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Episode #194: Painting Your Mind with Positive Memories · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Hi, Welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev. Good morning, Good
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  morning. She's smoking herself out this morning. I'm telling you, it's just
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  not going out. I've got a cupboard right now, and it's just like,
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  really, that's all right. We can let him focus on that smoke
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  and just see it, see it happening in live. Consider yourself cleared.
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  There you go, You're welcome. I'll sell allow reiki out. That's right.
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  Good day, Good day. It is a good day. It's amazing.
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  Had a great time last night hanging out with some friends and basically family,
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  not not technically family, but basically family. And we played a game.
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  It was pretty funny. Smells fishy anyway, never heard of it that.
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  We laughed a lot. That's awesome. Gosh, it almost makes me
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  think there's something going on energetically, because you're talking about that stuff and the
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  laughing and you and you're light hearted this morning, even getting on as we've
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  been getting connected here and I'm creating a freaking infernal over here. I mean,
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  I'm having to cover it up with a few things, trying to get
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  its calm down, because it's like it's like, no, we need to
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  sage it's like people. But then one of my friends sent me a message
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  this morning, like this crazy dream. She said, I woke up laughing,
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  like laughing out loud. She woke up and it was just like a
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  crazy dream. It was like a crazy dream about food. And it's like
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  then, like a watermelon, it splashed all over everybody and they weren't laughing,
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  but she was laughing. And then she had laughed even harder because they
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  weren't laughing, and then like things just magically turned into freaking cotton, candy,
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  pink and blue colors and like all this other stuff and woke up with
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  light and laughter. Right, It's but that's like the bed, like I's
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  that's the best medicine. The best medicine we could possibly have is finding ways
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  to laugh. Really, And it's gosh, you don't hear a lot of
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  people getting together and stuff these days because it's so easy to be on the
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  internet or connect through texting or zoom meetings or other things. And it's not
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  the same as when we actually get together and just laugh just and even group,
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  when group got together yesterday, it's like I went in there. First
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  of all, I left the house late, and then I'm driving down the
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  road and I'm like, dang it, I forgot my pencils and my paper
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  because I like to scribble. And I'm like, well, okay, we'll
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  just see how this. We'll see what's up with this. And we get
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  there and then one of the other girls forgot heard in that book and pencils.
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  But the conversation we never and then meditation never even happened. It never.
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  It's like the conversation flowed and we were laughing, like we were just
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  laughing. It was so off the cuff and it was just it was just
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  that's how it's been the last couple of days. So that's why I say,
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  energetically, it feels like there's been a shift, and it's so awesome.
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  Right, So when we get into these kind of places, we were
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  going to really really relish in that feeling and stuff and try to extend it
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  as long as possible, because we make the shift, we're making a huge
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  shift just by one person. And of course, if you're laughing usually that's
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  contagious. It's gonna get other people involved. And then it's like it's just
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  like a ripple effect or a wave that goes through everybody. So it's freaking
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  awesome this time space reality that we're in right now, and it just feels
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  there's so much potential, pregnant potential right like, there's all this potential right
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  now that's just ready to burst forward to it for us, and it's are
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  we gonna tap into that? Are we gonna relish in that? Are we
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  gonna feed that energy of this joy and this laughter that we're feeling? Because
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  the more that we do, the more amazing it gets. Yeah, and
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  it. And I was like to bring up how we used to be because
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  it gives people, uh more information that Bev and I just didn't didn't We
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  didn't used to do this just well, first of all, we didn't hang
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  out with each other. I was just saying that. But for us to
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  show up and smiling first thing in the morning and and have you know,
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  a lighthearted conversation that was not in the wheelhouse like thirty years ago. No,
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  thirty years ago, it will be like, good morning, whatever,
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  what's so good? What's so good about it? Zach? Like I didn't
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  even have my coffee yet. Are you sure you want to do this today
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  because I'm not even feeling it? Yeah, exactly. But at that time
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  we weren't feeling anything like really besides anger, you know, anger and frustrating
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  my imagine. But I would just say, we wouldn't even be showing up
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  doing this. It's just no, you were like, No, life sucks.
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  I don't want to be doing this. And I'm going to go sit
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  in my cherild day and sulk and be mad because really, I mean,
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  really, it's like this, this this isn't even when I was just pretending
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  to be like it doesn't even feel good, and I just cras. It
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  just makes me laugh because that's not even that's not even who I am anymore,
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  you know, And it's it's just so funny to feel the difference within
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  myself and recognize it and acknowledge it. And I taught a class the other
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  day. It was for the City and County workers that in itself was freaking
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  phenomenal that I was even invited to teach this class at the college. People,
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  I don't I like, there was one person in the class of twenty
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  that I knew one and was I nervous. Absolutely, I was nervous in
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  the beginning. And I also voiced it that is huge, right to stand
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  in front of all these strange people and say, you know what, I'm
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  really nervous right now because my body is feeling uncomfortable. And then I would
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  go into the teaching pieces and the more I talked, the calmer I got.
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  But just the idea of just voice saying being vulnerable and people like stand,
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  I'm standing now. There was a there was a podium that I could
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  have sided behind to put my papers and all that didn't want to do that.
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  I wanted to be fully exposed. Here I am, this is me.
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  Like me or not don't matter to me. I'm showing up to do
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  what I do. And here we are, right and uh, but just
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  seeing everybody's faces were just so so much heaviness is and you know, to
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  see that and the sadness in their eyes and the body language just slumped over
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  and looking down. And of course it was first thing in the morning and
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  you're talking about reducing stress and meditation like right, But hey, they chose
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  to be there. I'm just saying they signed up for the class. They
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  weren't forced to take my class. They signed up for it. So I
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  want to just set that premise. But that's but bringing you know, I
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  do this anyway, and my teachings. When I'm having a class that uh,
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  you know, healing and learning new things, like that's something that's hard.
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  It's hard work to do that, and it's it's uncomfortable and when you're
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  looking at yourself, you don't want to do that. That's scary. There's
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  a lot of fear in that. And to to bring some lightheartedness into the
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  class, into the teaching and break that cycle, like we don't have to
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  be heavy all the time, meaning heavy in our emotions. Laughter switches that,
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  and then that's our choice is like what what can you find that can
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  genuinely bring up the laughter, to bring up that lightheartedness, because before it
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  would be just laughing at somebody if they fell, even if they hurt themselves,
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  and then ask are you okay? Right after you've you've you've cried tears
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  of laughter, and then oh are you okay? And they're like rolling around
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  in pain or whatever they're doing, or you know, really bad jokes that
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  we found humorous because of our pain. But what about you know, just
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  a child playing and laughing. They children laugh like three hundred times a day
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  and adults less than twenty. And what I always say that number is probably
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  way less than that, because I've I mean, I laugh at myself a
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  lot now, but before Nope, that not doing it? You wro he
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  wrote right even to go like for even to go watch a movie or do
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  anything. I remember someone saying to me, I think it was Jim,
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  like, why don't you just laugh? And I'm like, well I am,
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  And it's like I was not laughing to a capacity that he was laughing
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  to or how people like how I laughed now? And then I remember going
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  to see which is the craziest thing to go see Ted, you know when
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  it first came out, and I was at a theater and for me to
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  laugh out loud in a theater, my god, people would have seen me.
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  And it's like I remember looking around, but it's like I couldn't control
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  this laughter that was coming out of me. And that was phenomenal for me
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  because it was something I had never experienced before, not that I can remember.
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  And I can guarantee you just like you were saying as a child,
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  we were doing it all the time. Yeah, all the time. And
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  then all of a sudden, like why are you depriving yourself? Because I
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  think at some point we think that we had to be so serious and we
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  had to get it right, whatever right was, and we had to you
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  know, live according to someone else's standards always from schooling to parents, to
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  religions and everything else too. So it's like there's so much stuff that was
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  going on and that it kind of kind of zapp doesn't. Now we're like
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  saying, hey, guys, it's okay, laugh your ass off, Like
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  do it as much as you possibly can. Find whatever you can that's going
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  to make you laugh all day. Yeah. And then and when you are
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  in a group, I mean, especially like a theater because uh movie theater,
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  when there's a funny piece and when there's many people laughing, that kind
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  of gets you going. It does, and it just amplifies the joy.
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  So yeah, and then last night playing games and we just laughed and had
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  a great time with this game. It was super silly, but it was
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  hysterical and just having that, just having that time a couple hours. I
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  think we played this game for probably I don't know, two and a half
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  hours and just laughed and it was so fun. And it just you know,
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  those moments and the people that I that we don't I mean, we
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  really honestly don't hang out a lot with and to be in that space with
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  them and to have that joy it was wonderful. That's awesome. Yeah,
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  it really is. And when you know, there's so much focus sometimes in
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  what I do as far as coaching, and there's heaviness like working with people
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  in their emotions and doing some healing and working with people who've had family,
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  friends, family transition. So you know, a lot of what I do
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  is not like all Fairy does. Like it's not like this is great.
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  You know, we're in this the emotions and feeling them and all that.
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  And the more you do that, the lighter get one hundred percent. And
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  so it's important for me just like you because Bev does this too, she
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  coaches her clients and doing the things that she does. So it's important for
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  us as individuals to be lighter in our other day to day stuff. So
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  and as always, as we always say, this is a choice. It's
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  just you get to decide to do it or not. Yeah, And quite
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  honestly, sometimes I like to be in the grumpy space for you know,
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  for a few minutes, or sometimes I find myself relishing in that space again.
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  But guess what, it's a choice. It's not a good thing or
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  a bad thing. It's an experience thing. It's a feeling thing, right
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  even for you. Like this stuff can get really heavy when you're working with
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  someone, but ma'am, when they share themselves and they bring that stuff to
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  the surface, it's so freeing for them. They may not see it right
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  now, but it's like we can see where it's going, and it's it's
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  awesome. You can see how it's gonna shift and how how and it's like
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  you can even use your imagination in that whole process and to feed feed them
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  more positive energy by seeing them in enjoy with all this stuff, seeing them
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  handling these things with grace and ease and lighten their heart and full of joy.
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  You know, there's ways that we can help people, and that's one
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  of the ways to uplift them without saying you don't have to say anything.
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  I don't have to say if I see something that says, hey, pray
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  for this person, I pray for them, or if I see something there's
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  something going on, I do it. I don't have to post that I'm
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  praying for them. I mean, but it doesn't matter whether you do it
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  or not. For me, it's like I'm still you know, I still
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  have my ways of contributing in any way possible. So it's it's usually the
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  possibilities for me, especially because most of the time I'm at home or you
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  know what I mean, I'm running around, so it's like I still have
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  the opportunities and love to that person and streams of grace or prayers or whatever
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  you want to call it. It's still an opportunity And then it makes me
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  feel lighter too because we contributed right gosh before, Like I was telling freemany
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  like I had group yesterday and then I saw two clients after that. That
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  was that's unheard of. But I would never have done this. But it's
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  like I had someone hurting someone I wasn't gonna be able to see for a
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  few months if I didn't, you know, add a day, and so
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  it was like it was but by the end of the day, I was,
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  you know, I was still good, and I still had some running
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  around to do, but I was like gone all day and then I get
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  home till like six thirty last night or close to seven. So it was
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  like it was it was awesome because there was so much accomplished. But on
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  the other side, I know that I'm home today and tomorrow I don't.
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  I don't have to go anywhere. So it's but it's finding that joy and
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  it's like I've enjoyed that space and the people that I got to see this
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  last week. You know, I have one client that her mom just passed
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  away. She had fallen and broken her neck and you know, from a
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  previous surgery, and they were going to do surgery on her and she just
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  kind of letting them know that it was time to go. And it's like
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  it's she's like, I had to make the decision to pull the cord or
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  you know not she didn't say it specifically that way, but pull the plug,
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  right, she had to make the decision. But it's like, on
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  the other side of that, you're not making a decision. And I learned
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  this from Suzanne Gatezeman talking to someone because she had talked to someone that was
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  in a coma and was unable to communicate, and she's like, if you
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  can, you know, you can unplug me all you want to. I'm
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  either gonna I'm either gonna choose to stay or I'm gonna choose to go.
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  So it's not we all put so much pressure on ourselves and thinking that you
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  know, and hopefully someone that's listening to this right now needed to hear that.
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  But we think that we have so much control and this is up to
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  us to make this this this decision. But ultimately it's still even if the
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  person's not communicating with you, that person still has an opportunity to stay.
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  I'm going to stay in the body and come back and do whatever I'm gonna
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  do, or I'm not going to stay period. So it's like it takes
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  takes responsibility off of the person just making these decisions. They feel like they're
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  making these decisions. Yeah, and you know, go ahead in that In
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  that same line, just read and need a more Johnnie story fully smokes right,
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  Yeah, so and and and I had a class yesterday that I was
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  teaching intuition development, and they're really more interested in the mediumship part right to
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  tune in love and just talking to them and telling them, you know,
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  when when you're friends and when people transition, meaning leave the physical body return
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  to spirit. I see it as I have more access to them now,
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  and we don't know our our each other's spirits, dream we don't even know
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  our own spirits journey typically, like there's probably if anybody knows, it's very
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  few people who know who's who's elevated enough in their connection to spirit to be
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  able to do that. Nine of the population does not know their spirit's journey,
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  how long we're going to be here and all that. And I forgot
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  where I was going with this. But they have they have more access to
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  them, and they also show up if they have, you know, along
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  the lines of laughter, if they have like a funny sense of humor,
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  they're comical there, they call you out on your shit, like whatever personality
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  they had in the physical body, that's how they're going to show up in
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  spirit as well, so that you can recognize their energy. And uh was
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  So I had a lady there and she's like, I said something and it
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  was pretty direct, and I looked at her and I said the words,
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  and I said and I already knew her brother was in spirit, and I
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  said, that was a message from your brother, and she just laughed and
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  she's like like, yeah, that would be something he would say, you
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  know. And we laughed. And it's like, embrace that their energy because
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  they're not they're not confined to the human story anymore. And and we just
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  and just like you were saying, when when you have to make this when
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  it's when it's your responsibility to make the decisions of somebody else's life as far
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  as medically, and you know, the doctors are saying, there's this is
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  it right? You've got to just tell us when to take them off all
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  the machines. Just Spirit's gonna do what spirit's gonna do. And how many
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  times has that happened? And they wait and and the and the spirit,
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  the body waits until somebody shows up to give them that opportunity for some closure,
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  and then the spirit trans right. It's just it's really it's just going
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  to do what it's going to do. We have control over that. Nope.
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  So there's a lot there's a lot of recognition and a lot of that
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  stuff too, But it's I think I feel like a lot of people have
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  had to make decisions and they've they felt like they've had to make decisions,
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  but it really wasn't. I don't think it was really what they thought it
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  was. From my perspective, have I had to make the decision? I
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  have not. Has that been in my experience? It has not. But
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  from what feels right to me or re resonates with me today because you know,
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  things we were always evolving and changing and our beliefs change, and it's
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  like it totally influences how we're going to move throughout our day and how we're
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  going to be, just like we were talking about making shifts, and it's
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  like and then laughing is easier, doesn't Before laughing was hard for me.
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  I couldn't let that out of myself. I try. That's that's just goes
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  to show you how much we're how much we control things. But when we're
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  so controlling of things, we're not allowing anything else to come in either.
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  So it's like I had a tight grip on everything. It's had a trip
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  grip of my emotions. You didn't typically see me. If I got pissed,
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  I might cry, but typically you wouldn't see me cry. That would
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  be something I would do, you know, in the shower or quietly somewhere
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  else. I didn't ever, you know, wasn't something to allow someone else
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  to see. Probably, I don't know. I can imagine just being picked
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  on as a kid or whatever for crying or whatever, and then stopping it.
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  And then it's like realizing that we're allowed to have these emotions, and
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  I think that's a lot. That's a big statement that we're allowed to have
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  these emotions. I think for the longest time, I think that we didn't.
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  You didn't want to behave in any certain way because you're being seen.
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  But now it's like we're in a place of show yourself, you know,
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  show your vulnerability. Just like you said, standing in front of a group
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  and saying this is kind of I'm a little bit nervous right now, and
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  it's like it's but it's awesome because that's another way of saying because it's you
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  can tap into where they've been at some point or another. Everybody's been nervous
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  at some point or another, being in front of a group or having to
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  be the one that stand up. I believe they have been. Not always
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  like when we're kids would go back to the children, like children a lot
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  of times, depending on how they've been raised and stuff like that, will
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  be very outspoken and tell you all kinds of things about your whole their whole
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  family and stuff that the parents are like, oh, let's talk about this
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  out in public, you know what I mean. So yeah, but it's
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  just funny because it's we've we've had those experiences. But that's the thing,
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  and that that kind of conversation, who we don't talk like that out here
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  is so restrictive, right, It's just being natural and being in the flow
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  and knowing if anyone's been around kids, you know, kids are going to
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  say whatever pops into their head, and it's not going to always be through
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  the filter of this feels nice. It's just going to be honest from their
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  perspective, which is awesome. Yeah, And you know the kids are going
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  to call you out. They're just going to call you out, especially the
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  little ones, right, the little call you out on your shit, and
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  a lot of times that is in public. And if it makes you uncomfortable,
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  then I would suggest to say it that if it makes you uncomfortable well
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  with what they're calling you out on, then that's on you. Because if
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  it was something that was okay, if it was something that was cool,
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  you would probably laugh about it or be lighthearted about it. But if they're
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  calling you out on something and you get uncomfortable and you drum up some shame
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  or guilt around it or anger, then there might be needing. A shift
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  needs to be happening within yourself. So because we're teaching our kids, I
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  did it. I did it to my son. I've done it. You
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  know it's happened to me. Is we're just teaching them that it's not okay
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  to be truthful, to be authentic, so or to lie, you know,
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  the whole facade that everything's great and we don't talk about that, but
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  when we're in public, we're gonna act like everything's great and we're a happy
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  family. That happens a lot, I mean probably, yeah, a lot.
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  Two have the idea that you're the perfect family and everything in your your
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  you know, everything, the lawn's manicured, and everything looks great, and
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  you're teaching perfectionism. But when you're out in public and your child calls you
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  out on something and it slaps you in the face and you get embarrassed.
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  So between children and cell phones, because people video you, you're on right,
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  you're you're on all the time, and they're great indicators that if you
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  feel uncomfortable about something that somebody has said, then that's on you. Because
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  if it's drumming up shame or guilt or anger or any of the heavy emotions,
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  then it's probably something for you to look at within yourself and don't get
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  mad at your kids, because your kids are just voicing what they're seeing or
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  hearing. And for that for you to tell them to zip, like,
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  you know, shut their mouth or whatever, now you're teaching them that it's
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  not okay to use their voice. So there's a lot wrapped up into that.
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  And because I've thought about this a lot, there's a movie I forget
• 24:36
  what the name of it is, but it's where this this girl she wears
• 24:41
  like a camera on her and so it's basically it's it's just with her all
• 24:45
  the time, and and it's broadcasts publicly, and so then every once in
• 24:53
  a while she's interviewed about the piece some of the things that she did in
• 24:57
  her life and questioned why she did it and said, and it was just
• 25:02
  like, that's where we're at. Because everybody has a cell phone and you
• 25:06
  never know at any time who has their recorder on. Right. So I'm
• 25:11
  so thankful that when we were younger we didn't have that stuff, because yeah,
• 25:18
  I'm very thankful. I am very thankful. You know, it's one
• 25:23
  thing to grow up dealing with a lot of your own emotional emotions, and
• 25:27
  traumas and all that stuff. We're not dealing with it, and then to
• 25:32
  have all that, you know, being monitored and videoed and stuff all the
• 25:36
  time, I guess, But like what you're saying is though, it does
• 25:38
  make sense. And if we're if we're responding that way and being our true,
• 25:42
  authentic selves, regardless of whether we're being recorded or not, you know,
• 25:47
  and standing in that power of knowing that I was being true and authentic
• 25:51
  that was just how I felt at that time or at that particular moment whatever,
• 25:55
  and not having judgment about it. And then we're teaching others the same
• 25:57
  thing without having to tell them you don't have to be this way, you
• 26:00
  don't have to do it this way, but we can. There's so many
• 26:03
  other ways. But we've got there's we've got preferences showing up in our experience
• 26:08
  all the time. It's like, what do you want to put your attention
• 26:11
  on? I mean, really, because we have opportunities all the time.
• 26:15
  You can try on the news and listen to war stuff. Do you want
• 26:18
  to be involved in the war. You can play video games that and I
• 26:21
  played them for years and years and years and years until probably about ten years
• 26:25
  ago. Like full time. I was a full time player and a full
• 26:26
  time worker and a mom, you know, all this other stuff. How
• 26:30
  did I have time for all that stuff? I don't even know. But
• 26:33
  most of the stuff that I played was geared towards war, so it's like
• 26:36
  it constantly keeps you into that kind of a mindset. I was playing old
• 26:40
  war stuff, war games, the new stuff, you know, futuristic stuff,
• 26:44
  but it was all war. It was all fighting. So it's like
• 26:47
  it's it's what are you where are you putting your energy into? And sure
• 26:51
  that was fun and that was for me at the time frame, but now
• 26:53
  it doesn't. I don't resonate with it at all. So at the time
• 26:56
  it was great. It was I needed to decompress, and that the way
• 27:00
  that I decompressed a lot. That's how I shut out for dealing with the
• 27:03
  world or with my own emotions. That's how I dealt with things for a
• 27:07
  long time. And now it's like, I feel so much better that I
• 27:10
  don't I don't need that. I don't have to go play the game to
• 27:12
  go kill something, you know. I mean to change the way that I'm
• 27:17
  feeling. I can change the way that I'm feeling I can go put my
• 27:18
  feet in the dirt. I can sing, I can find something that makes
• 27:22
  me laugh. I can talk to a friend. You know, a lot
• 27:25
  of times I's just talking to a friend, reminiscing or celebrating whatever they're celebrating
• 27:29
  right now, and being in that joy because I've been in the space before
• 27:33
  too, when someone tells you something and it's like they're all excited about it,
• 27:37
  and you're like, well, shit, that's not happening for me,
• 27:41
  and then you feel like then you feel that lack and all the other stuff,
• 27:42
  and it's like you don't have to feel those emotions of black and stuff,
• 27:47
  but you can celebrate with the person that's celebrating right now. You can
• 27:49
  celebrate that that you had your mediumship class, because it sounds like that's kind
• 27:55
  of where the way it gravitated towards and most people are that way anyways.
• 27:59
  Not even realize if we just quiet down, we have so much information,
• 28:03
  so many things that are around us trying to communicate with us and give us
• 28:04
  information. Because I still I am so much better than I used to be,
• 28:08
  but I can get my mind's a lot more quieter, and if I'm
• 28:12
  quiet sometimes I'm just having a full I'm talking to God or I'm talking to
• 28:17
  you know, my team and stuff just in my head about like, hey,
• 28:19
  this is what I'm noticing, this is what I'm feeling. How do
• 28:22
  I deal with that? You know, I'm just go I'm just there's a
• 28:25
  whole lot of dialogue going on the inside. But it's because I'm working through
• 28:27
  stuff now instead of my mind having control over the show, instead of my
• 28:32
  mind like being the conductor right conducting the band or the symphony or whatever is
• 28:38
  going on. But that's how it felt for me for the long time,
• 28:41
  and I was like I got to witness well, fuck, there dev goes
• 28:45
  again, doing her shit again, you know what I mean back in the
• 28:47
  day. So it's like, oh, there she goes again. She drank
• 28:49
  too much. You know, she's gonna pay the price for a couple of
• 28:52
  days on this one, I think. And you know, it's funny because
• 28:56
  it's because that was my experiences before. Now it's like, those don't need
• 28:59
  to be in my experience for me to feel fulfilled. They don't have to
• 29:03
  be in my experience because I don't need to be distracted from these emotions that
• 29:07
  are coming up. Now. I'm not saying that sometimes I don't need a
• 29:10
  distraction because sometimes I'm overwhelmed by everything and I can't deal with it right that
• 29:14
  moment. And that's fine. Then you just go find go play the game
• 29:17
  for a minute, Go find a video with puppies and kittens or something silly.
• 29:21
  Someone falling down and you know, on ice. I don't know why
• 29:23
  every time I see someone stepping on ice, it's like, why is that
• 29:26
  hilarious? Because I've had moments. Okay, I've had moments when I worked
• 29:30
  at as a detention officer at a local jail. I remember stepping out of
• 29:36
  my vehicle. I'm direct in my uniform, I've got my duty belt on.
• 29:40
  I'm serious, I got my jacket on. I step out on the
• 29:42
  on of my truck and boom right on my back. Because right back to
• 29:45
  the thing. At this time, we were at a new facility and we
• 29:48
  had video cameras everywhere, so I was like and then I'm like, hey,
• 29:52
  did you guys catch that? And they didn't see it, but it's
• 29:56
  like it was just hilarious. You know, that was for me, that
• 29:57
  was hilarious. So for me, sometimes you know, watching stuff, someone
• 30:00
  that's slipping on ice, and let her trying to get up. And it's
• 30:03
  kind of funny. Why because the old stuff, right, Oh, look
• 30:07
  at them in the struggle trying to get up. But it's it's just a
• 30:11
  matter of us laughing at ourselves. It's not that there's something wrong and we're
• 30:15
  not laughing that someone's hurt oring. That kind of stuff is just laughing.
• 30:19
  My mom taught me when I was little. I don't do this anymore,
• 30:22
  obviously because I'm of the grown ass adult, but she would teach us every
• 30:29
  time we were even get a shot, we would laugh. She would get
• 30:30
  us laughing before we got our shots, so we weren't trying or making a
• 30:33
  big deal about it. So of course that can be kind of sadistic,
• 30:37
  I guess in some ways. But anyways, it helped me to deal with
• 30:41
  it. I was fine until you know, I saw a kid other kids
• 30:44
  losing their mind because they were getting ready to get a shot. But it's
• 30:47
  funny, and it's it's just how it's our perspective when we see these things,
• 30:49
  right, it's not like it's a bad thing. It's however we're going
• 30:52
  to look at it. We can look at it from a victim state.
• 30:55
  We can look at it from a healing state. We can look at it
• 30:56
  from just from being in a piece of love and then peace and love and
• 31:02
  watching that person having their experience without having an attachment too, but just witnessing
• 31:07
  them how they're responding, because guess what that was me at one time or
• 31:10
  another. That's how I might have responded or how I had responded before.
• 31:15
  So it's just it's not it's just to have the experience to witness how things
• 31:18
  are evolving and how smart these new kids are when they're born, and how
• 31:22
  they're ready to take on the world such a young I mean infants that are
• 31:27
  holding their heads up without a problem. It's kind of that's kind of blows
• 31:30
  my mind. They're just so evolved because they're ready for the next thing.
• 31:34
  They came in ready, but so did we. So it's not saying that
• 31:38
  we didn't come in because we had our own tasks to do when we came
• 31:41
  into these physical bodies, and we've done it. I would say a lot
• 31:45
  of us have done it. Even the people that we would say aren't doing
• 31:48
  it, they are doing it. They are propelling us maybe forward, they
• 31:52
  might be giving us the motivation like that. I've been in that space,
• 31:55
  and I don't want to feel that way anymore. So it's like, there's
• 31:57
  just it's again perspective, right, got all these opportunities to look around us
• 32:01
  and see how we want to respond or what do we want in our experience.
• 32:05
  It's around us all the time. It's a video the other day and
• 32:09
  it was it was short, it was like maybe thirty seconds or less,
• 32:14
  and somebody flailing a lot around on the ice and the caption was when the
• 32:20
  Devil's trying to take you down, but the Lord's got you. They never
• 32:23
  fell. It was hysterical. They're laying around on his ice and then they
• 32:29
  almost lose it in their stent and it was just and then they walked away.
• 32:35
  That's all. Yeah, that's awesome, Like and I had a full
• 32:38
  visual on that, so that's super cool too. Oh yeah, and that
• 32:43
  you know, when it comes to comes to memories, when you're in a
• 32:46
  heavy emotion, we'll think about what memories you're thinking about. If you're staying
• 32:53
  stuck in that heavy emotion, you know, you're thinking about the experiences,
• 32:59
  the memory of when you made a bad decision and the relationships didn't work out
• 33:06
  and it was your you know, you beat yourself how what was what did
• 33:08
  I do wrong? How come they left me? I'm not good enough?
• 33:13
  Right? Or the abusive parents, why would they do that to a child?
• 33:16
  And you know when you're when you're thinking about memories, that's keeping you
• 33:21
  in the heavy emotion. Then take a moment, recognize that, acknowledge it,
• 33:25
  and know that there were good memories in there as well. If you
• 33:29
  had a pet, maybe you had an amazing bond with your pet, and
• 33:32
  even though the abuse was happening that moment, those moments with your your pet,
• 33:37
  or maybe you know, taking the dog outside and playing fetch or just
• 33:43
  running or just rolling around in the in the grass, those memories are still
• 33:47
  there. But what do we do. We're drama based, so we're going
• 33:52
  to focus on all the bullshit that happened, not the good stuff that happened.
• 33:55
  And I did it too, so I'm not prone to saying I'm was
• 34:00
  perfect at my memories because my memories kept me stuck in my anger, in
• 34:05
  my resentment, in my guilt, all the stuff. So maybe you start
• 34:10
  there, start thinking more about the blissful moments, the joyful moments, the
• 34:19
  laughter, those moments of laughter, and be in that space more often.
• 34:24
  It's it suggested that for every negative thought you have, you need to have
• 34:30
  three positive thoughts right after that, just to counterbalance it. And I know
• 34:37
  I lived in negative thinking all the time. Having a positive thought wasn't I
• 34:45
  didn't even know what that was really. It just like, what do you
• 34:46
  mean? I have a positive thought about what life sucks and there's nothing to
• 34:51
  be positive about? Right? Well, that's a false story. It was
• 34:57
  a story I created and believed it. And so there were some amazing moments
• 35:01
  in my life as a child that they're coming up now because I'm creating the
• 35:07
  space for myself to remember them, where even in that heavy emotion, you
• 35:16
  can still think about those lighter moments and give more attention to that and even
• 35:23
  just relish in it. So it's I mean, everything's practice, and there's
• 35:29
  things that you have to implement it for things to change. And you have
• 35:35
  to decide have I had enough? Have I had enough of not feeling good
• 35:39
  meaning not feeling good in your body, not feeling good in your mental state,
• 35:44
  not feeling good in your emotions? Have you had enough yet? I
• 35:46
  mean I got to where I had enough. I was just like, something's
• 35:51
  got to change. Once you acknowledge it and you open that door, all
• 35:54
  kinds of information comes. But when you're in your resistance, when you're not
• 36:00
  have your emotion, you're keeping the door shut and you're like, I just
• 36:02
  want to sit here and suffer. Okay, Well then you're just gonna get
• 36:06
  more suffering and you're just gonna be there. And there's no judgment around that
• 36:10
  from us. We're not. We're just that's your choice. It's up to
• 36:14
  you. But I know when I was in my suffering, I knew it
• 36:16
  didn't feel good. I knew I didn't want to keep doing that. I
• 36:20
  knew I didn't want to live forty to fifty more years and take my last
• 36:23
  breath still suffering. I'm like, no, this doesn't make sense to me.
• 36:29
  Why would I want to And then hearing at that time and thinking that
• 36:34
  because people they still say it today, this is your only life. That
• 36:38
  definitely didn't make sense to me, but I didn't have anything else to say
• 36:43
  differently at that time, and I'm like, Okay, so this is my
• 36:46
  life and I'm angry and then I'm gonna die. Why would I do that?
• 36:55
  That makes no sense? That makes no sense. So it's up to
• 37:00
  me to be open to other ideas about life, about what I was told
• 37:12
  or what I was seeing as truth, but I knew within me it wasn't
• 37:16
  truth because really back in the day, like even when I was in that
• 37:22
  in those heavy emotions, I knew, I'm like, that doesn't make sense
• 37:27
  that we would have one chance, one life to do this and then what
• 37:37
  there It just I was like, no, there's more where, there's way
• 37:42
  more to what's going on. But I just didn't have the answers. But
• 37:45
  I didn't. I finally got information that resonated. Some of that information has
• 37:50
  changed over time, and that's okay, but it's gotten me to where I
• 37:52
  am, and that's that's great. Like I feel so good now. And
• 38:00
  and I had an incident happen just a few days ago. Normally I would
• 38:06
  be pissed, like off the charts pissed, and it would have defined my
• 38:13
  entire day because then when I got to work, there was something else that
• 38:17
  happened, and I would have just been, all right, here we go,
• 38:22
  it's gonna be a day, right, and it would just it would
• 38:24
  have just notedball. Nope, didn't let it happen. Did I did not
• 38:29
  let that happen. I'm like, Okay, well, this is where we're
• 38:31
  at, this is what's happened. We're just gonna deal with it and finish
• 38:37
  getting ready for work, go to work. Incident happened, Just gonna deal
• 38:42
  with it. We're just gonna move on. Like it was so calm,
• 38:45
  so easy. The rest of my day was fantastic. I'm like, this
• 38:51
  is how it is. Every experience is a moment. It is a moment
• 38:54
  in time. It does not define the rest of your day, or the
• 38:58
  rest of your week, or the rest of your your year. It's it's
• 39:00
  a moment. And this is something I've been sharing with the people I work
• 39:07
  with, is they're just like, oh my gosh, it's been a day.
• 39:10
  I'm like, no, it hasn't because the day's not even guaranteed,
• 39:17
  right, you don't even know you're gonna take an next break. So it
• 39:21
  was a moment. This happened. Now we're gonna move through it and take
• 39:25
  care of it, and then we're gonna go on with our day and have
• 39:29
  a good day. Like that's my choice, because I'm tired of the suffering.
• 39:37
  I'm tired of setting that precedence that just because I stubbed my toe first
• 39:42
  thing in the morning. The whole day's shit. I'm tired of doing that.
• 39:45
  It's exhausting and I don't want to do it anymore. I'm just like,
• 39:49
  it's not for me. That's what that was my decision. Yeah,
• 39:52
  And we don't have to write and we don't have to that's the whole big
• 39:54
  deal. We didn't know that we didn't have to, right, We just
• 39:58
  thought that was part of the process. Hey, this is what happened this
• 40:00
  morning, and we feed the story right something that And I haven't had this
• 40:04
  experience, but I've had I've listened to enough psychic mediums that say that however
• 40:08
  we are here, we're still going to be that same way once we pass
• 40:12
  over, that we're still going to go through our stuff. And it's like,
• 40:15
  why not utilize this timeframe to evolve and not be in that same space?
• 40:20
  You know what I mean? If we're always talking about you're going to
• 40:22
  take yourself with you, Like, no matter what, you're still going to
• 40:24
  take yourself with you. You're still going to take your bs, your belief
• 40:29
  system, right, your bullshit, all of it. It's all kind of
• 40:30
  applies, but you're going to take all that with you even as you go
• 40:35
  on too. When you cross over and you're gonna be, then you get
• 40:37
  to see things differently, and then of course you evolve. But why not
• 40:42
  evolve here? Right? We can when we talk about changing our past,
• 40:45
  we can change our past by our thoughts. Right. I can sit here
• 40:50
  for the longest time and I never even process that. Maybe that's where I've
• 40:52
  eliminated, you know, my memories for childhood. But I could sit here
• 40:58
  and say, oh, well, I was sexually usted by my grandfather and
• 41:00
  my uncle, and it's like I could I could go that process and go
• 41:05
  down that that line, or I could be just like you said, I
• 41:08
  could focus on gosh. I could remember running around with sticks with my sister
• 41:13
  in our front yard, and those were our horses, and mine was Whiskey
• 41:16
  because whatever movie I saw on TV at the time was hilarious and his horses
• 41:21
  was named Whiskey. So that was my horse's name for for always, or
• 41:24
  playing with matchbox cars, or playing like all the times, or sitting in
• 41:29
  those metal ten like buckets that you would put for like dog water or something
• 41:35
  outside we would sit we you know, that was our pool. You know,
• 41:37
  we would cool off that way in the summertime. So it's like remembering
• 41:43
  all those things, that's how it changes, or even an experience you had,
• 41:45
  So like when someone transitions, you can look back and call that a
• 41:49
  loss that we didn't get to have that experience, but you did get to
• 41:52
  have that experience. But it's it's perspective, and it's like find the times
• 41:57
  that you did have, the great times, and then focus on that.
• 42:00
  That changes things. And now it's not such a heapiness and that even changes
• 42:04
  I believe, And is it in my experience right now, I don't know.
• 42:07
  I haven't. I can't tell you that it's been my personal experience,
• 42:09
  but from someone that's crossed over, I feel like it changes there. If
• 42:15
  we're looking at the past and always seeing heaviness, then we keep almost kind
• 42:17
  of a heaviness on that person that's no longer here in this physical body.
• 42:22
  But so if I can look back and find a positive and keep it light
• 42:24
  and see all the joy that was in those times, I'm actually given that
• 42:28
  person joy that's on the other side. And that's even whether they've left their
• 42:31
  physical body or not. It's the same thing even if I've had I could
• 42:36
  use my stepdad for experience. I know that there is lots of experiences that
• 42:38
  we had grown up that were freaking awesome, and those are the experiences I
• 42:43
  can focus on. Or I can focus on the last moment that we had
• 42:45
  a conversation together, do you know what I mean. So it's like it's
• 42:47
  my choice and I can be there however I want to, and I can
• 42:52
  keep myself in that space if I want to or I don't have to,
• 42:54
  but it's still the same thing. I can send all this positivity and for
• 42:59
  me, if I'm not willing or not able to deal with the decisions that
• 43:02
  someone else made or circumstances or my perspective on things, that's fine too.
• 43:07
  But I don't sit and focus on it because I just let it go.
• 43:10
  And when pieces, if I focus on it would make it worse. And
• 43:14
  now I bring more stuff like that into my experience. By me letting it
• 43:17
  go, I allow solutions to come into play. I allow myself to change,
• 43:23
  my inner dialogue to change, I allow I give myself permission to be
• 43:29
  in the space that I'm at right now, and then eventually it just falls
• 43:31
  away anyways, because I'm not fighting it, I'm not resisting it. I'm
• 43:36
  not pushing it, I'm not trying to fix it. I'm just being.
• 43:40
  And that's how we resolve so many things just by being just being right now.
• 43:45
  And so if you're in that space, and it's so easy to say
• 43:49
  that, because when you're in the space, you're in the space. And
• 43:52
  sometimes it you know, it takes a few minutes or a few days,
• 43:53
  or sometimes years. I don't know, because I've been in the year things
• 43:58
  not. I mean, it's not typically I would say no, but I
• 44:00
  would say, well, it's been three years since I spoke to my stepdad,
• 44:04
  So I mean, so there is that too, But it's all matter
• 44:07
  of perspective. And like I said, you can I can sit and focus
• 44:10
  on all the things that were wonderful Disneyland that you know, enjoying playing with
• 44:15
  my brother and the jacuzzi with snorkels on or smashing bugs or whatever we were
• 44:20
  doing, Like, those are the things to focus on and to put that
• 44:23
  so much joy and energy into. And then that other person that you're thinking
• 44:28
  about is getting that joy too. And one of the things that I learned
• 44:35
  a long time ago when I was in the process of the heaviness of my
• 44:38
  healing a teacher said, just pick one memory, one memory that puts a
• 44:45
  smile on your face, and every time you start having negative thinking or you're
• 44:52
  feeling down, think of that one memory so that it can shift your energy.
• 44:55
  So I add that one memory and I'll just share real quick. Is
• 45:00
  where I grew up, we actually had sidewalks and street lights. Where I
• 45:04
  live now we don't have sidewalks in the neighborhood in most places. But anyway,
• 45:09
  so my best friend at the time lived across the street, and we
• 45:15
  roller skating was a big deal, and we just roller skate up and down
• 45:19
  the sidewalk. But this one particular day, just being silly girls and laughing
• 45:28
  hysterically, and we both fell and we were laughing so hard I peed my
• 45:32
  pants. Now, it was in the summer, and I had my mom
• 45:37
  made me wear jeans because I was tomboyish and I had bruises all over because
• 45:42
  I was climbing trees and over walls and doing all the things. And she's
• 45:45
  like, you gotta wear pants because people aren't even think I abuse you,
• 45:49
  like I beat you. And I'm like, god, mom is he was
• 45:51
  like ninety degrees outside, But anyway, So anyway, I peed my pants
• 45:54
  and then we're laughing so hard, and we're trying to sneak into my house
• 46:00
  without my mom knowing that I peed my pants, but we're giggling and laughing
• 46:06
  and she's like, what are you girls up? Do nothing? Mom,
• 46:07
  It's just but just that memory is what kept got me through a lot of
• 46:14
  my healing process. I had to I just go back to that and I
• 46:16
  would just it would just you know, when I think about now, I
• 46:21
  could actually laugh about it, but when I was in the depths of my
• 46:24
  you know, emotions, it would at least put a smile on my face.
• 46:29
  And that's all you need, like just shift that energy just a little
• 46:31
  bit, and it helps so much. That's awesome. I like that because
• 46:38
  we all have have memories, you know. I was even thinking because I've
• 46:43
  got family members that have had a rough growing up and they would, you
• 46:47
  know, they would run to a safe house or whatever. But it's like
• 46:52
  even the there was there's still moments and amongst that stuff, like the that
• 46:57
  feeling of I got away or that feeling you know, the freedom, or
• 47:00
  the there's just different different ways of looking at things and not keeping yourself.
• 47:06
  Like you were singing, in that despair really or that those feelings of you
• 47:09
  know, locking ourselves in and it's like, we don't have to lock ourselves
• 47:13
  into that place. But there is so much to gain from, you know,
• 47:16
  revisiting some of that stuff and seeing it differently and not putting so much
• 47:21
  energy or gosh, if you want to put it in a different aspect,
• 47:23
  not giving so much energy to the other person that you don't want to be
• 47:28
  giving energy to, you know, in the first place. And because that's
• 47:30
  a lot of times that's what happens. You're you don't realize how much energy
• 47:35
  you're giving to someone, whether it's hate or it's love, it's you're still
• 47:37
  giving energy away to a hurt to something else doesn't always have to be a
• 47:43
  person, who could be a place, situation. It's so many different things.
• 47:45
  But it's just being aware of that too, and that can shift things.
• 47:50
  It's like no, no, I'm I mean, if that's your motivation,
• 47:52
  like, no, no, I'm not giving you any energy to this.
• 47:53
  I'm going to find a way. I'm going to find a way to
• 47:58
  conquer this or to rise above it, or to see it from a different
• 48:00
  perspective so that it's not I'm not giving away power to somebody else. Yep.
• 48:08
  And that's what we do right when we're thinking about them and we're staying
• 48:12
  sad or depressed or angry or feeling that shame or guilt or replaying that scenario
• 48:16
  in our head, and then all the shitta kuda wouldas and yeah, we're
• 48:23
  giving the power to them, We're giving the energy to them. They have
• 48:28
  the control. And what really makes me mad about that is what I mean
• 48:32
  it It had It took something to piss me of, like make me so
• 48:37
  mad about it that I was like, oh no, this is gonna change,
• 48:42
  because if you are reliving those heavy scenarios in your head, you're giving
• 48:50
  the power to that person and they're not even with you anymore. They're not
• 48:52
  even in the room anymore. But what made me mad was even if they
• 48:57
  are not in the physical body anymore, they still have the power. And
• 49:00
  that was the case with the person who molested me. And I was like,
• 49:05
  oh no, no, we're not gonna play this game no more.
• 49:08
  And I knew, I knew like it had it made me mad to think
• 49:14
  about that that they're not even here anymore and they still have power over me.
• 49:19
  Because I'm thinking about them, and there's that situation and it's keeping me
• 49:22
  stuck in the anger and the resentment and the guilt and the shame. Nope,
• 49:28
  that needs to change, right But we also come back to every single
• 49:34
  week. It was my choice. I was tired of feeling that way,
• 49:42
  and it took that to get my attention. For somebody to say that to
• 49:45
  me, it got my attention. It's like, Hm, Nope, that's
• 49:49
  gonna change right now, which means I still had to do some healing around
• 49:52
  it, because I mean there's still some stuff you know, you gotta not
• 50:00
  clear up. So true, and it's just exploring it because you really because
• 50:07
  sometimes we just don't know. I mean sometimes I just don't know what to
• 50:09
  do with some of the stuff that you know that kind of comes forward.
• 50:13
  So it's asking, like I asked with inside of myself for that, for
• 50:17
  information or for guidance, and it comes and then I just let it go.
• 50:22
  I don't sit there and be like, Okay, got my pencil ready
• 50:24
  to go. I mean sometimes I do if i'm automatic writing, but I'm
• 50:28
  in a different mindset when i'm doing that too, So but if I'm sitting
• 50:30
  there, I'll be like I'm not I'm not typically doing that. I'm like
• 50:34
  set it out loud, or I've asked myself with inside of myself, and
• 50:37
  then I just leave it and then I go on and do my stuff and
• 50:39
  it comes up. You'll know. You'll know when you're receiving answer or guidance
• 50:43
  to something specific. It's it's just you just know. It's like you it's
• 50:47
  like talking to someone and giving them information and they're very quiet and they don't
• 50:51
  say anything for a while, and then they come back and say, hey,
• 50:53
  this is what I was, this is where it's coming from, or
• 50:55
  this is what I recognized for you. So I mean, because that happens
• 51:00
  a lot too. Because sometimes again and it was something else you had said
• 51:05
  before, like enjoy the pauses, like instead of feeling like you have to
• 51:08
  fill the space of a pause, be in the pause, like pause,
• 51:13
  take a breath in that space. You don't have to answer something right away,
• 51:15
  and if you don't have answers, you don't have to answer at all.
• 51:19
  And then by doing a lot of this stuff, it's like all of
• 51:21
  this is like if you want to go back to the mediumship stuff, all
• 51:24
  of it is kind of like kind of guiding you into that mediumship. It
• 51:28
  really is. Because it's quieting in the mind, you're finding different solutions because
• 51:30
  you're listening from within for the solutions. And then you start recognizing that you're
• 51:35
  getting so much more communication or there's so much more going on than you had
• 51:38
  thought before that you had acknowledged before, and then that's when it starts getting
• 51:45
  more exciting and more joyful, this whole process. But because quieting the mind,
• 51:51
  it's it's awesome. It's awesome to be in that space where you don't
• 51:53
  have anything going and if it's you're just focused on your breath or you're just
• 51:58
  focused on you know, daydreaming. Gosh, how many times you heard daydreaming
• 52:02
  is so bad and it's like, now, no, it's not daydreaming I
• 52:06
  think is phenomenal. You should be doing it all the time. It's that's
• 52:09
  your imagination and letting it go wild. Not being anything much different than my
• 52:15
  friend telling me about her dream and how you know, things all of a
• 52:17
  sudden shifted into cotton candy, light, fluffy and sweet, right like the
• 52:22
  process that's there's so much information in those little dreams like that, but it's
• 52:27
  just keeping things light and the more that we do that, then we don't
• 52:30
  get so kind of wrapped up into it, intertwined with stuff that doesn't feel
• 52:35
  good unless you want you and if you want to go down that route,
• 52:37
  go down that route, but totally feel it and see what kind of trigger
• 52:40
  that does for you, because then that's that's an opportunity too. It's an
• 52:44
  opportunity to see that you still had stuff with inside of yourself that needed to
• 52:47
  be dealt with in order for you to achieve whatever you're going for next,
• 52:52
  in order for you to achieve the quiet mind. So it's like it's just
• 52:55
  enjoying all the whole journey. The whole journey is it's fun and like it's
• 53:00
  just to relish in all of it. And even in this stuff it's like
• 53:04
  when it catches you off guard or it seems like it throws you off balance
• 53:07
  a bit, it's like even being in that space and recognizing what it has
• 53:10
  to offer you, because there's something that's there for us all in those little,
• 53:15
  those little quiet moments when we just sit and pay attention to it.
• 53:20
  There was a few times which kind of goes on to something else, but
• 53:22
  there was a few times during group and it's like someone would say, oh
• 53:25
  my god, that was great, and I'm like, I don't even know
• 53:27
  what the hell I said, Like it's so so it's like, oh my
• 53:30
  gosh. Like for me when they'd say that, I'd be like and I
• 53:32
  would sit there for a second, like what did I say? That was
• 53:35
  so great? Like as I didn't hear what I said. I didn't hear.
• 53:37
  I don't it's weird. So I started to notice little things. But
• 53:42
  it's all part of this progression, right, It's all part of this whole
• 53:44
  thing. It's not we're all for me. I was wanting all this big,
• 53:47
  huge to do, you know, all at one time. Like I've
• 53:51
  heard one person say she was channeling and she was like someone took her suit
• 53:54
  and like laid it over the back of the seat and then she was this
• 53:58
  other being would have come through her and start speaking, and that for me,
• 54:01
  I expect it to be something like that, But it's like it happens
• 54:06
  so often, and it's just how do we know by being aware, like
• 54:08
  paying attention to this stuff, And it's like noticing the stuff that's going on
• 54:13
  around you when someone says something and is like it happened a couple of times
• 54:15
  and I was like, well, I don't even know what I said,
• 54:17
  Like I don't, Okay, thank you, You're welcome. I don't know
• 54:21
  because I don't. I couldn't add anything to I had no clue. It's
• 54:24
  like, where, how what was that? So? And it's probably I
• 54:30
  would say a lot. It's it's just to be in that space of recognizing
• 54:34
  how our soul can flow right through us. And I invite that on a
• 54:37
  regular basis too, just for my soul to come through and speak, speak
• 54:42
  what you want to speak. And because I catch myself how often we say
• 54:46
  I know, but I'll catch myself thinking about something and when I'm thinking about
• 54:51
  it, now i'm thinking about it, processing it. I'm not receiving the
• 54:53
  information. But but I've been on both sides of that, so I recognize
• 54:57
  when I'm receiving the information and when I'm thinking and I catch myself, I'm
• 55:00
  like, oh, well those are those are lovely thoughts. But what else?
• 55:06
  So it's like and then being quiet and then seeing what else comes forward.
• 55:09
  So it's just there's so much too. We have so many tools around
• 55:15
  us, and I couldn't have seen these tools in the beginning of this journey.
• 55:19
  Those tools would would not have done I don't think they would have done
• 55:22
  me any good because I was still in the muck of things. But it
• 55:25
  wasn't that I was in a bad space. It was I was just in
• 55:29
  a space and I made it to where I am right now. So it's
• 55:31
  like anybody can do it, and it can go as fast as you wanted
• 55:35
  to go. It just depends on your resistance. And are you pushing it
• 55:37
  or are you allowing it? Or are you you know what I mean?
• 55:39
  Are you in the boat and you're facing upstream and you're paddling as hard as
• 55:43
  you can and going nowhere? Are you letting yourself just go and float and
• 55:46
  then enjoying all the things that you get to see along the way. I
• 55:52
  want to enjoy all the things I get to see along the way. I'm
• 55:58
  just gonna goes along with what you're talking about that when I'm faced with something
• 56:05
  a little challenging now, instead of you know, getting in the depths of
• 56:09
  it emotionally, I talked, you know, like you said, talk to
• 56:15
  spirit, and I'm like, well, what's that all about? Right?
• 56:17
  I have a little bit of aggression because I'm like, well, what the
• 56:20
  hell, right, what's that all about. And I've posed the question,
• 56:25
  and I'll tell you. I'll be in the shower, I'll be getting ready
• 56:29
  for my day, I'll be driving to work, and the information bam,
• 56:34
  it was for this, Like it just drops I just called it just drops
• 56:38
  in, and I'll go, oh, okay, I can see that,
• 56:42
  Like I have these conversations. Yeah, But that's the way I have to
• 56:49
  pose the question, instead of being a victim to it, instead of beating
• 56:53
  myself up over it, instead of being attached to my story I I'm not
• 56:58
  good enough and what's wrong with me? And all that. It's like,
• 57:00
  no, what was that all about? So Spirit and I we already have
• 57:06
  this, we already have this connection. Now they are like I'm in the
• 57:08
  space of learning and being curious about my life and having more understanding about how
• 57:14
  I'm showing up in this physical world. And so when I say, what's
• 57:17
  that all about? That means what am I learning? What lesson was I
• 57:22
  supposed to get out of this? Why was I in this experience? Or
• 57:27
  why did I observe? What's it all about? And I just wrap it
• 57:30
  up in that that question, and then I'll go about my day whatever,
• 57:35
  and then it'll come in at a point where I'm a little quieter in my
• 57:38
  mind, and then the information just comes in and it's like, oh,
• 57:45
  okay, I can see that, I can get that. I received that.
• 57:47
  Then it's up to me what am I going to do with that information?
• 57:52
  How am I going to apply it? What am I going to change?
• 57:54
  How am I going to change my focus? Right, it's like it's
• 57:58
  a whole process, and so it's like, just let me know what was
• 58:01
  that all about? So I can do what I need to do with it.
• 58:05
  And then in you know, in the earlier days, I start well
• 58:14
  like twenty eight. I mean before that I knew about spiritual stuff, but
• 58:17
  I didn't understand it, and it was so fear based that you just didn't
• 58:21
  talk about it. But after twenty eight, when I started learning things,
• 58:24
  and just like we talk about have that connection to spirit, you can connect
• 58:30
  with your loved ones, you can quiet your mind, you can have a
• 58:35
  you know, feel that peace in your body and relaxation and all that.
• 58:37
  That's great. I knew that, and I knew I wanted to do that,
• 58:42
  but I was still heavy in my emotions. So then the question was
• 58:45
  how do I do that. I know it's possible. People are doing it
• 58:52
  and they're teaching about it. How do I do that? Well, you
• 58:57
  got to start somewhere, learn to be with yourself. Welln't like myself,
• 59:01
  so we can't do that. Well, you know, just breathe deep and
• 59:06
  just sit and be still. No, I can't do that because my mind's
• 59:08
  too busy and I am a single mom and I have a child and I
• 59:12
  don't have any time to right. So it was just like, well,
• 59:15
  here's how you do it, and then it was like, no, I
• 59:16
  can't. Well here's what you know. I can't. So it was just
• 59:22
  playing that game for a while until I was like all right, yeah,
• 59:25
  I gotta do it, so then implementing it right. So I had the
• 59:32
  tools, I knew the tools, but I wasn't utilizing the tools, even
• 59:37
  though those tools were going to get me to where I wanted to be.
• 59:38
  So there's that. I understand this conversation pretty well, very well. It's
• 59:47
  fun though, because we had the choice all along, and it was it
• 59:52
  was our decision. It was it was our decision to stay in those places
• 59:55
  or to not stay in those places. And it's like, I understand what
• 59:59
  you're saying, and I understand also like we get finally got to be like
• 1:00:02
  I'm not doing this anymore, and it's like there's been things that even still
• 1:00:07
  that I've done, like after I've gone through a lot of these growth and
• 1:00:10
  stuff like that, that I still do and it's like I don't know how
• 1:00:13
  to stop. Well you just stop, Okay, Well I don't know how.
• 1:00:15
  I don't know how to do that. But by me saying I don't
• 1:00:19
  know how, I was actually getting get receiving guidance even more how to get
• 1:00:22
  there because now I'm at the other side of it, and I couldn't tell
• 1:00:24
  you what did I do that was so different? I don't know besides listen,
• 1:00:30
  that's one of the biggest things, you know. I think it was
• 1:00:31
  eat, pray, love that she went to. It wasn't like a monastery.
• 1:00:36
  It was something like that right where she goes and and she can't talk
• 1:00:39
  at all, and that there's so much value in that of Really, I've
• 1:00:43
  thought about making a sign for myself a few times and just saying, you
• 1:00:45
  know, I'm I'm on the silence journey right now because we can receive so
• 1:00:50
  much more by being in that silence. And I before there's no way I
• 1:00:53
  could have ever been in that space ever, But now I can because I
• 1:00:58
  don't feel like I don't have to contribute something to a conversation. I get
• 1:01:02
  to be in that space, but I can just be the fly on the
• 1:01:06
  wall watching things. I don't have to actually be in it. But the
• 1:01:09
  things are different now, So it's like being in that space. Maybe we
• 1:01:13
  should, you know, think about doing that kind of stuff. I would
• 1:01:16
  make it hard to answer the phone calls. I'd be like, you're gonna
• 1:01:20
  have to text me because I can't talk right now. And that's just honoring
• 1:01:23
  ourselves. So and taking that journey. What does she do it for like
• 1:01:28
  thirty days or something like that. I could do that for thirty days.
• 1:01:31
  I don't It would be kind of different with the grandkids being over. But
• 1:01:35
  you know, there's a lot of communication that happens in that way too.
• 1:01:37
  Because I'm talking to people yesterday and it's like, oh, yeah, well
• 1:01:39
  be in my partner. We communicate telepathically. I'm like, we could all
• 1:01:44
  do that. That's not just limited to one person. That's just what are
• 1:01:46
  our practice. Our practice has been you're born, you learn how to speak
• 1:01:51
  a language. We don't sit and like communicate with our children telepathically, even
• 1:01:55
  though we would have so much more to gain because we're so limited by thinking
• 1:01:59
  that they're just just these babies. And they're not just babies. They're a
• 1:02:01
  soul just like you are that just came into a physical body. So they
• 1:02:06
  still have all this information, they're just now limited to their their voice box.
• 1:02:10
  Isn't you can utilize. Now. I'm watching my grandson, my youngest
• 1:02:15
  one right now, he's almost four months old, and you know, his
• 1:02:20
  family, his parents talking to him, and how he's trying to like he's
• 1:02:24
  talking, he's saying things that we're just not getting it because but because the
• 1:02:30
  words, the look in his face and when he's moving his mouth and saying
• 1:02:35
  things like there's he's got a lot to say. There's a lot going on
• 1:02:37
  there. And it's and again, like I said, it's all about being
• 1:02:42
  telepathic. Well how do we do that. It's practicing, it's taking Amy's
• 1:02:45
  groups, it's coming into other groups and exploring things. It's it's it's just
• 1:02:50
  having basic cards, you know, playing with your kids with a deck of
• 1:02:53
  cards and like what color is this next card? What is the number on
• 1:02:57
  it, what's the letter on it, what's what do you see right now
• 1:03:00
  when you're looking at this stuff, because we can all do this, we
• 1:03:01
  just haven't been exploring it, because we've been exploring like how do you learn
• 1:03:05
  how to crawl? How do you learn how to walk? How do you
• 1:03:07
  write a bike? How do you make money? You know what I mean?
• 1:03:09
  All these other things we've we've learned all that stuff just to be in
• 1:03:14
  this physical what we think that we're supposed to do in this physical but we
• 1:03:16
  could it could be so much easier. And words don't fulfill a lot of
• 1:03:22
  what we're meaning to say. It doesn't really it doesn't always portray exactly what
• 1:03:27
  we're feeling on insite, and there's so much open for interpretation, especially when
• 1:03:30
  you're just using your physical sense of sight or your filter for your own emotions
• 1:03:37
  or experiences. When that message comes through and then you've already got regardless of
• 1:03:42
  whatever that person meant to say to you or how they meant to say,
• 1:03:45
  you've already deciphered it in a different way and broken it down and had seen
• 1:03:49
  it differently. Unless you're paying attention to what you can't see, you know,
• 1:03:52
  the energy of it, the telepathic stuff. So it's like we all
• 1:03:57
  have this capability, and I see us going in that direction. I think
• 1:04:00
  it's going to go more and more that direction, I really do. And
• 1:04:03
  it's in that space. It is honesty. It is you standing in front
• 1:04:06
  of a group and you don't even have to say that you're nervous, because
• 1:04:11
  they would recognize that you were nervous, do you know what I mean?
• 1:04:13
  Because they've they've they have a filter, they've been through that space before to
• 1:04:16
  recognize it. And then being in that space and then be in that space
• 1:04:19
  of how do you support your speaker that's sitting up there right now and des
• 1:04:24
  by like filling all this love in your heart and that beams it up to
• 1:04:27
  that person and that that helps them get out of that three D. And
• 1:04:30
  now they're in that flow of that information that they've gained, that needed spirit
• 1:04:35
  knows exactly what needs to be brought to the group that's in front of you,
• 1:04:38
  and that's what you were doing once you got past it. Hey,
• 1:04:41
  I'm nervous. But I've even heard, like, you want to talk about
• 1:04:44
  mediums Long Island medium, right, Teresa Caputo talking about stuff and she gets
• 1:04:48
  nervous and stuff like that in front of groups and everything too. So it's
• 1:04:51
  like that's all these things that are like a natural but we've labeled as nervous.
• 1:04:56
  But it's like an excitement at the same time, Right, it's exciting
• 1:05:00
  signing that you're now in front of a group of twenty people that you don't
• 1:05:02
  even know any of these people. These are not people from your experience,
• 1:05:08
  so it's like it's it's pretty awesome that they signed up, and it's like,
• 1:05:11
  Okay, now they're gonna be like, when's the next class? When
• 1:05:14
  are we going to have a next group getting together again? And when is
• 1:05:16
  this gonna do this? How can how can I get you to come to
• 1:05:19
  my house and teach a bunch of us? How can you do this?
• 1:05:23
  So your whole journey, because if you would have stayed fixed in your journey,
• 1:05:26
  like this is the way it's gonna be, I'm gonna be doing this,
• 1:05:28
  this and this, that's it. No, it could with you going
• 1:05:31
  back to work. It you allowed everything to be a possibility, and then
• 1:05:35
  look at all the possibilities that have happened for you and things that have changed
• 1:05:40
  that you've done now that you probably hadn't done before. And it wasn't something
• 1:05:44
  that you had to manipulate, control, orchestrate. It was nothing to do
• 1:05:47
  with that. It was spirit was doing it. It was guiding you all
• 1:05:49
  along. Just let go. Just let go, Amy, Just let go,
• 1:05:53
  and you're gonna come. They're gonna people are gonna invite you to their
• 1:05:55
  house so that you can teach them about intuition. People are gonna do this
• 1:05:59
  so they can for this. They're going to be asking you to teach at
• 1:06:02
  the college. I could teach at the college. Yeah, teach you the
• 1:06:04
  college. You could do all this stuff. And now you got a whole
• 1:06:08
  other group of people that you get to have an effect on, which is
• 1:06:11
  freaking phenomenal. It really is. And it's just more people that are getting
• 1:06:15
  the opportunity to see things from a different place right this moment. Yeah,
• 1:06:21
  and that's awesome that, I mean, that's the story. Now I get
• 1:06:26
  to do this, I get to touch at least one person, But that's
• 1:06:30
  not even a true story, because that one person's going to affect how many
• 1:06:34
  more people after that? Ten twenty, fifty, one hundred, I don't
• 1:06:39
  know. But it's gonna ripple out in some way. They're gonna have a
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  conversation with this person. They're gonna say, hey, go to this class
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  like or just in their being, it's going to affect their household, their
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  job, right, the people in their in their environment. So so it's
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  not just and this is this is the realazay because you know, I think,
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  okay, well, even if one person shows up, am I going
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  to I'm going to teach class? Well, it's not just one person that
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  one physical body is showing up, but that physical being is going to go
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  and it's going to ripple out in some way. And and you never I
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  will tell you this, you never know who that person is and who they're
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  connected to. Yeah, because that one person that I show up to teach,
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  that might be a whole another door that opens that I would never have
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  have had if I didn't show up. So the universe is very sneaky sometimes.
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  And I was gonna say, it's eleven eleven again, does happened last
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  week? Yeah? This has been in my experience daily. It seems like,
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  Yeah, so the other thing you want to come back to you is
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  you're talking about you know, when I shared that, just standing in front
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  of this group of people who I don't even know, and I gave myself
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  permission, I voiced my permission to be nervous? Who does that? Who
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  do you know that does that? You can't do that at work? Right?
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  You just gotta you gotta put on that strong suit that I got this
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  and I'm good enough, and I'm gonna prove I'm good enough and I'm gonna
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  have the attitude and I'm gonna right, I'm not gonna ask for help.
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  And I got all these things going on in me that I'm just trying to
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  prove I'm good enough. Well, you know what, how about we teach
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  vulnerability. I am giving myself permission in front of this group of people out
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  loud to say I'm nervous and I'm feeling it in my body and I'm giving
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  myself permission and allowing myself to be nervous and it's okay. By demonstrating that,
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  I can guarantee not one person in that room has ever seen anybody do
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  that. I can guarantee it. I got to demonstrate that and teaching people
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  right then how to not stuff more feelings that could have been another feeling that
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  you stuck down and ignored. Right, And I'm just like, no,
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  I'm just geting get myself permission right here, right now, I'm gonna tell
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  every one of you I'm nervous. And you know what, that's a great
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  indicator for myself because as an introvert, I would have never done that.
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  As a person who's beaten theirself up, I would have never said that.
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  And on top of that, still being in that introverted type of space,
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  I would have never been in front of the class to begin with, just
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  saying and I kind of had that conversation yesterday. It's like a lot of
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  these things that we're talking about now, I would first and all, First
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  of all, never even been in front of a group. I would never
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  have participated. I was always a person that I said, it's like watching
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  double Dutch, you know, you got the ropes going both ways. And
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  I was always evaluating and sitting back and watching how things were going to go.
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  Before I knew I could jump into the conversation or work, how could
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  I contribute that I was going to be okay to match with this group so
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  that I didn't stick out like a thumb. But I still was getting being
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  seen and heard, you know, in so many ways. But and I'm
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  not getting hurt, like trying to control a situation. So just seeing how
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  this chameleon had to jump in to play double dutch, you know what I
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  mean. It was a lot like those things when you were talking about being
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  that ripple. Basically I saw like you're talking, and it's like the flow.
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  Of course, we've got this slow that's coming from the universe, from
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  the Earth that's coming into us at the time and making that it's torus,
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  right, But I see that happening and then coming out to these other people
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  that have been have shut themselves off so they're not receiving this flow coming in
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  to them. But now this ripple has just shot out from you to them.
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  It's coming from a spirit which doesn't take our energy away. It actually
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  fills us up because this is flowing from us to them. And then,
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  like you said, with the ripple of how many people it affects, because
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  then it's like each person you'd have to have all these balloons that come off
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  of and then those balloons would come off of them and the opposite, like
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  it would go all the way out. Is like like you said, you're
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  affecting thousands by affecting that one person thousands, and then you're now allowing that
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  person to that Now wait a minute, I can be in the flow of
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  this stuff too. Now they're allowing that flow, so it's not just them
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  being closed off. It's like it was just weird how I saw like arrows
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  coming in, and then it's like arrows going out to the people. And
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  then it's like them arrows going out and it's like maybe a little bit of
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  lights shining up higher there. They're allowing a little bit of a trickle,
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  and then it's getting bigger and bigger and bigger. Because that's how it starts.
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  Everyone. You know, how do you How do you make a difference
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  just by being you? That's how you make a difference. Yep, so
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  good, awesome, so good. There was a lot. We always come
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  with a lot of information in our every week, and so as always take
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  what resonates with you, implement it, come back and listen to it again,
• 1:12:11
  implement something else. But for anything to change, you have to make
• 1:12:16
  the decision to do it and then start. And it's not I'll start on
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  Monday, or I'll start next month, or I'll start when the new year
• 1:12:25
  start. You start, you just start. Yeah, So also share us
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  let people know these are conversations we're having. We've been doing this for coming
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  up on four years. Is that amazing to think about? That? Is
• 1:12:47
  amazing that you think about that in the child version, that where our child
• 1:12:50
  is now four years old and we've seen it evolve from the childlike to where
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  it's at right now. And if anything, go back and just look at
• 1:12:59
  my hair and my eyebrows, because they're pretty funny. I don't think I've
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  ever noticed that, so whatever, I went. Every once while see one
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  of the damages, I'm like, whoa girl, what are you thinking that
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  day? That's so funny. I guess I never never processed that, never
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  thought about that or anything that's funny. Oh, it's hysterical. I just
• 1:13:21
  crack up. But anyway, share us. Yeah, we have. So
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  I think this is our one hundred and ninety third video, So we're coming
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  up on two hundred, so maybe we'll have to do some kind of celebration
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• 1:14:00
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  and like you just said, there's almost four years of videos available all every
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  again, take what resonates and just leave the rest behind for now, because
• 1:14:20
  you're going to hear what you need to hear for now, and then you're
• 1:14:25
  gonna hear what you need to hear in the next moment when you're ready.
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  So have ease and grace with yourself as you move through this process and implement
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  So my friends, make a choice, make a choice to feel good.
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  Tea time with Amy and Bev, and we'll see you next time. Bye.