get pregnant for a while.
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  Speaker 1: We tried for a little over a year, and then
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  Speaker 1: I did get pregnant and we were so excited. It
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  Speaker 1: was around Mother's Day and we couldn't wait to tell
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  Speaker 1: our family.
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  Speaker 2: And then I miscarried. And then I had a really
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  Speaker 2: difficult miscarriage that forced me to have some procedures done,
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  Speaker 2: and then we had to wait another six seven months
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  Speaker 2: before we could try again. So there was a.
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  Speaker 1: Lot of It was a dark time, a dark place
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  Speaker 1: for me, and that's where I really started to fall
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  Speaker 1: in love with fitness. That's where I could find peace
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  Speaker 1: for me was just going into a dark room and
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  Speaker 1: working out and focusing on the things that I could
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  Speaker 1: control because I couldn't control this. I wanted so much
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  Speaker 1: to be a mother, but it was not happening for
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  Speaker 1: me and the way that I wanted it to.
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  Speaker 2: Have control issues at times, and so that's really where
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  Speaker 2: I fell in love with fitness. But then after that,
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  Speaker 2: we tried again. We got pregnant.
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  Speaker 1: We heard a heartbeat, which was one of the most
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  Speaker 1: beautiful sounds I've ever heard in my life.
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  Speaker 2: Everything was going great, the checkups were going great.
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  Speaker 1: We were about to travel, so I went for another
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  Speaker 1: ultrasound and the baby had no heartbeat. And I feel
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  Speaker 1: like that was probably the darkest point of my life
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  Speaker 1: because I felt like I was finally on the other side,
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  Speaker 1: you know, got through that and we heard the heartbeat
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  Speaker 1: and there was life there and then there wasn't. And
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  Speaker 1: so it was through that that I again. I Just
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  Speaker 1: that day that I found out that I was miscarrying,
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  Speaker 1: I went right to the gym and I just found.
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  Speaker 2: Peace in it. But then there is a happy ending
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  Speaker 2: to the story.
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  Speaker 1: Five months later I got pregnant again with my daughter,
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  Speaker 1: Eden Grace Ferguson, who is now six, and then six
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  Speaker 1: months after she was born in came Emory Faith Ferguson.
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  Speaker 2: So, and they are the loves of my life and
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  Speaker 2: my why and all the things that I do today.
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  Speaker 3: Wow, well, thank you so much for sharing that with us.
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  Speaker 3: God was like, I know, I really throw you for
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  Speaker 3: a loop there for a while. But six months after
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  Speaker 3: your first one, I'm back with the vengeance.
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  Speaker 1: I had a lot of things to learn, you know,
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  Speaker 1: I think there's a lot of things to learn in
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  Speaker 1: the dark time and the quiet time.
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  Speaker 2: I say this all the time.
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  Speaker 1: You know, through the dark comes light, And that has been,
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  Speaker 1: you know, something I've carried with me and you know,
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  Speaker 1: and times where I go through challenges, I go back
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  Speaker 1: to that moment and I say, you've made it through that,
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  Speaker 1: and you you came out on the other side with
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  Speaker 1: some of the most incredible blessings that you should be
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  Speaker 1: so grateful for or you are so grateful for.
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  Speaker 2: So this is a piece of cake. You know, you
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  Speaker 2: got this.
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  Speaker 3: It's an acquired skill or perhaps a personality trait to
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  Speaker 3: lean into something positive for yourself like health and wellness
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  Speaker 3: and fitness versus obviously so many other opportunities or things
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  Speaker 3: that could be available to you, perhaps other you know,
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  Speaker 3: potentially addictive things. So for you and leaning in to
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  Speaker 3: health and fitness. Was it bigger than just the act
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  Speaker 3: of health and fitness? What did you have a big
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  Speaker 3: community behind you? Talk to me about what that had
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  Speaker 3: looked like for you at that time.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, at that time, I mean I had a lot
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  Speaker 1: of friends that loved me, but they were all having children,
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  Speaker 1: and for me, at that time, it was.
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  Speaker 2: Hard to be around those friends.
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  Speaker 1: It was hard to sit at dinner with those friends
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  Speaker 1: where they all think they talk about as their kids,
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  Speaker 1: or they would complain about things and I'd be like, gosh,
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  Speaker 1: I would do anything for that, you know. So it
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  Speaker 1: became difficult to even be around people that I loved
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  Speaker 1: and I knew that loved me. And so getting into fitness,
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  Speaker 1: I was able to just find peace and solace in there,
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  Speaker 1: and I built a community of friends there that were
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  Speaker 1: just focused on that, just that, you know, working out,
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  Speaker 1: having a good time while we did listen to amazing music,
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  Speaker 1: getting inspired by instructors. You know, sometimes instructor say just
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  Speaker 1: the right thing at just the right moment when you
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  Speaker 1: need it the most. So it became a place of
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  Speaker 1: peace for me. And then even after I became a mother,
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  Speaker 1: it became it is still a place of solace. I
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  Speaker 1: call it my mommy, my mommy off time, you know,
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  Speaker 1: because I'm able to take.
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  Speaker 2: One hour a day where i can focus on me
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  Speaker 2: and not worry about all the laundry lists of things
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  Speaker 2: I have to get through through the day. So it
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  Speaker 2: is it is just so much more than the workout
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  Speaker 2: for me.
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  Speaker 1: The workouts is and is the place for me, and
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  Speaker 1: you know, the health benefits and all the things are
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  Speaker 1: great that come along with it, but it's also more
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  Speaker 1: about just the space for peace for me and solace
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  Speaker 1: that I find in it to be.
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  Speaker 3: The friend that maybe you didn't really feel comfortable being
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  Speaker 3: around at that point, and whether this is because maybe
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  Speaker 3: your friends, as you said, some of them had kids,
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  Speaker 3: they were talking about having kids, or like just like
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  Speaker 3: you needing your own space, Like what advice do you
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  Speaker 3: have to the people that like want to support someone
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  Speaker 3: who is going through a difficult time, like you want
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  Speaker 3: to hold space for them, but might not know how
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  Speaker 3: to show up. Having experienced situations like that myself, unfortunately,
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  Speaker 3: when friends who have also lost wanting to know, like
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  Speaker 3: what your perspective would be on how to show up.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean that's a very interesting question. I think
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  Speaker 1: being who they are and not treating you any different.
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  Speaker 2: But you know, maybe it's not the lunch.
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  Speaker 1: Maybe it is going finding out what I am loving
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  Speaker 1: to do and going with me, you know, going with
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  Speaker 1: me to the gym, or you know, trying a different
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  Speaker 1: workout with me where it's not you know, let's sit
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  Speaker 1: around the table and show the pictures and just knowing
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  Speaker 1: and having a sensitivity around it.
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  Speaker 2: You know, I think that's important.
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  Speaker 1: And you know, talking about it, understanding where how you're
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  Speaker 1: feeling and asking how they can support you. I think
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  Speaker 1: that is helpful when someone's grieving and hurting in that space.
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  Speaker 1: But you know, one of the things I realized is,
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  Speaker 1: and that's why I'm so vocal about what I went through,
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  Speaker 1: is not everybody it is vocal about it.
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  Speaker 2: So at the time I felt very alone.
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  Speaker 1: And so once I started speaking about it more and
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  Speaker 1: finding that there were other women that have gone through this,
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  Speaker 1: I found hope in that. I found peace in that.
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  Speaker 1: And that is why I'm so vocal about sharing my story,
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  Speaker 1: is that you know, if somebody else is going through that,
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  Speaker 1: knowing that they're not alone.
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  Speaker 3: Did you going through this time after the second miscarriage?
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  Speaker 3: I would imagine maybe there was even a certain level
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  Speaker 3: of fear about getting pregnant again, even though it was
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  Speaker 3: something that you so desperately wanted.
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  Speaker 2: I was terrified. I was terrified.
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  Speaker 1: I was absolutely terrified the moment I found out I
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  Speaker 1: was pregnant. Every step of the way, I didn't believe
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  Speaker 1: it was going to happen. I didn't tell a lot
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  Speaker 1: of people, you know, in the beginning, I did, But
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  Speaker 1: when I got pregnant the third time, I didn't tell
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  Speaker 1: a lot of people because I didn't want to have
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  Speaker 1: to go through the text chain of all the people
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  Speaker 1: that I told and just copy and paste, you know,
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  Speaker 1: and then have to deal with all of that over
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  Speaker 1: and over again. So I didn't tell a lot of people.
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  Speaker 1: I was terrified. I'm still terrified to this day, you know,
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  Speaker 1: just holding on praying that I don't love them. I
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  Speaker 1: don't think that fear ever goes away. I think that's
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  Speaker 1: just motherhood. That's just something that just comes with the
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  Speaker 1: territory now. But every step of the way I was
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  Speaker 1: was terrified. And you know, again, working out was a
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  Speaker 1: place that helped me deal with that. You know, once
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  Speaker 1: I was cleared to work out, I had to take
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  Speaker 1: the first trimester off because I was kind of considered
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  Speaker 1: high risk after my first two miscarriages, so I took
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  Speaker 1: the first trimester off, but then once I was able
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  Speaker 1: to get back into working out, it was again a
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  Speaker 1: place of peace and solace for me. And I really
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  Speaker 1: had to battle my control issues because mother like childbirth,
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  Speaker 1: and you can't control it. There's so many little things
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  Speaker 1: that have to happen for this miracle to come into
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  Speaker 1: the world, and you have absolutely no control over it.
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  Speaker 1: As much as you think you do, you don't, And
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  Speaker 1: so really finding peace in that was a constant battle
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  Speaker 1: for me.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean letting go forget like justin like in motherhood,
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  Speaker 3: like in general, is such a difficult thing for so
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  Speaker 3: many and something that so many of us have had
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  Speaker 3: to learn how to do a little bit better over
• 17:32
  Speaker 3: the couple of years.
• 17:34
  Speaker 1: And every single one of my classes, I make you
• 17:37
  Speaker 1: take three big inhales before we get into the actual workout,
• 17:40
  Speaker 1: and the last in hell, I said, let it go
• 17:42
  Speaker 1: like elsa baby, because so and it could be anything,
• 17:46
  Speaker 1: but we are carrying so much and we can't control everything,
• 17:50
  Speaker 1: you know, and there's just moments where you just got
• 17:52
  Speaker 1: to let it go.
• 17:53
  Speaker 4: Gotta let it go.
• 17:54
  Speaker 3: When do you transition from someone that seeks out fitness
• 17:58
  Speaker 3: as a tool to to cope, to feel good, to
• 18:01
  Speaker 3: find that solace, to being a person who wants to
• 18:05
  Speaker 3: be at the forefront of helping other people find that
• 18:08
  Speaker 3: same feeling.
• 18:09
  Speaker 1: I had no idea I wanted to do it until
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: I actually stepped out and did it.
• 18:13
  Speaker 2: Oh. I love that.
• 18:14
  Speaker 1: I was riding at a studio and someone said to me,
• 18:21
  Speaker 1: who ever thought about being an instructor? He was like,
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: absolutely not like I. When I tell you, I was
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: terrified of speaking in front of people. I was always
• 18:31
  Speaker 1: the girl that would never raise her hand in class.
• 18:33
  Speaker 1: I never wanted to present at work. I was terrified
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: of doing work presentations in front of people. Terrified. I
• 18:42
  Speaker 1: was like, absolutely not. But something inside of me said,
• 18:45
  Speaker 1: you know what, look and I looked up and that
• 18:47
  Speaker 1: company had auditions, and so I said, okay, you know what,
• 18:50
  Speaker 1: I'm going to go out there.
• 18:50
  Speaker 2: I'm going to try it. See what happens. It could
• 18:52
  Speaker 2: just be fun.
• 18:52
  Speaker 1: It could just be a fun experience to just take
• 18:55
  Speaker 1: myself into something super uncomfortable and just try it.
• 19:00
  Speaker 2: So I did it, and I remember the moment.
• 19:04
  Speaker 1: Where I put the mic on my face and I
• 19:05
  Speaker 1: looked at myself in the mirror and I said, Wow,
• 19:08
  Speaker 1: this is what you're supposed to do. And it was
• 19:10
  Speaker 1: a moment where I was kind of in shock because
• 19:14
  Speaker 1: I never in a millionaires thought that this was something.
• 19:16
  Speaker 2: I could do.
• 19:17
  Speaker 1: And even while I was training, I doubted myself imposter
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: syndrome constantly because I'd never done it before. But once
• 19:26
  Speaker 1: I started to just be authentically me and share my heart,
• 19:32
  Speaker 1: it everything changed for me.
• 19:34
  Speaker 2: You know.
• 19:35
  Speaker 1: I thought, you know, after going through what I went
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: through and having my children, I thought that being a
• 19:41
  Speaker 1: mother was going to be it for me and that
• 19:44
  Speaker 1: was that was what I was meant to be on
• 19:46
  Speaker 1: this earth. But then I was a longing as something
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: still inside me, like you have more to give besides this,
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: and I struggled with trying to figure that out. And
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: it wasn't until I looked at myself in the mirror
• 19:57
  Speaker 1: with that mic on my face that was like, this
• 19:58
  Speaker 1: is it.
• 20:00
  Speaker 2: And it wasn't easy.
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: It was not easy, but I knew in that moment
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: that this is what I was meant to do.
• 20:08
  Speaker 3: Two logistical questions, the first question being how long did
• 20:12
  Speaker 3: that training period take for you?
• 20:15
  Speaker 1: So I was in training for three months, but then
• 20:21
  Speaker 1: my daughter had a medical issue. She had ended up
• 20:24
  Speaker 1: having a seizure out of nowhere, and so my world
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: was rocked. My world was rocked, and like I said,
• 20:29
  Speaker 1: I was holding onto my babies with deer life. So
• 20:32
  Speaker 1: I walked away actually from that particular company, and I
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: focused on my daughter. There was tons of doctor's appointments,
• 20:38
  Speaker 1: tons of follow ups, and it was almost heartbreaking because
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: it was like, man, I feel like I found what
• 20:44
  Speaker 1: I want to do, but in this moment, I need
• 20:46
  Speaker 1: to be the mom. And so I did that, and
• 20:51
  Speaker 1: then another opportunity came up and I started teaching at
• 20:54
  Speaker 1: a smaller gym out here in New Jersey, and that's
• 20:59
  Speaker 1: where everything changed for me. That's where it just clicked.
• 21:02
  Speaker 1: There was no more imposter syndrome. It was like, I'm
• 21:04
  Speaker 1: going to get after it. I'm going to do this.
• 21:06
  Speaker 1: I'm going to inspire the people in this town and
• 21:08
  Speaker 1: this community. And it blew up from there and then
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: COVID hit.
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: And I was like, man, I'm just getting like it
• 21:16
  Speaker 2: was about to take off.
• 21:18
  Speaker 1: And then COVID hit and I had COVID like right
• 21:21
  Speaker 1: as soon as our gym shut down, and I said,
• 21:23
  Speaker 1: I remember being at home with COVID for three weeks.
• 21:26
  Speaker 1: I had to send my babies away. And it was
• 21:29
  Speaker 1: in that moment where it was like, what are you
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: going to do? Everybody's trying to figure it out.
• 21:33
  Speaker 2: What are you going to do? And I knew how
• 21:35
  Speaker 2: I was feeling in that moment.
• 21:36
  Speaker 1: I was feeling scared, I was feeling lonely, I was
• 21:39
  Speaker 1: feeling depressed. I was feeling so many emotions that I
• 21:44
  Speaker 1: think a lot of people were feeling. And I was like,
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: how can I be a light for people in this time?
• 21:50
  Speaker 1: So girl, I took out my phone. I never did
• 21:52
  Speaker 1: an Instagram live a day in my life. I was like,
• 21:55
  Speaker 1: here we go, put on the light, pulled out my
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: Peloton bike that I had twenty fifteen, and I started
• 22:02
  Speaker 1: teaching on a thing and it blew.
• 22:04
  Speaker 2: Up from there.
• 22:06
  Speaker 1: It blew up from there, and then six months later
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: I heard from Peloton.
• 22:12
  Speaker 3: The beautiful thing about writing a Peloton stuck inside your
• 22:15
  Speaker 3: own home, isn't it?
• 22:18
  Speaker 2: You never know what can happen for you.
• 22:20
  Speaker 4: You never know what could happen for you.
• 22:23
  Speaker 3: You know it's I commend you because so many of
• 22:28
  Speaker 3: the stories that you've shared so far, the circumstance, whether
• 22:31
  Speaker 3: it be between the losses that you experienced within your
• 22:34
  Speaker 3: family or you know, the scary moment that happened with
• 22:37
  Speaker 3: your daughter.
• 22:38
  Speaker 4: So many instances where you could have.
• 22:40
  Speaker 3: Just let the fear win right, And it's beautiful to
• 22:47
  Speaker 3: see the acknowledgment that you have over that inner voice
• 22:51
  Speaker 3: that says, but there's more for you. A lot of
• 22:54
  Speaker 3: people struggle to let that inner voice like true guide
• 23:01
  Speaker 3: their way, especially you know, with the like magnitude of
• 23:05
  Speaker 3: the situations that you experienced.
• 23:07
  Speaker 4: So I totally commend you on that.
• 23:10
  Speaker 3: Do you remember, I mean, I'm sure you do, but
• 23:12
  Speaker 3: do you remember where you were when you got the
• 23:14
  Speaker 3: call or were you with her when your daughter experienced
• 23:16
  Speaker 3: at seizure.
• 23:18
  Speaker 2: So this is the crazy thing. And I don't know
• 23:21
  Speaker 2: what everybody believed.
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: I believe in God, and it was it was something
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: that you know, I saw something on on my cameras
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: on my phone, and usually if she gets up, I
• 23:29
  Speaker 1: let her just go back to sleep. But something told
• 23:32
  Speaker 1: me to go upstairs. So I went upstairs and she
• 23:35
  Speaker 1: was sitting up in the bed in a blank stare.
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, you are right, and then I
• 23:41
  Speaker 1: went over to her and then she just started seizing
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: in my arms. And I it was thank god my
• 23:48
  Speaker 1: mother was here. My mom's a nurse, thank god she
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: was in town. She ran upstairs, and you know, it
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: was terrifying. You know, we called the ambulance and rushed
• 23:58
  Speaker 1: her to the hospital. But it was just one of
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: those moments. I was in the right place at the
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: right time. I had the cameras, so I had everything
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: on camera, so I was able to show the doctors
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: what happened, you know. So that's it was really like
• 24:12
  Speaker 1: God telling me to go upstairs to your child right now.
• 24:15
  Speaker 2: And it was after a long day.
• 24:17
  Speaker 1: I was at training all day and I could have
• 24:20
  Speaker 1: just looked at the phone and be like, oh, so'll
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: go back to bed, but something told me to go upstairs.
• 24:25
  Speaker 2: Wow.
• 24:25
  Speaker 4: Wow, I have like goosebumps all over my entire.
• 24:28
  Speaker 2: Body right now. Yeah, I do too. Actually, I always
• 24:31
  Speaker 2: brought back to that moment. It's terrified. It was terrifying.
• 24:34
  Speaker 3: Yeah, of course. And I if I was you, I mean,
• 24:37
  Speaker 3: let's talk about control. Like I can't even tell you,
• 24:40
  Speaker 3: like how I would not live with like my phone
• 24:42
  Speaker 3: and that camera plastered in my hand for the rest
• 24:45
  Speaker 3: of my Oh my gosh.
• 24:47
  Speaker 2: Tell me about it. I'm always going and checking on
• 24:49
  Speaker 2: them all the time.
• 24:50
  Speaker 3: I remember some of my friends when they became first
• 24:53
  Speaker 3: time mothers as like most first time mothers to like
• 24:56
  Speaker 3: you go through that first phase where like you literally
• 24:59
  Speaker 3: going to their room and just check that they're breathing,
• 25:01
  Speaker 3: like at least twelve times in the night.
• 25:03
  Speaker 1: All the time, all the time. I like, if they
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: have they're like sleeping on you. Like I it's you
• 25:09
  Speaker 1: never stop. Like when I tell you never stop worrying,
• 25:12
  Speaker 1: you can never stop.
• 25:13
  Speaker 4: You never stop.
• 25:14
  Speaker 3: And the other thing to touch on here, I love
• 25:17
  Speaker 3: what you said about uh starting to teach from home
• 25:20
  Speaker 3: and pulling out this like twenty fifteen Peloton bike again
• 25:24
  Speaker 3: another example of like why you're such an interesting and
• 25:26
  Speaker 3: special person because so many people, I think struggle with
• 25:29
  Speaker 3: the idea of things need to be a certain way
• 25:32
  Speaker 3: or things need to be perfect, and for you to
• 25:35
  Speaker 3: have absolutely no.
• 25:36
  Speaker 4: Experience trying to do something like this with the Instagram.
• 25:39
  Speaker 3: Nevertheless, to do something like this with this bike that
• 25:41
  Speaker 3: like seems to have been collecting a little bit of
• 25:43
  Speaker 3: dust at home, What a cool thing for you to do.
• 25:46
  Speaker 2: It was.
• 25:46
  Speaker 1: It was awesome and you know, just stepping into doing
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: something different, and you know, I feel like everything in
• 25:54
  Speaker 1: life happens for a reason. I had never talked to
• 25:57
  Speaker 1: the camera before, and I've never talked to a room
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: with nobody in it, with no energy, and I didn't
• 26:04
  Speaker 1: know in that moment it was preparing me for what
• 26:07
  Speaker 1: I do now, teaching, you know, on the tread to
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: a camera.
• 26:13
  Speaker 2: Nobody else is in the room but me. You know,
• 26:15
  Speaker 2: it was preparing me for this moment.
• 26:17
  Speaker 1: You know, when you look back on things, you're like, man,
• 26:20
  Speaker 1: I had no idea what I was doing then, but
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: it prepared me for.
• 26:24
  Speaker 2: What I'm doing now.
• 26:25
  Speaker 3: Yeah, So what was going on in your life? I mean,
• 26:28
  Speaker 3: COVID gestures loosely, but what was going on in your
• 26:32
  Speaker 3: life when you finally heard from Peloton.
• 26:35
  Speaker 1: So I was teaching at home, I was homeschooling my kids.
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: All hell was breaking loose, you know, I was separating
• 26:45
  Speaker 1: from my partner at the time.
• 26:47
  Speaker 2: It was literally like all hell was going on in
• 26:52
  Speaker 2: this house. And then to get that message, it was
• 26:56
  Speaker 2: I was in awe.
• 26:56
  Speaker 1: I believe in the power of manifestation, and in the
• 27:00
  Speaker 1: beginning of COVID, I really sat down to figure out, Okay,
• 27:03
  Speaker 1: what do I want for my life? And I have
• 27:06
  Speaker 1: a bunch of post it notes in my manifestation wall
• 27:07
  Speaker 1: and I have one that said I want to.
• 27:09
  Speaker 2: Be a Polticone instructor and.
• 27:13
  Speaker 1: So to get that message, they slid in the DM's girl.
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: They slid in the DMS and I was like, Man,
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: is this real? If this person asked for my Social
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: Security number? I know this is not real, but it
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: was real.
• 27:24
  Speaker 2: And I've been in all of this whole process ever since.
• 27:31
  Speaker 2: You know.
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: They they reached out and I went for my first
• 27:34
  Speaker 1: interview and it's been absolutely incredible ever since. I feel
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: like I've had permanent dimple smiles since that day.
• 27:45
  Speaker 3: Well, the interesting thing here is that you have been
• 27:48
  Speaker 3: teaching spin and now you're teaching tread.
• 27:50
  Speaker 4: Talk to us about that and how that kind of
• 27:52
  Speaker 4: panned out.
• 27:53
  Speaker 1: Absolutely, So, you know, they reached out. I'm so excited.
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: I was like, oh my gosh, I manifested this. Ah,
• 27:58
  Speaker 1: this is incredible. And you know, the first interview was amazing.
• 28:03
  Speaker 1: And then they reached out again and they were like, so,
• 28:05
  Speaker 1: we don't have much room on the bike. We're pretty
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: at capacity there. What are your thoughts about auditioning for
• 28:12
  Speaker 1: the tread?
• 28:13
  Speaker 2: And I and I have one.
• 28:14
  Speaker 1: I was like, well, I have one I love just
• 28:17
  Speaker 1: sims and those boot camps.
• 28:18
  Speaker 2: Baby, I'm here for it, but I've never taught it.
• 28:20
  Speaker 4: Me too, lady, me too.
• 28:22
  Speaker 2: It's girl. But I'm like, what okay like? And I
• 28:26
  Speaker 2: had to go back to that space.
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: You've done this before, You've walked into rooms that you
• 28:30
  Speaker 1: didn't know what you were doing, and you've done it.
• 28:34
  Speaker 1: Go back to that person, and I said, you know what,
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: I'm going to audition.
• 28:39
  Speaker 2: I'm going to be me.
• 28:40
  Speaker 1: I'm going to study my butt off, I'm going to
• 28:43
  Speaker 1: be totally confident in what I'm doing.
• 28:47
  Speaker 2: I'm going to get all the credentials that I need
• 28:51
  Speaker 2: to be certified to.
• 28:52
  Speaker 1: Be able to do this, and let's go and I'm
• 28:54
  Speaker 1: going to learn from the best in the industry.
• 28:57
  Speaker 2: You know.
• 28:57
  Speaker 1: Yet, were there times where I was like, girl, you
• 28:59
  Speaker 1: are not vexed. You are not Matt Wilfer's day run marathons.
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: You've never done that before. I don't even know if
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: you want to do that. Are you sure you can
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: do this?
• 29:09
  Speaker 2: I was absolutely having those moments. But then there was
• 29:12
  Speaker 2: another time where it was like, here's staying. You are
• 29:15
  Speaker 2: meant for this.
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: You your desire to do this is to change lives.
• 29:19
  Speaker 1: And if it's to do it on a tread, a
• 29:21
  Speaker 1: bike with some weights, whatever it is, go do that.
• 29:25
  Speaker 3: Hey, I'm not foreshadowing anything, but you know that that
• 29:28
  Speaker 3: you know that Jess started doing exactly what you're doing
• 29:31
  Speaker 3: and then all of a sudden, one day she was
• 29:32
  Speaker 3: on the bike.
• 29:33
  Speaker 1: So maybe there's a future now, you know, you know
• 29:35
  Speaker 1: there's power and manifestation.
• 29:36
  Speaker 2: I'll tell you that.
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  Speaker 3: there are so many individuals listening to this right now
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  Speaker 3: who dealt with a similar difficulty in their personal lives
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  Speaker 3: during COVID, and that they also separated from their partner
• 31:55
  Speaker 3: or walked away from a long term relationship. For you,
• 31:59
  Speaker 3: what would you say was the most difficult part of
• 32:02
  Speaker 3: that for you and your family.
• 32:05
  Speaker 2: For me and my family, it was my girls. It
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  Speaker 2: was making sure they were okay. Luckily, we co parent beautifully.
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  Speaker 2: He's a great human being.
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  Speaker 1: But we just came to the realization that this wasn't
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  Speaker 1: it anymore and we wanted to choose happiness. And when
• 32:22
  Speaker 1: we both were in alignment on that, it was good.
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: Were there hard days as a single mom? One hundred
• 32:28
  Speaker 1: and ten thousand percent. Was it worth it?
• 32:32
  Speaker 2: Yes? Yes, more doors opened for me that I didn't
• 32:37
  Speaker 2: even know was possible by allowing that one to close.
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: You know, I made myself small in that relationship. I
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: would never have believed in myself to be able to
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: do this, and so it was a necessary step. And
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: now I am able to really walk and be who
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: I am, and my daughters are able to see me happy,
• 33:01
  Speaker 1: They're able to watch me chase after my dreams. They
• 33:04
  Speaker 1: think I'm Beyonce by the way, as they should.
• 33:10
  Speaker 2: So, Man, what a great thing?
• 33:12
  Speaker 4: Do you just have two little mini me's looking up
• 33:14
  Speaker 4: to you all of the time.
• 33:16
  Speaker 1: And I watched my mother do it for me. She
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: was a single mom and kill the male dominated field.
• 33:23
  Speaker 1: I remember her watching her walking to work in a
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: power red suit. Like all of these memories I still
• 33:29
  Speaker 1: have with me and carry with me, and I want
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: my girls to see that in me and know that
• 33:34
  Speaker 1: they don't need to stay in a relationship that on
• 33:37
  Speaker 1: paper looks perfect.
• 33:39
  Speaker 2: If you're unhappy, you know, life is way too short,
• 33:43
  Speaker 2: and during COVID, I think we all started to realize that,
• 33:47
  Speaker 2: and so that would just be my my only one
• 33:51
  Speaker 2: thing I would want to share is just you know,
• 33:53
  Speaker 2: life is too short, you know, and if if you
• 33:56
  Speaker 2: are in agreement and the alignment, that that is what
• 33:59
  Speaker 2: you need to do, you know, step out on faith.
• 34:02
  Speaker 2: You know. Is it going to be easy? Absolutely not?
• 34:04
  Speaker 2: Is it worth it? At least it was for me.
• 34:08
  Speaker 3: That sentence, like if you are in agreement in alignment,
• 34:10
  Speaker 3: like it's great that the two of you were, but
• 34:12
  Speaker 3: sometimes you need to like be very honest with you
• 34:15
  Speaker 3: about you know, what it is that you need. And
• 34:18
  Speaker 3: it can be frightening, as you said, absolutely frightening, but
• 34:23
  Speaker 3: something that your girl says, I uh, I want it
• 34:26
  Speaker 3: more than I fear it.
• 34:26
  Speaker 4: Right, So what is it that you're going after.
• 34:30
  Speaker 3: What is it that like burns that fire inside of
• 34:32
  Speaker 3: you so that you can go to your next level
• 34:35
  Speaker 3: of potential.
• 34:36
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 34:36
  Speaker 3: Absolutely, And it's interesting as well because I hear what
• 34:41
  Speaker 3: you're saying, like, I shrunk myself so much in that,
• 34:44
  Speaker 3: and I think that sometimes when you're in the middle
• 34:47
  Speaker 3: of it, when you're in the thick of it, like
• 34:48
  Speaker 3: you kind of know that, but you also don't realize
• 34:51
  Speaker 3: like how much of yourself you're sacrificing in these difficult moments.
• 34:55
  Speaker 3: And that, truly it's something that you almost have to
• 35:00
  Speaker 3: go through a difficult time like that, whether it's because
• 35:04
  Speaker 3: of a relationship or so many other of the hurdles
• 35:06
  Speaker 3: that we go through in our lives. But it's almost
• 35:09
  Speaker 3: like by going through these hurdle moments, you learn the
• 35:12
  Speaker 3: best way to proceed and how maybe not to make
• 35:15
  Speaker 3: some of those same not the best for you decisions
• 35:18
  Speaker 3: in the next phase and in the next phase and
• 35:20
  Speaker 3: in the next chapter.
• 35:21
  Speaker 2: Right.
• 35:22
  Speaker 1: Absolutely, I truly believe there's no such thing as failure
• 35:24
  Speaker 1: in life. It's a lesson and you take that with
• 35:28
  Speaker 1: you through every challenge that you go through. And you know,
• 35:32
  Speaker 1: for me, it was really being okay with it and
• 35:36
  Speaker 1: then being open to what happens next. I still don't know,
• 35:40
  Speaker 1: you know, I'm still you know, definitely walking through it all.
• 35:44
  Speaker 1: But I would not be able to be the person
• 35:45
  Speaker 1: I am today if I if I stay stuck, you know,
• 35:50
  Speaker 1: and I would look at myself in the mirror and
• 35:53
  Speaker 1: all the things that I'm coaching and telling everybody else
• 35:57
  Speaker 1: to do. It was like I had a moment in
• 35:59
  Speaker 1: the mirror, Karsten, you need to walk the walk too,
• 36:03
  Speaker 1: you know, and be brave enough to do that.
• 36:06
  Speaker 4: And it's hard, it's hard to like take your own advice.
• 36:09
  Speaker 3: Was not a marriage, but I remember, like I've been
• 36:11
  Speaker 3: in you know.
• 36:13
  Speaker 4: Situations or relationships.
• 36:14
  Speaker 3: I was in this one particular relationship that was definitely
• 36:18
  Speaker 3: emotionally abusive, and one day I looked in the mirror
• 36:21
  Speaker 3: after probably not sleeping for a month really to any
• 36:26
  Speaker 3: solid amount, and I just looked at myself and I
• 36:29
  Speaker 3: asked myself.
• 36:29
  Speaker 4: I was like, are you happy?
• 36:31
  Speaker 2: Like?
• 36:32
  Speaker 3: And you need like that moment of just like brutal honesty.
• 36:37
  Speaker 3: And it's hard as hell, but man, is it like
• 36:39
  Speaker 3: a game changer.
• 36:41
  Speaker 2: Game changer, game changer, game changer.
• 36:44
  Speaker 1: And you know, it makes you stronger throughout it all
• 36:46
  Speaker 1: so that when you do go through the next thing,
• 36:48
  Speaker 1: because you are going to go through the next thing, you.
• 36:50
  Speaker 2: Are prepared for what you will and will not accept.
• 36:54
  Speaker 1: And I'm so proud of the woman that I see
• 36:57
  Speaker 1: today because she was not the same woman that she
• 36:59
  Speaker 1: was five years ago.
• 37:00
  Speaker 3: Yeah, And I mean also, of course, here COVID playing
• 37:04
  Speaker 3: such a big role in us doing a lot of
• 37:07
  Speaker 3: that like inner personal work. So not only like this
• 37:11
  Speaker 3: crazy global pandemic going on, but you also changing careers,
• 37:16
  Speaker 3: coming into your own as like this beautiful mother taking
• 37:20
  Speaker 3: care of two little girls. Did you develop any rituals
• 37:25
  Speaker 3: or things in your own household that helped you get
• 37:27
  Speaker 3: through some of these like really difficult moments?
• 37:31
  Speaker 1: You know, I felt like it was a moment for
• 37:34
  Speaker 1: us all to be still and really be focused on
• 37:37
  Speaker 1: what is really important in life. And I know at
• 37:42
  Speaker 1: that time, I was so focused on my career and
• 37:45
  Speaker 1: finding out what I wanted to do that you know,
• 37:49
  Speaker 1: it's always a balancing act, right, But you know, my
• 37:52
  Speaker 1: time with my children was kind of like this, and
• 37:54
  Speaker 1: so when COVID hit, you're kind of forced to spend time,
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: real time with your family. And I started to really
• 38:04
  Speaker 1: embrace that and focus on that. And you know, we
• 38:08
  Speaker 1: were going through a difficult time as a family, and
• 38:11
  Speaker 1: I was grateful for the opportunity to really be there
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: to love on my kids and know that even though
• 38:18
  Speaker 1: me and their father are no longer together, there are
• 38:19
  Speaker 1: still loved and just spend real, meaningful time with them.
• 38:24
  Speaker 2: I think that was one of the biggest things.
• 38:26
  Speaker 1: It's not really a ritual, but it was something I
• 38:28
  Speaker 1: was able to do, really spend intentional time with them.
• 38:32
  Speaker 1: And now that you know, we're starting to get out
• 38:35
  Speaker 1: of it, still going back to that time, right and
• 38:38
  Speaker 1: still being intentional with that.
• 38:40
  Speaker 2: That was something I needed to learn. You know.
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: I say everything does not need to be on the
• 38:45
  Speaker 1: priority list, you know, but they are up there, you know,
• 38:48
  Speaker 1: right there with it. And sometimes you have to say
• 38:51
  Speaker 1: no to other things to make that time special and important.
• 38:55
  Speaker 2: So that's one thing I do hold on to.
• 38:57
  Speaker 3: The priorities are such an interesting thing, right, because it's
• 38:59
  Speaker 3: so easy to feel shame from others when you choose
• 39:05
  Speaker 3: and designate, like what yours are?
• 39:07
  Speaker 2: Right?
• 39:09
  Speaker 4: How do you not have.
• 39:11
  Speaker 3: Guilt or shame about what your priorities are.
• 39:14
  Speaker 1: It's the power of no girl. I've had to learn
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: it I had to learn it, the power of no.
• 39:19
  Speaker 1: You can't do everything in fomo. Yeah you'll have it,
• 39:22
  Speaker 1: but guess what, the next day, there'll be another opportunity
• 39:25
  Speaker 1: for you to do it, you know, just for a
• 39:28
  Speaker 1: peace of mind. At this point, you know you can't
• 39:31
  Speaker 1: do it all. You know, sometimes you got.
• 39:33
  Speaker 2: To say no.
• 39:34
  Speaker 1: You have to say no. I just have to say
• 39:36
  Speaker 1: no and speak up for yourself and you know, say
• 39:39
  Speaker 1: this is not going to work for me right now,
• 39:41
  Speaker 1: maybe sometime down the road, and it's okay, it's okay.
• 39:45
  Speaker 1: It's I've learned to be okay with that. I don't
• 39:47
  Speaker 1: need to be at every event, every dinner, every everything.
• 39:52
  Speaker 2: I don't need to be there. You know.
• 39:54
  Speaker 1: There's my I have kids. A lot of my friends,
• 39:57
  Speaker 1: some of the instructors they don't. They all don't have kids,
• 39:59
  Speaker 1: so they're all, let's go out. I'm like, y'all, I
• 40:02
  Speaker 1: would love to, but I have to class plan. I
• 40:05
  Speaker 1: got two kids.
• 40:06
  Speaker 2: That are going to be in my face at six am.
• 40:09
  Speaker 2: You know, so there's.
• 40:09
  Speaker 1: Times like you want to go, you want to like
• 40:12
  Speaker 1: spend time with them, but like not tonight, maybe when
• 40:16
  Speaker 1: they were a good day with their daddy.
• 40:21
  Speaker 3: You know, you mentioned studying your butt off. I know
• 40:23
  Speaker 3: you're an r RCAT certified run coach. You worked your
• 40:26
  Speaker 3: butt off to get to a place where you felt
• 40:28
  Speaker 3: comfortable executing on the tread. What were those first few months?
• 40:32
  Speaker 3: I know we're four in here, but what were those
• 40:34
  Speaker 3: first couple of months really.
• 40:35
  Speaker 2: Like for you? Well?
• 40:36
  Speaker 1: I was in training for a while and I learned
• 40:40
  Speaker 1: under Extentry, who is my mentor. She's so smart, and
• 40:44
  Speaker 1: I would study her, and I would study Matt Whooper's
• 40:47
  Speaker 1: and I would take Justin's classes and really trying to
• 40:50
  Speaker 1: figure out how can I bring me to the tread
• 40:54
  Speaker 1: and not be like anybody else, but really learn this craft.
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: And it took a lot. It took a lot of
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: time that we do reviews, and I would be very
• 41:05
  Speaker 1: critical on myself. I would listen to all the feedback
• 41:09
  Speaker 1: and then come back two days later and do it.
• 41:11
  Speaker 2: And so I was studying a lot. I was.
• 41:14
  Speaker 1: I would be on my Peloton app on my phone,
• 41:17
  Speaker 1: watching classes, listening to ques, listening to how certain instructors
• 41:21
  Speaker 1: were different. So I would study a whole like of
• 41:25
  Speaker 1: a lot. I would take a lot of classes and
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: then I would study myself. So every time I teach,
• 41:32
  Speaker 1: even now I'll go back and watch the classes that
• 41:35
  Speaker 1: I taught and say, ooh, I wouldn't have said that,
• 41:37
  Speaker 1: or girl, if you say, let's go team one more time.
• 41:40
  Speaker 1: You know, so there's so many little things that you're
• 41:43
  Speaker 1: so critical of, but I'll go back and rewatch it.
• 41:46
  Speaker 1: So I'd still work in progress, and I still go
• 41:49
  Speaker 1: and watch a lot of my well, I'm doing this
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: three for thirty one now where I'm running and taking
• 41:54
  Speaker 1: a bunch of my teammates classes, and so it's been good.
• 41:57
  Speaker 2: It's a constant, constantly learning.
• 41:59
  Speaker 3: It's important to do that, right, especially if you ever
• 42:02
  Speaker 3: want to continue to excel at the thing that like
• 42:04
  Speaker 3: lights you on fire and that makes you really excited,
• 42:07
  Speaker 3: then the best way to do that is to, you know,
• 42:10
  Speaker 3: go back, review, learn from the things that you've done
• 42:14
  Speaker 3: so that you can then be better in the future.
• 42:16
  Speaker 3: It's like that's why professional athletes, and you know, I
• 42:19
  Speaker 3: would argue and say that you are one as well,
• 42:21
  Speaker 3: Like people that are pros, they go back and they
• 42:25
  Speaker 3: watch the game footage and it's because hey, if by
• 42:28
  Speaker 3: doing this we can take a learning so that we
• 42:31
  Speaker 3: can just do it a little bit differently going forward.
• 42:34
  Speaker 4: Please, I've spent.
• 42:36
  Speaker 3: God, I can't even articulate how many hours editing this
• 42:38
  Speaker 3: show at this point. But I would like to think
• 42:41
  Speaker 3: that the way that I speak now is very much
• 42:45
  Speaker 3: different and it was when I started, And now I'm
• 42:49
  Speaker 3: so cognizant of the ums and the likes and the pauses.
• 42:53
  Speaker 4: And oh my goodness, thank God for editing.
• 42:56
  Speaker 2: Man, Yeah, I hear you.
• 42:57
  Speaker 1: I'll even text yes, or I'll text and they like, hey,
• 43:01
  Speaker 1: I don't know about that class.
• 43:02
  Speaker 2: Can you mind taking it and giving feedback? You know,
• 43:04
  Speaker 2: I love feedback. You know.
• 43:06
  Speaker 1: I think we're constantly growing and learning, and you know,
• 43:09
  Speaker 1: I want to keep getting better and better at this
• 43:11
  Speaker 1: and I really look up to them, and so I
• 43:14
  Speaker 1: lean on my teammates a lot too.
• 43:16
  Speaker 3: How do you navigate unsolicited feedback?
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: You know, I take it all, you know, I listen
• 43:24
  Speaker 1: to it and I digest it. I try not to
• 43:27
  Speaker 1: take it personally. It's very easy to be like, oh,
• 43:30
  Speaker 1: can you believe.
• 43:31
  Speaker 2: She said this something?
• 43:32
  Speaker 1: But you know, I really try to not take it
• 43:35
  Speaker 1: personal and know that they're probably just trying to make
• 43:39
  Speaker 1: me better or giving me advice. And if I feel
• 43:42
  Speaker 1: like I'm in agreement with that, then I'll take it
• 43:45
  Speaker 1: to consideration. It depends on who's giving it also, so
• 43:50
  Speaker 1: being mindful of that.
• 43:51
  Speaker 2: You know, everybody loves to have an.
• 43:53
  Speaker 1: Opinion, so, you know, just making sure you don't take
• 43:57
  Speaker 1: it personal because very easy to do that.
• 44:01
  Speaker 2: You think it's like directed right at you.
• 44:04
  Speaker 1: But you know, I think throughout this whole process, it's
• 44:08
  Speaker 1: when I first started. So I told myself, embrace all
• 44:12
  Speaker 1: the feedback that you're going to get. This is a
• 44:14
  Speaker 1: learning opportunity for you. You've never done this before, be
• 44:19
  Speaker 1: open to it. And I'm still open to it today,
• 44:22
  Speaker 1: you know, really am I seek it out more than
• 44:26
  Speaker 1: I actually get it?
• 44:27
  Speaker 4: Well?
• 44:27
  Speaker 3: I think that's probably a highlight, especially, you know, the
• 44:30
  Speaker 3: peloton effect coming into this space and having an onslought
• 44:35
  Speaker 3: of new people that are watching so many of the
• 44:38
  Speaker 3: things that you weren't doing before. With all of these
• 44:41
  Speaker 3: people watching, how has that transition been like for you?
• 44:46
  Speaker 1: It's been interesting, you know, but honestly, it has been
• 44:50
  Speaker 1: so positive. And that's one of the most beautiful things
• 44:53
  Speaker 1: about this community is they are so supportive, They are
• 44:56
  Speaker 1: so loving. They like the messages that I get after class,
• 45:00
  Speaker 1: they have me in tears and then just.
• 45:03
  Speaker 2: Then be like, oh my gosh, you read it, Oh
• 45:04
  Speaker 2: my gosh, you responded. I'm like, yeah, this is amazing,
• 45:07
  Speaker 2: Like you just made my day. And so it goes
• 45:10
  Speaker 2: back and forth. You know, I feed off of their
• 45:12
  Speaker 2: energy and you know their love and support for me.
• 45:16
  Speaker 1: So it's been incredible. Is it a lot sometimes to
• 45:19
  Speaker 1: take in? Absolutely? But it's been really heartwarming and overwhelming
• 45:26
  Speaker 1: at times because you're like, man, they really like me.
• 45:30
  Speaker 4: But it's been good overwhelming at times.
• 45:32
  Speaker 3: Speaking of that, and I'm sure over the last four
• 45:34
  Speaker 3: months there have certainly been challenges that come.
• 45:37
  Speaker 4: Hand in hand with your new job.
• 45:38
  Speaker 3: But what would you say, perhaps a high has been
• 45:42
  Speaker 3: and then in turn a low.
• 45:45
  Speaker 1: Ooh the high for me, you know, I am a
• 45:50
  Speaker 1: big Beyonce fan, so when they asked me to teach
• 45:53
  Speaker 1: the Beyonce tread class, it was literally a dream come true.
• 45:57
  Speaker 2: So that was probably one of my highs.
• 46:00
  Speaker 4: Girls were probably like, mom.
• 46:01
  Speaker 2: They watched it, they had it on the TV. They
• 46:05
  Speaker 2: were so excited. They're like, she's really Beyonce. So that
• 46:10
  Speaker 2: was probably one of my highs.
• 46:12
  Speaker 1: I think it's trying not to get so down on
• 46:14
  Speaker 1: myself when I'm trying to balance it all. It's not easy.
• 46:19
  Speaker 1: It's not easy being a single mom. It's not easy
• 46:22
  Speaker 1: having a six and a five year old right now
• 46:24
  Speaker 1: in a very scary time.
• 46:26
  Speaker 2: It's not easy to.
• 46:28
  Speaker 1: Step out on the tread and bring light when some
• 46:32
  Speaker 1: days you just don't have it, you know, and balancing
• 46:37
  Speaker 1: all the classes and stuff. So it's a balancing act,
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: you know. It's really trying to figure out the sweet spot.
• 46:42
  Speaker 2: I don't know if you ever do, so, it's learning
• 46:44
  Speaker 2: to balance it all. Everybody asked me, how do you
• 46:46
  Speaker 2: do it all? Like I don't.
• 46:47
  Speaker 1: I have a team. It takes a village. You know,
• 46:51
  Speaker 1: my mom's in town right now.
• 46:52
  Speaker 2: You know, I lean on a lot of people for help,
• 46:55
  Speaker 2: for guidance, for support. Just Sims has been my rock
• 46:58
  Speaker 2: throughout this whole thing. I lean on her all the time.
• 47:01
  Speaker 1: I'm like, I need five minutes to vent and then
• 47:03
  Speaker 1: you could tell me I'm crazy, and I'll just.
• 47:05
  Speaker 2: Be like and then she's like, are you done yet?
• 47:09
  Speaker 2: And then we'll figure it out and then move on.
• 47:11
  Speaker 1: So, you know, I don't do it all by myself,
• 47:14
  Speaker 1: and it's been great having such a supportive team.
• 47:18
  Speaker 2: And it takes a village at home too.
• 47:19
  Speaker 4: I think it's really special.
• 47:21
  Speaker 3: What you said about it's okay to like not pretend
• 47:23
  Speaker 3: everything is like all roses all the time, because I think,
• 47:26
  Speaker 3: especially as someone that is at the helm of a community,
• 47:30
  Speaker 3: it's really important to see that dose of reality. Like
• 47:33
  Speaker 3: it's more valuable to show up and be like, you know,
• 47:37
  Speaker 3: I am going through it today. And if you are too,
• 47:40
  Speaker 3: like this is our opportunity to do X y Z,
• 47:42
  Speaker 3: then be like, I am so stellar all of.
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: The time, absolutely mad. I call myself the hot Mess
• 47:49
  Speaker 1: Express on the trip, and people resonate with that. They
• 47:52
  Speaker 1: were like, thank you for saying that. I will never
• 47:56
  Speaker 1: claim to be perfect. I always say it as the perfection.
• 47:59
  Speaker 2: Is wearing as hell. If we were all perfect, how
• 48:01
  Speaker 2: born life be?
• 48:02
  Speaker 4: Amen? Amen?
• 48:03
  Speaker 3: Okay, So at this point in the conversation, I love
• 48:07
  Speaker 3: to reflect a little bit about what it is that
• 48:10
  Speaker 3: people see when they go to your Instagram right now,
• 48:13
  Speaker 3: some of those your Instagram page, they see a woman
• 48:16
  Speaker 3: with almost thirty six thousand followers. You're a one Peloton instructor,
• 48:20
  Speaker 3: an r a certified run coach sort of right, so
• 48:23
  Speaker 3: cycling coach, a mother.
• 48:25
  Speaker 4: When you look in the mirror, what is it that
• 48:27
  Speaker 4: you see looking back at you?
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: I see a strong, black independent woman that is unapologetically her,
• 48:39
  Speaker 1: that's chasing after her dreams, that is an independent mother
• 48:44
  Speaker 1: that is.
• 48:48
  Speaker 2: Proud of herself. I really am.
• 48:51
  Speaker 1: It's beautiful, I really am. And it's also a work
• 48:55
  Speaker 1: in progress at the same time. You could be a
• 48:58
  Speaker 1: work in progress and be exactly who you want to
• 49:01
  Speaker 1: be at the same time.
• 49:02
  Speaker 2: And that's who I see in the mirror when I
• 49:06
  Speaker 2: look there.
• 49:07
  Speaker 3: Aside from fitness, what would you say your outlets have
• 49:09
  Speaker 3: been over the last couple of years?
• 49:13
  Speaker 1: Aside from fitness, what would my outlets have been? I
• 49:17
  Speaker 1: love my village. I have a mom gang of women
• 49:22
  Speaker 1: that we have those hard belly laughs and we'll have
• 49:25
  Speaker 1: a bottle of wine and.
• 49:27
  Speaker 2: We'll just be silly.
• 49:28
  Speaker 1: I think it's moments like that where you could just
• 49:31
  Speaker 1: unwind and take off and be who you are and
• 49:34
  Speaker 1: know that you.
• 49:35
  Speaker 2: Don't have to be, you know, politically correct at this moment.
• 49:39
  Speaker 2: You can just have a good time with your girls
• 49:41
  Speaker 2: and just relax.
• 49:44
  Speaker 1: And not move your body because now I like to sit,
• 49:47
  Speaker 1: you know, when I'm not working. It's sitting is good.
• 49:49
  Speaker 1: Sitting is good. So I think it's those moments. I
• 49:53
  Speaker 1: think it's it's spending real time with my kids. I'm
• 49:58
  Speaker 1: in awe of them every day and doing homework with them.
• 50:01
  Speaker 2: You know, some people say it's stressful. I find joy
• 50:04
  Speaker 2: in it. So I think it's those moments that you know,
• 50:06
  Speaker 2: I cherish as well.
• 50:08
  Speaker 3: What would you say the best piece of advice has
• 50:10
  Speaker 3: been for you over the last couple of years, going
• 50:13
  Speaker 3: through the thick of it with all of this transition
• 50:15
  Speaker 3: for you and your girls and your family.
• 50:18
  Speaker 1: It's being okay with fear facing fear head on, getting
• 50:22
  Speaker 1: comfortable and the uncomfortable. There's a lot of uncertainty right now,
• 50:28
  Speaker 1: but I really believe if you have something on your heart,
• 50:30
  Speaker 1: you've been called, created and destined to go after it.
• 50:33
  Speaker 2: And that has been how I've.
• 50:36
  Speaker 1: Moved over the last three years, and it's it's really
• 50:39
  Speaker 1: worked out in my favor.
• 50:40
  Speaker 2: Is it easy? No? But has it been worth it? Absolutely?
• 50:43
  Speaker 4: What excites you right now?
• 50:46
  Speaker 1: I love doing what I'm doing, Like it's really like
• 50:49
  Speaker 1: I'm excited to go get on the tread and run
• 50:51
  Speaker 1: for thirty minutes tonight, And that was never the case.
• 50:54
  Speaker 2: Let me tell you something. I used to not like
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  Speaker 2: to run at all. My girlfriends like, let's go out
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  Speaker 2: for a run today, I'm like let's not. But I
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  Speaker 2: really have begun to enjoy what I do. Like, I
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  Speaker 2: love wholeheartedly what I do.
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  Speaker 1: I love playlisting and running to music and inspiring and motivating,
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  Speaker 1: and then getting on live after and hearing all the
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  Speaker 1: feedback and chatting with the members. It just really feels
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  Speaker 1: and warms my heart. And that's how I know I'm
• 51:23
  Speaker 1: walking in purpose. You know I would do it for
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  Speaker 1: Listen Peleton, I'm not gonna do it for free, but
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  Speaker 1: I would.
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  Speaker 2: I was doing it for free before. I love. I
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  Speaker 2: genuinely love what I do. I was on Instagram Live
• 51:34
  Speaker 2: doing the thing for free. You know, that's when you
• 51:37
  Speaker 2: know you are walking in your purpose. And I really
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  Speaker 2: truly enjoy what I do every day.
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  Speaker 4: Winding it down now, my friend, Okay, right now.
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  Speaker 3: You have an opportunity, looking back on that really hard time,
• 51:50
  Speaker 3: back to back miscarriages. You have an opportunity right now
• 51:53
  Speaker 3: to offer that woman a piece of advice going through
• 51:58
  Speaker 3: those hurdle moments.
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  Speaker 4: What do you tell her?
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  Speaker 1: What do I tell her? I tell her to keep
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  Speaker 1: your eyes open. It may be very dark where you're at,
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  Speaker 1: but keep your eyes open, keep the faith, keep hope.
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  Speaker 2: Find something that brings you joy.
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  Speaker 1: It may be hard, it may be difficult, but find
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  Speaker 1: that one thing and hold on to it and cling
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  Speaker 1: to it.
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  Speaker 2: There's a lesson to be learned in this moment.
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  Speaker 1: So keep your eyes open and be aware of it,
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  Speaker 1: and once you find it, hold on to it.
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  Speaker 3: Beautiful Kirsten, thank you so much for hanging out with
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  Speaker 3: me today.
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  Speaker 2: Thank you for having me.
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  Speaker 4: How did the hurdlers follow along with you? How do
• 52:39
  Speaker 4: they keep up with you? Give me all your infoe.
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  Speaker 1: You can follow me on Instagram and I am Kirstin
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  Speaker 1: Ferguson and find me on the trip.
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  Speaker 4: On the tread.
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  Speaker 3: I'm over at Emily Body and at Hurdle Podcast. Another
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  Speaker 3: hurdle conquered. Catch you guys next time it was never
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  Speaker 3: my ny held