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Journey with Celeste Soudar From Tragedy to Triumph · Stuck No More Voices

• 0:00
  Speaker 1: Hey, it's Theresa Croft.
• 0:01
  Speaker 1: I am so glad you are here with us.
• 0:03
  Speaker 1: And yet another edition of Unleashing Kingdom Voices.
• 0:07
  Speaker 1: Grab your seats, get a cup of coffee.
• 0:11
  Speaker 1: This is gonna be fun, I guarantee it.
• 0:13
  Speaker 1: My guest is the amazing Celeste Soudar.
• 0:16
  Speaker 1: She's the founder of the Soul Sister Project.
• 0:19
  Speaker 1: You gotta go check that on Facebook.
• 0:21
  Speaker 1: At least make a note of it or I'll put in the show notes.
• 0:24
  Speaker 1: She shares her journey from a personal trials to a faith led transformation.
• 0:30
  Speaker 1: Is this just what I love?
• 0:31
  Speaker 1: She's through her willingness to show up with transparency and authenticity and everything she does through her mentorship in the Soul Sister Project, she encourages women to embrace their unique past with courage and faith.
• 0:47
  Speaker 1: And she's not afraid to say you need to learn to simplify with AI, so will you help me?
• 0:54
  Speaker 1: Please give a warm welcome, celeste Girl.
• 0:58
  Speaker 1: Hi, you talk my language, girl.
• 1:02
  Speaker 2: Yes, absolutely, I know.
• 1:05
  Speaker 1: Celeste and I met actually through an email that someone else wrote.
• 1:08
  Speaker 1: We're both in a mastermind and Sarah Reed, who's just so dear to me.
• 1:14
  Speaker 1: She's like hey, I think you need to connect with Celeste and I think Celeste got the same email.
• 1:20
  Speaker 1: So we met last week and I'm like, girl, we need to talk, we need to share our talk.
• 1:27
  Speaker 1: So we're having coffee, we invite you to join us.
• 1:30
  Speaker 2: I am absolutely having coffee, yes, well.
• 1:32
  Speaker 1: I gotta say mine is I gotta.
• 1:35
  Speaker 1: I'm sorry I'm doing smoothie right now.
• 1:37
  Speaker 1: I hate you, so you know.
• 1:41
  Speaker 1: I think you embody the statement that you empower women to dream big, to push back limitations and be willing to grow and let the transparency of your growth shine.
• 1:54
  Speaker 1: So you are the embodiment to me of someone who is learning to grow and I think every day you speak to the person you once were.
• 2:04
  Speaker 1: So give us a little background, give us a little journey of what you're doing.
• 2:09
  Speaker 2: Well, I mean, it's a pretty long journey, but I can kind of sum it up.
• 2:12
  Speaker 2: So I was a really confused person, honestly, when it came to like who God is, who God says he is, I was very confused.
• 2:20
  Speaker 2: I actually talked about it on my podcast yesterday.
• 2:22
  Speaker 2: So my podcast, oh wow, yeah, it's just really kind of a live stream of I go live every morning inside a group and I stream it and I collect the audio when I put it on a podcast.
• 2:33
  Speaker 2: But Nice, and I'm hoping one of these days I can expand.
• 2:38
  Speaker 2: But so I grew up in the 1990s in West Texas very, very conservative area with a very, very homosexual father who was very he was very active in that community, and so I grew up in that home.
• 2:56
  Speaker 2: And then I had another home that was very strict as far as, like you know, hydro crazy act like a lady, and I don't fault either of my parents for the way they raised me.
• 3:10
  Speaker 2: We did the best they could with what they had and so.
• 3:13
  Speaker 2: But I grew up in a time that was very confusing and so my dad was teaching me love and acceptance for the same thing, and if you're in sin and you find identity in that, then that is like celebrated, and then the other one is like your identity is in a box right and so, and so I just kind of grew up and I was very confused and it wasn't until 35, I was 35 years old, did we?
• 3:38
  Speaker 2: There you are.
• 3:39
  Speaker 2: I was like where did she go.
• 3:44
  Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I was fixing my camera off.
• 3:47
  Speaker 1: You're good, you're good.
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  Speaker 1: So I was 35 years old.
• 3:51
  Speaker 2: And I experienced, my family experienced this really traumatic weekend where my oldest daughter was kidnapped by her biological father and at the time, see, god had been like pursuing us.
• 4:02
  Speaker 2: We'd been pursuing the Lord too, but he had been really pursuing us for a number of years, obviously at this time, and he had started poking at me and my husband's chest like start praying for your enemies.
• 4:14
  Speaker 2: That was how it started, like the Holy Spirit was like start praying for your enemies, that's right, and yeah.
• 4:19
  Speaker 2: And so in January, and so we started lifting my ex-husband up and we didn't know how to pray.
• 4:25
  Speaker 2: It was just like I lift him up and it wasn't in Jesus' name or anything, it was just the Holy Spirit was prompting us.
• 4:31
  Speaker 2: And that's what we did.
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  Speaker 2: And by March she had been kidnapped, and it was for a weekend.
• 4:35
  Speaker 2: She was returned.
• 4:36
  Speaker 2: There was just a.
• 4:37
  Speaker 2: You know, there was a lot of trauma, that 14 years of it of just walking through this, and so, anyways, that's how Jesus got me.
• 4:46
  Speaker 2: So I my husband fully surrendered when my daughter was returned.
• 4:52
  Speaker 2: It took me two weeks.
• 4:54
  Speaker 2: The Lord gave me this extreme vision.
• 4:56
  Speaker 2: I woke up.
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  Speaker 2: I was angry, but I woke up Sunday morning.
• 5:00
  Speaker 2: It was Easter Sunday and I woke up that morning and I had just had a vision of I was sitting on Grace's grave.
• 5:07
  Speaker 2: So my daughter's name is Grace.
• 5:09
  Speaker 2: I was sitting on Grace's grave and it had been exactly two weeks so she had passed away.
• 5:14
  Speaker 2: And because I kept on asking like why, you know, when I started praying I had this like whole picture in my mind that they were gonna like kumbaya, we're all gonna co-parent together and this is gonna be beautiful.
• 5:29
  Speaker 2: And but see, god knows our hearts, right.
• 5:32
  Speaker 2: And so it wasn't that he had the biological father do that, but he had an inkling that's what would happen when fear was presented to a situation right.
• 5:44
  Speaker 2: And so he prepared us by softening our hearts so that it would retaliate.
• 5:50
  Speaker 2: And so it took two weeks.
• 5:53
  Speaker 2: I woke up from that vision and in those two weeks of anger, with her being returned and then me having that vision, the Lord had been revealing his character to me, and it was through Bible stories that I learned as a child, so through YouTube university.
• 6:14
  Speaker 2: And one of the stories so we talked about this yesterday in my podcast is that one of the stories with Sodom and Gomorrah and Sodom and Gomorrah was used against my dad right.
• 6:24
  Speaker 2: So the character of God was presented in a way that it was judgemental, wrathful, and I'm not saying that God is not a just judge.
• 6:35
  Speaker 1: See.
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  Speaker 2: God hates sin right, but he doesn't hate the individual.
• 6:39
  Speaker 2: So my dad was living in sin.
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  Speaker 2: He was finding identity in that.
• 6:43
  Speaker 2: What that tells me, now that I walked with the Lord and I have a heart for this is that my dad had identity issues.
• 6:52
  Speaker 2: See what if God's character of being merciful had been presented to my father in a way, without your dam to hell because you've made these decisions?
• 7:05
  Speaker 2: You know what I mean.
• 7:06
  Speaker 2: So, anyways, we talked about Sodom and Gomorrah yesterday, but this is how the Lord got me Was that there was actual mercy in that story?
• 7:14
  Speaker 2: There wasn't.
• 7:15
  Speaker 2: It was not from a angry, wrathful fire, yes, fire breathing dragon, god, he, it was a very.
• 7:25
  Speaker 2: It was very heartbreaking, actually, when you read it from the lens of mercy.
• 7:30
  Speaker 2: Yeah, that story, yeah, and so, anyways, you know I am very transparent and I'm very authentic when it comes to speaking about my faith, because I I was so confused for so long.
• 7:45
  Speaker 2: And so, anyways, I hope that helps.
• 7:48
  Speaker 2: That kind of gives you.
• 7:48
  Speaker 1: No, no, that speaks so much hope to someone listening right now.
• 7:52
  Speaker 1: Write down to you.
• 7:53
  Speaker 1: Know you could just gloss over about your father's background, but I think people need to hear these stories and you know, I think you agree with me.
• 8:03
  Speaker 1: Fire and judgment on this issue is not, it's gonna make them run.
• 8:09
  Speaker 1: How can we love them and love them and love them into the kingdom?
• 8:15
  Speaker 1: You know, it says in Romans two his kindness leads us to repentance, don't you think Jesus, don't you think God wants us to be?
• 8:21
  Speaker 1: Jesus with skin on?
• 8:23
  Speaker 1: It doesn't mean we, like you know, condone and oh, hey, here, bring on.
• 8:26
  Speaker 1: Oh, you know, but it's a way to love them, yeah, yeah, because you know, we all have confusion.
• 8:34
  Speaker 1: We've all had times where, and even in our past, something makes us trigger to that.
• 8:39
  Speaker 1: So I have great mercy and great love for that particular topic and that those people in more ways than one, and I'll leave that to the side.
• 8:48
  Speaker 1: But so there was a journey of you.
• 8:51
  Speaker 1: Really, it's a journey of transformation.
• 8:55
  Speaker 1: How did the Holy Spirit play in that role of really being?
• 9:00
  Speaker 1: You know that, you know without saying, you know that you know that the Holy Spirit was just guiding you through this.
• 9:08
  Speaker 2: You know what?
• 9:08
  Speaker 2: This last season I just walked through is when I really, truly, I remember.
• 9:14
  Speaker 2: I remember when I was baptized in the Holy Spirit, and it was 2020.
• 9:18
  Speaker 2: Like you know, I came to the Lord and I was fully, like my eyes were open, I took my first breath, I could see in color.
• 9:26
  Speaker 2: The first time I was like, oh my gosh, jesus is real.
• 9:29
  Speaker 2: And then I'm like yeah, it's about what happens sometimes.
• 9:31
  Speaker 2: Yeah, when I was 35 and I spent two weeks of anger and God proved that Jesus was real right and so, after learning about Solomon and Gamor and stuff like that and it was like, oh well, that was like, well, 2020 was when I was baptized in the Holy Spirit.
• 9:49
  Speaker 2: I didn't even know that the Holy Spirit, like I had these.
• 9:52
  Speaker 2: I did not know really what the whole like.
• 9:55
  Speaker 2: I didn't understand.
• 9:56
  Speaker 2: I just didn't understand.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't care to understand.
• 9:58
  Speaker 2: But in 2020 I was baptized in the Holy Spirit.
• 10:00
  Speaker 2: Well, this last year, in 2023, I lost my mind, like literally and I know that we talk about.
• 10:06
  Speaker 2: We have this sound mind, we have the mind of Christ and that double-minded and all these things.
• 10:12
  Speaker 2: Well, I didn't realize, right.
• 10:14
  Speaker 2: I didn't realize until I realized, see, the Holy Spirit has a ministry all on his own, Thank you, and he had been working and mending my soul and my spirit for years, at this point in 2023, but, see, I had white-knuckled my sanity Okay, Trying to keep it intact my entire life because I judged my father for his bipolar tendencies, right.
• 10:39
  Speaker 2: So it was this.
• 10:40
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I had really judged him for right so and so.
• 10:47
  Speaker 2: And judgment is an open door.
• 10:48
  Speaker 2: If you're not letting the Holy Spirit in to things that you already think you have a hold of, a grasp of, there's a good chance that you're gonna lose the grasp of that eventually, because God wants to heal you and all those things he really does.
• 11:02
  Speaker 2: And it wasn't like he was prying it out of my hands, but it happened in a way, because, physiologically, my sanity left the building when I had this hormonal issue, Okay.
• 11:13
  Speaker 2: And so the Holy Spirit came in and just loved on me.
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  Speaker 2: And it wasn't just that he came in and loved on me in this walking this out this last season, I had people that I thought loved me unconditionally.
• 11:31
  Speaker 2: I think I put them in a position of like Jesus in my life.
• 11:34
  Speaker 2: You know what I mean.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, okay, and they'll get knocked off the pedestal real quick.
• 11:38
  Speaker 2: Well they left the building like they were gone too, and so all it was left was the Holy Spirit, and so I was able to really just lean on him and I was able to really lean in right With the Holy Spirit.
• 11:54
  Speaker 2: And in that season is when I think I first, I think I felt the love of God for the first time.
• 12:02
  Speaker 2: Wow, and it was this freedom there wasn't.
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  Speaker 2: It wasn't a religious.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't have to put myself in a religious box.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't have to become sane anymore.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't have to be white knuckling, you know hydro-crazy, act like a lady.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't have to do it anymore.
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  Speaker 2: I was so good.
• 12:19
  Speaker 2: And I was fully loved and known in that moment, and that that is when Holy Spirit made himself well, that is when the wool was removed from my eyes and I was able to see the Holy Spirit for who he is, and he's so merciful, so good, and the ministry of the Holy Spirit is so beautiful, yeah.
• 12:37
  Speaker 1: I just felt like I needed to ask it in that angle.
• 12:40
  Speaker 1: And you know, I am so excited that you talk every day to women on these issues.
• 12:46
  Speaker 1: I mean, if I could have a bunch of Celest Soutters every podcast.
• 12:50
  Speaker 1: I'm serious because we're being real.
• 12:52
  Speaker 1: Yeah, when you said there's no judgment, I think that's really good and that's a word for me.
• 13:00
  Speaker 1: I had 26 years of marriage and my husband eventually died of cancer and unfortunately, I can say or write a book I'm glad my husband died, because it was 26 years of narcissistic abuse and sometimes you get so wound up that you don't realize that's it like.
• 13:19
  Speaker 1: Whether it's a gay issue or a narcissistic sin is sin and it's my story, it's not.
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  Speaker 1: I mean, he has a story, but I think that, with you being that transparent, I think there's a way.
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  Speaker 1: I'm asking you, there's a way for us to talk.
• 13:33
  Speaker 1: Or we're not pushing judgment, okay, we're taking responsibility, but at the same time, we're speaking on subjects that get pushed under the bush, and my heart is truly this.
• 13:45
  Speaker 1: Trauma can make us voiceless and you're a good example voiceless from trauma.
• 13:51
  Speaker 1: But when someone really finds their voice from the Holy Spirit in their identity, they're able to experience the transformation that you represent transformation of finding your voice and then speaking to the person you once were.
• 14:08
  Speaker 1: So how daily are you speaking on your podcast, on your page, your group, to the person you once were?
• 14:16
  Speaker 1: What are some of those elements?
• 14:17
  Speaker 1: Like minds surviving narcissism and then walking the freedom and the healing out.
• 14:23
  Speaker 1: If I speak from a wound, no one's going to get in good at that.
• 14:27
  Speaker 1: But if I let it heal and it hasn't even been two years, but there's a lot of scars, good therapy is very good.
• 14:35
  Speaker 1: Neuropsychotherapy, thank you.
• 14:36
  Speaker 1: I mean, I've got the best.
• 14:38
  Speaker 1: It's not a nested counseling, I'm going off on a tangent.
• 14:42
  Speaker 1: It's neuropsych.
• 14:43
  Speaker 1: Let's rewiring your brain with a scientific way.
• 14:47
  Speaker 1: If you've heard of Dr Caroline Leaf, you know what I'm talking about.
• 14:50
  Speaker 1: But anyway, speaking to the person once you were, is that just a daily event?
• 14:57
  Speaker 2: You know what I feel, that it's more, yes, it's definitely daily.
• 15:02
  Speaker 2: I truly believe that it is Holy Spirit.
• 15:07
  Speaker 2: Honestly, I completely, when I talk about Holy Spirit, I believe that I believe that I believe because, well, I believe in the Bible period, but I believe in the word that says that the Holy Spirit will give you the words Right.
• 15:25
  Speaker 2: So if you're put in position and it's talking about this, is Paul being in positions to speak to kings and stuff like that, if we look through all a lot of the Bible stories, you know Daniel, joseph, you know these people that were unlikely to be in a throne room, like in a physical throne room, talking to someone.
• 15:47
  Speaker 2: They were given the word of knowledge, they were given the understanding and then they were also given the courage to do it.
• 15:56
  Speaker 2: So, I don't know, I gave God my yes in January.
• 16:02
  Speaker 2: Right, it's crazy that it's only February, but I feel like a different person.
• 16:06
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I gave my God my yes to just go live and it's just kind of evolved, it's bloomed from there and it wasn't anything that I forced, and so I'm like it's all Holy Spirit.
• 16:18
  Speaker 2: So, and two, I'm doing it led by a devotional and I'm not.
• 16:23
  Speaker 2: This is the devotional.
• 16:24
  Speaker 1: Let me see what oh name?
• 16:25
  Speaker 2: 100 A's a believing bigger Awesome by Marshall.
• 16:28
  Speaker 2: You're getting some, you're getting some, I am getting.
• 16:32
  Speaker 2: This is a guide.
• 16:33
  Speaker 2: I'm not going to say that, we just use it as a guide, right?
• 16:38
  Speaker 2: And when I gave him my yes and I don't even go ahead a day this is tomorrow and I'll open this up at 6 AM tomorrow morning and that's when God will give me the word so I just gave him my yes and I trusted him in that and that makes all the difference, right.
• 16:57
  Speaker 1: I love that.
• 16:57
  Speaker 1: So you said yes, I love that.
• 17:00
  Speaker 1: And I love that you said at 6 AM, so you're speaking really from the overflow when that mic turns on, correct?
• 17:07
  Speaker 2: Yes, yes, yes, I'm giving him my that hour before I turn on the camera.
• 17:13
  Speaker 1: Oh, you know, the closest thing that comes to that for me when I hear you and I've seen you, you know, every day.
• 17:20
  Speaker 1: Back in 2012, I had retired from radio and my husband sat me down at the table the one thing that he did, and I was kind of nice.
• 17:29
  Speaker 1: But he says what's your gifts?
• 17:30
  Speaker 1: What are your gifts?
• 17:31
  Speaker 1: I said I don't know.
• 17:32
  Speaker 1: I mean, you know, I've retired from radio 15 and a half years.
• 17:35
  Speaker 1: That was almost my identity.
• 17:37
  Speaker 1: And he said your gift is prayer.
• 17:40
  Speaker 1: So now, 2012, he says you need to pray online.
• 17:43
  Speaker 1: 2012, there was no Facebook Live, there was no Instagram, and my little daughter would get up with me at 6 AM and we'd pray.
• 17:52
  Speaker 1: There was a platform called Spreecast.
• 17:55
  Speaker 1: All you saw was their thumbnail, but they could talk, and we did that for 2012, into 2014.
• 18:03
  Speaker 1: 2020 came around and I said God, do I need to do that again?
• 18:07
  Speaker 1: He said, no, no, you've dug the ground.
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: No, I don't want you to do that.
• 18:13
  Speaker 1: So just recently, I got challenged because also because I used to say that I see this phrase.
• 18:18
  Speaker 1: Maybe I'm missing it, but I used to see this phrase on social media.
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: How can we pray for you, celeste?
• 18:25
  Speaker 1: I remember two, three, four years ago.
• 18:27
  Speaker 1: Seeing that, I don't see that anymore.
• 18:29
  Speaker 1: So the closest thing I do to what you're doing is Monday through Friday.
• 18:34
  Speaker 1: I go on and pray, I pray on my group or my profile, and I go over to Instagram and do you know the platform that is the most engaged?
• 18:44
  Speaker 1: It's Instagram.
• 18:45
  Speaker 1: Wow.
• 18:46
  Speaker 1: And I'll just all I'll say is you know how?
• 18:49
  Speaker 1: We have the same system.
• 18:50
  Speaker 1: I'll just you know I'll have to be diagonal and I'll just say, hey, how can I pray for you?
• 18:53
  Speaker 1: This morning it blew up.
• 18:56
  Speaker 1: I mean, I have to go to this meeting, please pray for my daughter.
• 18:59
  Speaker 1: And I'm just like God, thank you.
• 19:02
  Speaker 1: And you know what I really do.
• 19:03
  Speaker 1: It like you.
• 19:04
  Speaker 1: Yes, I pray, but I'm like I'll start sharing something from the overflow.
• 19:10
  Speaker 1: I'm pointing over there because that's where my prayer chair is.
• 19:12
  Speaker 2: Yes.
• 19:13
  Speaker 1: To the overflow, and then I start talking to and then I'll say, okay, we're going to pray, so I am locking arms with you, sister.
• 19:22
  Speaker 1: Yes, but listen, guys, you got to say yes, but you got to know the Holy Spirit asked you to do that.
• 19:29
  Speaker 1: See, I asked him in 2020, he said no.
• 19:32
  Speaker 1: Well, I was in the midst of really that my marriage was really getting so.
• 19:36
  Speaker 1: You know, control is an ugly thing.
• 19:38
  Speaker 1: So, even though in 2012, he was encouraging me, you know psychos and stuff, but anyway, that's, that's my story for another time.
• 19:46
  Speaker 1: But I'm that's when I got so thrilled when I saw you every day.
• 19:51
  Speaker 1: But see, guys, listen, do you hear what she's doing?
• 19:54
  Speaker 1: It's from the overflow.
• 19:56
  Speaker 1: When I pray, it's from the overflow, because if we try to do it ourselves, what happens?
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: We strive, we freak out, we feel stuck.
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: I really believe it's really easy to quit too, and it's easy to quit.
• 20:09
  Speaker 1: I'll quit.
• 20:10
  Speaker 1: When God tells me to quit, no problem.
• 20:12
  Speaker 1: But this is what I want to ask you.
• 20:14
  Speaker 1: So, and I think someone will benefit, so you know, okay, our calling is where children of God love by him, walking in the Holy Spirit, but our mission comes from that calling.
• 20:25
  Speaker 1: So can you explain how that mission is your power source every day to show up.
• 20:31
  Speaker 1: How does that call, knowing who you are in Christ, become the power force for you to speak every day?
• 20:39
  Speaker 2: Well, you know, today would have been a really good day, or an easy day for me if I was actually relying on myself to be like not going live today, not going live today and even like this right here too.
• 20:52
  Speaker 2: It was like I really do?
• 20:56
  Speaker 2: I have anything to talk about?
• 20:58
  Speaker 2: No, I don't, but Holy Spirit has something to say, you know, because it's been a rough day, girl.
• 21:04
  Speaker 2: It has been a rough day, but we talked about.
• 21:07
  Speaker 2: This is what we talked about.
• 21:09
  Speaker 1: Oh, that is so good.
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: Our time this morning and our devotional.
• 21:14
  Speaker 2: It comes from Philippians three and it's talking about running the race, and and it says OK.
• 21:21
  Speaker 2: So this is the passion translation.
• 21:24
  Speaker 1: And this is talking.
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: Yes, oh, my God.
• 21:26
  Speaker 2: You tell you some stories there.
• 21:27
  Speaker 2: I love them.
• 21:29
  Speaker 2: I know I well.
• 21:30
  Speaker 2: When you were talking about that, I wanted to ask you about that.
• 21:32
  Speaker 2: Let me read this and then I really do want to know a little bit about your passion translation.
• 21:36
  Speaker 2: Okay, moment, I can tell you, okay, awesome.
• 21:40
  Speaker 2: So in the passion translation in Philippians three, starting at 12, it says and this is Paul talking I admit that I haven't yet acquired the absolute fullness that I'm pursuing, but I run with passion into his abundance so that I may reach the purpose that Jesus Christ has called me to fulfill and wants me to discover.
• 21:58
  Speaker 2: So you know, he wants an adventure with us.
• 22:00
  Speaker 2: He doesn't want to keep us stuck.
• 22:02
  Speaker 2: He.
• 22:02
  Speaker 2: It's an adventure, like when you give God your yes.
• 22:05
  Speaker 2: Don't think it's going to be boring, it's not.
• 22:07
  Speaker 2: Hey, man, thank you for saying that, it's not.
• 22:10
  Speaker 2: You know, that's a good one, an amazing adventure, right here, sitting in this chair, day in, day out, and we're on day 45 of that.
• 22:17
  Speaker 2: I'm not even halfway there and I'm like, yes, god, give me more Right, and so, and then it goes on to say I don't depend on my own strength, Jesus.
• 22:27
  Speaker 2: I don't depend on my own strength to accomplish this.
• 22:30
  Speaker 2: However, I do have one compelling focus I forget all of the past as I fast in my heart to the future instead he's talking about.
• 22:39
  Speaker 2: He forgets all the past hurts and things like that.
• 22:42
  Speaker 2: And that he keeps his eyes on Jesus and that's all he does, and so that's that's what.
• 22:48
  Speaker 2: Like, I'm getting up at 5 am, I'm putting my makeup on, I'm doing my hair, you know, and I'm like what am I doing this for?
• 22:55
  Speaker 2: Well, I'm keeping my eyes on Jesus.
• 22:56
  Speaker 2: It has nothing to do with the camera it has nothing to do with this group.
• 23:00
  Speaker 2: It doesn't have anything to do with the women.
• 23:02
  Speaker 2: Well, it does obviously have something to do with the women I'm speaking to, but it's not me doing this, right.
• 23:09
  Speaker 1: I'm getting you totally.
• 23:11
  Speaker 1: I mean I know what you're saying.
• 23:12
  Speaker 1: I'm looking up something.
• 23:15
  Speaker 1: I keep talking.
• 23:16
  Speaker 1: I don't mean to be disrespectful and look down.
• 23:18
  Speaker 2: You're good, you're good.
• 23:20
  Speaker 1: So that is so freaking good, yeah.
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: So you know what your yes might be.
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: And my I mean yes is coming different ways.
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: Your yes might be checking yourself into a rehab center.
• 23:32
  Speaker 1: Your yes might mean I got to stop drinking.
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: I had to stop drinking.
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: I like to be here once in a while, but God was saying that was messing with my, the neuroplasticity of my brain.
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: He said that before I even met my friend as a neuropsychal coach.
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: So your yes can be embodied, but this is what I like to think.
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: When you say yes, all of the angels in heaven stand at a large ready to you.
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: Know, habakkuk, they talk about right division down and they will.
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: They are the angels who will work on your behalf.
• 24:03
  Speaker 1: This isn't about angels, but it either.
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: They mentioned angels in the Bible.
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: So let's be real.
• 24:09
  Speaker 2: Yeah, it's all on Pempercy.
• 24:12
  Speaker 1: Your yes can come with so many freaking benefits.
• 24:15
  Speaker 1: I mean, you said yes.
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: Did you ever think?
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: Did you ever think that you go every day, live and have to you know, have to put your makeup on?
• 24:25
  Speaker 1: I had that I'm having a bad hair day, but I decided in 2009, I would not let my bad hair day keep me from doing what I got to do.
• 24:33
  Speaker 1: But that's an effort.
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: But did you ever think?
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: How did?
• 24:37
  Speaker 1: Did you ever think okay, or did you just have such audacious faith that you're like I'm doing this?
• 24:44
  Speaker 2: No, no, I have relied on my.
• 24:46
  Speaker 2: I've relied on my own understanding and my own strength, my entire life.
• 24:50
  Speaker 2: And I'm telling you when I lost my mind and I regained it, jesus, thank you.
• 24:56
  Speaker 2: When I regained it, it was like I have the mind of Christ.
• 25:00
  Speaker 2: I can do anything that he.
• 25:02
  Speaker 2: He puts in front of me, and it's not me that that has to focus, it is him, like.
• 25:09
  Speaker 2: All I have to do is focus on him and he will give me the streak.
• 25:13
  Speaker 2: And and there's been, there's been mornings I'm like you know, rolling out of bed and I'm thinking I don't have the strength, and then I hit that live button and he shows up.
• 25:23
  Speaker 1: Yeah, that's every single time.
• 25:25
  Speaker 1: There's something about that.
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: You know, even in the midst of the cacophony of that marriage, I think we you and me have something in common.
• 25:33
  Speaker 1: It's in our DNA and I remember times it was like he, I would go lives if I said okay, if I'd be so blunt, and he'd all of a sudden he'd make all this noise.
• 25:43
  Speaker 1: He'd come in and out of the side door.
• 25:45
  Speaker 1: But you know what, celeste, I looked my eye in that camera and I stayed focused and it seemed like, when the camera went on, I was, I had a relationship with God, y'all, but it seemed like when the camera came on, I didn't need notes.
• 25:58
  Speaker 1: It was like almost like, okay, flow through me because I've got something to say, even though I'm in the midst of my hell.
• 26:03
  Speaker 1: So, even though you're in the midst of your hell, you can still speak if God calls you to.
• 26:07
  Speaker 1: Your yes can help you start a new business.
• 26:10
  Speaker 1: Your yes can mean hey, I'm going to learn this AI, because one hour of working on AI is 10 hours.
• 26:15
  Speaker 1: I want to save some time.
• 26:17
  Speaker 1: I mean we could probably do a whole episode on our intelligence.
• 26:22
  Speaker 2: AI all day.
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: I use it.
• 26:24
  Speaker 1: I used it to do the title, I used it to do the description, gave it a few, and now I've trained AI to speak, like myself.
• 26:31
  Speaker 1: But anyway, I'm getting off track.
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: So I want to read this.
• 26:34
  Speaker 1: This is really not where we're not flowing with the podcast method, but we're talking on yes.
• 26:42
  Speaker 1: And so back in the day, when I was really struggling, I was writing these words.
• 26:50
  Speaker 1: I used to work for the passion translation and I was writing these words before the passion translation.
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: I was their social media marker.
• 26:57
  Speaker 1: This is when no one heard of it.
• 26:58
  Speaker 1: But as I worked and made them a social media influencer, I let go of my own words of the the vine dresser.
• 27:05
  Speaker 1: Well, nothing like a crash and burn.
• 27:08
  Speaker 1: I mean, that was my heart and I, but I was losing my voice because I was being the voice of the passion translation and forgetting the voice of Teresa.
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: So I'm setting this up.
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: So during that crash, I went back to writing these words and they're from the angle of.
• 27:24
  Speaker 1: This is okay if I do this.
• 27:25
  Speaker 1: They're from the angle of the vine dresser.
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: You know the vine dresser, john 15.
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: Jesus is the vine, but the vine dresser is like this he goes up and down the rose.
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: Oh, he sees a vine off the ground and it's in the mud and it's been stomped on.
• 27:41
  Speaker 1: The vine dresser picks it up, showers it he is faithful to cleanse us, forgive all our sins and then he puts it back on the trellis in the face of the sun.
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: So that's the angle, and this is the one vine dresser that I wrote.
• 27:56
  Speaker 1: That God wrote through me, because often, celeste, these were God's words to me and I started to share just a few and then then you obey God and you make them into a devotional and get them on on Amazon.
• 28:09
  Speaker 1: That's the best.
• 28:10
  Speaker 1: I digress, so this is for someone right in the middle of the podcast.
• 28:13
  Speaker 1: I wouldn't normally do this, but I think, celeste, god is saying yes to some women and they don't realize.
• 28:20
  Speaker 1: You mean I can be a woman on to mirror.
• 28:22
  Speaker 1: You mean I can make money from home.
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: Do you mean I can follow my desires?
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: Yes, let's listen.
• 28:28
  Speaker 1: Listen to the vine dresser.
• 28:30
  Speaker 1: I hear your yes, child.
• 28:33
  Speaker 1: I see your heart that says you are sick and tired of being sick and tired.
• 28:38
  Speaker 1: Just as I hold the clouds in their place in the sky, so I hold your worn heart.
• 28:45
  Speaker 1: It's not too heavy for me.
• 28:48
  Speaker 1: You can do this.
• 28:49
  Speaker 1: You can take that step to forget the hunting past or even the painful mishap that happened just days ago.
• 28:58
  Speaker 1: Your yes to me listen to this y'all.
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: This is for you.
• 29:01
  Speaker 1: Your yes to me activates grace, activates grace, breakthrough and favor.
• 29:07
  Speaker 1: It's not a doing thing but a being thing.
• 29:12
  Speaker 1: Your yes to me says you really know who you are, in me, in your identity, in the vine.
• 29:17
  Speaker 1: So I really do hear your trembling voice say yes.
• 29:21
  Speaker 1: It may feel like a shallow echo in your soul, but it is a thundering cloud clapping roar in heaven.
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: Your yes makes my angel stand at attention to move and minister on your behalf.
• 29:35
  Speaker 1: Your yes tears the sunder the bars of a prison you may be in, whether it's the real or a prison of your own making.
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: Your yes is as sweet as a grape on the vine to me as I drink the wine of your devotion.
• 29:52
  Speaker 1: So say it again, child.
• 29:55
  Speaker 1: The vine dresser is ending it.
• 29:56
  Speaker 1: Now Say yes to me and watch your yes, every yes, turn into breakthrough of my bountiful flavor, a bundle of provision and a peaceful entrance in deeper intimacy with me.
• 30:09
  Speaker 1: Your yes aligns my purpose for you.
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: It's all meant for you, your destiny by design in the vine and, celeste, I think you represent that better than anything.
• 30:21
  Speaker 1: You have said yes in the midst of going forward.
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: So, as you listen to Celeste and a lot of people on your page or your group is listening this is a good voice to align yourself with, because she's not coming and having all the answers, but she gets the answers when she turns the button on.
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: I think that's.
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: I believe that it's not for everyone, but when you turn that button on, I'm sure your things flow through and you're like I.
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: Sometimes I go, wow, where'd that come from?
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: That was good in my mind.
• 30:52
  Speaker 2: I know Sometimes I'll like relisten and I'm like I don't remember saying that.
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: I love that.
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: You know, when I was praying I had to pray on the air at the radio station and I would do sound checks to make sure you know, just checking your voice, and I'd listen to some prayer times that I had and I'm like who is that praying?
• 31:11
  Speaker 1: Wow, it was me.
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: But wow, and I knew it was the Holy Spirit.
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: Don't get me wrong.
• 31:16
  Speaker 1: If we try to step up to this beautiful mic without our Holy Spirit reliance, then we're nothing.
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: So let me talk about that.
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: What did you like to do?
• 31:28
  Speaker 1: I'm going to ask you this candidly what did you like to do as a child?
• 31:32
  Speaker 1: To play?
• 31:35
  Speaker 2: Well, I played stage.
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: I could run around my room.
• 31:41
  Speaker 1: I'd run around my room.
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: Go ahead Talk to me.
• 31:45
  Speaker 2: I played stage, so I grew up in the 90s and so the new kids on the block were a huge thing, right, and I had the stage, and so my Barbies were on stages all the time.
• 31:55
  Speaker 2: So I played stage and I and that's the in 2020 is when God was told me he gave me the words.
• 32:02
  Speaker 2: I was sitting in a hobby lobby parking lot, crying because I was like I don't know what we're going to do financially, and it was January 2020.
• 32:10
  Speaker 2: And God said public speaking.
• 32:11
  Speaker 2: So I said, oh, okay, well, I'll take that and run with it.
• 32:13
  Speaker 2: I'm going to start a blog.
• 32:15
  Speaker 1: That did not last very long, because that was not his Well, the blog in 2022 weren't the power that they were back in 2019, 15.
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: So yeah.
• 32:24
  Speaker 2: So I started a blog and I was like that's not it.
• 32:26
  Speaker 2: And then I went into network marketing again and I started going live during the you know, the pandemic and things like that, and I I blew.
• 32:34
  Speaker 2: I didn't blow up, god did.
• 32:36
  Speaker 2: This business went from zero in March to top of the company, top of the company in the US market this September, and you know my team was blowing up and and the social project was actually born out of that.
• 32:49
  Speaker 2: My team needed a place to go and practice being intentional about their authenticity and going live and things like that.
• 32:57
  Speaker 2: And so a Facebook group was born and it's just kind of evolved from there.
• 33:01
  Speaker 2: And yeah, and so yeah it.
• 33:04
  Speaker 2: Just you know, I played stage and God told me public speaking.
• 33:08
  Speaker 2: And here we are.
• 33:09
  Speaker 1: I'm going to ask your audience they can probably what did you do when you played?
• 33:13
  Speaker 1: I'm talking to your audience in mind.
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: Can I show you?
• 33:17
  Speaker 1: I believe you find threads of your voice because when you're a child there's not a lot of fear.
• 33:24
  Speaker 1: You just kind of who you are.
• 33:25
  Speaker 1: Do you know what I did?
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: My idea of fun.
• 33:28
  Speaker 1: We lived in this old house and they had massive steps to the top.
• 33:30
  Speaker 1: I climbed to the top and I pretend like I was looking at it in a crowd like Billy Graham and I would preach.
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: I was Catholic, I was Catholic.
• 33:39
  Speaker 1: It was a good homily.
• 33:40
  Speaker 1: In that same house I'm going to date myself.
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: My dad brought home a modern technology which is a tape recorder.
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: It wasn't a Walkman, it was a tape recorder that old and I'd sneak it out and I'd play for days talking into that thing.
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: We moved.
• 33:57
  Speaker 1: They didn't have big steps.
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: I remember one day I was probably about nine, now nine or 10.
• 34:04
  Speaker 1: I was like then they don't have steps, what am I going to do?
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: Then I saw an apple cart.
• 34:07
  Speaker 1: I tipped it over this way, got on top and I preached to the birds and the bees and the apple trees You're the Jesus, I was a Christian, then Guess what I do Since 2008,.
• 34:19
  Speaker 1: I have turned over an Apple computer, now an Apple phone, with filters of course, and I've spoken.
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: Do you see the threads?
• 34:27
  Speaker 1: Do you see the threads?
• 34:28
  Speaker 1: And slush playing stage.
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: I have people who say they used to color in a coloring book, tear it out and try to sell it.
• 34:37
  Speaker 1: I love asking that question because I get all sorts of answers.
• 34:41
  Speaker 1: Just let me brace someone.
• 34:42
  Speaker 1: They're saying that's nice.
• 34:44
  Speaker 1: I had a terrible childhood.
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: I had a friend who had a brain injury at three.
• 34:49
  Speaker 1: Do you know what she's doing today?
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: She's helping people with their mind.
• 34:53
  Speaker 1: Let's say you did have a devastating Guess what.
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: You get the Holy Spirit to heal and to go through the healing, and then you do get to speak to the person you once were.
• 35:04
  Speaker 1: God uses all these things.
• 35:07
  Speaker 1: I love asking, and you just hit it what I love talking about, what did you do in your little?
• 35:14
  Speaker 1: So it doesn't surprise me you're going live every day and shooting that over to your podcast.
• 35:20
  Speaker 2: What was your first business?
• 35:22
  Speaker 1: My first business after radio was marketing.
• 35:25
  Speaker 1: It was back in 2009 where my theme was harnessing the power.
• 35:31
  Speaker 1: Then, and for your ministry, I was kind of like balancing ministry and business here we are marketplace ministry.
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: One of my greatest jobs, my greatest love, where I lost my voice was.
• 35:42
  Speaker 1: I was a social media director for the passion translation, but halfway through it my late husband said you're losing your voice, and I thought he was speaking another language because it's like I'm there, growing, People are understanding his.
• 35:55
  Speaker 1: I hear his whisper.
• 35:56
  Speaker 1: They were afraid to publish that.
• 35:58
  Speaker 1: I'm like, no, no, no, this is your.
• 36:00
  Speaker 1: You know, I was a bright and direct contact with them, helping them, and then they got a publisher and a publisher yeah, that you know what.
• 36:08
  Speaker 1: I created something like that and they need to get rid of me because I was my proprietary idea.
• 36:17
  Speaker 1: Now there's probably about three or four books I hear is whisper and we started.
• 36:22
  Speaker 1: I started a, you know, giving away free 10 of them and building his list building and it was fun.
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: I mean I talked to, I mean we're fine, it was just a, you know.
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: It was sad that the way they dropped me, but that's a whole another story.
• 36:36
  Speaker 1: So, but what was that?
• 36:37
  Speaker 1: That was one of my biggest crashes, Celeste.
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: That became one of my biggest ways to heal.
• 36:43
  Speaker 1: I was performance driven y'all.
• 36:45
  Speaker 1: Yes, me too, Me too.
• 36:48
  Speaker 2: Sometimes it's your crashes.
• 36:49
  Speaker 2: This last crash, when I was well.
• 36:53
  Speaker 1: Talk to us about it.
• 36:54
  Speaker 2: What was?
• 36:55
  Speaker 1: it.
• 36:55
  Speaker 2: Well, I, yes, well, but I I didn't realize it, like I had had that.
• 37:03
  Speaker 2: Well, I had that revelation that I was performance based and I was a people pleaser and stuff like that, and God was healing that and I was walking through my healing but I didn't realize I was still wrapped up in it when it came crashing down and so, yeah, so that performance space came crashing down, along with my sanity, and so when I was, you know, removed from ministry and they didn't really remove me, I removed myself, but it was because of hurt.
• 37:30
  Speaker 1: I was really really hurt, I was really hurt.
• 37:33
  Speaker 2: And I'm not saying that they were, you know, it was just it's all in perception, honestly, and so I was really hurt.
• 37:41
  Speaker 2: So I removed myself and I just went into like the cocoon of the Holy spirit and lost my mind and and my emotions and everything Like.
• 37:51
  Speaker 2: It was just a really weird time, but it was so.
• 37:54
  Speaker 2: When I came out of it like the cocoon, it was a real thing, because when I came out of it was this is what you're seeing right here yeah, Because I haven't been out of it for very long I got the diagnosis of hyperthyroid, so I had been hypo my entire and you turned into hyperthyroid.
• 38:12
  Speaker 2: Yes, I had the.
• 38:14
  Speaker 2: I had the gastric sleeve in December of 2022.
• 38:17
  Speaker 1: So I was about a year out right For my gastric sleeve.
• 38:20
  Speaker 2: I've lost 105 pounds and I went from hypo to hyper, but the hyper was caused because I was still taking my thyroid pills.
• 38:27
  Speaker 2: Okay, so I was taking the highest dose of high thyroid and then you turn yeah, you have 1% chance of going insane with this condition.
• 38:37
  Speaker 1: I was it, and it does everything to your body, from hair to strength.
• 38:42
  Speaker 1: Oh bless you.
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: I've never heard of someone though that yeah.
• 38:48
  Speaker 2: And so, yeah, my crash came with that.
• 38:51
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 38:51
  Speaker 2: Understandable.
• 38:52
  Speaker 2: It was just.
• 38:53
  Speaker 2: It was a really weird time, but I was being cocooned.
• 38:55
  Speaker 2: I was in the cocoon of the Holy Spirit and he was healing me in ways I never even thought.
• 39:01
  Speaker 2: You know, I was crying out in the wilderness.
• 39:04
  Speaker 2: I knew I was there, yeah, and I had nowhere else to turn but him, that's beautiful, yeah, and someone may be in the wilderness.
• 39:14
  Speaker 1: Take heart, that might be sometimes.
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: Your misery is your destiny.
• 39:18
  Speaker 2: Yes, and he will remove you out of situations that will not put you on the path of your true calling.
• 39:26
  Speaker 2: The true path that he wants to take you on an adventure with he might hurt, but just remember whose hands you're in.
• 39:32
  Speaker 1: Yes, yes Just keep saying yes to him.
• 39:35
  Speaker 1: It's the simplest of things.
• 39:38
  Speaker 2: Yes, I'm going to go to bed.
• 39:40
  Speaker 2: Yes, I'm going to get out of bed if I bring him a lipstick on.
• 39:42
  Speaker 1: Oh gosh, I remember being so depressed, fighting depression, and I'd get up and I felt like the weight of a monkey was on me.
• 39:51
  Speaker 1: It was just depression.
• 39:52
  Speaker 1: I don't know why I use a monkey, because it wrapped around me and I just had to get.
• 39:57
  Speaker 1: I could have stayed in bed but I had to get up because after I retired from radio, I never really had.
• 40:03
  Speaker 1: I had marketing jobs, but very few.
• 40:06
  Speaker 1: So if you're in that guys, there's hope.
• 40:09
  Speaker 1: Look at Celeste, look at me.
• 40:11
  Speaker 1: There's hope for you, there is hope.
• 40:13
  Speaker 1: I would challenge them, celeste, and you, you, you like, maybe encourage them and let's get them.
• 40:20
  Speaker 1: Let's get people thinking what they'd like to do when they're a child.
• 40:23
  Speaker 1: There's something the innocence about a child.
• 40:25
  Speaker 1: There's a study that proves that a children at a young age and as they grow or they, lose more and more of that childlike genius because more and more they get in the world.
• 40:35
  Speaker 1: And a doctor not doctor Bill Johnson did it.
• 40:41
  Speaker 1: We shared a study, bill Johnson, from Reading, and it just hurt my heart because we had dreams.
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, we had dreams and then.
• 40:52
  Speaker 1: But it's okay, you know, what's neat is we can trust God as we go through the furnace of our trials.
• 40:56
  Speaker 1: I always thought, okay, god, that's getting real hot in here, you know with the trials, and he goes.
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: He always exceeds.
• 41:02
  Speaker 1: He clears the throat when he wants to get my attention, he goes.
• 41:04
  Speaker 1: Who do you think has a hand on the temperature guide?
• 41:08
  Speaker 1: I do die daughter, I'm gonna take care of you, but okay.
• 41:14
  Speaker 1: And then we go through the fire and guess what comes out.
• 41:16
  Speaker 1: I think I see gold, gold, golden, that fire, that's you, girl.
• 41:22
  Speaker 1: I'm talking to you.
• 41:23
  Speaker 1: You hear us.
• 41:24
  Speaker 1: This is an example of gold and I love it.
• 41:27
  Speaker 1: You're in your journey right now.
• 41:29
  Speaker 2: Yes, yeah.
• 41:30
  Speaker 2: So I came out of the cocoon in December or December 20th Is when they took me off the fire wait pills.
• 41:35
  Speaker 2: And it was about January 1st where I was like, yeah, did you feel like a new person after that?
• 41:41
  Speaker 2: Yes, absolutely.
• 41:43
  Speaker 2: I didn't even know, I couldn't understand, like I didn't even look like myself in pictures, but I didn't realize I had goiter like it was all right there, yeah, yeah yes, it was all right there and I thought it was just weight loss.
• 41:55
  Speaker 2: And Anyways, by January 1st I was like, yeah, like a whole new person.
• 42:01
  Speaker 2: And January 8th is when I started the hundred days of believing bigger I had actually kind of decided to give him my yes before that, but I I had like kind of struggled with it all the way up to January 8th cuz.
• 42:14
  Speaker 2: I was like no, I didn't sleep the first night.
• 42:17
  Speaker 2: I knew the weight of it right.
• 42:20
  Speaker 1: But yeah, you're putting yourself out there.
• 42:22
  Speaker 1: But I hope the way you feel now is the weight of his oh cuz it's on you.
• 42:26
  Speaker 1: I guy Recorded.
• 42:28
  Speaker 1: So when can they catch you live?
• 42:30
  Speaker 2: and so I go live every morning at 7 am.
• 42:33
  Speaker 2: Inside it's called women's ministry plus marketplace by the soul sister project.
• 42:39
  Speaker 1: I, the soul sister project Okay.
• 42:41
  Speaker 2: I also go live, so I go live in that group.
• 42:43
  Speaker 2: I go live on this whole sister project page.
• 42:46
  Speaker 2: Okay, YouTube and Instagram right.
• 42:49
  Speaker 1: So do you say I'm a cast most of the time, or yes, do you?
• 42:53
  Speaker 1: But you go at 7 am.
• 42:54
  Speaker 1: Is there another time you go, or is it same?
• 42:57
  Speaker 2: van am To all pages at 7 am To all the places.
• 43:01
  Speaker 2: It's all the same thing.
• 43:02
  Speaker 2: I also have the podcast, which is the same thing.
• 43:05
  Speaker 2: It's just in podcast form.
• 43:06
  Speaker 1: If you can't sit and listen.
• 43:08
  Speaker 2: You know, I I'm on the go, I like to put it in my ears and go yeah.
• 43:12
  Speaker 2: And then I'm also going live at 7 pm Central on my page Talking about simplify with AI, with the wonderful.
• 43:23
  Speaker 1: Go listen to that.
• 43:24
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm so glad you're doing that.
• 43:26
  Speaker 1: You go at 7 am you, you're young pup, I can't.
• 43:31
  Speaker 1: I used to get up in six and God said don't feel guilty.
• 43:34
  Speaker 1: You had years of getting up at 3 30 in the morning to get on their air.
• 43:38
  Speaker 1: So but that's, that's early, but that's probably good for women on the go.
• 43:42
  Speaker 1: So we got just a few minutes, but let's just talk Briefly because you're gonna do a whole series on it.
• 43:49
  Speaker 1: We both are in the same marketplace.
• 43:52
  Speaker 1: We're with one of the best guys who understands and teaches AI.
• 43:56
  Speaker 1: His names Chris Winfield.
• 43:57
  Speaker 1: So and we're in the same group.
• 44:00
  Speaker 1: I hope I see you in March.
• 44:02
  Speaker 1: Oh, my goodness, help.
• 44:03
  Speaker 2: I'm gonna try to make it.
• 44:04
  Speaker 2: I don't know.
• 44:06
  Speaker 1: That's cool.
• 44:06
  Speaker 1: No pressure, we're gonna be connecting.
• 44:08
  Speaker 1: I can just see some projects in the future for us, so let's just you go ahead, you start.
• 44:14
  Speaker 1: What's what's AI opened your world to?
• 44:18
  Speaker 2: Well, in the midst of this mental crisis, this mental health crisis I was diagnosed with ADHD made a huge Like.
• 44:26
  Speaker 2: It made me understand myself in ways that I never understood myself.
• 44:30
  Speaker 2: It's definitely a blessing Okay to the actual mental health, but the way I prefaced this the AI thing to say I didn't realize how Overwhelmed, how trapped I was with analysis, paralysis because of my ADHD, because I would get like I would get a big idea and then it was squirrel, I'd be focusing on the little details and it was overwhelming and I would just stop right and and AI has has been an amazing tool for me to actually take and put these simple product Not products, but simple outlines together.
• 45:14
  Speaker 2: So I use AI every day before I go live.
• 45:16
  Speaker 2: I Use it so like God will give me a vision or he'll give me.
• 45:21
  Speaker 2: He will give me, I don't know, just a vision or a word, or yeah, like I was focusing on running today, so I got to to go into my chat GPT, which I have Since also, you know, trained.
• 45:35
  Speaker 2: But I got to go into my chat GPT and I'm like tell me what long distance runners do, like, what, what makes them elite?
• 45:43
  Speaker 2: And so we got to talk about long distance running in the way of being a spiritual thing.
• 45:48
  Speaker 2: So right.
• 45:49
  Speaker 2: It's so cool like AI has helped me take my thoughts and the visions that God's been giving me right and and Place words on them, like I'm able to regurgitate what he's showing me instead of squirrel.
• 46:01
  Speaker 2: You know, and you can see the difference honestly.
• 46:05
  Speaker 2: Yeah, when I'm like, even here, I'm guided with your words.
• 46:10
  Speaker 2: Right, if I go live by by myself.
• 46:12
  Speaker 2: I went live yesterday showing my painting.
• 46:15
  Speaker 2: Let me show you all my painting.
• 46:16
  Speaker 2: Okay, oh, it's not gonna let you Wow, nice, so that's my Jesus.
• 46:23
  Speaker 2: That.
• 46:23
  Speaker 1: I am every.
• 46:25
  Speaker 2: Every.
• 46:26
  Speaker 1: I love your background, I love your lights.
• 46:28
  Speaker 1: I gotta get some of those lights up here.
• 46:30
  Speaker 1: Thank you guys.
• 46:30
  Speaker 1: So yeah, no to like.
• 46:34
  Speaker 1: Hi, authentically sorry a lot of people say well, you know, I know, I, I want the whole spirit to speak for me.
• 46:43
  Speaker 1: I get that there's.
• 46:44
  Speaker 1: Sometimes I don't use AI, but there's this feature where I don't know if you saw that training I think they called it chat Something where I took this one section of chat, dbt, and I put all my stuff in there.
• 46:58
  Speaker 1: If I had a word, I was stoked with it.
• 47:01
  Speaker 1: Okay, stoked, it's just got lots.
• 47:03
  Speaker 1: So if I really want to speak on my level, something personal or Whole spirit driven, I'll go ahead and say Sometimes I'll give it a whole paragraph and say reward this in my tone, my language, and it's always good to copy and not copy and paste and put it on there, but copy and paste it and then look at it.
• 47:23
  Speaker 1: Yeah so, okay, I wouldn't use that word.
• 47:25
  Speaker 1: And there's been days we're like, oh, my goodness, who are you?
• 47:30
  Speaker 1: You're talking like Joy now, granted, guys.
• 47:34
  Speaker 1: This is why we're so where we want you to do this, because if you use chat Gbt, you're more time to love your kids instead of be on the computer.
• 47:42
  Speaker 1: Oh, for four hours trying to get your content out.
• 47:46
  Speaker 2: This is true.
• 47:47
  Speaker 1: So you know, like I had, I took up a challenge of one real a day on Instagram because I wanted to show the backstory of someone who survived from narcissistic and and some people like, how do you do it?
• 48:00
  Speaker 1: I roll out a bed and say what do you want to say, god and I, whether I'm going reason, we're going for a walk you really downloads and I just flip the camera on and I think this is what I needed to learn, because I had lives back in the day where that were real long.
• 48:14
  Speaker 1: So it's taught me to speak in a minute 30 or put together some edits.
• 48:19
  Speaker 1: So I'll just show the day of the life of.
• 48:21
  Speaker 1: I show them sad things, like I had to give my cat back because he was attacking me and of course, I got criticized, but I just lived life.
• 48:29
  Speaker 1: So this is three.
• 48:30
  Speaker 1: Says she's Surviving a narcissistic relationship for 26 years and she's got hope.
• 48:35
  Speaker 1: Why?
• 48:36
  Speaker 1: Because I still had a relationship with God.
• 48:38
  Speaker 1: I'm learning to take some therapy.
• 48:39
  Speaker 1: I'm learning to speak.
• 48:41
  Speaker 1: Look at Celeste she went through something devastating.
• 48:44
  Speaker 1: She said she lost her mind, but I Lot of fruit, lot of fruit from going through.
• 48:53
  Speaker 1: You know I feel sorry.
• 48:54
  Speaker 1: Don't get me wrong, I'm not.
• 48:55
  Speaker 1: I have great Compassion.
• 48:57
  Speaker 1: I have some people that say thank you, keep talking, and I'll keep talking to them and encourage them daily.
• 49:02
  Speaker 1: Hey, I'm thinking about you, I'm praying for you.
• 49:04
  Speaker 1: It's my cause.
• 49:06
  Speaker 1: It's something terrible that's turning into something positive.
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: That's what I want to encourage you as you're listening on this podcast or you're listening live.
• 49:14
  Speaker 1: Guys, take the crash.
• 49:16
  Speaker 1: If You're in a crash, and ask always spirit, how can I get out and still have my voice?
• 49:22
  Speaker 1: God told me just about a month ago I was trying to work on my bio and they said chat GBT said voice catalyst, so I was using, I was going back and forth with chat GBT you can do that, okay.
• 49:35
  Speaker 1: And so I sat on it and God said you're not a voice catalyst, I've called you my voice revivalist.
• 49:40
  Speaker 1: I said thank you, I like that.
• 49:42
  Speaker 1: See, you can use chat GBT and then ask the Holy Spirit what do you want me to do with this?
• 49:48
  Speaker 2: I know this is an example.
• 49:50
  Speaker 2: Yeah, so my program, my program was going to be stand out with AI and then, I was like that.
• 49:56
  Speaker 2: I like it, but it feels to.
• 49:58
  Speaker 2: It feels like self idolatry is okay, yeah, I was like.
• 50:03
  Speaker 2: So I was like well, why did it really do it?
• 50:05
  Speaker 2: Well, simplify, simplify with AI, and it rhymes.
• 50:08
  Speaker 2: It's not so much better after I asked.
• 50:12
  Speaker 1: So holy spirit.
• 50:13
  Speaker 1: I asked always spirit.
• 50:14
  Speaker 1: I love doing courses, so I have a basic chat GBT course.
• 50:17
  Speaker 1: But I worked all of December because I want you to have a podcast, friend, you, your voice needs to be heard.
• 50:23
  Speaker 1: So I made a course called podcasting, made easy with AI and it's every step.
• 50:29
  Speaker 1: But what I don't say is I will help you along the way, you just don't have a course.
• 50:32
  Speaker 1: No, you know, since um, ai, Podcasting is so much easier.
• 50:38
  Speaker 1: I used to.
• 50:39
  Speaker 1: You know I don't have to be an audio engineer anymore.
• 50:41
  Speaker 1: So since AI, I have gone once a week.
• 50:45
  Speaker 1: Now I'm twice a week because I'm losing my voice, because all I'm doing is interviewing.
• 50:49
  Speaker 1: I'm talking a lot in years, but so then Thursdays is Thursday with tea my nicknames tea and then Monday, tuesday, I have an interview.
• 50:57
  Speaker 1: But this title, this description, is all with AI and like we were both running late.
• 51:05
  Speaker 1: I had like five minutes and you may not like my YouTube cover, but it was very sparkly.
• 51:11
  Speaker 2: I think super cute.
• 51:14
  Speaker 1: I want to catch.
• 51:15
  Speaker 1: So what I'll do is I'll this will be a podcast, and then I'll go over to YouTube and plug it before she's live.
• 51:20
  Speaker 1: So we all do that with the AI.
• 51:24
  Speaker 2: Yep.
• 51:24
  Speaker 1: I can't wait to send you some AI clips of us together.
• 51:27
  Speaker 1: I'm very excited, yeah, yeah.
• 51:31
  Speaker 1: So I'm officially saying this podcast will be live this to this Tuesday.
• 51:35
  Speaker 1: I'm putting it to the front.
• 51:37
  Speaker 1: Sorry, guys who've interviewed with me, this has been too oh.
• 51:41
  Speaker 1: So to life giving, and I just so appreciate you, celeste, honest, and you know God is doing some amazing things with you.
• 51:51
  Speaker 1: You didn't, you're not in that mastermind, for it's not a mistake.
• 51:56
  Speaker 1: I think God's gonna do his connecting with his favor that only God can do, and I just I'm not saying this to pump you up or to flatter you, I just see this more.
• 52:07
  Speaker 2: Can I tell you what the confirmation?
• 52:10
  Speaker 2: I was struggling because it's not an easy.
• 52:13
  Speaker 2: Yes yes mastermind.
• 52:17
  Speaker 1: Right here with you and God.
• 52:20
  Speaker 2: As I was playing stage as a seven-year-old in a pink bedroom, god downloaded a vision in my like something that I mean.
• 52:27
  Speaker 2: I'm getting goosebumps, even thinking about it now 41,.
• 52:30
  Speaker 2: Okay, so, at seven years old, he downloads this big vision of being on a stage and I'm just gonna, I'm just gonna be candid.
• 52:41
  Speaker 2: I don't even care anymore, I'm gonna be candid.
• 52:43
  Speaker 2: I'm gonna tell you what he showed me.
• 52:44
  Speaker 2: He showed me being on the stage of Oprah.
• 52:47
  Speaker 2: I was just gonna say Oprah, yes, and at the time, you know, it was the biggest stage that I could think of.
• 52:52
  Speaker 2: So, as I was walking out going live Whoops, sorry, alive on Facebook and stuff like that, I was like, well, I mean a four or seven year old, that's the only thing that I had to equate like a big stage, like a whatever.
• 53:03
  Speaker 2: Well, okay, so we get into this mastermind.
• 53:05
  Speaker 2: I didn't even know what I was really signing up for, I just knew that Holy Spirit's like sign up, sign up.
• 53:09
  Speaker 2: So now you got to sign up, and so I signed up and I met my PR coach and guess what?
• 53:14
  Speaker 2: She is an Emmy award-winning TV producer.
• 53:17
  Speaker 2: For what show, tell me?
• 53:22
  Speaker 2: That makes my heart just happy.
• 53:23
  Speaker 2: And I was like only God, only God so no, I know you're not building me up, because I know I have taken the steps at the whole, the Holy Spirit.
• 53:32
  Speaker 1: The word has placed in front of me and I think it when someone says that they're just confirming what you've already heard.
• 53:38
  Speaker 1: So so it's okay if I can dip in here.
• 53:42
  Speaker 1: I'm with an organization also called girl power Alliance and we are opening up what's called the speaker Academy.
• 53:49
  Speaker 1: We're opening up the online in March.
• 53:52
  Speaker 1: Celeste, I know you're familiar with what I'm talking about, yes, but if speaking is on your mind, I think this is a great way to go nine weeks and be in community.
• 54:02
  Speaker 1: There's more things to it than and then my coach in the mastermind, jen Gottlieb.
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: I don't if you've heard the her say this, but when you're beginning, sometimes you got to pay for the stages, so I would invite you.
• 54:15
  Speaker 1: I'm going through it a second time.
• 54:17
  Speaker 1: I kind of threw up on my Ted talk, which they call it Kim talk and I, but I really want to use the stage to refine it to speak out on Narcissistic relationships, men or women and give some keys of hope.
• 54:30
  Speaker 1: So if that interests you, please Damn.
• 54:33
  Speaker 1: If you feel comfortable DM, dming Celeste, do so or DM me, or I think it's message.
• 54:40
  Speaker 1: I'm on Facebook.
• 54:41
  Speaker 1: Sorry, teresa, sorry a little, and I just think there's some speakers listening.
• 54:47
  Speaker 1: Yes, I'm sure there are in your audience.
• 54:49
  Speaker 1: You know people who will, women who say I got a story.
• 54:52
  Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a little scary to think about a stage, but I think that's what God put in me.
• 54:56
  Speaker 1: I've seen more and more women Drop the voice list and say, okay, I think God's calling me to speak.
• 55:03
  Speaker 1: I don't really know how to do it, so I'm gonna get into girl power line and some go through the speaker Academy that.
• 55:08
  Speaker 1: I'm seeing that right now, so just want to offer that.
• 55:11
  Speaker 1: So I'll put a show in the show notes.
• 55:13
  Speaker 1: I'll put.
• 55:13
  Speaker 1: I'll put also less information, but also put where you can connect with girl power Alliance.
• 55:19
  Speaker 1: So is that what's the best way to get in touch with you, girl?
• 55:22
  Speaker 2: Probably Facebook.
• 55:23
  Speaker 2: I know that you know people are like Instagram and DM and stuff like that, but I, I'm just, I'm an og FB I guess.
• 55:30
  Speaker 1: But I'm really really love Facebook.
• 55:33
  Speaker 2: And so you can definitely find me on here.
• 55:36
  Speaker 1: Definitely that's.
• 55:37
  Speaker 1: And I'm having to relearn Facebook all over again Because I had like a hiatus for three years and then I come back and I like, oh, they're still there and you know I do post daily on my page.
• 55:48
  Speaker 1: But I think, if you can use Facebook, I think.
• 55:51
  Speaker 1: I think it's a growing place I'm gonna say it for women To find a voice and define healing, because there's no Slusted rare.
• 56:01
  Speaker 1: But more and more women are saying, hey, I'm gonna use this platform because God's called me to speak, but please speak out of your scars, okay, not your wounds.
• 56:10
  Speaker 1: I don't have a place that'll grow.
• 56:12
  Speaker 1: My goodness, we speak so long and have so much fun.
• 56:15
  Speaker 1: I might have to divide this up into two parts.
• 56:17
  Speaker 1: Girl.
• 56:17
  Speaker 2: Well, I loved it.
• 56:18
  Speaker 2: I.
• 56:20
  Speaker 1: Yeah, we gotta do.
• 56:21
  Speaker 1: We gotta do another one.
• 56:22
  Speaker 1: I mean, you have a better hair day going.
• 56:25
  Speaker 1: Oh no, you look great, you look great.
• 56:27
  Speaker 1: I was trying to find pink y'all and I didn't have anything.
• 56:30
  Speaker 2: I didn't even wear pink today.
• 56:35
  Speaker 1: So if you're listening, we so appreciate you.
• 56:37
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• 56:40
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• 56:42
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• 56:50
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• 56:51
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• 56:53
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• 56:57
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• 57:08
  Speaker 1: I'll talk to you in the next episode.
• 57:11
  Speaker 1: God bless you.
• 57:12
  Speaker 1: I.