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grief, the dam phones, zodiac & more · An ASMR Practice

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Speaker 1: So on this moment's episode, we are going to be
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Speaker 1: discussing how if you think I have extreme anxiety and
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Speaker 1: grief issues, you should talk to my family. Oh, boy. Oh, boy. Grief, grief.
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Speaker 1: Here's the thing. I have accepted the deaths in my
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Speaker 1: life for the most part. I think about them. I
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Speaker 1: do think about them. I don't know if y'all have
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Speaker 1: ever seen a corpse, like an actual corpse. Like not
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Speaker 1: without makeup. You know. Or like not makeup. Like before
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Speaker 1: they put the makeup on them. It's pretty. It's a
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Speaker 1: little jarring. I would say. And then you know. And
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Speaker 1: then you know. If you're me. If you're the eldest daughter.
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Speaker 1: After the oldest son has. You know gone off. To
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Speaker 1: pursue his dreams. Then like. Then it's like. so I'm like,
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Speaker 1: I'm like put in charge of my younger sibling immediately.
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Speaker 1: It's like, get her out of here, get her out
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Speaker 1: of here and also get the dogs out of here.
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Speaker 1: Cause the dogs are not trained. Nobody trained the dogs.
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Speaker 1: Nobody trained the dogs. And you know, little sister, she's,
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Speaker 1: she's a little sad by the whole thing. I'm also sad,
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Speaker 1: but I'm not allowed to present sad yet. Um, So
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Speaker 1: I got to take care of the kid and the dogs.
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Speaker 1: And I don't know what the other adult was doing.
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Speaker 1: And also I wasn't an adult. Straight up. I was
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Speaker 1: supposed to take the ACT the next day. Straight up.
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Speaker 1: And this freaking lady. Whatever. My understanding is she got
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Speaker 1: a lot of DUIs. My understanding is. she's, like, not
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Speaker 1: very good at not getting caught, um, and she was, like,
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Speaker 1: she was, like, I was telling my class that this
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Speaker 1: is fucked up, I was, like, why were you telling
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Speaker 1: your class this, girl, she was, like, a substitute teacher,
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Speaker 1: she was, like, she was, like, I was telling my
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Speaker 1: class how Your dad died and you literally took the
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Speaker 1: ACT the next day. I was like, girl, I did
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Speaker 1: not take the ACT the next day. Are you crazy?
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Speaker 1: Have you ever seen a corpse? Bro, this is not,
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Speaker 1: this is literally not even right that you just told,
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Speaker 1: you just lied to a classroom full of children to
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Speaker 1: make me sound like a fucking weirdo. Like what? I
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Speaker 1: did not. I took the ACT exactly once. I'm pretty sure.
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Speaker 1: I think I took it one time. And it wasn't
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Speaker 1: that good of a score. It wasn't that good. It
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Speaker 1: was okay. And ultimately my college didn't really care. They
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Speaker 1: were like, you're pretty good at writing, girl. Come on.
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Speaker 1: They were like, we have a really good writing program.
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Speaker 1: I didn't take a single writing class. I didn't even
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Speaker 1: take one. I was like, I already know how to
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Speaker 1: do this. Let me cook. Let me cook. I've been
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Speaker 1: paying attention since literal preschool. Anyway, so yeah. Corpse is
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Speaker 1: a literal corpse. And I have to laugh. I have
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Speaker 1: to laugh. And you can sue me if you want.
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Speaker 1: You can try. I don't think it's illegal to laugh.
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Speaker 1: I really don't. And I also don't think it's like
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Speaker 1: illegal to like need to laugh in order to like
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Speaker 1: speak on something that's difficult. You know what I'm saying?
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Speaker 1: I think it's actually like it helps. It's like a
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Speaker 1: somatic experience. It really is. And y'all don't even know
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Speaker 1: anything about soma. Y'all literally don't even know anything about
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Speaker 1: soma or somatic or any of that. Y'all literally don't
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Speaker 1: even know. Like you literally won't even look it up.
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Speaker 1: I guarantee you, you're not going to look it up.
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Speaker 1: Because you're a mindless droid. Just kidding. I'm kidding, guys.
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Speaker 1: I'm sorry, guys. I didn't mean all that. I didn't
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Speaker 1: mean it. So... Gosh, there's something else I really would
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Speaker 1: rather talk about. Um... Off to the ne... Uh... Uh... Yeah. Everyone...
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Speaker 1: I don't know. Not everyone. Not everyone. It's not everyone.
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Speaker 1: I think the community that I am probably going to
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Speaker 1: choose to align with the most... You know, I just
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Speaker 1: met this lady and she was like, let's talk about grief.
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Speaker 1: And I was like, good. Yeah. I mean, we kind
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Speaker 1: of breezed past grief. It was kind of like... A
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Speaker 1: quick little mention... Like, the final stage is acceptance. But
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Speaker 1: what does that mean exactly? Does anybody know? Acceptance. Like, yes. Yes.
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Speaker 1: This person is gone. Right? Is that what we're accepting?
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Speaker 1: Or are we accepting that... Which part are we accepting?
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Speaker 1: Does anybody know? I gotta... My family needs to know.
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Speaker 1: Because they're... I think they're, like, just feeling the feelings
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Speaker 1: all at once for the first time. Perhaps or something.
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Speaker 1: I don't know. I felt it. Immediate. Like. It was immediate.
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Speaker 1: Kind of. I felt like freaking Anthony. I felt like Anthony.
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Speaker 1: In Bridgerton. I was the son. I was. I was the.
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Speaker 1: I was the head of the household. It's like. Deal with.
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Speaker 1: Deal with the younger one. Deal with the dogs. And
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Speaker 1: then you need to go. Run. Run. Run and go
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Speaker 1: get the nurse neighbor. To help. With the situation. And
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Speaker 1: I did. And then the nurse was like freaking out naturally.
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Speaker 1: And I was trying not to freak out because I
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Speaker 1: didn't really think that was going to help the situation.
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Speaker 1: And the nurse was like, I need more information. I
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Speaker 1: need more information. And I was like, I don't know.
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Speaker 1: I was like, I'm just the errand boy. I'm literally
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Speaker 1: just the errand boy. I don't know. I really don't know.
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Speaker 1: And she's like, you have to know. I was like,
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Speaker 1: oh my god. I don't know. I really don't. I
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Speaker 1: really don't know. I don't even remember what she asked me.
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Speaker 1: I think it was just like, is he unconscious? Which,
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Speaker 1: maybe I did know that. No, what did she ask?
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Speaker 1: Maybe that's what it was. I was in a state
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Speaker 1: of denial instantly. I was like, this is not real.
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Speaker 1: I have to take the ACT tomorrow. This is not real.
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Speaker 1: I was like, I literally just want to study. I
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Speaker 1: literally just want to study. I just need to like
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Speaker 1: last minute study for this test that I don't really
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Speaker 1: want to take. And then ultimately it wasn't even necessary.
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Speaker 2: That's the thing. Wasn't even necessary because I.
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Speaker 1: I took it once. I'm pretty sure I took it
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Speaker 1: one time for free. And, like, my sophomore year, and
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Speaker 1: I did fine. And then I was, like, trying to
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Speaker 1: apply to other schools, and I took the SAT, and
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Speaker 1: I got, like, the exact equivalent. Like, that's what they said,
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Speaker 1: at least, on the Google website. They were like, this
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Speaker 1: is the exact equivalent of your ACT score. I was like,
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Speaker 1: why did I bother doing this? And also, what? Like, what? What? I.
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Speaker 1: I'm, like, vaguely familiar with, like, the steps of grief. Um...
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Speaker 1: shout out taylor swift um she she made like playlists
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Speaker 1: of like her songs like being the stages of grief
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Speaker 1: but it's like the stages of relationships ending as opposed
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Speaker 1: to grief perhaps because i i feel like that's like
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Speaker 1: different like She was kind of cooking with that. She
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Speaker 1: was actually kind of cooking with that because... I think, like...
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Speaker 1: Relationships ending is, like... Pretty much.
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Speaker 1: Kind of worse. Like... I do really feel like... And... See,
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Speaker 1: this is where I'm like... Am I failing to accept
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Speaker 1: what I'm supposed to accept? Is like... I feel my
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Speaker 1: dad's presence. Maybe not presence, but I... I remember him
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Speaker 1: extremely well at this point. And I remember him in
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Speaker 1: a good light. Like, I think... And I feel bad.
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Speaker 1: I feel bad for my siblings. I think they remember
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Speaker 1: him quite negatively. And my mom... listen, my mom had,
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Speaker 1: she was in cahoots with the village, and the village
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Speaker 1: was telling her, you just gotta keep improving yourself. You
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Speaker 1: just gotta keep improving yourself. They were like, you're the problem.
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Speaker 1: That's what they kept saying to her. You're the problem.
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Speaker 1: I remember, I remember the freaking village was saying, the
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Speaker 1: freaking village was saying, by village, I do mean my
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Speaker 1: freaking aunt. My freaking aunt. She said, don't be a stranger,
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Speaker 1: and I have not hit her up. Okay. Don't be
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Speaker 1: a stranger. I said, stranger? I said, have you ever
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Speaker 1: read The Stranger by Albert Camus? I'm trying to be
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Speaker 1: like that. Just kidding. I'm not trying to be like that. But, wait,
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Speaker 1: that sounds really bad. That sounds really, really bad. I
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Speaker 1: think he accidentally killed someone. And they thought it was
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Speaker 1: racially motivated. But I don't think it was racially motivated.
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Speaker 1: I think he was like getting a sunburn. I'm pretty sure.
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Speaker 1: Maybe it was. It could have been a little racially.
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Speaker 1: I think my understanding is. I don't think y'all want
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Speaker 1: to hear my understanding. I'm a little scared to say it.
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Speaker 1: I think. I don't know. I liked Albert Camus. I
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Speaker 1: had a portrait of him. In my college dorm. he's
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Speaker 1: looking very i miss it i kind of want that
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Speaker 1: picture like in my house he's just looking very like
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Speaker 1: spry and like excited and he's like he's not actively
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Speaker 1: smoking a cigarette but he's holding a cigarette and he's
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Speaker 1: just he's got the eyes he's got the eyes that
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Speaker 1: i like where he's just like he's like ready he's
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Speaker 1: ready And um. Yeah. I don't know. I think I've
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Speaker 1: gathered that. So like. Pretty much. I struggle. Who. I
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Speaker 1: was talking to someone about this. Where I was like.
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Speaker 1: My very close friend. I was talking to him. I
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Speaker 1: was like. Because I needed to change a setting on
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Speaker 1: my phone. Like I needed to turn a notification on.
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Speaker 1: I was like. I'm never going to have a functional life.
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Speaker 1: If I can't figure out how to turn this notification on.
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Speaker 1: And I was trying to do it while walking next
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Speaker 1: to this person. And I couldn't do it. It was
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Speaker 1: like too much to be walking. It was too much
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Speaker 1: to be walking next to a person and doing it.
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Speaker 1: And I said to them, and I don't know how
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Speaker 1: true this is, but I said to them, I was like,
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Speaker 1: I think I'm struggling to, like, focus in the presence
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Speaker 1: of you. Like, I just want to, like, and I feel,
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Speaker 1: I feel, what was the word? I feel some kind
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Speaker 1: of negative way about myself that I'm on my phone
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Speaker 1: in your presence. Like, this feels rude. And then I
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Speaker 1: was like, but I don't think... Like, if you were
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Speaker 1: doing it... Because this person does do it. My understanding
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Speaker 1: is they, like... Have... They get, like, calls. They're on
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Speaker 1: the call, right? And... Is that what it's called? On
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Speaker 1: the call? Okay, focus. I just got a really funny image. Um...
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Speaker 1: My understanding is they're on the call. So sometimes they gotta, like,
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Speaker 1: be on their phone. And I'm like, okay. Nikki doesn't
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Speaker 1: really bother me. But for some reason, I feel some
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Speaker 1: kind of way. And they said something very similar to
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Speaker 1: what I sort of say. And what I've sort of
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Speaker 1: been saying for, like, a long time in a lot
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Speaker 1: of various ways is, like... They're like... Well, just stop. They, like,
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Speaker 1: literally just stop. Like, why would... They were like, why
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Speaker 1: would you feel that way about yourself? Why would you
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Speaker 1: judge yourself if you're not judging other people? And I
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Speaker 1: probably do judge other people. I think there's a difference between...
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Speaker 1: I think there is a difference. Because I do judge
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Speaker 1: some people. I think it just depends. Do you look
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Speaker 1: like a zombie? Or do you look like a Gameboy?
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Speaker 1: Like are you on the Gameboy? Are you active? Are
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Speaker 1: you like. Do you got the eyes that I like?
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Speaker 1: Are you like. Or are you like. Or are you
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Speaker 1: just like. The freaking guys in freaking Wall-E who are
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Speaker 1: on the floaty chairs and they're just like watching the
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Speaker 1: screen and they're like a zombie. They're literally like a zombie.
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Speaker 1: Are you like, are you, are you the literal schizophrenic
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Speaker 1: from the show Undone? The guy with the Game Boy.
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Speaker 1: Or are you, are you the freaking village in freaking
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Speaker 1: Wall-E in space? Which one are you? Are you trying
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Speaker 1: to solve the universe? Or are you just trying to.
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Speaker 1: Forget what you've done. To the planet. Like which one
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Speaker 1: is it? These are the two options. There's yin and
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Speaker 1: there's yang. Okay. No. We're not bringing yin and yang
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Speaker 1: into this. Actually yin and yang. I'll tell you about
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Speaker 1: yin and yang. This is my understanding. Yin is like.
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Speaker 1: Like if we're talking just straight yoga. If we're just
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Speaker 1: talking like straight activity. Okay. I would say yin is like. Stretching.
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Speaker 1: It's like very deep stretching. Like hold it. You're holding it.
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Speaker 1: You're holding it for so freaking long. And you're progressing.
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Speaker 1: Deeper and deeper and deeper. You know. And. some people
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Speaker 1: would say that this is, forget, forget them, literally forget them,
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Speaker 1: and I really enjoy this kind of class, like, a
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Speaker 1: yin class, it's, like, very slow, exceedingly slow, and deep,
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Speaker 1: and then there's, I would say, like, a yang class
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Speaker 1: kind of style would be, like, It would be, like,
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Speaker 1: really sweaty. It would be, like, really sweaty and fast.
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Speaker 1: And strong. Okay, maybe strong is better. Strong, I would
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Speaker 1: say strong and sweaty. Like, they're doing a lot of push-ups.
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Speaker 1: They call them chaturangas over there. They're doing a lot
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Speaker 1: of chaturangas. And they're doing, like, lunges and, you know... Yeah. Yeah. Personally,
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Speaker 1: I would say that balance is more yin. I'm gonna
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Speaker 1: be honest. Like, they don't always do balance and yin, but, like.
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Speaker 1: Balance is giving yin to me. And balance is also
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Speaker 1: very strong. I would say. Balance is pretty hard, actually.
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Speaker 1: They got some crazy balance poses over there. I gotta
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Speaker 1: hit some of those, probably. I do think, like, the car, like,
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Speaker 1: the vehicle is, like, the perfect... The truck. Stephanie, stop.
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Speaker 1: You're making me laugh. The car is the perfect analogy
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Speaker 1: for the body, I would say. Um. If we're going
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Speaker 1: to be analogous. This is a word I do not
19:51
Speaker 1: know how to say. Analogous. Analogous. I've only seen it written.
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Speaker 1: I don't know. One time I asked this guy. I
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Speaker 1: was like. Uh. I was like, so what? It's like
20:12
Speaker 1: an adverb. Like it has L-Y at the end. And
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Speaker 1: like hierarchically. Hierarchically. I asked this just regular guy. I
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Speaker 1: was like, do you say it like this? Do you
20:27
Speaker 1: say it like this? He was like, I don't know, girl.
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Speaker 1: He's like, I really don't know. And I was like,
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Speaker 1: I should probably look it up, I guess. I don't
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Speaker 1: really like actually care that much though. I think ultimately.
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Speaker 1: I think you either know what I'm saying or you don't. Analogous.
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Speaker 1: Y'all probably don't know what I'm even saying. And that's
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Speaker 1: because you didn't pay attention in school. It's because you
20:55
Speaker 1: literally didn't even like school. And I don't. I don't
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Speaker 1: know that we can make people like school. I think
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Speaker 1: school is probably just kind of like a daycare. For
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Speaker 1: like 95% of kids. And then there's some dorks like
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Speaker 1: me taking it, like, pretty seriously. And then you get
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Speaker 1: burnt out, it would seem. Then you get pretty burnt
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Speaker 1: out and you're like, I just, I'm feeling kind of yin.
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Speaker 1: I'm feeling kind of yin right now. In lieu of push-ups,
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Speaker 1: in lieu of chaturangas, I was doing one million essays.
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Speaker 1: I was doing one million essays, and I was taking
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Speaker 1: them pretty seriously. And now people say that I'm too playful.
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Speaker 1: There are people in the world saying, you play too much, girl.
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Speaker 1: Get out of here. I said, listen, what do you want?
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Speaker 1: You want me to be an ethicist? I knew a
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Speaker 1: lady who was taking senior year of college pretty seriously.
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Speaker 1: And she was like, ooh, you could be an ethicist.
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Speaker 1: I was like, I gotta go. I'm out of here.
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Speaker 1: I was like, I gotta get out of here. I said,
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Speaker 1: I'm finding a bakery that's like... I'm finding a bakery
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Speaker 1: that's literally dead and company themed. And... I'm gonna hit
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Speaker 1: it off with the wife. And I'm gonna piss the
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Speaker 1: husband off pretty bad. it wasn't just the husband it
22:41
Speaker 1: wasn't just the husband they were all pretty not politically
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Speaker 1: right politically correct they were not they were not they
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Speaker 1: were politically right okay but they were like really mad
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Speaker 1: they were really really mad people They were really mad,
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Speaker 1: and they seemed to have something against people of color,
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Speaker 1: I would say. So that's kind of embarrassing. You know,
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Speaker 1: they were, like, really scared. I think that's, like, the
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Speaker 1: bigger thing. This is what I'm understanding about right-winning people is, like,
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Speaker 1: they're pretty scared. Like, when is enough going to be enough?
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Speaker 1: Who are we protecting? Who are we protecting? Do we
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Speaker 1: protect the people? And, you know, I did get an
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Speaker 1: interesting perspective from my friend, who I don't really know
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Speaker 1: his political affiliations. I've said a lot, and I think
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Speaker 1: he's sort of avoided saying too much. Because ultimately, at
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Speaker 1: this point, I'm kind of like, I don't know about
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Speaker 1: either of these sides. I don't even know that voting matters.
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Speaker 1: It's just one vote. It's literally just one vote. What
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Speaker 1: is my one vote gonna do? There's like a lot
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Speaker 1: of people. The village is getting quite large. The village
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Speaker 1: is extremely large these days. And it's worse in other areas. So...
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Speaker 1: I'm just a little confused. But, yeah, I think my
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Speaker 1: understanding is, like... Who are we trying to protect? Are
24:56
Speaker 1: we trying to protect the people that are, like, already
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Speaker 1: evading taxes in a huge way? Or are we trying
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Speaker 1: to protect... Like, people who are, like, low-key, like, suffering
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Speaker 1: a lot and, like, actively don't really have a home? Um...
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Speaker 1: And then, you know... Some might say... I knew some
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Speaker 1: scholars who would say this. Like, home is different than, like,
25:34
Speaker 1: you know, the whole unhoused thing. Because it's like, yeah,
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Speaker 1: you can have a home. I think a home can be, like,
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Speaker 1: a person. Or... A home can be all sorts of things.
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Speaker 1: I went to this one church and we... I mean,
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Speaker 1: I think I was a little more sentimental with it
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Speaker 1: than some people, to be honest. You know, some people
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Speaker 1: went on vacation and they brought, like, water from an
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Speaker 1: ocean that's, like, a million miles away or something. And
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Speaker 1: then the church was low-key clowning them. They were like,
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Speaker 1: this is a little silly, guys. Like, we're not just
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Speaker 1: here to, like, flex on each other how good our
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Speaker 1: vacations are. Like, come on, guys. But... So we were
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Speaker 1: combining waters, right? From... And I was so excited. I
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Speaker 1: was so freaking excited for this event. And it was
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Speaker 1: actually extremely beautiful. It was probably my favorite thing that
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Speaker 1: ever happened at that church. I'm a big water fan.
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Speaker 1: Water is, like, extremely essential, I would say. And... And...
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Speaker 1: I brought mine from this creek that was, like, walking
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Speaker 1: distance from where I lived as a kid. You know,
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Speaker 1: me and my brother would go there, like, if our
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Speaker 1: parents were, like, being a little, like, testy or whatever,
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Speaker 1: we would, like, go and walk to the park and just, like,
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Speaker 1: chill by the creek, you know, mainly. And, like, not
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Speaker 1: really say anything to each other. I think we just, like,
27:18
Speaker 1: didn't even really know how to talk to each other
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Speaker 1: that good. I mean, we would say something sometimes. I
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Speaker 1: kind of distinctly remember one conversation where it was, like,
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Speaker 1: right after a really, really big fight between my parents. And,
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Speaker 1: because they were divorced but living together, by the way. Ideally, like,
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Speaker 1: not a good decision, I wouldn't say. I don't know.
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Speaker 1: I think it's okay. I was mad for a long time.
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Speaker 1: Kind of at both of them, I think. Because they
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Speaker 1: both said, they were like... We want our kids to
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Speaker 1: have both their parents. But then they, like, don't get along.
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Speaker 1: And so it's like, okay, so what I'm learning is
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Speaker 1: that I am comprised of two pretty extremely conflicting parts. And... And, um...
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Speaker 1: I think my water's speaking to me. I think it's
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Speaker 1: saying drink me. And also, well, at first I was
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Speaker 1: going to be like, I am also a fire sun
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Speaker 1: and a water moon. If anybody even freaking cares. I
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Speaker 1: knew a water sign dad. I can't remember which one.
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Speaker 1: He's one of the water signs. I remember his daughter
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Speaker 1: was a fire sign. Me and my dad were both
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Speaker 1: fire signs. So this is a recipe for disaster. It
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Speaker 1: would seem. If you even believe in that stuff. But
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Speaker 1: I do. I literally do. I literally do. I think
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Speaker 1: men would be. Honestly genuinely. I think they would be
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Speaker 1: better off. If they were like. able or let's not
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Speaker 1: say able. Let's say willing. If they were willing to
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Speaker 1: engage with patterns. Like, if they were willing to... Like,
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Speaker 1: stop remembering people's birthdays, to be honest. Stop remembering people's
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Speaker 1: birthdays and start remembering their signs. Because the patterns go crazy.
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Speaker 1: The patterns seriously go crazy. In like a good way.
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Speaker 1: It makes a lot of sense. But I will say
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Speaker 1: like it's different. Between men and women I would say.
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Speaker 1: It's pretty helpful with men, I think. Just to, like,
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Speaker 1: just label them. Just literally label them. It's like, what's
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Speaker 1: that show, Divergent? Or, I don't know, maybe it wasn't
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Speaker 1: a show, it might have been a book. Maybe it
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Speaker 1: was both. I don't know which one I engaged with.
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Speaker 1: Perhaps both. Just label them. Just literally label them. I
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Speaker 1: don't know. I don't know what else to do about it.
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Speaker 1: I don't... So... Yeah, alright. I exhausted myself. Maybe I
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Speaker 1: can go back to sleep now. That would be kind
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Speaker 1: of nice. I just, I was feeling a lot on
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Speaker 1: my chest. It really was. I was like, I'm about
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Speaker 1: to explode. Alright, let me text. Let me text everybody.
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Speaker 1: I'm going to use my phone like a Game Boy now. Bye!